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  • Опубликовано: 14 дек 2024

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  • @Rachel-is4se
    @Rachel-is4se 3 года назад +4877

    and when the world needed her the most, she returned

    • @TxroCat
      @TxroCat 3 года назад +11

      Indeed

    • @Diego-oe7fy
      @Diego-oe7fy 3 года назад +17

      Hi baby how phat is it?

    • @livingperc
      @livingperc 3 года назад +23

      @@Diego-oe7fy LMAOO?

    • @Lunxiia
      @Lunxiia 3 года назад +2

      Finally.

    • @RaRa-vf3zx
      @RaRa-vf3zx 3 года назад +7

      @@Diego-oe7fy whatdidhesayyy?

  • @hadiaayyam5169
    @hadiaayyam5169 3 года назад +693

    “we’ll talk about it on the podc-“[GUNSHOTS]

  • @yeehaw6773
    @yeehaw6773 3 года назад +4244

    Drew and enya could sit and talk about absolutely nothing and id still listen for 20 minutes.

    • @midwesternteenager
      @midwesternteenager 3 года назад +13

      Id watch that video

    • @yasminetarr3162
      @yasminetarr3162 3 года назад +27

      same that’s why i love her twitch streams

    • @julie9047
      @julie9047 3 года назад

      same

    • @case2149
      @case2149 3 года назад +27

      that's literally what most of these videos are

    • @burtbot3000
      @burtbot3000 3 года назад +9

      Isn’t that this video

  • @eve1ynn1opez
    @eve1ynn1opez 3 года назад +2055

    I actually really appreciate the serious tone of this video. like, i love the characters you and drew have created but people tend to forget that you are also entirely normal. it really felt like we were talking and it’s honestly a good change of pace. thank you for opening up to us

  • @aimarpaul
    @aimarpaul 3 года назад +3586

    Idk guys at this point i think we need a third camera so we can see drew filming

  • @lindseyrem
    @lindseyrem 3 года назад +2533

    we luv a multifaceted woman

    • @Xujdfy
      @Xujdfy 3 года назад +18

      Truly

    • @enjajaja
      @enjajaja  3 года назад +164

      my queen

  • @h13nry
    @h13nry 3 года назад +3037

    these girls been talking about the podcast since 2019

    • @snappiepappie9899
      @snappiepappie9899 3 года назад +34

      Yea is it even out yet I’m so confused?

    • @dn-li7ww
      @dn-li7ww 3 года назад +153

      @Angelica Ruiz YO. respect the grind

    • @jordan4NG3L
      @jordan4NG3L 3 года назад +41

      i need it so bad

    • @drewphillips90
      @drewphillips90 3 года назад +69

      drew said on live the other day that they finally got a deal so it should b coming soon frfr

    • @kiannanewton1006
      @kiannanewton1006 3 года назад +2

      @@dn-li7ww !!!

  • @khiara6026
    @khiara6026 3 года назад +1460

    i cried when u started talking about how it feels when ur pet just isn't around, its so sad and i even get to feel guilty when i think they didn't exist, like they are completely gone, my first cat passed away 3 years ago and u really made me feel about it in a way i never thought i could again, with animals its all about the emotional connection and only u know about it, there's no way to prove it to anyone, its really intimate. id hope u get to feel better about it soon and enjoy azuls company the most,,, luv u bestie꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡

  • @zogador_II
    @zogador_II 3 года назад +4624

    Azul’s gender changes every 5 seconds we stan a genderfluid monarch

    • @paledangels
      @paledangels 3 года назад +296

      LMFAOOO I KNOW AT FIRST TIME I GOT CONFUSED CUZ THEY KEEP CALLING AZUL AND EDI 2 DIFFERENT PRONOUNS AND IT SRSLY CONFUSES ME OUT FOR A MONTH

    • @jealelouarvenfelt254
      @jealelouarvenfelt254 3 года назад +25

      @@paledangels WAIT SO WHAT GENDER ARE/WAS THEY?

