I once was listening to this on soundcloud and found a comment saying: "The only reason I like this song is because it explains my life." Everyone in the replies were concerned and so am I
@@YokuneRukosCoffeeI think that’s the comfort the disturb part? Like how the word of negative things is being spread, convincing everyone to prevent it.
When I was a kid, I loved this song. (Still do tbh) I grew up in a toxic household. I was abused, although not sexually as the song implied, but the lyrics put into words feelings I couldn't really define at the time. The feeling of submitting to the assertion that you deserve to be punished, that loving someone is making them feel terrible, the unnecessary guilt for even existing at all. I didn't even truly realize how much my parents behavior effected me until I was around 12, I'm still coping with it, and I'm 19 next year. I know it's kinda fucked up, but this song really comforted me, helped me come to terms with a whole lot of negative emotions.
this song is about a young girl who is raped by her dad, what she means by "collapsing body" is that the rape is too much that it ruined her insides. this song is not about cannibalism, it is about child rape. her father is brainwashing her to believe that being raped and abuse is being "loved". one day she ran away from her father's house by going into her neighbors house, her neighbor is a he. the boy pitied her "collapsing body", so he took her in, soon enough they fell in love, the boy truly loved her, and the girl loved him too but she was confused she didn't know what "true love" means, she thought the boy hated her because the boy is not raping her or abusing her she thought that being taken care of means they hate you, so she went back to her father's house but as soon as she went back her dad bought a few mens in his house to gangrape her. the gangrape was too much for the young girl so unfortunately she died.
The way I always interpreted the oniichan think is that this man takes understanding of her situation at home and helps her escape the sexual abuse she experiences at home. But since she is a little girl (like an actual child) who has been sexually abused all her life she thinks oniichan too wants to "have sex" with her so she tries to initiate it and he is obviously freak out at that since he is not a sick fuck so she escapes thinking oniicham hates her for the way he rejected her sexual advances towards her. Still so a really sad story
Ok so I understand this part but what I don't get is like isn't miku a computer generated voice so how could all that happen or is it just like a made up backstory thingy
Fun fact: the person who runs the channel the translated video is on, momocashew, is also a (former) Vocaloid producer and herself a singer for Project Mili, and her singing is AMAZING. Like, most of the stuff they put out is incredible, and definitely worth checking out.
for the people who don’t really understand this song ever after the lyrics: ⚠️TW: rape⚠️ this song is about a girl who was being raped by her father, but she does not understand that it’s a bad because she believes he’s only doing because he loves her. one day her father stops raping her and she thinks he stopped because he doesn’t love her anymore, and so she ran away. while she ran away she met a stranger and he took her in but she asked him to rape her (because she didn’t understand yet that’s a bad thing) but after the stranger declined her request and instead treated her nicely in a non sexual way. But because she felt like he did not love her she went back to her fathers house, when she got there her father had friends over and they all basically raped her to death she let them do it because all she wanted was someone to love her even if that was her terrible father because she’s scared of being alone. this song is disturbing but it’s supposed to spread cause kikuo only made this song to spread awareness to the people who have or had to suffer from rape or really any sexual assault and for people to realize that. stuff like this happens more then we realize.
Yknow what? Having eyes is over rated I wish I wouldve went blind before I had a chance to read this… Thanks for the context But also whhhhaatt tthhheeee hheeelllllll
@@RosemaryRosella226 In Japan you call men a little bit older but not too much "big brother" (so onii-san) to show respect. If the man was a lot older you would call him "uncle" and same goes with women (so sister and auntie).
This song BOPS. But I have also have thrown up. Welcome to vocaloid, the only place where the anime girls are cute, the lyrics are cryptic and the music fuckin bops
One of my favorite things about vocaloid is no subject/theme isn’t allowed really. So you can get some really touching songs about depression and suicide and then get a weird song about stealing cows because you’re an alien
As a victim of CSA, this song was strangely comforting to me. However, even as a kid I knew something was wrong. But my father never loved me therefore I never confused it. I grew up angry & was known to beat up boys at a young age. But when a boy actually was hitting harder I mooned him cause that was what I thought would protect me. Anyways I am an adult now with loads of therapy & a great boyfriend who has never met my father because he might kill that sick fuck. My mom had a boyfriend that treated me well while they were together so that definitely helped me differentiate between love & abuse. I was more dealing with feeling grossed out by men, & violent tendencies towards men. Then realizing I was just as abusive & it's a whole spiral. But I survived so life goes on.
@@vibecheck8987 he already did, he is now homeless & got diagnosed with skin cancer that when untreated for too long. Now he is suffering alone, without any family or friends to be there for him. Dying alone basically. Yet I feel a tiny bit bad for him. He still hurts me a lot but I just can't help but wish he became a better person even if that was impossible.
To anyone who's ever been through this, I am so sorry. I know nothing anyone can say can take away that pain, including people saying they are sorry for you. No words can patch up the wounds that you are left with, it's like putting a band-aid on a gaping hole in someone's chest that you can literally see through and hoping it'll fix things. But I still want to say, (even though it won't fix anything by saying it) that you are not alone. You are not to blame. You are not bad. You are important. And you are so goddamn motherfucking strong, holy shit. You've made it so far. You've fought so hard, simply by continuing to exist. And again, you are not alone. There are so many people out there that know how you feel. That feel what you feel. And you are not to blame, not guilty, not dirty, not bad. You are not a bad person. This doesn't make you a bad person. You matter. Your voice matters. Your pain matters. If any of you need to vent about your experience, feel free to reply to this. I will read each and every story. Please know that there is always someone out there that hears you, that sees you. And I can be one of those people. (Only share if you want to and are comfortable!) You are important, valid, strong, and not alone. I love you. I'm proud of you. You're seriously amazing. I hope you are able to heal as much as you can. ❤
Sorry, can you please explain why that song distribing? I know that it's creepy because of music, but I don't understand its meaning tbh 😔 UPD: Guys, thank you so much that you still answer my question but I know what is Gomenne Gomenne about, my question was only about Cotton Candy.
