This is the fourth story that we have filmed with Jenny. To watch the previous three films, see links below: All Cats Are Black - ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html "Love, Mummy" - ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html Now You Are Free - ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html
You make us smile Sy! Thanks for opening your heart to these stories. And THANK YOU for opening your heart to us in YOUR story. You've shift the hearts and minds of many around the world. Hopefully we'll get the chance to connect again soon. Big hugs. Justine x
Please have this magnificent LADY on as much as possible.... love her..wish I could have her as a friend next door. Thank you so very much for all you do 🙏❤️🙏❤️
She is so wonderful isn’t she? So insightful and authentic and honest. If only everyone’s childhood could be full of love and all emotional needs met it would make everything so much better and in turn we could all be better parents. ❤
Another “take my breath away” film. Jenny’s willingness to speak her truth is going to help heal so many people. Your partnership with her is bringing real transformation to the world. Bravo. A feast for the eyes & a balm for the soul. Thank you.
Oh what kind and touching words, Linda. Thank you so much. We are glad that this was another meaningful video to you. Here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
The moment I saw that round window in the thumbnail, I knew I had to watch this. I love this woman; I love the way she talks about things, how she tells her stories; I love the message. I cried as I watched because I am just so grateful that I get to hear her speak yet again. There's a line from *The Sheltering Sky* that goes as follows, "How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that's so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more. Perhaps not even. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty. And yet it all seems limitless." Well, I feel the poignancy of these words as I listen to Jenny. Thank you Jenny, thank you Green Renaissance, for the gift of our your words, a window into your soul, the sharing of life's lessons hard won.
If there was a 2hr long movie about her life's story I would gladly watch it without a blink and repeatedly whenever I needed some comfort. I love her🌻💜
I was thinking that too. The only thing that is a concern about these videos is that they are so short. I fall in love with the people and then they leave so quickly. But seriously, thank you very much for such beauty. 🥹🙏💕
Mom died 29 years ago this month. My experience is similar to your daughter- Since then, I've worked diligently on forgiveness, and I know she never meant to harm me, she was not conscious of the emotional life sentence she was passing into me which I've had to navigate. Your courage is a gift. thank you Jenny from all the daughters.
Made me cry .my wife went through virtually the same experience 50 years ago and to my shame I never understood , as the husband I feel the same guilt at not being there for her . She was the most loving person I had ever met so it was difficult to understand her behaviour , she died 15 years ago and I still feel sorry and sad for her and my son and for my own lack of parenting skills.❤️
This is so touching and deep, thank you for being so open and sharing your experiences. Sorry to read about your wife's passing. We hope you are doing ok. Sending you much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
That was postpartum depression, when hormones go on too long and too strong. Nobody's fault. People didn't know any better until very recently. Happened to me too, awful. It's fixable, sort of. Understanding makes it better -- it becomes a thing that's happening to you, a problem to support with help -- and NOT a character flaw. Wish we'd all known sooner.
Hello again Jenny. I was born to a woman who was raped by a priest when she was a little girl,and my father was orphaned when he was 2 and suffered depression from WW2. I have been depressed for 75 years, and until this video, it has never occurred to me to blame them for decades of depression. I am an empathic and loving person, intelligent, and love the insights which well up in solitude. So I cannot resonate with such terms as “life sentence. I am an accomplished writer who uses her love of solitude and her intelligence to good use. My depression is indigenous to me, a part of me, and I don’t see that it has damaged my life, because solitude, writing, and compassion toward all are truly my gifts to the world.
None of what happened was your fault. Your mother suffered the trauma of what happened to her by a man who she should have been able to trust. It can't have been easy for her and that fear/shame/anguish would have passed through to you as a developing fetus. Look on the positives, she didn't get rid of you, she carried you for 9 months and gave birth and gave you life, that is love, even if she wasn't able to show it because of her own trauma. I'm adopted so I get it. I understand that times were very different back in the early 60's in Ireland and it was so shameful if you got pregnant and weren't married. Women had no choice but to give their babies up or risk a life of shame. I never felt any anger towards my birth mother. I was lucky. I was adopted aged 3 weeks and had wonderful parents and a great childhood, but despite that there is always a lingering feeling of not being quite good enough, especially as now, at the age of 61, I have connected with my birthmother who is delighted I am alive and well but is still not willing to tell my 6 half siblings that I exist for fear they will judge her. That is hard and makes me feel like something she is ashamed of.
Actually it's her fault that she gave birth to you and abandoned you. Women should be able to give birth and give love at the same time. It's irresponsible of her to give birth to you and leave you alone. But i understand. It's not her fault. She is ashamed of being pregnant young.
What a remarkable attitude you have towards your experience. I applaud you. You are teaching me something powerful. Self-love of the deepest kind and acceptance of all of our emotions rather than denigrating them, however painful.
Having postpartum depression was the scariest experience of my life - I thought I would never recover, but I did. Like Jenny, I did not know what was happening to me (even though it was 1995).
Thank you Jenny for your brave testimony. I, too, have many regrets about my raising of my daughter. It helped me too and my daughter when we talked about it and I told her how deeply sorry I am. She and I are very close and she is my best friend. You never cease to amaze me in your videos. You keep growing and becoming. Hugs from a friend in Canada 🇨🇦
What touching words, thank you. Glad her words resonated with you. So wonderful to read that you had a chance to speak to your daughter as well. We send you many warm hugs to Canada, Justine and Michael. 💚
This hit close to home! Told I was the whoops baby, I made her sick for the whole 9mths. The last 3 yrs trying to figure my life out. Generational trauma, emotional immaturity, toxic behavior patterns. Early childhood development and how it effects us. Mom is 94 and still won't discuss anything, won't believe when I say anything. You can't help people who won't help themselves, so for now I help myself, do my own healing, the other siblings won't see the reality and thats their path. Never thought when I retired I would start my life again. Maybe like Jenny I can be the wayshower for others. Thanks for sharing your story Jenny!
We are glad this video was valuable to you, Rita. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. We wish you all the best for your journey through life that lies ahead, find healing, answers and inspiration. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
'you can't help people who won't help themselves'. Is your mother looking for help? It seems like your mother did what she did probably in the best way she could with what she had and made many mistakes as you will too with your children. Your only option IS to heal yourself. Now that you are an adult, you are responsible for yourself. Your mum is responsible for herself. If she does or doesn't want to talk about your childhood, that's her choice. Once you realise what you are in control of and what is your responsibility and what is others responsibility then you will be so much more grounded in your own identity.
I had to forgive the young mom that I was. She did the best she could but my heart wishes it was different. Giving myself compassion expanded my ability to give it to others. I am grateful. Thank you Jenny for another excellent life lesson.
That was the hardest part.. forgiving yourself..not sure if I totally have. The shame that follows you so long. I’m 60 and my relationship with my son is strained, I know it’s from what happened back then. Thank you Jenny for talking from your heart to us.. thank you.
@lindadev7167 We have now four videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
When Jenny changed out the portrait on the wall it was like a light switch, she put the past down and replaced with brightness. The colors in the painting and her tennis shoes were similar. I love her red refrigerator. Jenny you are awesome.
Lovely and interesting comment, thank you Cathy. Here are the links for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
I am a nearly 69 year old disabled woman, artist, writer, and I live on a small fixed income so it isn't within my means to pay for extras but today, because of this video, I joined. And it is because of Jenny. I have watched ALL 3 of her previous videos over and over and shared them and your work everywhere, but when I saw there was another one I nearly cried from joy. I simply adore her, and so appreciate all that you do. God bless you all and if you can, tell her a woman in North Carolina, USA positively adores her. I know I will never have the privilege to meet or speak to her so these videos are more than precious. Thank you so much. 💗
We are very touched by your words. So wonderful that Jenny's videos give you so much, mean so much to you. Thank you for sharing our videos and your support, we really appreciate it. Jenny reads the comments so will see your kind words. And you are welcome to send us an email to hello@greenrenaissance.co.za We will put you in direct contact with Jenny. Sending you warm hugs to North Carolina, Justine and Michael. 💚
@@ReflectionsofLife Oh thank you so much, I think you are doing the most important work on RUclips and I adore Jenny. I wish I could join your Patreon but I am a disabled senior citizen living on social security and it's not financially possible for me but I wanted to support you in some way. I'm a writer and an artist and love Jenny's art too. I think she is amazing and so are you all. I would love to email someday. Bless you all and thank you so much! 🥰
Thank you so much for these precious words of support. Messages of kindness, like these that you share with us, mean so much more to us than any financial contribution ever could. You inspire us to keep creating x
We are so separated from our deepest instincts without knowing that we are. It is a problem of trauma in society, it's not our guilt or our fault as women. Most of us are traumatized daughters of traumatized mothers and now is the time to heal. Thank you very much for sharing your knowing.
Good Morning Jenny. You have changed my life with this video. My mother was so unhappy in her life with my father and her choices in life and for over 50 years I did not understand her resentment/anger towards me. You made it so clear and explained it so eloquently. I thank you with all my heart. Your emotional intelligence and open mindedness to learn and grow as a woman is the highest since Maya Angelou. I feel I now have 2 woman that I strive to be like. Thank you Heather from Canada
This sounds so exactly like my experience- so many others we may never know. Apparently I cried for most of my first 6 months and photos of me as a young child always seem so solemn and sad and otherworldly- though I was quite beautiful then. My mother lost her father to suicide at a very young age and hid under her bed for weeks , never fully recovering from the loss of her beloved father. Her first marriage to my father was prompted by a teenage pregnancy with me. She had so much promise as a brilliant scholar but was removed from UK to escape to the sunshine of Africa and a new life after the war her mother took the three girls to a new life for which my mother never forgave my grandmother- who I adored. My mother and father were in love but incompatible and not ready for marriage- no wonder the turmoil and heartache ensued. But that it should last a lifetime is a choice. We can all make a choice. My mother died sad and bitter never forgave my father, her mother and me. Until I was almost 60 I tried to compensate and make it better. Then I woke up to the damage and impact on myself and realised I had wasted my own life feeling unworthy, unlovable and ashamed for nothing. It wasn't about me. I sadly stood up to my poor broken mum for my own survival and distanced myself. She bolted the doors and threw away the keys and I did too. It was awful. It was sad. It wasn't the way I hoped it would end but that is how it was. I accepted it. I always loved my mother and always will but in the end I protected myself and showed compassion to me too. 🌻🦋🐕🌈♥️
@@belindachambers7585 From my heart I Thank you for sharing your story, you literally described my story, right up to distancing myself from my Mother to preserve my wellbeing, its not how I want it to be but I was totally exhausted mentally, physically, emotionally trying to make things right, perfect, validated. Watching Jenny's video was/is amazing, I adore her honesty, accountability and her love for showing love❤
@@jocampbell6962 - we can all find peace and compassion and gift it to ourselves so that we can extend it to others. I understand your exhaustion and the muddle it becomes. Impossible to fully comprehend such complexities and even our own part eludes us at times. I wish you love and joy for the rest of your precious life. XXX
This happened to me and my son as well. I was a teenage mother with no help and so so unhappy, I cried through the whole pregnancy. I had to forgive myself as well. My son still struggles even though we are close and he understands my explanations but it doesn’t take his experience with how we deals with it away. I love this woman so much. She brings her raw un apologetic self with openness and I so appreciate her each time she’s been on here. Much love 💕 and peace
Dear God what an absolutely beautiful person she is. I’m thankful she shared her story again. She’s my favorite, and I always have a small part of my spirit healed when she shares. I wish the females in my life would be like her, even in light of normal and expected human flaws. We all have them…but it takes an exceptional person to realize it, to admit it to others, and to pursue healing from it. Well done! I pray I have the blessing of meeting her someday in heaven.
