If anyone says “it’s just a dog” they have never had a dog or chose to love a dog like us. I’m sorry all these happened so close to each other. You are so beautiful and strong. Thank you for sharing.
I have more of a connection to my dogs that any human. They are the most compassionate and loyal family members you will ever have. The loss of my heart dog nearly killed me from the physical pain of grieving her. It’s not just a dog, they are our world. They are part of our hearts 💚
Dealing with grief/loss is so difficult and emotionally taxing. It never truly leaves you, but it does get easier to bear the burden of. Take care of yourself Susie ♥️
Pets are truly family and it is so hard to lose one because even the new silence in your house is just so noticeable. I was there when my dog passed away very suddenly and unexpectedly and honestly years later it is easier, but still traumatic. I hope happy memories of your sweet pup and grandmother can bring you some comfort and smiles 💖
The silence is one of the hardest parts 💕 I’m sorry to hear that you went through that and I hope the happy memories ease the pain and help you heal as well x thank you for the love and support ❤️
Your grief, anxiety and depression are all fully valid reasons to take a break, regroup and think about what you need in order to be healthy. I'm so sorry for your losses. Thank you for sharing a deeply personal part of your life. You are supported and loved. Hugs to you during this difficult time.
The loss of a pet is so hard. Sometimes it feels like people can't understand how deeply hard it is, and they think it should be easier to get over than if you had lost a person but it really is one of the hardest things. It breaks my heart that you lost your soul dog. I have my soul dog still with me and the love and connection I have with her can't even be put into words, and the only people who could understand are other people who have had a soul connection with their dog. I lost my family dog last year however, and it was absolutely devastating. I still have many days of grief over it. I totally understand the pain that comes with this and girl, I would not be putting on a smile and posting youtube videos either!!!!! But youre so strong for working through this and for even coming to youtube with an explanation. I am so sorry for your losses and I hope that you can find peace with what has happened
my grandma passed away recently too and it spiraled me into one of the darkest and scariest moments of my life. she was admitted to the hospital and intubated on my birthday and passed away a short two days later. it marked 5 months on the 17th. these last few months have been the hardest and the pain of losing her has not gotten any easier, but my heart is at peace and full of gratitude because I was blessed to be influenced by her and learn to love and treat others with kindness. my grandma was the pillar of my family and instilled all our morals and values. she sacrificed so much and poured love and faith into any person she met. and even though she is no longer here, I feel her love guiding me. I am so sorry for your loss and I send you and your family the biggest and warmest hug. Grief can be so weird and overwhelming but just hold on to those beautiful memories. much love
I feel you Suzie, I'm really sorry for your loss. I lost both my grandmas within a month just recently as well as my close family friend 6 months ago so I understand
After reading the title of the video I had a feeling sweet little Jazzy passed. To find out not only Jazzy, but also your grandmother!? My goodness Susie, that’s a lot to deal with at once. I admire your strength and perseverance. We’re with you!! Thank you for sharing more sides of who Susie is. We love ya!
I am so sorry for your losses… it is so hard to lose family members and pets… my cat, whom I‘ve had for almost 20 years, had to be put down during lockdown in 2020. I was alone at the vet with him and it was just so hard and I have been crying for days. I still have the clothes I wore to the vet that day because it has his fur on it and I just cannot bring myself to wash them. Please stay strong and I promise you, it will get easier as time passes and you will still love your dog as much as ever. Take the break you need, Suzie!
Thankyou Anni x I completely understand how you feel 💕 I still have jazzys harness and jumper and will keep them for the rest of my life as a little reminder 🥺 I’m sorry to hear about your little kitty and sending you hugs
I’m literally about to catch a flight to go to my grandmas funeral and I’m watching this on my layover. I was also close to my grandma and she took care of me a lot when I was younger. I wasn’t expecting this video to hit so close to home when I clicked on it, made me tear up. My heart goes out to you💓 and I’m so sorry for both your losses
I’m so sorry for your loss 💕 funerals are so hard but also so important to remember all the good times with our loved ones x I hope it brings you some peace and sending you so much love and strength to get you through this 🥺 I’m here for you
Ur so lucky you're able to go to funerals. I couldn't go to mine are overseas and it's already happened 2 month ago when my grandpa passed, still struggling to find peace. Sorry for your loss:((
I completely relate to the pain you are feeling. My mom was very young when she had me and my grandmother was a second mother to me. 2 weeks after I gave birth to my first child and her first great grandchild, she passed away of cancer. I was lucky enough to drive the 4 hours to get to her before she lost consciousness and she was able to meet my daughter. She held her hand over my daughter's head and gasped the word "beautiful". That was her last word. I struggled immensely between the happiness of having my daughter and losing one of the closest people to me in my life. I also lost my stepfather who raised me with my mom starting at age 4. He passed very suddenly and we had to make the decision to remove him from life support. I'm still struggling 5 years later. And 6 months after losing my dad, my 6 year old German shepherd died of cancer. She passed away after a major seizure in the back of our van, in my lap, on the way to the emergency vet. I will be keeping you in my heart and praying you feel some relief sooner rather than later. Sending huge hugs 😊
I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother, stepdad and your doggie x that story is so beautiful about her meeting your daughter and I’m sure she would have been so happy in her final moments 💕 you have been through so much and you are so strong, sending even bigger hugs right back 🤗
Sending hugs and crying while I type this. I lost my Grandma in 2016 and I love that I have lots of amazing memories. So sorry for your loss. Hang in there the best you can.
My heart :( I started balling into tears when you started talking about your pup . I was able to feel you pain through the entire video . Keep your head held high our furrbabies will always live in our hearts. Our animals leave paw prints in our hearts ♥️.
Oh sweet child, my heart goes to you. 🥺 I haven't had a dog or any kind of animal, but I feel your pain, your struggle, and I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I've missed your videos, but take your time to get better and just go thru your process till you feel better. Will be praying 🙏 for you and send you lots of love. ❤🩹 Blessings
i literally never comment but this video hit so close to home. my grandmother passed away a few months ago and she was the most important person in my life. thank you for sharing, grief is not easy but we will get through this ❤️
the pain of losing someone close to you is really hard. Even after 2 years of my grandpa's passing I still grieve and cry, he was the father I never had. I learned to accept that he is no longer around physically but I believe he is here spiritually (in my culture we believe that dreams are a way of communication for passed loved ones). You'll never stop grieving but you will learn to accept it and laugh at the moments you had with them instead of feeling sad
@@SusieJTodd she will but for the time being take care of yourself and your mental health ❤️ there’s no rush take all the time you need to grieve, much love to you and your family
I had a dog that got 17 years old, and she was my best friend! She died 16 years ago, but i still miss her all the time. Sometimes i have dreams about her and wake up crying, so they are never forgotten
I lost my soul pet when I was 18. We got her when I was 1. The way she passed was also very traumatic. It’s been 10 years and I still think of her often. I believe our pets are in heaven and we’ll get to see them again. I think it will be such a sweet reunion with her ❤️ Doesn’t make it easier without them here though. “We grieve because we love. How lucky we are to have experienced that love”
Your grandma sounds like such a lovely person, Susie, my heart hurts for you. Also, losing a pet who is a best friend is so, SO much harder than some people realize. I'm going through the same thing myself right now, grieving my beloved kitty who was my best friend since I was age 9. Sending you infinite love and support 💗
I’m so sorry for your loss. Losing someone that close to you is always hard but it will get easier with time but your always going to miss them. I’m praying for you healing love ❤️
You're videos are so comforting and they make me feel understood and safe. I'm so sorry for your loss. I completely understand and have went through similar things.
