butterfly’s repose » zabawa (one hour)
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- Опубликовано: 21 сен 2024
- !! I KNOW I GOT THE SONG TITLE WRONG, IM SORRY !!
i do not claim the song i just thought a one hour version would be nice!
please don’t copyright me, i do NOT own any rights to the song “butterfly’s repose by zabawa ” so please don’t take this down-
the pic is not mine i found it on pinterest
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hi, everyone! i am well aware that the title in the video is different from the description and actual title. i’m not sure if it autocorrected to response but i know very well that it is wrong and i apologize, but i cant change it, so uh, yeah! i hope you all are having a good day. ily all
You are wonderful
i'm still alive because you want me to be. That part just hits different
ever since ive heard this song ive had this dream of a beautiful woman singing it to me and how it was like living with her but at one point in the dream she passed from cancer but those last words she said was "dont worry dear..."
ever since i drew her and i will never forget her
That’s beautiful, I’ve read something where soulmates dreamed of each other like that but it wasn’t just a dream, it was real.
Maybe this woman was alive or maybe it was just a thing your brain knew you needed
ive had the same dream
show drawing
it’s 12:45 a.m. and i’m just crying while listening to this song. i just feel so empty...
Currently 2:22 am and quarantine has my sleep schedule messed up! it will be okay soon I promise! 🥺
if you need someone o talk im here
It's 12:35 a.m. ur not alone! I'm crying too!
You're strong, I'm proud of you for making it this far.
It's 1:45 atm and this is the best song ever
to everyone who might’ve stubbled onto this comment just know you are an amazing person. whatever you may be going through believe me it’s going to be hard, but you’ll make it through i promise. don’t give up even when it feels like the whole world is against you. there is someone out there who loves you, cares for you, and wouldn’t be able to live without you. stay strong for them. you can make it through. i believe in you ✨💕
Thank you, I really needed this. I love you too, keep going and being you.
Have a nice day :)
this song brings so much comfort and beauty that makes me cry my eyes out. when she says “it’s not your time to fly now” it makes me feel important to stay on earth and that someone cares that i’m here. i’ve thought of self-harm and suicide and this song reminds me and gives me reasons to stay here
Take care, you deserve to be happy and you’ll be
Thank you for this, perfect for crying 10/10 will loop
this is good for everything. studying, crying, sleeping, eating... not even kidding
i use this for literally everything
using this to sleep/cry right now 👍🏽
I love the song so much but it always makes me cry
it just hurts y’know. like everything just hurts, my body,my soul, my heart all of it. i just really want it to be all over and maybe then j wouldn’t feel so much pain. maybe if i wasn’t here everything would just be easier for the people i’m around. no, i know it would be easier for them because i’m a fucken burden on them. but i’m scared. i’m scared to go because i don’t wanna hurt the people i love. i don’t want them to feel the pain. sometimes i think that maybe feeling numb would just be better. i just don’t wanna feel anymore. i don’t wanna be here. what’s the point? i have no purpose to be here. i’m at consent war with myself. i get it, i know i should get help but idk where to go or who to go to cause i don’t wanna be anymore of a burden i don’t wanna worrying anyone with my problems. but y’know i love you. i love all of you. whoever you are are, wherever you are, i care about you. you’re amazing and loved, and hopefully for you and i, things will get better. i love you.
I love you too. Just hang in there. It will be alright
Please don't give up. Even of you feel like you want to, don't. I went through the same, I know it's hard not to give up. It's so tempting, but please don't. It really, REALLY isn't worth giving up. Please keep going because you'll meet people that like you for you eventually, trust me. I still haven't really find 'real' friends, the kind of friends that care enough to ask how your doing once in a while, but it's ok. We need to remember it will get better, and yeah, it might take some time, but we got this.
Your not a burden to anyone.
You do matter.
I care, even if they don't.
You are beautiful.
You are smart.
People do notice.
You don't deserve hate.
You don't deserve pain.
You do deserve better.
