MY DETRANSITION IS OVER
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Hello! I'm Elle. I'm a 20 year old woman who thought I was a man for 5 years. FtMtF detransitioner. I like to talk about the mistakes I've made, and how things will get better.
This might sound patronizing but I mean it to be encouraging: the whole “I need to figure things out RIGHT NOW” is a very late-teens/early twenties mindset thing, the reality is that it takes a lifetime
Thank you, I really needed to hear this.
Leila Sommer you’re welcome :)
Emily So true. I remember philosophically analyzing everything. I had to know if I believed in God, if I believed in the death penalty, if morales can be culture dependent, what percentage of me was gay or straight. Now, I’ve accepted there isn’t really a clear answer for any of those things. Sigh.
I subbed bc you’ve been here for 10 years!
I thought I was trans from the ages 14-18. I lived as a boy in high school. Due to family issues, I had to move in with my Dad and finish out my senior year in a new school. I had the choice to live as a girl or as a guy, I still questioned myself even after thinking I felt 100% trans. I chose to live as a guy and it didn't stick well with others. People were nice about it, except a few kids here or there (that's always expected), and I was welcomed by my friends when I came out to them.
I went to therapy because of what happened when I lived with my Mom (it's nothing too bad but it effected me a lot). My therapist was a very open person and had worked with trans people before, most of them actually transitioning with her help and some choosing not to.
I went for a year, learned to fully accept myself and how I was born, and deeply considering my life as either a boy or a girl. I was accepted as both and this troubled me a lot because I then questioned why I expect to be treated differently as one or another.
I thought being a woman was worse than being a man, so I wanted to be a man to be treated with respect. I was wrong to think this and the realization hit me really hard. I'm 21 now, I identify as Agender, and I'm completely comfortable with myself.
I had a huge identity crisis, and I think I've always questioned who I was and what role I play in other peoples lives. I also saw that my ways of thinking aren't perfect and I have a lot to work on internally.
I'm very thankful I never went too far into transitioning. And I'm sorry this is long, it feels good to rant.
I think I speak for most of us viewers when I say: _We came for the detransition; we stayed for Elle._ We would _love_ to hear about other stuff in your life and see you happy and growing.
Very well said. She's so articulate and intelligent I simply enjoy listening to her thinking out loud as 'the camera rolls'.
I agree, she's a lot more than 'the girl who detransitioned'
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RUclips doesn't care what you make a video about, as long as it gets people to watch it. So you might as well make videos about what you feel like talking about. For example, what sort of courses are you taking? What major are you thinking of going for? Other career goals? Good luck and be happy.
Absolutely we want to hear your life. Not just your transition! You are a role model for so many! Your mind is beautiful
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Modern Day Elle:
"My detransition is over."
The Ghost of Male Elle:
"I'll see myself out."
It closed just as she was saying passing as a man didn't make her happy lol
Perfect !
Perfect about the door and the ghost of luke i mean
Bro for real tho wtf is up with that door
@@violin15895 right i replayed it a few times... keeping Elle in my prayers 🙏 she is such a beautiful and brave soul. May she be fully healed in every possible way that she needs.
The door closed, the chapter closed, it's a sign, you're doing great girl ;)
I love this analogy
It would be nice to see you discover new vistas, maybe explore the thought processes of why people are drawn to the Christian faith, listening to both sides of the aisle! May u find inner peace in the process!
Elle: “My transition is over”
Everyone: “The door! Ghost!”
😂😂😂😂👻👻👻👻👻
Lol literally! Time for my apartment is haunted vlogs!!!
I said ghost when door slowly started to shut.. creeped me out lol x
Luke just left the room.😜
There is no way that doo could close that slowly, stop moving and then slam. 😂I’m sorry but..😂
@@gamingpeople1009 EXACTLY!
The freakiness of that door shutting is unreal
It seemed like it stopped midway and then slammed shut with more power? Wtf
Elle WTF was that ? 😂 We just gonna pretend that never happened?
