@@pissandballs123 what about water hhmmm? Stay hydrated and it may be past or current issues ur dissociating from or people tell you that their lives are worse but y o u are important and so are y o u r problems no matter the size treat yourself like a friend bc you're mine ^^ ❤
Not knowing your favorite color seems like such a silly thing to be upset about... but that's not the upsetting part. The upsetting part is realizing you don't know anything anymore. "You know yourself better than we will do." Well, guess I'll never be able to find answers. I say I love purple, but I really don't care. I really don't know.
its not that I dont care or anything i just struggle to pick one that would seem the most relatable to the person asking me so we have smth "in common" and i cant say anything because ive thought of too many things and i best that can come out is a blend of words incoherently the best reaction i get is laughter so its ok
@@Silly_emi Yeah, that too. Or just deciding you like something someone else does even if you don't actually like that thing. I know doing that has caused me my fair share of existential crisis.
Even the color part is true.i always say i love purple but i feel like i just made something up for people asking my favorite color and it's not real.cuz i don't know the real one :(
i i have the same exact feelings i always say purple but is it really purple i mean its mot glack clack isnt a color its not ehite for the same reawonwm just purprle but is it neone purple pastel purple maybe its not purple at all maybe its lilac maybe sandalwood
it's scary how relatable the thumbnail is. i feel like im just being overdramatic and im just being ungrateful. i feel like i should be happy and here i am, having mental issues and struggling
Hey... everybody is entitled to their feelings... it doesn't matter how much or how little it seems... if it hurts... it will hurt, you are you... do not compare yourself to others, if you're so uniquely you... If you're sad, don't blame anything... that is about you, you're not the problem... *Hugs* I love you, my guy. so chill out, and rest.
Dude fr my life ain’t bad, it’s just my thoughts are messing me up. I’m the most positive person on the outside because i try to be like that mentally as well but i just can’t go on a single day without a thought of doing something stupid, i have my life planned out already, i have friends that love me, i got everything going for me. My ex had broken up w me around July and i can’t seem to move on from that mentally. FYI, she was my first gf (i’m 18), i gave her everything and she never treated me w much respect if i’m being honest, there should be no reason why i still care about her, i should be glad that i’m not w her anymore, every single day i want to message her but i know that’s simply not smart, i wish the worst for her, i don’t know what is going on in w me. No one in my life knows how negative i’ve been to myself mentally, i just wish i had someone to comfortably talk to in person but at the same time i know they’ll say that my life doesn’t sound bad. My life is not that bad, but i can’t seem to know why this feeling is here.
Hey it's okay if you don't want to, but honesty this was so relatable in a way. I've been struggling with my mental health for a few years now, besides the fact that I have two caring parents that love each other, a bunch of sweet friends and I get good grades. Not a single soul knew, not even my (only at the time) boyfriend. A few weeks ago I survived a suicide attempt, and not even five days after that my boyfriend broke up with me, even though he knew I was at my lowest. Thanks to that though, I met someone who genuinely makes me so happy, and really has helped me through a lot these past few weeks. So I just figured I'd put up the offer. I wouldn't mind adding you on some of socials if you need anyone to speak with. It's honestly been helping me so much to have that person in my life. And your situation just reminded me a lot of my own, so if you're comfortable enough, feel free to lmk.
You dont have any problems. Theres nothing wrong with you. Its just the world around you, that seem to have a problem. You are perfect the way you are, and dont need to change, stay strong out there!
yeah.. it keeps me up at night knowing ill never get anywhere in life.. they tell me just because im a teenager and i may like the color black but. whenever i say something about being sad they say its just a phase ill get over it instead of asking what the problem is. thats one thing nobody gets.
Honestly, it's okay to not know your favourite colour or to not even have one. We all lose things every now and then, part of the fun is finding them again. I didn't know a thing about myself in the deepest depths of my depression and, once I started recovering from my you-know-what attempt, I realised I knew nothing about me. Learning about yourself is one of the nicest parts of slowly getting better, bit by bit. You don't need a favourite colour to be a kind, loving and worthy person. I still don't even know what my favourite animal is but I look forward to the day that I find out :) I know it's easier said than done but keep your chin up - it might feel like you have nothing but you will always have hope and hope can change everything :)
Stuck in 2 worlds of positivity and negativity and only torn apart to be in both but never 1 brings a possibility of anhedonia which is a type of depression
Tbh it hurts when ur crying or venting then someone says that "I have depression and anxiety and I'm stressed I get bullied so much" it's like they're flexing :/
@@Frozenfruit63Same. Whenever I try to talk to my mom about my issues, she always says she and my dad had it worse. I mean, yeah. I'm sorry for what they had to go through. But we're not from the same generation and the world has only become worse.
When I was young I used to speak my feelings out annoyingly . As I grow up . I just laugh it out . People think I'm crazy . But I'm just sad . Don't be annoying . But as well . Have someone who is willing to listen and make sure u listen to him as well .
I feel bad if I punch or scream into it, bc for some reason I just feel bad for everything lol (Yes I am one of those ppl who say sry to a table/inanimate object if I bump into it 💀😭)
to the person reading this, It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make a change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tried to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it when you don’t feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind want to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence, and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story, not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they are :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s the night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s the day for you, don’t start it with such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water every day in the morning, and so on. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s the evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course, you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self-care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you to a song as your friend. “Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn’t smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug-like it's your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and a great year. Not mine but u can spread it :)
thank you so much for your kind words💖 it started to get harder to read with tears welling up in my eyes, i hope i can let go of this self negativity and doubt and fear. and i hope everyone here feels loved because i love you and i wish you the whole universe🤗 you're amazing and i'm proud of you for being here😊
timestamps (for those who need it) 0:00 - 3:46 // no surprises by radiohead 3:47 - 7:14 // telephones by vacations 7:29 - 10:33 // i can't handle change by r.o.a.r 10:35 - 13:21 // i bet on losing dogs by mitski 13:22 - 18:39 // space song by beach house 18:40 - 22:12 // ykwim by yot club
HII TO EVERYONE WHO SEES THIS!!! IM DOING A LOT BETTER. STILL STRUGGLING A BIT BUT FEELING LOTS BETTER. I MIGHT BE FINALLY GOING TO SEE A PSYCHOLOGIST. 💕💕
Not depressed like most of the people here, but God I wish I had someone to vent to. Everyone around me loves to talk about their problems, but I don't want it to seem like me saying "my problems are worse." because they aren't worse. I have it way better than my friends. But even if they're not as bad as my friend's problems, it still hurts. I feel like everyone trusts me but I can't trust anyone else in the entire world. I only have one friend that I would ever be comfortable venting to, but she vents to me about being the therapist friend and I could never add that stress to her. This feels inescapable and I wish I didn't have so much of a problem with trust. I've been in highschool for a whole month and a half, and I still haven't made a single conversation that wasnt small talk. Everybody there already has close friends, everybody there has someone to go to about problems. I'm the only one sitting alone at lunch, watching everyone else laugh and have conversations, while I sit there listening to songs that are like these. Everybody that I know has a closer friend, I'm nobody's #1, I'm never the first choice. Even last year when I had a friend they always picked anyone but me. I tried to be their partner for projects but I was never fast enough. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me but I hate myself for it. Then my brother pokes at every little thing I do, he makes fun of me for struggling with friends ,hes telling me to stop eating so much when I'm not even overweight, he makes fun of what I like, and then when I get upset my mom said he is right and "just trying to help me" her okay I wasn't aware that making fun of me for not having any close friends at school would magically make me have friends at school! Wow thanks for actually nothing. I don't even remember really much of anything from 1st grade to 7th grade, but in 8th I met the friend mentioned first. She's great. She's the only friend I feel like I can truly be myself around that isn't online. She actually made me laugh and smile, when in 7th I just remember planning my suicide and feeling like I was watching everybody around me from a different planet, but now i don't want to really die anymore. She makes me feel like a human and not an alien that everyone was forced to be around. But I'm scared because she talks about how her family is talking about moving to Mexico. Without her Id be alone all over again and go back into that cycle. I don't want to feel like I want to die, but I don't think that I'd be able to see that if she left. Before her I can't remember much, but I remember some. I remember always being bullied, tripped, having balls thrown at me, and they even made making fun of me into a game that everybody but my one friend participated in. Yknow what the teacher said? That I was lying and it wasn't happening. No adult believed me nor did anything about it. And my friends wonder why I never trust anyone enough to open up about it. If the teachers actually did something my life would be so different. But no, had to ignore it. Now look at me, having one truly close friend that I don't even know will stay with me.
I understand how you feel. The bullying, the comments, the second choice option, everything. I don't know if you'll ever read this, but just so you know that everything that you're passing through is temporary. You said yourself: "not depressed like most of the people here" and you addressed that your problems aren't worse, if you think like that then it's okay, but my advice is not to label them too much because you'll end up bottling up like you did here. Things eventually get better. You will always find an escape, a distraction, anything that gets you out of your bad situations, to the point that you will get used to the evil of this world. And the fact that you made it this far just proves how strong you are, and I'm proud of you for making till here. Anyways, I know that I'm one year late, but I just wanted to tell you this. I don't know how your life is and how are you right now, but I hope that you're okay. And if you're not, you will be. Trust me.
