This is a hard song to hear and feel the raw emotion. I've been listening to Toby Mac since DC Talk's first album in the 80's. Toby has lost several close family and friends in the past couple years. I saw an interview where he said had a really hard time but it drew him closer to God and he actually spent the time to read the entire Bible cover to cover and it really helped him. It's the beauty that rises from the ashes so to speak.
💔 This song made me think of my brother, Shaun. We lost him just one month after his cancer diagnosis. He had no warning signs of the cancer. Coughed from smoking weed and broke his neck and didn't even know it. Continued working until he ended up bedridden and constipated, so he went in to ER. That's when they told him he had tumors in his neck that had weakened the bones and that's what caused him to break his neck just by coughing. Medical transfer wasn't an option since he wasn't an Iowa resident, and he could only lay flat. He couldn't sit up at all. So I traded my car for a van. I always told myself I'd never have a van! But I did that for my brother to get him up here. ANYTHING FOR MY LOVED ONES! 💯 My other brother took the back seats out and we put a twin mattress back there with pillows and blankets. My mom and I drove straight to Louisiana to get him from the hospital there and then back to Iowa to check him in to the hospital up here. Did not stop at all! It was hard because we hadn't seen him in years and then we got him back like that, just for him to die so soon after. But I got some good laughs (those deep belly laughs, tears, can't breathe) with my brother like old times and we made the best of the time we had left. My birthday will always be the day my brother came home to die. That was the day he came home to be on hospice. 💔💔💔 He was only responsive the first couple days. He died 6 days after he came to our home. I have flashbacks of him dying. That shit was traumatic for me. My mom and brother didn't want to see him die. I didn't either, but I promised him I'd be there holding his hand til the end. And I was. Just before he took his last breath, he opened his eyes and looked over at me. 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 Something that replays in my head all the time. There are some other details, but I'll spare you all of that... It was very traumatic for me. And I think that's something my mom and brother don't get. They weren't there. They didn't see what I had to see. But I wouldn't choose otherwise because I wanted to be there for my brother til the end, no matter what. My 6'5" 400 pound brother... He was big and tough, but he was a softie inside, and he was scared of what was to come. He would reach out for my hand and I'd just hold his hand as long as he wanted me to. 😭😭😭 Still doesn't seem real. I miss our GIF wars.
@Denaek I am so sorry for the loss of your brother. Believe me I know exactly how you feel. I lost me sweet sister to that Damn disease. She fought it for 18 years. I fought with that precious angel every day of it. She got it back 5 times!!! The first remission came back 9 years after her breast was removed. We thought that she beat it. No,,, 4 more times it came back until the 4th and final time took my beautiful sister. She was my best friend not just a sister. I always looked up to her. I was with her till the end. The nurse said after her last big shot of morphine, she would not wake up. I went home to grab a couple hours sleep when the call came. I ran to the hospital and seconds before she left us, so I didn't get to say my final goodbye. I have one very important gift from her. When I went to go home, I told her that I loved her and she opened her eyes and told me she loved me too. Your story about what you went through is so touching. Right down to the final look he gave you. When I went to her side, she was looking out of the window and her eyes were still open and she had the most incredible relieved smile on her face. I too replay that look as well. I am truly sorry that your brother was not given the help he so desperately needed. The health care system up here in Canada is awful too. It is so horrible that they can pick and choose who will get the best care and in your brothers case how they would not help for the stupid reason of not being a resident. Sickening, just f'ing sickening. My sister left this world painlessly back in 2010. I miss her every day. Even though they say time heals wounds, it still hurts more that I can express. I'm sure you are going through the same feelings. Again I am so very sorry for the loss of your brother. Try to remember this,,, energy never dies, so your brother is with you all the time. Take care and God bless you and your brother. From one broken hearted sister to another.😪😪💔💔😪😪