Wow. Thank you dear Jenny for truly opening your heart. You truly just helped me connect another "dot" in my own life. I had a VERY turbulent childhood & teenage upbringing. My wonderful mom made life choices that weren't always in her or my best interest. Subsequently she in my mid-teens became an alcoholic (people didn't go to therapy in her day so you self medicated........sigh) and I in more ways than one became her care giver emotionally & physically. After she died I had SUCH guilt because I finally saw her as a PERSON & not my MOM and realized how much hurt & trauma she was dealing with. While I loved her dearly I was very angry and resentful that she had created so much "drama" in my life while alive and well I wasn't always "nice" to her. Took a lot of therapy for me to let go of my guilt & shame towards my behavior towards her after she passed. However you just said something that explains some of my "own" issues that even in therapy didn't really ever come up and that was how your unhappiness while you were pregnant was "taken" on by your daughter. Like yourself I'm pretty aware and um yeah lots of therapy and yet this has NEVER been brought up. Explains so much and truly I feel like something just clicked and let go. I am so GRATEFUL that you are sharing such private intimate details of your life. I think as children no matter how old we are, we forget our parents are people too and at the end of the day they truly are just doing the best they can in the moment & if they could do better they would. Not excusing or justifying bad behavior, but sharing something I've learned in my own journey towards healing my relationship w/my mom ( even though she has passed) and myself. Hugs Jenny to you and your daughter💝
Beautiful, deep and touching words, thank you for sharing. Glad something juts 'clicked'. All the best for your further walk through life. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
We are so glad, thank you for telling us. Here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Oh wow… I was so happy to see that you featured Jenny again, I think she is such a beautiful woman. Thank you so much for sharing this. As a husband and father of five children (three girls/women) I have a deep love and respect for women as they have such a unique and amazing gift, whether they have children or not. I’m so glad that we are talking, sharing and explaining things like postpartum depression these days as we also are more open about depression in general. Again, thank you so much for this moving video and thank you Jenny for sharing your life experiences as we all benefit from your wisdom. ☀️🌙⭐️🌎
Beautiful comment, so glad her story resonated with you. Here are the links for all her videos : 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Not sure if you have watched them all. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you, Daniel: I find it so wonderful with comments from men and fathers, too. For not only is it important that women can share their lifes and stories with oneanother, but also that we can be open across the sexes, and share all feelings, emotions and experiences with eachother, no matter if we are mothers, fathers, daughters or sons: we are humans. Your comments is so kind, filled with compassion and admiration. Thank you from Denmark. Love is all ❤
I can hardly see to write this for the tears erupting from me. I’m choked from the pain of what you describe. My mother was dying of cancer, my father had abandoned her and my little brother and sister, my husband was cruel and uncaring and wouldn’t help, when my second son was born. I was numb with it, my first son was not even two yet. I had to wash two babies worth of clothing and diapers by hand in the bathtub. I was so alone, so unaware of myself, of parenthood, I would stand and look at him in his crib and feel nothing. He became the sweetest most loving of my children but he also suffered deep pain. I left my husband when he was ten, he craved a man’s love and approval, he didn’t get that. In his teens he withdrew, started using drugs. He took his life six years ago in May. I am so full of grief and guilt, it has tormented me. I too didn’t know about Post Partum. As May approaches the anxiety, heartache, guilt intensify. Thank you for sharing your experience beautiful lady. I grieve with you but also am happy your daughter is here to hear your experience with her.
Wow, we are deeply touched and saddened by your words, by all the experiences you had. Life cannot be turned back for anyone but may Jenny's words carry, help and inspire you - especially now in the month of May. We hope you can find a bit more peace. Maybe this video can also help you - Through The Storm - (ruclips.net/video/tB98ldnUcTE/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
@@lindasharp8523 it is very hard to live with this. I feel so much guilt, I look back all the time to what I could have should have done different. I try to think of him without the pain but it’s very hard to do. I’m sorry you also experienced this loss and ongoing pain.
I would love to give my own mother a big hug and say how much better I understand and that I accept and love her anyway- but she died in 2020. Thank you for your raw revelation of the pain inherent in certain mother daughter relationships. There are many faces to love- not all are pretty but Love is All there is.❤
@@leahbresee433 thank you Leah - yes indeed I do talk to my mum often- she sends me messages too. On another level I know we are powerful beings of light and great comrades- though she said "I doubt it" when I expressed this to her in the year before she died. I know we have been great teachers to each other. Many of the things I hold most dear I attribute to my mother
Jenny faces life, head-on. She didn't let the guilt fuel drive her away without standing up and facing her truth. It's so gracious and courageous of her to talk and share her emotions. From her deep love alone, she manages to share her truth with her daughter. Cheers to her creed. 🎉
Thank you for having the courage to share your heart with all of us. These stories continue to connect all of us on so many levels. Seeing your smile hiding behind your glass, as you said, "love is all", melted my heart and put on a smile on my face too. Thank-you.
Thank you for your appreciative words, Jennifer. We are glad we could share this video with you. Here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
My heart became eager when I saw Jenny talking again. Hundreds of thousands of women, I'm sure, can relate to many aspects of this story. I have come to understand the concept of "generational trauma," something which applies in my own story----it is a factor in the segment where she talks about passing on the pain, the unhappiness. I tried to counter things by educating myself ahead of time, and hopefully what I DID do better, or closer to the ideal, had some positive, mitigating effect. I remember after my daughter took sobriety seriously and had been working for awhile with a sponsor. She phoned to talk.."Mom, I realize I've never been happy. I've been unhappy all my life." And I was able to say to her, "Of course, you're unhappy. You were born into unhappiness. I was unhappy while pregnant and nursing you...., " etc. IT was a freeing, turning moment in our "difficult" relationship, my being able to validate her experience. I also told her, "You don't need to let what your parents did give you an unhappy life. You can choose to do the work of self-healing and becoming happy. You don't have to be controlled by what your parents did or did not do." Of course, though, she is. I watch her dance out the same marital unhappiness I was living.... So, I don't know. Gabor Mate has done a lot of work around this issue of passing along generational pain and trauma. It is not a blame thing. It seems to me to be the human condition, and our work is to become as self-aware as possible to heal the wounds and share what we learn But life is short. We tend to become parents (I include the men in this---they are an important part of it all) long before we even become aware that we aren't aware. LOL! Anyway, maybe these comments will be shared with Jenny, so that she can see the good she is doing for us. Thank you again, GR, for a film filled with heart, truth, and nascent cultural wisdom. Grandma Ellen, signing out.💜💜💜💜💜
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with all of us, Grandma Ellen. Interesting to read. We are glad this was another video which resonated with you. Here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny, as I was reading all the comments in your 4 videos the thought came to me that this woman is being told over and over again in many different ways how beautiful she is. You said in the first video I watched that you never felt beautiful and yet look at how beautiful the worlds sees you. Everything about you amazes me and your “style” is amazing and enviable. I must admit I went in to my bathroom and attempted to wrap a pretty scarf around my head but I ABSOLUTLEY can’t pull off the look 😂. Your art work is so vivid, descriptive and full of emotion. Yes Jenny, you are beautiful!! Thank you Reflections of Life for bringing us these wonderful productions and adding so much to my personal life.❤❤❤
Such a deeply moving moving message - which I have shared with Jenny directly - so do know that your words have reached her. Sending you love and hugs. Justine and Michael. x
It’s always moved me to tears every time I watch her…even when she’s talking about how painful her life experience was she’s very sincere…I’m sending you much love Jenni
What a beautiful, precious lady. My mom suffered from PPD.. as a child not understanding.. I always felt unloved by her.. I bore the brunt of many of her outbursts as the oldest daughter of six... It took years to recover and as a mother myself.. I begin to understand the dynamics of parenting while dealing w various emotional issues with no support. I feel nothing but love, empathy, gratitude, compassion for my mom because I realized she persevered in spite of everything and raised us.. the best she could with what she knew and with virtually little to no resources or friends to help her navigate. I love my mom deeply and I am mourning as I care for her in her final stages of Alzheimer's and dementia.. I'm mourning the loss of conversations we never had, of lost time, of her nor being able to experience what a beautiful granddaughter she is blessed with.. but.. to have the understanding.. yes.. it is freeing isn't it...
Thank you for sharing about your difficult times, Melinda. May this video carry you and help you to heal further. We wish you and your mom all the best and strength for the road ahead. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
We cannot hold ourselves responsible for what we didn't know. Yes, carrying around things, especially when you have no one to talk to is a heavy weight to carry; a lot gets released in our tears. I pray healing continues to come into her heart. Every generation grows in knowledge. Wonderful clip.
I love love love Jenny ❤ ! Thank you ever so much for having her once again 🙏🏼! She is such an incredible and beautiful lady inside and out ! Her honesty and sweetness shine and everytime I get to see one of her videos she just fills me with sublime happiness knowing that beautiful people like her have the courage to share their hardships and how they coped with it ! I also love her art ! I send Blessings to you all at Green Renaissance for your excellent teamwork and love you share and also to beautiful Jenny ! Warmest love and wishes …Lorraine ❤️🥰💕🙏🏼
Love this lady, so wise and elegant, it must have been so difficult for mothers in the past when post natal depression wasn’t recognised or dealt with, I know my mum had it for years
Thank you for your caring and kind thoughts. Here are the links for the four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Aww, I am so grateful for this piece. We women take on so much of other’s pain and responsibility, and sharing stories like this helps me to feel more connected and less alone, less broken. I had a happy and very hopeful pregnancy, terrible nausea, a wickedly long labour, and a colicky baby for the first 5 months. I too felt guilty and like it was my fault. But now, I’m not sure it’s that simple. That doctor who said you were just not ready to be a mother, may have been right, I mean what mother truly is ready that first time, but I wouldn’t jump to conclude that this is the reason for not having an easy postpartum. Things are maybe not that simple, and not all about us.❤
@contempl8ive We have now four videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny’s spiritual and emotional intelligence and touching candor have added such a balm of healing to my own soul and story. Thank you from the depths of my spirit for these masterpieces!
Beautiful words, thank you so much, Kaitlin. Here are the links for all four videos with her: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Oh. . .Jenny. . .you, through your words and your honest expressions in sharing your pain, sadness, lost-ness, depression, and ultimately love have touched my soul more than words can say. Humbly, I thank you for sharing your story. . .the vulnerability of sharing your one self. I had such a journey with the carrying and birth of my precious daughter (Genevieve) and continue coming out on the other side of depression. The joy the presence of my daughter, now 42, brings truly is the epitome of love. Thank you for the honest gift you make of your one self through these heart-touching videos. Please take good and gentle care.
