#Depression can be invisible. It has many faces. This World Mental Health day, let's check in on our friends and loved ones. Especially those who seem the happiest...
Could you in the future make a video about anhedonia, it can be a symptom of depression, a negative symptom of schizophrenia, or even exist in the absence of these conditions being a side effect of substances such as antidepressants, antipsychotics or a consequence of addiction. It is the inability to feel pleasure, it can render all that you were ever passionate about meaningless endeavors. It leaves you feeling empty, uncomfortable, hopeless and frustrated. No motivation, nothing to look forward to, no desires, just everlasting boredom
No, the emptiness is not heavy. It's weightless and I miss the struggle because to me that's fun but without the fun and the wonder and experience life has to offer, I'm pretty much empty and life is too boring to be worth anything. But I gotta change that. Maybe I will.
I'm that type of person, and I'll tell you why well do it, it's because if we don't smile people will see we are not happy and ask, and telling them feeling like we are putting our problems on them and you don't know who cares, you don't want to see other be sad, and you never know what the other person is going through so, you smile until everyone is gone and your alone going home them you can stop pretending
Depression is like alter reality..only who have suffered can understand..for others it's unimaginable. I used to be fascinated by the word "fatigue". Like how can someone feel tired without working. Now as I am suffering from depression I can totally relate. The main machine the Brain is always working and speeding like thousands of mile per second so people can be tired mentally and the body would react accordingly.
I didn't understand it too and would why feel tired or low for wat but now when I am facing it I understand it wats it really feels like in that dark low place and feel numb and can't enjoy the moment.
The accuracy in each sentence.. "Some people can't sleep, others lay on bed all day" hit me so hard. There was a time when all I was doing is laying on bed straight for 16-18 hrs with no energy to do anything meanwhile other's calling it being lazy
And then the guilt makes me even more depressed and tired and makes me be even less productive. It becomes a cycle. That, mixed with perfectionism and feeling like even if I am productive that theres no point, it wont be good enough, is not a good mix.
@@beatrizrauer2277 me neither.. I don't have much advice to give, but try talking to someone trusted about it. If you have noone, you can talk to me. I've been.. a little more productive lately, I guess. In depression standards, atleast. But I still feel close to the edge all day, like I'm so close to giving up. I just want to lay down and pretend I don't exist.
@@SHEnpAii try holding on... it will take time but things will become good. If not good, gradually it will become tolerable. Be strong, much love to you♡
*_I'm convinced my depression is so deep that it's become a part of my personality, made me into a severely serious person, a person I didn't always think I would be. A person warranted by my original silly persona and others around me... now I'm a byproduct of possessed by depression. The saddest stories ever told._*
@@userm180 *_I'd be lying if I say I were, we live in a world of 7 billion people... it's inevitable to be people who are thrown down under the bus, I'd believe I'm just unlucky. Thank you, and thank you for asking though._*
@@parabellum4622 it's like a wound. When you pour disinfectant on it, it hurts. But on the meantime, It will help in the long run. Everything takes time, but some people don't see the end of the tunnel..
Everyone thinks they understand depression. But no one does untill you're stuck in one yourself. Depression is also still seen as a red flag. People will avoid you, ghost you, ruin you, fire you all just because they don't want to deal with the emotions you're feeling. Mostly because they don't believe you. They don't believe that depression is a real thing. They think that depression is just feeling sad and that you should just get over it. And worst of all; 9/10 tells you that to your face. Thinking they're doing nothing wrong when in reality they just crushed your soul to bits and pieces. Denying you your pain. And in doing so, increasing your risk lvl even more. Because every person who struggles with depression is at risk. And that risk is called suicide. So many people have been pushed to commit suicide by a bunch of misinformed, self-absorbed, assholes who consider you a freak, a loser and an attention whore because you have negative emotions who take over control. Like it was a choice... I mean, it's fkn 2021, almost 2022. And still people are so uninformed about mental health and all it's consequences. About the struggle with one's own thoughts to try and survive another day. To try and fight those urges to kill yourself. To fight that voice in the back of your mind that brings up death every 5 minutes, at least. The problem with depression is that people who never suffered from it are it's biggest spokesmen, and it's through those retards that there's so much misinformation regarding the subject and it's permanent consequences. To quote Arthur Fleck, from Joker: "The worst part about having a mental illness is people expect you to behave as if you don't". Even after all the movies and tv shows about the subject of depression. Even if they talk about it in schools now Even then, people still expect you to behave like them, to behave like mental illness isn't a real thing. That it's all imaginative. And from the looks of it, it's not getting any better any time soon.
I agree, but as someone who has struggled a lot with depression in the past, I don't think these kinds of videos helped me. When I was depressed I liked to really relish in the sadness or emptiness, because watching these kinds of videos normalized and supported feeling that way. The sad music, over cinematic shots of people looking sad and the dramatic line reading, it's really just making you get into the helpless mood even more. Now that I'm better, looking at these kinds of videos just make me cringe at how unapologetic self indulgent those depressing years of my life were. I'm still depressed, but I'm trying to actively change for the better now ever since I went to the therapist. It helped me a lot with self reflection and insight, these kinds of videos just spew the same depressive thoughts to you in a sweet whisper. They make it seem like depressed people are selfless, suffering and beautiful tortured souls, when it's anything but. Depressed people can be some of the most toxic friends you can have. Anger issues, trust issues, guilt tripping, indulgence, addicted to unhealthy things and actively not listening to advice because it might hurt their feelings. Let's be real, no one who misunderstands mental illness or is ignorant will be properly informed by this kinda "melodramatic" video. I feel like the ones that are actively engaging with such "informative" videos are just already depressed people that come here to rant in the comment section. Sorry if I sound rude or invalidating, this is just my two cents and I don't mean to attack anyone who enjoys this type of content
@@l.2620 this is so true and my experience is similar! i was diagnosed with depression and had a victim mentality about it for years and it ruined me. I got to my breaking point when i became really overweight and an alcoholic and failed a class in college. The only way i actually improved my life was when i stopped feeling sorry for myself and stopped seeing myself as someone with depression, because that thought alone is what holds us back from getting better in my opinion. you have to really push yourself out of your comfort zone and force yourself to care for yourself and be more productive day to day little by little. 🙏
@@l.2620 thank you for adding that last bit, I’ve had a few other depressed people tell me to get over it because they got over it so I’m just being a baby still having it -_- like I thought you were supposed to be more understanding instead of less?? I hate those kind of people
My dad told me I looked happy, it completely took me by surprise because I feel the worst I have ever felt. It's funny how well we can hide things even when we don't necessarily mean to
It’s crazy how we all have different perspectives Cause if someone told me this i would begin to think …hmm maybe im not doing so bad after all…maybe im just being a little bitch … idk lol
Random apathic person: "you don't look depressed." Me staring into the abyss: "That's because it's a faceless void screaming for a coverup by meaning."
