MY LIFE IS LONELY, WORTHLESS, AND SAD.

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  • Опубликовано: 26 ноя 2024

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  • @susanwedell7627
    @susanwedell7627 8 дней назад +170

    My husband took his life and then my daughter took her life .
    After losing both of them , I wanted to check out after both of them.
    But I’ve learned life can be beautiful. Sitting outside watching the birds and hear them sing . It’s the little things in life that make it worthwhile. ❤❤❤

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  8 дней назад +14

      I am so sad for your loss. How horrible for you. Please know l care. Thank you for visiting us. Please come again soon.

    • @sunnievictoria9917
      @sunnievictoria9917 6 дней назад +9

      Thank you for sharing your story. I have had the loss of my whole family too. You helped me feel less alone tonight. Sending you love and hugs. ❤

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  6 дней назад +3

      @sunnievictoria9917 thank you for watching..

    • @cathleenmore4656
      @cathleenmore4656 5 дней назад +5

      So sorry for you. Will keep you in my prayers. I have no family or help but I do have my son. I am grateful to God I have my son I have depression and anxiety but I pray to Jesus and find nature very comforting. We be praying for you and your deceased husband and daughter. God bless you

    • @LaylasNana
      @LaylasNana 4 дня назад +3

      I’m so sorry for your loss 😢 very proud that you are able to find some joy and peace ❤

  • @melanievando2040
    @melanievando2040 20 дней назад +609

    No one's life is worthless. I have a depression and anxiety disorder. I have a little dog who needs me and loves me no matter what.❤

    • @mercywilliams2698
      @mercywilliams2698 19 дней назад +23

      Awww..🐾💞🦋✨

    • @stfrancisforanimals799
      @stfrancisforanimals799 19 дней назад +42

      God Bless you and your precious sweet innocent soul 🐶 Little Dog, who COMPLETELY
      UNCONDITIONALLY LOVES YOU and NEEDS YOU and TOTALLY DEPENDS on YOU!!! Keep you and your Little Baby Dog SAFE & always bonded in togetherness of your LOVE and companionship gift from Christ Jesus. Amen. 🙏❤🐶🤗❤🙏

    • @vintageprue8728
      @vintageprue8728 19 дней назад +19

      @@stfrancisforanimals799 amen

    • @ThePesimiste
      @ThePesimiste 19 дней назад +1

      Many people have worthless life… a specially disabled people.. addicted people, criminals people..

    • @goldiegirl7247
      @goldiegirl7247 19 дней назад +2

      I don't know why your video pooped up on my screen??? As a mother who lost my beautiful thirty five year old daughter suddenly nine years ago on 23rd of October and also my dads passing was the 20th October my heart goes out to you.. 🤍myself and my son have decided that my daughter, his sister would not want us spending our lives being miserable and in honour of her we always try to do what she would want for us... On the anniversary of her passing we always go out and have a meal and celebrate her life and the love we all shared.......please think that your son would be devastated that you go to bed because of your grief for him. 😢....Yes at times I suddenly feel momentarily overcome with grief and sadness maybe by listening to the words of a song or just by the longing to see her and hear her jokes and laughter but, I will not allow the grief to continue and make me depressed because I hear her words and know that would be the very last thing she'd want and I don't want to disappoint her wherever her soul now is .. I know I'm a strong person and have overcome much sadness in my life, I know we're all different, I do hope that something I've said here resonates and helps you to find the strength to be a happier person for your sake and for your beautiful son who maybe looking down on you in extreme sadness because his passing and whatever caused that has kept you trapped in mourning and grief and I'm so very sure that's not what he would've wanted.. much love to you 🤍🕊️🙏🏻

  • @kathy8013
    @kathy8013 19 дней назад +306

    I don't want to force my beliefs on you, but I spent 15 years waiting to die. I lost my only son 16 months ago. God somehow brought me out of the dark place, and now I value my life. Ironically I have been diagnosed with terminal cancer, but I now treasure my days..even my solitude. There is much peace to be found in God's hands.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  17 дней назад +27

      @@kathy8013 so glad you are here today.

    • @tabbylynn4130
      @tabbylynn4130 15 дней назад +23

      Amen……I’m so sorry you lost your son.

    • @suzypentland166
      @suzypentland166 14 дней назад +10

      Don't think like this it's from the enemy. I've done that too and I've lost a precious granddaughter, my parents ,my son in law my son, and watching another son killing himself slowly with addiction after many times of quitting his body is shutting down and gets bloated it's the hardest yet but it is well with my soul

    • @cynthiapeterson2740
      @cynthiapeterson2740 14 дней назад +10

      God bless you🙏I lost my son… my only family & l feel the same as you did for all those years. Praying for your cancer journey 🙏❤️🙏

    • @honeycharles8576
      @honeycharles8576 13 дней назад +2

      🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️

  • @shandaprice3969
    @shandaprice3969 2 дня назад +23

    It felt like I was wasting my life away because I wasn't doing anything but today I signed up to be a volunteer at the women and children shelter

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  7 часов назад +1

      You are amazing. I am so glad you stopped by..🐶🐕🙂

    • @shandaprice3969
      @shandaprice3969 6 часов назад

      @@livinginthemoment1625 thank you for acknowledging me just that made me feel very good today

  • @carmencitasoto4259
    @carmencitasoto4259 10 дней назад +64

    You are special. Not worthless. You are important.

  • @Lisa54321
    @Lisa54321 19 часов назад +10

    I suffered manic depression for more than 20 years. My husband died suddenly in a train crash when he was 36 years old (he would have been 65 today). I started attending my local church , became a born again Christian and haven’t been depressed since (sad sometimes due to rational circumstances but never depressed) Christ totally changed my life, that was 7 years ago.
    God bless you ❤️

  • @danmooney6015
    @danmooney6015 18 дней назад +172

    When my wife died January 1,2012 I was so lonely and depressed. Even around family and friends I couldn’t escape the loss of my wife, the depression and loneliness so I poured my heart out to God. Jesus said he would send the comforter when he was resurrected to heaven. I found there is no comforter like the Holy Spirit. He truly is the mender of broken hearts.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  17 дней назад +14

      @@danmooney6015 l so very appreciate your visit and kind words today. Please come back soon.

    • @wandacarr668
      @wandacarr668 17 дней назад +4

      You are so right. And we have hope for the future.

    • @user-yn7on7ou8n
      @user-yn7on7ou8n 16 дней назад +8

      Jesus said He will come and not leave you comfortless. John 14:18

    • @angelbasham6631
      @angelbasham6631 13 дней назад +4

      Amen

    • @barbaramelville337
      @barbaramelville337 6 дней назад +1

      😢so sorry for your loss prayers sent for your healing 🙏🙏🙏

  • @debrahhuggins2572
    @debrahhuggins2572 12 дней назад +60

    I am 64 years old. Was a stay at home mom to 4. I feel the same exact way you do. I struggle everyday. I feel i have no purpose. I too have made mistakes that have now made my life harder. I wish i could go back and change them also. But we cant. So we try to move on. I feel as we get older we get more and more depressed. I unfortunately have left my body go also so doing physical things are hard. I also have some medical conditions that also reek havoc on me each day. So you are not the only one. I wish I knew how to make it all better for us. But I wanted you to know I care. And also do 826 people that have responded to you!!!!!!!!

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  8 дней назад +5

      Thank you for watching.

    • @timnicholas1832
      @timnicholas1832 День назад

      Debrah, what you wrote was so nice and thoughtful. I, too, am 64. I had a traffic accident 2-1/2 years ago, which resulted in a broken neck, a near useless right arm and hand, and nerve damage all over. I'm physically disabled now. I really empathize with this dear lady as well as you. I have many of the same kinds of thoughts and feelings. I have always lived alone, and I have no children. I just try to do what I can each day, and 4 mornings each week I associate with my friends at our local senior center. It gives me something to look forward to, and it enriches my life. My goal this next year is to plan a scenic trip with a senior or disabled travel group. Having a few long-range plans helps me, too. Let's all "hang tough," as my father used to say. 🙂

    • @juicysmith38235
      @juicysmith38235 День назад +1

      My mother is just like you. She gave up everything to be a stay at home mom. She has struggled to find work the past few yrs after being a stay at home mom since the 80s. It was her choice however I am sad for her choices. Please don't be a burden to your children. You can turn a new leaf. Being a "mom" shouldn't be a person's identity. A parents job is to prepare their children for the next stage in life. You can set a good example by what you do next. Check to see if your local community College has classes for retirement age people. Check with your church's & libraries if they have senior days. You can do anything you set your mind to. Don't waste the rest of your life. Take care of yourself.