Thank you for sharing a bit about your life story, we are so glad that you came out on the other side of depression and all is well. Glad we could share Jenny's story with you. Sending you warmest of hugs, thank you for your kind words. Justine and Michael. 💚
Am so happy you made another video about this beautiful soul… I see a lot of my life story in her… provided of our age difference… it reminds how humans we are connected provided our physical differences… and her style is so unique ❤️💜🙏
I absolutely love this woman and her wisdom and her open heart and her honesty!!!! I totally understand about her postpartum depression and how impossibly difficult it is to be a mom even when you don't have postpartum depression. A mother must be 100% there for the child for 18 years. No one else has that kind of responsibility. I never had a child but it must be so, so difficult. What's happening is that all of us are learning from and falling in love with this beautifu woman!!!l
What a touching message. So happy her words spoke to you so deeply. Thank you for sharing all your thoughts on motherhood. Not sure if you watched all the other videos of Jenny, the links are in the write-up below this video. Warmest hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny, I love you ❤ When I saw your beautiful face in the thumbnail I dropped everything to watch this video and to hear your heartfelt words of wisdom. Your daughter has been your teacher. She taught you introspection, forgiveness and unconditional love. What a gift your daughter is! Our lessons here in this earth school can be so difficult, but when when we see where we made a mistake or went wrong and then choose to rectify to the best of our abilities where we went wrong and then live our lives committed to go forth and never make those mistakes again, well that is mastery. That is us remembering who we are. That is powerful. God bless you always. Thank you for talking to us and thank you, GR, for bringing Jenny back to us 🙏🏼✨💜
I echo all the comments here. In the midst of a busy morning, I saw this pop up in notifications and when I saw Jenny, I stopped to listen. She is my favorite too. At times when I can’t sleep I put on one if her interviews and fall asleep to her voice and wisdom. Thank you GR for featuring her again! I hope she gets to read all these wonderful compliments about her💜
Bless you Jenny. You should not feel guilty for something that you could not help. Feeling that you have let down your children in some way is one of the very hardest things to deal with as a parent: you always want the best for them but sometimes this is just not possible. Thank you for sharing this on Green Renaissance: I believe it is somewhere you can open your soul and know that you will not be judged (so rare in our media these days).
Wow, beautiful and touching words Anthony, thank you. Your words about our channel mean a lot to us too. And here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny, your beautiful quest to reach an honest understanding of your self and your life is such an inspiration to me. If I could, I would already be on my way to see you to say thank you in person, and to give you warm hug of support and love. You have helped me to better understand my own life. Blessings and gratitude to you for what you have taught me and to Green Renaissance for recording and sharing your story. Thank you all.
Jennie, This could be me. I'm 80 now and our relationship has suffered so much. Back then PPD was not - so it made it something wrong with me. I'm so glad you talked about this. But I'm sorry for what it did to your life. I always love to watch the articles about you, sometimes over and over. God bless you, Jennie
Thank you for sharing your thoughts on the subject. Glad you enjoy the videos with her. Here are all the links for the four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
My dear lady. You are brave, strong and admired in telling your story. Hard as it was to discuss it, you did and it must bring relief to you and your daughter. At a young age of 26 I had PPD with my second son. I remember sitting with him in my arms on the rocking chair. I spoke gently to him saying, I was not my best, but I will never physically harm you. I did receive treatment and had it explained to me my hormones were causing the changes in my body. He is currently a brilliant father of two beautiful children of his own. I thank you for your story and love to you. xx ❤️
Glad we could share this video with you, what you are sharing goes deep. We are glad you were able to manage the situation. Lovely words about your son, glad that all is well. Warmest wishes, Justine and Michael. 💚
Life affirming and wondrous. Sad that most people really don't appreciate this part of life. I am a male and often feel ashamed that women have to put up with far too much and that men are unaware.
Very personal. It takes a lot of courage for you to be so honest and vulnerable. Im glad you no longer blame yourself for the past. We are all trying to do our best. Im glad you can have peace and acceptance from your daughter but most of all for yourself.♥️ love is all
I'm LEARNING Motherhood. My children are 25, 18, 15. I am still learning. It didn't come naturally. But with learning, daily, self-acceptance, I LOVE the gifts that these young people are to me, in their own right as souls. Daily. Hourly.
Beautiful message to read. Thank you for being someone who continue to grow, who continues to see the beauty - how lucky your children are to have you as an example in their lives. We send you all much love. Justine and Michael 💚
Powerful motherly truth, as I listen to this mother/women stating her truth all I can think of is how I felt when I was pregnant w/my first child at a young age. Takes courage, honestly, bravely to express one's inner feelings when in the place of giving birth, afraid and stepping into a new world. Thank you Mama for speaking your truth.
This is my second video of yours. I thoroughly enjoy the format of showing each individual's perspective, but foremost, I think your photography/videography are magnificent! I like to think of myself as a photographer, but yours interplay with the person to make the episode so cohesive!
Welcome to our channel and thank you for your kind and encouraging message regarding our work. We appreciate it a lot. We hope you will enjoy many more. And we wish you all the best with your photographic work too. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
It is and was not your fault. None of it! I believe regret and guilt have no place in your life. Its wasted energy. We were expected to know, as you said. That was so far from the truth. I believe we are all responsible for our own happiness. No mother ,father, husband, sister ,brother, or anyone that's important in our lives is. No matter what the circumstances. If a person needs help with it, seek it out. I am happy your daughter is loving and why should she not be? It is the way to personal happiness. Its great she has figured that out. Nothing that happened while she was growing up should get in the way of that. It is an overused term ,but true, we all did the best we could, and I believe we should never feel guilty ,ever ,for mistakes, or circumstances that were beyond our control .They should be learned from. Moved on from ,to that loving place we all need. Thank you for sharing.
Very brave woman. My son was born almost 3 months early and spent 3,5 months at the hospital, hooked to machines. He weighed 900 grams. I would visit him every day, after a while I got to hold him on my chest. But I felt like an robot. I just couldn't bond with him... he was ripped from my insides after a very hard pregnancy and the whole thing was very traumatic. When he came home, I fell apart. Luckily my husband was there and got me help. My son is now 8 months old and I finally feel like he's mine. Our love grows every day ❤
Thank you for sharing your story, may you feel encouraged and inspired. We believe the love between your son and you will continue to grow stronger every day and wish you as a family all the best. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
the first thought I had when this Lady popped up on my screen was: OH WHAT A BEAUTIFUL BEING, WHAT A BEAUTIFUL FACE. And then I heard her state her biggest regret in life of NOT being beautiful. Of course I started weeping. The only comfort was that we are all born to get over, integrate our dual challenges. No matter what they are. Mind over matter... And WHO ARE WE in reality? Those nightmarish lives we lead as humanity will finally get us on the path to light, to what we call "non-duality" THANK YOU so much for sharing your secret - Which we, at least women, share... This is OUR pathway to "heaven" which is a state of consciousness, today also called 5D With a huge smile from Switzerland ♥
Thank you for this message of understanding - for reminding us that we all face challenges of confronting the 'ghosts' of our past, of dealing with the insecurities of our present, of facing our fears of the future. And it is such a big question - who are we really? May all come to an answer that brings us peace. We send you much love on your journey. Justine and Michael. x
I continue to be blown away by Jenny! Her humility. Her heart. Her life journey. Wish I could hug her and thank her for just being who she is. Incredible ❤
I was unable to bond with my son until he was five . My mother was mentally ill and brutally abusive . This caused me to put up a wall between my son and I. I felt that I was damaged and wanted to withdraw so that I didn't damage him . Something clicked around five when I was able to share humor with him . He's 17 now and he sees me as his rock . I've shared my history with him and have thanked him for teaching me to be a mother .
What an amazing human you are Jenny to have such profound insights and to be so giving in paying forward by sharing them with us all. I feel incredibly blessed to have discovered you and to have the opportunity to listen to you.
Thank you for sharing. Tears are ok, sometimes it helps us so much when we can cry. Glad her message spoke to you so deeply. Sending much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
God Bless you again and again for opening up your soul. I'm nearly 70 and walked in shoes similar to yours, but I didn't have a husband. A week before 43 I gave birth to my son and from the beginning the isolation, the fear, was overwhelming. I know the pain of shame, the 'why did I' questions, I still carry them today despite asking for my son's forgiveness, trying to not do what my Mom did as I was growing up that was hurtful to me. Now in today I just try to be kind and supportive to my 27 year old son who has Aspergers. He is living in supportive housing finding his way in life which is painful to watch, he knows how I feel, I no longer say the words. Right now he wants to drive and is slowly making his way. He works two days a week as a dishwasher and likes the people he works with...other than that, he has no friends. I worry a lot for his future because when I'm gone, he will have no one.
Thank you for sharing your story and experiences, Jane. May Jenny's words help and encourage you, help you heal. We wish you and your son all the best for the journey ahead and are sending you both warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you for your very kind and encouraging message Naisargi, it means such a lot to us. It's wonderful to have you with us on our journey. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Every video with Jenny is so touching. She is one of my top fav ppl of your GR stories. And oh my, how I can relate to her. Thank you for finding Jenny and sharing her stories ❤
I was so excited to see this fourth video. I bet Jenny is amazed how much impact and comfort she is bringing to many people's lives at this season of hers. I might add, her home has fantastic ambience!
And every child after that one increases the degree of post-partum 😥 I am so sorry you were not able to get the help you needed back then Jenny. My mother and I did not have a very good relationship for many reasons, partly my time in the womb and the circumstances around her pregnancy with me. You were not to blame for everything Jenny *SUPER BIG HUGS* for you and your daughter in your journey from here on in.
@silverpromidi We have now four videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Heartwarming comment, thank you. Here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Oh! The ways my heart broke when she said “only a few weeks ago” 😭 I came back to this channel specifically to hear Jenny speak. Sweet lady, I adore you.
You are welcome. Thank you for sharing this thought. We now have four videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Oh Jenny, so good to see you again I admire and respect you. I have been watching your programs as they came out, I can see that you are walking taller, facing the sun. You always share so much with us, Thank you and we hope to see you soon again.
Beautiful and heartwarming comment, thank you. Glad you enjoyed all her videos. Here are the links again for all four: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Dear Jenny, Thank you so much for your honesty and for your caring. I’m sure now, since you have talked with her about PTSD, that she has forgiven you! I was affected too, and I don’t blame my mother (and father) who did the very best she could. I see now, that she also was very likely traumatised as a baby, when her own mother (and father) were new immigrants, struggling in a difficult environment, to make a better life for their family. Both my mother and my father were incapable of expressive emotional attachment, although they always tried to be there for us. That helped a little, although emotionally, I still felt rejected all my life and in my relationships. Now, I have learned about childhood trauma and Compassionate Inquiry from Dr Gabor Maté. This has transformed my life. ❤
We appreciate you sharing your thoughts and experiences. So good that you learned to understand where it might have all started and had a transformation now after many years of rejection, etc. All the best for the road ahead. We have three more videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) and 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Ho attraversato le difficoltà della vita e mi chiedevo e lo faccio ancora a 72 anni,che sono state prove a volte impegnative ma poi mi dico che ci sono persone più sfortunate di me.Le mie due figlie sono nate e allevate da me,tra cento impedimenti ma poi, in seguito, mi è sembrato di "scivolare" negli anni,su una strada piena di pietre,sassi,ostacol.Mi sono fatta forza per dare alle mie figlie una vita dignitosa e con valori veri!!!Ora ne sono fiera e tranquilla!!Il mio Amico e' da sempre Dio,che ringrazio per l'aiuto che mi ha dato e che mi dà.🙏🙏Ho sempre sentito in me ,la certezza che ce l'avrei fatta con il Suo aiuto.Credere è fondamentale per affrontare la vita,anche se molti non ci credono.🙋🏻
Thank you for sharing. We are glad you were able to master the difficulties in life. All the best for your further walk on life's path. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you ❤! You’re beautiful and loved for sharing your thoughts and stories. I’ve watched all 3 films before this one and you are a gift to all .Thank you Green Renaissance too !!!
