I TRANSITIONED... NOW WHAT?? - coming to terms with life as a trans person

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  • Опубликовано: 27 авг 2024

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  • @_sshh_
    @_sshh_ 2 месяца назад +14

    Your the first and probably only person ive seeen who suits a mullet lol looks good

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +5

      Lmaoo thanks, what an honour 😅

    • @_sshh_
      @_sshh_ 2 месяца назад +2

      Haha your welcome it looks great 🤗

  • @lumen-saxty-sax
    @lumen-saxty-sax 2 месяца назад +9

    Hey, I hope that this isn't weird to say, but I think you look WAY better as a man than I did lmao. (im transfem btw)

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +6

      Loll not weird at all! I appreciate the compliment! I guess you can never look your best presenting as a gender you're not comfortable with right? Makes sense to me :)

  • @AmericanAmy
    @AmericanAmy 2 месяца назад +4

    Your person is your soul.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +3

      That is definitely a good way to put it. Although not everyone believes in the concept of a soul, something along those lines definitely makes a lot of sense when trying to look for continuity throughout your entire existence :)

  • @kimsherlock8969
    @kimsherlock8969 2 месяца назад +5

    Age will give you perspective
    Growing old isn't easygoing transition 😕
    from young to old age is transition to your new body and face .
    A face you may not know as you.
    Goodluck as this is the most difficult process of life .
    Moving towards the winds of time and death

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +3

      For sure, but I'm not scared of changing, of aging. I already look much older than I used to, because I am older. It's a natural part of life, and I will not try to deny or stop it when the time comes :)

    • @HLBear
      @HLBear 2 месяца назад +2

      I've not met anyone who ended their transition the same way they imagined. Priorities and expectations change along with their physical presentation. It is such a powerful process, and I honor their choices. I honor yours. 😊

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +1

      Of course. Because people also just grow up and mature. If they set themselves specific goals time and time again, of course they will end up somewhere else than they originally anticipated. But if instead they are already open to changes in their goals, needs, expectations and environment, I think that could make it less hard to acknowledge if, for example, you made a decision that you perhaps regret now. Does that make sense? Like it's less disappointing to reach a specific goal if you can acknowledge that that is not your goal anymore!

    • @kimsherlock8969
      @kimsherlock8969 2 месяца назад

      One day you wil, be an old fart and no one will recognise you as vibrant and alive because
      Everyone ages into their trud character Hahaha Hahaha 😆

  • @nugget6635
    @nugget6635 21 день назад

    We are always changing. We are never the same person. But we are what I call "Continued Existence" so there is something people are born with that I called "Original Configuration" the original config of a human has nothing to do with gender because it comes to life before the person even learns about gender from society, BEFORE an identity is properly developed. People are born with this OG Config. It took me YEARS to go back to it. Now that I recovered my original configuration I realised that it is Anger. I was born to be an angry person ever since the beginning. It's in my soul sort of speaking... Anger is at the very core of my being, it is therefore my OG Config and an essence that surpasses even my own gender.

  • @MM-km1vl
    @MM-km1vl 2 месяца назад +4

    Oh damn Dawid!
    I loooove the new haircut!
    You look so goodd!! ❤😮

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +3

      Thank you so much! I really like it too ❤️

  • @fake_sk8r200
    @fake_sk8r200 2 месяца назад +5

    love your hair so much dude, im working on growing mine out as a transman aswell

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +3

      @fake_sk8r200 ahh thank you! Remember to stick to your goal, because I know how tempting it is to cut it all off sometimes hahah

    • @fake_sk8r200
      @fake_sk8r200 2 месяца назад +1

      @@queerpagan i'm very dedicated lmao!

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад

      That's awesome! Keep going my man!

  • @fulicious2991
    @fulicious2991 2 месяца назад +7

    Damn! You're 19? I do envy you as a 21 year old who found out I was trans only recently and am quite scared of regretting a transition due to all the fear mongering, but I do appreciate these sorts of videos by fellow queers that give me strength to be myself ❤
    (PS. Fellow pagan? 👀)

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +3

      You know, you can never win with the fearmongering. When you know you're trans at a young age, it's "you're too young to make such decisions", but when you realize it later, it's "well why didn't you come out earlier?". Remember everyone's journey is different, and 21 is still pretty young, you still have your whole life to figure stuff out ❤️
      And always nice to see fellow pagans!!