@@Jamesonn404hii! thank you so much :] Since I commented this I've gotten many more close friends and people that I feel comfortable talking to! It definitely got worse before it got better, but I'm glad I held on ❤ It's so weird seeing how much better my life has gotten since I left this vent here, it truly puts things into perspective 🥺 Thanks again for your kind words, it truly means a lot to me
@@Noo-My-Only-Weakness-Dying Knowing that you are doing okay makes me happy, I really mean it, cuz I didn't expect you to read my comment haha. Take care of yourself. ♥️
My life is not that bad its just i dont know i fell so ducking empty. Nothing makes me happy anymore i can't enjoy things that i liked in the past. I when i cry my mom ask me why im crying. I dont know i feel stressed and just overwhelmed. I don't know what to do anymore
alright, a little vent here- I don't know what am I gonna do in the future anymore, it's always the same routine, there are slight moments of less pain, but I do always feel tired and empty. Just wanna feel good again y'know
the image is relatable af 😭 but really, I think that's only because the world itself is imperfect. our life may be okay, but the world is still crumbling away around us, and the more we realize that the sadder we get.
this is silly to say, but i want someone that will talk to me and check up/care for me like a parental figure, even if we are the same age I just want someone to care for me, my parents never really did and i think my friends dont like me anymore i feel alone almost all of the time
Hey how are you doing You're doing great, trust me I can tell that you are strong, brave, smart, and absolutely gorgeous, and you can do it I know it's hard but you will survive and live and find someone who can truly be there for you, I'm sorry they aren't here now and I wish I could comfort you but I can only try through our screens Keep trucking along and it will be ok idk when but please keep your head up
Hey! i know im late, but ive been in the same position as you and although i dont know you, i will try my best. Hiya champ! how was school today? Ah, something stirring up today? .... dont let it discourage you, youll do so much better next time. Remember, life isnt about perfection, its about developing yourself as a person. Enough of the negativity. What did you do today? .... WOAH! thats amazing! your amazing! Thats what im talking about! What an amazing thing you got/did! Honestly, you worked hard for that, and got it! Now why dont we have a little chat? ... Tell me about your day. All the ups and downs, the lefts and rights. Tell me what might be troubling you, or maybe something your proud of that you achieved today! is there a sport you do? an instrument you play? or maybe even just a hobby you enjoy! Tell me everything, whatever makes you happy. ... I hope to learn how to be as good as you one day! hard work sure pays off, doesent it? Now, how about you go get a drink of water. A big glass full, and a small snack. My favorite is crackers and cheese, but you can have whatever you feel like eating! ... Great choice! Ill add that to my list, and give it a try. Now, what i want you to do, is just take a moment, and close your eyes. find a playlist to listen to, and just forget about all your worries. Take deep breaths, and focus on the music. Envision it in your mind, here ill give you an example: 13:48 Your running in a field. each step you take, flowers of every color bloom underneath you. As the sun sets, a comforting warmth overcomes you. a gentle dappled sky of purple and orange reflects off the pond which you now reach. Why dont you try? ...... (Remember, theres always someone out there watching over you. Although it might not be clear at first, i will always be here for you. Even if i dont know you, i understand you. I understand the situation your going through, and the comfort you need. Take care of yourself champ, have a great rest of your day/night!)
@ I'm mostly goofing around but my favorite does tend to swap around a bit depending on how I'm feeling lol. Sometimes it's blue, sometimes purple, sometimes cyan, it kinda depends.
HOWD YOU KNOW IDK MY FAVORITE COLOR ANYMORE??? im a person terrified of change, and for as long as i can remember its been green. i feel bad changing it, idk.
ughakmsd its so comforting to see people going through the same thing as you. Ive realized recently, I really dont know anything about myself. Im scared. Who am I if I dont even know, I try so hard to put myself under a label even if I know I should just stop and accept myself. No one ever understood me, so maybe if I understood myself, it'll get better.
my bsf has an extremely hard life and me who's had barley nothing compared to her still often feels extremely sad and stressed so I relate to the image alot :(
You are not useless, you are not a burden to anyone, you are not a problem, you are a human being and you have feelings. You're not acting dramatic. Please don't starve yourself. You deserve to eat and drink. I'm proud of you! You're reading this and that's enough for me to be proud of you. don't cut, don't hate yourself, don't keep living like this. i love you. i may not know who you are or what you are going through but i love you, and i am so so so proud your here with me today, I'm so proud of you for trying, you are worth everything and more, believe it, live it, remember it. never doubt yourself. i love you. thank you for trying.
Little vent that I didn't even intend to be a vent lol: I'm honestly blessed to be able to say that my depression is the best it's ever been. However, I still have bad moments, bad days, bad nights. These kinds of playlist remind me that it's okay to be sad and it's okay to vent, even if it's just to yourself. Right now I'm in a rut - I've felt really bad the past, like, 3-4 days. I'm just falling back into some of depression's tricks really. I've been back to thinking my life isn't worth much and that I'm not accomplishing anything. I haven't become the person I always wanted to be. But then, I sit back and I look at myself and have a think. I may not be x, y or z but I am the closest to happy I have ever been. I stayed up so many nights sobbing to the moon, praying for nothing but happiness. It took years but now it's in my grasp yet I'm ungrateful. I have to remember sometimes that, though I'm not some social big-shot, I have done everything I set out to do for myself. I still worry about people's opinions and judgement of me and that has always been my downfall but, when it comes down to it, I've achieved the one thing I cried and cried over for so long. I am just a bit scared to be honest - I don't want to live a "normal" life where I work 8 hours a day, come home to a family I hate and sit up at night in regret. I want to be happy and I am but I'm not happy by other people's standards because I have very few friends and very little money to my name. In a way, other people assuming I SHOULD be depressed actually makes me depressed. I never knew that other people would end up being the biggest obstacle in my happiness - it used to always just be me getting in the way of myself. Life's never easy but it always figures itself out in the end, I suppose.
Hey guys, please give me song recommendations for another playlist, i know my channel is usually fairly negative, but I know it brings the few people who watch comfort. Also, thank you all for the support on this shitty channel, means a lot to me. I cant believe im 15 now, i made this when i was 13. Anyways, please reply with some songs for a new vent playlist if youre interested, i would like it to be unique, with the help of all you wonderful people! x
Only type of playlist I haven't seen is the crazy depressed type, which I technically am. So if I could recommend a playlist type, then thank you. If you do make it, maybe add Cotard's Solution? Thank you.
I have like 5 pages in my notebook of sad songs, but it’s almost midnight here, and I’m tired, so I don’t want to get up, but I will write some songs that I remember "Listen before I go" by Billie Eilish "Romantic Homicide" by d4ve I think "Here with me" again by d4ve I think "Memories" by Conan Grave "I love you so" by the Walters "Lights are on" sadly I don’t remember who wrote this "Cry" by Cigarettes after sex "Someone you loved" by Lewis Capaldi "Cardigan" I don’t remember who wrote that "Fourth of July" Sufjan Stevens "Past lives" by Sapientdream "Sweater weather" by James Harris "Somewhere only we know" by Keane "Freaks" by Surf Curse "Again" by Shiloh Dynasty "Notion" the rare occasions I got lazy maybe I will end writing this tomorrow. Sorry, today 🙂
Well, I don't know if you still read the comments, but I'm going to write a text about this playlist and others that I found on RUclips in the same style as yours, they help me a lot in knowing how to continue the way I am and never giving up on something, you know, I know that It seems silly but music helps me a lot when I think about things that are out of the ordinary and in my case with your channel, even though I discovered it today, it helped me a lot and made me think a lot about everything, I don't know if it improved my mental health much, but it improved a lot. little thank you very much bro some ideas for songs/albums to put on your youtube playlists: some songs by bonda (a Brazilian album by a youtuber) and for the record I'm Brazilian and some by Mac DeMarco I know you put some on I don't think I can identify much but it's a good idea that's it I guess goodbye until another video sorry for the long text
the best part abt these playlist's is that no matter how u feel when u put it on it will still make u feel sad on the inside even if everything is ok. Then your thoughts get to you and u start thinking abt your life. You begin to realize a lot more abt ur self and start to rlly become sad. Then u listen to multiple of these kinds of playlists and the crying starts. Then you sit alone in ur room hopeless feeling an insane amount of pain and usefulness. Then u read the comments while listening to the music in the background feeling a bit better abt yourself and then move on w/ ur day.
I'm listening to this while I'm currently writing a children's storybook for my school project, where it's about childhood innocence and how precious it is to lose, this playlist hit me in all the right places and made me sob until I was eventually brimming with so many ideas 😭😭 thank you sm for this playlist man. I'll be sure to give this project my best because this is the only project that has made me work so passionately in AGES.
I rlly like pink but i hate the fact that i doubt myself so much that i genuinely start to think that ill never achieve anything great and die as a nobody anyways, wbu?
This reminds me of when I was younger and too broken to remember all the actual bad things that happened to me. I would lay in bed feeling like my life wasn't so bad. Not until I got older I remembered. Oh shit my life is bad! I don't know if remembering such things is equating to healing. I feel more insane and ready to redact myself than before especially since now that I'm back in school I have realized the extent of my loneliness and how unrecognizable I am. Granted I entered without anyone (sort of). But it hurts to see everyone immediately have friends and speak to each other. Especially when this summer sucked for me because I lost my only close best friend who was online of 4 years who could care less of me now. To be honest they always had, I just never noticed how easy it was for them to move on. I blame myself for that... Even if they lied to me. And I wonder if I should really accept such loneliness, it's been so long and I'm just so attention starved as a human. It annoys me because I don't want to bother others. And I speak a lot as well when I meet people online or not online that I bother them anyways. I'm just annoyed of being a ghost everywhere I go. At the same time I can't imagine what to do if I finally was noticed. It really has been so long... I still don't know my favorite color. I think I just like having none. And I'm fine with that.
