Citizen Soldier - Never Good Enough (Official Lyric Video)

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  • Опубликовано: 9 фев 2025
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    Lyric video by: Kyle Persell @kylepersell
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  • @CitizenSoldier
    @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +50

    Stream/Download 👉 citizensoldier.band/nevergoodenough
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    • @brittanynedland6164
      @brittanynedland6164 Год назад

      this how I feel every single day

    • @Leon-n9g
      @Leon-n9g 3 месяца назад

      Just lost my brother don't know if it was suicide or just alcohol he died last night. I wish I could have help him

    • @colleenstrader8198
      @colleenstrader8198 Месяц назад

      I've been listening to this for the last 3 hours!!
      This resonates with me so much right now!!

  • @MasterOfNone_X
    @MasterOfNone_X 5 лет назад +2942

    "Mediocre at best, maybe better off dead" that one hit hard, damn.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +144

      TheGameBoss980 glad you connected with it friend 🖤🤘🏻

    • @joshuabakerchainsaw
      @joshuabakerchainsaw 5 лет назад +28

      @@CitizenSoldier may i use this song for my upcoming open world survival game that i am making

    • @xenotriver
      @xenotriver 5 лет назад +37

      @@joshuabakerchainsaw I think you should rather contact them via email, more official and suiting for this kind of questions

    • @UltimateKarma3
      @UltimateKarma3 5 лет назад +24

      Yeah, that hit me hard as well

    • @TFitz1
      @TFitz1 5 лет назад +11

      Yep

  • @isabellestiphout7793
    @isabellestiphout7793 5 лет назад +2630

    “Why can’t you be proud of me”. This hit so hard I’m crying

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +212

      Isabelle Stiphout a gut punch for sure. Glad you felt the song 🖤🤘🏻

    • @isabellestiphout7793
      @isabellestiphout7793 5 лет назад +46

      Citizen Soldier I love it, thank you so much❤️

    • @hannahwilliams5681
      @hannahwilliams5681 5 лет назад +24

      Me too 💔

    • @WickerKing
      @WickerKing 5 лет назад +15

      @@hannahwilliams5681 Only know one person with that nickname and it's my sister xD

    • @hannahwilliams5681
      @hannahwilliams5681 5 лет назад +10

      @@WickerKing haha

  • @thelonelyinfj
    @thelonelyinfj 4 года назад +639

    "I'd rather die, then to let you down one more time." My favorite quote of this song.

    • @natashaalicia8105
      @natashaalicia8105 2 года назад +4

      Oh mine too...nothing more powerful than hatred. It gives you the guts to do what needs to be done.

    • @enriquebatista3
      @enriquebatista3 2 года назад

      Mine too

    • @user-do9xu3ti2u
      @user-do9xu3ti2u 2 года назад +2

      Who ever your talking about is so very lucky to have you in there life I could only wish to have somebody who cared so much

    • @Obi-Wan_Kenobi62
      @Obi-Wan_Kenobi62 2 года назад

      That seems like a poor prioritization list 💀

    • @luciferpetrenkoff5040
      @luciferpetrenkoff5040 Год назад

      My favorite line as well

  • @mothshroooms
    @mothshroooms 5 лет назад +1330

    Never thought I would find a song so perfect for my mental state rn.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +167

      Hope it helps! Hope things get better for you friend 🖤

    • @billydog55
      @billydog55 3 года назад +36

      It will get better. After 53 years I finally learned to stop trying to live up to other peoples, spoken or unspoken expectations of me. Expectations cause resentments for me

    • @silentkiller3764
      @silentkiller3764 3 года назад +23

      Felt that bro....I'm so tired of living at this point.....everything I do that makes me happy everyone I care for is now hating me breaking me.....more than I can imagine.....

    • @mohamedshabin9176
      @mohamedshabin9176 3 года назад +4

      @Caylin W same ;-;

    • @savagewolf23e49
      @savagewolf23e49 3 года назад +11

      @@CitizenSoldier you guys are great you mean a lot to a lot of people keep saving us🤘🤘🤘

  • @planets9102
    @planets9102 5 лет назад +954

    The slight blur in the lyrics on screen is a nice touch

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +161

      Planet S our drummer Kyle did a great job making this. What did you think of the song? Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?

    • @teresaroberts3113
      @teresaroberts3113 5 лет назад +26

      @@CitizenSoldier love the track happy weekend 😀

    • @Aniimefaan
      @Aniimefaan 5 лет назад +58

      The drummer is working double duty eh? Props to him lol

    • @kylepersell6533
      @kylepersell6533 5 лет назад +47

      @@Aniimefaan I wish it was only double 😅

    • @Iztheticgaming
      @Iztheticgaming 5 лет назад +23

      @@CitizenSoldier that drummer is talented !!!

  • @NyxNovaStar
    @NyxNovaStar 3 года назад +356

    That line...."I hate to disappoint you, but its my DNA" and the raw way he roars it...breaks me every time. So many chills and tears.