  • @dee_ewell_pierce
    @dee_ewell_pierce 19 дней назад +222

    I got depressed watching this...I'm going to leave you with a word of encouragement. I too lost my only child to suicide at 16 1/2. There is no time limit on grief; that being said, the world keeps on spinning and turning whether we're in it or not. I choose to be in it. Every day I make the choice. I hope you can find a good therapist, friend, counselor, church or someone that can help you pull yourself out of misery.

    • @BernieHenze
      @BernieHenze 19 дней назад +21

      ... Thank you for your kind and honest and thoughtful words of encouragement .... The world does keep spinning even if we choose to reduce our participation . Your suggestion to choose participation is humble and accurate .

    • @youaresoft-ee4ub
      @youaresoft-ee4ub 19 дней назад +6

      the problem was they were most likely medicated. the real issue nobody wants to talk about. god bless and sorry for your loss.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +3

      ​@@BernieHenzeyes.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +3

      ​@youaresoft-ee4ubthank you.

    • @gwenewing6837
      @gwenewing6837 18 дней назад +10

      Blessings to you.

  • @RobertMesa-fu9oy
    @RobertMesa-fu9oy 10 дней назад +21

    Im 59 and recently disabled i have no one except my little dog you are not alone god help us all

  • @Judi-lm2fj
    @Judi-lm2fj 20 дней назад +249

    Grief is difficult. Can't imagine losing a child. My bed is my safety place also. Depression is difficult. We all have regrets. Moving forward is all we can do. I am single in my late 60s. Holidays are difficult for myself also.

    • @ericfreshcorn3590
      @ericfreshcorn3590 20 дней назад +23

      Hi i'm from Ohio Lonely 42 years old and a Christian

    • @angelfirelite
      @angelfirelite 19 дней назад

      @@ericfreshcorn3590 .......God give you peace my friend!

    • @LindenButters
      @LindenButters 19 дней назад +18

      I learned long ago not to give up on my life and never to take anti depressants,

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +4

      Thank you for visiting us.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +4

      ​@@ericfreshcorn3590thank you for visiting us.

  • @isabellrahim3194
    @isabellrahim3194 16 дней назад +86

    I'm almost 64 , I know exactly where you coming from, but life continues find a hobby like gardening pets maybe a support group for survivors.God is with you U are never alone.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  14 дней назад +3

      Thank you for visiting us today.

    • @SSands2810
      @SSands2810 9 дней назад

      Hello, you seem like a nice lady. I to suffer from depression and other things. I struggle everyday. I have my good days and bad days. I can't imagine how you feel everything is different for everyone. This is a hard time for me as well. I would like to help if I can, just by reaching out and talking to you. Just like this. I am in Australia. Hopefully you see this message and reach out to me. We could help each other out. I no it's hard dealing with everyday. One day at a time. I hope you have a good day today. It is Tue 19, and it is 8 am. My tears of comfort are for you and me. Take care stay safe. Bye for now. 😢😊❤

    • @SSands2810
      @SSands2810 9 дней назад

      I

    • @barbaramelville337
      @barbaramelville337 6 дней назад

      😢😢😢

  • @geraldinenaughton1522
    @geraldinenaughton1522 14 дней назад +26

    The human brain needs uv light, even in the dark days of November, try to spend a little time outside, and if that isn't possible sit near a window while having your tea or coffee. Also turn on lights and lamps , please don't lay in the dark for hours, it might feel cosy and comforting, but it's actually affecting how your physical brain functions.. Your mind needs to be healthy to cope with the grief that you are experiencing. During the day surround yourself with as much light as possible, then at night enjoy the dark and rest and sleep. Your mind will actually rest and sleep better during the night if you've had adequate light during the day. Even on the dull days the uv light is producing melatonin in your brain. When youve had good quality sleep, we are better able to cope with the sad and stressful things that life throws at us, not to mention we have more energy and motivation to function in our daily lives. So I hope you will feel better as time goes on, wishing you well.

  • @RusticMerchant-r3h
    @RusticMerchant-r3h 19 дней назад +107

    I live with regrets every day. I am 59, kids don't talk to me because their dad had an affair when we were married and after we divorced married her. She is alcoholic and brings drama every where she goes. I don't try to be the bad one , so maybe they will contact me before I die. I always wanted a big family but it didn't work out that way for me. I have dogs now, but just to have one Christmas where I here the word mom again would be so special.
    If feels as I get older I have no friends or they passed away.
    I don't see my grandkids.
    So I understand.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +12

      Sad. So thankful for you visiting us.

    • @rebeccalavoy6655
      @rebeccalavoy6655 13 дней назад +7

      Why are your children not speaking to you, because of your husband's affair? Wouldn't it be him, that they are upset with? Sorry, confused here.

    • @tracymorgan5386
      @tracymorgan5386 12 дней назад +7

      @@rebeccalavoy6655what I’ve noticed with emotionally immature kids( if this is the case) they don’t want to get mad at the parent who deserves it because they may have to the face the painful reality that parent doesn’t care, so they take it out on the parent they know does care, who they have the power to hurt.its sad & pathetic but that’s my theory.

    • @rebeccalavoy6655
      @rebeccalavoy6655 11 дней назад +2

      ​@@tracymorgan5386... Hi Tracy.
      You make a valid point. Your assumption is smart. But, I am not sure that it applies here. The reason being, is that she stated that her children have no contact with her. I could understand challenging the parent, or being disruptive in general. Basically, taking it out on the parent they trust to be there, no matter what. But, to go completely no contact, causes me to question if they blame their Mother for the dissolution of the marriage. I am certainly not blaming her.
      I do not know the situation. But, the children, grown or not, are naturally not privy to all the details of their parent's relationship, which could cause the breakdown in communication.

  • @jodieandvee
    @jodieandvee 7 дней назад +8

    I understand you're lonely and sad but please don't call yourself worthless. You are a beautiful person that God put here for a reason 🙏 God bless you and I hope your spirits lift 🙏🙏

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  6 часов назад +1

      Thank you for your kind words. Glad you are here today..🐶🐕😊

  • @fabiwilliams4644
    @fabiwilliams4644 18 дней назад +77

    Aging can be such a lonely isolating event. I'm in my 60's & I cannot emphasise enough how important it is to participate within society at this time. Whether it be a grief support group, volunteering to help others, a hobby interest group. You have a wealth of knowledge to teach & share. Don't waste it by staying within your grief. You have so much more living to do

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  17 дней назад +3

      @@fabiwilliams4644 l am very glad you stopped by for a visit today.

    • @shelleysanders9666
      @shelleysanders9666 17 дней назад +3

      Milton Erickson (the psychiatrist & ‘father’ of modern hypnosis) suggested a v depressed housebound woman could do positive activity by sending violets she grew up people whose engagements, illnesses etc she read in the local paper. This was a game-changer for her. (The ‘Violet Queen of Milwaukee’). As comment above, hopefully you can reach out to others on-line or in your community..

    • @JohnnyRebel1776
      @JohnnyRebel1776 17 дней назад +4

      I can't wait to checkout of society and be a hermit.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  14 дней назад +1

      @@shelleysanders9666 thank you for visiting us.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  14 дней назад +1

      @@JohnnyRebel1776 glad you stopped by. Please visit again soon.

  • @crazydiamond4565
    @crazydiamond4565 8 дней назад +35

    I don’t know why your video came across my feed, but I’m a 66 year old single woman and I am very happy being alone. I’ve been on my own since 2006 and I couldn’t be happier.. life is what you make of it. My dog makes me extremely happy. My friends and hobbies also contribute to my well-being. Reach out to others and maybe your life will be more fulfilling. I should mention that I also just lost my mom three months ago who lived with me. Even through my grief, I can get through my days with the love and support of my neighbors, friends and family.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  8 дней назад +3

      Thank you for visiting us.

    • @lotte5173
      @lotte5173 7 дней назад +3

      Imagine having no support or love from anyone.....

    • @judementz-gibbons6730
      @judementz-gibbons6730 4 дня назад +2

      @@lotte5173- yes, many have no family, friends or good neighbours and that loneliness is the pits. It’s not comparable. It cause depression. We can get out but it’s harder to make friends when older and most have established lives.

    • @lotte5173
      @lotte5173 4 дня назад +1

      @@judementz-gibbons6730
      Its horrible.....
      But we have God!

