why do i hate myself so much? | sad multifandom
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- Опубликовано: 30 сен 2019
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shows/movies used:
1. girl meets world
2. skam
3. teen wolf
4. 13 reasons why
5. scream
6. the end of the fucking world
7. the vampire diaries
8. pretty little liars
9. the vampire diaries
10. pretty little liars
11. the 100
12. teen wolf
13. the vampire diaries
14. one tree hill
15. teen wolf
16. the 100
17. jane the virgin
18. anne with an e
19. instant family
20. the originals
21. stranger things
22. shameless
23. breaking bad
24. teen wolf
25. pretty little liars
socials 🖤
wattpad ; cosmicxvenus
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No
@@drfrowney6268 yes you are
No
No
@@ultimatechaos9231 yes you are
I am not a person anymore i am a problem.
Irtika bashir you’re not at all. You’re not a problem. I’m here for you if you need to talk or anything.
Ur not a problem ❤
I know how you feel.
To the bone 💞
You are not a problem you have problems but there is a possibility that to one person you are the solution
*You know you got it bad when your watching these again.*
Thats so true like in 4 years clean and now im struggel to make it 5 but inside i know it wont take away the pain
Fr :(
Leave me alone
For real... it's getting worse
0:26 movie name?
Is it just me or do just feel like leaving my house is scary because, people always look at me or even going to school it makes me feel so ugly:/
Same
💜
I am at a point where I don’t want to leave my house, my room or even my bed... I don’t want to go out because than people will have to see me they will look at me and I just can’t stand this thought, I apologize to everyone ho has to look at me.. even I dont want to see myself
People looking at you is scary. Huh. I wish people looked at me more. Well no matter what people will look at you. It's not something you can stop or blame yourself for. Also a lot of the time people arent judging you.
Aubrey Adkins same
Let’s just be honest, we’re all here because we’re too lonely and we relate so much:(
Nope, I just like seeing these scenes.
Can’t forget suicidal too🙃
Everyday over and over and over and over the pain comes back and im tired of living .
@@tenze3998 😢😢😢😢😢😢
Triggered emotions 😭
Haha I just came here randomly
i don’t understand how i can forgive other people over and over, yet i haven’t forgiven myself once
Cause you’re naïve
Because you can't control their actions, but you can control your own.
@@brokenandcraked
Wow, that's deep.
I can relate. I am only harsh on myself and i always forgive others
@@brokenandcraked I can relate to his on a level that's too deep to express any further... perfect self control might be the most evolved form of anxiety there is...
I just don't understand. why me? I did everything and I tried so hard to be the perfect friend/ daughter/ student and all get is emptiness. no selflove no happiness just black empty nothing.
I relate. Why is it that trying counts for nothing. And people who don’t try get it all. It’s so unfair.
Don’t try to be perfect for anyone. You seem like a very caring person with a big heart and I hope you find inner peace. No one is perfect and try to be better for yourself and only for yourself not for anyone else ❤️. YOU ARE amazing and YOU ARE worth everything I’m here if you need someone to listen to you ❤️
netflix mania it’s sad that you relate if you can then you too have big beautiful heart. You may give everyone all your love and expect the same in return but Yk sometimes it’s not how it works. Like I told her be better for yourself and no one else because YOU CAN ❤️ you are also amazing and even tho I don’t know your situation you voice is heard & I’m here to listen to you ❤️
The only thing that's impossible is being perfect
Happison stops after awhile. You feel nothing you fake happiness so you don’t hurt others. It works, but they always end up hurting you.
When his voice cracked while asking why he hates himself made it feel so real. 0:27
❤
Tom Ellis is a brilliant actor
You should watch the movie
@@arachi4868 the what
@@arachi4868 it’s a show😂
Last night I relapsed. I was 3 years clean from self harm. But this morning, I felt the need to do it, I could not stop. I didn’t think I would come to this point in my life again.
Shitty things happen that's life but don't give up. You already proved you are strong. You can overcome this.
