I have to say that I ran across this story by accident. I was just jumping around RUclips when this came up. When I first saw you, I didn’t think much and was going to continue on hopping around. For some reason I stopped and started listening to what you had to say. I have to admire your look on things and your handling of this struggle all through your life. You have quite a story to tell and I am sure that you are a positive influence to some who might be going through something at least similar to you. Wishing you the best!
you're such a beautiful and warm soul. as a trans woman myself, i empathized with this a lot. thank you for staying true to yourself and always remaining humble. much love from massachusetts
Hahaha, Do you and she have mammary glands, ovaries, uterus, fallopian tubes, and your body can make a placenta to carry and give birth to a child?... If your answer is no, guess what, you, not a female....Your just a LIAR...😊😊😊😊😊
@@armymanssg508 i am a cis woman without some of the things you mention, does that make me not a woman, you sound foolish and hateful i wonder where that comes from😊
Finding true love is difficult. I was fortunate to have had 26 years with my best friend. Now that she has passed I seek someone new. As the speaker says she does not seek a gender, but the person. Totally agree. If you can find love , embrace it with whomever.
You are such a wonderful storyteller...I never thought of leaving before you finished. You have a delightful personality and thank you for sharing your story! 😊
“Attracted to girls or just wanted to be one” Yep! So much this. My first two spouses were who I wanted to be as a woman. In retrospect I realized I was living vicariously through them.
I applaud you for being so open and honest. As a guy who hates when men are assholes (my father was one, so I saw an example of that type very early on), I’m happy you found a guy who isn’t. I’m writing this 10 months after you posted this, so I hope things have only gotten better between the two of you. You level of self-awareness and emotional maturity is inspiring. And I see in the comments how much good you’re doing for others… helping them see it’s okay to be where they’re at. Bravo! I’m autistic but didn’t know this truth until about 9 years ago (at age 57). So, I’ve gone through a different kind of self discovery and acceptance process (biologically) than you have. But I really appreciate the parallels between our intellectual and emotional journeys! Here’s to being with the right person based on who they are inside! With much admiration 🙏🏻❤️😊
Kayla, I feel your relationship path. I've been married for 7 years and I give it my all to her and very little (if any) in return. I'm at a point I cannot give anymore and feel empty, unloved and unwanted.
Kayla, you are one of the people who gave me the courage to come out and transition. Once I learned about your life and saw how much of it paralleled many of my own experiences, I realized that being transgender wouldn’t be the end of my life, but the beginning of a better one. I started my transition 25 years later in life than you, but once I found you on Instagram, and subsequently many others, I realized I wouldn’t be alone in my journey. Thank You for all of the inspiration.
So refreshingly honest. I’m a guy. Old. You’re right, most guys don’t read. They are 100% visual. Late in life, I’ve learned that straight, gay, trans, none of it matters. People are people. If you like someone and truly care about them, that’s all that matters. Good luck to you.
I stuck around for the entire video. Love your stories, and I'm fascinated about your journey. Please continue to post, and you seem very happy which makes me happy.
Omg, you just nailed me to the wall❣ 5 months into transition and my compass is spinning wildly 🤪. Thank you so much for the heartfelt and honest video❤
Nice to see you making more Videos, Huge fan of yours. I played basketball in high school averaged 22 ppg. Your honesty one of the ppl that showed me it’s okay to be trans and now I’ve been on Estrogen for 2 years.
Real age 38 looks 25...still look amazing.....Some men think they know what women want when the truth is they really dont.....You are really never alone.....Congrats to you finding a nice guy to be good friends with....
@@curlyfry3049 Beauty is in the eye of the beholder....What you see isnt what I or anyone else can see...I see 25 because of how she carries herself...the confidence as well as her competitive nature
Wow that is a great story. I love the fact that you are so upfront and straightforward. That had to be tough going through all of this but you have moved forward with your life and I know you will find the right one when the time is right. I am glad to hear you are dating. Take your time and enjoy being friends and just take your time moving forward
Your storytelling skills are second to none, really fun stories. I'm a regular guy and my partner is a trans woman, great channel you got here, keep it up
Hello Kayla, I can relate to most of this. And the part about putting everything into a friendship and not getting half of it back, really strikes home for me.
As someone who is pansexual and someone who is newly transitioning I should count myself lucky since my spouse has been supportive of me so far. My close friend has been nothing but supportive to. I am glad that you shared your story because I am learning so much even though I am transitioning later in life. Claudia
When you started talking about being pansexual and having trouble in friendships in relationships because you put so much into it I can totally relate to that being pansexual myself. It really helped me but things in perspective, and its nice to hear someone talk about it. I feel being pansexual is not talked about a whole lot so thank you, also you're beautiful and awesome!
Hi Kayla. I absolutely love you. Your description of growing up sounds exactly like my own life. I never knew that other people felt that way too. I am fascinated by your journey and think that you are absolutely adorable in mind, spirit and body. I would be honored to have a friend like you. Good luck with the future. Wishing you all the best!
I truly admire your story. I've recently been talking to someone who is transgender from a dating app, we've been talking for close to 3 months now. I'm a cis male. And its been such a profound connection for both us, emotionally and intellectually (as you have stated in your video). I've been so supportive and patient with my partner, too. It's really been going so amazingly well. We are both surprised that we found each other. That said, at the end of your story about finding someone who is so supportive, it is something so great, and it really hit home for me, on many levels. Thank you for sharing. Cheers to everlasting love! I hope it grows for us all.