Margasian ahh actually i didn’t really focused on the lyrics but i think it’s about someone who gets high and takes drugs to forget their sadness/problems but i can search up if you want or send you a translation ^^(btw i’m french sorry for bad english
I’m just going to go ahead and get one of the most obvious choices out of the way. To be curt, this is a song about child abuse. Horrific, horrific child sexual abuse that is compared to cannibalism in the lyrics. Really, there is nothing that horrifies me more, and this would easily be in the #1 spot if I were ranking these in any way. Do you want to know something potentially worse than just the lyrics? If you were just listening to this song randomly and did not understand Japanese, you might not even realize that anything wrong was going on in this song. It is catchy as hell and could be something feasible to dance to. Then you would track down the lyrics… (According to RUclips comments, this actually has happened.) All things aside, I would recommend you to give this a listen. It is most certainly a depressing and horrifying experience, and the latter is what you’re here for, yes? Please keep in mind, though, that this is a horror that occurs every day to thousands of children… A little dose of realism is good for all of us.
Secrets of wysteria is filtered with metaphorical words but the meaning is still there and at the end if it was turned backwards you can hear someone saying the things from the letter sent by Albert Fish to one of the victim's mother.
"According to youtube comments, this actually happened" ummm.... And why are you surprised by that? Awful things like that ARE real... Child trafficking, child (sexual, physical or mental) abuse. It's not surprising, it's sadly something that happens but that's reality, it shouldn't be surprising. What we SHOULD do is make sure that kids can stay safe and sound and help the kids who suffered from such awful treatments.
@@ameladaptivedaydreamer949 The comment was not about that child abuse/rape surprisingly happens, OP knew that. It was that, surprisingly, by youtube comment proof, that people have danced and enjoyed the song THEN went to look up the lyrics and got a terrible surprise of what they were dancing to in ignorance.
When I first listened to this song, I felt sick to my stomach. And that normally DOESN'T happen whenever I listen to songs (especially dark ones), but this one just struck me with disgust. The fact that twisted stuff such as sexual assault & r**e happens so much in this world to innocent people angers me. If you're a victim, I'm truly sorry you had to go through that. You're strong & you're NOT alone. I know that sounds really cliché, but it's true. Sending love
My teacher once said that she got a 1st grader crying to her after coming from the toilet, it turns out, a man tried to r-pe her in the school bathroom.. with that, it shows it DOES happen commonly, sadly.
ya are not da only ma pal and yet is kinda uncomfy to hear it again being an adult and understand it more deeply (yet is very disturbing the meaning of the song)
And then you learn this song's on tiktok. I wish I was kidding. I remember my friend watching someone dance to this on tiktok and asked me for the meaning behind the lyrics. I ran out of the classroom the second I heard the music 🤣
That's one thing I don't miss about school. I don't need to hear or see any more students doing tiktok stuff to disturbing stuff like All You Wanna Do, Useless Child, etc.
"I'm sorry i'm sorry." Is quite a deep song upon itself. I hate it how people dance to this song and loves it more than anything and they don't even read nor understand the lyrics. It explains sexual abuse more than anyone can. Kikuo is strong I know she isn't a real person but for people to are true survivers your strong.
I think the beginning about the ribs and collapsed body is about how sexual abuse victims feel so used to the point where they’re falling apart and the ribs and collapsed must’ve been symbolism for that. The daddy part might actually be her father, he must’ve sexually abused her growing up and she’s beginning to find someone she loves but she can’t move on from her father’s sexual abuse. I’m a sexual abuse victim and now whenever I try to find someone to love it’s really difficult for me because of my trauma. I’m guessing that “I’m sorry” means that she’s apologizing for betraying her father and she wants to be with her father. I just got to the end where you’re talking about the meaning of the lyrics and I was so close to the meaning of the lyrics it’s actually scaring me.
i can imagine all the abuse and it disgust me how people are that cruel i have no hope in humanity honestly this world is disgusting the fact that the girl died during "it" happening and they continued is ugh im going to have nightmare s please stay safe.
ok idk why years later i just noticed this, but notice how in the beggining when shes with her father, the background is colorful and "happy" but when shes with "Big brother" background turns dark and when she comes back to her dad again, it turns colorful again
Thanks for the TW, genuinely. I may not have needed it, but I know it definitely helped some people since it can be triggering. Your content is awesome, stay safe thru these tough times my guy
This song, makes me cry, it does tell people that s3xu@l @bu$3 is *NEVER* okay, neither is r@p3, I do not like that tiktokers used this as a "adorable song" especially 0:45 at the song pov, people have called it the miku scream, I am sorry if this is late, I do love how once again, it spreads aware of REAL people going through this... I feel sorrow for people going through this, and it's okay if you danced to this, you did apologize and did not know what this song meant, as long as you don't make fun on the song- (which I don't think you ever would) you are okay
Nothing is funny about this, you literally missed the point and therefore the mindset you have to have to come in here and be respectful. It is a sad, disgustingly true heartbreaking story of child abuse/rape, and nothing is funny.
honestly, im glad songs like this exist, yes is a awful and painful story but its true to reality. its really common for victims of abuse to go back to their abusers and have difficulties with relationships after escaping said abuse. like. i was abused by a boyfriend for two years, i managed to get away from him and into a healthy relationship with a friend. unfortunately i broke up with them after 3 months and let my abusive ex back into my life.. abuse is very complex and its nice having accurate depictions of it, even when it makes people uncomfortable.
I know a lot of abuse victims (physical, mental and sexual) from an old group I was in. A lot of people told them (and me) why didn’t you just leave or why did you keep going back. It really dies down to it happening so many times that it’s normalised and if it’s done by someone who is meant to love you. You start to believe that’s the only type of love you’ll receive. It’s kind of sad so this song really isn’t straying far from the truth at all.
I read your comment and I nearly started crying. I didn't think anyone else had that mentality as a child, I always thought I was the odd one out. That there was something wrong with me, I really needed to see your comment. I hope you're in a better place in life now and are doing okay :(
I read your comment and I nearly started crying. I didn't think anyone else had that mentality as a child, I always thought I was the odd one out. That there was something wrong with me, I really needed to see your comment. I hope you're in a better place in life now and are doing okay :(
fr, i came back to my abuser so many times because I thought that he was gonna change or that he isn't actually bad, or even because i was so lonely and desperate and had no friends so the only option was to come back to him again, cuz even if I knew he was bad it was better than that loneliness.
shooshiMooshi haha right. Most people dislike her voice because of how robotic it is, but with the right tuning and things it can sound just as expressive or more
I wasn't going to say anything, but we in the vocaloid/anime community did that on purpose. Our plan was to get strait tiktok to steal the song and alter the dance. This was so we could laugh at there lack of research and wanting to "hop on the trent" This was payback for stealing our trends, sounds, and other things we originally started.
