Just as you were looking away coming back to camera. 1:00:40. Some awesome Northern lights. We didn’t see any on our trip. Probably slept through some I’d imagine. We had smoke in for a few days and cloud cover at times though.
I started watching your videos when I was in a very dark time. I was drinking daily watching videos of people solo camping and I would just imagine the freedom that you would feel doing that. Today I'm almost 2 years sober, employed, and doing better than ever. I thank you for being open and honest about how you've been doing. Just know there are a ton of people rooting for you Xander! Keep it up!
I been drinking for 4 years heavily also I love going to nature and camping. Only place where I feel good. I'm gonna be 22 this December. And I started to stop drinking. I'm working as accountant and Im in university at the same time. Only thing scares me is how bad can my liver be.. I will gonna find it in 1-2 weeks. My liver sometimes feel bloated a little not always when I drink something with sugar or even touched a beer. But I'm concerned alot that gives me anxiety. :/ did you experienced something like that If so do you think I have problem there :/ thanks.
@@vyrkolach5546mate I have been abusing alcohol for the last 30 years. I have just done 2 months sober for the first time ever in my life and after the first couple of weeks I actually started to enjoy it. First time I did anything like that just for me. Early days yet but when you feel like doing something for yourself too you should try it, I did it because I realised that alcohol wasn’t adding anything positive to my life any more. It never had done really but. It’s just a change of mindset and I can’t recommend it highly enough. Good luck dude, enjoy your life.
@@vyrkolach5546You sound exactly like me. When I was drinking I was 20 years old. Isolated from the outside world, scared of basically everything. I wasn't living I was surviving. My breaking point was when I was hospitalized for pancreatitis. My enzymes were so thick from the blood sample that they took, they couldn't get a reading on their machine. They didn't know if my pancreas was going to rupture or not. But the cool thing about the liver is that it does regenerate itself. I knew someone who was on a liver transplant list, completely yellow, and now has 3 years of sobriety and is healthier than ever. It is possible. Once your brain makes the connection that you aren't harming yourself by not drinking, sobriety becomes a blessing. What worked for me was talking to other alcoholics. Learning what they did and why. For my first 3 months of sobriety I was just listening. Doing what I was told, going to meetings, saying a prayer or two, and most importantly not picking up a drink. I pray that you find the peace that you deserve. Best of luck man!
Wow, this explains my experience in life to a T currently, I have dreams of being out there which are attainable, but currently feel impossible. So here I am drinking and watching what I know my life could be instead...
I always go back to your 3 day solo you made a while back. You said “I’d like to thank the frog and the fish for contributing to feeding me, id like to thank myself for contributing to the circle of life, I’d like to thank my mum and dad for giving me life and thank God for creating this amazing universe, and how happy I am to be alive on days like this” Your gratitude in that moment makes me so happy that someone out there is able to feel like that, my depression has never allowed me to feel so grateful as you was in that moment and although I’ve never been that grateful I’m glad there are people like yourself out there who can be.
Hey man! Just popping in the comments to say that I found you literally two days ago and cannot stop watching you. I find you incredibly motivating and wise. Keep uploading and keep up the good vibes!!!
Man same for me! Never heard of the channel but watched the exotic island video 2 days ago. Very calming and somewhat motivating content to watch to. Watching him doing his thing and being productive makes me wanna be more productive too.
Fr man I’ve been sober from 🍃 for 5 days, and I found this guy 2 days ago. He has definitely proven that there is more to life than I perceive, there’s a whole world out there for me to explore so why should I feel anxious about anything in life. If anything it should excite me that I’m here learning from other people experiences. I truly envy Xander and I think he’s doing a great job with his journey. True sonder…
Just remember mate - you have over 600k subscribers and these people are not here because you are dave cantebury or the legend Mors , (not saying you are not skilled etc), people watch your videos because not only are you out there living their dreams, you come across as a lovely bloke and are very relatable, not pretentious, just doing your stuff like one of our mates. You have no obligation to anyone who subscribes, you are delivering free content, so if you don't put something out for a while, so be it... and we will just enjoy when u r back. You are one of millions whose brain likes to mess with us now and again - but you are a rarity as in one of those who was able to tell possibly 100s of thousands that you have struggles, most never tell anyone so thumbs up mate, i bet there are people who will watch this and possibly go on to tell people how they feel and get the benefits of that - well done fella x
As someone who struggles with mental health but enjoys the outdoors as you do, I can't thank you enough for your contribution. Love the days you upload
One of my anxiety / looping thought therapies is watching Xander’s videos among others such as primitive technology and advoko makes. They take me away to the silent wilderness with them, and for a few short minutes I am at peace. Thank you Xander for giving your life and time, and for free. Much love and respect from Britain.
This is true. Xander's videos help me go back to the basics and just be grateful about life and earth. These little pieces of masterpieces you create and post here in YT help me ease my anxieties and fixation on personal challenges.
hearing about you talk about your anxiety and struggle with alcohol and drugs is very refreshing but also very jarring for me. im currently 20, im a heavy smoker and have been on and off the alcohol wagon but ive been experiencing severe anxiety, panic disorder, depression. just hearing you describe your cycle of ruminating bad intrusive thoughts and how you used substances to cope with it and it made me feel very less alone. ive always enjoyed watching these types of videos and as a kid loved the outdoors and going in the woods and being near the water but as i got older ive slowly become a recluse that lives almost entirely in my room. i have the most perfect gf ever that makes me so happy but shes her own person with her own life and she cant be there for me every second of every day and im sure you know how hard that can be to be this type of person and not be able to be with the person you feel like you cant breathe without. your mind betrays you. convinces you they hate you or will find someone better. even though realistically that probably will never happen and they dont deserve to be thought of that way. i have a semi decent paying job but still live with my parents because its free and my partner is still in college living with her mom as well. ive had better job opportunities but they all drug test so that was a no. but lately ive been trying to get sober. by lately i mean the last year or so. i go through the withdrawels by slowly weaning myself off and then eventually fall back into the same habits before being able to fully get clean and the cycle repeats itself and its all because i dont feel like i can handle living in my mind constantly thinking 1000 thoughts. but im gonna get there. anyways that was me rambling for 10 minutes but the point is thanks man you touched me this morning
That’s exactly how I was in my 20s and then I made a big push to get off everything in 2013 and eventually grew out of it. The big push to get clean was as miserable as you can imagine, but it can be done and then pain is only temporary.
You are absolutely correct about our wilderness. I feel privileged to live in the boreal forest. I can go 20 minutes from my house and not see another human being. The peace and tranquility is therapeutic. I love where I live. I don't have much money, but I consider myself a rich man. Thank you for sharing your love of the wilderness with the world. Rock on bud.
"I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived" Henry David Thoreau - Walden.
@@MidnightAutoPainterI routinely watch a video that includes this quote, among many other motivational bits and pieces, and was thinking about it less than five minutes before I saw your comment. That's a nice coincidence. I'm glad someone else can appreciate it as much as I do.
I love that you take us all in your wilderness trip not just visually but emotionally and spiritually too. That's what makes you different than other wilderness videomakers. You deliver experience with a heart!
I wish you a happy life healing. My wife of 9 years left me 4 months ago and I am devastated. We used to camp together every summer. This weekend I am going on my first camping trip without her, it will probably be solo as my friends may not be able to come. Life is hard sometimes.
You’re absolutely right. It’s filled with pain and hardship, but it also has its good moments. Those moments will return to your life, and I hope you’re doing better nowadays.
Xander, I never comment but thank you so much for your videos and for sharing your mental journey with us. I’ve been there. I relapsed more than once with addiction and intrusive thoughts but thankfully I’m still here. You’re videos have saved my life and you’re part of the reason I’m still here today. Don’t give up, Know you’re valuable to this world, not by what you give or offer, but by simply being you. We love you!
Been watching Xander for a long time and it’s good to see how well he explains his emotions and struggles to his viewers. A true kind soul and always love watching these amazing videos. Loads of love and support from Ireland 👍🏻
After several failed attempts at making content that is anything resembling what you, Lost Lakes or Max do, I am even more in awe of your talents and hard work. Thanks for making these experiences for us. Come down and paddle the Ozarks when the snow moves in!