I loved the length of the video, I don't think it could ever be too long. You are such a beautiful woman and a huge inspiration to me and my transition. I hope you keep doing you cause I love it. ❤💙💜💖💗💘❤
Im sorry youve gone through all that. Happy that the video ended on a positive note though :) I grew up mormon, i know that i can relate to a lot of your experiences. I love seeing how happy you are, and i hope i can have your success.
This is a great video, Kayla. And I can relate to a lot of it other than actually transitioning itself. But that aside, I’m discovering more and more about the need for that emotional connection and how that’s the most important thing for attraction. It - and the fear of rejection as you also mention - kept me from dating also (dated one girl and married to another). Difference is I’m married with kids. Anyway, thank you so much for sharing and for your heartfelt candor. I hope you continue to find that emotional connection and get what you want/need out of dating and relationships. All the best! xoxoxo, Amanda
I totally love this video, the way you are taking uncertainty of the future with calm and curiosity, the way you describe glacious pace. Thank you for being so inspirational!
Knowing that someone wants to change their sexual identity is so very, very difficult. You've been thought so much, and it's apparent that you are happy. Thank you for sharing your journey.
I like your story and you‘re the first trans person I‘ve seen online who looks absolutely natural! ‚normal‘ woman here and you also look ‚normal‘. So lovely!
After 20 minutes of trying to put together my thoughts and feeling, this paraphrase came to me," how wonderful life is knowing you are in the world". Thank you
Also, so sorry about those bad experiences! Dating can be such a negative thing at times, and I'm very happy for you that you found someone who respects your pace, your boundaries and is there for you
This video popped up on RUclips so it's my first time seeing you. Don't worry about all the labels that people throw at you they really are meaningless. You've already discovered what many don't understand, that the emotional connection with another person is the most important thing we can have. If the person you connect with is male or female, it's not important. As long as you feel comfortable, just go with it. If this relationship makes you happy and fulfilled, I'm glad that you found this person and allowed them into your life.
Finding what you want is the first hurdle for anyone, but as I tell my daughter, it is not always easy . That being said, I congratulate you on a very successful transition. You are a beautiful woman, hands down. I will follow your story because it intrigues me. As an older straight male, I still do not know what I think about the differences in sexual orientation but strongly believe that what others want is their choice not society's. Hopefully you will find happiness with no matter who you choose and the world will open their eyes to a person's right to be who they want to be. Enjoy your life, no matter what .
I was taking a short break from making my quiz paper in my laptop and came across your video. Was curious and finished watching the whole video. You seem like a nice person and I’m happy you’re with someone you feel comfortable with.
I definitely watched the entire video! It's really cool getting to see another trans woman with kinda similar life experiences. Dating has been weird lol, but I am very happy to hear you have been with someone and that they have been there for you :)
I'm wondering if two transwomen (not referring to you two specifically) would make the most caring, understanding partners for one another, and curious if either of you have thought about this.
Your experience sounds pretty much exactly like mine, I am currently working up the courage to date someone. They'd be my third, ever. Lost my marriage and moved out a few months ago. it's hard, but this video helped me. Thanks Kayla.
I DID watch the entire video, and I LOVED IT!!! I have been following you on FLICKR for years, and have always been interested in your story. THIS part of your story was presented SO thoughtfully, and with such grace and honesty!! You are such a brave and wonderfully put together woman! I am so glad that 2021 looks so bright for you!! Thank you so much for sharing!!
I love your stories and your smile. At the risk of sounding very stalker-ish, you are the type of person that I would love to hang out with, scrub faced and in PJs and warm, fuzzy socks, binge watching our way through several seasons of Netflix. ALWAYS stay true to yourself because you are WONDERFUL. Also, we should be friends. Perhaps in another life when we are both cats.
Nobody clicked off this video. You're awesome, and I'm sure everybody that watches this, wants you to be happy as is humanly possible. You deserve to be treated like a gift.
I ran across this story 3 years after you posted it and I want to say, your absolutely correct about true love. This is coming from a male… I see people around me like my mother in law, sister in law and each have had there struggles. When I met my wife back in 2006 I was shocked at how hard and fast I fell in love with her and it is now just over 16 years. I’m not going to sit here and say it’s all been roses and beautiful when there was a few times I thought it was over due to a hardship we were going thru however the man upstairs has a plan for each and everyone of us.. We all have talents and he treats us all equal. I love your content and followed you on instagram…. Keep up working on yourself… Things always get better…
My first viewing of one of your videos and I picked the right one. I was quite affected by your story and taken with your open honesty about what I'm sure were difficult times. I don't think I could do it with the confidence you showed. Anyway, I'm trying to learn more about the Trans community and you've provided an heartfelt sampling I'll be pondering for a while. I've subscribed and will be going through your videos for more. Thanks Kayla, and all the best to you.
There wasn't even a vocabulary to explore gender identity when i was younger. It's been scary and exciting and rewarding and a RELIEF to finally be able to do so and very affirming to be accepted. Thank you for sharing all you did. It helped me more than you know.
Omg. I truly get it. Having an emotional connection is so important, everything else is frosting. But, if something crazy happens and it doesn't work out. I have been left feeling like I was dumped in a ditch. So, yeah life happens.
