My Life Dealing With Health Anxiety for 23 Years Now
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- Опубликовано: 7 ноя 2024
- A video that’s been a long time coming. I’ve been asked to make this hundreds of times from fellow anxiety sufferers. Well here it is. Let me know your thoughts and if I should do more in the future
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Greeting ghouls and ghosts! Our names are Jason and Kali, and we are the horror couple of your dreams- or nightmares! Jason has been a film nut for over 30 years, and Kali has a hyper-fixation with horror and slashers. Together we spend most of our waking life watching films and obsessing over them. We record movie reviews and discussions weekly, and love watching and talking about both lesser known and popular films in the horror genre. Occasionally we also review comic books, video games, television series, and novels. Additionally, we also enjoy making short horror videos. Thanks for checking out our channel, and if you like our content please subscribe!
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In watching so many of Jason’s videos over the years, I always appreciate his willingness to share his personal struggles with honesty. Having self-awareness is a great asset to becoming a better person.
I don’t see much value in being dishonest. It always costs way more than it’s worth.
I thankfully just found Jason's channel and man... this guy is so dmn genuine and relatable , I clicked on for the horror and stayed for the creator
Horror movies are a form of escapism. I've been living with GAD for 13 years now. And I have gotten the comment of "stop watching/playing horror and it will make you feel better" several times. But in reality they help me quite a bit. Horror take me a way from the actual scary things in life (crime, diseases, politics, etc). And that's kinda the thing with anxiety, it's a very personal thing. A lot of us have it but it comes in different shapes or forms. And often, the fix is different as well.
I'm so glad I ran into your channel today. I love your content thus far, but this video I can super relate to. You hit some many critical things about anxiety! Thank you for putting it together. I'm now a subscriber and I look forward to following your content.
I will be praying, hoping that one day i will get a notification from your channel that you conquered everything that has been troubling you for so long and i am sure that day will come because you are a fighter. Thank your for sharing & stay strong brother...
I hope to make that video too
Wes Craven said something along the line of that we don't watch horror movies to have fear put into us, but to have fear taken out out of us. I say, ''hello anxiety, how are you old 'friend', it's been a while but you are back with me again''.
Good line
Thank you, it means a lot to hear you talk about this. I’ll never give up either.
Neither will I
I’m always open to whatever videos you do. Thanks for sharing. It is kinda weird how we’re all in this world just going about and no one can see how bad some of us are struggling. I appreciate you. Peace and ❤️ to the fam
Yeah, you never know how bad people are suffering. I’ve been shocked to find out certain people I know have anxiety conditions when they show zero signs of it.
Very heavy stuff Jason and one of the most honest and best videos ive watched in a very long time. We are dealing with stuff everyday no one is perfect and nor should we have to be.
Thanks man
I 100 percent am the same way. Horror movies are what i love the most because they relieve stress for me. Ive also struggled with anxiety since middle school, but have thankfully gotten better over the years. Im 30 now, and am moving toward a much better place in my life. Thank you for sharing your story, brother. Keep on reviewing them movies!
I’m so glad to hear that you have made tremendous improvement. It is hell.
I’m so glad you posted this. It resonates so much
More to come
Hey, man. A lot of what you says resonates with me. I'm 45 years old from the UK, I've been dealing with anxiety and depression for many years (its been decades, I don't know how long exactly). I started taking Prozac in the early 2000s and I still take it to this day. What resonates with me the most I think is the idea that there is something wrong that needs to be cured, like you I've thought I've had every illness under the sun pretty much, from cancer to dystonia to this and that. Even though I've had/still have anxiety surrounding my health though I don't consider myself a hypochondriac - at the base level its not about my health, its anxiety and it has just latched onto my health as a...reason for existing, in as much as sometimes its better to have a focus for a feeling than to have it free floating (of course its taken me years to work that out) because it gives it context - you can say "oh, no wonder I'm anxious, I have this this and this" and the cycle continues. The anxiety searches for another outlet and it finds one, then it comes back to the health stuff, then it goes somewhere else and its chaos.
To deal with this, I drank. Heavily, for over 20 years. I'd drink anything I could get my hands on to the point of becoming a jester (I would only drink socially, people often used to see me as a bit of clown that would drink or do or say anything). I smoked a lot of pot as well and had a similar reaction to yourself more times than not - not only did I find it panic inducing, but I would have panic for days afterwards. All of which, the drinking, the humiliation at times, the panic, the weed, all of it became routine. It became my life and the cycle continued, and the cycle of panic continues to this day.
I think what helped for a long time and still does, more than the pills and the therapy (though they might have helped me get to this point) is self knowledge to the point that I don't judge myself for the anxiety/panic half as much as I used to. Its part of me, like my fingerprints, the organs in my body, it is there. For me, the description you give of it being like a parasite may have its roots in the fact that so much of it is subconscious - our subconscious is like another being living in our mind to some extent, because it doesn't follow logic or rationality the way the rest of our mind does, it still has a logic, its just a different one.
Part of the self knowledge is being diagnosed as autistic a few years ago. Its not something I talk about on my channel or in life that much, though I have made videos about it, but it again provides context. It explains so much of my life and its something I am grateful for, even though it makes me different from a lot of people. Again though, its not a cure all - just because you're worried that there is something wrong with or different about yourself does not stop the anxiety regarding health/mental health/feeling like you're different, that anxiety still remains because its not about your health at the end of the day, that's what its latched onto. What it did help with though is that I stopped looking for answers - not because I found one but because its not about answers, its about acceptance. For me that acceptance came, in large part, from finding out that I was autistic. I don't know what that would be for you, that thing that allows you to accept the anxiety, the panic, the fear, but I believe there is something in your life, in everyone's life, whether its in terms of experience or our emotional life as human beings, that will allow you to accept it for what it is - as alien as it may feel, it is a part of you and ultimately it's valuable. And that isn't to be preachy or to say what you should do - I may be talking out of my ass as far as other people are concerned, my experience is individual to me. I don't know that I have any advice really, I can't say "do this and all will be well" because it is such an individual experience. If there is something that resonates with you in my experience then that's great. Stay strong man, and enjoy the movie. :o)
I also drank heavily for years but quit really young and have been a health fanatic since for the last 15+ years. I try desperately to stay as healthy as possible
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 Yeah, it doesn't help that much in the end, the booze. I quit just under 10 years ago when a genetic physical disability reared its head (I have HSP, hereditary spastic paraparesis). Hope today is a good one, man. :o)
Thanks so much. Been watching your channel for a few years now. Always enjoy your reviews and although I usually find it irritating when reviewers segue into personal stories you've got that great talent to tell it interesting and entertaining. Watched this whilst having a particularly bad day and although as you said it didn't provide a cure I am grateful for the comfort and reassurance that watching it has provided.
