Ok imma quote a chat with two girls. “She’s abusive.” “She’s never hit me.” “She doesn’t have to.” Remember, abuse doesn’t have to be physical to be hurtful.
To everyone who is saying "first". Please stop saying "first". This is a VERY serious video, please show respect. I don't want any mean replys, I will not reply to any replys.
I will now reply to replys. Like I said, This is a serious video please show respect. Thank you to all the other people who are showing support and love to Pantsless Pajamas.
"You are alive and you are strong" Another way of saying what my Late Grandmother always told me, something I recently got tattooed onto myself to remind me. "Remember, my love, you are not broken. Bent, but not broken."
Her: “look at yourself, seriously, look at your face, hands, wiggle your fingers, you are here and you are strong” Me: *wiggles fingers* “ I’m alive” *starts crying* “this is so touching”
I can relate to this girl in so many ways. My parents never did anything bad to me (they protected me) but I was exposed to a dangerous amount of bullying at too young an age. My school literally taught us what suicide was in 1st grade and I tried to use it the next year through bribing of many "friends."
Eclipse 5 I've been through this kind of treatment but it was through the person who bought into this world, I mean she did have this as a child from hers and tries not to be her for me and my siblings. But it manages to leak out of her sometimes but mostly to me since Im the girl of the family, and I have bottled up so many emotions through my life and a lot of turmoil but I choose to see another day and its for you to make that choice, not those in your head. You're good and you should believe it.
Me: *watches video*. *cries* Friend: Are you crying? Me: What, no. *cries*. M-my eyes are just.... sweating.... Friend: What are you watching? Me: *shows video* Friend: *cries* Me: *cries*. It's sad :'( Friend: Bless her heart Me: This video is so sad. 10/10! * Likes video*
It’s not that easy, getting emotionally beaten into the ground doesn’t just stop one day, plus concerning how much of a grip the guy had he might have seriously hurt some one, and this kinds stuff goes one for years, shuttle at first but it gets worse and worse slowly, you can’t always see it even when it’s right in front of you, how can you possible know ‘divorse’ Was even an option for her?
Miki Snowfox As somebody who went through divorce it’s not that simple. If your partner is abusive it doesn’t stop when you take the ring off your finger.
Jonee Townes *sigh* I hate people seeing like this. Listen, divorcing isn’t that simple. It took my mom over a year to fully be divorced from my dad. Clearly, you don’t know that not everything is that simple.
My parents were both verbally abusive my dad is going to therapy to try to fix his behavior my mom on the other hand dosen't want help and dosen't think theirs anything wrong with what she is saying. But I'm not in contact with my mother anymore but still in contact with my dad at least he wants to change. I feel sympathy for people who've been abused both physically and mentally.
@@noel2039 I'm not an idiot ;-; Plus, if she categorized it, I'm sure she wouldn't have made it comedy.... " _logic_ " not being rude tho, just saying. Edit: also I make videos and I don't categorize them, RUclips does. Just saying :P
💔 oops i broke it! Here I'll be more careful with this one!!❤❤❤❤ UwU everyone that sees this, keep trying! Everyone is something on this planet...everyone is everything.
I watched this video and I cried so hard my sister came into my room and thought something was wrong and said “It’s okay” but really it’s not... somewhere in this world RIGHT NOW! Horrible things are happening to anybody and they have no way to stop it! It really hurts me when I think about it...
Stop cutting the onions! But seriously this video was so inspiring. I was planning on losing my life this Valentines day, but I didn't. I'm still here. This video reminded me of my dark times, all the people I called friends either leaved me, or betrayed me. I was so social as a kid....but due to the bulling, I have grown to not trust anyone. I have grown depression and social anxiety since last year, because my childhood friend backstabbed me last Valentines day, so Valentines day 2018 I wanted to get it over with. Valentines day is a curse to me. But 2019.... Valentines day....I will make it the best day of my life. Before I start rambling, don't think of losing your life like I did. Things can get better. RUclips actually helps my social skills, I act like a completely different person on the internet. So....thank you RUclips and all the RUclipsrs I love, you make me strong. - GalacticAngel
gαlαcтιcαηgεl :3 I feel the same way about youtube and I know that you probably don't care about what I have to say and we'll probably never meet in real life but I would be your friend........I have friends but they're not very loyal and you sound like a very nice person so........ugh I'm rambling the point is I'll be your friend and I'm happy that your alive
Who cares about who was first! I just looked trough the comments and half the people here are fighting about who was the first person to click on the video. I get that they probably typed that before they even watched the video, but come on guys. Who gives a damn about that! I don't really care about people commenting "early squad" or "First!". But, its the people who reply to those comments and complain that they were the first ones. I mean... Scroll down, It just goes on and on and on!! There's no reason to fight!! AyChristene WAS FIRST!!!
I know I’m a bit late (more like a month) but this made me realize something. The fact that I am so lucky to have the father I have. He loves me, cares for me, and always is there to brighten my day. Sometimes he makes me feel awful, but that’s on bad days, so it’s probably just my fear taking over. Even though he’s the type of person who might just say something without meaning it, I still have a father. Someone to look up to. It makes me realize, how lucky I am. Yes, there are some days that all I want to do is cry. Every single thing my mind has to manipulate into some kind of insult. But I don’t have what this poor girl had and still has to suffer through. If this is happening, my heart goes out to you. 💕
This video made me cry, and it makes my want to share my story. My father and my mom have been separated since I was 6 months old, due to my father’s anger issues. Though they don’t live together, I still had to visit him every other weekend. I remember a lot of things he did. He’d yell harshly at me for the smallest things and he’d do things like spank me. I don’t mean spanking as in a light hit on the bum to say ‘don’t do that, child’. He spanked me hard, and most often for nothing. I’d be walking up or down the stairs and he’d spank me. And laugh at it. It got so bad, I was so scared about having him behind me, I had to have him go down or up stairs before me just so I’d feel safe enough walking around the house. I had been brought up by my mom to tell her things. She’s my best friend and I tell her everything. It still applied when I was a child. I’d tell things to my mom about what would happen with my father that would make me feel weird. Like that time he got pulled over for speeding. He got in extra trouble when the officer saw me strapped into the backseat in my booster. He’d yell at me when he found out I told Mom about things. He’d call me a turd, a brat, a shit. It made me feel awful. I didn’t want to be a brat or a burden, so I tried to be good for him, but I never seemed to be able to. When I got older and was able to sit in the front seat with him, he’d do things like slap my thighs. It made me feel very uncomfortable. The last things now. The last time I ever saw him was awful. It started with the move. My father lived with his mother and step father, and since they were moving, he had to too. Apparently, my cousin Lilly (18 with a son) had been grumpy towards my Nana. According to him, he snapped. My father grabbed my cousin by the throat and pushed her against the kitchen table. I could see how scared she was when I looked into her eyes. He bought my ice cream to apologize to me for seeing it. Later, he took me to the mall so I could get my mom a present for her birthday. We’d stopped in Shoppers Drug Mart to pick up a card. He said that’s all we were there for, so when he led me elsewhere in the store, I was confused. I asked him where we were going and “weren’t we done?” He rose up to his full height, walked towards me threateningly, and said “we leave when I say we leave, got it punk?” The last one that happened in that same week as the strangling and drug mart incidents, he took me to Giant Tiger to pick up chips. On the way, he found a think piece of wood (maybe a cutting board?), smacked it in his hands and said “this’ll be good for keeping you in line, eh?” I had been having nightmares about him for years, and all these incidents just amplified everything. The first thing I did when I got home was tell Mom everything. I don’t visit him anymore, but he’s been bugging my mother about me not seeing him, and has threatened to get a lawyer involved. I’m still scared, for myself as well as my cousin who’s been going through stuff like this longer than me.
Woah, he physically and possibly “y’know” abused you? I’m very surprised that you haven’t mentioned “depressed” in any of those paragraphs. It sounds like you would be going through a absolute fight with Satan himself.. my Dad likes to hit me playfully, and I hit him back too playfully. We play-fight a lot by smacking each other or he would randomly grab my foot and tickle it and he likes to purposely annoy me. I am a Daddy’s Girl or what I like to say Daddy’s Little Monster because my Dad likes to call me Munchkin or Monkey Butt, and it sounds like names that could be transformed into a monster I guess, but he does do one thing that really disturbs me and makes me feel really uncomfortable. Sometimes he would try to kiss me but he accidently kisses me near my neck and it makes me really uncomfortable. I assume he just missed my cheek because he is really a good father and always finds a way to make me happy.