Stuck to the end of the video, just saying. Forget labeling, just be the person you were born to be. You seem to be in a great place now, and that is the coolest. I'm not into pans, but i sure do dig me some decorative Asian themed plates and bowl. lol.
I had an aversion to feminine things and a draw toward masculine things as an AFAB kid, and it took until I was an adult exploring my sexuality to realize I was just more comfortable being masculine/butch -- it wasn't a disconnect with my gender, just gender presentation. A lot of inner turmoil and questioning there... Over the span of a decade I cycled through the straight, bi, sapphic and pan labels before throwing my hands up and eventually realizing I'm ace/aro. Okay, everyone is cute and I want none of it! 😂 Been comfortably ace for many years now. These things can be so fluid and confusing. Thank you for sharing, and for finding your authentic self. We are all on a perpetual journey of self-discovery. For some this road is just very... very... winding.
Kayla, you’re very sweet! It’s so cool you’re taking it slow until you figure it all out. I can’t even get to the post- op phase in my life, but at least I have a very understand fiance and so it may end up being a “non-issue” for me.
This story is very helpful for me who is 3 years into my transition and since a few months ago I thought I was lesbian but now I'm might be bi or pan, so it puts my mind at ease that I'm not the only one going through this. Thanks for your story once again. 😊👧
I'm sorry to hear about your loss of your cat if you don't mind me asking what happened .I lost one this year also he was 19 years old and I miss him so much I adopted three more and by the way I am a guy and I stuck around to the end🤨
She was 16 and had kidney disease. She fought hard the last two years through several rough patches. I’ve been lost without her. Sorry to hear about your fur baby.
I think you're very cute 😍. I love the story because it's hard to find yourself when you're not sure who you are and you can't just open up to everyone about how you feel. I'm glad you found someone nice and understanding but I would have taken you out 🤗🤭
You are beautiful and real. Deep respect for the honesty with which you share your journey, including this difficult topic. Thanks for all the videos you share.
Many years ago I knew a guy and he wanted to date me. He confided he wanted to transition to a female to be a lesbian. Now this was way back in the early 70's. I was totally confused and couldn't wrap my head around it. Life moves forward and now it makes sense. So many people are driven by sex and for those of us who are not it takes time to figure things out. I wish you the best and hope you find the right person you can bond with. I feel it's less about what is between the legs and more about what is going on in life and between the ears. I live alone and haven't dated in years and years. I just enjoy life on its terms.
@@janinebrittanica4314 Yes, I'm cis! And it's always a question I have to ask myself bc I tend to idolize people I want to be like, so that it can easily feel very similar to being in love - and vice versa!
You have been an inspiration for me, Kayla. I'm a trans woman transitioning in my mid-20s. You were the lighting point for me that transitions post-puberty can be successful. Especially as a straight trans woman I relate so much to you because you are pansexual and also attracted to men. Most trans women on RUclips are lesbians. Keep up the good work. Hugs. X
Your strength, honesty and self awareness are very inspiring. I can tell you are a beautiful person. Good luck with your current relationship, I hope it brings you everything you are looking for. . Lucky guy.
There is something to be said regarding the part of the usual wedding vows: "for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love". Just that part. And it seems like you have found someone where you mean this to each other. And that's so great. I don't know you at all, but I am very happy for you. Just a little food for thought. Sex don't necessarily need to be the union of genitals. It can be and frankly should be so much more. It's just because I think sex is great, and releases tons of those nice endorphins. Think outside the box, be creative and don't deny yourself. Of course you might be asexual, but from this video alone you seem to be open and really haven't put yourself in any boxes or under any labels. Just so you don't shut the door on also having a physical part of a relationship. But hey - in the end you know you and I don't, so just have the greatest life possible. You only have this life once, and I wish you all the best.
👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾 OutFuckingstanding video being vulnerable with us. Watching your progress in your transition and hearing you express what life is for you is Amazing!! Hold on to this light you shine so bright to the world! Thnx for sharing! Much respect!
@@McNipples42 no it doesn't because there are men who are attracted to trans and men that aren't .... naturally if they are as perfect a transition as yours and didn't know and found out later their response might be violent ...my introduction is for the purpose to say that I wouldn't...there are stereotypical responses....some get angry coz they are attracted im not that type ..there are too many variables as you know ....for me it's your humanity I liked just go with the flow ....in my case I'd jump at a penis but slobber on a pussy ...thats all but id be attracted regardless on introduction
Fair enough. Mentioning that your straight to a trans person is fine. But speaking as a trans woman, I’d prefer if a guy said “I’m straight and I think you’re beautiful .” Rather than “I’m straight but I still think you’re beautiful “. The use of “but” makes it seem like the attraction to a trans woman is outside the realm of straightness. After reading your response though, I don’t think you meant it like that. Sorry if I came off harsh.
@@McNipples42 no you were fine and are fine ...so let me say here id go for you regardless even if I had prejudice ...you do it for me totally and your audience here agrees ....but its not jyst looks ....I had a ukrsinian Amazon wife so ive had looks from both wives in my life as an old man I look for finer things ....no greater compliment could one give
Wow I feel you. Your going thru some very confusing times. I would say just be you and not over think things. Be happy with whatever you decide at the time. Forget all others. What's for you is all of all. Bless you Girl. Respect.