I’m glad I could help in any way!
You got guts to go this personal I appreciate you sharing this man. I hope yoy get it sorted one day. Have a good one.
Thank you
I’ve been watching your channel for over 4 years now Jason, and I’ve always felt a kinship not only over our passion for film and horror, but also hearing over the years that you’re a fellow anxiety sufferer. I’m actually in a season in my life where my anxiety is very strong. I actually had a panic attack at work two months ago so severe that my boss drove me to the hospital. I also suffer from depression which can exacerbate anxiety tremendously. But yes it Such a curious thing that we love a genre of film meant to induce angst and dread, despite our ailment. And I totally understand what you mean by you not being an anxious person. I’m inherently a somewhat soft spoken, “low key” “ calm guy until I snap and lose my mind for no reason. Thanks so much for this video, Jason. You helped me out a lot at a time I can really use it.
To hear I helped at all is so wonderful
I totally get it, man. Thanks for sharing.
I’m sorry you do haha
I fell asleep to your live last night, re-watched at 5 this morning and what a total surprise to get an alert for a new video! I am so happy you made this. I have suffered with anxiety, panic attacks, depression, mania and ptsd my whole existence. You are definitely not alone, and neither are the rest of us. When I was 16 I had a 4 tire blow out on my way to a concert in NorCal. After that I suffered and couldn’t put a name to it. I just knew I wanted to help others who may be experiencing it too. So at 18 I went to school and became a Psychiatric Technician. I did that for 15 years. It helped in the beginning, but I had to quit because my symptoms gradually got worse, paranoia set in. Years later I still struggle with all of the things. As we know it never gets better. Just manageable. Medications can help, but my friend people like us need to make space for this uncomfortable journey of severe highs and lows. Thank you for every review, live and stream of consciousness you have shared. I see you, and I give you love and light (with a little sage sprinkled on top ❤).
Don’t give up the fight, we can beat this. I know it.
Thanks for sharing Jason. It was really helpful to hear your experiences. I have social anxiety, undiagnosed, but I’ve dealt with it my whole life. My anxiety is nowhere near as debilitating and distressing as yours seems to be, but I hear you man. I also find horror movies and highly emotional movies comforting. Also music, mostly metal and hard rock. It’s funny how things like that you would think could be a trigger do the opposite. I really relate to how you said that you’re a strong, chill person, but the anxiety feels like an intruder. I feel like that as well. People sometimes ask me how I’m always so calm. It’s not that I am, I just outwardly don’t show everything that’s going on inside. I think that’s what drew me to your channel. You seem like a straightforward, chill guy, with a fun and sarcastic sense of humor. So I understand how someone can be all of that and also deal with a crippling disorder. I don’t know if you’ve ever tried therapy, but that’s my next step I think. I’ve been working on myself for a long time, but I’ve always wanted a professional to analyze my behavior and maybe give me an outside perspective. I’m not one for religion either. I also prefer not to take drugs unless it’s really necessary. I guess, like myself, I just hope that you can find a way to control the anxiety or at least minimize it in a healthy way. Good luck to you and I hope you have lots of love and happy times to come.
Ah Maya you’re the best. Definitely try a therapist. I did and it didn’t fix me or anything but I got tremendous value out of one of those sessions in a very dark time. If you ever want to talk definitely hit me up. You are no stranger to me and if I can help I’d love to
As someone with mad anxiety, especially when related to my health, this video is refreshing to see. I've been on medication for the past 1 year and it's been the best decision for me personally. I've had anxiety since I was a teen, and have had various moments in my life being unable to do certain things, because I would always panic aboout my well being. Even working in certain jobs, I would have panic attacks over the dumbest things. But now I very rarely have panic attacks, a combination of medication and therapy has really done me some good. Everyone's gotta find what's best for them, I'm still struggling with more mellow anxiety that is more in terms of big life decisions now, where I delay and overthink them. I'm 29 btw, and I've had a learner's permit for driving for 12 years, because the mere idea of driving is fucking terrifying. I got on the road, and freaked out even though it was on a small local street, but there were people walking by, and all I could think of was I was an anxious mess who couldn't think straight driving in a metal death box that could kill people, or myself by accident. So I ran from going past my learner's permit until just recently after getting medicated. I'm currently waiting on my learner's permit to be made phsycialy since the system was updated since I stopped, and I only have a paper version now.
We'll get through this home skillet, horror is a binding glue to us who suffer anxiety oddily enough, it's like comfort food for real things that really make you anxious. Uncertainty has always been issue. But I've just had that my entire life since i was a child. I used to go to the clinic every other month because of something that was glitching with my body. Most people would just put it off until it becames serious, but I would always go in for it. Often they were phsyical manifistations of my anxiety, and some times they were real issues like strep throat. I'm very thankful that I live in Canada, so my medicare system covers things like that.
Also one of my worst weed panic attacks happened 5 years ago, I smoked and was pacing back and forth all night at my friends. A week later I still felt kind of hungup from it, and it got worse when I got fired from a job I worked. For a full year I couldn't leave my house due to th shame and anxiety I felt about my life. I would wake up, and feel like I was having a bad trip, and when I went outside, my heart would be insanely.
Anxiety is wild, but talking about it always helps, it's reassuring to know a chill ass dude like you also suffers from it and I'm not alone as a goofy neorotic dude who also makes videos lmao
That’s fucking wild that you don’t drive! That must be super inconvenient!!
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 Yeah, I've put it off for far too damn long. It's depressing, but I've been far too anxious to get back in a car. Plus it's expensive as hell to get my license. But I'm making my way through the beucracy of getting my learners permit back and get back at it. It's been a huge inconvenience for my girlfriend since she drives but I don't. But I typically take bus and metro, since Montreal is thankfully built around public transit
Thank you for sharing this Jason. It's a horrible battle to face as I found out last year, but there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. My own anxiety is mostly related to severe insomnia but I have been doing better lately via medication and some big changes in my life. I really found this video to be emotional and interesting to thanks for sharing. Love your channel.
Thank you
I really appreciate you making this video. I’ve been looking forward to this video since you mentioned it in one of your reviews a few years ago. I resonated with everything you said. We are in this fight together. Thank you Jason.
We sure the fuck are
Thanks for this, brother...the fear is atrocious but we are stronger than it
Most of the time haha
I watched the whole thing man, can’t even imagine what you are going through. Sounds horrible.
