Nikki, I found your account when i was 13 and i’m 22 now. Just wanted to say, I’m so glad you’re still as bubbly and lively as i’ve always known you to be. Still so beautiful and loveable. Have a great new years 💕
I'll be 29 and my sons 7, I always watched Nikki on and off but I really started binging her , Paris, & boe (two other story time tubers) videos when I got pregnant and wanted to stop watching true crime. so its really wild to think about how us adults and fav RUclips, plus now our kids have all virtually grown up together. 😂❤
3:49 you know i stopped using the words "i would never" or "i could never" because the things that i thought i would never i did eventually. God humbled me! And im glad he did!
Now, girl, I did not think I'd be sitting up here crying at 12am, but this just hit something in me. I was drawn to your content since I was a little girl, and now I'm turning 21, and I'm feeling the hurt and loneliness you speak of, especially because it is rooted in the same trauma of daddy issues and other factors. This made me feel like I was not alone. Thank you.
I’ve been watching Nikki since I believe was sixth grade. My 21st birthday is today. From the second I opened my eyes this morning I felt alone and full of hurt. I can tell I’m entering just another chapter of hurt and loneliness. This being said for you to know you’re not alone. Your comment helped me feel not so alone. So I wanted to return the favor. We got this, right? We have to. Nikki would be ashamed if we gave up.
@@BeccachzI’ve been wanting to comment about this but I feel like she only recently started talking about God, so I’m hoping that she keeps seeking Him and allowing the Holy Spirit to work in her. One step at a time :)
@@Beccachz I completely agree with that. I’m sure that’s something she’ll be convicted about in the future. We’re all struggling with something and sometimes it takes longer than others. In 2024, I stopped listening to secular music and started only listening to worship because I felt the conviction from the Lord. I finally realized that when I listened to secular music, it was taking my focus away from Jesus. It also reminds about when George Janko used to cuss all the time in his podcast even though he’s a Christian. In one of his episodes, Girls Gone Bible had called him out on it. Angela had explained to him we don’t cuss at Christian’s and he finally stopped. Sometimes it’s takes awhile to realize parts of our sins that we struggle with the most. From this video, it sounds like Nikki rededicated her life to Christ and she’s a baby Christian right now. I do hope in the future she’ll stop cussing.
I’m speechless.. hearing your testimony made me check myself.Our pain is so heavy we become angry and bitter with those around us.. I couldn’t be more grateful for you being genuine with all your followers. May you have a blessed year girl! ❤
Yess!! We love Jesus over here!! 🙌❤️ I absolutely can not wait for your Christian content! It is also a goal of mine to get baptized! I recommend making a prayer board, it’s an amazing way to worship and spend time with God and throughout the year see how God moves and answers our prayers 🥰
Hey, love this comment! Can you share a bit more about the Prayer Board please? I’ve never heard of this before but it sounds like something I wanna get involved in x
I found you when I was freshly 11 YEARS OLD. Lil crazy when I think about it now that I’m grown. As the older sister I had no one to go to, no older cousin, friend, aunt, nothing. Watching your videos and these life stories and lessons you provide genuinely shaped me. I can tell authenticity, and your honesty helped me a lot. Coming out of that anxious shell I was in was hard but you showed my little self of was possible. Life happens girl but we’ll always be here supporting you though thick and thin, if Nikki has no supporters I’m dead.
hi nikki, 8 year silent subscriber here! i just wanna say i’m very proud of you for pulling yourself out of the pit and trekking on, despite the year you had. we love you and are looking forward to your channel endeavors, cheering you on from the sidelines! 💗💗
Hearing you talk about God pursuing you specifically by humbling you gave me chills. I went through exactly that the last couple of years. A huge part of my testimony is the pride I had and my judgement of others. God took so much away from me to force me to realize I’m not in control. Everything I’m given is a gift from him and not something to take pride in. I had to learn about my vulnerability and forced out of my delusion of security and strength. I have been watching you since I was 19 and now I’m 28. After my spiritual journey I started watching you less often because I found it took me back to a mindset that I was trying to overcome. I have a similar tendency to lean into anger to avoid deeper feelings of vulnerability and powerlessness. But I saw you posted this and couldn’t be more overjoyed. I’m so happy for you and so thankful for your relationship with God. Thank you for your bravery, speaking publicly about this. I know all of Heaven is cheering you on. You will be a warrior for his kingdom.
girl you have raised me i’ve even watching you since i was a child and now im 18 and watching this is making me so proud of you 🥹❤️ this is so vulnerable and being able to acknowledge something like this is so big especially on the internet to double take and go back to your old self and genuinely reflect just shows how much you’ve grown
I feel like 2024 was a year for God’s people to re-devote themselves and prepare to go into 2025. I have been thinking with God in my mind and heart more and more as we’ve gone into the new year. I wish you a happy new year and can’t wait to see more from you!
And I relate to this video so much, 3 years ago I went through some super bad stuff and I ended up in therapy getting diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety, and borderline personality disorder. It’s been a rough long journey but 3 yrs later I’m still here, still learning and healing everyday! I hope anyone reading my comments knows you matter, your life matters, make sure you take care of yourself too❤
Nikki, I’ve commented the same thing so many times but I’ll say it again lol. I’ve watched you since I was about 16 or 17- I’m about to be 26! Although this is a parasocial relationship and I know that I don’t actually know you; you have helped shape me so much as I’ve grown. You really truly are everyone’s bestie, big sister, and auntie all in one. Thank you for being so honest and upfront and REAL while being so gentle and kind at the same time. I just really loved this video intro and I could listen to you talk about life for hours. I’m always rooting for you! Love you girl 🩷
This was so real. I’ve been watching you for yeaaars. I’m about to be 23 and am just going through this phase of being tired of being angry. Tired of being silently spiteful. Tired of wanting them to see me. I resonate with your story so much and it’s no coincidence I came across this video as I’m entering this phase.