My father never laid his hands on me but I went though the exact same thing. My parents divorced when I was 3 due to my fathers anger issues, we move all the way north up the country to basically escape him and live with other family. My mother met my step dad who I see as my actual father, he taught me how yo tied my shoes along with other things, we would make empanadas and have fun together. Even though I don’t remember much it was nice the next 3 years.. Until my father moved up to the same state we live in.. he seemed nice at first, goofy, maybe even a decent person. We would have chicken nuggets every night and gave me everything I wanted. But then especially as I got older he would start yelling at me for the most stupidest things. I remember he screamed at me for losing a rain coat even though I told him I didn’t know where it was, he screamed and screamed at me. I never got that memory out of my head ever since. But normally say a day after yelling at me, he would randomly apologize and give me gifts again. It became a cycle almost.. until my father remarried. In my eyes he married a psychopath, but maybe that isn’t the case? The woman didn’t speak a word of English and when I first met her she seemed kind, but then they started fighting.. physically fighting.. I would even hear my father say that he wanted her dead. So I don’t know but normally I would see his wife on top of my father basically fighting and punching each other, the scarier thing is that she had two VERY young children that were in the house with us. This went on for 5 months along with the 6 year abuse cycle I was already having with my own father. This gave me a lot of anxiety, stress, and little sleep. I was scared to tell my mother what was happening because I was afraid my father would just scream at me again. One night though something happened that got me out of there. I didn’t even make the decision my father told me to call the police.. so I did.. and about the next day I talked to CPS and got taken by my mother. I still loved my father and thought he was a good man, but after I left I started thinking more.. why would he yell at me like that? Why would he randomly apologize like that and give me everything I wanted? Would he tried to manipulate me..? Or was he unknowingly abusing me and he just loved me deep down? The more I think about it the more I say that what he did to me wasn’t right, it was wrong and nobody would do such a thing. Before my mother finally won full custody he would try to contact me, and I knew he shouldn’t and I didn’t even want to talk to him. I told my mother about the yelling and she told me that she was abused too. That’s when it clicked, the reason why my mom divorced my father in the first place. She could’ve gone though something very similar. And that’s when I figured out it was abuse. To this day my biggest fear is my father taking me back, I still have anxiety but I do get better sleep. But at any time at any day my father might try to take me back, and it seems like he will. Fortunately I’m getting to an age where I’m old enough to make the decision that this isn’t want I want and I don’t want to see him. Even to this day knowing that what happened to me was abuse I still think that… does he still love me? Has he changed..? Has he fixed the scars..? Or will he just make them simply bigger..? There is many more I forgot to mention but this basically sums it up, I know just realizing this I could probably write a book about what I experienced but Its also affected me, I’m doing much better now and I am talking to therapy, I also hear story’s like this telling me I have a voice of things get worse. So thanks for sharing your story.
When Christene started talking about taking revenge on the people who hurt you and not the people you love it reminded me of a quote I wanted to share by an unknown author "If you don't heal what hurt you, you'll bleed on people who didn't cut you" - unknown
Both of my parents were mentally abusive. I'm slowly gaining my self-esteem with therapy. I want to give hugs and positive vibes to people suffering through this. You're strong, you're special and most of all you're a beautiful person.
I was one of the people who requested this video and Im happy you did because more people can see this and more people can get help. Thank you for reacting to this ♡
This made me really sad... And for the people say "first" have you even watch the video? This is a serious video, you should feel embarrassed of yourself for saying that, just watch the video.
I cried so much and I watched this before, this is so sad and it's sad that people, kids and teens have to deal with these problems if you're not dealing with these problems and don't have abusive parents or abusive relationships then you have a big blessing, and if anyone who has these problems you're not alone, you have to be strong and not listen to those words in you're head they just try to bring you down, I know it's hard to find help or ask for help but that makes you stronger.(like she said in the video) That's all I need to say 😊
After I watched the video I realized that my mom and dad and my sister kept putting me down and no matter what I did it was not good enough and if I bagged my sister for help when I wanted to die all she said was I was being dramatic I still live with them but I have my girlfriend and my friends who care about me they are my real family in my heart
I put this on the original video but I figured that I would put it here since I see a few ppl here sharing stuff similar to what was in the video. If you already saw this over there, you can ignore it since its just copy and pasted from over there: I've dealt with the abuse too from my own family. Not sexual, but physical, verbal, emotional and mental. I'm the oldest out of three sisters, so I'm always the one to be the example, the one that succeeds. But whatever I did, no matter how hard I tried on anything, it just wasn't good enough for my parents and every time my little sisters would be there to show me up. My father, he would be the physical, verbal and sometimes mental abuser. He slapped me right as I had walked into the apartment we were living in at the time when I was 7 or 8, but he didn't exactly apologize. He didn't apologize at all, he just did it because he wanted to. And as I got older, apart from the slaps, he would... he would always have a belt nearby. It would be for when he saw that I was trouble, when he thought that I needed to be kept in line, that I needed to be taught a lesson, he would have it with him during those times. And you could imagine that it hurt a lot. He would also give off the impression that he did not like having daughters. Especially the oldest being a daughter. He wanted a son, so he would constantly be confused with how girls work and disregard feelings, treating only me like I was a boy. He didn't do this to my little sisters, as to our parents, they were more valuable than me, they meant more and were perfect angels in their eyes when in reality, they weren't. He'd tell me that he didn't love me anymore before I got on the bus to school, he made fun of my looks and whenever I'd stutter trying to explain myself for any accident I had caused or I'm caught up in tears, he'd make fun of me and yell at me, telling me to speak normally. He'd make fun of me for anything he saw as weird or something that he didn't like. And my mother and my little sisters didn't do shit to stop him and try to help. Instead they watched, letting it happen. He seemed like he didn't trust me for whatever reason, and when it seemed like that was the truth, I knew that I was just a disappointment to him and like you said, I felt like I was broken. My mother on the other hand was more of the emotional, verbal and mental abuser. She would constantly be disgusted by me, seeing me as the black sheep. No matter what I did and how hard I tried, like my father, she saw that I wasn't good enough. Whenever I tried to help her out, she would just yell at me to get out after messing up once, calling me a failure. Constantly, she would talk about me behind my back to my little sisters and my father and I'd hear them. I'd hear them talk about my physical appearance and then eventually, they'd start talking about how much of a failure I was because I wasn't smart or talented or how weird I was for liking things that they don't like. Eventually, she thought I was borderline autistic because of how emotional I was, how much I'd sit away in my room because it was my only safe haven in in the house. Whenever I tried to express myself and say what I wanted for my future like where I wanted to go for college, she was usually the one who would shut me down, making me feel like my dreams, my wants were just nothing. Like they weren't a thing, like my happiness never existed. She was also the type to deny me any sort of input, making choices for me on her own without my consent. Of course, she'd confirm it with my dad, but not me. Her and my father, whenever something went wrong, they'd look at me and start blaming me saying it was my fault and eventually, after enough yelling and blaming... I began to believe that everything was and is my fault. It was my fault I was a bad daughter, that I was worthless, that I didn't mean anything if I wasn't perfect like my little sisters. I guess that's why they decided to just leave me one Halloween at a Whataburger and never pick me up there. Just so they could try to abandon me and leave me for someone else to deal with, to be a burden to just like I am to them. I understand that both of them had been through stuff that have been hard, that they have been hurt by others, but like you said, it didn't give them the justification to abuse and shut out their oldest daughter. When it comes to my little sisters, they were taught to look up to my parents, so naturally they took after their personalities and mannerisms. And as you probably could've guessed, that wasn't a good thing. Aside from taking in parts of their personalities and their mannerisms, they were also pretty good at acting, acting like they had done nothing completely wrong and placing blame on me and they believed them over me no matter how much I explained myself. Them along with my parents wasted no time with cutting down my positive feelings and making fun of my negative ones as well as my fears and insecurities, joining in with them. They'd push buttons that weren't suppose to be pushed but I couldn't do anything due to my parents punishing me if I tried to stand up for myself against them, to defend myself. And when it came to love, to who to care for, I was pushed to the side and ignored while they gave my little sisters all the love they could spare for them... And it hurt, seeing the people that raised you not offering love to you, not caring for you, not giving consideration, not caring whether you were there or not as long as you didn't get in the way. I clung to people, to friends I eventually began to make because I had finally found people that had the same interests, that cared, that I could be around and not be worried about saying the wrong thing and being mocked for it. I clung to them for so long that they became the only people I could try to be happy around. Eventually as I grew up, I found more friends and lost friends as well, even the ones that I had trusted and that I had considered to be like family to me, trying to have a "family" that could make me feel like I could have my own family to escape my own, but there were always voices in my head whenever I was alone. They'd give me thoughts that weren't my own, thoughts that eventually made me want them to go away, to shut up. I had worked up the courage to find a way, but... but I became too much of a coward, too much of a scared little girl to even follow through with it. Yes, I still have those thoughts, yes I still want them to shut up but I try to block them out, to keep living for my own self and for my friends cause they are the only ones in this world who gives a damn about me. Not those that have broken me and hurt me, not just from my family but also those outside my family. I'm really sorry this is like extremely long and I understand if anyone gave up reading before this point. I just saw ppl doing this in the comments so I decided to throw my two cents in
Im glad you have your friends to cope with you through this. I hope you get the professional help you need & get the medication and therapist to heal the pain your family has inflicted to you. Survive long enough to escape from your family and live on your dreams that do have a meaning. Purse your own desires that YOU want to do. You already are doing enough by just waking up and facing the hellish day. Life sucks, it really does but it’s not all pitch black. I wish I could’ve known you personally to guide you through, but all I can do is type this and pray for you. I don’t have to know you to show care and kindness. Friend or not, you still are a human being who needs help. I don’t know if this is or isn’t helping you. If it isn’t, I’m sorry, I’m not really good with words. This can’t heal you in a snap but I do hope that reading this has helped you.
