Abusive Relationships and Irreversible Scars | Hitogawari (ヒトガワリ) - Kikuo Vocaloid REACTION
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"STOP"
*GIRL PROCEEDS TO INTENSIFY THE WOBBLES*
Lol😵
Nuggito Komaeda love your username and pfp
Girl: "no❤️"
Okay... long tangent. Here we go...
Honestly, it doesn't take a lot to disturb me. I know my boundaries and the animation of that girl had gone 100 miles over the boundaries I had placed.
There was barely anything gory about it (not even any body horror aside from bandages and the eyes in the back), but the way she moved was just unsettling. Her sudden jerks in between the sobbing, scratching and idle standing just made me feel incredibly nervous. It struck more fear in me than most horror films I've watched. It struck fear in me in PURE DAYLIGHT; not even night time, literally with the sun beaming over me.
The way she sobbed and scratched her face away just got to me and for an odd few seconds, I even related to it.
It's also the music. Kikuo has this talent where he can just make music out of any instruments; he uses instruments meant for different genres but he blends them so well.
The constant blaring of distorted sound (probably an electric guitar) just pulled it all together and it just made my mind go numb.
The way he portrayed the girl LMAO 🤣
the way the girl moves reminds me of how i move when i have panic attacks. i twitch, scratch and hit myself to the point of leaving bruises and blood, maybe thats what kikuo was trying to portray? i could be wrong tho idfk
Same here, for me I mostly scratch and twitch on the back of my neck.
I bite my nails and start breathing really hard lmao
I also start twitching and breathing hard I also start scratching my skin
I always end up pulling my hair in attempts to rip it out or scratching myself with pencils
Oh my god You guys..
Hope you're doing better and doesn't have to suffer from that.
"Don't do anything to the girl"
Kikuo: so obviously violence was the only viable option, right?
Kikuo: let's say yes
Kikuo: "bro, are you at all familiar with my work?"
"she all wobbly and shit" bruh I was scared and then that just killed me🤣
Lmfao
What if that came from a rape story?
"She all wobbly and shit" (Can't keep her still)
@@Ins1gn1f1c4nt i dont like what youre implying
@@fleurenheit329 I don't like what I think either but their songs are dark-
@@Ins1gn1f1c4nt hmmmm 👀👀👀
the whole “are these cuts even mine?” thing could be ppl/her abuser saying “oh you aren’t fucked up. stop being weird and do exactly what i say. i’m not abusing you, and this is perfectly normal so why are you saying it’s not?” basically gaslighting her in the worst way
It happend to me many times:/
my parents denying im trans and trying to gaslight me be like 💀
My mom accusing me of faking autism my whole life be like: 💀
the " worse happened to me as a kid, that was nothing. "
I was gaslighted into believing that I deserved to suffer and that it was always my fault and I’m the bad guy by some family members
Fun fact: this song isn't actually vocaloid, it's sung by the fucking queen who did the vocals for "the girl who sells misfortune", she really never disappoints
*hanatan
Btw she's awesome!
YESS HANATANN
HANATAN!!!!!
HANATAN! The KikuoHana duo resulted in some amazing songs and amazing vocals
KIKUOHANA FOR LIFE!!!!!
Everyone gets creeped out by Kikuo’s art, but his songs have really helped me cope with past traumatic experiences, as well as how I feel about myself. His music just gets me ig lol
Same here, it makes me feel better, I guess.
Me too, it's kinda sad but it's a better coping mechanism then hurting ourselves 😔
it makes you feel like ur not alone
Kikou RUclips channel kind dead now- :(
Same with me. Good stuff.
The way he jumped back and checked behind him had me deead XD
I did that before
Same😂
Happened just as you said it
His fight or flight reflexes just activated
I do that when I feel like someone or something is behind me
i somehow understand how this girl feels, i had an ex who keeps on sexually and mentally abusing me like he took all of my friends away, he keeps on saying "no one loves you, im the only one who knows you and will love you unconditionally" bla bla bla it's kinda fucked up lmao it took me months to figure that out but shit still hurts
but it gets worse when a friend of mine asked me out, he knows all about my past and he's being super kind to me, saying things like i don't deserve to get that kind of treatment. but somehow it bugs me in the wrong way, like it's just not right. am i rambling? sorry lol bye
anw i get this feeling that kikuo is not okay? i mean his/her songs are so.. you know what i'm talking abt. but i'm not following kikuo so cmiiw hihi
Kayla Jauhari tbh I respect the fact that u were able to say any of this
A lot of this stuff happens to a lot of people but they never get help or they don’t want to acknowledge it and they just push it aside
@@cliche1362 well that shit is real, even if i push it aside it'll still haunt me. so i gotta get used to it *if that makes any sense
I also respect you for opening up. And also yeah yikes. Idk both guys in this situation seem manipulative. The second guy, a little less but yeah I get why it would bother you.
