Citizen Soldier - Would Anyone Care (Official Lyric Video)
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Citizen Soldier u rock
Don’t stop doing what u do
Thank you for another Earth Shakingly beautiful and powerful song. So glad to be a fan of you. Your words resonate so deeply with me and everyone else! Thank you!
Love the song. Feels like what going though. It makes feel i not alone
This song honestly saved my life, I've felt so alone with my depression and I've been losing my grip. All I've felt for so long is darkness this made me feel light. Thank you all and I hope you keep saving people like me. The world needs more heroes. 🖤
Sleep isn’t even sleep anymore. It’s just an escape from reality...
Stay strong 🖤
I feel this
Sup, we have the same profile picture
Have a great day, y'all amazing
People always wonder why I used sleep so much. I used it as my escape as well. But I started having nightmares. So now that break I would get is gone.
@@dillypop1999 I used to have nightmares all the time as a kid. Til now I don't ever fall asleep into the rem sleep that's needed for dreaming. But still the few nights a year that I do recall the dreams, they're still nightmares... "No rest for the wicked" as they say lol
“I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make other people happy because they know how it feels to be absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else feeling that way”
Man you didn't have to call me out like that. But your Right I like seeing people achieve what I cannot it brings me some joy seeing them happy.
This is twin and my life... We always help our friends during their dark days because we know the feeling well and that feeling is not healthy
Well, I feel called out lmaooo
I felt this on a spiritual level…
Thats how im currently living my life and im glad but i also hate it 😭😭😭
The worst part of depression is feeling like you're already dead, just trying to do whatever it takes to feel alive
So true. That’s a great lyric!
I feel this, when I had my worst spout of depression I often used five finger fillet as my "self harm" because of the adrenalin rushes and the pain that was so sudden and "unexpected"
I don't deserve to feel alive
Emma Morehead yes you do. Idk what you are going through but am willing to listen if you ever need to talk. May GOD bless you❤️
Hope things get better for you. May GOD bless you. ❤️feel free to message me anytime.
People say "Be yourself"... But the moment they see the you that's true and happy, they ruin that by calling you a freak... But when you put on a mask and pretend to be someone you're not, they love you and call you a saint... The phrase has lost it's meaning thanks to hate... Can't they see I'm trying...? Can't they see how much I'm struggling to accept myself if I'm not who they want...? It's like this body isn't even mine...
...
Thank you for existing. All of you. The ones who made this song. The ones who stopped to read the messages of pain from the others. I'm still alive thanks to you. My heart has a reason to continue beating. Thank you.
no, thank you
🫂
This is why I’ve perfected the art of changing from who I am to who people expect until they tell me they are my friend then they learn the insanity they have on their side
@@jameschipman-td2cuSame
Stay strong. We will be ok. We have to be ok
The thing I love most about this song is how it doesn't talk about how you committing suicide would affect others, it talks about how you shouldn't care what others think but only care about how much you love yourself, how unique you are, how you are like a snowflake, your that one person out of 7 billion. Your that one unique person. No one is like you and that should be reason enough for you to live.
Thanks for sharing that 🖤
No one else is like me? That's a fuckin blessing. If there were two of me thered be two family's who have to shoulder this BURDEN
On that note I remember my ideas and just how much they could change humanity if I could allow them to be fully realised, PS I study the sciences
I love that. It's telling you to live for you not who others want you to be or because of what others want form you.
Yeah, I'm unique. Doesn't mean worth preserving. There is nothing out there for me to look forward to. The therapist has run out of answers. I do not trust my parents, nor do I really respect them that much anymore after spending a year with them and getting a long look. I'm only holding my sister back by hoovering up resources.
When a dog is blind, deaf, and facing kidney failure, do we try to extend its life at all costs? Or extend mercy and put it down? Animals know when their time is up. Yet when a human accepts that there is no life left to live and that they are permanently damaged or defective beyond all accommodation or repair, people insist we aren't supposed to find peace. If I had a spine, I'd walk out into the cold to die.
Balling in tears from the song. Sounds alot like when my depression tries to be mean but i fight through it to live for the people I love.
Love that you get it. Keep fighting friend. You're not alone.
We can do this
I was in tears myself within seconds. I've been where you are. You are not alone. Keep fighting- it's worth it! ❤
Hang in there bro, ik I'm just some dude on YT but there are people who care, and if you can't stand alone stand with them :) you probably already knew that but it's good to hear it again eh? Well stay strong if not for yourself then for others
Love that song so much
People ask why I love "sad" songs, to me they aren't sad songs. They're songs that allow me to release my pent up emotions in a controllable manner and instead of exploding into a flood these songs allow me to let these emotions flow through my body like a river. In my opinion no song is ever "sad", they are always inspirational or soothing. Whether it may seem sad to me but it may seem comforting to the next person, that is why I love songs like this one, no song is ever too sad for one person.
P.S. Edit
We all deal with struggles and our own battles, but I wish for everyone to remember a war is never won alone, please remind yourselves you are never truly alone. Mental health is a serious issue, suicide may seem like the right answer when your vision and thoughts are clouded, but that is only because mentally you are clouded and the path is blurred, and I wish more people/studies spread this reality that it is HARD to see the proper pathway when blinded. Never bottle yourselves up for other peoples sake, Never allow yourselves to be chained down by the demons, Never forget that someone else somewhere in the globe is fighting a similar battle, and Never forget that a war is won together. Stay strong everyone, and Never let the light fade from your hearts.
I love sad songs to but I don’t cry from them they just help me express how I feel and are nice to listen to.
I agree
People go threw thing unimaginable some give up some don’t but are depressed there whole lives cause things didn’t go right
I love this song cause I feel this way I think people need wake up too many people die cause of stupidness just cared for one another no matter what religion n wanting power thst doesn’t exist people be better off but it won’t ever happen just war people love war they think they do
I ranted I’m sorry
From someone that is struggling with living I just Wana say I love you all
We love you to my friend, stay strong, whatever struggles you are going through you can overcome them.....God bless you my friend.....
I love you ❤
You can do this, it sucks, but hang in there. Tomorrow is always a new day, you can get through!
I hope you're still there, I'm struggling too but we need to keep going
Thanks for all the support
when my youtube recommendation knows my feelings better than people around me
Glad you found us 🖤
exactly.
Be careful not to care and keep fighting cause after closing off all ya feel is regret hard to have any other emotions besides anger and regret so if ya are depressed fight it but dont let it consume you
I have to agree with you on this one
Lol I was just thinking this
random people: why do you listen to music all the time? socialize once in a while.
me: music knows how to comfort me more than people do.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...❤️
I know the feeling man. Stay strong
So true
So true im 35 and its my muse
We don't know each other but keep going. I know it's hard. Sometimes it's the hardest thing to do. Don't give up.
