separating from the love of my life is not what I expected. (40s diary)

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  • Опубликовано: 31 дек 2024

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  • @sudesnabasu
    @sudesnabasu 4 месяца назад +17

    Dear, I have no words to show you empathy. Some pains are 'soooo'
    personal. It's just understandable how much hardships you are going through. I just want to tell that, when any situational change occurs it breaks our routine and that's what makes us so agitated. It seems like we don't know what's next, making us nervous and anxious. The only medicine is time. When you will figure out your new comfortable routine it suffers much less.
    I salute the courage of filming your discomfort and emotions. I believe you definitely figure out your new situation. Sending you lots of ❤.

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      You are so so right … ❤️ it is the alienation and the not knowing of what will be.. finding myself in totally unfamiliar surroundings… and getting used to that definitely takes time… I will make sure to bring as much comfort and warmth into my life as possible 🌈 thank you for being a part of that energy with your gentle and caring presence… warm hugs to you 💕🫂✨ love, Nastja 🌸

    • @sudesnabasu
      @sudesnabasu 4 месяца назад

      @@EmbraceYourselfBaby ❤️🫂

  • @noellemaria5591
    @noellemaria5591 2 месяца назад

    'You weren't made for me. You were made to be free.' Wunderschön! Deine Videos UND deine Musik. Thank you for sharing all that with us. ♥️

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  2 месяца назад

      @@noellemaria5591 Danke liebe Noelle, dass du dir die Zeit nimmst mir zu schreiben🥰🥹 so liebe Worte, die mich tief berühren… eine ganz liebe Umarmung an dich 🤗💞🫂

  • @danifem
    @danifem 3 месяца назад +2

    So sad but brave at the same time. Going through something similar right now. Your words and bravery has giving me strength and helped me a to see my suffering and despair from a different angle. Thank you

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  3 месяца назад +1

      Is that you Daniel? 👀😊 I‘m so happy … thank you for saying that 🍀 and thank you for the deep conversation this evening. We will heal and come out stronger than before 💪🫂

  • @DarkPriestessJae
    @DarkPriestessJae 3 месяца назад +1

    This is a poem.
    Thank you for sharing the rawness and beauty of your journey.
    As someone who finds herself changing rapidly, 20 years into a relationship- I find myself in your former partners position. - Loving my partner so deeply, so used to his essence, but finding that I’m growing in a different direction.
    I don’t want this at all.
    I don’t want to start over.
    I don’t want to be without my best friend.
    But my soul leads me into an unknown path. I know the direction to travel in. But I’m simultaneously both terrified and lit up by the thought of it.
    I know it’s the right thing; but it doesn’t make it easy.

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  3 месяца назад +1

      Your comment reads like a poem, too.. and I think it’s no accident I received it today.. at my wedding anniversary…
      Thank you so much for your perspective and heartfelt words ..
      20 years is a really long time. Growing into a different directions and changes of identity is something foreseeable.. sometimes in order to stay connected it is necessary to go into our autonomy again. I was too blind, or maybe too scared to see that, but I am recognizing it, too…
      I wish you lots of strength on your new path. I know the position you’re in from my past relationships as well (though they were not that long). But I know that it takes lots of emotional work and courage.
      Thank you for being here and for sharing parts of your story with me. I appreciate it a lot ❤️
      Sending you a warm hug through this digital tube 🫂

    • @DarkPriestessJae
      @DarkPriestessJae 3 месяца назад

      @@EmbraceYourselfBaby Thank you so much for such kind and thoughtful words. Sending lots of love and positive energy your way as well. ❤️❤️

  • @lucywerner6947
    @lucywerner6947 Месяц назад

    Das berührt mich so so sehr....
    Sitze hier in der SBahn und stille Tränen des Mitgefühls laufen über meine Wangen.
    Dein Lied....
    Ich sende dir ganz viel Liebe und danke dir für deine Echtheit und dein Zeigen.

