pov: it's getting worse again and it's all your fault [a playlist]
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- Опубликовано: 21 мар 2022
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disclaimer: none of the songs in this video are mine, neither the photo 
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hii sweeties i haven't posted for like 8 months and i'm really sorry, i have been through hard times lately because of school and also because of personal reasons. i will try to be more active and i apologize again:(( anyway, here you are the timestamps:
0:00 rain - jack stauber
0:35 memoir #2 - may roosvelt
2:46 poison tree - grouper
6:20 just take my wallet - jack stauber
7:52 vas - jagger finn
9:33 you not the same - tilekid
12:16 cigarettes out the window - TV girl
15:55 look who's inside again - bo burnham
17:29 young - vacations
21:05 haunt me (x3) - teen suicide
24:18 in my head - bedroom
31:37 inside out - duster
34:17 a burning hill - mitski
36:14 i can't handle change - roar
Take your time! It's okay. I hope ur doing well!! ❣️
Just remember that school isn't everything in life, you can get far even if you're not the best at school! You certainly have a talent and something people look up to, and then you don't have to be able to solve an equation like, lol
I hope you are doing well, school is giving me a hard time too. your playlist really helped me ,thank you. take care
i wish you all the best, take care ❤️
take as much time as you need❤️ Stay safe i hope you’re doing well stranger 💕💕
Pov: Everyone around you is getting confident, being happy and moving on and you’re still where you were a year ago…
This cuts way too deep for me
...
4 years for me
That hit a lil' to close for me ain't gonna lie, thanks you
Why u had to do me like that? :(
Pov : you bottled up your feelings and now you don't know how to feel anymore
Accurate
My parents are in a bad divorce and I still haven't cried since I been just been there
ah yes. Been there, still doing that because I for some reason can't figure out how to stop.
this is so related very depressing sir
Yeah
That heart wrenching moment when you realize your right back where you were before you thought it was getting better
you ok?
@@sup-vm9wp hah nah
@@Lil-Prodigy what's going on?
nuh uh
@@obscenedeath you ok?
Pov:you start to feel like you're losing your mind because of all the chronic mood swings and you can't recognize that these feelings are real or not
Are you ok?
Yeah.I'm not me
realest
@@birogrenci you ok?
@@Nuthingspecial you ok?
When you think everything is getting better. But then you realize, it hasn't got better...
Im with you. Lets fight it together
Let us all fight together brothern
Actually, it's something that happen in my life recently...
However, I don't want to give up now
@@xeamphicriku im tired of the gaslighting ...never seen it get better with anyone at anytime
hey is 4 Benadryl enough or should I take more? How many is enough to send me over?
Sometimes you're even ashamed to cry because it's all your fault
this is beyond relatable
@@gru1168if you came here to diss someone, it's no use, the number of views explains it all. Sorry for my assumption
@@appleitree disses ur misses
@@gru1168
listen here
you dont know what this person is going through
so dont call them emo for not wanting to cry
so try to cheer them up and not make them feel more down
you are probably some 5 year old who just learned what emo is and doesnt even know what it actually means
anyways dont feel ashamed to cry, its a normal thing that happens and its healthy to cry and not bottle up your emotions
if anything it means you have been through a lot more than what others have been through
i hope thing get better for you ❤
@@gru1168 when someone is going through a tough time, you should know what they're actually talking about to judge whether they're emo or not
it hurts
i dont even know what hurts, it just hurts.
same
Its been so long of pretending it doesent now i dont know if i should have stoped pretending becus now it just gets wors and wors
Everything hurts my brotha...
@@brbrbrbrbbrbrbrbrI used to love playing pretend I'd make believe I had a father who wanted me by playing with dolls but imagination is so limited with reality
same...
“All you wanted was to make others happy but in the end you made them sad”
You ok?
True. Felt like I'm making my mother happy, but instead made her accidentally sad. I feel like ending it all, after all the work I put in, I still made her sad. Wished I could just end it all...
That's all I've ever wanted. It's always backfired on me in the end happened to me in a relationship, two friendships, and more, I'm about to give up this goal
This is how I feel all the time
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Pov: You feel like you don't have any talents, hobbies or skills and you're just taking up space that could have been occupied by someone more worthy..
my talent is Craig McGill survived 47 months on a healthy, raw salad of live tree-roaches and stankroot.
I’m laughing because if you were so “depressed” then why would you search up an playlist?
@@OneTime70It appeared on my recommended?
Plus these songs are good to listen to as comfort songs or if you're just feeling down in general
@@OneTime70 can depressed people not look up depressing shit on RUclips 😂
@@RochellBarbara4690
Nah, you need a license for that nowadays. Who could've guessed feeling depressed and worthless needed official paperwork.
I just wish I could talk to someone about my problems without feeling judged. I hate this world.
same i feel like I'm gonna die with my words.......even my fam know nothing
Yea I feel you it's hard when you have no one to vent too without feeling judged
Talk to a counsellor I’m still feeling like shit my parents saw my cuts and I’ve been grounded for some reason but therapy helps it’s a person that talks to u about ur problems without anyone else knowing it’s a big step but do it it’s definitely something that helps even a tiny bit
It’s true o feel like I’m suffocating in my body and I just have a couple nights of peaceful sleep without crying until the sunrises without being bullied by my toxic family friends and being told everything is my fault it isinglass my fault....right?... and then almost getting sent to a mental hospital I just want this pain to end...
And then I hide everything from my family and I’ve just recently blown up on some of the people that hurt me
pov: you act happy and people genuinely think you're happy but instead you're the worst you've ever been.
Hey are you ok?
nahhhhh@@sup-vm9wp
Its crazy how everything could be going good for the first time and your smiling again and all it takes is one person to get u back to square one.
that one person is me
So true back to square one I guess.....
POV: You lived a normal life before everything started going downhill.
*You lost your friends.*
*You realize your alone.*
*You don't know who to trust anymore.*
*Your grades are getting worse by the second.*
Your life is being ripped apart, you see everyone continuing on without you. Your friends don't talk to you anymore, you don't have good luck. Medical problems are making everything worse, *You've been betrayed, and by life itself.*
me... honestly me
@@registratejuega ratio ngl bro
I was always alone because I've always lied about who I am and the funniest thing happend after all that lieing I forgot who I am, just another shell? a man something greater something lesser?