"I've never felt worthy of love I would give up everthing I have just to feel good enough." That hit me hard......
Thanks 🖤
Ditto
That's actually how I'm feeling right now. For the last few days I've been thinking about suicide because of how worthless I feel. I seen messages between my so called boyfriend and another female talking how they love each other and things that you would say to someone that you're in a relationship. I confronted him about it and he denied everything and said he was hacked.
@@bethbranch8749 hey girl i hope you are doing fine. You are worthy of everything and please keep going. Someday everything will make sense. Ily x
@@putrinugrahantie6351 I hope so. I have PTSD from many years of mental and emotional abuse. Seeing that my "boyfriend" is doing what he's doing adds on to my thoughts of worthlessness and increases the idea that suicide is the way to go.
This sound is so wonderful. The person who is reading this comment, I wish you great success, health, love and happiness!
I am a high school student and sometimes i just want quite life like how my grandpa die when i was little and at his funeral i didn't not what happening and just thought it was a happy time i remember this moment like it was yesterday
i always thought he will hate me because of that
😢thank you I needed this😊
"I would give up everything I have just to feel good enough"
Hits so hard...
Glad you feel it 🖤
Hope you are a little okay. May GOD bless you. ❤️
@satan's son me too
Sometimes those with the brightest smiles hide the darkest pain
That's Me
Me🥹
This song reminds me of what I have and what I need to do to overcome the pain of the past.
Ya that's true
I imagine you are someone like this as well. I really hope darkness is not all you know and it actually made you see the light. "Cause stars are only glowing in the night, but when sunrise comes, you need to hold your hand up above your head to embrace the winds of life." My grandma told me this when I was a child, innocent and not understanding the depths of her words. Today they are what keep me breathing and believing, so I hope they can also guide you through some of your pain.
Therapy is going to their concert and screaming out the lyrics while crying.
I can feel it 😭❤
LOVE THIS COMMENT. So much. Thank you!
Therapy upon enjoyment equals CS...thank god
That's one hell of a amen!!❤🤘🏻
Facts
I’m 30 and I’ve been struggling with depression, self harm, and suicidal thoughts since high school.. 10 years of self harm, a couple suicide attempts.. I 100% feel this song.
i feel yu my parents were going to put me on a suicidal watch 3 times.feels nice to have someone relate to
At least she got to high school.I was in middle school when those thoughts just started
In my 16 years of living 5 suicide attempts, Cuts through my left wrist (Just there no cut in my right) didn't hide but no one sees except if i let them
@@artanisshimada5018 In my senior high
❤
"Would anybody want me
If they knew what was inside my mind"
These lines hit me 🙄
me too
Same!
Yes 💯 percent they would want you just don't be afraid to open up an talk about what your going threw it always helps even if it's just to God he's always listening
@@childofgod1458 no one wants a psychopath.
@@fluff5 that’s 100% not true lol some specifically seek out psychopaths, although some do it unintentionally there are those who knowingly and willing seek out psychopaths as partners/lovers/friends/business associates etc.
The most devastating part is when you can relate every each line of this song 💔:)
I can feel you( ⚈̥̥̥̥̥́⌢⚈̥̥̥̥̥̀)
@@fariha9083 🙏💔
I’ve been able to relate to it for the past 8 years. I’m surprised I haven’t fully given up yet.
Don't I know
I'm right there with you buddy. It's hard
When I was sixteen I found my best friend dead from a self inflicted gunshot wound. It changed my life forever. I've suffered ptsd, extreme depression, and cripple anxiety. Also have been severely socially damaged because of said instance. I simply don't let people close to me..I recently got out of an incredibly abusive marriage and these past few months have been a serious low point.
It all boiled over last week when I planned on taking my own life. I knew exactly how I was going to do it, and was in the process of writing my goodbyes to my loved ones, when this song randomly played on some sad boy playlist I had running. I listened to it all the way through and by the end was a blubbering mess. I was really gonna put my loved ones through the same trauma that has tormented me throughout my entire adult life. When he talks about how "the world would be changed" those words run deeper than they appear on the surface. The world as a whole may not change. But somebody's definitely will. Hell I don't even know why I typed this out honestly. Not sure if it will even be seen..just wanted to say that this song holds tremendous power..
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
Thank you for being here and thank you for being strong... Your friend is always by your side even when you can't see him he shines as the brightest star to safe you.... You just have to look out the window at night❤️.... owee... And shine with pride in this mean world, don't let the pain make you hurt, don't let the bitterness steal your sweetness, You love, you laugh, you life, you do experience, new things.... you fall, you stay, you get up and say there is much more to see...❤️💫
I went through losing my bestfriend when i was 16 aswell, he died of a bloodclot stopping his heart. I suffer from ptsd, manic depression and bad anxiety. Ive been in an abusive relationship and was with someone that was there for me through thick and thin. Just recently she walked out on me and i thought about suicide. Writing a note out to my daughter. It's hard being strong but im getting very close to completely breaking down
@@rickywookierudd24rutledge2 I ´m sorry for your history. A huge hug !
Please stay strong, and keep walking through the dark tunnel. Things will be ok, eventually. I don't know how long it will take, but things will be ok in the end.
@@rickywookierudd24rutledge2 Please stay strong. Remember that as much as your best friend dying hurt you, it'll be ten times the pain for your daughter, as you had done it to yourself, and you're her family. Please stay strong, and don't be afraid to ask for help. Remember that many people, a shocking amount, really, have gone through something similar, and that many have made it through it. Tell your loved ones if your having suicidal thoughts, at the very least, and maybe read the stories of suicide survivors, and take hope that like them, you'll be ok. It may take a while, but in the end you'll make it out. And also, the world would be a much darker place without you, at least for your friends and family, in fact most everybody who knows you. Take hope that things will turn out ok, and be strong, but it's ok to not be strong all the time, it's ok to cry to any loved ones, and even if they don't fully understand, they will try to help. And if they don't, then remember that they are the problem, THEY are the bad people, and try to cut them out of your life. It doesn't help to see toxic people, and will only make things worse. Surround yourself with people who will do your best to help.
Eyes - crying
Body - tired
Arms - bleeding
Heart - pain
Mouth - lying
i feel you, i cry also your not alone
Womp womp this is why no one likes you 😴😴
Me rn I hate myself I keep messing up and I don't see a way out of this
I know exactly how you feel. But there's always a reason@@TsionAb-tc2my
@@TsionAb-tc2mysame...