    • @calfspleen
      @calfspleen 3 года назад +169

      @@jealelouarvenfelt254 azul’s a boy, enya likes to call azul ‘she’. azul is bae

    • @paledangels
      @paledangels 3 года назад +66

      @@jealelouarvenfelt254 AZUL IS A BOY, AND EDI IS A GIRL LOL

    • @zuriislas7432
      @zuriislas7432 3 года назад +36

      I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT REALIZED THIS

  • @soundhysteria
    @soundhysteria 3 года назад +568

    GIRL WE DON’T ALWAYS NEED SOMETHING FUNNY! post whateverrr

    • @froyamork
      @froyamork 3 года назад +1

      ‼️‼️‼️

    • @Laura-in9kg
      @Laura-in9kg 3 года назад +5

      I could hear her talk of whatever for an hour straight and I would be fine with it tbh

  • @levarohani
    @levarohani 3 года назад +1300

    don’t be afraid to say the downs of ur year, other people’s problems don’t cancel out yours bab & become pescatarian if u don’t wanna stop eating fish

    • @angellucifer1876
      @angellucifer1876 3 года назад +16

      It’s not that it’s insensitive to make it seem like she has it hard compared to a lot of others but yes I agree she’s entitled to her feelings but she has made the decision to not make it public

    • @giselle_aguilar.r
      @giselle_aguilar.r 3 года назад +1

      !!!

    • @a.4963
      @a.4963 3 года назад +7

      becoming pescatarian is a start, but you should watch seaspiracy on netflix. no such thing as ethical fishing/fish-sourcing. do what u can tho

  • @titotobi-lawal2083
    @titotobi-lawal2083 3 года назад +414

    I feel for Enya's like emotional rants I can't imagine what its like to have struggles and then feel like your struggles aren't valid enough especially as like a 'public figure' enya this vid was the slay of the century we love you always you are my favourite woman in comedy

  • @rhondasglasses7991
    @rhondasglasses7991 3 года назад +1337

    Enya's room always gives me "cool older cousin" vibes

    • @linda_bertino
      @linda_bertino 3 года назад +30

      More like, the cool friend I wish I had

    • @kiannanewton1006
      @kiannanewton1006 3 года назад +3

      YEAHHH

    • @najmomuse
      @najmomuse 3 года назад +8

      her room is socute i wish i had that room

    • @xo665
      @xo665 2 года назад

      Omg YESSSSS

  • @Campmountain89
    @Campmountain89 3 года назад +491

    I feel like all youtubers these days have awful editing and that’s the only thing that makes there videos funny but with Enya it’s just pure comedy and just her. I love it

  • @nadia-tk3vs
    @nadia-tk3vs 3 года назад +1570

    QUEEN IS MAKING HER MONTHLY APPEARANCE

  • @coolhacker69
    @coolhacker69 3 года назад +539

    enya is such a role model for me. i look up to her and feel like she doesnt even know how much she's a part of my life. she influences me in every way possible. the way i dress, talk, act is because of how bold she is. she takes such time out of her life and shows us who she is. i'm so grateful that she continues to make content even when she doesnt feel the best and her sitting down and talking was a breath of fresh air that i think was very needed. enya brings such an unusual taste to comedy that we all love. she is such a well rounded person, a literal icon.
    enya, thank you for continuing to make content, even when its hard. we love and appreciate all that you do.

    • @taylah5373
      @taylah5373 3 года назад +4

      I look up to her too omg

    • @ryrogirl8318
      @ryrogirl8318 3 года назад +2

      she’s so amazing fr.

    • @reyumera
      @reyumera 3 года назад +2

      i love her so much omg

    • @rubin2200
      @rubin2200 3 года назад

      Oh stfu

    • @odeswarms
      @odeswarms 3 года назад +7

      @@rubin2200 y u mad

  • @aimarpaul
    @aimarpaul 3 года назад +774

    I will never understand how she still has hair on her head, shes an inspiration

  • @yv6743
    @yv6743 3 года назад +551

    Keep evolving as a comedian, don’t limit yourself to a single “character“ or “act” . 💌 can’t wait for the podcast 🗣

  • @danny-iu2kd
    @danny-iu2kd 3 года назад +727

    Azul going by any pronouns is the slay of the decade

  • @samk5462
    @samk5462 3 года назад +183

    YALL BETTER NOT SKIP ANY ADS SHE JUST GAVE US AN AFTER SCHOOL SPECIAL!!!