  • @sonofacharlie6227
    @sonofacharlie6227 5 лет назад +727

    Citizen Soldier, you'll never dissapoint me.
    I've already heard your whole album but this song resonates to me the most. Your lyrics are more relateable and deep it makes me (and a lot of other people) feel understood and helps to get trough hard times. This whole song hits home for me and to think those things you sing on a daily basis can just fuck up your whole mindset - your Refrain for example. My heart paused for a Moment as the Refrain came up and had to swallow for a moment to be honest.
    I'm just so thankful to know your music because of all the points I've already made. Bless you all, we will all overcome our inner demons and the war we're fighting within us.
    Your music keeps me going.
    Just thank you for the work you're putting in your music.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +95

      Son of a Charlie comments like these make all of the hard work worth it. Thank you friend. We are glad you connect with the music and will continue to work hard to earn your continued support 🖤🤘🏻

    • @maviyesil649
      @maviyesil649 5 лет назад +19

      You're right It helps me through dark days

    • @garnettekken
      @garnettekken 5 лет назад +3

      The refrain and chorus made me cry

    • @thatdumbfurrythatwatcheswa6741
      @thatdumbfurrythatwatcheswa6741 5 лет назад +2

      I honestly don't connect that much, only a little. I just really love this song

    • @mayflyrose8195
      @mayflyrose8195 5 лет назад +5

      @@thatdumbfurrythatwatcheswa6741 lucky you

  • @zamv2643
    @zamv2643 5 лет назад +1225

    "Am I a failure from birth"
    "Is misery what I deserve "
    "Am I so void of love"
    "AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH "
    " NEVER GOOD ENOUGH "
    💘💘💘

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +63

      ㄥZ AMV glad you like it friend 🖤🤘🏻

    • @zamv2643
      @zamv2643 5 лет назад +41

      @@CitizenSoldier I don't like it I LOVE it ❤

    • @jadeenthusiastic2496
      @jadeenthusiastic2496 4 года назад +5

      Yes you are... give urself more credit... 💖💖💖💖

    • @hermitsunite953
      @hermitsunite953 4 года назад +5

      @@zamv2643 funny thing is all i hear is Failure from birth, misery is what I deserve.

    • @kristopherowen1491
      @kristopherowen1491 4 года назад +3

      Those are the lyrics that got to me!!! this one runs deep in my veins.

  • @noodletin7090
    @noodletin7090 4 года назад +120

    It's only been a day and this band has hit so close to home in all aspects of my bottomless pit I can't stop bawling
    This band deserves more recognition seriously

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад +14

      You are so kind. Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻

    • @Miss_slytherinn
      @Miss_slytherinn 10 месяцев назад +1

      Yes i relate too...i love this band

  • @notwhoyouthinkiam1630
    @notwhoyouthinkiam1630 5 лет назад +201

    "Why can't you be proud of me" I've never related more to lyrics than to this one.
    It feels like everyone is kicking me down for my little flaws and it's too much to handle sometimes. Part of the problem is my anxiety trying to take control of the wheel, and the fact that I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be. To me, this song represents my constant struggle to come to terms with the person I am and all of my flaws

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +23

      NotWho YouThinkIAm sounds like you’ve been through so much. We hope that the music helps in some small way and we are so glad you connect with it. Much love to you friend 🖤🤘🏻

    • @dreamsmasher5213
      @dreamsmasher5213 5 лет назад +7

      I convinced myself when I was young that I deserve to feel like this, that I deserved the misery. So I feel you. You're not alone. The best thing you can do is stay strong. if not for yourself but for the ones that love you.

    • @RenneAtha
      @RenneAtha 4 года назад +8

      "I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be." This. This!! You do not realise how true that statement is. You don't believe your friends and family who tell you they like you. So get input from new people. Go out there and be yourself, try something new, make new friends who don't know anything about your history. And find out what they think of you. [Spoiler alert: They don't secretly hate you. They actually think you're a pretty alright sort.] You'll be amazed. I did this and I couldn't believe they were thinking of the same person. I was like... didn't you just spend a week with me? Are you talking about someone else? Don't believe the voice inside your head that tells you no-one will ever like you, because that's a damn lie. Sorry if I'm expressing myself a little strongly, but it's the worst pain ever and it's all based on untruths. No-one should have to endure it.

  • @garikpazik1621
    @garikpazik1621 5 лет назад +373

    Lyrics!)
    Here I am, once again
    Way too close to the edge
    Terrified, open eyes
    I'm seeing red
    I would rather die tonight
    Then let you down one more time
    One more time
    Sick of coming undone
    Letting down everyone
    Mediocre at best
    Maybe better off dead
    Am I a failure from birth
    Is misery what I deserve
    Am I just so void of love
    That I'm never good, never good enough
    Demonize, criticize
    Your words eat me alive
    Just like knives
    Tearing me from the inside
    What you want I'll never be
    Why can't you just be proud of me
    Proud of me
    Sick of coming undone
    Letting down everyone
    Mediocre at best
    Maybe better off dead
    Am I a failure from birth
    Is misery what I deserve
    Am I just so void of love
    That I'm never good, never good enough

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +41

      garik pazik thanks for sharing 🖤🤘🏻

    • @nurhanif5682
      @nurhanif5682 4 года назад +39

      I hate to disappoint you but it's in my DNA
      Everything you give me I somehow will disgrace
      I never meant to be like this
      A grave mistake you can't forgive
      A filthy stain, oh what a shame
      Can you just wash me away
      Sick of coming undone
      Letting down everyone
      Mediocre at best
      Maybe better off dead
      Am I a failure from birth
      Is misery what I deserve
      Am I just so void of love
      That I'm never good, never good enough