I'd agree with that, but my little corner of the Ozarks has gotten to be quite crowded. It's pretty hard 20 go 6 hours without seeing other people, much less 6 days.
your wholehearted pouring of emotions and struggles combined with the absolute silliness of being by yourself and enjoying your time out is so relatable and lovely to see, I watch a lot of camping videos and usually they're either quite stoic or just idyllic but seeing the more silly and curious side of human nature (like when you bobbed to the geese calls or poking the spider) is so refreshing and just down to earth! Amazing videos, and thank you for being so open and willing to improve as a person, we all need times and self reflection like these
This by far was my favourite video of yours. Not sure you realize how open you are with your struggles helps many of us who also struggle on a daily basis. Thanks for being you and taking us along on your adventures. Those northern lights were absolutely wild, swirling and dancing all around you. Stay strong!!
Just glad you're ok Xander. You've got so many people, all over the world, pulling for you and love what you do and how you do it! Being Canadian, I'm so proud of the way you carry yourself. I'd be honoured to call you my friend! Love to you & Max, always!❤
Hi Xander! I wrote more to you in the comment bar but apparently I didn’t save it… so here goes- I watched your video today for the 1st time and I couldn’t stop watching! I really enjoyed your energy and your descriptions about the water, landscape and the wildlife. I believe that being out in nature does give a person a sense of peace and serenity. I was really touched by your story of your personal challenges that you had endured, I know that it took a lot of courage on your part to bare yourself to all of your fans. I admire you for your commitment to better out of that dark place that you were in. I was very impressed with your meditation and although I don’t have the same issues that you had, I do suffer from chronic pain 24/7. You have inspired me to try meditation myself! Thank you so much for making these videos and touching so many people in so many different ways ( I read several of the other comments), I believe that sometimes we have to go through the fire and after surviving that we become a better person because of it. Blessings to you and thank you again! Brenda
I loved this video so much. It made me homesick AF for my beautiful home country of Canada, but just to be able to listen and watch this vid while I worked on other stuff around the house was just so good for my soul. I live in England now and as much as I love many things about it, there are few places on earth that can top Canada for sheer wilderness, natural beauty, clean water, amazing accessible spaces. God this made me homesick. The crackling campfire, the canoeing and rush of the water, hell, even the memories of huddling under a tarp in the rain while camping. Going to go have a little sob session now lol.
I'm doing the opposite and am a British person currently travelling Canada - your country is beautiful and I am really appreciating and enjoying it if that helps at all :) not sure how long you have been in England but there are some beautiful spots that remind me a lot of parts of Canada I've been to so far, the Lake District, Cornwall and Devon, Pembrokeshire, a lot of Scotland and North Wales have that same kind of mystic and breathtaking beauty that I've seen here if you hadn't been to any of these places and wanted a little slice of home. Sending love & maple syrup
Being outside has literally saved my life on more than one occasion. You have inspired me in so many ways over the past few years Xander. Thank you for being vulnerable and deep in a world that is usually closed and shallow. Thank you. For real.
I’m proud of you dude. I’m working on kicking some addictions and you have inspired me to fill the space of drugs and alcohol with my roots of being outside. I’m really stoked everytime you post something because it’s grounding to witness. I can’t imagine how wonderful it is for you. You got this and those thoughts from anxiety are real and valid but what’s even more valid is processing through them.
Thanks for sharing about your status. I recently fell and broke some bones. Really trashed my confidence. Even at almost 70 anxiety is a thing to Conquer. Can't do the things you are doing anymore but the videos makes me feel and remember the beauty and adventure of the great outdoors. My husband loved the woods and fishing. We had so many beautiful evenings cooking over the open fire and just listening to nature. Hope you are able to make videos for many years to come. I look forward watching them. Thanks
Congrats on 3 years brother! I’m on 4 months and a days sober from alcohol and drugs! You’re videos have played huge part in my sobriety. You John and Jim Baird’s, for about the first month I was going through quite the withdraws and I watch all you guys to calm myself down! Keep up the good work! You guys do slot more for people than just create content! Much love brother 🤝
I have not seen you for a while, now I understand why....you have had problems! Glad to see you are embracing Mindfulness....it will help you a lot....thought that you were not on the right path when I last watched the drone footage. Your mind was all over the place. Peace be with you, in your efforts to stay sober and drug free. Keep up the good work and nature will be there for you to take advantage of. You are lucky to have those lakes and your canoe access al those things and you will be ok, but it’s an ongoing challenge in your life Xander.
Im from Brazil and I love our landscapes! We have huge forests and lots of remote land as well. Theres something to the view of the never ending mountains in the horizon that really draws me in. With that said, I'm in love with Canada and the outstanding natural beauty of your country Xander! I was blessed to visit your homeland at the end of last year and I considered moving in from the second I stepped on this amazing nation you call home. You guys are indeed lucky, and btw yall deserve it! In Canada I found one of the most kind and sweet people I've ever had the chance to meet! Have a good one, eh?
You paint a beautiful picture! I'm very lucky to enjoy Canada's beauty in my home, but I am so interested to learn more about the wilderness in Brazil! Thank you for sharing with me something I might not have thought of myself, I am excited to see this new kind of forest!
Thank you, Xander for another amazing video. Great to hear you're doing better from your personal struggle. As a fellow Torontonian you're truly fulfilling my itch for the outdoors, immersing myself to your videos fishing and bushcrafting.
The way you share your thoughts and explain how your meditation works for you is helping me . Thank you Xander, GOD bless and keep your videos coming . 1:00:40 was the shooting star.
Congrats on your sobriety! I'm coming up on 3 years sober from methamphetamine. Stumbled across your videos, and I find them so calming. I enjoy your sense of adventure and humor as you explore and camp. The time and care you put in filming shows and you have immense talent. Looking forward to more content from you!
I haven’t watched you for a few months until yesterday when i watched your 7 day solo trip all in one go. It made me remember how much i appreciate your content. I’ve been struggling with an anxiety disorder and other mental health stuff basically all my life so seeing you openly talk about your own struggles really touched me. I hope you know how much peace you bring your viewers in such a busy world. Thank you for all you do❤
Xander I never comment much but this was one of the best videos you’ve put out. The realness you present with your struggles as well as the ups and downs of the trip show what kind of guy you are. Keep doing what you’re doing really proud of you
That trip you shared was not only inspirational, but it hit next to home because I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks so I respect you and all you share... Love ya bro and keep em coming Xander... God bless you man!!!!
Xander this is my first video I’ve seen by you, and I deeply relate to the mental struggles you have/are dealing with. I tried everything I could to get rid of patterns or issues concerning my mental health, yes they did kinda work but every day was up and down. I’m 20 yrs old and my whole life I considered myself atheist, a few months ago I was inspired to look more into the purpose of life because I questioned that quite often when going through these ups and downs. I picked up a bible and started reading and obsessed over the fact that there is a god who knows my struggles and who created me specifically for a reason. Started praying and trying to form a personal relationship with Jesus and god. Not knowing what to expect it was more of a cry for help, shortly after I actually FELT DIFFERENT. My head is focused on a positive future and I am connecting with other people. Most importantly my heart felt opened again, for a long time I felt disconnected with a cold heart, getting to know God saved me and connected me to life again.
You are fortunate to have found God early in your life.Stay your course do not abandon Him, obey his commandments and you will be happy and successful.
Thanks for that video Xander. It's remarkable the things that come into our lives to silence the mumblings in our brains. I'm 52 years-old and, what some folks might call, a functioning alcoholic. About 10 years ago I randomly stumbled into wood carving, specifically spoon carving and the meditative act of creating something with just an axe and a few knives has healed many goofy mental wounds. Finding "that thing that was missing" is integral. One love brother.