This is really accurate to my situation
why is this so accurate
Pov: When you thought this year was going to be your best year but it becomes your worst.
I recently lost a loving Aunt and Uncle in the same year.. and I lost my grandma to Alzheimer's and covid 3 years ago...
And I'm drowning in nothing but self-hatred and raging at the world for how it is..
So much corruption
So much hypocrisy
So much hatred
These are the worst years of my so called life
Wish I never saw reality.. and I wish I was never born
Fuck society.. Fuck humanity
I wish for nothing else but death
Exactly
For now...
every one year is gradually getting worse
frrr i believed in that for so long also..
Pov: You hear everyone over in the next room laughing, and being happy. But as soon as you walk in to join in on the fun, nobody is laughing anymore...
i had this happen before, my brother made a joke that i had made before but i got in trouble for saying it but my brother didnt.., then i say a joke my brother once said and i get in fcking trouble again.., im just going to stop making jokes and stop trying to be funny because at this point im not feeling any better then i have been..
@@user-nk7sd8vh1z that be happening to me too and i feel the same
i feel bad for you but thx for telling me this, i hope you get better and you can get away from that
slide 3
me
you’re lost in your 20s whereas everyone in your life is moving forward. All you want is answers and a reason to wake up
Damn 😢
Jesus is our only hope brother ❤
Believe he died for your sins and that he was raised from the dead 3 days letter and you shall be saved. Trust me there’s another life after this current one, and it’s beautiful.❤❤✝️✝️
@@StTanafed up of god
@@StTanaplease tell something more comforting than the same thing i listen over and over again in every corner
Tell me something out of bible or anywhere which gives me a real reason to live
Pov: you think you’re finally starting to heal and move on when in reality, you’re just getting used to that feeling so it’s doesn’t bother you the way it did before 🙂
If you ever need someone to talk to or vent to I'm willing to listen because I want to try to understand what you're going through so I can help. You are human like the rest of us and deserve to be heard without judgement or backlash, because you matter 🤍
I'm here for you my friend!
@@TraumaTazed Thank you so much, this made my day a lot better.
@@chisakurachi1809 okie dokes. I'm always happy to help and I'm here for you!
So true
Exactly how I feel.. my friend is a youtuber.. well I vented to much to her. She made a video about how she hated when I vented she said she couldn’t help. “Stop telling me” and stuff.. when I looked in comments I was scrolling for someone to stand up for me…
I never found it. All I saw was “true! I see her comments it’s so annoying! She’s annoying “ or stuff like “I get you she’s really dramatic” well..I guess I am.
you know its sad when youd rather live in your dreams than real life
my dreams are luffy fucking zoro
Whats sad is i dont even know know if everything is real anymore, i just want to wake up from this nightmare of a life. I just wanna die so i wont have problems anymore, i just wanna float in infinite void. I hope there isnt hell nor heaven for me because i dont deserve such conforting ideas of afterlife
@@stiyp7485 Dont kill yourself. Tell your parents and or contact a suicide prevention hotline.
Dreams are sick tho
I’ve been living in a nightmare for the last 7 years. Day and night, torment after torment without a moment of peace. The only reason why I haven’t taken my life is because I do believe there’s a hell and if I do it then it’ll be much worse. It’s forever. There’s nowhere to find peace.
"I'm not a good person as I thought, I'm bad."
I thought I was the ultimate good guy, but I was in fact the corrupted one!!!
I thought I have all the solutions for people with severe addictions.
I thought I could save people from alcoholism, marijuana addiction or else.
Turned out I was just virtue signaling all along.
I was fake and when that facade droped, nothing remained behind.
I am empty like a bag of eaten chips.
I feel dread because what was once my inside, my Hearth, was filled with so many inspirations and dreams that were beautiful.
But they were fake, unreachable, unrealistic and ego-driven.
I'm just a narcissist who suffers because of himself.
I'm just a guy who is naive to all those self improvement gurus on the Internet.
I thought I am a good person.
But it turns out I am not!
I was driven by ego, lust and despair.
I thought that I had all the answers for every problem in the world!
I thought I had all the solutions for all addictions out there.
I thought of myself as of a shining light in the midst of darkness
I thought I was the guy who, after soooooo many trials, got answers to stuff and how to fix certain problems.
Turned out I KNEW JACKSH*T ALL ALONG
I WAS A NAIVE FOOL FOLLOWING SELF IMPROVEMENT GURUS ON THE INTERNET
I feel like there is no turning back, like there is no hope for me whatsoever.
I thought each year I progressed but with all the negativity bottled up inside I literally regress each year.
The hypocrisy,
The dude who thought he has all the mental health info in the world who cares so much about it, wants to khs
Pov: Nobody noticed when you started to become depressed, anxious and mad, until you went off on them and suddenly you're the "bad guy"
Edit: tysm for 177 likes, I rlly appreciate it!! ♡
communicate.
first you may need to find someone you can, and that’s fine ❤ but it’s gonna be harder waiting for someone to notice.
i’ve been at the point where i didn’t have anyone, but when you do, let them know. you won’t explode as much that way❤❤ helped me sm
Someones intent holds just as much credence as someones reaction. You may not have meant for it to be hostile the flood gates just opened and the water came but you can't save everyone from drowning. Build a stronger dam and allow a small stream to form letting the water hold up will only crack the walls.
Worse. People notice. They still make you out to be a villain by driving you over the edge.
@@alexiiconnerCommunicate doesn't work. I swear this is a suggestion everyone gives for any problems, and to be honest, I think many people are with me in that, yeah, they've tried, over, and over, and over again. But it just doesn't work, ever. Nobody ever wants to, if you try, you're made fun of, or told you're overreacting. Every. Single. Time. I'm done with communicating, or trying to. It doesn't work, hasn't worked, and never will.
Pov: it's not a pov anymore...
When you think you're getting better but realise you have just found comfort in the darkness instead.