    • @TheBee7878
      @TheBee7878 4 года назад +3

      @@nurhanif5682 that was completely wrong =/

    • @FRAMBOISECITROUILLE
      @FRAMBOISECITROUILLE 3 года назад +1

      t con on les a sur la vidéo les lyrics 😑😑🖕🖕

    • @aly_panda4304
      @aly_panda4304 3 года назад +6

      @@TheBee7878 I know I am probably late but your wrong because if you look they only had one word wrong

  • @NeverlandSystemZor
    @NeverlandSystemZor 4 года назад +33

    "Am I a failure from birth
    Is misery what I deserve" and "What you want I'll never be
    Why can't you just be proud of me" absolute shred my heart. These lyrics... damn y'all know how to express pain like this so damned authentically. Thank you for giving so many of us a voice.

  • @melindawatson2191
    @melindawatson2191 5 лет назад +82

    I never feel like I’m good enough and this song hits me hard. I cry everyone I hear it.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +11

      melinda watson you are enough friend. Know that 🖤

  • @epicknightgames9979
    @epicknightgames9979 Месяц назад +12

    When your told "your never good enough" as a kid, you grow up believing it. And it can leave scars nobody can see. Live 24 years of it and tell me it does not change you, because it does. Only someone thats lived this truly understands the pain. And the only way to be safe is hide the pain. It is easy when you feel like such a failure to everyone for so long. Just bury it down.

    • @Nirati
      @Nirati 17 дней назад +3

      I've somehow managed to live to 44 now, and even with a loving wife and a good career, the scars never go away. It's just so hard to get people to understand the pain

    • @PoetTornado2022
      @PoetTornado2022 4 дня назад

      People used to tell me that all the time. Then, a few years ago, they had the audacity to tell me "We were just joking, you didn't need to take it seriously!" But ... the damage is already done...

  • @ThatBroAdam
    @ThatBroAdam 4 года назад +89

    Such powerful lyrics, they cut deep. I dont quite know why, but this whole album sums up half my life

    • @kaplararon1592
      @kaplararon1592 4 года назад +5

      Right there with you.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад +7

      Thank you for your kind words, hope you're staying safe friend.

  • @DanTheBuska
    @DanTheBuska 3 года назад +27

    What I love about music in general is it can mean one thing to someone and something completely different to someone else. Music is a universal language and it speaks words that are hard to say otherwise. It helps us all understand one another. We can share experiences with musc. Especially if it speaks as loud as this

  • @dittycin
    @dittycin 2 года назад +1375

    Last night my husband told me I need to stop listening to your music. The words make him uncomfortable and he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me. I told him that I need to know that there is at least one person out there who understands my pain. ' I love his voice and he make me feel.'

    • @susanleschinsky1631
      @susanleschinsky1631 Год назад +47

      I understand really I feel the same

    • @darkenedways433
      @darkenedways433 Год назад +92

      I'd crank it even louder

    • @twistedreality997
      @twistedreality997 Год назад +133

      your husband even trying to tell you what you should and shouldn't listen to is a whole red flag

    • @dittycin
      @dittycin Год назад +145

      @@twistedreality997 It was coming from a place of love because he knows that loud noises and angry voices trigger my PTSD. After I told him that listening to someone who understands my pain helps so much, he did his best to understand. Truthfully, I am so glad he doesn't understand. He just loves me through it all.

    • @bananarama3624
      @bananarama3624 Год назад +62

      ​@@twistedreality997 Or he is somebody that has never been depressed and doesn't understand how someone can feel these emotions. He obviously cares about them because "he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me".
      He's not being condescending or showing a red flag, he's just never been in our situation and he's trying to give genuine, good advice.
      Situations like this is just a muddled cloud of grey, and even if you have the entire context of the situation (unlike a 1 throwaway YT comment in a time when you feel vulnerable) there can still be no clear answer (e.g. go outside, you'll feel better, so you go outside and still feel just as bad. You are going to feel worse if you are inside all day, but going outside won't necessarily make you feel any better. You might feel better, but it didn't work, but hey at least you gave it a shot). See how in an example like this there isn't any clear black or white but instead a muddy grey cloud that you will never get a true answer from?
      .At the end of the day, the best we can do is be empathetic because we know that the husband is trying to help the best he can

  • @pr1nce_silv3r10
    @pr1nce_silv3r10 4 года назад +30

    “ I would rather die tonight then let you down one more time.” That hit too close to home for me to accept

  • @alexlaws5086
    @alexlaws5086 5 лет назад +77

    Hi, it's me again.
    I'm a little late here, but I just wanted to say that I'm actually glad I'm past the point where I can truly relate to this song. I still love it, but I've managed to win, for now. I have no doubt I'll fall back down at some points here, but for those of you that haven't been able to beat it yet, I urge you to try your damndest. Don't just resign yourself to your fate, because that's how you lose. Fight it, and when you eventually win, it'll be one of the best feelings you'll ever experience. It feels like you against the world, but you've got friends in places you'd never expect. Fight. Don't give up. Live.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +12

      Alex Laws such an incredible message. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. We admire your strength. Everyone needs a friend like you 🖤🤘🏻

  • @marti1954
    @marti1954 5 лет назад +110

    this song is so good! you are very talented!
    i love it!!
    "i hate disappoint you
    but it's in my DNA!"

