No they will not and in my own anxious way of praising this poem for giving me a relaxed breath to breathe I'd say it's too bad! MeAndMyZIATY! Current mood: I just exhaled for the first time in a non-stop 24 hours and till goin and cycle!
I always start crying at the "because they want so badly to live" bit, because she's right, I want so badly to live, that it, along with everything else, terrifies me.
funny, im not at all afraid to live im just so tied up in "fixing things" that i have no time or energy left and it's HORRIBLE emotionally to not be free when you genuinely have no fear of it
i come back to this poem every few years when my body decides it's time to panic, and every time it brings me immense comfort. i can't say thank you enough miss ferro.
I started listening to this poem when I was in high school, the year this video was posted. All these years later I can’t help but keep coming back to it. It’s a tonic for my deeply anxious soul.
This has changed me. She has offered me a new perspective I had been looking for. My anxiety makes me want to kill myself all the time but i do whatever I can to stay strong. For my family, my friends and myself. So I try meditation and studying philosophy and that helped a lot. She made me realize that my struggle with anxiety shows just how strong I am and how much good is in my life rather than how weak I am and how crappy things are. i really needed that
I can’t count how many times I’ve watched this since I found it last year. Definitely my favorite poem ever. I cry every time which is a little ridiculous I know, but as someone with multiple anxiety disorders and other mental/chronic illnesses, it just hits super close to home and I love it. “It must be exhausting to want to live this much”
Social anxiety here! And this was beautiful. The last parts about how we anxiety-filled people are full of caring and hope really feels makes me good. It makes me like myself just a little bit more. :)
I watched this a couple months ago, and it helped me get over my anxiety by myself, my therapist was so surprised and said I was the strongest person she ever met. I want to get a line from this poem tattoed on my arm so I can remember it forever.
Even struggling with anxiety attacks for the past 3 years, I NEVER thought of it as me loving what i have (or could have or will have) so much that that is the reason for me being so anxious, so...afraid. I thought that was what it was...just fear. Catalina you are awesome.
I first heard this poem about a year ago and I instantly loved it but couldn't figure out why. I thought I was a fairly laid back person. I thought it was normal to cry over a ninety two on a test. I didn't think there was anything wrong with my complete inability to have a conversation with another person. It'd just always been like that. It was weird but I loved the poem so I listened to it endlessly for about a month but forgot it. I just found it again, a few weeks after being diagnosed with anxiety disorder and holy shit is it relevant. What if I fail at life? What if they hit us again? What if it's me this time? This really hits home. I love it so much
I saw this poem for the first time about 3 years ago and it changed how I view anxiety. I think, though, that I want so badly to be good and to be kind to others. So I am obsessive when I do something wrong, or when I start to feel like I'm getting in someone's way or being annoying.
i have read through these comments to see if anyone else was crying from relating to this and i realized that most of the people who stated they were crying have anxiety also. this is a powerful poem and i fucking love it.
This poem really got me thinking and I love it so much evaluate instead of shaming the mental illness that is anxiety, it binds fighters together and shows us how fucking strong me are
She's explaining that people with anxiety are so anxious because of how much they care. For example, I have an anxiety disorder and I have a debilitating fear of the people I love dying. This is a fear stemming from love. People with anxiety worry about everything because we wallow in life...and part of our fear is being so afraid that we miss out on life while worrying.
ever since i learnt the existence of this video i can't stop watching, crying, finding the lyrics, watching again this time with lyrics, crying again. absolutely amazing! 'Because you can’t be this afraid of losing everything if you don’t love everything first, because you have to have a soul-crushing hope that things will get better to be this afraid of missing it.'
I'm not just shy, I have social anxiety. I can barely get out of bed, I'm too busy planning awkward conversations in my head. I believe in the boogey man, he whispers to me each time I try to make a friend. Don't ask me to speak up in class, you're lucky I still show up. In case you haven't caught on, what I feel everyday is wrong. I have the constant worry people don't see me, the happy façade I put on, but they see the shy, antisocial, depressed, stressed, over-worried mess I've become. -j.a.b.
As someone that has some serious anxiety issues as well, I, personally, could never IMAGINE doing something like this, however reading your post gives me hope. ♥
It's great to know that there are videos like this out there, that will help people feel better about their conditions without making them feel completely alienated.