Doesn’t ever truly help does it, the pain doesn’t just ooz out of you and go away, it’s not in your blood
Me too I was so proud to be 4 years clean and now I hate myself even more
Ariana Diaz it’s ok
Dm me so we can talk...snap or insta?
'are you okay?'
no. im sick of everything. i hate everything and everyone including myself. i feel lost. im stuck in a really really dark place. i feel trapped. i need help. i dont want to be sad anymore.
'yeah, im just tired.
that feeling when you desperately want and need help but can’t ask for it because you’re too scared and embarrassed of yourself.
im sorry
😔😔😔😔😔😔same
Yeah
hey im here
“I’m drowning doctor and I can’t stop asking myself why do I hate myself so much”
That hit hard
Edit: this a a year later and somehow I still feel the exact same way...I kinda thought things would be better...
Why is it why do I feel this way everyone hates me I hate me
@@mikewhittington144 no it is just a Feeling🥺💔i feel you
Exactly what i feel everytime... This video was... Amazing. Thanks for sharing this with us. Bravo de la🇨🇵
Mike Whittington right
What movie/serie?
The 11 people who disliked don’t know how depression feels
Karen S or maybe they are in denial and this mae them realise how much they hate themselves because realising you have the pain feels a thousand times worse even though it is the best way to overcome it
im sure there's other reasons
Or they know more then you can understand
Fr I thought the same thing
I have stopped crying. It's getting worse
If this continues the only thing u can do is get help...
AndyPotato wanna talk about it
It may seem like it’s getting worse and you may feel helpless but I’m here to listen to you and make you feel better ❤️. Please for me and everyone who cares about you dont give up KEEP FIGHTING your negative thoughts because your life is worth so much more than you think. You are loved by me and plenty of others. YOU ARE STRONG ! and the fact that you’re still here shows how brave you are :)
@@Liz-dn9ze ur amazing 😢
@@Liz-dn9ze ♥️♥️♥️
Everyday I tell myself the same things
Everyone loves me
No one hates me
My body is perfect
My life is perfect
I love myself
My friends are real
..the same lies everyday...
Then stop lying to yourself and fix what's wrong. It's all in your control. You're the one choosing to lie to yourself.
Fake it till you make it is just a fairytale
Same
@YEET how did you learn to do this? i can’t do it
@@ughicanteven5896 yep i will just stop lying to my body that kills me every day every lost love hurt feeling that just blends in to the void that is now my soul the fact is nothing will get better its all down hill take the only comfort in that today could be my last
I feel like it's just bottling up more and more and there is no way of releasing it. This constant frustration, this furious anger and all you can try and do is ignore it
One day you won’t be able to
Because if i don't ignore it, all I do is get panicked and pain comes through my entire body and that's when I feel like I am going g to faint
Or my brain just.. explode
you know when you are numb when you can’t cry to these anymore.
Exactly Im way passed crying anymore I'm still the depressed way but I don't cry to it alot
I feel you
Wish I could. But not now.
Bruhh true I keep watching these but I just can't shed a tear, so I just scroll through the comments with a blank heart and a mind
The real reason why i am still alive is- that im too afraid to die
I'm not afraid of death... "You start in the womb and end in the tomb"
Samee
I just want to feel accepted. It's like I have to change for everyone but everyone else is perfect. I hate not having anyone that cares about me and me only
We can’t always get what we want
Nobody’s perfect remember that
"Why do I hate myself so much?"
Because when I look at myself, I see myself so messed up, I can't see anything else.
Hey, I don't want to bother you or something, but I just wanted to tell you something. Maybe you've heard these things too many times, but I'll tell it anyway. You are perfect just the way you are, yes you are perfect with all of your flaws! Don't ever hate yourself or the person you are, because trust me you are fine. Maybe it doesn't look like that or you don't want to look like that, but remember that you are perfect just the way you are!
@@supravietuitoriblog547 its not just my looks... it's because I'm transgender and gay, and I'm used to getting hate, don't get me wrong... but when someone tells you certain things long enough, you start to believe it, and somewhere along the way, you forget feeling any different. You know?