That’s a lot to deal with, and in such a short amount of time too! I lost both my family dogs within a month last year, one of which was my soul dog as well and it’s the absolute worst. To grieve so intensely is so so rough as well... I wish you all the best and hope you take the time you need - whenever you need it. Sending you lots of hugs ❤️
I lost my "soul pet" when I was fifteen. I also got her when I was seven or eight. She got sick without me even noticing and I wasn't there when she got put down so the thought of her dying alone kills me to this day and I'm 24. She will always be my baby. Most people might not get it but pets can be such a special part of our lives. Best wishes to you Suzie.
So sorry for your losses and kudos for being honest about your mental struggles. I also struggle with anxiety and it’s not always easy to tell people, especially people you don’t know about your most vulnerable struggles. It’s important for people to know there’s no shame in having a mental illness. It’s not something anyone asks for and it takes a lot of strength to come out and tell people ❤️
Love you Susie, I can speak for myself only but when I say you made a big change about how I look at myself and you’re one of the rare RUclipsrs I trust with their sharings and opinions I mean it. I’m so sorry for your losses. I hope everything gets better for you and you can heal in peace. You give so much positivity to this world. Thank you for sharing both up and downs.
I'm so sorry Susie. When I lost my grandmother it felt like my world came to a hault and I didn't know how to move forward. I promise with time it gets easier. Your life will be able to go on and the harder days will be less frequent. You'll see things, hear things, and do things that remind you of her. She might not be here with you anymore but she'll never truly leave you. And the same of course goes for Jazzy. We love you so much as did the ones you've lost. Keep pushing through, we'll be here when you're ready.💕
the way my pup passed away was also upsetting, it was a whirlwind to take him to the emergency room and driving him there I was sobbing bc I knew what the end result would be and i’m sorry you also went through that with your angel. I’m sorry for your loss with two beings that mattered so much to you 💖 may they Rest In Peace 💖💖💖
I had a similar time when my family’s dog passed away. She had been sick; I took her for a walk the day before and she got down the street and wouldn’t walk any further, so I had to carry her home (beagle). She’d been in my bed most nights, and we were really close. She was put down the next day and seeing her like that was traumatising. I now have a cat who was a stray who came to our door as a kitten one night; she’s more like an emotional support animal to me than anything else, and reminds me so much of my dog from years ago. Losing anyone you love, whether a pet or a grandparent, isn’t easy.
awe i was just watching your vids last night bc you’re such an inspiration and i was wondering where you’d been. my condolences❤️ your mental state and your personal life always comes first.
I am so so sorry for your loss Susie. I completely understand how devastating the loss of a pet can be. They are a part of our family just as much as a human is. I just lost my bunny 2 weeks ago. I truly saw her as my first baby. It was a once in a life time kind of bond I cannot even put into words how much I loved her and how much she changed my life in so many magical ways. Lots of people try to invalidate the loss of a pet, but the way I look at it, it just means we were one of the people fortunate enough to have such a beautiful bond that not everyone has a chance to experience in their life. Crying right there with you Susie.
I'm really sorry for your loss. I feel you and I understand what you've been through. I really hope you will feel better soon because I am sure your grandmother wishes you to be well and happy. Sending you all my love and one big virtual hug. Love you. ❤
So sorry for your loss. Thank you for having the strength to make a video even in these difficult times. Your fans love you and always want to see u smiling❤
I am so sorry for your pain. Watching your videos make me so happy and has gotten me through some tough times. You are such an awesome, strong, beautiful gal. Love and prayers for you!
I'm so very sorry for your losses. The pain never goes away, but it gets easier to deal with over time. I lost both of my dogs in a 6 month period and it broke me. They were my babies. Just hold on to all of the happy, fun memories. Sending love to you and your family 💚
im so sorry for your loss, losing someone as influential and special as your grandma is a gut-wrenching, but to lose your dog Jazzy so soon after would have been beyond devastating. I've been thru both, my sweet grandma's bday was 2 days after mine and we were cut from the same cloth, losing her was losing part of myself. And losing my dog Evie left me suicidal, pets provide us with a sacred connection without a single word. I can't imagine experiencing so much pain at once. I hope you are managing, but it's okay if you're not. the multiple layers of feelings that grief contains is like running a marathon with no energy, take all the time of you need angel. sending you so much love.
I am so sorry for your your losses! I can't imagine your sadness and grief; my kitties are my legit children and honestly idk what I'll do when they pass and don't wanna think about it either. People who don't understand that are heartless and have no symphony or empathy for animals. But babe, please take your time to heal and don't push yourself, I struggle with so much mental health issues and trauma, so I totally understand your pain. Take care of yourself first, properly grieve and process your feelings/emotions, and your happiness. We'll all still be here, so don't worry about us :).
oh susie i’m so sorry, my grandma died over 10 years ago from cancer and even though i was young i still grieve her even now. she was, much like your grandma a big inspiration and one of the people i loved most in life. her death hit me really hard and i want to say it may seem dark and hopeless right now but it does get easier. i know that’s probably not what you want to hear rn and all you want is your grandma back, but there is light on the other side. i’m sending you all the love and hugs right now and i hope you’re surrounded by people who you can grieve, if you need time away to grieve we will be here when you get back. love you lots♥️♥️♥️ also just wanted to say my cat passed away recently i’d had her since i was a baby so i totally know how you feel about jazzy passing away, it feels so weird coming home without them there. just want you to know you’re not alone and i completely understand how you feel and what you’re going through, but we can get through this together :)♥️♥️
oh susie, my heart goes out to you. sending all my love to you. we’re all here and always will be here for you 💓 thank you for sharing . i hope everything goes well and that your heart heals
Susie, thank you so much for sharing! Although what any of us say will not take away the hurt and the grief, there is some solace in knowing that you are not alone. I have experienced something very similar - where you lose people close to you and then your dog is taken from you as well. My dog was my heart, and you're right - it broke me. I too looked into cloning, as crazy as it sounds. But I realized at the end of the day that just because the dog would look exactly like him...it wouldn't be him. I keep his collar by my bed. I will never forget him. We are so so blessed to have received their love and devotion.
I'm so so sorry Susie. I never knew my grandma but I can't imagine how hard that loss would be. And anyone that says a pet is 'just an animal' just has no idea. I cry even thinking about my pet being gone. Sending you so much love
Susie I am so sorry to hear about those losses. I have a little dog about Jazzy’s size and I got very emotional watching this because I know the deep hurt from losing pets and family, I can’t imagine going through so much at once. I never comment but I just felt like I had to say something, you are such a ray of light and your videos have been such a comfort to me as I’ve gone through difficult times. I am thinking of you and your family and am sending love from Canada. Thank you so much for all that you do and for being yourself. ♥️
My grandma helped raise me, and I still feel a pang in my heart every time I think about her, but they’re up there guiding us and loving us unconditionally
Suzie I'm so sorry for your loss💔 I have two grandmas that I love so much, one lives in the same house with me and she's been with me since I was born. I'm so scared of losing them since both are older than 80. I hope you heal and get better, you helped me so much with self love I hope you know you are loved and appreciated 💙💙 don't worry about not posting, mental health comes first
I'm so sorry for your loss Suzie!🥺rest in peace to your lovely grandma❤️ Sending a lot of love and positivity~♡♡ Stay strong girly,i hope you get well soon!
We missed you Susie ❤️❤️ thank you for being so open and vulnerable. I’m so sorry for everything you’re going through. I totally understand everything you are feeling. Your grieving is showing all the love you have inside of you. We love you!!
Crying and taking the time to grieve is very therapeutic and important. I have found that when you numb your emotions through the grieving process, then you actually extend the grieve and it also intensifies. So, take your time and cry often. By the way, we put our dog down in 2016 and we still cry over him. Our pets never leave our hearts. Your video brought me to tears thinking about him.
I know how it is to struggle with depression and then loose a grandma. I was in the same place a couple years ago. You are fighting with grief and on top of that there is this wall this mist of depression and it's getting stronger and you're getting more overwhelmed. It gets better, getting professional help and the support of my friend helped a lot. Remember to take time and don't run away form the emotions. They are hard but it will pass.