Thank you again Jenny. Not only are you a wonderful artist but also an incredibly authentic, generous and honest human being. Life can be so very challenging can't it? As mothers, there is just an incredible amount of pressure to be the "perfect mother". Always, smiling, always available, always caring, always patient, always attractive....always on call. In some ways, we are asked to stop being human! To stop being fallible, fragile, sensitive, unsure, uncertain, exhausted, frustrated, anxious, hurting. I adored being pregnant and I adored my babies but I struggled to fully enjoy them as their father was so hateful, violent and abusive. He was jealous of my connection with them and did everything he could to sever our bond, even after we had divorced and I had managed to escape from him. His painful legacy continues to this day and I have to work very hard to try and undo the damage that he wreaked. Thankfully myself and my now adult children continue to work on being more open, honest, loving and compassionate with each other. We're not perfect by any means, but we never give up on each other. Jenny, your words and your compassion are what the world so needs now. Thank you, thank you.
Touching words. Sorry to read about your experiences, but so good that you and your children work together and try to be open, caring, loving,... Wishing you and your children all the best for life's journey. Sending you warmest of hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
This touches me deeply. I was very stressed when pregnant. My mother had just died and my father was vile to me asI was not married to my partner. I had a caesarian and felt a failure at childbirth. My partner changed overnight from being loving and supporting to behaving like a sulky teenager. My baby cried just all the time and I had nobody to even hold him. I did bond with him, but he was an anxious child with eating difficulties. I felt such a failure for so long. Thanks for letting me express this. Never really spoken about it.
It makes us sad to read your message and are so glad you felt the freedom to express and share your experiences here. It would be wonderful if Jenny's words can help you to understand things better and heal. Wishing you all the best on your way forward through life. We have more videos with Jenny on our channel, not sure if you know about them - 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) and 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html). Sending you warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I've watched Jenny's videos so many times. It gives me strength and hope to go on despite my lack of closeness with my own mother. I've finally forgave her and moved on with my life. It took me several years of therapy and it's still going on...Thank you Jenny!
So glad the videos with Jenny do so much good for you. Wishing you all the best and healing on your journey through life. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny. The grey somehow gives off color when least expected. Courage is being scared and still going through it. No joke. This lady is a gem for being real. Honest. Her heart.....all of it❤
We are so very glad. Thank you for telling us. Here are the links again for all four videos with her: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny, your story is mine. I had my first daughter in 1973, and I experienced what you experienced after her birth. I didn't know about PPD in those days. Only recently have I found an explanation of what happened. PPD. My daughter and I have been healing our relationship for years and years. She has been so generous with me when she could have erased me from her life but she didn't because she cared. That is THE POWER OF LOVE, and I'm grateful to her in particular. I'm also so thankful to you for sharing your painful memories. It's hard. I love you for that.
A deeply moving message - thank you for sharing. Your journey echoes that of Jenny's. And how beautiful that you and your daughter are walking a path towards healing and peace. We send you much love and kindness. Justine and Michael. 💚
My mother had a terrible, impoverished and abusive childhood that ill prepared her to be a parent but still she got pregnant as a young single woman and had a daughter. That child died at age 15 from a brain tumor. Nine months after the death of her beloved daughter, my mother became pregnant with me. She could never love me, never protected me and also passed on to me the generational trauma she experienced. It has taken a long time to understand the consequences of this in my own life. It is important for us to hear stories like this because too often, we think people should be able to heal from severe childhood trauma. We have only recently discovered that the hormones produced by fear, anger, guilt, sadness and depression physically change a developing brain and can forever alter the way that child will experience the world. As Jenny notes in a different interview, there are some injuries that cannot be healed. We would never tell a child born without a limb that they should be able heal themselves. We can accommodate our injuries and even, as Jenny has done, create beautiful meaningful lives but the injury remains. And yet, life is still beautiful.
So much you shared with us. Lots of food for thought... Thank you for your openness. We are so thankful you were able work through your trauma, to understand it better and we hope you are doing ok. And that you are enjoying life. Wishing you all the best for every new day. Sending much love and kindness to you. Justine and Michael. 💚
It's a pleasure, glad we can share them with you, Reyna. Here are all the links for the four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
You were not alone. I too had post partum when my daughter was born. My relationship with my daughter's dad was not good. He was going this own demons and that depressed me. I felt I did have the emotional support I needed from him. My daughter as a baby cried a lot. I do believe they feel your emotional state in the womb. It was exhausting not having the help or emotional support being a first time mother. It angered me. I felt the guilt for many years. My daughter is now a grown woman and very loving towards me. I did tell her once she was older how I felt when she was born and as a baby. I'm not sure she quite understood, seeing she never became a mother due to cancer.
Thank you for sharing a bit about your own struggles, we hear you. We are so happy to read that you have a loving relationship with your daughter and that you were able to share with her how you felt/what happened at the time. Wishing you both well. Warmest hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
...❤️my dearest lady i like to see and hear on RUclips universe....many love ,hugings, and prayers for "my dear lady", and to you dear people who are creators of these videos, and all that art project, and to all people watching you...God bless ...❤🌹🙏🏻...sincerely from one heart and soul in Serbia....❤🌹🙏🏻...
Thank you very much for all the kind words to all of us. We now have four videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Not sure if you have watched them all. Sending you warm hugs all the way to Serbia, Justine and Michael💚
This was my story too. I was fortunate to live next to woman who was a nurse who told my husband to take me to my doctor(gynaecologist) and not to take no for an answer. The minute I was in his office I burst into tears as I was not coping. I couldn't believe that my friends who had already had children had not told me what it was really like! I felt so betrayed and isolated. I thought I was the only one who was not a natural mother. I had also had an emergency Caesarean as the umbilical cord was too short and she would likely have had some brain damage due to oxygen starvation if it was a long birth process.That didn't help either. I was all over the place emotionally and really struggling. My husband was very understanding and did the night feeding for a few days so I could sleep through the night which helped enormously as sleep deprivation only makes the problem worse. What a brave lady she is to be so open about a subject that is still painful all these years later.I love this channel.
This is the fourth story that we have filmed with Jenny. To watch the previous three films, see links below:
All Cats Are Black - ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html
"Love, Mummy" - ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html
Now You Are Free - ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html
Absolutely love Jenny Jackson's stories and her art ❤
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So close to my heart. Thank you Jenny for saying what i havent ever said. Jenny you are such a strong woman. Sending love.
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I love you Jenny, you are beautiful inside and out. I really admire your strength
It becomes difficult to watch anything else once you start watching these interviews. They are a gift. Thank you both!
You make us smile Sy! Thanks for opening your heart to these stories. And THANK YOU for opening your heart to us in YOUR story. You've shift the hearts and minds of many around the world. Hopefully we'll get the chance to connect again soon. Big hugs. Justine x
I absolutely agree.
Please have this magnificent LADY on as much as possible.... love her..wish I could have her as a friend next door. Thank you so very much for all you do 🙏❤️🙏❤️
So happy you enjoyed her message so much. It's a pleasure to share these videos with you. Sending you warmest of hugs. Justine and Michael. 💚
She is so wonderful isn’t she? So insightful and authentic and honest. If only everyone’s childhood could be full of love and all emotional needs met it would make everything so much better and in turn we could all be better parents. ❤
Another “take my breath away” film. Jenny’s willingness to speak her truth is going to help heal so many people. Your partnership with her is bringing real transformation to the world. Bravo. A feast for the eyes & a balm for the soul. Thank you.
Oh what kind and touching words, Linda. Thank you so much. We are glad that this was another meaningful video to you.
Here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
The moment I saw that round window in the thumbnail, I knew I had to watch this. I love this woman; I love the way she talks about things, how she tells her stories; I love the message. I cried as I watched because I am just so grateful that I get to hear her speak yet again. There's a line from *The Sheltering Sky* that goes as follows, "How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that's so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more. Perhaps not even. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty. And yet it all seems limitless." Well, I feel the poignancy of these words as I listen to Jenny. Thank you Jenny, thank you Green Renaissance, for the gift of our your words, a window into your soul, the sharing of life's lessons hard won.
Thank you for putting the words to my thoughts!!! She is an amazing lady!
Thank you for saying my feelings...so glad Jenny spoke to us again...just love you Jenny 💞
Thank you for saying exactly what I wanted to say! What a beautiful woman she is...Jenny. Much love...
Wow, what a touching message... Thank you also for sharing the words from 'The Sheltering Sky' - it's beautiful. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
o my thank you for that quote. I'm going to find it now and I don't know that book. my heart.
If there was a 2hr long movie about her life's story I would gladly watch it without a blink and repeatedly whenever I needed some comfort. I love her🌻💜
Your comment says it all.... Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Me too. Her story is a full on movie.
Such a Lovely place you have Ms Jenny… THANK YOU for “LOVE IS ALL…”
I was thinking that too. The only thing that is a concern about these videos is that they are so short. I fall in love with the people and then they leave so quickly. But seriously, thank you very much for such beauty. 🥹🙏💕
Mom died 29 years ago this month. My experience is similar to your daughter- Since then, I've worked diligently on forgiveness, and I know she never meant to harm me, she was not conscious of the emotional life sentence she was passing into me which I've had to navigate. Your courage is a gift. thank you Jenny from all the daughters.
Same❤😢
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well said! bless you! and your lovely future!
Wow, so deep and touching, thank you Gretchen. All the best for yuor life's journey. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you, for your story. I can relate to it. Thanks again
This is what courage really looks like.
So glad the story resonated with you. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Yes , certainly ..very well expressed !♡
Made me cry .my wife went through virtually the same experience 50 years ago and to my shame I never understood , as the husband I feel the same guilt at not being there for her . She was the most loving person I had ever met so it was difficult to understand her behaviour , she died 15 years ago and I still feel sorry and sad for her and my son and for my own lack of parenting skills.❤️
This is so touching and deep, thank you for being so open and sharing your experiences. Sorry to read about your wife's passing. We hope you are doing ok. Sending you much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
That was postpartum depression, when hormones go on too long and too strong. Nobody's fault. People didn't know any better until very recently. Happened to me too, awful. It's fixable, sort of. Understanding makes it better -- it becomes a thing that's happening to you, a problem to support with help -- and NOT a character flaw. Wish we'd all known sooner.
