My depression has gotten so bad. I've lost all my jobs, dropped out of college, and all lost contact with life long friends. I deleted all my social network accounts because of the extreme anxiety it gave me when I saw other people happily living their lives while It felt like I was falling into a black hole. Now I'm even more isolated, its a self-fulfilling prophecy... I don't know how i'll feel in the future but I do know you got me through the these past 14 minutes. Thanks man.
Braylon Storm Hi...I hope you've gotten some help...You're not alone man. Keep up the faith..you will feel better. Just have hope, and remember who you are. Through the fear, and hopelessness...don't give up. You can go back to school, get and keep a job...but you have to be more patient with yourself. That's the first step. The second is to get help. No matter how bad it feels...get help! Depression is not you...but it is in your life. Listen to what Noah says. "You will survive".... He makes a lot of sense. Find a good doctor...find a good support group, if that works for you. Find one other person who understands...be good to yourself. Remember the depression will pass. Try not to expect so much for yourself in one day...you won't be able to do everything in one day..You Won't!. So don't try to. Take a breath. Deep..and get some help. Whatever you do...don't do it alone. It will get better.
MAYBENOT Gameplay try a different one if you can't play the one you were.playing. It's so important for us to exercise. I just had shoulder surgery, so am sidelined for a bit, I can certainly feel the difference in my moods. The idea is to keep moving. Give yourself the endorphin treatment you need. Kick depressions butt back. Don't lose faith in yourself. Just like Noah says. I know it's hard to see beyond the pain when one is in the middle of a bout. However, just keep reminding yourself that it will pass. Take meds if you need to get through whatever it is that's bothering you. Don't try to strong arm it...it only makes matters worse. I take the Buddhist approach. I face the bout head on. I don't try to change, or turn it around, I sit and confront it...and it loses it power over me. It's called mindfulness meditation. It works for me, and for millions, But it's not a one size fits all approach. It doesn't hurt to try it, if you don't meditate. Just take what you need from it. You don't have to become a Buddhist, or join a monastery or anything. Just be yourself. Get in touch with you, and not the depression. Depression is not you. It's a symptom of what you're going through.
I appreciate you reaching out. I of course don't know the ins and outs of your relationship and what goes on day to day so its pretty hard to speculate. I have been in some tricky relationships thats for sure and can empathize with how hard relationships can be. I guess i'd just say to set healthy boundaries and well "man up on her" if she is emotionally abusive or disrespectful. I don't mean get physical with her btw, just stand up for yourself. Best of luck to you, mind body and soul.
I know your vids are for men mostly, but your words helped me. I always think, if I actually ate fruit/veggies, exercised, established a good sleep cycle, and face my anxiety and get a job I would overcome everything but I am not motivated to. All my friends went on to college or they at least got a job, driver's license, and a car. I stay home and just overthink everything. I honestly can live with depression. But anxiety is the worst thing that has happened to me. My parents noticed how worried I was in middle school and it got so worse when I moved cities. Now I can't make phone calls, I feel so much anxiety hanging with my friends feeling like I'm going to say something wrong. I took a spiritual approach and started meditation but I am stuck in it again.
+// jess // I so relate to "overthinking everything". I am in my own head obsessing and worriying and stressing all day everyday. Sometimes I have good stretches but ultimately I get lost in a deep spin over and over again repeating the same loops in my mind over and over again. Torture for sure. That being said, we keep fighting for our future selves and we treasure the more calm moments. Motivation is a tricky thing. I try and stick to a schedule no mater how I feel. Best of luck, I know its hard.
bignoknow Thank you so much for your reply. I would never wish the feeling on anyone but I am more at peace knowing I am not alone in this. What you typed is extremely relatable. I couldn't agree more with fighting for the future self, sometimes it's all we got to fantasize about. I will try to follow your advice and come up with a schedule. It will give me enough motivation and a sense of productivity/completion for each day. Thank you again.
you should try to do more spiritual searching. it will be the no1 thing that can help anyone. look up 'the secret' on RUclips, the 12 universal laws and check out some of the recommended searches from there. there are also audio music/frequencies that you can listen to while you sleep and lastly meditation. it will help you on a journey of spiritual freedom... also to learn about spiritual freedom (set yourself free from being a victim in your life/to be positive. great full and thankful for what you have and no worry about what you don't have) and how your mind can be so powerful. I know it sounds a bit out there and I thought so to when someone tried to share this with me but I've realized that I've been searching for something my whole life. I didn't know what it was but I was sick of living how I was. I too have depression, anxiety, ptsd and sleep insomnia. ive gone through alot in my life. But we all in one way or another searching for something.... something to help us, free us, give us answers.... I'm assuming that's why your here? for help or answers.
I'm really pleased you're feeling better and had the courage to post this. It will help others to recover. I am a survivor of bipolar which I've had for the past 33 years which proves it is possible to beat depression. Over the years I have had to be sectioned many times and was hospitalized every few years. The last time I was really suffering I was eating 'easy to make food' such as cereals and sandwiches to keep me alive and sleeping up to 16 hours a day to hide the pain of depression. I didn't want to continue like this and decided to rescue an unwanted kitten, something I had to care for and a reason to get out of bed. I kept him as an indoors cat for his first year. I know some some people would think this is cruel but other people keep them indoor all their lives. I nurtured him into a beautiful loving cat and he helped me out of my depression. I like to think that this decision, and medication, has kept me well for the last 7 years. My message to others is please don't despair, fight the black dog and you will find something that works for you. Be assured that overcoming depression does make you a stronger person. All the best to all xx
I'm really sorry for your panic attack as I know they are very scary and painful. I'm also glad that some of my advice was of use to you and that you're slowly getting better. Be patient and keep that self care up ok. I'm here if you need support. Noah
Your depression/anxiety videos are great. I'm over the worst of my issues now, I think, but once every few weeks or months they come back and totally overwhelm me, and these videos are a great help during those times, as they were when I was in the thick of it.