After feeling like a failure for a while, I needed this so much.
So glad you found it 🖤
Same. Been behind on a lot of work lately. No really feeling worth anything. So I came here for hope.
I'll share my hope with you. ♥️
We are in this together. 💪
I really feel you, ive lost the one I love and its all my fault.
I agree with Helzr we are here together.
you know a song is from the heart when you have literal goose bumps
Glad to hear that 💜;
@@CitizenSoldier I love this song ... it’s the way I feel.
@@CitizenSoldier not gunna lie heard this song when it was needed thank you
Or when it feels like gunshot wound round two
Thx
As someone who attempted suicide 3 years ago and survived, I personally think this is the best song ever written on suicide prevention, because it does something unique, it's final lyrics can be interpreted in 2 different ways.
Other songs like _"Why?"_ (Rascal Flatts) or _"How to save a life"_ (The Fray) focus mainly on the way your own suicide would make *_others_* feel in hopes that knowing so will stop you from doing it in the future. And that approach is good, and effective, after all, some people are desperate to be reminded how much their loved ones would miss them, like the lyrics in this song express. And in fact I think the lyrics of this song can also be interpreted this way (more on that later).
However, I think the final lyrics can also be interpreted in another way, as in saying: *It shouldn't matter how others would feel! What matters is that you're unique, and that's an undeniable fact, even if no one can see it.*
Notice how the lyrics don't change the question format after the bridge when talking about how others would feel: _"Would anyone care? Would anyone cry?"_
But when talking about the change your death would bring to the world, the lyrics drop the question format, the lyrics are now stating themselves as a fact (because well, from this point on, they indeed ARE a fact): _"The world would be changed! If you left it behind, you can't be replaced no! Tonight is the night you take back your life!"_
Sure, the latter lyrics can also be interpreted as a response to the questions made by the former lyrics as in: *Would anyone care? Of course they would, you are unique.* But that makes it even more brilliant! It reminds the listener that he probably has someone who would indeed miss him, but at the same time it *empowers* him by reminding him that self-worth can come from within and that he does NOT need anyone else to see his worth, because he is a unique individual, and that's an undeniable fact!
I know there's 1 in a 10,000 chance you see this, but in case you do, thank you Citizen Soldier for giving us this amazing song!
Wow thanks for sharing all that 🖤 Appreciate you
I attempted suicide and survived last year
@@hannahwood3564 How are you doing now?
@@silversuperfan1412 well I've been in and out of hospitals for the past 4 years, but I do have to say I am doing wonderful. I still have my ups and downs but I get over them within a week or so
@@hannahwood3564 That’s good to hear!
Four years ago I was balling my eyes out listening to this, on my lowest point.
Now, I come back to say that everything changes and that sometimes is for the best
"The mirror is my best friend because when i cry it doesn't laugh"
-Anonyme
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are..
And it shares Your pain and cries with You... but cannot help You either, like a cold piece of ice, only reflects your tears and what's behind You... and in the end, when the light goes down, even a mirror can't reflect anything. In the darkest times only a source of light can show the way - wether it's a friend with a candle or a lost wanderer who started a fire and waits for other wanderers to come and sit next to him to share their stories...
Anyway, have faith, I wish You all the best, Buddy
*Charlie Chaplin
You're right, it's judging me.
I look ugly while crying
"I'd give everything to feel good enough"
Amen to that.
How can written words from someone else's soul see inside mine?
@@tashac436 that's how REAL MUSIC is supposed to be
True
Same here... I always think this...
Hide and Seek isn’t fun when nobody is looking for you
-Abigail Black
🖤
That’s deep 😔
That hit hard
so true, altho i don't like hide and seek this message hit me hard...
I found you.
You sing what my words can't say. I 've almost always feel invisible. And i hold on, waiting for someone who would care enough to see me, to validate my existence. Strange thing to say but I really need a hug...
"If your dying inside sick of being alive let me in let me share in your pain..."
I have waited so long for someone to tell me that, thank you
Can I join plz
Me toooooo.... Oh it hurts, no one (not even my folks) has told me they love me
@@LizA-fx4oi I don't know you but PLEASE know that YOU are LOVED! I am sending you Lots of love and hugs 🤗 ❤
I Love You!
I think everyone should have someone in their lives to tell them that their loved, this song did it for me
@@twilightstars873 Of course, you don't even need to ask.
“I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it's like to feel absolutely worthless and they don't want anyone else to feel like that.”
~Robin Williams
I love this song, it and "I'm Not Okay" perfectly describe me right now.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
I agree a hundred percent💯
I hate seeing anyone get to the depth I've been in. I've been through enough tried killing myself enough and I'm not even 30, im pretty alone but struggle through it all to push on to help others but I'm soo tired, I just want my 1 to finally shine a path for me.
No-one should ever feel this way as I know the results and I'm way past gone, but I will be your platform to rest should you need it I'll help you stand even if I can't. I may not feel the love I need and my armour is cracked and falling apart as i but I will not stop loving you all ❤
@@lill_sweets3271 there she goes again :3 but its true life might not be easy but if you work hard enough you can achieve anything
That quote is just... AMAZINGLY SPECTACTULAR!! You matter, guys!
The fact that so many people relate to this like I do breaks my heart
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are..
@@Anonymous-te5me Thank youuuuu❤️😊
I know it’s hard
The sad thing is some of us got comfortable here in the deep, dark hole were in
I know how u feel my family don't give a damn about me
How am I just now finding this artist?!?! After 6 weeks of breaking down everyday, after he walked out of my life without a backwards glance. These songs...I am in awe!
You know why this hits so hard?
Because this is what you think when you're about to give up. The final moments.
Because this song has the ability to pull someone off the ledge. To save them.
Because it speaks of what truly fuels the depression.
Love this song endlessly.
Are you doing okay?
Yes, I'm doing fine. I got help and no longer am in depression.
Just that those memories and emotions won't fade away.
Thanks, for caring.
You have described it perfectly❤️
saved many
Guess my final moments happen everyday
The worst part of severe depression is that no one even notices unless you hurt yourself.
Edit: Ain't nothing to do but pick yourself up and keep moving forward. Thank you so much for your music.
It definitely is easy to keep to yourself at times. Talking about it is definitely key to healing 🖤
@We Are All Human Love Is Love Keep looking for therapists until you find one that works for you. Sometimes it just takes the right person.
It can't be more true, no one ever notices how you are even if all the signs are there..