@@thesameenergy3192 It’s not bad to dance or enjoy the music, but if you did enjoy the meaning of it then thats something else. It’s not like even once you knew the meaning you won’t enjoy the ‘music’
I love this song because I think kikuo has managed to express what abuse feels like so well, to the point where I wondered if he had experienced it himself. I mean just... The despair, the pain, and still that feeling of guilt you feel because of the manipulation of the abuser...
I think he does know, because it really does make you feel so powerless and scared. I wasn’t ever really able to fight back back when it was happening, but now I just hope if I ever cross paths with the guy again and he tries anything, this time I’ll be brave enough to make him eat floor
I've known this song even before Tiktok existed because I'm a vocaloid fan, and I've learned some people have been dancing on it recently, it's making me cringe so much like wtf 😂 they're dancing on a song about a child abuse.
as someone who knows japanese, watching this even without the english lyrics still makes my stomach upset. the japanese lyrics are also,,, somehow way worse than the english one for some reason. eugh.
Been finding for such video like this for a long time. Finally, found this and was amazed that someone is so brave enough to understand the song deeper and made a reaction about it 🤣
The best part about this song that it NEVER Shy's away from how bad this is and the fact that it can happened to anyone makes it more disturbing, This song is brutally honest with it's message and how it's trying to convey. and the powerful thing from is that I distance away from it because how disturbing it is... I just listened it again for nostalgic reasons... but even so, I just never hear it much as I have too... The REAL lyrics will allways burned into my memory... Songs like this are not and will never be cool, it's not hip-cool, it's not edgy, it's not trendy.. *IT'S REAL, IT'S DISTURBING, IT'S DISGUSTING, AND IT CAN HAPPENED TO ANYONE (for REAL).* Props to you Kikuo for conveying this message honestly! Welp, going to get my eye bleach again-
Even tho their songs are so deep and dark I love Kikuo, I listen daily or at least weekly (while drawing, going on long trips, doing homework etc.) songs like Universe cat drowning, Aishite, Corpse dance, and of course Gomenne Gomenne too (of course I listen with them other songs too, I have a playlist of 70 songs I listen to and theyre so many so that I don’t get tired of the playlist)
Found this when I was younger. I was smart back then and asked my mom, that day I realized people can do terrible things. It’s a bittersweet feeling because at one point I could be more wary of people but at the same time I gave up on humanity a little that day. The song slaps tho.
Yea all the comments on all the TikToks with dances to this song are like "YEA, YOU GO, SLAY" etc and it's just weird tbh. I mean, sure, some of them are somewhat justified, but, yeah...
My heart feels heavy and I feel also like my stomach just went up and down riding a rollercoaster I can't even begin to say that this song is both disturbing and very catchy 😖
s a m e Me before knowing the lyric: Goosebump 💜👄💜 Me after the lyric: i pretend i never see that and i will still goosebumping 💜👄💜 (Its the same with Mind Brain, Namida, a song that i forget the name of lmao ect..)
Dude I LOST IT when you started dancing 😭😭😭😭 I've read as many interpretations of this song as I could find back then so I already knew multiple f'ed up meanings behind every sentence, I was getting sucked deep into it when SUDDENLY I saw them legs go 😭😭😭😭😭😭
@@agalwithnoname same, I'm nowhere near as affected as other people are but I still have this uneasy feeling in my gut after giving this song a listen so I'm good lol
For some reason I knew wat gommene meant so when I listened to dis song I thought it was about a friendship or breakup or something..not...this...exactly..
For a recap it’s about a girl who fell in love with someone other than her dad and her dad got mad. She felt guilty and tried to run away but when she got caught she felt more guilty and offered herself to her dad. Her dad ended up eating her all because his daughter found love with someone other than him. 😢
Kikuo actually introduced me into this messed up world that you don't understand the lyrics and love the song, but when you go to see the meaning and discover "interesting" stuff 👁️
I always love how Kikuyus always hits hard and shows more about the world and how horrible it is and hitting on what people actually experienced like abuse suicidal thoughts etc. and that I can have songs to relate to
as a csa survivor this song hits fucking deep (but im ok, im in therapy for it dont worry) also, the father of this girl likely told her he loved her a lot as he was abusing her. just like we learn to associate kisses and hugs with affection, this girl learned to associate abuse with affection because of her father teaching her to do so
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1 month ago wasn't this....4 yrs ago😨😨
Bro made sure to go back and plug
Billie Eilish: I write the most depressing and dark lyrics ever
Kikuo:
Her lyrics are for children after this. And MASA and just about every other song I listen to.
@@Dressup_Doll isnt she not like 18 tho
billie when she sees this comment: stop. what the hell are you talking about- ha
@@mecouture so??? u dont have to be a 30 year old to make music
@@konnistuffs6134 i meant they said her musics for children while she's barely left her childhood 👩🦲
Not knowing the lyrics: ↗↖↘↙↙↖↗↘↔↕↔↕↖↙↗
Knowing the lyrics: 🙁🔫
Same
I'm still bopping to it even knowing the lyrics and the meaning of them
@@yellowduck9214 how?
@@yellowduck9214 same,,, like, the music just makes you still vibe to it.
W h y is this so true tHo
I once was listening to this on soundcloud and found a comment saying:
"The only reason I like this song is because it explains my life."
Everyone in the replies were concerned and so am I
jesus christ what the fuck
Wha- what
Now I'm concerned too. Holy shit...
Are they okay!?
Are they okay!?
Just as they say "art is meant to disturb the comforted, and comfort the disturbed."
Well said
edit: but when you think about the people who actually have to go through this :(
@@YokuneRukosCoffeeI think that’s the comfort the disturb part? Like how the word of negative things is being spread, convincing everyone to prevent it.
somehow this comforts me
When I was a kid, I loved this song.