How do you know that
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Exactly
secret syp or smth?
Is that not better?
POV:When you realise that you can’t even die peacefully
Wtf, you alr there?
Nah i will tonight
@@_m_995 Heyyyy pls don't
@@_m_995 please don't trust me it will get better just please don't
@@_m_995 wish you good luck
Pov: you did something really bad and now the guilt is getting heavier and the sadness from your old memories starts coming back to you, and you just want to disappear forever.
I can relate to this...😢
it was a mistake, i didnt know better. i hope i can apologise some day though.
@@tempejkl W mindset. Understand your mistake, find out why you made the mistake, then stop the root of the problem and grow as a person. Then you will be able to apologize. And they'll probably give the chance of listening to you.
I relate and this hurt me. I never want to make this mistake but i did. I did and now i feel so alone and guilty. I dont want to hurt her one more time but she really want to stay with me. Sometimes i feel like a trash, like a deserve all of that.
WE KILLING OURSELVES WITH THIS ONE 🔥🔥🔥💯
💀💀💀
YAASSS‼️💥
Yeah.....
ok don't do that, you look really sad@@NicolasCermak
@@Ratt.firstt🤓
Pov: falling back into old habits making you wanna unalive yourself again
Realizing you'll never escape the downward spiral.
Accurate for me
@@Nightmare-blade sorry to hear that love 🫶
You realize you’ve always been the same and there is not bright path ahead of you;
again and again and ....... aga-?!?!
pov: it's summer and you realize you'll spend most of your days in your room doing nothing
my parents and grandparents refer to me as the pale one of the family since i never go out.
identify myself a lot, pleasure I'm Brazilian.
Honestly same man
Same, i don't really have any friends to hang out with, and they always talk about their others friends when we talk on social media...Have a nice summer anyways!
Same, I do have friends not many but more than enough and I just never go out and not bc I don’t have friends to hang out but bc I don’t have the energy for it I just hate to be outside maybe it’s bc I love my phone too much
bro wtf how are you spying on me ???
When you realize no one ever talks to you unless you text first and you’re nothing more than an afterthought
pov : whenever they tell you how sweet you are and how precious and it feels like a literal gunshot to the heart because you're fighting demons
yeah... too familiar with that feeling. you know, the one you feel like you dont deserve anything nice? that even your loved ones should turn to other people? yeah... im here with you on that one...
trust, the only demon i have is an 18 pound cat stalking me when im getting food at 3AM
im also probably believing a delusion that im fine
"I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy
because they know what it's like to feel absolutely worthless
and they don't want anyone else to feel like that"
- Robin Williams
You know it’s a good playlist when it starts with jack stauber
I was gonna say the same thing
Fr
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overused
@@PsychoChoop kinda agree
Pov: on the outside you think its getting better but on the inside you know your only making it worse...
Absolutely like 90%of the time .I actually need to go to theraphy
hey is 4 Benadryl enough or should I take more? How many is enough to send me over?
@@corncobbob2326 hey, im guessing your benadryls are 25mg each. you wanna take around 250mgs to start really dipping into the other side. just remember to use safely because overuse can damage your liver and kidneys (and possibly your brain)
@@weom1536 Wait what's that supposed to mean??
@@weom1536 thanks for your reply! tbh with the brain part, I'm kinda wishing for something like it bc some of my issues which I don't think there's a solution for (a solution that still saves everything else that is) and it includes me wanting to permanently erase thoughts and memories while burying some (there are some memories and thoughts that were good but had several bits that I wasn't happy about and want to forget) far far away enough that I won't take about it for many years even when I'm surrounded by things that can trigger/unlock it and bring it back.
POV:nothing can hurt you the same way that hurt, nothing will be as bad as what happened…..nothing…
pov: The year started well, but by the end of the year, you have barely anything left worth living for. You don't want to end your life either because you believe something good might still happen. But in reality, you are falling deeper into the abyss.
To all the people, like me, who are much too tired to wax poetically about our heart ache: I see you, I hear you too. Your silence speaks volumes
we use wax on hair not heart
thank you. that’s exactly how I feel. Just beyond exhausted everyday. I can hardly put my feelings into words and I can’t physically speak to tell anyone.
Went to new school
Wasn't able to make friends
Ended up here knowing well that
These 3 years will be hard
@@pepsut focus on urself my friend, find things you like and venture towards them. People with similar interest will find you. If anyone is mean to you, be kind they might want to be ur friend bc they arent too happy themselves.
i’m balling my eyes out.
Credit to my pillow for catching all of my tears and being there
Same here. Pillows a real one.
@@fwoop4848 yeah thanks pillow for being here to catch my sadness
Always there for me, pillow u da real mvp
Same but my pillow is also torn up because i thingten it into my arms just to feel some warm. 'cuz i've never been hugged in my life
Pillows are those who just take every single tear of yours and just don’t hesitate for handling anyone’s depression
The second melody was literally crying. I never knew music could actually cry.
as someone who just managed to get out of the worst period of her life, baby believe me when i tell you it gets better. it takes you to learn the skills to cope and for you to apply them, and once you realize that the world just gets a little more color.
no matter where you are right now, honey i only hope the best for you..i hope you are well and enjoy the life you were given. everyone deserves joy, including you, and you especially since you have endured the toughest parts that life has to offer. do not stop when you've made it another day, my dear
Thank you so much for this! ❤ This is beautiful and very true 😊❤
@@Louise3901
Pov: Strangers telling you your enough doesnt work when all you want is a hug from someone who understands and wont just feel pity for you
It's not love anymore. It's only pity, maybe disgust. You deserve better.
THIS.