Im like the second guy to the person i like but unlike him i never told her that she deserved better or ever asked her out
To your story the first guy was my bestfriend but he hides his fucked up attitude. He never to her friends but he took mine so i ended being lonely until today
@@chidoriamv6031 i hope ur friend got its karma :(
The way she moves is almost like being blown another direction but staying there. She seems so fragile, but something keeping her there. When you mentioned at the end that she could have hung herself, I noticed that throughout the whole video it looks like she’s experiencing her last moments in distress
talking about it.
lot of her movements are liek she sturggle a bit before her neck snaped
@@coolkhgirlmadbrit3199 Less before her neck snapped, that would be instantaneous.
Choked.
@@toolatetothestory so it makes sense?
@@toolatetothestory so she hung her neck wrong
@@anette8260 Not wrong, if your neck snaps or if you choke depends on how deep you fall.
"yo what kind of self hatred is this??" my therapist every week
OMG NOT ONLY IS IT KIKUO BUT IT'S A HANATAN SONG! OMG I LOVE HER SO MUCH, THIS WAS SUCH A NICE SURPRISE (I'll make another comment once I've finished watching)
Ikr I hope he listens to more hanatan songs. Her voice is breath taking.
So that's why i recognice the voice
WE LOVE HER AAAA
We stan Hanatan in this house
“Hopefully she chills out...”
Me who has seen the MV before
@_@”
As someone who grew up in an emotionally absent and abusive home, I didn't know how to accept love and kindness from friends and romantic partners for the longest time. This ended up frustrating a lot of them and I lost a lot of relationships because I lacked emotional attachment in general. So I feel this song on an intimate level.
Same here. I don’t know how to react to love and kindness either. It’s like a weird feeling for me. My parents are emotional abusive..
In all honesty, I think this IS the girl from Gomene Gomene. In that song, as I know you're already aware of, she gets sexually abused by her father which she believes is expressing love, but she can't take it anymore so she runs away. She finds a boy she falls in love with, and she makes a point of saying that he never abused her but that she thinks this is because he doesn't love her. She ends up leaving him and going back to her sexually abusive father. Without mentioning the father directly, wouldn't you say that's a perfect explanation for what happens here???
Huh....never really thought about it like that
Ya another one of these theories I love seeing them and I also believe there the same person the only thing that sticks to mind tho is that one seems to know what real love is and purposely believes that she doesn't deserve it and the other seems to believe abusement is love but it was a though and I believe I'm wrong but still love the theory.
what is like a nickname so i can research more about her?
Didn't the sources state that in the song (Gomenne Gomenne), the girl's father and his friends r@ped her until she died?
@@alex_ze_awsumyt5484until she died? i thought it was after they raped her
TW HANGING
Yes, I do believe the girl hung herself.
Throughout the entire video, the girl is swaying around. And at the beginning of the video, you can almost see the bottom of her feet, but no floor. This indicates she is off the ground. The final vocal at the end of the song almost sounds like she is choking, and at some points she scratches at her face and neck, maybe trying to free herself after realizing she doesn't want to die.
Kikuo balances how dark the song is and the emotion in the melody while giving you the parts where you can reassure yourself so it doesn’t get overwhelming. For people that don’t understand what the songs about though it can seem very wrong to do danses on it like on tiktok. Overall kikuo is probably by far my favorite vocoloid creator.
Ahh man, I'm so happy to see more Kikuo reactions, and ones that have Hanatan singing no less! I totally agree with your afterthoughts, the scars from an abusive relationship truly do stay forever, which is mentioned in the lyrics. No matter how much she tries to be happy, the scars have seeped into her mind and she can't help but think she still deserves to feel pain. Being around someone who constantly berates you and justifies their abuse really fucks with your brain and makes it so hard to move on and find happiness :(
Lots of people stand by victims of abuse, but sometimes move on when the case has been settled thinking the victim will be okay, but they're really not.
