It breaks my heart to hear you apologize for your face. Broken does not equal "ugly". You must believe in your own tremendous beauty, even now, in the brokenness....and be bold in showing it to the world. It is so much deeper than your skin. Sending love!
Yes it does. “If you tell a beautiful woman that she is beautiful, what have you given her? It's no more than a fact and it has cost you nothing. But if you tell an ugly woman that she is beautiful, you offer her the great homage of corrupting the concept of beauty.” -Ayn Rand
Gotta do more than keep breathing and stay alive. Need to try to recover. She does nothing to get better and sets her sights always on different in patient treatments. One after another she finds in-patient treatment opportunities, gets the funds each time for each program, then finds fault with the program and leaves it. Then she begins a new quest to find a new "perfect" in-patient treatment. Finds it, gets the money, goes in and then finds fault with it and leaves. Rinse and repeat. Over and over.
I see the same thing. They should have her sign a contract before being admitted that she will comply and give up control. If they read the records of where she’s been, I don’t see anyone admitting her because that’s a lot of money for someone who’s going to fight the program. I hope and pray that something will work out for her. Maybe very strong, anti-anxiety meds would help.
You summed up the whole situation and that has to be a lot of $’s getting into a in house patient program then it is always the same ole situation they don’t have the right food they didn’t do things the way she wanted them done I am quite sure these Dr’s and professionals know about the prior admissions smh I hope she can get it together before she runs out of time.
It’s always someone else’s problem. Chance after chance and you always find a reason not to go! And when you find a place you leave. Rarely do I watch you but when I do it’s the same song and dance.
Oh honey, please don’t ever apologize for your appearance. You’re beautiful no matter what. Looks are fleeting. It’s what is in your heart that makes you beautiful ❤ please remember that and keep on fighting one day at a time. Sending you lots of love and hugs.
I've missed you! You really do look so beautiful today( not that you aren't all the time) but your hair, outfit and eyes just look bright. The blue from your sweater brings out your eyes and im sure you dont aee it but you are such a beautiful, sweet soul 💗 Stay in the fight, remember it's a marathon not a sprint. I have so much faith in you 🙏 therapy is wonderful and I'm so glad you found one that has actual experience and been through it because otherwise I find I'm the one teaching them when I'm there for them to help me. Smh. You can do this, you deserve to be here, deserve to be healthy and most important you deserve to have a chance to enjoy life and not just exist. This world needs you to be part of it, You are worth it! 😊💞
I’m so pleased to hear that you’ve found a therapist you like- that is such a positive development! Good luck in your meeting with the hospital in The Hague. I will keep my fingers crossed. (And, BTW, that was some excellent on the fly translating!)
I told your story to a friends father who is in his 80’s who is a struggling with failure to thrive and not eating. He felt and acknowledged your strength, and intestinal fortitude.. it was my pleasure to share your strength and positivity throughout thisvv c journey. Just want to share you are still inspiring people, 💜 you look beautiful and your joyful and beautiful soul shines through!!💜
You don’t look horrible. You have an aura of beautiful light and courage. Keep fighting the good fight! As will I. Sending you lots of love from Norway 🥰
I've been playing with seeing myself as witness to the illness I deal with, not as it being any part of my identity, and watching it with curiosity rather than fear. It's a challenging protocol, but I think the illness has less hold on me, and me on it. I'm so glad you found someone you trust to talk with.
Just another perspective…being on three waiting lists for hospital treatment is more than many people have with the same illness..so it is positive you are in that position. Many people are also waiting..six months is a standard wait for the treatment center closest to where I live and yes there are reasons why some cases are escalated…there aren’t enough resources globally and there aren’t treatment centres that guarantee cures either. I hope you get to the top of the waiting list soon..I hope anyone else waiting also does because no one should feel like they don’t deserve help and it’s tragic people are pitted against one another to fight for a bed and treatment But in the meantime maybe you could work on trying to learn some tools to regulate your emotions..so you can calm yourself because being in a cycle of chronic anxiety about treatment options wouldn’t be helping you either. Try some meditation or visualisation apps..those skills would help greatly when you do get to an Ed unit…the ability to calm yourself in the face of meals, difficult situations or people would serve you greatly and reduce the need to be reactive. With time to wait you could use your time productively working on some of the emotional skills to assist recovery
I absolutely love that poem. Even though I only understand English, the Dutch sounded so beautiful. I could feel the emotion even in a language I don't know. ❤ I am sending all my prayers to you. Much love to you, beautiful soul!
Don’t you know, and I’m sure you do, but remember how beautiful you are to your Father who formed you and knew you before you were in your mother’s womb. My heart has issues and I get out of breath. Whatever happens we will be ok. It is not the outside or what goes into the body that defiles a man but that which comes out of him. You show all the time the love that flows out of you the grace and mercy you show to others that don’t deserve it. It’s The Father’s love it’s easy to see. The prince of the power of the air, of this world, causes such suffering. I’m so glad you’ve found someone you are comfortable with to talk to. I’m so glad to see you again, you are beautiful! So what you’re a little thin, I’m a little over weight, makes no difference! Love you, can’t wait to give you a big giant hug one day when we get Home😘.
Angelique - I think it's so important and amazing that you are documenting everything... because it is demonstrating how the system fails people, and you are a living example of this. Someone who so desperately needs to be in a hospital and medically monitored, stabilized, safely refed. So many hoops to jump through due to protocols or liabilities or whatever the reason, doesn't matter. You are fighting alone for your life at home. And you will prevail! I believe in you, sending hugs in those fearful moments.💕
It's so good to see you! You do not look horrible. Please always feel you can come on here to talk to us....no matter what is going on. I am so sorry for what you are going through. I hope they get everything worked out soon so you can get the help you need.
I cried when you translated that poem. It truly is beautiful and powerful. I think sometimes we have courage but, we don't recognize it. When my mind says that nothing good can happen, I tell it to go be quiet. Everything good can happen. The fact that you cry when you read that poem tells me that you are filled with hope. Such a small four-letter word. But, sometimes that's all we have to hang on to. I'm so glad that you have someone that you can talk to who understands what you're going through. I think sometimes people underestimate the power of even one person caring. Of course, nobody knows exactly how you feel. We just know we love you. Honestly, if you could only know that we cannot see your face because your spirit is blinding and bright. It's a pure kind of light of gentleness and strength. I just went 2 and a half months without hearing another person's voice. I had no idea that there is a bad effect to that situation. I started to just disassociate from my mind and body. I love you. So many people love you and we are praying for you. My doctor from many years ago used to tell me on the phone, stay strong. Don't keep your light under a basket. I have to keep my light burning so that when I'm needed, I will be ready. I pray good news from the next video. It is good news just to hear your beautiful voice. Love, Carly 💕
I am so glad you have found a dutch therapy person, when you just came on screen I thought you look so much better well rested and your hair looks beautiful, I do hope you can get more help with the system. we shall keep praying for you Lique xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Please, please, please don’t say that you look horrible. It’s the disease that’s horrible. And certainly don’t be ashamed of your looks. It’s very obvious that you are a pretty lady, not only on the inside, but also on the outside (even though I don’t know how you looked before the disease). My heart is with you, as always, just keep going on.