It will get better.
YOU. ARE. ENOUGH.
never forget this.
Please.
I know I'm just some girl on the internet, but please, don't give up.
If not for you, then for me. Don't give up. For me. Give me hope, so I could give you hope as well.
I love you. I care. I notice. I love hanging out with you.
If I didn't care, I wouldn't write this, but I am. Please, do not give up.
I believe in you. I'm proud of you.
I'm so incredibly proud of you.
I love you.
- Dani
Hey..If god. Actually. If YOU had no purpose..Why do you wake up each morning? Just to suffer? No... You DO have a purpose. You just don't know it. That's why you feel sad. You feel empty. You feel like you have no purpose because you lost it. You lost it. And you can't find it. So now you want to end it all. Why? Why not look for it? Why haven't you died yet?!? If you really had no purpose...Why? Why are you like this? Whatever your going through doesn't mean you have to end it? YOU IDIOT. You would've died a long time ago. But you didn't. You didn't fail your chance just yet. You just have a few more days...A few more days until' you have the urge to die. But listen here. IGNORE IT. IGNORE IT. We have to ignore it and keep on going. Life might not seem like a paradise. Imagine. Imagine it is. Take the time we have now. AND CHANGE YOUR LIFE! Change it. Change all of your thoughts. Change your suffering. Change your bad mind. CHANGE IT! Then you'll be fine. You'll love life. You don't have to hate it. You decide to. You decide to die. You decide you want to leave this world. I care about you. I care about your mental state.. You might not right now. But please.. Don't die just yet! TRUST YOURSELF AND CHANGE THIS...~ Random human
Don't give up, love. I know I'm not.
@@ro1203 I love this so much 🥺 It is gonna be okay I hope 😔
Lyrics:
You don't have to speak
Don't need to talk to me
Baby, I already know
The shadows in your head
They've got you down again
Got you feelin' low
But it's time to rest, now
Let it all melt now
Wipe your tears
The sun's already set, now
Won't you go to sleep, now?
I'll see you in your dreams
'Cause I'm right here
Darlin', I'm right here
Close your pretty eyes, my butterfly
Baby, have no fear
The future's lookin' bleak
Your will to live is weak
But honey, hold on for me
I know that you're an angel
But it's not your time to fly, now
We need you here on earth
Stay right here
I'll stay here with you, my dear
Look up to the sky and know
I am still alive
Because you want me to be
Remember, my dear
You're strong
You're loved
You're beautiful, so beautiful
And you belong here on Earth
I love you
Ally Middleton thank youuu
Thanks queen!!!👑👑
'im alive because you want me to be' 'the shadows in your head, theyve got you down again' 'your will to live is weak, but honey, hold on for me...' 'you future is looking bleak' wow. those parts hit hard and different.
But the song name is butterfly's repose :(
Yeah..
SHAENA OKTAVIA BT BUDI HARTONO I do be confused doe,...
I didn't notice it till now , I always said response
hi, thank you for telling me, i changed it, well, i cant change the text on the video but thank you for letting me know!!
Alexis Alonso Oh ok ty!
If you guys think this is sad, listen to this song when it’s slowed.
Your eyes, but make it a ✨W A T E R F A L L✨
My dog just passed away she was 11 and a half years old, she was diagnosed with cancer and we put her down to stop her from suffering this song reminds me of her so much, shes been there for me through the hard and easy times, " 'cause I'm right here
Darling im right here. " close your pretty eyes my butterfly, baby im right here." just hits me hard with the feeling of emptiness because I loved her so much. So whenever I hear this song I start to cry but its such a beautiful song too so I don't want to. Willow 2008-2020
I’m so sorry for your loss and I hope you’re feeling better now.
I don’t know if you believe in heaven but I think she’s taking care of you and watching you from there
this song makes me feel loved and beautiful and it’s as if mother nature is singing to me and it makes me feel safe... i feel empty and whenever i’m thinking about leaving this earth i listen to this:)
I'm going to cry all night,because I really need this.