@Naeem Khan I'd like that. 💜
@@supravietuitoriblog547 if i’m so “perfect”, why do i never get girls? Why does nobody like me? Why are my friends so toxic? Why is everybody so over and in sensitive? Why are people rude? Why do I hate myself…?
"why do i hate myself so much?"
that hit a lot harder then i thought it would....
I keep watching this video over and over again just think on why do I hate myself so much? And I know why I do. I’m a loser, nobody, ugly and so much more. I’m the quiet girl at school nobody really knows what my name is. I just hate who i am and how I look. I wish I could be the pretty girl who had all the friends and had all the boys crushing on her. I’m a fucking nobody. I’m just tired of feeling this way. I’m lonely all my friends have more important ppl then me so I’m always left out and it sucks very bad.
YOU ARE NOT A LOSER ! you are an amazing human being ❤️ and you are heard. I can assure you 100% that you are beautiful to don’t need guys to be chasing after you cause most of them don’t really care for other girls feelings. I know how it feels to be left out, the feeling is veryyyyyyy unpleasant and is live to be your friend. You remind me of my middle school self I don’t want this to be about me so I won’t get into it but there’s nothing wrong with you ❤️. The quiet girls are the best TBH their personalities are always great ! If others don’t see how much of a bright girl you are then leave them ! Fuck them you are amazing and BEAUTIFUL, and smart. And you don’t need anyone’s validation to feel pretty because as long as you believe it you are ❤️ I’d love to listen to you vent and help you. Because a girl like you deserves the world and so much more ❤️
You don't deserve them. YOU ARE AMAZING. you are not a nobody.
I understand how you feel, tht how I feel most of the time, it's like I have a great family bt outside of tht I'm Jst by myself, no one knows me they way I want to be known. I have friends bt their jst friends at school it feels like I always seem to fade away sometimes and I just want to be noticed and loved without having to share the same blood
i feel you girl
This is all I know
"Because everything I touch I ruin" got me bad...
It hits...
I hate myself because I'm always left behind; everytime I think I have a connection with someone, they go away, have plans for their lives and find love, they move on, while I'm forgotten and try to keep in touch with people who barely remember me. Everyday I'm remembered I'm just an acquaitance to everybody else, there's not a single person I left a stong impression, and no matter what I achieve in life, I'm always behind everyone else.
I felt this.
It's like 2 yrs late but damn dude never related so much to a comment . It's like I am insignificant . Why do the ppl we care about do genuinely never think of us as somebody atleast of some importance?
you know it hits hard when you can physcially feel the words in your chest
You feel words? That’s cool I feel a hollow pain that lasts day in and day out with no rest
yes.
Dear God.......i felt this video so much....wven after I stopped self harming and am trying to get better and no longer have suicidal thoughts....i still struggle with trying to not sabotage it all to not hate myself god I hate my brain so much my body my anxiety my depression my overthinking........
Im in the same position as u....n fck it hurts....but like just thinking about nothing like literally keep
Ing ur brain blank sometimes work ...so basically wht im saying is just be empty..which i know is a terrible advice ..
You are not alone ❤️ overthinking can be such a bad thing especially when there’s nothing to distract the mind. You’re very strong for stopping ! I’m happy that you stopped ❤️ Ik it can be a struggle with the temptation of the blade and the suicidal thoughts and I want to help you❤️ you can vent to me and just Yk have someone to distract your mind and let yourself just vent ❤️ I admire you for being so strong and please don’t hate yourself you are not the monster okay ❤️
seventeen forever allow yourself to be vulnerable and just let everything out either with a scream or crying or just anything that once you’re done you just take a deep breathe of fresh air just feel satisfaction ❤️. I’m here you for you too and you can always vent to me about anything, your thoughts I want to help you too ❤️
I understand where you are coming from....
god aint here
I didn’t need that personal attack when the screen went dark at the end and I had to look at myself
Maybe you did then
I hate going to sleep in the dark, because I’m scared of what thoughts will come up in my head and what it will do to me. It makes me feel lonely and so frightened.