Its so good to see you and I’m so pleased that people are helping you and you have someone to talk to that really understands. Sending love, hugs and prayers ❤
Dearest Angelique, please DON'T ever apologize for your appearance...you are beautiful inside and out..I'm glad you found a therapist you can talk to...I have been thinking about you everyday...Don't ever ever give up! You are the strongest person that I know...remember how much WE ALL CARE about you! Sending love and hugs to you..♥️♥️♥️🙋♀️🇱🇷.Veronika
Your updates are not discouraging they give me hope and I see your beauty, incredible loving heart and courageous spirit. I think of and pray for you every day and wish I could be there to hug you in person. Sending you so much love dear friend. ❤❤❤❤❤
You do not look horrible, on the contrary, you are beautiful! Your light shines forth through your form and makes you even more beautiful. I understand "falling through the cracks" in the healthcare system. I live in the US and healthcare is all about money and insurance is very expensive here. I am not old enough to get Medicare which is for Senior Citizens 65 and over. I am 63 and I can't afford health insurance. I am glad to see that you are still here and hope and pray that soon you will get the care you need. You have a lot of courage💜
Beauty comes from within. Yours shines through. I'm sorry for the frustration you're feeling trying to get help. So glad you have found a therapist that you like and hopefully trust. Praying that she is able to give you the help you need. God bless you sweet girl. 💗
That poem is so true, Angelique, beautiful written, and so needy to many of us ❤️ I often wonder: How did I managed to go through my life? The answer is: Listening to that voice again and again and follow up on it. Giving it place in my brain and heart! Well, my life has been in danger many times, depression, migrene, other healthissues, many years struggling walking, Yes, caurage has never left me! Now I have comfort in, and hope that you will get the help you so deperatly need! You haven’t given it all up, sis! Although your pain and the struggle every day and night is horrible! ❤️ And know this: You are a beautiful woman! 👍🤗❤️ Keep going, Angie! 🙏
Very kind and well expressed. I have hope for you and the struggles you have been through as well. In times when we are being vulnerable and sharing deep pain, it is so beautiful to watch all the helpers, the loving souls come forward and are offering a myriad of life preservers.. it really restores faith that the world still has so many beautiful people left in it.. even in the height of division. Sending love and strength to everyone needing it.💜
Good to see you Lique! You dont have to apologize for your appearance. You also dont have to feel bad for posting when things aren't going so well for you. We are here for your journey and we wish to offer you encouragement and strength 💕🙏🏽 If it makes you feel better, I am also not doing so well. I caught C**ID this week, my first time having it. I haven't been sick from a cold or flu in almost a decade. I'm also suffering from PMDD symptoms so my hormones are all over the place. I'd love to see a video with you and your friend! I think it would be good for you too, to have her there as support and to not feel the pressure to "perform" for the channel. Brighter days are coming for both of us🕊
Thank you so much lovely! Am with you too… sounds like a struggle indeed. Really wish you a quick and full recovery. Take good care of yourself 🙏🏻 And thanks again for being there for me… ❤️
Oh sweetie - I wish I could reach through and hug you from Virginia USA. I donated to your GoFund me and will try and do more in the future. I can only imagine what a nightmare this has been. I was one of the lucky ones - resources, treatment, family & friends - it saved my life more than once in my journey through my eating disorder. Even with that it was brutal. Your courage to get up every day and keep going is changing lives and perspectives. Not one ounce of your pain is wasted, God has and will use it all for good. Having said that I pray you will have relief and help quickly. Every day you stay alive you have a purpose and one small right choice can lead to another to sustain you while more help comes available. It is absolutely horrible how limited effective treatment for eating disorders is - especially for those who need it the most. Thank you for not hiding and for being vulnerable and honest. Your story can make a difference to raise awareness of the struggle and what it really looks like raw and uncensored. You may not feel like it but you show the kind of courage spoken of in that poem every day and every time you come on here to open yourself up even when social media is not always the kindest venue. You have my prayers and support! Keep going, as I said, one small right choice at a time. You. Can. Do. This!
Thank you so much Stephanie! So thankful for your understanding and kind reaction… and SO HAPPY for you that you got through your own huge challenges! That is such a blessing 🙏🏻 Hug back to you ❤️
Great to see you! So wonderful you've found a therapist and still fighting. Some days the best we can do is endure the hours. Some days we can fight for healing. Your spirit is strong, Just don't give up! 🙏🧡
I hope you know I really do still support you and want you to get better, Lique. I know it’s hard to keep up motivation and trying to take care of yourself. I’m glad you’re still around, and I’m happy you’re still looking into stuff and definitely happy to hear about the ED specialist you are now speaking with. Keep going strong. 💕
Hi Angelique, you look very nice today! Lovely poem. Please don't ever be hard on yourself, because you have way more courage than most people. Look out on your horizons, and know there is a better future, that will come your way. Be empowered. You have a beautiful soul, and God is with you, and so are your faithful subs. I asked the Lord, to look out after our sweet Dutch girl. Blessings and good hope.🙏❤️🌹🌹🌹🌅
Lique, you are beautiful and you are worthy of recovery. I'm so happy for you that you are in therapy. After all, anorexia is a mental illness that manifests physical symptoms - it began in the mind and hopefully repairing that will send you on your way to a sustained recovery. As always, I wish you all the best. 🤗💞💕 Hugs and hearts.
Bless you hunni, I have worried and searched on youtube for you this week, its so good you are still fighting on. "it is always darkest before dawn" .. thinking of you, hugs xxx
You are precious. And your sweetness is from the inside out. You are lovely inspite of your trials. Your challenges are so difficult and I have great compassion for you. I will continue to pray that things will turn around for you. God bless
Hello Lique I know it so frustrating and hard. Try to hang in there. I'm go very glad that you see a good psychologist. Take the help as it comes. Big hugs 🤗🤗
I will always be here, as I have been from the beginning. Wonderful news about the therapy! And from someone who has had an ED and all. Wonderful and powerful reading today. Please keep hope and faith alive Angelique. Love you, from Australia. XOXOX
Your breathing...your heart ...your pain....your body is telling you need food....eat every two hours even it's a high protein shake with vitamins and minerals. KEEP IT DOWN.! Scream yell and shout at doctors if you have to .....to get them to help you. Scream for helps from doctors I n another country....whatever it takes.....BUT YOU GOT TO EAT.!
You have the courage to get through everything with God. He is walking with you in this journey. You are truly blessed to share your story. So many people suffer from a eating disorder and hearing what you are going through really helps other! Courage is great! Has your friend recovered? What is she doing to get by? She understands more about your journey so you must get support from her. Would love you to do a q&a with your friend. Prayers always!
Come on Lique , you can do this . Keep fighting and hang in there till you can get to your treatment . You seem so determined and focused I feel positive for you . Would love to see a video with your best friend .🌷
Hello, my friend. Thank you for using your energy to let us know you are here. Just wanted to say, though I hope you will be here for years to come yet, that I wish you would not say or believe you look terrible. You lol beautiful because your beauty shines through, even in your weakened state. To look at you is a blessing as we see our friend and her fighting spirit and sweet voice. Much love to you. Mel
I’ve been here since the start and hoping so bad for your recovery. You really do look so pretty. And the poem. Im going to make a print of it for my wall. YES to the Q&A ❤
Hello my Sweet Little Sister Angelique, I just wanted to let you know that I pray for your recovery and a beautiful future every day. You can heal. You can get better. You can be well and strong and healthy. Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit and God the Father are with you. Keep fighting the good fight girl! 😇💝💖❤💝💖❤🙏
I would love to see a video with you and your friend. My question is: when you are home by yourself do you wish you had more company or is it sometimes easier to not be the center of focus? ❤
You don't look horrible - you hair is looking lovely after being washed :) The question I have for you is whether you have a daily calorie goal, ie. 2500 per day, and whether you try your hardest to meet it? I hope you get a place in a hospital as soon as possible, but you really need to commit every single day to eating more because at the end of the day it is all that will save you.