The image is so relatable, but that’s the bad thing It’s like “why am I sad? Other people have bigger problems, having to find food for your family jus to survive, having to run away from a abusive family.” All my friends have worse lives than me but I still feel so bad, my family’s amazing, it just feels like “am I overeacting? Am I just being selfish?” I’m not even depressed but when I lay in my bed at night and just think about my life it hits harder than it should. All my friends have other friends I’m just like a replacement for each of them I’ll always try to partner with them but somehow they already have other friends, I’m too young I’m about to leave elementary school(6th grade) but I still am afraid of the change, I know there will be a bunch of popular girls but they are still kind, how I know that? I know them but I’m not even their #1 friend, it kinda feels like I’ll never be anyone’s #1, my parents, my siblings, my friends, heck, even my grandparents. They always get to be someone else’s #1 but I’ll just be taking up space. I raised both of my younger siblings *and* maybe even parents (they’re not messed up or anything, they just are kinda Karen’s and are needed to be put on a leash, in a loving way like I’m trying to protect them from getting hurt) one other thing is my friends don’t even tell me anything, I know abt their horrible home lives, I could never be as strong as them to go through what they’re going through but in my friend group it works like this, there’s 6 people and three of them vent to each other abt their problems(they are the ones who mostly have the most messed up lives) me and my other friend(L) just have each other to count on(not that we can’t count on the others) and we don’t even have any *real problems* the four friends(M, J, T, and Lu) always tell each other their problems, I feel like they think that since me and L don’t have a messed up home life that we won’t be trustworthy. It’s like I get that M, T, J, and Lu are depressed and shi but me and L would still like to be their friends, we won’t get a chance to prove that we’ll be able to listen to them if they don’t tell us. I’m not trying to be selfish and mean, I’m really not but I just wish they’d trust us more. L and M, the closest in the group to me are each other’s best friends and I always get left behind, I’m not like “would trust with my life” close with the others in the group and besides they are kinda perverts and racists so I don’t like them As much but I still like them so I’m kinda stuck. I’m fr no ones number one:(
"Why am I sad, my life is not that bad" it's really me when I start to cry for something or cry with a heavy heart it feels like "why am I crying, I am so cringe" this sentence always played in my heart😢
CREATOR PLS PIN: Time stamps!! 0:00 No suprises --Radiohead 3:46 Telephones --Vacations 7:15 I can't handle change --Roar 10:35 I bet on losing dogs --Mitski 13:22 Space song --Beach House 18:42 YKWIM? --Yot Club
I personally would say ‘well my life isn’t that bad’ but it is. My father physically and mentally abused my family when we lived with him. He would throw things at me and my brother, and would yell at us all a lot. Then we discovered that he does heavy drugs. We also found 12-13 knives scattered around the house, most of which weren’t even ours. Then we left him and my mum filed a restraining order for 5 years and a divorce, but father wouldn’t sign the divorce papers since he would say ‘you’re taking my children away from me!!’ to my mum. We moved 4 hours away from him, so I lost all of my contact with friends. Then later that year I turned 10, and.. well… father forgot my birthday… he didn’t call or message for my birthday, not that I would have really cared anyway. Then we moved into a house with a step family, but it turns out some of the step siblings bullied me, and step father was greedy and cheated on my mum. So we left there, and moved into a new house a bit further away from there. The old step siblings would still bully me at school, and we also lived in a really sketchy area with a lot of drug dealers, so we moved again. This time we moved 4 hours away again I think (short term memory loss kicking in here), so I lost my old friends from my old school, but I made new friends there. But at this school I got fat shamed every day, with kids calling me a ‘fat whore’ or a ‘fat bitch’ and other incredibly mean names, and I was 12 then. Then after that year we got kicked out of our home because the real estate agent didn’t like us, unfair I know. So now we moved 2 hours away, and that’s where I live currently. Since moving I lost all my friends, again. But I still have one friend from my old school, her name is Mikayla and she’s a really nice friend. Well, now I don’t do school, because school gave me extremely bad social anxiety, so now all I do is just sit in my room and listen to music, and I also turned 13 a couple days ago on the 28th of September. And now my father finally signed the divorce papers, but the only downside is, because my father was abusive, my brother (16 almost 17) picked up on it and used to abuse me a lot last year, he threatened to kill me twice, tried suffocating me with a mattress, and would throw things at me. Well, now he doesn’t hit me anymore but he still yells at me a lot if I do things wrong. And I got an amazing girlfriend yesterday, and I couldn’t be happier that I got her. Oh and, on my birthday, it was my first birthday that I hadn’t cried of sadness, since all of my birthdays end in me crying in my room. But this year that wasn’t the case. I also got to call my ‘father’ and tell him about how much of an asshole he is. And now, I’m depressed, have really bad social anxiety, and have only 1 real life friend. My girlfriend lives across the country sadly, but I wish to meet her as soon as I can. I love her so much and I hope we never have to separate. Bella, if you see this, I love you so much and please never leave me, you are the best girlfriend I’ve ever had, I don’t care if the people around you are homophonic, I will never leave you. Well there it is, that’s my life since I was around 7-13, I hope you have a lovely day, and quick note: music is my best friend :)
I literally dont HAVE my favourite anything. Its like everything has become indifferent and meaningless :/ The worst part is that my life is going pretty "well" I guess?
Lord i don't even know my favorite food anymore- do i like pizza? do i like spaghetti? i don't know anymore...i also don't know my favorite flavor of drinks.. but i do know my favorite soda is Dr pepper!
exact same here man, my attachment issues are so bad it sucks ass.. worse. rn im attached to someone who has a boyfriend. ik its not a real crush. idek. hope the attachment goes soon all the love to you man
Hey friend. Ill say, I was very young when I got diagnosed with depression. I was very young when I started turning to these kinds of playlists. And I'm 19 now, here again. And I wish that when I was a kid, people would stop telling me "its okay, it gets better." Because, fuck, sometimes it really doesnt. But what I can promise is that you will get stronger. You will get tougher against the pain. And you will find beauty and joy in life regardless of the pain.
i love this way of thinking. so much. thank you. itll get harder and worse and you may keep feeling tired for a long long time. and yet, you will still find things to smile about
i mean i don’t think my life is necessarily bad i think it’s just me and the fact i feel so alone and don’t get that same love back as i give to others, i think i’m mostly the problem and i just feel so sad all the time because deep down i truly hate myself ontop of the stress of school and life,
I hope everyone who’s listening to this gets a hug soon - if not, 🫂, have a hug from me. You’re loved, even by a stranger like me. It’s hard right now, and you’re strong for still being alive while going through it! Stay safe gang. 🫂🫶
Its funny how I look back and there isn't that little kid I see smiling anymore. Its just the wide eyes of my younger form, staring at me in disappointed as I fail once again, despite being the "gifted kid".
this feels like that moment when someone easily changes subject when you were talking about something you love but it doesn't even surprises you anymore
Grew up being told that exact same line every single day, spent every single day thinking that it’s not that bad too. Your body knows best, if you feel bad it probably is bad. No one can handle the same things you can and vise versa.
my mom wants me to see a therapist again. i had one last year, but it didnt help at all and it only caused me to be stressed over what i should or shouldnt say. i lied about not being suicidal, i lied about not doing self harm, and i lied about being mentally stable. now, my suicidal thoughts have become worse. even though i got the most amazing friends and boyfriend, my mental state is also getting worse. i dont want help, it doesnt work anyways, i dont want to tell my stories to a person who i dont know, it makes me uncomfortable. my friends are better therapists than the professionals. i feel like my life isnt that bad, and that i have no reason to feel this way. my attachment issues are so bad that i cry when i cant talk to my boyfriend for a day my school is making me feel even worse because i got told today that i might not stay in the same class as my friend, which is the only person i have in that school. i hate everything and i want to kms but i cant, and i feel like its not worth it
⚠TW: SH, ED, SA ⚠ my life isnt that bad but my mental health is what gets me... my grades.. i have lots of assignments but want to be valedictorian but i just dont have to motivation to do anything. i started cutting myself in august and just feel like if im not myself then people will treat me differently including my family.. my body isnt fat but it isnt skinny.. its just my belly so i try not to eat anything but my mom makes me eat anyway.. my dad was around but never present.. he gives me stuff and then just ghosts me without even remotely trying without me putting in the effort i was sa by my own cousin and other boys in the past and its not fair... its not fair how people have better lives than me like my best friend who has a sibling and parents that live together... i dont have siblings but half-siblings that dont even care about me and probably will never hear of me i just wish i had maybe a older sister that is like my bestie that fights w/ me but also gets along... i wish my parents were together.. im just a mistake and wished i could give my life to someone else to actually deserve it other than me and tbh it hurts... it just hurts knowing im better off without anyone... my mom says im fine but she doesn't see that because shes a single mom taking care of me who as i, doesnt deserve to even be alive... she could have a better daughter other than me i just dont know what to do and then have to go to school tomorrow faking my confidence for others to notice me.. i hate my life.. if you read this far thanks... i just dont wanna live anymore
Guys some girl is like honest and sometimes she hurt ur self but now she don’t do it anymore but she scare do it again so she try be good so sometimes when she drink she feel good she smoke she feel good so when she remember that things she feel like \ \ / / :(
I like playlists like this because I can't hear my crying which just makes me cry more. The picture is so damn relatable, because for the longest time, I thought I was just overreacting because I'm sensitive, but then I remember how isolated I feel with my family along with other things. Sure, my life isn't the worst, I had friends who had it worse, but at the same time, I feel fucking terrible
Hey, you will be okay. (TW⚠️‼️) I just got caught for doing $h and I’m getting help. You should get help if anything you are doing is damaging yourself. I hope you have a good day/night/afternoon.
I've never commented on a video where i enjoy some music and vibe at, however this time it felt like I had to. First thing first, the cover can't be more relatable...a loving family and siblings, relatives are all close and nice people and my friends are kind hearted. Still, it feels like I'm all alone. Like I'm far away from everyone and can't he understood. It changed for some time however, when I met my online ex-girlfriend. She was all I cared about and I pictured a life with her everyday. We had to let go due to our different culture and it's really hard, for both of us. I'm here thinking again that I'm alone even though life's not bad at all. Whoever made it this far into reading, I hope you know that life has lots of ups and downs. Once you think you've hit rock bottom, then it can only get better than that. When the day comes, that you've gotten up, you'll realize how far you've made it. And to the girl I love the most, maybe our paths cross each other and the life I've pictured with you will be one day reality.
when I didn't have real problems I was more sad. like the type said in the thumbnail. now I am facing a real problem and i am. not even that sad, or maybe I just forgot how to love or something.