You dont understand how much i needed this song
This is very easily the most beautiful song in this entire world ive never in my life heard a song that could pull me out of my depression and suicidal tendencies like this song can . i love this ❤
I’m happy because you’re alive, I hope you still feel better
i never cried so much to a song.. this one really speaks to me :(
When she says “cuz I’m right here” hits me so hard
People who listen to this song have:
The best imaginations💫🍂🦋
Who care too much and gets hurt the most🖤
Wants to get their visions out there🎟
Feels love and connections that most people can’t 💫
Secretly knows they have magic inside them🦋
Wants to look at the stars and see the beauty on the planet🌌
And one of the few angels on the earth 🤍
if you’re reading this.
It’s going to be okay, hold on for now put away your insecurities, and the negative energy you feel, and read this carefully
You deserve the world that’s why you were put in it, I know things can be rough, I understand even though I’m not in your situation it’s going to be okay you have such a beautiful soul
And I hope you have found the one to share that with or even I hope you have yourself
I hear your wishes through the stars, and I hope soon they are granted
Please stay it’s going to be ok
If you need to rant please comment
It’s going to be okay you have such a beautiful soul I can feel it
🤍🤍🤍
I’m in so much appreciation like I couldn’t skip this comment without thanking you and saying I love you 😘❤️💕
I feel special now 🙂
This comment is underrated
This song is the only thing that can comfort me fully. It doesn't make me feel judged when I cry to it or when I talk my feelings out.
hey angel! how are you now?
this is the only thing that’s keeping me here. this song gives me comfort yet i feel empty. i’m crying like a baby. the sad thing is that this song is more here for me than my whole family.
it really is...
I hope things get easier if they haven't yet. you deserve love, keep your chin up
This song reminds me of a koto, you hear it’s song saying words but you also feel a story behind it, like how u share your emotions through music when you can’t speak. And a koto just does the same
Julie Anderson honestly yes i think your right it does
Thank you for making a almost 1 hour audio I’ve been looking for one!
Hey, stay alive okay? We need you here
no❤️
@@stonerbih420 are you feeling better?
@@stonerbih420 you have a purpose to be here, I love you 💘
Please never let yourself give up. It’s always okays to seek guidance and support from others if you cant find it yourself. Everything will be okay. Sometimes the people who don’t even know you exist, will be the same ones that can save your life. Please remember that.
thank you, i needed this. all my friends hang out without me like i don’t exist :’(
@@bugfairy you have to be strong and to love yourself
You’re alive and you’ll be happy !
Your comment is really beautiful and helpful, thank you
i just dont know what i want, i thought about that in my head and imagined telling that to someone and u thought that maybe a few people would tell me to think of what i need. but everything would just be blank. it feels home "here" when i go out but when i go "in" my heart just hurts, it reminds me of how unhappy i was "there" or "everywhere" where "in" was, was my escape place. now i dont even know where i can go to not think of anything at all. if i go "there" and give it another shot maybe it can become my new escape. most things "here" is too painful for me. this song rlly has this special spot in me that makes me feel better about everything, i feel calm. so whoever reads this, i love you:)
I feel you, but know that it does get better. I know I'm just some girl on the internet, but it does get better.
Trust me, it does. I believe in you. Whoever you are, I love you too.
Have a nice day,
- Dani :D
This song is the song I’ll listen to when I put myself to rest
hey angel, how are you doing?
the nine dislikes are just people upset that theres only an hour of this amazing music
” your will to live is weak, but honey hold on for me” always hurts because I was 7 when I started self-harming and I told my brother and he told me to hold on
I hope you’re feeling better and that your will to live is strong now
nobody understands, im so numb, i want to feel again, i have lost all of my friends, im scared of everything, my anxiety is skyrocketing, i feel like i cant show emotion without being judged, the people in my life make it worse, my will to live is fading, i feel like a frikin burden to everyone, i dont want to die but im afraid to live, nothing helps, its getting worse... and worse, my mom forces too many things on me, people are so judgemental, anything... and everything triggers it, i cant control it, i constantly feel the need to escape from reality, i get less... and less sleep every night, its all going downhill... quicker that anything, my future is bleak, i started s*lf h*rm, my meds arent working, the worlds too scary for me... idek if i want to be here anymore- somebody. please. help.