(Still do tbh)
I grew up in a toxic household.
I was abused, although not sexually as the song implied, but the lyrics put into words feelings I couldn't really define at the time.
The feeling of submitting to the assertion that you deserve to be punished, that loving someone is making them feel terrible, the unnecessary guilt for even existing at all.
I didn't even truly realize how much my parents behavior effected me until I was around 12, I'm still coping with it, and I'm 19 next year.
I know it's kinda fucked up, but this song really comforted me, helped me come to terms with a whole lot of negative emotions.
Bro ya good
@@dwfbbwtnk0racold10
Been going to therapy on and off, so yeah, doing better
Me too, I feel a bit comfortable when I see others who've endured what I have/understand what I do or have gone through
If you feeling down, We are here for you.
Woo
At the beginning of the video when you said “I’m gonna read the lyrics out loud” my face went like
👁👄👁
Same
Saame lmaoo
ME TOO I WAS SO SCARED FOR A SEC AJ
bruh face
nearly ruined it
I knew shet was gonna get real
this song is about a young girl who is raped by her dad, what she means by "collapsing body" is that the rape is too much that it ruined her insides. this song is not about cannibalism, it is about child rape. her father is brainwashing her to believe that being raped and abuse is being "loved". one day she ran away from her father's house by going into her neighbors house, her neighbor is a he. the boy pitied her "collapsing body", so he took her in, soon enough they fell in love, the boy truly loved her, and the girl loved him too but she was confused she didn't know what "true love" means, she thought the boy hated her because the boy is not raping her or abusing her she thought that being taken care of means they hate you, so she went back to her father's house but as soon as she went back her dad bought a few mens in his house to gangrape her. the gangrape was too much for the young girl so unfortunately she died.
The way I always interpreted the oniichan think is that this man takes understanding of her situation at home and helps her escape the sexual abuse she experiences at home. But since she is a little girl (like an actual child) who has been sexually abused all her life she thinks oniichan too wants to "have sex" with her so she tries to initiate it and he is obviously freak out at that since he is not a sick fuck so she escapes thinking oniicham hates her for the way he rejected her sexual advances towards her. Still so a really sad story
Horrible, omg
omg this is so disturbing and horrible and so freaking sad
Ok so I understand this part but what I don't get is like isn't miku a computer generated voice so how could all that happen or is it just like a made up backstory thingy
@@vitamingumi6844 according to my research, no its not a backstory. it just explains rape or what children or girls have to go through in this society
Him pause to make sure we're okay. Thank u, I needed that
Gotta look out for y’all. I’m going to the kitchen and bringing y’all some green tea next time too
@@shooshiMooshi oh thank you :')
@@shooshiMooshi thank u
@@shooshiMooshi yeah i like tea
@@shooshiMooshi oow! That's sweet of you! Thanks you! ✨💀
“they wanted to eat the rest of my collapsed body”
*2 seconds later*
*dances* 🕺🕺🕺
Fun fact: the person who runs the channel the translated video is on, momocashew, is also a (former) Vocaloid producer and herself a singer for Project Mili, and her singing is AMAZING. Like, most of the stuff they put out is incredible, and definitely worth checking out.
MOMOCASHEW OMG
I can confirm as someone who listened to this alot as a child, I do go to therapy
haha nvm I'm broke
your comment and reply is a mood
Mood
mood
What a mood
satan, you forgot your music on earth..
lol, he left us a play list
Satan: Nah, I'm good
oh fuck he did let go grab it
666 like 😃👍
Oof-
Kikuo a god at making bops with serious topics
Yess
That’s what makes it amazing
Yes
omg ur pfp 👩❤️💋👩
He is not a god
for the people who don’t really understand this song ever after the lyrics: ⚠️TW: rape⚠️
this song is about a girl who was being raped by her father, but she does not understand that it’s a bad because she believes he’s only doing because he loves her. one day her father stops raping her and she thinks he stopped because he doesn’t love her anymore, and so she ran away. while she ran away she met a stranger and he took her in but she asked him to rape her (because she didn’t understand yet that’s a bad thing) but after the stranger declined her request and instead treated her nicely in a non sexual way. But because she felt like he did not love her she went back to her fathers house, when she got there her father had friends over and they all basically raped her to death she let them do it because all she wanted was someone to love her even if that was her terrible father because she’s scared of being alone. this song is disturbing but it’s supposed to spread cause kikuo only made this song to spread awareness to the people who have or had to suffer from rape or really any sexual assault and for people to realize that. stuff like this happens more then we realize.
Yknow what? Having eyes is over rated
I wish I wouldve went blind before I had a chance to read this…
Thanks for the context
But also whhhhaatt tthhheeee hheeelllllll
Why did my dumbass think it was about cannibalizing a kid 🤦🏽♀️
@@senirella I don’t blame you, the lyrics do kind of make it seem that way
Jesus Christ
uhh what the hell...
ive always thought of the onii-san in the song as someone she met in a hospital getting an abortion, especially the amniotic fluid line
you're a genius
Doesn’t oniisan mean ‘older brother’ in Japanese tho? This translation might not be very accurate.
@@RosemaryRosella226you can also use it for young boy stranger if I remember well
I never thought about it but that makes so much sense I definitely think this is true
@@RosemaryRosella226 In Japan you call men a little bit older but not too much "big brother" (so onii-san) to show respect. If the man was a lot older you would call him "uncle" and same goes with women (so sister and auntie).
Tfw the lyrics are messed up but it's a bop so you be dancing with a horrified face
Yea ı keep bobbing my head :') ı dont wanna do it but hhhhh-
Looool
L e g i t-
Facts, it’s a bop but like... Holy shit it probably rivals Secrets of Wisteria..!!
Even if you ignore the lyrics, it still makes me uncomfortable when the "climax" part happens
This song BOPS. But I have also have thrown up. Welcome to vocaloid, the only place where the anime girls are cute, the lyrics are cryptic and the music fuckin bops
Ayyy
Hi Kazuichi :)
exactly.
Its midnight and I just had to be the 666th like in this comment. 💀
K a z u i c h i H i
One of my favorite things about vocaloid is no subject/theme isn’t allowed really. So you can get some really touching songs about depression and suicide and then get a weird song about stealing cows because you’re an alien
LOL KUSAPEKO
I need to know the name of the alien stealing cows.