“Some people can’t sleep, others stay in bed all day Some people have no appetite, others overeat Some people cry often, others feel numb Some people want to talk, others want to withdraw “ Beautifully narrated
the fact that there's people out there that don't believe in depression blows my mind, like how lucky can you be to have never had depression or other mental illnesses. truly blessed
It's not always easy to tell if someone is depressed. Some can hide it really well. But also, even if you try to hide it, it has a way of showing. In other words, some say it best when they say nothing at all.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someoane to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
"You're so good at organizing things!" "You're full of energy!" "You're a good listener!" "So creative!" On the outside, ppl tell you to be grateful to be able to accomplish these things, but it serves as a double edge sword. The one day you tell ppl, "hey, I'm feeling really shitty. In fact... I feel shitty constantly." They tell you "oh you've got this because its you! Anyhow, I have it really bad too. I suffer so much because..." I love supporting other ppl, but I've had too many cases where I just dont get taken seriously with my struggles. And then I get asked why I never text back. Why I disappear. Why I space out. My problems are just not big enough for ppl, and the moment I'm not helping them through theirs, I'm suddenly useless. So many ppl really think I'm their best friend, and get offended when I say I dont reciprocate the feeling. I know everything about you, but you know NOTHING about me. Ask me what I do at home. Ask me about my family. My hobbies. My interests. Oh, thats right. You dont know. Im just a jumper cable to entertain you and hear your problems, not a human who struggles. No. You are not my best friend, and dont kid yourself into thinking Im yours.
You just described my life. I just want to give you hug, to let you know I deeply felt everything you said. It's like everyone is expecting something because it's you. You know what to do. You always handle everything...
Airasza Thank you for understanding, and I just wanna return that sentiment to you. I hope things don't get overwhelming for you out there, and know that your struggles are just as valid, no matter how much ppl think they know how much it truly weighs on you. My hope is that whatever it is that you're going through, that you get the support you need.
Actually thank you for this because it made me realize I'm going through the same thing. I'm always the good friend that's there for people and make them laugh and help them through their problems, but none of my friends are really there for me or really care about me lol. But then its kinda hard for me to not be friends with them because its so hard to make friends so its like easier to just stay friends with them than to make new ones idk. Feelsbadman. Its kinda sad when I disappear from discord, no one cares lol. You're not alone mate.
This video describes EXACTLY what I'm going through right now... it's so hard to feel this way knowing that all the people around you could never understand what's going on in your mind. Thank you Kat for giving us a voice 💛
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someoane to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
@@userm180 thank you too. I was seeking for help, but lately a new person's arrived at my university and we've got very close. Now it feels like I'm not so lonely anymore, and I've finally started seeing a light in all this darkness. I hope you're doing great as well!
I remember when my friends back in school would tell me I’m always smiling when in reality I was very depressed. You just never know what’s really going on in someone’s life so never assume.
@@Gizemnrr777 In depression days, my brain nd soul was not compatible. No co- ordination between these two. Everything was unrelatable. Not living in the moment. In normal condition, I feel meaning in the moment.even Small things are meaningful now. Life seems exciting. Having purpose now. Automatically I focus on myself. Not feel envy to others. I mind my own business nd it happens naturally in very pleasant and beautiful manner like children do.....not feeling burdon of my own life as it used to feel like earlier. Simply, every thing happens in my life without any push, in natural manner.
Just remember though, depression can be just as visible as invisible. Sometimes you can look as depressed as you feel. Don't take it as one or the other. For the longest time I was afraid to act the way. But being able to tell others you are sad when you are or feeling empty or tired or hopeless when those are your exact emotions, that shows your maturity. That shows your growth. It shows your efforts to improve. To understand and express your emotions is the first step to emotional recovery.
I think my biggest mistake whilst experiencing depression was keeping quiet. The mind in that state is excellent at keeping everything trapped inside, growing it day by day until you feel so hopeless and helpless that you start to think you’ve gone insane. It is crucial and okay to open up about your feelings, no matter how weird you may find your thoughts. Find someone who listens. For me it was a great therapist and my father who had been through similar phases in life.
@@princessterri1129 I'm doing alright, overall. Been going back and forth between feeling "I hate myself/I want to kms" and "I'm the best in the world" probably 2-3 times a day in the past 2-3 weeks. How was your weekend?
I relate completely to everything in this video especially the helping hand part, i am always so glad to help anyone out with anything whether it be work, advice, favors etc. but when i need help or a favor i find it extremely extremely hard to say anything because i was always raised with an independent mentality where i have to prove that i can do things all on my own and its so hard and i just suffer silently most of the time. Everyday
She said she's been excelling in studies .I am not even good at studies ,just wasting parent's money ,just lying to them every single time that my studies are going well whenever they ask about grades and studies. Iam completely worthless with not even good at a single thing. I want no I deserve to be dead.
This is how exactly how I feel ever since I was little- every thing is how I relate to my every day life * trying to get better on my own but it’s too much for me now
I'd like to add one, from personal experience: "It's either genuinely not realising something is off or convincing yourself that this is normal, 'this is fine', until you drink a bit more than you can handle and suddenly you're telling your partner how much you hate yourself and that you don't want to kill yourself but you sure want to die." Fun times. And then I get asked (not by my partner, he gets it) "well what are you depressed about?" Like your brain needs a reason to malfunction.
sometimes I'm ashamed to confess because people tell me I'm selfish or “what are you depressed about?” , “you're lucky, you live better than a lot of people”. yes but, and? I even manage to ask myself “am I depressed? maybe I'm selfish as they say?” Finally, I feel guilty for depressing. I am told “go out, go see friends, have fun, you are young, life is beautiful”. except that I don't want any of that.
There’s always a cause for depression, but its not simple to discover it, and when you do it will probrably make you more depressed(because its associated with a lot of nasty truths, that you try to hide to yourself);at least it went this way with me but recently its going better because i’m attacking the source of my depression.
I love your perspective that symptoms of depression can be as individual as person is and we shouldn't take the outer layer of a person as a reflection of their spirit. Big shout out to you for raising awareness and not making assumption that laughing loud always means being happy. P. S I really love your English accent. I know you are Polish (as I am) but you have lost your accent entirely and it is a music to my ears to listen to your videos 👍🏾 great work xx
"it's being the most entertaining person in the room, while feeling empty inside" is probably out of all these paradaxos mentioned one that i can relate to the most. i am not the funniest person but i do love acting out wild or funny stories i heard or randomly make people laugh. at parties or when meeting friends i felt like it was my only purpose to be "the entertainer". i acted like that almost all the time because seeing people react to me positively is what made me feel good. even though everytime i came back home or was alone i just felt empty. like "what was so funny about what i was telling them? why? they probably can enjoy themselves without me." and felt like a completely different persona. it felt like that weird exhaustion and emptiness after a concert you've been practicing so hard for. once i gradually stopped playing the entertainer at gatherings because i couldn't bear the contrast of being in front of people and being alone in my room anymore i also got less invitations to parties or stuff like that. thats what hurt me the most. once you don't want to play your usual role you get kicked out (of course i am exaggerating a bit here but you know what i mean) i actually don't quite remember what the purpose of this comment was when i started writing it but sometimes it is true. "the liveliest and lightest souls are also the ones that know how heavy emptiness can feel." it is ok if you don't want to be a people pleaser anymore.