And Hanatan really does have such a good range, it's insane. And it's interesting that she sounds happy and childlike in the beginning, which is often how relationships start out. But then her voice raises in volume and range and it's like Hanatan is now internally screaming, wishing for someone to hear her and for people to leave her to rot because she thinks she deserves it. It's truly a beautiful, yet heart-wrenching song :(
Very nice reaction
It truly is a sad thing that happens a LOT. And nobody deserves that kind of emotional trauma. Really stunts your life :(
This is definitely a toxic relationship. She is stuck on all the good things. She is confused doesn't know whether she should leave the relationship. She then questions if the cuts are even hers meaning that person is abusing her because of something that happened to her.
My theory is similar:
The girl has just gotten out of an abusive relationship with someone; parent, significant other, friendship, whatever; and is now in a normal, good one. But she doesn't realize that's how she is supposed to be treated, so as much as she enjoys the gentle and kind love, she believes that she is doing wrong by accepting it and must be harmed in order for it to be right. But the scars only reveal themselves as the healthy relationship goes on, since the kindness continues without her receiving any professional help. The scars come out as her becoming the abusive one because she is trying to abandon her loving relationship, and is attempting to get the other to leave her alone so she can go back to the sick, twisted relationship she thinks she deserves. At the "are these scars even mine?" Part i think it is referencing her starting to think that she may be harming the other, but negative thoughts come back to haunt her and it comes to the point where she has left the relationship, but now feels paranoid about her abusive one, hence the eyes. In the end she is out of all relationships and is lonesome, but paranoia of how horrible her abusive relationship felt she decides to stay all alone, eventually leading to her committing... self-deletion.
I believe the cuts are both mental and emotional. The reason so many people who are in abusive relationships go back to or find someone else who’s abusive is because it’s their normal. It’s what their life has always been like.
I’ve been through abuse myself and I can testify that the hardest part of the whole experience was surprisingly not dealing with the abuse in the moment but instead recovering.
The reason being that when you’re in an abusive situation your mind blocks off your emotions so that you don’t over stress yourself and ultimately die. But once you leave the situation and find a situation that’s completely different it takes a while to adjust and as well as being in unfamiliar territory most people will start to develop signs of ptsd which could manifest in many ways (ex: alters, bpd, depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety/panic are all common symptoms that are experienced after the trauma) Another reason that it’s so much more painful to deal with afterwards is because people expect you to act normally and to not have a full blown panic attack when someone comes in for a hug.
Emotionally it’s jarring to say the very least. I have a lot of years of memories locked somewhere behind metal doors and those memories will stay there until my mind decides i’m stable enough to deal with them. Those types of things don’t allow you to have control. You can’t make yourself remember something if you just genuinely cannot recall it, even if the memory is somewhere in there, if you can’t access it then you won’t know it even happened and you’ll have no recollection of it. That’s the power that your mind has over you. Involuntary repression of memories is something that happens often in trauma victims.
Having emotions that you can’t explain or that you can’t find enough reason for could also lead to someone feeling that they’re unworthy of a normal relationship or love. I remember last year I was quite on the edge and I distinctly remember that every time I felt happy or even laughed it would be immediately followed by guilt or a whole mental breakdown. The highs just made the lows feel even lower. I have anxiety/depression/adhd/seizures (stress triggered). I had depression before the abuse ever started so when all of those things started around when I was 11 I completely emotionally shut down. It felt like I was a robot. I probably wouldn’t have been able to cope with the stress and depression otherwise, so shutting down my emotions was my mind’s way of coping. I’m just now opening up to people and trust is still something I don’t hand out freely. I’ve always said i’m not the type of person to consider suicide but last year I hit the lowest i’ve ever been. I didn’t want to get up, I didn’t want to shower, I didn’t want to change cloths, I didn’t even want to move. It must have been really obvious because my school counselor had noticed and forced my parents into putting me into counseling.
In short there’s a lot of emotions behind things like abuse, every situation is different, and trying to explain all of those emotions and all of that pain in one video is just impossible. I do appreciate that you acknowledge the meaning of these songs instead of just listening and assuming the content of a song based just on the way it sounds. I don’t find that in a lot of people and it makes me happy when I do occasionally find people irl who know what a song means. Even if it sounds cheery it could be about something very serious like depression, suicide, anxiety, ptsd, abuse, etc. I like meeting people who understand that not everything is surface level and that you have to know the words to fully appreciate the art as it was meant to be.
*WHAT THE F-*
Didn’t even phase me 😅
@@shooshiMooshi The fact you had to replicate the movements tho XD
did anyone notice that she would go from crying to scratching, and then more bandages would appear? i also thought it was cool that as her eyes were covered, eyes appeared in the background.