My 2024 sucked too, I got baptised back in 2019 and God chased me down for years and oooft he got me on the floor for 45 minutes. Praying for you. God is good.
Yes!! Nikki this is exactly what I went through this past year! God really humbled me in a number of ways and I truly appreciate you for being so vulnerable and real and bringing God and your faith to it! Praying for blessings this year for you and your family 🙌❤️
I love this about you ❤ you're just so open to check yourself when you figure out you've done wrong or that you could change for the better and thats very mature of you. God knows we need more people like this in this world.
Praise God, I love your testimony. God knocks you down to come back 10 times better and healed! I love you Nikki! I was 22 when I found you I’m now 32 and finding the power of God as well. I love this for you!! ❤❤❤
I’m sitting in my car on my break crying, I’ve missed you so much, and this has been the hardest year of my life . I am also someone who has open perpetually 'okay' and I really really trying to come out of this in tact . I needed to see this video today .
I was tearing up about hearing your story a lot of what you said resonated and I’m so happy you found your way. I’m so happy you’re back and thankful to be here
This video was yet another confirmation from God that He has always and will always be in every aspect of my life. When I first came across your channel like ten years ago now, I never thought this video was coming. I am happy you’re getting closer to God bc I know how good it feels as I too am getting close to Him for two months now. Happy to see you back ❤️
I love you so much. Praying for your healing and everyone here. GOD is so amazing when he humbles us and even though it hurts just know it’s so much brighter on the other side. When you can truly move on from the past and not let it come up and interfere or interrupt your peace, honestly such a blessing. Stay strong by GOD’S grace. You are healed in Jesus name. Always here for you
thank you so much for sharing this! in a place of darkness where pain is deeply rooted yet you know ur own strength is something next level and i’m so happy you touched on that and i’m not alone going thru this same situation sometimes you just need to hear it! i’ve been watching you since i was 10/11 years old and i’ll be 21 next month its been such a beautiful journey seeing your growth and everything you are even doing now thank you nikki love you sm!🩷🫶🏽
Nikki! I been a Christian for so long and recently this past year hit me like a truck as allot of building up unresolved trauma hit me in the face. I because angry, dry , sad & empty. I’m trying so hard to keep pushing through because I feel so lonely & hurt. Your video helped me really understand that I’m not alone , and that even if I have a walk with the Lord and love the Lord I’m not the only one. Thanks for posting this 🤍
i love how you’re so genuine with us. i’ve been watching your videos for years and i’ve always been able to resonate with them. It’s such a breath of fresh air 🩷.
Nikki this was the ONE. This was me in 2022/2023. By the Grace of GOD. He gave me those two years to shed, slow down & rebuild. My heart posture has changed so much. Thank you for sharing 🤍
Nikki girl I missed you! 2024 has been the hardest year of my life. My little brother passed away recently and I’ve been going through so much pain and grief. This video really resonated with me and reminded me that’s it’s okay not to be okay. I’m so grateful for you and your content, always getting me through these though times. ❤️
This definitely came at the perfect time. I have been watching your videos since I was around 16-17 and now I’m 26. I just had my first baby and he’s 10 months old and I am struggling with PPD. I definitely feel a shift coming with myself and changing the way I view things. I also don’t remember much of my childhood and I notice it happening even with recent events. This was my sign and I appreciate you! ❤️
I think this comment was to point out how bad the trauma must have been that her brain blocked it out, which is the complete opposite of her normal self.
I'm only 1 minute and 44 seconds in and I feel seen and heard. Girl, you are not alone. I'm going through the absolute ringer. Thank-you for posting and for being vulnerable. You won't ever know much you help the world
Hi Nikki! Been watching you since I was in middle school and am now 22 almost 23. I have recently in the last few years discovered God again and am so glad with how much you refer to him! Missed your videos and so happy you are back!!!!!! Prayers and blessing for you and your family and a happy New Year!!🤍
I needed this video right now. I'm going through my healing journey and it's rough but I'm taking it day by day. I'm 25 and have been watching you for who knows how long. I can't believe Julian is 17 now. Thanks for the video.
this is why you’ll always be Big Sister, Auntie Nikki. You’re always popping out with advice and I don’t think you realize how much you’ve inspired me to become THAT WOMAN. I came across your channel when I was about 14 yrs old, I literally just turned 20, thank you for staying true to yourself, taking the steps to heal yourself, and putting up content that allows us to see YOU. Social media is such a small part in life, but you’ve played a big roll in my upbringing. Thank youuu and we love you Nikki🫶🏽🫶🏽
Thank you for putting this out in the world. Thank you for providing us your story and struggles. Thank you for giving us hope and empowerment to look within ourselves and be better. I found your channel when I was around 19. I’m about to be 27 and I am so grateful to see your journey and feeling like I had a virtual sister to “chit chat” with. You have taught me many things throughout the years. This current upload made it more real for me that I need to deal with my childhood traumas and how it’s affecting me today when I’m alone and in my thoughts. Thank you for inspiring thought and progression to be introspective with our own growth.
Good god Nikki. I feel like we’ve grown up together. I’ve been here for over 10 years and I watch every single video. But this video? Has me in absolute tears. As a (too) young teen to college/early corporate girly to now a mother in the element of growing a family that is working through long life (forgotten) trauma, your videos always seemed to come at the right time. You are only human and we can always rely on you for that. ❤️thank you for being you Nikki!! We love and appreciate your transparency on this channel. Thank you x100000!!
I’ve been watching you since I was around 14-15? I’m turning 24 this year 😮 I also have my journey with the Lord , and I have my kids now and you’re the ONE creator that has been real since day 1 and hearing you talk about God makes me even happier!! I’m also on 1 kings too lol. Keep doing you girl.
