My biggest fear after your devastating loss of Lee is that the light and joy in Bec’s eyes would forever be gone. When she grinned at the beginning of this video and said “Good to see you!”, I had tears of relief in my eyes.
Yes i felt the same, I worried every day for B&E about how they will grieve and wake up remembering what happened. It does get easier in time and life continues. That’s what they have to remember and Lees light shines within us all.
I can see the pain still hiding behind her smile... I’ve never cried so much watching this channel... bec has a way with me when she’s sad... she’s such a happpy person normally no matter what. It broke my heart during the last vid.. even E... :(
My condolences. I was a police officer. My partner took his life. He never once told me that he was hurting. The grief is real and it hurts. I can only say time makes the pain manageable. I made a donation in Lee’s memory to a suicide prevention organization. Good to see you guys embracing your lives and loving your selves and friends/family at this time.
Give yourselves time to grieve. I lost my son to suicide May 2, 2006 and still miss him so much. He was 22. He was getting divorced and his soon to be ex was very mean. He also left his 2yo daughter. Later his daughter came to live with me due to mom's drug addiction, court removal. I kept myself busy with my very special girl. She will soon be 19 and is beautiful.
I lost my sister to suicide May 2009 - she left behind 3 children. Today is my deceased grandmothers birthday (May 2) and my little brother is minutes from having his first child. I’m sorry for your loss and sending you love and peace on this day.
Sending hugs. We lost a son to suicide at age 12. Loss is hard but suicide is even harder. Lee’s passing hit me hard. Eamon and Beck are helping me to tie a knot to ride out this latest wave of grief that brings back the pain of losing our son. He would turn 40 year old this year. Loss sucks, but I love how Eamon and Beck and Kinging it are doing it together. What an amazing community they have built!
It is not surprising that Bec was ill for 24 hours on March 26. You both had such a beautiful friendship with Lee. Such a spiritual connection that your spirit was grieving the loss of Lee before you even knew she was gone. Thank you for courageously going on in Lee's memory and promoting mental health awareness.
I agree 💗 100%.They're of the same soul family. Their souls knew first and then their bodies and then minds. And Bec has has always been a sensitive soul.
I was not feeling well and really down for two days before my Dad died. I didn’t know he was sick at the time but I was sick enough to be off work on the Monday and Tuesday, then my brother turned up near midnight on the Tuesday to tell me that Dad had passed away. You see we live in Australia and my parents had gone to the USA for a holiday with my sister and her family when he suddenly died of a DVT from the flight over. 😭. I am so sorry for the loss of Lee and the struggles she endured. She was such a beautiful, shining light in your videos. 💗💗💗
I work as a bereavement counsellor for children....just wanted to say a huge thank you to you both for being willing to share this part of your grief journey and allow us to see your vulnerability...neither of which you had to do. You sharing gives permission for others to share and helps reduce the stigma of talking about death and dying...what a gift ❤
Thank you Amy for the work you do and your compassionate words to Eamon and Bec. I facilitate bereaved parent's groups and know how it feels for parents left behind. It is so hard. And we see how hard on young people to lose their friends. It was indeed very strong, brave and compassionate for Eamon and Bec to share their vulnerability with us, to put together the clips of Lee and to let people know they can indeed ask for help. It is good and imperative to reach out and accept love and support. The alternative should be avoided at all costs.
The same. I want to say It gives me hope to see Bec smile. The last video was so heart breaking and so hard to watch both of them. Two of the most wonderful people, you guys are!
I honestly believe this may have been the reason Mossa came into you guy’s lives. Sometimes we don’t know what or why the universe does certain actions until an event occurs. Mossa’s purpose is to heal you from what just happened...foster or not. Mossa is a guardian angel and when he gets adopted he’ll know his job is complete. #speakupforlee
It's crazy how Bec slept for 24 hours during Lee's worst time. You guys were obviously so connected! It's amazing how you can feel someone else's pain even when separated.
It really is something I will never be able to fully describe to anyone else. I didn’t just “fall asleep” I was TOTALLY knocked out out of NO WHERE. I was with Lee’s spirit and she was with me. Unbelievably painful... and pain is really just DEEP DEEP love 💕
I was really connected with my Grandma. She was my everything. Two years ago it became clear that she was terminally ill. We brought her to a hospice, but no one knew how long her fight would be. I was away on a holiday with my friend (the situation was going on for months), and the two days before she died, I was feeling really bad physically. I was in a really bad spot and had no energy to do anything. Then, one morning I wake up and I just knew something had changed. Turns out that was pretty much the exact moment my grandma had passed. I was about 500km away and still felt her passing physically.
@@BesondersBesonders I so understand. I had only one grandma growing up, and she was a peach. She was in the hospital after a severe stroke, then had two more while in the hospital. I was doing my PT internship in that exact hospital, so got to see her a lot. I woke up in middle of night, wide awake and knew she was gone. 20 seconds later the phone rang, (back in the ‘ 70’s) and heard my mom take the call breaking the news to her.
He’s the man! Took a dog bite and didn’t blame the dog. Mad respect for him. When I was 13, my small dog once bit a grown man as he was running into my dog, the grown 40 year old man was more like a little bitch for calling the cops when there was no bleeding.
Oh, big up to Tim not immediately freaking out, and being the best friend ever to Mossa!!!!! He is marry-ing material, a good and calm hubby in times of crisis, PRICELESS!!!! for sure!!!
Hey guys, I’ve only just discovered you & lee. I just want to say, I’ve suffered with depression for many years. I’ve had multiple attempts and you have really opened my eyes that taking my own life would hurt so many people. Thank you. ❤️
Please don’t think of Lee as gone . She’s on another journey, talk to her ,yell at her do what you need to .. I talk to my Mother everyday , cancer took her 9 years ago . In my mind she’s in Bora Bora swimming with the dolphins
I mean thats sweet and all, but it is a self comforting delusion. Nothing wrong with that per say, whatever helps you cope. Humans suck at coping with tragedy and loss. Reality and existence can be sad, depressing, and confusing. My dad died a few months ago suddenly, I just accept that he ceases to exist, all that is left is the memories of him, pictures, videos, and his belongings.
@@morphkogan8627 Well you one of the only people on here that is not trapped in sentimentality and self pity. These peeps are unbelievable. The girl chose to do this no one murdered her.
I'm a 70 old life-long homesteader, retired from adv. With just a sister and 93 y/o father that live in other cities, you are my virtual family. 3 other adventure vanners, now building their homes and a motorcycle adventurer help me deal with the isolation of age and covid. I need your energy, creativity and charming personalities to stay engaged with life. Thank you from my heart.
You got my energy.creativity, and possibly charming personality to Su. 70 years as a homesteader, WOW!!! That truly is an accomplishment and I know it wasn't easy to do. You are a very strong person for sure! Keep Safe Always, Peace, Happiness, Love and Laughter to You, Matt - Toronto, Canada
Eamon and Bec....you will likely never see this comment but you guys have actually made a LARGE positive impact on my life. Your attitude towards life and towards each other inspires me to be more joyful and courageous in my own life. I watch your videos every single Sunday. RUclips can be weird at times but I just need you to know that you and other similar uplifting youtube channels have been an important ingredient in my journey in becoming a better version of myself. Love you guys.
OMG the vet is my fiancé’s dad. So funny that I watch you guys every week and suddenly see my father in law in a video. Glad Mosa and Tim are doing okay.
You can shed tears that she is gone, or you can smile because she has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all she's left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see her, or you can be full of the love you shared. You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember her only that she is gone, or you can cherish her memory and let it live on. You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back. Or you can do what she'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
I lost my Dad to suicide 10 years ago. When I found out about Lee, I felt numb. I didn’t know Lee. I admired and respected her and her openness, so tragic. God bless you all. X
Eamon & Bec, & Mosa. Here's a trick for thunderstorms, fireworks, etc. If you have a laundry room put the dog in there and turn the dryer to 'Air' (no heat). It's loud enough to drown out the external noise and the dog will be so relaxed they'll usually sleep.
I hate to say I’m glad Mosa is there to remind you to stay in the moment. Helping him through that crisis is the good stuff. Being present and living a life your proud of is next. Sharing it with us is a bonus!
My husband and I lost a best friend to suicide. I remember the morning after we found out I literally couldn't force myself out of bed. Thanks for sharing your journey in the healing process and ongoing life. My love to you all as you move forward in carrying Lee with you in all things.
I don’t know what I was expecting when I started this video, but it hit me like a ton of bricks. The first few minutes really captured what it’s like to get up and keep living life after you’ve lost someone, with the music and the way it was filmed. Mad respect to you all, and also lots of big hugs
Grief is such a complicated human experience. It’s so layered, unpredictable, crippling and on some levels beautiful. Until you actually experience grieving I don’t think you truly understand how those you love live in every cell of your being.
I love how calm they were with Mosa and that Tim was not upset at all❤️ You guys are so caring and understanding with him. Take all the time you need to heal, grieving is a life long process
Sadly it looks like that was all for the camera. Apparently after this the dog ended up back at the shelter they fostered from but since the dog bit someone it would’ve made it harder to get him adopted as it was already a high needs dog they weren’t ready for. I’m sure they were polite and patient but the reality is they took on a high needs dog and returned it to the shelter worse off than when they had received him. And never mentioned it again and have been deleting comments and blocking anyone who even mentions it in the comments.
