You can follow our GoFundMe here for updates: www.gofundme.com/jessicakrock I put together a list of some of the things I used in the video (including the ice packs for my hands and some of the anti-nausea tools): amzn.to/3C5nrjk *PLEASE NOTE: If you choose to purchase anything through this link, we receive a small commission at NO extra cost to you. All proceeds go back into making more content! A lot of people ask me how I’m doing. It’s hard to answer that question, especially now that I am going through chemotherapy. There are so many ups and downs. I’ve had three rounds of chemo now, and I have three more rounds to go. It feels weird to be halfway through, but it also feels like I’m not REALLY halfway through anything at all. We don’t know what lies next. Heck, at this point, we don’t even know if the chemo is working. So yes, I’m halfway through the six chemotherapy sessions we have planned, but there’s still a LONG road ahead. Every three weeks, I get a three hour infusion of Paclitaxel and 30 minutes of Carboplatin. The process takes about five to six hours altogether. Honestly, the infusion itself isn’t the part I dread. It’s the days after, as the fatigue and achiness take over my body, that I can never seem to prepare myself for. For today’s video, I wanted to share with you the process of going through chemo. It’s usually not a super dramatic process for me… I go in, get my blood checked, meet with the doctors, get my infusion, go home… and wait for the side effects to kick in. I try to enjoy any small moments I can before I just don’t feel like doing anything at all. It feels like a slow, but steady, weakening washing over my entire body. I usually hit a pretty low point mentally just before it starts to lift ever so slightly and the fog begins to clear. There are many more things I could share about chemotherapy. The video is just a small glimpse, but hopefully it gives you some idea of what I’m going through. As always, let us know if you have questions, and I’ll try to answer them in a future video. Thank you for the continued encouragement as I face this fight. I may not be able to respond to everyone or read every message, but it does help on those low days to know I’m not doing this alone. ❤
Thank you for sharing this! I wonder what they do with folks like myself who are allergic to the cold. Do they get just an ice pack covered in towels so they feel a slight cooling effect? Or just pump them full of benadryl the entire time?
Are there any chemo treatments where you get to stay in the hospital? If necessary, I'll be traveling for two hours to get to where I'm going. I don't have funds for a hotel, or an Airbnb&b
@jameswashington6899 There are some places like the Ronald McDonald House that puts people up, but I don't know their policies. You could also contact the patient help center at Mayo and see if they have any suggestions. If you are traveling with someone, they could drive you home after treatment is done. You will probably be tired from the treatment in the hours after, but it is safe to ride in a vehicle.
I’ve been through 6 months of chemo. It’s hard , but worth the fight. May the good Lord be with you. Mine was in 1991. I don’t know what your faith journey has been, but I promise you, if you give Jesus a chance, he will fill all those empty places. Much love and empathy.
When I did Chemo 7 years ago, keeping busy helped alot. Reading and helping others even just listening to some of the people around me in the chemo room. All this kept me away from the stinking thinking and on a more positive track. In the end giving all my woes over to God, who I believe is in control of it all anyway, I just kept my eye on the Sparrow, knowing God brings all things, yes ALL things to good to those who love him. Even if it doesn't look like the world's idea of good, God said we are not of this world because we have this faithfilled way of trusting in Him. Love and a hug to you both!! Read the bible about how healings came about, it's facinating
@ yes I did. It took about a year to regain strength after chemo. I wore a wig until my hair started growing back. God has been good to me. I am grateful for every day, every flower, every sunshiny day and even the tears. Life is an adventure. I carried my Bible with me during chemo treatments and listened to gospel sermons on tape , back then. Now the internet is such a great resource for help and encouragement .
My surgeon asked me to describe chemo to him. I remember saying, "It is like falling down a long hole and having to claw your way back up each time. You get to the top and then its time for another round." Blessings to you. Crying gets rid of spent cancer cells. That is my view!!
I had cancer in 2002. I had non-hormonal breast cancer. I had a bilateral mastectomy one side was a regular mastectomy the other side was the radical mastectomy. I went through six months of chemo. I'm doing fine. Chemo was no fun but I made it. 20 years cancer free. I am thankful and grateful everyday I wake up. Good luck to you.
That is so awesome! Did you make any life style changes? Like exercise everyday or change your diet? I was diagnosed with breast cancer in May. I just completed chemo and am now awaiting bilateral mastectomy surgery in December.
As a survivor I can promise you... everything you are feeling is normal and it WILL get better. I did 8 cycles. My last one was in March. It felt like if the cancer didn't kill me then the chemo would. It's so hard to see it right now but you will get through this. Your mind, body, and soul is on a journey of its own to heal and protect. You will be amazed at what you can endure when this is over. Life is so fragile yet we are so incredibly strong. Be brave. Feel your emotions, don't ignore them. Let your body do what it needs to do. It's going to be awful but I, and everyone else who has survived, can promise you... you WILL be you again. There is a method to the chemo chaos. Just hold on. You're halfway there.
Hey Jessica!! I'm a cancer survivor as well. I had colon cancer back in 2020, and after surgery I underwent 12 rounds of chemotherapy. It's true that we "forget" how awful chemo is and how it makes us feel. Everything you've described brought me right back. We're waiting for you to join the post-chemo club! You're gonna look back at this time and think *I DID THAT!!!* Sending you hugs for the bad days
I've recently finished my 6 chemo treatments and something you said was so important. If you feel something weird let them know. During my 1st treatment with Taxol I had a serious allergic reaction. 10 minutes in I got a pain shoot right up my spine so bad it took my breath away. They stopped the drip and gave me more allergy meds and started again. Another few minutes in I was on the phone to my husband (he wasn't allowed into the hospital due to Covid rules) and I all of the sudden couldn't breath. They stopped treatment again and put me on oxygen and upped the anti-allergy meds again and continued the treatment. Later that night the hives started. I went to the ER but nobody knew what was causing the hives. You could actually see the hives forming all over my body and then the swelling. They sent me home with more anti-allergy meds. Less than 12 hours later I was rush by ambulance to the hospital in heart failure, swollen all over and covered in hives. I was in the hospital for 5 days until I (with way too much time on my hands to research found the problem). Apparently, there is something in Taxol that some people can be allergic to that is rare. The one thing that can save my life I'm allergic to. Anyway, they changed my chemo and I finished out my treatments. I'm now on chemo pills and am in remission. Best of luck for your treatments.
I’m on the second round of chemo After round 1 they paused round2 for a week Now after round 2 they paused it again for round 3 all due to low white blood cell count Chemo makes you feel like sh#t the nausea is bad but after like 4 days it goes away Please anyone reading this hang in there There hope and good luck to everyone I notice when I don’t feel good I start thinking negative…and on days I feel good I think positive and I’m going to feel better and beat cancer…but hours awake at night my mind wonders into the negative I hate that…thank you for sharing it helps me see someone going thru the same bullsh#t Stay strong everyone there is hope
I'm 16 months into remission from metastatic colon cancer. It was hard watching this. I went through 17 chemo cycles total and it's really really hard to forget. The crash after chemo is rough but so are the sleepless nights of thinking. The ups and downs are so hard on top of the physical challenges. Hang in there and talk to your doctor about the depression.
Jessica, you are doing such a selfless service sharing your experience with others. Keep up the good fight. It will get better. You and Brian are in my prayers.
Dearest Jessica. There are many C survivors in my family. It is the toughest fight, but the reward is more life. Keep fighting and praying dear. You will conquer this.
Jessica, I haven't had cancer or gone through chemotherapy, but I can certainly identify with your feelings (I was severely injured). I experienced many of the same feelings you describe. Know that others have gone through similar emotions and understand where you're coming from. You're right--be kind to yourself (I wish I was kinder to myself when I was going through all that) and rely on Brian, your puppies, your parents, your friends, and this community to help support you, especially when your emotions are so low and you're so emotionally vulnerable. You are loved and we are all here for you.
My husband went through many rounds of chemo. He would focus on how it was fighting the cancer, giving him better days in the future. A few months after 6 rounds of chemo, we went on a hiking trip in France and Spain once he got his strength back. There are better days ahead. Drinking lots and lots of water (way more than you think) the days around chemo may help. Ice chips while the chemo is going on, the cup of ice chips is like ice packs.
I'm a nurse and I've had many surgical patients with nausea and (believe it or not) sniffing alcohol pads is very helpful for them. It's easy enough for you to try. You have a wonderful attitude and I'm certain your clean diet will help tremendously! Best wishes!!