Depression is so hard and overwhelming ❤️ glad to hear you’re getting professional and emotional support x I am too and it does help so much, lots of love 💕
Aww girl. Grief suuuuuuucks. Thank you for your honesty. We need to tall about it more in our society. It will never fully "pass". There is no getting over it. It is just something that changes you and continues forever. Someone told me (about losing my mom) "it never stops hurting, it just hurts less often." It's pretty true. Even your pup. I fear I had my soul mate dog early/young as well and will forever be comparing future pups to her. I love then too, but it's just not the same 🥺 Love to you and your family and positive healing vibes being sent your way!
I understand, as a 21 yr old who has lost 7 family members and my beautiful cat of 10 years who was literally my baby. Take all the time you need, time heals all wounds, you will be ok. I've gotten terrible advice on how grieving is. Just know it does get better, you still have people you love and people who love you, I believe in you. Right now it feels impossible to do anything, the feeling will fade, it's hard moving on but once you finally realize how to, you will feel better. You'll begin to think of your lost ones in a happy way rather than being sad every time.
I grew up with my dog since I was a baby he died when I was 11 years old. At first it was really painful. But then a miracle happened and one year later we took in a 1 year old dog we’ve been taking care of bc sadly the owner was rly old and passed. Today we make jokes and laugh about our old dog. he will always be in our memories. This shows that it does get better when I think of him now(old dog) it’s only happy memories. All tough I am too scared that my other dog(she’s 11) will pass in the next years You got this Susie!! Thank you for opening up❤️ your grandma is so proud of you for sharing, you have no idea how much you’ve helped me with my mental health regarding multiple things!! You’re a sunshine
i've literally just started watching your content today, and omygosh i appreciate you so much. im so sorry for all the things you're going through, i know how hard and depressing it can get. i too lost someone who was very important in my life and it felt like hell. but i know that you'll get through it ❤thanks for updating us and i'll definitely will keep up with your channel. also don't feel guilty for taking time for yourself
my angel of a dog i had since i was 11 passed away unexpectedly from an illness last May and i have been struggling without her ever since and watching this video made me feel so much less alone. i can barely go home from uni because it hurts so much that she's not there waiting for me. you described everything i have been feeling and its so so so hard carrying on without your best friend even now nearly a year later for me. thank you susie for sharing i feel comforted to know im not alone in this. sending love
I am so sorry for your loss, your grandma sounded like an amazing lady and I will sorely miss jazzy! Thank you for this video and being so real with us, I myself struggle with anxiety you showing this side of your life is helpful for me as I am sure it is for others! Sending you lots of love xxxx❤️❤️
Sorry for your loss ❤️ it’s hard losing not one but two family members (pets are family) it’s really difficult, but remember to allow yourself time to grieve and take care of yourself and your mental health during these difficult moments. xo sending love 💕
Omg I missed you lowkey even tho you don't even know me !!!! Prayers for you darling !!!!!!!!!!! So sorry for your loss 😞😓 Taking a break is what you needed ! I'm glad your doing better... prayers to you
i totally understand how hurt it is losing ur pets. i lost two of my cats last year and that year was definitely such a hard year to experience. sending huge virtual hugs for u gurl :)
Sending so so so much love to you. I have been fortunate enough to not lose anyone close to me, but I did lose my first two dogs that I grew up with within a year of each other, and the amount of pain and grief that comes from that is unimaginable. Even though it was 3-4 years ago now, I still get caught off guard from the lingering grief from that, and I still will randomly start crying thinking about them. Take all the time you need to recover and don't ever feel rushed to come back. I do truly believe that you can never replace your soul pet, but I've gotten more pets now that I love so dearly and they truly have helped me immensely with my mental health and sort of getting over the loss of my first two babies. It did take quite a while for me to be able to adopt them, but they really have helped me so much. I love you and I hope you are feeling better. ❤️
I am so sorry to hear of your losses Susie.. Sending you love and strength. My grandma was my second mother and we were very close. she taught me how to cook and fostered my “food is love” mentality. I was at her house every day growing up and we even worked as colleagues in the same hospital when I started as a PA. we were best friends and she confided in me, which made our relationship so special. when she passed away in October my whole life felt upside down. I was starting a new job and she was on home hospice so we had to help her pass. it was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. i couldn’t even imagine losing my dog as well as her in the same time, i feel the same way about my Maggie as you do your Jazzy ❤️ it’s good that you are taking care of yourself and your mental health. It seems impossible but every day that passes you will heal a little more, carrying their memories with you forever. I have been sleeping with my grams robe every night since she passed and I have one of her many aprons I wear to cook. Hoping that you and your family keep your beautiful memories of her close to you, and that your grieving is brief. She helped make a fabulous person and we are all here to support you in this hard time ❤️
Thank you for sharing susie, I am too dealing with grief (lost my mom due to covid) and it’s been so extremely hard, but we can pull through this. I send you my condolences 🥺💗
I’m so sorry Susie… I lost my childhood dog 4.5 years ago, and just cried about it the other day. It does get easier, but that bond of growing up with a pet is something so special and incomparable. Proud of your for taking time and so sorry about your grandmother. I’m close with mine as well and dread the day she leaves this world. Sending love and prayers💜
I've been through this before...yes, even the pet....I'm so sorry❤ you'll get better tho! It will take a lot of time but you'll be fine 🙂 hope you stay well and healthy and sending love your way!💗💕
I'm so sorry to hear that, dear Suzie❤ It is so hard loosing someone you love. When my grandmother died I was crushed as well. But they live on in our hearts and our love for them. I still feel very connected to my grandma even though it is 23 years since she passed away❤
So sorry to hear. My Grandma was one of my best friends. We cooked together, did puzzles, crosswords, games, occasional shopping (when she was more mobile), and she was my safe place. I lost her September 2022(not to Covid, thankfully). I still miss her. I have a box of things I still can't go through because I want to keep her smell around as long as I can. Grief is a weird thing. Some of it manifests in things that society recognizes, but so much of it is random. Sometimes you think you're getting over the worst of it, then a weird thing like almost buying their favorite thing (out of habit), will catch you off guard. I empathize with a lot of what you're talking about. I had a mental break a month after I lost her-there was a lot going on, and I just couldn't keep up with it mentally or emotionally. I'm so grateful for having a therapist that was so supportive and wonderful-helped me through it. Please be kind to yourself. Give yourself self-care, love, understanding, and patience. It's okay to not be okay. Even when people think you "should" be. Please don't let people dictate your healing. Like Bethan said, it does get easier, but it doesn't leave. I'm also so so sorry you lost your dog as well-they are such beautiful safe places of pure love. They are a part of your heart and soul, and losing them is devastating. I am so sorry you were in a place of extreme depression and grief. Wishing you love, healing, and the time and help you need to get through this dark time. Love you!
the first loss ive ever experienced that completely changed my world was also losing my grandmother 3 years ago this september. i was one week away from traveling to see her bc we all thought she was getting better but instead i woke up one morning and we had lost her. i wasn’t able to see or speak to her for months prior to her passing due to her being in and out of comas and i lived across the US. i believe i was closer to her and my grandpa more than my own parents. my grandparents are my best friends and when i lost my grandma i lost a part of myself. i dream and think about her every day and night and even get signs from her that she’s still with me. i talk to her in my dreams and i’m so relieved i can still remember her voice perfectly. each time i visit home i make sure to visit her stone and talk to her everytime i visit and leave home. you never stop grieving but day by day it will just be a little easier to remind yourself they’re no longer in pain and they’re never really gone. 💗
I’m so glad you are showing us this side of you❤️I’m very sorry for your losses. you are strong,beautiful and smart. I can’t imagine losing my two dogs they are family. i have Gordy got him when he was 11 months from a shelter and he is now 4 almost 5. Princess I got for my 8th birthday she is turning 11 this July. i can’t even explain the agony I feel just thinking about her passing. i cry so many tears. i can slightly understand what it would feel like to lose a dog. because I can imagine losing my baby’s Gordy and princess
So sorry for your losses, Susie! I kinda feel you. I've lost a lot of close people to me, starting with my mom when i was 15. The only thing i can say it gets a little easier over time, but once in a while it kinda gets back and bring all the emotions! Sending lots of love to you! 🤍
I just lost mine last month too, she raised me the first few years of my life and was more like a mother than anything. It’s been hard for me to do simple things like taking care of myself . take your time, be gentle with yourself and take time to do the things that make you happy everyday even if it’s something little. Sending my condolences sweetheart ❤️🧚🏼♀️ meditation and taking walks has helped me greatly. Grief comes in waves just know you won’t feel like this forever
Wishing you tons of healing and positive energy. Losing a pet is just as painful as losing a family member. So glad you're feeling your feelings and sharing them with the world so others know they're not alone in their grief as well. Hugs!