    • @thresaosullivan7314
      @thresaosullivan7314 День назад +2

      Hello there, I empathise with you sincerely, I must say that mistakes are made so we learn from them, so don’t beat yourself up over the mistakes you have made. I’m sorry that you have experienced such sadness in your life, I know you are feeling more depressed in the month of November, but try to love yourself, I’m sure you have many good qualities about you, and that you are a good person. Do you Pray?
      God is someone I talk to often, but not everyone does , and that’s ok, you really need to focus on yourself right now….heal yourself, and Start to let the past rest…..and you will eventually and gradually start to fade away from the sadness….many Blessings to you….I pray you will find Peace soon. 🕊️🙏🇬🇧

  • @ginamcknight8115
    @ginamcknight8115 8 дней назад +19

    Your video didn’t depress me but I can relate to depression.It’s difficult and I’m sending you a virtual hug.

  • @josephsweitzer5471
    @josephsweitzer5471 20 дней назад +109

    Hi friend! Your video was randomly recommended to me, and I'm very glad it was. While I do not have children, I am able to empathize with your feelings of loneliness, depression, and hopelessness. I understand the feeling of wanting to shut everything out and lay in bed all day, it's a comforting feeling, but it's a very isolating feeling of comfort. I developed anorexia in high school and almost died multiple times from it. I felt so alone, isolated, and hopeless. I felt my life had no meaning and wanted to die. I say all this to show that there are others who are feeling this way, and they are more than happy to help you get through these hard times. If I may, I would like to offer some coping skills that help me and may help you.
    When you're feeling disconnected, a method to ground yourself is holding a piece of ice. Focus on the feeling of it and allow it to center yourself.
    Another mindfulness technique I use is aromatherapy. Grab a tea bag, a flower, really anything that has a scent that is pleasant to you. Smell it and try to focus on the scent and the feelings it brings up.
    If you are able to, freeze a lemon or orange. Once it is frozen, rub it on areas of tension. This is a great method as it combines both the cold feeling and aromatherapy techniques.
    Another technique is to sit in a chair with your knees at a 90 degree angle, bare feet on the floor, and your open palms on your thighs facing upwards. Allow yourself to do a body scan. Notice any areas of tension, any areas that feel uncomfortable.
    These techniques help me a lot, especially when I'm extremely anxious or feel myself dissociating.
    I am here for you and want to help you as much as I can. You are worthy of happiness. You deserve to feel comfortable, loved, and at peace.

    • @mihe6212
      @mihe6212 19 дней назад +2

      I prefer morphine . lol lol

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +5

      Thank you for the kind words. Its nice to know ppl understand. The things you mentioned will not work for me. I am under a dr care. I am on meds. But l handle my self in a different way. I have to talk to myself within my head or out loud like l am a seperate person to get my self going. It works for me. Thank you for being here to support my channel.

    • @porlina8784
      @porlina8784 18 дней назад +2

      Great techniques .... Thank you 😊

    • @cobaltblues8688
      @cobaltblues8688 11 дней назад

      Interesting tips! I am going to try and see what happens. You are thouhhtful to share ❤

  • @GabrielGiron-g5o
    @GabrielGiron-g5o 17 дней назад +36

    God loves you and your not alone 🌹🙏🇺🇲

  • @CindyBennett13
    @CindyBennett13 18 дней назад +47

    Sorry for your troubles. My son died in a ski accident at age 21 and I agree it’s hard to talk about . Fortunately I have other kids but still it’s the worst thing to have to carry through life as a mom.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  17 дней назад +6

      @@CindyBennett13 l am truly glad you visited me today. Please come back soon.

    • @CindyBennett13
      @CindyBennett13 17 дней назад +4

      @ maybe you could be used to encourage other moms . It’s a journey of no matched pain .

    • @barbaramelville337
      @barbaramelville337 6 дней назад

      I'm so sorry for your loss 😢😢😢😢

  • @gaylaaucoin9667
    @gaylaaucoin9667 19 дней назад +72

    I. Lost. My first. Love. My soulmate of 27 years to. Cancer. Alexis my Daughter. Died at age 18. Mama. Died. 2018. My aunt uncle who live next door to my mom they died before then we were all very close my brother died in 2007. He was my only sibling. So I know about death and I know about depression but God got me through it and he could get you through it too you need to talk to him more if you’re not talking to him enough or talk not talking at all I know how easy it is not to but how rewarding it is when you do🌈🦋🕊️✝️🛐 never give up never give in keep fighting because this life is worth living✝️🛐🌈🦋🌈🕊️❤️❤️I’m age 62 you. Need not. Suffer. Your son is not suffering. They are in. Heaven. Happy as can be ❤❤❤❤❤❤🌈🦋🕊️

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +19

      First thank you for supporting my channel. Yes. I am. Christian. I believe in prayer. And l beleive in the promises of our Heavenly father. Sorry for all your loss as well. May God truly hold you in his arms. Be well. Thank you for visiting us.

  • @mabelreyes3434
    @mabelreyes3434 2 дня назад +9

    I am 38 years old. My husband was murdered back home this may. I am now single mom with two beautiful children. I can honesthly say if it wouldnt be for my children i wouldnt be able to getvout of bed. Grief is one of the most painful events in life one cant never recover never no matter what people say. Getting closer to God has helped me as well.

  • @littlemissshihtzu
    @littlemissshihtzu 19 дней назад +30

    I think it's very brave of you to share your struggles with depression and loneliness. This is a big step! It's nice to see so many people showing you support and compassion in the Comments. Sending you hope-filled hugs, from one dog-lover to another. 💞

  • @SanctuaryLife
    @SanctuaryLife 19 дней назад +26

    My mother died in October, my Father committed suicide in November and my Ex took my 3 week old daughter and left me at the end of October. So yes, tough time of year for many of us, but it never really goes away. I put faith and trust in God now to bring my love and light and he does provide. He brings the animals, he has brought a friend, and he provides for me.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  13 дней назад +2

      I am sorry for your losses. Sad. You are very strong. We can survive. Thank you for visiting us.

    • @LEEGUNNAISATOTTENHAMFAN
      @LEEGUNNAISATOTTENHAMFAN 6 дней назад +1

      May you devote yourself to Krishna and , chant the holy names ,

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  6 дней назад

      @LEEGUNNAISATOTTENHAMFAN thank you for visiting us.

    • @LemireCassie
      @LemireCassie День назад +1

      Amen! Hallelujah! Praise the LORD. we are here to serve the mighty God. We are not here to serve ourselves. We are called to do HIS will. He wants us all to meet him halfway. Get on our knees and cry out. Ask HIM to heal us. Jeremiah.17:14 Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved: thou art my praise."

    • @marilynwillett804
      @marilynwillett804 День назад

      although stay in touch w/ your daughter, SHE will need your protection from other men. when they visit mommy..bible; love always protects.

  • @EarthWindFireable
    @EarthWindFireable 19 дней назад +41

    People think happiness is big events and a lot of people and parties. Not true.
    I find happiness taking my senior rescue dog for a stroll, then we go out for a taco - she enjoys looking through the drive-thru window at the fastfood workers - then we drive home as she hangs out the car window. Then later at home, I make us a fresh organic meal and she hops up and down in the kitchen while I cook.
    I'm sorry about your son and mom.

  • @elenoreatkins6714
    @elenoreatkins6714 19 дней назад +160

    Thank you for being brave enough to share.
    I’m 54 all four children are grown and don’t seem to have any time for me.
    I do the exact same thing.
    I have treatment resistant major depressive disorder. And complex PTSD
    I’m alone all the time no friends no family no car.
    I no longer wish to be here. I feel my time here is done. I pray most nights to not wake up ❤
    Hugs to you. I’m so sorry for the loss of your son. I simply can’t imagine that kind of pain.

    • @Jullzmiller0224
      @Jullzmiller0224 19 дней назад +31

      I hear you and feel your pain. I have CPTSD too and Bipolar II. I'm 62. Can I be of help?

    • @ninnin261
      @ninnin261 19 дней назад +38

      “I feel my time here is done”…Wow! Thought I was the only one thinking that. I can totally relate. 56, kids grown, and feel I’ve done pretty much what I came here to do so what’s the point in hanging around much longer. I know it’s not my call though so just waiting for God to call my number and trying to make the best of things until then. Try to stay busy gardening, reading, looking after my home and my pets, working…Anything to pass the time I guess. Thanks for sharing what you’re going through. Reading it made me feel not so alone. Blessings!

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +22

      So sorry for your pain. I can relate. Blessings to you. Very glad that you have visited us today.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +13

      Thank you for visiting us.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +17

      So sad to hear this. You have a purpose. I am glad you have found my channel and visited us today. Come back soon.