A really good song is Tokyo Ghetto by Eve, it’s one of my favourites! I’d suggest checking it out, the art is also amazing along with his voice. It’s got a lot of symbolism and metaphors.
Gotchu ;)
@@shooshiMooshi PLEASE DO THAT ONE ITS ONE OF THE FIRST SONGS I HEARD FROM HIM
Ratatata🤰
Dude, this took you 6 months to get to, and it was worth the wait
1st watch through (subtitles OFF) - 1:44
2nd watch through (subtitles ON) - 8:31
MY final interpretation - 13:18
Popular Fan theory - 14:47
Reflection - 15:44
🌸✨🧸
Thanks
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When this song first came out I listened to it on repeat/ at least once a day. I don’t listen to it that often anymore but I’m so happy you reacted to it!
One thing I love about Kikuo is that they convey heavy topics such as this in an artistic and meaningful way.
Also yeah the movements are super creepy. It looks like the girl is clawing at her eyes which makes the bandages more unsettling imo.
on 5:53 you good there bro? scare the bones out of me when u suddenly turn around I thought u snap ur neck, I haven't watched all kikuo song cause I'm scared to be triggered. yet reaction vid is a better way for me to enjoy the song. even though I'm new here, I like the reaction cover u did.
this song is what my friend went through, I went through the emotional train when I start reading the lyrics., I'm not closed with him. but I know him since 10 when he moves to my town. I thought he has Parkinson but that all of it from the abuse he faced with the whole family. his family in jail since they make the boy as one of the punching bags. a few years ago, I heard him are in a good place with the proper love he needs. I ask my bro if he remembers, and I found out my friend is under my brother care, my brother is a paediatrician on that place, bro told me, my friend was unable to accept people being kind to him after his family is caught, proceeds to hurt himself to the breakpoint of pulling his left eye out and then passed out. he woke up with a mind of a 10-year-old boy, he only recognises my brother with that mindset as bro is the only face he recognises, my brother told me he takes care of him and treats him like his younger brother, and want me to help him in becoming the support since he still remembers me as the 10 yr old me and when my brother is 15. yikes too long, nevertheless thank you for making the reaction on this video.
Everyone confessing some trauma that has happened to them but it just gives me anxiety to even like type out my past situation especially on youtube...
No one should have to say or confess anything they dont want to especially past trauma. I hope you recover well and move forward♡
I mean, everyone has different ways to cope with their trauma, maybe typing about it might make them feel better, but it doesn't mean it is necessarily the case for you ^^
I send you my wishes for you to recover and have a happy life ♡ (And I hope you are still ok, I'm only reacting to this after a year after all)
Do you think you could react to a song called Lost ones weeping by Neru? It’s a banger and classic
that song was 100% every depressed kid’s theme song and i still bop to it
He should react to rolling girl :3
Omg yes
Still have it in my playlist 🤣
@@justarandomasian249
He just did if you check his newest :D
He should react to girl who sells misfortune. Edit: Also he should also react to either: violence in the hospital, puppet nightmare, or maddest circus show. Another edit: Thanks for the likes, i never have this many likes. Btw the thing about the likes probably made people mad. ;-; Edit: omg he finally did it
YESSSSSSS
@Eteled On The Nintendo Wii HAHAHA SAMEEEE
YAASSSSSSSSSSSSS
(I have become snake)
Oh Hi there friend!
I see that a lot of people wanted to recommend the song from Kikuo “Misfortune” I May misspelled the name.....
Also have I copied you’re recommendation?
Edit: Did I ?
@@sal5354 Its ok if you copy mine, its not my idea that people like girl of misfortune.
Him: Don’t do stuff to the girl
Kikuo: *WE ARE DOING STUFF TO THE GIRL*
I love how nobody disliked the video this just shows everybody in your community loves you
The fact that Pretty Cvnt is playing in the background is just another sign that I will never escape this song🧍♀
Ok, so here's my artistic interpretation. Note as well, that art is meant to be interpreted in many ways.
It seems to be a song about a woman who is recovering from an extremely abusive relationship and is now with a guy who is kind and gentle, but she is unable to accept his love, rather seeking out 'The sickest sort of love'. In other words, as an example, self harm.
The moral may be that being kind may not always be enough, and that mental issues don't just disappear once you remove the cause. Support is never a bad thing, but serious cases need medical treatment.
She claims that because of her mental issues, she will be 'lonely for life', assuming that the kind person she is with wouldn't stay with her either if he finds out or if she doesn't stop after he dose.
