Obviously we are strangers but its hard seeing someone carrying this much pain and not be able to offer a hug or a hand to hold. I hope the people and pets who love you are looking after you, and I hope the world treats you as gently as it can while you grieve. Bless. 💛
Dear honey I will be pray for you alot is so hard went you go to pain but pray to God alot he will help my husband dead 4 months a go and I pray alot and God have take the pain away I have alot of peas from God Love Rosa H
I’ve experienced watching closest friends commit suicide, to watching my own father take his last breath. You may not feel it right now but you will get through this that does not mean the pain will disappear but you will make it out okay. Psalm 147:3 - “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” My favorite verse it brings me comfort on the days I feel like giving up completely. Hopefully it gives you comfort on those days as well. We love you so much Maddi. 😥
If YOU want to tell your story please do but please please do not tell it because others want to hear it. Your life is real, your life is not a 20/20 episode! You don’t need to be saying sorry to us for anything at all. You’re hurting & in pain & thats 100% okay! Take your time Maddie 💕💕
Such a loving, sensitive, insightful comment. My heart completely breaks for her and however she decides to grieve and process, she owes nobody anything except keeping herself stable right now and get through the beginning of what will be a lifelong journey.
My heart aches watching this. All I can say is, grieve however you need to. Screaming, crying, punching a pillow, journaling, singing, dancing, taking cold showers, going for a run/walk until you’re exhausted. Do what YOU need to do to grieve in a healthy way. I wish I could I take some of your pain away. Praying for you ❤
Im a silent watcher but I’ve been praying for you. I’m so sorry. I know nothing can be said for what you feel but I’ll definitely keep praying so the Lord can give your strength love and peace and whatever you need during this time. ❤️
You keep that redbull as long as you need. I still have my uncles Guinness in my fridge from three years ago. You do whatever you need. I’m 24 as well, soon to be 25, and dealing with grief, such painful grief at such a young age is incapacitating. You are doing amazing. You are strong, intelligent, beautiful, you are uniquely you, and you can and will get through this with time, community, help, whatever you need.
@@MoreCoffeePlease. Aw, thank you. I lost my mom three months almost to the day after my uncle. He was a father figure. I know what it’s like for everyone to judge you and not understand and think healing is linear, but I had to learn to go at my own pace and heal what I could, when I could. Take days as they came, and go to as many therapy sessions as I could and I still do. It’s almost three years later, I’m still broken but I’m finally finding my way, and you will too no matter what, do whatever YOU need or want, be safe & heal peacefully, to anyone going through this.
It’s always hardest to let go of these things and I say, why should we ever? ❤️ I have seen many times the grief come pouring back to people when they eat the last meal/dessert the person who passed away made. So sad that those either need to be eaten or thrown away. I love the idea of keeping drinks such as that.
I screamed every day and cried until I was exhausted for the first month straight!! It's not your fault!! Please don't blame yourself!!! I PROMISE YOU WILL GET THRU THIS!! JUST STAY STRONG MADDI!! I BELIEVE IN YOU!! I still have unanswered questions but you will learn to cope even though you feel so lost right now. You will know when the time is right and you are ready!! You have soooooo many people who love you and would give anything to take your pain!!! My husband was 24 too. We were having problems and he was in Michigan with his mom and I was in Alabama. He called me around midnight the night he did it and the last words he ever said to me is "It's over" We had to wait for over a week for an autopsy and for them to fly his body back down here for the funeral. They had to call an ambulance for me at the funeral home. I was a mess and I've made it this far Maddi and I see you're sooo much stronger than me!!! God has got you!! Weeping lasts for the night but joy comes in the morning. I'm not sure what verse but it's there. love you!! 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
I'm so so sorry😢 Yorr words and understanding of Maddies situation is needed for her at this time.❤ Thank you. It can't be easy reliving your pain.but you are helping someone else ❤
@@breezeh1127 Thank you! I haven't been a subscriber for very long at all but I suffer from depression and the first time I saw Maddi and heard her say so you want a cute apartment BUT YOU'RE BROKE and then she giggled it literally made me laugh for the first time in several months and she's helped me so much more than she knows!! I just love her to pieces!! My daughter is 28 and I'm 46. I'm literally old enough to be her mom yet she has been the one who's been helping me with her videos all these months. Thank you for your kind words!! I pray God can use me in some way to give her some type of comfort. My heart aches for what she's experiencing right now. I'm so thankful she has so many people who love her!! She's going to need every single one of us!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
@@wodi28179 💜💜 I'm 43 and my oldest daughter is Maddies age. Maddie is such a bright light in a difficult world. I truly feel God can use you and your very hard experience to be that light for her, in her time of need. She asked a while back for anyone who has lived through this to write her at her Gmail. I hope that God can give you the strength to share more with Maddie and to give her advice that can help her navigate this terrible time💔. My husband almost successfully took his life in 2009..he fought for his life in the ICU for 2 weeks but finally woke up. I had a different outcome but I still remember the sights sounds and pain of seeing my husband that way. Much love to you and for you, while you help another. 💜
@@katkatasmr8055 thank you so much! That is truly so kind of you and I appreciate it more than you know! It's been almost 15yrs this Oct 10 and I still think about Tyler at least once a day but it's much easier to cope now than it was then. Maddi just needs as many prayers and as much support and love as we can all send her way! I literally wanted to jump thru my phone and just hug and rock her back and forth when she kept saying I'm not on here doing this for attention!! Bless her sweet soul!! She doesn't have to explain anything to anyone right now!! She needs all the attention she can get when she's up for it and needs to be left to grieve when she needs alone time! I hope you're seeing this Maddi!! Don't you dare worry about anyone judging you and thinking you're just trying to get attention!! We're all your friends and friends are supposed to be there for each other and you need us right now!! So you go live every 5 minutes if it helps you any sweetheart!! Anything that can give you any type of comfort right now should not be questioned or judged by anyone!! 💕💖
I am so sorry this is happening to you and your family! My Uncle committed suicide when I was 13,that was 34 years ago. He was my world. One thing about suicide is people tend to not talk about it, which was what my family did. Thank you for having the courage to share a piece of your story. I am covering you in prayer. The Serenity Prayer has gotten me through many HARD times.
I lost my husband as well. I am proof you will get through this. Lean on those close to you and remember you are loved. It will be hard but just take it one minute at a time if you need to. Grief has no rules or time limit.
My boyfriend of 14 years has recently sought help for his depression and anxiety. He held it in his whole life and he finally worked up the courage to ask for help. He’s so brave. MEN NEED HELP TOO!!!! To all the men here, seeking help doesn’t make you weak, it makes you powerful. To take your life into your own hands when you feel like you’ve been overcome with sadness, takes courage and bravery. YOUR LIFE MATTERS. Maddie I don’t know that you’ll read my comment, but I followed you when you were at about 5k because your happiness and spirit reached me. I’m deeply sorry for your loss, I could not in my wildest nightmares imagine the pain you feel. Please hold on to that light deep in your soul. You’re a strong young woman, and your story resonates with many. You’re not alone. ❤
The thing it's not about seeking help, the thing with us is that nobody really cares, if as a man, u doesn't learn to value yourself and doesn't have money to pay therapy, most likely you will end up killing yourself or becoming a criminal, we are by our own on this one. Pd: I'm not trying to play the opressed/victim card, cuz most men learn to overcome this, but they're a significant percentage that don't
Keep talking about it Maddi. Just keep talking. Use your huge platform. You're helping someone right now. It takes time & be patient with yourself. I don't know what else to say but I will listen. You'll get through this sweetheart. Breathe girl. Breathe....