  • @lisasimpson4560
    @lisasimpson4560 19 дней назад +49

    I'm laying here in my bedroom, scrolling, when I should be getting dressed and getting on. Your video came on as a suggestion - I am stunned at our similarities 😮 Lisa, UK ❤

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +7

      So glad to see you here. Come back soon.

    • @LydiaStarz
      @LydiaStarz 9 дней назад +2

      My name is Lisa.😚 I also am laying in bed watching stuff on youtube. Need to jake coffee!

  • @catz2505
    @catz2505 20 дней назад +38

    It's only me, I have noone. This time of year is the hardest time I have to get through. Starts around middle November and thru the new year. It's a time for family and I have none. It's hard and overwhelming.
    You know hindsight is 20/20. Don't look back at what was, look forward to what can be. Do they have a Senior Center in your area? I live in a small town but we have one, I use to work there actually. They serve hot meals daily and if you don't have money you can eat free or they do home delivered meals. Hot meal delivered daily to your home. Do they have any of those services in your area?
    Can you get out 2 or 3 days a week and walk? I do that daily and it has helped a lot. Met some of my neighbors and my dog loves it! Some days I just sit out in the sunshine, feels so good shining down of me. I journal also. I have a cheap spiral notebook from Dollar Tree and write everything that is on my mind...the good, the bad, and the ugly. I'm very truthful with me and how I feel. Something about writing it down helps me some. Guess just getting it all out. This time of year thru winter is hard, I know. I have to make me do things...sometimes I don't win but I feel better if I do try. I hope you feel better. Believe me when I say I know how you feel. Life is hard alone, that's a fact.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +2

      So do appreciate all you say. I journal as well. Have used our senior center. No free meals there though. I have lots of free time and plenty to do. Have to make myself do it as well. Glad you have visited me. Wont you visit again soon?

  • @shannalizz
    @shannalizz 20 дней назад +45

    2 minutes in and can already relate. And the title is why I clicked. I tend to shut down and spend days in bed as well. Thank you for sharing this 💜

  • @stringofpearls4551
    @stringofpearls4551 19 дней назад +36

    Only Jesus. I hold on to Him alone, and many times I have to ask Him for help just to get groceries without crying. I remind myself that He is always with me, and will never forsake me. I also know that if I look at the black hole long enough, it will suck me in. I do know what a battle it is not to do that. May God give you His peace and love to get through.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  14 дней назад +1

      @@stringofpearls4551 jesus is in my life. Thank you for visiting us.

  • @chantellucky4565
    @chantellucky4565 19 дней назад +24

    Hi sweetie, ❤ New viewer here, I just saw your channel, let me tell you this: Get up and get going with life!!! As long as you are breathing means you have a chance to reinvent yourself and take control of what you can to make it worth living!! Nothing worse than one day on your dying bed regretting not trying your best when you had time!!! Basically you are throwing it all away just lying in bed allowing depression stealing your precious TIME!!! You have more than many people! You have a good mind, able body! You have intelligent to create a RUclips channel with followers! You drive, you don’t have a diagnose of cancer etc!!! You still have a life!! Food, Fresh water, warm bed to sleep in!!! You have lots!!! Think about it…. So, put it together and live!!! ❤

  • @NanM-e4d
    @NanM-e4d 18 дней назад +15

    I lost my mom to Dementia while I was her sole hospice caregiver...my dad unexpectedly during a 'simple' medical procedure and my 2 dogs (my children) back to back to Cancer. I would never presume to tell any anyone I know how you feel; but I empathize with you tremendously. I have no family left and struggle on a daily basis to understand why I'm still here (yes, I have a therapist). Sending love and virtual hugs to you.

  • @Justbreathe1005
    @Justbreathe1005 18 дней назад +43

    I just found your channel. I’m so very sorry about your son. My heart goes out to you. This time of year is very hard for me too, very depressing for many reasons. I have some family but it’s dysfunctional and very hard at the holidays. Always look forward to January. Please hang in there honey.

  • @ralphpussilano
    @ralphpussilano 19 дней назад +33

    I can’t imagine what you are going through 💔. My wife passed away on August 11th 2024. We were married for 50 years on August 10th 1974. This is for all of us that have been facing grief may one day we can find some peace.💔💔🙏

  • @ioneskye9996
    @ioneskye9996 19 дней назад +8

    You are very relatable. So many folks suffering. Great to hear you are improving your channel and have plans for success!

  • @RF1972.
    @RF1972. 19 дней назад +29

    This is the first time I have seen your video...want to thank you....I lost my son ....he was 39...I understand completely how you feel....I dont want to at all sound like I am being pushy... but my strength every minute of the day comes from the Lord...I couldn't bear this without him and his comfort....and the hope I have is that I will see him again when I get to heaven. Oh the joy I will feel..I dont know if you realize but you help many...thank you❤

  • @Peppermint_Paper
    @Peppermint_Paper 8 дней назад +9

    I am sending my deepest sympathy for your loss, sadness, and loneliness. Hoping you can get through these holidays with some joyful moments. Creative hobbies are what keep many of us going. We are excited about putting our ideas into creations. I have more ideas than time to do them. I like drawing, watercolor, card making, and junk journal making. I also enjoy caring for my cat. Our lives don't need to be fabulous. They just need to be lived in kindness and grace. This RUclips channel is a good creative hobby in itself. Wishing you many blessings ❤

  • @sherylsbohocreations7282
    @sherylsbohocreations7282 19 дней назад +15

    I’m so sorry you are sad and depressed and so sorry for the loss of your son. May God bring peace and hope and love to you this time of the year! 16:52 ❤Blessings to you my friend! ❤️🙏🙏🙏🎄

  • @dianeb7420
    @dianeb7420 20 дней назад +33

    This year will be my first to be alone for the holidays. My husband passed away in June. Yes I do have my daughters but they have their own lives. Vicki, we all have regrets, and your right we can’t go back and change things. I do try and keep busy as much as I feel like it. Being outside does help some. Sunshine is good for depression!
    Do you have anyplace that you could volunteer and be with people? Maybe that would help. Maybe get another part time job. You liked the last one. Stay blessed and keeping you in my prayers.🙏💕

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +3

      Yes. I have been seeking a new job. God will bring the right one in time. November is my hardest time. But l am thankful that you visited us again.

    • @dianeb7420
      @dianeb7420 19 дней назад +1

      @ Vicki, looks tall the views and likes on your video! All these people love and care about you! Some people suggested if you have or can join a church. Mine has helped me a lot. And I love being able to help in anyway I can . In January I volunteered to be one of the church cleaners. We are a very small church so this will give me a way to help. Stay blessed Vicki and be well.🙏❤️

  • @Christine-j7b
    @Christine-j7b 20 дней назад +58

    Jesus said 'Come to me all who are weary and are heavily laden and I will give you rest. He is acquainted with grief and sorrows of every kind. That means there is someone who does understand the unexpressed (even secret) pain and emotions we are experiencing when we go through fiery trials and the deepest darkest valleys. We can lay every burden down before Him in prayer because He understands, He truly cares and can help us through it sometimes in the most unexpected of ways.
    It is good that you are talking and sharing on here and I have subscribed.

  • @deborahjohnson8463
    @deborahjohnson8463 19 дней назад +15

    Thank you so much for telling it like it is...The holidays are extremely hard for single people.I am almost seventy and I never dreamed I would be all alone.Thank the good Lord for pets which help fill the loneliness, but nothing really helps for long.Prayer is a wonderful blessing because the Lord truly sees our pain and understands Lean on him he loves you and will never leave you.Sending a BIG HUG your way...❤❤❤❤❤❤❤.

  • @mollyb1722
    @mollyb1722 20 дней назад +22

    I don’t know you but you don’t need to be sorry for things out of your control. You are beautiful and deserve nothing but peace and love

  • @NightOwl-w3j
    @NightOwl-w3j 8 дней назад +5

    Girl, i couldnt put myself out there like this. God bless you

  • @dianalynn8781
    @dianalynn8781 20 дней назад +54

    You know, I bet if all people were really honest, they'd admit to being depressed more than we think. MY problem is 2-fold. I get depressed AND have severe high anxiety. I never was fortunate to even give birth to a child...and that has ALWAYS been severely depressing to me. We lost our only chance at having even one child when I lost our sweet Victoria in my tummy at the beginning of my 6th month. It tore us apart and we divorced after having been married 28.5 years. Starting out at age 48, with never having worked, was so darned hard. I will keep you in my prayers, Vicky. I have those days where I, too, don't get out of bed. I stay up all night and go to bed just before the sun comes up. I HAVE to sometimes stay up when it's dark, and sleep during the light of day. Go figure. Being 76 and feeling like I'm closer to heaven every birthday, doesn't help either. I think I have too many hobbies that I just never get to do that doesn't help my depression. God bless you, sweetie.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +4

      I can relate. That is exactly how l am. Peace. I am basically a happy person. Just this month. I have mild depression. So most of the time l am ok. But being alone gives me pkenty of time to dwell on my past mistakes. Thank you for visiting us.

