Hey man, I've had dp/dr for 13 years. I'm 30 now. Let me tell you my story briefly. Around 17-18 it really hit me. I'd have periods of functioning and periods of feeling so broken I couldn't do anything. At 22 I joined a yoga ashram, learned how the mind worked and adopted a philosophical world view that allow the obsessive rumination to stop. Some years later I got a high paying tech job. Didn't think about dp/dr DESPITE still being disconnected from my memories and body and feeling I had brain damage and no personality. But I didn't ruminate on it. 3 years ago my anxiety came up as bad as ever, had to leave my job and have spent 1 1/2 just working on myself. I've had many breakthroughs, moments of being present and still and feeling alive again to the point I'd break into tears thanking God. But then the anxiety comes back and slip into dissociation. It's been those brief moments of aliveness again that keep me determined. As long as we are conscious we have the capacity to heal. Watch your belief systems we undoubtedly limit ourselves with fear based thought loops. Trauma healing is possible. You need to learn to create a sense of self capable of holding space for the traumatized part of you and be the source of comfort for yourself that your parents never were (unfortunately). You will shake and cry and feel rage as you allow these blocked emotions to be released and vivid memories will come back and each time you will feel more whole. Once I have mastered this I will be creating a course and RUclips channel.
I can fully relate to how you are and what you are going through. You are working hard and have done. It's not easy to believe we still have that determination and strength but it is there because we are still here. I also have CPTSD, Autism. Thank you for making this video. Keep going Rhy.
just recently found your channel and i just want to say i really appreciate you. i also struggle with dpdr. it’ll be 3 years for me next month. i also struggle with agoraphobia which is something i’m trying to hard to break. it feels so good knowing i’m not alone. you are helping a lot of people. recently, i started EMDR therapy and i’ve done it before in the past and it helped so much. especially with the dissociation. i’m hoping it helps this time around too! something i struggle with the most is thinking i’m going to lose my mind or that my dpdr will manifest into something more. it’s honestly such a terrifying thing to deal with so thank you for documenting your experience and your journey 🤍 you aren’t alone!
You are a far better human being than most. You will find something to occupy your mind , find a passion , or it will find you. I relate , be kind to yourself , try and ignore yourself if possible. 👊👊👊
Hi Rhys sorry I haven't commented on ur vids for a while.iv been going thru a lot of shit. We are gonna get thru this dude.we have a future..we have a tomorrow.we have a life xxxxxx
U are really strong. I’m glad to see u here, you have a purpose and as soon as you clear up some things which I think are normal and everybody has them you’re going to find out what that purpose is and that’s going to clear up everything because you have a shining light in you. I think you need to just do what you’re doing, which is take every day one day at a time.😉
Bro I understand what ur going through recovery is possible this is not a mental health issue ur gut is destroyed you have candida, parasites Ik this bc u have visual snow I had all these symptoms after a long use of accutane and antibiotics I thought I was insane I began healing myself and I’m getting better you need to do the candida diet and take herbs and trust me u can get out of it love you bro. Ik this is ur gut bc of ur stomach issues which I also have pay attention to how u feel after u eat
Keep making videos. Im going through the exact same thing. Try investing in camping gears(65L backpack, tent.ect) and make your future videos in the nature. Its a hobby you can get invested in doing solo
Cheers man. I’m not somebody who likes authority so I’m very much an atheist aha I guess I’m too stubborn. I think churches are cool though, sometimes I get the urge to just sit in one and chill for a while.
Have you ever looked into those lsd places. I can remember watching some videos on these places that treat people with mental health problems and from what I can remember it did miracles for a lot of people.
I’ve considered it, the main thing that concerns me is that it’s a psychedelic which is something that can likely make derealisation and depersonalisation worse so that puts me off.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 Definitely with a dose that’s high enough to cause a trip. But what I’ve been looking into is the benefits of micro dosing. It’s like a 10th of a full trip dose. Im really interested in trying this myself but finding it is somewhat of a problem. For me anyway. But I will keep trying
Be extremely careful with psychedelics. Everyone says that they can help you heal. I listened and it definitely put another nail into my severe trauma, to the point where if I see it in a movie or something, I literally start getting anxiety symptoms. A bad trip can damage you really bad if your mind is in a very dark place.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 but he's suggesting you microdose... I feel like antidepressants sort of block anything that directly affects the serotonin receptors which LSD does. Meditate everyday(its a longterm process), stay social, eat healthy, try aromatherapy. And I know we're all looking for that elusive medication that just fixes everything... I know I still am. Please let me know if you find it.