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +9

      martina; bts love that line! Glad you connected with it. Have you heard the rest of our new album RELENTLESS yet?

    • @marti1954
      @marti1954 5 лет назад +3

      @@CitizenSoldier yess i did!
      and all the songs are as goog as this song!

    • @twistedreality997
      @twistedreality997 5 лет назад +2

      honestly one of the bes lines

  • @alexdonthavelastname2182
    @alexdonthavelastname2182 Год назад +6

    "sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" It always feels like your letting people down, but in reality your probably the person your letting down the most. We always have high expectations that we may never meet, or cant meet in that moment. And we beat ourselves up about it. Life's hard, but knowing that these guys know how were feeling definetly helps motivate me, and make me feel better 🖤

  • @HerondalesAngel
    @HerondalesAngel 5 лет назад +343

    Omg I just love you guys I've used a couple of your songs for my videos and your music just makes the video you are my go to band for awesome powerful music just thanx guys for existing xxxxxxx

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +61

      Herondales Angel we wouldn’t exist without your kind support. Appreciate you more than you know 🖤

    • @HerondalesAngel
      @HerondalesAngel 5 лет назад +15

      👊😘😘

    • @randyrodriguez709
      @randyrodriguez709 4 года назад +7

      @@CitizenSoldier so glad I came across your channel on RUclips tonight. Your music speaks volumes on behalf of those who are stuck silent with mental health illnesses and afraid to speak out about their demons and being stigmatized.

    • @amals4316
      @amals4316 4 года назад +2

      Can I just say. I love your name. I loveeeeeeee the Heronadales, Will, Jace, James all of them.

    • @HerondalesAngel
      @HerondalesAngel 4 года назад +1

      @@amals4316 thanx so much I love them also ❤

  • @slavillion2934
    @slavillion2934 5 лет назад +146

    I
    Need
    More
    This is one of greatest things i heard in a while!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +10

      Yequxor Howler thank you so so much. That means the world. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?

    • @slavillion2934
      @slavillion2934 5 лет назад +5

      @@CitizenSoldier not yet but soon!
      I am mega hyped for it!

  • @Mrcheekymonkeyisback
    @Mrcheekymonkeyisback 4 года назад +25

    i never feel good enough but the music you put through here helps me. thank you. we're all fighters

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад +8

      We're all fighting! 🖤

    • @Mrcheekymonkeyisback
      @Mrcheekymonkeyisback 4 года назад +2

      @@CitizenSoldier Yes we are and I hope you guys never give up when facing your own demons and problems. Your music is gold. thank you for respondingggg

  • @MrSuper091999
    @MrSuper091999 5 лет назад +42

    The last time I heard a voice so distinct and powerful was Adam from three days grace. Your music is truly amazing and hits me to the core. Vastly underrated band. Your time will come soon.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +9

      Thank you so much. That means everything to us. So glad you found us 🖤🤘🏻

    • @dreamsmasher5213
      @dreamsmasher5213 5 лет назад +5

      Three days grace suck live however I love em so much. Their songs helped me when i was young get through some tough shit.

    • @badwolfwhovian63
      @badwolfwhovian63 4 года назад +4

      Dream Smasher idk where you saw TDG at but when I saw them at Montage Mountain in PA they were badass.

  • @Cloud9berries
    @Cloud9berries 5 лет назад +56

    I've been a fan for a while now and I'm impressed. Usually I only like one or two of bands songs but with all your songs I love. I love your new album too, especially kill my memory.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +7

      Katie Rose Pritchard so glad to hear this Katie. Thank you for the amazing support 🖤🤘🏻

  • @IceddSnipa23
    @IceddSnipa23 11 месяцев назад +3

    “i hate to disappoint you… but it’s in my DNA” is a DEEP line for me. love it

  • @hectorjarachairez1168
    @hectorjarachairez1168 5 лет назад +39

    “Why can’t you be proud of me”.... damn that’s a deep line, i felt that
    Great song c’: i was missing to have a new song in my playlist, now there’s another one c:

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +2

      Hector Jara Kenway glad you connected with it friend 🖤🤘🏻

  • @corvuscorax6906
    @corvuscorax6906 5 лет назад +13

    “Maybe better off dead”
    That’s powerful
    Love this song

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад

      Corvus Corax glad you liked it! Appreciate the support friend 🖤

  • @kairavenstrike8740
    @kairavenstrike8740 4 года назад +4

    Almost everyone I know tells me this all the time. This song hit hard but it’s nice that people like you are giving us a voice with your songs thank you so much Citizen Soldier

  • @Asaylum117
    @Asaylum117 5 лет назад +23

    "Never good enough" Three words that can haunt a person for a long time and can mentaly destroy someone. I feel the same with my life, no matter how hard I try in life, it feels like I'm not good enough.
    Your songs are really inspirational and hopefully more people will be able to reconise your greatness. :)

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +3

      Asylum117 glad you connect with them. Thanks for your kind words and support 🖤🤘🏻

  • @mrsuicxde
    @mrsuicxde 5 лет назад +39

    This is possibly my new favourite song coming from my favorite band

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +5

      jayden juggernaut that is amazing to hear! Thank you so much friend 🖤 this song means a lot to us too.