Thank you for sharing with us, Susie!💕💕 life has ups and downs, but even in bad periods (especially when someone you love passes away) and after you always have memories of your happy moments together, so they still live in your heart and nobody can take that away from you 🙏🏻 even death itself
I’m so so sorry Susie. Within 5 months I lost the man who raised me, a dear friend, and one of the women who raised me. Grief is the hardest thing ever. My favorite way to explain grief to people who’ve never experienced it is; imagine you have a shoe box. Inside the box is a button. The button is the grief and when you first have the box, the button is so big it takes up the whole box. There is a ball inside the box that never stops rolling around. Every time the button gets hit is when the grief hits. Over time the ball will get smaller, but it will never stop moving or hitting the button. It just happens less over time. People don’t “move on”. We move forward with our lost loved ones in hour hearts! Let the feelings out. It may feel like the pain will never go away and over time the pain just gets smaller. It’s been 2 years and every once in awhile I have an “auntie day”. And I just do what my body needs. Cry, sleep, yell, talk nonstop, relax in a bath, etc… have your day when it comes. Sorry for how long this is. You will get through it, one day at a time. Some days an hour at a time. Remember you are so beyond loved! 💜
Im so sorry for your loss Susie❤️🥺. I can relate to losing an animal. It definitely hurts & anyone who says it shouldn’t hasn’t experienced it the same way. It definitely hurts losing someone as well as an animal. I experienced watching my boyfriend and his family grieving over a loss as well and it’s hard❤️. I am sending so much love and hugs to you & your family❤️. Healing isn’t easy and it gets hard but I really hope you feel better in your own time🥺❤️!! They are both together taking care of each other as well as you & your family
Hi Suzie, I understand completely. Grief is one of the hardest things to deal with. I have a cat that has helped me in my deepest moment and really is the reason I'm still here. I can't imagine losing her. I hope things will slowly get better for you. In the meanwhile, sending all the love ❤️
So sorry for your losses. I’m so glad you shared. When I went through grief I just kept pushing it off and acting like everything was okay and then it caught up to me. So thank you for sharing with us. ❤️
As someone who has lost their grandma too ( my best friend also ) I send you all my love and hugs hun. You are stronger than you believe and I know things seem really rough but you are never alone queen 🤍 love you tons
Sorry for you losses, virtual hugs are sent to you. It never gets easier we just get stronger learn new ways to manage. I lost my grandma 6 years ago now and it still hurts alot but you just learn how to live and manage the grieving. Pets are also family they may not be blood but they are just as important. If I lots either of my cats I would be so heart broken they arw my best friends and children. All the best for you, rest up and keep doing you! You got this susie!! ❤️ ❤️
Thank you for this ❤️ I’m so sorry for the loss of your grandmother and pup. We’re all human and we all need to time to grieve and be sad. Your video is therapeutic and helpful beyond words. Love you Suze!
Susie, thank you for sharing this. Grief is not something a lot of people address, but it's so important. I lost both of my grandmothers this year, you sharing this has made me feel so much less alone. We are in this together. I love you and am praying for peace for you and your family :)
I'm so sorry you've been through and still is going through a tornado of loss and grief. My heart goes out to you. I lost my grandma pretty suddenly and like yourself, I didn't get to see her before she was gone and she was my everything as well. As for your little doggie, she's your little defender. I believe pets, when you truly love and connect with them, they become the guardians of our hearts and souls. That's why they are so precious. No verbal language needed. They know you and you know them too. I remember when the first cat I ever had passed, it was such a shock. Unlike you, Pepper being my first pet ever, I was ignorant about how to take care of cats. So when she fell ill, I didn't recognise the signs. Even when I brought her to the vet, it did not register that she was that seriously ill. A few days later, I lost her. I remember after leaving the clinic, I threw up right at the carpark.it was traumatic af. Now, years later, I have learnt to accept losses much better (2 grandparents and 6 cats over the past 5 years does years does teach you quite a bit about love and loss), I am always going to be sp so grateful for the cats that have passed with me being there with them, holding them and assuring them that they are so loved, and its ok to let go, as they took their last breath. I'm not saying I'm OK. I'm probably never going to be ok. But I hope you'll find peace in all your loss soon. Because the way I see it now is that we should be so grateful for them being in our lives. So privileged that we have met and so lucky to have had them in our lives however brief it might have been. Everyday, I looks at the people and animals I love, and I'm thankful for one more day with them. I truly hope you'll feel so much better soon Susie. And I'm so honoured that you are sharing such a vulnerable side of you with us. Take care.
i'm so sorry for your losses, and am praying for you and the family 🫂 you're doing great getting through this hard season. time may not fully heal, but it will help. please stay safe and well, queen 🥺 take as much time as you need.
If anyone says “it’s just a dog” they have never had a dog or chose to love a dog like us. I’m sorry all these happened so close to each other. You are so beautiful and strong. Thank you for sharing.
❤ 🐾 so true. Sending much love and comforting thoughts.
I have more of a connection to my dogs that any human. They are the most compassionate and loyal family members you will ever have. The loss of my heart dog nearly killed me from the physical pain of grieving her. It’s not just a dog, they are our world. They are part of our hearts 💚
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I can't continue watching this because ten years later, I still cry whenever I think of my grandma. My deepest condolonces Susie we love you!
My condolences to you too xx Love you too Angela 💕
May he rest in dear peace and always be with you xxxx
Dealing with grief/loss is so difficult and emotionally taxing. It never truly leaves you, but it does get easier to bear the burden of. Take care of yourself Susie ♥️
That quote made me smile xx thankyou girl and don’t worry I am ❤️
Awwww Suzie 🤧🥺 We missed you a lot...My sincere condolences to your Grandma... I really hope you feel better soon.. Love ya Loads ❤️💕💫
Missed you too x thankyou lovely and love u too !
Pets are truly family and it is so hard to lose one because even the new silence in your house is just so noticeable. I was there when my dog passed away very suddenly and unexpectedly and honestly years later it is easier, but still traumatic. I hope happy memories of your sweet pup and grandmother can bring you some comfort and smiles 💖
The silence is one of the hardest parts 💕 I’m sorry to hear that you went through that and I hope the happy memories ease the pain and help you heal as well x thank you for the love and support ❤️
Your grief, anxiety and depression are all fully valid reasons to take a break, regroup and think about what you need in order to be healthy. I'm so sorry for your losses. Thank you for sharing a deeply personal part of your life. You are supported and loved. Hugs to you during this difficult time.