I know i'm a week late from this response but I just saw this and thought I'd tell you that you are worth soooo MUCH and you have so much potential! So please don't hurt your precious self. You only have one life to live and if you don't have friends its FINE! Remember a persons best friend is themselves cause in the end of the day the only person thats gonna die with you is yourself! You can always make friends and If you feel like you cant use the time you'd spend with your friends on learning self-love :) and study and become successful I know you can do it! Show other people that you are special and a beautiful female or male. REMEMBER looks aren't important it's your actions so therefore buy studying and putting yourself first but also remembering to be a kind person you WILL succeed in life. Also i'm pretty sure your mom could be "forcing" things on you only because she loves you and wants to see the person she loves succeed and every parent has a different way of showing there love if it seems like she doesn't love you it could be tough love! And if you feel like a burden KNOW that YOU ARE NOT put yourself ahead of people sometimes in life its okay to be a little selfish because you are IMPORTANT! So please don't harm yourself! If you feel like you need to escape from reality find a journal and right in it you could make up stories or use it as a safe place to express your feelings!
REMEMBER YOU ARE LOVED AND NEEDED!
please don't use self-harm as an escape for reality cause you are worth so much more then that
{SORRY IF THE GRAMMAR AND SPELLING ARE BAD}
whoever you are I love you! -s.o
"I know that your an angel but its not your time to fly now we need you here'' -remember that
@@sabrinozturk4208 aww thank you so much! i really needed that... you are so sweet and kind to take time out of your day to write that
@@emoryhaynes8822 No problem ;) Im glad I was able to help you
ur worth sooo much :))) ! Have a great day or night lol
I'm sorry. But my one tip is.. Find your purpose. I need you to find it so you can keep living. So you can try and have a way to fight through this. Life wasn't supposed to be easy....
@@ro1203 thank you so much. you really made my day. i hope that you can find happiness as well as your purpose too. have as great of a day as you just made mine
I’m trying my hardest why can’t they understand.
Keep going !! I wish you happiness and love, take care
"You don't need to talk to me, baby I already know" I wish someone would say that to me...
Same
I hope you're doing better now
Tbh This helps me with depression Because when i listen to it i start crying and it makes me feel better. Just crying out the pain :)
hey sweetheart, are you doing better now?
this is super smooth love the vibe! vocals are so nice and soothing!
Finally, something to play on repeat that will make me cry ✨ continuously ✨
this is honestly one of my favorites. the first time i listen to this i completely sobbed
i’m alive , cuz you want me too be .
Your alive because you have a purpose. Maybe you just can't find it yet.
I want this song playing at me funeral
I'm living for her and her only.
I hope you've learned to live for yourself, too. hope things get easier if they haven't yet, keep your head up
i want peacful dreams so from now on i wanna listen to this while i sleep i want a lovely lady to come and sing this to me as i sleep i want her to be with me when im done with so many things but one day she will leave me from a tradty and i will be so hurt i would sing this to her grave saying "rememeber my dear....your strong" i would forever miss her...
i love this song i-
I turned my phone on do not disturb just to hear this song in all of its glory 100 times
I love this song so much. Thank you for making this
This song actually saved my life .
This song put me in literal tears. I usually tell myself people are weak for crying about songs but well...this song is...*sniff* emotional.
This song has the power to make me cry of joy. Breathtaken by the beauty of the song, its lyrics and her angelic voice. And then two minutes later cry from sadness... missing people and wishing i had someone here with me right now to sing this to me... either way this song is amazing....