It's deeper than not knowing your favourite colour. It'd about knowing you'll never go back to that innocent, absent minded kid again. It's about knowing that you'll never know the full thing. It's about thinking you'll never be good enough. It's about having to draw inside the lines. It's about never being that little child again. All it is, is a lost memory. You feel as though you've failed. And the voices are telling you to end it. It's about looking into a child's eyes and seeing your younger self... lost.. never to be again..
Please don't go, i don't want you to leave this planet, i know how you feel, getting betrayed by friends, child abused mentally in the past,but remember, I'm an 11 y/o stranger who loves you, I hope you stay strong and get through this, get away from depression and suicide, just take a rest, i am experiencing the same things as you, and if I haven't experienced that pain yet, i could just feel the pain, your cries, don't cut yourself for blaming yourself It's not your fault. I Love you.
Welp, seems like a great place to vent: Everything in my life just feels that is perfect, a perfect family, a perfect friend group, everything is perfect around me, but the only thing that I feel ruins that wonder is me. I feel like I am a burden, and if i say anything I'll just make people worry, I don't want anyone to see me anymore, and I want just to yell at the sky without worrying anyone around me. I love my mom and that's why I don't want her to worry about me. She has much more beaoutiful things to see than me. They have two better sons they should see, not me.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
I can't go a single day with out telling my self "why am I crying my life is great I have it better then a lot of people" not realizing that I don't my life sucks I can't go a day with out crying,without telling my self I am not ugly, I am not fat, I am not a failure,mistake,stupid, and I can't forget the comments that I get about my body because I am lager them others so I am "fat" and all the comments about it I just want life to end very short I want it to end right now
I don't know but this song really tells about my life story. I feel so tired of my life because my life is filled with people who shouldn't be in my life. I'm really tired mentally and physically.
I mean, yeah, it's not a big thing, but if I don't know that, if I don't care about that, then what do i care about, and that photo is more relatable than the music, which is pretty relatable
I've listened to this playlist for a long time now and i still couldn't really build up the courage to comment under any video.. but i've been asking me this dumb questions for a stupid long while now. Why do i feel the way i do? Why do i feel like everything i do is worthless? And to be honest, i don't know. I'm trying to be the happy since i felt depressed for the first time ever. I'm known for being the "happy friend" and the one who cheers everyone up and take care of everyone, .. except myself. I like to be that kind of person but.. it's only on the outside. Everytime i'm starting to feel happy there's something that instantly pushes me down again. I got the best brother i could've ever had, my parents (even if they don't really love eachother anymore or arguing and just living in the same house for abt 7 years by now), i still love them. And i have my girlfriend is the best person i've ever met. I've got everything i need and yet there's still something that feels like it's missing but will never be found. I'm 18 atm and depressed since i turned 10. I know why, i know how but i don't understand why the feeling is still there. I've been to therapy twice and they could never find out what's wrong with me or why i feel the way i do. I don't think that it's ever going to get better to be fair. I know what nice moments are, yeah. I really enjoy the time with my gf but everytime i'm alone i'm just being dragged down and don't want to do anything except laying on the ground or just starring into the nothing. I'm beyond my limits and it's getting worse each day. I've done stupid things too yeah, it doesn't really matter to me anymore tho. but all i want to say is that no one is alone. There are people out there who can relate to you, know what you've been through, can brighten your days or just be there for YOU when you can't bring up the urge or energy to help the people you love. It's okay to try and repair yourself. It's okay to relax, it's okay to get help, it's okay to even just do nothing when you don't feel like doing anything. Let those people help you that want to help you. I know that it can be hard to excist or just be yourself. I've made the mistake and never let those people help me who really want me to live and love me. I felt like telling you this cause you deserve it. You show trust to other people and i want to give it back before it's to late. Maybe we can be friends one day, but most likely we'll never see each other, stranger. But hey, my heart will be open to anyone who stayed strong for way to long and needs a break or isn't feeling well. For YOU Take care, live yourself and maybe even try to find something you show interest for. Even if it's hard and feels like you don't deserve it, you do deserve it. This 1% of joy can bring you more smiles then you could've ever imagined. I love you, friend in this big world. Thank you for being here.
yknow, i never did have a favorite colour, it never striked me as important, i didnt care. a few years down the line, and i still havent quite developed "favorites" for much of anything, there are just good things and bad things, pretty normal. later i figure that i dont really have any hobbies of my own, just ones my older siblings practiced before and since i realized that other than rotting and watching youtube that i have no hobbies that i should do thiers. years later and im here, i dont feel like much of a person anymore, i have some personality but it quickly fades away and dies off after just a short time in conversation, revealing just how little i have lived, just how little i am. i am a nobody watching somebodies from the sidelines. year6 of repeating this pattern
lol to be honest, everything about me is fake. I make stuff up for people to like me better, I honestly don't know what I like and dislike anymore. Internet ruined my past-self's innocent.
Today I found out that I was being cheated on and that too with the girl I told him to stay away from.... Turns out it all started in November (their love story) 💔. But even if he came to me now after all this, I'll accept him happily 🙂
this is how i feel daily... my life isn't that bad its fairly good and here i am having mental breakdowns, identity crisis's and hating my life and myself... i don't have the right to feel like this... my pain ain't shit compared to others pain
Hey,just to let you guys know,it’s healthy to cry.keeping all your feelings in can lead to more problems,I can advise venting in a notebook (keep it somewhere safe so parents and siblings aren’t able to find it),listening to playlist (like this one!),or just letting it all out by crying. im gonna tell you right now,everything will be ok soon and things can and will get better for you…take care of yourself everyone,you might think people don’t care,but i and so many other do ♡︎ -internet stranger
Remember, if you feel something it is important. There's no invalid feeling, and never ignore your depression or any mental disorder just because your life wasn't 'that tragic'. It's mental health, sometimes there's no clear reason for it, just like physical health. Acknowledge yourself!
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lol this playlist sucks
No, it doesn't
yeah it doesn't
Why is the picture so relatable 😭
same😭
Fr💀💀
like actually!! i have food and a couch to sleep on, so why am i still so depressed??
@@pissandballs123 what about water hhmmm? Stay hydrated and it may be past or current issues ur dissociating from or people tell you that their lives are worse but y o u are important and so are y o u r problems no matter the size treat yourself like a friend bc you're mine ^^ ❤
Yeah like
"I'm laying in on a comfortable bed, had something to eat, have a roof over my head, a normal life,
But why do I feel like shit"
Not knowing your favorite color seems like such a silly thing to be upset about... but that's not the upsetting part. The upsetting part is realizing you don't know anything anymore. "You know yourself better than we will do." Well, guess I'll never be able to find answers.
I say I love purple, but I really don't care. I really don't know.
its not that I dont care or anything i just struggle to pick one that would seem the most relatable to the person asking me so we have smth "in common" and i cant say anything because ive thought of too many things and i best that can come out is a blend of words incoherently
the best reaction i get is laughter so its ok
@@Silly_emi Yeah, that too. Or just deciding you like something someone else does even if you don't actually like that thing. I know doing that has caused me my fair share of existential crisis.
My favorite color is purple too but i don't know now and i don't care there is many problems that just bangs in my head it hurts
Even the color part is true.i always say i love purple but i feel like i just made something up for people asking my favorite color and it's not real.cuz i don't know the real one :(
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i have the same exact feelings
i always say purple
but
is it really purple
i mean its mot glack
clack isnt a color
its not ehite
for the same reawonwm
just
purprle
but is it neone purple
pastel purple
maybe its not purple at all
maybe its lilac
maybe sandalwood
it's scary how relatable the thumbnail is. i feel like im just being overdramatic and im just being ungrateful. i feel like i should be happy and here i am, having mental issues and struggling
Hey... everybody is entitled to their feelings... it doesn't matter how much or how little it seems... if it hurts... it will hurt, you are you... do not compare yourself to others, if you're so uniquely you... If you're sad, don't blame anything... that is about you, you're not the problem... *Hugs* I love you, my guy. so chill out, and rest.
@@rokukou what are you talking abt hes just expressing how he feels
@@EMPTY-l3w The guy I was talking about deleted his comment. He was bringing up religion and god
@@rokukou oohhh sorry mb
It is relatable bc i feel my life is great but i dont really know. I feel that im the mistake in my life
Dude fr my life ain’t bad, it’s just my thoughts are messing me up.
I’m the most positive person on the outside because i try to be like that mentally as well but i just can’t go on a single day without a thought of doing something stupid, i have my life planned out already, i have friends that love me, i got everything going for me. My ex had broken up w me around July and i can’t seem to move on from that mentally.
FYI, she was my first gf (i’m 18), i gave her everything and she never treated me w much respect if i’m being honest, there should be no reason why i still care about her, i should be glad that i’m not w her anymore, every single day i want to message her but i know that’s simply not smart, i wish the worst for her, i don’t know what is going on in w me.
No one in my life knows how negative i’ve been to myself mentally, i just wish i had someone to comfortably talk to in person but at the same time i know they’ll say that my life doesn’t sound bad.
My life is not that bad, but i can’t seem to know why this feeling is here.
Hey it's okay if you don't want to, but honesty this was so relatable in a way. I've been struggling with my mental health for a few years now, besides the fact that I have two caring parents that love each other, a bunch of sweet friends and I get good grades. Not a single soul knew, not even my (only at the time) boyfriend.
A few weeks ago I survived a suicide attempt, and not even five days after that my boyfriend broke up with me, even though he knew I was at my lowest. Thanks to that though, I met someone who genuinely makes me so happy, and really has helped me through a lot these past few weeks.