I am so so sorry for your loss. But I also want to say thank you. There was a time in my life where the world felt really dark, and you helped me find a little bit of light again. I am doing really well now, and I hope that this comment helps to bring you a little smile if you see it.
Faye, thank you for sharing this 💛. It really does help us so much to know that what we do here every Sunday is having a positive impact on our community 🌞. So happy to read that you are in a better place. We hope you can continue to find that light... even in the really dark moments 🤗
I really appreciate you clarifying that what Mossa did was not his fault. Although it shouldn’t have to be said, the tragedy with the poor bull terrier this past week has made it clear that there is still a lot of educating needed. Accidents happen and dogs, just like humans, get scared. I greatly respect you and your friends’ understanding of Mossa’s pain
Can we just take a moment and notice how The Lee Lanterns just floated through the house and was just a subliminal “hey guys I’m here” through the whole video 💕 another great video!
I am truly sorry to hear about Lee. I think she was an Empath, which means she burned bright and beautiful while she was here. She did more in the time she was here than most people do in a lifetime. That is something to hold onto.
Small PSA for anyone that encounters a similar porcupine situation, the quills are filled with air so cut them before trying to remove them from your animals. They still have barbs and will still hurt, but removal is so much easier and less painful!
after you two already began to thank us on instragam, here are mine: thank you for building this amazing community, thank you for being real with us, thank you for showing up for us even though its hard for you, thank you for being the light in our dark moments. I cannot express how thankful I am that I found your channel 2 years ago. im beyond excited what the future holds for you and to join you along the way. nothing but love to you
someone once told me shortly after my dad passed (he was only 44) that we are all here to fulfill our destiny and once we do that it's our time to leave, we've done what we were meant to do on this earth. Lee made a huge impact on so many and she will continue to do so from the other side. I hope the following days bring you peace and comfort knowing she is still with you watching over you as you LIVE your life and not just exist. Much love and sending big mama hugs!
I didn’t think this was messy at all. You should be proud of yourselves for pushing forward during such a difficult time. Every time I think of Lee I can’t help but cry even though I never met her. She is a beautiful soul. Take all the time you need. We love you & understand if you need time. ❤️
Same. I can't get myself to finish their last episode. I got partway through. I feel silly for crying so much even though I never knew her. Even watching this is hard. I couldn't imagine what they're going through.
I love that Lee told you to build the fire pit for bonfires. What a wonderful place to remember her. I also believe that it was in no way a coincidence that Bec and you were sick and slept the day she passed. You were connected to her. She's watching over you, with you everyday now, smiling and laughing. 🌺 😂 🌺
Being a suicide survivor i always have survivors guilt everytime I hear someone loses there battle. When I read that first Instagram post that lee lost her battle my heart sank and I was deeply saddened for the first week and I continue to think about her daily she was the brightest light in so many lives rest in paradise lee
i was hospitalized in 2018 for suicidal tendencies, i feel what you mean 100% but i’m working on changing my mindset. for so long i was just surviving because that’s all i could do but this year i’m turning things around. i’m choosing to live, not just stay alive but actually live. you are still here for a reason, you’re job is not done and that’s nothing to feel guilty about. find your purpose and be the light. much love to you, i’m happy you’re here💛
The past couple of years I’ve been in deep depression and suicidal thoughts. I thought that I wasn’t worth it and thought that I couldn’t do anything that people expect of me. I thought I was failing life basically. But me and my dad sat down and we chatted. And you guys have really helped me I always look forward to watching your videos every Sunday. I’m 22 years old and I still have a long way to go in life. (Totally not crying while writing this) but I thank you guys for posting your videos it really makes me see how life can have it’s upsides and downsides. And the fun that you can have in life. Thank you so much. I love you guys.
Please take care of yourself and know that you are worth seeking out help and letting people know how you feel. You are so young and are going to have such an amazing long life, I know it. People like myself who don't even know you care about you!
I was almost catatonic with depression. Got to the doctor and am on a high dose of Celexa. Have been for years. I HAD to. Had to do everything alone, no family support. If I'd "checked out", it would NOT have been anyone's fault. But I was the only one that could keep me alive.
Hey I just want to say that when I was younger (18-21ish) I struggled heavily with depression. Thought my life was meaningless, thought I didn't mean anything to other people, etc. Well! I was wrong wrong wrong! My brain was just being stupid (I was dealing with some physical health issues in combination with depression running in my family). I am now 25 and the happiest I've ever been. I say that to prove that it's possible for life to get better. I know that when you are in the thick of it it feels like it might never end. Don't lose hope that you can feel happy :)
It crushes me that a person with so much life, who connects so deeply with others cannot see how valuable her life and her presence is to all she touches. Her soul lives on in you all. You will honor her life every day. Start by honoring your own lives, your own value daily. She gave so much. Take all she gave you and use it to push you forward. I love you all. What you give us of yourselves brightens our lives. I beg you to keep for yourself all the parts that keep you whole and strong. It’s a balance, I know, but we want you well, happy, healthy and strong. Thank you.
Unfortunately you misunderstand treatment resistant depression in your remarks. If it helps you to understand remember this: it is a disease, like cancer is a disease. It is not about not knowing you are valuable or loved. Suicide is about stopping the extreme pain being experienced that is very real to those who suffer with the disease. I am sure Lee knew she was loved and was valuable.
They have to realize it was her decision alone to act and does no reflect on anyone. There are many hardships in life and you must bounce back or you have been defeated.
Twenty some years ago when I was in a very deep depression over losing someone I loved I found that watching children playing, puppies and kittens bouncing around, small shore birds running in and out with the waves all helped to make me laugh and feel better.
So true, babies and animals, and for some reason the sounds of water in nature all have a way to bring happiness back to our hearts, we just need to give ourselves the opportunity to experience them and realize that it might not be as bad as we feel it is. I did a similar thing when I was dealing with some pretty harsh depression. I found that going for walks at night time, or going for walks in the forrest were really helpful for many of the same reasons and more than you messaged above. Happy to hear you're doing better!
Thank you for coming back to us guys. We love you, we get it, and know how dearly you were missed! Just got home from a 60 day van loop of the US and my “See Ya Sunday” sweatshirt was waiting. Everything is a bit bittersweet now. We know exactly where we were, hiking in a national park, when we read of Lee’s passing. We hiked in silence after that. NPs notoriously have no phone service, but that message found a way to reach us in the woods. We’re naming our new van kayak “LEE” like you guys. Sending so much love. ❤️
I felt the strong presence of Lee all over this video. It's like I could see her smiling and laughing right next to you guys like she was in your other video. My heart was so heavy watching this video but at the same time my heart is healing bc of you two. Some how Lee's absence really hurts my heart and I did not know her but I knew her spirit and she was a loving amazing woman. Some how I find myself thinking I wish I could have stopped her 😭😭😭😭. She's way too amazing to be gone. I can't 😔
I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I want you to have "Lee moments" on camera occasionally. A memory, a smile, a burst into tears. It's normal and it helps us all because we miss her soo much too. 😥
Knowing the timeline of events, my heart began to slowly break all over again for y’all. Thank you for being transparent, vulnerable and letting the masses see what happens to the ones left behind when someone commits the final act of pain relief. I couldn’t ask for a more beautiful and serene place for y’all to cope and grieve. Stay strong
Bec and Eamon, I can’t imagine how tough it’s been and will be, but as a big Lee supporter and online friend I truly appreciate you sharing slowly with us all. It means a lot to see that Internet friends and family that truly understand Lee and to know I’m not alone in this process of grief.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my daughter to suicide in 2016. She was 17. I'm not going to say it'll get easier because for me at least it hasn't. It's something I carry every day. I've only learned how to get through another second another minute, another day, another year. One day I'll see her again, until then I try to make her proud of everything I do while earth side. Love and light to you both 🙏💙
Loss my brother to suicide 11 years ago... after a week I went to a good mate’s house, his mother expressed her condolences and then talk to me about her brother who passed 30 years (age25) earlier... it happened to be his anniversary... she talk about him with the warmth and love that brought him to life in my mind, his memory was living with her... I have always remember this, and try to talks about my brother, we live not just now but in the memories of who we touch
I am so sorry about your daughter. I cannot imagine that pain. For some reason I feel the need to tell you it was not your fault (although Im sure you know that). I lost my mom to suicide 7 yrs ago and although it was in no way my fault, I, too, carry guilt about certain things I feel I could have done better. For me, when I miss her terribly, I just remind myself that life on earth is a blip in time and I will be with her again soon. Thinking of never seeing her again is too much-and its not true- I know I will. I look for her in little signs. When I see my favorite bird, or a song comes on that reminds me of her, I know she is with me in that moment ❤️
@@bada6830 I'm so sorry about your brother. It is so important to remember them and talk about them. Our love for them is alive and will always carry on.