@@wendyb5528 I am so sorry for the loss of your sister. 💔💔💔🤗🤗🤗😭😭😭🤧 Thank you for taking the time out of your day to even read my comment and to write a response. That means a lot to me. 🌺🤗 I can't believe people fight cancer for that many years! Anytime someone even mentions a loved one having cancer or has just been diagnosed, it makes my eyes flood with tears because I know what's to come, what might happen, and all the pain and suffering the entire family (and friends) will go through. It's exhausting for everyone. Your sister was one strong woman, I'll tell you that! To go through that for 18 years, 5 times is crazy! My brother was my best friend as well. We saw eye to eye on so many things, he always had my back, was my big teddy bear, and he was the person I could just be my dorky/goofy self around, unapologetically! All we did was laugh! What a special moment with your sister. And for her to be looking outside peacefully is so beautiful. Touching. I smile at the fact that she looked to nature in that moment. I would have done the same thing. I know it must be hard not to have that final goodbye, but I believe sometimes they don't want us to see them go because maybe it's too hard for them. I've heard stories of them saying, "just go home and get some rest" or "go get something to eat" and they pass while their loved ones are away. Sometimes goodbyes are too hard. It's not goodbye anyway, it's "see you later." Her opening her eyes and saying she loves you was exactly that! 🤗❤️ It was an emotional rollercoaster trying to figure out how we were going to get my brother from Louisiana to Iowa, when he could only lay flat. And him being 6'5" just made things more challenging. I'm glad things worked out how they did because I can't imagine if he had died in Louisiana with no family. Sure, he had his boss who was like an uncle to him and his 2 roommates, but it's not the same as being with your biological family. When we got to the hospital in Louisiana to pick him up, the relief on his face was priceless! He cried and we cried. The entire hospital staff was mind blown at all of our efforts to get him to Iowa. They said they had never had anyone medically transport a patient by a van like we did. Well, they hadn't met the Jarvis family yet! 😉 We do WHATEVER we can for each other by any means necessary! I remember getting him into the van and the medical staff was like, "you DO realize you could end up paralyzed by being transported like this, right?" My brother said, "Yup." They were just mind blown and they said, "Ok then. We will let the hospital in Iowa City know all about your case, fax the paperwork and medical records over, and let them know you're headed that way. Good luck to you and safe travels!" We got him up to Iowa City and the medical staff there was also mind blown at the entire situation starting from before his diagnosis. You could just see the passion and curiosity in their eyes when they read over the papers and medical records. This guy was so young, maybe mid 20s. He said with urgency, "I have to get an entire team together to work up a plan, so we will get you transferred to your own room where you can finally relax, and tomorrow, we will hopefully have a plan figured out for you." The news kept getting worse the more scans and testing he had done. The cancer was literally everywhere. They couldn't figure out where it originated from, so they had only ASSUMED it was kidney cancer that spread because that's where the biggest tumors were. It was in his kidneys, back, neck, lungs, brain, and bone marrow. He had a rare gene mutation that causes people to get cancer at a young age and die from it by age 60. It's hereditary, and I believe it came from our dad because he had died of lung cancer at age 59 just 2 years prior. My dad died April 15, 2020 and my brother died June 2, 2022. I believe that even when it's been 10+ years, it will still hurt the same. Hard to believe my dad died almost 4 years ago already. My heart goes out to you because I know what you're going through as well. I am not the same person I was before my dad died. Even more so after my brother died. In many ways, I am a better person, but it also goes the other way as well. Grief is tough and I just have to remember to give myself some grace because there is no timeline on grief. It's for life! There are no rules to grief. We all deal with it in our own ways, and that's ok. Some days I am consumed by my grief, and other days I'm ok. I just let myself feel EVERYTHING and I let it all out. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. "But there was no need to be ashamed of tears, for tears bore witness that a man had the greatest of courage, the courage to suffer." -- Viktor E. Frankl "It is the capacity to feel consuming grief and pain and despair that also allows me to embrace love and joy and beauty with my whole heart. I must let it all in." -- Anna White "How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard." -- Winnie the Pooh "It's an honor to be in grief. It's an honor to feel that much, to have loved that much." -- Elizabeth Gilbert
Hes talking about his young son who died..i think he o'd ....😢 Please react to Toby Mac 's I Just Need You ..official video...i want to know the meaning of the briefcase in the car..would like to know your take on it..please🙏💞✌️
This is a hard song to hear and feel the raw emotion. I've been listening to Toby Mac since DC Talk's first album in the 80's. Toby has lost several close family and friends in the past couple years. I saw an interview where he said had a really hard time but it drew him closer to God and he actually spent the time to read the entire Bible cover to cover and it really helped him. It's the beauty that rises from the ashes so to speak.