I am sorry for your husbands suffering and for yours as I know this mess does not just affect the person ill but the ones closest to them as well. Be as brave as you can for him and make sure you are finding support for yourself so that you can stay strong. I hope my recovery continues to be successful too!!! Take good care.
You are very welcome for the videos my friend. I am sorry for whatever suffering you are experiencing and hope relief finds you soon if it has not started to find you already. Thanks for the encouragement! I of course hope your doing ok (relatively speaking) as well. Noah
Sorry for your suffering my man and I am truly glad to know you have been healing regarding your depression and anxiety. The depersonalization issue is a tricky one and something I sadly still struggle with to this day. Its been the last to go although I am grateful to say its better now then a year ago but I still have a long ways to go. The advice I could offers is pretty basic, stay away from drugs and alcohol, tobacco and even caffeine. Eat as healthy as you can and get regular sleep.
After 6 years of living just like you have described, keeping it to myself, its pretty damn amazing to hear it, word for word, that someone has gone through and overcome this hell. It sends alot of hope to many people im sure. For me it has anyways. Thank you.
I just wanted to tell you from the very bottom of my heart that I appreciate you and what you do. You're very reassuring and very human and I'm so glad that you exist and are making videos. This video and a few others (how to cope, how to know if you're getting better) have really helped me get through a rough patch today and helped me center and refocus my energy.
Great video mate, im going threw all those feelings right now, its brilliant to hear that other people understand and know that there is light at the end of the tunnel!
PART 2 Also be sure that you are not deficient in any of your hormones, vitamins and minerals and if you are address them if you can. Find out if you have any food sensitivities and try and get regular exercise. More then anything though just try and hold on to the hope that everything will be ok. I have to work hard on that sometimes daily but just remember you are not alone and that people like me are with you.
thank you so much this made me feel so much better. ive been having a rough time with depression and anxiety every day..my faith and. my children keeps me going on
Thanks for having this video, this channel, this message. I watched two of your videos (Suicide is for the weak). In the past 30 minutes, you've helped me see a brighter near-future. The more I don't live or at least accomplish my day-to-day tasks, pain aside, the more life I will lose control of until it's unrepairable. I keep looking at life like a mountain I need to climb in a day or I fail. If I take at least a step each day, eventually I will get there; I need to stop comparing my steps with others leaps. For you, I will try not to internalize my pained steps
I understand what you're feeling. My depression started when I was only twelve years old. I am now twenty-three. I wish I could sit here and honestly say that everything will get better over night, but it takes determination. You have to somehow find a way to reach deep inside and find inner strength to make it to the next day. Find something to look forward to. Even if it's just seeing a movie that you keep seeing previews for with a friend.... Find a reason to keep pushing forward.
Hey, I still have my darker days but no major relapse to report thank god. Thank you for you kind words. I will do a testosterone specific update tomorrow and will bring up my weight and muscle development. I know I need to have lighter topics less related to mood along with the more serious ones. We are now on the same dose and no I do not feel you have to gain weight just because you raised your T dosage as i've held steady. If you are lifting weights though, you will gain some from that.
I've just stumbled across this video. I'm in quite a dark place right now and this video has really opened my eyes and made me feel a little better about what I'm going through. Thanks for being so strong and reaching out and trying to help others
I'm very sorry for your suffering my man. Glad I could send you hope, if even just a little. Don't give up! I don't know the details of your story, but I know that healing is possible despite horrific conditions. For whatever its worth, you are not alone. Hit me up anytime for some support. Noah
Hey, good for you for getting him to an apt. thats great and he's lucky to have you. His concerns about the gel are valid and will be a non factor if he did the shots. My T levels were 150 ng/Dl and 205 ng/Dl for total T. My last blood test a month ago showed me at 1200 and have since lowered my dose by 20%. I too was deficient in vit D as its very common. I take 10,000 iu's per day for that. Best of luck my man.
I'm glad i found this channel in my recomendations, I've actualy been in denial about my depression for 10 years(even though i am medicated for it,thanks to it beingfree on an NHS prescription), Its strangly refreshing and uplifting to see someone who looks like a tough guy talking about this things, probibly because everytime i try people make me feel like an emotional child being that is being selfish when i'm actualy a 34 year old male. it's good to know i'm not alone,you have a new subscriber
my husband is no ng through this exact same thing. I'm listening to your story and nodding also ng because I know it all too well... it makes me feel a little better knowing there's hope. thank you for sharing your story! I hope your recovery continues to be successful!
dude 100% respect for you making this video, its been like walking threw hell..." litterally" but since i acually found out that this shit has a name, THANK GOD.. i feel like i have already been recovering slowly , the thing that tripped me out the most threw this was the train of thoughts i kept having and they were really dumb thoughts. if anyone else experienced that with DP/DR leme know
Thank you! Your honesty and sincerity is honestly a breath of fresh air. There is so much negativity on the internet towards taking antidepressants, and it really does't help reading that stuff for people who are just trying anything to not feel like shit.
