Multifandom (ED) - I'm Messed Up (TW)
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- Опубликовано: 19 ноя 2018
- *Contains graphic and realistic scenes regarding an eating disorder. If you feel this may upset or hurt you please do not watch*
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I hope you all like this one, thank you for watching. I know it's a simple edit but it's something that I really don't wanna complicate. It means something to me, so it's not that I'm posting this just for views or anything. I like to edit when words can't describe how I'm doing. This is just a way I cope with my mental illnesses. I also don't wanna hurt anyone with this.
I just want you to know, that no matter what you're going through, it's gonna get better. It DOES get better. Keep fighting. You're not alone. Ask for help, it's okay to do so.
Helplines(Hotlines): ruclips.net/user/redirect?redi...
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Series: Red Band Society (Emma Chota) & Skins (Cassie)
Movies: To The Bone & Feed
Music: Hurricane - Fleurie 
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![don't fade away [to the bone].](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/U6wz_qouZSM/mqdefault.jpg)
I mean those trigger warnings are good, but let's be honest we are all here to trigger ourselves. Factz. If you don't want to trigger yourself you wouldn't click.
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yeah
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video: if you feel this may upset, trigger or hurt you, please do not watch
me: *laughs in unhealthy coping mechanisms*
daf12 omg i completely get this omg
STOP I DID THE SAME THING
I watch these when I feel bad to make me feel worse i guess lol idek or maybe bc theyre relatable
@@justtamara1278 I feel the same way
i'm really sad that so many ppl seem to relate :(
it's been almost a year since i've commented this, and i want to remind everyone that it **can** get better. ik that you're probably just here to trigger yourself if you're reading this, but i think you're beautiful, and you don't have to get worse to be worthy!!
Feeling alone in a city of millions
Yup😞
Same :(😖
“I’m sorry. That I’m not a person anymore, I’m a problem.” I don’t think I’ve ever related to anything more holy shit
Me to.
And literally everything Cassie ever said
When the lady asks if she thinks the pic of her self is beautiful we all know the reason why she said no. She doesn’t see scary thin...she sees fat.
omg.. exactly..
I wanna starve myself but my ADHD makes me eat when I'm bored, it's a vicious circle of hate, eat & cry
ME TOO
same. I felt that.
it‘s ok.
don‘t starve yourself.
It will destroy you.
It will break you.
same😭
imagine living in a city of 6 million people and no one cares about you until they noticed how skinny you’re getting and how much scars you have up your arms. because that is happening to me. right now. i just want to disappear.
How are you are you doing better?
Girl don't cut yourself I'm doing the same and I'm getting out of control if you feel like that talk to someone and Express yourself maybe I might not help much cause it's hard for me to stop that's why I don't want you to feel the same it just isn't easy
Don't fade away that easily dear
We need you ...you were not born fortunately or as a coincidence you're born for a certain reason
It'll be a sin and unfair to yourself not fulfilling the purpose you're born with
(I do cut too and almost attempted suicide but there's always this God who won't ever leave us until it's over)
@@deboramalaki6090 thank you. i turn to god whenever i feel these things and he always helps me. thank you too for delivering that message! ❤️
I don't want to eat .my mum makes me eat every day and if i don't eat as much as she wants she assumes i have depression or that I am anorexic .that's why I don't trust her.that's why i stoped opening up to her about my friends or school,because when she sees a small part of how broken i am inside she thinks that i will collapse at any moment and treats me like a baby.
i’m so sorry i feel u i know exactly how you feel and if u need someone to talk to i’m always here for u i promise and i know everything will be good in the end i promise you are loved and you are beautiful and you deserve the world and i know u will find someone who loves u and stands by your side no matter what...so as i said when u need someone i’m here
🥺
Im sure she just wants to help its difficult for people to see loved ones get that way but i understand how you feel
It's okay she just tries to care!
She is scared she is not caring enough, uk!
Its fine, it's just now the wrld is actually bad, I mean I am 17 and I turned in to alcoholic, addict in some 2 months!
Soo plz take care! And let ur mom know u r fine and if smth is bad let her help u, if she is not closed minded.