@@soccerbels7947 wait what? I’m kinda confused, what I meant by “beat myself up” is that I critique myself about a lot of things when sometimes it’s not as bad as I think. it’s because I struggle with general anxiety disorder, idk if you were saying it’s my own fault?
I find myself from here in every second of this video. Its very well thinked and filmed! Gives hope to me that others feel the same way! Thanks a lot!!
Thank you so much for this Video! You are speaking right out of my heart. I think I will show this video to people who do not seem to understand, because you describe it so beautifully.
I want to say that if a person looks "normal", this does not mean that he is fine. Please, people, ask your loved ones more often how they feel, sometimes it can be vital. Love to all 🙃💚💙
I thought I would never find a type of depression that can reflect my life...everything you said is really how it is in my life,i don´t need pity,so i just smile to everyone
You always manage to put into words exactly how I'm feeling, even when I'm struggling to do so myself Thank you for your videos! And for everyone struggling with any problem, I just want you to know that I believe in you and I'm proud of you even if I don't really know you!
@@userm180 I think I have a hard time recently managing my anxiety, but it's okay! Some days are better, some days a little less, but I'm trying to feel better by being gentle with myself and stuff Thank you for asking! You really put a smile on my face :) how about you? Are u ok?
@@elciamh are you seeking help for it dear? i really hope you'll only have good days from now on :) i'm fine, thanks for asking. i hope you'll have a lovely day today, God bless.
This video really describes it so well, its hard to cope but it has become a norm that is become part of u. I don't have an appetite and am concerned for my health but don't know how to relive that enticement for eating.
Depression is to me what Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata feels to the pianist.... especially when I am the one playing... The last few notes in the music at the end of the video happens to closely resemble how the Sonata ends...
To you that are reading this message today I just wanted to say that you can fight through anything , just believe in yourself , keep your head up and stay strong , you deserve it all ❤️
I don't feel depressive even though I am in a worse state than some people describing their depression. Yes, I know everyone has their own difficulties but I've been living in this mental state since I can remember.
Honestly depression hit hard for me last year, and now it is sort of ok, but I still overthink way too much, I feel tired 24/7. And I want to talk sometimes but then I really feel like I'm just going to sound annoying to others even though they reassure me that I'm not being annoying. It's also gotten to the point where I barely eat all day maybe except lunch, but then I eat a lot for dinner or at night. Sometimes I feel so lost that I feel like I won't have a future bc my mind just keeps overthinking so many thoughts. :/
you have described my condition for the past 2 years. I wanted nothing, lying on the bed all day doing nothing, at night I didn't sleep. feeling tired all the time. I spent my nights crying. I didn't want to talk to anyone, to see anyone. everything pissed me off. I had no energy because I only ate twice a day. I had lost so much energy that I couldn't stand up. I was taken to the hospital. severe anemia, they said. I was given medication, it cured my anemia but not my depression. I relapsed the following year during the school holidays. I lost a lot of weight, self-confidence (even if I never had any). I wanted to die. and the best for last: I was told so many times that I had no reason to be depressed that I ended up asking myself “am I really depressed? maybe I'm just selfish? or ungrateful” Finally, I stopped confiding because I was always told the same thing. maybe they are right.
@@inmyvenus ik this is isn't the right thing to say but I'm so glad someone understands me, everything you explained had been me last year except for the anemia part, I'm so sorry you went through that. And yeah people tell me I don't really have a reason to feel this way, so all of last year I told myself I shouldn't be sad and depressed for no reason bc ik people have it worse and there isn't a reason for me to feel this way. I'm a huge overthinker so that really brings me down all the time. Like I'm a 11th and I feel like I'm falling behind in everything bc I haven't even gotten my permit yet, I never took the PSAT bc of covid, I'm doing online school again so I'm going to either have to take the SAT and ACT in the summer or next year, I don't have a job even tho I should get one just like everyone else. I honestly do nothing except lay in my bed feeling so mentally tired. I always tell myself I'm going to do this, this, and that, but end up never doing it and instead stay in my room. And I hate myself sm because I feel like I'm never going to get nowhere in life because of how I am right now. (I'm sorry for talking about these useless information and venting I just haven't been able to tell anyone that except maybe my mom a few times but she just says to try harder and not to worry too much bc I still have time.) I feel like I'm suffocating in a box that keeps closing. And I want to get a therapist even tho I hear that a lot of people don't really like theirs but idk. And i feel like my anxiety has gotten a bit worse and social anxiety as well. I also get get to go outside because I barely do and supposedly that helps bc of the sun but idek. Sorry this is long.
I remember watching your videos and beautifully worded short films on depression and anxiety back in 2019 & early 2020 as a 15 year old. I was going through my first depressive episode and constantly thinking about suicide after only knowing and living with anxiety my whole life. I felt so misunderstood and hopeless, the only source of understanding I had came from repeatedly googling "[insert mental illness] short film." No one understood or even noticed what I was going through or the morbid jokes or hints I would give that I was struggling as a cry for help. One of your vids from 6 years ago on Living with Depression (as well as the ones on Social Anxiety and OCD, all of which I struggle with, and you were able to put words to an experience I was so new to. It felt so alleviating so hear someone else's experience with it worded so eloquently. I remember a quote down from it that I resonated with so well on my laptop, and it just made me feel so comforted and not as alone as I felt beforehand... I'm now almost 18, going off to college this year with hopes of becoming a child psychiatrist, and (although I still experience depression every so often) haven't been suicidal since :') I know no one will probably read this but I just wanted to say thank you, Kat, for putting an experience that felt so isolating and life-taking into words and video. Thanks for helping me feel understood ~ Here's the quote I wrote down in case anyone's curious: Depression has clipped my wings, yet anxiety expects me to fly. Everyone who kept their fingers crossed fro me has long quit, as though they got tired of waiting. No wonder they left. I would, too. *Sadly, I cannot walk away from myself...* "How are you doing?" they ask. So I try to find words, but they evade me... I can feel myself subsiding, nearing the point of no return. The cracks are starting to show through the flimsy layers of paper I've been trying to cover them with. But I lift my head up and smile: _"Yeah, I'm well. Very well."_
Thank you for this video. It explains the dissonance between my inside and outside world in a way I haven't been able to explain before. This difference is often extremely jarring for me.