You’re a very sweet woman. Just to let you know, I watched the whole video from beginning to end. Are you a writer? From the way you told your story it sounds like you are. Not saying it’s a bad thing just an observation. Hope you have a very happy and healthy new year...... great video.
I hit too many mental blocks to be a writer but I do enjoy writing. I also prefer to tell a proper story when I share about my personal life. I don't like the idea of just rambling on with no purpose. Thank you for the compliment!!
Kayla, look within yourself for the serene happiness you seek. That is where all real happiness originates. We are all on our own pathway to Self- fulfillment. All real happiness is within. Stay strong and look within yourself. Listen to the "small, still voice within" for true guidance for what is real and what it not! Your are MUCH more than your physical body - you are a spiritual energy being here on Earth for a period of learning. Stay strong!!
Kayla i really feel for you, as you embrace discovering your true self. I can't help, but notice the language that we all share and which I believe is a huge reason humans struggle finding there true selves. That is, living solely in our physical forms, but craving to not just be recognized as those forms!
"Not attracted to cookware", now THAT was funny. I heard that while I was taking a drink and almost choked. Lol. I also want to say that the waitress in your story was Right, 1.you were way out of that guy's league and 2.he was a douchebag. I love that the restaurant covered your food. Thanks for sharing your story! You're a good story teller and have a very interesting history.
You young lady are a beautiful unique soul. I hope and pray you find your life partner. I can certainly relate to your fondness for your cat rip- I hope you are considering getting another. 🐾❤
Hello Kayla, thank you for sharing your personal experience so openly. Even though I understand everyryone's experience is different, it gives me insight into transgender people's life journeys. It's important to hear stories like this so we as humans beings are more understanding of one another.
I know you didn't mean it the way it read, but 38 looks amazing in general. I believe it's a small minority that are in their late 30's that may look bad for their age. I'm 37 my goodness lol
Stumbled across your video. Your appearance drew me in, your story telling captured me, your natural and loving aura intrigued me. Bravo girl! Your are open & honest, your heart is pure and you. are obviously good in your own skin. Be free to be who you are! You deserve a happy life. I wish you all the happiness a person should have...
I briefly knew a trans woman . The person used to talk about politics. The person would not visit Florida or red states because the person said that Floridians and red states were prejudice. Backward thinking works both ways.
The whole cute thing is that you're a beautiful soul, and you don't rush tu tag your life in any genre, you've been thru a lot of things, and you are doing just fine 😊👏🏻🙏🏻loves from Spain
Thanks so much for making these videos. I've been talking to a trans girl at the gym, and whether or not we take things further (haha, once we're allowed back out of lockdown again...) gaining understanding from listening to you is invaluable!
I have to say that I ran across this story by accident. I was just jumping around RUclips when this came up. When I first saw you, I didn’t think much and was going to continue on hopping around. For some reason I stopped and started listening to what you had to say. I have to admire your look on things and your handling of this struggle all through your life. You have quite a story to tell and I am sure that you are a positive influence to some who might be going through something at least similar to you. Wishing you the best!
you're such a beautiful and warm soul. as a trans woman myself, i empathized with this a lot. thank you for staying true to yourself and always remaining humble. much love from massachusetts
Your a beautiful lady
Hahaha, Do you and she have mammary glands, ovaries, uterus, fallopian tubes, and your body can make a placenta to carry and give birth to a child?... If your answer is no, guess what, you, not a female....Your just a LIAR...😊😊😊😊😊
@@armymanssg508 i am a cis woman without some of the things you mention, does that make me not a woman, you sound foolish and hateful i wonder where that comes from😊
@@TheRamezR most cis women have them, ALL TRANS DON'T HAVE THEM. why do you think?
Finding true love is difficult. I was fortunate to have had 26 years with my best friend. Now that she has passed I seek someone new. As the speaker says she does not seek a gender, but the person. Totally agree. If you can find love , embrace it with whomever.
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@@NoName-vy8vu LMAO
@@NoName-vy8vu you too lmao
Ghey
I hope to find true love
You are such a wonderful storyteller...I never thought of leaving before you finished. You have a delightful personality and thank you for sharing your story! 😊
“Attracted to girls or just wanted to be one” Yep! So much this. My first two spouses were who I wanted to be as a woman. In retrospect I realized I was living vicariously through them.
I wish I the best r u single
yes me to i hate not being me i got my nails and brows done and it is like being free
This. I realized I was jealous of her hair, her body, her clothes, her perfume. I wanted to be better than her, not date her. haha
Are you unaware this is classic autogynephilia? Read Phil Illy‘s book to try and understand yourself.
I applaud you for being so open and honest. As a guy who hates when men are assholes (my father was one, so I saw an example of that type very early on), I’m happy you found a guy who isn’t.
I’m writing this 10 months after you posted this, so I hope things have only gotten better between the two of you.
You level of self-awareness and emotional maturity is inspiring. And I see in the comments how much good you’re doing for others… helping them see it’s okay to be where they’re at. Bravo!
I’m autistic but didn’t know this truth until about 9 years ago (at age 57). So, I’ve gone through a different kind of self discovery and acceptance process (biologically) than you have. But I really appreciate the parallels between our intellectual and emotional journeys!
Here’s to being with the right person based on who they are inside!