Im sorry , that can be very draining that she doesn’t let you be your true self . Its okay to make mistakes and not be perfect . That is your mother’s insecurities preying onto you . She has no right to do that but the thing about parents is we have to accept them and the only person we can change is ourselves . I hope you are doing okay , stay strong ❤️❤️
Oh darling, i am here to trigger myself😉
You know you’ve relapsed when you drop 20 pounds in 2 weeks and are back to watching these
@·Pumpkin Spice Bleach· Howd you lose that much?? tell meee
@@pumpkinspicebleach5061 how 👀asking for a friend
Same
@@pumpkinspicebleach5061 How did you do it. I need to know
i dont get why people don’t like, to the bone, it was a good movie :,)
Expi Doe exactly
I liked it but i didn't like the romance part or the fact that the actress h as d to actually lose all that weight. Eating disorders affect people of all sizes
Ava Grace It can trigger and it does.They called me fat and I saw this movie and it make me thing of it.Then I started stop eating.I started eating 2 times at a day than 1 and than I started counting my calories and eating max 450 calories and now only 280
Hannah banana she didn’t have to, she wanted to because she thought it would make the movie more believable. She was told not to because it could cause her to relapse.
i didn’t like it because it wasn’t triggering enough
not all of us are skinny 💔
I don’t understand when others say they thought they were in control but they weren’t. I am in control, I don’t want to be so skinny I just want small thighs, small calves and a small waist. Not overly skinny
that's what i felt at first but if you keep going you don't realise you are overly skinny and then by that point you don't want to gain weight
Some people lose control
if you have or develop an eating disorder, for many people they always get to where they wanted to be, but its not enough. They have to be skinnier, no matter what weight they get to. This is where im struggling right now. A year ago, I wanted to be where I am right now, but now, I want to be 15-20 pounds lighter still...also im so sorry if you are struggling with this. I wouldn't wish it upon anyone.
It different from person too person
Honey, with EDs you’re never in control it just makes you think that you are so you don’t get help
you know that it's starting to be a problem when you watch these all the time as kinda like a motivation te get skinny, your my eyes only on snapchat is full with body pics to see how much of a difference there is and you are not eating anymore. i just feel so disgusting and fat whenever I eat, because I AM disgusting and fat. when I tell somebody this all they say is lol same and that's not the answer I want. I want people to tell me that I am worthy, but nobody does so I probably am not worthy at all.
You are worthy stop don’t do this to your self it’s not healthy it’s not worth it but you health is ik it seems hard but I’m here for you if you need anything
Hey, how are you now? I’m know I’m just a stranger but I care about you and I think you’re worthy and worth it, and there’s beauty in you. Your perception of yourself can blind you of that but you are beautiful.
I'm going through the same thing
We WILL get through this someday
Its confusing because dietitians tell you to count your calories, but when you do everyones like what? Why are you doing that- you're beautiful! And than people tell you excersize is good, but when you do that, everyone gets worried about you... It reaches an extent where you come to these videos and scroll through the comments, just to feel like you belong somewhere, and you're doing something right, even if its not a good right.
I wish that we were all the same size and could eat what we want that would be amazing..
I've fell into the eating disorder hole and realized after 4 moths, part of me liked it and though I was doing great. Then I read and found out how much damage I was actually doing.
I got sick of myself not enjoying the foods I like. I want the old me who didn't care about food and ate whatever she feeled like back. I miss her, so I'm working on it.
I can't begin to imagine how harder it is for people who struggle with Ed for years, iclve only had it for a few months and feel like I've gone through hell.
Don’t watch these videos. You are triggering yourself, hope everything goes better with you. Keep going I’m so proud of you.
take care please and don’t watch these kind of videos if they trigger you. 🥺
WARNING: “If you feel this may upset or trigger you, please do not watch”
Me: Haha that’s cute **watches anyway**
this makes me not want to eat
Well if you're okay with the hair loss, teeth decay, the skin problems, the ugly cheek bones, eyebrows that look like they don't belong and the possibility of gaining more body fat (as when you stop eating your metabolism slows down and your body stores the fat in order to survive) and the mountain of painful health problems that come with it, then go ahead.
Me too I eat one full meal a day cause I’m not sure how to get out of it cause my mom makes me sit at the table with the family but I also go for at least 2 10 mile bike ride but today I went for 4
if watching this makes you relapse then i think it's best you stay away from things like this
@@miatucker7272 my brother did that for over three months and hes lost a lot of weight but still eats a lot to make sure he doesn't lose to much.