Ah, prayers for you, Dear One. I am one month post chemo, 2 weeks post surgery, and everything you're feeling is spot-on and understandable. I felt lots of that too. The long nights of lying in bed waiting until sleep or the day comes are hard--I wondered about the same kinds of things during those times. I also found it very difficult to describe to others. It's a solitary experience in many ways even if you're surrounded by lots of people who love you. Hang in there, Friend. You are over halfway through. God bless. 💕
I recently thought to write a note of thanks to the developer of the chemotherapy that I had in 2007. Unfortunately, one of the doctors has died but one is alive and sent me a kind response. Somehow when I had cancer, I wasn't clear on the fact that if I had gotten the same cancer (hairy cell leukemia) before the chemo was developed in the 1980's, I would have had a life expectancy of 4 years. Instead, I'm healthy as a horse 16 years later. Also, the doctor who died was born in the 1920's as a German Jew. His family managed to get to the US in 1936, where he went on to develop my chemo drug, cladribine. It's a miracle that I'm here, and I try to remember to be grateful everyday. Cancer is quite a learning experience, but I would never wish it on anyone! Hang in there, Jessica!
I want to say how much I respect and admire you for sharing your cancer and chemo experience with us. It is raw and honest. Sending rainbows of positivity.
My aunt had around 22 rounds of chemo. She was diagnosed with breast cancer at 42 even tho she was getting yearly mammograms the mammogram did not pick it up they told her that her breast tissue was to dense & she's should of been having a type of digital scan. So she did not find it until it was large enough for her to feel and see. I just watched your other video where you discussed how Pap smears & ovarian cancer. So I wanted to say to every woman reading this - get to know your body & how it feels, be an advocate for your own health. Took me 6months of crying to the doc that something wasn't right before I was diagnosed with cancer. Never put it off because you think it's nothing! If one doc won't listen find one that will. We know our bodies & we know when something isn't right . If you don't know your body get to know it because that could save your own life.
You will feel differently after chemo is all over. After listening to you, I went back to my journal (which I started keeping midway through my chemo journey. As I read I realized I hardly remember exactly how bad it was. Each chemo treatment caused me more fatigue and more aches and pains as I went along. Yes chemo is a roller coaster. It is boring while you are getting infusions, so I would sleep (thanks to the benedryl), and then I would read a book. I love to read, so that helped. But it had to be light reading--I couldn't handle anything heavy that would help one think. I am praying for you and know that you are tough and that you'll make it through. There will be an end. I've been in remission for ten years. My cancer was Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma.
Dearest Jessica:,You are such an inspiration on so many levels. Putting all this out there in such an articulate and honest manner cannot be easy, but I trust you are and will be helping so many others who are/will be facing this journey. Thanks for all you and Brian do AND also a special Shout Out to your amazing husband Brian, a super mensch (as we say in my faith community) and videographer/producer extraordinaire.
I love your ice gloves. I just got several ice gloves and ice boots to wear for my chemo that I’m going to start on Friday. I’m gonna wheel it all in an a rolling ice chest. Hoping it keeps Neuropathy away.
Lets face it Jessica - it's a bunch of crap. Sometimes we just need to tell it how it is. All of your feelings are completely valid. I went through breast cancer myself and can identify with how you feel. Sending love and prayers your way - stay strong ❤
Dear Jessica, Been through three years of treatments before a successful treatment three years ago. I’ve experienced everything you’re going through. My heart reaches out to you and to your heart. Thank you for sharing your journey and helping so many others. Many prayers to you! ❤ Keep up your spirit and don’t let any doubt creep in! You can see do this!
Oh, interesting about the ice packs. My husband had a couple of the "platin" chemos when he had cancer a dozen years ago, and they did cause permanent neuropathy. The neuropathy is especially bad in his feet--although he does have a touch in his hands too--makes him into a "butterfingers". But despite this, TODAY my 74-year old husband offered to do something that he has never done before--paint my toenails!!! How could I have been married to this man for 55 years and never know he had this hidden skill! He did a surprisingly good job too! Hope you are able to keep the nausea away--thats the worst! It seems to magnify every other problem. Really hoping the next couple weeks provides some breathing room for you both to find joy in your days. And I'm sure your two little pups wil do their parts to make you happy! ❤
My son refers to my rehashing the past “what ifs” as “sunk cost” so when I start dwelling on it he says”sunk cost” to redirect on things to look forward to.. it helps me and I thought I’d share this as maybe it might help you too when you have days like that. Sending virtual hugs. You CAN do this!
That’s so funny to me because I explained the sunk cost fallacy (I love fallacies, there are so many!) to my son… it’s great you have yours to remind you of the futility of dwelling. Great kid!
I have a friend who went through chemo and she said a puff of pot totally eased the knot in her stomach. This is an older woman who doesn’t smoke pot but she tried everything to ease the nausea. Medical marijuana is legal but not certain about your state. Sending positive vibes and just do what you are doing, feeling the feels and being easy on yourself. Much love to you both.
I just had my second chemo a week ago today and your right the second one hit hard. I hope I do as well as your doing on my third. We are also doing the same kind of chemo taxol and carbo. I am also receiving Astivin a monoclonal. You are my inspiration (no pressure) haha. I haven’t had a problem with nausea much just a little. I do have some neuropathy in my hands n feet I tried the frozen gloves but that seem to hurt worse. Had a blood draw today numbers seem good. Stay strong sister. Love ya
On the same regimen of drugs every 3 weeks for endometrial cancer. Had round 4 on 9/21. I think you’re right when you say to be kind to yourself. Chemo brain has been upsetting. I’m still working at my job the days I feel able. I’m feeling all the feels too. Hang in there Jessica, you have many battle buddies rooting for you.
I wonder if on the days you are having the sadness if watching or listening to things that make you laugh would help. Thank you for sharing your journey. I continue to pray that you will be in remission soon and you can get back to life as you knew it.
Jessica, cancer SUCKS big time…period! I saw what my poor, wonderful husband went through when he had chemo and it was a roller coaster ride. It killed me that there was nothing I could do to ease his pain and discomfort that he was going through. But he was a fighter and made it through the chemo which such strength and grace. Sending you and Brian love and prayers for full recovery. May the good Lord bless you both. ❤️🙏
I have a sign on the wall of my washroom the says "Be kind and gentle to your heart." It seems so obvious but most of us need that reminder, especially during difficult times. Thanks for being so open and honest Jessica. I wish you light and laughter during your times of darkness, comfort during times of loneliness, peace during times of worry, and good health soon and for always. 🙏 (Ps- steroids, like dex, can mess with your mood; it's worse for some people than it is for others. I hope that is something your healthcare team monitors.)
I'm glad chemo isn't making you puking sick, just really fatigued. I went through six rounds of chemo for Stage 3C breast cancer in late 2009, and that's what it did to me ... reason being my blood count plummeted. I ended up having to have a transfusion. I hope it doesn't come to that for you! Your dogs are precious! My parents have had a few Spitz, which made me fall in LOVE with them, so I especially gasped when I saw Scout. 🥰
Today I had my 3rd chemo. Post menopause. Hysterectomy mid August for Uterine cancer. Found synchronous cancer (not spread) in Fallopian tube. For those times of insomnia and you are questioning yourself and what you may have done to cause this cancer please remember: YOU DID NOTHING TO CAUSE IT! There is nothing you could have done to prevent it, particularly at your age and stage of life. YOU DESERVE TO LIVE A LONG AND HAPPY LIFE! Chemotherapy sucks. The drugs literally kills off platelets, red & white blood cells (good stuff!) while attempting to destroy all cancerous and pre-cancerous cells anywhere in our body. Side effects are inevitable, the range of severity and response to mitigating therapies varies from person to person. Personally, I have had sensitivity reactions to Taxol during Chemo, not fun!, bouts of mild nausea for a few days after chemo followed by a couple of days of heavy fatigue. Dry mouth is a constant but at its worst within hours of chemo and slowly eases over the next few weeks. Extra care with oral and dental hygiene is crucial to preventing dental decay, mouth sores, and infections. Taste buds are also affected with many faves no longer appetizing. Chemo = being immunocompromised = me being fearful and self-isolating. Had hair cut off just as it began to fall out, still a bit of fuzz on the noggin along with a two week old mild rash. Cancer, the treatments, and the emotional roller coaster of dealing with it all can be awful. Right now I am looking at this as one more chapter in the story of my (hopefully) long life. Choosing to find and celebrate the positive. Remembering and honoring that family and friends are on this journey with me.