    • @NameGoesHere988
      @NameGoesHere988 Месяц назад

      I would recommend going to get professional help that can diagnose you with things like gender dysphoria.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  Месяц назад +1

      @NameGoesHere988 unfortunately not everyone can access that type of care, and it's getting more and more difficult as countries are turning transphobic while waiting lists are getting longer... but I agree, it is definitely helpful to talk to a professional about your feelings and have someone reassure you that those feelings are valid and prepare you for a potential medical transition :)

    • @NameGoesHere988
      @NameGoesHere988 Месяц назад

      @@queerpagan Yeah, access to it is a problem.

  • @KrazeeKrab
    @KrazeeKrab Месяц назад +1

    Bro, you are really wise and know yourself so well! And at only 19! It took me a lot longer to get to the points you‘re at already

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  Месяц назад +1

      @@KrazeeKrab Thank you! Totally fine if you don't have everything figured out at my age, I guess people are getting the access to the terminology from an earlier age, so they are able to put their experience into words much earlier!

    • @KrazeeKrab
      @KrazeeKrab Месяц назад

      @@queerpagan oh thank you! I wasn’t even talking about gender though,
      I just meant your general understanding of yourself and how accepting you are of who you are (:
      I‘m not trans but I could still relate to taking forever to understand & accept what and who you’re like (I am also neurodivergent though 😬).
      However, reading your comment again, maybe you‘re not exclusively talking about gender either hahaha.
      Anyway, keep going and good luck on your journey (:

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  Месяц назад +1

      @@KrazeeKrab yes, my comment could absolutely be applied to different things as well, including neurodivergency! So many people share their experiences online which both makes it more easily accessible and makes it more reassuring for (young) people that they are not alone in their struggles!
      (I do also come from a highly educated household so I guess I have always been expected to be intelligent and mature 😅)

  • @juanitopantuflapantufla2605
    @juanitopantuflapantufla2605 2 месяца назад +2

    hihi, trans girl here
    I normally don't comment but this is a nice video and wow, there's so much hate in the comments (probs best to block and ignore them)
    I really liked this video, not usually my style of video, but it's nice hearing other's people's perspectives
    loved the vibes of the video, definitely made me think about a few things different
    and like others commented, your hair looks GREAT boss : D

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад

      I'm so glad you enjoyed it! Yeah, unfortunately hate comments are a given if you decide to be open about being trans online, honestly this video is not even doing that bad in that regard 😭

  • @inlovewithcentipedes
    @inlovewithcentipedes 2 месяца назад +2

    dawid! życzę dużo szczęścia! pierwszy raz ciebie oglądam, gdy usłyszałem twe imię to odrazu się zacząłem zastanawiać, czy może jesteś z polski. szczerze mówiąc, jestem w szoku! dość mało mamy tutaj poganinów.. też jestem trans chłopem ale mam dopiero 15 lat i no cóż.......... X_X mądrze gadasz, fajnie się ogląda, leci sub

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +3

      Dzięki! Oczywiście że jestem z Polski :) Niestety mam wrażenie że pogaństwo to nadal wielkie tabu, i ludzie w ogóle nie chcą o tym mówić ani słyszeć. A szkoda, bo bardzo ciekawa jest nasza przedchrześcijańska historia...
      Jak masz 15 lat to jeszcze całe życie przed tobą. Mam nadzieję że upłynie ci jak najlepiej. Nie mieszkam w Polsce więc nie jestem zupełnie na bieżąco jeśli chodzi o możliwości dla osób trans, ale podejrzewam że teraz zacznie być trochę lepiej z nowym mniej prawicowym rządem 😅 trzymaj się zdrowo! Dzięki za suba :)

  • @anoNEMOs
    @anoNEMOs 2 месяца назад +6

    What! You pass really well. I've watched some of your videos and it didn't even occur to me that you could be trans. (I thought you're just a gay or bi cis guy, because of the name of the channel)

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +4

      Ahh, thank you! I guess it's because I started hormones pretty early and never really had any extremely feminine features 😅 but what you're saying is exactly the reason why my channel is named "queerpagan" and not "transpagan" or something, I want to cater to a wider queer audience and my existence is more than just being trans :)

    • @inlovewithcentipedes
      @inlovewithcentipedes 2 месяца назад +1

      lmao same

    • @fairy12324
      @fairy12324 2 месяца назад +2

      Great mimdset wish you all the sucess on your channel and personal life ❤🎉​@@queerpagan

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +1

      @@fairy12324 thanks 🖤

  • @mariagloria5775
    @mariagloria5775 2 месяца назад +7

    You look fantastic with a mullet mate!!