Im the only one in my family whose fat and I dont understand why i cant lose enough weight even when i starve myself and over exercise
@@ughicanteven5896 that's the worst part of the disorder. You get told that and it's completely true and scary but the disorder says "I don't care"
The warning doesn't even scare me
I don't know about you guys ... These things trigger a lot but I love watching them they make me feel not alone struggling💙
Emmm I also clicked to read the comments haha
I throw away all the food my mom makes me. I cant do it. I feel like I’m out of control and I’m constantly told what to eat and how to look at myself positively. I just need my time and space.
why doesn't my family understand this
The worse thing is living in a family where they won’t believe you
I love the movie „Feed“ so much
you know its getting bad again when you find yourself on these videos
When you see yourself getting sicker but can’t do anything to stop it 😢
It’s just so pretty I wish I was skinny like her
In a weird way, these type of videos bring me comfort bc my whole life, I could always relate to them
This is so underrated...
You know it’s getting bad again if you are back watching these
My whole life I felt insecure about what I look like. When I was little, I didn't care as much about it, I felt bad and then I got over it. Lately I've been looking at how thin everyone around me is and wondering why I can't be like that, why I can't look like that. Yeah, I can work out, but the problem is I don't feel any motivation to. I'm barely finding motivation to shower every other day and doing laundry, things I struggled with for the past few years, and now worrying about what I look like feels like I'm being pulled back to the darkness I've been stuck in for years.
this hit home, that’s all.
wish i was that skinny...
you don’t - it’s hard x
its not worth it
My brother and I were watching to the bone and he said “you look like the healthy vs of her” and I was like oh honey is that a dare imma change dat lmao but seriously it hurt
I just wanna be thin
goodluck to everyone who is watching this, i know we are all here for the same reason.
This hits me so much
Im so sorry that 2,100 people have liked this video...I currently struggle with this, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Im so sorry that this many people, and so many more, are struggling with this constantly.
Might just be me, but I watch these videos to distract myself so I don't eat.
Same here
When you know its getting bad so you watch these😕
I'm here to trigger myself since I'm already having a mental breakdown, I'm here to know I'm not alone.
I didn't eat for three days for i could be lovely
Haha triggers pfft-
my best friend was just admitted into inpatient treatment after being hospitalized for low heart rate. i've been anorexic for many, many years. i can't have kids, i have the bones of a 50 y/o menopausal woman- please, if you guys think you have an eating disorder, regardless of your weight, seek help. it's not too late
i don't want to live
Pinkbublejelly me too
Can someone help me?
Head: help yourself
me realizing one time more how i hate myself
I hate eating, I always try to avoid it whenever I can and I get upset at myself when I do eat. I weight about 78lbs and I'm 5'2. I don't think I have an eating disorder but some people around me always ask if I do. I'm not sure anymore
Random Nobody it sounds like you do
no hate but 78lbs is dangerously underweight...
I love this heaps
You know it’s fucked up, when it came to the point you throw your school lunch away, so you don’t eat „unnecessary calories“
I love the last part
" Unnecessary calories"😂😂
an i the only one who had an ed and its like "oh those were dark times luckily im not like that anymore" when in the inside you perfectly know your passing through a hard time but try to ignore it and acts like everything is fine and everyone belives it so u just keep saying ill deal with it later but you never do so this constant pressure is just behind you and u dont know what to do cause you dont want to feel like that again
cause sameee bestieeee
I've finally just gived up with it. I'm not trying to eat anymore, I'm letting myself go
I only watch these to trigger myself more so I relapse and don’t eat
Me too
I don't want to eat
And this gives me motivation
If they can do it I can too
This is amazing you’re amazing
Part of me just wanna stop eating completely but the other one wants to try and recovery. But recovery gains weight and I don’t wanna gain weight bc id I do all I have worked for will be gone and I will be ugly again.
I ate 988 calories today and I feel so guilty and bad. I tried throwing up but it did not work which makes me hate myself even more… I really want to starve myself tomorrow.
i’m pretty sure i had anorexia because i would never eat anything when at school or eat dinner (my parents were at work so i could get away with not eating) but now since we don’t have school because of corona my parents are always asking if i ate and make me eat, so now i throw it all up afterwards so does that make me bulimic? i don’t know.....
Please tell somebody. Get help please. It makes me want to cry please don't throw up😢 I know recovery is so hard but there are long term consequences and it's not worth it.