Nikki you were here through the hardest times in my life and I’m positive it’s the same among us, so we will always be here for you through the ups AND downs
Thank you for being your authentic and honest self❤. I subscribed to you years ago because I could relate to you on such a deep level. Honestly, I feel like the walking, talking, glamorous Canadian version of you (like it's creepy, girl). Once again, you’ve managed to put into words exactly what I’ve been feeling, making me feel seen, heard, and less alone. I’m so happy to hear you've done some soul healing, and I can’t wait to see more from you this year!❤
I have been praying for you for 3 years Nikki (watching you for 8). I knew the Lord was gonna get ahold of your heart!!! 🙏🏽💜 I can’t even explain the emotion I felt when you said you’re gonna get baptized. God is such a good good father!
Girllll I been watching you since I was a freshman in high school and im now about to be 24, you’ve helped me soo much and i see so much of you in me. Thank you for subconsciously always being there🫶🏽
Yess girl!! Ive been watching since i was in highschool now im about to be 24 and honestly this video hit me so deeply, you wouldn't believe how much I needed this! Glad your back! Sending you lots of love!
Sis I’m glad ur back….. the internet has been sooooooooo boring without u…. Keep ur chin up and be the boss u naturally are…. GO GET IT!!!!…. Love ur personality….. glad ur back
i am happy you made this video nikki, but im also sad that i didnt see how you really felt. but that brings me to another topic; we can never guess what anyone is going through and this video clarified this. and its ok not to be ok. no one said we need to go through life without sorror or sadness. we all experience meaningful things and not all of them are meant to be good and even if its hard, that is life and we all find ways to keep going. we feel alone with our feelings but we arent, there will always be someone that will understand what you went through. i hope you will heal from everything and even if it takes decades, the journey in itself will make you grow. im praying for you and for your family and everyone else that has hardships right now. bless you, dear.
This video is so crazy to me because I’ve been watching you since I was in middle school (I’m 23 now), your videos got me through a lot of bad experiences through my teen years. Now I’m 23 going through quite possibly the lowest point in my life, finding myself, feeling all the HARD feelings, leaning towards God. It’s so nice to hear that one of my favorite creators is also human, has also gone through dark stuff, AND got past it. I can do it too. I’m so glad I found you 10+ years ago from storyyytimeeeees to life advice I’ve never disliked a video. Keep being you Nikki we LOVE you🩷
I just had a baby 3 months ago and even though he doesn't give hugs just his little touches are so heartwarming, or when he holds my finger or just snuggles into me. It's the best and watching him grow, it just really does something to you on the inside!!!
NIKKI BABE YOU WILL NEVERRRR FALL OFF girl that throne youre on is fit to YOU! we love you sm ❤ ive been watching since the stepsister storytimed began youre my favorite creator because youre so real and you have remained the sweetest and funniest throughout your whole yt journey! love you Nikki 🥰
Im so glad you’re back!!! Perfect timing as Iam going though a very rough time in my life.i was having to re watch videos that I already have watched 😭❤️
I started my therapy journey in 2023. I gained 60 pounds starting off. Some of it was my medication, but a lot of it was just trying to suppress. Early 2024 I exploded. Everything is a meltdown. Everything is me being a failure, the end of the world. I’m trying to reign it all in. Trying to get rid of the depression weight. Trying to have new beginnings. Thank you for being vulnerable and making me feel less alone. Love you 💜💜💜
I have been watching you for YEARSSSS now, and seeing your growth is so beautiful. God bless you nikki🩷 thank you for always being like a big sister to us
Girl that is the most humbling experience you’re ever gonna go through … you can ask and ask and ask and when your time comes to actually go thru it - you get caught like a dear in a headlights … like what in the world is thisss .. but then the “ this is what you asked for “ kicks in .. I’m proud of you for going thru it and getting thru it! Love you Nikki
I’m so glad you made your comeback with this video. You literally explained everything I’m going through and trying to get through right now. This gives me hope that there is a way through. Thank you for sharing ❤
So sooo glad that you're back. And thank you for sharing your struggles with us. I can definitely relate to suppression of memories and dealing with all of it when they finally come back is a whirlwind. glad you've been able to work through it while allowing yourself to feel all of the emotions and coming to terms with and accepting your full story. Proud of you momma!
i’ve been watching you since i was in middle school probably like 12 years old and i’m now almost 20 this video was exactly what i needed i also had the hardest and worst year of my life in 2024 and ive started to take some steps to make sure this year is better but there’s certain goals that im having trouble achieving due to my lack of healthy coping i’m gonna try that bingo card for sure! and thank you sharing i felt so alone i thought i was the only one who got knocked down this past year we love you Niki and can’t wait to see you grow even more!
Giiirl this video hit me. I found your account when I was pregnant almost 8yrs ago, freshly moved out & adjusting to what was my new life. I was here for the chaos but I was always here for the growth. I love your videos! I hope God sees all the good you do & repays you x10. Here’s to an amazing 2025!🎉
I completely understand! 2024 was honestly great for me, but the last month whooped my behind girl. I started therapy in October and by mid December, I started remembering things from my teen years that happened and it was like getting hit by a truck. I would LOVE to do story times on my channel but I literally cannot remember anything because everything was so traumatic for me up until 2023! I resonate so much with your memory suppression. It sucks but it’s also so freeing to remember.
I will get on my knees and pray for you. Thank you for sharing, being vulnerable, and helping me remember that life is hard, God is good, and to just have faith and lean on him. I really appreciate you. I hope to meet you someday, because you’re someone I admire and would love to have a conversation or two with you. God bless ❤
Nikki, you were dearly missed. I am so excited for your content along with all the other Glamazons. I’d love to see this Christian content you’ve hinted at in so excited. Sending you love.
i started watching u when i had just moved to mexico at 20, it was the worst time everrrrrr and i would always watch ur videos at night and i swear ur videos were the highlight of my night 🩷.
Yes girl!!! You’re back! I noticed you were gone for a good while. I would look forward to seeing you on my RUclips feeds, and here you are. Makes me happy to know that you’re on your healing journey and found GOD. Welcome back Chica!! Stay blessed
This one is so real. I can 100% relate to everything your explaining. In my 20's I was rocky in my 30's =,growth, life humbled me for sure. I think it's happens to a of us, it's wild how life works
I lost my mom, dad, and grandmother in 2024. It was rough. I started clearing my shit in 2022, thank GOD; otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to make it through last year.