Haven’t watched it yet but already feel that it will be touching. Feel depressed and trying to dive into creating of my own videos but still feel emptiness sometimes. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. ❤️
Regrets are irrational, you made the best choice you knew in that moment, your decision was based upon your lifes experiences, You did not have control over it
Depression is always there, right inside my skull. Still, i fight this garbage every day. I originally thought it had started when i was 16. I was living in a small town. Last year of highschool. I realize how lonely and rejected i was. I wasn't bullied or hated, but i was forgotten by my surroundings. I moved to a small city for college at 17. I started to play in a band and kinda was the ''mysterious'' friendly tattoed musician guy. I was happy, good party, good sex and love stories, drugs and drinks. Life was good, but was it really? I quickly realized at around 19 that my place wasn't there and something was missing and i was failing college even though i always was some major school nerd. My father offered me to move to his house in a way bigger city with better opportunities and diversity of career. I started studying photography and how to start a business. I was good at it and even sold one of my frame for a meagre 300$ haha, but i was sitll proud. Suddenly i'm 21 and i realized photography wasn't satisfying either. I realized all things in life are only satifying at the exact moment it they happen, once they are gone, i am not satisfied, my brain is craving for something i don't understand. I sadly quit before the end of my class. I sold all my equipment and started back again. The next 9 years or until i reached 30, i went through the painful way of acceptance. That it is a part of me. That i will have to live and manage it myself without drugs. My tricks is to occupy my mind as much as i can and also make sure to spend my physical energy so it's easier to sleep. I honestly started to feel better with the health situation worldwide, it's ironic. Keep fighting my fellow warriors of the mind.
I used to be this person, where it was invisible because of focusing on others too much and just giving back, this brought me real joy - and eventually healed me. Now I have depression that revolves around worrying that my MH will effect people around me negatively, and because I worry about it, it does. Hence the noticeable depression. Trust me, if nobody notices it until you tell them, this is a blessing to aid you in taking the time you need to heal.
i really felt seen with this video, it’s so accurate with what ive been feeling. i kinda feel liberated now, to just hear these words and finally feeling understood. thank you for this video. your work is incredible 🤍.
The weirdest ''compliment'' I ever got was when I had a panic attack. This woman tries to ''comfort'' me by telling me I'm not showing it. as in you wouldn't tell that I was having one. because that would be the most important. at least I was hiding it well... luckily for me, there was another person there. I think he has a medical background. he gave her a ''shut the f up'' look and helped me calm down. in case anyone is wondering. we were talking about a traumatic experience.
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help.
Just because someone carries it well, doesn’t mean it isn’t heavy. This is so so so true. Also representing chronic diseases which are invisible to the eye.
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Could you in the future make a video about anhedonia, it can be a symptom of depression, a negative symptom of schizophrenia, or even exist in the absence of these conditions being a side effect of substances such as antidepressants, antipsychotics or a consequence of addiction. It is the inability to feel pleasure, it can render all that you were ever passionate about meaningless endeavors. It leaves you feeling empty, uncomfortable, hopeless and frustrated. No motivation, nothing to look forward to, no desires, just everlasting boredom
would you please post this on your IGtv? 🥺
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@@wespicedmemes I was gonna ask her
" Just because someone carries it well, doesn't mean it isn't heavy. "
And thats the truth ♡
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Ouf, goosebumps..
Well said. That's the truth.
That explains so well
"The emptiness is heavier than you think!"
If you know, you know.
No, the emptiness is not heavy. It's weightless and I miss the struggle because to me that's fun but without the fun and the wonder and experience life has to offer, I'm pretty much empty and life is too boring to be worth anything. But I gotta change that. Maybe I will.
I know! Bmth - Teardrops!
@@ladyofsorrow3854 Winner
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This is so well narrated... illustrating all the different paradoxes.
Hi, love your vids
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psych2go is here so this must be good
"don't you dare judge what I went through just because my pain isn't visible like yours"
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"Some smiles hide silent screams"
That line made my whole body shiver because I always smile and because of that no one believes me I'm in depression.
im sorry love. do u seek help?
@@userm180 you are a good person
I'm that type of person, and I'll tell you why well do it, it's because if we don't smile people will see we are not happy and ask, and telling them feeling like we are putting our problems on them and you don't know who cares, you don't want to see other be sad, and you never know what the other person is going through so, you smile until everyone is gone and your alone going home them you can stop pretending
Yup
Same here 😢
Depression is like alter reality..only who have suffered can understand..for others it's unimaginable. I used to be fascinated by the word "fatigue". Like how can someone feel tired without working. Now as I am suffering from depression I can totally relate. The main machine the Brain is always working and speeding like thousands of mile per second so people can be tired mentally and the body would react accordingly.
True
That’s why there’s such stigma towards it due to the inability of non sufferers to understand.
I didn't understand it too and would why feel tired or low for wat but now when I am facing it I understand it wats it really feels like in that dark low place and feel numb and can't enjoy the moment.
i love and hope yall are getting help in the comments
Depression is like an invisible entity occupies your body and acts in ways that you normally would.
The accuracy in each sentence..
"Some people can't sleep, others lay on bed all day" hit me so hard. There was a time when all I was doing is laying on bed straight for 16-18 hrs with no energy to do anything meanwhile other's calling it being lazy
And then the guilt makes me even more depressed and tired and makes me be even less productive. It becomes a cycle. That, mixed with perfectionism and feeling like even if I am productive that theres no point, it wont be good enough, is not a good mix.
@@limeylemon1685 I don't want to feel this way anymore
@@beatrizrauer2277 me neither.. I don't have much advice to give, but try talking to someone trusted about it. If you have noone, you can talk to me.
I've been.. a little more productive lately, I guess. In depression standards, atleast. But I still feel close to the edge all day, like I'm so close to giving up. I just want to lay down and pretend I don't exist.
I am still on that phase...
@@SHEnpAii try holding on... it will take time but things will become good. If not good, gradually it will become tolerable. Be strong, much love to you♡
Every f*cking sentence relates to my life
are u seeking help?
@@userm180 nah buddy.....but trying best of mine to recover😃
@@pushpendrasinghrana7985 i see. i hope it will work then :) God bless and have a lovely day
@@userm180 thanks man😄
mine too...
It’s beings understanding towards others, while beating yourself up over every mistake you’ve ever made ..
mistakes are bad but pls stop reflecting on ur past ones. u wont do any good love
Totally me
Word
Thats'it always thinking to the others en not to me
Omg you literally explained my life in one sentence im crying
*_I'm convinced my depression is so deep that it's become a part of my personality, made me into a severely serious person, a person I didn't always think I would be. A person warranted by my original silly persona and others around me... now I'm a byproduct of possessed by depression. The saddest stories ever told._*
im so sorry. are you seeking help?