Relatable… all I need is hugs…
*hugs everyone in the replies.* here, have a virtual hug. Y’all need it :3
honestly everytime someone says that kind of thing to me I have to hold back the urge to tell them to stfu that's all
I thought, I really thought I was becoming ''somebody'', I dropped everything again, I blacked out to rebuild myself... I reached the bottom and looked at a lost boy. there is nothing else
It always get better brother. Im struggling too but you need to understand that there's always something that will turn you around. You need hope as much as it seems there is none. Think of the things that bring you joy. Or the people that truly do care about you even wjen you feel like they dont.
goofy ahh emo
@@PsychoChoop stairs
great speech mr president
It’s been a year since i was raped, 5 since i lost a father to addiction, 10 since my family became a narcissistic dynamic, and 17 since i was brought into this world. I have been waiting all my life for a reason to keep going. I’ve been waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel. I am so fucking lost
Don't lose hope, ask God to ease your pain. Take your time to heal, it's not your fault. It's okay to be lost, you will find your destiny one day.
The world is a better place with you in it.
“I don’t care if nobody likes me. I ain’t here in this world to entertain nobody.” Wise words from me
i care bc i was born to entertain my mother and love her. but she’s a narcissist and i have bpd and we will never be compatible
but i care bc i failed either way bc if i didn’t she would want me dead idk
@@alexiiconner sad to hear it, but just let her know how you feel idk maybe deep down she too wants to get on good terms with you
“If the world hates you, remember that it hated me first."
-Jesus Christ
A supportive family and friends, no traumas, no toxicity, yet here I am wasting it all doing nothing while my life is going downhill. It's rough when you're disappointed in yourself.
I’m sorry. (also I’m sorry I don’t have anything to say that would help you.)
yeah, i know how that feels mate. it didn't get better for me, but i hope you're doing fine out there. and remember that we all suffer in our own ways, and our problems matter (even if you think that they dont, or you don't have them)
Stay strong king 👑 you can do it
We have the exact problem. I hope you have learned to forgive yourself. You got this
same. and i dont see a way out...
I want to be happy again, but don't think I can ever feel happy again.
Ik exactly what you mean
dope shit like that jerm
be happy be rusky
I know the feeling
we are never gonna be happy as we were
All your friends have left and are much happier, they have changed, they are different, but you... You're still that same person, but this time you no longer have the strength to hide the sad and depressing emptiness hidden in your true face, so now everyone says you've changed and that you were never like that, but they don't really know you, they don't know the real you...They don't deserve you, but you keep trying to make them like you, even though you know they're toxic...They don't deserve you..They don't deserve you, They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you They don't deserve you THEY DON'T DESERVE YOU...and you know that... In your mind, you created a wonderful character, that everyone likes, that everyone loves, it could be a famous person, actor, singer, voice actor, whatever... in your mind they love you...
felt this so bad
POV: your scrolling down the comments so you can find the time stamps 😐
It's on the creators comment
Fr
@@materialgworl5651 its on the creators comment
@@ash-yf7cm oh ok ty
not really... im only trying to find a comforting comment :D
So I'm locked in my room lying in bed while I'm thinking about what I did and what I said, I feel like my heart is going to stop with every beat it gives
I understand that, but stay strong, I feel the same, if u want we can be friends, we can sit alone in our rooms talking thru the comments :) I'll always be here
Stay strong mate, when you have hit rock bottom, theres nowhere to go but up. Life finds a way.
legalise nuclear bombs
change room
@@hamzabelmiloud232 stop being heartless people are depressed if you won't say something nice then your silence would be better
I’m so glad people on the internet actually know and understand what people are going through.
I love your hair (or lack thereof)
I love your eyes
I love your nose
I love your gender
I love your mouth
I love your face
I love your grades
I love your heart
I love your sadness
I love your happiness
I love your loneliness
I love your kindness
I love your voice
I love your singing
I love your art
I love your practice
I love your work
I love your time
I love your music taste
I love your strength
I love your handwriting
I love your weakness/weaknesses
I love you when your kind
I love you when your mean
I love you when your smart
I love you when you dont feel loved
I love you when you are you
I love you forever
I love you now
I love you every day
I love you every month
I love you every year
I love you every second
I love you every minute
I love you every hour
I love you every time you cry
I love you every time your happy
I love you every time you are you
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You right there, yes im talking to you. You are an amazing person, you can do anything your heart desires, you can have fun, you can be yourself, dont be someone that you dont want to be, be you. Love yourself for who you are. you never know if you'll see somebody that you love for the last time. Live life, be kind to people, ignore the haters, keep being yourself for who you are.
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I love your neck, dont hang it.
I love your body, dont cut it.
I love your life, dont end it..
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I LOVE YOU SO
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I love you too :'> you made me happy
i farted
thx man...
No problem y’all
You made me smile
Pov:
You trying your best but nothing is standing by your side... You feel coold inside your heart and you wanna cry but you can't
pov: you are reading all these comments from the saddest scum of the earth
couldn’t have said it better myself.
Wow dawg.
🤓
That was me for 3 months long. I just lost my Guardian 3 years after my mom. This was in February this year. Im 19 almost 20 this December and I lost my childhood home, was just drifting through life in houses that werent mine nor a room that was mine and I felt so empty and lonely and afraid. I cut out a lot of people for a while because I needed to "focus on myself" but I just didnt want to care about anything anymore and just disappear. Now that those 3 months are over, I got a more stable place to live and I regret everything I did during that time because I cant get that time or experiences back ever again.
POV: you're slipping away and trying to find a reason to hold on just a little longer
It was easy to just come up with a reason to be happy. But now its becoming harder and harder to find a reason for anything.
Is there anything to hold onto anymore?
@@DoseOfRandom137 you said that right
-GSS
it like hanging from a little string that could snap at any moment @@grandstarstudiosYT
I don't know if you're still here, but if things haven't gotten better, I need you to remember that you can still drink flavoured milks (chocolate, strawberry, banana is my personal favourite) and that you can make microwave popcorn so those are two really good reasons IMO
Am I still in my nap time in kindergarten or was this all a dream or a nightmare
dudeeeeeee im high as fuck and you just kicked me out of existence
mfw I do my best to improve, make people happy, be a good friend... but I mess up. I always do. I'm tired. I just want to make everybody happy. But I don't know how.
you're not here to entertain anyone
No way, I feel the same too LMAOO
you wont always be happy. it will come to you if you improve yourself. dont bother with making people happy when you are not, when a plane depressurises, you put your own mask on before helping others, no? Dont think too much, just do what makes you happy.