Do you have the memory loss associated with dpdr? It's been a horrible disorder for me as well. I dealt w grueling memory loss and an annoying head pressure.
I feel like I forgot all my good memories and can’t remember large chunks of time from the first two years of this disorder. I also find myself zoning out a lot and forgetting what I’d been doing for the last 10 minutes. It’s like I black out and I’m confused as to what I’ve just been doing.
In a way the longer it’s went on, the easier it has become to deal with. I think back to periods when I was extremely unwell and tell myself how I’m so much better now which gives me a little perspective. Therapy every week and mirtazapine has also taken the edge off.
The longer hair and fuller beard suits ya , at least I think so . Has there been any discussion with your doctor about the plan for meds? I assume you’re still taking 30 mg mirtazapine bc you said that recently. Anyway be well, and try to do one day at a time
Thank you :) I’m seeing my doctor next week for a catch-up so I’ll see what he says. But I think I’ll likely stay on 30mg of the Mirtazapine, Venlafaxine is tempting me though so we’ll see. Hope you’re well :)
Also praise Jesus Christ this life is temporary jesus is forever and loves you and will bring you relief he will bring you the truth this is caused by candida and pathogen overgrowth Ik this bc of your visual snow
Hey man, I've had dp/dr for 13 years. I'm 30 now. Let me tell you my story briefly. Around 17-18 it really hit me. I'd have periods of functioning and periods of feeling so broken I couldn't do anything. At 22 I joined a yoga ashram, learned how the mind worked and adopted a philosophical world view that allow the obsessive rumination to stop. Some years later I got a high paying tech job. Didn't think about dp/dr DESPITE still being disconnected from my memories and body and feeling I had brain damage and no personality. But I didn't ruminate on it.
3 years ago my anxiety came up as bad as ever, had to leave my job and have spent 1 1/2 just working on myself. I've had many breakthroughs, moments of being present and still and feeling alive again to the point I'd break into tears thanking God. But then the anxiety comes back and slip into dissociation.
It's been those brief moments of aliveness again that keep me determined. As long as we are conscious we have the capacity to heal. Watch your belief systems we undoubtedly limit ourselves with fear based thought loops.
Trauma healing is possible. You need to learn to create a sense of self capable of holding space for the traumatized part of you and be the source of comfort for yourself that your parents never were (unfortunately). You will shake and cry and feel rage as you allow these blocked emotions to be released and vivid memories will come back and each time you will feel more whole.
Once I have mastered this I will be creating a course and RUclips channel.
Your absolutely amazing! Xx
Cheers Lauren 💙
You have done the most awesome task of seeing it through !
You are OK as you are.
Congratulations.
I can fully relate to how you are and what you are going through. You are working hard and have done. It's not easy to believe we still have that determination and strength but it is there because we are still here. I also have CPTSD, Autism.
Thank you for making this video. Keep going Rhy.
Thank you 💙
♥️
just recently found your channel and i just want to say i really appreciate you. i also struggle with dpdr. it’ll be 3 years for me next month. i also struggle with agoraphobia which is something i’m trying to hard to break. it feels so good knowing i’m not alone. you are helping a lot of people. recently, i started EMDR therapy and i’ve done it before in the past and it helped so much. especially with the dissociation. i’m hoping it helps this time around too! something i struggle with the most is thinking i’m going to lose my mind or that my dpdr will manifest into something more. it’s honestly such a terrifying thing to deal with so thank you for documenting your experience and your journey 🤍 you aren’t alone!
Thank you so much, I’m glad you appreciate the videos 💙
EMDR is really good, I found it useful also. All the best with your journey :)
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 thank you so much! and yes i’m very nervous but excited! i hope we all get through this. best of luck to us all! 🤍🤍🎉
You are a far better human being than most.
You will find something to occupy your mind , find a passion , or it will find you.
I relate , be kind to yourself , try and ignore yourself if possible.