  • @nannybells
    @nannybells 3 года назад +494

    when this podcast finally drop the world will heal

  • @athina7035
    @athina7035 3 года назад +473

    the part where u said women can’t enjoy things cause they’re afraid ppl will think they’re doing it to be perceived... me asf and i’ll convince myself everything i like is faked for men and then in like bitch you’ve been interested in these things for 10 years now LOL

    • @georgiaebony2494
      @georgiaebony2494 3 года назад +15

      or when you finally except you genuinely want to contribute but men treat you as if your doing it to be perceived and have no real importance in the matter

    • @kaylala4695
      @kaylala4695 3 года назад +10

      the male gaze 😔

    • @Laura-in9kg
      @Laura-in9kg 3 года назад +2

      we gotta stop letting them into our brain. I feel like some men are always trying to discredit us and trying to reduce us to a human body without a soul when it's like "mf my soul, tastes, likes and experiences is real and it does not exist to please you. take several seats"

  • @jacquelinelara8796
    @jacquelinelara8796 3 года назад +79

    holy shit the woman experience men telling you that you’re a poser for having interests yet simultaneously having to explain why you like things and then being told you don’t like those things enough

  • @worm4175
    @worm4175 3 года назад +214

    why does no one talk about drew’s “mmmm” it’s like one of my fav parts of enya’s vids lolol

    • @ftw.miyala2184
      @ftw.miyala2184 3 года назад +3

      yess I literally love it lmaoo

    • @walkingsticks425
      @walkingsticks425 3 года назад +6

      dude seriously i’ve been subconsciously doing it throughout the day

  • @avarie222
    @avarie222 3 года назад +129

    My cat died a few weeks ago and this made me feel less alone. Thank you

    • @kaylann
      @kaylann 3 года назад +5

      Same this is literally the first time I feel like someone has been on the same wave length as me since my cat died.

  • @nataliemunoz7061
    @nataliemunoz7061 3 года назад +74

    I felt so much comfort hearing her sit down and talk

  • @loni1932
    @loni1932 3 года назад +116

    Drew and enya literally give me the energy to get my ass off my bed and do stuff to feel better. Truly these 2 make depression just alittle more bearable. Luv y’all

  • @walkingthetightrope6637
    @walkingthetightrope6637 3 года назад +57

    I love the tone of Enyas videos. It's not overthought and overproduced. It just feels honest and fun and like I'm listening to a friend talk.

  • @17th_angel
    @17th_angel 3 года назад +115

    you’re already beautiful, queen

    • @amsan96
      @amsan96 3 года назад +6

      the rei icon... i love it

  • @gabbykingmusic
    @gabbykingmusic 3 года назад +43

    dude you gave eddy the best little life any cat could’ve asked for, when you adopt a pet with an unclear past you can only do what you think is best in the moment, hindsight is shitty thing but you really did the best you could for eddy

  • @tavianawoods
    @tavianawoods 3 года назад +64

    i really relate to the feeling corny about liking certain things and caring about what others think about my interest? or like thinking that people i think are super cool i don’t want them to think like- i’m stupid for the things i like i don’t know 😭 i feel like if i say i like something people aren’t gonna think i know what i’m talking about so i over compensate and like over do it

    • @user-hg2gb3eu1m
      @user-hg2gb3eu1m 3 года назад +4

      same. Basically fuck everyone's opinions (especially male opinions) and just enjoy what you enjoy :)

    • @tacobellemployee7819
      @tacobellemployee7819 3 года назад

      that’s exactly how i feel its rlly annoying but im also insecure abt everything abt me 😭 but im glad theres sm other people who think the same

    • @Laura-in9kg
      @Laura-in9kg 3 года назад +2

      sometimes I feel like my interest in something is not that deep but im trying to do whatever makes me happy even if I just dwell on the surface. a big "f you" to everyone that judges others tbh, they're probably projecting anyways so..

    • @user-hg2gb3eu1m
      @user-hg2gb3eu1m 3 года назад

      @@Laura-in9kg facts ✌🏽

  • @Niyanicole05
    @Niyanicole05 3 года назад +43

    Enya is saving the world with this video. By posting she’s increased the worlds happiness by 100 percent. According to my calculations by increasing happiness she’s making so many people that’s sad happy, enya is the cure to all evil. Enya is very powerful. Enya is an icon. Love enya forever

  • @sofiaramirez6770
    @sofiaramirez6770 3 года назад +130

    breaking bad is so underground omg 💔 please don’t tell the locals 😒

  • @kaceymcnamee719
    @kaceymcnamee719 3 года назад +40

    enya man you do not have to apologise for being serious and talking about how you feel we are here for you bæ

  • @ella-nc8em
    @ella-nc8em 3 года назад +301

    watch everyone become obsessed with breaking bad now that enya said she watches it

    • @angel-un8fs
      @angel-un8fs 3 года назад +16

      @@star13745 that’s the joke

    • @kahlyn4157
      @kahlyn4157 3 года назад +39

      @@star13745 its a running joke bc enya gets a lot of hate for shit she does but months later they become trends

    • @ella-nc8em
      @ella-nc8em 3 года назад

      @@kahlyn4157 exactly

    • @chanelghostin6060
      @chanelghostin6060 3 года назад +2

      @@kahlyn4157 she gets like 200k views at most i doubt she’s rly influenced our generation that much. y’all giving white girls too much credit.