If it helps anyone, I can say that I have dealt with tattoo regret for almost 10 years now, back in 2014 I got a bunch of really bad tattoos which I have kept covered up since that year. And yes I have had cover ups and laser treatments and all that but even the cover ups have never come out all that good. This has made me incredibly anxious about wearing clothing that exposes my arms so I almost always wear long sleeves when leaving the house to avoid having to face people as I can’t think of anything worse. And yes this was self inflicted but many decisions we make in life lead to horrible things happening to us that affect us for the rest of our lives and I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone.
Oh wow. I don’t like some of my tattoos either but I don’t really think about it or care.
I get it, though, it becomes obsessive. If you start to fixate on these things, and they become obsessive insecurities. You basically have a form of body dysmorphia.
That took guts and I can see from some comments you've connected already and are helping people. It's refreshing in a world where people are cultivating images. You should produce more of this content. Sorry you've lived with this for so long - I hope the life changes might help a bit.
Ah thanks Selena. You’re one of the best people on the channel. We love you
Thanks for sharing jason I've been suffering for 9 years with health axinty and today, watching your video realy help me thank you.
Ugh. It’s a plague on this earth
Another long comment haha but I thought I'd share. I've got anxiety also, mixed with a bit of autism. And as you said my experiences are a bit different.
And the whole thing with people saying that the reason I've got anxiety among other problems is because I almost always watch horror movies and listen to metal music I get a lot, especially from my mother in law she repeatedly brings up that they're bad for me and it's very frustrating because I know that horror and metal are to my mind the most comforting media for me.
It's the type of thing that you don't understand how it can be comforting unless you also feel that way.
Personally as far as being worried about death I mostly try to brush it off because I can't help anything that will happen, but it still crosses my mind often. Especially when walking around a new city or something like that, i'm constantly looking over my shoulder thinking about the possibility of someone hurting me or my loved ones.
Again I don't expect it to happen but I'm always thinking about the possibility, I guess I'm just over cautious.
And sometimes it keeps me awake at night just thinking about my own and my wife's mortality, and I try to brush it off and honestly I think it makes me appreciate the love and life I've got even more.
I worry about illnesses and mortality a good amount but I guess I find it easier to brush off and push to the back of my mind than you do, which makes sense since I haven't experienced the same things you have regarding near death situations. There's only been a couple times personally that I've had panic attacks and they have been the most out of control of my own body I've ever felt. Absolutely awful feeling where you feel like you're going to die, I know you said you don't want pity comments but if you have those horrendous episodes called panic attacks on a regular basis? I really do feel sorry, because it's horrible.
I agree completely with the religious thing, it is what it is but I don't want to focus my life dedicating myself to anything, that doesn't sound freeing, that sounds like a chore. I'm just me.
With me having some autism too I have random and uncontrollable mood swings sometimes, I'm perfectly happy one minute and then the next something very minor could happen and it can make me feel really sad, really panicked or really angry.
Thankfully I don't let it make me a dick, I try to be as kind as I can, but yeah people don't understand.
Just a few days ago me and my wife were just buying cookies from the shop and a minor Issue with the hotel we had booked a few weeks later worried me and angered me out of nowhere and I couldn't help but punch myself in the head a handful of times. I don't self harm or anything but sometimes things like punching myself in the head during stress just happens and I can't help it too much.
Some dude in the shop looked terrified of me and I tried to play it as well as I could and left the shop and stood outside to calm down so I don't cause a scene, while my wife buys the cookies.
These types of feelings I have are the reason it took me over 20 years to get myself to travel and go to metal festivals like I've always wanted to, and why I can't get regular jobs like retail or whatever because I know I'd flip out from the pressure and punch products off shelves or something. Get myself fired instantly.
I always have to go through mental exercises that I've developed through the years to stop myself from overthinking everything and stressing myself out for no reason. Otherwise it just becomes a huge rabbit hole of getting more and more sad, worried and unfocused.
And I think I do a pretty good job of keeping myself in check most of the time. And thankfully my wife is the kindest and most supportive person I've ever met, helps a ton and I don't know where I'd be without her.
Thanks for sharing, Jason.
I also can hit myself on occasion. I get so mad and don’t want to take it out on anyone else
Same here brother ive fought this my whole life, finally got diagnosed 3 years ago and the weight that was lifted... like you said the validation... it's a challenge,inconvenience, and sometimes dare i say horrifying. And when its paired with deep depression, man... I also relate to horror calming me in a way it grounds me when the attacks make me feel out of body so yeah I totally relate. I respect the hell outta you for this video brother! Knowing youre not alone in your suffering is an incomparable feeling, i feel there are many types of anxiety and i cant speak for all but i can say ptsd anxiety/trauma anxiety is a btch also i feel you on the pot thing lol its just not for me either, it's a panic everytime, hearing your views on this topic are inspiring, when you're going through your own personal anxious hell it's nice to know there are some people having similar experiences and you're not alone in the struggle, man.. there's just soooo much you're saying that I relate to so much from the anxiety and all the symptoms youve described to the fear of medical problems i convince myself im having a heart attack nearly everyday or the stomach issues...to even a similar upbringing, at times it's like you were in way explaining my experience... just replace your brother with my uncle. I legit cried while you were explaining certain things ,man youre taking words right outta my mind and experiences from my life. There's just toooo much I'd like to say but this is already long and typing on a tablet is aggravating but I get it brother.. it's really something we gotta learn to live with I guess.. unfortunately, but your words brought a little light back in me so i thank you for that brother... amazing video for the truly troubled... but I hope things have gotten better for you, we are real warriors brother, truly 💜❤️🩹💜
I don’t subscribe to the idea that this is something we have to live with. I am in this life to completely eradicate this plague from my body. And when I figure out how to do it, I’m gonna let you all know. Stay strong and stay optimistic. We can beat this.
I don’t subscribe to the idea that this is something we have to live with. I am in this life to completely eradicate this plague from my body. And when I figure out how to do it, I’m gonna let you all know. Stay strong and stay optimistic. We can beat this.
Glad you made this video.
I have been watching the channel around a year-ish. And the few times I've caught some of your personal thoughts and mentions of struggles, to me. It makes the channel distinct. When I was young (I'm 36) I was in an accident. And I suppose because of my age and immaturity I assumed that was part of life. Wrecks happen every day. Wasn't until my 30's I realized I had been, and still was, carrying the crash with me. I spoke to a co worker who had literally just witnessed an accident when he was younger. And he went into detail how it impacted him, followed him, and how he dealt with it. We need these conversations.
I’m glad you had someone to talk to
Wow! Super powerful video. Thanks for this Jason.
My pleasure!