Hello again Jenny. I was born to a woman who was raped by a priest when she was a little girl,and my father was orphaned when he was 2 and suffered depression from WW2. I have been depressed for 75 years, and until this video, it has never occurred to me to blame them for decades of depression. I am an empathic and loving person, intelligent, and love the insights which well up in solitude. So I cannot resonate with such terms as “life sentence. I am an accomplished writer who uses her love of solitude and her intelligence to good use. My depression is indigenous to me, a part of me, and I don’t see that it has damaged my life, because solitude, writing, and compassion toward all are truly my gifts to the world.
Thank you for sharing your story Bonnie. A lot to ponder on. All the best for life's journey further. Sending you warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
None of what happened was your fault. Your mother suffered the trauma of what happened to her by a man who she should have been able to trust. It can't have been easy for her and that fear/shame/anguish would have passed through to you as a developing fetus. Look on the positives, she didn't get rid of you, she carried you for 9 months and gave birth and gave you life, that is love, even if she wasn't able to show it because of her own trauma.
I'm adopted so I get it. I understand that times were very different back in the early 60's in Ireland and it was so shameful if you got pregnant and weren't married. Women had no choice but to give their babies up or risk a life of shame. I never felt any anger towards my birth mother. I was lucky. I was adopted aged 3 weeks and had wonderful parents and a great childhood, but despite that there is always a lingering feeling of not being quite good enough, especially as now, at the age of 61, I have connected with my birthmother who is delighted I am alive and well but is still not willing to tell my 6 half siblings that I exist for fear they will judge her. That is hard and makes me feel like something she is ashamed of.
Actually it's her fault that she gave birth to you and abandoned you. Women should be able to give birth and give love at the same time. It's irresponsible of her to give birth to you and leave you alone. But i understand. It's not her fault. She is ashamed of being pregnant young.
What a remarkable attitude you have towards your experience. I applaud you. You are teaching me something powerful. Self-love of the deepest kind and acceptance of all of our emotions rather than denigrating them, however painful.
That's why generational ancestral release and forgiveness is important.
Break the curse. 🙏🫶
Also it takes a village to raise a child ❤
How fragile we are . But there is such beauty in fragility
Beautifully said, Linda. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Having postpartum depression was the scariest experience of my life - I thought I would never recover, but I did. Like Jenny, I did not know what was happening to me (even though it was 1995).
So glad you over came it, Gerri. All the best further. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Same in 1994
May I ask how long did it take for you to recover ? You should be so proud of yourself because you wouldn’t be who you are TODAY! 🙏💖
Now, in my 50's realized that I experience postpartum depression while given birth as a teenager. This testimony from Jenny is a wide awaking.
Thank you Jenny for your brave testimony. I, too, have many regrets about my raising of my daughter. It helped me too and my daughter when we talked about it and I told her how deeply sorry I am. She and I are very close and she is my best friend. You never cease to amaze me in your videos. You keep growing and becoming. Hugs from a friend in Canada 🇨🇦
What touching words, thank you. Glad her words resonated with you. So wonderful to read that you had a chance to speak to your daughter as well. We send you many warm hugs to Canada, Justine and Michael. 💚
This hit close to home! Told I was the whoops baby, I made her sick for the whole 9mths. The last 3 yrs trying to figure my life out. Generational trauma, emotional immaturity, toxic behavior patterns. Early childhood development and how it effects us. Mom is 94 and still won't discuss anything, won't believe when I say anything. You can't help people who won't help themselves, so for now I help myself, do my own healing, the other siblings won't see the reality and thats their path. Never thought when I retired I would start my life again. Maybe like Jenny I can be the wayshower for others. Thanks for sharing your story Jenny!
We are glad this video was valuable to you, Rita. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. We wish you all the best for your journey through life that lies ahead, find healing, answers and inspiration. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thax for sharing urs Rita
'you can't help people who won't help themselves'. Is your mother looking for help? It seems like your mother did what she did probably in the best way she could with what she had and made many mistakes as you will too with your children. Your only option IS to heal yourself. Now that you are an adult, you are responsible for yourself. Your mum is responsible for herself. If she does or doesn't want to talk about your childhood, that's her choice. Once you realise what you are in control of and what is your responsibility and what is others responsibility then you will be so much more grounded in your own identity.
I was an accident. Mum didn't want another child at 37 and she certainly didn't want a girl.
I had to forgive the young mom that I was. She did the best she could but my heart wishes it was different. Giving myself compassion expanded my ability to give it to others. I am grateful. Thank you Jenny for another excellent life lesson.
That was the hardest part.. forgiving yourself..not sure if I totally have. The shame that follows you so long. I’m 60 and my relationship with my son is strained, I know it’s from what happened back then.
Thank you Jenny for talking from your heart to us.. thank you.
Glad Jenny's words resonated with you, Linda. Wishing you peace in your heart. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
@lindadev7167 We have now four videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
@@ReflectionsofLife Also, "Fear Is Our Friend"
When Jenny changed out the portrait on the wall it was like a light switch, she put the past down and replaced with brightness. The colors in the painting and her tennis shoes were similar. I love her red refrigerator. Jenny you are awesome.
Lovely and interesting comment, thank you Cathy.
Here are the links for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
I am a nearly 69 year old disabled woman, artist, writer, and I live on a small fixed income so it isn't within my means to pay for extras but today, because of this video, I joined. And it is because of Jenny. I have watched ALL 3 of her previous videos over and over and shared them and your work everywhere, but when I saw there was another one I nearly cried from joy. I simply adore her, and so appreciate all that you do. God bless you all and if you can, tell her a woman in North Carolina, USA positively adores her. I know I will never have the privilege to meet or speak to her so these videos are more than precious. Thank you so much. 💗
We are very touched by your words. So wonderful that Jenny's videos give you so much, mean so much to you. Thank you for sharing our videos and your support, we really appreciate it.
Jenny reads the comments so will see your kind words. And you are welcome to send us an email to hello@greenrenaissance.co.za We will put you in direct contact with Jenny. Sending you warm hugs to North Carolina, Justine and Michael. 💚
@@ReflectionsofLife Oh thank you so much, I think you are doing the most important work on RUclips and I adore Jenny. I wish I could join your Patreon but I am a disabled senior citizen living on social security and it's not financially possible for me but I wanted to support you in some way. I'm a writer and an artist and love Jenny's art too. I think she is amazing and so are you all. I would love to email someday. Bless you all and thank you so much! 🥰
Thank you so much for these precious words of support. Messages of kindness, like these that you share with us, mean so much more to us than any financial contribution ever could. You inspire us to keep creating x
We are so separated from our deepest instincts without knowing that we are. It is a problem of trauma in society, it's not our guilt or our fault as women. Most of us are traumatized daughters of traumatized mothers and now is the time to heal.
Thank you very much for sharing your knowing.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts Isabell, glad her words resonated with you. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Your words resonate a lot with me. Wrote them down in my notebook ❤
Good Morning Jenny. You have changed my life with this video. My mother was so unhappy in her life with my father and her choices in life and for over 50 years I did not understand her resentment/anger towards me. You made it so clear and explained it so eloquently. I thank you with all my heart. Your emotional intelligence and open mindedness to learn and grow as a woman is the highest since Maya Angelou. I feel I now have 2 woman that I strive to be like. Thank you Heather from Canada
This sounds so exactly like my experience- so many others we may never know. Apparently I cried for most of my first 6 months and photos of me as a young child always seem so solemn and sad and otherworldly- though I was quite beautiful then. My mother lost her father to suicide at a very young age and hid under her bed for weeks , never fully recovering from the loss of her beloved father. Her first marriage to my father was prompted by a teenage pregnancy with me. She had so much promise as a brilliant scholar but was removed from UK to escape to the sunshine of Africa and a new life after the war her mother took the three girls to a new life for which my mother never forgave my grandmother- who I adored. My mother and father were in love but incompatible and not ready for marriage- no wonder the turmoil and heartache ensued. But that it should last a lifetime is a choice. We can all make a choice.
My mother died sad and bitter never forgave my father, her mother and me. Until I was almost 60 I tried to compensate and make it better. Then I woke up to the damage and impact on myself and realised I had wasted my own life feeling unworthy, unlovable and ashamed for nothing. It wasn't about me. I sadly stood up to my poor broken mum for my own survival and distanced myself. She bolted the doors and threw away the keys and I did too. It was awful. It was sad. It wasn't the way I hoped it would end but that is how it was.
I accepted it. I always loved my mother and always will but in the end I protected myself and showed compassion to me too. 🌻🦋🐕🌈♥️
Wow, your words are very touching and deep, Heather. Thank you for writing to us. Sending you warm hugs to Canada, Justine and Michael. 💚
@@belindachambers7585 From my heart I Thank you for sharing your story, you literally described my story, right up to distancing myself from my Mother to preserve my wellbeing, its not how I want it to be but I was totally exhausted mentally, physically, emotionally trying to make things right, perfect, validated. Watching Jenny's video was/is amazing, I adore her honesty, accountability and her love for showing love❤
@@jocampbell6962 - we can all find peace and compassion and gift it to ourselves so that we can extend it to others. I understand your exhaustion and the muddle it becomes. Impossible to fully comprehend such complexities and even our own part eludes us at times. I wish you love and joy for the rest of your precious life. XXX
@@belindachambers7585 And the very same to you Belinda. Thank you for your kind words in reply 😊
This happened to me and my son as well. I was a teenage mother with no help and so so unhappy, I cried through the whole pregnancy. I had to forgive myself as well. My son still struggles even though we are close and he understands my explanations but it doesn’t take his experience with how we deals with it away. I love this woman so much. She brings her raw un apologetic self with openness and I so appreciate her each time she’s been on here. Much love 💕 and peace
Thank you for sharing your experiences Angela. Glad Jenny's stories resonate with you. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
me too. we're not alone.
I cannot tell you how happy I was to see another video by this extraordinarily honest and inspiring lady. Jenny is so authentic and raw.
We are so glad you enjoyed the video, Penelope. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I love her honesty. A brave and wonderful woman.
So glad it meant a lot to you. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Dear God what an absolutely beautiful person she is. I’m thankful she shared her story again. She’s my favorite, and I always have a small part of my spirit healed when she shares. I wish the females in my life would be like her, even in light of normal and expected human flaws. We all have them…but it takes an exceptional person to realize it, to admit it to others, and to pursue healing from it. Well done! I pray I have the blessing of meeting her someday in heaven.
Yesss!❤
Oh my, how touching. Thank you for this comment. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Wow. Thank you dear Jenny for truly opening your heart. You truly just helped me connect another "dot" in my own life. I had a VERY turbulent childhood & teenage upbringing. My wonderful mom made life choices that weren't always in her or my best interest. Subsequently she in my mid-teens became an alcoholic (people didn't go to therapy in her day so you self medicated........sigh) and I in more ways than one became her care giver emotionally & physically. After she died I had SUCH guilt because I finally saw her as a PERSON & not my MOM and realized how much hurt & trauma she was dealing with. While I loved her dearly I was very angry and resentful that she had created so much "drama" in my life while alive and well I wasn't always "nice" to her. Took a lot of therapy for me to let go of my guilt & shame towards my behavior towards her after she passed. However you just said something that explains some of my "own" issues that even in therapy didn't really ever come up and that was how your unhappiness while you were pregnant was "taken" on by your daughter. Like yourself I'm pretty aware and um yeah lots of therapy and yet this has NEVER been brought up. Explains so much and truly I feel like something just clicked and let go. I am so GRATEFUL that you are sharing such private intimate details of your life. I think as children no matter how old we are, we forget our parents are people too and at the end of the day they truly are just doing the best they can in the moment & if they could do better they would. Not excusing or justifying bad behavior, but sharing something I've learned in my own journey towards healing my relationship w/my mom ( even though she has passed) and myself. Hugs Jenny to you and your daughter💝
Beautiful, deep and touching words, thank you for sharing. Glad something juts 'clicked'. All the best for your further walk through life. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you for sharing your story! I think becoming aware of these things is helping to break the cycles.