I'm not suffering from depression but I know someone who is. I'm trying to gain as much knowledge as possible so I can help her however I can. Thanks for making this video and I wish you continued success in your treatment and recovery.
Emily, sorry for responding slowly. I did not realize this comment was here till now. Sorry for your suffering. I can get pretty lost with all the messages, emails, and comments. This is not to say yours is not important because it is. Send me a personal message here on RUclips, its the best way to communicate with me at this point. Just compose a message from your inbox to bignoknow and I will get back to you. Hang in there ok.
God bless you. I have had severe anxiety and depression for the past year and I am so thankful for people out there like you. You blessed me today, thank you
For more than one year all i wanted, is to be able to cry a little ! this video made me drop some tears, and let some emotions out, cheers mate. very useful .
I think I can step back from this mental ledge I've been scared to jump off, I still feel anxious and depressed but this really helped and thank you so much, thank you.
Noah, you are a great help for others. Thank you. I have suffered from depression for 21 years. Almost half of my life. You can help others. My goal is to help others as well. God bless!
Your video is insightful dude, I'm finally feeling better myself and picking myself up. It's one weird illness. Everyone is a little troubled when you think about it.
I subbed to your channel because you talk about shit i'm going through right now in ways that are really relatable. your stories are relatable, your advice is great, and your really helping me pull through this. Thank you for your channel and thank you for being there. Sincerely, from someone who understands.
Good to hear from you and keep your eye out for the next vid. I will answer your questions and do some progress pic's for comparisons. Stay up my friend!
hey Chris. I stumbled into "Bignoknow's" post and saw your comments. Also referring to the "bridge" comment. All I can say dude, is I sincerely hope you got rid of that thought, and that you're hanging in there!? It's a crazy world. If you need an ear, will try to help. There, total stranger who cares- I hope that helps a little bit? It's an evil world in many ways, main thing man is don't give up!
Great channel....so many men do not feel safe even admitting they are having a hard time. I am grateful as I think my friend really needs this....sending him here...
Thanks Noah...I really needed to hear that someone cares. I am a middle aged man and I suffer from major depression and anxiety. It seems that I have dealt with this most of my life. I remember the horrible experiences of intrusive thoughts and I thought I was going crazy...that was at 11 years old! So here i am with MDD with OCD. Taking my meds and doing my best to make it one day at a time. A lot of the time I just want to die. When I get that way I just keep telling myself that it will pass...and it does for awhile. Thanks again for your help and thanks for listening.
Noah I just wanted to let you know I come back to this video when I’m having a rough time and I remind myself of how possible it is to still live a good life. Thank you for making this and documenting so much of your recovery. While it is not perfect it is still full of so much hope.
As a woman who has struggled with severe depression/anxiety for nearly 40 years, and a member of the larger mental health community, it's incredibly refreshing to see this man, this "Manly" man, discuss and embrace such important topics. (These are topics that are typically considered taboo by men in general, but most definitely men like this....thank you.)
Elizabeth Trainer Hey Elizabeth.. I just read your message. I have also been going thu different levels of depression for over 40 years also. I've been on different meds...like paxil n cymbalta...that really turned things around n I felt good for years. How are you doing today? Paul New Jersey
Thank you Paul, how very kind of you to ask how I'm feeling, what a lovely and refreshing reply this is. I'm doing much better this week, last week was incredibly rough, but I seemed to have evened out a bit. I take Lexapro, 40 mg, and like you I've also taken nearly every med under the sun, THIS one does seem to work for me however. Have a wonderful weekend and stay well. Thanks again!
Hang in there bud,you are EXTREMELY BRAVE for making this and encouraging people and doing what you can! God bless you! Keep on keeping on,Keep it on THE Strength(Philippians 4:13)!!!!!!!
As a husband and father my depression scares me, a fear that I can't explain and feelings I don't understand. Your videos are really helpful and make me understand a little more of what I feels. Thank you.
Thanks for this vid. I'm the introvert type so I rarely seek help for my depression. I will try to change that. Btw, this is the first time I've heard someone to stay off the Internet. You're right about that. It ha filled my mind with a false sense of reality of hate over the years.
Thanks for everything you do bro! Everything is working out wonderful for me and I may be back in work here pretty soon! As for anyone else who is left hopeless,,, Hang in there it always gets better!!!! And thanks again bignoknow!!!
I've always had to much pride and have dealt with Sever Deppresion as a kid. I finally have come to a self understanding that I seriously need to deal with ALOT. Your videos are helping me and many others so much right now. God bless you.
Thank you your videos have really been helpful. I didnt think it would be so hard. For me depression and anxiety were just a name, now I'm living them.
wow man i really think its great that your helping people in this way , i have suffered with depression my whole life and i still at times feel hopeless but i keep moving foward but thank you for this video it really helped me
being lost,alone,scared,lonely,not understood is overwhelming at times to the point of just ending it.the point of eating a .38,which i've tried 2x back in the late 90s after my partner on the job offed himself.wasn't until about 5 rehabs later i was told i had a full on nervous breakdown and how it went undiagnosed was a shock to the psych interviewing me.now i try to seek therapy,when i can afford the $50/hr visits.glad i clicked on this post.perhaps i'll sleep a little better tonight.thank u.