I genuinely thought I was getting better, but then I realized that I have never been worse than I am now. It just keeps getting worse, I dont want to do this anymore
Same honestly.i realised i just got used to this feeling, i'm not getting any better. I just fucking got used to it
One says they've had enough
Months later one responds don't leave
Another one just claims too relate
Why are humans like this? 🙁
The one who responded months later didnt See the Video before 💀
@@SirPigingstin sadly it was the other way around. Always was
Me too..
nobody notices how we cry and suffer every night but they notice the smallest mistakes weve made
my dog went missing
yep, every time i help and get nothing back, i feel moody and i get scolded to hell, i am just a little bit out of order or whatnot and get yelled at ig.
It’s true😢
Real
We’ve
im not happy, but im not depressed. i have a good family, good friends, yet i always feel tired, tired of everything.
i cant do this anymore thx for everything
🫂
please tell me you're ok??
This was 5 fucking months ago please tell me your fine no i dont want someone to kill them selfves just cause of some stuff that happend to them i will admit i had the knife and ready to go but its not worth it dont please
Pov: You thought you had gotten better, that you changed, but your the exact same as before, everything and everyone is falling apart around you.
Don’t you worry I’m proud of you , of what you’ve done you’re here today and it’s amazing :)
This world deserves to fuckin burn
i need a hug.
Last night I begged my husband for a hug. He told me he didn't love me anymore, and to get out.
I've known that he didn't for a while but I'm just. Packed, staring, waiting on my ride. I wish I could hug you.
you deserve the world and I'm sending you a big big hug right now. I love you
This is a big hug for you! ❤
I need one too
i'm sorry
i wish i could give you one irl
but i cant
i cant
i need it just as much as you
i reallywish i could give youone
Pov : you had a rough childhood ang your parents is “trying to be nicer” to you but now you can’t feel anything bc of them…
It's important to remember that YOU are YOU no matter what life decides to throw at you! You can choose to let it go or let it consume you. Grow from it all, don't let it destroy you.
Fr oh god
@@ayanami1008 um
@@Louise3901 what
@@ayanami1008 what?
I thought everything was getting better, I thought I got myself on track, I couldn’t be more off.
All of these negative emotions that I chose to ignore all came back to me, I thought I got better, but I was only brushing it off, I was lying to myself so that I would feel better.
I never escaped these horrible thoughts, I just simply convinced myself they weren’t there.
They were always here, growing stronger while I became weaker.
Fr
I dont remember the last time I looked at myself and felt happy, or the fact that I've cried more times in the past few weeks than the amount of times I've felt happy
Honestly same..
Not same. But it's still horrible here. I've to convince myself to eat and drink almost daily again...
At this point, I am no longer crying, I only feel empty and just tired…
I am feeling happy, because death is getting closer and closer 😁
That's rough buddy but I know how it feels. It's a horible to have that happen. But you gotta try to find something or someone who can help you get through tough times. I hope you get better and find some kind of happynes to fill your life (eanglish isn't my first languige so sorry if there are any mistakes other then me)
Pov: your just sitting there watching people around you being happy together without you...wishing you could be with them but you know that wouldnt happen because they hate you.
ik how it feels
You deserve love, but they won't give you the recognition. Strive to be better.
thats how ive felt since ive been stationed,
i see everyone around me be happy
but when they talk to me its another mood
it seems fake,
idk how but i can tell just how they look at me
i remember a time when my dog jumped off the eiffel tower, drowned, got hit by a boat, guts everywhere and a fucking shark came in and ate the hell out of the remains
happened to me i thought i had a best friend just to find out she was a girl i put my trust in talking shit in my back
Thank for the song bro. This really cured my depression. Because I sad my 2 baby cat and my mother cat it got thrown away by my mom..
You're going through something worse yet you still cares and think about someone who is also going through something and you hope for them to be out of that darkness. Just the thought of them getting out makes you smile. It's fine even though you're gonna be left behind...:)
🧠 “Save the crying for after everyone goes to bed, no one wants to see how ugly you are”
👁 “Oh ok… thanks for letting me know…”
i shall give you a vitual hug altough i know that wont help i just think you really need it
Hey,if you ever need to talk to someone, I'm here for you. I will understand you.
That’s all I’m good for anyways..
Imagine you wake up after having a terrible nightmare. You run to your dad’s room, wake him up, and he comforts you after you told him how scared and afraid you were. He tells you: “You’re safe in my arms, Son. There’s no need to be afraid. I’ll always be here to protect you no matter what.”
You go back to your room feeling very comfortable now that your dad made you feel better, and you lay down and fall back asleep with ease. You wake up that morning feeling very odd, as if something didn’t feel right last night.
You get up to go make cereal in the kitchen, but you stop at your dad’s bedroom. The door is wide open, revealing an empty bed and vase full of your dad’s ashes next to it on the nightstand. A few tears run down your face, as it hits you like a brick.
Your dad passed away 6 years ago.
I miss you, dad.
That made me cry man
death sucks my grandfather died 3 years ago but im over it, you don't always get entirely over it but yknow
Me: .. i dont have a father :,D
@@LilGalaxy_Nox damn well i hope u have ATLEAST a parent that can carry u threw ur life
😁
@@LilGalaxy_Nox dodged a bullet got hit by another
I can't cry, my eyes have been dry after so much.
Hey you ok?
I love u bro ❤
@@umaizjaan how are you?
You know, when I see songs of this playlist I cry, didn't even feeling sad
because I listen this songs when I was in my bad moments of life, and this doesn't change
like, I remember trying to do something already at a certain period of my life
but it was so difficult
and I didn't want to tell anyone because I know my friends won't help me, they just won't be able to
and I realized that I was to blame for my problems and had to do everything myself
but it's so hard for me, I'm not doing anything anyway, and it's I'm not morally going to
It seems to me that I lost myself, my identity, a long time ago
I even want to come back when I'm at least worried about everything, think about it, I needed it, what was I thinking about
but I have already started so much that there are not even happy stages of life as usual
I do not know where I am going or where it will lead me
and even now, I think that I will give the essence of this comment for myself and maybe I will choose words that will make my condition clear
but again I'm not satisfied with what I said, hoping again to think that someone will write under this comment and at least ask if everything is okay?