@@hatchmando4918 thank you so much. I'm so sorry about your mom. I completely understand the guilt. Every day the what ifs would roll around in my head almost driving me mad. I tried so hard to protect her from everything that I could but I failed on this one. It's so scary because we just never truly know what's going on inside someone's mind. I wish I'd known because I would've done anything I could to save her. I know she is still here just on another plane. One year on her birthday I was hearing a noise from her bedroom. I opened the door to look and a cardinal was outside her window pecking the glass. It perched there for a couple of minutes looking at me before flying away. I knew that day she had visited and reassured me that she remembers me and this life we shared. I can't wait to see her again. ❤️ I'm sure your mother is close by as well watching over you. I don't think a mother's soul could ever go far from her child. ((Hugs))
@@survivinglife__unplugged awww It is funny you saw a cardinal because that is exactly what I see for my mom!! Every time one flies by I say, Hi mom. Lol. I love that story about your daughter’s bday. ❤️❤️ many hugs to you!!
@@jordangloss what gets me is that I'm pretty sure the sleep came when Lee was at her most pain and then died. Then they found out the next morning. Just .... sigh
When the two of you were crying, I knew you both were watching Lee's last video. It was touching and I cried like a baby. As I was watching it, I was hurting for the both of you. My prayers will be with you as the rest of her family and friends.
I lost my father to suicide. And sometimes I still stop and grieve. Feel how you need to feel and know so many of us are there. We are holding you both up
And may I just say: Your guys ability to put these vides together are phenomenal. The crap that coming out of Hollywood cant even come close to what you two give us. Thank you
Not sure if you guys will see this or not but I'm going to post it anyway. You both are phenomenal ❤ My heart goes out to you both, as well as Lee's family, and all who have been connected to her in one way or another. It's inspiring to watch how you guys have turned grieving into productivity. Granted, the mourning is still present, but you've put that energy into building. Building life... inspired by a beautiful life that will forever be in your hearts. Those amazing memories have left a footprint; a legacy... live life to its fullest and love with all your heart. A huge, warm, loving, virtual embrace from me to you, and God bless you both 💖💖😌
i’m so proud of you guys. grief is never a time scheduled process and no one expects you guys to be okay right now. she was an electric and gorgeous soul who will be missed by all ❤️
My little brother took his own life 11 years ago, never said a word about how much he hurt. Don't be hard on your selves. Sending love and heartfelt condolences. I will miss watching her strong spirit soar here, but she still soars in our hearts.
Love you guys so much. Thank you for always being so real even if you decided to post less for a while it’s ok. Take your time and i appreciate so much you had to push through so much to just get this video out. Love you lots and lots 🤍
I tried so hard not to cry during this vid, but I've been crying with you every day for the past month. Thank you for also putting a smile on my face today. Welcome back, Eamon and Bec. Happy Belated, Bob!
Awww, Bec, your grief is so evident. Please don't let your light dim, but rather let Lee's light continue to shine through you. Much love to you both as you heal from the loss of your friend.
Someone once said that maybe the story you're living is really meant to be a key character in someone else's story instead. We all know someone who seems to be that character in your life that helped dramatically change your life. Here is to all the characters like Lee who came into the lives of others to be that person you needed and to remind you of what life means.
I’ve seen Lee in a lot of van lifers channels. She seemed so happy and free. She’s obviously touched a lot of people. A lot of people don’t want to talk about the deceased. I say talk about them and to them. Tell stories about them. Tell there story. Think of them and smile because you were blessed to be apart of there story. They have ways of letting us know there still with us.
Thank you for waiting until you were ready to start coming back. Thank you for putting Lee's lanterns in almost every shot. Thank you for giving yourselves permission to laugh again. Thank you for such a beautiful and honest video. Be well you guys! ❤️
Don’t stress yourselves about the filming stuff... healing needs a lot of time an if you feel like NOT filming than you don’t need to. Lost a lot of loved ones the last years and I totally know what it feels like. I am so sorry for your loss! Hope you feel better soon. Unfortunately there’s absolutely nothing to make you feel better about this situation. So.. just wanted to let you know, that i feel with you ♥️ Greetings from South Germany. Cheers with a german beer to Lee. Wherever she is 🍻
I think you should find a special spot on your property and plant a tree in memory or Lee. It will be a nice quiet spot where you can go and talk with her when you need too! Her memory will grow and watch over you guys building your special home, every step of the way!
Dear Eamon & Bec, about 20 years ago a very close friend of mine took their life. I still think about her, and miss her so. Thank you for sharing what you are going through. Hopefully someday debilitating chronic depression will be a thing of the past.
Eamon and Bec: what you do matters. Immensely. In a world where suicides and addictions are on the rise, we need JOY. We need LOVE. And the two of you provide that in spades. Thank-you for being YOU. ❤
I'm 31, around 18 years ago, one of my parents close friend (spending every holidays with us, really like a family member) also lost his battle against depression... Today, still, i remember perfectly the commotion that this event created that day (especially) and after. It's hard to loose someone so suddenly and in these circumstances. We always feel that we may have done something greater, better, stronger for them... Is it true or false, we'll never know. But, that's not what is important. Keep remembering great things, moment, events with that person that you loved, talk much of them when you feel you need it and remember to talk true with the one you love... You are awesome guys!
You two & Bob were the first people I thought of when I heard of Lees passing. It's good to hear your laughter. After losing my wife suddenly & unexpected, it was several months later that I let out a laugh from my gut. I almost felt guilty, but it was a positive sign that everything was going to be ok. I pray that your healing continues.
The courage it takes to be this raw and genuine online is really admirable. I didn’t expect to find that watching the two of you heal feels healing for me, too. Thank you for this.
Understand your pain. Lost a dear friend to cancer at 26. Took 3 years before normal life resumed. 36 years later it still is real and hurts. The younger we are the more upsetting these events are.
Grief is very personal and it has been a bit surprising to me how much Lee’s death affected me. I truly cared about her. Hang in there Bec and Eamon, you two were so so connected to her. Just do the best you can. 🤗 and ❤️
I have been struggeling with mental illness since i was 11 years of age (20+ years) and have been following you guys since 2019 becouse you inspire me to find joy in my life. I started a channel with the intent on speaking up about my struggels, witch most recently had been about chronic fatigue and the identitycrisis that came becouse of it. Becouse i still am working through my camera shyness i have not yet been as brave as Lee ore you in front of a lence but im working on it. The thank you I would like to share about this video is to the way you show how you sit with your greif. I went to my first funeral at 6 years of age and have been to 10 more since then. I have been through hard breakups, moved away from home, left jobs, collegus and friends, and "never" handled the grief and sorrow. Taking to the bottle ore going back to work was my way of coping for most of my life. always happy, spreading joy and making people laugh, until i crashed. I have since (5+years) been clean and sober and trying to find a better way of living and inspiration can sometimes be the hardest thing to find. Thank you! You inspire me! you just sit there. I get it now. that is beautifully authentic! no words. movies can never give that level of authenticity. And the way you as a couple accept each other with differences is inspiring to!!! Today I am living my best life, every day is a challange to overcome my deamonds and working hard for a brighter tomorrow and most days i "feel the sun shine inside" Thank you for lighting up the world with your authentic selves
I've been suicidal sense I was eight years old, I'm in my mid twenties now and still struggle to hold on everyday. I just want to thank you for sharing your story, Lee is a inspiration. Her light shown so brightly and from what I got to see she had a beautiful sense for adventure and such a immense capacity for love. There are so many wonderful people in this world who are gentle and kind, something this world needs desperately and we're losing them everyday and it just breaks my heart. I'm so sorry she lost her battle and I'm so proud that she fought for as long as she could, the battle must have been so hard. I know most days I feel like I've already lost, and beating this is impossible. I'm going to try my best to make it to 28, something that didn't feel possible before I found Lee's story.
I've also suffered with suicidal depression for a great part of my life. I was 28 when I majorly crashed and tried to end my life. I literally walked away from doing it. I tried a 2nd time a few years later, and somehow survived. At that point I realized there was a reason why I have always had such a fighting spirit to never give in and give up, and it's because I have a greater purpose. In 2007 I started performing Stand Up Comedy and found it very therapeutic for my depression, but it also helped others with their depression. I became a professional comedian a little less than 2 years later, managing my own career and travelling/ touring and making people laugh through my own life experiences, one of those experiences being depression and suicidal tendencies. My message to you is don't give into it, keep fighting, and follow any passion you have that makes you happy. Maybe try Stand Up Comedy, it worked for me and have come to realize how many other comedians, even very famous comedians, have depression and suicidal thoughts in their past. Following your heart into something that makes you feel better, happier, is the best way to escape the depression. If you have some demons you need to exorcise from something that happened in your past before the depression started, the best way to express them is to productively exorcise them so that anyone who understands them knows exactly what you're talking about without exactly saying it. Spoken Performance/ Comedy, is such an excellent way to do all of that at one time. You get your rage out in a controllable yet productive way, and in doing so, get rid of the depression and anger productively to. I'm nearly 50, and have been getting better and better for the last 20 years, no more thoughts or desires to end things. I have found a passion and desire for Life and living, and have no place or time in life for those thoughts or feelings of depression anymore. Keep Safe Always, Stay Strong In Your Heart, Create Peace, Happiness, Love and Laughter in Life, And never forget there is always someone that understands and is there for you when you want them or need them to be, you just have to be patient and ask. Matt - Toronto, Canada
I can relate. I was suicidal since I was 3 years old. I didn't know what suicide was, but I knew I didn't want to wake up anymore. I went through many tumultuous years in my 20s and 30s massively depressed and even attempted to take my life a few times. Here's the good news in my case. I'm in my 40s and depression and suicidal thoughts rarely enter my psyche. I never thought I would live a stable life and here I am. Take it one day at a time when you feel like you can't go on. Sometimes one hour at a time works too. There is no cure, I've tried them all. Living the best life you can live focusing on health, routine and loving yourself is the best medicine. Daily Routines and rituals are essential, especially when you don't feel like doing them, but you must force yourself. Also, give yourself time if you need time just to lay in bed all day. Don't beat yourself up. Start over again tomorrow.