I’ve been on meds for panic attacks for 20 years. I’m still on medication. I still can’t drive. I don’t know what the cause is. I feel like I’m dying every time it happens. Nobody understands me. Weed is the worst thing that ever happened to me. Drinking has been ok. I have always felt like nobody can understand me. I’ve gotten better but I’still have an attack sometimes. I feel for you because I know how it feels. I know in my brain I’m being stupid, but I still can’t stop them . I go through them and I just feel like I can’t breathe and it’s overwhelming. Anxiety about anxiety is the perfect way to explain it…Hang in there brother. Thanks for sharing! I know this is so difficult.
Ugh. I’m so happy people like you are sharing, but it also is so fucking angering that so many of us are going through this.
GOD I love this channel. Jason, opening up and sharing stories is what life is all about. It's how we learn and grow. Thank You.
Thank you as well
Thank you for sharing. All my best, as a fellow anxiety sufferer. ❤
I haven’t seen you in forever
@sinistercinemareviews5420 Been a couple of rough years, my friend. The whole family having surgeries and mental health crisis, the boy had a tumor and jesus, all kinds of stuff. I couldn't find comfort in horror there for awhile. That's when you know things are really f'd up! 😁😆 Sorry to overshare, but I guess this is the right video for it. 😉
Anyway, life is so good now, the family and myself are healthy again, so I'm back to my horror! 💀☠️💀☠️💀☠️
Congrats on the wedding! I just love your wife and her contribution to the channel! 💕💕💕She is just absolutely delightful and adorable!And, even more, I'm glad that you are still you, but so obviously in love and happy with her by your side! 🧡🖤🧡🖤🧡🖤🧡🖤🧡🖤
Thanks for all the years of great content.
Thank you for sticking around
I’ve been suffering from this for a year on and off.It’s torture. Can’t imagine having suffered it for 23 years. Great video. Crazy what you said about the digestive issues I always get that when I’m suffering anxiety. Pain in left side etc.
Dude it’s the worst. We can get past it though. I sure as fuck will or die trying
Hey, I just wanted to say thank you for sharing this. It's refreshing to have someone be open enough to talk about their struggles. I've had panic attacks on occasion, but nothing to the level you have described. You've always been one of my favorite people on here because of your candidness, intelligence and insightfulness. I've watched you through the years, and I'm happy you're in a more stable environment. X
Oh and the horror movies relaxing you. Same..for me it's a reminder that things could always be worse.
Anxiety is terrible in any form
Great video Jason. I have been dealing with anxiety and panic attacks since 1999. Just talking about it helps.
Damn, you got one year on me!
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 yep! LOL
Related to this video 100% for a similar period of time. Thanks for being so open and accurate about it and the things you've tried. It can be extremely frustrating and exhausting.
You got over it? How?
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 I did not. Still deal with it all the time. And it's complicated and some things seem to work for awhile and then don't or work only in certain aspects of it and at certain times. I had non-stop panic attacks early on and had to be medicated for a bit and that stopped that cycle but have had panic attacks on and off since, mostly off lately but being aware of the symptoms and some of the triggers helped and coping mechanisms to help derail and knowing that's what it is in the moment helped a lot too even if it feels like everything is ending right then. But you know how varied it can be and unexpected sometimes. I just hope your plan to find a way to help yourself and others overcome it comes to fruition. I don't have answers just some coping tools that help often enough.
I get you. I have had alot of those similar anxieties, particularly trying weed, and having panic attacks about dying. I couldn't believe I heard someone in a similar situation to me, though mine is not as severe. Thank you so much for this video. It made me feel better about myself knowing I'm not alone.
I hope you’re having an anxiety free day. It’s a curse, but we can beat it.
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I relate so much to you and this video.
I lost my best friend 6 years ago then my little younger sister 2 years ago suddenly , i contemplated suicide , I literally had it all thought out and was intent on going through with it but I just didn't have the courage to do it. Really I needed help and got it.
I now take medication and diagnosed with anxiety and ocd. I use horror movies to escape the real world and your channel is my number one go to on RUclips.
Im sending love and know exactly how you feel, anxiety is the hidden illness that doesn't discriminate. Keep going my man. Love from the uk ❤
I would rephrase you saying you didn’t have the courage to commit suicide. I would instead say that you had the strength not to.
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 man i love that . Absolutely perfect
as someone who has GAD this video really hits close to home
I’m sorry to hear that
Thanx for your experienc, strength, & hope.I also kicked the AA crutch.
Jason, thanks for your openness 💜. Anxiety sufferer here and I have had panic attacks while driving on freeways- for 7 years I would have to adjust my routes to avoid freeways. At times I couldn’t go see my mom in the next city over - even had to adjust my route to work when it was really bad. At this point it likely stems at your amygdala (an ancient part of the brain that reacts before your conscious brain kicks in). Exposure therapy, meds and EMDR helped. I also think b vitamins (having too much) exacerbated my symptoms. At the same time I found out i had an asymptomatic retinal tear in one of my eyes and if i hadn’t gone in i would’ve went blind in one eye in my 30s which would’ve affected my livelihood (I’m a physician btw so I also take care of people with these issues). Hopefully you can find an empathic physician who will also help you to work through it. And a therapist to help you deal with this as the chronic illness that it is. Good luck to you💜
Kali also avoids freeways at all costs. She takes sidestreets all the way to her work which is 30 minutes away, when she could take the freeway. The mother of my kids it’s like this too
great video love the stream of consciousness format
Thank you
All you need to know is you are the best horror channel, and you seem like one of those once in a blue moon type guys. Thank you for sharing all this, not many do this but you just helped out so many people with this one video and your regular horror content as well.
You guys are the best
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Like you said, we all have our issues and things that we go through. You keep persevering, Jason; you'll get to where you want to be. I wish you all the best.
Thank you.
I had no idea you were dealing with this. Thank you so much for sharing this with us.
We can rarely tell when someone’s truly suffering
Gohhhd....best video I've seen you do! I GET u..I TOTALLY get you.
I’m sorry you do but thank you
LOL!
I have a friend Matt I met back in college who suffers from anxiety. I remember he would go to the local clinic on campus almost once a week and would ask me to accompany him. I would always tell him I felt useless I’m not being able to help or “fix” the problem. He tells me just being there is enough. It’s interesting you mentioned the religious thing cause that helps him. Of course that’s him and everyone’s different. I love you Jason❤️ You are the reason we watch you, Kali too now:)
How’s that guy now?
Trudging through like you. He has his good and bad days. We talk on and off cause we live so far away but a tradition I have is always texting him on his birthday.