I will never hate something or someone the way I hate myself. I have always hated myself and I always will.
I'm drowning everyone and I can't stop asking myself why I hate myself so much I can't stop asking myself that every day I try to figure out why I'm so ugly and worthless to most people 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
I am so sorry
I'm in the situation too and
I know what it's feels like
You are not ugly. You are worthy. Please don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You are strong and you can fight this no matter what
You are worth a lot trust me ❤️ and you are beautiful I don’t need a picture of yourself to figure that out.
Suicidal Tendency I’m here if you need someone to vent to ❤️ and you are worth a lot too so much more than you believe and if I could show you I would.
J C you are worth a lot too and you are strong as well. Seeing that you are in this video shows that you too feel some type of way you can correct me if I’m wrong. You a worthy too and very strong ❤️ I’m here if you want to vent to someone
I don’t feel like I have anything to live for anymore I’m so messed up I push every one away that I love
Yeah same, no one is left to block no one is left to see, and sleep becomes your only means of existence
I don't wanna live either because of that to...
I am so sorry that the world is a shitty place and most of you have been hurt and betrayed by the people who you call friends and family just know that you are here for a reason..You are loved and needed here ..just keep holding on everything will make sense one day
evry time i go somewhere even at school evryone jjst looks at me and the teacher i have hate me to for no reason amd im slowly giving up on life
lisa werwolf wanna talk about it
I already gave up man , i am dead inside
Sad, They look disgusted to you right? I know that feeling•́ ‿ ,•̀
I can relate... I get that look everywhere I go, thats why I don't like going anywhere.
@@monicpasi6037 me too
you know what’s scary af? watching those types of videos, because that’s the only thing that helps you feel somethin’
When you learn to much about the world, you become depressed and often times suicidal. When your brain learns to much, it ends itself. Stupidity is happiness.
Ignorance is bliss indeed
Exactly.. When I learnt about depressive realism.. it all made sense
We love self-destruction. Like a moth to the flame.
I dont have anyone, including myself
For anyone struggling out there, it will get better. The time will pass, you aren’t stuck. It’s not going to be like this forever. Work on yourself, it takes time. Don’t give up, you’ll miss out. It’s so hard, but that’s not the end of it. Keep going, please.
I hated myself so much. It's so hard to love this kind of person 🙃
i’ve just recently got addicted to lucifer, and i watch this edit and boom his voice, woww i love it,
This feeling of emptiness I have inside of me is just ridiculous, I feel like I’m watching the world from a ghosts perspective and that I cannot do a dam thing about it either because nobody could hear me, it hurts so much and at times makes me wish I wasn’t around no more tbh, I’m just so lost and hopeless it sucks...
When the one person you love and kept you going stops talking to you.
I don’t hate the people around me, I hate myself , and I think that’s worse
I used to listen to music and feel now I just sit in the shower with no music or in the car completely silent I don’t feel anything
Even that is a feeling
It's like... I simply can't stop hating myself. It gets worse and worse until you're simply drowning under it all and then... everything goes still. You go into this veil that makes it where you don't actually exist anymore and it hurts. It hurts so bad. But once you reach that point you can't cry, you can't feel, you're only stuck in that state with no way to express just how horrible you're feeling.
same.sister I hate myself so so much
I don't hate anything or blame anything that happens in my life, I actually appreciate my surroundings and the people around me. But I just hate myself so much to the point that I feel like I can't live with myself. I can just never have the feeling of loving myself and it hurts.
I feel like I appoligize too much because I’m scared to upset someone or I think I’m a problem
Same
I'm scared. Even though I get bouts of sadness and emptiness I usually push through to study before exams because the anxiety drives me to do it. But recently... that hasn't been kicking in. It's like I don't care anymore. In any sense. I've stopped worrying about wearing makeup to school. Stopped caring about waking up. Stopped caring about everything.