Dear Jessica ,thank you for sharing your cancer treatments with us. It is sad for me to watch you. My daughter will be going on this journey soon. She has stage 3 Anal cancer. Her treatment plan is intensive chemo and radiation. It helps a little to know she isn't alone in this. You are an inspiration and seem like a strong person. I wish you total recovery of this insidious disease. God bless you! ❤
O my gosh me too stage 3 rectal cancer I get my port Friday and chemo starts next week and I'm scared to death even thoe everyone says I'll be OK and haven't showed I'm scared but I'm SO scared
You’re brave. I went through 6 months of cancer treatments before I posted anything on FB. And then it was a picture of me with some of my family. I didn’t want to discuss it. I’m really impressed with how open you are. I’m still getting targeted treatments every 3 weeks. It’s given just like regular chemo except not so many side affects and therefore, not so many premeds. Because I had several allergic reactions, I get my treatment slower and I still receive Benadryl before. Thank goodness the regular chemo is finished. It didn’t look to me like you have a port. I’m so glad I have one. I numb it before treatment. It is all below the skin and then they just poke a needle through the skin. It’s so much easier than an IV. I’ll be receiving chemo treatments every 3 weeks for a little over a year. I’ve just reached the halfway point. Thanks for posting your journey. You get so many comments you probably won’t even read this. If you do, my thoughts and prayers are with you.
I completely understand what you are saying. I have 2 terminal diseases, diffuse systemic scleroderma and multiple myeloma. There are those days that we are challenged with our emotions. You are doing great to work through all of this. Positive energy coming your way. I was a licensed medical massage practitioner for 20 yrs and using ginger, peppermint etc are usually helpful. When you are sniffing the synergy go left/right, right/left under your nose this allows your senses to be stimulated and get the best bang for the buck. The scleroderma has no chemo or other modalities to stop its progression. We take meds that organ transplant patients take this slows the progression down but there is nothing to get rid of it. I declined treatment for the bone marrow, kidney ca, (multiple myeloma) because this would make my sclero go nuts and I don't wish to be that sick. Your choice with your ca is good and fingers crossed for you all will go positively, and you will have a long wonderful life! Thank you for taking the time to share your journey this will help many others!
I had leukeamia and lymphoma 2 years ago(Im greedy I guess, and couldnt just get one), and I went through 8 rounds of chemo, plus injections that my husband had to give me to counteract some of the side effects.....I hope that your journey is an easy one, and that your days ahead are positive and bright...you are brave, and strong, and you can do hard things....bless you dear lady, sending healing hugs and prayers to you
Watching you try to explain chemo and then giving up on a description, put years in my eyes. 2005 I did 8 rounds of chemo. You summed up chemo perfectly! You hit the mail on the head with your Sigh. You’ll probably also sigh 20 years from now when trying to explain chemo. Im praying for you and Brian as you move through this phase towards wellness!!!
I'm about to start pcv, found out I was dying last November and it sucks, especially because my chemo will only give me a little more time so hopefully i can see my daughter reach adulthood. chemo starts in three days and I'm petrified but this video is honest and helps a lot, thanks
I feel you. I had open heart surgery 3 years ago . Nearly the whole year was about Dr. Appointments, surgery ,recovery , pain , nausea Complications etc . In the moment I thought I’d always be like that. I’m not . I’m working and I’m doing exercise videos and I’m living a normal life . Can it happen again . Yes and from what I see with other people it often does. I’m just trying to stay in the moment . I’m saying prayers for you and Brian . God has a plan . ❤
During 6 rounds of chemo, things I found helped me were: chicken broth, pretzels, saltines, puddings (mouth sores). What I wasn't reminded about was mouth hygiene. You are more prone to cavities (dry mouth) and I had to have a lot of dental work after. I wish I would have known that ahead of time. Also, it is possible you can get dizzy. Hang on tight to stair railings, steps etc. to watch your balance. You're a CHAMP ... hang in there sweetie!!
Lavender makes me feel sick, but all of the mints helped They nurses had me sniffing them after surgery and it helped so much. Peppermint was my favourite, but they all helped immensely. Praying for you both. 💙💙
Chemo is definitely a roller coaster ride. I continue to pray for you and Brian and all of your family. Jessica, you are beautiful and strong. Thank you for sharing your journey. If you think of it, say a prayer for my daughter, Erin. She has a PET scan on Tuesday. Love you both
Thanks on behalf of everyone else who is or has went through a similar situation. Jessica is such a beautiful encouragement & inspiration to all your subscribers, family & friends and we all love 💕 you for that.
I went through 6 months of aggressive chemo therapy including “the reed devil. I lost my eye lashes and eyebrows along with all my body hair. I did great and worked every day. The “red devil” was rough. I also had radiation and was burned like BBQ meat but survived it all. Stay strong Jessica.
Thank you. Had my second treatment five days ago. I had the restless legs too, last treatment. My care team doesn't tell me much at all. I also have the neuropathy. it's more debilitating than the digestive issues and fatigue. You provide more information than my care team. I have stage 4b endometrial cancer. You're fortunate to be at the Mayo clinic. i'm in Arkansas and it's horrible. I'm requesting stuff for my palliative because they won't do much. I'm alone in this state and hoping to get back to Western NY to be near family and far better cancer treatment. I hope I make it to November. As you know, some days I feel I've got years and can't wait to camp and hike. Other days it doesn't feel I'll make it a month. Listening to you describe the side effects helps so much and give me hope.
In 2012 I was diagnosed with stage 3/4 Ovarian Cancer and was on chemo until Sept. 2018. I was diagnosed with Breast cancer in 2016 the chemo for the 2 cancers was about the same. Then in Sept 2018 I was diagnosed with anal cancer which was actually a life saver after 33 rounds of radiation it also killed the test of the Ovarian Cancer so today I am cancer free at the age of 69. I had DNA testing and I carry the defective Braca 1 gene and I am the last living female on my Mother's side of the family who has lived thru the Breast Cancer. The chemo can be a real witch but we women can take what it gives out. We just have to know. That it is worth the fight. I worked full time thru all of this til I was 65 and finally retired. We just have to keep fighting.
I love Oliver and I see dear Peef & friend in the distance. Just so you know, you have the most beautiful blue eyes and I’m so proud that you’re brave enough to share this journey with all of us. You’re changing the lives of people that you’ll probably never meet in person. You’re making a difference! Sweet girl, you are SO LOVED!!!
💕🙏🌟 you’re doing a great service sharing your ups & downs. It’s dispelling fear to know the real details instead of vague imaginings. As a depression sufferer I can assure you that “what’s the point?” Feeling is depression at its core. And I’ve learned that I don’t have to believe or listen to that voice. It’s just the depression talking, and it’s a liar. Saul on you brave and brilliant woman.
After chemo i had surgery (partial mastectomy) and then 25 sessions of radiation, the latter i found additionally challenging because of some “sunburn” but the fatigue that no amount of rest would slleviate. I still feel fatigue-not nearly as badly as before but its a long term thing as well as the aches from the irradiated muscles and tissue. It has forced me to listen to my body more and just slow down. I refer to my experiences as my year(s) of living dangerously. My husband was physically there for me but couldn’t begin to comprehend the depth of feelings good and bad so it becomes a journey of self. Your ideas of puppies and music and personal things to cheer you are good ideas.
Hello, I just found your channel the other day when I was looking for a way to cook my butternut squash that I grew. And then I saw that you got the cancer diagnosis. I watched today again & my heart aches for you. I’m so sorry; you are so strong & such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your journey. I send hugs & prayers your way.💕🙏🏼
So sorry to hear what a rough week it has been, Jessica. Just allow yourself to feel all the feels. You are incredibly gifted at communicating what you are going through: one day you will be able to look back and marvel at all you went through and know that it was all worth it. Sending love and strength to you and your wonderful husband
I stumbled upon your vlog a few months ago and I’m so glad I did. I haven’t commented yet, but just wanted to say that friends and relatives have told me that with each round of chemo, you get better at managing it. You learn what works and what doesn’t, and after a bit of trial and error you can head off most of the side effects before they begin. It might feel like the chemo’s not working, but it’s more likely that you’re simply learning how to manage it better. You’re doing so well! Hang in there.
The fact that you put this together to share with us while going through a very personal and traumatic experience is a testament to how awesome you are. ABSOLUTELY - be kind. Give yourself grace.. It applies here, during your cancer experience, but it's applicable for every other facet of life. I hope that you have smoother sailing to come. I apologize for asking if you've already shared, but how often do you have chemotherapy? Do you take any other chemo pills? Love to you guys.
I am a teal sister. Chemo does suck! But… eight years down the road I am still NDE. So hang in there sister! You will be in my thoughts and prayers as you face this. So many moments while watching your story I’m like yeah…. I remember. But you got this girl, I know it!❤ BTW, you have a Great husband there!