  • @melissahardy7173
    @melissahardy7173 6 месяцев назад +6

    I never felt good enough growing up. I felt smothered by judgement, my negative feelings unwanted, and people tried to "fix" me. But the idea of being "fixed" suggested they wanted me to be something or someone I wasn't. How could I be anything I'm not? Who I am is all I can be. I never tried to pretend for anyone, I wouldn't. I resented feeling that others wanted something from me that wasn't me. These needs were mine, from me as I was, and I would work my dang hardest to get them met. So the lyrics, "Demonize, criticize. Your words eat me alive just like knives tearing me from the inside. What you want I'll never be! Why can't you be proud of me? ... I never asked to be like this" really hit hard. Especially the proud of me part and how its sung. It brought tears to my eyes.
    Don't know if anyone else can relate, but I eventually learned that I defined "good enough" as permanently loved, accepted, and wanted. I believed if I could be "good enough," I would experience love as stable, consistent, and long-lasting... no wonder my soul yearned for it so badly and deeply. I never achieved "good enough." I still experience love as temporary; something that only exists in the moment, something that could be lost or withheld from me in the next moment.

  • @ymir7594
    @ymir7594 5 лет назад +5

    I was here since day one and it makes me almost tear up seeing you guys have come this far. Great job as always. Never stop teling our stories through your songs!

  • @thebaka3536
    @thebaka3536 5 лет назад +4

    I dont think Citizen Soldier is capable of making a bad song. This is my favorite so far. Such an amazing band.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +1

      Multitalented Prankster thank you so much. Your support is everything 🖤🤘🏻

  • @KJCancerz
    @KJCancerz 11 месяцев назад +1

    It's so comforting knowing someone understands your pain.

  • @elizabethtrentham8129
    @elizabethtrentham8129 3 года назад +6

    I felt this bc my aunt yells at me all the time and says things like "you cant do anything right" so I ran to my room and this was on my recommendation page so I clicked it and gave it a listen and I am in love with this song thank you for making this masterpiece

  • @PastaSick
    @PastaSick 4 года назад +3

    Honestly I feel like this all the time. I never thought a song would be able to capture this so perfectly.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад +1

      It definitely came from the heart. It hits close to home for me for sure 🙏🏻

  • @rachelmitchell2977
    @rachelmitchell2977 4 года назад +1

    I've never heard a song that understood me so well. I'm barely holding myself together. Citizen Soldier, keep making music. Keep impacting people. You make a difference.

  • @kuzaliwabure7
    @kuzaliwabure7 4 года назад +4

    ''so sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" dear deer, that hit me like a stone

  • @tysongeorge6089
    @tysongeorge6089 4 года назад +9

    These guys deserve more attention, clever lyrics is an understatement.

  • @inglorioustool9890
    @inglorioustool9890 3 года назад +2

    I used to feel like a letdown, someone who isn't good enough for anyone... I started working at a hospital in June as a Unit Assistant in Emerg, I started feeling rewarded and happy with who I've become over the last 4-5 months especially with all the amazing peeps I've met who've grown to care about me as much as I care about them
    Starting this job saved my life and I listen to this song as a reminder that I overcame myself and this state of mind
    Thank you Citizen Soldier

  • @jodynelis9952
    @jodynelis9952 5 лет назад +6

    "I am just so void of love that I'm never good enough"
    Such a relatable song

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +1

      Jodynelis so glad you relate to it. Appreciate you 🤘🏻

    • @jodynelis9952
      @jodynelis9952 5 лет назад

      @@CitizenSoldier 🖤

  • @wine1384
    @wine1384 4 года назад +18

    I just found this guy tonight, even tho this topic definitely describes my life by 100%, his melodic voice just turned the need to cut my arms from fingertips to shoulders..

  • @iammatt3174
    @iammatt3174 3 года назад +2

    So far this band provided only songs that hit too hard to home from what I heard so far, something I can finally cry to, so thank you.

  • @TheBeardedSkullCompany
    @TheBeardedSkullCompany 4 года назад +7

    How do all your song speak to me on such a personal level? It's how a feel and what goes through my mind all the time. Love this song🔥🔥🔥🔥

  • @sethsabres
    @sethsabres Год назад +3

    I'm speechless. I only found you guys today and I'm already a huge fan, but as I write this the tears are streaming down my face. This song puts into words the thoughts that run through my head on an hourly basis and it's just. so. perfect. I finally. FINALLY feel heard. Thank you Citizen Soldier, you have given me just a bit of hope that I can pull through this.