Ive never wanted to fly somewhere and be with someone so bad. I dont even know you but I just want to be there with you. I cant imagine not having closure throughout all of this. You have brought so much joy into my life the few moths ive been watching. You are so important for this world and your story is now going to save so many others who are suffering and struggling. I know that doesnt help you right now but you will realize the impact you will make being so honest and open about what you are experiencing. We love you girl. This world needs more kindness and
I pray 4 you.I can't even imagine what your goin through.😢My mom died 6 months ago.I took care of her in Hospice.Sometimes I miss her so much I feel like I can't breathe..Sending you hugs and love.🧡💅🍑
With no exaggeration, I have thought of you every day since seeing your community post. I cannot imagine your pain. I cannot imagine how someone deals with what you're going through. I don't have god but I send you good vibes everyday because my heart breaks for you. We all know the love you had for him, and thank you for sharing the beautiful life you created together. I will continue to think of you, beautiful. Keep on keeping on. ❤
The fact that you're able to show your journey on your own terms, be able to share all this and not be completely dead takes immense courage. We'll never be able to relate to you. I know you think of us as your family, we do too, a group of ladies and gents striving for the deals, but under those videos, there is a unspeakable bond of love, prayers, well wishes that prays for you. I commend your ability to function. With all our love
I cried along with you in this video oh my god. You’re loved and I am proud of you for talking about this, you need all of the support you can get and your videos have cheered up so many people like myself
When you said that your Husband taught you everything you know about God My Heart felt like it SPLIT in half 😞😞😞😞💔💔💔💔 I really can’t imagine what you’re feeling on a moment to moment basis and I Pray God gives you SUPERNATURAL STRENGTH on how to get through ALL of this. Im a silent subbie (I’ve only been subbed a few months) but I always liked your content because it brings me Joy and Peace of Mind. Especially your Community Post !!! 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍 So when I saw the post about your Husband, I was Devastated !!! Girl I’m going to CONTINUE to keeeeeeeeeeep you LIFTED to the Father cause only he can Heal what has taken Place. Just know we Love you and We Care Bigggg biggg virtual huggssssssss 🫂🫂🫂💗💗💗💗🫂🫂🫂
Connection is an important antidote to grief. I can see you're in need of connection, even virtual, during this... incredibly hard time. Maddi I am sending you love and wrapping my heart around you.
I lost my son in 2017 and it helps to talk about him with people who knew him and those who didn’t. You can help yourself and others by keeping him alive by remembering and talking about him and his life. God’s got you! Turn to him and he will give you peace that the world can never give. I’m praying for you💕
I can’t imagine the amount of pain & trauma you are trying to process right now. I wish I could give you a hug. My heart breaks for you. You have so many of us here for you. Please lean on us to help when you need to. 🩷🩷🩷 Sending you so much love.
I want you to know that you are not alone. I have also been through this 14 years ago with my kids dad. If you need anyone to talk to that can walk you through step by step or just someone to listen who knows what you are going through I’m here for you. Sending many prayers your way 🙏
You've brought so much happiness to your viewers, and we all appreciate you. Don't ever feel pressured to say more than you're comfortable with. Wishing you peace and healing.
Maddie please don’t feel like you have to tell us anything, you’re a human first and foremost and a content creator second. We love you and it’s alright to take the time you need, we’ll still be here when you’re ready ❤
We love you Maddie!! I’m usually a silent watcher but I wanted to express my condolences for your loss. You were a wonderful wife. You could tell how much you loved him deeply. It was the way you always thought of him, talked about him and were so proud to be married. What a beautiful love you two shared. Someone once said grief is just love with no place to go. Let out all those emotions, all that pain. Right now, it’s just one minute at a time. There’s no right or wrong day of doing this. We are all here to support you ❤️
Oh sweet girl. I am a mil spouse too. This is a nightmare that hits close to home. This is a pain no one should have to go through. You are in my prayers for the most complete healing and grieving process you can have. Take your time and do what you need for yourself right now. Much love. ❤
Sending you so much love and hugs. Grief does not have a timeline and what you experienced is something most of us cannot even understand or comprehend, but we are here to listen. New follower here, heard about you on the Beauty Guru subreddit and my heart just broke for you. I’m so sorry. Saying sorry is not enough nor can it take your pain away, but please know there is a large community here who care and will listen. I am so sorry, Maddi, so incredibly sorry.
Maddi, I love you and I absolutely hate this for you. I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers, I’m going to put a picture of you two on my prayer wall if that is okay. I am so sorry that you had to witness something so horrific and traumatizing and you lost your wonderful husband in the chaos of it all. My husband and I are also young, both of us are 23, and we got baptized together last year as well. He taught me about God and eventually led me to Christ, and the thought of losing him, especially in this way would break me completely. Please please please, do NOT let the enemy win and turn away from God. God will lift you out of this and heal your heart. Times like these can either make or break our faith. The enemy always tries to kick us when we are down and vulnerable. Just know that God is always good, and it is okay to be angry with God, question Him, ask why, but turning your back on Him is never the answer. I know and trust that he will use this in ways you can’t even imagine yet. He will use this to spread awareness and help others, and most of all, strengthen YOU. Lean on God and he will NEVER let you go. We love you🤍 thank you for your transparency, we will support you every step of the way.
For all the people telling her to not cry: you can not ask someone to stop having intense feelings and emotions. So y’all just need to stop says “pls don’t cry” because that’s impossible! She lost the love of her life, who was the other half of her. But Maddie we love you so much and God loves you sooooo much and he is working even though you may not see him. I hope you will find enough courage to take care of yourself and get yourself a self care/ spa day if that would help! I love ya girl and keep pushing 🩷✝️
Maddi, I’m so sorry, I wish there was more I could say. This is not your fault. You did your absolute best to support and love him with what you knew. You’re a wonderful person. This will be so difficult, so please take your time to process everything. Please take care of yourself, and I’m sure your family and friends will be able to support you even better than we can
You’re so incredibly strong and you never have to explain yourself do grieving in your own way. The pain and confusion from a suicide is unlike anything and you’re doing your absolute best. ❤ day by day.
Dropping this prayer for you Merciful God of Love and Comfort, Please lift her up As heart-ache makes each day feel like an eternity, surround her with your comfort and love. When emptiness feels overwhelming, bring thoughts that beat back the pain. Lord, carry her in your arms this day. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen
Hello, the algorithm brought me here and I feel so thankful to see someone being vulnerable and share their real deep thoughts about loss. I have almost lost my husband at 35 and I lost my dad at 26, at home, and left in his sleep and I also assisted to a s**cide in the middle of the street by someone jumping from a building when I was 19. Grief is really tough to handle, especially when life goes on and you can't share to people who can't understand. I wish you all the best as grief takes times to settle especially when someone leaves all of the sudden. You have touched me in so many ways as I partially understand what you are going through. You will be better with time, believe me you will. And it is OK not to be OK! grief is personal and please take care of yourself! it is not your fault indeed. I wish you all the best. You are indeed 24 and life will give opportunities to be better, feel normal and enjoy it!
Omg. Sweetheart, I'm so sorry. My husband died when I was 26 years old...he left me with 2 little babies.....I am 38 now and it's all too fresh and painful still. My heart is with your heart and I completely understand what you are going through....I hope you know you are loved and understood. Please keep your head up, even if it hurts, even if you feel sick about it. Love you honey XoXoX
I lost my son when he was 15 to suicide. God is the answer to your pain. Even when you can't feel it or see it, he will Never leave you. He will turn this around and there is a bright beautiful future for you. Praying for you ❤
😢 the gut wrenching pain in your voice and face ❤. You are right, the questions that will never be answered is so, incredibly, difficult. Time sucks, and it will get easier, but man does it go slow.