@@lucascalivari6966 ruclips.net/video/zPp2GraE6LU/видео.html
LMAO
or advertise some vegetable juice lol
As a victim of CSA, this song was strangely comforting to me.
However, even as a kid I knew something was wrong. But my father never loved me therefore I never confused it. I grew up angry & was known to beat up boys at a young age. But when a boy actually was hitting harder I mooned him cause that was what I thought would protect me.
Anyways I am an adult now with loads of therapy & a great boyfriend who has never met my father because he might kill that sick fuck.
My mom had a boyfriend that treated me well while they were together so that definitely helped me differentiate between love & abuse.
I was more dealing with feeling grossed out by men, & violent tendencies towards men.
Then realizing I was just as abusive & it's a whole spiral.
But I survived so life goes on.
I’m so sorry that happened to you, and I’m glad that you’re healing from it all. Your father will get his goddamn karma one day, stay strong 🫂🫂
@@vibecheck8987 he already did, he is now homeless & got diagnosed with skin cancer that when untreated for too long. Now he is suffering alone, without any family or friends to be there for him. Dying alone basically. Yet I feel a tiny bit bad for him. He still hurts me a lot but I just can't help but wish he became a better person even if that was impossible.
To anyone who's ever been through this,
I am so sorry. I know nothing anyone can say can take away that pain, including people saying they are sorry for you. No words can patch up the wounds that you are left with, it's like putting a band-aid on a gaping hole in someone's chest that you can literally see through and hoping it'll fix things.
But I still want to say, (even though it won't fix anything by saying it) that you are not alone. You are not to blame. You are not bad. You are important. And you are so goddamn motherfucking strong, holy shit.
You've made it so far. You've fought so hard, simply by continuing to exist.
And again, you are not alone. There are so many people out there that know how you feel. That feel what you feel.
And you are not to blame, not guilty, not dirty, not bad. You are not a bad person. This doesn't make you a bad person.
You matter. Your voice matters. Your pain matters.
If any of you need to vent about your experience, feel free to reply to this. I will read each and every story. Please know that there is always someone out there that hears you, that sees you. And I can be one of those people. (Only share if you want to and are comfortable!)
You are important, valid, strong, and not alone.
I love you. I'm proud of you. You're seriously amazing.
I hope you are able to heal as much as you can. ❤
That's enough internet for today.
😂😂😂
that's enough internet for ever.
Frr
@@f6cks i have a question for you
@@k4tzz_cclegend has it he's still trying to ask the question
Him: this is so disturbing!
Me and other kikuo fans: *laughs in “cotton candy”*
lmaooo omg
Literally all of us lol
Sorry, can you please explain why that song distribing? I know that it's creepy because of music, but I don't understand its meaning tbh 😔
UPD: Guys, thank you so much that you still answer my question but I know what is Gomenne Gomenne about, my question was only about Cotton Candy.
Margasian ahh actually i didn’t really focused on the lyrics but i think it’s about someone who gets high and takes drugs to forget their sadness/problems but i can search up if you want or send you a translation ^^(btw i’m french sorry for bad english
Margasian it’s not 100% confirmed but some say it’s about drugs and what it was like before someone either became an addict, overdosed, or both
I’m just going to go ahead and get one of the most obvious choices out of the way. To be curt, this is a song about child abuse. Horrific, horrific child sexual abuse that is compared to cannibalism in the lyrics. Really, there is nothing that horrifies me more, and this would easily be in the #1 spot if I were ranking these in any way.
Do you want to know something potentially worse than just the lyrics? If you were just listening to this song randomly and did not understand Japanese, you might not even realize that anything wrong was going on in this song. It is catchy as hell and could be something feasible to dance to. Then you would track down the lyrics… (According to RUclips comments, this actually has happened.)
All things aside, I would recommend you to give this a listen. It is most certainly a depressing and horrifying experience, and the latter is what you’re here for, yes? Please keep in mind, though, that this is a horror that occurs every day to thousands of children… A little dose of realism is good for all of us.
I agree. The first step towards MAYBE changing this terrible reality, is waking up and be aware that this stuff really does exist.
Now that I listened to this, I don't know if this should be my number 1 or the other which is Secrets of Wysteria.
Secrets of wysteria is filtered with metaphorical words but the meaning is still there and at the end if it was turned backwards you can hear someone saying the things from the letter sent by Albert Fish to one of the victim's mother.
"According to youtube comments, this actually happened" ummm.... And why are you surprised by that? Awful things like that ARE real... Child trafficking, child (sexual, physical or mental) abuse. It's not surprising, it's sadly something that happens but that's reality, it shouldn't be surprising. What we SHOULD do is make sure that kids can stay safe and sound and help the kids who suffered from such awful treatments.
@@ameladaptivedaydreamer949 The comment was not about that child abuse/rape surprisingly happens, OP knew that. It was that, surprisingly, by youtube comment proof, that people have danced and enjoyed the song THEN went to look up the lyrics and got a terrible surprise of what they were dancing to in ignorance.
When I first listened to this song, I felt sick to my stomach. And that normally DOESN'T happen whenever I listen to songs (especially dark ones), but this one just struck me with disgust. The fact that twisted stuff such as sexual assault & r**e happens so much in this world to innocent people angers me. If you're a victim, I'm truly sorry you had to go through that. You're strong & you're NOT alone. I know that sounds really cliché, but it's true. Sending love
12 year old me discovering this song and reading the lyrics:
👁👄👁
I think im mentally disturbed for immediatly understanding the r*pe Part 😐
I love how you still danced to one part of it
I mean the beat and rhythm was kinda fire tho 😂😅
shooshiMooshi fr
lol same but this is messed up
*because it’s kinda catchy when you don’t know the lyrics-*
Girllllllll
As an adult, this song actually makes me want to cry because this has no doubt happened to many children everywhere :(
True
My teacher once said that she got a 1st grader crying to her after coming from the toilet, it turns out, a man tried to r-pe her in the school bathroom.. with that, it shows it DOES happen commonly, sadly.
Kikuo is just a god.
I wanna listen to more of his stuff actually that’s for sure
@@shooshiMooshi My favourite song of his is Hole Dwelling.