Hi Jessica, it’s not a fun journey but I am grateful I went through it and am on the other side. There was a point I told my family I didn’t want to continue the Chemo, they talked me into finishing the treatments, I’m glad I did and if I have Togo through it again I would do it. I see you have what looks like the cool mitts on your hands to help prevent hair loss and neuropathy. You just answered my question. I couldn’t stand having them on because it just made me too cold so I opted not to wear them. I did have neuropathy but it wasn’t bad and mostly went away and after three years post chemo and radiation I feel good with little side affects. I had a lot of chemo brain that has mostly cleared up too. One good thing from chemo is, I have not had to shave under my arms, the hair never came back there. Hang in there both of you, some day you will look back on this and be grateful you are cancer free.😘
Hi! Please know you are in my prayers everyday. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Thank you for being here and sharing your journey, for being so transparent in all the aspects of your journey. It is helping me understand so much. There are 9 family members with myself included. 7 of those 9 have cancer diagnosis of various kind. Myself and my little brother do not. An older brother was diagnosed at the end of August with esophageal cancer and is gearing up for his next round of chemo in a few days. The things you have shared have really enlightened me as to things that my family members may be going through or have gone through. I'm gaining insights as to what I may be able to do to help them thanks to you. I pray for strength and endurance as you meet each challenges along the way. I look forward to seeing you reach the end of your treatment phase and seeing you healthy again. You rock and I'm so thankful to have found you. Much love to you. 🌷
Jessica , I'm giving you a virtual hug. You are a wonderful young woman and I really wish you all the best. I'm glad you have excellent medical treatment and such loving support from Brian. Thank you for your openess and honesty.
My daughter had her 1st chemo the other day and had all the same medications as you and she was soooooo loopy from the benadryl it was nuts! She was also given two anti nausea pills to take at home for the two days after chemo, so far so good. She had a total hysterectomy with the omentum removed along with some spots taken from her liver and diaphragm. She will have a biopsy done ❤of both breasts on Monday, crossing our fingers they find nothing there. So we are just a few chemos behind you. You are a champ and doing awesome, Kick that cancer girl, you got this! I feel for your hubby with the chair situation, I to sat in a very uncomfortable chair for the six hours the chemo took. Seriously thinking about bringing a chair pad for the next one. I am sure my tailbone would appreciate it lol. They gave us a list for the up coming appointments, Amazing what you have to endure to get through all of them, so many back to back appointments.
I feel the same way I look at myself ugly after I shaved my head but hey! you're not alone we got this. I'm done with 2 rounds of chemo I still have 2 more to go. Sending you lots of love and hugs from California. I pray for your success and complete healing❤❤❤
This road is hard. Undoubtedly the hardest you will encounter. Do try and meet with a therapist or join a support group. You have us and obviously your family but a specific group or therapist will help you to talk through your feelings. Mental health and physical health go hand in hand and it’s important to treat both. Sending you much love and hugs, Jess! And yes, be kind to yourself. ❤❤❤
Jessica, give yourself permission to cry, you are fighting a battle. I was diagnosed with Breast cancer in July, and I’m old enough to be your mom. You will beat this, just keep fighting, and it’s okay to have bad days. It’s nothing you did! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤
I have been sporadically watching your videos for years and check in on you every now and then. I wish you all the best on this journey and may you be better soon!
12/12/2022. I pray that you’re doing better , you’ve always been so positive in your videos, so seeing you so sad breaks my heart. I must say it took me back to my feelings during chemo and I remember the sadness and the quiet I felt within myself. It’s just awful and there really is no other way to describe it. Keep your faith honey and keep moving if and when you can. The neuropathy is real…I still suffer from it 2 yrs. later. I am however cancer free. Much love 🥰
Your describing me. I’m higher than a kite 1 or 2 days. I fast 72 hrs around chemo so never get sick. But very tired and feel like it’s oozing out of skin for eight days. Hands feet numb. Aches. But not horrible. I get constipated but I do coffee enemas .
Give yourself some grace when you can. It is OK to take some time and let yourself feel what you feel. You do not have to be strong all the time! Hugs to you and Brian.
Thank you for sharing your journey, Jessica. I'm sorry you're having such a hard week, it sounds rough. I really hope next week is better. Sending big hugs! 💗💗
You don't look like an alien, you look absolutely beautiful, with hair or without. Besides the chemo, I hope you are feeling strong. Praying constantly.
Jessica, you are a strong woman keep talking it help others. My bf have chemo and she have a bad time getting up and dealing at times as well. But with the grace of God and her strength she's survived it and no more cancer😘 you are right stay kind to yourself 😘God bless you and hubby.🙂
My son survived Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia and the feelings of hopelessness will pass. I used to be angry that he was sick while everyone else was just living their normal lives. The worry and stress caused me a lot if physical ailments. The best thing you can do is try to enjoy the little things along the journey. Remind yourself that you are gaining strength and experience through this. I will send all the positive thoughts I can.
You are such a beautiful person to be able to share with the world, call the ups and downs you are experiencing.. I have so many questions and you have helped me a lot, and I pray I can be as strong as you are.. god bless you.. ❤️🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
When I was pregnant all 3 times I had hyperemisis gravardium with extreme nausea, zofran was a godsend but I was still sick. I recommend, weirdly, candy canes. For some reason the peppermint really helps the nausea, they also had me take a combo of b6 and unisom, which supposedly helps. I tried the sea bands, they kinda helped. You are so brave for going through this plus doing it and filming it. I am sending you hugs.❤️
Jessica, the gray acupressure wrist bands helped to relieve my pregnancy nausea within 24 hours. In fact the nausea was gone completely. I had the nausea all the time for the first 6 months of my pregnancy. Best wishes for you and your family. 💕🌸
Jessica you are very insightful and I am certain anyone going thru chemo or any phase of their cancer journey will benefit from this no nonsense video. 3 down and no delays with blood counts etc. Things are going as well as expected. I hope the next scan has positive news and that will make the rest of the treatments easier to take. Thanks for this update.
Thanks for being honest. I am doing chemo and I understand fully. I dread it. The side effects are not easy to handle. It makes me sick. Just have a few days feeling good then next infusion. I am on my 4th infusion on 14/10/24. Trust you are well.❤
Everything that you're feeling is so normal when it comes to chemo and I just think you're handling it so well sorry I'm leaving so many comments I'm just so impressed with how you're dealing with this and I just want you to know that there are so many of us out here that are rooting for you I can't wait to see your hair start growing back I love to see you still smiling and being positive through such a tough time you're a beautiful person.
Jessica, I love the look without the hat. You now look like one of those very artsy people. The intentional bald head, cool glasses, and giving off a tough girl vibe. You go girl! This might be difficult now, but in a few years you will look back on this time as a learning experience. Sending nothing but positive thoughts.
You are doing so well. Stay positive you got this. I am so proud of you. I was treated at Barnes Jewish. My period did stop. Cool to hear has not. Sending you love and positivity. You look beautiful!!!
Jessica both you and Brian are in my daily prayers. I am a retired oncology nurse, and all your feeling are normal most of my. Patients had a lot of the same feelings and reactions. I had several family and friends that I took to their chemotherapy and radiation therapy. It’s not easy .❤❤🙏🙏
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A lot of people ask me how I’m doing. It’s hard to answer that question, especially now that I am going through chemotherapy. There are so many ups and downs.
I’ve had three rounds of chemo now, and I have three more rounds to go. It feels weird to be halfway through, but it also feels like I’m not REALLY halfway through anything at all. We don’t know what lies next. Heck, at this point, we don’t even know if the chemo is working.
So yes, I’m halfway through the six chemotherapy sessions we have planned, but there’s still a LONG road ahead.
Every three weeks, I get a three hour infusion of Paclitaxel and 30 minutes of Carboplatin. The process takes about five to six hours altogether. Honestly, the infusion itself isn’t the part I dread. It’s the days after, as the fatigue and achiness take over my body, that I can never seem to prepare myself for.
For today’s video, I wanted to share with you the process of going through chemo. It’s usually not a super dramatic process for me… I go in, get my blood checked, meet with the doctors, get my infusion, go home… and wait for the side effects to kick in. I try to enjoy any small moments I can before I just don’t feel like doing anything at all.
It feels like a slow, but steady, weakening washing over my entire body. I usually hit a pretty low point mentally just before it starts to lift ever so slightly and the fog begins to clear.
There are many more things I could share about chemotherapy. The video is just a small glimpse, but hopefully it gives you some idea of what I’m going through. As always, let us know if you have questions, and I’ll try to answer them in a future video.