I have chronic depression. I don't feel any improvement I just feel like everything gets worse by the day. I started to loose my hope for a positive day because whenever I tried my very best to thank positive despite how bad I feel something very bad or disappointing happens. And it's to the point to were I can't even fake to be happy it's really deep. And I am only 19.
I feel a lot like bignoknow and I believe we all have endocrine issues of some sort. An imbalance in our main important hormones. Get those checked, I will recheck as much as I afford, for now I don't afford much..
What have you really got to lose? Everyone is for sure different and I am not saying T is some miracle treatment that will just take away all the problems. I still struggle and have to do allot of self care to cope with my depression and depersonalization that lingers. But I was close to death before starting T replacement and while I do not feel I am in remission....I am close now then ever before. Slow but sure improvements that never came before getting my levels corrected.
Awesome vid man! I've been suffering with anxiety, depression, derealization etc for about a year now. Today wAs one of the darkest/scariest days I've experienced to date. This video is by far one of the best most informative vids I've ran into. Thank you so much homie, I'm definitely going to look into getting some blood work done. Again thanks bro.
Your feelings are very normal and very curable. easier than most think. The sensations of anxiety can cause you to think the worst there for make you feel the depersonalization. as a matter of fact depersonalization takes the lowest amount of anxiety to trigger it and is very common. The more this happened you tend to form new Neural Pathways in the mind that start to make you believe that what you are experiencing is normal. But its all curable like I said. and It is safe to feel this way
Thank you so much for sharing. I truly got blessed from listening. I've been through a number of depressions in my life and I am so thankful to be able to say today that I'm doing okay considering. It's also somewhat funny to me that I've gone through some things and they didn't seem to depress me because I was so busy trying to find a way out and other times I realize I was depressed and mostly, I have to say, it was relationship issues, losing someone. Anyway, I wanted to say thanks and I'm glad you're doing better too. Jesse
I'm 18 years old, and I'm experiencing this for the first time in my life. It takes every fibre of my being every single day to do even the simplest of tasks like getting out of bed and brushing my teeth. To make things worst, I'm also taking first-year engineering which has an unbelievably high amount of work. I feel so miserable and empty every day. Time just seems like a circle, with each day being indistinguishable from the next. This feels so debilitating, I used to be super happy and hardworking and I used to really love learning, but now I feel like it's just an obligation that I have to force myself to do. My appetite is practically gone most days now, and I rarely get a good night of sleep. I've stopped exercising and playing sports, and I rarely socialize. When will this end? I feel like nothing will ever be right again. Everything just feels so irreperable the way things are right now. I don't intend on coming off as someone who's pitying themselves or seeking attention; it just feels so liberating to communicate these feelings to others who may be in a simular situation as me. I hope that anyone else with simular feelings gets better!
This is fantastic of you to post. I've been exactly where you were/are & it's THE MOST painful thing imaginable. Especially if you feel completely alone. I've always wanted to do videos here about my horrifying journey that lasted for 5 - 6 yrs. & I'm just emerging from now. Coincidentally, I just found out my hormones are totally off balance too. Way too much Estrogen & not enough Progesterone which they only found out after finding polyps in my uterus. WTH? Who would ever associate the two, & why didn't the kajillion doctors even consider it? I've been Social Media free for 4 months now after I realized I was stuck in the cyber world & sucked into the drama there even more. I appreciate you posting this for so many others going through this!.
Thank you for sharing your struggles and hopes with us. I am a 55 year young lady my potassium bottomed out throwing my central nervous system totally out of whack, couldn't walk and started hearing clear voices and my food started tasting like gasoline or metals. I do have major depression and anxiety too so would enjoy hearing from anyone dealing with these issues....TC Lin
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My depression has gotten so bad. I've lost all my jobs, dropped out of college, and all lost contact with life long friends. I deleted all my social network accounts because of the extreme anxiety it gave me when I saw other people happily living their lives while It felt like I was falling into a black hole. Now I'm even more isolated, its a self-fulfilling prophecy... I don't know how i'll feel in the future but I do know you got me through the these past 14 minutes. Thanks man.
Braylon Storm Hi...I hope you've gotten some help...You're not alone man. Keep up the faith..you will feel better. Just have hope, and remember who you are. Through the fear, and hopelessness...don't give up. You can go back to school, get and keep a job...but you have to be more patient with yourself. That's the first step. The second is to get help. No matter how bad it feels...get help! Depression is not you...but it is in your life. Listen to what Noah says. "You will survive".... He makes a lot of sense.
Find a good doctor...find a good support group, if that works for you. Find one other person who understands...be good to yourself. Remember the depression will pass. Try not to expect so much for yourself in one day...you won't be able to do everything in one day..You Won't!. So don't try to. Take a breath. Deep..and get some help. Whatever you do...don't do it alone. It will get better.
Yeah, similar story here i think everything went downhill when i quit my sport.
MAYBENOT Gameplay try a different one if you can't play the one you were.playing. It's so important for us to exercise. I just had shoulder surgery, so am sidelined for a bit, I can certainly feel the difference in my moods. The idea is to keep moving. Give yourself the endorphin treatment you need.
Kick depressions butt back. Don't lose faith in yourself. Just like Noah says. I know it's hard to see beyond the pain when one is in the middle of a bout. However, just keep reminding yourself that it will pass. Take meds if you need to get through whatever it is that's bothering you. Don't try to strong arm it...it only makes matters worse.