Around the 45:00 mark you asked for us to share what we love about where we are from. As a Minnesotan, I share similar feelings towards Minnesota as you do with Canada. One of the things I appreciate so much about Minnesota is the variety of landscapes all within the boarders of this state. Northern MN provides the quintessential Northwoods experience, southeastern MN along the Mississippi River provides a unique bluff country beauty. I hope to do a multi day trip in BWCA soon
What an amazing episode. I watched this with my dad and we both enjoy watching your videos, and it is often our time together. Thank you for such an incredible episode.
I've never heard someone talk about intrusive thoughts and anxiety before like you did and I related so hard to what you were saying it got me teary eyed. You're not alone Xander. Sending love brother. Glad you're doing better and experiencing everything nature has to bless us with. Godspeed
Thankyou for taking us along on this adventure, from the truck breaking down, the loss of your drone to seeing those amazing northern lights plus the bear we were captivated from start to finish. Your drone has been commandeered by the giant Pike of the lake and is now the chariot of their mighty leader😊
Journaling and meditation also have helped me tremendously, I know this video is from months ago but I’m a newbie to your channel. One thing I learned through my own struggles with anxiety and intrusive thoughts is to take it one day at a time, hour by hour, living in the now. I hope all is well and I think you’re tremendously strong for sharing your struggles and I truly wish you all the best.
I guess I never truly took a canoe trip alone; always with a group of fellow fishermen, my wife or my dogs; so the self realization and introspection you've shared is insightful. Now in my 70's my canoe trips are over, I tried this summer with less than stellar results. However the passing of my spouse and loss of many friends, has the unwelcome result of aloneness and time for introspection. I have been involved in meditation but rather enjoy morning Tai Chi and evening Yoga; both of which have helped a ton. Fellow searcher, keep the bow into the wind; I have enjoyed your adventures and look forward to many more; thanks.
Thanks for being vulnerable and transparent for others to see they aren’t alone. I am happy you are actively seeking resources that are helpful. I have been there before my friend. More then once. The only thing we can do is keep fighting and keeping exploring the world and all its wonder. Stay strong my friend. Thanks for the inspiration
This is by far my favourite video you’ve posted. I started following you awhile ago when I was looking for an escape, due to drowning emotions and wanting away from people but I’ve come to really like your videos because as funny as it sounds I live vicariously through you. I work too much and never take time for myself so lots of nights I’ll watch these videos. You are an amazing human being and you’ve helped me more than you may know. Thank you.
5:01 I know I’m new here and late to the video man, but I appreciate you talking about what you’re goin through. Ik life ain’t easy and you’re doin your best which I respect🤝
Xander, I've been watching you for about a year or so now. Beyond this being one of the best videos you have put out yet I just wanted to thank you for all the effort and time you put into things like this. People like you, people who share their mental struggles through life and how they cope with it is how many people - including myself - are able to fight our battles day to day. You are a huge inspiration to not only work on ones self, but to also get out there and do what you love. I am super glad to hear you dug yourself out of dark times because sometimes that is a harder battle than anyone can fight in this world, and I hope all of these messages of people sharing their love for you only help grow the image you have of yourself and not grow some level of imposter syndrome. You are doing amazing things and I can't wait to see what you do in the future :)
It’s going to take me a while to make it through this. But I want to say, I’m so glad you’re doing better and winning your battles. Thank you for being who you are, and for being here.
I needed this trip - thank you! You donated some kick ass drone footage to someone who's bound to come across it...just like the backpack you returned...it stings now, but the footage you shared with us today is just as valuable - looking forward to your next trip!
whenever i feel sad i just come to this channel and i watch this movie. still havent found any purpose in life but watching this movie brings me peace. thanks xander.
Hey Xander - truly proud of you brother! It’s a hard thing to admit we have a problem and even harder to ask for help from others. I am now 6 yrs clean myself and the struggle is real! Our minds talk to us in our own voices and can very easily convince us that we are better off using. The mindfulness you speak of is probably the biggest source of strength I have and now understand that I need to be firmly grounded in today - not thinking of the future or regretting my past. I just got back from 4days of solitude with only my dog for company. I find it is the best therapy for when I am feeling overwhelmed with life of life’s terms. Truly thank you for sharing your personal struggles. More men need to do this to show others they are not alone. Keep up the good fight. You are a hero to many, including me. Thanks Gord
I appreciate you sharing your anxiety story (and treatment). I've dealt with similar intrusive thoughts, churning and depression. It took me into my mid 30's to finally get treatment. It's a lifelong struggle and it never goes away, but as you know, you can treat it and learn how to deal with it. One of the worst things for me was just understanding what was happening. Identifying the anxiety is a huge first step. I hope others hear your story and realize that anxiety is manageable, and get help.
I'm so glad that there's other people out there who appreciate content such as this, so that creators like yourself can flourish by doing what y'all love.
Hey buddy! Every video you make, you really take us with you. It's an experience, not just something to watch. There is peace and humour, humility and honesty in all of the videos you have shared with us. While we all thoroughly enjoy sitting next to you at your fireplace or in your canoe, we forget the toll it takes on you bringing us with you. I imagine it is a huge job filming the way you do, editing and producing these awesome pieces. Both physically and mentally. Thank you so much for everything you have done for us. It has brought many hours of peace to my busy mind watching your videos. Inspired me to get back out there and enjoy what we are so lucky to have. To go and light my own fire. Keep on keeping on. Make sure to do some trips where the camera stays at home. Love from Mt Ruapehu NZ Come stay some time!
Xander I have struggled with the same things. It brings me joy to know you are doing better. I hope you keep the outdoors to yourself despite your obligations
Lots of bad things happening in the world lately, but you Mr @XanderBudnick are actually a positive force making things better by helping the world appreciate the beauty, tranquility and peacefulness of nature without countries squabbling constantly for territory. Keep up the great work. A lot of your videos are works of arts. They capture the beauty of camping in high definition.
As someone who has been dealing with depression and anxiety as a results of burnout on and off for 2yrs now, I have much respect for you. It touches me that you're being so honest, open and humble about what you've been experiencing. Sharing the good ánd the bad. And of course I am glad to hear you've also found your way up again. Follow your heart and intuition, and you will always find the way back up that mountain.
Thank you for sharing your story Xander and showing everyone it's ok to feel vulnerable and also to talk to people. Seeing you talk about this inspires others and we all support you.
Well done on pulling yourself out of that place. I know how it feels; I've been there too, and as a fellow sober warrior, I also understand how those negative thoughts can push you to drugs and alcohol. Meditating, journaling and nature were my doctors when I got clean and they still help me now. The present is all there is; nothing else is real, none of those thoughts, emotions or anything else is the reality other than this moment right now. Keep it up and remember you're life itself, which is experiencing itself through consciousness, and what you are doing is bringing joy to your life and those around you. Go where you find joy or bring it with you ;)
I'm from Brazil and I have a daughter who is now Canadian. I've been to Canada a few times and I agree with you. Here the nature is beautiful, but I think that in Canada it surpasses us. A big hug.
glad to hear you are on the mend. My go to place for recharging and calming the mind is the Australian bush - I have always camped and hiked alone - I am nearly 77 and still do, although a lot more slowly 🤪🤪 and in the last few years with my little dog. The wonderous nature you catch on film is incredible. Keep up the good work ❤❤
Xander - this was such a special film. Thanks for sharing your journey, both mental and physical. I’ve been battling through it lately and nothing gives me more encouragement than when others share their stories. You’re a special guy and I love watching your travels. Thank you for being you and for keeping on.
After reading the comments you must realize how important you are to people who appreciate your candor, your spirit, your humor, your talents, and most of all your honesty. We all have bad times, but when we look at the tragedies around the world we know that however real and painful our problems are, there are others who are struggling just to survive. I am grateful to see you happy and hope you continue to prosper. Thanks for another great video. Like many people, when I see you post, I set aside a time when I can watch the entire video and share your trip.