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  Месяц назад

      Ach Lucy… 🥹 wie schön ist es, dass der Algorithmus dich hier hin geführt hat 🙏💕 deine Worte berühren mich so sehr und zeigen mir, dass es sich lohnt sich hier Woche für Woche zu öffnen und auszudrücken 🦋🌱✨ Danke dir von Herzen 🫂 ich wünsche dir noch eine wunderschöne Woche und schicke ganz viel Liebe an dich zurück 🕊️♥️ Nastja

  • @CeeWilson-vf9kj
    @CeeWilson-vf9kj 4 месяца назад +3

    Not quite ready to watch this video (which is a sign that it's an important video for me) because of experiencing similarly painful feelings at the moment & not feeling able to look at them today. Lots and lots of love to you, this journey is so hard - thank you for inspiring and uplifting, despite (and because of) your own difficulties

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      I totally get it… it’s a painful process for sure… I wish you lots of strength on this journey… and I‘m sending lots of love and hugs to you - because I know what you are going through… 💞🌸💓

  • @StancyNova
    @StancyNova 4 месяца назад

    I love how you create your videos! Those flashbacks that you added… I know how it feels to be teleported through space and time into some moments.
    Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. That’s your power ❤
    It must be immensely hard to separate from someone you love deeply. But this is what your soul needs to go through in this lifetime. At least, this is what I tell myself when going through hard life experiences. You are learning so much on your way! Thank you for sharing this with us.
    I also loved the voiceover about change ❤ need to listen to that part again. It was so beautiful 😻

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад

      @@StancyNova Aaaaw thank you so much Nastja… 🥹💞 you know… what makes it especially difficult is our connection through our child. I didn’t talk about that because of privacy issues. There is so much organizational stuff to handle right now. It’s so overwhelming. That’s also why I didn’t find the time to reply to your email yet. Thank you so much for your empathy and compassion… you are so sweet, beautiful and an inspirational power woman ✨💪💓 love, Nastja

  • @marinat5137
    @marinat5137 4 месяца назад +1

    This was so beautifully narrated and shot!

  • @emeliewagner2970
    @emeliewagner2970 4 месяца назад +1

    Thank you so much for sharing this. I really needed to hear that. Thats beautiful

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад

      Thank you dear Emelie for telling me that 🥹💞🙏 makes me feel understood 🫂

  • @JulieElvenMusic
    @JulieElvenMusic 4 месяца назад +7

    Went through a breakup recently and your videos are therapeutic and soothing 💙

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +2

      I‘m so sorry you had to go through a breakup Julie. I hope you can heal and move towards a brighter future for yourself… 🍀☀️🌱 I feel so moved that my videos can give you some comfort on this journey🥹 thank you for letting me know… 💕

    • @JulieElvenMusic
      @JulieElvenMusic 4 месяца назад

      @@EmbraceYourselfBaby They really give comfort, and it's very reassuring how you are always keeping it "real" - showing both the beauty and pain you experience, as well as your thoughts. Thank you for everything 🫶🏼

  • @virginiavilas
    @virginiavilas 4 месяца назад +6

    Hang in there, N. 💛. As someone who has loved and lost - and loved Agiain (the Same Person - THREE times 😲), you just don’t know what The Universe has in store for you. The truth is LOVE is yours to keep alive in your heart - even through separation. When you Really understand this principle, you know that Love is never lost. It changes form, for sure. But Love is Love. 💕🩷💕🩷💕🩷💕 -V

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      @@virginiavilas oh V… I love your energy so much 🥰 and you know what I just listen to in the radio? The song “life is life”. And your quote fits perfectly to that…. Also, I know that the most beautiful things in life often are born out of pain. new life in general…
      I know all that with my head already. And now I’m starting to feel it with my heart… step-by-step. beat by beat.. it takes time. But I’m getting there… 🍀 much love to you 💓