I know I'll sound harsh but you can't blame people for not noticing when you're the one who chooses to wear the mask, you have to take control of the situation yourself, even if it's hard. Healing starts with yourself. People already have enough to get through with everyday... You're not alone but help others helping you.
I've been severely hurt by this comment because of how true it is
Come one guys
We are suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide isn't the answer.
So stay alive.
Stay strong 🖤🙏🏻
The thing is we tell others don't do it ur worth it yet ur going through the same thing and u can't tell yourself u r good enough and u don't feel it aggghhhh i have a headache
I have struggled with depression not developed but biological but if I a fat kid who can’t do much can make it through then others can but if there is one piece of advise I can give is don’t hide it the longer you hide it the more it builds until your personal day of judgment and finally bring the knife to your neck if you have let it build it becomes almost impossible to stop yourself so when you get to that point remember that someone wants you around and If you’re not there you could send another person into their own depression telling themselves they weren’t enough to keep you here so if you won’t keep going for yourself do it for other people. Now I know people won’t see this but if you do spread the message that someone needs you and you will soon find something to stay in this world for
I want to trade my life for someone who wants it, someone fighting cancer, or a kid starving.... But it's impossible
@@emmam7427
Don't say that
This song touched my heart, 3 years ago. It taught me to listen to people who are in pain and be there for them. This song taught me to be a selfless hero, holding a light for those in the dark.
Always hit right in the feels every song
That's the goal. So glad you enjoy it
Agreed
Great song
Great song guys hits really deep and makes you reflect on your own feelings keep up the good work
@@ryanbartlett6957 that's the purpose. The world needs to wake up and realize that you are only given one life and only when you have taken the moment to make a change to in whatever it may be ; is when you have a moment of clarity of what needs to be done for yourself and this Earth. So don't EVER be afraid to make a better life or change for yourself and others cause we all have to take back our lives and instruct the lives of the our generation and generations to come in order to save our World we live on and call EARTH ❤️.
“Would anyone see me for the person that I really am?”
RUclips recommended this song for me, and I am crying right now. I have never met a person who would do any of the things in this video. I made friends with a video.... Thank you citizen soldier.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
The world is mean and will always be!! Just shine with pride in this mean world, don't let the pain make you hurt, don't let the bitterness steal your sweetness, You love, you laugh, you life, you do experience, new things.... you fall, you stay, you get up...❤️💫
@@lill_sweets3271 you are so sweet! This made me cry..... Thank you.... thank you for those words. I needed to hear this.... 🥺😭
@@cancerascendant6184 Your Welcome ❤️😊... When you need someone I'm always here to listen...❤️
Appreciate you 🖤
Sends hugs
Depression is like drowning while other people are screaming at you to breathe
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are..
@@lill_sweets3271 thank you
@@kittencat101 Your Welcome 😊❤️
*without other people screaming at you to breathe
That hurts.... 🙂
This song is the reason I'm super nice to ppl n make sure they r alright. Of course those who r mean to me I stand up for myself or began cutting out negative ppl because of citizen soldier. Thank u ❤
It hurts when you relate but what hurts even more is knowing that no one really understands but they pretend to and they pretend to care when they don't... :(
We know the feeling Zoey
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
@@lill_sweets3271 thank you so much
@@nooneimportant4712 Your Welcome.. when you need to talk i am always here to listen❤️
@@lill_sweets3271 thanks... Same to you ❤
Citizen Soldier : You can't be replaced, no, tonight is the night
You take back your life.
Me : I promise I'll try my best. If I fail, I will try again and again and again.
Love the great attitude. Rooting for you 🖤🤘🏻
@@CitizenSoldier Not only me, please, we are a family in this community. I know I`m not alone with this story.
We can do this mate
I have your back if you ever need to talk to someone ❤️
Yes, mate. We will fight. We're all in this together. 👊🏼🖤
"spoken straight from the heart" was where it stopped just being a relateable song and started being a message of healing and understanding. Thankyou for having a heart so compassionate of others to send out this message of hope during such madening times.
Glad you picked up on that. Meant every word.
"Would anyone care? Would anyone cry?"
Yes, I did, nearly 20 years ago. And I will always do. You won't be forgotten. As long as I live, you are at my side. Thanks for this wonderful song.
Stay strong.
true
@@BrookelynKirk Always. And some day, I will see her again! Will be a happening. Until then: I will stay here and do things, she would have appreciated!
"Would anyone want me if they knew what was inside my head" hits hard for a person with intrusive thoughts
Thanks for listening 🖤
Yes, that was basically my life mantra
Same
I know the feeling. I'm terrified of letting anyone know half the things I think because I know they're not things that are acceptable in society...it makes it hard to get close to people when they can tell you're keeping secrets... But some secrets... Some things are too dark to let out into the light of day... So you suppress them further and smile like everything's okay when those thoughts are digging their way into your mind and tearing you apart from the inside out...
As much as I hate to admit it: if I were to go see a counselor it would be the worst and most terrifying and heartbreaking nightmare of their life to open up what is inside my head.
They themselves would need counseling after one session with me.
Be the reason someone decides to stay
This comment made me cry because i can actually relate to this ^^'
Yes please do 🥺
I try to be the reason someone stays. My sister says I'm the only reason she stays here, and she's the only reason I stay here too.
that's so beautiful .
This song hits different while you're listening to it and reading the comments at the same time.
Thanks 💜
It definitely does. Stay strong and God bless you
Yeah
Facts
ikr... I'm singing this while crying a lot
I committed suicide almost two years ago I was in hospital 4 months n was told I wouldn't be able to move ever again, I lost all my friends except one besides family he was to show up at my bedside, thank you Gilbert Gracia you are my family , love you brother , God kept me here for some reason not quite sure what for but I'm getting my strength back and am able to walk n move my arms now better than ever , only God can say when it's over so if ur contimplating suicide it's really not up to u when God calls u it's up to him , God bless all the people going through it right now , and let's all try to be there for one another the world is already hard enough let's lend a hand n ear to those struggling, no one is better than the next we all go thru things, I love everyone n hope n pray God saves us all in Jesus name amen!!!