    • @ImaanHyder
      @ImaanHyder 3 года назад +6

      @@chanelghostin6060 not you calling her a white girl LMFAO and you’d be surprised as to how much she DOES influence people’s style

  • @lyrastrseed3343
    @lyrastrseed3343 3 года назад +52

    I love you enya, your vulnerability means sooo much. My cat just died too, he got hit by a car & my boyfriend found him :( Praying our babies are in a way better place than here🥺 You helped me feel less stupid for taking it so serious, and how deep it really is to lose a pet.

  • @renayssworld
    @renayssworld 3 года назад +403

    Enya: I wanna get cute and post an IG picture
    Drew: girl u’re already cute
    Enya: should I just post in this outfit🤨
    Drew: no😐 (STOP THE ENYA SLANDER)

  • @inessa5923
    @inessa5923 3 года назад +23

    Enya sitting in front of her camera and doing her makeup while talking about anything is so nostalgic

  • @Joy-tq2de
    @Joy-tq2de 3 года назад +54

    i feel reborn when enya uploads

  • @krux3759
    @krux3759 3 года назад +17

    so sorry for your loss :( pet losses hurt so much. You're right, it's strange because they just seem to be gone and don't leave anything behind

  • @jennifercoolidgehotdog
    @jennifercoolidgehotdog 3 года назад +49

    enya umanzor blessing our timeline again with a new video

  • @desireel.6358
    @desireel.6358 3 года назад +29

    I love hearing rant videos like this esp from creators like you. It's engaging and makes me feel like I'm listening to a friend. Sometimes hearing about other people's problems and strife is calming to me bc it makes me feel less alone

  • @fernandaaamrtTnez
    @fernandaaamrtTnez 3 года назад +31

    Her video has no edit background noises or all the extra stuff to make it funny, but I was literally still entertained and laughed and also got sad for her. Literally no one makes me genuinely laugh and she also made me feel sadness for her and her cat. It wasn’t even my cat. She literally has the capability to make people feel all the emotions. AND I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE IT WAS 35 MIN LONG. Wow. Fav RUclipsr. All I gotta say🚶‍♀️

  • @sumayah2520
    @sumayah2520 3 года назад +102

    i had such clear skin after years of acne issues and then did a mf face mask that burned my face and made me break out so badly and it took like 5 months to fully clear i was so close to buying a ski mask i understand what you’re saying

    • @almarbermudez
      @almarbermudez 3 года назад +8

      brahh this reminds me of when i accidentally put hair spray on my face :| not a good look. took me a year to recover my skin was f’d up!

    • @bunnym.2414
      @bunnym.2414 3 года назад +5

      ur pretty asf

    • @sumayah2520
      @sumayah2520 3 года назад +1

      @@bunnym.2414 thank you sm🤍

  • @gxrlwonder
    @gxrlwonder 3 года назад +25

    you and drew are the only ones that i can actually sit through talking about sponsors bc you guys make it so entertaining

  • @hannah18958
    @hannah18958 3 года назад +17

    it felt weird when my cat Paco died, i was out of town and my neighbours had to bury him and when i got home it's like he was never here. but a few month later im in a yoga class and i find one of his whiskers in my leggings and i broke down man, pet relationships are so incredible

  • @griffgirl24
    @griffgirl24 2 года назад +4

    Coming back to this bc enya’s words about the passing of a pet really resonated with me and about three months after my 15 year old dog passed and it was so rough, those words really helped

  • @m.andthemist
    @m.andthemist 3 года назад +10

    I so agree with that thing about people assuming women aren't genuinely interested in things, it sucks so much and I feel like I internalise it too and don't think the things I like have any value. Loved the video, it's so nice to have you talking one on one again and catch up a little bit :)

  • @oliviamarieeexo
    @oliviamarieeexo 3 года назад +163

    vid idea for u: at home open mic night skit w/ the ppl u live with and just be funny like u already are hehe. Also, regardless of how "lucky" u are it's OK to still have issues bc we all do boo el o el.