@@userm180 *_I'd be lying if I say I were, we live in a world of 7 billion people... it's inevitable to be people who are thrown down under the bus, I'd believe I'm just unlucky. Thank you, and thank you for asking though._*
@@parabellum4622 i understand. if u arent seeking help from a professional, do u at least talk to.people ab it?
@@userm180 *_Feels like the more you talk about these things the worst they make you feel... for me at least._*
@@parabellum4622 it's like a wound. When you pour disinfectant on it, it hurts. But on the meantime, It will help in the long run. Everything takes time, but some people don't see the end of the tunnel..
Everyone thinks they understand depression. But no one does untill you're stuck in one yourself.
Depression is also still seen as a red flag. People will avoid you, ghost you, ruin you, fire you all just because they don't want to deal with the emotions you're feeling.
Mostly because they don't believe you. They don't believe that depression is a real thing.
They think that depression is just feeling sad and that you should just get over it.
And worst of all; 9/10 tells you that to your face. Thinking they're doing nothing wrong when in reality they just crushed your soul to bits and pieces. Denying you your pain. And in doing so, increasing your risk lvl even more.
Because every person who struggles with depression is at risk.
And that risk is called suicide.
So many people have been pushed to commit suicide by a bunch of misinformed, self-absorbed, assholes who consider you a freak, a loser and an attention whore because you have negative emotions who take over control. Like it was a choice...
I mean, it's fkn 2021, almost 2022.
And still people are so uninformed about mental health and all it's consequences. About the struggle with one's own thoughts to try and survive another day. To try and fight those urges to kill yourself. To fight that voice in the back of your mind that brings up death every 5 minutes, at least.
The problem with depression is that people who never suffered from it are it's biggest spokesmen, and it's through those retards that there's so much misinformation regarding the subject and it's permanent consequences.
To quote Arthur Fleck, from Joker:
"The worst part about having a mental illness is people expect you to behave as if you don't".
Even after all the movies and tv shows about the subject of depression.
Even if they talk about it in schools now
Even then, people still expect you to behave like them, to behave like mental illness isn't a real thing. That it's all imaginative.
And from the looks of it, it's not getting any better any time soon.
i promise it gets better, and seeing a therapist can really help
I agree, but as someone who has struggled a lot with depression in the past, I don't think these kinds of videos helped me.
When I was depressed I liked to really relish in the sadness or emptiness, because watching these kinds of videos normalized and supported feeling that way.
The sad music, over cinematic shots of people looking sad and the dramatic line reading, it's really just making you get into the helpless mood even more.
Now that I'm better, looking at these kinds of videos just make me cringe at how unapologetic self indulgent those depressing years of my life were. I'm still depressed, but I'm trying to actively change for the better now ever since I went to the therapist. It helped me a lot with self reflection and insight, these kinds of videos just spew the same depressive thoughts to you in a sweet whisper.
They make it seem like depressed people are selfless, suffering and beautiful tortured souls, when it's anything but. Depressed people can be some of the most toxic friends you can have. Anger issues, trust issues, guilt tripping, indulgence, addicted to unhealthy things and actively not listening to advice because it might hurt their feelings.
Let's be real, no one who misunderstands mental illness or is ignorant will be properly informed by this kinda "melodramatic" video. I feel like the ones that are actively engaging with such "informative" videos are just already depressed people that come here to rant in the comment section.
Sorry if I sound rude or invalidating, this is just my two cents and I don't mean to attack anyone who enjoys this type of content
@@l.2620 This is just so entirely true...
@@l.2620 this is so true and my experience is similar! i was diagnosed with depression and had a victim mentality about it for years and it ruined me. I got to my breaking point when i became really overweight and an alcoholic and failed a class in college. The only way i actually improved my life was when i stopped feeling sorry for myself and stopped seeing myself as someone with depression, because that thought alone is what holds us back from getting better in my opinion. you have to really push yourself out of your comfort zone and force yourself to care for yourself and be more productive day to day little by little. 🙏
@@l.2620 thank you for adding that last bit, I’ve had a few other depressed people tell me to get over it because they got over it so I’m just being a baby still having it -_- like I thought you were supposed to be more understanding instead of less?? I hate those kind of people
My dad told me I looked happy, it completely took me by surprise because I feel the worst I have ever felt. It's funny how well we can hide things even when we don't necessarily mean to
I can relate. Even my therapist says that it’s hard to tell if I am not handing something well because of how overly calm and reserved I appear to be
It’s crazy how we all have different perspectives
Cause if someone told me this i would begin to think …hmm maybe im not doing so bad after all…maybe im just being a little bitch …
idk lol
@@ju999X so you are one of those who think depression is just lazyness huh?
@@ViviRaaawr i was speaking for myself
@@ju999X and what do you wanna tell with that exactly?
Random apathic person: "you don't look depressed."
Me staring into the abyss: "That's because it's a faceless void screaming for a coverup by meaning."
“Some people can’t sleep, others stay in bed all day
Some people have no appetite, others overeat
Some people cry often, others feel numb
Some people want to talk, others want to withdraw “
Beautifully narrated
Yes ;)
the fact that there's people out there that don't believe in depression blows my mind, like how lucky can you be to have never had depression or other mental illnesses. truly blessed
fr
There’s always the possibility they have it but don’t recognize it because they don’t believe in it and it’s not explained to them
lol depression is just sadness lmaooo
@@literallymemoviesenjoyer ur right, its basically constant sadness
@@literallymemoviesenjoyer you should do some research your ignorance is showing
" Just because someone carries it well, doest mean it isn't heavy. " - So true
It's not always easy to tell if someone is depressed. Some can hide it really well. But also, even if you try to hide it, it has a way of showing. In other words, some say it best when they say nothing at all.
this is exactly how i feel…and no one understands me
i understand
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someoane to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
"You're so good at organizing things!"
"You're full of energy!"
"You're a good listener!"
"So creative!"
On the outside, ppl tell you to be grateful to be able to accomplish these things, but it serves as a double edge sword. The one day you tell ppl, "hey, I'm feeling really shitty. In fact... I feel shitty constantly." They tell you "oh you've got this because its you! Anyhow, I have it really bad too. I suffer so much because..."
I love supporting other ppl, but I've had too many cases where I just dont get taken seriously with my struggles.
And then I get asked why I never text back. Why I disappear. Why I space out. My problems are just not big enough for ppl, and the moment I'm not helping them through theirs, I'm suddenly useless. So many ppl really think I'm their best friend, and get offended when I say I dont reciprocate the feeling. I know everything about you, but you know NOTHING about me. Ask me what I do at home. Ask me about my family. My hobbies. My interests. Oh, thats right. You dont know. Im just a jumper cable to entertain you and hear your problems, not a human who struggles. No. You are not my best friend, and dont kid yourself into thinking Im yours.
You just described my life. I just want to give you hug, to let you know I deeply felt everything you said. It's like everyone is expecting something because it's you. You know what to do. You always handle everything...