Hello, I saw your compelling message of surviving through attempted suicide and see you big man in faith of God, as you know there are several people who goes the same attempts or takes of life, but, do you know actually that God know your thoughts and demons/burdens you go through before you know those powerful thoughts that are make them to seem delicate beyond no return! God truly know what you are going though and want to help, maybe you can relate to this article as I am Jehovah's witnesses that come across people who need God most to saved themselves or know who actually truly cared about and know the world we go through! If you have any questions turns to the bottom of the page the link takes you to see more a location where you more information or get more answers, for examples, Why God kept me alive and wanted to lived on? Takes care and thank you for actually reading this message of encouragement and understandment to compressing know what you going though as know too, Johnathan Dobesh
www.jw.org/en/jehovahs-witnesses/activities/help-community/saved-from-suicide/
I get it I'm alone I can't kill myself cause I believe I'll go to Hell yet it feels like Hell being alive as well even though I'm round people I still feel all alone
So happy you're safe! I hope you find happiness in life.
What did you do to be in hospital for 4 months if you dont mind me asking i just got out yesterday afternoon from overdose
Parents: you're so worthless!
Friends: you're kind of annoying.
Society: can you do anything right?
School: you're a failure!
My brain: just give up, nobody would care.
Music like this: don't worry, everything's gonna be okay.
We hear you 🖤 Stay strong friend
Bro I feel that.
Keep going you're WORTH MORE than you feel/think I promise you are loved!!
so true dude everyone here understands you
There's exactly how it is with me everyone thinks I'm worthless and can't do nothing right and when I try to do something right people take advantage of it to the point that I feel worthless, more than what I am
I often bounce between being perfectly fine to quietly wishing I didn't exist. Songs like this go a long way in keeping me around and alive. Thank you for your fantastic music.
I don't think anyone WOULD care if I gave up, but the thought that someone might is comforting. I love this song.
Same here. Sometimes I enjoy life but but I have weeks where I curse my existence even after turning 30 years
I feel the same way, but we'll all get thru it
@@jonathangoodwin5609 remember that even when you think absolutely no one cares, someone actually does care for you. I am here and you can know that I will care when nobody else does.
Me too n have no one only thing keeps me going is my chiuahua I know no one cares about me unless I had money. I really know one would even come to my funeral no one cares
I had one foot off the ledge just 27 mins ago and 7 mins ago my daughter called me crying that she misses me. I slowly took my finger off the trigger, your music and my baby girl saved my life tonight just now. You speak what's in my head that I can't get out keep up the amazing work and know your music saved a life tonight
How are you doing?
Please live for your daughter man, you are an amazing father, she loves you a lot, take care man.
Yeah please survive your daughter needs you
@stevenleighton8123 Amazing, how are you doing and your daughter. Me and my dad have issues and idk what id do...
Damm bro. I feel you Been there. Like a kick in the chest. It’s tough man. But hang in there. You’re kid needs you. She loves you. And you matter to her. F*** everyone else.
Keep strong guys. Somewhere is indeed a person that cares. And even more ppl would cry...those are just blind now
People who disliked the video have no emotion ...they are heatless...
This really a very beautiful song 👌😍
Thanks! 🖤
I love this song, now I'm listening to it a lot more, and my love for it is just growing stronger
Could just think the feelings which that song awoke are too much for them(which i can relate a little bit), ... for me thats the only reason why anyone could dislike this.
(Sry for my bad english bzw ^^*)
That's so true
If they have no emotion there's a reason for it. If they're heartless someone stole it, either way... give em a smile, maybe a hug if you're allowed to.
Depression is being colorblind and having people constantly tell you how colorful the world is
Wow
Edit: that's deep
So true
I feel this comment alot
I feel that, for the longest time I could only see the bad in the world. I shut myself in and kept telling myself that the outside world isn't worth my time. To this day I still feel that way because I don't know how to feel any other way. You know how bad it is when all you can think is 'I hate' you have nothing to direct your anger at, its just everything, you feel this uncontrollable anger at the entire world, and then once it leaves you, you feel cold. You feel as if the world isn't worth living in. I would know, because that's happening. my anger has left me, and now all I feel is the freezing cold.
@@ErebusAlekos well one day you will find your fire, somthing that warms you
I feel you I hope I find my fire too
I’d quite literally give anything to send this song to my younger self. The line “Would anyone want me, if they knew what was inside my head” hit me like a ton of bricks.
Definitely the hardest hitting line, even now
😢😢😢
Same
😅😅😅😅😊
Fr
Found out last night a former student of mine passed away. He just graduated last year. He showed me this song and told me Citizen Soldier was his favorite group because they understood him. I’m hurting this morning because he left not realizing I’d miss him. 😢
I know i made a comment once but I need to speak from my heart.
Your song saved me. Back then 3 months ago i was on the edge, laying in bath with a sharp blade in my hands. I turned random music to guiet the noises, and that song showed up.
For whole song i was sitting still I didnt dare to move. And Just then i stood up and went to my room.
The lyrics forced me to change my life So I did.
I moved away from my abusive family, I have fiancee who wants me despite my depresion, who sees me for who I really am. I changed my life. You changed it.
I Will always be greatfull for this.
Thank you.
Thanks for sharing that Rhavaen 🖤 Appreciate you. Hope things get better
Well done, I don’t even know you but I’m proud of what you did :) keep on fighting
@@aceofspades9499 I will! The fight is far from over. But to live is to fight I supose.
I’m glad everything worked out. I hope the rest of your life is filled with happiness and joy.❤️
Thanks for sharing that! I have had relatable experiences and it feels good to know that someone else can find hope through music!
We are all in the same game
Just different levels
Dealing with the same hell
Just different devils
But we're in it together.
Beautifully said
I LOVE that
i am not in the same game
I played a lot of Call of Duty zombies in my spare time. And one of the characters said. "It's all a game isn't it? A big twisted fucked up game!!" That resonates with me to this day and it's been like 6 years.
"Would anyone want me, if they knew what was inside my head." I can relate to that 😓
🖤
Me to
Me as well.. I relate to this song in a lot of ways, except I'd never dare to attempt something like suicide. I only contemplate what would happen if I did.
I relate to this line so much, this whole song makes me thing of everything
Yup...me too
If i had found this song 3 years ago when my school life was the worst i wouldn't be nearly as mentally broken as i am now... this song reflects all the feelings i had felt back then... i'm glad a friend convinced me to not THINK i am worthless...
Nickleback: If everyone cared
Citizen Soldier: Would anyone care?
Very different songs but their track is amazing!
So....
Would anyone care if everyone cared?
*Imma head out*
Z a n e T.C.N don't forget would it matter by Skillet
Three Days Grace: Somebody Who Cares
@@alexandraaly3310 so....
When somebody who cares asked "would anyone care if everyone cared?" What will be the answer?