So I just figured I'd put up the offer. I wouldn't mind adding you on some of socials if you need anyone to speak with. It's honestly been helping me so much to have that person in my life. And your situation just reminded me a lot of my own, so if you're comfortable enough, feel free to lmk.
@@malikat.ostergaard7075 yes that’d be great, do you have instagram by any chance?
@@JewPen_ I do yes, @malister1010
Ok but same? Like exactly the same the ex thing and everything. Get made fun of for dating him too so yeah doing great though. 🥲
Your heartbroken
You know a playlist is going to be good when it starts with such a strong hitter like Radiohead, especially songs like No Surprises
I love radiohead, ill try making a new playlist with lots of their songs xx, stay safe
and vacations - young 😿💗
FR
REAL.
FR No Suprises I have known since a few weeks after I was born
my problems are so small but i'm too pathetic to be better
You dont have any problems. Theres nothing wrong with you. Its just the world around you, that seem to have a problem. You are perfect the way you are, and dont need to change, stay strong out there!
@@goosegeese8338 you are a beautiful person
I fell the same.
bru mine arent grow tf up
yeah.. it keeps me up at night knowing ill never get anywhere in life.. they tell me just because im a teenager and i may like the color black but. whenever i say something about being sad they say its just a phase ill get over it instead of asking what the problem is. thats one thing nobody gets.
I used to relate to the title so much, but now I just lie to myself and say its red
me but yellow
me too but pink
me but blue
Honestly, it's okay to not know your favourite colour or to not even have one. We all lose things every now and then, part of the fun is finding them again. I didn't know a thing about myself in the deepest depths of my depression and, once I started recovering from my you-know-what attempt, I realised I knew nothing about me. Learning about yourself is one of the nicest parts of slowly getting better, bit by bit. You don't need a favourite colour to be a kind, loving and worthy person. I still don't even know what my favourite animal is but I look forward to the day that I find out :) I know it's easier said than done but keep your chin up - it might feel like you have nothing but you will always have hope and hope can change everything :)
I like transparency because we can see more colors through it
Im sad but also not sad.. idk what i feel
Me, too. Idk why I'm so confused. 😕
Stuck in 2 worlds of positivity and negativity and only torn apart to be in both but never 1 brings a possibility of anhedonia which is a type of depression
And at very random times may you be in 1 worlds but it's a weak type and doesn't last long
same , i feel empty
That horrible headache of two sides at war, the positivity and negativity and then there's that one bystander, overthinking.
Tbh it hurts when ur crying or venting then someone says that "I have depression and anxiety and I'm stressed I get bullied so much" it's like they're flexing :/
mood, I have someone like that
I also have someone like that... :( it sucks...
i hate that sm..
@@Frozenfruit63Same. Whenever I try to talk to my mom about my issues, she always says she and my dad had it worse. I mean, yeah. I'm sorry for what they had to go through. But we're not from the same generation and the world has only become worse.
When I was young I used to speak my feelings out annoyingly . As I grow up . I just laugh it out . People think I'm crazy . But I'm just sad . Don't be annoying . But as well . Have someone who is willing to listen and make sure u listen to him as well .
The music. The comments. I’m grateful for everyone here and I hope you love urself because that’s what matters.
Anyone else loves their pillow?? How you can just hug it, punch it, scream into it, cry into it, and it won't ever judge you?
:/❤️🩹
Yeah😕
I feel bad if I punch or scream into it, bc for some reason I just feel bad for everything lol
(Yes I am one of those ppl who say sry to a table/inanimate object if I bump into it 💀😭)
to the person reading this,
It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make a change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tried to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it when you don’t feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind want to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence, and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story, not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they are :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s the night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s the day for you, don’t start it with such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water every day in the morning, and so on. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s the evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course, you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self-care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here.
I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you to a song as your friend.
“Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you.
In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here.
I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?
Life for those who couldn’t smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug-like it's your last one.
If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :)
have a good day and a great year.
Not mine but u can spread it :)
AHHH TYY ❤️❤️❤️
Thank u. Really, tysm 💕
I love u man. Stay this way.
thank you so much for your kind words💖 it started to get harder to read with tears welling up in my eyes, i hope i can let go of this self negativity and doubt and fear. and i hope everyone here feels loved because i love you and i wish you the whole universe🤗 you're amazing and i'm proud of you for being here😊
Thank you, I cried reading this. I remember your favorite color, yellow, I miss it :)
timestamps (for those who need it)
0:00 - 3:46 // no surprises by radiohead
3:47 - 7:14 // telephones by vacations
7:29 - 10:33 // i can't handle change by r.o.a.r
10:35 - 13:21 // i bet on losing dogs by mitski
13:22 - 18:39 // space song by beach house
18:40 - 22:12 // ykwim by yot club
HII TO EVERYONE WHO SEES THIS!!! IM DOING A LOT BETTER. STILL STRUGGLING A BIT BUT FEELING LOTS BETTER. I MIGHT BE FINALLY GOING TO SEE A PSYCHOLOGIST. 💕💕
real.
@@thaibodydumppyay
@@thaibodydumpp Congrats!
@@thaibodydumpp yay!! well done :)
Not depressed like most of the people here, but God I wish I had someone to vent to. Everyone around me loves to talk about their problems, but I don't want it to seem like me saying "my problems are worse." because they aren't worse. I have it way better than my friends. But even if they're not as bad as my friend's problems, it still hurts. I feel like everyone trusts me but I can't trust anyone else in the entire world. I only have one friend that I would ever be comfortable venting to, but she vents to me about being the therapist friend and I could never add that stress to her. This feels inescapable and I wish I didn't have so much of a problem with trust. I've been in highschool for a whole month and a half, and I still haven't made a single conversation that wasnt small talk. Everybody there already has close friends, everybody there has someone to go to about problems. I'm the only one sitting alone at lunch, watching everyone else laugh and have conversations, while I sit there listening to songs that are like these. Everybody that I know has a closer friend, I'm nobody's #1, I'm never the first choice. Even last year when I had a friend they always picked anyone but me. I tried to be their partner for projects but I was never fast enough. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me but I hate myself for it. Then my brother pokes at every little thing I do, he makes fun of me for struggling with friends ,hes telling me to stop eating so much when I'm not even overweight, he makes fun of what I like, and then when I get upset my mom said he is right and "just trying to help me" her okay I wasn't aware that making fun of me for not having any close friends at school would magically make me have friends at school! Wow thanks for actually nothing.
I don't even remember really much of anything from 1st grade to 7th grade, but in 8th I met the friend mentioned first. She's great. She's the only friend I feel like I can truly be myself around that isn't online. She actually made me laugh and smile, when in 7th I just remember planning my suicide and feeling like I was watching everybody around me from a different planet, but now i don't want to really die anymore. She makes me feel like a human and not an alien that everyone was forced to be around. But I'm scared because she talks about how her family is talking about moving to Mexico. Without her Id be alone all over again and go back into that cycle. I don't want to feel like I want to die, but I don't think that I'd be able to see that if she left. Before her I can't remember much, but I remember some. I remember always being bullied, tripped, having balls thrown at me, and they even made making fun of me into a game that everybody but my one friend participated in. Yknow what the teacher said? That I was lying and it wasn't happening. No adult believed me nor did anything about it. And my friends wonder why I never trust anyone enough to open up about it. If the teachers actually did something my life would be so different. But no, had to ignore it. Now look at me, having one truly close friend that I don't even know will stay with me.
You can vent to me- i have been through alot, Im also a therapist, please try to open up :) ❤ we are here for you
it's going to be ok, also that first part is incredibly relatable
I understand how you feel. The bullying, the comments, the second choice option, everything. I don't know if you'll ever read this, but just so you know that everything that you're passing through is temporary. You said yourself: "not depressed like most of the people here" and you addressed that your problems aren't worse, if you think like that then it's okay, but my advice is not to label them too much because you'll end up bottling up like you did here.
Things eventually get better. You will always find an escape, a distraction, anything that gets you out of your bad situations, to the point that you will get used to the evil of this world. And the fact that you made it this far just proves how strong you are, and I'm proud of you for making till here. Anyways, I know that I'm one year late, but I just wanted to tell you this. I don't know how your life is and how are you right now, but I hope that you're okay. And if you're not, you will be. Trust me.
@@Jamesonn404hii! thank you so much :]
Since I commented this I've gotten many more close friends and people that I feel comfortable talking to! It definitely got worse before it got better, but I'm glad I held on ❤
It's so weird seeing how much better my life has gotten since I left this vent here, it truly puts things into perspective 🥺
Thanks again for your kind words, it truly means a lot to me
@@Noo-My-Only-Weakness-Dying Knowing that you are doing okay makes me happy, I really mean it, cuz I didn't expect you to read my comment haha. Take care of yourself. ♥️
My life is not that bad its just i dont know i fell so ducking empty. Nothing makes me happy anymore i can't enjoy things that i liked in the past. I when i cry my mom ask me why im crying. I dont know i feel stressed and just overwhelmed. I don't know what to do anymore
we can always talk if you need
real
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@@thaibodydumpp😅
alright, a little vent here-
I don't know what am I gonna do in the future anymore, it's always the same routine, there are slight moments of less pain, but I do always feel tired and empty. Just wanna feel good again y'know
@Corn flaek shit, I felt that
the image is relatable af 😭 but really, I think that's only because the world itself is imperfect. our life may be okay, but the world is still crumbling away around us, and the more we realize that the sadder we get.
this is silly to say, but i want someone that will talk to me and check up/care for me like a parental figure, even if we are the same age
I just want someone to care for me, my parents never really did and i think my friends dont like me anymore
i feel alone almost all of the time
Hey, it's not silly at all. I might not be the right person but wanting someone to just be there is valid
@@puff-pastries210 thanks :) /gen
Hey how are you doing
You're doing great, trust me I can tell that you are strong, brave, smart, and absolutely gorgeous, and you can do it
I know it's hard but you will survive and live and find someone who can truly be there for you, I'm sorry they aren't here now and I wish I could comfort you but I can only try through our screens
Keep trucking along and it will be ok idk when but please keep your head up
Hey! i know im late, but ive been in the same position as you and although i dont know you, i will try my best.