I am so so sorry for your loss. 😢💔 I've been on both ends and understand your pain. I've lost several people to suicide.. and just two weeks ago my aunt tried to take her life. Thankfully she is still with us. Remember that you are not alone. I also lost my significant other 3 years ago and it's been the most difficult thing I have ever gone through. Take all the time you need to grieve, cry, scream, even break something if you need to.. whatever helps you feel even a little better. I wish I could do more from here. I know it's nearly impossible sometimes, but don't blame yourself Maddie. Unfortunately, sometimes we just don't know the answer to why these things happen, the pain of that alone is unbearable. I hope you have people around you supporting you right now and helping you. Please make sure you take time for YOU! It's so so important. Sending you so many hugs and so much love ❤❤
You're truly not alone. Your people on here, we will always be here for you. It's okay not to be okay. Just take one day at a time, and I'm so so glad you feel more uplifted by our messages; it makes it all worth it. Stay strong❤
I'm so sorry you are experiencing this. Know we are here for you and respect you. I truly appreciate your honesty and being open about the struggles. It does help others. Much love to you!
This life is hard and you are in an extremely hard place right now. I’m sending you support and healing. There is no obligation to explain what you’re going through and what happened. Take your time ❤
I missed the live but I was crying with you watching it. I have been praying for you every night even though I’m not the most religious Person. I know that know of us can truly feel the pain that you are in. But we are all here for you and love you. Stay Strong ❤❤️🩹
Man I just found out just now! I'm crying too. You are so strong and happy person. Guess what God got you he knows you are strong to handle this he will see you through this I promise. Man I am sad cause I sure love seeing you. Take and take your time coming back to us. We will always be here for prayers going up to give you strength.❤
A few months ago I subscribed to you kind of spontaneously and I’m so happy I did . I agree with you about the time thing a lot . More prayers coming your way . Take whatever time you need
My boyfriend of 4 years took his life the night of our high school graduation. Still to this day(12 years later) it is the hardest thing I have ever experienced in my life. I wish I could say it gets better. I wish I could say time heals everything. But suicide will forever leave you, as the survivor, feeling helpless. Like you missed something. Like somehow you could have done something to change the outcome. Questions with no answers. An everlasting longing for clarity, for a why? What I can say, is you get stronger. You move forward because you have to. You will never forget. How can you when you have loved someone so deeply and now you have to somehow rediscover who you are without them. But day by day, year by year, you will. I am truly and unconditionally so sorry for your loss and your pain. If you’ve not experienced it, it’s indescribable. And I’m truly so so sorry 💔
My heart breaks for you Maddi. I have been checking your posts obsessively since this happened and keeping you and Tyler in my prayers. It is so good to see you post and to see the pictures of the two of you. Seeing glimpses of him on your page over the past year I had always thought, what a sweet soul, you could just tell by his eyes there was an exceptionally gentle and kind person behind them. I really think you are the reason he lived as long and as happily as he did. Wish I could just reach through the screen and give you a hug right now and a break from being so strong. I think all of us feel that way! I will keep sending love and prayers for your healing and your ability to someday feel Tyler’s spiritual presence. You are doing so good right now and you’re not alone ok? ❤ We are here for you
You’re not alone. Your friends and family are here for you. You have a wonderful support system. If you want to go live just to stare at the chat, do it. If you want to go live and cry, do it. Do whatever you need. It may not feel like it now, but you are on a journey. It may be too early to think about, but like you said you are still here, you’re alive, and you’re on your own two feet. You’re at the beginning of your journey to healing from this. And since it’s YOUR journey and everyone grieves differently, it can be long and winding or bumpy with many starts and stops, but overall you are not alone, Maddi. There are people going with you. You have people on the sidelines, ready to help you along. My heart hurts for you. If I could take your pain, I would. I am so so sorry for your loss, and I hope your husband has found his peace. Thinking of both of you.
My heart goes out to you and I’m sending all of my positive energy your way. I was sitting here the whole 10 minutes balling my eyes out with you. You’re not alone!! I’ve never seen someone do it right in front of me but have had friends that have left in this way. It hurts to the core and makes you question every single moment of your life. Stay strong beauty you got this. Take your time and only do what you’re okay with. Everyone supports you!!! I went to a medium and got answers which helped me heal with the answers I got. You are so special truly just focus on day by day ❤
My God Maddi I’m so very sorry! Watching your videos helped me when I miscarried my babies. Watching you made me want to get up and wash my face and clean my house. To go to the dollar store and find a little joy in simple things. I wish there was something I could do. I wish there was some way I could be there for you the way you were there for me. You helped to save my life in a time when I couldn’t see anything but darkness. I send my love to you and your family. I will be praying for you all. I know your heart is broken today. I can’t say the it will ever heal back completely but, I want you to know that it’s ok to feel your feelings. It’s ok to cry and it’s ok not to know what to do. Maybe the thing to do is nothing right now. Sending you the biggest hug!
No one should ever have to go through what you experienced. You are so strong to still be here talking about this. I hope you are receiving all the love,light,and positive energy people are sending you. I also hope you are getting support from family & friends and even professional support if you are open to it because you deserve that. God is with you and know that he is taking care of your husband now too. 🙏 ❤ You are never alone.
It's no ones fault Maddie, I'm so sorry for you're loss and I know it's going to be hard. Take all the time you need too heal, get some therapy and just do the best you can. Stay strong Maddie, we'll be waiting for you when you return, we love you!
Sad I missed your live!!! Strong mama, one day at a time. Father, please protect over this woman and her family and help strengthen her through these days. Amen❤❤❤
Maddi, you are so kind and full of love. The fact that you’re able to show us so much love while you’re in so much pain and heartache speaks volumes about how wonderfully compassionate you are. And he knew that, too. Part of that illness is sometimes not being able to speak up for yourself, and not necessarily wanting to leave us but just to ease their own heartache. You are not at all at fault, though it may be hard to process that. I hope it’s ok to say that. ❤ We are all praying for you and love you mucho. On a faith-based note, the YouVersion verse of the day today and yesterday have both been amazing for encouragement and hope. Love you lots from Texas.
I'm so sorry Maddi. Don't feel guilty about expressing yourself on RUclips or anywhere in life, you need a way to let your feelings out. The only thing I know from personal experience is to take it one moment at a time. Give yourself permission to mourn, take all the time you'll need. I'll keep praying for you.
Aww I'm so sorry 😢 I have lost men I loved very much. I cried for a straight month. As long as you love your husband you will always grieve his loss. I'm so sorry for your pain and heartache ❤
So often we try to make other people feel better by minimizing their pain, by telling them that it will get better (which it will) or that there are worse things in the world (which there are). But that's not what I actually needed. What I needed was for someone to tell me that it hurt because it mattered. Maddi, it hurts because it matters. cry, yell, scream, ❤ If you need to talk on the phone or email, or write to someone, a stranger. Im here. ❤ - Atlanta Georgia
No words can be said to make the hurt and pain go away. Just know that we are here for you praying that God gives you the strength to make it through. God bless you and your families praying for much need strength ❤🙏🏾
I’m so sorry, I just don’t even know what to say. I know that we are just followers on the internet, but we are here for you. Take all the time in the world. If you need to talk, talk. If you need to be silent, be silent. Sending you positive energy, love and light.
My heart breaks for you, Maddi. You are on my mind all the time. I cried along with you during this livestream. My whole household is in shock and thinking about you. If I could take some of your pain from your heart, I would in an instant. I love you. We all love you. It’s going to be ok 💜
I can't wrap my mind around the emotions and pain you're processing right now. I watch your videos all the time and normally dont comment on social media, but I had to let you know that it's okay to vent and express your pain. Keep talking, reach out to the support you have on RUclips, your family, and if you can't talk or express your pain That's ok too. This hit me hard and i want you to know you're in my thoughts and prayers.