Airasza Thank you for understanding, and I just wanna return that sentiment to you. I hope things don't get overwhelming for you out there, and know that your struggles are just as valid, no matter how much ppl think they know how much it truly weighs on you. My hope is that whatever it is that you're going through, that you get the support you need.
Actually thank you for this because it made me realize I'm going through the same thing. I'm always the good friend that's there for people and make them laugh and help them through their problems, but none of my friends are really there for me or really care about me lol. But then its kinda hard for me to not be friends with them because its so hard to make friends so its like easier to just stay friends with them than to make new ones idk. Feelsbadman. Its kinda sad when I disappear from discord, no one cares lol. You're not alone mate.
This video describes EXACTLY what I'm going through right now... it's so hard to feel this way knowing that all the people around you could never understand what's going on in your mind.
Thank you Kat for giving us a voice 💛
are u seeking help?
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someoane to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
@@supravietuitoriblog547 omg thank you, I really appreciated your comment: it made me feel less lonely and more understood ❤️
@@userm180 thank you too. I was seeking for help, but lately a new person's arrived at my university and we've got very close. Now it feels like I'm not so lonely anymore, and I've finally started seeing a light in all this darkness.
I hope you're doing great as well!
@@nicolettazenobini4632 im so glad and proud of you!!! keep going love. if u need to talk to somebody im here alright?
I remember when my friends back in school would tell me I’m always smiling when in reality I was very depressed. You just never know what’s really going on in someone’s life so never assume.
“It’s being understanding towards others while beating yourself up over every mistake you have ever made” this one hits home…
I was in depression for almost 12 years. But now I am out of it. I can relate every word to my depression days... It was hell
What Does getting outta depression feel like
@@Gizemnrr777 In depression days, my brain nd soul was not compatible. No co- ordination between these two. Everything was unrelatable. Not living in the moment.
In normal condition, I feel meaning in the moment.even Small things are meaningful now. Life seems exciting. Having purpose now. Automatically I focus on myself. Not feel envy to others. I mind my own business nd it happens naturally in very pleasant and beautiful manner like children do.....not feeling burdon of my own life as it used to feel like earlier.
Simply, every thing happens in my life without any push, in natural manner.
@@alokkumar-wu1vp how did you do it? I’ve been depressed since 13 years old and I’m turning 16 this year
How?
Just remember though, depression can be just as visible as invisible. Sometimes you can look as depressed as you feel. Don't take it as one or the other. For the longest time I was afraid to act the way. But being able to tell others you are sad when you are or feeling empty or tired or hopeless when those are your exact emotions, that shows your maturity. That shows your growth. It shows your efforts to improve. To understand and express your emotions is the first step to emotional recovery.
I think my biggest mistake whilst experiencing depression was keeping quiet. The mind in that state is excellent at keeping everything trapped inside, growing it day by day until you feel so hopeless and helpless that you start to think you’ve gone insane. It is crucial and okay to open up about your feelings, no matter how weird you may find your thoughts. Find someone who listens. For me it was a great therapist and my father who had been through similar phases in life.
did you go to a psychiatric to get diagnosed first before going to therapist?
This is how I'm living life right now
Hey! How are you feeling today?
u ok?
I'm fine, thank you both for asking. How about you?
@@princessterri1129 I'm doing alright, overall. Been going back and forth between feeling "I hate myself/I want to kms" and "I'm the best in the world" probably 2-3 times a day in the past 2-3 weeks. How was your weekend?
I relate completely to everything in this video especially the helping hand part, i am always so glad to help anyone out with anything whether it be work, advice, favors etc. but when i need help or a favor i find it extremely extremely hard to say anything because i was always raised with an independent mentality where i have to prove that i can do things all on my own and its so hard and i just suffer silently most of the time. Everyday
please do seek help from a professional, it's better like that and you wont feel like you're burdening them
Same
She said she's been excelling in studies .I am not even good at studies ,just wasting parent's money ,just lying to them every single time that my studies are going well whenever they ask about grades and studies. Iam completely worthless with not even good at a single thing. I want no I deserve to be dead.
Iam unbale to concentrate on my studies no matter how hard I try.
@@rameshwarhirwani9143 same here but I have no will to study.
Kat…I just want u to know that u really help me when i’m feeling stressed…Thank you kat ❤️
r u seeking help love
@@userm180 What about you mate... You okay?
I'm 13 and I have been depressed for 3 years now ( I don't know how to feel better I see a therapist 3 times a week)
This is how exactly how I feel ever since I was little- every thing is how I relate to my every day life * trying to get better on my own but it’s too much for me now
You can do it. I believe in your soul to break free from these chackles and find pieces of rest and serenity some day.
I'd like to add one, from personal experience: "It's either genuinely not realising something is off or convincing yourself that this is normal, 'this is fine', until you drink a bit more than you can handle and suddenly you're telling your partner how much you hate yourself and that you don't want to kill yourself but you sure want to die."
Fun times.
And then I get asked (not by my partner, he gets it) "well what are you depressed about?" Like your brain needs a reason to malfunction.
sometimes I'm ashamed to confess because people tell me I'm selfish or “what are you depressed about?” , “you're lucky, you live better than a lot of people”. yes but, and? I even manage to ask myself “am I depressed? maybe I'm selfish as they say?” Finally, I feel guilty for depressing. I am told “go out, go see friends, have fun, you are young, life is beautiful”. except that I don't want any of that.
There’s always a cause for depression, but its not simple to discover it, and when you do it will probrably make you more depressed(because its associated with a lot of nasty truths, that you try to hide to yourself);at least it went this way with me but recently its going better because i’m attacking the source of my depression.
when she said "its offering someone a helping hand, while feeling a burden" I felt it.
I love your perspective that symptoms of depression can be as individual as person is and we shouldn't take the outer layer of a person as a reflection of their spirit. Big shout out to you for raising awareness and not making assumption that laughing loud always means being happy.
P. S
I really love your English accent. I know you are Polish (as I am) but you have lost your accent entirely and it is a music to my ears to listen to your videos 👍🏾 great work xx
"it's being the most entertaining person in the room, while feeling empty inside"
is probably out of all these paradaxos mentioned one that i can relate to the most. i am not the funniest person but i do love acting out wild or funny stories i heard or randomly make people laugh. at parties or when meeting friends i felt like it was my only purpose to be "the entertainer". i acted like that almost all the time because seeing people react to me positively is what made me feel good. even though everytime i came back home or was alone i just felt empty. like "what was so funny about what i was telling them? why? they probably can enjoy themselves without me." and felt like a completely different persona. it felt like that weird exhaustion and emptiness after a concert you've been practicing so hard for. once i gradually stopped playing the entertainer at gatherings because i couldn't bear the contrast of being in front of people and being alone in my room anymore i also got less invitations to parties or stuff like that. thats what hurt me the most. once you don't want to play your usual role you get kicked out (of course i am exaggerating a bit here but you know what i mean) i actually don't quite remember what the purpose of this comment was when i started writing it but sometimes it is true. "the liveliest and lightest souls are also the ones that know how heavy emptiness can feel."
it is ok if you don't want to be a people pleaser anymore.