👊👊👊
Hi Rhys sorry I haven't commented on ur vids for a while.iv been going thru a lot of shit. We are gonna get thru this dude.we have a future..we have a tomorrow.we have a life xxxxxx
No worries, hopefully that future can hurry up and come to us because this is torture aha :( I hope things have been less bad for you lately mate 💙
6 years 24/7 dpdr its absolutely hell
Hell on earth for sure :(
It’s caused by gut issues candida overgrowth heal the gut go on the candida diet
we care about you, as a 20yo old guy with dp dr you are giving me hope , keep posting bud
Cheers mate, we’ve all got to stick together :)
U are really strong. I’m glad to see u here, you have a purpose and as soon as you clear up some things which I think are normal and everybody has them you’re going to find out what that purpose is and that’s going to clear up everything because you have a shining light in you. I think you need to just do what you’re doing, which is take every day one day at a time.😉
Thank you so much, I appreciate the kind words 💙
Sorry you’re still in it. Mine also started around the same time, in the later half of 2019 and I’ve had it ever since. I was 26 and now I’m 30
It’s awful, we’ve just got to keep going and hopefully one day we’ll be able to feel all the good emotions/present again.
Bro I understand what ur going through recovery is possible this is not a mental health issue ur gut is destroyed you have candida, parasites Ik this bc u have visual snow I had all these symptoms after a long use of accutane and antibiotics I thought I was insane I began healing myself and I’m getting better you need to do the candida diet and take herbs and trust me u can get out of it love you bro. Ik this is ur gut bc of ur stomach issues which I also have pay attention to how u feel after u eat
Keep making videos. Im going through the exact same thing. Try investing in camping gears(65L backpack, tent.ect) and make your future videos in the nature. Its a hobby you can get invested in doing solo
Yeah I for sure plan on getting outside to record some videos especially since the weather is picking up. It’s a good idea :)
Wish you all the best man. Keep powering through, you’re loved. Have you ever considered belief in a higher person/ god? It helps me
Cheers man. I’m not somebody who likes authority so I’m very much an atheist aha I guess I’m too stubborn. I think churches are cool though, sometimes I get the urge to just sit in one and chill for a while.
Have you ever looked into those lsd places. I can remember watching some videos on these places that treat people with mental health problems and from what I can remember it did miracles for a lot of people.
I’ve considered it, the main thing that concerns me is that it’s a psychedelic which is something that can likely make derealisation and depersonalisation worse so that puts me off.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521
Definitely with a dose that’s high enough to cause a trip. But what I’ve been looking into is the benefits of micro dosing. It’s like a 10th of a full trip dose. Im really interested in trying this myself but finding it is somewhat of a problem. For me anyway. But I will keep trying
Be extremely careful with psychedelics.
Everyone says that they can help you heal.
I listened and it definitely put another nail into my severe trauma, to the point where if I see it in a movie or something, I literally start getting anxiety symptoms.
A bad trip can damage you really bad if your mind is in a very dark place.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 but he's suggesting you microdose... I feel like antidepressants sort of block anything that directly affects the serotonin receptors which LSD does.
Meditate everyday(its a longterm process), stay social, eat healthy, try aromatherapy.
And I know we're all looking for that elusive medication that just fixes everything... I know I still am. Please let me know if you find it.
Do you have the memory loss associated with dpdr? It's been a horrible disorder for me as well. I dealt w grueling memory loss and an annoying head pressure.
I feel like I forgot all my good memories and can’t remember large chunks of time from the first two years of this disorder. I also find myself zoning out a lot and forgetting what I’d been doing for the last 10 minutes. It’s like I black out and I’m confused as to what I’ve just been doing.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 I had horrible short term memory loss. This is a grueling disorder and I'm sorry you have to deal with this.
Keep going
I’m coming up to 3 years myself, you sound like you’re from the north east as well, hit me up lets talk ❤
How do you deal with depression and anxiety?
In a way the longer it’s went on, the easier it has become to deal with. I think back to periods when I was extremely unwell and tell myself how I’m so much better now which gives me a little perspective. Therapy every week and mirtazapine has also taken the edge off.
The longer hair and fuller beard suits ya , at least I think so . Has there been any discussion with your doctor about the plan for meds? I assume you’re still taking 30 mg mirtazapine bc you said that recently. Anyway be well, and try to do one day at a time
Thank you :) I’m seeing my doctor next week for a catch-up so I’ll see what he says. But I think I’ll likely stay on 30mg of the Mirtazapine, Venlafaxine is tempting me though so we’ll see. Hope you’re well :)
I would like to talk to you
What about getting a pet?
I’ve considered it, I just worry I’d not take good care of it. I struggle to take care of myself most days aha.
Also praise Jesus Christ this life is temporary jesus is forever and loves you and will bring you relief he will bring you the truth this is caused by candida and pathogen overgrowth Ik this bc of your visual snow
man i sended you a message on instagram. tried to reach out to you over 5 times i now. i give up now bro haha.
anyways good luck man!