So glad you’re back! 2024 was really hard for me too. I lost a loved one, lost a lot of money bc my job was taken over by AI and I struggled to find a new job, I stayed inside all summer studying for a new certification, and now I’m learning this difficult new job. It’s been a rough one but I know 2025 is gonna be better!
I'm sorry to hear that, and I hope 2025 is better for you! If you don't mind sharing, what was your job before? I'm currently contemplating my future because of AI. No worries if you'd prefer not to discuss it. Have a great Sunday! 🤍
Girl I found your account when I was in middle school and now I’m turning 20 this year. I love your videos and have learned so much through you. Love God and keep preaching ❤
Thank you Nikki for being you, you've no idea how much you've been like a sister to me throughout all the difficult phases of my life. I'm typing this note with tears in my eyes and gratitude towards you. May God bless you and your family for eternity
Nikkiiii!!!!!! I’ve been watching you for years!! I haven’t even watched this video fully yet I’m about to but the caption alone! I know you grew up in Church and knew the Lord but to see the joy of the Lord growing in you know, the boldness of your faith shining through I’M SO HAPPY! The Lord is truly pouring out His spirit on all and I am HERE for it!
Not you bringing me to tears 🙈🙈 I’ve been riding with you for years and I feel like this was exactly what I needed to see in this moment. I am so proud of you and so happy for you! Te Quiero muncho hermana ❤️🔥
Dear Nikki, I have been a silent watcher for years now but I feel like this video deserves a comment for the past 2 years my life has been going downhill and I mean downhill from daddy issues, to family issues, money problems , breaking off an engagement and many more but as I’m sitting here completely and utterly numb from the hurt and I know there is so much more deep inside you have spoken to me in more ways than one and I will forever be grateful to you and this video specifically is what I needed to see today I have been needing to hear your words so thank you from a silent watcher
I resonate with this WORD FOR WORD. The past few years through me upside down and I became everything I judged people for and my anger that fueled my passions ran out. I have been having to confront and overcome everything I repressed in my memories and judged others for. It has been the worst years of my life. I feel like in the past month I am finally picking myself back up and I hope it's only up from here. Thank you for sharing this because it gives me hope that things can get better after its been so depressive and dark for the past couple of years.
I’m 26 and I’ve been watching your channel for 8 years. I swear it feels even longer than that. It’s so nice to see your face! Everybody be sure that you are ready for your life to flip on its head when you ask the Lord to reveal your true purpose, especially regarding the people in your life. They will start to drop like flies. The power of the tongue is so real! I had a rough 2024 career wise. It was hard to rationalize that the place that I prayed to be in wasn’t what it seemed to be. I’m trying to make peace with the idea that it may be time for something new this year even though there are aspects I still love. I’m wishing everybody health and healing as they embark on 2025 🩷
I went back to your videos after you said Julian is about to be 17 and daaaaamn I been here since your “tell it like it is” series! Craaaaaazy! You’ve been such an inspiration through and through ❤
Aww Nikki, it makes me so happy to hear that you've really found yourself and God. 2024 was hard for me too but it led me a lot closer to the Lord so I wouldn't change anything. Excited for whatever content you have next!
youve helped me through important parts of my life im now a adult ive been watching you for years even through your Sh*ty Sh*ty apartment and im so grateful for the time and energy youve put into this, im glad to see you doing better and doing whats best for you ill always be a forever fan
Nikki your content has been helping me get through so many dark times since I was 17. I’m almost 26 and still battling depression and cptsd but your words have always resonated with my soul, you make me feel like I can face my shit and still come out strong. I hope you never stop fighting, sending you so much love and strength for your healing journey 💙
Nikki, I found your account when i was 13 and i’m 22 now. Just wanted to say, I’m so glad you’re still as bubbly and lively as i’ve always known you to be. Still so beautiful and loveable. Have a great new years 💕
same girl i found her when i was like 15 of 16, i think 16, and now i’m 19 omg 😭
I found her when I was 11 and I’m now 19😭 I love her I so get it
@@tooniyeonilol im 25 now I feel old 😂😂 I think I found her at 14. I love Nikki dude like that’s fr my sister
Ahh me too! I think i was 13/14? Im now 25 going on 26 😂❤❤
@ her being in that shitty shitty apartment? Bro tbtttt
girl i did a DOUBLE TAKE when you said Mila was 5 now!!! that would make ezra like 6 and julian like almost 17, i could cry right now 😭🩷
Let me move my bang and read that again. SEVENTEEN?! Nah
what Julian's not 12 still???
@@dashealynnez7015 JEEEEZ OMG
You're kidding, no way they're all grown up now 🥲😭
RIGHTT
Julian being 17 and Mila just turning 5 makes me feel old af omg I been watching you since high-school I'll be 28 this year
I'll be 29 and my sons 7, I always watched Nikki on and off but I really started binging her , Paris, & boe (two other story time tubers) videos when I got pregnant and wanted to stop watching true crime. so its really wild to think about how us adults and fav RUclips, plus now our kids have all virtually grown up together. 😂❤
“MY SHAYLA 😭😭” i missed you!!!
3:49 you know i stopped using the words "i would never" or "i could never" because the things that i thought i would never i did eventually. God humbled me! And im glad he did!
This is so true I don’t use the word never anymore for this reason.
Now, girl, I did not think I'd be sitting up here crying at 12am, but this just hit something in me. I was drawn to your content since I was a little girl, and now I'm turning 21, and I'm feeling the hurt and loneliness you speak of, especially because it is rooted in the same trauma of daddy issues and other factors. This made me feel like I was not alone. Thank you.
I’ve been watching Nikki since I believe was sixth grade. My 21st birthday is today. From the second I opened my eyes this morning I felt alone and full of hurt. I can tell I’m entering just another chapter of hurt and loneliness. This being said for you to know you’re not alone. Your comment helped me feel not so alone. So I wanted to return the favor. We got this, right? We have to. Nikki would be ashamed if we gave up.