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +1

      Thank you! I'm glad you like it!

  • @AshtonBreadserk
    @AshtonBreadserk 2 месяца назад +7

    Bro you look majestic

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +2

      Omg thank you ❤️

  • @connor5669
    @connor5669 2 месяца назад +7

    I'm at a point in my transition where I've embraced my butchness (as a trans woman). And it really helped me integrate my boy/tomboy childhood. Made me realize I've been pretty much on the money

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +3

      Oh that's amazing! And if anyone asks you why you present butch you can say that you've already been that way since childhood 😅
      But in all seriousness, I'm happy for you that you've been able to accept your present and with that also made sense of your past. Sounds great!

    • @WolfODonnelfan
      @WolfODonnelfan 2 месяца назад +3

      The only problem I have within the trans community are the people that wants others to transition against their own choice. My own aunt tried to manipulate both myself and my family that I wanted to transition from a boy to a girl when I was younger because I had lots of very feminine traits. Hell, I still have a bunch of feminine traits and most of my friends are in fact women, but I just understood at an early age that there is a difference between wanting to transition and being femme/butch.
      There is nothing wrong with being a guy and being feminine or being a girl and being masculine, and if someone tries to manipulate anyone to transition simply because they have either of these traits - then they are viewed worse than Hitler/Judas/Stalin/Quisling in my book.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +1

      @WolfODonnelfan yeah manipulating people into making choices they do not want to make is just bad in general. Unfortunately some people are like that...

    • @jan_Masewin
      @jan_Masewin 2 месяца назад +1

      @@WolfODonnelfan I'm really sorry to hear :/ it can be so confusing finding out about yourself even without other people making it much harder

  • @corvusventorum
    @corvusventorum 2 месяца назад +1

    again, so much wisdom in your words :)

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад

      Ahh thank you! Appreciate it :)

  • @shweefranglais7900
    @shweefranglais7900 28 дней назад +1

    Great advice.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  28 дней назад

      @@shweefranglais7900 I’m glad I could be of help :)

  • @Q-Therapy
    @Q-Therapy 2 месяца назад +2

    Nice wallpaper. Skoll!

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +3

      Oh it's not a wallpaper, I painted that myself :) but thanks!!

  • @HauntedSkeleimal
    @HauntedSkeleimal 2 месяца назад +4

    I just wanted to let you know you look absolutely awesome man! Where did you get the earrings? :0

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +2

      Thank you! I'm guessing you mean my fishbone ones? I got them at a giftshop in Amsterdam (just the hangers, I attached them to tunnels I already had XD)

  • @aotctd
    @aotctd Месяц назад +1

    What is all this styled like how we grew up ?

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  Месяц назад

      @@aotctd what do you mean by "all this" and who is "we" ?

  • @awakened3651
    @awakened3651 26 дней назад +2

    You are going to be a far different person at 30 than you were at 19 too. But it's already too late.
    Why do these adolescent videos always sound like you're trying to convince yourselves.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  26 дней назад +2

      @@awakened3651 You're just looking for signs that someone is convincing themselves. I am not convincing anyone of anything. You can take away from a video like this whatever you want, that doesn't make it true!

    • @KandisXxx
      @KandisXxx 25 дней назад

      Maybe they just crave understanding like we all do?

  • @user-jc8cc4ch6w
    @user-jc8cc4ch6w 2 месяца назад +2

    Hi from Australia i was born male and found out i was Tran's at 58 i took HRT for 6 years but it caused big problems with my body and interacted with other medications I take so iv stopped my birth name is David

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +3

      I can imagine transitioning at that age must be difficult. I'm sorry to hear that it didn't work out for you, but still kudos for discovering yourself at that age! I hope you can continue living your life at peace with your identity :)

  • @professionalboycottservice7872
    @professionalboycottservice7872 13 часов назад

    Nobody chose to be autistic. Autistic people are born, not made. There was a comment here about "coming out as an autistic", which is stupid because autism is not something one can just come in and out of.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  13 часов назад

      @@professionalboycottservice7872 well, you can chose not to be open about being autistic and then decide to "come out", e.g tell other people. But it's definitely a different type of coming out!

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  13 часов назад

      @@professionalboycottservice7872 and you do not "choose" to be other things either, like being any part of the lgbtq community. Coming out as part of that can be a choice, but it gets taken away from people who get outed.