Great to see Mossa is still with you, he's definitely a good soul. Sad that he decided to get some quills, I bet that really hurt, I'm not surprised he bit, one of mine want let you clip he's nails without trying to take a nip. Your place looks absolutely amazing Stay safe x
Death is not the answer. Everyone is miserable in their own way. Let's take one step at a time. Wish you all the best. I hope you know Christ Jesus and how much he loves you ? 💕💕💕
Everything gets better with time. Don't make a permanent solution to temporary problems. I hope you live to 100 and have a long healthy, happy life. Then you'll look back on those moments and you'll be so happy you pushed through. Trust me, it always gets better :) SEnding hugs!
My mom passed in October 2019 my dad passed April 2021 and my aunt 4 days after my dad its hard but to honor them ill keep moving forward sorry for your loss but each day will get better.
1 million {{HUGS}} to you!!!! Losing someone is like losing a part of you and you feel forever incomplete or broken .... I'm hugging you from a distance to try and be a little glue that will hold the broken pieces in you together.
Thank you for not shaming Lee in any way and for in fact advocating for the removing of stigma around such tragedies. To me this video is paying homage in a positive and productive way. Thank you. Bless ♡
Lee will be so greatly missed. I'm not sure I've ever been this sad about the loss of someone I've never met. I will try and be a better person in honor of Lee. My sincere condolences to you both and all her family and friends.
I've lost many close friends. I'm 66 and I dont understand how I got so old so fast. I've lost 3 really close friends. My mom. Sister. It's tough. The older I get the more special people are gone. It sucks. I'm sorry about Lee. It's sad when people feel they cant go on. You feel responsible. I do understand. Shes getting guidance and help now though. Much love.
Life carries grief to us at all ages but yes, as we age it begins to arrive much more often. Each new loss brings the flood of pain from all the past losses with it. The saying “ grief is the price we pay for love” is extremely true. Love and strength sent to all who read this❤️
Poor mosa, he is so sweet you guys should just be his forever parents. He is such a light in your dark patch . Enjoy the comfort he provides so easily. As far as losing a loved one I feel your pain my mom is stage 4 cancer and I lose her more day by day your courage is the strength I need to grow past the pain and remember all the joy she gave me. Please remember the joy your friend gave you and let that inspire you to do great things. We love you Lee from the bottom of all the hearts you touched and continue to touch.
Just keep waking up friends. Loss is such a personal thing. We each handle it the best we can. Remember that whatever you're feeling is exactly what you're supposed to be feeling.❤
I still can't wrap my head around Lee's passing, you just never know I guess. What a terrible 3 or so days in a row for you guys, I'm so sorry. Lee would really love all the renovations, I love her little lanterns you all have around the house.
I was so sad to learn that the Lee in our news, was your Lee. I’m in Southern California and this was on our news channels. My little brother, David decided to take his own life on Christmas 2009. He was 47 years old. He’d lived with me from 15-22 years old. He was my best friend. He had shared with us at Thanksgiving that he had tried, and it didn’t work. We talked…and talked. He promised me he wouldn’t do it. But he did, and I was the one to find him. I miss him every day. My heart goes out to you, Lee’s family and friends. God bless you.
Bec you where with Lee during her time on earth and is that not amazing that your body knew u needed to be there in her last moments. You falling ill and 'sleeping' at the exact moment she needed you. Not a coincidence, I know you feel that. You and Eamon have helped us all so much with love and laughter, there is nothing that will get you through but those same things of support from us. Sending love, laughter, kindness and support, love Lilly❤️❤️
I love that these souls are so connected that Bec felt ill when it happened ... we can't explain everything, the only thing we humans have to do is opening our eyes and hearts widely. Love you all,
I lost my 17 year old nephew to suicide in Feburary, don't even remember March bc I felt numb to everything around me. Came back up to find out about Lee... I really feel for you, but it's inspiring to see you guys and it gives me strength. Hope everything will be better for you!
honestly, at the beginning of the video seeing the dates, i instantly got anxious knowing what was about to happen. i think it’s very impactful that you had footage of the week leading up to everything. i want to say thank you for being raw during your grieving process. it helps so many people who are also grieving to see that they’re not alone. i’m proud of you both for trying to get back to your “regular” but please know that there is no rush at all!!!! i’m just team beamon and want what’s best for you guys 💖
I'm sure I can speak for so many of us on RUclips, that follow you. That we love you guy's and love you content, Bob and Mossa. Healing is a process and we all have to deal with it. Lee will forever be with is through you 2 crazy Canadians
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Thank you all for being the greatest online community and supporting us through this time. We love you 🌻
thank you ... love from syria
Love from North Carolina ❤️
You two are also helping us out through our hard times. I use your videos to relax and smile after a long week at work.
we love you so much, take all the time you need.
We love you more 😊
My biggest fear after your devastating loss of Lee is that the light and joy in Bec’s eyes would forever be gone. When she grinned at the beginning of this video and said “Good to see you!”, I had tears of relief in my eyes.
I totally agree. Bec has a light of pure joy in her eyes and it hurts to see the light gone.
Oh same...this def had me going in the waterworks ☹️😢💙
Yes i felt the same, I worried every day for B&E about how they will grieve and wake up remembering what happened. It does get easier in time and life continues. That’s what they have to remember and Lees light shines within us all.
I agree. She has the same light Lee did. But now she carry's the light for them both.
I can see the pain still hiding behind her smile... I’ve never cried so much watching this channel... bec has a way with me when she’s sad... she’s such a happpy person normally no matter what. It broke my heart during the last vid.. even E... :(
My condolences. I was a police officer. My partner took his life. He never once told me that he was hurting. The grief is real and it hurts. I can only say time makes the pain manageable. I made a donation in Lee’s memory to a suicide prevention organization. Good to see you guys embracing your lives and loving your selves and friends/family at this time.
I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️
it is so sad...and life can be so beautiful too.
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So sorry for the loss of your partner. 💙
Sending you a huge hug Allan. You spoke so well and I am so sorry about the loss of your partner. Blessings to you.
Give yourselves time to grieve. I lost my son to suicide May 2, 2006 and still miss him so much. He was 22. He was getting divorced and his soon to be ex was very mean. He also left his 2yo daughter. Later his daughter came to live with me due to mom's drug addiction, court removal. I kept myself busy with my very special girl. She will soon be 19 and is beautiful.
I lost my sister to suicide May 2009 - she left behind 3 children. Today is my deceased grandmothers birthday (May 2) and my little brother is minutes from having his first child. I’m sorry for your loss and sending you love and peace on this day.
Thats terrible to hear. I wish you all the best. Life is full of wonders and questions. I hope you find peace and happiness through it all.
There is no better healer for the human brain and body than NATURE and time.
Sending hugs. We lost a son to suicide at age 12. Loss is hard but suicide is even harder. Lee’s passing hit me hard. Eamon and Beck are helping me to tie a knot to ride out this latest wave of grief that brings back the pain of losing our son. He would turn 40 year old this year. Loss sucks, but I love how Eamon and Beck and Kinging it are doing it together. What an amazing community they have built!
Sending you all love, warmth, positivity and strength 💕💗✨
It is not surprising that Bec was ill for 24 hours on March 26. You both had such a beautiful friendship with Lee. Such a spiritual connection that your spirit was grieving the loss of Lee before you even knew she was gone. Thank you for courageously going on in Lee's memory and promoting mental health awareness.
I COMPLETELY AGREE AND THOUGHT THE SAME THING!
I thought the same as well :(
I agree 💗 100%.They're of the same soul family. Their souls knew first and then their bodies and then minds. And Bec has has always been a sensitive soul.
Beautifully said 🤍
I was not feeling well and really down for two days before my Dad died. I didn’t know he was sick at the time but I was sick enough to be off work on the Monday and Tuesday, then my brother turned up near midnight on the Tuesday to tell me that Dad had passed away. You see we live in Australia and my parents had gone to the USA for a holiday with my sister and her family when he suddenly died of a DVT from the flight over. 😭. I am so sorry for the loss of Lee and the struggles she endured. She was such a beautiful, shining light in your videos. 💗💗💗
I work as a bereavement counsellor for children....just wanted to say a huge thank you to you both for being willing to share this part of your grief journey and allow us to see your vulnerability...neither of which you had to do. You sharing gives permission for others to share and helps reduce the stigma of talking about death and dying...what a gift ❤
Thank you Amy for the work you do and your compassionate words to Eamon and Bec. I facilitate bereaved parent's groups and know how it feels for parents left behind. It is so hard. And we see how hard on young people to lose their friends. It was indeed very strong, brave and compassionate for Eamon and Bec to share their vulnerability with us, to put together the clips of Lee and to let people know they can indeed ask for help. It is good and imperative to reach out and accept love and support. The alternative should be avoided at all costs.