@@kylieve2 yes, she would be disappointed❤️. Thank you🫶🏽
MY GIRL IS BACK
That is exactly what I was about to comment like yassssss🎉
Nikki I can tell that you have the joy of the Lord within you and there’s a lot of peace. Missed you so much!! 🫶🏼❤️🕊️
Sorry but cussing isn’t really of the Lord.
@@BeccachzI’ve been wanting to comment about this but I feel like she only recently started talking about God, so I’m hoping that she keeps seeking Him and allowing the Holy Spirit to work in her. One step at a time :)
@@Beccachz I completely agree with that. I’m sure that’s something she’ll be convicted about in the future. We’re all struggling with something and sometimes it takes longer than others. In 2024, I stopped listening to secular music and started only listening to worship because I felt the conviction from the Lord. I finally realized that when I listened to secular music, it was taking my focus away from Jesus.
It also reminds about when George Janko used to cuss all the time in his podcast even though he’s a Christian. In one of his episodes, Girls Gone Bible had called him out on it. Angela had explained to him we don’t cuss at Christian’s and he finally stopped. Sometimes it’s takes awhile to realize parts of our sins that we struggle with the most. From this video, it sounds like Nikki rededicated her life to Christ and she’s a baby Christian right now. I do hope in the future she’ll stop cussing.
She does!!! Praise Jesus ❤
I’m speechless.. hearing your testimony made me check myself.Our pain is so heavy we become angry and bitter with those around us.. I couldn’t be more grateful for you being genuine with all your followers. May you have a blessed year girl! ❤
Yess!! We love Jesus over here!! 🙌❤️ I absolutely can not wait for your Christian content! It is also a goal of mine to get baptized! I recommend making a prayer board, it’s an amazing way to worship and spend time with God and throughout the year see how God moves and answers our prayers 🥰
Hey, love this comment! Can you share a bit more about the Prayer Board please? I’ve never heard of this before but it sounds like something I wanna get involved in x
I found you when I was freshly 11 YEARS OLD. Lil crazy when I think about it now that I’m grown. As the older sister I had no one to go to, no older cousin, friend, aunt, nothing. Watching your videos and these life stories and lessons you provide genuinely shaped me. I can tell authenticity, and your honesty helped me a lot. Coming out of that anxious shell I was in was hard but you showed my little self of was possible. Life happens girl but we’ll always be here supporting you though thick and thin, if Nikki has no supporters I’m dead.
hi nikki, 8 year silent subscriber here! i just wanna say i’m very proud of you for pulling yourself out of the pit and trekking on, despite the year you had. we love you and are looking forward to your channel endeavors, cheering you on from the sidelines! 💗💗
Hearing you talk about God pursuing you specifically by humbling you gave me chills. I went through exactly that the last couple of years. A huge part of my testimony is the pride I had and my judgement of others. God took so much away from me to force me to realize I’m not in control. Everything I’m given is a gift from him and not something to take pride in. I had to learn about my vulnerability and forced out of my delusion of security and strength. I have been watching you since I was 19 and now I’m 28. After my spiritual journey I started watching you less often because I found it took me back to a mindset that I was trying to overcome. I have a similar tendency to lean into anger to avoid deeper feelings of vulnerability and powerlessness. But I saw you posted this and couldn’t be more overjoyed. I’m so happy for you and so thankful for your relationship with God. Thank you for your bravery, speaking publicly about this. I know all of Heaven is cheering you on. You will be a warrior for his kingdom.
I'm an atheist but I'm so happy that faith is bringing you comfort. So happy to see you back. Missed you!
I hope you're able to encounter The Father, Son and Holy Spirit, for yourself :) 💛 His Love is really wonderful x
girl you have raised me i’ve even watching you since i was a child and now im 18 and watching this is making me so proud of you 🥹❤️ this is so vulnerable and being able to acknowledge something like this is so big especially on the internet to double take and go back to your old self and genuinely reflect just shows how much you’ve grown
I feel like 2024 was a year for God’s people to re-devote themselves and prepare to go into 2025. I have been thinking with God in my mind and heart more and more as we’ve gone into the new year. I wish you a happy new year and can’t wait to see more from you!
Amen sista!! Seeing you come to Christ made me tear up! I have been praying this for you for so long. We love you but Jesus loves you more! 🥰❤️
We love you! The real ones understand you’re a mom and a person with your own real life. Make sure you take care of yourself first always ❤
And I relate to this video so much, 3 years ago I went through some super bad stuff and I ended up in therapy getting diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety, and borderline personality disorder. It’s been a rough long journey but 3 yrs later I’m still here, still learning and healing everyday! I hope anyone reading my comments knows you matter, your life matters, make sure you take care of yourself too❤
Nikki, I’ve commented the same thing so many times but I’ll say it again lol. I’ve watched you since I was about 16 or 17- I’m about to be 26! Although this is a parasocial relationship and I know that I don’t actually know you; you have helped shape me so much as I’ve grown. You really truly are everyone’s bestie, big sister, and auntie all in one. Thank you for being so honest and upfront and REAL while being so gentle and kind at the same time. I just really loved this video intro and I could listen to you talk about life for hours. I’m always rooting for you! Love you girl 🩷
This was so real. I’ve been watching you for yeaaars. I’m about to be 23 and am just going through this phase of being tired of being angry. Tired of being silently spiteful. Tired of wanting them to see me. I resonate with your story so much and it’s no coincidence I came across this video as I’m entering this phase.
I needed this I’ve been watching you since 16 and I’m 22 and I feel like all I can say is thank you.
My 2024 sucked too, I got baptised back in 2019 and God chased me down for years and oooft he got me on the floor for 45 minutes. Praying for you. God is good.