He will never love me like I love him. And I will always be the second choice . The second best. The runner up. I’ll never be first in anyone’s eyes, not even my own
trust me you will find someone don’t give up on love
This song brings me so much comfort and pain at the same time. I feel as if my own mother is telling me these things. As if deep down she really feels this way. After all the screaming and cussing, deep down she still loves me. After all the harsh words, she still cares. Maybe not though. Whoever made this song has a beautiful soul.
0 dislikes? i like dat😎
Theres two now :( I lost hope in humanity :/
There's 10 now 😢
17:(((
“𝐶𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑖𝑚 𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒~, 𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑚 𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒~. 𝐶𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑦 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠~, 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑢𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑙𝑦. 𝐵𝑎𝑏𝑦 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑛𝑜 𝑓𝑒𝑎𝑟~.“
This song reminds me of my deceased grandmother. She would always call me her Butterfly Princess, and tell me that she would always be with me. Sometimes i can still feel her presence..
Lol i had a break down 1week ago. Good job me for not having one up until now
this song makes me feel like i have an older sister that cares for me. im the oldest and no one cares about me. i just want to die.
Please don’t die. There’s so many people who need you. You’ll find people who love you and will take care of you (take care of yourself too)
Love you
hopefully things have gotten easier now. if they haven't, they will. don't give up. sending you all the love and care I can manage. you deserve to be cared for. tomorrow will be better
I’m a guy and let me just say this girls voice makes me cry every time,I usually bottle up my emotions but man it gets tiring but when she sings it makes me feel like it’s okay to let it out
I want someone to cuddle me and it feel like this song cause sometimes food and sleep doesn’t fill the hole😎👍🏽
The 8 people that disliked will never understand the feeling this song gives people. Or they share their negativity because they are afraid to admit that they are breaking like the rest of us.
That parts at the end of the song just hits different when you dont have a good relationship with your mom
I know I'm a year late, but thank you so much for this
this song calms me down so much I could fall asleep to it
Dont mind me just spending a hour of my life feeling empty
4 years ago I listened to this song, and it seems like every time I go back to listen to it again it's like it's the first time
The person who I love send me this song I'm still greatful to hear this masterpiece over and over
this song painfully reminds me of my girlfriend's thoughts, because there is not a day without her telling me that she wants to die, not be in this world anymore and it hurts me so damn, because I'm afraid that one day her I will not save from these thoughts and she will seriously leave this world and I will blame myself forever
i just want a hug that I don't have to ask for, it just comes out you . I don't have anyone relationship wise, but i have my only family ,my mom , I know I can talk to her just the pressure of my moms disappointment of how I'm thinking and feel I don't want to imagine it happening again
When they say “ you need to speak” makes me feel so safe makes me feel like I don’t have to explain why I feel this way
I've been feeling really bad lately and just now listened to this song and I feel so at ease, this is one of my favorite songs bc it's just so loving and beautiful I love this song so much, it makes me feel like mother figure is singing me to sleep..
I'm in a long distance relationship and we was forced to part on the 03/7/21 because of his parents threatening to send him to Korea if he kept speaking to me.We've been together for a long time, we decided to put a hold on things knowing we still belong to each other but only simply at a further distance of trust and hope now. I truly worry for him, this song has been helping me cope with all of it. I have to wait until he gets out of his home and parents control, which can either be Oct 23 2021 or next year in 2022. This song brings me the comfort that he'd bring to me each day, it isn't as much, it almost makes up for it. I just wish I could speak to him once more and do the small things we'd do once again. I promised myself whenever he gets back I will keep up with school and simply better myself in the things I've been lazy within. I'll simply do anything to just see him once more. It's bittersweet but I'm thankful I've even gotten to speak to him, and I will someday once again in the future.
I will do all my school work and eat and care for myself and sign up for therapy and take my meds. I know he'd simply want me to, I will do it for him. Just so I can be well alive to see him once more.