Thankyou lovely for the support x sometimes we all just need a break ❤️ I’m feeling better now and hugs to you too 🤗
The loss of a pet is so hard. Sometimes it feels like people can't understand how deeply hard it is, and they think it should be easier to get over than if you had lost a person but it really is one of the hardest things. It breaks my heart that you lost your soul dog. I have my soul dog still with me and the love and connection I have with her can't even be put into words, and the only people who could understand are other people who have had a soul connection with their dog. I lost my family dog last year however, and it was absolutely devastating. I still have many days of grief over it. I totally understand the pain that comes with this and girl, I would not be putting on a smile and posting youtube videos either!!!!! But youre so strong for working through this and for even coming to youtube with an explanation. I am so sorry for your losses and I hope that you can find peace with what has happened
my grandma passed away recently too and it spiraled me into one of the darkest and scariest moments of my life. she was admitted to the hospital and intubated on my birthday and passed away a short two days later. it marked 5 months on the 17th. these last few months have been the hardest and the pain of losing her has not gotten any easier, but my heart is at peace and full of gratitude because I was blessed to be influenced by her and learn to love and treat others with kindness. my grandma was the pillar of my family and instilled all our morals and values. she sacrificed so much and poured love and faith into any person she met. and even though she is no longer here, I feel her love guiding me. I am so sorry for your loss and I send you and your family the biggest and warmest hug. Grief can be so weird and overwhelming but just hold on to those beautiful memories. much love
I’m so sorry Susie. Sending you tons of love and hugs. She sounds like a wonderful woman
Thankyou Lex 💕 catching those hugs 🤗
I feel you Suzie, I'm really sorry for your loss. I lost both my grandmas within a month just recently as well as my close family friend 6 months ago so I understand
I’m really sorry for your losses as well Katie x sending my love ❤️
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Dogs are never “just dog”s! I totally understand. Sending you love and peace for grieving over Jazzy and your grandmother. 💗💗
After reading the title of the video I had a feeling sweet little Jazzy passed. To find out not only Jazzy, but also your grandmother!? My goodness Susie, that’s a lot to deal with at once. I admire your strength and perseverance. We’re with you!! Thank you for sharing more sides of who Susie is. We love ya!
I am so sorry for your losses… it is so hard to lose family members and pets… my cat, whom I‘ve had for almost 20 years, had to be put down during lockdown in 2020. I was alone at the vet with him and it was just so hard and I have been crying for days. I still have the clothes I wore to the vet that day because it has his fur on it and I just cannot bring myself to wash them. Please stay strong and I promise you, it will get easier as time passes and you will still love your dog as much as ever. Take the break you need, Suzie!
I still have my clothes and blanket from when my childhood dog passed away in October❤️ it was comforting to know others do the same.
Thankyou Anni x I completely understand how you feel 💕 I still have jazzys harness and jumper and will keep them for the rest of my life as a little reminder 🥺 I’m sorry to hear about your little kitty and sending you hugs
I’m literally about to catch a flight to go to my grandmas funeral and I’m watching this on my layover. I was also close to my grandma and she took care of me a lot when I was younger. I wasn’t expecting this video to hit so close to home when I clicked on it, made me tear up. My heart goes out to you💓 and I’m so sorry for both your losses
I’m so sorry for your loss 💕 funerals are so hard but also so important to remember all the good times with our loved ones x I hope it brings you some peace and sending you so much love and strength to get you through this 🥺 I’m here for you
@@SusieJTodd Thank you💕
Ur so lucky you're able to go to funerals. I couldn't go to mine are overseas and it's already happened 2 month ago when my grandpa passed, still struggling to find peace. Sorry for your loss:((
I completely relate to the pain you are feeling. My mom was very young when she had me and my grandmother was a second mother to me. 2 weeks after I gave birth to my first child and her first great grandchild, she passed away of cancer. I was lucky enough to drive the 4 hours to get to her before she lost consciousness and she was able to meet my daughter. She held her hand over my daughter's head and gasped the word "beautiful". That was her last word. I struggled immensely between the happiness of having my daughter and losing one of the closest people to me in my life. I also lost my stepfather who raised me with my mom starting at age 4. He passed very suddenly and we had to make the decision to remove him from life support. I'm still struggling 5 years later. And 6 months after losing my dad, my 6 year old German shepherd died of cancer. She passed away after a major seizure in the back of our van, in my lap, on the way to the emergency vet. I will be keeping you in my heart and praying you feel some relief sooner rather than later. Sending huge hugs 😊
I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother, stepdad and your doggie x that story is so beautiful about her meeting your daughter and I’m sure she would have been so happy in her final moments 💕 you have been through so much and you are so strong, sending even bigger hugs right back 🤗
Sending hugs and crying while I type this. I lost my Grandma in 2016 and I love that I have lots of amazing memories. So sorry for your loss. Hang in there the best you can.
They’re never just dogs 💜
So sorry for both of your losses, crying really does help as sad as it feels!
My heart :( I started balling into tears when you started talking about your pup . I was able to feel you pain through the entire video . Keep your head held high our furrbabies will always live in our hearts. Our animals leave paw prints in our hearts ♥️.
❤️❤️❤️ your grandma sounds wonderful. How special to have been so close to her. Sending you love
Oh my and Jazzy ❤️my dog is truly my best friend as well, so I so understand your grief. Thinking of you
Yes I feel very lucky to have been so close with her 💕 love to you too x
I see you about to cry and it makes me want to cry…bb we’ll always be here for you. Thank you for being so honest and I’m glad you’re okay. 💗
Thankyou Sara that means a lot 🥺💕
Oh sweet child, my heart goes to you. 🥺 I haven't had a dog or any kind of animal, but I feel your pain, your struggle, and I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I've missed your videos, but take your time to get better and just go thru your process till you feel better. Will be praying 🙏 for you and send you lots of love. ❤🩹 Blessings
💕 thank you for the love
i literally never comment but this video hit so close to home. my grandmother passed away a few months ago and she was the most important person in my life. thank you for sharing, grief is not easy but we will get through this ❤️
the pain of losing someone close to you is really hard. Even after 2 years of my grandpa's passing I still grieve and cry, he was the father I never had. I learned to accept that he is no longer around physically but I believe he is here spiritually (in my culture we believe that dreams are a way of communication for passed loved ones). You'll never stop grieving but you will learn to accept it and laugh at the moments you had with them instead of feeling sad
That is really beautiful, I hope my grandma visits me in my dreams soon 💕 thank you for this and I’m so sorry about your grandpa x
@@SusieJTodd she will but for the time being take care of yourself and your mental health ❤️ there’s no rush take all the time you need to grieve, much love to you and your family
Crying with you 😭😭 I’m so sorry for your loss, especially back to back. We love you 🤍
I had a dog that got 17 years old, and she was my best friend! She died 16 years ago, but i still miss her all the time.
Sometimes i have dreams about her and wake up crying, so they are never forgotten
I lost my soul pet when I was 18. We got her when I was 1. The way she passed was also very traumatic. It’s been 10 years and I still think of her often. I believe our pets are in heaven and we’ll get to see them again. I think it will be such a sweet reunion with her ❤️ Doesn’t make it easier without them here though. “We grieve because we love. How lucky we are to have experienced that love”
Your grandma sounds like such a lovely person, Susie, my heart hurts for you. Also, losing a pet who is a best friend is so, SO much harder than some people realize. I'm going through the same thing myself right now, grieving my beloved kitty who was my best friend since I was age 9. Sending you infinite love and support 💗
She really was x I’m sorry to hear about your lovely kitty ❤️ thankyou for the love and sending mine back 🥺
I’m so sorry for your loss. Losing someone that close to you is always hard but it will get easier with time but your always going to miss them. I’m praying for you healing love ❤️
You're videos are so comforting and they make me feel understood and safe. I'm so sorry for your loss. I completely understand and have went through similar things.