  • @Ary_Official1
    @Ary_Official1 4 года назад +8

    "everything you give me, I will somehow disgrace" damn this is exactly how I feel about things I've been given

  • @ellielavender1498
    @ellielavender1498 5 лет назад +30

    YEEES! A new citizen soldier video, I'm only about two minutes through and I can already relate to this waay to much.how do you guys always hit so close to home???
    Never stop what your doing, you have a real talent for it! ^-^

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +2

      •Nìghtshade Edìts• that’s the goal every time. To connect to amazing people like you. Glad you felt it friend. Much love 🖤

    • @ellielavender1498
      @ellielavender1498 5 лет назад +2

      @@CitizenSoldier well you definitely hit it! Thankyou😊

  • @emilielego2903
    @emilielego2903 4 года назад +9

    This is how I really feel about myself. It's not that I don't feel good enough for everyone else, I feel like I'm not good enough for myself. I'm disappointing myself..

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад +2

      Appreciate you Emilie 🖤 Stay strong

  • @taurustylerjameson376
    @taurustylerjameson376 Год назад +1

    I've been binging this music because I've never felt so alone in my entire life but the words make it less so. Words I struggle to tell other people because I can't find them nor do I wish to be a problem for them. I've been so stressed and broken and defeated that despite having every reason to live (my unborn child), I want to disappear. Not exist anymore. Stop fighting. Stop trying. But I can't and it's becoming increasingly hard to not do that. But the music helps. Even just a little bit is keeping me from giving up

  • @trishmunoz7745
    @trishmunoz7745 4 года назад +6

    I still think this one is my favorite. Completely raw completely honest. And so descriptive of so many of our Lives. Thank you I am so grateful that I found your band. This might sound strange but I believe your anointed by God to reach the generation that needs to hear this. Hugs love always.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад +3

      That is so kind and means so much to me. Thank you, truly

  • @Watcher-in-the-Dark
    @Watcher-in-the-Dark 4 года назад +6

    A band that feels like it represents my very heart and mind. Amazing song, one I can truly relate too.

  • @codeakira4999
    @codeakira4999 4 года назад +2

    How is every song you guys write both amazing and relatable? It's so full of emotion that I want to cry everytime because of how much it seems like you've gone through everything in your lyrics. There's so much emotion in your voice. The instrumentals also compliment it so well and make it feel even more like you've poured everything into every song. Hopefully one day everyone will know who you guys are because I feel like your music could save a lot of lives..

  • @katialecompte9109
    @katialecompte9109 3 года назад +3

    The lyrics.. it helps to listen and related to that. It helps realize we’re not alone 💜

  • @user-ng3bg7qw2d
    @user-ng3bg7qw2d 3 года назад +3

    I only discovered this amazing band a few days ago and I come undone at every song! Bless you for putting music to the thoughts in my mind. But more importantly, thank you for letting countless others know they have worth even though they may feel these things. Forever a fan now. Thank you! ❣

  • @bakugoismyspiritanimal5856
    @bakugoismyspiritanimal5856 4 года назад

    Thank You.... I now have chills running up and down my spin and tears running down my face....

  • @thatoneguynoonenotices3200
    @thatoneguynoonenotices3200 4 года назад +3

    Music that you can feel connected to or has serious meaning in general is the purest form of music and your music hits the nail on the head bands like you and skarlett riot deserve so much more attention

  • @TomBeeInnit
    @TomBeeInnit 2 года назад +20

    I cry to almost every song because it relates so much to me

  • @crabyninjagamer5665
    @crabyninjagamer5665 2 года назад +2

    I can't count all the times I've listened to this at 2 in the morning and just laying there singing along while crying.

  • @LOOFICERBEATS
    @LOOFICERBEATS 5 лет назад +4

    Favorite song from you guys. Keep up the amazing work. I’m a pretty big fan of you guys ❤️

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +2

      Star Boy that means the world to us. Thank you. Appreciate you 🖤🤘🏻

  • @blasstoisess
    @blasstoisess 5 лет назад +5

    another great song with which I feel connected, I love the music of this band and I hope that it receives the fame it deserves in the future

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад

      ss blastoise ftw we appreciate that support friend. Much love to you 🖤🤘🏻

  • @gamermaycry664
    @gamermaycry664 3 года назад +2

    A band that always knows how to get what I'm feeling almost everyday down right in a song always makes me smile that there are bands out there making music for lost souls like me..🖤🖤

  • @Xaforn
    @Xaforn 4 года назад +4

    Just when I thought a song couldn’t be more spot on than I Am Not Okay...dang this hit hard and it hit home. Great job for seeing deeper, for willing to write what is there that so many cannot put into words. You’re amazing.

  • @chloemiller3525
    @chloemiller3525 3 года назад +4

    I’ve listened to this song too many times when I’m down. It’s a really good song and it hits me really hard.
    “Sick of coming undone~ Letting down everyone~”
    This lyric hits home really hard.

    • @nxrthk1
      @nxrthk1 3 года назад

      same bro :/

  • @Wolfy3801
    @Wolfy3801 2 года назад +2

    "everything you give me I somehow will disgrace" it hitted me with tears

  • @chocolatecookieboi8611
    @chocolatecookieboi8611 5 лет назад +4

    Oh my gosh I feel this song on a personal level. I feel like I’m never good enough

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад

      I have felt that too. We need to be there for eachother

  • @jaye1232
    @jaye1232 5 лет назад +14

    This makes me want to headbang and cry at the same time

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +2

      TasteTheCringe we feel the same way 😭😂🤘🏻🖤 glad you enjoy the track!