I wish I could put my arms around you and tell you how much we care and love you! It’s such a shock and we are all praying for you! I’m glad you have you’re family and Harvey!! Our Animals are such a great blessing to us My animals and especially my Horses now and in the past will always be there for us to hold and comfort us Such a Shock to you and you are a strong young Woman! Supporting you 100 percent Praying for you!!!❤🙏🐈🐴
Maddi you have to take every minute at a time right now. You can’t look too far ahead because it is too overwhelming for you. You will find out how strong you are when you get through these next few weeks, months and so on. God made us to be stronger than men because we are able to deal with more than 100 men. You can come on and talk about anything or nothing and we will be here for you. You have an entire community behind you that care about you and will do anything to help and love you through anything you need and want. We all love you and I wish I lived close to you so I could give you a hug. Here is my virtual hug 🤗. I love you girl 💛❤️🍯🐝
I just stumbled across your page and I just want to tell you I am sorry. Your pain is so evident and I am so sorry for your loss. Do what you need to move forward and heal. God bless you and your family.
I hate I missed ur live I've thought of u everyday , and I hope this makes it to you. Maddie your a wonderful woman, ur light shines so bright u have attracted all of us to you. Your def one of a kind! I'm so sorry ur so hurt rn, and don't know what to do, say, think, where to turn. Lean on those that love you, accept their support and love rn. We are ALL here patiently waiting for you and whatever u want to share or not share thats up to you NO pressure EVER, and were ALL wishing we could help in anyway possible. We will ALL be here when you need us. Sending all the LOVE, Prayers, hugs, and good vibes to you sweet lady. ❤ Appreciate the update, that ur okay. 😊
Maddi you are a strong woman, I’m so sorry you loss your husband, I couldn’t imagine that feeling. Blessings and love to your family and his family. He is looking over you. ❤🕊️😔
I’m heartbroken for you. I’m in tears watching this. I’m praying for you and your family. This is no one’s fault. Take it one day at a time. We’re here for you.
I’m so sorry girl my husband died 5 years ago due to overdose 😞 our son was 1 and our daughter was 4 weeks. It was the hardest moments of my life I would scream in the car asking god why I would cry and cry so lost and confused. I would dream about him. Music would give me panic attacks 😔 you will never get over it but you will learn how to live with the pain. It’s something heavy in our hearts that will never go away. Let it all out you have to feel it in order to heal it 💔❤️🩹love you take care amiga 🫶🏻🫂
There are lots of military support groups that can help with your pain also. This is a lot for you to process and I hope that you have a community of people outside of social media that can hold and comfort you during this time. Praying for your peace of mind during this time 🙏🏾
I know I don't know you but I love watching your videos. Just know I love you in the dark, I love you in the light, I love you when you ugly cry, I love you when you smile. My heart hurts for you. My pups were even trying to lick my phone to comfort you. Suicide has touched my mother like this when she was very young as well. Her highschool sweet heart did this after an argument. She remarried but says my birth is what saved her. My sister in law also did this at the end of July 2020. Her daughter, grandson, and friend were there. I miss her terribly. I had seen her days before and she never let on to what was going on with her she just seemed tired. Even though we all knew her depression could get dark it was still a shock. It always hurts my heart to see anyone go through the wreckage of this. Specially someone who loses their person. I literally lose my shit just thinking of losing my husband and I feel that's just a grain of salt compared to what you are going through. I wish you could get the answers you need. I wish I could take it away and it would bring him back. I wish I had the right words. That's a lot of wishing, I know.. Just know you are loved and you are prayed for and we will be here anytime you're ready to post, about anything. 💜💜💜
Dear Jesus, We come to You with heavy hearts, asking for Your help and solace for Maddi. We know that she experiences deep pain and loneliness due to her unimaginable heartbreak and we ask You to soothe her broken spirit and fill the void in her life. We ask that You would give Maddi the strength and courage to go through each day. Help her to find strength for the sadness and loneliness that she experiences. May she feel Your presence with her throughout her grief and find comfort and hope in her sorrow. Lord, give Maddi peace in her grieving heart and may she find healing for her pain. Grant her the courage to face her emotions and to embrace Your mercy and love. Remind her of the wonderful memories of her beloved husband and bring solace to her soul. We thank You and we praise You Lord, for You are an ever-present help in times of trouble, and in your Holy and Beautiful Name, Amen Isaiah 43:1-2 are really good verses for comfort as they remind you that God is with you and He loves you. In fact the whole chapter is beautiful and comforting. Also the beatitudes in Matthew 5. Matthew 5:4 says God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted. if you feel called to, definitely open that Bible. God loves you so much and He has so many things He wants to tell you. He wants to comfort you and shower you in His love and peace❤️ we love you Maddi❤️❤️❤️
My dear, it is not your fault. Please don’t blame yourself, it will be okay and it will get better. There’s no need to apologize for taking time to yourself and grieving, you don’t need to be posting 24/7 and you shouldn’t feel compelled to share the story. Please stay strong, I can’t even imagine all the pain you’re going through. It hurts seeing someone who used to smile so much and bring joy to everyone be so broken. We love you and we’re here for you! ❤️🩹
I'm so sorry love. My gf took her life with prescription drugs. It's been 3 years... what I can say is that healing and answers and peace come. Please go to bereavement counseling as well love
NO MADDIE you don’t have to tell us anything. Take the time you need to process your loss and the grief. You can share with us how you feel but we really don’t need you to share anything you don’t want to. We just want YOU to be well and make it through and be safe and in good mental health. Grief is not easy . We are here for you. 💕
Just lost my love to cancer. I feel this and I know it will pass. But it surely doesn't feel that way now. Keep going. Honor those we lost and that is a wah to take all that lovd
Oh girl, I’m sending you all the hugs and love your way. There’s not much anyone can say to help with this pain, but you have been such a light in my life this past year or so and I needed to tell you that. Breathe when you feel like you can’t, count to ten, place your feet on the ground, inhale and remember how loved you are when you feel a wave of sadness coming on and then exhale.. give it a try if you think it’ll help even a little 🥺 Grieve as long as you need hun, it’s not linear and everyone is different. I’m proud of you for just getting out of bed, I’m proud of you for fighting to find the light, I’m just proud of you for being so strong and I’ll continue to support you through it all. love you Mads 🥺💜
I'm so sorry you're going through this!! If we could all just hug you and help ease the pain! Don't feel like you have to tell anything you're not ready to! We're here to show you love and support you through it all!! Continued prayers for you!!
You will be in my prayers.. 🙏 sorry for your loss, God will hold you in his arms closely. As people around you, gather up & show support at this difficult time.
I’m praying for you and your strength right now. I know this has to be so hard for you, I can’t even imagine. Stay strong and know that you have a ton of people that care for you and are lifting you up in prayer
Obviously we are strangers but its hard seeing someone carrying this much pain and not be able to offer a hug or a hand to hold. I hope the people and pets who love you are looking after you, and I hope the world treats you as gently as it can while you grieve. Bless. 💛
Dear honey I will be pray for you alot is so hard went you go to pain but pray to God alot he will help my husband dead 4 months a go and I pray alot and God have take the pain away I have alot of peas from God Love Rosa H
This was really beautiful.
SLAY GURLIE THOSE WORDS ARE POWERFULLY ❤
I’ve experienced watching closest friends commit suicide, to watching my own father take his last breath. You may not feel it right now but you will get through this that does not mean the pain will disappear but you will make it out okay. Psalm 147:3 - “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” My favorite verse it brings me comfort on the days I feel like giving up completely. Hopefully it gives you comfort on those days as well. We love you so much Maddi. 😥
If YOU want to tell your story please do but please please do not tell it because others want to hear it. Your life is real, your life is not a 20/20 episode! You don’t need to be saying sorry to us for anything at all. You’re hurting & in pain & thats 100% okay! Take your time Maddie 💕💕
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AGREED!!!! 💯
Such a loving, sensitive, insightful comment. My heart completely breaks for her and however she decides to grieve and process, she owes nobody anything except keeping herself stable right now and get through the beginning of what will be a lifelong journey.