Ikr, I had to rewind it to see what happened - crazy college town 👻
The air conditioner intake is in the main room and the vents are in Elle's room. It creates a pressure difference and shuts the door.
@@Silky777 That would make sense. I first wondered if she had a front door open or something.
That SMILE is back,, School, Guitar, Boyfriend, Keep your priorities in order and you will accell, Thank you Miss Palmer
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i wonder how she can afford to rent a place without a job though
Jimmy probably student loans?
Excel
Once I had began to pass very easily as my birth sex (female), that's when I knew my detransition was over. I had trained my voice to be more feminine (androgynous), my hair is in a nice style, the way I dress is feminine (I used to wear more GNC clothing while freshly detransitioned), my makeup routine is stable... Overall just accepting femininity has been a blessing.
I'm happy for you. You are achieving great things. :)
Oh it's you! I recently subscribed to you
Allow me to tell you that you are very beautiful and it's interesting listening to you talking :)
@@namikotv8562 Aw shucks! Thanks! I appreciate that 🤗❤️
This is a dumb question, but wouldn’t your voice go back to being feminine on hrt?
@@mootpoint36 Not a dumb question at all, if you mean going off of testosterone. According to some other FtM detransitioners, estrogen, over time, tightens their vocal folds similar to how they were before the effects of T. Perhaps I was impatient to be registered as female so I voice trained a bit to a more feminine range. Estrogen has helped smooth it out a bit. We'll need more cases to determine if estrogen really heightens the vocal folds over time, because right now, I'm not entirely convinced it does anything substantial.
I'm glad you fell back in love with your true self ❤
I started watching because I was interested in what you had to say about detransitioning, I stayed because I'm interested in what you have to say in general. You have a great energy about you and I'm sure whatever you do next, you'll ace it!💙
We will definitely be needing some, "my apartment is haunted" videos in the near future.
Proud of you, keep optimistic, you are doing great!
"A year ago I had a full beard. I was going by the name Luke." sounds like a fantastic story opening
Definitely time to start making “my apartment is haunted” vids! Lol..that door slam was frightening! I am so proud of you and I think what you are doing for yourself..your life and mental health..it’s absolutely the right decision! And I look forward to your podcast! I’m happy you are happy! 💓💓💓 btw, I just love hearing you talk, so I will listen to literally anything you want to talk about!
“The way I look is not gonna affect the quality of my life”.
Honestly I think more ppl need to hear that in general. I know I did ❤️ thank you for sharing your thoughts.
Autumn Gard you are so right I believe we need to learn from all the people that have to help others
It is just me or her voice is getting softer? That makes me very happy for her🙂👏🏻👏🏻
The softness is definitely coming through. I'm so happy for her
cathiecake86 to me her voice is the one of a man unfortunately got her , it’s really sad that this thing is irreversible ...
@@salvolondon it was worse though. It's gotten a little better.
@@salvolondon She took testosterone , can't estrogen reverse it ???
@@GMANKOOL23 then no trans women would need voice training or surgery. Estrogen dosen't change your voice. Testo blockers neither.
Therapy is so important. So many people refuse it but it's such a great way to work out what's in your head. Good luck in the future.
"I might as well just live, keep living, and stop rumenating on all this shit that doesn't matter. It'll be good. Things are good." Life rules according to Elle. Perfection. Congrats, I'm so happy for you. :)
A lot of RUclipsrs say they love what they do because they do what they love. So that's what your channel should be about. What you love. It ain't always about us. All people love passion, it makes us happy ;D
I identified as "not a girl" since I was 12, before I even knew what trans was, and I was out publicly and passing for about two years before I formally decided to "detransition", I feel kind of weird about using that word because I never underwent medical transition but the process of just stopping seeing myself the way I had been for years was intense and I'm only now 3 years later finishing it, I'm 21 in about two months and I feel like I'm just starting the whole teenage finding your identity thing. I can be actually confident as a woman now and explore femininity in a way that used to just make me hate myself and it's so unbelievably healing and freeing to be able to go out in a dress or a crop top and feel comfortable, and I'm really grateful to you and the other RUclipsrs who talk about their experiences with detransition for helping me get there. Seeing how much things are improving for you and how much happier and more hopeful you are makes me really really happy, it's really hard to realise all these things about handling mental health and make those decisions about what to do about it and I'm really proud of you, I'm excited to see whatever content you put out next 💕
Regarding looking in mirror shock, adjustment, same for aging. More than 3x your age, yet I still expect to see young person in mirror. Not the same, I know, but I can relate. As for rest, good decision and ...