  • @zoerichards5934
    @zoerichards5934 3 года назад +12

    i can't even explain how much i relate to the idea of being corny/not knowing about what i'm interested. always feeling on the periphery of the worlds/interests i want to be a part of

  • @0nPl4n3te4rth
    @0nPl4n3te4rth 3 года назад +37

    35 minutes of enya content? LUV

  • @sexyfartsniffer3884
    @sexyfartsniffer3884 3 года назад +11

    Please make more videos where u just talk and open up like this, it’s so comforting.

  • @saracayen
    @saracayen 3 года назад +11

    dude enya always apologizes for not "being funny enough" or if the video gets "too ranty" but like... sometimes that openness is so precious and helps me remember im real and that other people r real n life feels a little more bearable knowing even ur fav creators on the internet rly go thru it/ that people social media dont have it together as much as we think they do n idk ty enya! for reminding us we dont have to be perfect

  • @nanagallaza1645
    @nanagallaza1645 3 года назад +20

    i getchu on the pet part. my dog had seizures and shit, and obv we took her to the vet. we thought it was just age, and how lately shes just been sitting there and hanging out. and they kept her overnight and we had to give her 3 different meds that i was in charge of. but the week when texas had the huge power out, she passed on the rocking chair. i wasnt there when my family found her dead but i remember breaking down at my friends place at midnight because my first dog since the fuckin 4th grade passed. i had this guilt bc i didnt give her meds on time, or gave her enough blankets in the cold. the next day i held her body to the hospital, and it looked like she was just sleeping. it was so sudden, and i expected for her to live longer but she was a stray and we didnt know her pass life before me. it does feel like it never happened and shes still here. :/
    + thank u for these kind of videos

  • @vanessamorales8250
    @vanessamorales8250 3 года назад +6

    THE PODCAST!! listened to the hey incident yesterday then came back to this vid

  • @jeissonvelez8601
    @jeissonvelez8601 3 года назад +10

    The way I cried when enya talked about her pet passing really hit me Bc I went through the same experience and my pet died last month and honestly it is the worst feeling to feel

  • @nannybells
    @nannybells 3 года назад +40

    my grandma's cat passed right after quarantine started and it really felt so surreal, it doesnt feel real to this day.. :( it's a lot

  • @loveletter54
    @loveletter54 3 года назад +7

    I honestly love these type of raw just chatting to the camera vids. Like I would definitely watch more vids of just Enya chatting, daily vlogs, or even just more chill vids like this.

  • @soundhysteria
    @soundhysteria 3 года назад +11

    i love you girl. don’t listen to any of your fear or other peoples perceptions. watching you grow into the woman you are today is so inspiring to so many people who love your content. you are already enough! take it day by day bestie 💖💖💖 so excited for you and proud of you always!

  • @oliviaschroder
    @oliviaschroder 3 года назад +2

    thank you for sharing enya. i dont comment a lot but this video really touched me. my dog passed away around the same time, we got him right before the pandemic, and it was also very sudden. I'm at school so i couldn't be home for his last few days, and i haven't seen him for weeks. I've been so distraught since, and i empathize with feeling like i could have done more and wanting to just sense his presence. i feel everything ur saying. sometimes i feel crazy because no one I've talked to understands that it feels like i lost a person. i'm grieving a member of my family and everyone expects me to recover like that. i don't even know what I'm trying to say but basically it was so cathartic to just hear someone talk about everything i'm feeling. thank you

  • @veirikku28
    @veirikku28 3 года назад +3

    that part about eddie hit me real hard since i also had a cat that died at the start of this year :( it’s even more painful thinking about what more could i have done since i myself am a veterinarian... i don’t even have the heart to do like a dedication post on my socials bc it hurts to remember.. that cat was also the first pet that was truly my own :(

  • @ashleyshoop
    @ashleyshoop 3 года назад +4

    I was crying with you around the 30 minute mark. I’m so sorry for your loss. Returning home after losing a pet, the strongest feelings is just the emptiness and the absence of their presence. It’s so heartbreaking

  • @guera2003
    @guera2003 3 года назад +24

    i love these longer videos. makes me feel like i have friends 😁😁😁

  • @starjalanugraha3225
    @starjalanugraha3225 3 года назад +3

    the life update and just relaxed vibes were much appreciated i feel like we haven't seen her do just a sit down vid in a minute but its so refreshing to hear her talk about how she's doing and everything

  • @3mal3e10
    @3mal3e10 3 года назад +13

    YOU ALWAYS HAVE BEEN BEAUTIFUL

  • @graceboran1492
    @graceboran1492 3 года назад +19

    Normally when the dermatologist gives u anything, ur skin will go through “purging” where it gets worse before it gets better, but it is totally worth it in the long run

  • @lindawg_22
    @lindawg_22 3 года назад +28

    NO FUCKING WAYYY YAYYYY. I LOVE U ENYA. CANT WAIT TO WATCH THIS MASTER PIECE.