    • @virginiavilas
      @virginiavilas 4 месяца назад

      @@EmbraceYourselfBaby 💕🩷💕

  • @majaangermuller3735
    @majaangermuller3735 4 месяца назад +1

    Das war ein sehr berührender Einblick in deine Seele und dein Erleben und ich wünsche Dir viel Kraft für die kommende Zeit. Vor einigen Tagen habe ich mit meinem Mann über den Tod gesprochen und er sagte interessanterweise etwas ähnliches, wie Du in dem Video: Der Mensch verlässt seine Form, seine Hülle, die Energie dahinter bleibt, auch wenn sich die "Ausrichtung" vielleicht ändert. Wir glauben beide sehr daran, und auch daran, dass zwei Menschen, die sich im Leben begegnen sollen, weil sie gemeinsame Lernmomente haben sollen, das wahrscheinlich auch in einem nächsten Leben machen werden. Und diesen Gedanken finden wir sehr tröstlich.

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      @@majaangermuller3735 das ist wunderschön und ergreifend… Danke liebe Maja… 💓 ich hatte im letzen Jahr auch sehr viel Berührung mit dem Thema Tod und Krankheit. Seitdem spüre ich immer mehr, dass es genauso ist wie dein Mann es gesagt hat. Bei meinem Papa (er ist dement) habe ich auch immer mehr das Gefühl, dass ein Teil von ihm schon wieder im Mutterleib ist… Es tröstet mich zu spüren, dass er nicht verschwindet, sondern sich verwandelt… 🌈 ich schicke dir eine ganz liebe Umarmung 🤗

  • @let9989
    @let9989 4 месяца назад +8

    This made me cry and smile. Thank you ❤

  • @Marla-i5u
    @Marla-i5u 4 месяца назад +3

    Wow, that was beautiful Nastja 🥰

  • @izza_vip
    @izza_vip 4 месяца назад +3

    A video that brought a smile to my face-and you know why, Nat? Because you never gave up. Even when everything seemed to be pushing you to tears, you fought so hard to find that one small thing that could bring you joy. You’ve built a life for yourself, one that’s better and more beautiful than before. That’s why you can share all those heartbreaking moments and challenges with us today.
    You are truly the best. ❤

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад

      Now your words brought a big smile to my face as well Izza… 🥹🥰 what goes around comes around… ♾️ thank you for your heartfelt and uplifting comment… I‘m grateful that you are part of my little community here and that we can support each other… sending you a big hug 🤗💞🌈🌱☀️

  • @itsfaiherself
    @itsfaiherself 4 месяца назад +4

    I can only imagine how difficult this must be for you!
    Separating from the love of your life is something no one ever truly expects or prepares for. But even in this heartache, know that your strength and resilience will carry you through❤️‍🩹This chapter may be closing, but it doesn’t define your story. You have so much love, light, and beauty within you that the world needs to see🪷Take all the time you need to heal and remember that it’s okay to grieve. Be patient with yourself, and trust that this chapter, while painful, is leading you toward a future filled with love, growth, and new beginnings that you can’t yet imagine🫂
    I always remind myself that I’m deeply grateful. I had the privilege of experiencing love. Everything in life eventually comes to an end, but that doesn’t diminish the beauty of what was. Just because something has ended doesn’t make it any less meaningful or extraordinary.

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      @@itsfaiherself thank you sweet Fai 🥹 you are truly an angel… 💞 knowing what you’re talking about… it’s weird that this technology can bring people with similar yet unique stories (like ours) together.. I’m looking so much forward to learn more about your story… and I will treasure these words you just wrote in my heart ❤️

  • @Pippppaxx
    @Pippppaxx 4 месяца назад +2

    sending so much love to you dear Nastja ❤

  • @SimonaWilliams-n1t
    @SimonaWilliams-n1t 4 месяца назад +3

    No puedes imaginar que fuerza me das con tus vídeos .cada ves que miro me siento mejor.eres una linda persona el dolor espero que pasara pronto 😔

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      @@SimonaWilliams-n1t Estoy muy feliz y honrada de que mis videos puedan darte algo de fuerza, Simona. Gracias por estar aquí con tu amable y gentil presencia. Significa mucho 💞🍀✨🙏

  • @alexpavlides2047
    @alexpavlides2047 4 месяца назад

    Thank you for sharing. It sounds like you had a deep connection. Its painful when you feel so close yet it still can't work. It does happen and it doesn't make sense.

