I love love love this! "would you like to demonstrate this?" "No" Perfect!! Why do they always ask these nonsensical questions, why don't they just say "I don't think you can do this, because you don't look like you pay attention (eye contact) so I'm gonna force you to demonstrate this in front of the class in order to embarrass you in front of your peers to shame you to change your behavior to be what I want." I would love a world where people spoke that way, it would save me several minutes before I realized they well full of bs and are incapable of earning my respect. You are refreshing and wonderful! Thank you for being honest and being who you are!
So many of your experiences you stated were/are many of my struggles! One of the big ones I had forgotten about was the fact I would completely lose it when anyone tried to put socks on my feet, never liked them!! when I was 4-5, they didn’t care just yelled at me I had to wear socks bc that’s what people do, but I could feel the thick seam across the bottom of my toes and it I absolutely couldn’t stand it. I learned to ignore my body’s internal tension and just “go with it” on surface level. Still hate socks, if I do wear them and go to sleep(rare) I’ll wake up and find them in the sheets where I’ve taken them off in my sleep. My body knows, I just have learned to ignore
i am also autistic(recently diagnosed) and a psychology student! I feel very happy because your channel is quite underrated but im starting to feel like it will become one of my favorites and go tos for tips, overrall insight for essays, and the psych major experience:')) i feel so happy rn
So awesome. I relate lol. So many run ins with mental health services and being on wrong medication and self advocating and you know who realized I am autistic? ME. So glad you didn't give up and fought for yourself. So sad that we have to.
I’ve been a fan of yours since your tiktok psych ward days. Seeing a fellow autistic person succeed in their studies and embrace their unusual interests rather than hide them is so refreshing to see. Your videos about university have inspired me to go back to school after dropping out of year 12 due to poor mental health and autistic burnout, I’m planning on starting an online a level course in September and potentially going to uni after that if I do well :)
you remind me so much of myself. we seem to be quite similar. im not diagnosed yet, but ive been waiting for 3 years on a waiting list for my adhd and autism assessment. in the past i was treated as anxitey and depression and i was pre asessed for bipolar disorder. I also have EDS that i figured out myself too. ive positively identified myself, my sister, my mum, my grandmother and an aunt as autistic. it makes SO MUCH SENSE. i had a doctor recently tell me i was very intelligent for downloading my own raw data for my dna and finding my own genetic mutations that caussed all my issues including my dyscalculia and a tic disorder lol. your awesome. love from toni from scotland x
I suggest you look for 3rd party assessment teams such as "problems shared" in the UK. NHS takes several years, problem shared on the other hand is 12 weeks max wait. Please keep us updated, wish you the best♥️🙏
@zf-xi6ds I so appreciate your comment. Unfortunately the right to choose doesn't apply in Scotland. Also more info- I got diagnosed with EDS and had a mental health asessment which said I'm autsitic and more. So now waiting for OT to see me and refer me back again
Its really hard to navigate when people are constantly being dishonest about their feelings about us too. Its pretty much impossible to get straight forward, kind advice about how others view us so that we can have nore comfortable interactions. It seems like they think telling us white lies is helpful to our self esteem or maybe they're just trying to keep the peace.