Me too, at 60 (regular female here). I still have an unusually young voice, which causes a disparity. Thankfully, I'm not horribly wrinkled yet but it's coming. The under the chin thing is the worst shock, though.
I can’t even deal with being in my 30s...
maria shabalina: it gets easier, promise! :)
sugaree71 thanks for the words of encouragement 😊
The aging thing is crazy. I just find it sooooo weird to know I’m almost 40 where exactly did that time go? It’s almost shocking to me. Nothing wrong with aging but it doesn’t feel real when I still feel so young. My parents warned me this is how is was for them but experiencing it is something else.
You’re only 20?! You are awesome!🥰 I’m 57 and I’m still trying to sort myself out !
Hell, I think we all are to some degree. Think my 70 year old dad still is, we all are
I'm in my early 30s and not really sure what I'm doing. I actually feel less sure now than I did 5 years ago. It's all good though.
Wren Poldark I think the “trick” is to not stop trying 💖
We never have it all sorted out. We’re always learning.
I feel better about being 27 and in a homeless shelter
Elle, it has truly been an honour to have listened to your story and follow this part of your journey with you. You are a wise, intelligent, kind-hearted, well-humoured and beautiful young lady. Your videos on the subject of transition have broadened the understanding of many a viewer, and I have no doubt that they have also been of great comfort and support to people whose journeys might be similar to your own. I think I speak for the vast majority of your viewers when I say that we wish you all the best in life, and if that means you decide to step away from RUclips or to change the direction your channel is heading, then we support you 100%. We look forward to hearing your thoughts on all kinds of subjects, and to grow as fellow humans alongside you. Congratulations to you and your boyfriend for having found one another, always a blissful and exciting time. Wishing you both the utmost of happiness together. Take care of yourselves, and forge your own path in life.
It is a good sign of mental health that you don't want to rehash personal struggles, but what you done so far will help others so much, that is a big win! Thank you!
Changing direction is a great step and good luck with your new podcast and I'll check it out.
I love watching your videos. I’m a 34 year old mom of two toddlers and have never even known a trans person that I know of. I watch because you’re interesting and enjoyable to listen to. Even if you never spoke about detransitioning again I would still watch. 💜
hi, im an androgynous/masculine woman who thought i was trans for a little bit. your videos were good for me.
the past couple of years ive learned to love my masculinity and appreciate how wonderful masculine women are. i hope you feel the same.
thank you for everything.
How did you not get freaked out with that door slamming on its own??!! 😳😳😳👻
Draft. Or Ghosts. Or Draft Ghosts.
@CerberV Or Ghost Drafts. 😉
@@nodancingpalmtrees7931 Damn, outsmarted by not trees.
Your doors never close on their own when your windows are open???
ChocoBabiChan Never
Maybe the door slamming is a sign to trust yourself and that you're making the right decisions for you. Even if you're not feeling pride, I hope you're not feeling shame. ♡♡ Best wishes to you on your journey! You deserve to be happy in the skin your most comfortable in! ♡
human pattern seeking behaviour .
Seeing messages where there are none.
Nice message tho
Probably just some wind
I realize wind shuts doors because thats what wind does. We choose to look at things differently, so we'll see things differently and that's A-okay. ✌
WHAT DO WE WANT TO WATCH: As a long-time RUclips myself, the audience comes for the channel host. You should make WHATEVER kind of vids you want to make. Some people might go away, but that's ok. You can only make things you're excited about making or the channel won't survive. People will come, go and stay for content you like, and as time goes on, your core audience will strengthen.