  • @katken
    @katken Год назад +2

    ik I'm late to this video lol but I just lost my childhood dog and my other dog in the space of three months, so hearing u discuss exactly what I was thinking about my own pets felt rlly good to hear

  • @karsynelyse
    @karsynelyse 3 года назад +4

    you are not corney!! you are authentic :) thanks for being you, we need more genuine people

  • @aquariusgal
    @aquariusgal 3 года назад +2

    i really enjoy videos like this, sometimes i don't have the energy to be invested in a joke or skit so this is super comforting.

  • @shaylenm
    @shaylenm 3 года назад +6

    I relate with enya talking about eddy. I also had a cat who I thought had fip. We knew about it late too but my cat was with me for the longest time and she died when I was away at university. When I got back from university, it felt like she was never there. There's so much memories of her at that house but she was just gone when I got back and she left nothing behind. It felt empty and I wish I could spend more time with her :(

  • @giadagrossi1803
    @giadagrossi1803 3 года назад +1

    Thank u for your honesty, my skin is crazy too and now i feel less alone!

  • @souliselene
    @souliselene 3 года назад +4

    i love how emotionally open you’ve become. the change and growth over the years is so obvious :,)

  • @annabel5020
    @annabel5020 3 года назад +2

    We love you!!!! This year has been really hard and it’s ok to feel shitty about whatever hardships you have to face, even if others may have it worse. U deserve to take care of yourself and u deserve all of the good things that are in your life!!

  • @ValentinaRodriguezsz
    @ValentinaRodriguezsz 3 года назад +12

    QUEEN I NEEDED THIS TODAY THANK YOU SIS

  • @SoThatsRebecca
    @SoThatsRebecca 3 года назад +7

    I can listen to enya talk and rant all day

  • @whospluto6521
    @whospluto6521 3 года назад +3

    i love how she was so open in this video!

  • @peachscone7342
    @peachscone7342 3 года назад +3

    This video was incredible. You’re incredible. Seeing you so raw like this really humanized you apart from your usual wacky character and helped me feel less alone. So much love to Enya.

  • @aLe27N0
    @aLe27N0 3 года назад +3

    I haven't seen you since vine but thanks for the laughs you gave younger me. I'm 21 now and feel like we're going through similar emotions so I hope you feel better. Keep staying you

  • @ultraenvironmental
    @ultraenvironmental 3 года назад +2

    I hate it when ppl give advice on acne bc everyone's skin is different, but last year i realized that my acne was tied to my hair products especially because of my color-treated hair products. putting that out there for anyone who needs it

  • @andreja9425
    @andreja9425 3 года назад +3

    I definitely feel this, the year has been a STUGGLE. My dog died a month ago, my best friends mom died too like a week later, my other friends mom is getting deported, I ended a 6 year relationship with an emotional abuser, I had to take an extra year of school because I was abusing psychedelics and neglected my work to be with my abuser, i’m graduating into the worst job market since the depression with a degree that requires me to move to one of the most expensive cities in the world, that i’m slowly saving to move to, I’m transitioning publicly into my true identity, all the while I’m struggling to be productive and make music and clothes and other creative projects I’ve been working on. It has been fucking real and all these people are out here pretending like covid isn’t real and are living their lives and enjoying themselves and being productive. I get so angry and then i get upset with myself for being so jealous of people appearing to have their shit together. I just appreciate how honest you guys have been throughout this year and it’s made me feel less alone. I hope things will get better for everyone struggling in this time. We’re all in this together even if we have different problems. No matter who you are, things could be worse but that doesn’t mean we aren’t allowed to share and explain what we’ve been going through. Everyone who reads this is beautiful, thank you