Hey man,
thanks for this video, it was very interesting.
I know it sound kind of stupid because we don't know each other, but I've spent enough time with you through your videos, thay it became a small part of my everyday life already.
It felt like I just got to know my internet buddy bit better :)
It's great that you are still such a reasonable and down to earth person.
A lot of people who suffer at some point got lost in some bizzare and often unheathy ways of coping.
I hope at some point of your life you will get rid of it, or t least it won't be as exhausting as you described it.
Cheers!
Hell yeah. Definitely awesome to think there are people out there that feel like they know me through these videos. That is the idea
I'm very Happy to finally hear you speak about anxiety. I commented a couple of years ago about John Waters movies. My anxiety started my 20's. They med the help outa me. And even ECT. Yeah.. I just turned 57monday. And to be 100 percent honest. It really fucks white you the older you get. Everyone is different. But my anxiety ruined my life. Never married no kids. Cause I new I was sick I didn't want to bring anyone with me. And man 2020 has need a fuckin struggle. Sorry for being so negative. It's just anxiety I'd a fuckin nightmare. Unless the drug your ass up. And yes I been through the Canadian health treatmentd. And it's free. And my anxiety isn't any better. Ugh I suck .I been watching you now 3 years. And now I'm going to listen to your anxiety problems . Thx once again for sharing🙏👊
Just from reading your comment, I can tell you that at the core of your anxiety stems from you thinking too little of yourself. You don’t suck. Stop saying that. You are just suffering. That doesn’t make you less than. You gotta try and love yourself more. I know that can be hard, but you really got to try.
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 I know I don't suck . But dealing with this anxiety for now almost 39 years. Sucks. Thanks for your kind words . And I hope you're movie went well. And I can't thank you for your response. And my anxiety is a major chemical imbalance in my brain. I was born with this crap. I wish you and your family all the love in this crazy world. Peace ..
Your move went well.. sorry
I’ve been battling anxiety since 15…
I’m 34 now
It got really bad at 18 when I got health issues from accutane medication
Life’s hard… I think horror really does help ppl like us and collecting movies and all that
I’m proud of u for opening up and def not alone!
Really sorry for the trauma u endured ….
Mad respect for opening up man
💯
Thanks man. Same to you
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 you’re welcome bro
Appreciate it thanks
One word about this video, BRAVE! Thank you for sharing, I as well have been an anxiety sufferer for nearly 30 years. Mine started after my fathers suicide. Was diagnosed with generalized anxiety, panic disorder and agoraphobia. Took me many many years to try to get it under some kind of control, it broke up my marriage and I was a single with 2 kids and had to work and all the time anxiety was a background to my day. Nearly 4 years ago I was diagnosed with uterine cancer but was to busy freaking about that and 8 months of cancer treatment and feeling half dead from that to have a lot of anxiety. However it’s come back with a vengeance. Every time it’s time for blood work and a cancer check I’m a mess. And now 3 years after treatment I have to make it to 5 to be deemed cured so now everyday I can’t breath my heart feels like it skips beats or flutters or pain I’m dizzy I’m tingly and Ibs is off the charts so I hear you and I’m so glad you made this video even though I’m so sorry it’s happening to you. Like you I’m going to keep trying keep chugging through each day and if you don’t mind throw some good vibes my way for next week when I get my check up hoping the anxiety let’s up some after that because the chest and heart stuff has been crazy uncomfortable and scary. Hang in there, again thanks for sharing, it came right on time for me and I really appreciate you making this video like you’ll never know ❤
Oh man, I have no idea how the fuck you’re dealing with actually getting a legit diagnosis like that. I’ve never had to go through anything that scary so if this was a dick measuring competition like I said it wasn’t, you would definitely win.
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 lol you are right it isn’t we all have something right that’s just life. But although I’m not happy to see you suffer with the anxiety stuff it was at least nice to know I’m not alone and that gives me some comfort because you appear very strong and you hide it well so that give me some hope. Again hang in there we both got this! ❤️
Oh and also like you I love horror movies and people say the same things to me watching that is going to make you anxious but for me when I watch them their lives suck way more then mine so I guess that gives me some odd sense of comfort lol
Wow. This is incredible. My health anxiety is HORRIBLE. I have contamination OCD, so fear of being poisoned by food or drinks. From strangers or even people I love. Aside from that my health anxiety is atrocious. Anywhere from peeing too much so I think I have diabetes. Or my hearts racing so I think I’m having a heart attack. I’ve been dealing with crippling health anxiety for years now. I’ve been to the hospital, idk 5-6 times. Just for them to tell me nothings wrong is devastating and relieving at the same time. I feel like I’m going insane sometimes but it’s mostly the physical sensations that send me into a google web MD frenzy looking at the symptoms I’m having. Horror movies soothe my anxiety 1000000 percent. Solid video choice to post btw, ur a horror movie reviewer but what ur viewers don’t realize is that when we go through these health anxiety episodes especially late at night, we’re basically living in a horror movie…
We sure are. These movies are .0000000001% as scary as what we experience. When people ask how can I watch such scary shit, I’m like live in my head and body for an hour and and half and tell me what you think is scary
@@sinistercinemareviews5420couldn’t agree more man
I agree with horror being calming. There is a comfort in the overall set up of horror movies, rules they go by you could say. My husband suffers with severe anxiety and it’s hard as a partner, not knowing how to help. Thank you for your insight for your experience. You started making me tear up, you decided to upload this video on the perfect day my friend. Thank you
If your husband ever wants to talk to someone, tell him to hit me up on social media
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 thank you, appreciate that!
Great video. You should seriously start a support group or something. I'd be down. Living with severe anxiety is a daily challenge.
If I thought that would help, I would definitely do it. I’m just not sure a support group would be beneficial or not? Focusing on the anxiety every day is definitely not a good thing. But having people to talk to is a great thing. So I’m not sure.
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 FYI I love your channel. I absolutely love horror movies/shows and you and Kaley( sp?) Seem like awesome down to earth people. This video illustrates that too. Keep doing what your doing and keep moving forward one day at a time. Thats really all anyone can do.
Thank you
You’re welcome
I’m so sorry for the lost of your friends Brother & I’m grateful we’re all here to watch you continue make reviews on your channel! I also to, know what it’s like to have a brutal panic from smoking cannabis! Thank You for being real and truthful & May you & your loved one’s continually stay safe and protected as well! 👊
Ugh. Smoking weed was the absolute worst. Never again
I’ve watched all your videos and this is the best one you’ve ever done thanks for sharing your personal story and I hope you find the peace you deserve one day cheers.
Damn. All of them?!!?