Early years part really sounds like autism, not just a child things. I also thought i do not have memories but more i research autism, read books from autistic authors the more memories gradually are coming back. School years part is like tell me you are autistic without telling me, relatable and so obvious 🙂. 31:36 look up monotropism 👍. 33:01 i dont know the names but 2 parts of brain are "switched on or off" the opposite way in autistic brain a therefore what eye contact gives to neurotypicals the same is given by no eye contact to autistic people 33:45 eye rolling as stimming i guess. 41:00 telling stories like Do you remember how this happened to you and how you felt ? that´s how i feel now helps with empathy when told to autistic person. 🧐46:30 Alexithimia probably. 49:00 So much relatable. 51:09 Yes it is autism thing. And this video even do not need autistic title just the one hour of stimming with hair, eyes all over the room,monotonous voice, this ""looks"" autistic so much. I did not learn anything new because i research and learn about autism for 14 months literally everyday so i know ALMOST everything from 1908 - term autism coined by Eugen Bleuler to PDA but still i love to hear more a more autistic stories so Thank you . 😀
Im AuDHD. Diagnosed adhd, undiagnosed autistic. Before my parents came up to me and said that i was suspected AuDHD, i already had my suspicions about the adhd. The autistic one caught me off guard, especially as i have brought it up about 3 years previously, and my parents (both teachers) told me that i wasn't autistic. A few months ago, a video popped up on my shorts about autistic black and white thinking. The example used was "I can't be autistic, because i don't have every single trait." I didn't even feel that called out when I found out about the "white people can't handle spice" stereotype while eating a bowl of plain pasta with salted butter.
First of all, you don’t have “a big schnoz” . I was bullied for probably 7 consecutive years from primary to lower high school and although I will never be able to forget the kinds of things that were said and done to me, but I can avoid thinking about them (maybe that’s not healthy idk but it works for me maybe it would work for others too). Also I really appreciate videos like this. They help me understand what autism is like and how it can express itself. Finally your uni vids have been very helpful and I’m sure they will continue to be as I get through year 2&3, thanks
my (absolutely amazing) english teacher in high school, who totally transformed how I write and understand writing, literally called it bs-ing, it helped me understand it so much!
I know I already commented, but I kept watching and wow lol. You make so much sense and I agree so much. We are very similar. You are just way more smarter than me. But ye wow. Mind blown. Also, I like your nose. Not that it matters.
could i please ask a question, would this be considered a routine or ritual for eating... i used to be over the top about blowing and wiping over my utensils and plate / glasses and such, and if anyone put food on my plate without me doing this and making sure theyre clean i would absolutely lose my head, and my fork, knife and fork i would place them in a specific place and make everything very even and spaced out equally infront of me on the dinner table, yes or no?
@@saskiahdlt i wouldnt have a clue, i cant seem to understand what OCD does or is? i think i have some sort of learning issue because although i can ready it i cant underrstand it really
15:00 teacher: 'pick that item off the floor.' child: picks item off floor. assignment is now complete. now I have an item in my hand, what do I do with this? puts it back where they found it like we're generally taught to.
40:30 "I don't know if you're done speaking". Interestingly, in any form of communication where conveying information actually matters - like on radios in the old days, or in computer protocols - there are rules that tell you that you end a message like this ('over' on the radio, I think?) specifically because it's important to communicate that kind of thing not just make people guess! I did think it would be fun to write a "Human Communication Protocol" in the way people define these things for computers but let's face it, it would get thrown out straight away.
53:00 top tip which I'm guessing you've already discovered: if you find an item of clothing you like, buy two, then you have one to wear when the other is in the wash.
Thanks for this, very useful. Would like to add you are beautiful just as you are, your nose is perfect to me - If I had the funds I'd actually pay you not to change it in any way, shape or form. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, to me you appear super-fine. Are you perfect, not even close but I accept you unconditionally for who you are as a person. Good wishes & God Bless ❤🙏
I love love love this! "would you like to demonstrate this?" "No" Perfect!! Why do they always ask these nonsensical questions, why don't they just say "I don't think you can do this, because you don't look like you pay attention (eye contact) so I'm gonna force you to demonstrate this in front of the class in order to embarrass you in front of your peers to shame you to change your behavior to be what I want." I would love a world where people spoke that way, it would save me several minutes before I realized they well full of bs and are incapable of earning my respect.
You are refreshing and wonderful! Thank you for being honest and being who you are!