  • @crazyhardcorebadass
    @crazyhardcorebadass 3 года назад +1

    Literally word for word how I feel.

  • @wbs1O1
    @wbs1O1 4 года назад +74

    Citizen Soldier you are definitely not mediocre. Just finished listening to e every song and you have more talent than any of the garbage at RUclips top trending. You will definitely be big one day.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад +16

      Thank you so much friend 🖤🙏🏻

    • @Embersofthedark
      @Embersofthedark Год назад

      This is a true fact and has ( somewhat) come true

    • @KamalLotusCoinPrasad
      @KamalLotusCoinPrasad Год назад

      @@CitizenSoldierthere is no band better then you you are better then imagine dragons and bts

  • @monikakelly1057
    @monikakelly1057 4 года назад +5

    28 years old... and I still feel this exact same way. Will it ever actually get better ?!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад +3

      We're in it together, we can continue the fight and live for the things worth living for.

    • @monikakelly1057
      @monikakelly1057 4 года назад

      @@CitizenSoldier ♥️♥️♥️

  • @laurah200
    @laurah200 3 года назад

    Like the screaming at the beginning of the song makes it so powerful. This is in my top 3 out of your songs. It’s unbelievable how strong the message is and how much Impact it will have on so many lives. Please never change.

  • @LunaticMoon2022
    @LunaticMoon2022 4 года назад +5

    Man I found this band a week ago. Love every song. You guys should be viral!

  • @yugixyami4ever
    @yugixyami4ever 5 лет назад +94

    ''I would rather die tonight then let you down one more time''
    ''Mediocre at the best''
    ''Never good enough''
    ''Your words eat me alive''
    ''why can't you be proud of me?''
    ''I never asked to be like this''
    💔

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +3

      Alexandra aly glad you connected with the lyrics!

  • @alan_the_wolverine8341
    @alan_the_wolverine8341 2 месяца назад +1

    This song describes me perfectly.

  • @Princess-rx2gp
    @Princess-rx2gp 4 года назад +3

    Before today i have NEVER heard of this bad and the three songs i have just listened to... NEVER RELATED MORE IN MY LIFE! Your music is ABSOLUTELY amazing!!!!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад

      That is honestly an honor to hear 🖤🙏🏻 so glad you found us. Welcome to the family 🖤🙏🏻

  • @yetibmxgaming7536
    @yetibmxgaming7536 3 года назад +1

    Never thought id find the song the shows how i feel right now thank you

  • @OtakuAMVOfficial
    @OtakuAMVOfficial 5 лет назад +12

    Wow bro my favorite song 💥🔥🔥🔥

    • @ajmalatilawat
      @ajmalatilawat 5 лет назад +7

      me too Otaku amv 🔥🔥🔥

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +5

      Otaku amv so glad you liked it friend. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?

    • @OtakuAMVOfficial
      @OtakuAMVOfficial 5 лет назад +4

      Citizen Soldier of course I heard it and I like it so much ❤️❤️❤️

  • @jonathankatz1068
    @jonathankatz1068 5 лет назад +4

    Man, this song crossed my path right from the first verse! Hit hard but that’s why I love the song! No sugar coating, raw emotion and feeling! Much love to you guys ❤️❤️💯💯 You have made me fight another day :)

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад

      Jonathan Katz happy to help friend. Thanks for the amazing support 🖤🤘🏻

  • @candacescreativecorner9955
    @candacescreativecorner9955 2 года назад +1

    Im proud of anyone that has talent to be artistic and be able to express their emotions into words like in poems or in music or anything that makes them happy. Everyone deserves to be happy in doing what they love. If it makes them happy and makes others happy then thats a great accomplishment.

  • @melodychm
    @melodychm 5 лет назад +33

    Guys, you deserve more fans and views 😭❤️

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +4

      Thanks Melody! Please share our music and that will make it happen 🙏🖤

  • @justinrepass2087
    @justinrepass2087 4 года назад +7

    My new favorite band. They speak the words I've been searching for my whole life. Keep doing what you guys do cause it's working. Every song of theirs I feel in my soul. My life is hell I've had chronic PTSD since 3 years old spent half my life not even knowing. I'm always a second choice. I'm always hated or misjudged, my parents don't even help me through anymore I'm alone and IM NOT OKAY.. I'm never good enough. All anyone ever sees is a devil inside. If my scars could speak they would hear my pain. I'm battling daily and losing. I just want to be okay. I've been a mess for a decade my physical health is spiraling downward doctors have been trying to figure out what's wrong with me half of them said they've never encountered this before those words just make me feel even more alone. Nobody will talk to me I just need people to care cause I feel like I'm the only one going through this and it's such a lonely road I've been walking down. Please someone reach out. 😭😭😭

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад +1

      Appreciate you Justin 🖤 We hear you

  • @countrygirl82494
    @countrygirl82494 Год назад +1

    So many people have made me feel like I'm never good enough. I want people to be proud of me at how far I've come instead of putting me down constantly

  • @bluepadson3698
    @bluepadson3698 4 года назад +2

    This band is so heavily underappreciated. I love them. So much. Near every song I can relate, just like millions of others. I just cannot get enough, and I don't believe I ever will. They are amazing! I swear this is now my new favorite band. Thank you. 🖤💙🖤

  • @idrathernot5589
    @idrathernot5589 4 года назад +8

    No matter what happens it feels like Citizen Soldier will always be there. This music pulls me through every bad day and carries me through the worst. Like no matter where I end up I'm not alone. Thank you

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад +2

      Of course. We will always be here 🖤🙏🏻

  • @zaknafienchase7504
    @zaknafienchase7504 2 года назад

    To my brothers, my sisters, my fathers, my previous friends, society as a whole. This group makes dedicating music easy for me.