That’s a lot to deal with, and in such a short amount of time too! I lost both my family dogs within a month last year, one of which was my soul dog as well and it’s the absolute worst. To grieve so intensely is so so rough as well... I wish you all the best and hope you take the time you need - whenever you need it. Sending you lots of hugs ❤️
I lost my "soul pet" when I was fifteen. I also got her when I was seven or eight. She got sick without me even noticing and I wasn't there when she got put down so the thought of her dying alone kills me to this day and I'm 24. She will always be my baby. Most people might not get it but pets can be such a special part of our lives. Best wishes to you Suzie.
So sorry for your losses and kudos for being honest about your mental struggles. I also struggle with anxiety and it’s not always easy to tell people, especially people you don’t know about your most vulnerable struggles. It’s important for people to know there’s no shame in having a mental illness. It’s not something anyone asks for and it takes a lot of strength to come out and tell people ❤️
Thank you gal x anxiety is a b*tch and sorry to hear you struggle with it as well 🥺 it took me a while but I’m happy to be open about it on here now 💕
Condolences to you and family❤️🩹 And sorry about your pooch too😢 Much love and healing to you.
Love you Susie, I can speak for myself only but when I say you made a big change about how I look at myself and you’re one of the rare RUclipsrs I trust with their sharings and opinions I mean it. I’m so sorry for your losses. I hope everything gets better for you and you can heal in peace. You give so much positivity to this world. Thank you for sharing both up and downs.
Love you too x than you for this lovely comment 🥺💕
Awww my love!!! I'm crying I love you so much and sorry you went thru that praying your heart and soul heals.❤
I’m so sorry Susie! Sending lots of love and positive energy!,
Thankyou love xx
I'm so sorry Susie. When I lost my grandmother it felt like my world came to a hault and I didn't know how to move forward. I promise with time it gets easier. Your life will be able to go on and the harder days will be less frequent. You'll see things, hear things, and do things that remind you of her. She might not be here with you anymore but she'll never truly leave you. And the same of course goes for Jazzy. We love you so much as did the ones you've lost. Keep pushing through, we'll be here when you're ready.💕
the way my pup passed away was also upsetting, it was a whirlwind to take him to the emergency room and driving him there I was sobbing bc I knew what the end result would be and i’m sorry you also went through that with your angel. I’m sorry for your loss with two beings that mattered so much to you 💖 may they Rest In Peace 💖💖💖
Im so sorry for your loss but just keep taking your time and you’ll soon heal i hope you’re okay. Sending lots of love! 💗💗💗
I had a similar time when my family’s dog passed away. She had been sick; I took her for a walk the day before and she got down the street and wouldn’t walk any further, so I had to carry her home (beagle). She’d been in my bed most nights, and we were really close. She was put down the next day and seeing her like that was traumatising. I now have a cat who was a stray who came to our door as a kitten one night; she’s more like an emotional support animal to me than anything else, and reminds me so much of my dog from years ago. Losing anyone you love, whether a pet or a grandparent, isn’t easy.
awe i was just watching your vids last night bc you’re such an inspiration and i was wondering where you’d been. my condolences❤️ your mental state and your personal life always comes first.
I am so so sorry for your loss Susie. I completely understand how devastating the loss of a pet can be. They are a part of our family just as much as a human is. I just lost my bunny 2 weeks ago. I truly saw her as my first baby. It was a once in a life time kind of bond I cannot even put into words how much I loved her and how much she changed my life in so many magical ways. Lots of people try to invalidate the loss of a pet, but the way I look at it, it just means we were one of the people fortunate enough to have such a beautiful bond that not everyone has a chance to experience in their life. Crying right there with you Susie.
was hoping everything was ok, so sorry to hear about this loss. sending hugs and good vibes. love you suzie
I'm really sorry for your loss. I feel you and I understand what you've been through.
I really hope you will feel better soon because I am sure your grandmother wishes you to be well and happy.
Sending you all my love and one big virtual hug. Love you. ❤
I’m so sorry for your losses Susie, hits home to me at the moment with similar situation. Send you all the love and hugs in the world xx❤️
i’m so sorry for your loss, i hope it gets better and you find peace. your grandmother sounded like a lovely woman. 💗💗💗
Thankyou Aaliyah x she was wonderful and I’m working through it 💕
So sorry for your loss. Thank you for having the strength to make a video even in these difficult times. Your fans love you and always want to see u smiling❤
I am so sorry for your pain. Watching your videos make me so happy and has gotten me through some tough times. You are such an awesome, strong, beautiful gal. Love and prayers for you!
I am truly sorry for the loss of your grandma and for your loss of Jazzy. I send love and hugs.
I'm so very sorry for your losses. The pain never goes away, but it gets easier to deal with over time. I lost both of my dogs in a 6 month period and it broke me. They were my babies. Just hold on to all of the happy, fun memories. Sending love to you and your family 💚
I’m so sorry you lost your babies ❤️ sending love to you too and thank you for this x
im so sorry for your loss, losing someone as influential and special as your grandma is a gut-wrenching, but to lose your dog Jazzy so soon after would have been beyond devastating. I've been thru both, my sweet grandma's bday was 2 days after mine and we were cut from the same cloth, losing her was losing part of myself. And losing my dog Evie left me suicidal, pets provide us with a sacred connection without a single word. I can't imagine experiencing so much pain at once. I hope you are managing, but it's okay if you're not. the multiple layers of feelings that grief contains is like running a marathon with no energy, take all the time of you need angel. sending you so much love.
I am so sorry for your your losses! I can't imagine your sadness and grief; my kitties are my legit children and honestly idk what I'll do when they pass and don't wanna think about it either. People who don't understand that are heartless and have no symphony or empathy for animals. But babe, please take your time to heal and don't push yourself, I struggle with so much mental health issues and trauma, so I totally understand your pain. Take care of yourself first, properly grieve and process your feelings/emotions, and your happiness. We'll all still be here, so don't worry about us :).
oh susie i’m so sorry, my grandma died over 10 years ago from cancer and even though i was young i still grieve her even now. she was, much like your grandma a big inspiration and one of the people i loved most in life. her death hit me really hard and i want to say it may seem dark and hopeless right now but it does get easier. i know that’s probably not what you want to hear rn and all you want is your grandma back, but there is light on the other side. i’m sending you all the love and hugs right now and i hope you’re surrounded by people who you can grieve, if you need time away to grieve we will be here when you get back. love you lots♥️♥️♥️
also just wanted to say my cat passed away recently i’d had her since i was a baby so i totally know how you feel about jazzy passing away, it feels so weird coming home without them there. just want you to know you’re not alone and i completely understand how you feel and what you’re going through, but we can get through this together :)♥️♥️
oh susie, my heart goes out to you. sending all my love to you. we’re all here and always will be here for you 💓 thank you for sharing . i hope everything goes well and that your heart heals
Susie, thank you so much for sharing! Although what any of us say will not take away the hurt and the grief, there is some solace in knowing that you are not alone. I have experienced something very similar - where you lose people close to you and then your dog is taken from you as well. My dog was my heart, and you're right - it broke me. I too looked into cloning, as crazy as it sounds. But I realized at the end of the day that just because the dog would look exactly like him...it wouldn't be him. I keep his collar by my bed. I will never forget him. We are so so blessed to have received their love and devotion.
I'm so so sorry Susie. I never knew my grandma but I can't imagine how hard that loss would be. And anyone that says a pet is 'just an animal' just has no idea. I cry even thinking about my pet being gone. Sending you so much love
Susie I am so sorry to hear about those losses. I have a little dog about Jazzy’s size and I got very emotional watching this because I know the deep hurt from losing pets and family, I can’t imagine going through so much at once. I never comment but I just felt like I had to say something, you are such a ray of light and your videos have been such a comfort to me as I’ve gone through difficult times. I am thinking of you and your family and am sending love from Canada. Thank you so much for all that you do and for being yourself. ♥️
Grief is so all-consuming. Condolences to you and your family - your grandmother sounds lovely, so does Jazzy.