Many of us have donated, supported & asked questions. After being a nurse for 25 years, I'm burnt-out of excuses. Hope Lique does the Q/A and stays at the facility this time, 🙏 Lots of people care about her well-being.
@@AlexEs63 And let's be 100% honest; ALOT of people are checking in to see if she's still alive. ( Then,to cover their relief; they say trite garbage like ' you look better/ good/ beautiful).I hope Lique improves,but I don't think she's as invested in her life as some of her followers...🥺
I’m so very sorry you’re going through this, please remember you are loved so much by so many people. Don’t let go of hope. You will be free of this illness one day soon. You have to believe that too. Think of just 1 thing to do each day. It doesn’t matter what that 1 thing is. Commit to yourself you’ll do 1 nice thing for yourself. Then do it. Don’t let any kind of excuses get in your mind, if it’s having a cup or tea coffee having a shower or doing some washing just do it. You deserve to have a good life and to feel very proud of yourself. You deserve to love yourself the way others see you and love you. Please stay strong and believe things will come good for you. Hope on to that hope it’ll keep you going. ❤
You look so beautiful in this video. I’m sorry you are still struggling. I still cannot understand why you have such a hard time receiving help. I’m glad you have a therapist to talk too. You asked about us liking to see a video with your friend. YES!! I’ll watch any video you want to share. I continue to pray daily for you. Take care and NEVER GIVE UP!!!🙏❤️🙏❤️
So good to see you! 🤗🤗 and never apologise - you always radiate beauty and grace ((hugs)). You always have the loveliest fashions too. Thank you for that poem! 💗 I'm so glad you're speaking with an ED specialist therapist and getting your psychiatrist to help you navigate the "system" to get care. Maybe (and with God/Universe's help) you can have an expectation of, "well they have all these rules and blockages and nonsense.. but I'm going to get what I need no matter what!" I love the idea of QA with your friend. A question could be, "What were some of the things that helped you recover yourself?"
I was so glad to see you.i was so worried.i pray for you all the time..youre so beautiful inside and out.i hope you find the help you need.sending love from 🇨🇦
I do not think you look horrible. When we are ill our body shows it, that is understood. Wonderful to feel clean and I am glad of that. Courage. I needed that reading and I so thank you, Love, from America.
I'm so happy to see you! Please keep fighting, you are very much worth it and you mean a lot to many many people. You are beautiful inside and out. Gentle hugs and love to you!
Lique, your hair looks beautiful especially with the light shining on it, all golden and pretty. Good to hear that you have a therapist and that she has recovered so can relate to your struggles. It must have been so nice to shower and feel all fresh again. I don't know if you have Lush in Holland but I love hot baths with all their nice smeling bath bombs. Also, someone on here suggested drinking meal replacement drinks like Fortisip and Ensure which sounded like a great idea. How about those? ❤
Thank you dear! I know lush and love it too! 🙂 But I don’t have a bath here 😏 Yes, the replacement drinks I have too. But my body doesn’t respond well on it 😳 most of them contain dairy and liquid sugar. Which causes intestine and hyper/hypo issues. I keep trying though, also trying different brands and versions. Thanks fir the tip! 👍🏻😘
@@liquefaith I think Me Now suggested it before but you could make a list of all things you'd like to do that your ED has deprived you of like hot bubble baths, outdoor activities and other things that you enjoy and use it as motivation to get better. When I had meal replacements drinks for crohns disease, my dietician got me Nutricia Elemental 028 shakes which are dairy free as I've been vegan for years. They have "sugar flavouring" in and I've no idea what they mean by sugar flavouring?!! They are mainly for crohns and similar things but they might be suitable, I don't know♥
While you're waiting...maybe it would be a good idea to increase your intake daily of food/fluids/ supplements. Your heart is struggling along with the rest of your body.There are non-dairy nutritional supplements; IF you choose to ingest them.Any recovery starts with you; whether in OR outpatient.Meanwhile it's very difficult to think/ function whilst your organs & body is slowly eating itself. Your brain needs nutrition- as you KNOW. So does EVERY organ in your body.I hope you choose life Lique 💜.
This is really important because everyday more damage is done..in my case I had started eating fully in an Ed unit when a nutritional deficiency caused spinal cord damage ..for others it’s cardiac problems..you get no warning..you just wake up one morning and it happens
@@meherenow Yes,I have a permanently damaged heart. I battled Anorexia for decades too.The risks of damage/ death only increases with age. And YES,I agree- you NEVER know what will happen OR when.( hope you are doing okay-ish now💜)
Yes, Angelique please listen to the advice of these two ladies who have shared your experience. Angelique, life is beautiful if you know where to look. One of your online supporters said that when she was recovering she made herself eat one tablespoon of full-fat yogurt every hour. That's how she started her recovery journey. Angelique, if you choose to try this, just think. Okay, this tablespoon is for my beloved best friend(_______) who would miss me terribly. This tablespoon is in tribute to my favorite poet (_______) who has contributed beauty to my life, This tablespoon is for Vermeer, This tablespoon is for Rembrandt, This tablespoon is for Frans Hals, This tablespoon is for Rachel Ruysch, This tablespoon is for Willem Half, This tablespoon is for my beloved Mother. This tablespoon is for Jesus Christ, my savior and redeemer. This can be an act of gratitude, an act of worship, an act of faith, an act of willpower, an act of self-determination. We all love you! Just do it Angelique, for all of us!!! Show us all how strong you really are! 💪🧠🫀🫁🦴 😇💝❤💖💝❤💖🙏👩🦼👩🦽🧎♀👩🦯🚶♀🏃♀🏃♀🏃♀💃💃💃⛹♀⛹♀⛹♀🚴♀🚴♀🚴♀🏋♀🏋♀🤸♀🤸♀🤸♀🤽♀🤽♀🤾♀🚵♀🚣♀🏄♀🏌♀🧗♀🏃♀💃🏃♀💃🏃♀
Angelique, you’re touching so many lives with your videos. Thank you for being so vulnerable. Being in your position must be scary, but I know you have strong faith and there really is nothing to fear, after this life passes. But you will continue on, because God is not done with you yet, on Earth. Things are going to get better for you, just hang on. ❤
Although I agree with people saying you are a beautiful human being your appearance in this video (and what you said) made me worry. To be honest I think in this video you look closer to dying than ever before. Some people wrote they think you look better and of course I wish them to be right and me to be mistaken. But I'm honestly more worried you might leave than I was ever before 😞
Completely agree. It's natural for people to try to cheer someone up and say they look better etc but sadly Lique does look extremely frail.Its going to be that way until Lique is much further along in recovery and it's understandable to be very worried, I am too.
Someone who is gravely I’ll doesn’t look beautiful..someone who self harms their body continually by not nourishing it also isn’t beautiful. You can be compassionate about someone’s struggle and empathetic about what they face everyday without needing to compliment them. It doesn’t take away the struggle to be told you are beautiful…it may help to say you hear their pain, that you are here to support and encourage and be a witness to their journey out of respect for their humanity
G-d gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers. It's so hard but look at you doing amazing. I want you to take a moment to recognize your strength.