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад

      @@alexpavlides2047 thank you Alex… yes… it’s hard to make sense out of it… but I want to trust that our relationship will transform into something else and we will keep our essence… still it hurts.. but then again: new life is often born out of pain.. so I won’t loose hope I guess :)

  • @twartist1411
    @twartist1411 4 месяца назад +1

    Sending you hugs full of tender sleep....close your eyes....and look at your beautiful self..exquisite. I'll be singing you a lullaby my friend.

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад

      I just love your gentle and poetic comments Tina 🥰 they always feel like a warm hug… 🫂 🌙 ✨ so happy you are here my friend 🙏💕

  • @melopepo
    @melopepo 4 месяца назад +2

    Sending you love

  • @davidmurphy1653
    @davidmurphy1653 4 месяца назад +2

    You will just have to find the positives to your separation there are many that are good blessings in disguise don't be discouraged by change you are love that what matters ❤❤

  • @LuxLisbon32
    @LuxLisbon32 4 месяца назад +2

    Costa coffee mug! Didn’t know you could buy them (Costa Coffee is a well known coffee shop chain in the UK).

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +2

      Oh really? 😅 I‘d have to ask my friends where they got it from…☕️

  • @ClancyKeegan-f4v
    @ClancyKeegan-f4v 4 месяца назад +2

    Psalm 23 🙏

  • @JRPGCollector
    @JRPGCollector 4 месяца назад +1

    it comes in waves is the best way I can explian how it feels but it will get better just keep doing self love its very important to focus on yourself at this moment in time.

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      @@JRPGCollector you are so right ❤️ I even have a video titled „sadness comes in waves“… and I‘m following your advice, for sure… thank you for reaching out 🫂

    • @JRPGCollector
      @JRPGCollector 4 месяца назад

      @@EmbraceYourselfBaby hey no problem at all.. I've lost love a few times so I'm very used to the pain and just hard times in general. Keep on going sweetheart you got this ❣️❣️

    • @JRPGCollector
      @JRPGCollector 4 месяца назад

      @@EmbraceYourselfBaby pain is the biggest and best teacher that brings so much wisdom and strength ✨✨it will pay off I promise

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      @@JRPGCollector ups I just send my comment twice 🙈 sorry :)

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      @@JRPGCollector thank you so much for your encouraging words… this means a lot 🙏🥹 pain has been my companion throughout my life and I‘m learning to turn it into purpose 🌱

  • @Kunstmann_Film
    @Kunstmann_Film 4 месяца назад +2

    I now couldn't sleep for three nights in succession (only about 2 hrs. per night but not straight- Wakey-sleepey-wakey) and it's funny/weird how you lose your marbles during those sleepless nights! I totally dreamed the weirdest stuff during those 20ish minutes that I basically passed out... Like whole adventures and lifetimes. I was fighting Zombie wolves and waking up from kicking the shit out of them...(this also happened with someone next to me but luckily not this time:)
    This will go away! I promised to myself: Tonight you will get a healthy 4 hrs- sleep! :)
    Beautiful Music but even better sound design! Gives me goosebumps again! (but maybe that's because of my sleep deprivation;) Big Hug!