The second I saw Lee's name on the boat I started crying
Me tooo
well i think this is was for Lee
And then I cried more 😭
The same.
I want to say It gives me hope to see Bec smile. The last video was so heart breaking and so hard to watch both of them. Two of the most wonderful people, you guys are!
Me too.
I honestly believe this may have been the reason Mossa came into you guy’s lives. Sometimes we don’t know what or why the universe does certain actions until an event occurs. Mossa’s purpose is to heal you from what just happened...foster or not. Mossa is a guardian angel and when he gets adopted he’ll know his job is complete. #speakupforlee
Very true he is helping them through this tough tiime
I so hope they keep Mossa. 🐾
I know you mean well with this comment, but Eamon and Bec are very passionate about fostering and this comment could feel hurtful
Could you tell me which video they got the dog in? I havnt been keeping up and have missed it
@@amandavokoun178 Being a “Foster Fail” is a thing-I’m just hoping for that with Mossa.
You didn't lose your best friend. You gained the best guardian angel.
It's crazy how Bec slept for 24 hours during Lee's worst time. You guys were obviously so connected! It's amazing how you can feel someone else's pain even when separated.
Her spirit felt it, her body reacted and was preparing.
It really is something I will never be able to fully describe to anyone else. I didn’t just “fall asleep” I was TOTALLY knocked out out of NO WHERE. I was with Lee’s spirit and she was with me. Unbelievably painful... and pain is really just DEEP DEEP love 💕
ABSOLUTELY! Makes so much sense. Soulmates 💫
I was really connected with my Grandma. She was my everything. Two years ago it became clear that she was terminally ill. We brought her to a hospice, but no one knew how long her fight would be. I was away on a holiday with my friend (the situation was going on for months), and the two days before she died, I was feeling really bad physically. I was in a really bad spot and had no energy to do anything. Then, one morning I wake up and I just knew something had changed. Turns out that was pretty much the exact moment my grandma had passed. I was about 500km away and still felt her passing physically.
@@BesondersBesonders I so understand. I had only one grandma growing up, and she was a peach. She was in the hospital after a severe stroke, then had two more while in the hospital. I was doing my PT internship in that exact hospital, so got to see her a lot.
I woke up in middle of night, wide awake and knew she was gone. 20 seconds later the phone rang, (back in the ‘ 70’s) and heard my mom take the call breaking the news to her.
grabbing a beer in the middle of a medical emergency is the most Canadian thing I can think of
Ha ha ...some of that will be the wee bit British influence in such a wonderful culture, can’t wait to be able to visit Canada again.
Hahaha I know eh 😂
Yep 👍 that’s why Australians and Canadians get in so well. The Poms taught us both well. Cheers 🍻
He’s the man! Took a dog bite and didn’t blame the dog. Mad respect for him. When I was 13, my small dog once bit a grown man as he was running into my dog, the grown 40 year old man was more like a little bitch for calling the cops when there was no bleeding.
Oh, big up to Tim not immediately freaking out, and being the best friend ever to Mossa!!!!! He is marry-ing material, a good and calm hubby in times of crisis, PRICELESS!!!! for sure!!!
Hey guys, I’ve only just discovered you & lee. I just want to say, I’ve suffered with depression for many years. I’ve had multiple attempts and you have really opened my eyes that taking my own life would hurt so many people. Thank you. ❤️
I’m so sorry for your suffering but I am so filled with joy that you’re here. I don’t know you but I’m praying for you love ❤️
Teal Swan has a video about suicide that helped me 💛
I'll pray for you 🙏😌
@@Fabulousfreak189 that means more than you you know! Thank you very much
@Cielo Vida thank you so much. I’m trying
Please don’t think of Lee as gone . She’s on another journey, talk to her ,yell at her do what you need to .. I talk to my Mother everyday , cancer took her 9 years ago . In my mind she’s in Bora Bora swimming with the dolphins
@Deb O "on another journey" is so well said and so true :) thank you for sharing.
She is where we all go.This is very temporary.The grief is for those here
I mean thats sweet and all, but it is a self comforting delusion. Nothing wrong with that per say, whatever helps you cope. Humans suck at coping with tragedy and loss. Reality and existence can be sad, depressing, and confusing. My dad died a few months ago suddenly, I just accept that he ceases to exist, all that is left is the memories of him, pictures, videos, and his belongings.
@@morphkogan8627 Well you one of the only people on here that is not trapped in sentimentality and self pity. These peeps are unbelievable. The girl chose to do this no one murdered her.
I'm a 70 old life-long homesteader, retired from adv. With just a sister and 93 y/o father that live in other cities, you are my virtual family. 3 other adventure vanners, now building their homes and a motorcycle adventurer help me deal with the isolation of age and covid. I need your energy, creativity and charming personalities to stay engaged with life. Thank you from my heart.
You got my energy.creativity, and possibly charming personality to Su. 70 years as a homesteader, WOW!!! That truly is an accomplishment and I know it wasn't easy to do. You are a very strong person for sure!
Keep Safe Always,
Peace, Happiness, Love and Laughter to You,
Matt - Toronto, Canada
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Hugs from Australia 🇦🇺
Eamon and Bec....you will likely never see this comment but you guys have actually made a LARGE positive impact on my life. Your attitude towards life and towards each other inspires me to be more joyful and courageous in my own life. I watch your videos every single Sunday. RUclips can be weird at times but I just need you to know that you and other similar uplifting youtube channels have been an important ingredient in my journey in becoming a better version of myself. Love you guys.
❤️❤️❤️ I feel the same way about them!
You said exactly what I was thinking!!
Michelle, i feel the same way. They are so upbeat and creative, I've tried new things and explored other avenues for my future!
Your friend took one for the team on the quill removal. I thank him for loving dogs 🐕 🇨🇦
YES!!
OMG the vet is my fiancé’s dad. So funny that I watch you guys every week and suddenly see my father in law in a video. Glad Mosa and Tim are doing okay.
10 THUMBS UP!
Thank him for us!!
You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
This was really beautiful. Thank you
I lost my Dad to suicide 10 years ago. When I found out about Lee, I felt numb. I didn’t know Lee. I admired and respected her and her openness, so tragic. God bless you all. X
Lost my one and only sister to suicide 34 yrs ago, and I am still grieving. I miss her so much.I feel like half my heart is missing.💔
❤️❤️❤️ Much love to you. I feel the same way about Lee.
I'm so sorry, how sad.
So sorry about your dad. I lost my mom to 7yrs ago this month. It is rough. Im sorry you had to experience it too. Hugs.
Sending love your way💕
Eamon & Bec, & Mosa. Here's a trick for thunderstorms, fireworks, etc. If you have a laundry room put the dog in there and turn the dryer to 'Air' (no heat). It's loud enough to drown out the external noise and the dog will be so relaxed they'll usually sleep.
Angels walk among us here on earth and I believe Lee was one of them....
"A hug", said Pooh, "is always the right size...!" Keep all the memories alive!
Massive respect to Eamon for the videos he put on insta this week.
He is amazing and so vulnerable ❤️❤️❤️
Was this on Eamon and Bec insta page or his personal account ?
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What was it? I don't use insta. Better for my mental health but sometimes you really feel like you're missing out/
@@sorchx not missing out dear. Taking care of your mental health is way way more important.
I hate to say I’m glad Mosa is there to remind you to stay in the moment. Helping him through that crisis is the good stuff. Being present and living a life your proud of is next. Sharing it with us is a bonus!
What John said!
My husband and I lost a best friend to suicide. I remember the morning after we found out I literally couldn't force myself out of bed. Thanks for sharing your journey in the healing process and ongoing life. My love to you all as you move forward in carrying Lee with you in all things.
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I don’t know what I was expecting when I started this video, but it hit me like a ton of bricks. The first few minutes really captured what it’s like to get up and keep living life after you’ve lost someone, with the music and the way it was filmed. Mad respect to you all, and also lots of big hugs
Grief is such a complicated human experience. It’s so layered, unpredictable, crippling and on some levels beautiful. Until you actually experience grieving I don’t think you truly understand how those you love live in every cell of your being.
I love how calm they were with Mosa and that Tim was not upset at all❤️ You guys are so caring and understanding with him. Take all the time you need to heal, grieving is a life long process
Yes Tim was a champ!
Sadly it looks like that was all for the camera. Apparently after this the dog ended up back at the shelter they fostered from but since the dog bit someone it would’ve made it harder to get him adopted as it was already a high needs dog they weren’t ready for. I’m sure they were polite and patient but the reality is they took on a high needs dog and returned it to the shelter worse off than when they had received him. And never mentioned it again and have been deleting comments and blocking anyone who even mentions it in the comments.