Good for you, you are not defined by your gender, your transition or de transition. There is so much more to you for us to see and appreciate, and so much more for you to give.
Adieu, my friend! You are a remarkable young woman, and I hope you find all that you want in life. Love, luck, and light to you!!❤️
I respect this (and you!) sooo much ❤ it isn't something you need to dwell on, but I am glad to have heard your journey. You've helped so many people, including me. Congrats on the apartment and bf! You deserve the best in life 😊
As much as I’ve enjoyed being in this journey with you and learning so much from your experience, I think this is an extremely healthy decision for you...and that makes my heart happy. ❤️
Glad to see this chapter closing on RUclips. You can provide video content about life as a college student. Keep the majority of your personal life personal. Glad you are happy and things are going well.
I’m happy you are feeling good about yourself and your life as you keep moving forward.
A note on living at home and being uncomfortable. I’m 57 and my parents are 80 and somehow they STILL make feel like I’m 9 years old when I visit for very long. A week goes well, 10 days is my limit.
Congratulations on your new apartment and getting into school again and best wishes going forward 😊
ARE WE NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT YOUR DOOR CLOSING, DECIDING MAYBE IM NOT GOING TO CLOSE, THEN COMPLETELY CLOSE?
Was probably a draft.
Haunted..
It was just a ghost.
It stopped for a moment, then slammed 😱
I think ya totally hit the nail on the head when you said that you don’t want to talk about it anymore because you don’t NEED to talk about it (outside of therapy) don’t let algorithms talk you to go against your inner knowing. Keep being you and everything else will come.
Also, finding you on here just made my night, thank you*
Your authenticity is incredible & appreciated!✨
You are so beautiful inside and out & intelligent😍
I look forward to listening to the podcasts as well as following you here💗
I'm sorry you had to go through this experience, but it's made you the person you are today and stronger because of it (I'm a transguy but I'm proud of you for doing this thing that can be so hard) healing isn't linear and if these steps are what you needed to find yourself then don't let anyone tell you that you did anything wrong. I know it was hard but you're gonna be so much happier and healthier for this 😊
can we all just take a moment at talk about the door closing slowly then slamming shut and also how weird the timing was when it happened????????????
I think that's what everyone is talking about
First off I love you!! You’re a beautiful soul and your smile is so radiant! I’d love to see Just vlogs or weekly life updates about school and ‘normal’ stuff like things you’ve brought that are cool or days out, foods you may have tried and maybe ‘youtube trends’ e.g how well you and your best friend know each other? I don’t no just chilled laid back light entertainment take it at YOUR pace Elle and not the internets 🙌🏼😘❤️🙏🏼
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU ELLE!! Holy fuck you've done everything I need to do to get me out of my current depression, I'm so happy for you, and know that even if you still have bad days you can remind yourself of this videos mindset, your developing, your brain is still growing and honestly I'll watch absolutely anything you upload because I just like your personality :D Also we're doppelgangers lol
Good for you for moving on. Gotta let go of those labels and just be you!
THAT DOOR SHUTTING WAS UNREAL OH MY GOSH
I wonder if she had a front door open or something? Sometimes the draft can shut doors pretty forcefully. If not, that's odd
One of the things that concerned me about quarantine was the number of college students having to go back to live at home after having begun establishing themselves and their independence (having the freedom to establish their identities) at college. Some of them don't have "affirming" or supportive environments for them and I prayed for them that they would get through it.
Thanks for inspiring me to try out social transition before jumping into the medical side of things. It's helped me really figure out my experience of gender. I still feel male, but it has helped to take the anxiety off of things. I didn't realize you were only 2 years older than me too, that's rad!
It's so wonderful seeing you so happy :) it's adorable! I hope everything keeps getting better.
Delightful video, my friend. I feel like I've gotten such an education from you in these last months that will help me better understand my grandson and his struggles with his sexuality. But I've grown very fond of you and would love to see you make videos in your day to day life, cooking, make-up, clothes shopping . Anything at all really. I do not have a Twitter account so won't be able to follow you there. I do occasionally check my Instagram but I can't add one more :) . But you are a delightful young woman and thank you for sharing your life with all of us.