I take the Buddhist approach. I face the bout head on. I don't try to change, or turn it around, I sit and confront it...and it loses it power over me. It's called mindfulness meditation. It works for me, and for millions, But it's not a one size fits all approach. It doesn't hurt to try it, if you don't meditate. Just take what you need from it.
You don't have to become a Buddhist, or join a monastery or anything. Just be yourself. Get in touch with you, and not the depression. Depression is not you. It's a symptom of what you're going through.
feel you bro, same here
Braylon Storm We should text or something sometime Braylon. I feel so alone and like I am just existing.
You give people hope who are going through hard times, thats beauitful :) bless you.
+Avril Manici It's the very least I can do. People all around the globe give me hope every day and I am eternally grateful.
Thats how people should treat each other, wonderful :)
From which country you are dear
I appreciate you reaching out. I of course don't know the ins and outs of your relationship and what goes on day to day so its pretty hard to speculate. I have been in some tricky relationships thats for sure and can empathize with how hard relationships can be. I guess i'd just say to set healthy boundaries and well "man up on her" if she is emotionally abusive or disrespectful. I don't mean get physical with her btw, just stand up for yourself. Best of luck to you, mind body and soul.
I know your vids are for men mostly, but your words helped me. I always think, if I actually ate fruit/veggies, exercised, established a good sleep cycle, and face my anxiety and get a job I would overcome everything but I am not motivated to. All my friends went on to college or they at least got a job, driver's license, and a car. I stay home and just overthink everything. I honestly can live with depression. But anxiety is the worst thing that has happened to me. My parents noticed how worried I was in middle school and it got so worse when I moved cities. Now I can't make phone calls, I feel so much anxiety hanging with my friends feeling like I'm going to say something wrong. I took a spiritual approach and started meditation but I am stuck in it again.
+// jess // I so relate to "overthinking everything". I am in my own head obsessing and worriying and stressing all day everyday. Sometimes I have good stretches but ultimately I get lost in a deep spin over and over again repeating the same loops in my mind over and over again. Torture for sure. That being said, we keep fighting for our future selves and we treasure the more calm moments. Motivation is a tricky thing. I try and stick to a schedule no mater how I feel. Best of luck, I know its hard.
bignoknow Thank you so much for your reply. I would never wish the feeling on anyone but I am more at peace knowing I am not alone in this. What you typed is extremely relatable. I couldn't agree more with fighting for the future self, sometimes it's all we got to fantasize about. I will try to follow your advice and come up with a schedule. It will give me enough motivation and a sense of productivity/completion for each day. Thank you again.
get a job... meet new people
you should try to do more spiritual searching. it will be the no1 thing that can help anyone. look up 'the secret' on RUclips, the 12 universal laws and check out some of the recommended searches from there. there are also audio music/frequencies that you can listen to while you sleep and lastly meditation. it will help you on a journey of spiritual freedom... also to learn about spiritual freedom (set yourself free from being a victim in your life/to be positive. great full and thankful for what you have and no worry about what you don't have) and how your mind can be so powerful. I know it sounds a bit out there and I thought so to when someone tried to share this with me but I've realized that I've been searching for something my whole life. I didn't know what it was but I was sick of living how I was. I too have depression, anxiety, ptsd and sleep insomnia. ive gone through alot in my life. But we all in one way or another searching for something.... something to help us, free us, give us answers.... I'm assuming that's why your here? for help or answers.
I'm really pleased you're feeling better and had the courage to post this. It will help others to recover. I am a survivor of bipolar which I've had for the past 33 years which proves it is possible to beat depression. Over the years I have had to be sectioned many times and was hospitalized every few years. The last time I was really suffering I was eating 'easy to make food' such as cereals and sandwiches to keep me alive and sleeping up to 16 hours a day to hide the pain of depression. I didn't want to continue like this and decided to rescue an unwanted kitten, something I had to care for and a reason to get out of bed. I kept him as an indoors cat for his first year. I know some some people would think this is cruel but other people keep them indoor all their lives. I nurtured him into a beautiful loving cat and he helped me out of my depression. I like to think that this decision, and medication, has kept me well for the last 7 years. My message to others is please don't despair, fight the black dog and you will find something that works for you. Be assured that overcoming depression does make you a stronger person. All the best to all xx
I'm really sorry for your panic attack as I know they are very scary and painful. I'm also glad that some of my advice was of use to you and that you're slowly getting better. Be patient and keep that self care up ok. I'm here if you need support.
Noah
Your depression/anxiety videos are great.
I'm over the worst of my issues now, I think, but once every few weeks or months they come back and totally overwhelm me, and these videos are a great help during those times, as they were when I was in the thick of it.
I am sorry for your husbands suffering and for yours as I know this mess does not just affect the person ill but the ones closest to them as well. Be as brave as you can for him and make sure you are finding support for yourself so that you can stay strong. I hope my recovery continues to be successful too!!! Take good care.
You are very welcome for the videos my friend. I am sorry for whatever suffering you are experiencing and hope relief finds you soon if it has not started to find you already. Thanks for the encouragement! I of course hope your doing ok (relatively speaking) as well.
Noah
Sorry for your suffering my man and I am truly glad to know you have been healing regarding your depression and anxiety. The depersonalization issue is a tricky one and something I sadly still struggle with to this day. Its been the last to go although I am grateful to say its better now then a year ago but I still have a long ways to go. The advice I could offers is pretty basic, stay away from drugs and alcohol, tobacco and even caffeine. Eat as healthy as you can and get regular sleep.