Thank you for the continued encouragement as I face this fight. I may not be able to respond to everyone or read every message, but it does help on those low days to know I’m not doing this alone. ❤
Continuing to send good thoughts for you and Brian. Healing prayers 🙏🙏🙏
Thank you for sharing this! I wonder what they do with folks like myself who are allergic to the cold. Do they get just an ice pack covered in towels so they feel a slight cooling effect? Or just pump them full of benadryl the entire time?
Continuing sending thoughts and prayers🙏🙏
Are there any chemo treatments where you get to stay in the hospital? If necessary, I'll be traveling for two hours to get to where I'm going. I don't have funds for a hotel, or an Airbnb&b
@jameswashington6899 There are some places like the Ronald McDonald House that puts people up, but I don't know their policies. You could also contact the patient help center at Mayo and see if they have any suggestions. If you are traveling with someone, they could drive you home after treatment is done. You will probably be tired from the treatment in the hours after, but it is safe to ride in a vehicle.
I’ve been through 6 months of chemo. It’s hard , but worth the fight. May the good Lord be with you. Mine was in 1991. I don’t know what your faith journey has been, but I promise you, if you give Jesus a chance, he will fill all those empty places. Much love and empathy.
Well said.
When I did Chemo 7 years ago, keeping busy helped alot. Reading and helping others even just listening to some of the people around me in the chemo room. All this kept me away from the stinking thinking and on a more positive track. In the end giving all my woes over to God, who I believe is in control of it all anyway, I just kept my eye on the Sparrow, knowing God brings all things, yes ALL things to good to those who love him. Even if it doesn't look like the world's idea of good, God said we are not of this world because we have this faithfilled way of trusting in Him.
Love and a hug to you both!!
Read the bible about how healings came about, it's facinating
Did you lose your hair
@ yes I did. It took about a year to regain strength after chemo. I wore a wig until my hair started growing back. God has been good to me. I am grateful for every day, every flower, every sunshiny day and even the tears. Life is an adventure. I carried my Bible with me during chemo treatments and listened to gospel sermons on tape , back then. Now the internet is such a great resource for help and encouragement .
My surgeon asked me to describe chemo to him. I remember saying, "It is like falling down a long hole and having to claw your way back up each time. You get to the top and then its time for another round." Blessings to you. Crying gets rid of spent cancer cells. That is my view!!
I had cancer in 2002. I had non-hormonal breast cancer. I had a bilateral mastectomy one side was a regular mastectomy the other side was the radical mastectomy. I went through six months of chemo. I'm doing fine. Chemo was no fun but I made it. 20 years cancer free. I am thankful and grateful everyday I wake up. Good luck to you.
So encouraging to hear your cancer free
That is so awesome! Did you make any life style changes? Like exercise everyday or change your diet? I was diagnosed with breast cancer in May. I just completed chemo and am now awaiting bilateral mastectomy surgery in December.
As a survivor I can promise you... everything you are feeling is normal and it WILL get better. I did 8 cycles. My last one was in March. It felt like if the cancer didn't kill me then the chemo would. It's so hard to see it right now but you will get through this. Your mind, body, and soul is on a journey of its own to heal and protect. You will be amazed at what you can endure when this is over. Life is so fragile yet we are so incredibly strong. Be brave. Feel your emotions, don't ignore them. Let your body do what it needs to do. It's going to be awful but I, and everyone else who has survived, can promise you... you WILL be you again. There is a method to the chemo chaos. Just hold on. You're halfway there.
Really powerful words, thank you!
Survivor here as well. You are so right! It’s a journey like no other!
After chemo, am now Doladex and Zometa, prostate cancer, the battle continues,all will be well in Jesus's name.
Thank you for sharing. I'm done with 2 rounds of chemo 2 more to go. Sending lots of love and hugs from California..❤❤❤❤
My final chemo today, will be ringing that bell. Stay strong and you be done !
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I beat stage 4 throat cancer ! I pray for strength and peace for you as you fight this battle! God bless you!!
God bless
Hey Jessica!! I'm a cancer survivor as well. I had colon cancer back in 2020, and after surgery I underwent 12 rounds of chemotherapy. It's true that we "forget" how awful chemo is and how it makes us feel. Everything you've described brought me right back. We're waiting for you to join the post-chemo club! You're gonna look back at this time and think *I DID THAT!!!* Sending you hugs for the bad days
Which stage?
I've recently finished my 6 chemo treatments and something you said was so important. If you feel something weird let them know. During my 1st treatment with Taxol I had a serious allergic reaction. 10 minutes in I got a pain shoot right up my spine so bad it took my breath away. They stopped the drip and gave me more allergy meds and started again. Another few minutes in I was on the phone to my husband (he wasn't allowed into the hospital due to Covid rules) and I all of the sudden couldn't breath. They stopped treatment again and put me on oxygen and upped the anti-allergy meds again and continued the treatment. Later that night the hives started. I went to the ER but nobody knew what was causing the hives. You could actually see the hives forming all over my body and then the swelling. They sent me home with more anti-allergy meds. Less than 12 hours later I was rush by ambulance to the hospital in heart failure, swollen all over and covered in hives. I was in the hospital for 5 days until I (with way too much time on my hands to research found the problem). Apparently, there is something in Taxol that some people can be allergic to that is rare. The one thing that can save my life I'm allergic to. Anyway, they changed my chemo and I finished out my treatments. I'm now on chemo pills and am in remission. Best of luck for your treatments.
I’m on the second round of chemo
After round 1 they paused round2 for a week
Now after round 2 they paused it again for round 3 all due to low white blood cell count
Chemo makes you feel like sh#t the nausea is bad but after like 4 days it goes away
Please anyone reading this hang in there
There hope and good luck to everyone
I notice when I don’t feel good I start thinking negative…and on days I feel good
I think positive and I’m going to feel better and beat cancer…but hours awake at night my mind wonders into the negative I hate that…thank you for sharing it helps me see someone going thru the same bullsh#t
Stay strong everyone there is hope
I'm 16 months into remission from metastatic colon cancer. It was hard watching this. I went through 17 chemo cycles total and it's really really hard to forget. The crash after chemo is rough but so are the sleepless nights of thinking. The ups and downs are so hard on top of the physical challenges. Hang in there and talk to your doctor about the depression.
Jessica, you are doing such a selfless service sharing your experience with others. Keep up the good fight. It will get better. You and Brian are in my prayers.
Dearest Jessica. There are many C survivors in my family. It is the toughest fight, but the reward is more life. Keep fighting and praying dear. You will conquer this.
Jessica, I haven't had cancer or gone through chemotherapy, but I can certainly identify with your feelings (I was severely injured). I experienced many of the same feelings you describe. Know that others have gone through similar emotions and understand where you're coming from. You're right--be kind to yourself (I wish I was kinder to myself when I was going through all that) and rely on Brian, your puppies, your parents, your friends, and this community to help support you, especially when your emotions are so low and you're so emotionally vulnerable. You are loved and we are all here for you.
My husband went through many rounds of chemo. He would focus on how it was fighting the cancer, giving him better days in the future. A few months after 6 rounds of chemo, we went on a hiking trip in France and Spain once he got his strength back. There are better days ahead. Drinking lots and lots of water (way more than you think) the days around chemo may help. Ice chips while the chemo is going on, the cup of ice chips is like ice packs.
I'm a nurse and I've had many surgical patients with nausea and (believe it or not) sniffing alcohol pads is very helpful for them. It's easy enough for you to try. You have a wonderful attitude and I'm certain your clean diet will help tremendously! Best wishes!!
Ah, prayers for you, Dear One. I am one month post chemo, 2 weeks post surgery, and everything you're feeling is spot-on and understandable. I felt lots of that too. The long nights of lying in bed waiting until sleep or the day comes are hard--I wondered about the same kinds of things during those times. I also found it very difficult to describe to others. It's a solitary experience in many ways even if you're surrounded by lots of people who love you. Hang in there, Friend. You are over halfway through. God bless. 💕
I recently thought to write a note of thanks to the developer of the chemotherapy that I had in 2007. Unfortunately, one of the doctors has died but one is alive and sent me a kind response. Somehow when I had cancer, I wasn't clear on the fact that if I had gotten the same cancer (hairy cell leukemia) before the chemo was developed in the 1980's, I would have had a life expectancy of 4 years. Instead, I'm healthy as a horse 16 years later. Also, the doctor who died was born in the 1920's as a German Jew. His family managed to get to the US in 1936, where he went on to develop my chemo drug, cladribine. It's a miracle that I'm here, and I try to remember to be grateful everyday. Cancer is quite a learning experience, but I would never wish it on anyone! Hang in there, Jessica!