I just love her art work and stories. 🌻🙏💕
We are so glad, thank you for telling us.
Here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
....this was absolutely beautifully said....as a son, my mother said almost the same exact thing.
We are glad her words resonated with you Mark, thank you for your kind words. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Oh wow… I was so happy to see that you featured Jenny again, I think she is such a beautiful woman. Thank you so much for sharing this. As a husband and father of five children (three girls/women) I have a deep love and respect for women as they have such a unique and amazing gift, whether they have children or not. I’m so glad that we are talking, sharing and explaining things like postpartum depression these days as we also are more open about depression in general. Again, thank you so much for this moving video and thank you Jenny for sharing your life experiences as we all benefit from your wisdom. ☀️🌙⭐️🌎
Beautiful comment, so glad her story resonated with you.
Here are the links for all her videos : 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Not sure if you have watched them all. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you, Daniel: I find it so wonderful with comments from men and fathers, too.
For not only is it important that women can share their lifes and stories with oneanother, but also that we can be open across the sexes, and share all feelings, emotions and experiences with eachother,
no matter if we are mothers, fathers, daughters or sons: we are humans.
Your comments is so kind, filled with compassion and admiration.
Thank you from Denmark.
Love is all ❤
@@ReflectionsofLife cats are black
I can hardly see to write this for the tears erupting from me. I’m choked from the pain of what you describe. My mother was dying of cancer, my father had abandoned her and my little brother and sister, my husband was cruel and uncaring and wouldn’t help, when my second son was born. I was numb with it, my first son was not even two yet. I had to wash two babies worth of clothing and diapers by hand in the bathtub. I was so alone, so unaware of myself, of parenthood, I would stand and look at him in his crib and feel nothing. He became the sweetest most loving of my children but he also suffered deep pain. I left my husband when he was ten, he craved a man’s love and approval, he didn’t get that. In his teens he withdrew, started using drugs. He took his life six years ago in May. I am so full of grief and guilt, it has tormented me. I too didn’t know about Post Partum. As May approaches the anxiety, heartache, guilt intensify. Thank you for sharing your experience beautiful lady. I grieve with you but also am happy your daughter is here to hear your experience with her.
Wow, we are deeply touched and saddened by your words, by all the experiences you had. Life cannot be turned back for anyone but may Jenny's words carry, help and inspire you - especially now in the month of May. We hope you can find a bit more peace.
Maybe this video can also help you - Through The Storm - (ruclips.net/video/tB98ldnUcTE/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
I felt this way with my 3rd son. He turned to drugs and committed suicide last year. He was 35. I'm trying to go on but it's really hard.
@@lindasharp8523 it is very hard to live with this. I feel so much guilt, I look back all the time to what I could have should have done different. I try to think of him without the pain but it’s very hard to do. I’m sorry you also experienced this loss and ongoing pain.
I would love to give my own mother a big hug and say how much better I understand and that I accept and love her anyway- but she died in 2020. Thank you for your raw revelation of the pain inherent in certain mother daughter relationships. There are many faces to love- not all are pretty but Love is All there is.❤
Belinda, I too would love to hug my mom one more time, and let her know I did love her.
@@cathylacey7274 I'm sure they know now and we will meet again and find the sense in it all- only love matters 🕊🌈
Tell her now. Your soul can connect with her soul.
@@leahbresee433 thank you Leah - yes indeed I do talk to my mum often- she sends me messages too. On another level I know we are powerful beings of light and great comrades- though she said "I doubt it" when I expressed this to her in the year before she died. I know we have been great teachers to each other. Many of the things I hold most dear I attribute to my mother
Very touching words, Belinda.... We are glad Jenny's message was so valuable. May it give you peace and healing. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny faces life, head-on. She didn't let the guilt fuel drive her away without standing up and facing her truth. It's so gracious and courageous of her to talk and share her emotions. From her deep love alone, she manages to share her truth with her daughter.
Cheers to her creed. 🎉
Such beautiful and sensitive words, thank you. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you brave women for sharing that with us, millions of women, who lived similar experiences. Yes, it's heartbreaking!!!
It's a pleasure, so glad her message resonated with you. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you for having the courage to share your heart with all of us. These stories continue to connect all of us on so many levels. Seeing your smile hiding behind your glass, as you said, "love is all", melted my heart and put on a smile on my face too. Thank-you.
Thank you for your appreciative words, Jennifer. We are glad we could share this video with you.
Here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
My heart became eager when I saw Jenny talking again. Hundreds of thousands of women, I'm sure, can relate to many aspects of this story. I have come to understand the concept of "generational trauma," something which applies in my own story----it is a factor in the segment where she talks about passing on the pain, the unhappiness. I tried to counter things by educating myself ahead of time, and hopefully what I DID do better, or closer to the ideal, had some positive, mitigating effect. I remember after my daughter took sobriety seriously and had been working for awhile with a sponsor. She phoned to talk.."Mom, I realize I've never been happy. I've been unhappy all my life." And I was able to say to her, "Of course, you're unhappy. You were born into unhappiness. I was unhappy while pregnant and nursing you...., " etc. IT was a freeing, turning moment in our "difficult" relationship, my being able to validate her experience. I also told her, "You don't need to let what your parents did give you an unhappy life. You can choose to do the work of self-healing and becoming happy. You don't have to be controlled by what your parents did or did not do." Of course, though, she is. I watch her dance out the same marital unhappiness I was living.... So, I don't know. Gabor Mate has done a lot of work around this issue of passing along generational pain and trauma. It is not a blame thing. It seems to me to be the human condition, and our work is to become as self-aware as possible to heal the wounds and share what we learn But life is short. We tend to become parents (I include the men in this---they are an important part of it all) long before we even become aware that we aren't aware. LOL! Anyway, maybe these comments will be shared with Jenny, so that she can see the good she is doing for us. Thank you again, GR, for a film filled with heart, truth, and nascent cultural wisdom. Grandma Ellen, signing out.💜💜💜💜💜
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with all of us, Grandma Ellen. Interesting to read. We are glad this was another video which resonated with you.
Here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Self compassion.we tend to be so hard and judgemental❤
@@ReflectionsofLife , thank you so much.
Jenny, as I was reading all the comments in your 4 videos the thought came to me that this woman is being told over and over again in many different ways how beautiful she is. You said in the first video I watched that you never felt beautiful and yet look at how beautiful the worlds sees you. Everything about you amazes me and your “style” is amazing and enviable. I must admit I went in to my bathroom and attempted to wrap a pretty scarf around my head but I ABSOLUTLEY can’t pull off the look 😂. Your art work is so vivid, descriptive and full of emotion. Yes Jenny, you are beautiful!! Thank you Reflections of Life for bringing us these wonderful productions and adding so much to my personal life.❤❤❤
Such a deeply moving moving message - which I have shared with Jenny directly - so do know that your words have reached her. Sending you love and hugs. Justine and Michael. x
It’s always moved me to tears every time I watch her…even when she’s talking about how painful her life experience was she’s very sincere…I’m sending you much love Jenni
So glad you enjoy listening to her, Catherine. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
What a beautiful, precious lady. My mom suffered from PPD.. as a child not understanding.. I always felt unloved by her.. I bore the brunt of many of her outbursts as the oldest daughter of six... It took years to recover and as a mother myself.. I begin to understand the dynamics of parenting while dealing w various emotional issues with no support. I feel nothing but love, empathy, gratitude, compassion for my mom because I realized she persevered in spite of everything and raised us.. the best she could with what she knew and with virtually little to no resources or friends to help her navigate. I love my mom deeply and I am mourning as I care for her in her final stages of Alzheimer's and dementia.. I'm mourning the loss of conversations we never had, of lost time, of her nor being able to experience what a beautiful granddaughter she is blessed with.. but.. to have the understanding.. yes.. it is freeing isn't it...
Thank you for sharing about your difficult times, Melinda. May this video carry you and help you to heal further. We wish you and your mom all the best and strength for the road ahead. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
We cannot hold ourselves responsible for what we didn't know. Yes, carrying around things, especially when you have no one to talk to is a heavy weight to carry; a lot gets released in our tears. I pray healing continues to come into her heart. Every generation grows in knowledge. Wonderful clip.
Thank you for sharing these thoughts and kind and encouraging words. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I love love love Jenny ❤ ! Thank you ever so much for having her once again 🙏🏼! She is such an incredible and beautiful lady inside and out ! Her honesty and sweetness shine and everytime I get to see one of her videos she just fills me with sublime happiness knowing that beautiful people like her have the courage to share their hardships and how they coped with it ! I also love her art ! I send Blessings to you all at Green Renaissance for your excellent teamwork and love you share and also to beautiful Jenny ! Warmest love and wishes …Lorraine ❤️🥰💕🙏🏼
Such a kind and touching message, thank you Lorraine. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I lack words to respond ...So i will send you my deepest RESPECT that i feel for you Jenny...🙌🌟
Thank you so much for these kind words, we understand and read the rest between the lines. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Love this lady, so wise and elegant, it must have been so difficult for mothers in the past when post natal depression wasn’t recognised or dealt with, I know my mum had it for years
Thank you for your caring and kind thoughts.
Here are the links for the four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Aww, I am so grateful for this piece. We women take on so much of other’s pain and responsibility, and sharing stories like this helps me to feel more connected and less alone, less broken. I had a happy and very hopeful pregnancy, terrible nausea, a wickedly long labour, and a colicky baby for the first 5 months. I too felt guilty and like it was my fault. But now, I’m not sure it’s that simple. That doctor who said you were just not ready to be a mother, may have been right, I mean what mother truly is ready that first time, but I wouldn’t jump to conclude that this is the reason for not having an easy postpartum. Things are maybe not that simple, and not all about us.❤
We are glad this video meant a lot to you. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
@contempl8ive We have now four videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny’s spiritual and emotional intelligence and touching candor have added such a balm of healing to my own soul and story. Thank you from the depths of my spirit for these masterpieces!
Beautiful words, thank you so much, Kaitlin.
Here are the links for all four videos with her: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Oh. . .Jenny. . .you, through your words and your honest expressions in sharing your pain, sadness, lost-ness, depression, and ultimately love have touched my soul more than words can say. Humbly, I thank you for sharing your story. . .the vulnerability of sharing your one self. I had such a journey with the carrying and birth of my precious daughter (Genevieve) and continue coming out on the other side of depression. The joy the presence of my daughter, now 42, brings truly is the epitome of love. Thank you for the honest gift you make of your one self through these heart-touching videos. Please take good and gentle care.