ARE you okay? And don't lie...I want to know if you are actually okay...you matter...you know that right? You do realize that so many people care about you, even me, someone who has never met you before cares about you
@@MIRAGE_autobots nah, I'm still not
maybe a little bit
@@user-pz7iu3ub5m well, I hope things work out for you! And please, remember, YOU MATTER♥️♥️♥️
@@MIRAGE_autobots idk about that
but thanks
@@user-pz7iu3ub5m you DO matter
"I dont even know why you cry."
"Your life is litterally fine"
"Dont be so ungrateful"
"My life is worse then yours and im not crying"
"Stop trying to get attention"
Humanity is so fucking disgusting.
Literally, my older sister told me "I have no reason to be depressed" when I was being somber in the car a couple days after my nan died:(
@@boiifyoudontfaggumas4648 Ouch. My condolences.. Your sister behaved, to put it mildly, ugly.. I am glad that my relatives are alive, and I am very afraid of losing them. I'm from Russia. I am Russian and proud of it. it is very sad to see now what attitude Russian people have, many people suffer in other countries only because of their nationality. Music helps a lot :)
existence doesn't feel real too me
Why's reality like this??
What did I do to deserve being put here!! 😣
I wish I was aborted!!!
I hate it I'm hating everything!😖
I just want it all to go away dammit😩
@@Nobody28817 I don’t know what you’re going through, but please: don’t give up. No matter how bad it gets, no matter how long it lasts, keep going until the very end. Because in death, everything is over. When you reach that point, it’s eternal for all we know. But when it comes to life, it’s finite.
In other words, there’s a time for death. And it is not now or any time soon. If you keep going, you may live to see your life become better. You can be happier. There’s no guarantee, of course, but there’s only way to find out. Never give up.
classmates told me that i always get into conversations and said that thats why they arent that close to me anymore.
someone keeps screeching and yelling at me when i just want to talk to them about kicking me away from talking to a close friend of mine just because shes talking to her.
i feel like shes controlling her, because we are really close at art school but not at school.
i usually sit alone in school break, after i eat i just play prisoners (game).
i got accused of spreading rumors atleast 2 times but i didnt i just asked 1 person.
they say make new friends, but no one is like me and i dont like talking to random people.
i want to get back with my real best friend but she got new friends and we dont have anything to talk about, teachers separated us too by putting us in different classes for the first time
a group of girls even makes fun of me for my humor and for being bad at something i cant control (my singing (it sucks yea), my choice of clothes, my fixation on bugs)
I cried for the first time in a pretty long while last night, and today, I just feel numb. Like life is just a black hole slowly sucking us into into insanity.
cry some more
@@lukehiggins2282 I can't
Existence doesn't feel real to me
I'm so lost 🙁
im crying rn fr
@@Nobody28817 it's like we don't even have a purpose anymore. The world is all just and endless illusion.
That feeling when you lose the one You loved, but are still friends
So close yet so far, you had a life together, something and someone to live for
Now there's nothing, unsure of how to feel
A mask is all there is when you go out, people say you look happier now
Well I'm not happier, but thanks for the compliment I guess
No I'm not ok, I haven't felt something in months, not even sadness, I barely miss her
That's how little I'm feeling, I want to miss you, to feel the emptiness that you left in me, but I can't
I wanted you to be happier, that's why I said ok when you said you wanted to leave
But what about me?
Do you still want me?
Who am I without you?
How can I live?
Everyday feels the same, different things but it doesn't change
Should I move to another place? Make a new life far away from you and my memories with you?
I can't even be in my own bed without thinking of you, I can't cook food I can't eat, all of it, I i see you in everything I do
I can't eat, I feel so hungry but I can't anymore, it hurts too much
I'm going to leave everything soon, not because I want to but because I have no choice
I promised I would wait for you to come back, but you never will anyways
I am going through something similar except I dont know what we are now. We are like strangers who share memories. When she left it broke me in a way I didnt know was possible and it still hurts to this day. BUT you can get through this, I am still a work in process but it has gotten better. It took a lot of time and tears but I am no longer drowining in darkness. When I see her I still have a Thousand questions but you Learn to live with things being unsaid.
Take it one day at a time. You will find yourself among all the shit. We can do this
Same here only a bit different.
He doesn't want to be tied down so he ended things, but he constantly reminds me that he loves me. Constantly telling me that when he was in a relationship with me he was always worried about me, and now hes happy that we broke up like the weight has been lifted. But he still keeps wanting to kiss me, asking to sleep together, wanting to cuddle... why does he keep doing that with me, constantly making me hurt more. It doesn't help that we live together since he hasn't found a new place. We also keep arguing over misunderstandings and because of that he says im manipulative, while ive been constantly giving him space being busy with work and studies, im drowning myself to keep you off my mind and that apparently manipulative. Going behind my back telling my friends to not listen to me because im manipulative, what did i do tk deserve this. I dont have parents i dont have any other relatives, i recently moved and lost all my friends. I dont have anyone and he said that to the first friend that i was making and now shes gone
Hits me hard realizing these were the exact songs I listened at my lowest
My mother always gets comfort when she's crying in a drunk state
yet when I was crying my eyes out in front of her, everything she did was just "stop crying, you're a man."
"You know why they all comfort me? I gave birth to you! That's what I achieved!"
Guess I won't have help and support unless I "achieve" something
This reminds me of my own mother.
Fuck them all, you living everyday is an achievement in and of itself. If noone seems to love you just know that at least my love goes out to you!
Giving birth to someone is not an achievement. Being a good parent is.
i mean as a man you shouldnt cry that much.. (im a man too, its just i dont have many reasons to cry for, and not many to be happy for.)