I want to say how much I respect and admire you for sharing your cancer and chemo experience with us. It is raw and honest. Sending rainbows of positivity.
My aunt had around 22 rounds of chemo. She was diagnosed with breast cancer at 42 even tho she was getting yearly mammograms the mammogram did not pick it up they told her that her breast tissue was to dense & she's should of been having a type of digital scan. So she did not find it until it was large enough for her to feel and see. I just watched your other video where you discussed how Pap smears & ovarian cancer. So I wanted to say to every woman reading this - get to know your body & how it feels, be an advocate for your own health. Took me 6months of crying to the doc that something wasn't right before I was diagnosed with cancer. Never put it off because you think it's nothing! If one doc won't listen find one that will. We know our bodies & we know when something isn't right . If you don't know your body get to know it because that could save your own life.
You will feel differently after chemo is all over. After listening to you, I went back to my journal (which I started keeping midway through my chemo journey. As I read I realized I hardly remember exactly how bad it was. Each chemo treatment caused me more fatigue and more aches and pains as I went along. Yes chemo is a roller coaster. It is boring while you are getting infusions, so I would sleep (thanks to the benedryl), and then I would read a book. I love to read, so that helped. But it had to be light reading--I couldn't handle anything heavy that would help one think. I am praying for you and know that you are tough and that you'll make it through. There will be an end. I've been in remission for ten years. My cancer was Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma.
Dearest Jessica:,You are such an inspiration on so many levels. Putting all this out there in such an articulate and honest manner cannot be easy, but I trust you are and will be helping so many others who are/will be facing this journey. Thanks for all you and Brian do AND also a special Shout Out to your amazing husband Brian, a super mensch (as we say in my faith community) and videographer/producer extraordinaire.
I love your ice gloves. I just got several ice gloves and ice boots to wear for my chemo that I’m going to start on Friday. I’m gonna wheel it all in an a rolling ice chest. Hoping it keeps Neuropathy away.
Lets face it Jessica - it's a bunch of crap. Sometimes we just need to tell it how it is. All of your feelings are completely valid. I went through breast cancer myself and can identify with how you feel. Sending love and prayers your way - stay strong ❤
Dear Jessica,
Been through three years of treatments before a successful treatment three years ago. I’ve experienced everything you’re going through. My heart reaches out to you and to your heart. Thank you for sharing your journey and helping so many others. Many prayers to you! ❤ Keep up your spirit and don’t let any doubt creep in! You can see do this!
Oh, interesting about the ice packs. My husband had a couple of the "platin" chemos when he had cancer a dozen years ago, and they did cause permanent neuropathy. The neuropathy is especially bad in his feet--although he does have a touch in his hands too--makes him into a "butterfingers". But despite this, TODAY my 74-year old husband offered to do something that he has never done before--paint my toenails!!! How could I have been married to this man for 55 years and never know he had this hidden skill! He did a surprisingly good job too! Hope you are able to keep the nausea away--thats the worst! It seems to magnify every other problem. Really hoping the next couple weeks provides some breathing room for you both to find joy in your days. And I'm sure your two little pups wil do their parts to make you happy! ❤
My son refers to my rehashing the past “what ifs” as “sunk cost” so when I start dwelling on it he says”sunk cost” to redirect on things to look forward to.. it helps me and I thought I’d share this as maybe it might help you too when you have days like that. Sending virtual hugs. You CAN do this!
That’s so funny to me because I explained the sunk cost fallacy (I love fallacies, there are so many!) to my son… it’s great you have yours to remind you of the futility of dwelling. Great kid!
I have a friend who went through chemo and she said a puff of pot totally eased the knot in her stomach. This is an older woman who doesn’t smoke pot but she tried everything to ease the nausea. Medical marijuana is legal but not certain about your state. Sending positive vibes and just do what you are doing, feeling the feels and being easy on yourself. Much love to you both.
I just had my second chemo a week ago today and your right the second one hit hard. I hope I do as well as your doing on my third. We are also doing the same kind of chemo taxol and carbo. I am also receiving Astivin a monoclonal. You are my inspiration (no pressure) haha. I haven’t had a problem with nausea much just a little. I do have some neuropathy in my hands n feet I tried the frozen gloves but that seem to hurt worse. Had a blood draw today numbers seem good. Stay strong sister. Love ya
On the same regimen of drugs every 3 weeks for endometrial cancer. Had round 4 on 9/21. I think you’re right when you say to be kind to yourself. Chemo brain has been upsetting. I’m still working at my job the days I feel able. I’m feeling all the feels too. Hang in there Jessica, you have many battle buddies rooting for you.
Praying for you, Valerie. Sending love and support your way. 💗🫂💗
We are all in your corner. 💪
@@fareebug8439 thank you
Jessica, i'm right there with you. Three rounds of chemo done. Stage 3 breast cancer. We will kick cancer's butt!
Your comment was from 2 years ago. I hope you are okay
@dianajames4717 thank you, i'm still here :)
@janyrose i wonder if I skip chemo if my cancer will come back. I don't want chemo
Nothing but prayers sent your way! You are so ridiculously strong.
I wonder if on the days you are having the sadness if watching or listening to things that make you laugh would help. Thank you for sharing your journey. I continue to pray that you will be in remission soon and you can get back to life as you knew it.
Jessica, cancer SUCKS big time…period! I saw what my poor, wonderful husband went through when he had chemo and it was a roller coaster ride. It killed me that there was nothing I could do to ease his pain and discomfort that he was going through. But he was a fighter and made it through the chemo which such strength and grace. Sending you and Brian love and prayers for full recovery. May the good Lord bless you both. ❤️🙏
I have a sign on the wall of my washroom the says "Be kind and gentle to your heart." It seems so obvious but most of us need that reminder, especially during difficult times. Thanks for being so open and honest Jessica. I wish you light and laughter during your times of darkness, comfort during times of loneliness, peace during times of worry, and good health soon and for always. 🙏 (Ps- steroids, like dex, can mess with your mood; it's worse for some people than it is for others. I hope that is something your healthcare team monitors.)
I'm glad chemo isn't making you puking sick, just really fatigued. I went through six rounds of chemo for Stage 3C breast cancer in late 2009, and that's what it did to me ... reason being my blood count plummeted. I ended up having to have a transfusion. I hope it doesn't come to that for you!
Your dogs are precious! My parents have had a few Spitz, which made me fall in LOVE with them, so I especially gasped when I saw Scout.
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Today I had my 3rd chemo. Post menopause. Hysterectomy mid August for Uterine cancer. Found synchronous cancer (not spread) in Fallopian tube.
For those times of insomnia and you are questioning yourself and what you may have done to cause this cancer please remember: YOU DID NOTHING TO CAUSE IT! There is nothing you could have done to prevent it, particularly at your age and stage of life. YOU DESERVE TO LIVE A LONG AND HAPPY LIFE!
Chemotherapy sucks. The drugs literally kills off platelets, red & white blood cells (good stuff!) while attempting to destroy all cancerous and pre-cancerous cells anywhere in our body. Side effects are inevitable, the range of severity and response to mitigating therapies varies from person to person. Personally, I have had sensitivity reactions to Taxol during Chemo, not fun!, bouts of mild nausea for a few days after chemo followed by a couple of days of heavy fatigue. Dry mouth is a constant but at its worst within hours of chemo and slowly eases over the next few weeks. Extra care with oral and dental hygiene is crucial to preventing dental decay, mouth sores, and infections. Taste buds are also affected with many faves no longer appetizing. Chemo = being immunocompromised = me being fearful and self-isolating. Had hair cut off just as it began to fall out, still a bit of fuzz on the noggin along with a two week old mild rash.
Cancer, the treatments, and the emotional roller coaster of dealing with it all can be awful. Right now I am looking at this as one more chapter in the story of my (hopefully) long life. Choosing to find and celebrate the positive. Remembering and honoring that family and friends are on this journey with me.