💔 This song made me think of my brother, Shaun. We lost him just one month after his cancer diagnosis. He had no warning signs of the cancer. Coughed from smoking weed and broke his neck and didn't even know it. Continued working until he ended up bedridden and constipated, so he went in to ER. That's when they told him he had tumors in his neck that had weakened the bones and that's what caused him to break his neck just by coughing. Medical transfer wasn't an option since he wasn't an Iowa resident, and he could only lay flat. He couldn't sit up at all. So I traded my car for a van. I always told myself I'd never have a van! But I did that for my brother to get him up here. ANYTHING FOR MY LOVED ONES! 💯 My other brother took the back seats out and we put a twin mattress back there with pillows and blankets. My mom and I drove straight to Louisiana to get him from the hospital there and then back to Iowa to check him in to the hospital up here. Did not stop at all! It was hard because we hadn't seen him in years and then we got him back like that, just for him to die so soon after. But I got some good laughs (those deep belly laughs, tears, can't breathe) with my brother like old times and we made the best of the time we had left. My birthday will always be the day my brother came home to die. That was the day he came home to be on hospice. 💔💔💔 He was only responsive the first couple days. He died 6 days after he came to our home. I have flashbacks of him dying. That shit was traumatic for me. My mom and brother didn't want to see him die. I didn't either, but I promised him I'd be there holding his hand til the end. And I was. Just before he took his last breath, he opened his eyes and looked over at me. 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 Something that replays in my head all the time. There are some other details, but I'll spare you all of that... It was very traumatic for me. And I think that's something my mom and brother don't get. They weren't there. They didn't see what I had to see. But I wouldn't choose otherwise because I wanted to be there for my brother til the end, no matter what. My 6'5" 400 pound brother... He was big and tough, but he was a softie inside, and he was scared of what was to come. He would reach out for my hand and I'd just hold his hand as long as he wanted me to. 😭😭😭 Still doesn't seem real. I miss our GIF wars.
@Denaek I am so sorry for the loss of your brother. Believe me I know exactly how you feel. I lost me sweet sister to that Damn disease. She fought it for 18 years. I fought with that precious angel every day of it. She got it back 5 times!!! The first remission came back 9 years after her breast was removed. We thought that she beat it. No,,, 4 more times it came back until the 4th and final time took my beautiful sister.
She was my best friend not just a sister. I always looked up to her. I was with her till the end. The nurse said after her last big shot of morphine, she would not wake up.
I went home to grab a couple hours sleep when the call came. I ran to the hospital and seconds before she left us, so I didn't get to say my final goodbye. I have one very important gift from her. When I went to go home, I told her that I loved her and she opened her eyes and told me she loved me too.
Your story about what you went through is so touching. Right down to the final look he gave you. When I went to her side, she was looking out of the window and her eyes were still open and she had the most incredible relieved smile on her face. I too replay that look as well.
I am truly sorry that your brother was not given the help he so desperately needed. The health care system up here in Canada is awful too. It is so horrible that they can pick and choose who will get the best care and in your brothers case how they would not help for the stupid reason of not being a resident. Sickening, just f'ing sickening.
My sister left this world painlessly back in 2010. I miss her every day. Even though they say time heals wounds, it still hurts more that I can express. I'm sure you are going through the same feelings.
Again I am so very sorry for the loss of your brother. Try to remember this,,, energy never dies, so your brother is with you all the time. Take care and God bless you and your brother.
From one broken hearted sister to another.😪😪💔💔😪😪
@@wendyb5528 I am so sorry for the loss of your sister. 💔💔💔🤗🤗🤗😭😭😭🤧
Thank you for taking the time out of your day to even read my comment and to write a response. That means a lot to me. 🌺🤗
I can't believe people fight cancer for that many years! Anytime someone even mentions a loved one having cancer or has just been diagnosed, it makes my eyes flood with tears because I know what's to come, what might happen, and all the pain and suffering the entire family (and friends) will go through. It's exhausting for everyone. Your sister was one strong woman, I'll tell you that! To go through that for 18 years, 5 times is crazy! My brother was my best friend as well. We saw eye to eye on so many things, he always had my back, was my big teddy bear, and he was the person I could just be my dorky/goofy self around, unapologetically! All we did was laugh!