@@pxrsie8957 no, no, its all good, I'm not good with words either. It does help me reading this. I have the same mindset too, treating others with kindness and care even if I don't know them. Thanks for everything that you said
People need to understand that if you have pain talk to your friends or your family but do not I repeat do not inflict that pain on any one else because all your gonna get is more pain .All you have to do is be strong and talk to people that are close to you, pray to god or at least do something that doesn’t involve you or any one else getting hurt 😢. Oh and I love your videos Christine just wanted to tell you that just in case you forget
Omg 😭😳😢🤭I feel so much emotional stuff I can’t even talk I can’t imagine I been through moments that I thought I was useless but I have loving parents I can’t imagine I’m so sorry 😢😥😭
I hear story’s like this often and I wanted to share mine. My parents divorced when I was 3 due to my fathers anger issues, we move all the way north up the country to basically escape him and live with other family. My mother met my step dad who I see as my actual father, he taught me how to tie my shoes along with other things, we would make empanadas and have fun together. Even though I don’t remember much it was nice the next 3 years.. Until my father moved up to the same state we live in.. he seemed nice at first, goofy, maybe even a decent person. We would have chicken nuggets every night and gave me everything I wanted. But then especially as I got older he would start yelling at me for the most stupidest things. I remember he screamed at me for losing a rain coat even though I told him I didn’t know where it was, he screamed and screamed at me. I never got that memory out of my head ever since. But normally say a day after yelling at me, he would randomly apologize and give me gifts again. It became a cycle almost.. until my father remarried. In my eyes he married a psychopath, but maybe that isn’t the case? The woman didn’t speak a word of English and when I first met her she seemed kind, but then they started fighting.. physically fighting.. I would even hear my father say that he wanted her dead. So I don’t know but normally I would see his wife on top of my father basically fighting and punching each other, the scarier thing is that she had two VERY young children that were in the house with us. This went on for 5 months along with the 6 year abuse cycle I was already having with my own father. This gave me a lot of anxiety, stress, and little sleep. I was scared to tell my mother what was happening because I was afraid my father would just scream at me again. One night though something happened that got me out of there. I didn’t even make the decision my father told me to call the police.. so I did.. and about the next day I talked to CPS and got taken by my mother. I still loved my father and thought he was a good man, but after I left I started thinking more.. why would he yell at me like that? Why would he randomly apologize like that and give me everything I wanted? Would he tried to manipulate me..? Or was he unknowingly abusing me and he just loved me deep down? The more I think about it the more I say that what he did to me wasn’t right, it was wrong and nobody would do such a thing. Before my mother finally won full custody he would try to contact me, and I knew he shouldn’t and I didn’t even want to talk to him. I told my mother about the yelling and she told me that she was abused too. That’s when it clicked, the reason why my mom divorced my father in the first place. She could’ve gone though something very similar. And that’s when I figured out it was abuse. To this day my biggest fear is my father taking me back, I still have anxiety but I do get better sleep. But at any time at any day my father might try to take me back, and it seems like he will. Fortunately I’m getting to an age where I’m old enough to make the decision that this isn’t want I want and I don’t want to see him. Even to this day knowing that what happened to me was abuse, I still think that… does he still love me? Has he changed..? Has he fixed the scars..? Or will he just make them simply bigger..? There is many more I forgot to mention but this basically sums it up, I know just realizing this I could probably write a book about what I experienced but Its also affected me, I’m doing much better now and I am talking to therapy, I also hear story’s like this telling me I have a voice of things get worse. So thanks for sharing your story.
This brought me to tears but I do want to share my story For a long time I can remember feeling worthless, Depressed, and useless. It wasn't my fault I felt like this... It was the others around me Not only be constantly bullied year after year made it worst but my own family said some hurtful things that hurted me. Last year I tried The rope was tight and I couldn't breathe. I was starting to loose my sight when I realize *What was I doing? I was going to hurt so many people* I tried to get down and fell on my knees. I realize What I was doing was wrong. I couldn't tell anyone what I tried to do but last month I spoke up. I'm not ready to tell my mom. I'm not ready for her reaction. I don't want to hurt her or anyone else. I just want to not be in fear anymore. I want to be happy.. That's my story. How about yours?
I have a suicidal best friend and every day she talks about killing her self. I have talked her out of it every day. I have known her for almost 3 years. One day I came to school and she showed me her wrist. I looked and she cut herself. I tried not to cry, because a few months ago my cousin tried to commit suicide and I can not let this happen to anymore of my friends that I consider family. She was in pain all day so I went into a dark corner and the next day I cut my self, I don't know why I did it. If she hurts herself, I don't know why, But I hurt my self
Its so sad that people all over the world deal with this abuse everyday. Anyone going through that, remember, you are not alone. There is always help out there. Love you~
I started to cry when she said, “You are alive and strong” I feel strong, I feel brave, I feel beautiful, I feel like I can do anything and it’s all because those words touched my heart.
This is my message to anybody that are dealing with any kind of mental illness: You can do this... You matter... There’s people that care about you... There’s people that love you... You do matter...
"when someone's hurting it doesn't give you the right to hurt others" This is the most true statement I have ever heard. I am hurt. I have been hurt. But I use that pain for kindness. No matter my thoughts. No matter what I want to happen to me. I tell other never to think what I do. Never to do as I do. Which is except it. Ive tried to stand up for myself. But I didn't try enough. I tell other to try more than me. Be the person I want to be. The person who can stand up for themselves and others. To not put on a fake smile but a real one. Much love
This truly shows from abuse comes abuse comes abuse, people molded within a abusive relationship from family, friends, or partners are much more likely to become the abuser witch is why there is no end to abuse unless something is done to stop it. I want everyone to know, you are good enough, you are strong enough, don’t be afraid to ask for help, abuse is not the fault of the abused. You are loved.
I legit cried my eyes when i say this, i have a mentally abusive father too, I'm afraid to do anything even pouring water into a glass, beacuse if i did something my father whould always yell at me and telling me i'm an embarrassment, he whould always swear at me.. i'm 14 years old still living in my parents home, i Don't feel my own home is safe anymore.
I hit my breaking point during 2017-2018 but no one I'm close with knows it. I've always dealt with a father who uses his words to hurt me even if he doesn't realize it, but then on top of that from 2015-2018 I was also dealing with a mentally abusive boss. I started having those dark thoughts during my time at that job, and my family didn't notice. Thankfully, I never acted on any of those thoughts and I managed to escape from that job. I'm not 100%, but I'm doing better now than I was 5 years ago.
7:38 pretty much when someone told on the D.A. in Harry Potter I forgot her name but when she told on the D.A. (Dumbledore's Army) her face was scarred with the words SNEAK in pimples because Hermione put a spell on the sign up sheet so anyone who told on them would have SNEAK in pimples on them They couldn't get those pimples off for years and it's like a metaphor for how words can scar you for years or until death Ok got too into it
PantslessPajamas I'm so glad you're still here to inspire those that feel like they don't want to be and to encourage people like me to keep going because it does get better
Videos like these always make me cry because I get that, I understand what it’s like to feel utterly worthless and I’m so proud of her and others like her for getting the help they need and deserve
This it me so hard. During the summer of 2020 I tired to take my own life as well but then I came upon this video and it helped me so much. Not trying to be an attention seeker or dramatic but, if I didn't find this video I honestly don't know if I would be alive today. Thank u to pantslesspajamas and aychristine for making me smile and helping me through the good and bad days of my life ❤️
Oh you poor baby...no one deserves to go through this pain don’t think you are alone In this you are butiful and amazing so don’t let people brake you down and hurt you...
My dad left when I was 2 and died last year. It made me have suicidal thoughts, and it made me want to hurt myself and the people around me. I'm actually crying now, because people don't understand how hard that is. It affected everyone around me. I lost friends, and lots of times I tried it stab my self. Get help, and just know that friends are some great outlets to talk to and get help 😘😘😘😘
"Abuse is abuse." She is right. My life wasn't fun I know because I've felt- Abuse, emotional abuse, trama, being bullied, going through my parents divorce, family hurting me, self harm, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, a toxic place I live in, losing a best friend, severe depression. But, remember your worth it don't give up. I know life isn't perfect but your awsome for pushing through and those who hurt you for no reason and don't go through that stuff but your stronger than them for even having the ability to even deal with that life you have. Your loved and remeber if you need help you can talk to me or anyone else struggling too and I truly hope this message helped at least one person if it did that is one person who is having a bad day then my work here is done if one person less is having a bad day. Good luck out there 😁.
This skin is not paper don't cut it you're not a piece of paper don't don't hang it your life is not a movie don't end it I hope that was inspirational enough because I have an inspirational speech to do about mental and physical health and I'm also going through a phase in my life where I have to try myself in my room to stay away from my mother
I was a victim of this and this truly helps. I am not here to cry. I am not here for you to feel bad for me. I am here to make you understand that it is okay to have to deal with this lots and lots of people suffer from this. you deserve to love , live , breath. You are truly a blessing. 💓 you can do this. You are strong. You are here to live. Talk to someone. This video can help you. If you are hiding in the comments. you have to watch and feel a spark of life. You can do this be strong 💪. You are here for your family. No matter how bad it is we are here for you. ❤️❤️ ~ anomynous.
if her dad has watched this I hope he is ashamed, just because you have been through hell does not mean you need to put others through it, and I hoped people who are going through this kind of stuff, can get the courage to stop it... For your self, and others.
God bless this amazing woman for going through such a horrific experience like this... I can't imagine what pain she was feeling during the time she grew up. Abuse can take on many forms. Whether it's physical, mental, or verbally. It does in fact hurt... but you can get through it. You're strong enough to break through that wall of torture. You can look in the mirror every day and say to yourself, 'You're here. You matter. And you're alive.' Suicide is never the answer... even if you feel like... you have no other way of helping yourself, you CAN make it. To those suffering from any abuse, remember, you're not alone and you in fact MATTER. You're worth every penny in this world.