You lose your emotional rights once you've been born a boy
I remember going to my school councellor and them telling me there is nothing they can do to help me 😊
Does anyone else feel disgusted with themselves for feeling sorry for themselves
Yes that is what kills me the most sorry you feel that I don't wish this on anyone
finally a playlist that has music that fits the title, swear playlist will have titles like this, then like super exciting energetic music, but anyone whose felt this way knows, energy is the last thing you'll be feel when youre this low
@Mom almost like the people making them are trying to cheer us up. It just comes off as smarmy imo
I know right? + They are repeating over and over the same songs and doesn't adding new song to the playlist
That moment when you realize that it doesn't matter to anyone whether you live or die, everyone is living their lives at fullest, and you're kinda happy for them, you don't feel sad, or distressed, not even depressed. You... just don't feel anything.
:( * silently nods head slowly.
Что тебе мешает жить на полную катушку как другие?
@@Karolina-ql4oh Наверное, результат моего выбора
... yeah...
Any advice because I’m wishing I can switch off emotions and just not feel at all just like what Cyborg did in Teen Titans. I feel too much that I can’t regulate my emotions which causes issues for others and I also feel too much in the sense that I feel lots of disappointment, anger, sadness, worry, and frustration and it doesn’t help every time I end up remembering stuff without conjuring them and every time I realize something new that’s upsetting. You’re like a tough cantaloupe whereas I’m an overripe fruit that’s been bruising a lot and bruises easily yet still not being squashed out of its misery.
It reminds me of when I cried, cried and cried so much. That the dark part of my eyes when one cries is already part of me. Now I can walk out after crying and no one will notice. Everyone asks me, "how are you?" And I tell them "I'm very well and you?" But it's a lie... I'm not fine and I don't want to worry anyone... I just... :')
Keep going yall can't be stuck like this for ever
I asked myself: "What's the point of loving people if they always have to leave?"
Suicide
same here. 15 years old soon-to-be-sophomore. there was a girl on my school bus who was a junior. in my country (turkey) seniors take two exams called TYT and AYT which determine your university. thats why they often stop doing everything and focus on their studies. I loved this girl on the bus and knew I had almost no chance of meeting/talking with her other than the daily bus ride. we became friends. about 1 month before the school closed my mom told that we were changing districts. I was going to use another bus. I didnt want to tell her this at the time since our yearly exams were near and I didnt want to worry her. I told her about it 2 weeks before the holiday began. she was shocked. she then told me that she wasn’t going to come to school on the last week. that meant that we had just one week before losing touch. I was never good at the “art of texting” and phone calls just didn’t feel so genuine to me. I guess she had similar feelings about them as well since she had called me only once so far. and on Thursday I was beaten up by a classmate. my glasses were broken and my eye was cut. my dad came and we went to a hospital. I had to get stitches. 7 of them to be precise. after that I was sent straight to home. I couldnt go on Friday as well. I had lost her. I had lost my only chance at seeing her for the last time. The last week was also trash. My classmates, the people I called friends, stood with the bully. They said that I had tried to suffocate him and that he had defended himself. I got a one week suspension. I am alone. I got betrayed. I have no one. I hate myself. It’s all my fault. I wish I was dead
And thank you, kind stranger, for reading this. I wish you a very pleasent morning/afternoon/night/day ! And please forgive my poor use of English. Still a learner
@@egemenberkakdag3467 Oh im so sorry! (Your English is rlly good btw!) That is very.. betraying.After all you just wanted to at least say goodbye before you lost touch with someone.. I hate bullies, I hope your eye is doing better and peace has been restored, and your life is going better. I'll be praying for you stranger. Yet again, im sorry!
I had a close friend, told me she loved me. Then my parents decided to move away and she blocked me out of her life
@@catnip_wcue thanks dude. last month has been better for me. the damage on my eye wasnt permanent and it’s fixed. I also finally mustered up the courage to finally call her. turns out she was curious about me but she was also shy about calling me. we talked a bit and decided to meet again once the school opened. But other than these two events nothing else has changed much. but nevertheless, I am waiting for the school’s opening. since I cant do anything else in holiday.
And thank you for worrying about me kind stranger. We will probably never see each other outside of this replies section but your reply to mine was more genuine than 90 percent of things my friends told me. I wish you a very pleasent day, night or whatever time of the day you are reading this in. And I thank you, once again, for your precious reply.
Pov: you realize u hate you and feels like you can’t rlly get out of the loop of happy.sad.mad.repeat. And see you have so little friends and wish everything could be different.
Its tough wanting something and trying your best to get it but realize that you failed over and over again its tough realizing that if you dont chase the people they will disappear because they simply dont care its tough questioning if the thing you call your purpose is truly what you were made for.
Theres so much to be said about these songs omfg
jacks confusion of the rain is just so profound and realistic. the wondering what ouve done wrong to deserve something you never wanted is too real because I can guarantee I go through it everyday.
and the pain in all of them is just insanely unique and yet createively beautiful
Realizing you’ll never be a normal person really destroys your chances of making any kind of relationships.
For me is that awful feeling where you don't wanna live but you're too scared to die, so you're just stuck in the middle tormenting yourself. If that isn't hell then I don't know what it is.
Damn man you good?
😢
@@SirPigingstinobviously they’re fucking not
I wish sometimes that I didn't exist but then I remembered how much joy I've given to others and those thoughts disappear because I have a sense that I am something to someone. I made someone happy, and if that's the only reason I am on this earth then so be it
Wow i have this problem rn as well. I hope you are well :(
pov: you think you're happy but you just got worse,and when you try to get better you get worse and worse.
Hey are you ok?
I’m so sorry Erik
Lately, everything feels like a chore, even for something that's supposed to give me joy. Hanging out with friends or playing games are things that make me happy but once it's over, I feel empty. I'm left alone with nothing but my thoughts that only tell me I'm a disappointment and I should hate myself. I even repeatedly tell myself I hate myself outloud when I'm alone. I don't feel hungry and whenever I eat it feels like I'm swallowing a pill. I can't talk to anyone but the internet because I feel like I'll be a burden. My lover doesn't wanna talk to me and I'm afraid my friends will ghost me and become distant. I feel like everything will revert back to how it was where I'll be by myself again and everyone around me is disappointed and the only comfort I could go to is my bed and phone. I just want the weekend to come where everything doesn't feel overwhelming.