First of all: Elle, you are incredibly articulate, it is so easy to listen to you :)
Secondly: Thank you for telling this part of your story!
Isn't Elle awesome? OMG they gotta write a book...
Your voice sounds lighter from a few months ago , happiness is the light that guides you when times get dark.
You and Ryan getting new equipment at the same time, Wild.
Which Ryan? There’s so many lol
@@Blake1720 Ryan Barnes, another FMF detransitioner
@@cerberv5040 She is great I love her
@@namikotv8562 She is great! Tho still can't get over those dreadlocks, but hey, whatever floats her boat.
@@cerberv5040 Ohh yeah kinda same I was kinda surprised about her choice but well
I think her lately outfits are cool as hell
I came for someone else who was detransitioning and I felt alone until I found you. Either way I'm glad i found you. Make whatever you want.
We’d love to meet your boyfriend! But everything at your own pace ❤️ glad things are looking up
For five years I identified as a guy, and I also went by the name Luke. For five years I told others to call me that name along with he/him, and I spent so much time agonizing over passing. I had so, so much anxiety and depression. I'm proud to call myself a woman again, and I've come to terms with just being a butch lesbian... even if I still have dysphoria sometimes. It's a tough journey. But in my opinion, coming to terms with who you are rather than living a lie is definitely worth the pain. I'm really proud of you! (And btw, your voice is super attractive right now lol.)
Hi Elle, Paula from London uk. Am so glad you are at last coming to terms with everything. I agree with you that we shouldn't define ourselves soley by gender. If you remember from my previous msgs I am m to f post op 31 yrs so I have had a lot of experience in the matter.
Gender is not really important and your character is what defines you. I admire you for what you are doing, I wasn 't brave enough to detransition for fear of the critical comments I would have had from friends and family. I still live 'in exile' here in London, 270 miles from my family
My 5 brothers don't really accept me but I no longer care. It is more important to be a good person and let your light shine through.
This was the kind of comment I was looking for. I am sure many here love and appreciate your input.
@Sienna Waters Most people, while you're out and about, don't usually care who or what you are. I agree that character is the most important and most people will agree. I just get annoyed when someone acts like what they are deserves some sort of praise or like they're owed something because of it. I was raised with manners and to treat everyone the same, regardless of who or what they are.
Hi Elle... I don't know how else to put it so I'll just be straight out with it.... my aunt transition from male to female and I think it was the best choice for her she has never been happier.... unfortunately she passed away 12 years ago, it was suicide but unknowing. She loved her husband very much and he loved her... I miss them so much but my point is...... you are gorgeous and there are times where I hear you talkin down yourself. If it makes you feel any better if I didn't know I would have never thought anyting. My grandmother was a contralto.... a female bass singer. She had a five-octave vocal range so she could sound quite feminine but she could sing Bass with the big boys and would often have fun competing with men and would often win with who can sing the deeper note. You do not sound like a man you had a very soothing pretty speaking voice. I'm glad that you're finally able to move past this and I'm glad that you have a boyfriend. Even if you were straight up lesbian I would still be happy for you. I will not keep going on and on, I'm just trying to reach to the internet and give you a really big hug and say bless you sweetheart...
Elle: this is not making me happy
Door: okay the gate is closing
Congratulations! You're life has changed so much, and it's great to see you happy. You're a wonderful, bright young woman with so much to offer. Make this time about you, how you're going to organise your busy life. It's exciting. Thank you for your candour and sharing your detransition, it was a brave thing to do. Go and live your life and enjoy it! Love and best wishes from across the water xxx
I am glad you are happy. I am glad this hard earned struggle is over. Enjoy your apartment, your college years, your everything. Thank you 🙏🏼 for sharing some of your struggles. No apology needed. I totally get needing to sort stuff out privately with a therapist. They’re great, you can just dump all your stuff out and they help without judgement and don’t hold things against you. Friends and family sometimes cannot handle the load of what we’ve been through, whatever that traumatic journey looks like. They just can’t. This way you can grow. So happy for you.