Please don't apologize - your beauty radiates even during this terrible struggle. I wish you could see yourself as we do 💓 Yes please to a Q&A. My question to your friend: What do you wish people understood better about Lique?
My dear friend, you are so strong. I love your hair down and you always look beautiful to me. I'm glad you're getting therapy now. Please continue to fight. I have faith that you can win this battle. What are some ways we can help you?
The poem was beautiful. Thank you for sharing! I’m sure we all can find words within it that resonate deeply with us. ❤️ I’ve got a question for a future Q&A. What are you most looking forward to being able to do when you are well enough to do it? I looked up kasekuchen, looking for a recipe to make it and try, and it sounds divine. I hope you are able to find some the next time you visit Germany! Much love. ❤️
So happy to hear you and know your somewhat better .... You look wonderful. 💙 👼 🌹 please keep us updated. Yes! MAke the video with your Friend! Great idea!
@@jennbeth1 so true. I wish her the best. If she was my daughter… I mean.. My heart breaks for her. I just want to see her walk around the room and laughing and enjoying. ❤
@@jennbeth1 Exactly. People commenting on her looks should just STOP. It's okay to see the kind/ beautiful soul within; but if these people were sitting across from Lique they would be very concerned. Lique is starving and if people really cared they'd stop deluding themselves. The Anorexic part of Liques brain is thriving on comments about her image.Look back 9 months ago- is there REALLY any difference? Lique needs to take advantage of the therapist she is seeing & build strategies to fight the Anorexia so she can consume more and save her body.
I'm so happy to see you today 😁..and your hair looks beautiful 😍..so glad you are getting some therapy by a Dutch therapist, I pray to god source that this brings you healing . Bless you 🙏
So good to see your update! A relief actually. I was moved when I read a book and this jumped out at me and I wanted to share it with you, it was regarding a drawing worth some $30 million. It was damaged "no one suggested that since the drawing was now damaged, it should be discarded. Work to restore the nearly 500-year-old masterpiece began immediately. Why? Because it was precious in the eyes of art lovers. Are you not worth more than a chalk and charcoal drawing? In God’s eyes you certainly are-however damaged you may be...." We can easily look at ourselves like a damaged painting but in actual fact we are beautiful.
You look beautiful, I've been following you for awhile. I'm from the United States and I feel bad because I don't understand all the processes and procedures you have to go through to get treatment. It seems so difficult, I feel your pain and struggle. ❤️🫶 it breaks my heart. Hear my Dr or therapist jut calls the place they want to send me to, sometimes there is a small waiting list, just a few days. It used to gave me time to get ready and pack. I pray that you get the proper treatment as soon as possible. Best of luck sweetie, keep your positive spirit up. 🥰💜
I know you may not like me much lique, but I want to say I truly believe you can do it and survive this 🙏 know you can do it, you have to keep pushing through and pushing yourself to eat more then you did the day before, that's how I started, at first it was difficult to do 1000 calories a day, then I moved up to 1500 the next week, then 2000 the week after, initially when you increase it's very difficult but slowly increasing each week eventually till you can get to 3k-6k (it sucks for us anorexics 🙃 that it has to be that much when we hate eating...) But after a while now I've been able to enjoy eating again, and be hungry on my own, and I started to not even worry about the food after challenging myself to eat foods I was worried to eat before. You can do it I know we will see you survive this
Dear, I truly appreciate you just being yourself and stating what you think. And I admire your enormous courage! So happy for you that you already made it this far… But I must admit I still think I need medical help to get out of this deep hole… 🫤 Thank you for being here. Never feel unwelcome! I don’t judge you, even though we may not agree 😘
@@liquefaithI agree that you need medical help to get out of this hole. Refeeding is dangerous too…esp in the state you are in. Prayers to you, Angelique… you are beautiful inside and out and you have immense courage and determination 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
@@liquefaith I do think you need medical help to, I always have been on the side that you need medical help and hoping that you can get into a treatment center or hospital soon, it was just a suggestion to help you survive until a bed is available
It breaks my heart to hear you apologize for your face.
Broken does not equal "ugly".
You must believe in your own tremendous beauty, even now, in the brokenness....and be bold in showing it to the world. It is so much deeper than your skin.
Sending love!
Perfectly said
Soooo sweet of you… thank you… 🙏🏻❤️
Wonderfully said! ❤️
Yes it does. “If you tell a beautiful woman that she is beautiful, what have you given her? It's no more than a fact and it has cost you nothing. But if you tell an ugly woman that she is beautiful, you offer her the great homage of corrupting the concept of beauty.”
-Ayn Rand
Gotta do more than keep breathing and stay alive. Need to try to recover. She does nothing to get better and sets her sights always on different in patient treatments. One after another she finds in-patient treatment opportunities, gets the funds each time for each program, then finds fault with the program and leaves it. Then she begins a new quest to find a new "perfect" in-patient treatment. Finds it, gets the money, goes in and then finds fault with it and leaves. Rinse and repeat. Over and over.
Thank god someone said it
I see the same thing. They should have her sign a contract before being admitted that she will comply and give up control. If they read the records of where she’s been, I don’t see anyone admitting her because that’s a lot of money for someone who’s going to fight the program. I hope and pray that something will work out for her. Maybe very strong, anti-anxiety meds would help.
You summed up the whole situation and that has to be a lot of $’s getting into a in house patient program then it is always the same ole situation they don’t have the right food they didn’t do things the way she wanted them done I am quite sure these Dr’s and professionals know about the prior admissions smh I hope she can get it together before she runs out of time.
It’s always someone else’s problem. Chance after chance and you always find a reason not to go! And when you find a place you leave. Rarely do I watch you but when I do it’s the same song and dance.
She unfortunately recently passed away for refusing treatment. 😢
Oh honey, please don’t ever apologize for your appearance. You’re beautiful no matter what. Looks are fleeting. It’s what is in your heart that makes you beautiful ❤ please remember that and keep on fighting one day at a time. Sending you lots of love and hugs.
Thank you so much… that is really sweet! 😘
I've missed you! You really do look so beautiful today( not that you aren't all the time) but your hair, outfit and eyes just look bright. The blue from your sweater brings out your eyes and im sure you dont aee it but you are such a beautiful, sweet soul 💗 Stay in the fight, remember it's a marathon not a sprint. I have so much faith in you 🙏 therapy is wonderful and I'm so glad you found one that has actual experience and been through it because otherwise I find I'm the one teaching them when I'm there for them to help me. Smh. You can do this, you deserve to be here, deserve to be healthy and most important you deserve to have a chance to enjoy life and not just exist. This world needs you to be part of it, You are worth it! 😊💞
I’m so pleased to hear that you’ve found a therapist you like- that is such a positive development! Good luck in your meeting with the hospital in The Hague. I will keep my fingers crossed.
(And, BTW, that was some excellent on the fly translating!)
Thank you sweetheart! Always happy to read your comments 🥰
I told your story to a friends father who is in his 80’s who is a struggling with failure to thrive and not eating.
He felt and acknowledged your strength, and intestinal fortitude.. it was my pleasure to share your strength and positivity throughout thisvv c journey. Just want to share you are still inspiring people, 💜 you look beautiful and your joyful and beautiful soul shines through!!💜
She has internal digestion issues from childhood. She can't digest food.