I am so so sorry for your loss. But I also want to say thank you. There was a time in my life where the world felt really dark, and you helped me find a little bit of light again. I am doing really well now, and I hope that this comment helps to bring you a little smile if you see it.
Faye, thank you for sharing this 💛. It really does help us so much to know that what we do here every Sunday is having a positive impact on our community 🌞. So happy to read that you are in a better place. We hope you can continue to find that light... even in the really dark moments 🤗
I really appreciate you clarifying that what Mossa did was not his fault. Although it shouldn’t have to be said, the tragedy with the poor bull terrier this past week has made it clear that there is still a lot of educating needed. Accidents happen and dogs, just like humans, get scared. I greatly respect you and your friends’ understanding of Mossa’s pain
I'm so glad Mosa and Tim are okay after the porcupine ordeal. When in doubt, just call the vet!!
Can we just take a moment and notice how The Lee Lanterns just floated through the house and was just a subliminal “hey guys I’m here” through the whole video 💕 another great video!
I am truly sorry to hear about Lee. I think she was an Empath, which means she burned bright and beautiful while she was here. She did more in the time she was here than most people do in a lifetime. That is something to hold onto.
Small PSA for anyone that encounters a similar porcupine situation, the quills are filled with air so cut them before trying to remove them from your animals. They still have barbs and will still hurt, but removal is so much easier and less painful!
Good to know. Thx
after you two already began to thank us on instragam, here are mine: thank you for building this amazing community, thank you for being real with us, thank you for showing up for us even though its hard for you, thank you for being the light in our dark moments. I cannot express how thankful I am that I found your channel 2 years ago. im beyond excited what the future holds for you and to join you along the way. nothing but love to you
I 48th that!!! ( I was 48th to reply to your comment) : )
I 92nd that! :D
someone once told me shortly after my dad passed (he was only 44) that we are all here to fulfill our destiny and once we do that it's our time to leave, we've done what we were meant to do on this earth. Lee made a huge impact on so many and she will continue to do so from the other side. I hope the following days bring you peace and comfort knowing she is still with you watching over you as you LIVE your life and not just exist. Much love and sending big mama hugs!
I didn’t think this was messy at all. You should be proud of yourselves for pushing forward during such a difficult time. Every time I think of Lee I can’t help but cry even though I never met her. She is a beautiful soul. Take all the time you need. We love you & understand if you need time. ❤️
Same. I can't get myself to finish their last episode. I got partway through. I feel silly for crying so much even though I never knew her. Even watching this is hard. I couldn't imagine what they're going through.
I love that Lee told you to build the fire pit for bonfires. What a wonderful place to remember her. I also believe that it was in no way a coincidence that Bec and you were sick and slept the day she passed. You were connected to her. She's watching over you, with you everyday now, smiling and laughing. 🌺 😂 🌺
We should start planting “Trees for Lee”. I think she’d love that.🦋🌈🌎
I just learned of her recently. I’ve been looking for a pine tree for my backyard, it will now be Lee’s tree ♥️ Thank you for the idea.
@@martham7356 that way she can live on ❤
I like the sound of Lee’s trees 😍
just ah suggestion.........what about "LEE'S TREES & GARDEN"
Yes o yes
There was nothing messy about this video. It was Beautiful.
Being a suicide survivor i always have survivors guilt everytime I hear someone loses there battle. When I read that first Instagram post that lee lost her battle my heart sank and I was deeply saddened for the first week and I continue to think about her daily she was the brightest light in so many lives rest in paradise lee
💕Glad you are here.
Do not feel guilty! You are a beacon of hope for those who are fighting these battles. So happy you are here.❤️
I think of her everyday too.
Don't feel guilty for surviving. Feel blessed. Use your experience to help others.
i was hospitalized in 2018 for suicidal tendencies, i feel what you mean 100% but i’m working on changing my mindset. for so long i was just surviving because that’s all i could do but this year i’m turning things around. i’m choosing to live, not just stay alive but actually live. you are still here for a reason, you’re job is not done and that’s nothing to feel guilty about. find your purpose and be the light. much love to you, i’m happy you’re here💛
Eamon snapping drywall with his noggin and Bec smiling - all is right in the world for right now.
The past couple of years I’ve been in deep depression and suicidal thoughts. I thought that I wasn’t worth it and thought that I couldn’t do anything that people expect of me. I thought I was failing life basically. But me and my dad sat down and we chatted. And you guys have really helped me I always look forward to watching your videos every Sunday. I’m 22 years old and I still have a long way to go in life. (Totally not crying while writing this) but I thank you guys for posting your videos it really makes me see how life can have it’s upsides and downsides. And the fun that you can have in life. Thank you so much. I love you guys.
Please take care of yourself and know that you are worth seeking out help and letting people know how you feel. You are so young and are going to have such an amazing long life, I know it. People like myself who don't even know you care about you!
I was almost catatonic with depression. Got to the doctor and am on a high dose of Celexa. Have been for years. I HAD to. Had to do everything alone, no family support. If I'd "checked out", it would NOT have been anyone's fault. But I was the only one that could keep me alive.
In life, we have ups and downs. Just always remember, after the storm comes rainbows🌈🌈💕
🥰❤️💕💖 thank you all for commenting and sharing. I really appreciate it all the love and hugs go out to all of you.
Hey I just want to say that when I was younger (18-21ish) I struggled heavily with depression. Thought my life was meaningless, thought I didn't mean anything to other people, etc. Well! I was wrong wrong wrong! My brain was just being stupid (I was dealing with some physical health issues in combination with depression running in my family). I am now 25 and the happiest I've ever been. I say that to prove that it's possible for life to get better. I know that when you are in the thick of it it feels like it might never end. Don't lose hope that you can feel happy :)
It crushes me that a person with so much life, who connects so deeply with others cannot see how valuable her life and her presence is to all she touches. Her soul lives on in you all. You will honor her life every day. Start by honoring your own lives, your own value daily. She gave so much. Take all she gave you and use it to push you forward. I love you all. What you give us of yourselves brightens our lives. I beg you to keep for yourself all the parts that keep you whole and strong. It’s a balance, I know, but we want you well, happy, healthy and strong. Thank you.
Very well said!
Unfortunately you misunderstand treatment resistant depression in your remarks. If it helps you to understand remember this: it is a disease, like cancer is a disease. It is not about not knowing you are valuable or loved. Suicide is about stopping the extreme pain being experienced that is very real to those who suffer with the disease. I am sure Lee knew she was loved and was valuable.
They have to realize it was her decision alone to act and does no reflect on anyone.
There are many hardships in life and you must bounce back or you have been defeated.
@@EchoBravo370 Correct.It was her choice with or without a disease.
Eamon & Beth , God bless you. Beautiful couple.👍👏🙏
Twenty some years ago when I was in a very deep depression over losing someone I loved I found that watching children playing, puppies and kittens bouncing around, small shore birds running in and out with the waves all helped to make me laugh and feel better.
So true, babies and animals, and for some reason the sounds of water in nature all have a way to bring happiness back to our hearts, we just need to give ourselves the opportunity to experience them and realize that it might not be as bad as we feel it is. I did a similar thing when I was dealing with some pretty harsh depression. I found that going for walks at night time, or going for walks in the forrest were really helpful for many of the same reasons and more than you messaged above.
Happy to hear you're doing better!
Nature inspiring you, reminded me of when my mom said she knew God had a sense of humor when she heard the beautiful duck quack.
Thank you for coming back to us guys. We love you, we get it, and know how dearly you were missed! Just got home from a 60 day van loop of the US and my “See Ya Sunday” sweatshirt was waiting. Everything is a bit bittersweet now. We know exactly where we were, hiking in a national park, when we read of Lee’s passing. We hiked in silence after that. NPs notoriously have no phone service, but that message found a way to reach us in the woods. We’re naming our new van kayak “LEE” like you guys. Sending so much love. ❤️
Lee would absolutely love to see you out on a kayak named after her! Soon there will be a global Lee-Boat-Army 💜
I felt the strong presence of Lee all over this video. It's like I could see her smiling and laughing right next to you guys like she was in your other video. My heart was so heavy watching this video but at the same time my heart is healing bc of you two. Some how Lee's absence really hurts my heart and I did not know her but I knew her spirit and she was a loving amazing woman. Some how I find myself thinking I wish I could have stopped her 😭😭😭😭. She's way too amazing to be gone. I can't 😔
If only I’d been as brave as her, maybe we’d have met on the road🥲 maybe she’d have shaped me,, but now i just strive to be like her
I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I want you to have "Lee moments" on camera occasionally. A memory, a smile, a burst into tears. It's normal and it helps us all because we miss her soo much too. 😥
The fire pit is so thoughtful and special 😢
Knowing the timeline of events, my heart began to slowly break all over again for y’all. Thank you for being transparent, vulnerable and letting the masses see what happens to the ones left behind when someone commits the final act of pain relief. I couldn’t ask for a more beautiful and serene place for y’all to cope and grieve. Stay strong
Bec and Eamon, I can’t imagine how tough it’s been and will be, but as a big Lee supporter and online friend I truly appreciate you sharing slowly with us all. It means a lot to see that Internet friends and family that truly understand Lee and to know I’m not alone in this process of grief.