Hiya champ! how was school today? Ah, something stirring up today?
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dont let it discourage you, youll do so much better next time. Remember, life isnt about perfection, its about developing yourself as a person. Enough of the negativity. What did you do today?
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WOAH! thats amazing! your amazing! Thats what im talking about! What an amazing thing you got/did! Honestly, you worked hard for that, and got it! Now why dont we have a little chat?
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Tell me about your day. All the ups and downs, the lefts and rights. Tell me what might be troubling you, or maybe something your proud of that you achieved today! is there a sport you do? an instrument you play? or maybe even just a hobby you enjoy! Tell me everything, whatever makes you happy.
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I hope to learn how to be as good as you one day! hard work sure pays off, doesent it? Now, how about you go get a drink of water. A big glass full, and a small snack. My favorite is crackers and cheese, but you can have whatever you feel like eating!
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Great choice! Ill add that to my list, and give it a try. Now, what i want you to do, is just take a moment, and close your eyes. find a playlist to listen to, and just forget about all your worries. Take deep breaths, and focus on the music. Envision it in your mind, here ill give you an example:
13:48
Your running in a field. each step you take, flowers of every color bloom underneath you. As the sun sets, a comforting warmth overcomes you. a gentle dappled sky of purple and orange reflects off the pond which you now reach.
Why dont you try?
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(Remember, theres always someone out there watching over you. Although it might not be clear at first, i will always be here for you. Even if i dont know you, i understand you. I understand the situation your going through, and the comfort you need. Take care of yourself champ, have a great rest of your day/night!)
Hey how are u today
I’m very proud of you and your not silly for wanting someone to care about you I feel the same :)
Hah bold of you to assume I ever had a favourite colour
Omfg 🤣
"My favorite color depends on what color looks the funniest today."
@@NeonWasInUse damn fr???
thats acc kinda nice
@ I'm mostly goofing around but my favorite does tend to swap around a bit depending on how I'm feeling lol.
Sometimes it's blue, sometimes purple, sometimes cyan, it kinda depends.
@@NeonWasInUse but it seems u prefer cold colours rather than warm colours
yk its low when you have to ask "whats your favorite colour?" to anyone again.
HOWD YOU KNOW IDK MY FAVORITE COLOR ANYMORE??? im a person terrified of change, and for as long as i can remember its been green. i feel bad changing it, idk.
I was thinking that, but, after all this year, I only change everiting when I had the oportunity.
ughakmsd its so comforting to see people going through the same thing as you. Ive realized recently, I really dont know anything about myself. Im scared. Who am I if I dont even know, I try so hard to put myself under a label even if I know I should just stop and accept myself. No one ever understood me, so maybe if I understood myself, it'll get better.
my bsf has an extremely hard life and me who's had barley nothing compared to her still often feels extremely sad and stressed so I relate to the image alot :(
Fr tho like my bsf has a really hard home life but I have an amazing one it feels like I’m just being overdramatic and selfish:(
thanks for the help
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can you stop seeing whats under here?
im fine.
*Are you sure your fine? like 100 percent??*
Btw you can vent to me if you want
I hope, at least in the future, you become more than fine. You deserve to enjoy life, even the little things, have a good day/night mate
picture: retable
music: masterpiece
your pfp: masterpiece
I love this playlist keep making them I could watch this over and over again!
im working on a new one rn ❤
You are not useless, you are not a burden to anyone, you are not a problem, you are a human being and you have feelings. You're not acting dramatic. Please don't starve yourself. You deserve to eat and drink. I'm proud of you! You're reading this and that's enough for me to be proud of you. don't cut, don't hate yourself, don't keep living like this. i love you. i may not know who you are or what you are going through but i love you, and i am so so so proud your here with me today, I'm so proud of you for trying, you are worth everything and more, believe it, live it, remember it. never doubt yourself. i love you. thank you for trying.
Little vent that I didn't even intend to be a vent lol:
I'm honestly blessed to be able to say that my depression is the best it's ever been. However, I still have bad moments, bad days, bad nights. These kinds of playlist remind me that it's okay to be sad and it's okay to vent, even if it's just to yourself. Right now I'm in a rut - I've felt really bad the past, like, 3-4 days. I'm just falling back into some of depression's tricks really. I've been back to thinking my life isn't worth much and that I'm not accomplishing anything. I haven't become the person I always wanted to be. But then, I sit back and I look at myself and have a think. I may not be x, y or z but I am the closest to happy I have ever been. I stayed up so many nights sobbing to the moon, praying for nothing but happiness. It took years but now it's in my grasp yet I'm ungrateful. I have to remember sometimes that, though I'm not some social big-shot, I have done everything I set out to do for myself. I still worry about people's opinions and judgement of me and that has always been my downfall but, when it comes down to it, I've achieved the one thing I cried and cried over for so long. I am just a bit scared to be honest - I don't want to live a "normal" life where I work 8 hours a day, come home to a family I hate and sit up at night in regret. I want to be happy and I am but I'm not happy by other people's standards because I have very few friends and very little money to my name. In a way, other people assuming I SHOULD be depressed actually makes me depressed. I never knew that other people would end up being the biggest obstacle in my happiness - it used to always just be me getting in the way of myself. Life's never easy but it always figures itself out in the end, I suppose.
Hey guys, please give me song recommendations for another playlist, i know my channel is usually fairly negative, but I know it brings the few people who watch comfort. Also, thank you all for the support on this shitty channel, means a lot to me.
I cant believe im 15 now, i made this when i was 13.
Anyways, please reply with some songs for a new vent playlist if youre interested, i would like it to be unique, with the help of all you wonderful people! x
it kinda sad how u able to feel such sorrow at a young age
@@ivqmoox325 I guess
Only type of playlist I haven't seen is the crazy depressed type, which I technically am. So if I could recommend a playlist type, then thank you. If you do make it, maybe add Cotard's Solution? Thank you.
I have like 5 pages in my notebook of sad songs, but it’s almost midnight here, and I’m tired, so I don’t want to get up, but I will write some songs that I remember
"Listen before I go" by Billie Eilish
"Romantic Homicide" by d4ve I think
"Here with me" again by d4ve I think
"Memories" by Conan Grave
"I love you so" by the Walters
"Lights are on" sadly I don’t remember who wrote this
"Cry" by Cigarettes after sex
"Someone you loved" by Lewis Capaldi
"Cardigan" I don’t remember who wrote that
"Fourth of July" Sufjan Stevens
"Past lives" by Sapientdream
"Sweater weather" by James Harris
"Somewhere only we know" by Keane
"Freaks" by Surf Curse
"Again" by Shiloh Dynasty
"Notion" the rare occasions
I got lazy maybe I will end writing this tomorrow. Sorry, today 🙂
Well, I don't know if you still read the comments, but I'm going to write a text about this playlist and others that I found on RUclips in the same style as yours, they help me a lot in knowing how to continue the way I am and never giving up on something, you know, I know that It seems silly but music helps me a lot when I think about things that are out of the ordinary and in my case with your channel, even though I discovered it today, it helped me a lot and made me think a lot about everything, I don't know if it improved my mental health much, but it improved a lot. little thank you very much bro
some ideas for songs/albums to put on your youtube playlists: some songs by bonda (a Brazilian album by a youtuber) and for the record I'm Brazilian and some by Mac DeMarco I know you put some on I don't think I can identify much but it's a good idea that's it I guess goodbye until another video sorry for the long text
the best part abt these playlist's is that no matter how u feel when u put it on it will still make u feel sad on the inside even if everything is ok. Then your thoughts get to you and u start thinking abt your life. You begin to realize a lot more abt ur self and start to rlly become sad. Then u listen to multiple of these kinds of playlists and the crying starts. Then you sit alone in ur room hopeless feeling an insane amount of pain and usefulness. Then u read the comments while listening to the music in the background feeling a bit better abt yourself and then move on w/ ur day.
I'm listening to this while I'm currently writing a children's storybook for my school project, where it's about childhood innocence and how precious it is to lose, this playlist hit me in all the right places and made me sob until I was eventually brimming with so many ideas 😭😭 thank you sm for this playlist man. I'll be sure to give this project my best because this is the only project that has made me work so passionately in AGES.
I rlly like pink but i hate the fact that i doubt myself so much that i genuinely start to think that ill never achieve anything great and die as a nobody
anyways, wbu?
This reminds me of when I was younger and too broken to remember all the actual bad things that happened to me. I would lay in bed feeling like my life wasn't so bad. Not until I got older I remembered. Oh shit my life is bad!
I don't know if remembering such things is equating to healing. I feel more insane and ready to redact myself than before especially since now that I'm back in school I have realized the extent of my loneliness and how unrecognizable I am. Granted I entered without anyone (sort of). But it hurts to see everyone immediately have friends and speak to each other. Especially when this summer sucked for me because I lost my only close best friend who was online of 4 years who could care less of me now. To be honest they always had, I just never noticed how easy it was for them to move on. I blame myself for that... Even if they lied to me. And I wonder if I should really accept such loneliness, it's been so long and I'm just so attention starved as a human. It annoys me because I don't want to bother others. And I speak a lot as well when I meet people online or not online that I bother them anyways. I'm just annoyed of being a ghost everywhere I go. At the same time I can't imagine what to do if I finally was noticed. It really has been so long...
I still don't know my favorite color. I think I just like having none. And I'm fine with that.