Yes!! Nikki this is exactly what I went through this past year! God really humbled me in a number of ways and I truly appreciate you for being so vulnerable and real and bringing God and your faith to it! Praying for blessings this year for you and your family 🙌❤️
I love this about you ❤ you're just so open to check yourself when you figure out you've done wrong or that you could change for the better and thats very mature of you. God knows we need more people like this in this world.
Praise God, I love your testimony. God knocks you down to come back 10 times better and healed! I love you Nikki! I was 22 when I found you I’m now 32 and finding the power of God as well. I love this for you!! ❤❤❤
Girl 2024 was a YEARRRR for mental health struggles. Lowest I had ever seen myself. Glad to see us all still here tho. Strong as a MOTHER 💜
We always got your back girly no matter when 🥰
I’m sitting in my car on my break crying, I’ve missed you so much, and this has been the hardest year of my life . I am also someone who has open perpetually 'okay' and I really really trying to come out of this in tact . I needed to see this video today .
I was tearing up about hearing your story a lot of what you said resonated and I’m so happy you found your way. I’m so happy you’re back and thankful to be here
This video was yet another confirmation from God that He has always and will always be in every aspect of my life. When I first came across your channel like ten years ago now, I never thought this video was coming. I am happy you’re getting closer to God bc I know how good it feels as I too am getting close to Him for two months now. Happy to see you back ❤️
I love you so much. Praying for your healing and everyone here. GOD is so amazing when he humbles us and even though it hurts just know it’s so much brighter on the other side. When you can truly move on from the past and not let it come up and interfere or interrupt your peace, honestly such a blessing. Stay strong by GOD’S grace. You are healed in Jesus name. Always here for you
thank you so much for sharing this! in a place of darkness where pain is deeply rooted yet you know ur own strength is something next level and i’m so happy you touched on that and i’m not alone going thru this same situation sometimes you just need to hear it! i’ve been watching you since i was 10/11 years old and i’ll be 21 next month its been such a beautiful journey seeing your growth and everything you are even doing now thank you nikki love you sm!🩷🫶🏽
Nikki! I been a Christian for so long and recently this past year hit me like a truck as allot of building up unresolved trauma hit me in the face. I because angry, dry , sad & empty. I’m trying so hard to keep pushing through because I feel so lonely & hurt. Your video helped me really understand that I’m not alone , and that even if I have a walk with the Lord and love the Lord I’m not the only one.
Thanks for posting this 🤍
i love how you’re so genuine with us. i’ve been watching your videos for years and i’ve always been able to resonate with them. It’s such a breath of fresh air 🩷.
Nikki this was the ONE. This was me in 2022/2023. By the Grace of GOD. He gave me those two years to shed, slow down & rebuild. My heart posture has changed so much. Thank you for sharing 🤍
Nikki girl I missed you! 2024 has been the hardest year of my life. My little brother passed away recently and I’ve been going through so much pain and grief. This video really resonated with me and reminded me that’s it’s okay not to be okay. I’m so grateful for you and your content, always getting me through these though times. ❤️
This definitely came at the perfect time. I have been watching your videos since I was around 16-17 and now I’m 26. I just had my first baby and he’s 10 months old and I am struggling with PPD. I definitely feel a shift coming with myself and changing the way I view things. I also don’t remember much of my childhood and I notice it happening even with recent events. This was my sign and I appreciate you! ❤️
Nikki words can't explain how much you've helped me through life. Thank you for being a bright light in this world. ❤
Its crazy how you had memory loss when you have such good memory when retelling your stories
Wow, what a rude and uneducated comment. The only person you managed to humiliate with that little comment- is yourself. I hope your embarrassed
Some ppl block out trauma
@Glorielluh yea i know that
I have a very good memory but I’m also that person who blocks out trauma, so it’s not really that crazy
I think this comment was to point out how bad the trauma must have been that her brain blocked it out, which is the complete opposite of her normal self.
I can not wait for this next chapter! My husband and I moved closer to God I'm 2024 ✝️ Sending love and prayers ❤❤❤❤
I'm only 1 minute and 44 seconds in and I feel seen and heard. Girl, you are not alone. I'm going through the absolute ringer. Thank-you for posting and for being vulnerable. You won't ever know much you help the world
Hi Nikki! Been watching you since I was in middle school and am now 22 almost 23. I have recently in the last few years discovered God again and am so glad with how much you refer to him! Missed your videos and so happy you are back!!!!!! Prayers and blessing for you and your family and a happy New Year!!🤍
I needed this video right now. I'm going through my healing journey and it's rough but I'm taking it day by day. I'm 25 and have been watching you for who knows how long. I can't believe Julian is 17 now. Thanks for the video.
this is why you’ll always be Big Sister, Auntie Nikki. You’re always popping out with advice and I don’t think you realize how much you’ve inspired me to become THAT WOMAN. I came across your channel when I was about 14 yrs old, I literally just turned 20, thank you for staying true to yourself, taking the steps to heal yourself, and putting up content that allows us to see YOU. Social media is such a small part in life, but you’ve played a big roll in my upbringing. Thank youuu and we love you Nikki🫶🏽🫶🏽
Thank you for putting this out in the world. Thank you for providing us your story and struggles. Thank you for giving us hope and empowerment to look within ourselves and be better. I found your channel when I was around 19. I’m about to be 27 and I am so grateful to see your journey and feeling like I had a virtual sister to “chit chat” with. You have taught me many things throughout the years. This current upload made it more real for me that I need to deal with my childhood traumas and how it’s affecting me today when I’m alone and in my thoughts. Thank you for inspiring thought and progression to be introspective with our own growth.
Good god Nikki. I feel like we’ve grown up together. I’ve been here for over 10 years and I watch every single video. But this video? Has me in absolute tears. As a (too) young teen to college/early corporate girly to now a mother in the element of growing a family that is working through long life (forgotten) trauma, your videos always seemed to come at the right time. You are only human and we can always rely on you for that. ❤️thank you for being you Nikki!! We love and appreciate your transparency on this channel. Thank you x100000!!