@@PowerSpirit50 me too
His songs are dark disguised as a lovely, child friendly, cute songs.
shooshiMooshi I recommend listening to his most recent album titled "Kikuo Miku 6" it's truly a work of art 👌
This song traumatized me when I was younger-
But its still a bop somehow, how are the darkest vocoloid songs such good songs-
ya are not da only ma pal and yet is kinda uncomfy to hear it again being an adult and understand it more deeply (yet is very disturbing the meaning of the song)
And then you learn this song's on tiktok. I wish I was kidding. I remember my friend watching someone dance to this on tiktok and asked me for the meaning behind the lyrics. I ran out of the classroom the second I heard the music 🤣
Brb: gonna check that out LOL
AveryScarlet What?? There’s a tik tok on this song?
@@nekomily Yep. Last I checked, there was a lot
That's one thing I don't miss about school.
I don't need to hear or see any more students doing tiktok stuff to disturbing stuff like All You Wanna Do, Useless Child, etc.
Hold up she was listening to that IN CLASS? LIKE ACTUAL CLASS??
What a WONDERFUL introduction to vocaloid. A horrific experience:)
Wonderfully put haha
Yeah
don't worry, some of the songs aren't like this
i day some because most of the songs are like this
Rika fan :0
Me tbh, the first songs to my vocaloid phase are mostly dark af like these💀💀💀
After years of therapy, I finally have a song that I can use to describe my childhood trauma. Thank you so much!
@@amikai_POFC THEYRE NOT
"I'm sorry i'm sorry." Is quite a deep song upon itself. I hate it how people dance to this song and loves it more than anything and they don't even read nor understand the lyrics. It explains sexual abuse more than anyone can. Kikuo is strong I know she isn't a real person but for people to are true survivers your strong.
Song's lyrics: *about graphic and awful abuse*
Catchy part of the song: *starts*
Listener: *dancing in terror*
That would be me
Me a bilingual person: ah yes the beatdrop cures everything
Just watch the live concert version...
Especially the chorus bruhh its so catchy.
Dancing in terror is now the new phrase describing my overall 2022 mood
I think the beginning about the ribs and collapsed body is about how sexual abuse victims feel so used to the point where they’re falling apart and the ribs and collapsed must’ve been symbolism for that. The daddy part might actually be her father, he must’ve sexually abused her growing up and she’s beginning to find someone she loves but she can’t move on from her father’s sexual abuse. I’m a sexual abuse victim and now whenever I try to find someone to love it’s really difficult for me because of my trauma. I’m guessing that “I’m sorry” means that she’s apologizing for betraying her father and she wants to be with her father. I just got to the end where you’re talking about the meaning of the lyrics and I was so close to the meaning of the lyrics it’s actually scaring me.
are you okay not joking
i feel so bad right now
i can imagine all the abuse and it disgust me how people are that cruel i have no hope in humanity honestly this world is disgusting the fact that the girl died during "it" happening and they continued is ugh im going to have nightmare s please stay safe.
@@_jiafeistoes_ I’m okay thank you
Glad to know your okay now...i can't imagine how many people who has gone to the same experience as you or worse, i wish i could save all of them...
Not gonna lie, I love this song. It's definitely messed up, and it's a very real thing. But is a bop.
Its true tho ;-; (also how am i the only reply-)
Music wise it might be one of my favorites, I just try to forget the lyric
@@334...4 it’s a very sensitive subject matter but the beat is a banger
you: are you okay-
me: *jamming out fully knowing the context of the song* yeah i'm good
ok idk why years later i just noticed this, but notice how in the beggining when shes with her father, the background is colorful and "happy" but when shes with "Big brother" background turns dark and when she comes back to her dad again, it turns colorful again
It because the girl now thinking that grape is an act of love, and when not do it, the girl think that they do not love her
Omg omg the background image, is daddy looking under the blankets!
as it's going to abuse her in the middle of the night
Jesus Christ I wouldn’t have guessed that...welp add it to the list of sh** messed up in this video lmao
I just noticed myself and I have known the song for years! D:
I can’t really see it, but I’m trying to
Where?
@@user-jm6cl6fj1l is a eye, no a human, a bery disturbing ete
Omfg imagine the non-vocaloid fans not knowing much or anything about Vocaloid and this is their first introduction to Vocaloid lmao
U see this vid showed up on my yt feed out of nowhere and I’ve only heard of vocaloid a few times and now I’m scarred 👁👄👁
@@a-a4391 Lmao I promise you that there are songs that aren't as dark as this! But yes
Kikuo is a often feared artist XD
@@greylanarts ohh ok thx for the info lmao
@@a-a4391 if you want happy song. You must visit mitchie m. They song is cute!
@@ratnakartik ok I will :D
Thanks for the TW, genuinely. I may not have needed it, but I know it definitely helped some people since it can be triggering. Your content is awesome, stay safe thru these tough times my guy
You too man 👊
Same. Fortunately I'm not a victim, but there's some people out there who are & just don't need to relieve that trauma
This song, makes me cry, it does tell people that s3xu@l @bu$3 is *NEVER* okay, neither is r@p3, I do not like that tiktokers used this as a "adorable song" especially 0:45 at the song pov, people have called it the miku scream, I am sorry if this is late, I do love how once again, it spreads aware of REAL people going through this...
I feel sorrow for people going through this, and it's okay if you danced to this, you did apologize and did not know what this song meant, as long as you don't make fun on the song- (which I don't think you ever would) you are okay
i love this song, glad you reacted to it
"Who exactly is daddy" is something I never thought I'd hear. That is the funniest thing I've heard today
Her dad.
Nothing is funny about this, you literally missed the point and therefore the mindset you have to have to come in here and be respectful. It is a sad, disgustingly true heartbreaking story of child abuse/rape, and nothing is funny.
@@BloodMoonCosplays bro-
@@BloodMoonCosplays they didn't laugh about the song, the theme or the lyrics ok?
They just laughed about this man.
Don't hate for no reason.
@@OIKAGEISSOHOT srsly
honestly, im glad songs like this exist, yes is a awful and painful story but its true to reality. its really common for victims of abuse to go back to their abusers and have difficulties with relationships after escaping said abuse. like. i was abused by a boyfriend for two years, i managed to get away from him and into a healthy relationship with a friend. unfortunately i broke up with them after 3 months and let my abusive ex back into my life.. abuse is very complex and its nice having accurate depictions of it, even when it makes people uncomfortable.