Now, it's time to cry for nothing, i think.., thanks for the playlist💖
To anyone who needs to hear this. *Its okay to give up*
The image is so relatable, but that’s the bad thing
It’s like “why am I sad? Other people have bigger problems, having to find food for your family jus to survive, having to run away from a abusive family.” All my friends have worse lives than me but I still feel so bad, my family’s amazing, it just feels like “am I overeacting? Am I just being selfish?” I’m not even depressed but when I lay in my bed at night and just think about my life it hits harder than it should. All my friends have other friends I’m just like a replacement for each of them I’ll always try to partner with them but somehow they already have other friends, I’m too young I’m about to leave elementary school(6th grade) but I still am afraid of the change, I know there will be a bunch of popular girls but they are still kind, how I know that? I know them but I’m not even their #1 friend, it kinda feels like I’ll never be anyone’s #1, my parents, my siblings, my friends, heck, even my grandparents. They always get to be someone else’s #1 but I’ll just be taking up space. I raised both of my younger siblings *and* maybe even parents (they’re not messed up or anything, they just are kinda Karen’s and are needed to be put on a leash, in a loving way like I’m trying to protect them from getting hurt) one other thing is my friends don’t even tell me anything, I know abt their horrible home lives, I could never be as strong as them to go through what they’re going through but in my friend group it works like this, there’s 6 people and three of them vent to each other abt their problems(they are the ones who mostly have the most messed up lives) me and my other friend(L) just have each other to count on(not that we can’t count on the others) and we don’t even have any *real problems* the four friends(M, J, T, and Lu) always tell each other their problems, I feel like they think that since me and L don’t have a messed up home life that we won’t be trustworthy. It’s like I get that M, T, J, and Lu are depressed and shi but me and L would still like to be their friends, we won’t get a chance to prove that we’ll be able to listen to them if they don’t tell us. I’m not trying to be selfish and mean, I’m really not but I just wish they’d trust us more. L and M, the closest in the group to me are each other’s best friends and I always get left behind, I’m not like “would trust with my life” close with the others in the group and besides they are kinda perverts and racists so I don’t like them As much but I still like them so I’m kinda stuck. I’m fr no ones number one:(
Wanna a hug?
@@Xx-Dani_Weird_pixie-xX that would be nice🙂
"Why am I sad, my life is not that bad" it's really me when I start to cry for something or cry with a heavy heart it feels like "why am I crying, I am so cringe" this sentence always played in my heart😢
sometimes Idk if I'm sad or happy or...
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Time stamps!!
0:00 No suprises --Radiohead
3:46 Telephones --Vacations
7:15 I can't handle change --Roar
10:35 I bet on losing dogs --Mitski
13:22 Space song --Beach House
18:42 YKWIM? --Yot Club
I personally would say ‘well my life isn’t that bad’ but it is.
My father physically and mentally abused my family when we lived with him. He would throw things at me and my brother, and would yell at us all a lot. Then we discovered that he does heavy drugs. We also found 12-13 knives scattered around the house, most of which weren’t even ours.
Then we left him and my mum filed a restraining order for 5 years and a divorce, but father wouldn’t sign the divorce papers since he would say ‘you’re taking my children away from me!!’ to my mum. We moved 4 hours away from him, so I lost all of my contact with friends. Then later that year I turned 10, and.. well… father forgot my birthday… he didn’t call or message for my birthday, not that I would have really cared anyway.
Then we moved into a house with a step family, but it turns out some of the step siblings bullied me, and step father was greedy and cheated on my mum. So we left there, and moved into a new house a bit further away from there. The old step siblings would still bully me at school, and we also lived in a really sketchy area with a lot of drug dealers, so we moved again.
This time we moved 4 hours away again I think (short term memory loss kicking in here), so I lost my old friends from my old school, but I made new friends there. But at this school I got fat shamed every day, with kids calling me a ‘fat whore’ or a ‘fat bitch’ and other incredibly mean names, and I was 12 then.
Then after that year we got kicked out of our home because the real estate agent didn’t like us, unfair I know. So now we moved 2 hours away, and that’s where I live currently. Since moving I lost all my friends, again. But I still have one friend from my old school, her name is Mikayla and she’s a really nice friend.
Well, now I don’t do school, because school gave me extremely bad social anxiety, so now all I do is just sit in my room and listen to music, and I also turned 13 a couple days ago on the 28th of September. And now my father finally signed the divorce papers, but the only downside is, because my father was abusive, my brother (16 almost 17) picked up on it and used to abuse me a lot last year, he threatened to kill me twice, tried suffocating me with a mattress, and would throw things at me.
Well, now he doesn’t hit me anymore but he still yells at me a lot if I do things wrong. And I got an amazing girlfriend yesterday, and I couldn’t be happier that I got her.
Oh and, on my birthday, it was my first birthday that I hadn’t cried of sadness, since all of my birthdays end in me crying in my room. But this year that wasn’t the case. I also got to call my ‘father’ and tell him about how much of an asshole he is.
And now, I’m depressed, have really bad social anxiety, and have only 1 real life friend. My girlfriend lives across the country sadly, but I wish to meet her as soon as I can. I love her so much and I hope we never have to separate. Bella, if you see this, I love you so much and please never leave me, you are the best girlfriend I’ve ever had, I don’t care if the people around you are homophonic, I will never leave you.
Well there it is, that’s my life since I was around 7-13, I hope you have a lovely day, and quick note: music is my best friend :)
omg im so sorry :( ❤️
Wow that must have been tough for you…..I’m so sorry! :( I hope you are doing okay!💕💕💞💞
I hope you will can visit your girlfriend
Update?
I literally dont know my favourite anything anymore 💀💀
I literally dont HAVE my favourite anything. Its like everything has become indifferent and meaningless :/ The worst part is that my life is going pretty "well" I guess?
Lord i don't even know my favorite food anymore- do i like pizza? do i like spaghetti? i don't know anymore...i also don't know my favorite flavor of drinks.. but i do know my favorite soda is Dr pepper!
@@Sprunkiliosis why just why of all drinks you could have chosen you chose Dr Peepper 😭😭
@v6ntiaareal asf bro like.. everythings a blur atp
i used to have favourite anythings but now i don't care about it anymore because im changing my favourite things everytime lol
I think I realized that i develop feelings for people who care for me and I realized it was because I wasn’t paid much attention to as a kid
exact same here man, my attachment issues are so bad it sucks ass.. worse. rn im attached to someone who has a boyfriend. ik its not a real crush. idek. hope the attachment goes soon
all the love to you man
Hey friend. Ill say, I was very young when I got diagnosed with depression. I was very young when I started turning to these kinds of playlists. And I'm 19 now, here again. And I wish that when I was a kid, people would stop telling me "its okay, it gets better." Because, fuck, sometimes it really doesnt. But what I can promise is that you will get stronger. You will get tougher against the pain. And you will find beauty and joy in life regardless of the pain.
Shit. There are so many kids in these comments. My heart aches for you all. Hugs, friends. Stay strong. 🫂
i love this way of thinking. so much. thank you. itll get harder and worse and you may keep feeling tired for a long long time. and yet, you will still find things to smile about
The title, the image. Jesus, I feel that.
I feel like a piece of gum that’s been chewed on for 5 hours and it’s just mush no flavor
Can you make a *'POV: Your the forgotten babysitter'* Or *'POV: You wish you were the favourite child...'* :D
yep! ill keep that in mind
when i read "your the forgotten babysitter" hit close to home 😭 ik how you feel!
it gets depressing when people your age have to take care of you, bc ur parents can't. They evenutally 'become' ur parents
i mean i don’t think my life is necessarily bad i think it’s just me and the fact i feel so alone and don’t get that same love back as i give to others, i think i’m mostly the problem and i just feel so sad all the time because deep down i truly hate myself ontop of the stress of school and life,
I hope everyone who’s listening to this gets a hug soon - if not, 🫂, have a hug from me.
You’re loved, even by a stranger like me. It’s hard right now, and you’re strong for still being alive while going through it! Stay safe gang. 🫂🫶
"why am i like this, nothing is wrong, its just me, its just me" is what i say to myself at night, crying in my room
Its funny how I look back and there isn't that little kid I see smiling anymore. Its just the wide eyes of my younger form, staring at me in disappointed as I fail once again, despite being the "gifted kid".
Why is this such a mood? Thank you, my friend. I feel like this almost every day.❤
"I'm tired, Alfred"
"A weary body can be dealt with, but a weary spirit is something else entirely"
- batman
this feels like that moment when someone easily changes subject when you were talking about something you love but it doesn't even surprises you anymore
saw this picture on pinterest saying "god loves you, but not enough to save you" and its been wrapping my mind ever since
i heard no surprises and immediately started crying.
"I know myself better then anyone else!" but at the same time "Who am I?"
Why everything about this is so relatable
Grew up being told that exact same line every single day, spent every single day thinking that it’s not that bad too.
Your body knows best, if you feel bad it probably is bad.
No one can handle the same things you can and vise versa.
my mom wants me to see a therapist again. i had one last year, but it didnt help at all and it only caused me to be stressed over what i should or shouldnt say. i lied about not being suicidal, i lied about not doing self harm, and i lied about being mentally stable. now, my suicidal thoughts have become worse. even though i got the most amazing friends and boyfriend, my mental state is also getting worse. i dont want help, it doesnt work anyways, i dont want to tell my stories to a person who i dont know, it makes me uncomfortable. my friends are better therapists than the professionals.
i feel like my life isnt that bad, and that i have no reason to feel this way.
my attachment issues are so bad that i cry when i cant talk to my boyfriend for a day
my school is making me feel even worse because i got told today that i might not stay in the same class as my friend, which is the only person i have in that school.
i hate everything and i want to kms
but i cant, and i feel like its not worth it
This is so relatable, especially the front😭😭
I'm not sad nor happy. Just "Empty".