Wanna talk about it on Instagram? Write me there if you are interested
@@albertdvorak3633 Iam having the exact same problem, am I depressed? I guess Iam
@@barcafan1760 I have the same name on my IG as on YT, add me btw if you want :)
You know it’s bad when the only way you feel is by watching these again
There is a point where you just break, the desire to die and hurt stops and then you feel nothing, and in some ways that is worse
Nobody can hate me more than I hate myself
Sometimes it’s so difficult, I have a good family and friends, but I think that I’m awful. I do not fill this world with joy and something valuable. I only oppress people around. sometimes in the evenings I think about death, although I know that it is a sin and that my relatives will suffer.
Learn to be greatful
Everything is temporary so if you keep your hope, one day you'll be perhaps happy. I think we all are important and we all matter. You matter and are important so if you ever feel so so sad... Just wait, if you do, you are opening the chance of experience the feeling of being so so happy one day. Keep strong, the world also needs you, joy without bad moments, doesn't exist. All of u, take care.
i cannot understand why am i not perfect just like my family/friends , why am i not normal just like them ... i tried so hard to be perfect .... it fail
Hi, I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're perfect just the way you are. Maybe you don't see that now, but you will see it. What does 'perfect' mean to you? I describe perfect like a person who has flaws, because our flaws make us different and special. We are human beings and we have to be different and that doesn't mean that some of us are not good, or perfect for this world or society. You are perfect!
@@supravietuitoriblog547 this is the sweetest thing someone have ever told me, thank you so much for telling me this, I feel so much confident now! Thank you again!!! You’re the sweetest
@@mezna07 I'm glad
Same
I hate myself,
And there's nothing you can do about it,
Thanks for helping others tho.
Yeah
Ik😂
I just know it doesn't help when they say don't be sad.....🙂
I thought a relationship could fix me ..It didn't
Relationships are good for a while, but they all have an end, and after it it hurts a lot, but u realize that person wasn't worth it, u only need urself and urself ...
that is true.
currently going through this
how could I expect someone else to love me when I don’t even love myself
@@lupeamour6114 feel you
I thought having a family who hated me was ok cause at least I could go out and find someone who loved me. WRONG AGAIN!
“Everything I touch I ruin” that hit deep
When you are a veteran at watching these, and you feel the pain deep down, but can only smile with bitter sadness. And no tears are shed, though you want to cry.
I watched so many edits and this one is still my favorite and i keep coming back multiple times a day
I can't forgive myself... It hurts so bad
The people who dislike this have no heart
Great job😢😘
Just Ignore them. 😔
Exactly, that’s something you’ll understand too one day
:(( why won't people understand that they don't understand and have no freaking proof and that they don't know what "those" people are going through? Like and dislike is normal. It's a freedom of speech, of opinion. I hope people would understand that..
“You need to forgive yourself”
“I can’t….”
“ I don’t know, how to…”
“ I don’t even know, where to begin…”
I relate to that, way harder than I would’ve wanted to
Hate how I have to feel like I need to change for everyone else
But what makes it worse is that I feel I need to change for myself too to make myself like me
I've watched many multifandom today....I'm exhausted....I can't live anymore.... thanks to the multifandoms.....I don't know .. please God take my life away I don't need it
Lucifer’s confession always feels real and make me cry everytime I hear it because I can also feel the pressure he’s having 🙂
Why do we hate ourselves so much? Well, it’s simple, really. We unfairly expect perfection only from ourselves. We’re constantly observing and measuring our worth, and inevitably we will not meet perfection, causing us to believe that we need fixing. But EVERY SINGLE ONE of us is not perfect. Why do WE have to carry this weight? We don’t. We NEED to be ourselves, which means we have to let go of expecting something unobtainable from ourselves (perfection), or maybe we have to get away from someone who is toxic, because that is the only way to find more constant internal happiness.
From one sad b, to another 😉
the fact that youve watched it. you need a hug.
that's my biggest dream right now.
being hugged by someone.
I've never experienced it and I probably never will.