    • @avalondreaming1433
      @avalondreaming1433 18 дней назад +1

      Glad to know that I'm not the only person who stays up until 6 am, then beat myself up for totally wasting the day...

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  18 дней назад

      @@avalondreaming1433 you are not alone. Its me as well. Thank you for the view.

  • @Myexo3
    @Myexo3 16 дней назад +7

    This acc made me tear up, I don’t really know what to say this but you’re amazing do not give up💜

  • @marieabbott2229
    @marieabbott2229 18 дней назад +10

    Stay brave stay strong. Looking forward to hearing from you soon. Sending love from Liverpool England x

  • @user-pc5rf2xn1l
    @user-pc5rf2xn1l 19 дней назад +9

    You will meet your son again in heaven. God is near to the broken hearted. Sending prayers and love from Minnesota.

  • @quitaulla1569
    @quitaulla1569 18 дней назад +8

    Your doggies in the pictures on the wall are adorable 😍.I bet they love you so much! ❤ I just subscribed to your channel. 😀✌️

  • @deborahwalsh2953
    @deborahwalsh2953 3 дня назад +2

    My Goodneess reading all the comments abd listening to your video only confirms as the,Buddhists teaches us "life is mostly suffering " There is,so.much tragedy abd heartache in this world and,I too have had more then my share. But there are,always others better or worse off then us!! Hope you find,a good suport system and Blessings to us all!! The holiday season is,always quite difficult for those in despair.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  2 дня назад +1

      Yes l do agree. Living is just dying while waiting to die. Thank you for visiting us.🐶🐕😋

  • @BDiane4145
    @BDiane4145 19 дней назад +21

    Bless your heart, you're not alone! I lost a 10 mo old son that had been sick all of his life, and he would've been 40 on 9/26. I just finished Chemo for breast cancer, after being in remission for 13 years, am recovering from surgery and with Radiation coming soon. I'm having to go thru all of this with no contact from my 2 adult sons because their girlfriends are so jealous and obviously threatened by me, as sick as that is! There was never any reason for this, I never did anything to deserve this, but now I wouldn't have anything to do with those women due to this pain, Ever! I had always heard that some families had issues like this, but never could've imagined it affecting my family! The closeness that I've had with my sons and now don't even hear from them has been going on almost 15 mos. I was diagnosed last Feb and my oldest would pick me up from a procedure on a rare occasion, but he supposedly even forgot to pick me up after my Oct 1 surgery. I haven't seen the other 1, in 15 months. I didn't mean to ramble, I just want you to remember that "if you can acknowledge it you're over halfway there", is a motto that I've tried to live by, for a long time. You're not alone, many of us know that we're good people, but the devil is alive and well, so we need to fight him at every turn, to have the life that we know we deserve. Finding you tonight is what I was supposed to do, bc it's been a very hard week. Oftentimes, getting outside of ourselves and helping others can provide more clarity, to help us be what we want and what we know God wants us to be! Keeping you in my prayers, dear friend!🙏❤🙏

    • @lisaj3474
      @lisaj3474 19 дней назад +6

      Hi. Stay strong & fight your illness. Focus on you. I have two daughters & grandchildren I never see. Life is very tough; We have had a terrible year ! Big hugs ❤from Uk xxxxx

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +4

      Sad. I too am a cancer survivor. 7 weeks of radiation after surgery. Life goes on it seems. Dying is part of living. That l know. So glad you stopped by.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +3

      ​@@lisaj3474hang tight.

    • @annefraser6908
      @annefraser6908 17 дней назад +1

      Stay Strong you have done ur best ,I have 2 sons 1 disabled ,and 1 who never phones or cares ,yes it hurts take care , Uk

  • @leem200
    @leem200 19 дней назад +20

    Start a group you're not alone. Find a church or place where everyone can meet. Do things together. Go shopping, just for coffee, walks in the park. Lost many people during these two months and allot had birthdays during this month and Christmas. 19 yrs old and he hung himself. I have no advice, but hang on to the Lord, reach out to others. Life is hard sometimes. Prayers for you. Hugs.

  • @juliathompson2747
    @juliathompson2747 19 дней назад +6

    Ok, you cant go back, but the knowledge that you have brought forward is immense, and it will not be forgotten. Celebrate what you have done even if not recognized by family o friends. Get up if you can and realize that you are wonderful.

  • @pamelafrancis4476
    @pamelafrancis4476 19 дней назад +11

    You have courage to talk to everyone openly and it will help others, it brings us all closer to each other x

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +2

      So glad you stopped by.

    • @BarbaraEvans-ku8dx
      @BarbaraEvans-ku8dx 17 дней назад +1

      @@pamelafrancis4476 yes! She is strong in that she is able to openly share her true feelings with others. Not everyone is able to do that. Myself, would never be able to do that. In my family we were taught to keep everything stuffed inside. They (parents) didn't want to hear it.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  17 дней назад +1

      @@BarbaraEvans-ku8dx thank you for visiting us

  • @MohammedAlthyaybi
    @MohammedAlthyaybi 19 дней назад +10

    im from saudi arbia i like your video , im 36 now ,and i do not know how it will end up for me . i watch old people just learn what should i do to gain safaty. you live your life once as you said , but there nothing in my hand to change things

  • @KarenPT0713
    @KarenPT0713 19 дней назад +9

    Vicki, I feel so bad for you and I can totally relate to depression. Everyone thinks we all should live "Hallmark" lives-everyone is pretty, successful and has a lot of friends. In truth this is not reality-a lot people struggle to get through each day. Take care of yourself and the girls! I am praying for you. 🥲🙏❤

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +1

      Thank you for watching. Your support of my channel means a bunch to my heart. Visit again soon. And Blessings to you..

  • @timelston4260
    @timelston4260 18 дней назад +47

    I think of myself as a cat. A cat will go to dust when it dies, but it enjoys every day it's alive. It doesn't need other cats; it just enjoys being itself. That's me. All I need is to be alive. When I'm dead, I won't need that anymore. I hope you find a frame of mind to accept and enjoy your life. It's a frame of mind, and nothing else matters.

  • @lfkrul1771
    @lfkrul1771 19 дней назад +4

    Thank you for the video. I was feeling very sad this morning. Im on my own with a disabled child. Somedays you ask God why some are so blessed and others not. You made me feel not so alone this morning. Thank you so much.❤❤

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +1

      So sad. But l do thank you. Please visit us again soon please.

    • @annefraser6908
      @annefraser6908 17 дней назад +1

      I to have a disabled son , my other son dosent talk to us ,yes it’s difficult,very , god is good .uk

  • @pamelameltonhuff583
    @pamelameltonhuff583 19 дней назад +11

    I know the feeling of grief and loneliness of sadness I too have to walk into a empty house after going to someone's for Thanksgiving or Christmas is very sad I can relate to your feelings and the depression my heart goes out to you

  • @almaconnor9171
    @almaconnor9171 19 дней назад +13

    Omg, do I know how u feel. Depression is one tough enemy. People think u should just shake it off, but it’s impossible, don’t they know we WOULD if we COULD. PLEASE stop looking back. It makes everything worse. It is such a difficult journey. Yes, I’ve laid in bed for days. No shower for 2 months, hair not washed. Utterly overwhelming to even THINK about getting up. I got help and it took a while, but I got alot better. Please don’t give up, if I can get better so can u, God Bless You, I feel your every word. Your son was killed? Dear God. Let yourself grieve. Oh, my I am so so very sorry. Please know that I, a total stranger thinks about you and I will be praying for you sweet lady❤

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  17 дней назад +4

      @@almaconnor9171 the beginning of your comment touched my spirit. I am so very like that as well. It is a job just to make myself do what needs to be. I appreciate you watching my channel. Please come back soon.