Tried singing this. ended up crying and couldn't even finish the song and do you know what my family said to me
"Wow that was really good you *sounded* like you were actually depressed"... Yeah just sounded
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
Just look outside the window at night... There are millions of Stars and just like humans, you can't always see them but they are here and care... There will be an Angel who protects you and will not give up on you...❤️👼💫
thank you I didn't realise how much I wanted to hear that and I hope you know that you are not alone either.
@@curlysueandspiketoo1621 Your Welcome ❤️😊.. when you need someone to talk I'm always here..❤️
We hear you Caroline 🖤 We know how it feels. Stay strong friend. Appreciate you
Also if you got dreams and think that they're unreachable, life is a test I've learned that the hard way as a child I bounced from doctor to doctor trying to finger out what was wrong with me was misdiagnosed with measle, mono and one other thing can't remember tho, but rn I'm pursuing my three career goals too help my family live a better life and make the money to start a nonprofit organization to help those less fortunate, pro basketball, modeling, and acting, I can't relate to you on how your family said that to you, but I can relate to how it feels to be depressed, it will get better for you, chase your dreams, don't allow anyone to get under your skin don't let them tear you down love yourself for who you are because you are unique we all are in our mysterious ways.
when a song knows more about u then ur self
Thanks for listening 🖤
When a song knows you better than your family.
I just discovered this song by accident and literally just started crying. I feel like this all the time. Like literally nobody would care if one day I was gone
I don't know you at all, but I am sure that you are a beautiful person, and when such a person dies, the world becomes emptier. Please, don't leave this world, it will be worse without you!
I sincerely hope that you will find happiness and love in your life!
I discovered their song "This is Your Sign" via a google search when I was very close to suicide one night. It was probably the only thing that saved me that night.
@@Stargazing_fan i just saw this, thank you for the kind words ❤️
@@WindyBeeStudios glad to hear that I was able to help, even if just a little bit. Stay strong, friend! May you have lots of happiness in your life!
It hurts when you relate. But it hurts even more when people accept you only if you pretend to be what they want you to be.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
We hear you Joanne 🖤
Hehe
Oh shit I've never read anything that hit my core so hard.
Hugs your way! Warriors are strong!
I'm not crying, you are...
I lied. I am crying. Everyone is crying.
It’s okay to let it out 🖤🤘🏻
@@CitizenSoldier ❤
Nah I'm busy figuring out the chords by listening.
💓💓
yeah were all crying
Your song has touched me more than anyone could ever realize. Just wanted to point out. Thank you.
Appreciate you Chantele 🖤 Thanks for listening
Same
Same here
You're not worthless. You're not nobody.
To somebody out there, you're everything. You just gotta wait.
Thank you i needed to hear this 💛
@@fluffylildingo I'm glad.
Just discovered this, and it is so relatable. I'm up at 1 am right now and I just had the best crying session of my life. The ending is what made cry if you wanted to know.
same
Youre not the only one.....🖤
Same, just 3 am. The part that made me cry was the part about people knowing what was really in my head. @1:23
Oh my god me too
My dude...The ending got me too...Thankfully I found this beauty later than never.
There's sometimes when I feel so useless, so alone, so scared. But them I look around me, and I see my mom, my brother, my sister, my friends, all of those who have given me something to look forward to. I'm so thankful for all the things I have, all of this love. But even the strongest people get lonely and scared and that's okay, and as long as you can get back up again, you'll be okay.
So glad you have that support system. Love your perspective. Much love friend
It happens to me too. The exact same
U not alone in this😔
The worst thing of feel alone and useless is see things go worse around u😷☠️
Lefting u behind, and u still stands with the knifes of the life on your back🔪🏞️
But remember, when the worlds trows u at the ground, give the world the farts of joy🤪💨
and stand up, bc there always a reason to continue🚶♂️
If u all alone, talk more, discover more ppl, the u will see that even alone in your house🏠🏬
U not alone in some1 ❤️🤝✌️🥂🍻🎂🥞🍧🍿
Hope everyone reading this get great days in your life🧔🏻✌️
People think depression is a joke but its not its a serious mental illness that can drive a person to insanity please if you see a loved one or a friend who's struggling with depression please tell them your there for them
It’s even worse when it’s hidden and nobody can tell or help
Some people joke about it because it's there way of coping. I'm not like this myself but I know someone who's like this
My parents should have known but...even tho they see that I am almost everyday sad and angry idk why they can't understand that I am not fine...or maybe I'm a good liar...
I wish that I had someone like you in my life bc I've had depression for 7 years now
@@Ally_cb97 even talking to a therapist can really help to let those emotions go
song lyrics haven't ever made me cry like this before. Holding on is hard, not throwing the fight is a spot on metaphor for me. 2:18 most replayed...makes 100% sense.
“If you’re dying inside sick of being alive let me in let me share in your pain from my lungs through the dark spoken straight from the heart let me give you a reason to stay” How tf they know I’m feeling depressed? 😭😭😭
Appreciate you Lynzie 🖤 Stay strong
@@CitizenSoldier Thanks and I’ll try 😔🖤
Stay strong. You will get through this ❤️❤️❤️
Lynizie fielder I’ll be there even if I die too:)
I was always heart broken but I’ll be there for you I’m not that heartless but I’m still depressed
Because they're amazing people in this band and they understand what it means to fight depression. I love these guys and they've helped me get through so many LONG freaking nights these passed few weeks...
As someone who's attempted to actually end it all many times, this song makes me actually want to fight the pain and carry on whether life seems pointless with me in it, if anyone who reads this can relate to my situation, just know that you matter to those around you and to yourself.
The fact that you are even talking about your experience is truly remarkable. The statements you are making are so true. And I want you to know that if you ever feel that way again know that you have touched at least one other person. And you deserve to feel loved just as much as the people you are encouraging. Thank you for sharing
That’s more than true for the 10th Time I was going to try to end it all then I saw this and thought… maybe for once I’ll try you and everyone else deserves the best life has to offer as for me? Let’s just say I don’t know what I’m doing anymore heh…
Put my last car into a tree at 60 mph. No airbag no seat belt. I know the pain.. I know the struggle.. it's a war we fight and usually we fight alone.. stay strong everyone. 💪 there is always a reason to keep moving
Sadly i have attempted the same, for the past 8 years I've had to deal with suffering and listening to this song helped me and my brother a lot with wanting to fight the pain. I can relate but It's true!
I definitely needed to hear that. Thank you.
Another masterpiece and already downloaded this song. I feel this way often and I know I am not alone in this feeling. We were created to love and to be loved. If people loved themselves and each other a bit more the world would be a much better place. So just a message to anyone feeling alone or depressed or like ending it all, you aren't alone and I love you all. ❤
You are so kind. Thank you for your kind words. Much love to you friend, appreciate you so much
@@CitizenSoldier and I appreciate all of you. Thank you for all that you do.