I just can't love myself? Like it's taken a long time to be ok with how I look, but damn, being ok with who I am inside is so much harder
It’s at that point again where there’s no tears coming down
No one will probably see this (Since this comment is late) but still, people will probably think I am stupid because I don't want to live or may not believe me but I guess it's easier to pretend. Even if I am always alone, or people talk behind my back, I act so calm when in reality, inside I feel like breaking like... why? I just want to fit in but I can't. I act really cheerful but when I do cry and break down inside, people comfort me but never mean it. Even if I'm smart or try my best, if no one acknowledges it then what is the point? Now the only solution is poring my heart out online. More people like me are all over and I feel relieved. I am just stressed because of all the responsibilities poured into me and the longer I keep it in, the more it hurts, but then again, the more it heals because of the support I get from social media. I am ugly, fat, no one likes me, I can't do simple things, I am a coward, an ignored person, a person who doesn't speak to others too much, a loner, Many people don't know I exist and I overall hate myself and feel like I am alone in the world. Now, I am sleep deprived but even so, at least I can find people like me and have a reason for living.
Love how yu gave us the end part with no video so we could have those remaining seconds of introspection....first time seeing and it was SUPER.
The terrifying realisation that the world isn't whats wrong
The people around you aren't the problem
You are.....that feeling that makes your heart sink to the depths of the darkest ocean
When there's nobody and nothing left to blame but myself
I hate myself because I "have good grades, a family, and I'm always happy" and my friends parents compare them to me saying they should be like me. they dont know what's going on behind doors a fake face on someone is very powerful to hide everything in one person's life.
Very well spoken. If they all knew the constant sense of nobody understanding
Tom Ellis is absolutely brilliant. His skills in the acting department are stunning, he displays emotion so goddamn well. Everything he does is just amazing and I can truly feel the emotion with every word and movement.
I’m glad we think alike. I hope to see tom Ellis in more in the future.
People say it gets better but I've felt like this for years and it doesnt get better. Bunch of liars.
i tried, i tried and i tried. in the end, i'll never be enough for someone.
People look at the comments and try to help people when their just suffering from the same problem. Two depress people aren’t good for each other
So you're saying that if you have problems then you shouldn't try to help someone? Maybe bring them down more then since you say if someone feels hurt they shouldn't help someone else? And yes two depressed people aren't good but that's in terms of relationships. If you're just saying something to a stranger it's fine.
Plus idk what comment section you're on because I haven't yet found a comment and a reply with the same problem. Each problem is different in some way. But in the end, you a horrible person for saying it's bad for a depressed person to help another depressed person online.
Manic Queen there just carrying the other person weigh by trying to help so know your facts
2? There’s no person on earth not depressed, so no one is good for anyone
I accidentally clicked on this video and it was very cathartic. Thank you for doing this, I needed it more then I realized
Every week, I go to the big swimming pool complex near me that I used to go to all the time as a kid. I spend most of my time there just underwater screaming and crying, as it’s somewhere where I can do just that but no one has to hear me and my misery, it’s a busy enough place where I can just let everything out without having to ostracise and bring a shit ton of attention to myself as the weird person having a mental breakdown in the middle of the room as everyone else just stares at me in confusion and disgust.
I still live with this regret even after getting reminded that one time but was reassured that It wasn’t my fault. I was young but even then. I hate myself for how I treated someone I loved the most. Told myself I was the problem. Maybe I am but I’m still trying to fill in those bad moments with good one. I just hope it works out.
Him: "I hate myself"
Namjoon: It's okay son, everybody sometimes hate themself if they can't handle something hard or to let go of someone, but just remember, the most Important thing is to love yourself, you were born to be real, not to be perfect.
No offense but isn't it ironic when someone from an industry that forces idols to be perfect says all these?
I love this because they have added people that I have never seen in edits like this🥺 like Anne....
i used to love myself so much, i used to be obsessed with myself, i used to think i was so pretty and kind and smart, yet somehow between now and then from loving to take pictures of myself to refusing to even look at my own reflection, from smiling wide to covering my mouth every time i talk, from not caring how my legs look to always checking how big my legs are, from smiling naturally to forcing a smile and not liking how it looks, from eating everything i wanted to not eating anything at all, i dont know what happened but at one point everything went wrong
I can't stop asking myself, why I hate myself so damn much. I always come up empty.. Just why?
