Reprogramming My Life | Hypocrisy, Rejection, and Self Compassion

Time Stamps:
00:00 - Introduction and Gratitude
03:09 - My Moment of Weakness/Hypocrisy
04:34 - Rejection and Negative Emotions
06:05 - Relating to Michael Singer
07:38 - Excerpt from Michael Singer's 'Living Untethered'
11:34 - Reflecting on Life's Unexpected Blessings
15:05 - Product Manager Interviews for Practice Only
15:40 - Self-Care Moments
18:16 - Viewer Comments & Thank You
Hi there, I'm Jenn!
I'm truly touched by the feedback and engagement on my first video-thank you all so much!
In this video, I share the challenging aspects of my journey, including my 30+ year desire for security and tendency to revert to my old ways. I also share my experience with rejection along the way. I understand that unlearning these patterns and embracing fear and uncertainty is a gradual process-it's not something that happens overnight.
I share the wisdom of Michael Singer, who eloquently illustrates how every moment unfolds due to countless factors beyond our control. Looking back on my own life, I've realized that even the moments that initially caused me the most pain and heartbreak ultimately led to outcomes better than I could have imagined. Trusting the process and going with the flow of life isn't always easy, but judging by my own experiences, it's likely a wise choice!
Again, I intentionally chose to record this video without a script to maintain authenticity and confront my own anxiety and perfectionism. I also share glimpses of my everyday life. Learning to edit using Adobe Premiere Pro was quite the learning curve, so I released this a video a bit later than I'd hoped! I did my best to remove any long pauses and filler words - I'll try to ramble less next time :)
My aim is to be transparent about the journey of starting over-it doesn't always follow a perfect path and moments of fear may tempt us to run back to security. And that's completely okay, as long as we keep going and resist the pull of comfort.
I hope you find this video helpful, and please share your thoughts in the comments about what you'd like to see more or less of in the future!
Thank you for joining me on this journey!
Feel free to join my Discord community if you ever want to chat or share your story! / discord

[@PoobyJ]

your situation with school is very relatable. I worked hard in community college to hopefully transfer to a good college to major in accounting. I was able to get into the accounting program but the classes were just way over my limit which led me to drop out and move back home with my parents and find a job around my area. Now, I am stuck in an administrative job that is constantly draining me…sometimes I wish college would work out for me 😔

[@sui.jeneris]

Thanks for sharing your story! I’ve learned that sometimes the things we want the most aren’t what’s best for us. College isn’t meant for everyone, and to be honest, if I had to do it again, I probably wouldn’t 😅 I hope you have compassion for yourself as you plan your next steps!

[@boninolaye1]

Hi Jenn, you inspire me to do the same because I don't know if I like my job anymore. It's a beautiful job to be a doctor and to take care of others but I'm feeling empty at the moment. I pursue my parents's dream. I thought it was mine. You give me hope and I thank you for this. Thank you so much. Big kisessss 😘❤

[@jemellee]

thank you for sharing the michael singer excerpt! it falls under my personal favorite mantra of "everything happens for a reason" and what you're explaining in the next part is also relatable.
trust the process, divine timing, or whatever it is, everything will fall into place.
glad i found you cus i feel like we're in a similar path, so it's also nice to see that i'm not alone either.

[@dogoodjonathan]

Jenn thank you for being you