    • @almaconnor9171
      @almaconnor9171 17 дней назад +3

      @ I absolutely do read your channel. My heart truly goes out to you. I know that kind of suffering. And I can tell you that you CAN get better. The first thing my therapist told me is this: no matter how u feel, u MUST get up and move. Even for a few minutes at a time. Build on that. Just KEEP doing it. It was torture in the beginning, it took a while until it wasn’t so bad. I kept at it and kept at it. Our minds respond positively to bodily movement. I started cleaning up. That in itself is a great help. Are u a worrier? If so, ask yourself this question when u start fixating on something….”do I REALLY need to worry about this right now”. What would happen if I didn’t? I use this all the time. The answer is usually NO. I do not NEED to worry about it. Give yourself permission not to worry. I usually forget what it was I was so worried about. Try that. I’m going to go back and read your posts. Maybe I can understand you better and if I can I will tell u what helps me. I will pray for you. Please hang in there. I’ll be around, I promise.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  13 дней назад +1

      ​@@almaconnor9171thank you. Please visit soon.

  • @EarlGuyton425
    @EarlGuyton425 19 дней назад +44

    I am age 68 and have lived alone for 18 years. My mother died last year, and I have no family left at all. Last night I watched the 1975 movie Airport with Charlton Heston and Karen Black, and had to pause the movie and cry a few times, because it gave me memories of back then. No one will ever call. I have 4 cars and a big house and just me. Luckily I dont drink at all and no one else should either. Holidays? I dont practice any holiday at all. I also dont miss get togethers, because get togethers disgust me because its about peoples drinking and men talking about foot ball and I hate football. What I miss is talking on the phone and just having a friend over. I make random videos here on YT and listen to music.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +10

      Thank you for visiting us. My life was greatly impacted by covid as well. I never have been a very social person. But l truly enjoy having my channel. I try to do a lot of things on it. But my main focus is frugal living. I'm always looking for a bargain or an idea l can share on my channel. I am glad you found my channel. And l hope we can become good friends here. Thank you for visiting us.

    • @EarlGuyton425
      @EarlGuyton425 19 дней назад +1

      @@livinginthemoment1625 Me and covid? I ignored that ever since it started back around March of 2020. Life after that silliness started was same as life years earlier, so I sat back and let other people live in fear. I love my channel also. I make lots of videos telling people how to fix their cars and how to stop being scammed by auto repair. If everyone chooses to ignore me and treat me as though im dead, LOL, I may as well share my knowledges through video. Dear, for those times you lay in the dark and stare up at the ceiling? When this happens GET up and do something because youre already awake anyway, so why voluntarily lay there and agree to be tortured. If you knew me I would have you laughing. Last night when I kept taking breaks from that movie to cry, thats healthy and is a healthy cry. Jesus Christ will listen to you if people will stop the prayer redundant chanting and just talk to Jesus Christ out loud. But laying in the dark is agreeing to be tortured, so get up and dont cooperate with it

    • @brendathompson4939
      @brendathompson4939 19 дней назад +9

      My mom says the same thing-no one ever calls. Same here, too. I've concluded that people are on their phones way too much-texting.

    • @EarlGuyton425
      @EarlGuyton425 19 дней назад +3

      @@brendathompson4939 Actually people could get more done by sitting and talking to one another, than moving around and doing things all the time. Its talking and sharing that is communication, and without that no one can know one another. All the way back to when I was a teen my mom and dad never listened to me at all, but instead would just assume they know what I needed and should do, so actually even then I was alone and my parents never knew me at all

    • @evelyna_paula1747
      @evelyna_paula1747 19 дней назад +4

      Don't worry. Just be happy. We have one another.

  • @tonyafromgeorgia3519
    @tonyafromgeorgia3519 15 дней назад +2

    Everybody has down days or the feeling of being depressed. Losing a child is something a parent would never get over, I cannot image the grief, I’m so sorry for that. With that being said, we all go through grief and struggles throughout our lives, we have to overcome and keep living. If you could do some things that could bring some normal into your life, like having a schedule to go by, it would give you purpose. Make sure your out of bed at a certain time, turn the lights on, open the curtains and let the light in. We all need a purpose to live. Put a small Christmas tree up, it’ll make your space cozy and can bring some joy and peace to your thoughts. Come up with a schedule and follow it. You have to push yourself and give yourself purpose to follow. Laying in a dark room would make me depressed, I have to have all of the lights on, a bright house.
    I hope you cheer up soon and feel better soon, your worth it, you deserve to live a happy peaceful life😊

  • @lisas.6926
    @lisas.6926 19 дней назад +6

    Hugs sent to you. You are not alone. I am 45 years old i feel the same way. You are here sharing your story and that helps

  • @dawnjimenez3443
    @dawnjimenez3443 8 дней назад +2

    My dear lady I can relate to you very well. I’ve had something that happened in the past that haunts me til this day. I’m bipolar and I take meds for it. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Just remember God will never leave nor forsake you. He is always with you! 🙏💜

  • @lks6248
    @lks6248 19 дней назад +6

    I don’t know why your video popped up on my feed. We have something in common in that we both had an only child who died young. Mine died suddenly in 2020 when he was 22 and what followed were desperate times. I still think about him every day with lots of what ifs. I remember a good analogy on grief I heard. It involved imagining that grief is a rubber ball squeezed into a jar. At first there is no room for anything else but that suffocating grief, but every time you do something positive, even when you have to force yourself the jar grows a little bit bigger. Eventually while the grief hasn’t gotten less, you find it easier to carry. I found this to be true and have built a new life (it is impossible to carry on with the old one when a nuclear bomb just laid waste to all of it). There are many people out in the world suffering And lonely too who you would be valuable ally for, so think about getting out there bit by bit. We all need purpose and we are all needed … by someone. My only other advice is check basic things like vitamin D level. There’s a definite correlation with chronic depression. I wish you well and hope to see more videos about your progress.

  • @BeautifulLife000H
    @BeautifulLife000H День назад +2

    Be grateful for your life. Everyone feels the way you do sometimes. I hope you feel better soon.

  • @carmelaburrone5029
    @carmelaburrone5029 19 дней назад +3

    Good Morning Vicki..
    Your video popped up across my feed, and somehow, I felt compelled to watch. I just want to say I'm terribly sorry to hear of all the trauma and loss you've experienced in your life, especially that of your son. As a mother of a 35 yr old son (my only child), I can't even imagine the pain and grief you feel. That being said, during the course of my life(63 yrs old), I have experienced severe traumas, loss, depression, and chronic health/ pain issues and was on the brink of losing my life for 3 years before and during the pandemic. Somehow, by the Grace of God and the prayers 🙏 of many here on Earth and in Heaven I am here to tell the tale. While I am presently wheelchair avd housebound, I am greatful to be alive and hope to continue to heal and rehabilitate. I have faith that if I can come out of the other side, you can as well. First and foremost you must forgive yourself and practice self love. It would also be beneficial to take your focus off yourself and volunteer your time in to help others in need. Please take care and try to give thanks for one blessing in your life each day. I will be keeping you in thought and prayer 🙏. Sending love ❤️ and hugs 🫂 your way.

  • @theonlyendlesscircle
    @theonlyendlesscircle 19 дней назад +10

    I am really old too. I was doing great until Tuesday, the 5th of November. I landed in a big, stupid hole and I don't know how to crawl out. I will figure it out. But, I really feel bad for this woman. I hope she can find a way out.

  • @NoobSimmerKP
    @NoobSimmerKP 20 дней назад +16

    Your channel just showed up in my recommended… Right now and this is the first video I clicked on and I’m just a couple of minutes in and I want to tell you something… Your life is not over. As long as you have breath in your chest you have opportunity to do better and be better. I know that this life is difficult and at the end of the day we will all end up alone… It is OK to just enjoy being with yourself. I know that grief is hard and overwhelming and depression can be tough to fight… But you can do it you can overcome and your book has not been written yet there are still pages to go so make them great!!!

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  19 дней назад +3

      Thank you so much for watching. This month is hard. But l usually have better days. My depression is mild. And not every day is like these. I am so fortunate to have people like you to encourage me.

  • @Nickywhispersasmr
    @Nickywhispersasmr 5 дней назад +2

    You are definitely not worthless, precious friend. You are loved and matter. Your existence is priceless and the world would not be the same without you in it. Always remember that. ❤❤

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  5 дней назад +1

      Oh thank you so much for those kind words. You are very sweet. Thank you for visiting us. Please come back soon...🐶🐶😊

  • @Nicana68
    @Nicana68 19 дней назад +6

    My God, I can relate too, too much to this video. I think they call it rumination when you are stuck in dark and negative thought loops. And anhedonia when nothing brings you pleasure anymore. All part of major, clinical depression. It is so, so awful and I'm sorry to hear you're struggling through this.