Hi..You can call me Leah. I'm scrolling in the comments just like you are. Please. If you want to die. If you want to end it all. You're not alone. I swear..All you are is a nice, kind, person. If you don't think so. That's fine as well. Just, please. Know that I love you. And if you still don't like living on this planet, listen. I had depression for a while. Then I realized...How am I still alive? And I knew. After all this time. I've now known...In life. To be happy..I have to find my purpose. Why am I alive? I have a purpose! And so do you. Let me ask you a question. Do you know your purpose? Exactly..Is that why you want to die? You don't know your purpose? Very well then. Find it. You need to find it in order to be your true self. Your purpose. It's your will to live! Find it. That's a reason to stay alive!!! Now. I cannot help you find your purpose. But you. Yourself. Boy or girl. Whatever gender you are. Can find it. You can find your purpose!!!! And then you have to wait. Wait 'til it happens. Wait until you see your future in front of your eyes. Only one chance. If you miss it..You'll get another chance. 4 chances. And then...You will find it. Remember everything. Everything. Re-think your life. And find your purpose. Life wasn't supposed to be easy. So don't expect it to be. I love you... Goodluck. Never give up on your purpose.
thank you, I love you too and I hope you’re doing well
Your comment is very helpful, I think those can save lives
I wish you happiness and love ♡
I'm listening to this while swinging on a swinging bench staring at the lake while it's snowing heavily. It's so peaceful yet sad at the same time. Almost like I'm not in my own life or like a memory from my past life.
I’ll always love this song.
Thanks you for being the best part, of our live.Even if we are just a supporting rote in your life.🥲🖤
I feel so bad,it’s like no one here for me,my parents are getting a divorce,I get bullied for having a small eating disorder and being tall and skinny I hate it here.so much school is so hard and being there is miserable,all my friends hate me and use me.it’s only my godmother my only hope she makes me feel so proud and happy I love her sooo sooo much.but I love you so much your doing so well I am proud
I hope you're doing better now. if not, things will be okay soon enough. keep going. sending you a warm hug
I don't even feel alive anymore. I feel like I'm just... here. I try to make everyone's life better and I try not to feel my emotions. People don't understand how much pain I am in. I try to allow people to talk to me when they need to rant or something because I don't want them to end up like I am. I'm still alive because you want me to be. I am just here overflowing with emotions and I feel like I can't tell anything to anyone because the only thing people see in me is happy. They think I'm so perfect and I don't have anything to be sad about. Anywho, don't mind this.
hey how are you now?
@@Gabby-lb2sl the same
hey i know you don’t know me at all, but if you ever feel the need to talk to someone i’m always here for you. Also a reminder i love you! You’ll get through it sweetheart❣️
Thanks..this helped me fall asleep
I feel so unmotivated to do anything and I just want to stay in my warm bed in a ball under the covers forever and the days feel like they are fading into the other after another and during the day it’s like I wear a mask so not many people know I am hurting my mom know that I am sad but she doesn’t know that I am hurting so much and I don’t want to tell my friends because they are going through or all ready been through so much but when I try to tell them they say that sucks and changes the topic and I hurt so much and I just want it to stop but I don’t want hurt the people I love but it just keeps getting worse and anytime I think it gets better it just gets worse and I can’t stop hurting and I don’t know what to do
tell your mom or someone trusted how you feel. there's a lot of overwhelming feelings and thoughts that you have, and it's not good to just hide it. try writing in a journal too. a therapist could help also, and theyll give you good advice. i also recommend meditation, breathing exercises and just going outside and exploring the nature. smelling flowers, watching the animals, admiring the clouds...
My dad recently went to the hospital but he will be fine but he was there for 4 days and it was scary I cried and cried the first night and I couldn’t stop crying all night but ever since then I can’t cry no matter how much I want to and this song always makes me crying and I don’t feel anything right now and I don’t know what that means or what to do
Its comforting
not kidding in the firsdt 30 seconds my sister fell asleep
im downloading all music... bcause one day we may never hear them again
You’re profile picture is so pleasant and calming
this song is lovely, but i wonder why she cut the comments off on the original...it could be because sometimes the "live for me" sentiment or certain dependencies can be toxic. I hope most of the people consuming this can find solace in that person _and_ solace alone.