Catherine Madison I haven’t thrown up in two days so baby steps :)
cat lover it’s been a month but i hope ur doing better now!
still anorexia,, bulimia has binges in it. if you’re throwing up normal sized portions to stay skinny it’s anorexia
@@albinofrog5593 oops looks like i need to tell my therapist and nutritionist that 👀
You know youre not well when you just want to sleep the whole day or week and wake up skinny...
ALL MY FAVORITE PEOPLE IN THIS IM SO HAPPY LOL
This isn‘t a trigger. The people around me are a trigger
I want to be skinny, but I can’t.
not me getting jealous n using these videos as motivation
maybe if i got that skinny they'd stop making me hate myself
you may not know me but I damn well know those people are blind and don't see the wonderful side of you seek help keep trying,you've made it so far and I know you will make it imagine the story you can't tell others that will motivate others you matter please take it
@@qousl8608 thank you, that's very nice of you to say
@@renenen4057 no problem! I hope you get well soon
I think I will stop once I’ve lost the weight that I want to I like to believe I’m in control but deep down I just want to get smaller and smaller until I’m nothing
I feel happy when I don't eat I feel in control even if I purge I make that choice and it feels so good and I know in the end I'll be pretty I'm so ugly and fat so even when I loose weight people just compliment me no one even notices
I hurt my tooth.and I’m learning how to deal with a bowl of chicken noodle - a yogurt - and an applesauce This is what’s helping to cope with it cause I’m starving I want to just paralyze next in a way that maybe I’ll get used to this feeling and not have to worry about anything anymore It's not like I’m going anywhere
Watching these to keep myself motivated just 2 more kgs to go 🤧🤧lmaoo😭😭😂
I hate what society has done were skinny is seen as beautiful and ugly is seen as fat I'm so angry at the fact that these adjectives have so much worth in this world
Skinny does not equal to beautiful and fat does not equal to fact
I hope society can teach people to love them selfs as their are and not brainwash them any further
To anyone battleing with a eating disorder all I can say is I'm so sorry and I hope you get better
I hate myself .im not ok everyone blames me im sick of the pain
im not sure if i have an eating disorder everyday i eat 100 calories and after that i will purge my mom is kinda suspicious i cant help it
U gotta tell someone. I dont want you to die or be hurt or be in danger..🤍
Such a good video it so sad to
Please reach out for support. I have recovered from my eating disorder and I am so much happier and healthier. I have the energy to do things and food doesn't control me or my mood. Please get help. It is worth it.
.............why can't I feel anything? seriously help I remember what pain and sadness felt like to an extent but I just can't feel
2:03 idk why but that lady taking the picture really triggered me
i just want someone to acc help me like ive told my mom and she completely ignores me, at first she force fed me and i hated myself even more but now she just doesnt care. ive told my friends and they all just laugh at it like same and no one does anything i just cant do it anymore
is it bad that i cont every calorie then decide how much i want to burn and automatically check the calories?
Same thing 💔💔💔
Can anyone tell me the name of movie from which " I know I am messed up" dialogue is?
I am watching this not to trigger myself, I don't even wanna eat anymore,I just feel less alone,in my life no one understands, some say: you're an attention seeker , just eat healthy and u gonna look fine ,some say: everyone eats normal ppl eat .
But food doesn't even taste good not worth the guilt ,fuck it
I fee alone oop
I’m sorry :( I’ll be here for you if you ever need anything even though I don’t really know you 😞💕
1:34
Why do i feel like that!
I said to myself if someone texted me at before 6 or at 6 I will eat tomorrow no one texted 😂 so yea we all know what's happening tomorrow no it's okay I'm full or it's fine I already ate
Let me guees:
You have ed
You are laying in you bed
Feeling quilti that u ate somthing today
And now you wanna trigger yourself
I haven't eaten in 54 hours. I'm here to make sure to make it longer than that .
I just ate a full meal. I feel sick. I’ve eaten 965 calories today.
1 don’t show an anorexic a picture of them if your trying to help them get better. it just makes them want to get skinnier.
2 don’t ask if they think their body is beautiful because the answer is yes. that’s what we are aiming for.
i hated leo so much someone like emma deserved jordi
What is the name of für serie
😢😢😢
fhisfkna im relapsingg
what tv show is 2:41 please xx
i ate today. i feel disgusting.
me too
Me tooo
what is the show called with the brown haired girl and the bald guy?
or just mention the different shows/films
Red Band Society.
Song?
whos that 3rd g
why am i back on here fuck
:(
XDDDDDDDDDD imagine