That was very fun to watch from here on the Upper West Side of NYC. You're comedic timing is developing very nicely, thank you for all of the sharing you did in regard to your mental health and the benefit of therapy and mediation. You're giving a lot to a lot of people by doing that, and the love is appreciated! :)
You’re such a wonderful person, Xander. I’m happy that you live in Canada and get to enjoy Mother Nature. You’re very lucky. I love coming on the tube to watch your videos after long stressful days in the city. I hope you live a long happy healthy life. Thank you for your videos.
glad to hear you’re feeling more like yourself buddy. we’re all so proud of you for your sobriety, every road has its mounds, we’ve just gotta keep on climbing them❤️
I paddled out to Quetico in a group in 2016, and that land was some of the most peaceful and isolated I've ever felt. It's definitely a treasured memory for me and is a feeling I want to get back. Thanks for the awesome video, I felt that same quiet that I did back then, which is something I need now more than ever.
Awesome trip once again and glad everything worked out in the end. Like that saying; when nothing goes as planned is where the adventure begins. Love the banter between you and John.
Thanks Xander I live my life vicariously through you and John. Looking forward to some winter content. Kudos on the honesty around mental health and sobriety. As someone you has struggled with both it's great to see open honesty. ..
Thank you man for everything, getting to sit back and watch you do these things gives me a little sense of being there myself, I wish I could but at this time in my life it isn’t really feasible, you have come so far man and it’s okay not to be okay sometimes, i’m happy to hear you’re doing better, i started watching you from your tiktok about a year ago i believe, and i have not regretted it a day since, thank you for all you do for us. We are all so proud of you.
There's nothing like meditating in nature. Happy for you to get to experience an epic trip like this and thanks for bringing meditation to your audience!
Xander this is one of my absolute favorites among your videos! Thank you for sharing your innermost self with us. How very brave of you. It shows how much you love , trust, and appreciate us. 💙 I watched your very first uploads last night. You have really matured and grown in so many ways. I love your respect for every single creature as well as the environment you explore in. I miss Patches but love your new canoe! Will you name her too? How about Ruby? She fits you like a big shiny red slipper! ❤️ You have inspired me so much and I would so love to live where you play. I hike, kayak, camp, etc. and spend as much time as I can outdoors. Your videos have become my favorites, as I love your humor, cinematography, sense of adventure without being reckless, your honesty and values, and maybe most of all your love and appreciation of family and friends. Lack of those last two would leave a pretty big void, eh? BTW the ending of this video was surprising and gave me a chuckle! I hope you keep doing what you're doing for a good long time! Peace, love, and wellness!
I just want to tell you, your song for your drone was beautiful lol. No but for real, I’ve been struggling with my mental health, specifically my anxiety, intrusive thoughts, and negative thought loops. Also I’m an addict in recovery. I don’t even usually watch survival videos but yours popped up and… it’s resonated so much with me. From the stuff you’ve dealt with to knowing I need to get into meditation (and nature), it’s been a nagging thing lately like “DO IT, YOU IDIOT, IT WILL HELP YOU.” Anyway, this is a beautiful video and I needed it at this very moment so, thank you.
Xander, your content is still at the top of my favorite! So many great moments in this one.....spaghetti God, lost giant fish, single carrying, the fresh fried fish, the Lost Lakes cameo at the end, and the northern lights to name a few. But in all seriousness, glad to see your mental state in a good spot. We all have our moments, some more serious and inhibiting than others. Seeing another human suffer emotionally is tough and those struggles are relatable. Looks like you're on a better path now, and I sure hope you can stay there. Oh, and sorry about the drone. I'll see if I can make a contribution on your Patreon side to help get a new one. Cheers!
Xander, don't tell Max, but I keep coming back to all of your videos time and time again for my own anxiety and depression. My therapist hooked me up with Headspace about 5 months ago, and it has been invaluable. Keep practicing! You're doing great! I didn't believe it at first, but the tools you learn during these meditations actually become much easier over time - and sometimes they even become second nature as you mindfully recognize situations or events that used to be triggering suddenly are far less so. Keep it up, brother! 💪 And thank you for everything. P.S. I'm also here for the poop tips 🤣
Just found your channel. Good to see you was able to get the addicting behaviors under control. I was 43 when I went from a heavy drinking to stopping completely. I'm 57 now. Our minds can be our own worst enemies at times but finding others to talk to especially before the thoughts becime invasive is a huge help.
I struggle so hard with depression and anxiety sometimes. It comes in waves. I could tell you were struggling and I’m glad you got back on top of it. It is so important to address those feelings when the come up or it just pulls you down harder. We need you man, we love your content.
Must say, even with the unfortunate loss of the drone you still have some absolutely amazing video. Yes, drone footage may have added another layer but hey, you still hit it out of the park as far as I am concerned! Keep up the great work Xander!! 👍👍👍
The overall production values has taken a big step up on this one, and it was already good before. I know this must have taken you an age to put together but it's fantastically well done. Hats off to you.
So glad you overcame the pre-trip obstacles. You seem to be using your life to create exciting and beautiful memories. Thanks for letting me share and dream.
I'm at near 23:00 where you lost your drone I'm feeling really sorry for you but more than that I'm inspired by your dedication and positivity.All the efforts you put in every single video is beyond anything I ever saw. Really you are the real influencer. I salute to you 🙌🏻 and thank you soo much for uploading. Lots of love and well wishes❤
Hey Xander, I’m so happy you’re doing better buddy. I know about anxiety, I still go through it but God & Faith gets me through it. I love your videos, they relax me after a long work week and they calm me down if I’m feeling riled up. Thank you for taking the time to do this. Continue to walk the line of Faith buddy, I promise it’ll make you feel better. ❤
Have done the same therapy, meditation and desensitization for my anxiety and PTSD. The hardest part for me was starting it even though I know it works, getting in the head space to begin is just tough. Good for you, keep it up! I want MORE videos with your awesome filming, content and editing! P.S. I think 1:02:39 should be your new cover photo :)
This is the first video I watch from you and cant thank you enough for taking us through your journey. Thanks for being who you truly are. Get yourself surrounded with peolpe that really love you, thats the best way ❤ Stay safe my friend!
Just remember, no matter where in the world we watch this from or who we are in life, we will always love your haphazardly trimmed mullet. I'm glad you're back, Xander.
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the shooting star behind the star himself 1:00:39 🫶
Yea just saw the alien spaceship behind you at 1:00:39
Just as you were looking away coming back to camera. 1:00:40. Some awesome Northern lights. We didn’t see any on our trip. Probably slept through some I’d imagine. We had smoke in for a few days and cloud cover at times though.
Saw it! Amazing shot.
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Glad to hear you are doing better Xander! It's so touching and humbling that you're willing to talk about your struggles like this.
Thank you. I appreciate that ☺️
@@XanderBudnickwhat's Poly???
@@Shandele3Not sure what you're referencing, but it usually means 'many'
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It's when you're taking more than 1 substance at a time. Mixing. Such as alcohol and cocaine. Sober going on 5 -6 months now myself.
Makes it real.
I started watching your videos when I was in a very dark time. I was drinking daily watching videos of people solo camping and I would just imagine the freedom that you would feel doing that.
Today I'm almost 2 years sober, employed, and doing better than ever. I thank you for being open and honest about how you've been doing. Just know there are a ton of people rooting for you Xander! Keep it up!
I been drinking for 4 years heavily also I love going to nature and camping. Only place where I feel good. I'm gonna be 22 this December. And I started to stop drinking. I'm working as accountant and Im in university at the same time. Only thing scares me is how bad can my liver be.. I will gonna find it in 1-2 weeks. My liver sometimes feel bloated a little not always when I drink something with sugar or even touched a beer. But I'm concerned alot that gives me anxiety. :/ did you experienced something like that If so do you think I have problem there :/ thanks.
@@vyrkolach5546mate I have been abusing alcohol for the last 30 years. I have just done 2 months sober for the first time ever in my life and after the first couple of weeks I actually started to enjoy it. First time I did anything like that just for me. Early days yet but when you feel like doing something for yourself too you should try it, I did it because I realised that alcohol wasn’t adding anything positive to my life any more. It never had done really but. It’s just a change of mindset and I can’t recommend it highly enough. Good luck dude, enjoy your life.