Think deeper
I don't want to say that I have realy hard life cause I don't have life, I just want it to end, everything I just want to end it all. I read these comments and I can see I'm not the only one but I still fell like I am. Pain isn't stoping I really just want it to stop.
Hi, I don't want to upset you or something, but I wanted to tell that life is worth living and you are told this by a person who wanted to end life 9 times. You are living in a darkness that will end, I promise you. I know it's hard and it's torturing you, but trust me the feeling that you succed being alive is the best feeling ever. And remember that you have me, if you want to talk to someoane who understands you.
I just need a hug 😭
Nobody’s ever hurt me in any way and nobody’s ever had expectations for me. So why am I putting so much pressure on myself? It hurts even more when I realize that I am the problem and that I did this to myself.
Sometimes i just wonder what i did to deserve so much horrible things to happen to me, i always get the shit end of the stick.
I tell people I'm okay, but I'm not. I haven't been okay in years. When it first started I started to smoke weed to feel better. I was 13 and didn't know what to do, so I chose the first thing that made me feel far away from anything that feels normal. But eventually it stopped helping and I started taking drugs and drinking so I feel better, but it only makes me feel happy while on them. Whenever I sober up, or even just get a glimpse of what my life's really come too, it kills me. I just want to be okay, but not matter what I try to do, nothing works, and it doesn't seem like anythings going to change anyway...
"The world is a filthy place" no true happiness here...
I pray that whatever you are going through, may it get better. Better days are coming.
I mean no disrespect but this is some form of beauty
I remember watching lucifer talking to linda about his self hatred and i never related to lucifer more.
Have you ever cried so hard that you physically feel the pain in your chest
that hits hard when u feel like that is u💔
I know I know my life is awful to but if u kill ur self u can’t come back cause u only live once to ur life
Some people have no interest in coming back
I don't care if someone hates me, cuz I hate myself too so it's fine.
I totally get it
he won't notice i'm gone anyways
When you hurt someone you love and they give up on you, that moment is more painful than digging a trench with a broken collarbone. I hate myself and no amount of medication, meditation, or therapy will change that. No song will ever be sang to make it okay, nor will any story I write fix it. I’m done.
Lucifer! I love so much Tom Ellis ❤️💔😭
Lucifer Morningstar i love him too, he’s such a good actor! 🥺
Im slowly going back to the place i fought so hard to get out
It gets worse every day, no matter how hard I try to change, it gets worse every day. each day is a struggle with my own thoughts, I can not focus on anything because I am constantly flooded with thoughts that I can not stop. After a minute of learning, I get distracted, sleep worse and with each passing day it becomes harder and harder for me to get out of bed. When I'm among people, even with my family, I automatically put on a mask that I can't take off and in the minds of others there is a version of me that is far from the truth and in fact nobody knows me, doesn't like me and everyone thinks I'm a weirdo. When someone comes up to me and wants to talk, it is not known why I am paralyzed and act like an idiot, so others do not take me seriously. After more than a year of fighting, I feel that I am slowly losing strength and I have the impression that a little more and I will finish it all. I'm slowly losing hope and I don't feel like living anymore, because I'm supposed to live after my only friend is depression. It hurts when every day is a struggle and you give your literally everything to survive and when you come home you hear criticism, when you come to school you hear criticism and laughter behind your back. My mother recently told me that I have a weak psyche because I can't even finish school, which hurt me a lot because even though I give it all, everyone still thinks that I'm weak and I don't care. If you have friends you can rely on and trust them, then when you start to feel worse mentally, do not make the same mistake as I did and ask for help because later it will be too late, sometimes it is worth putting your pride in your pocket because you will regret it later. I think this is my last chapter in my life and I will give up soon because I'm sick of it all
Learn to love yourself cause you are worth it, original and exceptional...you are you and that makes you unique and beautiful, somebody loves you but the greatest love you can receive is loving yourself and accept your flaws and imperfections...