Mental issues are not joke, or laughing matter. In serious cases like the one presented, medical professionals should step in. So she can take back her life and be truly happy once again.
My comment was premature, you got it already.
I'm such a fan of this song because it is an amazing example of how hard it is to accept wholesome love after an abusive relationship. Many abuse victims have described self-sabotaging behaviour in a healthy relationship because there is a deep-rooted anxiety of abandonment, often accompanied with a low-self esteem that they truly don't deserve this.
I've been really enjoying your videos!
[TW: ABUSE, SEXUAL ASSAULT, SELF HARM]
I'm saying this with my own experience and saying how I interpret this. Kikuo, judging by her features is a young girl no younger than 13-15yo. Because of her petite stature and childlike nature. In the video, before it shows that she was physically, mentally, and sexually abused by her own father and her fathers 'friends'. I believe the bandages on her face represent that she was blinded to the situation in front of her, not letting herself actually see that this was wrong and that this shouldn't be happening. The ones on her arm I think symbolize self-harm. Because when I was in that state I did it often and a lot. The ones on her thighs might show sexual assault or even possibly r*pe. The eyes on the wall believe symbolizes her father's friends or just her father watching her. Making her extremely paranoid. Also in the other video where it said something about her reproductive system might show an abortion. The way she shakes in this video might show she is having a panic attack or fighting with her own inner thoughts. What I say is not really official but it might give an idea.
Kikuo is a he :)
My boyfriend was just talking about this and I was actually surprised. No he never done anything bad, but the meaning of the song is just..wow.
ShooshiMooshi:DONT DO ANYTHING TO THE GIR-
Kikuo: Y e s
Something important to know about abusive relationships is that there are moments where the abuser may even act kind and times where they make you feel as though they may change. There are happy and nice moments, it's how they keep you there, how they get you to still love them. Even though it doesn't take away from the abuse and they usually go right back into that abuse. I feel like this song is talking about this aspect of abusive relationships, and how they make you feel so conflicted and lost. They make you feel like you're going crazy "they can't be so bad, they're still nice deep down, right? Maybe I'm the one who's wrong, maybe I'm the problem, maybe I deserve the treatment" This is something that needs to be explained to people who constantly wonder "why don't they just leave them?" Abusers can make you feel like you are the problem in the relationship, that you need them, that they are the only ones who will ever love you. It's something that I now understand since I've been through it myself with some very awful ex friends. They would continuously switch back and forth between being super funny and nice, to berating me for any tiny thing, gaslighting me, demonizing me, etc. Being around them made me feel as though I was trying to navigate through a mine field completely blindly. This is why I feel as though this song is about a current abusive relationship, where the abuser shifts between just being a normal loving partner, to an abuser and back again.
The last lyric hit a little too close to home. I've never truly been able to feel love for most of my life. I'm introverted, and I don't make connections with people. I have 2 close friends that i often talk to, except they just don't understand my so called "feelings". ("feelings" because I hardly feel anything but hatred for myself) So, I feel completely alone, as if nobody will help me, and things wont get better.
I'm really sorry to heard that :(
Would you like to have my discord tag to vent maybe? I'd be glad to listen and try my best to help you out! You don't have to ofcourse, i just want you to know that you're loved and deserve happiness and i genuinely mean that, it may be tough but you can do it! If anything happens, i want you to know that i believe in you and that im always here for you 💕💕💕💕💕
Damn..
I was never sexually assaulted, I’m just naive and end up in verbally abusive relationships so I relate sm.
[insert the bugs bunny meme template]
i wish every person who abuses anyone no matter what way, a very *_DIE_*
on a more serious note, i hope they are gone from your life now. you deserve better
Same
i know this is 2 years later, but please know that NO amount of naïveté could ever make that your fault. theyre responsible for taking advantage of that and how they treat you
SAME
TRIGGER WARNING SORRY
I grew up in an abusive household, and i resonate with your explanation so much. I feel bad for accepting love, and i wish people would just hit me and make me cry sometimes all because of what my mom and dad did to me. Also, i felt close to the comment you talked about written by Momiji. My longest and closest relationship was disgusting and not right in any way, and when i was shown correct love i was scared. I didnt understand and i was so scared i would be turned on because they were nice. This song feels like how i view relationships, not only romantic ones, but familial and platonic.