😭😭😭
My friends : What a song that traumatizing
Me : Gomen Ne Gomen NE
Ah .-.
It is indeed traumatizing but it’s a bop 😔
Wait until you listen to a song called Daddy by Korn
I’m not sure about common world domination but it’s still good-
If this is traumatizing, honestly, secrets of wisteria is even more so. It's number 1 for me lmao
Oh dear lord i love kikuo
Me before learning Japanese : 💃
Me after and seeing this : .....✝️
I know a lot of abuse victims (physical, mental and sexual) from an old group I was in. A lot of people told them (and me) why didn’t you just leave or why did you keep going back. It really dies down to it happening so many times that it’s normalised and if it’s done by someone who is meant to love you. You start to believe that’s the only type of love you’ll receive.
It’s kind of sad so this song really isn’t straying far from the truth at all.
I read your comment and I nearly started crying. I didn't think anyone else had that mentality as a child, I always thought I was the odd one out. That there was something wrong with me, I really needed to see your comment. I hope you're in a better place in life now and are doing okay :(
I read your comment and I nearly started crying. I didn't think anyone else had that mentality as a child, I always thought I was the odd one out. That there was something wrong with me, I really needed to see your comment. I hope you're in a better place in life now and are doing okay :(
fr, i came back to my abuser so many times because I thought that he was gonna change or that he isn't actually bad, or even because i was so lonely and desperate and had no friends so the only option was to come back to him again, cuz even if I knew he was bad it was better than that loneliness.
"Not gonna lie I dig the sound" we got another one boys
I absolutely love kikuo.... except his this song.....my favourite song from him is Ai shite (Love me love me love me). React to it plz
I’ve listened to a little bit of ai shite but not all of it. I also haven’t researched the meaning of the lyrics to it so I’ll put it on my list :)
@@shooshiMooshi aye thanx a lot
I do love Aishite but I’ve moved to loving Teto’s voice with most Kikuo songs over Miku 😔
Yooo I read your comment and was curious to hear teto’s voice and all I can say is wow. I love it
shooshiMooshi haha right. Most people dislike her voice because of how robotic it is, but with the right tuning and things it can sound just as expressive or more
Id assume the colorful backgrounds and cheerful/energetic rythm portray her warped mentality on the scenario.
the song is so disturbing but I still vibe and start dancing to it, knowing damn well this song is about abuse and grape without the g
isnt this song named 'cute song' on tiktok? like wtf tiktok-
I wasn't going to say anything, but we in the vocaloid/anime community did that on purpose. Our plan was to get strait tiktok to steal the song and alter the dance. This was so we could laugh at there lack of research and wanting to "hop on the trent" This was payback for stealing our trends, sounds, and other things we originally started.
Trend*
@@bonnibells_bunnyart489
That just makes me happy and kinda shocked. Lol the ignorance
@@bonnibells_bunnyart489 but stll, this is not supposed to be called a cute song tvt
@@Bseaz lol no it's not. That's the point. They don't know that. That's why we did it lol 😅
me before: THIS SONG IS SUCH A BEATTTTT
me after: *oh god im gonna puke*
Are u okay? Cause i wouldn't be okay.
Barely
LMAO sad but true 😅
Pan goose hjonk hjonk
Sorry not a good video to comment this on but i love your profile
@@igiveup5585 eheheh thankyouu
This song is a bop fr!!!
"B-b-but the lyrics!!! "
This song is a bop fr!!!
Bro i just flipping love Kikuo and Flower's songs like..THERE SONG BEATS HARDER THAN THE BELT AND SLIPPER COMBINED😮
Song: abuse is bad
TikTokers: *hehe vocaloid song go brrr*
If someone does the ahegao face while listening to this, I will go scream-
@@kushina.4021 already happened in tiktok
Y’all are embarrassing yourself by dancing to this song🕳🚶♀️
@@thesameenergy3192 It’s not bad to dance or enjoy the music, but if you did enjoy the meaning of it then thats something else. It’s not like even once you knew the meaning you won’t enjoy the ‘music’
@@nothingnone4083 okay that make sense, I just sound disrespectful when the song slaps came yk
I love this song because I think kikuo has managed to express what abuse feels like so well, to the point where I wondered if he had experienced it himself. I mean just... The despair, the pain, and still that feeling of guilt you feel because of the manipulation of the abuser...
I wonder about that too sometimes
I think he does know, because it really does make you feel so powerless and scared. I wasn’t ever really able to fight back back when it was happening, but now I just hope if I ever cross paths with the guy again and he tries anything, this time I’ll be brave enough to make him eat floor
Yeah hope > despair
Despair sucks @ss
I've known this song even before Tiktok existed because I'm a vocaloid fan, and I've learned some people have been dancing on it recently, it's making me cringe so much like wtf 😂 they're dancing on a song about a child abuse.
I've watched 4 of these in a row and I'm bawling my eyes out Jesus christ these songs are deep
I couldn’t listen to this music by myself, I needed this video. Thanks for asking if we’re ok. 🥲
Songs of Miku are good but the lyrics...
It shocked me a lot...
same :(
as someone who knows japanese, watching this even without the english lyrics still makes my stomach upset. the japanese lyrics are also,,, somehow way worse than the english one for some reason. eugh.
I’m sorry, tiktokers dance to this. I’m Japanese and when I first saw this I was like “sorry wha- wh- n- oh füçk no.”
Yeah I have a basic understanding and hearing people dance to it just makes me very confused
Same
SAME
CUZ LIKE WHEN I HEAR SHE SAID PAPA I KNEW SOMETHING IS VERY WRONG
As soon as I heard the “AAAAAAA~” I unlocked so many memories.
0:01 i don't know why that made me laugh so hard
It's funny how this was my favorite vocaloid song in middle school, but I didn't know the meaning until this very moment.
Yes
lowkey a bop tho 👀
I may or may not have added this to my Spotify lmao 👁👁
@@shooshiMooshi you good bro?