With much admiration 🙏🏻❤️😊
Bro you are soft af, no wonder your old man was hard on you. He wasn’t an asshole, you’re just lame
Kayla, I feel your relationship path. I've been married for 7 years and I give it my all to her and very little (if any) in return. I'm at a point I cannot give anymore and feel empty, unloved and unwanted.
One word .divorce .
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Been divorced...
Kayla, you are one of the people who gave me the courage to come out and transition. Once I learned about your life and saw how much of it paralleled many of my own experiences, I realized that being transgender wouldn’t be the end of my life, but the beginning of a better one. I started my transition 25 years later in life than you, but once I found you on Instagram, and subsequently many others, I realized I wouldn’t be alone in my journey. Thank You for all of the inspiration.
Congrats on finding and embracing your truth!
So refreshingly honest. I’m a guy. Old. You’re right, most guys don’t read. They are 100% visual.
Late in life, I’ve learned that straight, gay, trans, none of it matters. People are people. If you like someone and truly care about them, that’s all that matters. Good luck to you.
I stuck around for the entire video. Love your stories, and I'm fascinated about your journey. Please continue to post, and you seem very happy which makes me happy.
Omg, you just nailed me to the wall❣ 5 months into transition and my compass is spinning wildly 🤪. Thank you so much for the heartfelt and honest video❤
Nice to see you making more Videos, Huge fan of yours. I played basketball in high school averaged 22 ppg. Your honesty one of the ppl that showed me it’s okay to be trans and now I’ve been on Estrogen for 2 years.
Hello sweetheart
Real age 38 looks 25...still look amazing.....Some men think they know what women want when the truth is they really dont.....You are really never alone.....Congrats to you finding a nice guy to be good friends with....
No doubt she looks younger than 38 but 25 ? Come on man.
@@curlyfry3049 Beauty is in the eye of the beholder....What you see isnt what I or anyone else can see...I see 25 because of how she carries herself...the confidence as well as her competitive nature
Well spoken!
Yes, yes! The self-described "fugly boy" has transformed into a beautiful woman. Just sincerely beautiful.
Oh, and watched all the way through. You are a very good storyteller with an enchanting voice.
Wow that is a great story. I love the fact that you are so upfront and straightforward. That had to be tough going through all of this but you have moved forward with your life and I know you will find the right one when the time is right. I am glad to hear you are dating. Take your time and enjoy being friends and just take your time moving forward
I’m a guy and I stuck around and listened to every word 😊. Very nice video ☺️
Good good
You Are Beautiful,
Kayla's got the WORLD in her hands :)
Your storytelling skills are second to none, really fun stories. I'm a regular guy and my partner is a trans woman, great channel you got here, keep it up
Hello Kayla, I can relate to most of this. And the part about putting everything into a friendship and not getting half of it back, really strikes home for me.
As someone who is pansexual and someone who is newly transitioning I should count myself lucky since my spouse has been supportive of me so far. My close friend has been nothing but supportive to. I am glad that you shared your story because I am learning so much even though I am transitioning later in life. Claudia
When you started talking about being pansexual and having trouble in friendships in relationships because you put so much into it I can totally relate to that being pansexual myself. It really helped me but things in perspective, and its nice to hear someone talk about it. I feel being pansexual is not talked about a whole lot so thank you, also you're beautiful and awesome!
I'm a guy and I stuck around to the end of the video. Hope you two are still seeing each other and you have found some happiness
Hi Kayla. I absolutely love you. Your description of growing up sounds exactly like my own life. I never knew that other people felt that way too. I am fascinated by your journey and think that you are absolutely adorable in mind, spirit and body. I would be honored to have a friend like you. Good luck with the future. Wishing you all the best!
So open and honest in your feelings Kayla!! Whoever they are, and whatever gender they are, the person you find will be very lucky indeed. Keep well!!
you're extremely beautiful and well spoken!! cheering you on your journey!
I truly admire your story. I've recently been talking to someone who is transgender from a dating app, we've been talking for close to 3 months now. I'm a cis male. And its been such a profound connection for both us, emotionally and intellectually (as you have stated in your video). I've been so supportive and patient with my partner, too. It's really been going so amazingly well. We are both surprised that we found each other. That said, at the end of your story about finding someone who is so supportive, it is something so great, and it really hit home for me, on many levels.
Thank you for sharing. Cheers to everlasting love! I hope it grows for us all.
i identify with this so much. Always thought myself asexual. Had experiences with both. realising I was more jealous of than attracted to women
1-6-2021 I discovered you have athletic talents as a basketball player and now into Art. You're a lady of many interests! Kudos.
I loved the length of the video, I don't think it could ever be too long. You are such a beautiful woman and a huge inspiration to me and my transition. I hope you keep doing you cause I love it. ❤💙💜💖💗💘❤
These types of conversations need to happen much more often. This openness is healthy for growth on a personal level as well as societal.
Im sorry youve gone through all that. Happy that the video ended on a positive note though :)
I grew up mormon, i know that i can relate to a lot of your experiences. I love seeing how happy you are, and i hope i can have your success.
This was one of the most touching videos I’ve ever seen. I really appreciate your honesty & opening up your life to the world in this way.
Well I managed to stick around for the whole video. Just glad to hear that you are happy with where you are.