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      I really hope for both of us that we will have a deep und restful sleep tonight. Sending you a big hug too 🫂🌙✨

    • @Kunstmann_Film
      @Kunstmann_Film 4 месяца назад

      @@EmbraceYourselfBaby 💤

  • @ReensaraiArtbyReenaS
    @ReensaraiArtbyReenaS 4 месяца назад +1

    your video❤is art❤witnessing you❤i am in a phase where i am confused and I don't know what's next❤and eventually it will be okay😇🙏🏽🔥because through this incertainty🤗we are creating

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      Yes we are Reena are 🌱🙌 thank you for being with me on this journey 🫂💞 wishing you a beautiful weekend ☀️ love, Nastja

    • @ReensaraiArtbyReenaS
      @ReensaraiArtbyReenaS 4 месяца назад

      ❤🎉❤​@@EmbraceYourselfBaby

  • @Unknight
    @Unknight 4 месяца назад +2

    HUG!

  • @pingupen.studio
    @pingupen.studio 4 месяца назад

  • @Kunstmann_Film
    @Kunstmann_Film 4 месяца назад +1

    Hurray for the Riff Raff (at least the version you introduced me to;) ❤

  • @jasonbroadcastsinabuckethat
    @jasonbroadcastsinabuckethat 4 месяца назад +12

    Hello Nastja. Powerful stuff. I found I had actually stopped breathing for a moment.... A stunning piece of art. You know, you are doing so amazingly well, you are so strong and I think you are doing exactly what you need to do. I am much further down the line on my single life journey and like you, I feel it is important to aknowledge how wonderful our past relationships have been. Just because you are 'not together' as such it doesn't mean you won't always have a place in your heart for each other, after all, as you say, you went through so much together. You can't erase history, embracing it is the kindest way forward. Believe me when I say it really helps with the healing. Sending you a huge hug , It will have to be virtual though as the postal service seems rubbish 🤣🫂📮x

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад

      This is a powerful comment Jason… coming from you - who is so incredibly strong and inspirational - I just feel blessed and grateful for our connection… :) I‘ll keep these words in my heart 💓 and also take a screenshot to keep them in my digital pocket ☺️ it’s always good for our healing to remind ourselves of what really matters… a huge hug back to you 🌈🧚‍♀️🦄🤗

    • @jasonbroadcastsinabuckethat
      @jasonbroadcastsinabuckethat 4 месяца назад

      @@EmbraceYourselfBaby ♥

    • @KirstenStella3
      @KirstenStella3 3 месяца назад +1

      Fresh from a breakup from 4 months ago. It's quite a ride. Thank you for this perspective. It's easier said than done of course but it reminded me so much of what love should be all about.

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  3 месяца назад

      @@KirstenStella3 thank you Rebeka ❤️ I wish you lots of strength for this difficult period 🙏 I hope you can heal soon 🌈 love, Nastja

  • @nk-1995-y4x
    @nk-1995-y4x 4 месяца назад +2

    ❤❤❤

  • @nk-1995-y4x
    @nk-1995-y4x 4 месяца назад +2

  • @raginald7mars408
    @raginald7mars408 4 месяца назад

    -... as a German Biologist - there never was any “LOVE”
    a Delusion
    It is a Reward Pattern in the Auto Pilot
    A Co Valent Bond is unbreakable
    this gives us POWWER to deal with anything...

  • @humbleviewpoint
    @humbleviewpoint 4 месяца назад +3

    stunnednowordscrying....

  • @ReensaraiArtbyReenaS
    @ReensaraiArtbyReenaS 4 месяца назад

    ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @shellycottrell433
    @shellycottrell433 4 месяца назад +1

    🥰🥲❤

  • @doulalina
    @doulalina 4 месяца назад

    You’re lucky to have had that long in a good relationship. I don’t think any of my partners loved me, most were abusive.

    • @EmbraceYourselfBaby
      @EmbraceYourselfBaby  4 месяца назад +1

      @@doulalina I’m so sorry about that Justine. That’s really terrible. I hope you can heal. I have had my share of abusive relationships as well, when I was younger. Some were really traumatizing and I’m still working through that til this day. So I am extremely aware of how lucky I was or am with the father of my child. Now, I wish for you that you’ll get all the unconditional love you deserve… sending you a big hug 🫂 Nastja