  • @camillehernandez7362
    @camillehernandez7362 4 года назад +5

    This song hits hard ! Everyone is good enough dont let people put you down. Walk away from negativity it's not worth the heart ache .I was put down. All my life and believed it Not no more Thanks love the lyrics will be listening to other songs have a great day

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад

      I’ve been there friend. Thanks for sharing the kind words 🖤🙏🏻

  • @inactiveaccount7617
    @inactiveaccount7617 5 лет назад +4

    Citizen soldier for ever, BEST BAND EVER

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +1

      The black Cat thank you so much. Much love to you 🖤🤘🏻

    • @inactiveaccount7617
      @inactiveaccount7617 5 лет назад +1

      @@CitizenSoldier yw 😊 btw keep up all the amazing songs and work

    • @alicekuze9560
      @alicekuze9560 5 лет назад

      I came to this band a year ago and I am very happy to have found this unique band.🙂
      they are the best for me 😊

    • @inactiveaccount7617
      @inactiveaccount7617 5 лет назад

      @@alicekuze9560 same

  • @lexusbutler9549
    @lexusbutler9549 3 года назад +1

    I fought so hard to get out of this dark place I’ve been in for six years and now I’m falling back down. You guys’ music is keeping me from going mental thank you for everything you have done

  • @22pilots
    @22pilots 3 месяца назад +5

    "Failure from birth" well i can relate.

  • @Max_the_he
    @Max_the_he 4 года назад +5

    " what you want I'll never be, why can't you be proud of me"
    Cuts deep,way too deep
    I found this song through a playlist,and live citizen soldier never let's me down,never

  • @Sunny-Bunny7567
    @Sunny-Bunny7567 4 года назад +2

    This and "I'm Not Ok" pretty much perfectly sum up my mental state in less than 4 minutes

  • @daxsprit6520
    @daxsprit6520 4 года назад +154

    "I never asked to be like this"
    "A grave mistake you can't forgive"
    "A filthy stain oh what a shame"
    "Can you just wash me away?"
    This whole song hits hella close to home but especially this part hit me so damn hard.

  • @meizawesomez8714
    @meizawesomez8714 5 лет назад +7

    I write stories, your guy's music is awesome inspiration

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +1

      Meizawesomez so glad to hear that. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?

    • @meizawesomez8714
      @meizawesomez8714 5 лет назад

      @@CitizenSoldier no, at least not all of it yet. But slowly I am.

  • @rainwild374
    @rainwild374 2 года назад +1

    This song is how I feel living with depression and ptsd I thought I rather be dead than letting everyone down all the time I came very close to ending it someone found me and God said you are getting a second chance

  • @bloodyfangz3904
    @bloodyfangz3904 4 года назад +3

    I just found you guys and I'm already in love with the music. I write stories to help me, but then there's times I can't think of the words to describe my emotions and you guys are either mind readers to understand how most people feel.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  4 года назад +1

      It’s all from the heart friend. Glad you found us 🖤🙏🏻

  • @roseberryproductions
    @roseberryproductions 3 года назад +3

    I forgot I put this in my playlist and this perfectly describes what I’m crying about

  • @joedeghetto5768
    @joedeghetto5768 Год назад +1

    This song hits so close to home, I thought I was the only one who felt this way. This song is my therepy

  • @raventherebel2996
    @raventherebel2996 5 лет назад +374

    *How I am when it comes to my best friends*
    “I would rather die tonight. Than let u down one more time. Sick of coming undone. Letting down everyone”
    *When it comes to my family*
    “What you want I’ll never be! Why can’t u be proud of me!? Sick of coming undone letting down everyone mediocre at best maybe better off dead am I a failure from birth is misery what I deserve!?”
    *How I am with my friends and family*
    “I hate to disappoint you. Everything you give me. I SOMEHOW WILL DISGRACE!
    I NEVER ASKED TO BE LIKE THIS. A GRAVE MISTAKE. YOU CANT FORGIVE. A FILTHY STAIN. OH WHAT A SHAME. CAN YOU JUST WASH ME AWAY!?”

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  5 лет назад +34

      Raven the Rebel I think a lot of people feel the same way. Glad you’re connecting with our music and lyrics. Thanks for giving us a chance 🖤🤘🏻

    • @raventherebel2996
      @raventherebel2996 5 лет назад +12

      Citizen Soldier ur very welcome. Everyone needs a chance. And i tend to replay each of ur songs to the point I can sing them word for word. I memorized Caroline and 15 minutes of fame that I can sing them perfectly without looking at the words

    • @krystianbinek5157
      @krystianbinek5157 5 лет назад +3

      Same...just same

    • @michaelcunningham9313
      @michaelcunningham9313 4 года назад +1

      Same😔😥