  • @firefeethok_tui2355
    @firefeethok_tui2355 19 дней назад +6

    To all, NEVER REGRET the mistakes youve made, they cannot be undone, learn from them and then do better. Thats the lesson. Regret is wasteful because you cannot be in the present when youre entertaining it. Life is a journey for us all. We were born and he we are. Its not really a race. Holidays are hard. Expectations arent met. We dont get a do-over. But each person has done at least 1 thing, (in reality thousands) for another human that helped them in some struggle that may habe made the entire difference for that person. A giant chain of small interactions. So very sorry for your loss. Your X husband was a real coward.

  • @ConstanceFaulkner
    @ConstanceFaulkner 19 дней назад +11

    This video just so happened to show up for me to watch. I'm so glad I got to watch it. I suffer from anxiety and depression, too. I just recently was diagnosed with PTSD and bipolar on top of everything else, as well. I know what you are going through, at least to some extent. Honey, try to keep your head up. Find a counselor. It'll help.

  • @girlfriday1299
    @girlfriday1299 19 дней назад +6

    Thank you for sharing your heart. You are a safe space for so many of us. I'm 69, never married, and trying to learn how to support myself with my art work and anything else I can do in spite of certain chronic pain issues that make it hard for me to stay on my feet for very long. This is an interesting time, because I've always tried to see every life experience as an adventure, even those slow, lonely and heavy times. I love the title of your channel! May you be blessed with peace, good fortune and better days ahead. 💖🌼🌿

  • @anitab6436
    @anitab6436 19 дней назад +7

    I'm so sorry that you're feeling so down! Please know that there are people here that care about you, even though we would normally be called "strangers." Please know that your life is not "worthless." You are a child of God! I hope you will feel happier soon. Take care.

  • @jerihunt6538
    @jerihunt6538 12 дней назад +1

    Thank you very much for sharing. You are not depressing me in the least, on the contrary I am glad to share your pain, it helps me make it through my day. Living in the Moment is the goal alright. ❤

  • @vande8910
    @vande8910 19 дней назад +15

    That is nonsense! Your life is not worthless. Nobody in this world was put here to just give up. Why wish for things in the past? Today is a new start and you can change the future. Get rid of the negative thoughts and change them with positivity. Small things are a blessing and don’t cost a penny! Take time to breathe in the fresh air, look up in the sky and enjoy the beauty. Have that cup of coffee. Pay attention to the smell, the bold flavour, join a group & meet up with them. Enjoy the company and know we all have struggles and we lean on each other. Sending you love ❤

    • @almaconnor9171
      @almaconnor9171 16 дней назад +7

      You shouldn’t tell a depressed person that their feelings are nonsense. That’s the worst thing u can say. You obviously have never felt the agony that depression deals some of us, it is indescribable. Smelling coffee? Sorry. It doesn’t matter to a depressed person. Telling a depressed person to “get rid of the negative thoughts and replace with positive is downright cruel. Look up in the sky and see the beauty is laughable. I guarantee you post will make a depressed person worse. You’re as bad as those who tell us “just get over it”. We cannot do that or we would. Maybe you’ve been depressed before but not severely. U wouldn’t have said the offensive things u said. Do not reply to me. You need to think before you give “advice” to depressed people. I would not bother reading your reply.

    • @vande8910
      @vande8910 16 дней назад +2

      @ ok, thanks 🙏

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  13 дней назад +2

      Thank you. Please visit again soon.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  13 дней назад +2

      ​@@almaconnor9171thank you for visiting and your kind words..

    • @almaconnor9171
      @almaconnor9171 13 дней назад +2

      Hi Living! How are you doing? Do you like to read? I listen to audio books on utube. I didn’t think I’d like it, but I found I LOVE it. The book is read to us. I like history, and I start listening and it’s very interesting and then I fall asleep, lol. It distracts us from our negative thoughts and plus u get a nap. A nap is wonderful. The way your husband left u is heartbreaking. And yes, this time of year is tough. Anniversary of my mother’s death, it still hurts so much. I try to be thankful for what I do have. My depression and anxiety is much better, thank God. I didn’t think it would ever go away. Oh, Living, my bed will ALWAYS be my favorite place. It’s my reward for doing even small things. But I MUST get moving first. Then I surprise myself when I actually get a good amount of things done. Don’t feel guilty about your bed. It is our haven. You take care sweet lady, I will be thinking about you and praying for you!

  • @myridean2k4
    @myridean2k4 18 дней назад +3

    My 5 weeks of what I call my emotional #RoundingCapeHorn is starting in a few weeks with the holiday period. Tonight, 6 and a half years ago, I lost my husband and best friend of 31 years. I've lost 7 relatives, including my mother died also 3.5 yrs ago.
    I've not any children but I lost 2 cats who my husband and I considered our fur-babies.
    I hear you and see you. I'm so sorry that you are going through this difficult period. Give yourself extra self-care during this time; you deserve it.

  • @Jendromeda
    @Jendromeda 18 дней назад +6

    i think the best thing to do on holidays is volunteer somewhere to help homeless people or physically and mentally challenged people. There are so many out there to volunteer to. I don't like the holidays with my extended family members, no one really gets along that well. Money and status and relationship issues....some have a lot of money and rub it in. Not nice. I spend time with my daughter, twice divorced. She has a disabled child. If i did not have them---i would volunteer especially at Thanksgiving, giving out food. They need me now, sometimes the holidays are very difficult for them, so i like to be there for them.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  17 дней назад +1

      @@Jendromeda oh most definitely. People can be much friendly at holiday. Thank you for visiting us.

  • @Orientalbackyardgarden
    @Orientalbackyardgarden 19 дней назад +9

    Oohh please, don't judge yourself so hard.
    You are very kind, honest and sincere.
    I feel for you, losing your son. It is very hard.
    But you are not alone, you have all of us, caring for you and listening to your interesting story.
    And you are a great story teller.
    We celebrate holidays here together ❤❤❤❤
    Take care and love to see your next video ❤❤❤❤❤

  • @joanshealy1662
    @joanshealy1662 12 дней назад +4

    You are a child of God you are never alone and you aren’t worthless! The Lord is always with you and he loves you ❤🙏

  • @amandahood7809
    @amandahood7809 12 дней назад

    Thank you for posting. Your raw honesty is refreshing. I'm very sorry for the loss of your only baby boy🩵
    I'm a new subscriber from watching this upload. You do you and I'll support you. ❤✨

  • @sophiaduarte745
    @sophiaduarte745 19 дней назад +4

    My Condolences on Your love One's passing.❤
    The Joy of the LORD is our Strength.❤️🌏🙏📖💯💐

  • @deanawells4395
    @deanawells4395 13 дней назад +1

    I find volunteering your time helping others always gives me joy.

  • @bordereau1
    @bordereau1 День назад +3

    Please don't ever give up. Life goes by and you should love yourself first. You are a creation of God and need to remember to do things for you!! Open the curtains and take my advice. Stop looking through the rearview mirror. Look through the windshield. I survived three types of cancer and almost (almost) lost hope. But YOU are worth it!!!! Love yourself, then you can love others❤❤❤❤❤

  • @DRAGONFLYmanor
    @DRAGONFLYmanor 18 дней назад +4

    Wrapping my arms around you! Loss is incredibly difficult! Hold tight tomorrow needs you! I’ve been there! Inch by inch! If you just breathe that is enough! Kindness towards yourself!

  • @desiderata333
    @desiderata333 20 дней назад +6

    I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your son. May he rest in Peace. how sad that you cannot see his children...that breaks my heart for you. God bless you.

  • @Annie4Always
    @Annie4Always 19 дней назад +4

    "Come to Me all you who labor & are heavy laden & I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you & learn of Me, for I am meek & lowly of heart, then you will find rest unto your soul. For My yoke is easy & My burden is light." Truly.. 'He restores my Soul." So sad to hear of your deep pain! You are in my thoughts & Prayers! God's blessings to you!

  • @lorileessmallworld
    @lorileessmallworld 20 дней назад +8

    I definitely know all about depression and anxiety. I can’t do what I use to because of COPD and lymph nodes removed because of cervical cancer. You are such a sweet lady. I am so sorry about your son. This last year my daughter has been struggling with horrible mental issues. My brother just found out he has cancer . It broke his hip. I cry a lot. I do have a husband and he is so great and understanding. He is my second husband my first one died. I also am trying to get those watch hours. I to need to do more videos. My prayers are with you Hugs

  • @coochalena2616
    @coochalena2616 18 дней назад +1

    When we change just one thought, things lighten up for us. We all have “coulda shoulda woulda.” Forgive yourself and live. One day at a time. Life will be what it is but we can change our thoughts about it. Blessings to you. ❤️

  • @mysteryandmeaning297
    @mysteryandmeaning297 19 дней назад +6

    Finally some depressed people to relate to lol. Well I been working on myself, nutrition, going to some online recovery meetings too, doing walking at parks. I'm alone a lot by force. Prayer in my room really helps and fixing it up in there to just be cozy and healing. Losing a son now that's a reason to be depressed as that's the worst pain. Your son wouldn't want you to still be so hurt but to find some peace for him and you. Live well for him he would like this i think. I know couples who are miserable lol so I feel alone but it could be worse dealing with a relationship these days. Maybe I hit the gym tomorrow. You got plan find things hobbies to do. I sat next to this gal at a meeting once and she moved away to another chair and said to everyone that she can't be near depressed persons wth. I can't imagine ever treating someone like that. It was mind blowing and I can't even process it in my thoughts. Hang in there everybody, If no one told you they care well I do.