I hope you get better ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
this is beautiful.. thank you, to everyone who made this film come to life, this helps.. a little
"All I do is cry behind this smile" defines depression for me
ty Labrinth for putting words to the emotion
the part at 1:02 is so relatable to me. i beat myself up over everything I do and I try my best to have everyone else not feel that way
how do u beat urself up?
M dont missundestand, she said beat meaning everything that happen in her life in the surrounding it'd her fault maybe
@@soccerbels7947 wait what? I’m kinda confused, what I meant by “beat myself up” is that I critique myself about a lot of things when sometimes it’s not as bad as I think. it’s because I struggle with general anxiety disorder, idk if you were saying it’s my own fault?
Nono sry i missundestand
I also think a lot about my errors
“Some smiles hide silent screams”
Damn.. really felt that.
Depression is like being colorblind and being constantly told how colorful the world is
-someone
I find myself from here in every second of this video. Its very well thinked and filmed! Gives hope to me that others feel the same way! Thanks a lot!!
This is the most understanding video I ever watched. This is how I feel about everything. I wish anyone could understand me!
This hits hard for someone who has been told that I’m overreacting or being dramatic
It hurts knowing u tried doing ur best and it still wasn't good enough... Broken inside😞
Thank you so much for this Video! You are speaking right out of my heart. I think I will show this video to people who do not seem to understand, because you describe it so beautifully.
u ok luv
I want to say that if a person looks "normal", this does not mean that he is fine. Please, people, ask your loved ones more often how they feel, sometimes it can be vital. Love to all 🙃💚💙
this is just exactly how i feel every single day, lately i cant eat. It feels like i'm lost in an ocean on a boat that is just floating away.
“Some smiles hide
Silent screams"
That hit me hard🙃
Everyone:Thats so relatable
Me:Nice thumbnail
Poruszyło mnie to mocno. To jak potrafisz oddać różne stany jest niesamowite.
Tak dogłębnie, tak prawdziwie, w każdym detalu.
Nic ci nie jest?
@@userm180 W jakim sensie?
the way how u describe it is amazing, i'm speechless.
This is so beautiful, keep up the great work, sending love and hugs to everyone struggling out there.
I'm so grateful to see you channel such contents...this is art. And thank you so much for all your effort. Much love
In love with your artwork, as always.
your voice is so soothing, yet I can relate to everything your saying. 🥺💗
the feeling when someone ask you how are you, and you just respond with “im okay” when you’re clearly not. I can relate with so much in this video.
People who are depressed are the ones that care the most when they are being cared less
Thumbnail stops me from being depressed...
i have never seen anything more relatable ever in my life, i watch your videos over and over again, thank you for everything kat you're amazing
Okay... you just made me ball my eyes out :'( You hit the nail on its head with these observations
Amazing!! Literally no other way to describe your work! ❤️
This is so inspiring 🥺💕 Kat is so talented I love the visuals 💗
I thought I would never find a type of depression that can reflect my life...everything you said is really how it is in my life,i don´t need pity,so i just smile to everyone
This actually made me think abt a few friends of mine, you made this so, so, so beautiful D:
Kat just described the 2 past years of my life in 2 minutes.
I was relating to every single word of the video.
You always manage to put into words exactly how I'm feeling, even when I'm struggling to do so myself
Thank you for your videos! And for everyone struggling with any problem, I just want you to know that I believe in you and I'm proud of you even if I don't really know you!
are u ok luv
@@userm180 I think I have a hard time recently managing my anxiety, but it's okay! Some days are better, some days a little less, but I'm trying to feel better by being gentle with myself and stuff
Thank you for asking! You really put a smile on my face :) how about you? Are u ok?
@@elciamh are you seeking help for it dear? i really hope you'll only have good days from now on :) i'm fine, thanks for asking. i hope you'll have a lovely day today, God bless.
@@userm180 I am, thank you sm! And I wish you all the best! :)
It really feels like nobody understands it. This video explained my feelings in so many ways
This video really describes it so well, its hard to cope but it has become a norm that is become part of u.
I don't have an appetite and am concerned for my health but don't know how to relive that enticement for eating.
Depression is to me what Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata feels to the pianist.... especially when I am the one playing... The last few notes in the music at the end of the video happens to closely resemble how the Sonata ends...
u ok?
@@userm180 not great, but thanks for asking. Hope you are well though. 👍
@@yuanz2 are u seeking help?
@@userm180 I see you have asked the same questions to many people who commented on this video. Are you offering professional counselling?
@@yuanz2 no, but i want to make sure people are ok
To you that are reading this message today I just wanted to say that you can fight through anything , just believe in yourself , keep your head up and stay strong , you deserve it all ❤️
I’m speechless. This is beyond amazingly written and illustrated. Incredible work. Depression has infinite faces. Keep doing what you’re doing ♥️
Absolutely brilliant. Captured so many different states of depression and the way it manifests
I don't feel depressive even though I am in a worse state than some people describing their depression. Yes, I know everyone has their own difficulties but I've been living in this mental state since I can remember.
Honestly depression hit hard for me last year, and now it is sort of ok, but I still overthink way too much, I feel tired 24/7. And I want to talk sometimes but then I really feel like I'm just going to sound annoying to others even though they reassure me that I'm not being annoying. It's also gotten to the point where I barely eat all day maybe except lunch, but then I eat a lot for dinner or at night. Sometimes I feel so lost that I feel like I won't have a future bc my mind just keeps overthinking so many thoughts. :/
you have described my condition for the past 2 years. I wanted nothing, lying on the bed all day doing nothing, at night I didn't sleep. feeling tired all the time. I spent my nights crying. I didn't want to talk to anyone, to see anyone. everything pissed me off. I had no energy because I only ate twice a day. I had lost so much energy that I couldn't stand up. I was taken to the hospital. severe anemia, they said. I was given medication, it cured my anemia but not my depression. I relapsed the following year during the school holidays. I lost a lot of weight, self-confidence (even if I never had any). I wanted to die. and the best for last: I was told so many times that I had no reason to be depressed that I ended up asking myself “am I really depressed? maybe I'm just selfish? or ungrateful” Finally, I stopped confiding because I was always told the same thing. maybe they are right.