This video made me want to cry because ever since I was a kid I always had my family with me and I thought it was a perfect life for ne being a child until at 3 my mom had to go in order to make a better life for her and me I remember that day I woke up and realized this wasn't my room and my mom wasn't with me I walked out and everyone shocked that I was awake I looked at my mom and she was crying she was dragged by my aunts who would go with her part of my family was gone I didn't cry because I wasn't sad I wasn't laughing because I wasn't sad I felt a feeling of nothing as if I should be feeling something but don't know how to express it eventually everyone started crying but my life kept going my Aunts and Uncles told me I would see my mother someday I thought it was normal until I entered kindergarten people had moms and dads and I questioned what is a father is a mother supposed to be here with you everyone had a perfect family I questioned why I didn't have that on mothers day the kids all hugged their mother's and i stood there while everyone looked at me and the teacher said go hug you mother as I said "she isn't here but she will be back soon" then the teacher said go hug your aunt and I did but felt nothing i love my aunt but I felt empty like I should feel something but don't know what to feel again on fathers day I didn't know what a father was because he wasn't a part of my life neither was my grandma my grandpa died when I was born I only had my uncles and aunts to play I got bullied in every school i went to private schools public you name it they bullied me called me weak told me how my parents left me the orphan the nobody a nerd but I didn't understand what bulling was and thought they wanted to be friends but they only picked on me more after so many years I was a happy kid innocent until i could see my mother again i thought of it as an adventure my aunt went along with me so I wouldn't get hurt we immigrated from honduras to the U.S many times people tried to kidnap me and my mom tried to get me and told my dad to help he said "let him suffer if I suffered as a kid why shouldn't he" my mom heartbroken didn't know what to do she found a boyfriend and he helped me get here I was grateful but I didn't feel comfortable with him after I came my mother cried tears of joy but yet again I left half my family to see the other I was grateful I could see them years went by fights happened I was still the happy innocent kid that didn't see any harm in the world it all changed when my mom got more angry at me and for stress and problems she took her anger out on me not physically but verbally she told me "your're a waste of life" "why did i give birth to you" "your're worthless" my joyful personality started dying and I started getting more sad and closed to people I called my dad on my birthday and told him if he could come visit me sometime and all he said was "sorry Its too much work by the way which son are you?" It made me heartbroken my own dad doesn't know who i am I closed myself even mmore and my moms boyfriend just told me "grow up" "do things boys do" "you are too sensitive" and even cursed at me many times but I felt i owe him and couldnt let my mom be single she found joy then in 6th grade I started feeling like I wasn't worth anything and tried commiting suicide many times but couldn't because I thought my mom couldn't bare to lose her only child I tried running away but couldn't because my mom would miss me I developed 2 friends in those years they moved and I was lonely after that in 7th grade I faked being positive because I wanted friends and they were amazing people dealing with problems similar to mines and i found a friend circle and sometimes they said I was a brave person but faked all my happiness to this day my family isn't better and I'm trying to get through this because I know I'm strong and I know if I give up now others will suffer I stopped faking everything told my friends they have helped me and I'm getting better even if I mighr go through worse things in the future I know I can overcome them because I'm strong enough to make my mother find her happiness and make me realize her mistakes because after she helped me Its my turn to help her
I'm crying again! I cried when I first watched the animation myself and now I cried again cuz I saw you getting emotional and I felt happy knowing that you got moved by her words of encouragement to fight and rise up from the dark so thank you for reacting to this animation
I am just watching the only version of this beautiful video because a couple of weeks ago, if nobody noticed, PantslessPajamas actually privated this particular video for unknown reasons that I can't even ask the creator about in the first place. If anybody already downloaded the video before it got private, send me so that way, I would properly watch it! Thank you!
Yeah it's gone now, the first time it was just unlisted as she said ln the community tab... A lot of people were judging her because back then she still lived with her family, but since she's now on her own apartment so it feels really weird... But I think her story is true. She made a twitter thread several months ago talking about...one of the textbook "symptoms" for those that have gone through the worse. I guess everyone lives in its own hell.
I watched this video when I had really reached rock bottom, pantless pj was one of my favourite RUclipsrs when i was 11 and this video had come out, I watched it and cried so hard, i knew exactly how she felt, this video pushed me to reach out, i love the support i have now but i have been trying for years, and it’s getting so hard again, thank you for this
This video is truly an eye opening thing. Christine praise you for just being a goddamn sweet person!!! Your understanding makes this twenty zillion times better
Guys before you have dark thought i wanted to say just do this spread it Look at yourself why are you crying your alive and god or whatever religion you were chosen dont think dark thought you are in your life YOU hacked a game YOU are in control look at your self you are strong i have been with manipulation thinking bad things....... i know the pain..... But its gonna get better i swear
I think it’s for the best. She probably moved on from it and doesn’t want to be reminded of that past on her channel. Shgurr also went through this same thing which is why her videos are gone now
When I'm sad, I make jokes. It's my way of handling sadness. Overall I'm a happy person, but there are times where I wonder why I even exist. I've never been suicidal or abused, but sometimes I have anxiety that's so bad that I can't sleep or eat. When I watch videos like these, it makes me want to open up, but I'm scared to. When someone makes me sad I make a joke. I don't get why people are so rude to people who handle situations that way. If what they said made you uncomfortable, then don't read it. I understand that this is serious, I really do, but people whom try to stay positive by focusing on other things shouldn't be attacked. Please don't hate me for this comment. This was just my opinion on the matter. If you disagree with me, then ignore this comment. Thanks for reading this.
A lot of people in the comment section is depressed and I just wanna say.. If you think about killing yourself Please don't do that Even if I don't know who you are I don't want you to die, no one deserves that, talk to someone, get help, live your life, be that soldier because you are braver then you think, because even if you suffered through serious stuff, you still lived and fought your depression and suffering, even if your still depressed..like I said..talk to someone, your the reason other people with depression live, you set a good example to tell others "hey get help, get a therapist, cause more people care about you then you think" If you have an abusive person in your life Don't hesitate to call the police If someone you loved died Their up there in heaven waiting for you too finish the war Please..even if I don't know what you've been going through that doesn't me I don't care! Your lives mean more to me then anything! So please.. Don't die Don't cut And just breathe and live cause your stronger then that...
Ok imma quote a chat with two girls.
“She’s abusive.”
“She’s never hit me.”
“She doesn’t have to.”
Remember, abuse doesn’t have to be physical to be hurtful.
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Cup-O -Pencils
Yesss
Yea true....for example : Verble Abuse
Exactly
My family don't believe that verbal abuse exists and I'm confused.
To everyone who is saying "first". Please stop saying "first". This is a VERY serious video, please show respect. I don't want any mean replys, I will not reply to any replys.
I know you said you won’t reply to replies but exactly! Thank you it is a serious video!
That Random Animator //Starlight\\ sis?
I will now reply to replys. Like I said, This is a serious video please show respect. Thank you to all the other people who are showing support and love to Pantsless Pajamas.
jessica the blue devil fox vavio's senpai yes?
That Random Animator //Starlight\\ Can u please answer me on hangouts?
"You are alive and you are strong"
Another way of saying what my Late Grandmother always told me, something I recently got tattooed onto myself to remind me.
"Remember, my love, you are not broken. Bent, but not broken."
IAM sorry about that
That is an amazing quote
"Your not broken, Bent but not broken"
Damn that's amazing and so inspiring
Her: “look at yourself, seriously, look at your face, hands, wiggle your fingers, you are here and you are strong”
Me: *wiggles fingers* “ I’m alive” *starts crying* “this is so touching”
@Eos Zelich That's horrible to say.
PJ is trying to show that people can get through horrible things
And the reacter is trying to spread the message.
@Eos Zelich Your kinda right since she said it wasn't venting
Eos Zelich Please don’t spread negativity.
I did too and it’s okay
@Eos Zelich Just appreciate this masterpiece please.
That video brought me to tears
Sherlyn De La Cruz same
Sherlyn De La Cruz same
Same.......
The category of this channel is comedy... COMEDY! I still love this channel.
Same..... im crying right now.....
Bless her sweet innocent soul...
I can relate to this girl in so many ways. My parents never did anything bad to me (they protected me) but I was exposed to a dangerous amount of bullying at too young an age. My school literally taught us what suicide was in 1st grade and I tried to use it the next year through bribing of many "friends."
Eclipse 5 I hope that will stop and hope you'll be safe
TyLynn Brown it has stopped. but it took up half my learning carrier.
Eclipse 5 good you stop
Eclipse 5 I've been through this kind of treatment but it was through the person who bought into this world, I mean she did have this as a child from hers and tries not to be her for me and my siblings. But it manages to leak out of her sometimes but mostly to me since Im the girl of the family, and I have bottled up so many emotions through my life and a lot of turmoil but I choose to see another day and its for you to make that choice, not those in your head. You're good and you should believe it.
Eclipse 5 oh no oh my god no that's really sad I hope your okay now
*what is this sweat coming from my eyes...*
WHY AM I PEEING OUT OF MY EYES?
Me: *watches video*. *cries*
Friend: Are you crying?
Me: What, no. *cries*. M-my eyes are just.... sweating....
Friend: What are you watching?
Me: *shows video*
Friend: *cries*
Me: *cries*. It's sad :'(
Friend: Bless her heart
Me: This video is so sad. 10/10! * Likes video*
Why are my eyes raining??
Why are my eyes a waterfall?
Why are my eyes having a leak??😤
The poor mother who had to deal with this
Squidney Nguyen that’s why there’s a thing called “divorce”
It’s not that easy, getting emotionally beaten into the ground doesn’t just stop one day, plus concerning how much of a grip the guy had he might have seriously hurt some one, and this kinds stuff goes one for years, shuttle at first but it gets worse and worse slowly, you can’t always see it even when it’s right in front of you, how can you possible know ‘divorse’ Was even an option for her?
Miki Snowfox As somebody who went through divorce it’s not that simple. If your partner is abusive it doesn’t stop when you take the ring off your finger.
@@jlt11422 yep
Jonee Townes *sigh* I hate people seeing like this. Listen, divorcing isn’t that simple. It took my mom over a year to fully be divorced from my dad. Clearly, you don’t know that not everything is that simple.
*Category: Comedy*
Me: "Go home youtube your drunk"
Haniya Peters you right
This is my version
Catergory:fantasy
Me:youtube not all wishes come true
Category should be Depression
Lol
😂😂
My parents were both verbally abusive my dad is going to therapy to try to fix his behavior my mom on the other hand dosen't want help and dosen't think theirs anything wrong with what she is saying. But I'm not in contact with my mother anymore but still in contact with my dad at least he wants to change. I feel sympathy for people who've been abused both physically and mentally.