Thank you so much for sharing this! That is so encouraging… please send your friends father my love too 🙏🏻❤️
Your inner beauty radiates outward .
It makes all the sense to attend a therapist in your mother language. It is so good to see you ❤
Thank you Marie 😘
Faith and Courage! It's putting one foot in front of the other and trusting in GOD to bring you through all of this.
Amen… 🙏🏻❤️
Please never ever apologize for how you look ever again. You are doing wonderful and you are a beautiful soul. Your kindness shines bright
You don’t look horrible. You have an aura of beautiful light and courage. Keep fighting the good fight! As will I. Sending you lots of love from Norway 🥰
Thank you dear! 🙏🏻❤️
I've been playing with seeing myself as witness to the illness I deal with, not as it being any part of my identity, and watching it with curiosity rather than fear. It's a challenging protocol, but I think the illness has less hold on me, and me on it.
I'm so glad you found someone you trust to talk with.
That is a very wise view dear! 👍🏻😘
Just another perspective…being on three waiting lists for hospital treatment is more than many people have with the same illness..so it is positive you are in that position. Many people are also waiting..six months is a standard wait for the treatment center closest to where I live and yes there are reasons why some cases are escalated…there aren’t enough resources globally and there aren’t treatment centres that guarantee cures either.
I hope you get to the top of the waiting list soon..I hope anyone else waiting also does because no one should feel like they don’t deserve help and it’s tragic people are pitted against one another to fight for a bed and treatment
But in the meantime maybe you could work on trying to learn some tools to regulate your emotions..so you can calm yourself because being in a cycle of chronic anxiety about treatment options wouldn’t be helping you either. Try some meditation or visualisation apps..those skills would help greatly when you do get to an Ed unit…the ability to calm yourself in the face of meals, difficult situations or people would serve you greatly and reduce the need to be reactive. With time to wait you could use your time productively working on some of the emotional skills to assist recovery
I absolutely love that poem. Even though I only understand English, the Dutch sounded so beautiful. I could feel the emotion even in a language I don't know. ❤ I am sending all my prayers to you. Much love to you, beautiful soul!
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Don’t you know, and I’m sure you do, but remember how beautiful you are to your Father who formed you and knew you before you were in your mother’s womb. My heart has issues and I get out of breath. Whatever happens we will be ok. It is not the outside or what goes into the body that defiles a man but that which comes out of him. You show all the time the love that flows out of you the grace and mercy you show to others that don’t deserve it. It’s The Father’s love it’s easy to see. The prince of the power of the air, of this world, causes such suffering. I’m so glad you’ve found someone you are comfortable with to talk to. I’m so glad to see you again, you are beautiful! So what you’re a little thin, I’m a little over weight, makes no difference! Love you, can’t wait to give you a big giant hug one day when we get Home😘.
That is soooooo sweet of you… thank you for your encouragement! 🙏🏻💖
Angelique - I think it's so important and amazing that you are documenting everything... because it is demonstrating how the system fails people, and you are a living example of this. Someone who so desperately needs to be in a hospital and medically monitored, stabilized, safely refed. So many hoops to jump through due to protocols or liabilities or whatever the reason, doesn't matter. You are fighting alone for your life at home. And you will prevail! I believe in you, sending hugs in those fearful moments.💕
Thank you so much Rebecca… 🙏🏻❤️
Your courage and persistence are on another level. 💞
Everyday I hope you are continuing to push yourself towards health in anyway you can
I'm always relieved to see you are still here among us. You need and deserve help ...you deserve to LIVE. 😇🙏😘💕
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You are beautiful inside and out! When you smile you just light up. Your courage's just amazes me. I think of you often and pray for your healing.💕
Thank you… 🙏🏻❤️
Courage isn't the absence of fear, courage is fear walking.
That is beautiful too! 👍🏻❤️
So glad you updated us. ♥️
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It's so good to see you! You do not look horrible. Please always feel you can come on here to talk to us....no matter what is going on. I am so sorry for what you are going through. I hope they get everything worked out soon so you can get the help you need.
I cried when you translated that poem. It truly is beautiful and powerful. I think sometimes we have courage but, we don't recognize it. When my mind says that nothing good can happen, I tell it to go be quiet. Everything good can happen. The fact that you cry when you read that poem tells me that you are filled with hope. Such a small four-letter word. But, sometimes that's all we have to hang on to. I'm so glad that you have someone that you can talk to who understands what you're going through. I think sometimes people underestimate the power of even one person caring. Of course, nobody knows exactly how you feel. We just know we love you. Honestly, if you could only know that we cannot see your face because your spirit is blinding and bright. It's a pure kind of light of gentleness and strength. I just went 2 and a half months without hearing another person's voice. I had no idea that there is a bad effect to that situation. I started to just disassociate from my mind and body. I love you. So many people love you and we are praying for you. My doctor from many years ago used to tell me on the phone, stay strong. Don't keep your light under a basket. I have to keep my light burning so that when I'm needed, I will be ready. I pray good news from the next video. It is good news just to hear your beautiful voice. Love, Carly 💕
I am so glad you have found a dutch therapy person, when you just came on screen I thought you look so much better well rested and your hair looks beautiful, I do hope you can get more help with the system. we shall keep praying for you Lique xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Please, please, please don’t say that you look horrible. It’s the disease that’s horrible. And certainly don’t be ashamed of your looks. It’s very obvious that you are a pretty lady, not only on the inside, but also on the outside (even though I don’t know how you looked before the disease). My heart is with you, as always, just keep going on.
Thank you so much dear… that is so sweet! ❤️
So good to see you! I was really hoping to hear from you! Keep going, Honey. We're all so proud of you.
Thank you… 😘
Its so good to see you and I’m so pleased that people are helping you and you have someone to talk to that really understands. Sending love, hugs and prayers ❤
Thank you Jennifer 🙏🏻❤️
Every time you cross my mind, a post pops up! You look really lovely today.
Same thing I went to RUclips and there was her pic with new video
Dearest Angelique, please DON'T ever apologize for your appearance...you are beautiful inside and out..I'm glad you found a therapist you can talk to...I have been thinking about you everyday...Don't ever ever give up! You are the strongest person that I know...remember how much WE ALL CARE about you! Sending love and hugs to you..♥️♥️♥️🙋♀️🇱🇷.Veronika
you seem way stronger now, rooting for you! congrats and keep going
Your updates are not discouraging they give me hope and I see your beauty, incredible loving heart and courageous spirit. I think of and pray for you every day and wish I could be there to hug you in person. Sending you so much love dear friend. ❤❤❤❤❤
So glad to hear from you love💜💜 you're truly glowing in this video despite it all! Please keep hope. It's going to be okay sweetheart.
Thank you… 🙏🏻❤️
You look nice. Best wishes as usual 🌏🏵️🐾🐄🐦🦋💜🌿
You do not look horrible, on the contrary, you are beautiful! Your light shines forth through your form and makes you even more beautiful. I understand "falling through the cracks" in the healthcare system. I live in the US and healthcare is all about money and insurance is very expensive here. I am not old enough to get Medicare which is for Senior Citizens 65 and over. I am 63 and I can't afford health insurance. I am glad to see that you are still here and hope and pray that soon you will get the care you need. You have a lot of courage💜
Thank you so much for sharing this! Am with you too dear… happy you are here ❤️
Beauty comes from within. Yours shines through. I'm sorry for the frustration you're feeling trying to get help. So glad you have found a therapist that you like and hopefully trust. Praying that she is able to give you the help you need. God bless you sweet girl. 💗
Thank you so much Mary! 🙏🏻❤️
That poem is so true, Angelique, beautiful written, and so needy to many of us ❤️ I often wonder: How did I managed to go through my life? The answer is: Listening to that voice again and again and follow up on it. Giving it place in my brain and heart! Well, my life has been in danger many times, depression, migrene, other healthissues, many years struggling walking, Yes, caurage has never left me!