Oh my god this is so much better than my original guess thank god.
edit1: side note, the concept of uncanny valley is sorta like seeing something that is so close to human but there's something unsettling because you recognize it isn't human despite having human features (commonly seen in robots!)
edit2: good video as always! Kikuo is, again, a personal favorite of mine. The singer, Hana, in this one actually did two albumns with Kikuo (her other big song being Hikari Yo/O Light). I remember reading a comment saying that the girl's movement is almost reminiscent of someone being physically abused, which is why she jerks/twitches before returning back to her normal state. Always very fucked up.
There's another Kikuo song that I love that sounds super lighthearted until you realize the meaning (which is the norm for all of Kikuo's stuff lmao) called And Then You Became the Moon. Great stuff.
Shooshimooshi: dont do anything to the girl please
Me who has already watched it: 😺😺😺😺😺
I just want to say if anyone is going through anything
Your NOT useless
It’s NOT your fault
You ARE worth it
You ARE beautiful
DONT let them hurt YOU
There IS someone who cares and loves
YOU
you SHOULD NEVER EVER end your life because of what others do
Don’t be afraid to ask for help
Don’t be afraid to stand up for urself
YOUR amazing
Don’t be afraid to stand up for others
please ask someone for help sometimes pro’s don’t help ask someone that you know who will care and understand you
I’m not 100% that this will help but I just am used to helping others I’m sorry if u don’t feel better it’s not ur fault if this doesn’t help!
you did good ^^
The girl: *glitches*
Me: *the girl head looks like ball bumping*
As a child I was raised in a very unknowingly abusive home. And I did developed this kind of mindset, it took years to accept Im worthy of soft love and its going to take more time to accept a romantic love. My mother didn't understand until I was begging her to hit me instead of not talking to me and sending to my room as she now had started doing. I was conditioned that when she hit me she would hold me after and say she loved me. So I needed the love after the pain .
Line "are these cuts even mine?" reminded me of a way i used to act/think. After my mental health getting a bit better i always felt guilty for venting/acting in a way I was thaught to since i thought i was hurting people around me(i wasn't most of the time. "are these cuts even mine" in my understanding is :are these problems even mine, should I or they be sad/hurt because of them?
Edit: It happened only after I got better since when I was at my lowest it was hard for me to think about others than me and people who caused my suffering
When you mentioned gomenne gomenne my thought process moved from just these two songs being separate and to them possibly being linked. My idea is that this is what happened during gomenne gomenne when the girl left her father for some other man. She had thought that the other man was a good person, represented by the softer parts of the song, and by the end of it she runs back to her father after finding out that he isn't any better than him.
okay so i wanna do my own turn on analysing and personal interprending this lol
( TW!!! for sh, anxiety/panik attacks, halluzinations)
So i saw alot of people compare this to an anxiety/panik attack and i gotta say i agree heavely on that. When i get attcks like this it can very well be described with the video and the emotions it portrays. The girls motions feel unnatural and weird, and for me it looks a bit like a marionett, and that can be compared to how im feeling when i personally get attacks. I start to feel unreal and unnatural, and like im not myself and i mostly also cant really control my movements nor a part if my thoughts, which also leads to twitching and hurting myself, wether it is on purpose, the cause of uncontrolable and intrusive thoughts or through some kind of stim/twitch. For me it also looks like she is trying to pull out her eyes/hair, and while i mostly get that with more inner organs its very comparable (i think). I have the overwhelming urge to cut out my heart, or other important organs, but heart is the most often i would say. The eyes in the background also make sense to me, and so does the whole turning of the room into something much more creepier along the way. It often feels like im being watched and a nice and relaxing atmosphere turns into a strange unknown place with monsters or worse (sounds klishee, is very terrifying).
so yeah thats just my personal turn on the video, completely leaving out the text. I wanted to so here lmao. Also im currently getting a diagnosis so im not saying anything about a specifc kind of illness, maybe ill update when im getting the diagnosis -
Good luck!! Not sure if this is the right thing to say in this situation because it’s very new to me, but I just wanted to let you know that someone read your well-made take on the video!
@@ngocta603 thank you! That actually means alot to me haha-
Ah! I don't know if I/someone already said this but miy_yuu have a song made by kikuo called "Histrionic" and kikuo made a vocaloid version for it. Others thought that the vocaloid ver. is the original but the miy_yuu ver. is the original(it was made for him for his album).
Early once more. Time to go in and edit once I finish this one-
I'll admit, even with how dark the title is, it oddly intrigues me considering that I've been in what my old classmates consider a toxic relationship.
Okay, so I'll admit. This is somewhat relatable to an extent.