Girl I love seeing you so happy and positive! Totally understand the moving part, can't wait to go back to uni ❤
Yes, girl! You don't need to make your life public, but I appreciate you sharing this part of it with all of us. Keen to hear your music or listen to your podcast!
WOW! Just complete and total WOW! You are so damn couragous and so full of life. I'm a transman of almost 20 years. I made my decision, got a therapist, started hormones, changed all my ID and birth certificate and had top surgery ALL within 90 *DAYS*. I often wondered if I made the right decision - I was in total emotional hell (I was 37 at the time) and I was running from being "me" -- male or female. I have always felt I am trans, but I'm not certain that I would have transitioned if I had been in a different head space all those years ago. Today I am pretty happy about being me and being male but I do feel sad that relationships are far and few. It's been a pleasure to see the tender thoughts and experieces you shared and I wish you amazing luck to you in your future.
I’m really glad that you are brave enough to post videos about this. I identify as a trans guy, but I’m trying to make sure I’m making the right choices before moving forward. These videos really help me think about things.
The ghost emphasizing that that part of your life is over by slamming that door, be free Elle, and I hope your ghost roommate is friendly! (:
Good for you! I will definitely follow you!
Maybe in like five years you can write a book.. I appreciate watching your detransition.
You are an awesome lady.
I really am happy for you, I can see it in just your smile alone. You do you hun! ❤️
I'm so happy for you elle! I also thought I was a lesbian, I told people and all that, then I noticed that I'm not, and since then I stopped talking about it. but after you said that you thought the same but you are actually bisexual, I started smiling so bad!!! that's it, I'm bisexual!! and I should not be ashamed of it, of once thinking I wasn't. thank u so much, you're amazing!!!!
that ghost was like "i'll give u some privacy"
Congratulations! I've really come to like you very much. I'm not surprised that you got scooped up -- lucky guy. Maybe you can talk about issues relevant to de-transition without it having to be about you? It seems like you're helping a lot of people.
Or... if you don't want it to be about de-transitioning, it seems to me that the underlying issue is the medicalization of spiritual/ emotional issues and also the question of what parents and society best can do when children make assertions that could change their lives. So keep the core issues? Or whatever you want! but I do notice that channels that do well tend to have a theme.... Best of luck to you!
I like the way you share your story, explaining your feelings in complete detail, and being honest with yourself and other people. I think you're a very smart in some of those areas. Being as young as you are you will have a great future. Keep up the great work and continue being helpful to others by being passionate and honest.
im so happy for u!! i still wanna be hearing from you. im so exited for the upcoming podcast. grettings🥺
Elle, your "detransition" might have brought us to you, we now want to see you live your life...as the woman you were meant to be. Just chat about your life, school and whatever you want...just be real, and just be you❤
this such a weird thing to say
Congrats on the move and new equipment and GUITARRRR YESSSS! I fully support this 😆
What you say about not being able to differentiate the negative feelings created by an uncomfortable living situation from your feelings regarding the world and other areas of your life, is SO PROFOUND. I feel sure we all have trouble with that, and it's so dangerous when we conflate maybe one thing that needs to change (like where we're living) with an unhappiness with all of life. I'm happy you figured that out and that you got what you needed. I'm okay now, but I wish my depressed teenage self had been able to hear this truth from someone.
I'm a trans woman. As such...I've had a lot of shit flung at me for this. Sometimes people will use detransition stories as justification for transphobia. So I almost get defensive whenever detransitioners get brought up. I have really bad dysphoria about anything to do with being a guy so I know for a fact I wanna transition.
I just wanna say you're valid and I hope your story doesn't get used as ammunition.
Everyone has had shut flung at them for one reason or another. Can't care what other people think , we need to be comfortable in our own skin
Congratulations on making this person's story all about you.