@@vyrkolach5546You sound exactly like me. When I was drinking I was 20 years old. Isolated from the outside world, scared of basically everything. I wasn't living I was surviving. My breaking point was when I was hospitalized for pancreatitis. My enzymes were so thick from the blood sample that they took, they couldn't get a reading on their machine. They didn't know if my pancreas was going to rupture or not.
But the cool thing about the liver is that it does regenerate itself. I knew someone who was on a liver transplant list, completely yellow, and now has 3 years of sobriety and is healthier than ever. It is possible. Once your brain makes the connection that you aren't harming yourself by not drinking, sobriety becomes a blessing. What worked for me was talking to other alcoholics. Learning what they did and why. For my first 3 months of sobriety I was just listening. Doing what I was told, going to meetings, saying a prayer or two, and most importantly not picking up a drink. I pray that you find the peace that you deserve. Best of luck man!
Wow, this explains my experience in life to a T currently, I have dreams of being out there which are attainable, but currently feel impossible. So here I am drinking and watching what I know my life could be instead...
so basically im you haha im like you before sober then
I always go back to your 3 day solo you made a while back.
You said “I’d like to thank the frog and the fish for contributing to feeding me, id like to thank myself for contributing to the circle of life, I’d like to thank my mum and dad for giving me life and thank God for creating this amazing universe, and how happy I am to be alive on days like this”
Your gratitude in that moment makes me so happy that someone out there is able to feel like that, my depression has never allowed me to feel so grateful as you was in that moment and although I’ve never been that grateful I’m glad there are people like yourself out there who can be.
Gratitude is the attitude and You got alot of it in you or else you wouldnt see it. You got it,your mind is playin trix with you💯❣️🕊🕉💜🦋✨
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Hey man! Just popping in the comments to say that I found you literally two days ago and cannot stop watching you. I find you incredibly motivating and wise. Keep uploading and keep up the good vibes!!!
Man same for me! Never heard of the channel but watched the exotic island video 2 days ago. Very calming and somewhat motivating content to watch to. Watching him doing his thing and being productive makes me wanna be more productive too.
Fr man I’ve been sober from 🍃 for 5 days, and I found this guy 2 days ago. He has definitely proven that there is more to life than I perceive, there’s a whole world out there for me to explore so why should I feel anxious about anything in life. If anything it should excite me that I’m here learning from other people experiences. I truly envy Xander and I think he’s doing a great job with his journey. True sonder…
Just remember mate - you have over 600k subscribers and these people are not here because you are dave cantebury or the legend Mors , (not saying you are not skilled etc), people watch your videos because not only are you out there living their dreams, you come across as a lovely bloke and are very relatable, not pretentious, just doing your stuff like one of our mates. You have no obligation to anyone who subscribes, you are delivering free content, so if you don't put something out for a while, so be it... and we will just enjoy when u r back. You are one of millions whose brain likes to mess with us now and again - but you are a rarity as in one of those who was able to tell possibly 100s of thousands that you have struggles, most never tell anyone so thumbs up mate, i bet there are people who will watch this and possibly go on to tell people how they feel and get the benefits of that - well done fella x
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Agree
Very well said & so true
Australian here, I was told are good eating by British but you don't touch them.
As someone who struggles with mental health but enjoys the outdoors as you do, I can't thank you enough for your contribution. Love the days you upload
Glad you're feeling better. Nature can be so grounding and healing. ❤
One of my anxiety / looping thought therapies is watching Xander’s videos among others such as primitive technology and advoko makes. They take me away to the silent wilderness with them, and for a few short minutes I am at peace. Thank you Xander for giving your life and time, and for free. Much love and respect from Britain.
This is true. Xander's videos help me go back to the basics and just be grateful about life and earth. These little pieces of masterpieces you create and post here in YT help me ease my anxieties and fixation on personal challenges.
Shout out to the uk appreciation society - great content
hearing about you talk about your anxiety and struggle with alcohol and drugs is very refreshing but also very jarring for me. im currently 20, im a heavy smoker and have been on and off the alcohol wagon but ive been experiencing severe anxiety, panic disorder, depression. just hearing you describe your cycle of ruminating bad intrusive thoughts and how you used substances to cope with it and it made me feel very less alone. ive always enjoyed watching these types of videos and as a kid loved the outdoors and going in the woods and being near the water but as i got older ive slowly become a recluse that lives almost entirely in my room. i have the most perfect gf ever that makes me so happy but shes her own person with her own life and she cant be there for me every second of every day and im sure you know how hard that can be to be this type of person and not be able to be with the person you feel like you cant breathe without. your mind betrays you. convinces you they hate you or will find someone better. even though realistically that probably will never happen and they dont deserve to be thought of that way. i have a semi decent paying job but still live with my parents because its free and my partner is still in college living with her mom as well. ive had better job opportunities but they all drug test so that was a no. but lately ive been trying to get sober. by lately i mean the last year or so. i go through the withdrawels by slowly weaning myself off and then eventually fall back into the same habits before being able to fully get clean and the cycle repeats itself and its all because i dont feel like i can handle living in my mind constantly thinking 1000 thoughts. but im gonna get there. anyways that was me rambling for 10 minutes but the point is thanks man you touched me this morning
That’s exactly how I was in my 20s and then I made a big push to get off everything in 2013 and eventually grew out of it. The big push to get clean was as miserable as you can imagine, but it can be done and then pain is only temporary.
You are absolutely correct about our wilderness. I feel privileged to live in the boreal forest. I can go 20 minutes from my house and not see another human being. The peace and tranquility is therapeutic. I love where I live. I don't have much money, but I consider myself a rich man. Thank you for sharing your love of the wilderness with the world. Rock on bud.
True wealth is measured in the amount of peace and free time an individual has.
Same, even watching from BC
"I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived" Henry David Thoreau - Walden.
@@MidnightAutoPainterI routinely watch a video that includes this quote, among many other motivational bits and pieces, and was thinking about it less than five minutes before I saw your comment. That's a nice coincidence. I'm glad someone else can appreciate it as much as I do.
Amen brother I can relate
I love that you take us all in your wilderness trip not just visually but emotionally and spiritually too. That's what makes you different than other wilderness videomakers. You deliver experience with a heart!
Dude you just deserve an actual Netflix special at this point. Phenomenal, captivating, soothing. Thank you, Xander!
Netflix would ruin this. It's perfect as is
I wish you a happy life healing.
My wife of 9 years left me 4 months ago and I am devastated. We used to camp together every summer. This weekend I am going on my first camping trip without her, it will probably be solo as my friends may not be able to come. Life is hard sometimes.
Sorry for your current state. Take it one day at a time and be patient with yourself. Time to make new memories.
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You’re absolutely right. It’s filled with pain and hardship, but it also has its good moments. Those moments will return to your life, and I hope you’re doing better nowadays.
Xander, I never comment but thank you so much for your videos and for sharing your mental journey with us. I’ve been there. I relapsed more than once with addiction and intrusive thoughts but thankfully I’m still here. You’re videos have saved my life and you’re part of the reason I’m still here today. Don’t give up, Know you’re valuable to this world, not by what you give or offer, but by simply being you. We love you!
Hey there! We love you too! Never give up. Xander community has you too.
Stay strong, girlie 💪
You've got this keep up the fight 💪
You guys aren't alone. We are here as a community ❤
Been watching Xander for a long time and it’s good to see how well he explains his emotions and struggles to his viewers. A true kind soul and always love watching these amazing videos. Loads of love and support from Ireland 👍🏻
I second that! 😊👍
He’s incredibly strong and a wonderful soul, hard not to like him.
Couldn’t have said it better than that
After several failed attempts at making content that is anything resembling what you, Lost Lakes or Max do, I am even more in awe of your talents and hard work. Thanks for making these experiences for us. Come down and paddle the Ozarks when the snow moves in!
I'd agree with that, but my little corner of the Ozarks has gotten to be quite crowded. It's pretty hard 20 go 6 hours without seeing other people, much less 6 days.
Keep trying!