@@inmyvenus ik this is isn't the right thing to say but I'm so glad someone understands me, everything you explained had been me last year except for the anemia part, I'm so sorry you went through that. And yeah people tell me I don't really have a reason to feel this way, so all of last year I told myself I shouldn't be sad and depressed for no reason bc ik people have it worse and there isn't a reason for me to feel this way. I'm a huge overthinker so that really brings me down all the time. Like I'm a 11th and I feel like I'm falling behind in everything bc I haven't even gotten my permit yet, I never took the PSAT bc of covid, I'm doing online school again so I'm going to either have to take the SAT and ACT in the summer or next year, I don't have a job even tho I should get one just like everyone else. I honestly do nothing except lay in my bed feeling so mentally tired. I always tell myself I'm going to do this, this, and that, but end up never doing it and instead stay in my room. And I hate myself sm because I feel like I'm never going to get nowhere in life because of how I am right now. (I'm sorry for talking about these useless information and venting I just haven't been able to tell anyone that except maybe my mom a few times but she just says to try harder and not to worry too much bc I still have time.) I feel like I'm suffocating in a box that keeps closing. And I want to get a therapist even tho I hear that a lot of people don't really like theirs but idk. And i feel like my anxiety has gotten a bit worse and social anxiety as well. I also get get to go outside because I barely do and supposedly that helps bc of the sun but idek. Sorry this is long.
" its offering others a helping hand while feeling like a burden"
I always feel this way
,just didn't know 😭
I would like to thnk Kat for being soo precise and compassionate towards this issue ...Thnk u kat
I remember watching your videos and beautifully worded short films on depression and anxiety back in 2019 & early 2020 as a 15 year old. I was going through my first depressive episode and constantly thinking about suicide after only knowing and living with anxiety my whole life. I felt so misunderstood and hopeless, the only source of understanding I had came from repeatedly googling "[insert mental illness] short film." No one understood or even noticed what I was going through or the morbid jokes or hints I would give that I was struggling as a cry for help. One of your vids from 6 years ago on Living with Depression (as well as the ones on Social Anxiety and OCD, all of which I struggle with, and you were able to put words to an experience I was so new to. It felt so alleviating so hear someone else's experience with it worded so eloquently. I remember a quote down from it that I resonated with so well on my laptop, and it just made me feel so comforted and not as alone as I felt beforehand... I'm now almost 18, going off to college this year with hopes of becoming a child psychiatrist, and (although I still experience depression every so often) haven't been suicidal since :') I know no one will probably read this but I just wanted to say thank you, Kat, for putting an experience that felt so isolating and life-taking into words and video. Thanks for helping me feel understood ~
Here's the quote I wrote down in case anyone's curious:
Depression has clipped my wings, yet anxiety expects me to fly. Everyone who kept their fingers crossed fro me has long quit, as though they got tired of waiting. No wonder they left. I would, too. *Sadly, I cannot walk away from myself...* "How are you doing?" they ask. So I try to find words, but they evade me... I can feel myself subsiding, nearing the point of no return. The cracks are starting to show through the flimsy layers of paper I've been trying to cover them with. But I lift my head up and smile: _"Yeah, I'm well. Very well."_
Thank you for such a nice comment, I’m glad you’re better! Good luck with your studies. 💜
@@KatAmarie thank you 🥺🥰
This video has such a deep meaning for me. It partly describes my situation. I loved it 🥺
Thank you for this video. It explains the dissonance between my inside and outside world in a way I haven't been able to explain before. This difference is often extremely jarring for me.
Haven’t watched it yet but already feel that it will be touching. Feel depressed and trying to dive into creating of my own videos but still feel emptiness sometimes. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. ❤️
Bruh, haven't watched it yet? Wut?
@@TheRealArtDoctor I can’t start crying watching it so saving for the better times😅
are u ok
I love this and i love you♥️
The key to overcome depression is to understand the fact that all we have is this moment.. seriously think about it... ALL WE HAVR IS THIS MOMENT
This is the best depiction I have seen. Thank you.
Regrets are irrational, you made the best choice you knew in that moment, your decision was based upon your lifes experiences, You did not have control over it
Depression is always there, right inside my skull. Still, i fight this garbage every day. I originally thought it had started when i was 16. I was living in a small town. Last year of highschool. I realize how lonely and rejected i was. I wasn't bullied or hated, but i was forgotten by my surroundings. I moved to a small city for college at 17. I started to play in a band and kinda was the ''mysterious'' friendly tattoed musician guy. I was happy, good party, good sex and love stories, drugs and drinks. Life was good, but was it really? I quickly realized at around 19 that my place wasn't there and something was missing and i was failing college even though i always was some major school nerd. My father offered me to move to his house in a way bigger city with better opportunities and diversity of career. I started studying photography and how to start a business. I was good at it and even sold one of my frame for a meagre 300$ haha, but i was sitll proud. Suddenly i'm 21 and i realized photography wasn't satisfying either. I realized all things in life are only satifying at the exact moment it they happen, once they are gone, i am not satisfied, my brain is craving for something i don't understand. I sadly quit before the end of my class. I sold all my equipment and started back again. The next 9 years or until i reached 30, i went through the painful way of acceptance. That it is a part of me. That i will have to live and manage it myself without drugs. My tricks is to occupy my mind as much as i can and also make sure to spend my physical energy so it's easier to sleep. I honestly started to feel better with the health situation worldwide, it's ironic. Keep fighting my fellow warriors of the mind.
Been there in EVERY sentence. Lived 40 years there. Got saved. Better. Much better. There is help from above. Peace... til then.
Just WOW, Blown Away!....still weeping....silently..... while my partner sleeps next to me
Nailed it
More of the same please
Thank you & Bless you All
Awesome video! 🙌🔥
Kind of concerned that I can't watch this video without bursting into tears lmao
Just the truest and most accurate line ever spoken
I used to be this person, where it was invisible because of focusing on others too much and just giving back, this brought me real joy - and eventually healed me. Now I have depression that revolves around worrying that my MH will effect people around me negatively, and because I worry about it, it does. Hence the noticeable depression. Trust me, if nobody notices it until you tell them, this is a blessing to aid you in taking the time you need to heal.
Well done Kat! ❤️🛼🥰
i really felt seen with this video, it’s so accurate with what ive been feeling. i kinda feel liberated now, to just hear these words and finally feeling understood. thank you for this video. your work is incredible 🤍.
are u seeking help?
The weirdest ''compliment'' I ever got was when I had a panic attack. This woman tries to ''comfort'' me by telling me I'm not showing it. as in you wouldn't tell that I was having one.
because that would be the most important. at least I was hiding it well...
luckily for me, there was another person there. I think he has a medical background. he gave her a ''shut the f up'' look and helped me calm down.
in case anyone is wondering. we were talking about a traumatic experience.
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help.
are u ok love
Are u oke m
why isn't this video at a million views or more? It should have more views because this is well narrated and said!
Just because someone carries it well, doesn’t mean it isn’t heavy.
This is so so so true. Also representing chronic diseases which are invisible to the eye.
True 👍👌
Love you
Dziękuję Ci bardzo za polskie napisy. Bardzo dużo to dla mnie znaczy. Ściskam mocno 😊
love from russia and uzbekistan :)
thank you for everything my you do! you help ppl so much