The concept of being in a right relationship after being in a bad one is unnerving and creepy. It's like the pattern of it's saying "You've endured enough, you need better." Being accustomed to the hurtful things and then being thrown into such happy things doesn't feel right at all. It's just emotionally painful to be shown the better side of things after horrendous trauma because those old memories are now altered in the new one. Figuring out that things are so much better sometimes can just mess with someone's head.
It just reminds me on how I led up to watching your vids, Mooshi. I watched Wozwald because I was just feeling horrible after leaving the school because of quarantine and the relationship I was in and I decided to find some meaning in the song by going over to your video about it. Now this video and the stuff that comes with it? It's like black coffee, bitter but enjoyable. Thank you once again. ^^
I cant tell you how many times I've traumatized myself just because this song was a bop
BRO HOW TO UNRELATE
No wonder I recognize that voice that Hanatan, one of my fav female utaite! I hope you react more to her songs in the future! ❤️❤️❤️
I’m happy you liked this song, it’s one of my favorites! And honestly despite the MV being nightmarish it’s probably one of kikuo’s best MV.
As a horror fan, it's just so funny to see you freak out over the music video while I was just like " Ooooh so well done! " Also the movements she make are literally me with anxiety lmao I tend to have spasms or something like that so could be linked.
Hello hello
Me: hi
LOL
I think the eyes in the wall represent her being in a abusive relationship? Like when you're in a abusive relationship, most of the time your "partner" doesn't let you go anywhere. Since they manipulate their "partner" into thinking that no one else cares about them and only they do. So I think the eyes in the wall represent her being watched on where she goes? Imnotsure
Just a thought that came while watching 8:11 . I havent finished the video yet though, I'll edit when I do so.
Edit: Just finished the video. (Sorry for bad grammar btw!) But the movements are suppose to represent how one moves when h@nged I think? Or like how a puppet moves in a puppet show. (I forgot what they're called, sorry.)
You did a good job on covering everything though. :)
That'd only be 1 eye, here we have multiple eyes separated with a wall, a single individual is impossible
i always feel guilty for having kikuo as my favorite producer because the songs are so dark but so catchy
It’s rlly nice to see people sharing their stories in the comments because it feels like the channel has become a safe space not only to discuss art and all the cool nuances of the music/lyrics but also our personal experiences and stuff. Everyone is always so supportive it’s just a really nice vibe. :)
Man, this song was good. I loved the dark visuals and that VOICE! So good... Great theory at the end as always too!
Thank you :)
@@shooshiMooshiyou're very welcome ^-^
"I don't like that"
The girl: wobble wobble bibble bobble : )
Her voice puts a chill down my spine it's so beautiful and powerful
This video came out on my birthday. WHY DIDNT I SEE YOU SOONER!? Your stuff is great!
Hey! I like your format of video. Good analysis too. Looking forward to seeing more of your channel :)
"are these cuts even mine?" could also be a way of her saying that she cuts herself, and her being unable to tell which of the cuts were caused by her or her abuser. throughout the video she can be seen scratching at herself, so maybe she was hurting herself too. really dark, but a very cool song to theorize about.
Another thing about the visuals is the fact that she started off in a cutesy and comfy looking room, but over time it gets worse, along with her injuries. the way she starts singing also sounds pretty happy, or as though she's thinking of the start of the relationship. i think the relationship between her an her abuser started off nice, and sweet. but over time the sweet facade wore off, and the relationship became abusive over time. she wouldn't notice the slow progression, like a frog in a pot of water that slowly boils. the frog wont get out, and eventually dies. conditioning is scary like that.
(all of this is just my theory though!)
Tbh it looks pretty cool with the movements and art style you can see all the work put into it
Mooshi you are amazing, just watching this shit scares me shittless you need mad respect man 😔✊
I really appreciated you talking about how harmful abuse is and how the effects don’t just go away, it helped me feel seen as a survivor of an abusive relationship. Thanks.
This video is what introduced me to kikuos music and I can’t express how thankful I am for it, kikuo is now on my favourite artists of all time
I'd also suggest O Light by Kikuo, really interesting video!