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your wholehearted pouring of emotions and struggles combined with the absolute silliness of being by yourself and enjoying your time out is so relatable and lovely to see, I watch a lot of camping videos and usually they're either quite stoic or just idyllic but seeing the more silly and curious side of human nature (like when you bobbed to the geese calls or poking the spider) is so refreshing and just down to earth! Amazing videos, and thank you for being so open and willing to improve as a person, we all need times and self reflection like these
This by far was my favourite video of yours. Not sure you realize how open you are with your struggles helps many of us who also struggle on a daily basis. Thanks for being you and taking us along on your adventures. Those northern lights were absolutely wild, swirling and dancing all around you. Stay strong!!
Have to agree...best video for me also!
Many thanks Xander.
Just glad you're ok Xander.
You've got so many people, all over the world, pulling for you and love what you do and how you do it! Being Canadian, I'm so proud of the way you carry yourself. I'd be honoured to call you my friend! Love to you & Max, always!❤
xander your struggles as you explained them makes me feel less alone. thank you
Hi Xander! I wrote more to you in the comment bar but apparently I didn’t save it… so here goes-
I watched your video today for the 1st time and I couldn’t stop watching! I really enjoyed your energy and your descriptions about the water, landscape and the wildlife. I believe that being out in nature does give a person a sense of peace and serenity.
I was really touched by your story of your personal challenges that you had endured, I know that it took a lot of courage on your part to bare yourself to all of your fans. I admire you for your commitment to better out of that dark place that you were in.
I was very impressed with your meditation and although I don’t have the same issues that you had, I do suffer from chronic pain 24/7. You have inspired me to try meditation myself!
Thank you so much for making these videos and touching so many people in so many different ways ( I read several of the other comments), I believe that sometimes we have to go through the fire and after surviving that we become a better person because of it. Blessings to you and thank you again!
Brenda
Thanks Brenda, I hope you happiness and peace on your journey ❤️
I loved this video so much. It made me homesick AF for my beautiful home country of Canada, but just to be able to listen and watch this vid while I worked on other stuff around the house was just so good for my soul. I live in England now and as much as I love many things about it, there are few places on earth that can top Canada for sheer wilderness, natural beauty, clean water, amazing accessible spaces. God this made me homesick. The crackling campfire, the canoeing and rush of the water, hell, even the memories of huddling under a tarp in the rain while camping. Going to go have a little sob session now lol.
I'm doing the opposite and am a British person currently travelling Canada - your country is beautiful and I am really appreciating and enjoying it if that helps at all :) not sure how long you have been in England but there are some beautiful spots that remind me a lot of parts of Canada I've been to so far, the Lake District, Cornwall and Devon, Pembrokeshire, a lot of Scotland and North Wales have that same kind of mystic and breathtaking beauty that I've seen here if you hadn't been to any of these places and wanted a little slice of home. Sending love & maple syrup
Wait? Homesick? This makes you want to stay home? Why would you want to stay home after watching this?
Being outside has literally saved my life on more than one occasion. You have inspired me in so many ways over the past few years Xander. Thank you for being vulnerable and deep in a world that is usually closed and shallow. Thank you. For real.
I’m proud of you dude. I’m working on kicking some addictions and you have inspired me to fill the space of drugs and alcohol with my roots of being outside. I’m really stoked everytime you post something because it’s grounding to witness. I can’t imagine how wonderful it is for you. You got this and those thoughts from anxiety are real and valid but what’s even more valid is processing through them.
I am rooting for you! Im fucking proud,
Thanks for sharing about your status. I recently fell and broke some bones. Really trashed my confidence. Even at almost 70 anxiety is a thing to Conquer. Can't do the things you are doing anymore but the videos makes me feel and remember the beauty and adventure of the great outdoors. My husband loved the woods and fishing. We had so many beautiful evenings cooking over the open fire and just listening to nature. Hope you are able to make videos for many years to come. I look forward watching them. Thanks
Congrats on 3 years brother! I’m on 4 months and a days sober from alcohol and drugs! You’re videos have played huge part in my sobriety. You John and Jim Baird’s, for about the first month I was going through quite the withdraws and I watch all you guys to calm myself down! Keep up the good work! You guys do slot more for people than just create content! Much love brother 🤝
Keep after it it gets easier my friend. It's a better life on this side 💪
I have not seen you for a while, now I understand why....you have had problems! Glad to see you are embracing Mindfulness....it will help you a lot....thought that you were not on the right path when I last watched the drone footage. Your mind was all over the place. Peace be with you, in your efforts to stay sober and drug free. Keep up the good work and nature will be there for you to take advantage of. You are lucky to have those lakes and your canoe access al those things and you will be ok, but it’s an ongoing challenge in your life Xander.
Im from Brazil and I love our landscapes! We have huge forests and lots of remote land as well. Theres something to the view of the never ending mountains in the horizon that really draws me in. With that said, I'm in love with Canada and the outstanding natural beauty of your country Xander! I was blessed to visit your homeland at the end of last year and I considered moving in from the second I stepped on this amazing nation you call home. You guys are indeed lucky, and btw yall deserve it! In Canada I found one of the most kind and sweet people I've ever had the chance to meet! Have a good one, eh?
Fellow Brazilian ❤
You paint a beautiful picture! I'm very lucky to enjoy Canada's beauty in my home, but I am so interested to learn more about the wilderness in Brazil! Thank you for sharing with me something I might not have thought of myself, I am excited to see this new kind of forest!
Thank you, Xander for another amazing video. Great to hear you're doing better from your personal struggle. As a fellow Torontonian you're truly fulfilling my itch for the outdoors, immersing myself to your videos fishing and bushcrafting.
Only 10 seconds in the video and its already cooler than 99% of what i could watch on youtube!
Thanks for that my friend :)
The way you share your thoughts and explain how your meditation works for you is helping me . Thank you Xander, GOD bless and keep your videos coming . 1:00:40 was the shooting star.
Congrats on your sobriety! I'm coming up on 3 years sober from methamphetamine. Stumbled across your videos, and I find them so calming. I enjoy your sense of adventure and humor as you explore and camp. The time and care you put in filming shows and you have immense talent. Looking forward to more content from you!
Pls marry him u 2 will be good couple
Congrats on your recovery!!
Sheesh 3 years off me good for you,a lotta our dopamine I back now !
Love you Xander keep pushing man. We’re fully behind you.
RIP to the drone though titanic scene got me 😂
@@ReadYourManuel LOL yip he got cool sense of humor, i was hoping he might fish it up lol
Thank you for opening up.
You make a lot of us feel good, and I hope that makes you feel good.
I haven’t watched you for a few months until yesterday when i watched your 7 day solo trip all in one go. It made me remember how much i appreciate your content. I’ve been struggling with an anxiety disorder and other mental health stuff basically all my life so seeing you openly talk about your own struggles really touched me. I hope you know how much peace you bring your viewers in such a busy world. Thank you for all you do❤
Xander I never comment much but this was one of the best videos you’ve put out. The realness you present with your struggles as well as the ups and downs of the trip show what kind of guy you are. Keep doing what you’re doing really proud of you
That trip you shared was not only inspirational, but it hit next to home because I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks so I respect you and all you share... Love ya bro and keep em coming Xander... God bless you man!!!!
I love how honest you are about yourself and your life, Xander. I can’t even describe how refreshing that is compared to everything else out there.
Xander this is my first video I’ve seen by you, and I deeply relate to the mental struggles you have/are dealing with. I tried everything I could to get rid of patterns or issues concerning my mental health, yes they did kinda work but every day was up and down. I’m 20 yrs old and my whole life I considered myself atheist, a few months ago I was inspired to look more into the purpose of life because I questioned that quite often when going through these ups and downs. I picked up a bible and started reading and obsessed over the fact that there is a god who knows my struggles and who created me specifically for a reason. Started praying and trying to form a personal relationship with Jesus and god. Not knowing what to expect it was more of a cry for help, shortly after I actually FELT DIFFERENT. My head is focused on a positive future and I am connecting with other people. Most importantly my heart felt opened again, for a long time I felt disconnected with a cold heart, getting to know God saved me and connected me to life again.
You are fortunate to have found God early in your life.Stay your course do not abandon Him, obey his commandments and you will be happy and successful.