This is a great video, Kayla. And I can relate to a lot of it other than actually transitioning itself. But that aside, I’m discovering more and more about the need for that emotional connection and how that’s the most important thing for attraction. It - and the fear of rejection as you also mention - kept me from dating also (dated one girl and married to another). Difference is I’m married with kids. Anyway, thank you so much for sharing and for your heartfelt candor. I hope you continue to find that emotional connection and get what you want/need out of dating and relationships. All the best! xoxoxo, Amanda
Loved the “glacially slow” analogy! And I love your honesty. Thanks for sharing ❤️
Hello sweetheart I’m cosmo your new boyfriend
I totally love this video, the way you are taking uncertainty of the future with calm and curiosity, the way you describe glacious pace. Thank you for being so inspirational!
So many feels for all this 😁 I've had very similar experiences. Keep it up sis!
Knowing that someone wants to change their sexual identity is so very, very difficult. You've been thought so much, and it's apparent that you are happy. Thank you for sharing your journey.
This is great! I am glad you have finally answered the question that has been on my mind for years as I followed your transition on flickr.
I like your story and you‘re the first trans person I‘ve seen online who looks absolutely natural! ‚normal‘ woman here and you also look ‚normal‘. So lovely!
After 20 minutes of trying to put together my thoughts and feeling, this paraphrase came to me," how wonderful life is knowing you are in the world". Thank you
Also, so sorry about those bad experiences! Dating can be such a negative thing at times, and I'm very happy for you that you found someone who respects your pace, your boundaries and is there for you
You are super chill. In an alternate universe I could see us playing board games together.
Thanks for your story and your insights. You don't realize how much you inspire in others with your life story and your journey
This video popped up on RUclips so it's my first time seeing you.
Don't worry about all the labels that people throw at you they really are meaningless. You've already discovered what many don't understand, that the emotional connection with another person is the most important thing we can have.
If the person you connect with is male or female, it's not important. As long as you feel comfortable, just go with it.
If this relationship makes you happy and fulfilled, I'm glad that you found this person and allowed them into your life.
Finding what you want is the first hurdle for anyone, but as I tell my daughter, it is not always easy . That being said, I congratulate you on a very successful transition. You are a beautiful woman, hands down. I will follow your story because it intrigues me. As an older straight male, I still do not know what I think about the differences in sexual orientation but strongly believe that what others want is their choice not society's. Hopefully you will find happiness with no matter who you choose and the world will open their eyes to a person's right to be who they want to be. Enjoy your life, no matter what .
I was taking a short break from making my quiz paper in my laptop and came across your video.
Was curious and finished watching the whole video. You seem like a nice person and I’m happy you’re with someone you feel comfortable with.
I definitely watched the entire video! It's really cool getting to see another trans woman with kinda similar life experiences. Dating has been weird lol, but I am very happy to hear you have been with someone and that they have been there for you :)
I'm wondering if two transwomen (not referring to you two specifically) would make the most caring, understanding partners for one another, and curious if either of you have thought about this.
you’re so pretty omg you don’t look 38
Right
Your experience sounds pretty much exactly like mine, I am currently working up the courage to date someone. They'd be my third, ever. Lost my marriage and moved out a few months ago. it's hard, but this video helped me. Thanks Kayla.
I DID watch the entire video, and I LOVED IT!!! I have been following you on FLICKR for years, and have always been interested in your story. THIS part of your story was presented SO thoughtfully, and with such grace and honesty!! You are such a brave and wonderfully put together woman! I am so glad that 2021 looks so bright for you!! Thank you so much for sharing!!
I love your stories and your smile. At the risk of sounding very stalker-ish, you are the type of person that I would love to hang out with, scrub faced and in PJs and warm, fuzzy socks, binge watching our way through several seasons of Netflix. ALWAYS stay true to yourself because you are WONDERFUL. Also, we should be friends. Perhaps in another life when we are both cats.
Nobody clicked off this video. You're awesome, and I'm sure everybody that watches this, wants you to be happy as is humanly possible. You deserve to be treated like a gift.
I ran across this story 3 years after you posted it and I want to say, your absolutely correct about true love. This is coming from a male… I see people around me like my mother in law, sister in law and each have had there struggles. When I met my wife back in 2006 I was shocked at how hard and fast I fell in love with her and it is now just over 16 years. I’m not going to sit here and say it’s all been roses and beautiful when there was a few times I thought it was over due to a hardship we were going thru however the man upstairs has a plan for each and everyone of us.. We all have talents and he treats us all equal. I love your content and followed you on instagram…. Keep up working on yourself… Things always get better…
Really Beautiful Kayla Love the "Hmm i had one of those...I got rid of it"
What a frank , thoughtful and honest video and I wish you well
awh... that ending was sooo sweet! I'm glad you're finally finding love in another
@ keep telling yourself that.
My first viewing of one of your videos and I picked the right one.
I was quite affected by your story and taken with your open honesty about what I'm sure were difficult times. I don't think I could do it with the confidence you showed.
Anyway, I'm trying to learn more about the Trans community and you've provided an heartfelt sampling I'll be pondering for a while. I've subscribed and will be going through your videos for more.
Thanks Kayla, and all the best to you.
I'm byesexual. Every woman I approach says bye.
you're in luck i'm ewwsexual
@@ulfricstormcloak8003 Hehe
There wasn't even a vocabulary to explore gender identity when i was younger. It's been scary and exciting and rewarding and a RELIEF to finally be able to do so and very affirming to be accepted. Thank you for sharing all you did. It helped me more than you know.