I've had anxiety for years. Always thought I was crazy, now I know what it is. I have huge attacks to where my heart rate is over 200 just because a teacher called on me in class (even though I knew I was 200% correct...). But when I did theater and went on stage, it was like the world stopped. I wasn't me. I was my character. I had no fear. I knew I would do well, and I loved it. I wasn't myself, and that was the best part. I totally agree with you.
i watched it 4 times.. and im going to watch it again and again. what she says is so true and fascinating.... she really has my respect. awesome perfomance
As a person who suffers from anxiety and severe ocd, this is amazing!!! I love her, she gets it. I've always said that I believe I have anxiety because I love life more than others. I fear germs and diseases so much because I don't want my life to be cut short over something ridiculous, I have too much to live for
I have social anxiety to the point that I can't pick up the phone unless it is a close friend or family member but when it comes to showing my art and presenting it; explaining everything about it and how I got there, I am completely at ease. When it comes to teaching or presenting I'm perfectly fine. Everyone has different comfort zones and everyone acts differently to what life has dealt them. You can't generalize people into having the same reactions to the world and themselves :)
It's been years since I've heard this piece but it's relevant more so now than ever Thank you for putting into words what I struggle to acknowledge each and every day
"‘What if it’s me this time?’ and I think, wow, it must be exhausting to want to live this much." no matter how many times I watch the video, this is where I begin sobbing. This is perfect.
These people who fight through every day like fucking gladiators who fight demons worse than you, and I can dream of, just because they want so badly to live. To hold on. To love. Because you can't be this afraid of losing everything if you don't love everything first, because you have to have a soul-crushing hope that things will get better to be this afraid of missing it. - so fucking true.
this poem describes me more than any other poem down to my doctor weaning my off klonopin. I needed to hear this...sometimes I listen to this poem once a week because it's so mind blowing how much I relate to everything. even though I don't want to relate to it. talented woman
The end of this poem completely changed my life. I'm not anxious because I hate life, I'm anxious because I love it.
RIGHT???
those who never experienced anxiety, will never understand how great this is.
I KNOW
No they will not and in my own anxious way of praising this poem for giving me a relaxed breath to breathe I'd say it's too bad! MeAndMyZIATY! Current mood: I just exhaled for the first time in a non-stop 24 hours and till goin and cycle!
It's completely spot on. In a way I've never heard before or since. Been rewatching this for years
I always start crying at the "because they want so badly to live" bit, because she's right, I want so badly to live, that it, along with everything else, terrifies me.
funny, im not at all afraid to live im just so tied up in "fixing things" that i have no time or energy left and it's HORRIBLE emotionally to not be free when you genuinely have no fear of it
OMG yes, I totally get it.
Never thought of it as a striving to live. I guess I was too focused on how the panic attacks feel like death.
your body creates anxiety and perceives them/it as bad because another part of you WANTs to live
i come back to this poem every few years when my body decides it's time to panic, and every time it brings me immense comfort. i can't say thank you enough miss ferro.
As someone who suffers from anxiety this spoke to me in a way that I can't properly articulate.
I thought I was the only one
Same here! So eloquent.
Glad I'm not alone!
saaaaaame
"It must be exhausting to want to live this much."
she TOTALLY fucking gets it
I started listening to this poem when I was in high school, the year this video was posted. All these years later I can’t help but keep coming back to it. It’s a tonic for my deeply anxious soul.
This poem made me realize that I'm so afraid to die because I want to live. I crave life and all the beauty that comes with it.
Having anxiety myself, this made me cry. Its true! My greatest fear is that somehow everything great my life is will just get taken away.
with suffering through anxiety myself, this hit home... it was beautiful, i couldnt have found a better way to explain anxiety.
This has changed me. She has offered me a new perspective I had been looking for. My anxiety makes me want to kill myself all the time but i do whatever I can to stay strong. For my family, my friends and myself. So I try meditation and studying philosophy and that helped a lot. She made me realize that my struggle with anxiety shows just how strong I am and how much good is in my life rather than how weak I am and how crappy things are. i really needed that
Sims4TV same sis same
I think tears aren't enough.
This poem is the most amazing thing that I can relate to that I've EVER heard.
Damn I tear up EVERY time I watch this. This poem gives me strength and helps so much to know I'm not the only one.
Me too ((hug)))
I have bee reading poetry ever since I was a child and this is the only poem I keep coming back to.
I can’t count how many times I’ve watched this since I found it last year. Definitely my favorite poem ever. I cry every time which is a little ridiculous I know, but as someone with multiple anxiety disorders and other mental/chronic illnesses, it just hits super close to home and I love it.