What a special moment with your sister. And for her to be looking outside peacefully is so beautiful. Touching. I smile at the fact that she looked to nature in that moment. I would have done the same thing. I know it must be hard not to have that final goodbye, but I believe sometimes they don't want us to see them go because maybe it's too hard for them. I've heard stories of them saying, "just go home and get some rest" or "go get something to eat" and they pass while their loved ones are away. Sometimes goodbyes are too hard. It's not goodbye anyway, it's "see you later." Her opening her eyes and saying she loves you was exactly that! 🤗❤️
It was an emotional rollercoaster trying to figure out how we were going to get my brother from Louisiana to Iowa, when he could only lay flat. And him being 6'5" just made things more challenging. I'm glad things worked out how they did because I can't imagine if he had died in Louisiana with no family. Sure, he had his boss who was like an uncle to him and his 2 roommates, but it's not the same as being with your biological family. When we got to the hospital in Louisiana to pick him up, the relief on his face was priceless! He cried and we cried. The entire hospital staff was mind blown at all of our efforts to get him to Iowa. They said they had never had anyone medically transport a patient by a van like we did. Well, they hadn't met the Jarvis family yet! 😉 We do WHATEVER we can for each other by any means necessary! I remember getting him into the van and the medical staff was like, "you DO realize you could end up paralyzed by being transported like this, right?" My brother said, "Yup." They were just mind blown and they said, "Ok then. We will let the hospital in Iowa City know all about your case, fax the paperwork and medical records over, and let them know you're headed that way. Good luck to you and safe travels!" We got him up to Iowa City and the medical staff there was also mind blown at the entire situation starting from before his diagnosis. You could just see the passion and curiosity in their eyes when they read over the papers and medical records. This guy was so young, maybe mid 20s. He said with urgency, "I have to get an entire team together to work up a plan, so we will get you transferred to your own room where you can finally relax, and tomorrow, we will hopefully have a plan figured out for you." The news kept getting worse the more scans and testing he had done. The cancer was literally everywhere. They couldn't figure out where it originated from, so they had only ASSUMED it was kidney cancer that spread because that's where the biggest tumors were. It was in his kidneys, back, neck, lungs, brain, and bone marrow. He had a rare gene mutation that causes people to get cancer at a young age and die from it by age 60. It's hereditary, and I believe it came from our dad because he had died of lung cancer at age 59 just 2 years prior. My dad died April 15, 2020 and my brother died June 2, 2022.
I believe that even when it's been 10+ years, it will still hurt the same. Hard to believe my dad died almost 4 years ago already. My heart goes out to you because I know what you're going through as well. I am not the same person I was before my dad died. Even more so after my brother died. In many ways, I am a better person, but it also goes the other way as well. Grief is tough and I just have to remember to give myself some grace because there is no timeline on grief. It's for life! There are no rules to grief. We all deal with it in our own ways, and that's ok. Some days I am consumed by my grief, and other days I'm ok. I just let myself feel EVERYTHING and I let it all out. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.
"But there was no need to be ashamed of tears, for tears bore witness that a man had the greatest of courage, the courage to suffer." -- Viktor E. Frankl
"It is the capacity to feel consuming grief and pain and despair that also allows me to embrace love and joy and beauty with my whole heart. I must let it all in." -- Anna White
"How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard." -- Winnie the Pooh
"It's an honor to be in grief. It's an honor to feel that much, to have loved that much." -- Elizabeth Gilbert
Great song.😢 Great reaction Cuzzo ❤
💔such a deep song. God Bless Toby Mac. Thank you Sceez!
Hes talking about his young son who died..i think he o'd ....😢 Please react to Toby Mac 's I Just Need You ..official video...i want to know the meaning of the briefcase in the car..would like to know your take on it..please🙏💞✌️
It was about his son. Do the live "I just need you" from Denver.
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😭this got me. I lost my husband and it's s constant battle....
React to many of the new Larry Bird videos. You're a hoops guy, I think... Or maybe not anymore??
Okay maybe I shouldn’t listen to this one……makes me think about my son