  • @awakened3651
    @awakened3651 26 дней назад +2

    So, how about talking about your relationship with your parents and family from before the time you started making 'gender' demands through them being forced to stand back and watch as you made permanent cosmetic medical changes to your forever female body. The parents who knew their child had a developmental delay of autism yet could not protect that child from herself. This video that focuses solely on 'me me me' as so many others of the same age and sex do, completely ignores that they do not exist in a vacuum and that their choices and behaviors absolutely affect those who love them. They so often reject the love of families, absorbed in their own narcissistic delusions.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  26 дней назад +3

      @@awakened3651 Surprisingly, my parents and further family actually are not psychopats and accept their children for who they are!

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  26 дней назад +3

      @@awakened3651 And obviously this video focuses on me? It's my video, talking about my experience. That's kinda the point of a personal blog on social media. Talking about your own experience lets someone explain themselves the best they can, and can help others feel represented because they relate. Everyone's experience is different, why should I generalize?

    • @awakened3651
      @awakened3651 26 дней назад +1

      @@queerpagan It's called radical acceptance on your parent's part. You admit in your earlier video 'pre-transition' that your parents were not 'supportive' when you 'came out' as a young teen with autism and a typically comorbid serious eating disorder. And even the 'clinic' you went to stalled by claiming they put you on the 'list'. Because autism is so demanding and hyper focused on special interests while also disconnected from the physical self, and the world now facilitates every 'trans' demand, parents have no choice but to stand back and watch their beloved child be facilitated in their self destruction. No, your parents are not psychopaths, they are devastated heroes who have chosen to extend their love and connection to their child, regardless of whatever external costume that child is hiding behind. Guaranteed having to stand back in silence and watch has taken years off their lives.

    • @awakened3651
      @awakened3651 26 дней назад

      @@queerpagan Narcissism will do that. Make a new and separate video discussing your perspective of the impact your autism and choices have had on your family relationships throughout your life. Explain yourself in that context in a personal blog on social media. Be specific to yourself, don't generalize. You could even do a video with your parents discussing the impacts on your family including their perspective. No one is raised in a vacuum.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  26 дней назад +4

      You know what's narcissistic? Thinking you personally have some kind of authority on a stranger on the internet, and that your words would somehow impact their actions and their content. Get a better hobby.

  • @derekandlisaarmstrong4194
    @derekandlisaarmstrong4194 Месяц назад +1

    What defines you as a man that you felt limited to being the actual woman you are?

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  Месяц назад +7

      How do I even respond to such a stupid comment omg. Imagine being this delusional. I have never been a woman. A woman is an adult human female, which is something that I, both legally, physically and identity-wise am not. Hope that helps!

    • @derekandlisaarmstrong4194
      @derekandlisaarmstrong4194 Месяц назад +1

      How is this stupid when you are the one altering your body to fit an ideal you were not born into?
      What exactly is a female then?

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  Месяц назад +3

      Isn't everyone? people are born naked, nearly hairless, wet, screaming babies. I'm sure we all grow out of that, right? We are not born into being "men" or "women". Our life trajectories are chosen for us by socially established norms which depend on our genitals. Don't you think that's a bit weird?
      I am not trying to fit into any ideal. That is quite literally what being queer means. While I acknowledge that socially established gender norms can be helpful for people who want to function in a heteronormative world (eg. be a man, marry a woman or vice versa). This does not apply to me and other trans/queer individuals. Why would I force myself to be something I'm not?

    • @NameGoesHere988
      @NameGoesHere988 Месяц назад

      @@queerpagan I will say this; I personally believe you are female, you may look and live like a man but that doesn't make you one. However, because you transitioned and do look and live a male you will be percieved as one by society. That's my thoughts. Nothing wrong with it and nothing wrong with being trans if it is right for the person, everything is taken into consideration and they've been diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria. Good luck on your journey.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  Месяц назад +2

      @NameGoesHere988 I am confused by your way of thinking... how can you both imply you accept trans people and the decision to medically transition, say I am perceived as a man in society, and yet on the other hand say you personally believe I'm female? That does not make any sense. You either respect a trans person's identity or you don't. I am not female, and your personal belief is honestly not really relevant in all this. My appearance and legal documents would say otherwise.
      Don't take this the wrong way, I do believe you're trying your best to understand, but you cannot respect trans individuals whilst simultaneously believing they are not the gender they say they are :)

  • @tekgid433
    @tekgid433 2 месяца назад +3

    God loves you! He will never stop!