It's nice to see someone who doesn't shy away from topics like these. It makes my head feel nice.
you should listen to secrets of wysteria
He did lol
@@Dizzy-Fizzy this was a while ago lol
i like that case a lot tbh
Can you check out Universe Cat Drowing? It’s another Kikuo song, I don’t know if it has an official music video, but it’s nice. It’s still dark, but it’s a bit lighter, and I’d like to see your reaction to it
Also, ‘You’re a Useless Useless Useless Child’ is a another great song
WOW!!! GOOD!!!!! SHOOSHI, NOW YOU MAKE ME GOT NEW PHOBIA AND FEAR, I CANNOT SLEEP NOW 😭😭😭😭YOU MADE ME AFRAID OF DARKNESS 😭😭😭😭 ITS ALREADY 2 AM AND I STILL CANNOT SLEEP😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Could you also react to Mind Brand (I believe it’s also about Kikuo but I honestly forgot) it’s a pretty cool sounding song, and I haven’t seen or heard any interpretations of the lyrics just yet
It’s by maretu-p :)
Bro around 10:02 you enlarged it while I was trying to cover the girl with my blanket that shook the fu** out of me AHAHAHAH
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@@shooshiMooshi >:0 lmao
Her: **having a seizure**
Shooshimooehi: "i don't like it, stop"
Her: **does a worst one**
I love Kikuo's music and Hanatan's voices fit his songs
bro he's so real when he explains those things at the end the is why i subscribed 😭😭😭 plus he's just entertaining
I thought I recognised Sewerslvt in the background, love it
Now, have you ever heard okasan before?
he did yesterday I think
if youre interested in checking out english cover artists, i'd recommend oktavia!! she's also made a cover of this song if you'd like to check her out :] actually, the english subtitles in this are her translyrics she made for her cover [therefore, not the Direct, strict translation, but still definitely got the point across !!]
11:20 WHY WAS IT PERFECTLY TIMED
Finally, you review this song. It is pretty dark
People are saying this is the same girl from Gomenne Gomenne (I agree, this is the same girl that’s on the cover for the song) but people are saying this is after the song ends and that she moved on from her father, but let me explain why this is wrong. In the end of Gomenne Gomenne, the group of men the father was with r@p3d her until she died. But I do believe this is what happened in the middle of the song where the girl is talking about an “onii-San” but then again I could be wrong, this is just a theory
your reaction in the beginning had me DYING omg
ALSO, i relate to this song so hard... i have so much trauma that its STILL hard for me to accept love. its insane how long abuse sticks with you
lol I was re-watching all your video's and then I remembered when I subscribed when you were at like 300 subscriber's
I love you
*I love you're reaction videos sososososososososooo mUCHHHHHH!!!*
Thank you :)
The english lyrics in the captions are actually by a vocaloid cover artist called Oktavia!
The english captions you read in the video aren't a direct translation unfortunately, but I do recomend you all listen to Oktavia's english cover! It's great!
There have been cases in which abuse victims scratch at and claw out their own eyes because they can't cope with seeing anymore, which could explain the hand movements along with the eyes in the background and the lines that go "can't ignore the horrors that I've seen".
I'm an avid promoter of trying to give children a standard in relationships. They should never go below that standard, only reach for the nicer fruit hanging at the top.
"are these cuts even mine" reminds me of dissociation, or depersonalization; i remember reading about this guy who was to traumatized he couldn't believe he was a person, or how some people will convince themselves they're nonexistent to cope.
me: *using speakers and watching in the dark & night*
my brain: it hurts
my parents: why u confused???? 0___0
As A Girl and someone who's been abused, when you listen to these kinds of songs you feel like crying or screaming, because you understand what they are saying and the pain the song writer went through or the person in the song, it pains me alot in the heart if i say this myself but being abused sucks alot because when you hear someone else going through what you are going through or went through you cant help but feel a burning rage or sadness in your heart, and it hurts alot more than just normal pain
People need to stop abusing, it should have never been a thing, also please, if you have went through any abuse or self harm i pray that you find happiness and love, you all deserve better..
I don’t like to talk about my childhood or things that have happened to me, but i used to listen to this song and cry all the time because i could hear the pain and panic it portrays. I could heavily relate to it as well. I still love this song and the meanings behind it.. if anyone else can relate to it i hope you’re doing okay.
I think she herself was not physically abused, more emotional. She was always a witness to abuse. Her parents, her friends in horrid relationships. Especially the line, "are they even mine?". I believe she isn't necessarily abused, she's tramatized. But being told it was a healthy relationship seeing this,if she doesn't see it happen to her, she would do it herself. She covered her eyes first because she didn't want to see anymore. She never bandaged her legs cuz others where helping, but not enough.
I love how at the part where the girl turns into a worm with salt sprinkled on it, sooshi tries to imitate it and starts having a stroke or like starts having rabies lmao
kikuos art and music has helped me a lot .
the intro is a mood. everyone has a silent agreement that every kikuo pv/songs is a "watch with your own risk" video