Thanks for that video Xander. It's remarkable the things that come into our lives to silence the mumblings in our brains. I'm 52 years-old and, what some folks might call, a functioning alcoholic. About 10 years ago I randomly stumbled into wood carving, specifically spoon carving and the meditative act of creating something with just an axe and a few knives has healed many goofy mental wounds. Finding "that thing that was missing" is integral. One love brother.
Around the 45:00 mark you asked for us to share what we love about where we are from. As a Minnesotan, I share similar feelings towards Minnesota as you do with Canada. One of the things I appreciate so much about Minnesota is the variety of landscapes all within the boarders of this state. Northern MN provides the quintessential Northwoods experience, southeastern MN along the Mississippi River provides a unique bluff country beauty. I hope to do a multi day trip in BWCA soon
BISON country in the SW!
You do great work, Xander! I love your videos. And you are finding yourself. Be here now, my friend. There is nowhere else you can be.
What an amazing episode. I watched this with my dad and we both enjoy watching your videos, and it is often our time together. Thank you for such an incredible episode.
I've never heard someone talk about intrusive thoughts and anxiety before like you did and I related so hard to what you were saying it got me teary eyed. You're not alone Xander. Sending love brother. Glad you're doing better and experiencing everything nature has to bless us with. Godspeed
Thankyou for taking us along on this adventure, from the truck breaking down, the loss of your drone to seeing those amazing northern lights plus the bear we were captivated from start to finish. Your drone has been commandeered by the giant Pike of the lake and is now the chariot of their mighty leader😊
Journaling and meditation also have helped me tremendously, I know this video is from months ago but I’m a newbie to your channel. One thing I learned through my own struggles with anxiety and intrusive thoughts is to take it one day at a time, hour by hour, living in the now. I hope all is well and I think you’re tremendously strong for sharing your struggles and I truly wish you all the best.
I guess I never truly took a canoe trip alone; always with a group of fellow fishermen, my wife or my dogs; so the self realization and introspection you've shared is insightful. Now in my 70's my canoe trips are over, I tried this summer with less than stellar results. However the passing of my spouse and loss of many friends, has the unwelcome result of aloneness and time for introspection. I have been involved in meditation but rather enjoy morning Tai Chi and evening Yoga; both of which have helped a ton. Fellow searcher, keep the bow into the wind; I have enjoyed your adventures and look forward to many more; thanks.
Thanks for being vulnerable and transparent for others to see they aren’t alone. I am happy you are actively seeking resources that are helpful. I have been there before my friend. More then once. The only thing we can do is keep fighting and keeping exploring the world and all its wonder. Stay strong my friend. Thanks for the inspiration
This is by far my favourite video you’ve posted. I started following you awhile ago when I was looking for an escape, due to drowning emotions and wanting away from people but I’ve come to really like your videos because as funny as it sounds I live vicariously through you. I work too much and never take time for myself so lots of nights I’ll watch these videos. You are an amazing human being and you’ve helped me more than you may know. Thank you.
5:01 I know I’m new here and late to the video man, but I appreciate you talking about what you’re goin through. Ik life ain’t easy and you’re doin your best which I respect🤝
Xander, I've been watching you for about a year or so now. Beyond this being one of the best videos you have put out yet I just wanted to thank you for all the effort and time you put into things like this. People like you, people who share their mental struggles through life and how they cope with it is how many people - including myself - are able to fight our battles day to day. You are a huge inspiration to not only work on ones self, but to also get out there and do what you love.
I am super glad to hear you dug yourself out of dark times because sometimes that is a harder battle than anyone can fight in this world, and I hope all of these messages of people sharing their love for you only help grow the image you have of yourself and not grow some level of imposter syndrome. You are doing amazing things and I can't wait to see what you do in the future :)
It’s going to take me a while to make it through this. But I want to say, I’m so glad you’re doing better and winning your battles. Thank you for being who you are, and for being here.
I needed this trip - thank you! You donated some kick ass drone footage to someone who's bound to come across it...just like the backpack you returned...it stings now, but the footage you shared with us today is just as valuable - looking forward to your next trip!
whenever i feel sad i just come to this channel and i watch this movie. still havent found any purpose in life but watching this movie brings me peace. thanks xander.
Hey Xander - truly proud of you brother!
It’s a hard thing to admit we have a problem and even harder to ask for help from others.
I am now 6 yrs clean myself and the struggle is real! Our minds talk to us in our own voices and can very easily convince us that we are better off using.
The mindfulness you speak of is probably the biggest source of strength I have and now understand that I need to be firmly grounded in today - not thinking of the future or regretting my past.
I just got back from 4days of solitude with only my dog for company. I find it is the best therapy for when I am feeling overwhelmed with life of life’s terms.
Truly thank you for sharing your personal struggles. More men need to do this to show others they are not alone.
Keep up the good fight. You are a hero to many, including me.
Thanks
Gord
Your name is cool 😁
I appreciate you sharing your anxiety story (and treatment). I've dealt with similar intrusive thoughts, churning and depression. It took me into my mid 30's to finally get treatment. It's a lifelong struggle and it never goes away, but as you know, you can treat it and learn how to deal with it. One of the worst things for me was just understanding what was happening. Identifying the anxiety is a huge first step. I hope others hear your story and realize that anxiety is manageable, and get help.
I like the fact that you keep in it real. You’re travel adventures is an inspiration to me. Thank you for sharing.
I'm so glad that there's other people out there who appreciate content such as this, so that creators like yourself can flourish by doing what y'all love.
Hey buddy!
Every video you make, you really take us with you. It's an experience, not just something to watch. There is peace and humour, humility and honesty in all of the videos you have shared with us.
While we all thoroughly enjoy sitting next to you at your fireplace or in your canoe, we forget the toll it takes on you bringing us with you.
I imagine it is a huge job filming the way you do, editing and producing these awesome pieces. Both physically and mentally.
Thank you so much for everything you have done for us. It has brought many hours of peace to my busy mind watching your videos.
Inspired me to get back out there and enjoy what we are so lucky to have. To go and light my own fire.
Keep on keeping on. Make sure to do some trips where the camera stays at home.
Love from Mt Ruapehu NZ
Come stay some time!
Xander I have struggled with the same things. It brings me joy to know you are doing better. I hope you keep the outdoors to yourself despite your obligations
Lots of bad things happening in the world lately, but you Mr @XanderBudnick are actually a positive force making things better by helping the world appreciate the beauty, tranquility and peacefulness of nature without countries squabbling constantly for territory. Keep up the great work. A lot of your videos are works of arts. They capture the beauty of camping in high definition.
The drone tribute with mishaps and Xander singing has me crying in laughter 😂😂😂 great channel awesome video. Love what you are doing, Thank you !!! 😊
As someone who has been dealing with depression and anxiety as a results of burnout on and off for 2yrs now, I have much respect for you. It touches me that you're being so honest, open and humble about what you've been experiencing. Sharing the good ánd the bad. And of course I am glad to hear you've also found your way up again. Follow your heart and intuition, and you will always find the way back up that mountain.
Thank you for sharing your story Xander and showing everyone it's ok to feel vulnerable and also to talk to people. Seeing you talk about this inspires others and we all support you.
Well done on pulling yourself out of that place. I know how it feels; I've been there too, and as a fellow sober warrior, I also understand how those negative thoughts can push you to drugs and alcohol. Meditating, journaling and nature were my doctors when I got clean and they still help me now. The present is all there is; nothing else is real, none of those thoughts, emotions or anything else is the reality other than this moment right now. Keep it up and remember you're life itself, which is experiencing itself through consciousness, and what you are doing is bringing joy to your life and those around you. Go where you find joy or bring it with you ;)
If you’re one of the lucky ones
Great insight!
I'm from Brazil and I have a daughter who is now Canadian. I've been to Canada a few times and I agree with you. Here the nature is beautiful, but I think that in Canada it surpasses us. A big hug.
glad to hear you are on the mend. My go to place for recharging and calming the mind is the Australian bush - I have always camped and hiked alone - I am nearly 77 and still do, although a lot more slowly 🤪🤪 and in the last few years with my little dog.