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +3

      Uhh that's nice of him I guess 👍

    • @cmin3783
      @cmin3783 2 месяца назад +5

      whenever ppl say that to lgbtq ppl unprompted it just feels like a backhanded way of calling them sinners

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +2

      @@cmin3783 I know, it's a weird comment to make towards anyone tbh. But not every religious person has malicious intents, so I would like to give them the benefit of the doubt 😅😭

    • @cmin3783
      @cmin3783 2 месяца назад

      @@queerpagan yeah ofc a lot of them mean well, but even then it still feels like it comes from a place of hate a lot of the time

    • @jan_Masewin
      @jan_Masewin 2 месяца назад

      @@queerpagan lets hope so 🤷‍♀

  • @professionalboycottservice7872
    @professionalboycottservice7872 2 месяца назад

    Why wear those weird ass earring where I can see through them?

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +1

      @@professionalboycottservice7872 yeah that's kinda the whole point of them

    • @professionalboycottservice7872
      @professionalboycottservice7872 Месяц назад

      @@queerpagan African tribes popularize them. Not really white people thing.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  Месяц назад

      Not really, they have been found in other cultures as well. If you look at depictions of Buddha you'll see that he is depicted with stretched earlobes. And, are you saying that because something is of African origin, that makes it bad? You know what that's called? Racism! Hope that helps :)

  • @awakened3651
    @awakened3651 26 дней назад

    Watching these videos is the most effective form of birth control ever.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  26 дней назад +2

      @@awakened3651 good. Don't have children.

    • @abraxas9879
      @abraxas9879 22 дня назад +2

      @@queerpagan lmao

  • @professionalboycottservice7872
    @professionalboycottservice7872 2 месяца назад +2

    I'd just like to know, you'll still need gynecologist because your internal parts are still female. Just like how transwomen are still male and will need prostate exam!

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +1

      @@professionalboycottservice7872 ok, and? Is that somehow supposed to make me detransition or what? Actually, being on testosterone causes trans men to develop prostate tissue, meaning that even we should at some point get checked for that. Being trans is not an easy process, but that does not mean people should not be provided with the care that they need based on their bodyparts. A gynaecologist is not going to say "I can't help you because you're a man". A gynaecologist will provide service to anyone with the genitals that they have expertise on. I don't understand why you think that's some kind of "gotcha" moment.

    • @professionalboycottservice7872
      @professionalboycottservice7872 Месяц назад

      @@queerpagan What "gotcha" were you talking about? There is none. You were born female and your chromosomes are XXY, not XY. You still need gynecologist for female internal organs issues just like how a male with XY chromosomes need a prostate exam to screen cancer. Gynecologist for female parts, urologist for male parts. You just have cosmetic surgery and hormone therapy but your bone structure and pelvis size will always be female. Do not pervert science.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  Месяц назад +3

      XXY chromosomes would make someone intersex. When you try to be bigoted, at least be factually correct XD. Also, you realize that you can... remove... internal organs... right?

  • @brysoncherry9884
    @brysoncherry9884 2 месяца назад +2

    Get a job narcissist

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +8

      What 💀 I literally made this video to help others, how is that narcissistic 🤣

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +2

      Also, I see you edited your comment. I have a job? I'm not sure how this is relevant to this video?

    • @Shawnee_Rose
      @Shawnee_Rose 2 месяца назад +3

      ​@queerpagan It is commonly those who are narcissists who go around calling people narcissists. I think you did a wonderful job just being you and expressing yourself and your lived experiences in ways that would make people (who actually have a functioning conscience and empathy) see you as the person you are instead of some boogeyman created out of theocratic authoritarianism and it's proponents' political agendas. It always amazes me that there are those who think accepting the very existence of LGBT people is an OPTION for them. The notion is absolutely absurd and radical as well as immoral even by Christian standards. You continue to be yourself unapologetically and seek happiness in any form that suits you and brings no harm to others.

    • @queerpagan
      @queerpagan  2 месяца назад +2

      @@Shawnee_Rose thank you for your positivity! "Functioning conscience and empathy" is likely what people who decide to comment things like this lack. They assume that being queer, because it is a question of "identity", e.g, personal, is inherently narcissistic. Which it obviously is not.
      As you said, perhaps Christians should finally start practicing what they preach and love their neighbor unconditionally.

    • @NameGoesHere988
      @NameGoesHere988 Месяц назад +1

      Being trans and narcissism is different. If someone is actually trans and deals with Dysphoria and goes the route of gender transition to help eleviate it, it doesn't mean that they are a narcissist.