My heart aches watching this. All I can say is, grieve however you need to. Screaming, crying, punching a pillow, journaling, singing, dancing, taking cold showers, going for a run/walk until you’re exhausted. Do what YOU need to do to grieve in a healthy way. I wish I could I take some of your pain away. Praying for you ❤
Im a silent watcher but I’ve been praying for you. I’m so sorry. I know nothing can be said for what you feel but I’ll definitely keep praying so the Lord can give your strength love and peace and whatever you need during this time. ❤️
Amen
You keep that redbull as long as you need. I still have my uncles Guinness in my fridge from three years ago. You do whatever you need. I’m 24 as well, soon to be 25, and dealing with grief, such painful grief at such a young age is incapacitating. You are doing amazing. You are strong, intelligent, beautiful, you are uniquely you, and you can and will get through this with time, community, help, whatever you need.
Keep it forever I would I don’t care , my bf has. A regular soda bottle from his grandma next to the teddy bear she gave him
@@yamomma8560 I love this, I love not feeling silly for doing little things like this, thank you, truly.
Your comment is immensely compassionate and beautiful.
@@MoreCoffeePlease. Aw, thank you. I lost my mom three months almost to the day after my uncle. He was a father figure. I know what it’s like for everyone to judge you and not understand and think healing is linear, but I had to learn to go at my own pace and heal what I could, when I could. Take days as they came, and go to as many therapy sessions as I could and I still do. It’s almost three years later, I’m still broken but I’m finally finding my way, and you will too no matter what, do whatever YOU need or want, be safe & heal peacefully, to anyone going through this.
It’s always hardest to let go of these things and I say, why should we ever? ❤️ I have seen many times the grief come pouring back to people when they eat the last meal/dessert the person who passed away made. So sad that those either need to be eaten or thrown away. I love the idea of keeping drinks such as that.
I screamed every day and cried until I was exhausted for the first month straight!! It's not your fault!! Please don't blame yourself!!! I PROMISE YOU WILL GET THRU THIS!! JUST STAY STRONG MADDI!! I BELIEVE IN YOU!! I still have unanswered questions but you will learn to cope even though you feel so lost right now. You will know when the time is right and you are ready!! You have soooooo many people who love you and would give anything to take your pain!!! My husband was 24 too. We were having problems and he was in Michigan with his mom and I was in Alabama. He called me around midnight the night he did it and the last words he ever said to me is "It's over" We had to wait for over a week for an autopsy and for them to fly his body back down here for the funeral. They had to call an ambulance for me at the funeral home. I was a mess and I've made it this far Maddi and I see you're sooo much stronger than me!!! God has got you!! Weeping lasts for the night but joy comes in the morning. I'm not sure what verse but it's there. love you!! 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
I'm so so sorry😢 Yorr words and understanding of Maddies situation is needed for her at this time.❤ Thank you. It can't be easy reliving your pain.but you are helping someone else ❤
@@breezeh1127 Thank you! I haven't been a subscriber for very long at all but I suffer from depression and the first time I saw Maddi and heard her say so you want a cute apartment BUT YOU'RE BROKE and then she giggled it literally made me laugh for the first time in several months and she's helped me so much more than she knows!! I just love her to pieces!! My daughter is 28 and I'm 46. I'm literally old enough to be her mom yet she has been the one who's been helping me with her videos all these months. Thank you for your kind words!! I pray God can use me in some way to give her some type of comfort. My heart aches for what she's experiencing right now. I'm so thankful she has so many people who love her!! She's going to need every single one of us!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
@@wodi28179 I’m so sorry for your loss that’s so heartbreaking 😢
Sending u love and strength ❤❤
@@wodi28179 💜💜 I'm 43 and my oldest daughter is Maddies age. Maddie is such a bright light in a difficult world. I truly feel God can use you and your very hard experience to be that light for her, in her time of need. She asked a while back for anyone who has lived through this to write her at her Gmail. I hope that God can give you the strength to share more with Maddie and to give her advice that can help her navigate this terrible time💔. My husband almost successfully took his life in 2009..he fought for his life in the ICU for 2 weeks but finally woke up. I had a different outcome but I still remember the sights sounds and pain of seeing my husband that way. Much love to you and for you, while you help another. 💜
@@katkatasmr8055 thank you so much! That is truly so kind of you and I appreciate it more than you know! It's been almost 15yrs this Oct 10 and I still think about Tyler at least once a day but it's much easier to cope now than it was then. Maddi just needs as many prayers and as much support and love as we can all send her way! I literally wanted to jump thru my phone and just hug and rock her back and forth when she kept saying I'm not on here doing this for attention!! Bless her sweet soul!! She doesn't have to explain anything to anyone right now!! She needs all the attention she can get when she's up for it and needs to be left to grieve when she needs alone time! I hope you're seeing this Maddi!! Don't you dare worry about anyone judging you and thinking you're just trying to get attention!! We're all your friends and friends are supposed to be there for each other and you need us right now!! So you go live every 5 minutes if it helps you any sweetheart!! Anything that can give you any type of comfort right now should not be questioned or judged by anyone!! 💕💖
I am so sorry this is happening to you and your family! My Uncle committed suicide when I was 13,that was 34 years ago. He was my world. One thing about suicide is people tend to not talk about it, which was what my family did. Thank you for having the courage to share a piece of your story. I am covering you in prayer. The Serenity Prayer has gotten me through many HARD times.
I lost my husband as well. I am proof you will get through this. Lean on those close to you and remember you are loved. It will be hard but just take it one minute at a time if you need to. Grief has no rules or time limit.
My boyfriend of 14 years has recently sought help for his depression and anxiety. He held it in his whole life and he finally worked up the courage to ask for help. He’s so brave.
MEN NEED HELP TOO!!!! To all the men here, seeking help doesn’t make you weak, it makes you powerful. To take your life into your own hands when you feel like you’ve been overcome with sadness, takes courage and bravery. YOUR LIFE MATTERS.
Maddie I don’t know that you’ll read my comment, but I followed you when you were at about 5k because your happiness and spirit reached me. I’m deeply sorry for your loss, I could not in my wildest nightmares imagine the pain you feel. Please hold on to that light deep in your soul. You’re a strong young woman, and your story resonates with many. You’re not alone. ❤
The thing it's not about seeking help, the thing with us is that nobody really cares, if as a man, u doesn't learn to value yourself and doesn't have money to pay therapy, most likely you will end up killing yourself or becoming a criminal, we are by our own on this one.
Pd: I'm not trying to play the opressed/victim card, cuz most men learn to overcome this, but they're a significant percentage that don't
Keep talking about it Maddi. Just keep talking. Use your huge platform. You're helping someone right now. It takes time & be patient with yourself. I don't know what else to say but I will listen. You'll get through this sweetheart. Breathe girl. Breathe....
Ive never wanted to fly somewhere and be with someone so bad. I dont even know you but I just want to be there with you. I cant imagine not having closure throughout all of this. You have brought so much joy into my life the few moths ive been watching. You are so important for this world and your story is now going to save so many others who are suffering and struggling. I know that doesnt help you right now but you will realize the impact you will make being so honest and open about what you are experiencing. We love you girl. This world needs more kindness and
I am so so so sorry this has happened, my dearest condolences go to you ma’am.
I pray 4 you.I can't even imagine what your goin through.😢My mom died 6 months ago.I took care of her in Hospice.Sometimes I miss her so much I feel like I can't breathe..Sending you hugs and love.🧡💅🍑
With no exaggeration, I have thought of you every day since seeing your community post.
I cannot imagine your pain. I cannot imagine how someone deals with what you're going through.
I don't have god but I send you good vibes everyday because my heart breaks for you. We all know the love you had for him, and thank you for sharing the beautiful life you created together.
I will continue to think of you, beautiful. Keep on keeping on. ❤
Me too😔 I been constantly thinking about her
The fact that you're able to show your journey on your own terms, be able to share all this and not be completely dead takes immense courage.
We'll never be able to relate to you. I know you think of us as your family, we do too, a group of ladies and gents striving for the deals, but under those videos, there is a unspeakable bond of love, prayers, well wishes that prays for you.