“It must be exhausting to want to live this much”
Social anxiety here! And this was beautiful. The last parts about how we anxiety-filled people are full of caring and hope really feels makes me good. It makes me like myself just a little bit more. :)
As a person who suffers from anxiety, I can't love this enough. Well spoken. I've watched this more than 18 times, because its so relatable to me
Why hasn't she come out with more poetry? Where'd she go? :(
That ending was a punch of reality in the face, so true. So beautiful. I don't know how many times I've replayed this.
I love all the positivity from the audience before the poem even starts💕
I love this poem so much after all these years it still sends chills down my spine
I love this poem. Makes me feel better about myself. I listen to this on my bad days, thank you Catalina Ferro. Thank you so much
I watched this a couple months ago, and it helped me get over my anxiety by myself, my therapist was so surprised and said I was the strongest person she ever met. I want to get a line from this poem tattoed on my arm so I can remember it forever.
Even struggling with anxiety attacks for the past 3 years, I NEVER thought of it as me loving what i have (or could have or will have) so much that that is the reason for me being so anxious, so...afraid. I thought that was what it was...just fear. Catalina you are awesome.
+Chrissy Bella Bingo! "Because you can’t be this afraid of losing everything/If you don’t love everything first"
I always come watch this video when my anxiety attacks hit. Thank you for this, you have no idea how much this helps.
I first heard this poem about a year ago and I instantly loved it but couldn't figure out why. I thought I was a fairly laid back person. I thought it was normal to cry over a ninety two on a test. I didn't think there was anything wrong with my complete inability to have a conversation with another person. It'd just always been like that. It was weird but I loved the poem so I listened to it endlessly for about a month but forgot it. I just found it again, a few weeks after being diagnosed with anxiety disorder and holy shit is it relevant. What if I fail at life? What if they hit us again? What if it's me this time? This really hits home. I love it so much
I saw this poem for the first time about 3 years ago and it changed how I view anxiety. I think, though, that I want so badly to be good and to be kind to others. So I am obsessive when I do something wrong, or when I start to feel like I'm getting in someone's way or being annoying.
This is sheer brilliance. I couldn't have summed up anxiety better myself. That is utterly phenomanal !! xx
The last part hit me like a fucking boulder.
The accuracy hit me straight in the face.
i have read through these comments to see if anyone else was crying from relating to this and i realized that most of the people who stated they were crying have anxiety also. this is a powerful poem and i fucking love it.
this is why i love poetry.
Goosebumps. Every time.
This helped me realize that all of my anxieties are about people because I love people so much
"you can't be this afraid of losing everything, if you don't love everything first" Amazing.
The ending to this was so beautiful. So true. I cannot explain how freeing her words were.
This is so *real* and it astonishes me every time.
I have never been able to name the emotion that Catalina so eloquently spoke after 2:50. Thank you for this.
This poem really got me thinking and I love it so much evaluate instead of shaming the mental illness that is anxiety, it binds fighters together and shows us how fucking strong me are
I watch this so often. It's like a therapy in itself
This is the best thing I have ever watched
That moved me. Tears rolled down my face at the end
No matter how many times I watch this, I still get goosebumps
She's explaining that people with anxiety are so anxious because of how much they care. For example, I have an anxiety disorder and I have a debilitating fear of the people I love dying. This is a fear stemming from love. People with anxiety worry about everything because we wallow in life...and part of our fear is being so afraid that we miss out on life while worrying.
I come back to this all the time. It’s so powerful ❤
That was great. Absolutely great! The ending perspective is so empowering. Thank you!
Amen, sista. I lived in anxiety too many years. Happy to see it shrinking away in my rear view mirror
that was brilliant and 100% accurate, anyone who doesn't understand anxiety just needs to hear what this woman has to say!
ever since i learnt the existence of this video i can't stop watching, crying, finding the lyrics, watching again this time with lyrics, crying again. absolutely amazing! 'Because you can’t be this afraid of losing everything if you don’t love everything first, because you have to have a soul-crushing hope that things will get better to be this afraid of missing it.'
I'm not just shy,
I have social anxiety.
I can barely get out of bed,
I'm too busy planning
awkward conversations in my head.
I believe in the boogey man,
he whispers to me
each time I try to make a friend.
Don't ask me to speak up
in class, you're lucky
I still show up.
In case you haven't caught on,
what I feel everyday is
wrong.
I have the constant worry
people don't see me,
the happy façade I put on, but
they see the shy, antisocial, depressed,
stressed, over-worried mess I've become.
-j.a.b.
I love this..
+Emma Green i feel like i wrote this
this is amazing
Bless you 🙏🏽 thanks for sharing
it's been one week and i still have goosebumps and cry... soul-crashing hope keep crushing me!