My only advice to you bro from a sufferer since the age of 10 and now 49, not constant I might add but more like periods of years on then off, but my advice would be to will the symptoms on literally. Let them come but laugh to yourself while they happen literally, fear is keeping them active. Stop resisting and stop giving a shit if they happen or not. The secret is that you are living in a state of fight or flight constantly at a low level so by not fearing the symptoms you are giving your nervous system a message of safety. If u don't give a shit then your brain will eventually give up. Good luck bro i fight a very similar battle but had great success with this approach
I try that… but it always calls my bluff. I’m terrified of dying and it knows it so I can’t really not care
I see what you mean. It would be a huge leap of faith to confidently let your symptoms in. Keep trying buddy. I've just literally been running as I have heart anxiety about exercise and just had two massive flutters that took my breath and heart sped up massively. I feel pretty jittery now so I know it's hard man.
thank you for sharing this 💜
I’ve had health anxiety for about 8-10 years. I feel you.
One thing that helps me is understanding I don’t have a health problem, I have an anxiety problem. I’ve been through health anxiety episodes so many times I can kind of notice when I’m freaking out over nothing and I can settle it down and forget about it over time.
Also, I 100% never google anything medical.
Good. You never should, cause it’s always cancer haha
Thanks for sharing your story. I suffer too from anxiety. Movies are my escape.
Without film… I can’t even imagine
Thank you for this Jason. There is a hell of a lot in here that I directly relate to. I have GAD which usually manifests itself in health anxiety due to the heart palpitations etc that result. I completely cut out caffeine from my diet about 8 years ago which has really helped control the panic attacks, I still get them, just not nearly as frequently. Thank you for putting this video out there, it will help a lot more people than you think. Keep fighting buddy!
I quit caffeine 19 years ago
That’s awesome. It was amazing how much of a difference it made for me.
Thank you for sharing- I think a lot of us suffer from horrible anxiety. Health anxiety is the worst; always feeling there’s something wrong and that we’re sick.
It truly is THE WORST
Man this hits home. I’m 26 yrs old and have very bad anxiety attacks from childhood ptsd. The thinking about death and family thing hit me cause I would think the same thoughts. Anxiety seems to get worse the older we get until we find a way to deal with it properly.
So sorry to hear that my fellow soldier.
Thank you for your thoughts Jason. Everybody should do this every once in a while. I certainly connected
I’m glad
Thanks for sharing this, Jason. I agree, most all of us to a degree deal with some type of anxiety. I have done a line of work for the last 15+ years that is an extremely stressful job, and when going in most days I feel anxious and nervous. Sometimes I wonder if it’s time to try something completely different. I hate change lol, but sometimes it seems like it’s something I need to do for my health. Even though this type of job is so familiar to me. I have fear of change for sure.
You have the right attitude about it. You are right you WILL get through this! 🩵
Ashley! ❤️ hey sweetheart! You should definitely look for a new job and just go for it. I just quit my job of 19 years yesterday. I am currently unemployed haha. I am so ready to try something new. You would be wonderful at whatever you did. You’re a wonderful person
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 hi Jason! Thanks so much! I really appreciate that! You too are a wonderful person! That is so awesome that you’re ready to try something new! I know you will be awesome and successful at whatever you choose to do. 🩵
lately I have been suffering with BPD symptoms, and I tried everything to fix it for about 2 years now, but I'm glad this video is relatable to me
Oh that’s terrible
Also yea I couldn’t agree more improvement path is next level. Just wish he’d upload more
His videos are hard to make I’m sure
Nailed it man. I live it every single day but don’t let it rule my life. Definitely understand wanting to find “THE CURE” haha
I’m going to find it! Haha
Love this.
❤️
Thank you for talking about this. Many people don't understand what actual anxiety /panic attacks are. They think it means you worry too much, OH no, it's way worse than that. I have had many of the symptoms you've had. Would love to talk to you about it.
Please do
"When I'm having a good time I'm having fear of the fear, of the fear."
I feel that. Absolutely. It's not something you can talk about either because it would only bum other people out, obviously. So, you just try to not allow that lingering fear to overtake you. You push through the panic attack. It takes time to get to a place where you don't allow those moments to be defined by that fear.
I'm a very driven, ambitious person. I feel like I've accomplished a lot, but it always feels like rolling the rock up the hill. "I'd be fucking superhuman if I didn't have this shit." I will say this though, when I see someone who isn't grabbing life by the horns, it does make me proud to know that I've gotten to where I've gotten to. It's a self congratulatory way of thinking, but fuck it. haha
Great video, Jason. Keep on keeping on.
If we don’t congratulate ourselves who will? 😉
Thank you for your transparency, especially the car accident. Great discussion. I've had some similar events that exacerbated anxiety. I got into mindfulness and meditation that helped a lot, taught me to slow down. The book "30 Days to Reduce Anxiety" by Harper Daniels was a good beginning guide I used. I also eliminated a lot of caffeine from my diet (sounds trivial but it really helped a ton).
No, it’s not trivial. I eliminated caffeine from my diet 20 years ago.
Hi Jason! I've had depression in some capacity since I was 14. It seems like you are high functioning which can make it hard to explain to others. People probably expect the same from you as they would others and that can be difficult. I agree about horror movies. They are an escape!
as someone who has GAD social anxiety and is also a hypochondriac damn man like this video hits.
I’m sorry you related but I’m glad I could connect with you if it helped at all
I've been in a institution for 21 days. Because I drank some pills on a drunken spree. I met the most awesome people there. We all have some shit going on, life is difficult, we got to keep trying. If not for ourselves for our children.
Jesus christ, yeah, I hope you're ok, that's a fucking trip and a half
I’m glad you got help and are still around. I will keep fighting. Always.
My fiancé suffers from depression and anxiety so I completely understand the anxiety attacks that can last several weeks or months. It’s a constant on going battle and a lot of it can be from trauma.
Sorry to hear that about your fiancé. You help more than you know. Just being there for him is worth more than I could tell you.
Best video ever!!!
Sheesh, that was heavy man.
Don’t I know it
I also suffer from severe anxiety and depression. I can also relate to the reaction you have to smoking. I started smoking with friends and it genuinely did help me at first. It felt like the perfect way to deal with my anxiety and made me so happy. A happiness I haven't really felt since oddly enough. I was just so relaxed. However it was like one day a switch flipped. I had a severe panic attack and felt like I was on a bad trip for weeks after. I've tried it since a couple times hoping things would be different but now if I take a single hit off of something I immediately start having a panic attack. Even if I'm just getting a very gentle contact high if I'm around others it still happens. This also happens if I drink any alcohol at all. Even a single sip. It takes almost two weeks to come out of the horrible headspace I get in when this happens and that's only if I try as hard as possible to force myself to relax. I later found out I suffer from DP/DR. That's why i react this way. Therapy has taught me that this condition is very common in people with childhood PTSD which I also have. It feels like I was a different person before and after experiencing this initial panic attack from this. Now I constantly fear it happening again and feel less happy overall with my life.