At least your dad is trying:D hope he fixes it and you have better relationship
i wish you luck on your relationship with your father. i hope you are having a good day
My dad's fine now this was a few years ago he had some mental health issues Which is why he acted the way he did. It's my mom who's still the problem.
I have been verbley abused to your not alone were here for you
@@theofficalsilentraven I'm sorry about the accident about the dislike 😯
i watched this video and it made me cry :(
edit: this video is powerful
Kawaii_taco_lover _X3 I cried too... Do to a not very similar experienece but yeah. I had 'issues' with my dad in my life... So.. I cried so much
Watch. The. Original. Video. Before. You. Watch. The. Reaction.
The category.... is comedy....
NICE JOB RUclips!!!
But seriously this isn't funny. This was inspiring! Amazing
- screams - COMEDY?! THE FLIP?!
Natalie Dart ha ikr? RUclips is so drunk!!
youtube wasnt the one that categoriesd it you idiots it was christen
@@noel2039 I'm not an idiot ;-;
Plus, if she categorized it, I'm sure she wouldn't have made it comedy.... " _logic_ " not being rude tho, just saying.
Edit: also I make videos and I don't categorize them, RUclips does. Just saying :P
Crystle Works6816 she Picked It
If you suffer with mental abuse take this:💟💟💟💟💟💟💟
💔 oops i broke it! Here I'll be more careful with this one!!❤❤❤❤ UwU everyone that sees this, keep trying! Everyone is something on this planet...everyone is everything.
💜💜💜
Beary Awesome Gamer ok- 💔I broke it...I’ll get another 💔 oh I broke it again one more time? 💔 well I give up
Can i please have a chocolate ? It's the only thing that makea me sane and calm.
Thank you
I watched this video and I cried so hard my sister came into my room and thought something was wrong and said “It’s okay” but really it’s not... somewhere in this world RIGHT NOW! Horrible things are happening to anybody and they have no way to stop it! It really hurts me when I think about it...
Stop cutting the onions!
But seriously this video was so inspiring.
I was planning on losing my life this Valentines day, but I didn't. I'm still here. This video reminded me of my dark times, all the people I called friends either leaved me, or betrayed me. I was so social as a kid....but due to the bulling, I have grown to not trust anyone. I have grown depression and social anxiety since last year, because my childhood friend backstabbed me last Valentines day, so Valentines day 2018 I wanted to get it over with. Valentines day is a curse to me. But 2019.... Valentines day....I will make it the best day of my life. Before I start rambling, don't think of losing your life like I did. Things can get better.
RUclips actually helps my social skills, I act like a completely different person on the internet. So....thank you RUclips and all the RUclipsrs I love, you make me strong.
- GalacticAngel
gαlαcтιcαηgεl :3 I feel the same way about youtube and I know that you probably don't care about what I have to say and we'll probably never meet in real life but I would be your friend........I have friends but they're not very loyal and you sound like a very nice person so........ugh I'm rambling the point is I'll be your friend and I'm happy that your alive
My eyes are sweating
I wish you the best of luck and support I can give you. Stay strong and take care of yourself 💕💕
I was gonna do the same thing and the SAME THING that happens to you happens to me ◉︵◉ -eyes sweat- ;(
gαlαcтιcαηgεl :3 I am glad you are alive and if I could I would be your friend
Who cares about who was first! I just looked trough the comments and half the people here are fighting about who was the first person to click on the video. I get that they probably typed that before they even watched the video, but come on guys. Who gives a damn about that! I don't really care about people commenting "early squad" or "First!". But, its the people who reply to those comments and complain that they were the first ones. I mean... Scroll down, It just goes on and on and on!! There's no reason to fight!! AyChristene WAS FIRST!!!
PinkFluffyFujoshi I said I'm sorry 😰
And its fine :) I just don't like people who are fighting because of this.
PinkFluffyFujoshi true XD
PinkFluffyFujoshi Exactlyy
preach it girl
I know I’m a bit late (more like a month) but this made me realize something. The fact that I am so lucky to have the father I have. He loves me, cares for me, and always is there to brighten my day. Sometimes he makes me feel awful, but that’s on bad days, so it’s probably just my fear taking over. Even though he’s the type of person who might just say something without meaning it, I still have a father. Someone to look up to. It makes me realize, how lucky I am. Yes, there are some days that all I want to do is cry. Every single thing my mind has to manipulate into some kind of insult. But I don’t have what this poor girl had and still has to suffer through. If this is happening, my heart goes out to you. 💕
This video made me cry, and it makes my want to share my story.
My father and my mom have been separated since I was 6 months old, due to my father’s anger issues. Though they don’t live together, I still had to visit him every other weekend.
I remember a lot of things he did. He’d yell harshly at me for the smallest things and he’d do things like spank me.
I don’t mean spanking as in a light hit on the bum to say ‘don’t do that, child’. He spanked me hard, and most often for nothing. I’d be walking up or down the stairs and he’d spank me. And laugh at it. It got so bad, I was so scared about having him behind me, I had to have him go down or up stairs before me just so I’d feel safe enough walking around the house.
I had been brought up by my mom to tell her things. She’s my best friend and I tell her everything. It still applied when I was a child. I’d tell things to my mom about what would happen with my father that would make me feel weird. Like that time he got pulled over for speeding. He got in extra trouble when the officer saw me strapped into the backseat in my booster.
He’d yell at me when he found out I told Mom about things. He’d call me a turd, a brat, a shit. It made me feel awful. I didn’t want to be a brat or a burden, so I tried to be good for him, but I never seemed to be able to.
When I got older and was able to sit in the front seat with him, he’d do things like slap my thighs. It made me feel very uncomfortable.
The last things now.
The last time I ever saw him was awful. It started with the move. My father lived with his mother and step father, and since they were moving, he had to too.
Apparently, my cousin Lilly (18 with a son) had been grumpy towards my Nana. According to him, he snapped.
My father grabbed my cousin by the throat and pushed her against the kitchen table. I could see how scared she was when I looked into her eyes.
He bought my ice cream to apologize to me for seeing it.
Later, he took me to the mall so I could get my mom a present for her birthday. We’d stopped in Shoppers Drug Mart to pick up a card. He said that’s all we were there for, so when he led me elsewhere in the store, I was confused. I asked him where we were going and “weren’t we done?”
He rose up to his full height, walked towards me threateningly, and said “we leave when I say we leave, got it punk?”
The last one that happened in that same week as the strangling and drug mart incidents, he took me to Giant Tiger to pick up chips.
On the way, he found a think piece of wood (maybe a cutting board?), smacked it in his hands and said “this’ll be good for keeping you in line, eh?”
I had been having nightmares about him for years, and all these incidents just amplified everything. The first thing I did when I got home was tell Mom everything.
I don’t visit him anymore, but he’s been bugging my mother about me not seeing him, and has threatened to get a lawyer involved. I’m still scared, for myself as well as my cousin who’s been going through stuff like this longer than me.
Woah, he physically and possibly “y’know” abused you? I’m very surprised that you haven’t mentioned “depressed” in any of those paragraphs. It sounds like you would be going through a absolute fight with Satan himself.. my Dad likes to hit me playfully, and I hit him back too playfully. We play-fight a lot by smacking each other or he would randomly grab my foot and tickle it and he likes to purposely annoy me. I am a Daddy’s Girl or what I like to say Daddy’s Little Monster because my Dad likes to call me Munchkin or Monkey Butt, and it sounds like names that could be transformed into a monster I guess, but he does do one thing that really disturbs me and makes me feel really uncomfortable. Sometimes he would try to kiss me but he accidently kisses me near my neck and it makes me really uncomfortable. I assume he just missed my cheek because he is really a good father and always finds a way to make me happy.
Thats a real nice story
Jesus... I hope you're feeling safer now and that you're okay. Please stay safe, my friend. O_O
your brave, thank you for sharing your story
My father never laid his hands on me but I went though the exact same thing. My parents divorced when I was 3 due to my fathers anger issues, we move all the way north up the country to basically escape him and live with other family. My mother met my step dad who I see as my actual father, he taught me how yo tied my shoes along with other things, we would make empanadas and have fun together. Even though I don’t remember much it was nice the next 3 years..
Until my father moved up to the same state we live in.. he seemed nice at first, goofy, maybe even a decent person. We would have chicken nuggets every night and gave me everything I wanted. But then especially as I got older he would start yelling at me for the most stupidest things. I remember he screamed at me for losing a rain coat even though I told him I didn’t know where it was, he screamed and screamed at me. I never got that memory out of my head ever since. But normally say a day after yelling at me, he would randomly apologize and give me gifts again. It became a cycle almost.. until my father remarried. In my eyes he married a psychopath, but maybe that isn’t the case? The woman didn’t speak a word of English and when I first met her she seemed kind, but then they started fighting.. physically fighting.. I would even hear my father say that he wanted her dead. So I don’t know but normally I would see his wife on top of my father basically fighting and punching each other, the scarier thing is that she had two VERY young children that were in the house with us. This went on for 5 months along with the 6 year abuse cycle I was already having with my own father. This gave me a lot of anxiety, stress, and little sleep. I was scared to tell my mother what was happening because I was afraid my father would just scream at me again. One night though something happened that got me out of there. I didn’t even make the decision my father told me to call the police.. so I did.. and about the next day I talked to CPS and got taken by my mother. I still loved my father and thought he was a good man, but after I left I started thinking more.. why would he yell at me like that? Why would he randomly apologize like that and give me everything I wanted? Would he tried to manipulate me..? Or was he unknowingly abusing me and he just loved me deep down? The more I think about it the more I say that what he did to me wasn’t right, it was wrong and nobody would do such a thing. Before my mother finally won full custody he would try to contact me, and I knew he shouldn’t and I didn’t even want to talk to him. I told my mother about the yelling and she told me that she was abused too. That’s when it clicked, the reason why my mom divorced my father in the first place. She could’ve gone though something very similar. And that’s when I figured out it was abuse. To this day my biggest fear is my father taking me back, I still have anxiety but I do get better sleep. But at any time at any day my father might try to take me back, and it seems like he will. Fortunately I’m getting to an age where I’m old enough to make the decision that this isn’t want I want and I don’t want to see him. Even to this day knowing that what happened to me was abuse I still think that… does he still love me? Has he changed..? Has he fixed the scars..? Or will he just make them simply bigger..? There is many more I forgot to mention but this basically sums it up, I know just realizing this I could probably write a book about what I experienced but Its also affected me, I’m doing much better now and I am talking to therapy, I also hear story’s like this telling me I have a voice of things get worse. So thanks for sharing your story.