Please make sure Tim goes to the doctor. Dog bites can get infected really easily. He should get on an antibiotic 🧡
I agree and it looked as if he might need stitches!
Yes he should vet a tetanus shot.
If we did not love, we could not grieve.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my daughter to suicide in 2016. She was 17. I'm not going to say it'll get easier because for me at least it hasn't. It's something I carry every day. I've only learned how to get through another second another minute, another day, another year. One day I'll see her again, until then I try to make her proud of everything I do while earth side. Love and light to you both 🙏💙
Loss my brother to suicide 11 years ago... after a week I went to a good mate’s house, his mother expressed her condolences and then talk to me about her brother who passed 30 years (age25) earlier... it happened to be his anniversary... she talk about him with the warmth and love that brought him to life in my mind, his memory was living with her... I have always remember this, and try to talks about my brother, we live not just now but in the memories of who we touch
I am so sorry about your daughter. I cannot imagine that pain. For some reason I feel the need to tell you it was not your fault (although Im sure you know that).
I lost my mom to suicide 7 yrs ago and although it was in no way my fault, I, too, carry guilt about certain things I feel I could have done better. For me, when I miss her terribly, I just remind myself that life on earth is a blip in time and I will be with her again soon. Thinking of never seeing her again is too much-and its not true- I know I will. I look for her in little signs. When I see my favorite bird, or a song comes on that reminds me of her, I know she is with me in that moment ❤️
@@bada6830 I'm so sorry about your brother. It is so important to remember them and talk about them. Our love for them is alive and will always carry on.
@@hatchmando4918 thank you so much. I'm so sorry about your mom. I completely understand the guilt. Every day the what ifs would roll around in my head almost driving me mad. I tried so hard to protect her from everything that I could but I failed on this one. It's so scary because we just never truly know what's going on inside someone's mind. I wish I'd known because I would've done anything I could to save her. I know she is still here just on another plane. One year on her birthday I was hearing a noise from her bedroom. I opened the door to look and a cardinal was outside her window pecking the glass. It perched there for a couple of minutes looking at me before flying away. I knew that day she had visited and reassured me that she remembers me and this life we shared. I can't wait to see her again. ❤️ I'm sure your mother is close by as well watching over you. I don't think a mother's soul could ever go far from her child. ((Hugs))
@@survivinglife__unplugged awww It is funny you saw a cardinal because that is exactly what I see for my mom!! Every time one flies by I say, Hi mom. Lol. I love that story about your daughter’s bday. ❤️❤️ many hugs to you!!
Bec...your connection with Lee...what a... just speechless that you felt her pain without knowing. 💔
@@jordangloss what gets me is that I'm pretty sure the sleep came when Lee was at her most pain and then died. Then they found out the next morning. Just .... sigh
When the two of you were crying, I knew you both were watching Lee's last video. It was touching and I cried like a baby. As I was watching it, I was hurting for the both of you. My prayers will be with you as the rest of her family and friends.
I lost my father to suicide. And sometimes I still stop and grieve. Feel how you need to feel and know so many of us are there. We are holding you both up
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so very sorry for your loss
@bee Lynn NYC- “ holding them up” is such a perfect turn of phrase. ❤️
💙 So very sorry you lost your dad that way. It’s a complex grief. Let him shine through you.
My son is struggling with suicidal ideation. It's a nightmare. Thank God he's talking about it.
And may I just say: Your guys ability to put these vides together are phenomenal. The crap that coming out of Hollywood cant even come close to what you two give us. Thank you
Breath of fresh air
Not sure if you guys will see this or not but I'm going to post it anyway. You both are phenomenal ❤ My heart goes out to you both, as well as Lee's family, and all who have been connected to her in one way or another. It's inspiring to watch how you guys have turned grieving into productivity. Granted, the mourning is still present, but you've put that energy into building. Building life... inspired by a beautiful life that will forever be in your hearts. Those amazing memories have left a footprint; a legacy... live life to its fullest and love with all your heart. A huge, warm, loving, virtual embrace from me to you, and God bless you both 💖💖😌
NOT a messy video at all. thank you for letting us in while you grieve. were here for you guys always
i’m so proud of you guys. grief is never a time scheduled process and no one expects you guys to be okay right now. she was an electric and gorgeous soul who will be missed by all ❤️
Absolutely 😔😭
My little brother took his own life 11 years ago, never said a word about how much he hurt. Don't be hard on your selves. Sending love and heartfelt condolences. I will miss watching her strong spirit soar here, but she still soars in our hearts.
Love you guys so much. Thank you for always being so real even if you decided to post less for a while it’s ok. Take your time and i appreciate so much you had to push through so much to just get this video out.
Love you lots and lots 🤍
Thank you for the love and support (especially throughout this very difficult time). We really appreciate you 💛🌞
@@eamonandbec 🤍
Love you....
Perfectly said. 💜
I tried so hard not to cry during this vid, but I've been crying with you every day for the past month. Thank you for also putting a smile on my face today. Welcome back, Eamon and Bec. Happy Belated, Bob!
I've been crying every day too ❤️❤️
Awww, Bec, your grief is so evident. Please don't let your light dim, but rather let Lee's light continue to shine through you. Much love to you both as you heal from the loss of your friend.
The spirit of Lee will live on forever in everyone she has met, and everyone who has watched. She will always be your guardian angel. Xx
Someone once said that maybe the story you're living is really meant to be a key character in someone else's story instead. We all know someone who seems to be that character in your life that helped dramatically change your life. Here is to all the characters like Lee who came into the lives of others to be that person you needed and to remind you of what life means.
I’ve seen Lee in a lot of van lifers channels. She seemed so happy and free. She’s obviously touched a lot of people. A lot of people don’t want to talk about the deceased. I say talk about them and to them. Tell stories about them. Tell there story. Think of them and smile because you were blessed to be apart of there story. They have ways of letting us know there still with us.
Thank you for waiting until you were ready to start coming back. Thank you for putting Lee's lanterns in almost every shot. Thank you for giving yourselves permission to laugh again. Thank you for such a beautiful and honest video. Be well you guys! ❤️
Don’t stress yourselves about the filming stuff... healing needs a lot of time an if you feel like NOT filming than you don’t need to.
Lost a lot of loved ones the last years and I totally know what it feels like.
I am so sorry for your loss! Hope you feel better soon. Unfortunately there’s absolutely nothing to make you feel better about this situation.
So.. just wanted to let you know, that i feel with you ♥️
Greetings from South Germany.
Cheers with a german beer to Lee. Wherever she is 🍻
I think you should find a special spot on your property and plant a tree in memory or Lee.
It will be a nice quiet spot where you can go and talk with her when you need too! Her memory will grow and watch over you guys building your special home, every step of the way!
Bonfire pit 🔥
Bec’s Canadian accent really comes out when she’s praising Moussa for going on the dock.
Dear Eamon & Bec, about 20 years ago a very close friend of mine took their life. I still think about her, and miss her so. Thank you for sharing what you are going through. Hopefully someday debilitating chronic depression will be a thing of the past.
There are no words...but image the good times with her! You brought joy to each other...and that helped her and was what was needed at that time!
Poor Mossa. And when I see the date of his quills, I feel awful for you to have gone through so much stressful stuff in such a short amount of time.
Eamon and Bec: what you do matters. Immensely. In a world where suicides and addictions are on the rise, we need JOY. We need LOVE. And the two of you provide that in spades. Thank-you for being YOU. ❤
I'm 31, around 18 years ago, one of my parents close friend (spending every holidays with us, really like a family member) also lost his battle against depression... Today, still, i remember perfectly the commotion that this event created that day (especially) and after. It's hard to loose someone so suddenly and in these circumstances. We always feel that we may have done something greater, better, stronger for them... Is it true or false, we'll never know. But, that's not what is important. Keep remembering great things, moment, events with that person that you loved, talk much of them when you feel you need it and remember to talk true with the one you love... You are awesome guys!
You two & Bob were the first people I thought of when I heard of Lees passing. It's good to hear your laughter. After losing my wife suddenly & unexpected, it was several months later that I let out a laugh from my gut. I almost felt guilty, but it was a positive sign that everything was going to be ok. I pray that your healing continues.
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The courage it takes to be this raw and genuine online is really admirable. I didn’t expect to find that watching the two of you heal feels healing for me, too. Thank you for this.
I'm not remembering who Lee is. Did you meet her when you were traveling South America or is she a friend from back home?
@@calleflynn1764 I never met Lee, but if you watch Eamon & Bec’s previous video, you can view the story of their friendship.
Understand your pain. Lost a dear friend to cancer at 26. Took 3 years before normal life resumed. 36 years later it still is real and hurts. The younger we are the more upsetting these events are.
Grief is very personal and it has been a bit surprising to me how much Lee’s death affected me. I truly cared about her. Hang in there Bec and Eamon, you two were so so connected to her. Just do the best you can. 🤗 and ❤️
I don't know how it's possible for people I've never met to touch me so--my heart hurts for you both.