I commend your ability to function.
With all our love
I cried along with you in this video oh my god. You’re loved and I am proud of you for talking about this, you need all of the support you can get and your videos have cheered up so many people like myself
When you said that your Husband taught you everything you know about God
My Heart felt like it SPLIT in half
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I really can’t imagine
what you’re feeling on a
moment to moment basis
and I Pray God gives you SUPERNATURAL STRENGTH
on how to get through ALL of this.
Im a silent subbie
(I’ve only been subbed a few months)
but I always liked your content because it brings me Joy
and Peace of Mind.
Especially your Community Post !!!
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So when I saw the post
about your Husband,
I was Devastated !!!
Girl I’m going to CONTINUE to keeeeeeeeeeep you LIFTED to the Father cause only he can Heal what has taken Place.
Just know we Love you
and We Care
Bigggg biggg virtual huggssssssss
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Connection is an important antidote to grief. I can see you're in need of connection, even virtual, during this... incredibly hard time. Maddi I am sending you love and wrapping my heart around you.
Yes, I realize everyone grieves differently, but isolation is probably the worst thing to do.
I lost my son in 2017 and it helps to talk about him with people who knew him and those who didn’t. You can help yourself and others by keeping him alive by remembering and talking about him and his life. God’s got you! Turn to him and he will give you peace that the world can never give. I’m praying for you💕
I can’t imagine the amount of pain & trauma you are trying to process right now. I wish I could give you a hug. My heart breaks for you. You have so many of us here for you. Please lean on us to help when you need to. 🩷🩷🩷 Sending you so much love.
Hey, I just saw your video on my home page. I don't know what all happened, but I am so deeply sorry for your loss ❤
I want you to know that you are not alone. I have also been through this 14 years ago with my kids dad. If you need anyone to talk to that can walk you through step by step or just someone to listen who knows what you are going through I’m here for you. Sending many prayers your way 🙏
You've brought so much happiness to your viewers, and we all appreciate you. Don't ever feel pressured to say more than you're comfortable with. Wishing you peace and healing.
No one will think this is for attention and if they do they are assholes. Stay strong I know it's hard girlfriend ❤️🧡💛💚
Maddie please don’t feel like you have to tell us anything, you’re a human first and foremost and a content creator second. We love you and it’s alright to take the time you need, we’ll still be here when you’re ready ❤
I’m feeling your pain. I’m crying alone to my own pain. My mom is doing drugs again. And crying with you makes me feel less alone ❤ sending you love
We love you Maddie!! I’m usually a silent watcher but I wanted to express my condolences for your loss. You were a wonderful wife. You could tell how much you loved him deeply. It was the way you always thought of him, talked about him and were so proud to be married. What a beautiful love you two shared. Someone once said grief is just love with no place to go. Let out all those emotions, all that pain. Right now, it’s just one minute at a time. There’s no right or wrong day of doing this. We are all here to support you ❤️
We are crying with you Maddi! You are so strong!! 💜
Oh sweet girl. I am a mil spouse too. This is a nightmare that hits close to home. This is a pain no one should have to go through. You are in my prayers for the most complete healing and grieving process you can have. Take your time and do what you need for yourself right now. Much love. ❤
Sending you so much love and hugs. Grief does not have a timeline and what you experienced is something most of us cannot even understand or comprehend, but we are here to listen. New follower here, heard about you on the Beauty Guru subreddit and my heart just broke for you. I’m so sorry. Saying sorry is not enough nor can it take your pain away, but please know there is a large community here who care and will listen. I am so sorry, Maddi, so incredibly sorry.
You're not alone. We are here for you ❤️
Maddi, I love you and I absolutely hate this for you. I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers, I’m going to put a picture of you two on my prayer wall if that is okay. I am so sorry that you had to witness something so horrific and traumatizing and you lost your wonderful husband in the chaos of it all. My husband and I are also young, both of us are 23, and we got baptized together last year as well. He taught me about God and eventually led me to Christ, and the thought of losing him, especially in this way would break me completely. Please please please, do NOT let the enemy win and turn away from God. God will lift you out of this and heal your heart. Times like these can either make or break our faith. The enemy always tries to kick us when we are down and vulnerable. Just know that God is always good, and it is okay to be angry with God, question Him, ask why, but turning your back on Him is never the answer. I know and trust that he will use this in ways you can’t even imagine yet. He will use this to spread awareness and help others, and most of all, strengthen YOU. Lean on God and he will NEVER let you go. We love you🤍 thank you for your transparency, we will support you every step of the way.
For all the people telling her to not cry: you can not ask someone to stop having intense feelings and emotions. So y’all just need to stop says “pls don’t cry” because that’s impossible! She lost the love of her life, who was the other half of her. But Maddie we love you so much and God loves you sooooo much and he is working even though you may not see him. I hope you will find enough courage to take care of yourself and get yourself a self care/ spa day if that would help! I love ya girl and keep pushing 🩷✝️
23rd Psalms…praying and sending luv & hugs❤
Maddi, I’m so sorry, I wish there was more I could say. This is not your fault. You did your absolute best to support and love him with what you knew. You’re a wonderful person. This will be so difficult, so please take your time to process everything. Please take care of yourself, and I’m sure your family and friends will be able to support you even better than we can
Psalms 34:18
“The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.”Many prayers for you as you grieve💛Pamela
You’re so incredibly strong and you never have to explain yourself do grieving in your own way. The pain and confusion from a suicide is unlike anything and you’re doing your absolute best. ❤ day by day.
Dropping this prayer for you
Merciful God of Love and Comfort,
Please lift her up
As heart-ache makes each day feel like an eternity, surround her with your comfort and love.
When emptiness feels overwhelming, bring thoughts that beat back the pain.
Lord, carry her in your arms this day.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen
Girl...I don't know what to say except that I'm so sorry..I'll keep you in my prayers, sweetie.
Hello, the algorithm brought me here and I feel so thankful to see someone being vulnerable and share their real deep thoughts about loss.
I have almost lost my husband at 35 and I lost my dad at 26, at home, and left in his sleep and I also assisted to a s**cide in the middle of the street by someone jumping from a building when I was 19.
Grief is really tough to handle, especially when life goes on and you can't share to people who can't understand.
I wish you all the best as grief takes times to settle especially when someone leaves all of the sudden.
You have touched me in so many ways as I partially understand what you are going through.
You will be better with time, believe me you will. And it is OK not to be OK! grief is personal and please take care of yourself! it is not your fault indeed.
I wish you all the best. You are indeed 24 and life will give opportunities to be better, feel normal and enjoy it!
Omg. Sweetheart, I'm so sorry. My husband died when I was 26 years old...he left me with 2 little babies.....I am 38 now and it's all too fresh and painful still. My heart is with your heart and I completely understand what you are going through....I hope you know you are loved and understood. Please keep your head up, even if it hurts, even if you feel sick about it. Love you honey XoXoX
I lost my son when he was 15 to suicide. God is the answer to your pain. Even when you can't feel it or see it, he will Never leave you. He will turn this around and there is a bright beautiful future for you. Praying for you ❤
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Stay strong Maddi we love you and we are here for you!! Take as long as you need to and I’ll keep you in my prayers💗💗
Sending you so many prayers, I'm so sorry for your loss. I pray that you receive strength and healing. 🙏💕🙏
😢 the gut wrenching pain in your voice and face ❤. You are right, the questions that will never be answered is so, incredibly, difficult. Time sucks, and it will get easier, but man does it go slow.
I am so so sorry for your loss. 😢💔 I've been on both ends and understand your pain. I've lost several people to suicide.. and just two weeks ago my aunt tried to take her life. Thankfully she is still with us.
Remember that you are not alone. I also lost my significant other 3 years ago and it's been the most difficult thing I have ever gone through. Take all the time you need to grieve, cry, scream, even break something if you need to.. whatever helps you feel even a little better. I wish I could do more from here.