Omg that's really sad 😭😢😵😷
l1ghtb00l 10 it truly is 😞
When Christene started talking about taking revenge on the people who hurt you and not the people you love it reminded me of a quote I wanted to share by an unknown author
"If you don't heal what hurt you, you'll bleed on people who didn't cut you" - unknown
"U catch more bees with honey than vinegar"
It breaks my heart to hear her cry.. I hope she's doing better.
Both of my parents were mentally abusive. I'm slowly gaining my self-esteem with therapy. I want to give hugs and positive vibes to people suffering through this. You're strong, you're special and most of all you're a beautiful person.
I was one of the people who requested this video and Im happy you did because more people can see this and more people can get help. Thank you for reacting to this ♡
Isn't better sharing the source then?
I know your intention, but man I won't support reactions on these topics
@@xXSoulGeoXx Then go into the description and watch the original video or type in the title of it.
Duh.
I'm so sorry for her! I wanna give her a hug she needs a hug!
This made me really sad...
And for the people say "first" have you even watch the video? This is a serious video, you should feel embarrassed of yourself for saying that, just watch the video.
First
spichie charon i hate you. This is such a serious video and you say that. You are a disgrace......
@@sethstuffanimates8419 second
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YOU LITTL- actually... i don’t know about you though. You said second not first so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
@@sethstuffanimates8419 first to reply to you
I cried so much and I watched this before, this is so sad and it's sad that people, kids and teens have to deal with these problems if you're not dealing with these problems and don't have abusive parents or abusive relationships then you have a big blessing, and if anyone who has these problems you're not alone, you have to be strong and not listen to those words in you're head they just try to bring you down, I know it's hard to find help or ask for help but that makes you stronger.(like she said in the video)
That's all I need to say 😊
After I watched the video I realized that my mom and dad and my sister kept putting me down and no matter what I did it was not good enough and if I bagged my sister for help when I wanted to die all she said was I was being dramatic I still live with them but I have my girlfriend and my friends who care about me they are my real family in my heart
god bless
Keep going and you will get through this! You seem like a very sweet person just keep going! Things will get better.
My brother does the same thing. Ypur family is your family, even if.they dont believe you. My best friend and my girlfriend are my heroes.
Don't worry, we are all here for you.
Anytime I feel depressed I come back to pj saying “you are here and you are strong”
I put this on the original video but I figured that I would put it here since I see a few ppl here sharing stuff similar to what was in the video. If you already saw this over there, you can ignore it since its just copy and pasted from over there:
I've dealt with the abuse too from my own family. Not sexual, but physical, verbal, emotional and mental. I'm the oldest out of three sisters, so I'm always the one to be the example, the one that succeeds. But whatever I did, no matter how hard I tried on anything, it just wasn't good enough for my parents and every time my little sisters would be there to show me up. My father, he would be the physical, verbal and sometimes mental abuser. He slapped me right as I had walked into the apartment we were living in at the time when I was 7 or 8, but he didn't exactly apologize. He didn't apologize at all, he just did it because he wanted to. And as I got older, apart from the slaps, he would... he would always have a belt nearby. It would be for when he saw that I was trouble, when he thought that I needed to be kept in line, that I needed to be taught a lesson, he would have it with him during those times. And you could imagine that it hurt a lot.
He would also give off the impression that he did not like having daughters. Especially the oldest being a daughter. He wanted a son, so he would constantly be confused with how girls work and disregard feelings, treating only me like I was a boy. He didn't do this to my little sisters, as to our parents, they were more valuable than me, they meant more and were perfect angels in their eyes when in reality, they weren't. He'd tell me that he didn't love me anymore before I got on the bus to school, he made fun of my looks and whenever I'd stutter trying to explain myself for any accident I had caused or I'm caught up in tears, he'd make fun of me and yell at me, telling me to speak normally. He'd make fun of me for anything he saw as weird or something that he didn't like. And my mother and my little sisters didn't do shit to stop him and try to help. Instead they watched, letting it happen. He seemed like he didn't trust me for whatever reason, and when it seemed like that was the truth, I knew that I was just a disappointment to him and like you said, I felt like I was broken.
My mother on the other hand was more of the emotional, verbal and mental abuser. She would constantly be disgusted by me, seeing me as the black sheep. No matter what I did and how hard I tried, like my father, she saw that I wasn't good enough. Whenever I tried to help her out, she would just yell at me to get out after messing up once, calling me a failure. Constantly, she would talk about me behind my back to my little sisters and my father and I'd hear them. I'd hear them talk about my physical appearance and then eventually, they'd start talking about how much of a failure I was because I wasn't smart or talented or how weird I was for liking things that they don't like. Eventually, she thought I was borderline autistic because of how emotional I was, how much I'd sit away in my room because it was my only safe haven in in the house. Whenever I tried to express myself and say what I wanted for my future like where I wanted to go for college, she was usually the one who would shut me down, making me feel like my dreams, my wants were just nothing. Like they weren't a thing, like my happiness never existed. She was also the type to deny me any sort of input, making choices for me on her own without my consent. Of course, she'd confirm it with my dad, but not me. Her and my father, whenever something went wrong, they'd look at me and start blaming me saying it was my fault and eventually, after enough yelling and blaming... I began to believe that everything was and is my fault. It was my fault I was a bad daughter, that I was worthless, that I didn't mean anything if I wasn't perfect like my little sisters. I guess that's why they decided to just leave me one Halloween at a Whataburger and never pick me up there. Just so they could try to abandon me and leave me for someone else to deal with, to be a burden to just like I am to them. I understand that both of them had been through stuff that have been hard, that they have been hurt by others, but like you said, it didn't give them the justification to abuse and shut out their oldest daughter.
When it comes to my little sisters, they were taught to look up to my parents, so naturally they took after their personalities and mannerisms. And as you probably could've guessed, that wasn't a good thing. Aside from taking in parts of their personalities and their mannerisms, they were also pretty good at acting, acting like they had done nothing completely wrong and placing blame on me and they believed them over me no matter how much I explained myself. Them along with my parents wasted no time with cutting down my positive feelings and making fun of my negative ones as well as my fears and insecurities, joining in with them. They'd push buttons that weren't suppose to be pushed but I couldn't do anything due to my parents punishing me if I tried to stand up for myself against them, to defend myself. And when it came to love, to who to care for, I was pushed to the side and ignored while they gave my little sisters all the love they could spare for them... And it hurt, seeing the people that raised you not offering love to you, not caring for you, not giving consideration, not caring whether you were there or not as long as you didn't get in the way.
I clung to people, to friends I eventually began to make because I had finally found people that had the same interests, that cared, that I could be around and not be worried about saying the wrong thing and being mocked for it. I clung to them for so long that they became the only people I could try to be happy around. Eventually as I grew up, I found more friends and lost friends as well, even the ones that I had trusted and that I had considered to be like family to me, trying to have a "family" that could make me feel like I could have my own family to escape my own, but there were always voices in my head whenever I was alone. They'd give me thoughts that weren't my own, thoughts that eventually made me want them to go away, to shut up. I had worked up the courage to find a way, but... but I became too much of a coward, too much of a scared little girl to even follow through with it. Yes, I still have those thoughts, yes I still want them to shut up but I try to block them out, to keep living for my own self and for my friends cause they are the only ones in this world who gives a damn about me. Not those that have broken me and hurt me, not just from my family but also those outside my family.
I'm really sorry this is like extremely long and I understand if anyone gave up reading before this point. I just saw ppl doing this in the comments so I decided to throw my two cents in
Im glad you have your friends to cope with you through this. I hope you get the professional help you need & get the medication and therapist to heal the pain your family has inflicted to you. Survive long enough to escape from your family and live on your dreams that do have a meaning. Purse your own desires that YOU want to do. You already are doing enough by just waking up and facing the hellish day. Life sucks, it really does but it’s not all pitch black. I wish I could’ve known you personally to guide you through, but all I can do is type this and pray for you. I don’t have to know you to show care and kindness. Friend or not, you still are a human being who needs help. I don’t know if this is or isn’t helping you. If it isn’t, I’m sorry, I’m not really good with words. This can’t heal you in a snap but I do hope that reading this has helped you.
@@pxrsie8957 no, no, its all good, I'm not good with words either. It does help me reading this. I have the same mindset too, treating others with kindness and care even if I don't know them. Thanks for everything that you said
People need to understand that if you have pain talk to your friends or your family but do not I repeat do not inflict that pain on any one else because all your gonna get is more pain .All you have to do is be strong and talk to people that are close to you, pray to god or at least do something that doesn’t involve you or any one else getting hurt 😢. Oh and I love your videos Christine just wanted to tell you that just in case you forget
I don't have friends and my family hates me
Kaous
Wait.. thats a very sad life to live in. But remember to be strong. We are here for ya bud :)
Omg 😭😳😢🤭I feel so much emotional stuff I can’t even talk I can’t imagine I been through moments that I thought I was useless but I have loving parents I can’t imagine I’m so sorry 😢😥😭
I hear story’s like this often and I wanted to share mine.