The wonderous nature you catch on film is incredible. Keep up the good work ❤❤
Xander - this was such a special film. Thanks for sharing your journey, both mental and physical. I’ve been battling through it lately and nothing gives me more encouragement than when others share their stories. You’re a special guy and I love watching your travels. Thank you for being you and for keeping on.
lol the drone part, the singing was beautiful bro and the foam on the head shot was epic, ty for another great video
After reading the comments you must realize how important you are to people who appreciate your candor, your spirit, your humor, your talents, and most of all your honesty. We all have bad times, but when we look at the tragedies around the world we know that however real and painful our problems are, there are others who are struggling just to survive. I am grateful to see you happy and hope you continue to prosper. Thanks for another great video. Like many people, when I see you post, I set aside a time when I can watch the entire video and share your trip.
That was very fun to watch from here on the Upper West Side of NYC. You're comedic timing is developing very nicely, thank you for all of the sharing you did in regard to your mental health and the benefit of therapy and mediation. You're giving a lot to a lot of people by doing that, and the love is appreciated! :)
Hour And a half of Xander content is what i live for
Never stop doing these sir u are appreciated a lot
You’re such a wonderful person, Xander. I’m happy that you live in Canada and get to enjoy Mother Nature. You’re very lucky. I love coming on the tube to watch your videos after long stressful days in the city. I hope you live a long happy healthy life. Thank you for your videos.
Big respect to you mate! I also struggle with anxiety, (health anxiety) and dpdr 24/7 for the past 4 years … your videos help me relax
What an inspiring adventure. And you are inspiring Xander! Thank you for sharing these moments! That aurora borealis was beyond words!
glad to hear you’re feeling more like yourself buddy. we’re all so proud of you for your sobriety, every road has its mounds, we’ve just gotta keep on climbing them❤️
I paddled out to Quetico in a group in 2016, and that land was some of the most peaceful and isolated I've ever felt. It's definitely a treasured memory for me and is a feeling I want to get back. Thanks for the awesome video, I felt that same quiet that I did back then, which is something I need now more than ever.
Awesome trip once again and glad everything worked out in the end. Like that saying; when nothing goes as planned is where the adventure begins. Love the banter between you and John.
Thanks Xander I live my life vicariously through you and John. Looking forward to some winter content. Kudos on the honesty around mental health and sobriety. As someone you has struggled with both it's great to see open honesty.
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Thank you man for everything, getting to sit back and watch you do these things gives me a little sense of being there myself, I wish I could but at this time in my life it isn’t really feasible, you have come so far man and it’s okay not to be okay sometimes, i’m happy to hear you’re doing better, i started watching you from your tiktok about a year ago i believe, and i have not regretted it a day since, thank you for all you do for us. We are all so proud of you.
Stay strong, brother ! You are doing great videos. I just discovered your channel, and I love it. We suffer more in our heads than in reality .
There's nothing like meditating in nature. Happy for you to get to experience an epic trip like this and thanks for bringing meditation to your audience!
Xander this is one of my absolute favorites among your videos! Thank you for sharing your innermost self with us. How very brave of you. It shows how much you love , trust, and appreciate us. 💙 I watched your very first uploads last night. You have really matured and grown in so many ways. I love your respect for every single creature as well as the environment you explore in. I miss Patches but love your new canoe! Will you name her too? How about Ruby? She fits you like a big shiny red slipper! ❤️ You have inspired me so much and I would so love to live where you play. I hike, kayak, camp, etc. and spend as much time as I can outdoors. Your videos have become my favorites, as I love your humor, cinematography, sense of adventure without being reckless, your honesty and values, and maybe most of all your love and appreciation of family and friends. Lack of those last two would leave a pretty big void, eh? BTW the ending of this video was surprising and gave me a chuckle! I hope you keep doing what you're doing for a good long time! Peace, love, and wellness!
Aww thank you comments like this really motivate me !
I just want to tell you, your song for your drone was beautiful lol. No but for real, I’ve been struggling with my mental health, specifically my anxiety, intrusive thoughts, and negative thought loops. Also I’m an addict in recovery. I don’t even usually watch survival videos but yours popped up and… it’s resonated so much with me. From the stuff you’ve dealt with to knowing I need to get into meditation (and nature), it’s been a nagging thing lately like “DO IT, YOU IDIOT, IT WILL HELP YOU.” Anyway, this is a beautiful video and I needed it at this very moment so, thank you.
The environment and the kaleography are wonderful, thank you for your hard work.
Xander, your content is still at the top of my favorite! So many great moments in this one.....spaghetti God, lost giant fish, single carrying, the fresh fried fish, the Lost Lakes cameo at the end, and the northern lights to name a few. But in all seriousness, glad to see your mental state in a good spot. We all have our moments, some more serious and inhibiting than others. Seeing another human suffer emotionally is tough and those struggles are relatable. Looks like you're on a better path now, and I sure hope you can stay there. Oh, and sorry about the drone. I'll see if I can make a contribution on your Patreon side to help get a new one. Cheers!
Xander, don't tell Max, but I keep coming back to all of your videos time and time again for my own anxiety and depression. My therapist hooked me up with Headspace about 5 months ago, and it has been invaluable. Keep practicing! You're doing great! I didn't believe it at first, but the tools you learn during these meditations actually become much easier over time - and sometimes they even become second nature as you mindfully recognize situations or events that used to be triggering suddenly are far less so. Keep it up, brother! 💪 And thank you for everything. P.S. I'm also here for the poop tips 🤣
Just found your channel. Good to see you was able to get the addicting behaviors under control. I was 43 when I went from a heavy drinking to stopping completely. I'm 57 now. Our minds can be our own worst enemies at times but finding others to talk to especially before the thoughts becime invasive is a huge help.
I love the sound of ur voice its so relaxing and the sound of the rain hitting the camera is so satisfying🤭❤
I struggle so hard with depression and anxiety sometimes. It comes in waves. I could tell you were struggling and I’m glad you got back on top of it. It is so important to address those feelings when the come up or it just pulls you down harder. We need you man, we love your content.
Must say, even with the unfortunate loss of the drone you still have some absolutely amazing video. Yes, drone footage may have added another layer but hey, you still hit it out of the park as far as I am concerned! Keep up the great work Xander!! 👍👍👍
The overall production values has taken a big step up on this one, and it was already good before. I know this must have taken you an age to put together but it's fantastically well done. Hats off to you.
So glad you overcame the pre-trip obstacles. You seem to be using your life to create exciting and beautiful memories. Thanks for letting me share and dream.
I'm at near 23:00 where you lost your drone I'm feeling really sorry for you but more than that I'm inspired by your dedication and positivity.All the efforts you put in every single video is beyond anything I ever saw. Really you are the real influencer. I salute to you 🙌🏻 and thank you soo much for uploading. Lots of love and well wishes❤
The gut brain connection book. Trust me, your gut is where serotonin is made. You really are what you eat.❤
Hey Xander, I’m so happy you’re doing better buddy. I know about anxiety, I still go through it but God & Faith gets me through it. I love your videos, they relax me after a long work week and they calm me down if I’m feeling riled up. Thank you for taking the time to do this. Continue to walk the line of Faith buddy, I promise it’ll make you feel better. ❤
This is definitely one of my favorite RUclips videos ever! Keep up the good work 😊
Have done the same therapy, meditation and desensitization for my anxiety and PTSD. The hardest part for me was starting it even though I know it works, getting in the head space to begin is just tough. Good for you, keep it up! I want MORE videos with your awesome filming, content and editing! P.S. I think 1:02:39 should be your new cover photo :)
This is the first video I watch from you and cant thank you enough for taking us through your journey. Thanks for being who you truly are. Get yourself surrounded with peolpe that really love you, thats the best way ❤ Stay safe my friend!
Just remember, no matter where in the world we watch this from or who we are in life, we will always love your haphazardly trimmed mullet. I'm glad you're back, Xander.
1:09:50 "Do I poke it?" YES!
God I love this. It's so me. Never change Xander, never change.