As someone that has some serious anxiety issues as well, I, personally, could never IMAGINE doing something like this, however reading your post gives me hope. ♥
i always sob every single time i watch this, i relate to this so much
It's great to know that there are videos like this out there, that will help people feel better about their conditions without making them feel completely alienated.
dude how does this always make me cry? it's just beautiful.
I have the last lines of this poem tattooed on me- it changed my life that much
Wow that actually made me cry. Thank you I needed that boost of self love for myself and my anxiety
I've had anxiety for years. Always thought I was crazy, now I know what it is. I have huge attacks to where my heart rate is over 200 just because a teacher called on me in class (even though I knew I was 200% correct...). But when I did theater and went on stage, it was like the world stopped. I wasn't me. I was my character. I had no fear. I knew I would do well, and I loved it. I wasn't myself, and that was the best part. I totally agree with you.
"I make insomnia look professional" This is so true for me.
Thank you for this. This is more than I've ever been able to express about how I go through life. Thanks, especially for the end.
The ending really struck something in me.. I don't think I'm going to be the same after that wow
deidaraakun you still the same?
It doesn't matter how many times I watch this, the end makes my breath stop for a moment and I cry.
i watched it 4 times.. and im going to watch it again and again. what she says is so true and fascinating.... she really has my respect. awesome perfomance
As a person who suffers from anxiety and severe ocd, this is amazing!!! I love her, she gets it. I've always said that I believe I have anxiety because I love life more than others. I fear germs and diseases so much because I don't want my life to be cut short over something ridiculous, I have too much to live for
This really hit home for me what an inspirational writer.
Quite probably the best slam poetry performance ever.
I no longer see my own anxiety and paranoia the same way. This is beautiful.
Wow. Just wow. This was amazing.
This is the best fucking thing I have EVER seen.
Thank you so much for this. I can't articulate how much this meant to me.
4 years later. Probably still one of my favorites.
I wish I heard this back when I was suffering from anxiety. So awesome!
This is literally perfection. I get chills every time.
Very good, an often overlooked life affecting condition.
So strong, so true, made me cry hard. And that's totally ok. Thank you Catalina 🙏🏽
I can so relate to this! She explained what we all don't know how to put it into words.
I want to thumbs up everyone's comments bc we can all relate to this so much. This is absolute PERFECTION. INCREDIBLE.
this is amazing. really hits home
I fucking love this so much.
I have social anxiety to the point that I can't pick up the phone unless it is a close friend or family member but when it comes to showing my art and presenting it; explaining everything about it and how I got there, I am completely at ease. When it comes to teaching or presenting I'm perfectly fine. Everyone has different comfort zones and everyone acts differently to what life has dealt them. You can't generalize people into having the same reactions to the world and themselves :)
This was something I needed so bad, I'm glad I watched it.
I love this so much. Words can not describe how perfect this is.
i have terrible anxiety and this made me feel so much better, i'm so happy this is on youtube. it's good to know i'm not alone.
It's been years since I've heard this piece but it's relevant more so now than ever
Thank you for putting into words what I struggle to acknowledge each and every day
10 years later this is still one of my favorite poems
this is one of m favourite things in the world
I love her for this poem. I feel this so hard.
This is beautiful. I cry everytime I hear it. Gives such a new perspective. Thank you
"‘What if it’s me this time?’ and I think, wow, it must be exhausting to want to live this much." no matter how many times I watch the video, this is where I begin sobbing. This is perfect.
Yes, YES this is what anxiety feels like, and its awesome to hear someone state the reality of the awful disease in such a beautiful way.
One of my absolute favorites
I loved this and I struggle very bad tryin to make it thru each day and for once if even for a moment you brought I smile to my face...
These people who fight through every day like fucking gladiators who fight demons worse than you, and I can dream of, just because they want so badly to live. To hold on. To love. Because you can't be this afraid of losing everything if you don't love everything first, because you have to have a soul-crushing hope that things will get better to be this afraid of missing it. - so fucking true.
Wow....I've never thought of it that way. I never knew I loved so much.
This made me tear up. I've never thought of anxiety like this.
This is amazing.... Thank god someone can explain how I feel!! I love this soooo much
This speaks to me on a very personal level
I love you for honoring us like this Catalina Ferro
it changes my life every single time i listen to it.
this poem describes me more than any other poem down to my doctor weaning my off klonopin. I needed to hear this...sometimes I listen to this poem once a week because it's so mind blowing how much I relate to everything. even though I don't want to relate to it. talented woman
this poem has stuck with me more than any other