My parents divorced when I was 3 due to my fathers anger issues, we move all the way north up the country to basically escape him and live with other family. My mother met my step dad who I see as my actual father, he taught me how to tie my shoes along with other things, we would make empanadas and have fun together. Even though I don’t remember much it was nice the next 3 years..
Until my father moved up to the same state we live in.. he seemed nice at first, goofy, maybe even a decent person. We would have chicken nuggets every night and gave me everything I wanted. But then especially as I got older he would start yelling at me for the most stupidest things. I remember he screamed at me for losing a rain coat even though I told him I didn’t know where it was, he screamed and screamed at me. I never got that memory out of my head ever since. But normally say a day after yelling at me, he would randomly apologize and give me gifts again. It became a cycle almost.. until my father remarried. In my eyes he married a psychopath, but maybe that isn’t the case? The woman didn’t speak a word of English and when I first met her she seemed kind, but then they started fighting.. physically fighting.. I would even hear my father say that he wanted her dead. So I don’t know but normally I would see his wife on top of my father basically fighting and punching each other, the scarier thing is that she had two VERY young children that were in the house with us. This went on for 5 months along with the 6 year abuse cycle I was already having with my own father. This gave me a lot of anxiety, stress, and little sleep. I was scared to tell my mother what was happening because I was afraid my father would just scream at me again. One night though something happened that got me out of there. I didn’t even make the decision my father told me to call the police.. so I did.. and about the next day I talked to CPS and got taken by my mother. I still loved my father and thought he was a good man, but after I left I started thinking more.. why would he yell at me like that? Why would he randomly apologize like that and give me everything I wanted? Would he tried to manipulate me..? Or was he unknowingly abusing me and he just loved me deep down? The more I think about it the more I say that what he did to me wasn’t right, it was wrong and nobody would do such a thing. Before my mother finally won full custody he would try to contact me, and I knew he shouldn’t and I didn’t even want to talk to him. I told my mother about the yelling and she told me that she was abused too. That’s when it clicked, the reason why my mom divorced my father in the first place. She could’ve gone though something very similar. And that’s when I figured out it was abuse. To this day my biggest fear is my father taking me back, I still have anxiety but I do get better sleep. But at any time at any day my father might try to take me back, and it seems like he will. Fortunately I’m getting to an age where I’m old enough to make the decision that this isn’t want I want and I don’t want to see him. Even to this day knowing that what happened to me was abuse, I still think that… does he still love me? Has he changed..? Has he fixed the scars..? Or will he just make them simply bigger..? There is many more I forgot to mention but this basically sums it up, I know just realizing this I could probably write a book about what I experienced but Its also affected me, I’m doing much better now and I am talking to therapy, I also hear story’s like this telling me I have a voice of things get worse. So thanks for sharing your story.
I hope it gets better for you. Hang on in there,it gets better
Video:if u can’t watch it don’t
Me:hey I don’t cry for anything
A couple min later
Me:😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭I cant do it I can’t stop crying ahhhhh 😭😭😭😭😭
Zai Bear IKR
Zai Bear stop playing around and making people laugh, your just being a fool. This is serious!
@@azadyne shut up meg
This brought me to tears but I do want to share my story
For a long time I can remember feeling worthless, Depressed, and useless. It wasn't my fault I felt like this... It was the others around me
Not only be constantly bullied year after year made it worst but my own family said some hurtful things that hurted me. Last year I tried
The rope was tight and I couldn't breathe. I was starting to loose my sight when I realize *What was I doing? I was going to hurt so many people*
I tried to get down and fell on my knees. I realize What I was doing was wrong. I couldn't tell anyone what I tried to do but last month I spoke up. I'm not ready to tell my mom. I'm not ready for her reaction. I don't want to hurt her or anyone else. I just want to not be in fear anymore. I want to be happy..
That's my story. How about yours?
All I want to say... Is that I'm glad your still alive
@@jazmin7958 that's so nice
Im happy your still alive. 😢
@@ellinuu_ Thank you
Still going through a story.. it isn't getting any better
I have a suicidal best friend and every day she talks about killing her self. I have talked her out of it every day. I have known her for almost 3 years. One day I came to school and she showed me her wrist. I looked and she cut herself. I tried not to cry, because a few months ago my cousin tried to commit suicide and I can not let this happen to anymore of my friends that I consider family. She was in pain all day so I went into a dark corner and the next day I cut my self, I don't know why I did it. If she hurts herself, I don't know why, But I hurt my self
Its so sad that people all over the world deal with this abuse everyday. Anyone going through that, remember, you are not alone. There is always help out there. Love you~
I started to cry when she said, “You are alive and strong” I feel strong, I feel brave, I feel beautiful, I feel like I can do anything and it’s all because those words touched my heart.
Yep
This is my message to anybody that are dealing with any kind of mental illness:
You can do this...
You matter...
There’s people that care about you...
There’s people that love you...
You do matter...
You lied to me
"when someone's hurting it doesn't give you the right to hurt others"
This is the most true statement I have ever heard. I am hurt. I have been hurt. But I use that pain for kindness. No matter my thoughts. No matter what I want to happen to me. I tell other never to think what I do. Never to do as I do. Which is except it. Ive tried to stand up for myself. But I didn't try enough. I tell other to try more than me. Be the person I want to be. The person who can stand up for themselves and others. To not put on a fake smile but a real one.
Much love
At like 4 minutes in I started crying and saying "You go girl!" and "I believe in you"
As the saying goes,
“Count your rainbows, not your thunderstorms.”
This truly shows from abuse comes abuse comes abuse, people molded within a abusive relationship from family, friends, or partners are much more likely to become the abuser witch is why there is no end to abuse unless something is done to stop it. I want everyone to know, you are good enough, you are strong enough, don’t be afraid to ask for help, abuse is not the fault of the abused. You are loved.
When Pj said “look at yourself, wiggle your fingers, you see that? *you* are *here* “
I broke-
I always cry when seeing this video
I got alot out of this video and i will pass it on by sharing this:)
I broke down in tears watching this my depression is so bad this video helped
I legit cried my eyes when i say this, i have a mentally abusive father too, I'm afraid to do anything even pouring water into a glass, beacuse if i did something my father whould always yell at me and telling me i'm an embarrassment, he whould always swear at me.. i'm 14 years old still living in my parents home, i Don't feel my own home is safe anymore.
I hope things get better and you get out of that house immediately. I know it probably won't do much but, I genuinely wish you luck in your life...
The thing that made me cry was the fact that u can hear her pain in her voice..
I’ve been waiting for this reaction video, I feel like more people need to be aware of things like this
I hit my breaking point during 2017-2018 but no one I'm close with knows it. I've always dealt with a father who uses his words to hurt me even if he doesn't realize it, but then on top of that from 2015-2018 I was also dealing with a mentally abusive boss. I started having those dark thoughts during my time at that job, and my family didn't notice. Thankfully, I never acted on any of those thoughts and I managed to escape from that job. I'm not 100%, but I'm doing better now than I was 5 years ago.
I’m glad you feel better
7:38
pretty much when someone told on the D.A. in Harry Potter I forgot her name but when she told on the D.A. (Dumbledore's Army) her face was scarred with the words SNEAK in pimples because Hermione put a spell on the sign up sheet so anyone who told on them would have SNEAK in pimples on them
They couldn't get those pimples off for years and it's like a metaphor for how words can scar you for years or until death
Ok got too into it
PantslessPajamas I'm so glad you're still here to inspire those that feel like they don't want to be and to encourage people like me to keep going because it does get better
I watched that video and cried ;-;
Videos like these always make me cry because I get that, I understand what it’s like to feel utterly worthless and I’m so proud of her and others like her for getting the help they need and deserve
"You've been warned" pfft I'm fine.
**later**
**eating cookie dough Ben & Jerrys and crying**
This it me so hard. During the summer of 2020 I tired to take my own life as well but then I came upon this video and it helped me so much. Not trying to be an attention seeker or dramatic but, if I didn't find this video I honestly don't know if I would be alive today. Thank u to pantslesspajamas and aychristine for making me smile and helping me through the good and bad days of my life ❤️
I'm crying my eyes and heart out😞😞😟😞😟
Oh you poor baby...no one deserves to go through this pain don’t think you are alone In this you are butiful and amazing so don’t let people brake you down and hurt you...
Me: I can get through this, I’m strong!
5 seconds later.....
Me: **STARTS CRYING** NO, NO, DON’T DO IT YOU IS BOOTIFUL HOOMAN
My dad left when I was 2 and died last year. It made me have suicidal thoughts, and it made me want to hurt myself and the people around me. I'm actually crying now, because people don't understand how hard that is. It affected everyone around me. I lost friends, and lots of times I tried it stab my self. Get help, and just know that friends are some great outlets to talk to and get help
😘😘😘😘
this made me cry..
I literally sobbed uncontrollably after I saw the original video... that hit me so hard tho....
As a kid who…had tried to…do..i tried to jump out a window I needed this this…a lot
Bless her soul please pray for PJ
Note: just because abuse is not physical it still does not mean it does not count as abuse
Pls don't say 'first' this is very very serious so be respectful just please be respectful
First
spichie charon
UGH STOP! YOU ALREADY WROTE THREE REPLIES!
First
@@sweetgemini6217 dude, you are the worst.
@@i_dont_like_my_username ikr
God bless her for changing her mind. May god protect her from that father of hers.. I literally want to cry....
I don’t have a abuse dad but sad like her
Chloe Davis why are u sad
I have a abusive mom (mentally) and my older sis only feeds the flames
Same
@@marymorra5201 um
Y r u sad?
"Abuse is abuse." She is right.
My life wasn't fun I know because I've felt-
Abuse, emotional abuse, trama, being bullied, going through my parents divorce, family hurting me, self harm, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, a toxic place I live in, losing a best friend, severe depression.