I have the same response. Absolutely any alcohol or marijuana even around me will send me into a complete panic, and my body will feel like it’s dying.
I believe I have mild anxiety just from the examples you mentioned about speaking to people in public. Nowhere near as awful as the kind you experience Jason. But you're right the best thing to do when having these disorders and attacks is to just be. Be a great person. Be you. You nor anyone else can control what they have. I'm on the Asperger spectrum and have occasional sleep disorders.
But you're a great person Jason.
What is having Asperger’s like?
Well everyone whose is diagnosed with it has a different case, that's why its a spectrum. It has evolved from childhood to my adulthood, where I have repetitive behavioral patterns. Some days my brain works fine, but other days Its a brain fog where I can't consciously form my thoughts into words. Reading is challenge because I reread the same sentence a few times (Repetitive pattern).
I get really nervous being around people because if my Asperger's begins showing itself, they might look unnerved by my behavior. It all has to do with the brain.
We also get flustered by change if we have a set routine and we have to suddenly change it, we get upset. @@sinistercinemareviews5420
Awesome video Jason
Thank you
(1/2) An incredible personal story for a video. I have suffered with anxiety disorder for almost 30 years. You and I briefly wrote about it to each through me commenting on a video of yours a few years ago. I also had a huge panic attack when when smoking pot. I got some help through a group anxiety disorder class through Kaiser. After leaving my job 15 years ago, that helped as well. I do have heart arrhythmia 1-2 times a year, that's when my anxiety kicks in big time. Other than that I'm much more under control than I used to be. About 17 years ago I was calling 911 about Once every few weeks and going to the ER once a month or so, so I had it really bad. If you'd ever like to chat it'd be my pleasure to help in any way I can... Tom
The actual heart arrhythmia is definitely intense. Sorry man
This content should've been said like you put it out there, but commercial free. Love you and mean it
You’re right. But I am officially “between jobs” as of today and need any money I can get haha.
Hope you can overcome it brother!
I will, or I will die trying
my anxiety peaks as soon as employees enter the office. music on the ipod is my sanctuary.
my ex self diagnoses herself with nearly everything. she gets mad if i don’t believe her. i just help her with what i can.
even if there was a “god” i really don’t give a fuck or have a want or need for more life and to be a slave to a “creator”. i honestly can’t wait to die. 51 years is a good run. there’s still plenty to do though.
thanks for this video. very interesting to get into people’s state of being.
Well, I can definitely wait to die haha. I have zero interest in going anytime soon. Because of my anxiety, I never really felt like I got to live all that much. Until I beat this thing, I’m never gonna feel like I really got a chance at a fulfilling life.
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 that’s awesome. i know you’ll keep at it. i had cancer since i was a young kid and it nearly took me,so death has been close with me for awhile. the whole back of my head is a bald skin graph so i’m “forced” to wear a hat. i envy y’all with hair! 🤣
(2/2) I wanted to send another follow up message, in the event you'd rather not communicate directly, which is fine of course.
2 books were very helpful to me. The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook by Edmund Bourne PhD, the other is Don't Panic by Reid Wilson.
An important premise for a starting point for me was a self examination of my 'post' panic attacks. Did my panic attacks or extreme anxiety ever actually harm me physically. Of course these are toturous mentally and scary beyond description, but I always came through them and was physically okay afterwards. After many trips the ER, the firemedics and or paramedics coming to the house from multiple 911 calls etc... when my panic disorder was at its worse, I was always okay after a panic attack. I didn't have a heart attack, I didn't die etc... This is an important First step to recognize that these attacks make you feel tremendous fear/dread like impending death/doom type fear, but I was always okay afterwards, no matter how bad the attack was. So these attacks are purely psychological. But it takes a big step to truly understand that and then act accordingly from there.
I have have had heart palpitations for years, they used to bother me, as they do you. Thinking to myself, is this it? Am I gonna die? etc... Am I gonna have a panic or heart attack? Heart palpitations are quite normal and typically get a little worse with age also, staying hydrated can help with them. The heart arrhythmia I suffer from a couple times or so a year (atrial fibrillation or afib) this is when your heart goes in to a sustained abnormal rhythm and can substantially increase your heart rate. When this happens I have to rush some meds in me to try get my heart rate down ASAP, but these don't kick in for 30-90 minutes or more and the heart remains very high in the mean time, like 140 bpm. I always get a panic attack when this happens, as it is very uncomfortable and scary.
Like you said, there's no magic bullet or cause. Unmanaged anxiety can strike when you least expect it to.
Another very helpful step is asking yourself how much control do I have over a particular issue that may be contributing to my anxiety. The more control over something you have, the more you may be able to impact or affect said thing. Conversely, if you have little or no control over something you might consider treating said issue accordingly - i.e. I have no control over this issue so it does me no good to stress and/or concern myself over this thing. This seems simple but it's import to weigh the value of things that are causing you stress or anxiety.
All that said, keep some notes, the workbook I mentioned above was quite helpful to me. After an attack, always do a self evaluation. Did this attack harm me? Am I okay after the attack? Once you begin to realize that you're always okay after these attacks, you can begin to let go of the crippling fear that you're going to die or something awful is gonna happen. Then the attacks begin to lose some of their strength and intensity. They will continue to lessen in severity as your awareness that you'll always be okay when the attack ends.
Walking was another thing that really helped me. Force yourself to get up and walk for a sustained 5-10 minutes or more every 30-60 minutes. When you suffer from anxiety, as we do, prolonged idle time sitting or laying down can always exacerbate anxiety and panic, for me anyways.
Leaving my stressful job was also a big help to me. These are all things that really helped me. But if I stop doing them, the anxiety will inevitably creep it's way back in etc... So it's important to stick to some or all of the things that help you most when managing your anxiety and panic symptoms.
Sorry for the lengthy comment. But I just wanted to offer as much help as I could, as this help was given to me by multiple sources over years and it did help me.
Nothing is perfect and your mileage my vary, but anxiety disorders require daily management and maintenance. Anxiety and panic rarely just dissappear, never to be heard from again.
Good luck and my offer always stands, if you ever want or need to talk.
Tom
I actually have done and do 100% of this already. I appreciate all the info though. Truly
You inspired me to stop drinking! We love y'all
From this video? Or from before?