So many of your experiences you stated were/are many of my struggles! One of the big ones I had forgotten about was the fact I would completely lose it when anyone tried to put socks on my feet, never liked them!! when I was 4-5, they didn’t care just yelled at me I had to wear socks bc that’s what people do, but I could feel the thick seam across the bottom of my toes and it I absolutely couldn’t stand it. I learned to ignore my body’s internal tension and just “go with it” on surface level. Still hate socks, if I do wear them and go to sleep(rare) I’ll wake up and find them in the sheets where I’ve taken them off in my sleep. My body knows, I just have learned to ignore
i am also autistic(recently diagnosed) and a psychology student! I feel very happy because your channel is quite underrated but im starting to feel like it will become one of my favorites and go tos for tips, overrall insight for essays, and the psych major experience:')) i feel so happy rn
So awesome. I relate lol. So many run ins with mental health services and being on wrong medication and self advocating and you know who realized I am autistic? ME. So glad you didn't give up and fought for yourself. So sad that we have to.
Good videos, can relate a lot, and get what you mean about being overwhelmed/routine/sensory etc driving your mental health issues.
I’ve been a fan of yours since your tiktok psych ward days. Seeing a fellow autistic person succeed in their studies and embrace their unusual interests rather than hide them is so refreshing to see. Your videos about university have inspired me to go back to school after dropping out of year 12 due to poor mental health and autistic burnout, I’m planning on starting an online a level course in September and potentially going to uni after that if I do well :)
Thank you, beautiful. Your story is meaningful and helpful. ♡ I get the frustration and the struggle. Wish you good healing.
you remind me so much of myself. we seem to be quite similar. im not diagnosed yet, but ive been waiting for 3 years on a waiting list for my adhd and autism assessment. in the past i was treated as anxitey and depression and i was pre asessed for bipolar disorder. I also have EDS that i figured out myself too. ive positively identified myself, my sister, my mum, my grandmother and an aunt as autistic. it makes SO MUCH SENSE. i had a doctor recently tell me i was very intelligent for downloading my own raw data for my dna and finding my own genetic mutations that caussed all my issues including my dyscalculia and a tic disorder lol. your awesome. love from toni from scotland x
i also have dermatillomania
I suggest you look for 3rd party assessment teams such as "problems shared" in the UK. NHS takes several years, problem shared on the other hand is 12 weeks max wait.
Please keep us updated, wish you the best♥️🙏
@zf-xi6ds I so appreciate your comment. Unfortunately the right to choose doesn't apply in Scotland. Also more info- I got diagnosed with EDS and had a mental health asessment which said I'm autsitic and more. So now waiting for OT to see me and refer me back again
Its really hard to navigate when people are constantly being dishonest about their feelings about us too. Its pretty much impossible to get straight forward, kind advice about how others view us so that we can have nore comfortable interactions. It seems like they think telling us white lies is helpful to our self esteem or maybe they're just trying to keep the peace.
Early years part really sounds like autism, not just a child things. I also thought i do not have memories but more i research autism, read books from autistic authors the more memories gradually are coming back. School years part is like tell me you are autistic without telling me, relatable and so obvious 🙂. 31:36 look up monotropism 👍. 33:01 i dont know the names but 2 parts of brain are "switched on or off" the opposite way in autistic brain a therefore what eye contact gives to neurotypicals the same is given by no eye contact to autistic people 33:45 eye rolling as stimming i guess. 41:00 telling stories like Do you remember how this happened to you and how you felt ? that´s how i feel now helps with empathy when told to autistic person. 🧐46:30 Alexithimia probably. 49:00 So much relatable. 51:09 Yes it is autism thing. And this video even do not need autistic title just the one hour of stimming with hair, eyes all over the room,monotonous voice, this ""looks"" autistic so much. I did not learn anything new because i research and learn about autism for 14 months literally everyday so i know ALMOST everything from 1908 - term autism coined by Eugen Bleuler to PDA but still i love to hear more a more autistic stories so Thank you . 😀
This video is ASMR relaxing.
Thankyou for sharing your journey.