  • @RachelHargraves-j5j
    @RachelHargraves-j5j 13 дней назад

    I happened upon your channel and I really enjoyed listening to you speak about your life. I am very sick with 3 autoimmune diseases and I’m on monthly Infusions. I spend sometimes a week in bed and it’s very depressing sometimes. I try to keep a good outlook , but it can be hard. My prayers to you this holiday season. Please keep your videos coming. You’ve got for sure got a new follower!! 😊

  • @luciamixon4156
    @luciamixon4156 20 дней назад +20

    I'm 62 never married and my complicated grief since 2010 and my complicated relationship with mom just passed. I make myself go to church, rosary and prayer class. Yesterday I couldn't make a prayer class fatigued and depressed. Watch Pastor Rick and try to walk 20 min every day in a safe place. Or sit outside. God bless you and all of us with similar circumstances. 🙏

    • @Denzelswife-rb7qz
      @Denzelswife-rb7qz 19 дней назад +1

      watch bishop bronner and pastor Phillip mitchell

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  13 дней назад +1

      Thank you for your kind words. Please visit again.

    • @barbaramelville337
      @barbaramelville337 6 дней назад

      So sorry for your pain 🙏🙏 ing for your healing 💝

    • @barbaramelville337
      @barbaramelville337 6 дней назад

      It's hard to get out now I live in NY the weather is going into the cold now I am stranded I can't get out now it's to cold.wish all well.​@@Denzelswife-rb7qz

  • @nonnanonna7287
    @nonnanonna7287 14 дней назад +1

    You are my hero for talking about this so openly. ❤

  • @doingmyownthing8616
    @doingmyownthing8616 20 дней назад +39

    Hahahaha girl you don't need to be The Travel Channel, you don't need to live in a fancy house or have the latest of anything in order for me to enjoy watching your content. I enjoy your channel because you are down to earth. I wasn't looking for fancy but someone i could relate to.

    • @jangriffin-fi1yx
      @jangriffin-fi1yx 19 дней назад +5

      Like what you wrote I feel same. Can't beat being yourself & honest. Wishing better times ahead for all ❤

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  13 дней назад +3

      Thank you. So glad you are my friend.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  13 дней назад +2

      ​@@jangriffin-fi1yxthank you for this visit.

    • @doingmyownthing8616
      @doingmyownthing8616 13 дней назад +2

      @@livinginthemoment1625 Always. You are a treasure.

    • @jangriffin-fi1yx
      @jangriffin-fi1yx 12 дней назад +2

      ​@@livinginthemoment1625❤ thank you & glad you are my friend 🤗 xx Keep doing your videos good to talk & vent keeps me sane lol😅 although my kids would probably disagree 😊 Yesterday has gone forgive yourself for anything you feel guilty or bad about. There wouldn't be a human being ever born who has never done something wished hadn't etc. We all cock up somewhere especially when younger & wish we hadn't. Remember the past is the past we can all only live for today. Everyday a new day we keep getting up putting 1 foot after the other. Keep telling yourself that you are as good as anyone else out there & that you & your loved one's are going to be ok in everyway, see it keep saying it till you believe it ❤ Might not seem it but there's always someone worse off in the world. We grieve off & on maybe for the rest of our days on earth...we are allowed to. I miss my wonderful Husband, my Mum & Dad wish we could have stayed together forever. I talk to them all all the time. I have always 🙏 believed in a Great Creator "God" but say all to their own, it suits me. I know you can't enforce your opinions onto others we all see things differently. No matter what has happened in my life I will never blame God ever. I thank God all the time for everything & more don't know what I would do without him. Try get up move around as much as you can helps wuth feeling down, even sitting standing good for the heart but pace yourself be kind & treat yourself maybe with a ☕ out once a week. Affirmations powerful tell yourself going good. I truly believe all our loved ones are safe in God's loving good care & that we all eventually meet up together again ❤

  • @tangelacarter6620
    @tangelacarter6620 5 часов назад +2

    Your life is way more interesting and realistic to me than watching someone travel to fancy places I can't afford to go. I'm subscribing.

    • @livinginthemoment1625
      @livinginthemoment1625  3 часа назад +2

      @@tangelacarter6620 Thank you for your honest and kind words. Very much appreciated. Glad you stopped by for a visit..🐶🐕🙂

  • @TedBates-b8u
    @TedBates-b8u 19 дней назад +10

    Hi Vicky. I saw other people call you by that name. I first want to say that as one who has lived with depression for 50 years, I can empathize with that. I know that having lost your dear son is a grief that won't go away. Maybe that is all I should say is that I understand how you feel although it is you who feel and no one can feel what you are going through like you. When I was 19 I was forced to drop out of college with a severe mental breakdown. I was ready to end my life, but in the midst of all this darkness, I became aware of a presence drawing me to Jesus. I didn't find Jesus. He found me and He drew me. Finally I was convinced that there was a God and He has a Son and I finally came. Now the mental strain I went through somehow damaged my brain. While I am much better, I still live with this and other health issues. I learned that God is not only Lord of the mountain tops, He is Lord of the valleys too. I met the Lord in the valley and because what I have gone through as a consequence of my illness, I know the Lord in a deeper and more personal way than have most. I don't have all the answers but I know that Jesus is One who will never leave you or abandon you. He said to His disciples, "I will not leave you as orphans. I will come to you" (John 14). There are friends who say they are friends, "but there is a Friend who sticks closer than a brother" (Proverbs). His name is Jesus. I recommend that you find someone you can confide in if you can rather than suffer isolation. People are relational beings. We do need interaction with others. My prayers are with you and I encourage you to perhaps pray and be honest with the Lord. Its my hope that as you do, He also will draw you as He has me. Ted

  • @LeeAnnCarlsted-uy1fr
    @LeeAnnCarlsted-uy1fr 16 дней назад

    Thank you for your video. I believe that it helped quite a few people. No one wants to talk about depression or anxiety, so if you do have it it is a very lonely and isolated feeling. I’m sorry for your many losses, and not just in November. I’m sure there are others throughout the year that can be disheartening for you. I’m glad you are seeing a doctor and that you are trying medications. They might not help everyone, but they might be helping you! Every point that you talked about in your video, I have experienced in one way or another. I am seeing a doctor and I have tried several medications but none have worked. I have what the medical community calls a disorder where nothing helps. Not therapists not medications not groups. I believe statistically it’s between 10 and 15% of the population that do not receive assistance or get any better with help for their depression and or anxiety. I’m so happy for the people that do get better, because no one would want to live like this. I also struggle through the holidays. It seems like the television starts the holidays sooner and sooner each year. Which makes my struggles longer and longer it seems. I have no family I have no friends I live alone I’m 63 years old and I do my level best to try to reach out to other people and be a good friend, but it just doesn’t work out. Then that makes me feel depressed and even more anxious. I am a Christian and I have been for as long as I can remember. I do lie in my bed in the dark for days at a time and I’ll just repeat Jesus’ name over and over and over. But nothing changes. Maybe one day it will? Or maybe this is my life until I’m called home to heaven? Again, thank you so much for your kind video and for being so honest and forthright. I really do believe you are helping a lot of people here!!
    Do Take care ~ 💗🙏

  • @DanasGardenRetreat
    @DanasGardenRetreat 16 дней назад +2

    You all get out there and get involved … so many other lonely people out there … volunteering is a great way to meet people

  • @wethenorth6437
    @wethenorth6437 19 дней назад +4

    HI Vicki, may I say that there is no one living on this planet who doesn't have some kind of regret if they're honest because none of us is perfect and life doesn't come with a handbook. You did the best you could with what you knew at the time and that is good enough please don't beat yourself up. I'm so sorry that you lost your son and I just want to say that you are not alone in your grief or your depression. Remember to just breathe and take one day at a time, give yourself grace and above all know that you are worthwhile and that you do matter. Sending you my sincere wishes for a brighter tomorrow.