I have been struggeling with mental illness since i was 11 years of age (20+ years) and have been following you guys since 2019 becouse you inspire me to find joy in my life. I started a channel with the intent on speaking up about my struggels, witch most recently had been about chronic fatigue and the identitycrisis that came becouse of it. Becouse i still am working through my camera shyness i have not yet been as brave as Lee ore you in front of a lence but im working on it. The thank you I would like to share about this video is to the way you show how you sit with your greif. I went to my first funeral at 6 years of age and have been to 10 more since then. I have been through hard breakups, moved away from home, left jobs, collegus and friends, and "never" handled the grief and sorrow. Taking to the bottle ore going back to work was my way of coping for most of my life. always happy, spreading joy and making people laugh, until i crashed. I have since (5+years) been clean and sober and trying to find a better way of living and inspiration can sometimes be the hardest thing to find. Thank you! You inspire me! you just sit there. I get it now. that is beautifully authentic! no words. movies can never give that level of authenticity. And the way you as a couple accept each other with differences is inspiring to!!! Today I am living my best life, every day is a challange to overcome my deamonds and working hard for a brighter tomorrow and most days i "feel the sun shine inside" Thank you for lighting up the world with your authentic selves
I've been suicidal sense I was eight years old, I'm in my mid twenties now and still struggle to hold on everyday. I just want to thank you for sharing your story, Lee is a inspiration. Her light shown so brightly and from what I got to see she had a beautiful sense for adventure and such a immense capacity for love. There are so many wonderful people in this world who are gentle and kind, something this world needs desperately and we're losing them everyday and it just breaks my heart. I'm so sorry she lost her battle and I'm so proud that she fought for as long as she could, the battle must have been so hard. I know most days I feel like I've already lost, and beating this is impossible. I'm going to try my best to make it to 28, something that didn't feel possible before I found Lee's story.
I've also suffered with suicidal depression for a great part of my life. I was 28 when I majorly crashed and tried to end my life. I literally walked away from doing it. I tried a 2nd time a few years later, and somehow survived. At that point I realized there was a reason why I have always had such a fighting spirit to never give in and give up, and it's because I have a greater purpose. In 2007 I started performing Stand Up Comedy and found it very therapeutic for my depression, but it also helped others with their depression. I became a professional comedian a little less than 2 years later, managing my own career and travelling/ touring and making people laugh through my own life experiences, one of those experiences being depression and suicidal tendencies. My message to you is don't give into it, keep fighting, and follow any passion you have that makes you happy. Maybe try Stand Up Comedy, it worked for me and have come to realize how many other comedians, even very famous comedians, have depression and suicidal thoughts in their past.
Following your heart into something that makes you feel better, happier, is the best way to escape the depression. If you have some demons you need to exorcise from something that happened in your past before the depression started, the best way to express them is to productively exorcise them so that anyone who understands them knows exactly what you're talking about without exactly saying it. Spoken Performance/ Comedy, is such an excellent way to do all of that at one time. You get your rage out in a controllable yet productive way, and in doing so, get rid of the depression and anger productively to.
I'm nearly 50, and have been getting better and better for the last 20 years, no more thoughts or desires to end things. I have found a passion and desire for Life and living, and have no place or time in life for those thoughts or feelings of depression anymore.
Keep Safe Always,
Stay Strong In Your Heart,
Create Peace, Happiness, Love and Laughter in Life,
And never forget there is always someone that understands and is there for you when you want them or need them to be, you just have to be patient and ask.
Matt - Toronto, Canada
I can relate. I was suicidal since I was 3 years old.
I didn't know what suicide was, but I knew I didn't want to wake up anymore.
I went through many tumultuous years in my 20s and 30s massively depressed
and even attempted to take my life a few times.
Here's the good news in my case.
I'm in my 40s and depression and suicidal thoughts rarely enter my psyche.
I never thought I would live a stable life and here I am.
Take it one day at a time when you feel like you can't go on.
Sometimes one hour at a time works too.
There is no cure, I've tried them all.
Living the best life you can live focusing on health, routine and loving yourself is the best medicine.
Daily Routines and rituals are essential, especially when you don't feel like doing them,
but you must force yourself.
Also, give yourself time if you need time just to lay in bed all day.
Don't beat yourself up.
Start over again tomorrow.
Great to see Mossa is still with you, he's definitely a good soul.
Sad that he decided to get some quills, I bet that really hurt, I'm not surprised he bit, one of mine want let you clip he's nails without trying to take a nip.
Your place looks absolutely amazing
Stay safe x
Death is not the answer. Everyone is miserable in their own way. Let's take one step at a time. Wish you all the best. I hope you know Christ Jesus and how much he loves you ? 💕💕💕
Everything gets better with time. Don't make a permanent solution to temporary problems. I hope you live to 100 and have a long healthy, happy life. Then you'll look back on those moments and you'll be so happy you pushed through. Trust me, it always gets better :) SEnding hugs!
My mom passed in October 2019 my dad passed April 2021 and my aunt 4 days after my dad its hard but to honor them ill keep moving forward sorry for your loss but each day will get better.
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1 million {{HUGS}} to you!!!!
Losing someone is like losing a part of you and you feel forever incomplete or broken .... I'm hugging you from a distance to try and be a little glue that will hold the broken pieces in you together.
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Thank you for not shaming Lee in any way and for in fact advocating for the removing of stigma around such tragedies. To me this video is paying homage in a positive and productive way. Thank you. Bless ♡
Lee will be so greatly missed. I'm not sure I've ever been this sad about the loss of someone I've never met. I will try and be a better person in honor of Lee. My sincere condolences to you both and all her family and friends.
I've lost many close friends. I'm 66 and I dont understand how I got so old so fast. I've lost 3 really close friends. My mom. Sister. It's tough. The older I get the more special people are gone. It sucks. I'm sorry about Lee. It's sad when people feel they cant go on. You feel responsible. I do understand. Shes getting guidance and help now though. Much love.
Life carries grief to us at all ages but yes, as we age it begins to arrive much more often. Each new loss brings the flood of pain from all the past losses with it. The saying “ grief is the price we pay for love” is extremely true. Love and strength sent to all who read this❤️
@@nancyfava1050 and for you too. 💕
I know you realize you will see them soon so why fret?
@@nancyfava1050 True and life is a test we chose.
@@nancyfava1050...So true 😑😑😑
Poor mosa, he is so sweet you guys should just be his forever parents. He is such a light in your dark patch . Enjoy the comfort he provides so easily. As far as losing a loved one I feel your pain my mom is stage 4 cancer and I lose her more day by day your courage is the strength I need to grow past the pain and remember all the joy she gave me. Please remember the joy your friend gave you and let that inspire you to do great things. We love you Lee from the bottom of all the hearts you touched and continue to touch.
Just keep waking up friends. Loss is such a personal thing. We each handle it the best we can. Remember that whatever you're feeling is exactly what you're supposed to be feeling.❤
I still can't wrap my head around Lee's passing, you just never know I guess. What a terrible 3 or so days in a row for you guys, I'm so sorry. Lee would really love all the renovations, I love her little lanterns you all have around the house.
I was so sad to learn that the Lee in our news, was your Lee. I’m in Southern California and this was on our news channels.
My little brother, David decided to take his own life on Christmas 2009. He was 47 years old. He’d lived with me from 15-22 years old. He was my best friend. He had shared with us at Thanksgiving that he had tried, and it didn’t work. We talked…and talked. He promised me he wouldn’t do it. But he did, and I was the one to find him. I miss him every day.
My heart goes out to you, Lee’s family and friends.
God bless you.
Bec you where with Lee during her time on earth and is that not amazing that your body knew u needed to be there in her last moments. You falling ill and 'sleeping' at the exact moment she needed you. Not a coincidence, I know you feel that. You and Eamon have helped us all so much with love and laughter, there is nothing that will get you through but those same things of support from us. Sending love, laughter, kindness and support, love Lilly❤️❤️
I love that these souls are so connected that Bec felt ill when it happened ... we can't explain everything, the only thing we humans have to do is opening our eyes and hearts widely. Love you all,
I lost my 17 year old nephew to suicide in Feburary, don't even remember March bc I felt numb to everything around me. Came back up to find out about Lee... I really feel for you, but it's inspiring to see you guys and it gives me strength. Hope everything will be better for you!
5:03 lee's lantern is overlooking such a beautiful view, what a great place for it.
honestly, at the beginning of the video seeing the dates, i instantly got anxious knowing what was about to happen. i think it’s very impactful that you had footage of the week leading up to everything. i want to say thank you for being raw during your grieving process. it helps so many people who are also grieving to see that they’re not alone. i’m proud of you both for trying to get back to your “regular” but please know that there is no rush at all!!!! i’m just team beamon and want what’s best for you guys 💖
I'm sure I can speak for so many of us on RUclips, that follow you. That we love you guy's and love you content, Bob and Mossa. Healing is a process and we all have to deal with it. Lee will forever be with is through you 2 crazy Canadians
It’s good to see you. We think of y’all, Bob, Max and Occy often. We have missed your fun and laughter. Love the bonfire 💜 Godspeed.