I’ve been watching you since I was around 14-15? I’m turning 24 this year 😮 I also have my journey with the Lord , and I have my kids now and you’re the ONE creator that has been real since day 1 and hearing you talk about God makes me even happier!! I’m also on 1 kings too lol. Keep doing you girl.
Nikki you were here through the hardest times in my life and I’m positive it’s the same among us, so we will always be here for you through the ups AND downs
Thank you for being your authentic and honest self❤. I subscribed to you years ago because I could relate to you on such a deep level. Honestly, I feel like the walking, talking, glamorous Canadian version of you (like it's creepy, girl). Once again, you’ve managed to put into words exactly what I’ve been feeling, making me feel seen, heard, and less alone. I’m so happy to hear you've done some soul healing, and I can’t wait to see more from you this year!❤
I have been praying for you for 3 years Nikki (watching you for 8). I knew the Lord was gonna get ahold of your heart!!! 🙏🏽💜 I can’t even explain the emotion I felt when you said you’re gonna get baptized. God is such a good good father!
Girllll I been watching you since I was a freshman in high school and im now about to be 24, you’ve helped me soo much and i see so much of you in me. Thank you for subconsciously always being there🫶🏽
Yess girl!! Ive been watching since i was in highschool now im about to be 24 and honestly this video hit me so deeply, you wouldn't believe how much I needed this! Glad your back! Sending you lots of love!
Sis I’m glad ur back….. the internet has been sooooooooo boring without u…. Keep ur chin up and be the boss u naturally are…. GO GET IT!!!!…. Love ur personality….. glad ur back
i am happy you made this video nikki, but im also sad that i didnt see how you really felt. but that brings me to another topic; we can never guess what anyone is going through and this video clarified this. and its ok not to be ok. no one said we need to go through life without sorror or sadness. we all experience meaningful things and not all of them are meant to be good and even if its hard, that is life and we all find ways to keep going. we feel alone with our feelings but we arent, there will always be someone that will understand what you went through. i hope you will heal from everything and even if it takes decades, the journey in itself will make you grow. im praying for you and for your family and everyone else that has hardships right now. bless you, dear.
So happy to see you! You’re glowing, I can see the happiness in your eyes. So so happy for you and wishing you the best 🫶🏻🤍
This video is so crazy to me because I’ve been watching you since I was in middle school (I’m 23 now), your videos got me through a lot of bad experiences through my teen years. Now I’m 23 going through quite possibly the lowest point in my life, finding myself, feeling all the HARD feelings, leaning towards God. It’s so nice to hear that one of my favorite creators is also human, has also gone through dark stuff, AND got past it. I can do it too. I’m so glad I found you 10+ years ago from storyyytimeeeees to life advice I’ve never disliked a video. Keep being you Nikki we LOVE you🩷
I just had a baby 3 months ago and even though he doesn't give hugs just his little touches are so heartwarming, or when he holds my finger or just snuggles into me. It's the best and watching him grow, it just really does something to you on the inside!!!
NIKKI BABE YOU WILL NEVERRRR FALL OFF girl that throne youre on is fit to YOU! we love you sm ❤ ive been watching since the stepsister storytimed began youre my favorite creator because youre so real and you have remained the sweetest and funniest throughout your whole yt journey! love you Nikki 🥰
Im so glad you’re back!!! Perfect timing as Iam going though a very rough time in my life.i was having to re watch videos that I already have watched 😭❤️
Yess story time!! I clicked so quick girl! Happy new year!❤
Nikki! It is so good to see you back on RUclips! Good for you for seeking help when you needed it!
I started my therapy journey in 2023. I gained 60 pounds starting off. Some of it was my medication, but a lot of it was just trying to suppress. Early 2024 I exploded. Everything is a meltdown. Everything is me being a failure, the end of the world. I’m trying to reign it all in. Trying to get rid of the depression weight. Trying to have new beginnings. Thank you for being vulnerable and making me feel less alone. Love you 💜💜💜
I have been watching you for YEARSSSS now, and seeing your growth is so beautiful. God bless you nikki🩷 thank you for always being like a big sister to us
Welcome back Nikki! Hope this year is better. You are gorgeous girl!
Girl that is the most humbling experience you’re ever gonna go through … you can ask and ask and ask and when your time comes to actually go thru it - you get caught like a dear in a headlights … like what in the world is thisss .. but then the “ this is what you asked for “ kicks in .. I’m proud of you for going thru it and getting thru it! Love you Nikki
I’m so glad you made your comeback with this video. You literally explained everything I’m going through and trying to get through right now. This gives me hope that there is a way through. Thank you for sharing ❤
So sooo glad that you're back. And thank you for sharing your struggles with us. I can definitely relate to suppression of memories and dealing with all of it when they finally come back is a whirlwind. glad you've been able to work through it while allowing yourself to feel all of the emotions and coming to terms with and accepting your full story. Proud of you momma!
i’ve been watching you since i was in middle school probably like 12 years old and i’m now almost 20 this video was exactly what i needed i also had the hardest and worst year of my life in 2024 and ive started to take some steps to make sure this year is better but there’s certain goals that im having trouble achieving due to my lack of healthy coping i’m gonna try that bingo card for sure! and thank you sharing i felt so alone i thought i was the only one who got knocked down this past year we love you Niki and can’t wait to see you grow even more!
I’m so happy you’re back I’ve missed you!!! You look awesome Nikki 🥰🥰🥰
Giiirl this video hit me. I found your account when I was pregnant almost 8yrs ago, freshly moved out & adjusting to what was my new life. I was here for the chaos but I was always here for the growth. I love your videos! I hope God sees all the good you do & repays you x10. Here’s to an amazing 2025!🎉
I completely understand! 2024 was honestly great for me, but the last month whooped my behind girl. I started therapy in October and by mid December, I started remembering things from my teen years that happened and it was like getting hit by a truck. I would LOVE to do story times on my channel but I literally cannot remember anything because everything was so traumatic for me up until 2023! I resonate so much with your memory suppression. It sucks but it’s also so freeing to remember.