Thank you for your educational content, it helped me to change my perspective on many things regarding trans community and the concept of transitioning. Congratulations, love to see you smile, you just radiate happiness!! Can't wait to listen to your podcast!
Ghosts in your apartment
Elle, it has been so wonderful watching your confidence and happiness grow through your videos this year! You are a wonderful soul and WOMAN! Your humour and eloquent way of speaking has kept me watching and whatever content you create in the future, I'll be looking forward to it! In the mean time take care and have a fab time back at uni!
I’d love to see “day in the life” vlogs!!
Happy to hear you’re doing well ☺️ I enjoy watching you!!!
Good luck with school c:
yall are overreacting about the door shutting. mine does that all the time because of a draft.
A “draft”
The body two separate slams LOL yes, my door does the exact same thing. if you don’t shut it completely the draft will keep opening and closing it.
it stopped.. and then slammed
Same! Mine SLAMS because of a draft.
it's the male ghost of Elle, who wants to be back in her body
Did that door honestly just close by itself and Elle barely even flinched
I like that you mentioned you already felt better being in your own space (I’m gonna assume you lived with your parents) and I often feel like wanting to get out and having my own space with my boyfriend with my own kitchen and such and no one else around. Sometimes I question if I’d even feel better but you saying that kinda confirms my thinking of the space you live in definitely affects you and your happiness
I'm so glad you're moved back into your college town. I'm glad you're enjoying your new apartment. It's really exciting you're going back to school, having a podcast coming up. I'll follow your Twitter for updates. I'm so happy you are where you are at this time in your life. 😊❤💓❤
Dear Elle , it has been a privelege to hear your story to date , you are a courageous and awesome young woman and you are an inspiration . You have put your most painful struggles out there . All power to you in the evolution of your media life as you reevolve and reinvent . Yes !! I agree that you must move forward , carpe horam , carpe diem and seize the hour and the day . May you continue in your realness and authenticity . I for one will ALWAYS be interested to hear your thoughts ... you are refreshingly candid and very very articulate . Brains and beauty !! .....all the best for you as you move forward .
Respectfully a hug to you from Karo in New Zealand .
Congratulations, good things ahead for you! I'm twitter averse. Hope to be connected to your podcast. I hope you can find a way to fight Bi Erasure. As a Bi Woman, Bi Erasure in the LGBTQ community has been a deep and hurtful experience for most of my adult life. I wish you well!
Came her from Slapped Ham but felt compelled to find out what your original post was about seperate from the door closure. I ty for sharing your story. You're amazing.
I'm glad you're moving forward, I mean you seem happy. It was a process for you and it was perfect. I'm also glad that you will continue to upload to the best of your ability (that's completely understandable) because I enjoy listening/watching you. I've followed part of your journey and I'd like to continue doing so! You go girl!
All the people worried about a ghost have never turned on an air conditioner in a one bedroom apartment. lol
It was so fitting to see your door close confirming you closing the Chapter on de-transitioning Like you had Confirmation from someone watching over you from above. Gave me a bit of the chills. lol Here is to the Happy You Elle :D As They say when one door closes another one opens. I think your journey will be Amazing in this direction. Your boyfriend is a lucky guy to have such an intelligent, sincere beautiful person for his girlfriend. Good Luck with your continued education . Stay safe and well/ This Pandemic has given lots of us time to think and slow down and examine what is important and to set Goals for our future. Especially when so many hundred thousand souls have lost this privilege to Covid19 . May Life be kind to you and continue to smile and be happy. You are Beautiful inside and out
Elle, I have so enjoyed getting to know you and I see such a peace about you now. As far as what I would like to see going forward...how your new apartment comes together, things that excite you that you are learning.
Elle, I am so so happy for you! You are absolutely correct in that watching videos where you are happy, makes us happy. I first saw you on Blaire's channel so decided to subscribe and stayed subscribed because I love your outlook, your honesty and how you talk. I would happily listen to you talk about anything you're passionate about and would hopefully learn something in the process. I cried happy tears for you while watching this, I'm so chuffed that things are going well for you.