Now I have comfort in, and hope that you will get the help you so deperatly need! You haven’t given it all up, sis! Although your pain and the struggle every day and night is horrible! ❤️
And know this: You are a beautiful woman! 👍🤗❤️ Keep going, Angie! 🙏
Thank you dear, that is so sweet… 💖
Very kind and well expressed. I have hope for you and the struggles you have been through as well. In times when we are being vulnerable and sharing deep pain, it is so beautiful to watch all the helpers, the loving souls come forward and are offering a myriad of life preservers.. it really restores faith that the world still has so many beautiful people left in it.. even in the height of division. Sending love and strength to everyone needing it.💜
What a great reading on Courage! I needed to hear that, today! Much love to you, Lique!
Good to see you Lique! You dont have to apologize for your appearance. You also dont have to feel bad for posting when things aren't going so well for you. We are here for your journey and we wish to offer you encouragement and strength 💕🙏🏽
If it makes you feel better, I am also not doing so well. I caught C**ID this week, my first time having it. I haven't been sick from a cold or flu in almost a decade. I'm also suffering from PMDD symptoms so my hormones are all over the place.
I'd love to see a video with you and your friend! I think it would be good for you too, to have her there as support and to not feel the pressure to "perform" for the channel. Brighter days are coming for both of us🕊
Thank you so much lovely! Am with you too… sounds like a struggle indeed. Really wish you a quick and full recovery. Take good care of yourself 🙏🏻
And thanks again for being there for me… ❤️
Oh sweetie - I wish I could reach through and hug you from Virginia USA. I donated to your GoFund me and will try and do more in the future. I can only imagine what a nightmare this has been. I was one of the lucky ones - resources, treatment, family & friends - it saved my life more than once in my journey through my eating disorder. Even with that it was brutal. Your courage to get up every day and keep going is changing lives and perspectives. Not one ounce of your pain is wasted, God has and will use it all for good. Having said that I pray you will have relief and help quickly. Every day you stay alive you have a purpose and one small right choice can lead to another to sustain you while more help comes available. It is absolutely horrible how limited effective treatment for eating disorders is - especially for those who need it the most. Thank you for not hiding and for being vulnerable and honest. Your story can make a difference to raise awareness of the struggle and what it really looks like raw and uncensored. You may not feel like it but you show the kind of courage spoken of in that poem every day and every time you come on here to open yourself up even when social media is not always the kindest venue. You have my prayers and support! Keep going, as I said, one small right choice at a time.
You. Can. Do. This!
Thank you so much Stephanie! So thankful for your understanding and kind reaction… and SO HAPPY for you that you got through your own huge challenges! That is such a blessing 🙏🏻
Hug back to you ❤️
Great to see you! So wonderful you've found a therapist and still fighting. Some days the best we can do is endure the hours. Some days we can fight for healing. Your spirit is strong, Just don't give up! 🙏🧡
Thank you… 🙏🏻❤️
I hope you know I really do still support you and want you to get better, Lique. I know it’s hard to keep up motivation and trying to take care of yourself. I’m glad you’re still around, and I’m happy you’re still looking into stuff and definitely happy to hear about the ED specialist you are now speaking with. Keep going strong. 💕
Thank you sweetheart 💖
I've been so worried for you! And pray for you often! So glad to see a video up!
Thank you dear! 🙏🏻❤️
Hi Angelique, you look very nice today! Lovely poem. Please don't ever be hard on yourself, because you have way more courage than most people. Look out on your horizons, and know there is a better future, that will come your way. Be empowered. You have a beautiful soul, and God is with you, and so are your faithful subs. I asked the Lord, to look out after our sweet Dutch girl. Blessings and good hope.🙏❤️🌹🌹🌹🌅
You look very beautiful here! I'm so happy to hear this update xo
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Lique, you are beautiful and you are worthy of recovery. I'm so happy for you that you are in therapy. After all, anorexia is a mental illness that manifests physical symptoms - it began in the mind and hopefully repairing that will send you on your way to a sustained recovery. As always, I wish you all the best.
🤗💞💕 Hugs and hearts.
Thank you dear! Big hug back 💖
stay strong, Lique, please stay strong!!
Would love to see a video with you and your friend. Great idea! And I think you look great. Love your hair down and that shade of blue on you❤
Bless you hunni, I have worried and searched on youtube for you this week, its so good you are still fighting on. "it is always darkest before dawn" .. thinking of you, hugs xxx
Thank you dear 🙏🏻💖
You are a beautiful person inside and out! Keep fighting and dont give up. Something amazing is waiting for you, I am sure of this.
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You are precious. And your sweetness is from the inside out. You are lovely inspite of your trials. Your challenges are so difficult and I have great compassion for you. I will continue to pray that things will turn around for you. God bless
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You are beautiful, inspirational and that poem was written for you! God bless, you are in my prayers today.
Thank you dear… 😘
Hello Lique I know it so frustrating and hard. Try to hang in there. I'm go very glad that you see a good psychologist. Take the help as it comes. Big hugs 🤗🤗
Thank you Stacia 🙏🏻❤️
I will always be here, as I have been from the beginning. Wonderful news about the therapy! And from someone who has had an ED and all. Wonderful and powerful reading today. Please keep hope and faith alive Angelique. Love you, from Australia. XOXOX
Glad to see this comment from you… have been wondering how you are as we have not heard from you in ages….
So happy to hear from you too! Keep thinking of you too sweetheart… 😘
Your breathing...your heart ...your pain....your body is telling you need food....eat every two hours even it's a high protein shake with vitamins and minerals. KEEP IT DOWN.! Scream yell and shout at doctors if you have to .....to get them to help you. Scream for helps from doctors I n another country....whatever it takes.....BUT YOU GOT TO EAT.!
You have the courage to get through everything with God. He is walking with you in this journey. You are truly blessed to share your story. So many people suffer from a eating disorder and hearing what you are going through really helps other! Courage is great! Has your friend recovered? What is she doing to get by? She understands more about your journey so you must get support from her. Would love you to do a q&a with your friend. Prayers always!
Thank you Elizabeth. Will do the Q&A 👍🏻😘
Come on Lique , you can do this . Keep fighting and hang in there till you can get to your treatment . You seem so determined and focused I feel positive for you . Would love to see a video with your best friend .🌷
Hello, my friend. Thank you for using your energy to let us know you are here. Just wanted to say, though I hope you will be here for years to come yet, that I wish you would not say or believe you look terrible. You lol beautiful because your beauty shines through, even in your weakened state. To look at you is a blessing as we see our friend and her fighting spirit and sweet voice. Much love to you.
Mel
O Mel… you are so sweet… thank you! 💖
Beautiful Angelique 💕 prayers for your healing and may God Bless you and keep you safe.