You explaining not remembering childhood hits hard I don’t remember alottttttttt and remembering me comes to me as if it was a dream
I will get on my knees and pray for you. Thank you for sharing, being vulnerable, and helping me remember that life is hard, God is good, and to just have faith and lean on him. I really appreciate you. I hope to meet you someday, because you’re someone I admire and would love to have a conversation or two with you.
God bless ❤
Nikki, you were dearly missed. I am so excited for your content along with all the other Glamazons. I’d love to see this Christian content you’ve hinted at in so excited. Sending you love.
i started watching u when i had just moved to mexico at 20, it was the worst time everrrrrr and i would always watch ur videos at night and i swear ur videos were the highlight of my night 🩷.
Love you Nikki! I'm so proud of your growth and i can only hope I'm half as strong as you. ❤
Yes girl!!! You’re back! I noticed you were gone for a good while. I would look forward to seeing you on my RUclips feeds, and here you are. Makes me happy to know that you’re on your healing journey and found GOD. Welcome back Chica!! Stay blessed
This one is so real. I can 100% relate to everything your explaining. In my 20's I was rocky in my 30's =,growth, life humbled me for sure. I think it's happens to a of us, it's wild how life works
I lost my mom, dad, and grandmother in 2024. It was rough. I started clearing my shit in 2022, thank GOD; otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to make it through last year.
🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
So glad you’re back! 2024 was really hard for me too. I lost a loved one, lost a lot of money bc my job was taken over by AI and I struggled to find a new job, I stayed inside all summer studying for a new certification, and now I’m learning this difficult new job. It’s been a rough one but I know 2025 is gonna be better!
I'm sorry to hear that, and I hope 2025 is better for you! If you don't mind sharing, what was your job before? I'm currently contemplating my future because of AI. No worries if you'd prefer not to discuss it. Have a great Sunday! 🤍
Girl I found your account when I was in middle school and now I’m turning 20 this year. I love your videos and have learned so much through you. Love God and keep preaching ❤
Been watching since the beginning!! And won’t be leaving anytime soon!! I love your content and always have!
Thank you Nikki for being you, you've no idea how much you've been like a sister to me throughout all the difficult phases of my life. I'm typing this note with tears in my eyes and gratitude towards you. May God bless you and your family for eternity
Nikkiiii!!!!!! I’ve been watching you for years!! I haven’t even watched this video fully yet I’m about to but the caption alone! I know you grew up in Church and knew the Lord but to see the joy of the Lord growing in you know, the boldness of your faith shining through I’M SO HAPPY! The Lord is truly pouring out His spirit on all and I am HERE for it!
I’m so glad to see you!!!!! I’m glad you are ok. Can’t wait to see your growth. Don’t be afraid. We are all out here growing along with you.
You will NEVER fall off to me 🥺 been watching since I was in middle or high school and now I’m 26!
Not you bringing me to tears 🙈🙈 I’ve been riding with you for years and I feel like this was exactly what I needed to see in this moment. I am so proud of you and so happy for you! Te Quiero muncho hermana ❤️🔥
Girl I’m glad you are doing ok! Mental health can take such a toll on you, and getting help is a big hurdle to cross. Hoping we all feel much better.
Dear Nikki, I have been a silent watcher for years now but I feel like this video deserves a comment for the past 2 years my life has been going downhill and I mean downhill from daddy issues, to family issues, money problems , breaking off an engagement and many more but as I’m sitting here completely and utterly numb from the hurt and I know there is so much more deep inside you have spoken to me in more ways than one and I will forever be grateful to you and this video specifically is what I needed to see today I have been needing to hear your words so thank you from a silent watcher
thanks for being so transparent queen . life is humbling I’ve learned that lesson in my 30s too! so proud of u nikki keep going🥹🩷
I resonate with this WORD FOR WORD. The past few years through me upside down and I became everything I judged people for and my anger that fueled my passions ran out. I have been having to confront and overcome everything I repressed in my memories and judged others for. It has been the worst years of my life. I feel like in the past month I am finally picking myself back up and I hope it's only up from here. Thank you for sharing this because it gives me hope that things can get better after its been so depressive and dark for the past couple of years.
I’m 26 and I’ve been watching your channel for 8 years. I swear it feels even longer than that. It’s so nice to see your face! Everybody be sure that you are ready for your life to flip on its head when you ask the Lord to reveal your true purpose, especially regarding the people in your life. They will start to drop like flies. The power of the tongue is so real!
I had a rough 2024 career wise. It was hard to rationalize that the place that I prayed to be in wasn’t what it seemed to be. I’m trying to make peace with the idea that it may be time for something new this year even though there are aspects I still love.
I’m wishing everybody health and healing as they embark on 2025 🩷
I went back to your videos after you said Julian is about to be 17 and daaaaamn I been here since your “tell it like it is” series! Craaaaaazy! You’ve been such an inspiration through and through ❤
Been a silent subscriber since 2016, I love seeing you change and evolve and I relate so heavily to you 💗💗
Aww Nikki, it makes me so happy to hear that you've really found yourself and God. 2024 was hard for me too but it led me a lot closer to the Lord so I wouldn't change anything. Excited for whatever content you have next!
youve helped me through important parts of my life im now a adult ive been watching you for years even through your Sh*ty Sh*ty apartment and im so grateful for the time and energy youve put into this, im glad to see you doing better and doing whats best for you ill always be a forever fan
Nikki your content has been helping me get through so many dark times since I was 17. I’m almost 26 and still battling depression and cptsd but your words have always resonated with my soul, you make me feel like I can face my shit and still come out strong. I hope you never stop fighting, sending you so much love and strength for your healing journey 💙
I missed you so much! Truly a blessing to start the year off with you 🥺💕
Yeeaahh 😁 I'm So Happy for You❣️ May God continue blessing You 🙏🏼
Nikki to say I needed this video without knowing is an understatement 😅thank you for being you ❤