After 6 years of living just like you have described, keeping it to myself, its pretty damn amazing to hear it, word for word, that someone has gone through and overcome this hell. It sends alot of hope to many people im sure. For me it has anyways. Thank you.
I just wanted to tell you from the very bottom of my heart that I appreciate you and what you do. You're very reassuring and very human and I'm so glad that you exist and are making videos. This video and a few others (how to cope, how to know if you're getting better) have really helped me get through a rough patch today and helped me center and refocus my energy.
I will check it out for sure, thanks for the comment.
Sorry for your suffering my man, hoping you are doing better now.
Great video mate, im going threw all those feelings right now, its brilliant to hear that other people understand and know that there is light at the end of the tunnel!
PART 2
Also be sure that you are not deficient in any of your hormones, vitamins and minerals and if you are address them if you can. Find out if you have any food sensitivities and try and get regular exercise. More then anything though just try and hold on to the hope that everything will be ok. I have to work hard on that sometimes daily but just remember you are not alone and that people like me are with you.
thank you so much this made me feel so much better. ive been having a rough time with depression and anxiety every day..my faith and. my children keeps me going on
You are for sure not alone! Hang in there.
Thanks for having this video, this channel, this message. I watched two of your videos (Suicide is for the weak). In the past 30 minutes, you've helped me see a brighter near-future. The more I don't live or at least accomplish my day-to-day tasks, pain aside, the more life I will lose control of until it's unrepairable. I keep looking at life like a mountain I need to climb in a day or I fail. If I take at least a step each day, eventually I will get there; I need to stop comparing my steps with others leaps. For you, I will try not to internalize my pained steps
Hailey Macias Love this share from you, thx. Wishing you strength and courage.
I understand what you're feeling. My depression started when I was only twelve years old. I am now twenty-three. I wish I could sit here and honestly say that everything will get better over night, but it takes determination. You have to somehow find a way to reach deep inside and find inner strength to make it to the next day. Find something to look forward to. Even if it's just seeing a movie that you keep seeing previews for with a friend.... Find a reason to keep pushing forward.
Thx for the comment. Right back at you.
Hey, I still have my darker days but no major relapse to report thank god. Thank you for you kind words. I will do a testosterone specific update tomorrow and will bring up my weight and muscle development. I know I need to have lighter topics less related to mood along with the more serious ones. We are now on the same dose and no I do not feel you have to gain weight just because you raised your T dosage as i've held steady. If you are lifting weights though, you will gain some from that.
I've just stumbled across this video. I'm in quite a dark place right now and this video has really opened my eyes and made me feel a little better about what I'm going through. Thanks for being so strong and reaching out and trying to help others
I'm very sorry for your suffering my man. Glad I could send you hope, if even just a little. Don't give up! I don't know the details of your story, but I know that healing is possible despite horrific conditions. For whatever its worth, you are not alone. Hit me up anytime for some support.
Noah
Hey, good for you for getting him to an apt. thats great and he's lucky to have you. His concerns about the gel are valid and will be a non factor if he did the shots. My T levels were 150 ng/Dl and 205 ng/Dl for total T. My last blood test a month ago showed me at 1200 and have since lowered my dose by 20%. I too was deficient in vit D as its very common. I take 10,000 iu's per day for that. Best of luck my man.
I'm glad i found this channel in my recomendations, I've actualy been in denial about my depression for 10 years(even though i am medicated for it,thanks to it beingfree on an NHS prescription), Its strangly refreshing and uplifting to see someone who looks like a tough guy talking about this things, probibly because everytime i try people make me feel like an emotional child being that is being selfish when i'm actualy a 34 year old male. it's good to know i'm not alone,you have a new subscriber
I wish you well too and no thanks needed my friend. Look into your T levels for sure and sorry for your suffering.
You are so kind hearted! You really touched me! Thank you!
He really was man, thanks birdman! you are always a positive presence and I hope you are doing well.
my husband is no ng through this exact same thing. I'm listening to your story and nodding also ng because I know it all too well... it makes me feel a little better knowing there's hope. thank you for sharing your story! I hope your recovery continues to be successful!
dude 100% respect for you making this video, its been like walking threw hell..." litterally" but since i acually found out that this shit has a name, THANK GOD.. i feel like i have already been recovering slowly , the thing that tripped me out the most threw this was the train of thoughts i kept having and they were really dumb thoughts. if anyone else experienced that with DP/DR leme know
Thats a great comment Leon. Thanks for sharing.
Thank you for posting this. Your sincerity speaks volumes & for 14 mins I didn't feel totally alone! TY!
Angie_bee06 Reading kind comments like this reminds me I too am not alone. Stay brave in all you face my friend.
Thank you... "Stay in the present" ... Perfect advice! Peace my brother
Thank you! Your honesty and sincerity is honestly a breath of fresh air. There is so much negativity on the internet towards taking antidepressants, and it really does't help reading that stuff for people who are just trying anything to not feel like shit.
You are welcome and I am glad man.
Glad you shared that man, thx.
This really resonates with me. I've hit an all-time low and this video has really helped me. For that I thank you.
You bet man and there is for sure hope.
Sorry for you suffering brother!!
I'm not suffering from depression but I know someone who is. I'm trying to gain as much knowledge as possible so I can help her however I can. Thanks for making this video and I wish you continued success in your treatment and recovery.
you’re a great friend
Emily, sorry for responding slowly. I did not realize this comment was here till now. Sorry for your suffering. I can get pretty lost with all the messages, emails, and comments. This is not to say yours is not important because it is. Send me a personal message here on RUclips, its the best way to communicate with me at this point. Just compose a message from your inbox to bignoknow and I will get back to you. Hang in there ok.