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 no from a past video. You hosted a talk session and mentioned you don't drink and I thought " hey, if someone that awesome can do it then I can do it too"
Just went through a terrible health anxiety episode tonight: just now calming down. Lol smh. Was convinced I was gonna die for sure this time
I understand all too well
The way to beat anxiety is to relax
Relaxation is the feeling of emptiness void and space.To become relaxed move without
you moving yourself.Practice when you don't have anxiety .When you turn your waist or shift your weight your arms will move
when they are relaxed without you moving them.If you hold out your arm in front of you and relax just enough gravity will bring it down slowly.It will come down in an arc which is part of a circle when it reaches the bottom of its circular path momentum will bring it back up.If you condense and then relax you will expand.Expand then relax you will condense.This is the opposite of being strong and tough.To prevent the muscles from becoming weaker you SOMETIMES
practice moving against imaginary resistance.This formula is unknown by 85%
of people practicing Tai Chi (Tai ji) but that is where it is from. When Tai Chi form is done correctly the only thing that is moved by a person is the ankle so that the foot swings out when it comes down it creates force from gravity which the rest of the body follows. I practice principles from the Chen Man Cheng NewYork Tai Chi.RUclips -Tai Chi hooping (and comment section)
I used to practice tai chi for anxiety. It’s great stuff. I agree that it helps, and I should get back to it. I appreciate it.
@@sinistercinemareviews5420Not all Tai Chi and Tai Chi instructors are the same.My suggestion is the Yang form and you don't need the whole form either to be effective Focus on - Grasp birds tail,Brush knee, and wave hands like clouds.Follow the principals I mentioned in my last post if you can find a teacher who knows this then all the better because by watching you move they can tell you when and where your holding tension and help you to let go of that.
You can also teach your self through video.Thank you for what you do I am a fan of the channel
Stress and gut health are for sure linked. Mediterranean diet is great for the brain fats! It’s amazing how stress and snow ball into every aspect of your life.
I will look into the Mediterranean diet. I’ve tried every other fucking diet on earth.
37 now. Been dealing with health anxiety since a kid...so...30 years. It truly is a prison for the mind.
Truly. I’m sorry to hear this but thank you for sharing
I've had a month off work due to this. Basically, I had a meltdown. I'm a nightclub DJ. I don't know what happened but for some reason, the music started sounding all sinister (I was playing songs off high school musical) and things went all weird and fuzzy and I had this impending sense of fear and dread and I just needed to be out of there so phoned an ambulance. It's not like I thought they could do anything for me but I just didn't wanna be home alone.
Yup. Sounds like a panic attack. I’ve had 5000 at least so I feel for you
I have it too. Sucks. I know. Good luck.
Thank you. You too
I get really bad stomach anxiety when I'm on the highway going to a new place that's far. I started carrying a piece of selenite. I just hold it when I feel anxious for me it helps.
So you have a very specific trigger. That’s more like a phobia. Terrible for sure
This too shall pass
Fuck yes it will
I also have bad anxiety too. From being in the military when 911 happened to various personal situations and then COVID nearly killed me (not physically, but mentally - stayed under a rock for about 18 months!)
How did you handle COVID?
Weirdly, I dealt with Covid pretty well. I didn’t end up getting Covid until after I had gotten the vaccine so it was a pretty mild case. But I definitely get the fear that you had. I was just able to stay pretty levelheaded about it. I just figured I could beat it. Stage four cancer, or a sudden heart, attack or stroke is what I fear. Some thing that I can fight and beat, that doesn’t scare me as much.
ive been doing so good with not having panic attacks that i dont want to write this comment, I dont like to think about it or talk about it because im scared that will trigger it.
But boy when im going thru it its all i can talk about because im desperate for commiseration or it creates a release or brings back some sliver of sanity a reminder that its a condition.
Im 37 and dealt with it since my early 20s. Debilatating! i never was really a shy kid or dealt with nervousness growing up i dont feel like i would be someone that has anxiety or panic attacks and boy do they come out of now where just in the comfort and peace of your own bed at night turns into going on your porche in the winter hoping cold weather exposure will help or calling a relative at 3 am just so someone will know if you die.
Excusing yourself from people saying you have a headache or migrane because a panic attack sounds dramatic or pussy.
I cut out caffiene in my early 30s (weed in my mid 20s) started exercising and meditating and it helped dramtically it made it less frequent and more managable now i feel like my anxiety now is where most people who claim to have bad anxiety levels are and i can deal with that.
Covid re triggered a lot of my health anxiety. I also opted to not get vaxxed because i was so anxious about putting that in my body. its the same with health meds too, it's ironic yes I know.
but anyway i hope someday soon you will at least have it less frequent and managable where ive been the last 5 years.
Thanks for sharing and risking an episode. Hope it didn’t happen. Definitely can relate to a lot here. My anxiety definitely has its low times and its not so low times. There will be months where I feel not terrible which is my great. But other months… it’s not even living. It feels pointless during that time but my loved ones keep me focused on trying to get better
I grew up in somewhat of a religious household. So, I was told by many relatives that because I was into scary movies/shows that I was bringing evil, even the devil… himself into my life. And that’s the reason I have all these mental issues. I was told that several times when I was growing up, AS A CHILD. I couldn’t just be into scary movies/shows. I have always liked horror. It’s that simple. It’s not claiming for me. But, because of my trauma… I feel like I can relate. So, I rather watch a horror movie than the newest Barbie movie, because i can’t relate to Barbie, lol. It’s laughable even thinking about it.
It’s not a dick measuring contest. You’re right. But, some people do feel set apart and alone, because mental illness is only acceptable when it’s not out of control. So, you can have an anxiety disorder and many people will say that they can relate. But, as soon as your anxiety makes you cry, throw things and talk about suicide… that’s unheard of. Now, you’re this weird, crazy person. So, I think that’s why a lot of people feel set apart. Like you said, anxiety disorder or any mental disorder can be completely different for every other person.
I hope one day you can fulfill your dreams in helping people treating this mental disorder. I hope you get to that point too. And thank you for sharing your story.
And thank you for sharing yours. We all do suffer differently, and some of us can handle it more than others. But no one should have to deal with this. Ever. No one deserves this.
@@sinistercinemareviews5420 I totally agree. 😀
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I'm the same way on pot, which is why i quit, everything become slow motion but i can hear my heart popping beating out of my chest and its the scariest thing ever. Its not meant for me and clearly you too. Idk how some people can eat a whole edible or take big bong hits every 10 min
I can’t either. So crazy to me.