Thank you for sharing a bit about your life story, we are so glad that you came out on the other side of depression and all is well. Glad we could share Jenny's story with you. Sending you warmest of hugs, thank you for your kind words. Justine and Michael. 💚
Am so happy you made another video about this beautiful soul… I see a lot of my life story in her… provided of our age difference… it reminds how humans we are connected provided our physical differences… and her style is so unique ❤️💜🙏
We are very glad that we could share another story from Jenny, glad it was meaningful to you, Ronnie. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I absolutely love this woman and her wisdom and her open heart and her honesty!!!! I totally understand about her postpartum depression and how impossibly difficult it is to be a mom even when you don't have postpartum depression. A mother must be 100% there for the child for 18 years. No one else has that kind of responsibility. I never had a child but it must be so, so difficult. What's happening is that all of us are learning from and falling in love with this beautifu woman!!!l
What a touching message. So happy her words spoke to you so deeply. Thank you for sharing all your thoughts on motherhood.
Not sure if you watched all the other videos of Jenny, the links are in the write-up below this video. Warmest hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny, I love you ❤ When I saw your beautiful face in the thumbnail I dropped everything to watch this video and to hear your heartfelt words of wisdom. Your daughter has been your teacher. She taught you introspection, forgiveness and unconditional love. What a gift your daughter is! Our lessons here in this earth school can be so difficult, but when when we see where we made a mistake or went wrong and then choose to rectify to the best of our abilities where we went wrong and then live our lives committed to go forth and never make those mistakes again, well that is mastery. That is us remembering who we are. That is powerful. God bless you always. Thank you for talking to us and thank you, GR, for bringing Jenny back to us 🙏🏼✨💜
Thank you for your kind words, so glad you enjoyed this video with Jenny as well. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I echo all the comments here. In the midst of a busy morning, I saw this pop up in notifications and when I saw Jenny, I stopped to listen. She is my favorite too. At times when I can’t sleep I put on one if her interviews and fall asleep to her voice and wisdom. Thank you GR for featuring her again! I hope she gets to read all these wonderful compliments about her💜
We are glad you liked her message so much, Joni. And yes, Jenny does read all the comments. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Bless you Jenny. You should not feel guilty for something that you could not help. Feeling that you have let down your children in some way is one of the very hardest things to deal with as a parent: you always want the best for them but sometimes this is just not possible. Thank you for sharing this on Green Renaissance: I believe it is somewhere you can open your soul and know that you will not be judged (so rare in our media these days).
Wow, beautiful and touching words Anthony, thank you. Your words about our channel mean a lot to us too.
And here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
The best gift you have given your daughter is that you shared your feelings with her. ❤
Beautiful and touching words! Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
I’m literally listening to my own story in your voice and my heart cries. I hope I can find the same courage to talk to my daughter as you did. ❤
Oh my, may her words help and encourage you, may you be able to talk to your daughter. Sending you warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Do. Your daughter needs to hear it from you before it's too late. Words are healing.
Jenny, your beautiful quest to reach an honest understanding of your self and your life is such an inspiration to me. If I could, I would already be on my way to see you to say thank you in person, and to give you warm hug of support and love. You have helped me to better understand my own life. Blessings and gratitude to you for what you have taught me and to Green Renaissance for recording and sharing your story. Thank you all.
We are so happy that Jenny's words meant so much to you, Jamie. Thank you for your kind words. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jennie, This could be me. I'm 80 now and our relationship has suffered so much. Back then PPD was not - so it made it something wrong with me. I'm so glad you talked about this. But I'm sorry for what it did to your life. I always love to watch the articles about you, sometimes over and over. God bless you, Jennie
Thank you for sharing your thoughts on the subject. Glad you enjoy the videos with her.
Here are all the links for the four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
My dear lady. You are brave, strong and admired in telling your story. Hard as it was to discuss it, you did and it must bring relief to you and your daughter.
At a young age of 26 I had PPD with my second son. I remember sitting with him in my arms on the rocking chair. I spoke gently to him saying, I was not my best, but I will never physically harm you.
I did receive treatment and had it explained to me my hormones were causing the changes in my body. He is currently a brilliant father of two beautiful children of his own.
I thank you for your story and love to you. xx ❤️
Glad we could share this video with you, what you are sharing goes deep. We are glad you were able to manage the situation. Lovely words about your son, glad that all is well. Warmest wishes, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you once again Jenny Jackson for shining even more light on a beautiful Saturday morning. Love you
You are so welcome Jason. So glad you liked the message she shared. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Life affirming and wondrous. Sad that most people really don't appreciate this part of life. I am a male and often feel ashamed that women have to put up with far too much and that men are unaware.
We are glad you liked the message Jenny shared, Terry. Thank you for your touching words. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Very personal. It takes a lot of courage for you to be so honest and vulnerable. Im glad you no longer blame yourself for the past. We are all trying to do our best. Im glad you can have peace and acceptance from your daughter but most of all for yourself.♥️ love is all
We are glad Jenny's message spoke to you. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I'm LEARNING Motherhood. My children are 25, 18, 15. I am still learning. It didn't come naturally. But with learning, daily, self-acceptance, I LOVE the gifts that these young people are to me, in their own right as souls. Daily. Hourly.
Beautiful message to read. Thank you for being someone who continue to grow, who continues to see the beauty - how lucky your children are to have you as an example in their lives. We send you all much love. Justine and Michael 💚
I love Jenny. Please keep making videos with her. I feel like she's a friend. Nikki❤
Powerful motherly truth, as I listen to this mother/women stating her truth all I can think of is how I felt when I was pregnant w/my first child at a young age. Takes courage, honestly, bravely to express one's inner feelings when in the place of giving birth, afraid and stepping into a new world. Thank you Mama for speaking your truth.
Your words touch us. We are glad her words spoke to you deeply. Sending you warmest of hugs. Justine and Michael. 💚
This is my second video of yours. I thoroughly enjoy the format of showing each individual's perspective, but foremost, I think your photography/videography are magnificent! I like to think of myself as a photographer, but yours interplay with the person to make the episode so cohesive!
Welcome to our channel and thank you for your kind and encouraging message regarding our work. We appreciate it a lot. We hope you will enjoy many more. And we wish you all the best with your photographic work too. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Much love to this lady and her daughter. Courageous souls.
Thank you, so kind. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
This lady is the sage of your channel.. keep her❤ i was thinking about her recently and here she is again...just love her🎉
Thank you so much for your touching message, so happy to read that you love the videos with Jenny. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
It is and was not your fault. None of it! I believe regret and guilt have no place in your life. Its wasted energy. We were expected to know, as you said. That was so far from the truth. I believe we are all responsible for our own happiness. No mother ,father, husband, sister ,brother, or anyone that's important in our lives is. No matter what the circumstances. If a person needs help with it, seek it out. I am happy your daughter is loving and why should she not be? It is the way to personal happiness. Its great she has figured that out. Nothing that happened while she was growing up should get in the way of that. It is an overused term ,but true, we all did the best we could, and I believe we should never feel guilty ,ever ,for mistakes, or circumstances that were beyond our control .They should be learned from. Moved on from ,to that loving place we all need. Thank you for sharing.
I think people feel how they feel, and not everything can be rationalised away, no matter what you believe. 🙏🏻
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and encouragement, June.
Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Very brave woman. My son was born almost 3 months early and spent 3,5 months at the hospital, hooked to machines. He weighed 900 grams. I would visit him every day, after a while I got to hold him on my chest. But I felt like an robot. I just couldn't bond with him... he was ripped from my insides after a very hard pregnancy and the whole thing was very traumatic. When he came home, I fell apart. Luckily my husband was there and got me help. My son is now 8 months old and I finally feel like he's mine. Our love grows every day ❤
Thank you for sharing your story, may you feel encouraged and inspired. We believe the love between your son and you will continue to grow stronger every day and wish you as a family all the best. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny could have her own RUclips channel. I could listen to her ALL day!
Lovely thought, thank you. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
the first thought I had when this Lady popped up on my screen was: OH WHAT A BEAUTIFUL BEING, WHAT A BEAUTIFUL FACE. And then I heard her state her biggest regret in life of NOT being beautiful.
Of course I started weeping. The only comfort was that we are all born to get over, integrate our dual challenges. No matter what they are. Mind over matter... And WHO ARE WE in reality? Those nightmarish lives we lead as humanity will finally get us on the path to light, to what we call "non-duality"
THANK YOU so much for sharing your secret - Which we, at least women, share... This is OUR pathway to "heaven" which is a state of consciousness, today also called 5D
With a huge smile from Switzerland ♥
Thank you for this message of understanding - for reminding us that we all face challenges of confronting the 'ghosts' of our past, of dealing with the insecurities of our present, of facing our fears of the future. And it is such a big question - who are we really? May all come to an answer that brings us peace. We send you much love on your journey. Justine and Michael. x
I continue to be blown away by Jenny! Her humility. Her heart. Her life journey. Wish I could hug her and thank her for just being who she is. Incredible ❤
We appreciate your kind words, glad you enjoyed the message she shared. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I was unable to bond with my son until he was five . My mother was mentally ill and brutally abusive . This caused me to put up a wall between my son and I. I felt that I was damaged and wanted to withdraw so that I didn't damage him .
Something clicked around five when I was able to share humor with him .
He's 17 now and he sees me as his rock . I've shared my history with him and have thanked him for teaching me to be a mother .
Touching and deep words. Thank you for sharing. Glad all is well now. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
What an amazing human you are Jenny to have such profound insights and to be so giving in paying forward by sharing them with us all. I feel incredibly blessed to have discovered you and to have the opportunity to listen to you.
Such beautiful words, thanks a lot. We are glad that we can share these videos with you. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Gosh I can’t stop crying 😢.why are we so scared of being honest about our feelings.She is beautiful.
Society and a wish to belong. 😘🙏✨
Thank you for sharing. Tears are ok, sometimes it helps us so much when we can cry. Glad her message spoke to you so deeply. Sending much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
@@ReflectionsofLife tears are colorless bleeding. At night tears roll down my face. Every night. 🦋
God Bless you again and again for opening up your soul. I'm nearly 70 and walked in shoes similar to yours, but I didn't have a husband. A week before 43 I gave birth to my son and from the beginning the isolation, the fear, was overwhelming. I know the pain of shame, the 'why did I' questions, I still carry them today despite asking for my son's forgiveness, trying to not do what my Mom did as I was growing up that was hurtful to me. Now in today I just try to be kind and supportive to my 27 year old son who has Aspergers. He is living in supportive housing finding his way in life which is painful to watch, he knows how I feel, I no longer say the words. Right now he wants to drive and is slowly making his way. He works two days a week as a dishwasher and likes the people he works with...other than that, he has no friends. I worry a lot for his future because when I'm gone, he will have no one.
Thank you for sharing your story and experiences, Jane. May Jenny's words help and encourage you, help you heal. We wish you and your son all the best for the journey ahead and are sending you both warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
@@ReflectionsofLife 💜💜💜
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Been following you guys for over 6 years now, what you're doing is beautiful and so very important 🌻♥️
Thank you for your very kind and encouraging message Naisargi, it means such a lot to us. It's wonderful to have you with us on our journey. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Every video with Jenny is so touching. She is one of my top fav ppl of your GR stories. And oh my, how I can relate to her. Thank you for finding Jenny and sharing her stories ❤
You are so welcome. We are glad the videos mean a lot to you. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Oh Wow! I didn't expect that. Thank you Jenny. The courage it took to apologize to your daughter surely healed both of your wounds.