Jesus is the way, the truth and the life
Jesus loves you.
i was crying right now for a reason im not going to say but this calmed me down thanks
This is genuinely, an excellent Playlist
⚠TW: SH, ED, SA ⚠
my life isnt that bad but my mental health is what gets me... my grades.. i have lots of assignments but want to be valedictorian but i just dont have to motivation to do anything. i started cutting myself in august and just feel like if im not myself then people will treat me differently including my family.. my body isnt fat but it isnt skinny.. its just my belly so i try not to eat anything but my mom makes me eat anyway.. my dad was around but never present.. he gives me stuff and then just ghosts me without even remotely trying without me putting in the effort
i was sa by my own cousin and other boys in the past and its not fair... its not fair how people have better lives than me like my best friend who has a sibling and parents that live together... i dont have siblings but half-siblings that dont even care about me and probably will never hear of me i just wish i had maybe a older sister that is like my bestie that fights w/ me but also gets along... i wish my parents were together.. im just a mistake and wished i could give my life to someone else to actually deserve it other than me and tbh it hurts... it just hurts knowing im better off without anyone... my mom says im fine but she doesn't see that because shes a single mom taking care of me who as i, doesnt deserve to even be alive...
she could have a better daughter other than me i just dont know what to do and then have to go to school tomorrow faking my confidence for others to notice me.. i hate my life..
if you read this far
thanks... i just dont wanna live anymore
The picture though... I'm only 14 and I wanna die. We're too young for this bullshit.
love this playlist fr
Guys some girl is like honest and sometimes she hurt ur self but now she don’t do it anymore but she scare do it again so she try be good so sometimes when she drink she feel good she smoke she feel good so when she remember that things she feel like \ \ / / :(
I like playlists like this because I can't hear my crying which just makes me cry more.
The picture is so damn relatable, because for the longest time, I thought I was just overreacting because I'm sensitive, but then I remember how isolated I feel with my family along with other things. Sure, my life isn't the worst, I had friends who had it worse, but at the same time, I feel fucking terrible
Hey, you will be okay. (TW⚠️‼️) I just got caught for doing $h and I’m getting help. You should get help if anything you are doing is damaging yourself. I hope you have a good day/night/afternoon.
I've never commented on a video where i enjoy some music and vibe at, however this time it felt like I had to. First thing first, the cover can't be more relatable...a loving family and siblings, relatives are all close and nice people and my friends are kind hearted. Still, it feels like I'm all alone. Like I'm far away from everyone and can't he understood. It changed for some time however, when I met my online ex-girlfriend. She was all I cared about and I pictured a life with her everyday. We had to let go due to our different culture and it's really hard, for both of us. I'm here thinking again that I'm alone even though life's not bad at all. Whoever made it this far into reading, I hope you know that life has lots of ups and downs. Once you think you've hit rock bottom, then it can only get better than that. When the day comes, that you've gotten up, you'll realize how far you've made it. And to the girl I love the most, maybe our paths cross each other and the life I've pictured with you will be one day reality.
when I didn't have real problems I was more sad. like the type said in the thumbnail. now I am facing a real problem and i am. not even that sad, or maybe I just forgot how to love or something.
It's deeper than not knowing your favourite colour. It'd about knowing you'll never go back to that innocent, absent minded kid again. It's about knowing that you'll never know the full thing. It's about thinking you'll never be good enough. It's about having to draw inside the lines. It's about never being that little child again. All it is, is a lost memory. You feel as though you've failed. And the voices are telling you to end it. It's about looking into a child's eyes and seeing your younger self... lost.. never to be again..
i feel so sad, but i don't know why
Am i the only one who regrets being alive yet scared to die,like i don't wanna live no more but i don't wann die young yet.
Real, like I don't even remember what my favorite color is, it keeps changing now
this is hella underrated
tyy
agreed
Please don't go, i don't want you to leave this planet, i know how you feel, getting betrayed by friends, child abused mentally in the past,but remember, I'm an 11 y/o stranger who loves you, I hope you stay strong and get through this, get away from depression and suicide, just take a rest, i am experiencing the same things as you, and if I haven't experienced that pain yet, i could just feel the pain, your cries, don't cut yourself for blaming yourself
It's not your fault. I Love you.
I feel like this all the time the only way I feel free is listening to music Ty
Welp, seems like a great place to vent:
Everything in my life just feels that is perfect, a perfect family, a perfect friend group, everything is perfect around me, but the only thing that I feel ruins that wonder is me. I feel like I am a burden, and if i say anything I'll just make people worry, I don't want anyone to see me anymore, and I want just to yell at the sky without worrying anyone around me. I love my mom and that's why I don't want her to worry about me. She has much more beaoutiful things to see than me. They have two better sons they should see, not me.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
hello there🌝
just wanted to hop in here and tell u that i love u and im so proud of you
I can't go a single day with out telling my self "why am I crying my life is great I have it better then a lot of people" not realizing that I don't my life sucks I can't go a day with out crying,without telling my self I am not ugly, I am not fat, I am not a failure,mistake,stupid, and I can't forget the comments that I get about my body because I am lager them others so I am "fat" and all the comments about it I just want life to end very short I want it to end right now
This is so awesome!!!
The picture and the title is so real
I don't know but this song really tells about my life story. I feel so tired of my life because my life is filled with people who shouldn't be in my life. I'm really tired mentally and physically.
I love this playlist so much bro I can't explain it
thank you man, you make my soul rest peacefully😇
I mean, yeah, it's not a big thing, but if I don't know that, if I don't care about that, then what do i care about, and that photo is more relatable than the music, which is pretty relatable
the picture is so relatable, like I have such a good life, and stuff but I'm sad, I feel like I'm not being grateful enough o my parent
I'm having a good life too but my parents just don't seem to care for me that much.
@@TheNPCwhoasked relatable, my parents don't seem to care about me to, all they care about is my grades
THIS IS MY FAV PLAYLIST
Best playlist. Ever ❤️
(Literally tho, everything here is so relatable.)
I've listened to this playlist for a long time now and i still couldn't really build up the courage to comment under any video.. but i've been asking me this dumb questions for a stupid long while now.
Why do i feel the way i do? Why do i feel like everything i do is worthless? And to be honest, i don't know. I'm trying to be the happy since i felt depressed for the first time ever.
I'm known for being the "happy friend" and the one who cheers everyone up and take care of everyone, .. except myself. I like to be that kind of person but.. it's only on the outside.
Everytime i'm starting to feel happy there's something that instantly pushes me down again. I got the best brother i could've ever had, my parents
(even if they don't really love eachother anymore or arguing and just living in the same house for abt 7 years by now), i still love them. And i have my girlfriend is the best person i've ever met.
I've got everything i need and yet there's still something that feels like it's missing but will never be found.
I'm 18 atm and depressed since i turned 10. I know why, i know how but i don't understand why the feeling is still there.
I've been to therapy twice and they could never find out what's wrong with me or why i feel the way i do.
I don't think that it's ever going to get better to be fair. I know what nice moments are, yeah. I really enjoy the time with my gf but everytime i'm alone i'm just being dragged down
and don't want to do anything except laying on the ground or just starring into the nothing. I'm beyond my limits and it's getting worse each day. I've done stupid things too yeah, it doesn't really matter to me anymore tho.
but all i want to say is that no one is alone. There are people out there who can relate to you, know what you've been through, can brighten your days or just be there for YOU when you can't bring up the urge or energy to help the people you love.
It's okay to try and repair yourself. It's okay to relax, it's okay to get help, it's okay to even just do nothing when you don't feel like doing anything. Let those people help you that want to help you.
I know that it can be hard to excist or just be yourself.
I've made the mistake and never let those people help me who really want me to live and love me. I felt like telling you this cause you deserve it. You show trust to other people and i want to give it back before it's to late.
Maybe we can be friends one day, but most likely we'll never see each other, stranger. But hey, my heart will be open to anyone who stayed strong for way to long and needs a break or isn't feeling well.
For YOU
Take care, live yourself and maybe even try to find something you show interest for. Even if it's hard and feels like you don't deserve it, you do deserve it.
This 1% of joy can bring you more smiles then you could've ever imagined. I love you, friend in this big world. Thank you for being here.
yknow, i never did have a favorite colour, it never striked me as important, i didnt care. a few years down the line, and i still havent quite developed "favorites" for much of anything, there are just good things and bad things, pretty normal. later i figure that i dont really have any hobbies of my own, just ones my older siblings practiced before and since i realized that other than rotting and watching youtube that i have no hobbies that i should do thiers. years later and im here, i dont feel like much of a person anymore, i have some personality but it quickly fades away and dies off after just a short time in conversation, revealing just how little i have lived, just how little i am. i am a nobody watching somebodies from the sidelines. year6 of repeating this pattern
Sometimes I would just take time to think to myself for a few minutes and eventually get tangled up in my thoughts.
lol to be honest, everything about me is fake. I make stuff up for people to like me better, I honestly don't know what I like and dislike anymore.
Internet ruined my past-self's innocent.
Today I found out that I was being cheated on and that too with the girl I told him to stay away from.... Turns out it all started in November (their love story) 💔. But even if he came to me now after all this, I'll accept him happily 🙂
this is how i feel daily... my life isn't that bad its fairly good and here i am having mental breakdowns, identity crisis's and hating my life and myself... i don't have the right to feel like this... my pain ain't shit compared to others pain
Hey,just to let you guys know,it’s healthy to cry.keeping all your feelings in can lead to more problems,I can advise venting in a notebook (keep it somewhere safe so parents and siblings aren’t able to find it),listening to playlist (like this one!),or just letting it all out by crying. im gonna tell you right now,everything will be ok soon and things can and will get better for you…take care of yourself everyone,you might think people don’t care,but i and so many other do ♡︎
-internet stranger
Remember, if you feel something it is important. There's no invalid feeling, and never ignore your depression or any mental disorder just because your life wasn't 'that tragic'. It's mental health, sometimes there's no clear reason for it, just like physical health. Acknowledge yourself!
I don't know what to feel anymore... I feel a mix of bullcrap.. It's a mix of everything that makes me a piece of shit to everyone man...