Im AuDHD. Diagnosed adhd, undiagnosed autistic. Before my parents came up to me and said that i was suspected AuDHD, i already had my suspicions about the adhd. The autistic one caught me off guard, especially as i have brought it up about 3 years previously, and my parents (both teachers) told me that i wasn't autistic.
A few months ago, a video popped up on my shorts about autistic black and white thinking. The example used was "I can't be autistic, because i don't have every single trait."
I didn't even feel that called out when I found out about the "white people can't handle spice" stereotype while eating a bowl of plain pasta with salted butter.
First of all, you don’t have “a big schnoz” . I was bullied for probably 7 consecutive years from primary to lower high school and although I will never be able to forget the kinds of things that were said and done to me, but I can avoid thinking about them (maybe that’s not healthy idk but it works for me maybe it would work for others too).
Also I really appreciate videos like this. They help me understand what autism is like and how it can express itself.
Finally your uni vids have been very helpful and I’m sure they will continue to be as I get through year 2&3, thanks
"Just lie, exaggerate, and bullsh*t, and get good grades" 🤣🤣 Lmao
my (absolutely amazing) english teacher in high school, who totally transformed how I write and understand writing, literally called it bs-ing, it helped me understand it so much!
First video or yours that I've seen. I relate to u a lot, especially with the talking
“Old people smell” made me lol.
I know I already commented, but I kept watching and wow lol. You make so much sense and I agree so much. We are very similar. You are just way more smarter than me. But ye wow. Mind blown. Also, I like your nose. Not that it matters.
Saskia: CAMHS fucked up on that one.
Me (aloud): They fuck up everything.
Saskia: What do they ~not~ fuck up with tho?
Me (aloud): Exactly.
😂💀
Wait so that's why people think I roll my eyes when I don't!!
could i please ask a question, would this be considered a routine or ritual for eating... i used to be over the top about blowing and wiping over my utensils and plate / glasses and such, and if anyone put food on my plate without me doing this and making sure theyre clean i would absolutely lose my head, and my fork, knife and fork i would place them in a specific place and make everything very even and spaced out equally infront of me on the dinner table, yes or no?
hmm, it seems like it, but it almost depenfs why you do it, for example is it related to OCD?
@@saskiahdlt i wouldnt have a clue, i cant seem to understand what OCD does or is? i think i have some sort of learning issue because although i can ready it i cant underrstand it really
15:00 teacher: 'pick that item off the floor.' child: picks item off floor. assignment is now complete. now I have an item in my hand, what do I do with this? puts it back where they found it like we're generally taught to.
18:30 takeaway here: autistic people are better at seeing through bullshit than NTs.
40:30 "I don't know if you're done speaking". Interestingly, in any form of communication where conveying information actually matters - like on radios in the old days, or in computer protocols - there are rules that tell you that you end a message like this ('over' on the radio, I think?) specifically because it's important to communicate that kind of thing not just make people guess! I did think it would be fun to write a "Human Communication Protocol" in the way people define these things for computers but let's face it, it would get thrown out straight away.
53:00 top tip which I'm guessing you've already discovered: if you find an item of clothing you like, buy two, then you have one to wear when the other is in the wash.
Your nose is nice don’t get plastic surgery to change it.
Saskia top cognitive strengths are verbal language and executive functioning.
Thanks for this, very useful.
Would like to add you are beautiful just as you are, your nose is perfect to me - If I had the funds I'd actually pay you not to change it in any way, shape or form.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, to me you appear super-fine.
Are you perfect, not even close but I accept you unconditionally for who you are as a person.
Good wishes & God Bless ❤🙏
Could you do a vid discussing pissing self in year 3?
I have a similar story in year 4😊
Has anyone done any cognitive tests like WAIS? Memory tests? TOL? Rorschach?
Saskia as an Autistic person are you shy meeting new people ?
We are the same person omg
Naur way