So touching and thoughtful, thank you. Justine and Michael. 💚
I love you Jenny! You always speak from the heart and the reflexion.
Beautiful, thank you. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I was so excited to see this fourth video. I bet Jenny is amazed how much impact and comfort she is bringing to many people's lives at this season of hers. I might add, her home has fantastic ambience!
Lovely words, thanks so much. So happy it excited you to see another video with her. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
And every child after that one increases the degree of post-partum 😥
I am so sorry you were not able to get the help you needed back then Jenny.
My mother and I did not have a very good relationship for many reasons, partly my time in the womb and the circumstances around her pregnancy with me.
You were not to blame for everything Jenny *SUPER BIG HUGS* for you and your daughter in your journey from here on in.
Thank you for these touching words. Sending you warm hugs, and all the best for your own journey, Justine and Michael. 💚
@silverpromidi We have now four videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
@@ReflectionsofLife I have watch, re-watched sometimes, laughed and cried through every one of those talks with this amazing woman 💖
How very sad to have suffered all these years. Something’s in life are out of our control, no guilt or blame, I am sure you were a good mother 😘
Thank you for your kind and encouraging words, Pamela. Warm wishes, Justine and Michael. 💚
Beautiful. Jenny always brings tears to my eyes with her heartfelt confessions.
Heartwarming comment, thank you.
Here are the links again for all four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Oh! The ways my heart broke when she said “only a few weeks ago” 😭 I came back to this channel specifically to hear Jenny speak. Sweet lady, I adore you.
Your words are so touching. Thank you for sharing. Sending much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Life is beautiful and tragic. Thanks for sharing both sides of the story. Male and Female.
You are welcome. Thank you for sharing this thought.
We now have four videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Truth….understanding…forgiveness…love…freedom…peace…joy…🙏🏻💕🌈🌞✌🏻👋🏻💐
Beautiful, thank you. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Oh Jenny, so good to see you again I admire and respect you. I have been watching your programs as they came out, I can see that you are walking taller, facing the sun. You always share so much with us, Thank you and we hope to see you soon again.
Beautiful and heartwarming comment, thank you. Glad you enjoyed all her videos. Here are the links again for all four: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Dear Jenny,
Thank you so much for your honesty and for your caring. I’m sure now, since you have talked with her about PTSD, that she has forgiven you!
I was affected too, and I don’t blame my mother (and father) who did the very best she could. I see now, that she also was very likely traumatised as a baby, when her own mother (and father) were new immigrants, struggling in a difficult environment, to make a better life for their family.
Both my mother and my father were incapable of expressive emotional attachment, although they always tried to be there for us. That helped a little, although emotionally, I still felt rejected all my life and in my relationships. Now, I have learned about childhood trauma and Compassionate Inquiry from Dr Gabor Maté. This has transformed my life. ❤
We appreciate you sharing your thoughts and experiences. So good that you learned to understand where it might have all started and had a transformation now after many years of rejection, etc. All the best for the road ahead.
We have three more videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links:
'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) and 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Ho attraversato le difficoltà della vita e mi chiedevo e lo faccio ancora a 72 anni,che sono state prove a volte impegnative ma poi mi dico che ci sono persone più sfortunate di me.Le mie due figlie sono nate e allevate da me,tra cento impedimenti ma poi, in seguito, mi è sembrato di "scivolare" negli anni,su una strada piena di pietre,sassi,ostacol.Mi sono fatta forza per dare alle mie figlie una vita dignitosa e con valori veri!!!Ora ne sono fiera e tranquilla!!Il mio Amico e' da sempre Dio,che ringrazio per l'aiuto che mi ha dato e che mi dà.🙏🙏Ho sempre sentito in me ,la certezza che ce l'avrei fatta con il Suo aiuto.Credere è fondamentale per affrontare la vita,anche se molti non ci credono.🙋🏻
Thank you for sharing. We are glad you were able to master the difficulties in life. All the best for your further walk on life's path. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Beautiful woman, beautiful movie. Bravo to the whole team from France. Jenny Jackson for ever 😄!!!
Lovely comment. Thank you very much. Sending you warm hugs to France, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you ❤! You’re beautiful and loved for sharing your thoughts and stories. I’ve watched all 3 films before this one and you are a gift to all .Thank you Green Renaissance too !!!
Wow, thank you for your kind words, Sarah. So glad Jenny's thoughts and stories mean so much to you. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you again Jenny. Not only are you a wonderful artist but also an incredibly authentic, generous and honest human being. Life can be so very challenging can't it? As mothers, there is just an incredible amount of pressure to be the "perfect mother". Always, smiling, always available, always caring, always patient, always attractive....always on call. In some ways, we are asked to stop being human! To stop being fallible, fragile, sensitive, unsure, uncertain, exhausted, frustrated, anxious, hurting. I adored being pregnant and I adored my babies but I struggled to fully enjoy them as their father was so hateful, violent and abusive. He was jealous of my connection with them and did everything he could to sever our bond, even after we had divorced and I had managed to escape from him. His painful legacy continues to this day and I have to work very hard to try and undo the damage that he wreaked. Thankfully myself and my now adult children continue to work on being more open, honest, loving and compassionate with each other. We're not perfect by any means, but we never give up on each other. Jenny, your words and your compassion are what the world so needs now. Thank you, thank you.
Touching words. Sorry to read about your experiences, but so good that you and your children work together and try to be open, caring, loving,... Wishing you and your children all the best for life's journey. Sending you warmest of hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I LOOOOVE Jenny❤. You are always inspiring us with your honesty.
I am so grateful for your stories 😘
So touching. Glad you enjoyed all her videos. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
This touches me deeply. I was very stressed when pregnant. My mother had just died and my father was vile to me asI was not married to my partner. I had a caesarian and felt a failure at childbirth. My partner changed overnight from being loving and supporting to behaving like a sulky teenager. My baby cried just all the time and I had nobody to even hold him. I did bond with him, but he was an anxious child with eating difficulties. I felt such a failure for so long. Thanks for letting me express this. Never really spoken about it.
It makes us sad to read your message and are so glad you felt the freedom to express and share your experiences here. It would be wonderful if Jenny's words can help you to understand things better and heal. Wishing you all the best on your way forward through life.
We have more videos with Jenny on our channel, not sure if you know about them - 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) and 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html). Sending you warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I've watched Jenny's videos so many times. It gives me strength and hope to go on despite my lack of closeness with my own mother. I've finally forgave her and moved on with my life. It took me several years of therapy and it's still going on...Thank you Jenny!
So glad the videos with Jenny do so much good for you. Wishing you all the best and healing on your journey through life. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny.
The grey somehow gives off color when least expected.
Courage is being scared and still going through it. No joke. This lady is a gem for being real. Honest. Her heart.....all of it❤
Beautiful and touching. Glad this video meant much to you. Sending much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
Wow, I love this lady❤
We are so very glad. Thank you for telling us.
Here are the links again for all four videos with her: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
She is such a beautiful soul. Thank you for "bringing" her back.💕🌠
You are welcome, glad you enjoyed another video with her. Warm wishes, Justine and Michael. 💚
Jenny, your story is mine. I had my first daughter in 1973, and I experienced what you experienced after her birth. I didn't know about PPD in those days. Only recently have I found an explanation of what happened. PPD. My daughter and I have been healing our relationship for years and years. She has been so generous with me when she could have erased me from her life but she didn't because she cared. That is THE POWER OF LOVE, and I'm grateful to her in particular. I'm also so thankful to you for sharing your painful memories. It's hard. I love you for that.
A deeply moving message - thank you for sharing. Your journey echoes that of Jenny's. And how beautiful that you and your daughter are walking a path towards healing and peace. We send you much love and kindness. Justine and Michael. 💚
My mother had a terrible, impoverished and abusive childhood that ill prepared her to be a parent but still she got pregnant as a young single woman and had a daughter. That child died at age 15 from a brain tumor. Nine months after the death of her beloved daughter, my mother became pregnant with me. She could never love me, never protected me and also passed on to me the generational trauma she experienced. It has taken a long time to understand the consequences of this in my own life. It is important for us to hear stories like this because too often, we think people should be able to heal from severe childhood trauma. We have only recently discovered that the hormones produced by fear, anger, guilt, sadness and depression physically change a developing brain and can forever alter the way that child will experience the world. As Jenny notes in a different interview, there are some injuries that cannot be healed. We would never tell a child born without a limb that they should be able heal themselves. We can accommodate our injuries and even, as Jenny has done, create beautiful meaningful lives but the injury remains. And yet, life is still beautiful.
So much you shared with us. Lots of food for thought... Thank you for your openness. We are so thankful you were able work through your trauma, to understand it better and we hope you are doing ok. And that you are enjoying life. Wishing you all the best for every new day. Sending much love and kindness to you. Justine and Michael. 💚
Thank you for these wonderful stories.
It's a pleasure, glad we can share them with you, Reyna.
Here are all the links for the four videos with Jenny: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
You were not alone. I too had post partum when my daughter was born. My relationship with my daughter's dad was not good. He was going this own demons and that depressed me. I felt I did have the emotional support I needed from him. My daughter as a baby cried a lot. I do believe they feel your emotional state in the womb. It was exhausting not having the help or emotional support being a first time mother. It angered me. I felt the guilt for many years. My daughter is now a grown woman and very loving towards me. I did tell her once she was older how I felt when she was born and as a baby. I'm not sure she quite understood, seeing she never became a mother due to cancer.
Thank you for sharing a bit about your own struggles, we hear you. We are so happy to read that you have a loving relationship with your daughter and that you were able to share with her how you felt/what happened at the time. Wishing you both well. Warmest hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
...❤️my dearest lady i like to see and hear on RUclips universe....many love ,hugings, and prayers for "my dear lady", and to you dear people who are creators of these videos, and all that art project, and to all people watching you...God bless ...❤🌹🙏🏻...sincerely from one heart and soul in Serbia....❤🌹🙏🏻...
Thank you very much for all the kind words to all of us.
We now have four videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Love Mummy' (ruclips.net/video/miLs1AfMrIY/видео.html) , 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Not sure if you have watched them all. Sending you warm hugs all the way to Serbia, Justine and Michael💚
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This was my story too. I was fortunate to live next to woman who was a nurse who told my husband to take me to my doctor(gynaecologist) and not to take no for an answer. The minute I was in his office I burst into tears as I was not coping. I couldn't believe that my friends who had already had children had not told me what it was really like! I felt so betrayed and isolated. I thought I was the only one who was not a natural mother. I had also had an emergency Caesarean as the umbilical cord was too short and she would likely have had some brain damage due to oxygen starvation if it was a long birth process.That didn't help either. I was all over the place emotionally and really struggling. My husband was very understanding and did the night feeding for a few days so I could sleep through the night which helped enormously as sleep deprivation only makes the problem worse. What a brave lady she is to be so open about a subject that is still painful all these years later.I love this channel.
Thank you for sharing your experiences, Rene. We are glad you could be helped at the time. Sending you warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