*Let me tell you about myself* (Im 17 years old, a little but idiot and pretty ugly in my eyes) I used to live in the US (Im Arabic but really white and blonde) and people used to be very racist to me at school because I was born in Jordan/Amman. I think this caused my current social anxiety. I never told my mom because I was afraid shed go to school and make a fuss about it. I only told her I didn't have friends and her only option was for me to change schools, which was something I wasn't gonna do so she didn't really do much. She was also very bad tempered when I was young. I moved back to Jordan at age 10. I have had social anxiety since I was a little kid, this led to me isolating myself from my whole family and most of my schools. I don't even go out with friends anymore. I don't drink or smoke or anything which is also a huge part of this. I don't have any close friends who I trust and I've never had a girlfriend because, who would want to go out with the ugly lonely nobody in the school? My parents don;t like me. They're proud of my brother who has won various international tennis championships and my sister who gets awesome grades and does pretty much everything perfectly. Im useless. I dont do anything right nor do I know how to do much. I've tried lots of activities in the past but as I said before, I cant get along with people and I cant really enjoy doing stuff alone like drawing or writing. My parents complain about everything I do. Im depressed and I find it impossible to get good grades and concentrate at school (I think I may have a medical condition) so they yell and start taking away all my stuff (phone, pc, consoles) for a while and complain because I still don;t get good grades after they do this. I've tried to tell them Im depressed and life is getting really hard and heavy on me. Ive even told them that I don;t care about school anymore because all I want is to pass. Not to get good grades. I tell them to please stop making me feel like shit because they complain about every step I take. They say they'll try, but this is always a lie. They just keep on acting like nothing happened and everything is fine. I don;t go to family reunions or parties or anything and I've started to lock myself up in my room everyday, only going out a few times to get food or to walk my dog. I can't believe they think that everything is fine in my life or that they just don;t care. I've thought about suicide constantly for the last few years but cant get to actually killing myself because Im kinda scared of death. Since I hate seeing blood I don;t cut myself but I do stuff like hit my leg until its very hard to walk or just punching the wall until I cant do it anymore. One time I fractured my hand but just hid it from everyone because I knew they wouldn't care. I lost all motivation in my life and now Im about to finish high school without ever having a girlfriend or a kiss. My youth sucked. My life is going nowhere and I don;t know what to do. I don;t trust anyone. I don;t like people. I have nowhere to go and I hate myself. What should I do? Kill myself? Wait to see what happens? People say life will get better but this isn't true. Not for the last almost 18 years. Each year has been worse than the last. I hope someday Ill read this and say, wow, Im glad my life is good now. If you read it all, thank you ❤ *and don't subscribe to my channel :D*
THE Sniper hey, I'm from Brazil so, sorry about my English....but listen ...I know You are tired because everyone are, but you have to keep going okay ? If you need to talk I'm here... love you
Hii I think your life will get better you just have to believe in yourself and that's coming from me and I feel like shit now I'm Arabian girl in your same age and I don't think I have a purpose in life anymore and everything I try to do I fail at it miserably but I do believe that life would get better someday buddy and if you want to talk anytime about anything at all you can come to me💖
Funny ...!! ....the pain..cannot be fixed by any bandaid or any painkiller...!!..Oh..you please stand out there.... &...think aloud...for nothing... let me bleed out here in my soul...& both of us are done with ....
What's your point? You don't he l me out do you? I want my knives back. What do you care any way? You don't want to even be my friend. So just go away please. It really doesn't matter in the long run.l don't want to be bothered
You go girl he done the same thing to me. He doesnt think nobidy has feelings. You say three. Web l it was acturly fourbof us hit him hard babe knck him to the bottom of the pit. God this god. That he dosent real know god. His sin will need to be washed and that wouldnt even help. Go. Withvthose words tell her how good it was. I dont blame you one bit. And he thinks women are stupid. He played well. Hope hes on his knees.