3 am and not yet stop listening to this song
cant wait to fall asleep crying to this while thinking of my special person that will listen to this song and think of someone else
1:57
Uncontrollably sobbed to this song as soon as I stepped into the shower
Perfect for my bi-weekly breakdown
its 5am and i haven't slept at all. their words keep playing in my head. what did i ever do to them? why do they hate me? why can't i fit in like them? i can't just keep saying sorry for no reason. its like saying sorry for being human. i ask myself everyday. it all hurts to know that they don't care. i miss the place i have never even been to. i wanna run away far from them. maybe if i leave i will feel better. it won't hurt anymore. i will finally be happy. but i'm scared what if there is nothing there? what if i'm still lonely? what about the few people who did care about me? how would they feel if i left? i can't hurt the people who care about me like the people i care about hurt me.
When i hear this song i think about my big sister, i wanna send this to her and tell her to replace baby, dear, and honey with sister
I don't know what to type right now but the fact that I'm just sad. And I also want to say, even though I don't know you, I love you.
Hey youtube, this may get burried, but here are my last words, wierd place to put it , i know, but ive got nowhere else to put it,
You know, at a point, this song was so inspiring and comforting to me, feels ironic that it'd be the last song id ever listen too. It'd be a couple hours till they find my body so i guess it wont be playing then huh. It has such soft sweet melodeis, like a mother singing you a lulaby. I find myself thinking of her, my mother that is. I ran away drom home at 19, it was weird cause i was alwas such an obedient, carefree, smart kid. I would often lay awake crying for hours, for no apparent reason. I feel bad knowing all mom's work and plans were fo nothing, i feel like i betrayed her. She always struggled so much for me and my siblings, all 5 of her kids. This runaway was pre meditated though, at that point i had saved for over a year to buy a plane ticket for myself and my bestfriend to get on a plane, get a house, get our paperwork in order, all these thing were acvounted for. We left, we both had secrets we knew would come out to our families eventually, only we knew about them. I wonder how he'll feel, seeing me hanging off the ceiling fan, i feel like ive betrayed his trust as well. My brothers, my sisters, i never saw them get to grow up, i never get to give them the advice i wanted to hear from my mom or dad, i always just put on rhis stern angry face with them. I didnt want to be like that but every time i tried to open up to them, i couldnt. I didnt want to scare them or burden them with my problems. So i shut up. I played the part of the stern older brother. I followed my orders and instructions to the dot of the i and the cross of the t. I never knew my father, he left after my first brother's birth, for another woman nonetheless. I have two siblings on his side, a brother and sister. I met the boy at my father's funeral, he had a heart attack while at the beach. My uncles and aunts didnt want to even look at me, i see why now, i look just lile him, they didnt want to see that, it pained them fo see his face at that time. My brother seemed more in touch with his emotions, like my other siblings, he cried normally, he laughed at school. He knew how to calm down, i wanted to protect that, so i stayed far away from him. I wonder how theyre all doing. My stepfather was a stern man, never really liked me too well, maybe because i was so distant with him? I didnt mean to, i was just always so scared of him, his hand hit hard and heavy, with swift blows. All i could ever do was stand there and take them, hit after hit. If i cried it would only worsen. He didnt hit the others, thankfully. He loved them, he knew them, it was my fault for never spending time with them. What if i spent more time with them? Would anything have changed? Im not sure. I found out i wasnt straight in around the 9th grade, i went to an all boys' school, i was raped by an upperclassman, i sidnt fight back though, i didnt even cry, i jyst let him have his way, i was his plaything for a while, until he became bored. After a while i began to despise sex, i hated it, i couldnt stand the tought of ever doing it again. But at that time, it was the thing everyone did, so i lied about it. Everyone believed it . I finished school at 16. Work until 19, and i left with my friend , he had his own problems. We were like a pandora's box of issues, but we were content with eah other, we felt safe when were together. Now here i am, 21 years old, rambling about my life to people i dont know. I guess this is goodbye world, if there is an afterlife i know i wont be going there. To my family, im sorry for dissapointing you.im sorry for leaving you. Im sorry for it all. Goobye.