  • @corviknight5864
    @corviknight5864 3 года назад +2

    bro at like 33:50 when you said the viewers were cute and shit i smiled mad hard for no reason. love you so much enya i hope youre having a good day. ur everything

  • @leobrady5038
    @leobrady5038 3 года назад +3

    I'm so glad you talked abt ur cat, it makes me feel like I'm not alone. I lost my dog a year ago to cancer, she looked like shit and I knew she was hurting but I couldn't do anything about it. Finally came the day where she had to go to the vet, she stayed over night and the next day my mom tells me she passed away. I was in complete shock but then it hit me so hard that my baby died, I still remember her wagging her tail as she walked out the door, she knew she was dying. I didn't even get to say goodbye but I'll always remember the good times with her and sometimes ill look at pictures of her, at least ik she's not suffering and is in doggie heaven

  • @lizwiz8221
    @lizwiz8221 3 года назад +1

    Enya, I relate 100% on the acne situation. People who have never suffered from acne don’t understand how much it impacts self esteem but I’m here to tell you that you are so beautiful and acne is literally normal!! Don’t be so hard on yourself you are such an angel

  • @ari7610
    @ari7610 3 года назад +3

    love the real enya just chilling, not in bit mode. this is why i look forward to the podcast. hope they record a video version for youtube.

  • @nokiaminoj6023
    @nokiaminoj6023 3 года назад +2

    this video was so powerful i could literally feel the emotion thru the video i luv u so much enya

  • @alhsaux
    @alhsaux 3 года назад +12

    Enya talking about breaking bad was literally me when I started watching breaking bad, like that was all I would talk about

  • @pinkdemi45
    @pinkdemi45 3 года назад +2

    so happy u talked about how you've actually been feeling

  • @brynnolsen4902
    @brynnolsen4902 3 года назад +3

    I've heard that every pet comes into your life for a reason, Eddie came in yours to help you through that time. She was such a great cat and I'm so sorry for your loss

  • @kimberlycasares6010
    @kimberlycasares6010 3 года назад +1

    Awww my love I’m so sorry you lost a pet. Losing a pet is so so hard I know you really cared for your kitty. Wishing you lots of healing and sending lots of love as well.

  • @AwesomizingVideo
    @AwesomizingVideo 3 года назад +3

    enya was been my childhood crush on vine and still is period

  • @bartquintin
    @bartquintin 3 года назад +1

    my dog passed last year and you put exactly into words what i was feeling back then, its difficult because you cant say goodbye or explain whats happening to them. sending good vibes :))

  • @descendingintomadness
    @descendingintomadness 3 года назад +4

    I’m quite literally in loveeee with this woman

  • @bellaviviana6785
    @bellaviviana6785 3 года назад +1

    i literally adore you like this . you don’t need to always have this personality that you think we need . i love listening to you just talk about what u really like . do what make u happy we love u regardless :)

  • @haylenlanae7883
    @haylenlanae7883 3 года назад +4

    enya always looks like a really cool daria character

  • @ugo445
    @ugo445 3 года назад +2

    Your big bright smile helps me forget about my brother. Enya. Thanks man.

  • @jessicacavero1575
    @jessicacavero1575 3 года назад +3

    i’m so sorry to hear about your cat. the grief of losing a pet doesn’t go away fully i think. i still keep the toy my bunny had cuddled up next to when she died.

  • @agaston1224
    @agaston1224 3 года назад +1

    within this video you pushed me in a sense to paint my nails and do homework, i love you bro

  • @kateexxmariee
    @kateexxmariee 3 года назад +3

    My cat passed 5 days after Christmas & it was so random & sudden, she was healthy & only 2 years old. I always feel guilty for not taking her deceased body to the vet to try & figure out HOW she died. We can never blame ourselves or be hard on ourselves.. as long as YOU know you was an amazing cat mom that’s all that matters. RIP to her tho 😔 I can definitely relate to you 100% with this, she was my first cat I created my own bond with instead of her just being a FAMILY CAT. Now I walk into my room & literally it’s like she was never here... but I’ll always remember her 🥺.
    -Also getting a tattoo of her, I feel like that makes me feel better as her cat mom lol✨

  • @fishiediaries
    @fishiediaries 3 года назад +2

    bestie we literally just love watching u talk like u don’t have to feel forced to say anything.... also ur not complaining ur just expressing how u feel about ur life...! just cus people have it worse doesn’t mean u have to force urself to be happy with shit.....!!!!!!!!!!!! ur a whole human being, b kinder to urself ^-^