I'm sorry my man, may the struggle pass soon. Hang in there.
You're very welcome brother. Thanks :) God bless you man. Take care!
God bless you. I have had severe anxiety and depression for the past year and I am so thankful for people out there like you. You blessed me today, thank you
For more than one year all i wanted, is to be able to cry a little ! this video made me drop some tears, and let some emotions out, cheers mate. very useful .
I think I can step back from this mental ledge I've been scared to jump off, I still feel anxious and depressed but this really helped and thank you so much, thank you.
You are truly a blessed human being; your compassion for others it an inspiration to us all! namaste brother
God bless you Noah. I don't think you know how helpful this video was. It feels so good to know I'm not the only one going through something like this
Noah, you are a great help for others. Thank you. I have suffered from depression for 21 years. Almost half of my life. You can help others. My goal is to help others as well. God bless!
Lola Velmar You are very kind and I thank you for the comment. Your story can/will/& likely has already helped.
Thanks for this video...made me feel not so alone. 💙
words can't explain how thankful i am to hear you, man. take it easy and thanks for helping
Your video is insightful dude, I'm finally feeling better myself and picking myself up. It's one weird illness. Everyone is a little troubled when you think about it.
I subbed to your channel because you talk about shit i'm going through right now in ways that are really relatable. your stories are relatable, your advice is great, and your really helping me pull through this. Thank you for your channel and thank you for being there. Sincerely, from someone who understands.
YOU are a beautiful beacon of hope and information.
I appreciate the comment.
Thank you for this video. It made me feel like there's hope. Congratulations on your recovery :)
Good to hear from you and keep your eye out for the next vid. I will answer your questions and do some progress pic's for comparisons. Stay up my friend!
hey Chris. I stumbled into "Bignoknow's" post and saw your comments. Also referring to the "bridge" comment. All I can say dude, is I sincerely hope you got rid of that thought, and that you're hanging in there!? It's a crazy world. If you need an ear, will try to help. There, total stranger who cares- I hope that helps a little bit? It's an evil world in many ways, main thing man is don't give up!
Great channel....so many men do not feel safe even admitting they are having a hard time.
I am grateful as I think my friend really needs this....sending him here...
He big guy, when people see authenticity they dont care what you are wearing or what you have on your head. Thanks for beiing you.
Thanks Noah...I really needed to hear that someone cares. I am a middle aged man and I suffer from major depression and anxiety. It seems that I have dealt with this most of my life. I remember the horrible experiences of intrusive thoughts and I thought I was going crazy...that was at 11 years old! So here i am with MDD with OCD. Taking my meds and doing my best to make it one day at a time. A lot of the time I just want to die. When I get that way I just keep telling myself that it will pass...and it does for awhile. Thanks again for your help and thanks for listening.
Noah I just wanted to let you know I come back to this video when I’m having a rough time and I remind myself of how possible it is to still live a good life. Thank you for making this and documenting so much of your recovery. While it is not perfect it is still full of so much hope.
Thanks a lot mate. You give me strength to continue fighting.
YOUR VIDEO MADE ME CRY. I can see how genuine you are.
As a woman who has struggled with severe depression/anxiety for nearly 40 years, and a member of the larger mental health community, it's incredibly refreshing to see this man, this "Manly" man, discuss and embrace such important topics. (These are topics that are typically considered taboo by men in general, but most definitely men like this....thank you.)
Elizabeth Trainer
Hey Elizabeth..
I just read your message. I have also been going thu different levels of depression for over 40 years also. I've been on different meds...like paxil n cymbalta...that really turned things around n I felt good for years.
How are you doing today?
Paul
New Jersey
Thank you Paul, how very kind of you to ask how I'm feeling, what a lovely and refreshing reply this is. I'm doing much better this week, last week was incredibly rough, but I seemed to have evened out a bit. I take Lexapro, 40 mg, and like you I've also taken nearly every med under the sun, THIS one does seem to work for me however. Have a wonderful weekend and stay well. Thanks again!
You are most welcome, merry x-mas right back.
Hang in there bud,you are EXTREMELY BRAVE for making this and encouraging people and doing what you can! God bless you! Keep on keeping on,Keep it on THE Strength(Philippians 4:13)!!!!!!!
I hope you get much better,and keep your chin up always.I love you Brother,and God loves you even more.Take care,and keep us updated !!
thx for the info! I try and remember that all the time.
Thank you so much for the great support
As a husband and father my depression scares me, a fear that I can't explain and feelings I don't understand. Your videos are really helpful and make me understand a little more of what I feels. Thank you.
Thanks for this vid. I'm the introvert type so I rarely seek help for my depression. I will try to change that. Btw, this is the first time I've heard someone to stay off the Internet. You're right about that. It ha filled my mind with a false sense of reality of hate over the years.
Thanks for everything you do bro! Everything is working out wonderful for me and I may be back in work here pretty soon! As for anyone else who is left hopeless,,, Hang in there it always gets better!!!! And thanks again bignoknow!!!
I've always had to much pride and have dealt with Sever Deppresion as a kid. I finally have come to a self understanding that I seriously need to deal with ALOT. Your videos are helping me and many others so much right now. God bless you.