I know it's nearly impossible sometimes, but don't blame yourself Maddie. Unfortunately, sometimes we just don't know the answer to why these things happen, the pain of that alone is unbearable. I hope you have people around you supporting you right now and helping you.
Please make sure you take time for YOU! It's so so important. Sending you so many hugs and so much love ❤❤
You're truly not alone. Your people on here, we will always be here for you. It's okay not to be okay. Just take one day at a time, and I'm so so glad you feel more uplifted by our messages; it makes it all worth it. Stay strong❤
My god.....😔this bothers me so much seeing someone in pain and you're so far away.
I'm so sorry you are experiencing this. Know we are here for you and respect you. I truly appreciate your honesty and being open about the struggles. It does help others. Much love to you!
Oh hunny. I've never wished I could crawl through a screen and hold someone so badly in my life. I'm so sorry.
I feel the same. We should all get together and have a hug convention for Maddi 🌹
This life is hard and you are in an extremely hard place right now. I’m sending you support and healing. There is no obligation to explain what you’re going through and what happened. Take your time ❤
You and your Husband will always be best friends, that will NEVER change. You keep doing what you need to heal.
I missed the live but I was crying with you watching it. I have been praying for you every night even though I’m not the most religious Person. I know that know of us can truly feel the pain that you are in. But we are all here for you and love you. Stay Strong ❤❤️🩹
Man I just found out just now! I'm crying too. You are so strong and happy person. Guess what God got you he knows you are strong to handle this he will see you through this I promise. Man I am sad cause I sure love seeing you. Take and take your time coming back to us. We will always be here for prayers going up to give you strength.❤
A few months ago I subscribed to you kind of spontaneously and I’m so happy I did . I agree with you about the time thing a lot . More prayers coming your way . Take whatever time you need
My boyfriend of 4 years took his life the night of our high school graduation. Still to this day(12 years later) it is the hardest thing I have ever experienced in my life. I wish I could say it gets better. I wish I could say time heals everything. But suicide will forever leave you, as the survivor, feeling helpless. Like you missed something. Like somehow you could have done something to change the outcome. Questions with no answers. An everlasting longing for clarity, for a why? What I can say, is you get stronger. You move forward because you have to. You will never forget. How can you when you have loved someone so deeply and now you have to somehow rediscover who you are without them. But day by day, year by year, you will. I am truly and unconditionally so sorry for your loss and your pain. If you’ve not experienced it, it’s indescribable. And I’m truly so so sorry 💔
My heart breaks for you Maddi. I have been checking your posts obsessively since this happened and keeping you and Tyler in my prayers. It is so good to see you post and to see the pictures of the two of you. Seeing glimpses of him on your page over the past year I had always thought, what a sweet soul, you could just tell by his eyes there was an exceptionally gentle and kind person behind them. I really think you are the reason he lived as long and as happily as he did. Wish I could just reach through the screen and give you a hug right now and a break from being so strong. I think all of us feel that way! I will keep sending love and prayers for your healing and your ability to someday feel Tyler’s spiritual presence. You are doing so good right now and you’re not alone ok? ❤ We are here for you
Soo sweetly said, we love and are praying for you Maddi 🫶🏾🙏🏾💕
You’re not alone. Your friends and family are here for you. You have a wonderful support system. If you want to go live just to stare at the chat, do it. If you want to go live and cry, do it.
Do whatever you need. It may not feel like it now, but you are on a journey. It may be too early to think about, but like you said you are still here, you’re alive, and you’re on your own two feet. You’re at the beginning of your journey to healing from this.
And since it’s YOUR journey and everyone grieves differently, it can be long and winding or bumpy with many starts and stops, but overall you are not alone, Maddi. There are people going with you. You have people on the sidelines, ready to help you along.
My heart hurts for you. If I could take your pain, I would. I am so so sorry for your loss, and I hope your husband has found his peace. Thinking of both of you.
My heart goes out to you and I’m sending all of my positive energy your way. I was sitting here the whole 10 minutes balling my eyes out with you. You’re not alone!! I’ve never seen someone do it right in front of me but have had friends that have left in this way. It hurts to the core and makes you question every single moment of your life. Stay strong beauty you got this. Take your time and only do what you’re okay with. Everyone supports you!!! I went to a medium and got answers which helped me heal with the answers I got. You are so special truly just focus on day by day ❤
My God Maddi I’m so very sorry!
Watching your videos helped me when I miscarried my babies. Watching you made me want to get up and wash my face and clean my house. To go to the dollar store and find a little joy in simple things. I wish there was something I could do. I wish there was some way I could be there for you the way you were there for me. You helped to save my life in a time when I couldn’t see anything but darkness. I send my love to you and your family. I will be praying for you all.
I know your heart is broken today. I can’t say the it will ever heal back completely but, I want you to know that it’s ok to feel your feelings. It’s ok to cry and it’s ok not to know what to do. Maybe the thing to do is nothing right now.
Sending you the biggest hug!
No one should ever have to go through what you experienced. You are so strong to still be here talking about this. I hope you are receiving all the love,light,and positive energy people are sending you. I also hope you are getting support from family & friends and even professional support if you are open to it because you deserve that. God is with you and know that he is taking care of your husband now too. 🙏 ❤ You are never alone.
You are being lifted up in prayer from Tennessee. 🙏🏻
It's no ones fault Maddie, I'm so sorry for you're loss and I know it's going to be hard. Take all the time you need too heal, get some therapy and just do the best you can. Stay strong Maddie, we'll be waiting for you when you return, we love you!
Sad I missed your live!!! Strong mama, one day at a time. Father, please protect over this woman and her family and help strengthen her through these days. Amen❤❤❤
I feel for you! My sister did this too and it is so hard 😢. You need to talk it out to people who understand!! I’m praying for you!!
Oh hell no.. you are such an amazing heart. You keep me in my fancies even if I’m BBROOKKEE
I just love you so much
You’re not alone. I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. No one should ever have to go through this.
Maddi, you are so kind and full of love. The fact that you’re able to show us so much love while you’re in so much pain and heartache speaks volumes about how wonderfully compassionate you are. And he knew that, too. Part of that illness is sometimes not being able to speak up for yourself, and not necessarily wanting to leave us but just to ease their own heartache. You are not at all at fault, though it may be hard to process that. I hope it’s ok to say that. ❤ We are all praying for you and love you mucho. On a faith-based note, the YouVersion verse of the day today and yesterday have both been amazing for encouragement and hope. Love you lots from Texas.
I'm so sorry Maddi. Don't feel guilty about expressing yourself on RUclips or anywhere in life, you need a way to let your feelings out. The only thing I know from personal experience is to take it one moment at a time. Give yourself permission to mourn, take all the time you'll need.
I'll keep praying for you.
Aww I'm so sorry 😢 I have lost men I loved very much. I cried for a straight month. As long as you love your husband you will always grieve his loss. I'm so sorry for your pain and heartache ❤
we love you♥️ stay strong
So often we try to make other people feel better by minimizing their pain, by telling them that it will get better (which it will) or that there are worse things in the world (which there are). But that's not what I actually needed. What I needed was for someone to tell me that it hurt because it mattered.
Maddi, it hurts because it matters. cry, yell, scream, ❤
If you need to talk on the phone or email, or write to someone, a stranger. Im here. ❤
- Atlanta Georgia
No words can be said to make the hurt and pain go away. Just know that we are here for you praying that God gives you the strength to make it through. God bless you and your families praying for much need strength ❤🙏🏾
Prayers for you to still hear God's voice through the fog of this traumatic experience. Keep on keeping on girl 🙏🏼
I’m so sorry, I just don’t even know what to say. I know that we are just followers on the internet, but we are here for you. Take all the time in the world. If you need to talk, talk. If you need to be silent, be silent. Sending you positive energy, love and light.