What an absolutely lovely, warm person you are :) sending lots of good wishes your way
Omg. I truly get it. Having an emotional connection is so important, everything else is frosting. But, if something crazy happens and it doesn't work out. I have been left feeling like I was dumped in a ditch. So, yeah life happens.
Dating 3 people is good for someone as young as you I am 52 and haven't dated anyone.
Broootal but I’m in the same boat. 33 and rotting alone in my youth.
Thank you so much for this! I'm an older cis/het M. I learned a lot from this and I wish you all the best!
Stuck to the end of the video, just saying. Forget labeling, just be the person you were born to be. You seem to be in a great place now, and that is the coolest. I'm not into pans, but i sure do dig me some decorative Asian themed plates and bowl. lol.
I had an aversion to feminine things and a draw toward masculine things as an AFAB kid, and it took until I was an adult exploring my sexuality to realize I was just more comfortable being masculine/butch -- it wasn't a disconnect with my gender, just gender presentation. A lot of inner turmoil and questioning there... Over the span of a decade I cycled through the straight, bi, sapphic and pan labels before throwing my hands up and eventually realizing I'm ace/aro. Okay, everyone is cute and I want none of it! 😂 Been comfortably ace for many years now. These things can be so fluid and confusing. Thank you for sharing, and for finding your authentic self. We are all on a perpetual journey of self-discovery. For some this road is just very... very... winding.
Kayla, you’re very sweet! It’s so cool you’re taking it slow until you figure it all out. I can’t even get to the post- op phase in my life, but at least I have a very understand fiance and so it may end up being a “non-issue” for me.
This story is very helpful for me who is 3 years into my transition and since a few months ago I thought I was lesbian but now I'm might be bi or pan, so it puts my mind at ease that I'm not the only one going through this. Thanks for your story once again. 😊👧
I'm sorry to hear about your loss of your cat if you don't mind me asking what happened .I lost one this year also he was 19 years old and I miss him so much I adopted three more and by the way I am a guy and I stuck around to the end🤨
She was 16 and had kidney disease. She fought hard the last two years through several rough patches. I’ve been lost without her. Sorry to hear about your fur baby.
@@KaylaWardofficial She was Ur "child-surrogate"
@@KaylaWardofficial You're gonna end up being a crazy cat lady. 🐈
I think your attraction to women is your natural self. You never lost that.
I think you're very cute 😍. I love the story because it's hard to find yourself when you're not sure who you are and you can't just open up to everyone about how you feel. I'm glad you found someone nice and understanding but I would have taken you out 🤗🤭
You are beautiful and real. Deep respect for the honesty with which you share your journey, including this difficult topic. Thanks for all the videos you share.
I'm not dumb.
😒 And I take showers almost every day, even in quarentine!
Anyway this was insightful, despite the sexist start.
Many years ago I knew a guy and he wanted to date me. He confided he wanted to
transition to a female to be a lesbian. Now this was way back in the early 70's. I
was totally confused and couldn't wrap my head around it. Life moves forward and
now it makes sense. So many people are driven by sex and for those of us who are
not it takes time to figure things out. I wish you the best and hope you find the right
person you can bond with. I feel it's less about what is between the legs and more
about what is going on in life and between the ears. I live alone and haven't dated
in years and years. I just enjoy life on its terms.
"Do I *like* her or do I want to be her?" - Voilà, the female bi/pan dilemma haha
Is this how it is? Are you cis? I felt shame for this forever.
@@janinebrittanica4314 Yes, I'm cis! And it's always a question I have to ask myself bc I tend to idolize people I want to be like, so that it can easily feel very similar to being in love - and vice versa!
@@schueggi wow, yep- there are many of us who were shamed into the closet for years longer bc we were convinced that such feelings made us weirdos
@@janinebrittanica4314 Oh no!!! Fck shame, honestly! I'm very sorry, I hope you know you're appreciated and completely perfect the way you are!
@@schueggi you are sweet, thank you. I am currently xtitioning into an exciting new creature. 😊
Yeah stuck around! Bolt? Hell no. It's a warm moment when someone like you shares some of her deepest personal and vulnerable thoughts. ❤️ Thank you.
Hey Kayla, amazing that you have found someone. Makes me happy when people find love. Keep making the long videos, your content is always great
You have been an inspiration for me, Kayla. I'm a trans woman transitioning in my mid-20s. You were the lighting point for me that transitions post-puberty can be successful. Especially as a straight trans woman I relate so much to you because you are pansexual and also attracted to men. Most trans women on RUclips are lesbians. Keep up the good work. Hugs. X
Loved your story, your confidence and femininity. You’re gorgeous, in and out.
Your strength, honesty and self awareness are very inspiring. I can tell you are a beautiful person. Good luck with your current relationship, I hope it brings you everything you are looking for. . Lucky guy.
There is something to be said regarding the part of the usual wedding vows: "for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love". Just that part. And it seems like you have found someone where you mean this to each other. And that's so great. I don't know you at all, but I am very happy for you.
Just a little food for thought. Sex don't necessarily need to be the union of genitals. It can be and frankly should be so much more. It's just because I think sex is great, and releases tons of those nice endorphins. Think outside the box, be creative and don't deny yourself. Of course you might be asexual, but from this video alone you seem to be open and really haven't put yourself in any boxes or under any labels. Just so you don't shut the door on also having a physical part of a relationship.