This made me smile, thank you.
Can u send me your music list fam case I dont know how to do it
@@alexpatterson3566 You are welcome my friend. I wish you nothing but the best.
This song still gets me through the worst times and keeps me going, so glad I found it ❤
I would hug every single one of you saying, "You are worthy and you are loved" until you didn't feel that way anymore.
Thanks for sharing that Nia 🖤
Omg that is more than sweet TuT ❤️... such a beautiful comment.
When you actually cry after hiding all these feelings and this song exposes you...
no harm in crying it helps a lot
And then you cant stop crying
Yes i cried and told my mother what was going on at school
@@Nightmares765 im happy for you you released your tears and told someone how you feel thats a major step forward
@@christophersmith-xp5pn Thanks i really did
thanks to this song i have a very strong relationship with my family
Is it funny how your online friends care more about you than your parents, real-life friends, and teachers?
@Isa V it is
yes
My parents try to keep me from my online friends :(
Same sadly. Send you a virtual hug bro, stay strong 💕🤗
Yes it is
This is so real. This song hits too close to my heart and has most of my feelings. I'm broken this way.
My friends: your so lucky to have a happy and easy life.
My life: I’m secretly depressed, my mom is in the hospital, my brother is dead. Crying every night and feeling worthless.
Me: ya. Your right.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
Your brother is always by your side even when you can't see him... When you look outside the window you can see him, because he shines as the brightest star on the night sky to make you happy... He is always here... For you and your mum... Sometimes our life is like a road full off curves but it leads us to something beautiful ❤️
You’re not alone
I give u a virtual hug ❤️
Add a failed marriage to that and me and you share a similar story find me on FB if you need to Jt Goodyear not trying to be weird just sometimes people need relatable people to talk to
@@lill_sweets3271 Thanks for saying that. It made me smile and not a fake one. @Morgane T Thank you for reminding me of that. @Jonathan Goodyear thank you. I don’t have FB. I’ve been trying to talk to people about it. I guess I do need someone relatable to talk about it with.
I feel the same way Sarah. I never reply to anyone, but I feel for you. I have no one to turn too.........
To whoever needs to hear this:
Keep fighting my friend, you're doing great. Every day that you're still breathing is another day that you survived. You'll never be alone, there's always someone willing to listen. Take back your life.
Love this. Thank you friend 🖤
Citizen Soldier is the only band that puts my feelings into words, and even better, into music. There are plenty of other artists whose music and lyrics are relatable, but this is so much more.
So honored you feel we can protect you. Much love
If you’re looking at any other relatable artists, you should check out NF
Yes!!!
I struggle to put how i feel into words or talk about them but they do it for me in so many songs best group ever as far as im concerned! Hope they come to oklahoma someday!
So I take it You've never heard of Ivan B, NF, Flight Paths, RED, Skillet, For King & Country, sadeyes, TRECHOR BOY, ERISU..... I can go on and on
“I would give up everything I have just to feel good enough.”
…That line.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
You and everything you do is good enough ❤️
I heard that
If you have ever been on that ledge, this song hits different...
I’m lucky I found my way back.
Hope and love to you all!
I hope everything can continue to improve for you. Being on the ledge is really bad, I'm glad you could come back from that.
I've found myself on the ledge while listening to this
been there done that. and back to it :> sadly-
its a tough place to be at.... espacially when you've tried to jump off it..-
I get what you mean I haven’t been on that ledge but I have almost made the thin red line on both my wrists and just let myself slowly bleed out and pass away
@@mo2wheelz74 ive done that. Except my brother got to me before i could.
"I would give up everything I have just to feel good enough" how dafuq they know my life struggles???🤧🤧😭😭
We know how it feels. Thanks for listening 🖤
Not giving up on yourself gives you the strength to fight on. I'm with you. ♥️
Your perfect already you don’t know know how many people look at you wanting to be you who inspire to be you your an inspiration to everyone in your life and to those don’t know
No amount of money will ever fill the void inside me
I officially can't feel anything else other than pain.
As I sit here listening to this beautiful masterpiece of a song.. I cry my eyes out this fight going on inside my head is getting extremely hard to fight but I'm truly fighting it... Everything you speak about in this song specifically is what I'm feeling!! I hate the holidays cause I fuckin miss my grandma and all the people I've lost and i feel all alone in life and I'm with my mom...
"I need a reason to not throw the fight" is like what I've been trying to say for over a year now and this song has helped me through it all
Elizabeth I hope you are well never give up never quit
I'm trying to get my boyfriend to understand that line to
Citizen Soldier is just not a band it's an existence that's helping save people from different kinds of awful situations including myself
I can't put into words how grateful I am that Citizen Soldier exists
I've been listening to them for almost 2 years now
All I can say is thank you, thank you so much for making music that speaks to the person listening to it
God bless you and may you guys be successful in every step of life.
Your right, @Fencer. Most music bands make music people want to hear but these guys make music people *NEED* to hear! Their amazing like yourself. I bet if people made music just like Citizen Soldier, the world would be a better place. You matter, remember that.
@@user-zj1wd8ty5r You are spot on my dude
As someone who suffers from depression, especially moments of feeling worthless despite having people who I can say care enough to notice me disappear, this resonates with me BIG TIME.
True i feel like that at the moment
@darthestat8791 i feel your pain and i hope we both get through with it good luck 😮❤
If you're struggling please don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. Feel free to tell me about your troubles. I wish you all the best
@@TK-uz4ts we all try to stay strong but sometimes we cant be
Amen ♡ I hope your depression eases up on you. I have PTSD, this song really does resonate with those of us fighting mental health demons.
When I first heard this song a month ago, I literally cried. It just resonated so perfectly and broke my heart. For the longest time I’ve wondered if anyone would notice or care if I left their lives. I feel so invisible, even in places with people who share similar interests. I just want to feel like I matter to someone enough that I’d be saved if I ever tried to… you know. I want to make friends who actually care and don’t brush me off. Please… let me know if anyone cares
1st time I listened i cryed.
2nd time got every lyric
3rd time to soothe my heart.
I love music. It allows me to feel.
Amazing song!!!!