Thank you Karen 🙏🏻💖
Video with your friend sounds interesting! No, you don't look horrible at all! Much more animated, and your energy seems more open
I’ve been here since the start and hoping so bad for your recovery. You really do look so pretty. And the poem. Im going to make a print of it for my wall. YES to the Q&A ❤
So happy to hear Kelli! 😘
Hello my Sweet Little Sister Angelique, I just wanted to let you know that I pray for your recovery and a beautiful future every day. You can heal. You can get better. You can be well and strong and healthy. Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit and God the Father are with you. Keep fighting the good fight girl! 😇💝💖❤💝💖❤🙏
I would love to see a video with you and your friend. My question is: when you are home by yourself do you wish you had more company or is it sometimes easier to not be the center of focus? ❤
You don't look horrible - you hair is looking lovely after being washed :) The question I have for you is whether you have a daily calorie goal, ie. 2500 per day, and whether you try your hardest to meet it? I hope you get a place in a hospital as soon as possible, but you really need to commit every single day to eating more because at the end of the day it is all that will save you.
She simply will not reply to legitimate questions like this
Many of us have donated, supported & asked questions. After being a nurse for 25 years, I'm burnt-out of excuses. Hope Lique does the Q/A and stays at the facility this time, 🙏 Lots of people care about her well-being.
@@AlexEs63 And let's be 100% honest; ALOT of people are checking in to see if she's still alive. ( Then,to cover their relief; they say trite garbage like ' you look better/ good/ beautiful).I hope Lique improves,but I don't think she's as invested in her life as some of her followers...🥺
I’m so very sorry you’re going through this, please remember you are loved so much by so many people. Don’t let go of hope. You will be free of this illness one day soon. You have to believe that too. Think of just 1 thing to do each day. It doesn’t matter what that 1 thing is. Commit to yourself you’ll do 1 nice thing for yourself. Then do it. Don’t let any kind of excuses get in your mind, if it’s having a cup or tea coffee having a shower or doing some washing just do it. You deserve to have a good life and to feel very proud of yourself. You deserve to love yourself the way others see you and love you. Please stay strong and believe things will come good for you. Hope on to that hope it’ll keep you going. ❤
Thank you so much dear… 🙏🏻❤️
@@liquefaith You are very welcome. You can do this. Just keep the faith in yourself and whoever you pray to. 💕
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What a beautiful poem it breaks my heart to see u cry I am always praying lovely ❤❤❤❤
Thank you… 🙏🏻💖
You look so beautiful in this video. I’m sorry you are still struggling. I still cannot understand why you have such a hard time receiving help. I’m glad you have a therapist to talk too. You asked about us liking to see a video with your friend. YES!! I’ll watch any video you want to share. I continue to pray daily for you. Take care and NEVER GIVE UP!!!🙏❤️🙏❤️
Thank you so much dear… 🙏🏻❤️
Sie sieht aus wie der Tod persönlich.
So good to see you! 🤗🤗 and never apologise - you always radiate beauty and grace ((hugs)). You always have the loveliest fashions too. Thank you for that poem! 💗 I'm so glad you're speaking with an ED specialist therapist and getting your psychiatrist to help you navigate the "system" to get care. Maybe (and with God/Universe's help) you can have an expectation of, "well they have all these rules and blockages and nonsense.. but I'm going to get what I need no matter what!" I love the idea of QA with your friend. A question could be, "What were some of the things that helped you recover yourself?"
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I was so glad to see you.i was so worried.i pray for you all the time..youre so beautiful inside and out.i hope you find the help you need.sending love from 🇨🇦
Q&A for Best Friend: "Have you asked Angelique to speak to a gastroenterologist about getting an ileostomy because of her damaged intestines?"
I do not think you look horrible. When we are ill our body shows it, that is understood. Wonderful to feel clean and I am glad of that. Courage. I needed that reading and I so thank you, Love, from America.
Very welcome Deborah! Hug to you too dear 😘
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See you!! I’m sorry things continue to be rough😢 but we are all cheering for you!!❤
Thank you for the update. You continue in my prayers.
Thank you Kathleen 😘
I'm so happy to see you! Please keep fighting, you are very much worth it and you mean a lot to many many people. You are beautiful inside and out. Gentle hugs and love to you!
Thank you so much dear… ❤️🙏🏻
All us subscribers who have been here from the beginning miss you so much!
Staying in the problem and not changing.
Lique, your hair looks beautiful especially with the light shining on it, all golden and pretty. Good to hear that you have a therapist and that she has recovered so can relate to your struggles. It must have been so nice to shower and feel all fresh again. I don't know if you have Lush in Holland but I love hot baths with all their nice smeling bath bombs. Also, someone on here suggested drinking meal replacement drinks like Fortisip and Ensure which sounded like a great idea. How about those? ❤
Thank you dear! I know lush and love it too! 🙂 But I don’t have a bath here 😏
Yes, the replacement drinks I have too. But my body doesn’t respond well on it 😳 most of them contain dairy and liquid sugar. Which causes intestine and hyper/hypo issues. I keep trying though, also trying different brands and versions. Thanks fir the tip! 👍🏻😘
@@liquefaith keep trying..there’s some dairy free ones available any you may need to manage the hypos/hypers with timing and testing to manage sugars
@@liquefaith I think Me Now suggested it before but you could make a list of all things you'd like to do that your ED has deprived you of like hot bubble baths, outdoor activities and other things that you enjoy and use it as motivation to get better. When I had meal replacements drinks for crohns disease, my dietician got me Nutricia Elemental 028 shakes which are dairy free as I've been vegan for years. They have "sugar flavouring" in and I've no idea what they mean by sugar flavouring?!! They are mainly for crohns and similar things but they might be suitable, I don't know♥
Please stop saying you're horrible , because you are not . You are a beautiful intelligent woman .
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Hi Lique!😃 I think about you every day & you are always in my prayers. I love you my friend!!😘💗
While you're waiting...maybe it would be a good idea to increase your intake daily of food/fluids/ supplements. Your heart is struggling along with the rest of your body.There are non-dairy nutritional supplements; IF you choose to ingest them.Any recovery starts with you; whether in OR outpatient.Meanwhile it's very difficult to think/ function whilst your organs & body is slowly eating itself. Your brain needs nutrition- as you KNOW. So does EVERY organ in your body.I hope you choose life Lique 💜.
This is really important because everyday more damage is done..in my case I had started eating fully in an Ed unit when a nutritional deficiency caused spinal cord damage ..for others it’s cardiac problems..you get no warning..you just wake up one morning and it happens
@@meherenow Yes,I have a permanently damaged heart. I battled Anorexia for decades too.The risks of damage/ death only increases with age. And YES,I agree- you NEVER know what will happen OR when.( hope you are doing okay-ish now💜)
Yes, Angelique please listen to the advice of these two ladies who have shared your experience. Angelique, life is beautiful if you know where to look. One of your online supporters said that when she was recovering she made herself eat one tablespoon of full-fat yogurt every hour. That's how she started her recovery journey. Angelique, if you choose to try this, just think. Okay, this tablespoon is for my beloved best friend(_______) who would miss me terribly. This tablespoon is in tribute to my favorite poet (_______) who has contributed beauty to my life, This tablespoon is for Vermeer, This tablespoon is for Rembrandt, This tablespoon is for Frans Hals, This tablespoon is for Rachel Ruysch, This tablespoon is for Willem Half, This tablespoon is for my beloved Mother. This tablespoon is for Jesus Christ, my savior and redeemer. This can be an act of gratitude, an act of worship, an act of faith, an act of willpower, an act of self-determination. We all love you! Just do it Angelique, for all of us!!! Show us all how strong you really are! 💪🧠🫀🫁🦴 😇💝❤💖💝❤💖🙏👩🦼👩🦽🧎♀👩🦯🚶♀🏃♀🏃♀🏃♀💃💃💃⛹♀⛹♀⛹♀🚴♀🚴♀🚴♀🏋♀🏋♀🤸♀🤸♀🤸♀🤽♀🤽♀🤾♀🚵♀🚣♀🏄♀🏌♀🧗♀🏃♀💃🏃♀💃🏃♀
Angelique, you’re touching so many lives with your videos. Thank you for being so vulnerable. Being in your position must be scary, but I know you have strong faith and there really is nothing to fear, after this life passes. But you will continue on, because God is not done with you yet, on Earth. Things are going to get better for you, just hang on. ❤
Thank you so much for your encouragement! 🙏🏻💖
Although I agree with people saying you are a beautiful human being your appearance in this video (and what you said) made me worry. To be honest I think in this video you look closer to dying than ever before. Some people wrote they think you look better and of course I wish them to be right and me to be mistaken. But I'm honestly more worried you might leave than I was ever before 😞
In what universe did you think this was an appropriate thing to say? Some of you boggle the mind.