But hey - in the end you know you and I don't, so just have the greatest life possible. You only have this life once, and I wish you all the best.
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OutFuckingstanding video being vulnerable with us. Watching your progress in your transition and hearing you express what life is for you is Amazing!!
Hold on to this light you shine so bright to the world! Thnx for sharing! Much respect!
I’m strait but I’d like to say your a lovely person ...really lovely more feminine than most women in my book
The “I’m straight but” really ruins the compliment. It’s basically implying that attraction to a trans woman isn’t straight.
@@McNipples42 no it doesn't because there are men who are attracted to trans and men that aren't ....
naturally if they are as perfect a transition as yours and didn't know and found out later their response might be violent ...my introduction is for the purpose to say that I wouldn't...there are stereotypical responses....some get angry coz they are attracted
im not that type ..there are too many variables as you know ....for me it's your humanity I liked
just go with the flow ....in my case I'd jump at a penis but slobber on a pussy ...thats all but id be attracted regardless on introduction
Fair enough. Mentioning that your straight to a trans person is fine. But speaking as a trans woman, I’d prefer if a guy said “I’m straight and I think you’re beautiful .” Rather than “I’m straight but I still think you’re beautiful “. The use of “but” makes it seem like the attraction to a trans woman is outside the realm of straightness.
After reading your response though, I don’t think you meant it like that. Sorry if I came off harsh.
@@McNipples42 no you were fine and are fine ...so let me say here id go for you regardless even if I had prejudice ...you do it for me totally and your audience here agrees ....but its not jyst looks ....I had a ukrsinian Amazon wife so ive had looks from both wives in my life as an old man I look for finer things ....no greater compliment could one give
@@McNipples42 when in Australia look me up
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fb is the same name and im pictured with my young son
Wow I feel you. Your going thru some very confusing times. I would say just be you and not over think things. Be happy with whatever you decide at the time. Forget all others. What's for you is all of all. Bless you Girl. Respect.
You’re a very sweet woman. Just to let you know, I watched the whole video from beginning to end. Are you a writer? From the way you told your story it sounds like you are. Not saying it’s a bad thing just an observation. Hope you have a very happy and healthy new year...... great video.
I hit too many mental blocks to be a writer but I do enjoy writing. I also prefer to tell a proper story when I share about my personal life. I don't like the idea of just rambling on with no purpose. Thank you for the compliment!!
Kayla, look within yourself for the serene happiness you seek. That is where all real happiness originates. We are all on our own pathway to Self- fulfillment. All real happiness is within. Stay strong and look within yourself. Listen to the "small, still voice within" for true guidance for what is real and what it not! Your are MUCH more than your physical body - you are a spiritual energy being here on Earth for a period of learning. Stay strong!!
Aw you're so cute. I can really relate to your experience of trying to figure out what you like. Just keep being you ❤
Kayla i really feel for you, as you embrace discovering your true self. I can't help, but notice the language that we all share and which I believe is a huge reason humans struggle finding there true selves. That is, living solely in our physical forms, but craving to not just be recognized as those forms!
"Not attracted to cookware", now THAT was funny. I heard that while I was taking a drink and almost choked. Lol. I also want to say that the waitress in your story was Right, 1.you were way out of that guy's league and 2.he was a douchebag. I love that the restaurant covered your food. Thanks for sharing your story! You're a good story teller and have a very interesting history.
Nice
Its truly awesome to see some who seems as genuinely happy as you. First time seeing you on YT, you have a new fan thank you for sharing.
You young lady are a beautiful unique soul. I hope and pray you find your life partner. I can certainly relate to your fondness for your cat rip- I hope you are considering getting another. 🐾❤
Hello Kayla, thank you for sharing your personal experience so openly. Even though I understand everyryone's experience is different, it gives me insight into transgender people's life journeys. It's important to hear stories like this so we as humans beings are more understanding of one another.
HOW are you 38?! You look amazing
Skin care is nuts now
I know you didn't mean it the way it read, but 38 looks amazing in general. I believe it's a small minority that are in their late 30's that may look bad for their age. I'm 37 my goodness lol
@@sharicamonet9675 yeah totally I just meant she doesn’t even look 38. If she didn’t state it, I would’ve had no idea.
Stumbled across your video. Your appearance drew me in, your story telling captured me, your natural and loving aura intrigued me. Bravo girl! Your are open & honest, your heart is pure and you. are obviously good in your own skin. Be free to be who you are! You deserve a happy life. I wish you all the happiness a person should have...
So energizing, charming, warmhearted, --
I briefly knew a trans woman . The person used to talk about politics. The person would not visit Florida or red states because the person said that Floridians and red states were prejudice. Backward thinking works both ways.
I must say you are attractive...
I admire your Truth, stay true to you and know that the people you are meant to know and love will be there when you are ready for them.
What a coward for that guy to split on you in the middle of dinner.
yes that was bad no matter the situation
we are human being first, be respectful. He acted like they getting married tomorrow
The whole cute thing is that you're a beautiful soul, and you don't rush tu tag your life in any genre, you've been thru a lot of things, and you are doing just fine 😊👏🏻🙏🏻loves from Spain
You’re incredibly lovely, hope you know that
Thanks so much for making these videos. I've been talking to a trans girl at the gym, and whether or not we take things further (haha, once we're allowed back out of lockdown again...) gaining understanding from listening to you is invaluable!