I’m so sorry Maddi!!!! Praying for your strength and healing!!! 💜🙏🏼 You are such a light in the world. I hate that this is happening to you.
My heart breaks for you, Maddi. You are on my mind all the time. I cried along with you during this livestream. My whole household is in shock and thinking about you. If I could take some of your pain from your heart, I would in an instant. I love you. We all love you. It’s going to be ok 💜
This is heart breaking. I can’t even imagine. I’m so sorry.
I can't wrap my mind around the emotions and pain you're processing right now. I watch your videos all the time and normally dont comment on social media, but I had to let you know that it's okay to vent and express your pain. Keep talking, reach out to the support you have on RUclips, your family, and if you can't talk or express your pain That's ok too. This hit me hard and i want you to know you're in my thoughts and prayers.
I wish I could put my arms around you and tell you how much we care and love you! It’s such a shock and we are all praying for you! I’m glad you have you’re family and Harvey!! Our Animals are such a great blessing to us
My animals and especially my Horses now and in the past will always be there for us to hold and comfort us
Such a Shock to you and you are a strong young Woman! Supporting you 100 percent
Praying for you!!!❤🙏🐈🐴
Maddi you have to take every minute at a time right now. You can’t look too far ahead because it is too overwhelming for you. You will find out how strong you are when you get through these next few weeks, months and so on. God made us to be stronger than men because we are able to deal with more than 100 men.
You can come on and talk about anything or nothing and we will be here for you. You have an entire community behind you that care about you and will do anything to help and love you through anything you need and want. We all love you and I wish I lived close to you so I could give you a hug. Here is my virtual hug 🤗. I love you girl 💛❤️🍯🐝
I just stumbled across your page and I just want to tell you I am sorry. Your pain is so evident and I am so sorry for your loss. Do what you need to move forward and heal. God bless you and your family.
I hate I missed ur live I've thought of u everyday , and I hope this makes it to you. Maddie your a wonderful woman, ur light shines so bright u have attracted all of us to you. Your def one of a kind! I'm so sorry ur so hurt rn, and don't know what to do, say, think, where to turn. Lean on those that love you, accept their support and love rn. We are ALL here patiently waiting for you and whatever u want to share or not share thats up to you NO pressure EVER, and were ALL wishing we could help in anyway possible. We will ALL be here when you need us. Sending all the LOVE, Prayers, hugs, and good vibes to you sweet lady. ❤
Appreciate the update, that ur okay. 😊
Maddi you are a strong woman, I’m so sorry you loss your husband, I couldn’t imagine that feeling. Blessings and love to your family and his family. He is looking over you. ❤🕊️😔
I’m heartbroken for you. I’m in tears watching this. I’m praying for you and your family. This is no one’s fault. Take it one day at a time. We’re here for you.
I’m so sorry girl my husband died 5 years ago due to overdose 😞 our son was 1 and our daughter was 4 weeks. It was the hardest moments of my life I would scream in the car asking god why I would cry and cry so lost and confused. I would dream about him. Music would give me panic attacks 😔 you will never get over it but you will learn how to live with the pain. It’s something heavy in our hearts that will never go away. Let it all out you have to feel it in order to heal it 💔❤️🩹love you take care amiga 🫶🏻🫂
There are lots of military support groups that can help with your pain also. This is a lot for you to process and I hope that you have a community of people outside of social media that can hold and comfort you during this time. Praying for your peace of mind during this time 🙏🏾
I know I don't know you but I love watching your videos. Just know I love you in the dark, I love you in the light, I love you when you ugly cry, I love you when you smile.
My heart hurts for you. My pups were even trying to lick my phone to comfort you.
Suicide has touched my mother like this when she was very young as well. Her highschool sweet heart did this after an argument. She remarried but says my birth is what saved her. My sister in law also did this at the end of July 2020. Her daughter, grandson, and friend were there. I miss her terribly. I had seen her days before and she never let on to what was going on with her she just seemed tired. Even though we all knew her depression could get dark it was still a shock.
It always hurts my heart to see anyone go through the wreckage of this. Specially someone who loses their person. I literally lose my shit just thinking of losing my husband and I feel that's just a grain of salt compared to what you are going through. I wish you could get the answers you need. I wish I could take it away and it would bring him back. I wish I had the right words. That's a lot of wishing, I know..
Just know you are loved and you are prayed for and we will be here anytime you're ready to post, about anything. 💜💜💜
Dear Jesus, We come to You with heavy hearts, asking for Your help and solace for Maddi. We know that she experiences deep pain and loneliness due to her unimaginable heartbreak and we ask You to soothe her broken spirit and fill the void in her life.
We ask that You would give Maddi the strength and courage to go through each day. Help her to find strength for the sadness and loneliness that she experiences. May she feel Your presence with her throughout her grief and find comfort and hope in her sorrow.
Lord, give Maddi peace in her grieving heart and may she find healing for her pain. Grant her the courage to face her emotions and to embrace Your mercy and love. Remind her of the wonderful memories of her beloved husband and bring solace to her soul.
We thank You and we praise You Lord, for You are an ever-present help in times of trouble, and in your Holy and Beautiful Name, Amen
Isaiah 43:1-2 are really good verses for comfort as they remind you that God is with you and He loves you. In fact the whole chapter is beautiful and comforting. Also the beatitudes in Matthew 5. Matthew 5:4 says God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
if you feel called to, definitely open that Bible. God loves you so much and He has so many things He wants to tell you. He wants to comfort you and shower you in His love and peace❤️ we love you Maddi❤️❤️❤️
Amen ❤
Amen!
Amen
Beautiful prayer! Amen!!!
AMEN! 🙏🙏🙏🙏
We all love you and we all support you. God bless you. 💕❤
My dear, it is not your fault. Please don’t blame yourself, it will be okay and it will get better. There’s no need to apologize for taking time to yourself and grieving, you don’t need to be posting 24/7 and you shouldn’t feel compelled to share the story. Please stay strong, I can’t even imagine all the pain you’re going through. It hurts seeing someone who used to smile so much and bring joy to everyone be so broken. We love you and we’re here for you! ❤️🩹
I'm so sorry love. My gf took her life with prescription drugs. It's been 3 years... what I can say is that healing and answers and peace come. Please go to bereavement counseling as well love
NO MADDIE you don’t have to tell us anything. Take the time you need to process your loss and the grief. You can share with us how you feel but we really don’t need you to share anything you don’t want to. We just want YOU to be well and make it through and be safe and in good mental health. Grief is not easy . We are here for you. 💕
Just lost my love to cancer. I feel this and I know it will pass. But it surely doesn't feel that way now. Keep going. Honor those we lost and that is a wah to take all that lovd
Oh girl, I’m sending you all the hugs and love your way. There’s not much anyone can say to help with this pain, but you have been such a light in my life this past year or so and I needed to tell you that. Breathe when you feel like you can’t, count to ten, place your feet on the ground, inhale and remember how loved you are when you feel a wave of sadness coming on and then exhale.. give it a try if you think it’ll help even a little 🥺
Grieve as long as you need hun, it’s not linear and everyone is different. I’m proud of you for just getting out of bed, I’m proud of you for fighting to find the light, I’m just proud of you for being so strong and I’ll continue to support you through it all. love you Mads 🥺💜
My heart is absolutely breaking into a million pieces for you & your family. I'm so very sorry for your loss. 😞
I'm so sorry you're going through this!! If we could all just hug you and help ease the pain! Don't feel like you have to tell anything you're not ready to! We're here to show you love and support you through it all!! Continued prayers for you!!
You will be in my prayers.. 🙏 sorry for your loss, God will hold you in his arms closely. As people around you, gather up & show support at this difficult time.
I’m praying for you and your strength right now. I know this has to be so hard for you, I can’t even imagine. Stay strong and know that you have a ton of people that care for you and are lifting you up in prayer