Completely agree. It's natural for people to try to cheer someone up and say they look better etc but sadly Lique does look extremely frail.Its going to be that way until Lique is much further along in recovery and it's understandable to be very worried, I am too.
@@NicoleLaurenEsq Maybe she was being HONEST. Unlike so many other followers who choose flattery & delusion over REALITY.
Someone who is gravely I’ll doesn’t look beautiful..someone who self harms their body continually by not nourishing it also isn’t beautiful. You can be compassionate about someone’s struggle and empathetic about what they face everyday without needing to compliment them. It doesn’t take away the struggle to be told you are beautiful…it may help to say you hear their pain, that you are here to support and encourage and be a witness to their journey out of respect for their humanity
@@meherenow I wish I could like your comment 1000 times. What you say is so true.
G-d gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers. It's so hard but look at you doing amazing. I want you to take a moment to recognize your strength.
It's so hard, but keep fighting, you're doing a fabulous job.
Please don't apologize - your beauty radiates even during this terrible struggle. I wish you could see yourself as we do 💓 Yes please to a Q&A. My question to your friend: What do you wish people understood better about Lique?
Thank you dear… this is a very good question! Will put it in the Q&A 👍🏻😘
Good to see you, Lique! You're looking lively.
The poem was beautiful just like you. Praying for God to open the door where he wants you to go. It’s not over until you’re home.
❤️
I think having your friend come on with you would be great
I will Pat! 😘
My dear friend, you are so strong. I love your hair down and you always look beautiful to me. I'm glad you're getting therapy now. Please continue to fight. I have faith that you can win this battle. What are some ways we can help you?
The poem was beautiful. Thank you for sharing! I’m sure we all can find words within it that resonate deeply with us. ❤️
I’ve got a question for a future Q&A. What are you most looking forward to being able to do when you are well enough to do it?
I looked up kasekuchen, looking for a recipe to make it and try, and it sounds divine. I hope you are able to find some the next time you visit Germany!
Much love. ❤️
Thank you for sharing this! It makes me smile 🙂
Hug to you 😘
So happy to hear you and know your somewhat better .... You look wonderful. 💙 👼 🌹 please keep us updated.
Yes! MAke the video with your Friend! Great idea!
She's not better. She's untreated and fading away.
@@jennbeth1 so true. I wish her the best. If she was my daughter… I mean.. My heart breaks for her. I just want to see her walk around the room and laughing and enjoying. ❤
@@jennbeth1 Exactly. People commenting on her looks should just STOP. It's okay to see the kind/ beautiful soul within; but if these people were sitting across from Lique they would be very concerned. Lique is starving and if people really cared they'd stop deluding themselves. The Anorexic part of Liques brain is thriving on comments about her image.Look back 9 months ago- is there REALLY any difference? Lique needs to take advantage of the therapist she is seeing & build strategies to fight the Anorexia so she can consume more and save her body.
Actor Anthony Hopkins once said "JUST EAT THE CAKE,BECAUSE NON OF US WILL GET OUT OF HERE ALIVE".
Lique, It is soooo good to hear from you!!!!
Thank you Portia! Happy to hear from you too 💖
Your looking well today dear,like your hair down. You've been very patient, waiting. For treatment. Don't give up🌹🙏❤🤗
I'm so happy to see you today 😁..and your hair looks beautiful 😍..so glad you are getting some therapy by a Dutch therapist, I pray to god source that this brings you healing . Bless you 🙏
Thank you dear 🙏🏻❤️
So good to see your update! A relief actually.
I was moved when I read a book and this jumped out at me and I wanted to share it with you, it was regarding
a drawing worth some $30 million. It was damaged
"no one suggested that since the drawing was now damaged, it should be discarded. Work to restore the nearly 500-year-old masterpiece began immediately. Why? Because it was precious in the eyes of art lovers. Are you not worth more than a chalk and charcoal drawing? In God’s eyes you certainly are-however damaged you may be...."
We can easily look at ourselves like a damaged painting but in actual fact we are beautiful.
That is so beautiful… thank you for sharing this! ❤️
You look beautiful, I've been following you for awhile. I'm from the United States and I feel bad because I don't understand all the processes and procedures you have to go through to get treatment. It seems so difficult, I feel your pain and struggle. ❤️🫶 it breaks my heart. Hear my Dr or therapist jut calls the place they want to send me to, sometimes there is a small waiting list, just a few days. It used to gave me time to get ready and pack.
I pray that you get the proper treatment as soon as possible. Best of luck sweetie, keep your positive spirit up. 🥰💜
That is so sweet of you Colleen… thank you so much 🙏🏻❤️
I would like to see a Q&A with your best friend.
I saw a video of your fridge review done by Goatis another RUclipsr.
Glad you are keeping your chin up. Get better soon
Please keep up hope. You life is worth saving
I know you may not like me much lique, but I want to say I truly believe you can do it and survive this 🙏 know you can do it, you have to keep pushing through and pushing yourself to eat more then you did the day before, that's how I started, at first it was difficult to do 1000 calories a day, then I moved up to 1500 the next week, then 2000 the week after, initially when you increase it's very difficult but slowly increasing each week eventually till you can get to 3k-6k (it sucks for us anorexics 🙃 that it has to be that much when we hate eating...) But after a while now I've been able to enjoy eating again, and be hungry on my own, and I started to not even worry about the food after challenging myself to eat foods I was worried to eat before. You can do it I know we will see you survive this
Dear, I truly appreciate you just being yourself and stating what you think. And I admire your enormous courage! So happy for you that you already made it this far…
But I must admit I still think I need medical help to get out of this deep hole… 🫤
Thank you for being here. Never feel unwelcome! I don’t judge you, even though we may not agree 😘
@@liquefaithI agree that you need medical help to get out of this hole. Refeeding is dangerous too…esp in the state you are in. Prayers to you, Angelique… you are beautiful inside and out and you have immense courage and determination 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
@@kecrn4132 refeeding syndrome is managed by blood testing which can be done as an outpatient if necessary
@@liquefaith I do think you need medical help to, I always have been on the side that you need medical help and hoping that you can get into a treatment center or hospital soon, it was just a suggestion to help you survive until a bed is available