So glad you're taking care of yourself.
My grandma helped raise me, and I still feel a pang in my heart every time I think about her, but they’re up there guiding us and loving us unconditionally
Suzie I'm so sorry for your loss💔 I have two grandmas that I love so much, one lives in the same house with me and she's been with me since I was born. I'm so scared of losing them since both are older than 80. I hope you heal and get better, you helped me so much with self love I hope you know you are loved and appreciated 💙💙 don't worry about not posting, mental health comes first
I'm so sorry for your loss Suzie!🥺rest in peace to your lovely grandma❤️
Sending a lot of love and positivity~♡♡
Stay strong girly,i hope you get well soon!
take care of yourself susie
We missed you Susie ❤️❤️ thank you for being so open and vulnerable. I’m so sorry for everything you’re going through. I totally understand everything you are feeling. Your grieving is showing all the love you have inside of you. We love you!!
Crying and taking the time to grieve is very therapeutic and important. I have found that when you numb your emotions through the grieving process, then you actually extend the grieve and it also intensifies. So, take your time and cry often.
By the way, we put our dog down in 2016 and we still cry over him. Our pets never leave our hearts. Your video brought me to tears thinking about him.
I know how it is to struggle with depression and then loose a grandma. I was in the same place a couple years ago. You are fighting with grief and on top of that there is this wall this mist of depression and it's getting stronger and you're getting more overwhelmed. It gets better, getting professional help and the support of my friend helped a lot. Remember to take time and don't run away form the emotions. They are hard but it will pass.
Depression is so hard and overwhelming ❤️ glad to hear you’re getting professional and emotional support x I am too and it does help so much, lots of love 💕
Aww girl. Grief suuuuuuucks. Thank you for your honesty. We need to tall about it more in our society. It will never fully "pass". There is no getting over it. It is just something that changes you and continues forever. Someone told me (about losing my mom) "it never stops hurting, it just hurts less often." It's pretty true. Even your pup. I fear I had my soul mate dog early/young as well and will forever be comparing future pups to her. I love then too, but it's just not the same 🥺 Love to you and your family and positive healing vibes being sent your way!
I understand, as a 21 yr old who has lost 7 family members and my beautiful cat of 10 years who was literally my baby. Take all the time you need, time heals all wounds, you will be ok. I've gotten terrible advice on how grieving is. Just know it does get better, you still have people you love and people who love you, I believe in you. Right now it feels impossible to do anything, the feeling will fade, it's hard moving on but once you finally realize how to, you will feel better. You'll begin to think of your lost ones in a happy way rather than being sad every time.
I’m so sorry for your loss 💗 I believe in you too and we will get through this x the happy memories are what gets us through, thank you for this ❤️
@@SusieJTodd Aw thank you, you're sweet. ♥️
I grew up with my dog since I was a baby he died when I was 11 years old. At first it was really painful. But then a miracle happened and one year later we took in a 1 year old dog we’ve been taking care of bc sadly the owner was rly old and passed. Today we make jokes and laugh about our old dog. he will always be in our memories. This shows that it does get better when I think of him now(old dog) it’s only happy memories.
All tough I am too scared that my other dog(she’s 11) will pass in the next years
You got this Susie!! Thank you for opening up❤️ your grandma is so proud of you for sharing, you have no idea how much you’ve helped me with my mental health regarding multiple things!! You’re a sunshine
i've literally just started watching your content today, and omygosh i appreciate you so much. im so sorry for all the things you're going through, i know how hard and depressing it can get. i too lost someone who was very important in my life and it felt like hell. but i know that you'll get through it ❤thanks for updating us and i'll definitely will keep up with your channel. also don't feel guilty for taking time for yourself
You are so amazing. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this pain. Sending so much love 💗 😭
my angel of a dog i had since i was 11 passed away unexpectedly from an illness last May and i have been struggling without her ever since and watching this video made me feel so much less alone. i can barely go home from uni because it hurts so much that she's not there waiting for me. you described everything i have been feeling and its so so so hard carrying on without your best friend even now nearly a year later for me. thank you susie for sharing i feel comforted to know im not alone in this. sending love
I am so sorry for your loss, your grandma sounded like an amazing lady and I will sorely miss jazzy! Thank you for this video and being so real with us, I myself struggle with anxiety you showing this side of your life is helpful for me as I am sure it is for others! Sending you lots of love xxxx❤️❤️
Sorry for your loss ❤️ it’s hard losing not one but two family members (pets are family) it’s really difficult, but remember to allow yourself time to grieve and take care of yourself and your mental health during these difficult moments. xo sending love 💕
Omg I missed you lowkey even tho you don't even know me !!!! Prayers for you darling !!!!!!!!!!! So sorry for your loss 😞😓 Taking a break is what you needed ! I'm glad your doing better... prayers to you
i totally understand how hurt it is losing ur pets. i lost two of my cats last year and that year was definitely such a hard year to experience. sending huge virtual hugs for u gurl :)
this is so relatable
Sending so so so much love to you. I have been fortunate enough to not lose anyone close to me, but I did lose my first two dogs that I grew up with within a year of each other, and the amount of pain and grief that comes from that is unimaginable. Even though it was 3-4 years ago now, I still get caught off guard from the lingering grief from that, and I still will randomly start crying thinking about them. Take all the time you need to recover and don't ever feel rushed to come back. I do truly believe that you can never replace your soul pet, but I've gotten more pets now that I love so dearly and they truly have helped me immensely with my mental health and sort of getting over the loss of my first two babies. It did take quite a while for me to be able to adopt them, but they really have helped me so much. I love you and I hope you are feeling better. ❤️
I am so sorry to hear of your losses Susie.. Sending you love and strength. My grandma was my second mother and we were very close. she taught me how to cook and fostered my “food is love” mentality. I was at her house every day growing up and we even worked as colleagues in the same hospital when I started as a PA. we were best friends and she confided in me, which made our relationship so special. when she passed away in October my whole life felt upside down. I was starting a new job and she was on home hospice so we had to help her pass. it was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. i couldn’t even imagine losing my dog as well as her in the same time, i feel the same way about my Maggie as you do your Jazzy ❤️ it’s good that you are taking care of yourself and your mental health. It seems impossible but every day that passes you will heal a little more, carrying their memories with you forever. I have been sleeping with my grams robe every night since she passed and I have one of her many aprons I wear to cook. Hoping that you and your family keep your beautiful memories of her close to you, and that your grieving is brief. She helped make a fabulous person and we are all here to support you in this hard time ❤️
Thank you for sharing susie, I am too dealing with grief (lost my mom due to covid) and it’s been so extremely hard, but we can pull through this. I send you my condolences 🥺💗
I’m so sorry Susie… I lost my childhood dog 4.5 years ago, and just cried about it the other day. It does get easier, but that bond of growing up with a pet is something so special and incomparable. Proud of your for taking time and so sorry about your grandmother. I’m close with mine as well and dread the day she leaves this world. Sending love and prayers💜
I've been through this before...yes, even the pet....I'm so sorry❤ you'll get better tho! It will take a lot of time but you'll be fine 🙂 hope you stay well and healthy and sending love your way!💗💕
Sending love to you x 💕
I'm so sorry to hear that, dear Suzie❤ It is so hard loosing someone you love. When my grandmother died I was crushed as well. But they live on in our hearts and our love for them. I still feel very connected to my grandma even though it is 23 years since she passed away❤
So sorry to hear. My Grandma was one of my best friends. We cooked together, did puzzles, crosswords, games, occasional shopping (when she was more mobile), and she was my safe place. I lost her September 2022(not to Covid, thankfully). I still miss her. I have a box of things I still can't go through because I want to keep her smell around as long as I can. Grief is a weird thing. Some of it manifests in things that society recognizes, but so much of it is random. Sometimes you think you're getting over the worst of it, then a weird thing like almost buying their favorite thing (out of habit), will catch you off guard. I empathize with a lot of what you're talking about. I had a mental break a month after I lost her-there was a lot going on, and I just couldn't keep up with it mentally or emotionally. I'm so grateful for having a therapist that was so supportive and wonderful-helped me through it. Please be kind to yourself. Give yourself self-care, love, understanding, and patience. It's okay to not be okay. Even when people think you "should" be. Please don't let people dictate your healing. Like Bethan said, it does get easier, but it doesn't leave. I'm also so so sorry you lost your dog as well-they are such beautiful safe places of pure love. They are a part of your heart and soul, and losing them is devastating. I am so sorry you were in a place of extreme depression and grief. Wishing you love, healing, and the time and help you need to get through this dark time. Love you!