Dear Jessica ,thank you for sharing your cancer treatments with us. It is sad for me to watch you. My daughter will be going on this journey soon. She has stage 3 Anal cancer. Her treatment plan is intensive chemo and radiation. It helps a little to know she isn't alone in this. You are an inspiration and seem like a strong person. I wish you total recovery of this insidious disease. God bless you! ❤
Many prayers for your daughter. 🙏🙏🙏❤️
@@Anastashya Thank you dear. ❤
O my gosh me too stage 3 rectal cancer I get my port Friday and chemo starts next week and I'm scared to death even thoe everyone says I'll be OK and haven't showed I'm scared but I'm SO scared
Many prayers for you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
You’re brave. I went through 6 months of cancer treatments before I posted anything on FB. And then it was a picture of me with some of my family. I didn’t want to discuss it. I’m really impressed with how open you are. I’m still getting targeted treatments every 3 weeks. It’s given just like regular chemo except not so many side affects and therefore, not so many premeds. Because I had several allergic reactions, I get my treatment slower and I still receive Benadryl before. Thank goodness the regular chemo is finished. It didn’t look to me like you have a port. I’m so glad I have one. I numb it before treatment. It is all below the skin and then they just poke a needle through the skin. It’s so much easier than an IV. I’ll be receiving chemo treatments every 3 weeks for a little over a year. I’ve just reached the halfway point. Thanks for posting your journey. You get so many comments you probably won’t even read this. If you do, my thoughts and prayers are with you.
I completely understand what you are saying. I have 2 terminal diseases, diffuse systemic scleroderma and multiple myeloma. There are those days that we are challenged with our emotions. You are doing great to work through all of this. Positive energy coming your way. I was a licensed medical massage practitioner for 20 yrs and using ginger, peppermint etc are usually helpful. When you are sniffing the synergy go left/right, right/left under your nose this allows your senses to be stimulated and get the best bang for the buck. The scleroderma has no chemo or other modalities to stop its progression. We take meds that organ transplant patients take this slows the progression down but there is nothing to get rid of it. I declined treatment for the bone marrow, kidney ca, (multiple myeloma) because this would make my sclero go nuts and I don't wish to be that sick. Your choice with your ca is good and fingers crossed for you all will go positively, and you will have a long wonderful life! Thank you for taking the time to share your journey this will help many others!
I had leukeamia and lymphoma 2 years ago(Im greedy I guess, and couldnt just get one), and I went through 8 rounds of chemo, plus injections that my husband had to give me to counteract some of the side effects.....I hope that your journey is an easy one, and that your days ahead are positive and bright...you are brave, and strong, and you can do hard things....bless you dear lady, sending healing hugs and prayers to you
Watching you try to explain chemo and then giving up on a description, put years in my eyes.
2005 I did 8 rounds of chemo. You summed up chemo perfectly! You hit the mail on the head with your Sigh. You’ll probably also sigh 20 years from now when trying to explain chemo.
Im praying for you and Brian as you move through this phase towards wellness!!!
I'm about to start pcv, found out I was dying last November and it sucks, especially because my chemo will only give me a little more time so hopefully i can see my daughter reach adulthood. chemo starts in three days and I'm petrified but this video is honest and helps a lot, thanks
I feel you. I had open heart surgery 3 years ago . Nearly the whole year was about Dr. Appointments, surgery ,recovery , pain , nausea Complications etc . In the moment I thought I’d always be like that. I’m not . I’m working and I’m doing exercise videos and I’m living a normal life . Can it happen again . Yes and from what I see with other people it often does. I’m just trying to stay in the moment . I’m saying prayers for you and Brian . God has a plan . ❤
During 6 rounds of chemo, things I found helped me were: chicken broth, pretzels, saltines, puddings (mouth sores).
What I wasn't reminded about was mouth hygiene. You are more prone to cavities (dry mouth) and I had to have a lot of dental work after. I wish I would have known that ahead of time. Also, it is possible you can get dizzy. Hang on tight to stair railings,
steps etc. to watch your balance. You're a CHAMP ... hang in there sweetie!!
Lavender makes me feel sick, but all of the mints helped They nurses had me sniffing them after surgery and it helped so much. Peppermint was my favourite, but they all helped immensely. Praying for you both. 💙💙
Chemo is definitely a roller coaster ride. I continue to pray for you and Brian and all of your family. Jessica, you are beautiful and strong. Thank you for sharing your journey. If you think of it, say a prayer for my daughter, Erin. She has a PET scan on Tuesday. Love you both
🙏 for Erin.
@Belinda Knowles, I’ll be saying a prayer for your daughter Erin, God bless her. 🙏
@@marilenaamarelo2593 thank you so much❤️
@@carolinagurl22 thank you so much❤️
Thanks!
Thanks on behalf of everyone else who is or has went through a similar situation. Jessica is such a beautiful encouragement & inspiration to all your subscribers, family & friends and we all love 💕 you for that.
I went through 6 months of aggressive chemo therapy including “the reed devil. I lost my eye lashes and eyebrows along with all my body hair. I did great and worked every day. The “red devil” was rough. I also had radiation and was burned like BBQ meat but survived it all. Stay strong Jessica.
Thank you. Had my second treatment five days ago. I had the restless legs too, last treatment. My care team doesn't tell me much at all. I also have the neuropathy. it's more debilitating than the digestive issues and fatigue. You
provide more information than my care team. I have stage 4b endometrial cancer. You're fortunate to be at the Mayo clinic. i'm in Arkansas and it's horrible. I'm requesting stuff for my palliative because they won't do much. I'm alone in this state and hoping to get back to Western NY to be near family and far better cancer treatment. I hope I make it to November. As you know, some days I feel I've got years and can't wait to camp and hike. Other days it doesn't feel I'll make it a month. Listening to you describe the side effects helps so much and give me hope.
In 2012 I was diagnosed with stage 3/4 Ovarian Cancer and was on chemo until Sept. 2018. I was diagnosed with Breast cancer in 2016 the chemo for the 2 cancers was about the same. Then in Sept 2018 I was diagnosed with anal cancer which was actually a life saver after 33 rounds of radiation it also killed the test of the Ovarian Cancer so today I am cancer free at the age of 69. I had DNA testing and I carry the defective Braca 1 gene and I am the last living female on my Mother's side of the family who has lived thru the Breast Cancer. The chemo can be a real witch but we women can take what it gives out. We just have to know. That it is worth the fight. I worked full time thru all of this til I was 65 and finally retired. We just have to keep fighting.
I'm so glad that you have Scout and Oliver. Fur babies can be a fantastic tonic. Take Care. ❤️
I love Oliver and I see dear Peef & friend in the distance. Just so you know, you have the most beautiful blue eyes and I’m so proud that you’re brave enough to share this journey with all of us. You’re changing the lives of people that you’ll probably never meet in person. You’re making a difference! Sweet girl, you are SO LOVED!!!
💕🙏🌟 you’re doing a great service sharing your ups & downs. It’s dispelling fear to know the real details instead of vague imaginings. As a depression sufferer I can assure you that “what’s the point?” Feeling is depression at its core. And I’ve learned that I don’t have to believe or listen to that voice. It’s just the depression talking, and it’s a liar. Saul on you brave and brilliant woman.
After chemo i had surgery (partial mastectomy) and then 25 sessions of radiation, the latter i found additionally challenging because of some “sunburn” but the fatigue that no amount of rest would slleviate. I still feel fatigue-not nearly as badly as before but its a long term thing as well as the aches from the irradiated muscles and tissue. It has forced me to listen to my body more and just slow down. I refer to my experiences as my year(s) of living dangerously. My husband was physically there for me but couldn’t begin to comprehend the depth of feelings good and bad so it becomes a journey of self. Your ideas of puppies and music and personal things to cheer you are good ideas.
Hello, I just found your channel the other day when I was looking for a way to cook my butternut squash that I grew. And then I saw that you got the cancer diagnosis. I watched today again & my heart aches for you. I’m so sorry; you are so strong & such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your journey. I send hugs & prayers your way.💕🙏🏼
Praying for you, Jessica. I'm giving you the biggest virtual strength hug ever right now.
So sorry to hear what a rough week it has been, Jessica. Just allow yourself to feel all the feels. You are incredibly gifted at communicating what you are going through: one day you will be able to look back and marvel at all you went through and know that it was all worth it. Sending love and strength to you and your wonderful husband
I stumbled upon your vlog a few months ago and I’m so glad I did. I haven’t commented yet, but just wanted to say that friends and relatives have told me that with each round of chemo, you get better at managing it. You learn what works and what doesn’t, and after a bit of trial and error you can head off most of the side effects before they begin. It might feel like the chemo’s not working, but it’s more likely that you’re simply learning how to manage it better.
You’re doing so well! Hang in there.
I love your updates .. and you are NOT ugly .. geez! 💜💜💜💜💜
You are so strong. You will beat this!! Love and prayers💜💜
I’m so glad you can share so authentically. I think about you so often. Many blessings ❤️❤️❤️
The fact that you put this together to share with us while going through a very personal and traumatic experience is a testament to how awesome you are. ABSOLUTELY - be kind. Give yourself grace.. It applies here, during your cancer experience, but it's applicable for every other facet of life. I hope that you have smoother sailing to come. I apologize for asking if you've already shared, but how often do you have chemotherapy? Do you take any other chemo pills?