Amen 🙏
Music is the best thing ever! Can we be friends and exchange music and talk through songs pls 🤗💜🎵🎶🎧
I love music's
im still crying, so me, in every word,so hard to be me
@@clareridley2349 stay strong and I will be praying for you
This song saved my life. I was on the ledge, my depression was winning the war. I had a bad gambling addiction and lost the love of my life because of it. So as I sat there with the blade this song played and I froze and balled my eyes out. I walked away with just a few new scars but my more importantly my life. I have now become an advocate for Mental health issues for men as I feel like this is my purpose. Thank you so much to this incredible band. And remember everyone is loved.
Honored that it helped. Much love to you friend. Thanks for sharing this 🖤🙏🏻
Y'know, even though RUclips's a little messed up, THANK YOU FOR AUTOPLAY, THANK GOD, THANK THINE LORD!
This song makes me cry bc to often i feel this way. I have dealt with a lot and do my best to keep living for my son. I know in my heart it would kill him if anything ever happened to me. But in my head i feel like it would be better to die so the pain would end. Thearpist dont help. My best friend has saved me twice. One day she wont be there though.
Thank GOD. It must take a lot of strength to share this, a lot of people may greatly need it. May GOD bless you.❤️
@@juliethinson9428 You're not alone in this but I am here if you need to talk. Just remember you are loved and wanted. Keep living for your son he needs you. Have a nice day and stay safe!!!😊
I hate knowing that this song brings me right to the verge of tears. After a neglectful childhood and enough mental trauma that my psyche completely broke, I lost myself. I lost the 'stone' that everyone knew, the happy, bubbly child that raised a wooden sword to the sky, shouting about how one day he would change the world. Storm the castle, save the princess, live happily ever after. And *boy, do I wish I could have just given him a big hug. And told him everything would be okay.*
Because that boy was the one that was lost. Nearly committed suicide at age 13. Saved by what he could only call guardian angels. Formless voices telling him to put down the knife. And years later, he questions why. As if his life was some kind of sick joke. High school turned into a waking nightmare as his 'friends' stabbed him in the back one by one, intentionally or not. Until he was pushed to the point of completely losing himself. Every spark was snuffed out, and every dream ripped from his heart and crushed in front of him. Family turned from love to abuse, and his finances dwindled to nothing.
And now, sixteen years later, the husk that lives in that boy's body questions why it was given life. Holding on to it's faith with a deathgrip, screaming to the heavens for help. Screaming to it's 'friends' to save it. Mentally, the light in that husk's world is gone. An abyss of lost souls, screaming for salvation. A monster living in his head, asking him.
"Why? Why do you keep walking forward?
Your body is broken. Your mind has given in.
*So why does your soul resist?*
Why do you refuse the respite I have to give?
Why do you keep dropping to your knees practically every day, fighting yourself over and over in a battle you cannot win?
Your sword is broken, little knight. Your shield lays in shards on the ground.
Accept that you've lost. Accept that you cannot live like this, and just give in."
And yet every day, I have to scream.
"Because I can't give in. Because they chose to save my life.
Because they chose to save me. They told me I was destined to do great things.
Because if I threw it all away, I would be spitting on their memories."
And I want so desperately to find the one that I'm meant to be with. The one who will face the darkness inside me and hold my hand when the time comes to face that beast and kill it. Because as I am now, I am a broken shell of repressed pain and trauma, barely holding itself together. And I want to reclaim the world that boy loved so much. I want to reclaim it. Bring back the sun he loved to bask in. Save the souls he couldn't. To be the knight he wanted to be.
I feel your pain deeply and intimately. I wear those shoes. Difference is they saw me hang myself with the Christmas Tree Lights. And when i lost consciousness they walked out of the room and left me swinging. The lights broke and i woke on the floor alone , no ambulance, lights cutting into my neck. They shut door and told moone . I heard laughter in the livingroom as they sat playing video games . Not a care in the world. Nothing says you mean nothing and are worthless louder than that
I hear you. I feel the struggles. I've been there... Am there. Somehow some way get up every day and wonder what is the reason for my life.
Felt the same. In the end it doesn't even matter. I did find life meaningless and never felt worthy of this life. I jokingly prayed for God to kill me because I was an evil wretched man. All my tears and soul drained.
I laughed at humans and wanted everyone to go extinct because we rush around and around trying to accomplish something and no patience. When we could die any moment and were only here for a little while and vanish like a vapor. Etc etc. I don't think that's the case anymore. It's just part of my testimony. The type of thinking can be somewhat draining
I know how much it hurts I was a foster kid the system failed me I ended up on the streets and then someone reached out me this song makes think of those bad days when I thought I would just give up but there's always something worth trying for
One day, this someone will come. As a partner, a friend or just a kind stranger. Don't give up and stay as strong as you already are.
The first time my mom heard this song was when we went to your show in Denver on April 27th. It reminded her of our neighbor who unfortunately took his own life on April 4th of this year. It makes me cry every time I hear this song. My neighbor took his own life 3 days after I tried to take mine. Fly high, Chuck, we miss you
Thanks you are here❤
Showed this to my girlfriend and after she listened to it she cried in my arms and said "I know you care, I know you care a lot and I love you a lot" and as a metal head this stuff made me feel warm and fuzzy inside. Great stuff
Love hearing that. Thanks for sharing it. Much love
Don't do suicide bois
Remember, there's no respawn
Edit : Wow dude, thx for likes but listen
Sometimes, y need a sugar in ur coffee mate, so you can enjoy it better. Even a sugarless coffee has a sugar in it.
Y need to be chill in this cruel life, that seems wretched, so y can enjoy the sweetest side of it. Just remember, y not alone, not only on internet.
Thanks for listening 🖤
I was thinking about ending it earlier and now I’m laughing my ass off...Thanks
Who said I wanted to respawn
There is no turning back but there is also no touched future. It's like standing inside a glass box. Only eyes to see but no arms nor legs to move. Just like a old stachu with only ears to hear but not eyes or body to move or see.
I had a dream where everyone disappeared, there was no difference to life in the real world. I felt free as I skipped along side the sidewalks in an unknown town. But as I woke up I felt sad.
People life is something to take care of. No it won't change but you can make it better. People might not notice but your have a spark to sparkle your path to good.
Is that not the point...
Maybe I'm a little bit off-topic, but I just wanted to appreciate the fact how supporting people listening to Citizen Solider are. 😊
Not only these in comment section, but also others. I just left a comment below piano notes for this song and the author immediatly wrote me back. Same about the band itself and the fact that they reply every comment below their songs.
The sad part is that sometimes I think that its because most of people here know how it feels to be fogrotten and unnoticed.
I love ya all. Stay safe. 💛
This family is amazing. Love every single one of you 🖤🙏🏻
'broken crayons still colour the same'
-no strings attached
Even if you're broken you deserve to love and be loved❤