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*Let me tell you about myself*
(Im 17 years old, a little but idiot and pretty ugly in my eyes)
I used to live in the US (Im Arabic but really white and blonde) and people used to be very racist to me at school because I was born in Jordan/Amman. I think this caused my current social anxiety. I never told my mom because I was afraid shed go to school and make a fuss about it. I only told her I didn't have friends and her only option was for me to change schools, which was something I wasn't gonna do so she didn't really do much. She was also very bad tempered when I was young. I moved back to Jordan at age 10.
I have had social anxiety since I was a little kid, this led to me isolating myself from my whole family and most of my schools. I don't even go out with friends anymore. I don't drink or smoke or anything which is also a huge part of this. I don't have any close friends who I trust and I've never had a girlfriend because, who would want to go out with the ugly lonely nobody in the school?
My parents don;t like me. They're proud of my brother who has won various international tennis championships and my sister who gets awesome grades and does pretty much everything perfectly. Im useless. I dont do anything right nor do I know how to do much. I've tried lots of activities in the past but as I said before, I cant get along with people and I cant really enjoy doing stuff alone like drawing or writing.
My parents complain about everything I do. Im depressed and I find it impossible to get good grades and concentrate at school (I think I may have a medical condition) so they yell and start taking away all my stuff (phone, pc, consoles) for a while and complain because I still don;t get good grades after they do this. I've tried to tell them Im depressed and life is getting really hard and heavy on me. Ive even told them that I don;t care about school anymore because all I want is to pass. Not to get good grades. I tell them to please stop making me feel like shit because they complain about every step I take. They say they'll try, but this is always a lie. They just keep on acting like nothing happened and everything is fine. I don;t go to family reunions or parties or anything and I've started to lock myself up in my room everyday, only going out a few times to get food or to walk my dog. I can't believe they think that everything is fine in my life or that they just don;t care. I've thought about suicide constantly for the last few years but cant get to actually killing myself because Im kinda scared of death. Since I hate seeing blood I don;t cut myself but I do stuff like hit my leg until its very hard to walk or just punching the wall until I cant do it anymore. One time I fractured my hand but just hid it from everyone because I knew they wouldn't care.
I lost all motivation in my life and now Im about to finish high school without ever having a girlfriend or a kiss. My youth sucked. My life is going nowhere and I don;t know what to do. I don;t trust anyone. I don;t like people. I have nowhere to go and I hate myself. What should I do? Kill myself? Wait to see what happens? People say life will get better but this isn't true. Not for the last almost 18 years. Each year has been worse than the last. I hope someday Ill read this and say, wow, Im glad my life is good now.
If you read it all, thank you ❤ *and don't subscribe to my channel :D*
THE Sniper hey, I'm from Brazil so, sorry about my English....but listen
...I know You are tired because everyone are, but you have to keep going okay ? If you need to talk I'm here... love you
Hii I think your life will get better you just have to believe in yourself and that's coming from me and I feel like shit now I'm Arabian girl in your same age and I don't think I have a purpose in life anymore and everything I try to do I fail at it miserably but I do believe that life would get better someday buddy and if you want to talk anytime about anything at all you can come to me💖
THE Sniper
I love you. So what are YOU going to do about it?
feeling does suck why i necame so mumb inside amd cut and stoped eating and binge and purge when i do
hey if u ever need to talk dm my insta carlydubois
I should be learning by now
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Let it be...BUT STILL I NEED YOU ...ELSE I MIGHT DIE ...
How do u make one of these
USAFan ROBLOX i use magix video deluxe 16 if that's your question:)
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Funny ...!! ....the pain..cannot be fixed by any bandaid or any painkiller...!!..Oh..you please stand out there.... &...think aloud...for nothing... let me bleed out here in my soul...& both of us are done with ....
What's your point? You don't he l me out do you? I want my knives back. What do you care any way? You don't want to even be my friend. So just go away please. It really doesn't matter in the long run.l don't want to be bothered
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tiffany nathasingh then what *do* you want? :/
You go girl he done the same thing to me. He doesnt think nobidy has feelings. You say three. Web l it was acturly fourbof us hit him hard babe knck him to the bottom of the pit. God this god. That he dosent real know god. His sin will need to be washed and that wouldnt even help. Go. Withvthose words tell her how good it was. I dont blame you one bit. And he thinks women are stupid. He played well. Hope hes on his knees.
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