Love to you guys.
I am a teal sister. Chemo does suck! But… eight years down the road I am still NDE. So hang in there sister! You will be in my thoughts and prayers as you face this. So many moments while watching your story I’m like yeah…. I remember. But you got this girl, I know it!❤ BTW, you have a Great husband there!
Thanks Jessica for being so raw and honest about your feelings. You are helping so many people who feel alone. Love you and wish you the very best!
Hi Jessica, it’s not a fun journey but I am grateful I went through it and am on the other side. There was a point I told my family I didn’t want to continue the Chemo, they talked me into finishing the treatments, I’m glad I did and if I have Togo through it again I would do it. I see you have what looks like the cool mitts on your hands to help prevent hair loss and neuropathy. You just answered my question. I couldn’t stand having them on because it just made me too cold so I opted not to wear them. I did have neuropathy but it wasn’t bad and mostly went away and after three years post chemo and radiation I feel good with little side affects. I had a lot of chemo brain that has mostly cleared up too. One good thing from chemo is, I have not had to shave under my arms, the hair never came back there. Hang in there both of you, some day you will look back on this and be grateful you are cancer free.😘
Hi! Please know you are in my prayers everyday. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Thank you for being here and sharing your journey, for being so transparent in all the aspects of your journey. It is helping me understand so much. There are 9 family members with myself included. 7 of those 9 have cancer diagnosis of various kind. Myself and my little brother do not. An older brother was diagnosed at the end of August with esophageal cancer and is gearing up for his next round of chemo in a few days. The things you have shared have really enlightened me as to things that my family members may be going through or have gone through. I'm gaining insights as to what I may be able to do to help them thanks to you. I pray for strength and endurance as you meet each challenges along the way. I look forward to seeing you reach the end of your treatment phase and seeing you healthy again. You rock and I'm so thankful to have found you. Much love to you. 🌷
Jessica , I'm giving you a virtual hug. You are a wonderful young woman and I really wish you all the best. I'm glad you have excellent medical treatment and such loving support from Brian. Thank you for your openess and honesty.
My daughter had her 1st chemo the other day and had all the same medications as you and she was soooooo loopy from the benadryl it was nuts! She was also given two anti nausea pills to take at home for the two days after chemo, so far so good. She had a total hysterectomy with the omentum removed along with some spots taken from her liver and diaphragm. She will have a biopsy done ❤of both breasts on Monday, crossing our fingers they find nothing there. So we are just a few chemos behind you. You are a champ and doing awesome, Kick that cancer girl, you got this! I feel for your hubby with the chair situation, I to sat in a very uncomfortable chair for the six hours the chemo took. Seriously thinking about bringing a chair pad for the next one. I am sure my tailbone would appreciate it lol. They gave us a list for the up coming appointments, Amazing what you have to endure to get through all of them, so many back to back appointments.
I feel the same way I look at myself ugly after I shaved my head but hey! you're not alone we got this. I'm done with 2 rounds of chemo I still have 2 more to go. Sending you lots of love and hugs from California. I pray for your success and complete healing❤❤❤
I'm starting the same meds on Tuesday. Thanks for sharing your journey. 💜
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This road is hard. Undoubtedly the hardest you will encounter. Do try and meet with a therapist or join a support group. You have us and obviously your family but a specific group or therapist will help you to talk through your feelings. Mental health and physical health go hand in hand and it’s important to treat both. Sending you much love and hugs, Jess! And yes, be kind to yourself. ❤❤❤
Jessica, give yourself permission to cry, you are fighting a battle. I was diagnosed with Breast cancer in July, and I’m old enough to be your mom. You will beat this, just keep fighting, and it’s okay to have bad days. It’s nothing you did! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤
I have been sporadically watching your videos for years and check in on you every now and then. I wish you all the best on this journey and may you be better soon!
12/12/2022. I pray that you’re doing better , you’ve always been so positive in your videos, so seeing you so sad breaks my heart. I must say it took me back to my feelings during chemo and I remember the sadness and the quiet I felt within myself. It’s just awful and there really is no other way to describe it. Keep your faith honey and keep moving if and when you can. The neuropathy is real…I still suffer from it 2 yrs. later. I am however cancer free. Much love 🥰
The trees are a lot more colorful here in Northern Illinois. Praying for you, Jessica.
Your describing me. I’m higher than a kite 1 or 2 days. I fast 72 hrs around chemo so never get sick. But very tired and feel like it’s oozing out of skin for eight days. Hands feet numb. Aches. But not horrible. I get constipated but I do coffee enemas .
Give yourself some grace when you can. It is OK to take some time and let yourself feel what you feel. You do not have to be strong all the time! Hugs to you and Brian.
Thank you for sharing your journey, Jessica. I'm sorry you're having such a hard week, it sounds rough. I really hope next week is better. Sending big hugs! 💗💗
You don't look like an alien, you look absolutely beautiful, with hair or without. Besides the chemo, I hope you are feeling strong. Praying constantly.
Jessica, you are a strong woman keep talking it help others. My bf have chemo and she have a bad time getting up and dealing at times as well. But with the grace of God and her strength she's survived it and no more cancer😘 you are right stay kind to yourself 😘God bless you and hubby.🙂
I would love daily vlogs from you. Also, thanks for sharing.
My son survived Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia and the feelings of hopelessness will pass. I used to be angry that he was sick while everyone else was just living their normal lives. The worry and stress caused me a lot if physical ailments. The best thing you can do is try to enjoy the little things along the journey. Remind yourself that you are gaining strength and experience through this. I will send all the positive thoughts I can.
You are such a beautiful person to be able to share with the world, call the ups and downs you are experiencing.. I have so many questions and you have helped me a lot, and I pray I can be as strong as you are.. god bless you.. ❤️🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
When I was pregnant all 3 times I had hyperemisis gravardium with extreme nausea, zofran was a godsend but I was still sick. I recommend, weirdly, candy canes. For some reason the peppermint really helps the nausea, they also had me take a combo of b6 and unisom, which supposedly helps. I tried the sea bands, they kinda helped. You are so brave for going through this plus doing it and filming it. I am sending you hugs.❤️
Jessica, the gray acupressure wrist bands helped to relieve my pregnancy nausea within 24 hours.
In fact the nausea was gone completely. I had the nausea all the time for the first 6 months of my pregnancy.
Best wishes for you and your family. 💕🌸
Jessica you are very insightful and I am certain anyone going thru chemo or any phase of their cancer journey will benefit from this no nonsense video. 3 down and no delays with blood counts etc. Things are going as well as expected. I hope the next scan has positive news and that will make the rest of the treatments easier to take. Thanks for this update.
Thanks for being honest. I am doing chemo and I understand fully. I dread it. The side effects are not easy to handle. It makes me sick. Just have a few days feeling good then next infusion. I am on my 4th infusion on 14/10/24. Trust you are well.❤
You are such a lioness. You are aceing it. These moodswings will come and go. Fully expected! You are loved and we have you back!
I’m so sorry you have to go through this - and I’m so grateful that you have access to great care.
Everything that you're feeling is so normal when it comes to chemo and I just think you're handling it so well sorry I'm leaving so many comments I'm just so impressed with how you're dealing with this and I just want you to know that there are so many of us out here that are rooting for you I can't wait to see your hair start growing back I love to see you still smiling and being positive through such a tough time you're a beautiful person.
Oh my gosh your dogges are sooooo stinkin cute!! Glad you can bring them along.
My thoughts and prayers are with you Jessica. 🙏You have a lot of courage and you will get through this💕
Jessica, I love the look without the hat. You now look like one of those very artsy people. The intentional bald head, cool glasses, and giving off a tough girl vibe. You go girl! This might be difficult now, but in a few years you will look back on this time as a learning experience. Sending nothing but positive thoughts.
I wore seabands when I was pregnant. They definitely helped me with morning sickness.
Have been waiting for this to see how you're doing, thanks for the update!
You are doing so well. Stay positive you got this. I am so proud of you. I was treated at Barnes Jewish. My period did stop. Cool to hear has not. Sending you love and positivity. You look beautiful!!!
Sending prayers for you, Jessica! 🙏
Bless you sweetheart I had Hodgkins lymphoma 9 years ago prayers for healing and recovery
Jessica both you and Brian are in my daily prayers. I am a retired oncology nurse, and all your feeling are normal most of my. Patients had a lot of the same feelings and reactions. I had several family and friends that I took to their chemotherapy and radiation therapy. It’s not easy .❤❤🙏🙏