Thank you your videos have really been helpful. I didnt think it would be so hard. For me depression and anxiety were just a name, now I'm living them.
Bejezus, all those labels. You should be proud that you are still here man! :)
You speak so beautifully...I don't watch your videos, I listen! Your words are Truly a blessing, THX!!
wow man i really think its great that your helping people in this way , i have suffered with depression my whole life and i still at times feel hopeless but i keep moving foward but thank you for this video it really helped me
being lost,alone,scared,lonely,not understood is overwhelming at times to the point of just ending it.the point of eating a .38,which i've tried 2x back in the late 90s after my partner on the job offed himself.wasn't until about 5 rehabs later i was told i had a full on nervous breakdown and how it went undiagnosed was a shock to the psych interviewing me.now i try to seek therapy,when i can afford the $50/hr visits.glad i clicked on this post.perhaps i'll sleep a little better tonight.thank u.
you have no idea how much you helped me bro! thank you
good feedback, much appreciated.
Awesome video I also have severe depression and anxiety thank you it is a big comfort to just know I am not alone in this horrible stupid illness.
I've been at it for 3 years now... I can't anymore i'm so tired of feeling that way... Thanks for the vid!
Thank you. You've helped me through a lot and I can't thank you enough.
WolfMade No thanks needed. Doing these videos and hearing from brave people like you keeps me going.
I have chronic depression. I don't feel any improvement I just feel like everything gets worse by the day. I started to loose my hope for a positive day because whenever I tried my very best to thank positive despite how bad I feel something very bad or disappointing happens. And it's to the point to were I can't even fake to be happy it's really deep. And I am only 19.
I feel a lot like bignoknow and I believe we all have endocrine issues of some sort. An imbalance in our main important hormones. Get those checked, I will recheck as much as I afford, for now I don't afford much..
Bitcoin DreamTeam I agree with you. :)
Lovely Maymunah
How are you doing right now sir?
What have you really got to lose? Everyone is for sure different and I am not saying T is some miracle treatment that will just take away all the problems. I still struggle and have to do allot of self care to cope with my depression and depersonalization that lingers. But I was close to death before starting T replacement and while I do not feel I am in remission....I am close now then ever before. Slow but sure improvements that never came before getting my levels corrected.
Hi man thank for the support much Love
Awesome vid man! I've been suffering with anxiety, depression, derealization etc for about a year now. Today wAs one of the darkest/scariest days I've experienced to date. This video is by far one of the best most informative vids I've ran into. Thank you so much homie, I'm definitely going to look into getting some blood work done. Again thanks bro.
Such a Great video Noah....Thank you
Great comment, thanks for sharing.
Your feelings are very normal and very curable. easier than most think. The sensations of anxiety can cause you to think the worst there for make you feel the depersonalization. as a matter of fact depersonalization takes the lowest amount of anxiety to trigger it and is very common. The more this happened you tend to form new Neural Pathways in the mind that start to make you believe that what you are experiencing is normal. But its all curable like I said. and It is safe to feel this way
You just helped me more than you will ever know...
You're actually adorable, and so kind, thank you for sharing
Thank you so much for sharing. I truly got blessed from listening. I've been through a number of depressions in my life and I am so thankful to be able to say today that I'm doing okay considering. It's also somewhat funny to me that I've gone through some things and they didn't seem to depress me because I was so busy trying to find a way out and other times I realize I was depressed and mostly, I have to say, it was relationship issues, losing someone. Anyway, I wanted to say thanks and I'm glad you're doing better too. Jesse
Your videos are literally everything I've been needing.
I'm 18 years old, and I'm experiencing this for the first time in my life. It takes every fibre of my being every single day to do even the simplest of tasks like getting out of bed and brushing my teeth. To make things worst, I'm also taking first-year engineering which has an unbelievably high amount of work. I feel so miserable and empty every day. Time just seems like a circle, with each day being indistinguishable from the next. This feels so debilitating, I used to be super happy and hardworking and I used to really love learning, but now I feel like it's just an obligation that I have to force myself to do. My appetite is practically gone most days now, and I rarely get a good night of sleep. I've stopped exercising and playing sports, and I rarely socialize. When will this end? I feel like nothing will ever be right again. Everything just feels so irreperable the way things are right now. I don't intend on coming off as someone who's pitying themselves or seeking attention; it just feels so liberating to communicate these feelings to others who may be in a simular situation as me. I hope that anyone else with simular feelings gets better!
the Palantir I’m so sorry. How are you doing now? I hope all better!
This is fantastic of you to post. I've been exactly where you were/are & it's THE MOST painful thing imaginable. Especially if you feel completely alone. I've always wanted to do videos here about my horrifying journey that lasted for 5 - 6 yrs. & I'm just emerging from now. Coincidentally, I just found out my hormones are totally off balance too. Way too much Estrogen & not enough Progesterone which they only found out after finding polyps in my uterus. WTH? Who would ever associate the two, & why didn't the kajillion doctors even consider it? I've been Social Media free for 4 months now after I realized I was stuck in the cyber world & sucked into the drama there even more. I appreciate you posting this for so many others going through this!.
Thank you for sharing your struggles and hopes with us. I am a 55 year young lady my potassium bottomed out throwing my central nervous system totally out of whack, couldn't walk and started hearing clear voices and my food started tasting like gasoline or metals. I do have major depression and anxiety too so would enjoy hearing from anyone dealing with these issues....TC Lin