Been finding for such video like this for a long time. Finally, found this and was amazed that someone is so brave enough to understand the song deeper and made a reaction about it 🤣
Glad I could put an end to your search! :)
@@shooshiMooshi thanks btw 😁
The best part about this song that it NEVER Shy's away from how bad this is and the fact that it can happened to anyone makes it more disturbing, This song is brutally honest with it's message and how it's trying to convey. and the powerful thing from is that I distance away from it because how disturbing it is... I just listened it again for nostalgic reasons... but even so, I just never hear it much as I have too...
The REAL lyrics will allways burned into my memory...
Songs like this are not and will never be cool, it's not hip-cool, it's not edgy, it's not trendy..
*IT'S REAL, IT'S DISTURBING, IT'S DISGUSTING, AND IT CAN HAPPENED TO ANYONE (for REAL).*
Props to you Kikuo for conveying this message honestly! Welp, going to get my eye bleach again-
Even tho their songs are so deep and dark I love Kikuo, I listen daily or at least weekly (while drawing, going on long trips, doing homework etc.) songs like Universe cat drowning, Aishite, Corpse dance, and of course Gomenne Gomenne too (of course I listen with them other songs too, I have a playlist of 70 songs I listen to and theyre so many so that I don’t get tired of the playlist)
Found this when I was younger. I was smart back then and asked my mom, that day I realized people can do terrible things. It’s a bittersweet feeling because at one point I could be more wary of people but at the same time I gave up on humanity a little that day. The song slaps tho.
This song hurts honestly and it disgusts me to see people on TikTok dancing to it without knowing the meaning... it hurts. The song hit me so bad
Yea all the comments on all the TikToks with dances to this song are like "YEA, YOU GO, SLAY" etc and it's just weird tbh.
I mean, sure, some of them are somewhat justified, but, yeah...
tiktok sucks.
thats why usa ban that crap. MODERN DEGENERATION IS EVERYWHERE AND TIKTOK IS ONE OF THE BIGGEST FACTOR.
I remember how this was my first Kikuo song and I was like "DAMN THIS SHIT IS A BANGER." Later, I was bawling because I found out the lyrics' meaning.
5:54
Tiktokers dancing to this song with out even knowing the lyrics be like:
Ikr
My heart feels heavy and I feel also like my stomach just went up and down riding a rollercoaster I can't even begin to say that this song is both disturbing and very catchy 😖
the fact that he's vibing with the song before reading what it actually means 😭😭
Me before English lyrics: **mega head bopping**
Me now knowing:
**Crying noises**
Me before know the lyrics: *enjoy*
-
Me after know the lyrics: *Still enjoy*
s a m e
Me before knowing the lyric: Goosebump 💜👄💜
Me after the lyric: i pretend i never see that and i will still goosebumping 💜👄💜
(Its the same with Mind Brain, Namida, a song that i forget the name of lmao ect..)
The question is, do yo enjoy it more after you knew the meaning behind it?
@@aniashie not really the lyrics are still scary and make me uncomfertable but the how kikou sings its make me very uhh yeah yk
Kikuo is a literal goddess for the vocaloid community.
God** not goddess
0:00 Preview/Introduction
1:01 reaction start
6:42 first initial thoughts
7:25 explanation found online
11:36 analyzing and such
Dude I LOST IT when you started dancing
😭😭😭😭 I've read as many interpretations of this song as I could find back then so I already knew multiple f'ed up meanings behind every sentence, I was getting sucked deep into it when SUDDENLY I saw them legs go 😭😭😭😭😭😭
I watched one about teenage pregnancy, Len talking about his pp (idk), and this one when I was 6.
I WAS SIX.
@MashiroSato me too I was 5 and never understood it ..
i got into vocaloid at 4. FOUR AND MY FIRST SONG WAS THE ANAMAGUCHI- ITS A DARK MEANING WITH HAPPY LYRICS
at least, he doesn't know which is the forced moaning part
WTF?!? Can you elaborate, that sounds sooo effed up though?
UM WHAT
and that right there is the icing on the fucked up cake that is this song wtf
@@kdr_roxas yeah... i’m considering.... like.... never listening to this because... jEsUs ChRiSt
@@agalwithnoname same, I'm nowhere near as affected as other people are but I still have this uneasy feeling in my gut after giving this song a listen so I'm good lol
Listening to this song makes me want to cry but it’s so good omg
Everyone gangsta until the lyrics get translated
For some reason I knew wat gommene meant so when I listened to dis song I thought it was about a friendship or breakup or something..not...this...exactly..
I-
I got a literal chill as I watched this whole video...the fact that people go through this is just... No
I listened to this song and researched the lyrics when I was like 8-
Yes I do need therapy
I- sameee
@left nut what? No i was relating to finding out the lyrics, i don’t need therapy??
@left nut I didn’t read the therapy part
For a recap it’s about a girl who fell in love with someone other than her dad and her dad got mad. She felt guilty and tried to run away but when she got caught she felt more guilty and offered herself to her dad. Her dad ended up eating her all because his daughter found love with someone other than him. 😢
Kikuo actually introduced me into this messed up world that you don't understand the lyrics and love the song, but when you go to see the meaning and discover "interesting" stuff 👁️
I just find that people on TikTok unknowingly dance on a song that talks about Child rape And Cannibalism Extremely Funny
It's not about cannibalism when it says that it means that she's being raped
She's saying that they raped here too hard and it even ruins her insides
And that she can't take it because her body can take it
This song is just like your best nightmare with more brutal meaning and cute voice
I always love how Kikuyus always hits hard and shows more about the world and how horrible it is and hitting on what people actually experienced like abuse suicidal thoughts etc. and that I can have songs to relate to
Kikous*
@@ochiko lol I think it auto corrected
I’m Sorry I’m Sorry my favorite Vocaloid song, especially the Kasane Teto cover. Kikuo is one of my favorite Vocaloid producers now.
as a csa survivor this song hits fucking deep (but im ok, im in therapy for it dont worry)
also, the father of this girl likely told her he loved her a lot as he was abusing her. just like we learn to associate kisses and hugs with affection, this girl learned to associate abuse with affection because of her father teaching her to do so
before I knew the lyrics I loved the song but now I can never listen to it the same way again
same
its still a banger
It’s still one of my favorite vocaloid songs