Please tell me you’re still alive I wish I saw this sooner but please still be and stay alive
hey, man. it's been a while since you commented this. I don't know if you made it, and even if you did, the guarantee you'll see this is very low.
I really hope you will though, so here's my shot in the dark. feel free to not read if you see this. I just want to know you're alive. I really, really hope you are.
having secrets is okay. running away and taking care of yourself, prioritizing yourself and leaving for your own safety; those things are okay. that guilt you feel- felt?- don't control what comes forward. you deserve to live and you deserve a happy ending just like your siblings. any person who hurt you, or abused you, in more ways than one, is not justified. they will never be justified.
you did not deserve that.
what I'm trying to say is, I hope things got easier if you stayed. I hope life started being worth living for, I hope the reasons you typed this out in the first place are long forgotten and are nightmares of the past.
if you aren't; as horrifying as that is to think about; I hope you went out quick. I hope you finally got to rest, like you very much deserved to.
I'm still younger than you are. I wouldn't know how to deal with most of the things you talked about. I hope that, somehow, if you're still alive, breathing- I hope it got easier to deal with.
sending you all the love one can send. in the small chance you're still here, know I love you.
you can rest now.
Comfort song tbh 🤝
my friends arent greatful that im still here breathing the same air as them, saddens me that they only care when im gone
hey angel, i care and love you!
Justo lo que buscaba...💗
this is going to seem a little cringy, but bare with me, okay? so, imagine this. your having a hard time in life in general. i am your mother, who died during your birth and who has come to you in a dream. now listen to this song. and just remember, even though i dont know you, i do love you. you are worth it. they dont deserve you. why would the universe put you through this if they knew you couldn't handle it? there is only one you. if you are thinking about s3lf h!rm/su!c!de, write down all the good traits about you. there are 8 billion people on the planet. how many people out of 8 billion get to experience you? if one had a chance to meet you, they should be thankful. there is none other like you, if you leave, the world is ridded of something special.
My heart hurts and my soul aches. I wish he was still here, a man I thought of like a brother, he helped me through so much, he helped me stop cutting myself and he promised he wouldn't do it, he lied to me and he did it, he killed himself and i didn't know about it until two months after it happened, does he have any idea how that feels? when i found out i relapsed i wanted the pain to go away i needed it to go away, but i still love him, i miss him so much. He left a scar that will never heal, a sadness that will never subside. Why? Was there something I could have done to help? Were there signs I didn't notice? I cant help but wonder what made him do it? Was he in pain? Do you think he feels sorry for breaking our promise? Sometimes i dream about him, what he would have been like if we spent a day together. Would he have stayed on earth if i did better? im on fire but i feel as cold as ice, my body is being torn apart, my heart is in tatters, will I ever recover?
Its 1:13 am and the tears are slowly rolling down because the man I thought that was interested in me chhose the same person he called a crazy bitch. I am not a sick person. I truly wish then the best but this is the second time that this has happened to me. The first guy that chose another girl over me blocked me. This second guy... well he stayed silent while I tried to rekindle what I thought we had. My mind is going crazy thinking that the reason he was so quiet was because he was choosing her. I don't wish this on my enemies. No one deserves to feel like second choice or nothing choice. Truly I wish and pray to God to not let me love another man. Or to have feelings towards anyone that develops into a relationship.
ma'am i don't belong in earth, where everything make me feel sad and empty, i just want to go back to my planet.. i wanna go home.
This makes me cry cuz my dad passed away..
im currently trying to sleep after sleeping 7 hours in the day
Cause I’m right here, darling I’m right here, close your pretty eyes