I'm looking forward to seeing what content you decide to make 😊
I see more and more detransition videos lately. I couldn’t possibly know why people detransition since I’ve never had gender related issues but I think that this should be a wake up call for the governments that want to vote for 6year old children to be able to decide if they want a sex change and let them start hormonal therapies. Transition is clearly a decision that should be made by adults and more importantly mentally healthy ones. I wish you all the best in your new life. You look great... I would have never guessed that you were once transitioning to a man.
Well said!
Stop spreading lies. That doesn't happen to kids. There's no reason for it. You're not even making sense
Violet Lhant what lies did I spread exactly? The Swedish government proposed a law that from the age of 15 one can undergo genital surgery. They could start a hormonal therapy from the age of 6-7. All that would require no parental permission. It’s all over the internet if you would simply google it. Minors can’t drive, drink , vote or smoke but they are mature enough to take a life changing decision? This girl here is one of the many examples that the choices we make as teenagers are not always the best ones. It is an experimental part of our lives and maybe nowadays, that the sex change is a thing, teenagers can actually be confused about what they want. My opinion is that a teen should experiment with clothing before deciding to change sex when adult.
@@Alenakip Seems like a pretty reasonable law. But hormones for six year olds doesn't make sense because it's pre-puberty in most kids
Violet Lhant pretty reasonable? Do you really think teenagers are mature for such decisions? Or are you a teenager yourself and still think that the world revolves around you? If a 15 year old doesn’t need parental permission then I guess they’ll pay the very expensive operations needed themselves, right?
You should explore what modern femininity is- what it means to be female and how it doesnt necessarily have to look a certain way. İ think you would have an interesting perspective on womanhood as you grow. Take care!
Elle, good for you. I am glad to hear you are putting your well being first and moving forward. I have followed your story for the last year and I think you can be sure that your detransition story has and will help others who are struggling as you did. But now the next chapter begins for you. You are so young and you have so much wonderful things ahead of you. So glad you are feeling happy. :) I wish you all the best.
I love how you're allowing yourself to let go, be free from the past, have a new start, and work on self improvements! I'm of the opinion that all people need to be forward thinking and continuously and actively be self improving. You're doing that and it's commendable. Love from Michigan.
I thought Luke left the room, He sounded a bit pissed when he slammed the door
Guys, the door looks exactly like something that would happen if there was a draft. It doesn't have to be constant and can vary in force because it's basically indoor wind. Chill.
I have to say that this video made me smile from ear to ear. I'm a 50ish year old mom of three kids, one around your age. I have watched you from your very first video, it just popped up in recommended videos and I watched it. I have watched pretty much every one of your videos and could see you becoming more confident with every video. The smile on your face is real and it is beautiful. You are beautiful. I am so happy to see you truly happy. ❤️
You seem brighter and brighter with every update. And your voice is definitely softer! Incredibly happy for you.
Elle we love you not as a man or a woman but as a human being. You shine. Thank you for everything sweet tart.
A sweetheart surely 🤭🥰
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Just as the Trans person determines when they complete their Transition, so, too, the de-Transition person determines when they complete their de-Transition.
Nowadays, there are a great percentage of Trans women who do not complete their facial Electrolysis before bottom surgery, when there was once the time when facial Electrolysis was a prerequisite to bottom surgery.
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I’m not quite certain why you thought that you had to live in solitary confinement for three months, not seeing any friends, not going anywhere. My Bestie and I made arrangements. We stay secure for ourselves individually while meeting at least a few times each week, doing errands, getting groceries, hanging out together watching DVD or Internet movies, just talking and sharing our moments.
We are careful. We wear masks when we ride the city bus, when we go grocery shopping, when we do errands together. We ate at our favourite Chinese buffet restaurant just fine. We keep our ‘social distance’ when there are strangers.
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Yessss keep making videos Elle we came for your story but stayed for you!
Enjoy these days! College time was sooooo special to me and time does fly. I am 60 and it seems like yesterday I was in school. Good luck and best wishes!