But, remember your worth it don't give up. I know life isn't perfect but your awsome for pushing through and those who hurt you for no reason and don't go through that stuff but your stronger than them for even having the ability to even deal with that life you have. Your loved and remeber if you need help you can talk to me or anyone else struggling too and I truly hope this message helped at least one person if it did that is one person who is having a bad day then my work here is done if one person less is having a bad day. Good luck out there 😁.
This skin is not paper don't cut it you're not a piece of paper don't don't hang it your life is not a movie don't end it I hope that was inspirational enough because I have an inspirational speech to do about mental and physical health and I'm also going through a phase in my life where I have to try myself in my room to stay away from my mother
I was a victim of this and this truly helps. I am not here to cry. I am not here for you to feel bad for me. I am here to make you understand that it is okay to have to deal with this lots and lots of people suffer from this. you deserve to love , live , breath. You are truly a blessing. 💓 you can do this. You are strong. You are here to live. Talk to someone. This video can help you.
If you are hiding in the comments. you have to watch and feel a spark of life. You can do this be strong 💪. You are here for your family. No matter how bad it is we are here for you. ❤️❤️
~ anomynous.
😥😥that was the most powerful thing I have ever heard.
This made me cry so much 😭😭😭😭😭
I was sexually abused by my dad😭😭😭 don't ever let anything slow you down from getting up cuz you're strong and you can make it
@@Luuiiii what the fuck
I didn’t think I was going to cry to day...
Bless her for everything she has had happen to her
I thought I could stand strong through this..
NOPE. I'M SOBBING SO MUCH I CAN'T SEE THE SCREEN.
if her dad has watched this I hope he is ashamed, just because you have been through hell does not mean you need to put others through it, and I hoped people who are going through this kind of stuff, can get the courage to stop it... For your self, and others.
This is sad
God bless this amazing woman for going through such a horrific experience like this... I can't imagine what pain she was feeling during the time she grew up. Abuse can take on many forms. Whether it's physical, mental, or verbally. It does in fact hurt... but you can get through it. You're strong enough to break through that wall of torture. You can look in the mirror every day and say to yourself, 'You're here. You matter. And you're alive.' Suicide is never the answer... even if you feel like... you have no other way of helping yourself, you CAN make it. To those suffering from any abuse, remember, you're not alone and you in fact MATTER. You're worth every penny in this world.
This video made me want to cry because ever since I was a kid I always had my family with me and I thought it was a perfect life for ne being a child until at 3 my mom had to go in order to make a better life for her and me I remember that day I woke up and realized this wasn't my room and my mom wasn't with me I walked out and everyone shocked that I was awake I looked at my mom and she was crying she was dragged by my aunts who would go with her part of my family was gone I didn't cry because I wasn't sad I wasn't laughing because I wasn't sad I felt a feeling of nothing as if I should be feeling something but don't know how to express it eventually everyone started crying but my life kept going my Aunts and Uncles told me I would see my mother someday I thought it was normal until I entered kindergarten people had moms and dads and I questioned what is a father is a mother supposed to be here with you everyone had a perfect family I questioned why I didn't have that on mothers day the kids all hugged their mother's and i stood there while everyone looked at me and the teacher said go hug you mother as I said "she isn't here but she will be back soon" then the teacher said go hug your aunt and I did but felt nothing i love my aunt but I felt empty like I should feel something but don't know what to feel again on fathers day I didn't know what a father was because he wasn't a part of my life neither was my grandma my grandpa died when I was born I only had my uncles and aunts to play I got bullied in every school i went to private schools public you name it they bullied me called me weak told me how my parents left me the orphan the nobody a nerd but I didn't understand what bulling was and thought they wanted to be friends but they only picked on me more after so many years I was a happy kid innocent until i could see my mother again i thought of it as an adventure my aunt went along with me so I wouldn't get hurt we immigrated from honduras to the U.S many times people tried to kidnap me and my mom tried to get me and told my dad to help he said "let him suffer if I suffered as a kid why shouldn't he" my mom heartbroken didn't know what to do she found a boyfriend and he helped me get here I was grateful but I didn't feel comfortable with him after I came my mother cried tears of joy but yet again I left half my family to see the other I was grateful I could see them years went by fights happened I was still the happy innocent kid that didn't see any harm in the world it all changed when my mom got more angry at me and for stress and problems she took her anger out on me not physically but verbally she told me "your're a waste of life" "why did i give birth to you" "your're worthless" my joyful personality started dying and I started getting more sad and closed to people I called my dad on my birthday and told him if he could come visit me sometime and all he said was "sorry Its too much work by the way which son are you?" It made me heartbroken my own dad doesn't know who i am I closed myself even mmore and my moms boyfriend just told me "grow up" "do things boys do" "you are too sensitive" and even cursed at me many times but I felt i owe him and couldnt let my mom be single she found joy then in 6th grade I started feeling like I wasn't worth anything and tried commiting suicide many times but couldn't because I thought my mom couldn't bare to lose her only child I tried running away but couldn't because my mom would miss me I developed 2 friends in those years they moved and I was lonely after that in 7th grade I faked being positive because I wanted friends and they were amazing people dealing with problems similar to mines and i found a friend circle and sometimes they said I was a brave person but faked all my happiness to this day my family isn't better and I'm trying to get through this because I know I'm strong and I know if I give up now others will suffer I stopped faking everything told my friends they have helped me and I'm getting better even if I mighr go through worse things in the future I know I can overcome them because I'm strong enough to make my mother find her happiness and make me realize her mistakes because after she helped me Its my turn to help her
I'm crying again! I cried when I first watched the animation myself and now I cried again cuz I saw you getting emotional and I felt happy knowing that you got moved by her words of encouragement to fight and rise up from the dark so thank you for reacting to this animation
Yep
I am just watching the only version of this beautiful video because a couple of weeks ago, if nobody noticed, PantslessPajamas actually privated this particular video for unknown reasons that I can't even ask the creator about in the first place. If anybody already downloaded the video before it got private, send me so that way, I would properly watch it! Thank you!
I noticed this too! I went to go back to rewatch it and sadly she privated it. I would also love to get the original video if someone downloaded it.
@@spookehghost Me too! I just truly don't know she privated it in the first place! That was a great video! :)
Just a guess but maybe because it's too painful for her to see it, reminded of those dark days. I downloaded it tho.
@@Miooooou Really?!? You have the file? Thank you so much!!! If you can send it to me I'd really appreciate it! Thank you so much! :D
Yeah it's gone now, the first time it was just unlisted as she said ln the community tab...
A lot of people were judging her because back then she still lived with her family, but since she's now on her own apartment so it feels really weird...
But I think her story is true. She made a twitter thread several months ago talking about...one of the textbook "symptoms" for those that have gone through the worse.
I guess everyone lives in its own hell.
This made me cry
Jesus, my eyes are pouring buckets but I never went through something so vile.
I watched this video when I had really reached rock bottom, pantless pj was one of my favourite RUclipsrs when i was 11 and this video had come out, I watched it and cried so hard, i knew exactly how she felt, this video pushed me to reach out, i love the support i have now but i have been trying for years, and it’s getting so hard again, thank you for this
This video wasn't in her channel when I visited it. She must have deleted it for reasons
This video is truly an eye opening thing.
Christine praise you for just being a goddamn sweet person!!! Your understanding makes this twenty zillion times better
13:52 when you cant find a tissue, instead just use a fan to cool down thr tears
Guys before you have dark thought i wanted to say just do this spread it
Look at yourself why are you crying your alive and god or whatever religion you were chosen dont think dark thought you are in your life YOU hacked a game YOU are in control look at your self you are strong i have been with manipulation thinking bad things....... i know the pain..... But its gonna get better i swear
Even though I never had a father I feel very bad
This just help me so much,thank you for making this because your like me,you touched my heart,I hope you're better
The fact that this video is now made private really worries me
I think it’s for the best. She probably moved on from it and doesn’t want to be reminded of that past on her channel. Shgurr also went through this same thing which is why her videos are gone now
I cried because I’m alive and never had that happen to me. And am soo sorry for her
When I'm sad, I make jokes. It's my way of handling sadness. Overall I'm a happy person, but there are times where I wonder why I even exist. I've never been suicidal or abused, but sometimes I have anxiety that's so bad that I can't sleep or eat. When I watch videos like these, it makes me want to open up, but I'm scared to. When someone makes me sad I make a joke. I don't get why people are so rude to people who handle situations that way. If what they said made you uncomfortable, then don't read it. I understand that this is serious, I really do, but people whom try to stay positive by focusing on other things shouldn't be attacked. Please don't hate me for this comment. This was just my opinion on the matter. If you disagree with me, then ignore this comment. Thanks for reading this.
I'll adopt you love I know what you’re going through
I watched this before school,
Now I am crying and I am almost there. 😭
Luv your videos.❤️
*Each day is a new beginning*
A lot of people in the comment section is depressed and I just wanna say..
If you think about killing yourself
Please don't do that
Even if I don't know who you are I don't want you to die, no one deserves that, talk to someone, get help, live your life, be that soldier because you are braver then you think, because even if you suffered through serious stuff, you still lived and fought your depression and suffering, even if your still depressed..like I said..talk to someone, your the reason other people with depression live, you set a good example to tell others "hey get help, get a therapist, cause more people care about you then you think"
If you have an abusive person in your life
Don't hesitate to call the police
If someone you loved died
Their up there in heaven waiting for you too finish the war
Please..even if I don't know what you've been going through that doesn't me I don't care! Your lives mean more to me then anything!
So please..
Don't die
Don't cut
And just breathe and live cause your stronger then that...
I've already watched this separately and I almost drowned in own tears.
My soul is reaching out to her :'(
No body should ever go through that, she deserves better than she had 💗💗to