@BLaH bLah BLAh Hey...uh can i vent to you?
@doomer pill Can i vent to you??
i get that. you are not alone. hope you get better soon
@BLaH bLah BLAh I ummm...i had a horrible thoughts about my past friends...you see they were my internet friends and ummm I'm having a hard time trying to move on from them... what do i do to forget about them??
r/I'm14andthisisdeep
I feel like I always go to the sad playlists. I tend to cry a lot and just listening to them at night help me get all my emotions out. I hope everyone’s doing ok ☺️
i hope you get better
I listened too it while I worked out and it definitely didn’t help 😂
this
Hope your doing alright ónò
@@Val_kx HEY can i vent to you real quick?
I was depressed a year ago badly and just wished I was invisible. This was during middle school 8th grade when i stopped hanging out with people that just didn't care about me or just made "jokes" about skinny shaming me, calling me names, etc and I just felt trapped in that little school and saw them every day in hallways or classes and I just hated it. When i got to high school I thought "finally now I won't see them everyday at least" and made new friends that were nice. I hung out with them, laughed, joked, and we're always choosing each other as a group. I used to have a friend in 8th grade that was actually nice but we didn't talk anymore because of not having same classes so we drifted apart. I saw her in my gym class and introduced her to my friends so she wouldn't be alone. They now started hanging out without me, grouping together, sitting at lunch without asking me to join them. I used to ask if I could sit with them but they barely payed attention to me anymore on what I said. I felt like I wasn't there at all. I was so happy and wouldn't go a day without smiling. Now it's back to the way it was and all those positive thoughts meant nothing. I'm now starting to cry every day again and feel like I'm completely alone. I always have the nerve to cry if someone isn't looking. I hate the way it has to go like this all the time. But now I'm switching schools cause of my parents wanting to get a better house. When i told them about it, 2 stayed silent and only 1 was like "oh. That's sad" they seemed like they didn't care at all. But I can't wait to move now. I used to care but now i don't anymore because there's nothing left for me in that school. I pray to god for me to some how find a best friend that will never leave me behind. But time goes on and it'll be too late as everyone has their own friends and I'll graduate soon. It sucks so much. I hope to find someone in the school I'm moving to now. And remember that it might get better one day like it did for me. But now I'm back to the same old way not wanting to talk to anyone anymore. My therapist told me to socialize but whenever i do, it seems as if they don't care. I won't care too then
Listening to this while my parents fight I cried to this playlist for the whole playlist
Everything is getting worse. They say it's my fault but... I really try to be better. I really try to improve. I'm not lazy, I really try to be nice to them... My heart hurts so much that I can't cry anymore. The tears don't come out. I just wanna be happy and peaceful.
I feel you... it's really sad to hear theres so many people like this. It feels like you do everything and yet somehow it's never enough and it just adds more stress and you end up going in circles. I'm sorry and this is very late but I truly hope you one day can find that happiness because I believe you will find it and you deserve it. Even I struggle everyday wondering if it's even worth it to keep going because I get so overwhelmed. Just keep living and take care of yourself even if it's just the basics. Drink lots of water. don't forget to eat enough and get nutrients in your body. It's ok to take breaks and you don't always have to be working directly towards "getting better". Get up do anything and just live life because you only have one to live my friend. You can do this! (Sorry if you don't want to hear this I just want you to know that people are listening and hoping the best for you)
When you feel like you're dying, you want to speak up, and then you realize that you're not bad enough to earn the right to complain without reproaching you.
...
Fucking hell dude... why do you have to hit me so perfectly...
My life is collapsing around me and has been so all my life and yet I can't feel worthy of a better life because too many people would say "yeah but there are others who have it worse" when I tried talking to them
I can't get myself to ask for a scholarship because there's someone out there who needs it better, I can't get myself to ask for a hug because girls have it tougher, I can't enjoy food or life anymore because there are some who have none
I want to feel like my life is too easy and I should have it worse, even if one more bad thing happens in my life and I'll lose it
I'm fine, everything's fine, there are others who have it tough, my life is too easy, I must feel guilty when I'm empty
@ThePneBMan7681
*I'm here!
*I can be your therapist!*
*You can always vent to me!*
Everything is getting hard again. I keep relapsing and it’s not fun. I kinda just feel like I’m taking up space and oxygen
same im addicted
I started a therapy like 2 months ago, i started playing tennis again. I know its not much but its was something. Everything was going fine. just one move and it was all dark, again. I feel like i lost 2 months. Its devastating seeing all your job destroyed by just a little thing
POV: you finally feel you’ve accepted the fate of a loss but then another comes and hurts even worse…
I seriously thought it was getting better LMAO 😂
real
Why laugh when sad is it to laugh the pain away? If it is here's a message:everyone goes through sh*t and we are all going to have ups and downs but it's going to be okay if you don't think so much about it even if its hard just keep kicking life's as-! Kick your own as- and look cool doing it! I believe in you✨
same 😆😂
Ikr😂
I'm tired of being sad, anxious all the time, tired of being alive.
im so weak why am i alive still
you still alive for a reason! Be strong life it’s not always that bad:)
@@okayasmine یاسمین 💛 you have a kind heart, take care of yourself 💓💓
@@Far1yna thank you🙏🏼❤️🩹
the last song in the tracklist is the one that used to be my first girlfriend's everlasting favorite.. we broke up 3 month later and it was all my fault due to being depressed and feeling bad about myself and about daily routine, so I've decided to withdraw into myself. I spent the following three years trying to communicate with her, but she had already got a new life and relationship at that time. Now it's been like four years since the worst decision of my life took place. She was perfect in all the ways I could imagine and I can't feel no more since then, except for the neverending pain and guilt.
I hope anyone who sees it feels much better that I've been feeling lately
I’ve been going through the same thing since last October. But I’ve learned that we should stop live in the past, we can’t change anything. We just have to let things go and move on.
POV:you just constantly feel frozen in time while you sit there and watch everyone else around you move on with their life. And then there u r, just stuck. Spectating around everyone else’s life’s :(
me
Me :)