the first loss ive ever experienced that completely changed my world was also losing my grandmother 3 years ago this september. i was one week away from traveling to see her bc we all thought she was getting better but instead i woke up one morning and we had lost her. i wasn’t able to see or speak to her for months prior to her passing due to her being in and out of comas and i lived across the US. i believe i was closer to her and my grandpa more than my own parents. my grandparents are my best friends and when i lost my grandma i lost a part of myself. i dream and think about her every day and night and even get signs from her that she’s still with me. i talk to her in my dreams and i’m so relieved i can still remember her voice perfectly. each time i visit home i make sure to visit her stone and talk to her everytime i visit and leave home. you never stop grieving but day by day it will just be a little easier to remind yourself they’re no longer in pain and they’re never really gone. 💗
I’m so glad you are showing us this side of you❤️I’m very sorry for your losses. you are strong,beautiful and smart. I can’t imagine losing my two dogs they are family. i have Gordy got him when he was 11 months from a shelter and he is now 4 almost 5. Princess I got for my 8th birthday she is turning 11 this July. i can’t even explain the agony I feel just thinking about her passing. i cry so many tears. i can slightly understand what it would feel like to lose a dog. because I can imagine losing my baby’s Gordy and princess
Thank you Emily xx hold Gordy and princess tight, they are lucky to have so much love from you 💕 I bet they’re some little pampered pooches 🥰
So sorry for your losses, Susie! I kinda feel you. I've lost a lot of close people to me, starting with my mom when i was 15. The only thing i can say it gets a little easier over time, but once in a while it kinda gets back and bring all the emotions! Sending lots of love to you! 🤍
I can’t imagine the pain of losing your mum that young, so much love to you 💕 I’m sure she would be very proud of how kind you are now ! X
I just lost mine last month too, she raised me the first few years of my life and was more like a mother than anything. It’s been hard for me to do simple things like taking care of myself . take your time, be gentle with yourself and take time to do the things that make you happy everyday even if it’s something little. Sending my condolences sweetheart ❤️🧚🏼♀️ meditation and taking walks has helped me greatly. Grief comes in waves just know you won’t feel like this forever
Wishing you tons of healing and positive energy. Losing a pet is just as painful as losing a family member. So glad you're feeling your feelings and sharing them with the world so others know they're not alone in their grief as well. Hugs!
Thank you for sharing with us, Susie!💕💕 life has ups and downs, but even in bad periods (especially when someone you love passes away) and after you always have memories of your happy moments together, so they still live in your heart and nobody can take that away from you 🙏🏻 even death itself
I’m so so sorry Susie. Within 5 months I lost the man who raised me, a dear friend, and one of the women who raised me. Grief is the hardest thing ever. My favorite way to explain grief to people who’ve never experienced it is; imagine you have a shoe box. Inside the box is a button. The button is the grief and when you first have the box, the button is so big it takes up the whole box. There is a ball inside the box that never stops rolling around. Every time the button gets hit is when the grief hits. Over time the ball will get smaller, but it will never stop moving or hitting the button. It just happens less over time. People don’t “move on”. We move forward with our lost loved ones in hour hearts! Let the feelings out. It may feel like the pain will never go away and over time the pain just gets smaller. It’s been 2 years and every once in awhile I have an “auntie day”. And I just do what my body needs. Cry, sleep, yell, talk nonstop, relax in a bath, etc… have your day when it comes. Sorry for how long this is. You will get through it, one day at a time. Some days an hour at a time. Remember you are so beyond loved! 💜
Im so sorry for your loss Susie❤️🥺. I can relate to losing an animal. It definitely hurts & anyone who says it shouldn’t hasn’t experienced it the same way. It definitely hurts losing someone as well as an animal. I experienced watching my boyfriend and his family grieving over a loss as well and it’s hard❤️. I am sending so much love and hugs to you & your family❤️. Healing isn’t easy and it gets hard but I really hope you feel better in your own time🥺❤️!! They are both together taking care of each other as well as you & your family
Hi Suzie, I understand completely. Grief is one of the hardest things to deal with. I have a cat that has helped me in my deepest moment and really is the reason I'm still here. I can't imagine losing her. I hope things will slowly get better for you. In the meanwhile, sending all the love ❤️
So sorry for your losses. I’m so glad you shared. When I went through grief I just kept pushing it off and acting like everything was okay and then it caught up to me. So thank you for sharing with us. ❤️
Love and healing wishes to you Susie 💕. I'm so sorry for your loss.
As someone who has lost their grandma too ( my best friend also ) I send you all my love and hugs hun. You are stronger than you believe and I know things seem really rough but you are never alone queen 🤍 love you tons
Sorry for you losses, virtual hugs are sent to you. It never gets easier we just get stronger learn new ways to manage. I lost my grandma 6 years ago now and it still hurts alot but you just learn how to live and manage the grieving.
Pets are also family they may not be blood but they are just as important. If I lots either of my cats I would be so heart broken they arw my best friends and children.
All the best for you, rest up and keep doing you! You got this susie!! ❤️ ❤️
Thank you for this ❤️ I’m so sorry for the loss of your grandmother and pup. We’re all human and we all need to time to grieve and be sad. Your video is therapeutic and helpful beyond words. Love you Suze!
Susie, thank you for sharing this. Grief is not something a lot of people address, but it's so important. I lost both of my grandmothers this year, you sharing this has made me feel so much less alone. We are in this together. I love you and am praying for peace for you and your family :)
I'm so sorry you've been through and still is going through a tornado of loss and grief. My heart goes out to you. I lost my grandma pretty suddenly and like yourself, I didn't get to see her before she was gone and she was my everything as well. As for your little doggie, she's your little defender. I believe pets, when you truly love and connect with them, they become the guardians of our hearts and souls. That's why they are so precious. No verbal language needed. They know you and you know them too. I remember when the first cat I ever had passed, it was such a shock. Unlike you, Pepper being my first pet ever, I was ignorant about how to take care of cats. So when she fell ill, I didn't recognise the signs. Even when I brought her to the vet, it did not register that she was that seriously ill. A few days later, I lost her. I remember after leaving the clinic, I threw up right at the carpark.it was traumatic af. Now, years later, I have learnt to accept losses much better (2 grandparents and 6 cats over the past 5 years does years does teach you quite a bit about love and loss), I am always going to be sp so grateful for the cats that have passed with me being there with them, holding them and assuring them that they are so loved, and its ok to let go, as they took their last breath. I'm not saying I'm OK. I'm probably never going to be ok. But I hope you'll find peace in all your loss soon. Because the way I see it now is that we should be so grateful for them being in our lives. So privileged that we have met and so lucky to have had them in our lives however brief it might have been. Everyday, I looks at the people and animals I love, and I'm thankful for one more day with them. I truly hope you'll feel so much better soon Susie. And I'm so honoured that you are sharing such a vulnerable side of you with us. Take care.
i'm so sorry for your losses, and am praying for you and the family 🫂 you're doing great getting through this hard season. time may not fully heal, but it will help. please stay safe and well, queen 🥺 take as much time as you need.