I am watching this 2 days after finding my husband dead. He fell out of a tree and died almost instantly from blunt force trauma. I am devastated as after many years I found the man who had completed me. I can't say why, but this film provided me hope that maybe I can get through this day. What we cannot change, we must endure.
Oh dearest Deborah. We are devastated to hear of the sudden passing of your husband. And we hope that, with time, the hurt heals. May you continue to carry precious memories of your time together with him, close to your heart. We have made a few other films dealing specifically with the topics of grief and loss - if you would like me to share these links with you, drop me an email (hello@greenrenaissance.co.za) and I'll happily reply. You are in our thoughts. Much love and gentle kindness. Justine 💚
‘We are all victims of victims’ someone once told me. I have forgiven myself for the years of anguish I felt trying to make sense of why my mother withdrew emotion from me right from being a baby. Now I choose to believe she was just the vessel that brought me in to the universe and it’s my destiny to find love from everything around me - especially my garden. You create such heartfelt films, thank you so much 💚
Broken mothers are just sad for their children and themselves. What a waste of a life and a cruelty for the children. But life just ain’t fair and will never be because it has people in it.
@@deborahgrantham7387 Dear Deborah, Earth is not meant for one feeling/experience alone, it is meant to experience, period, in free will, what ever comes with this. Like you and countless others, I found out through living with my family why all that I went through happened, which is a blessing and changes/deepens the older I get. I am a broken mother, my 38 y. old daughter can attest, in spite of a great hardship she lived through because of both her parents, my daughter is kind and wise and loving, true miracle if you were to know details. I am not, thank goodness, the person I was and I am, an evolved version who understands so so much more. One thing that helped me, in my experience, is flexibility, accepting new ideas, seeing new possibilities in the same patterns, I believe in reincarnation, my 2 NDEs helped me understand this, so much more. Hoping you're going to be all right and at peace with whatever comes.
Jenny is strong because she knows her weakness. Jenny is compassionate because she has suffered. Jenny is alive because she is a fighter. Jenny can laugh because she has known sadness. Jenny can love because she has known loss. She is a strong woman who has weathered the storm, but still loves to dance in the rain. Yes.. forgiveness is the right pace towards healing 🙏
This was wonderful. I'll take women like this and mini-documentary profiles like this over the Kardashians and social media 'influencers' any day. I really enjoyed this, beautifully shot, edited and paced. Thank you.
Thank you for watching, Lisa. We are glad you appreciated her message. Maybe you would like to hear more from Jenny. There are two more videos: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html) and earlier this year 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I woke up today. Feeling low. I put on All Cats are Black and this video. I close my eyes and give this lady a huge hug. Thanking her for her brutally honest words. Sometimes I cry when I watch this other times I feel empowered. Today she's empowered me
My mother was orphaned at 2 years old and had to live with an uncle and his wife. They treated her horribly. As a result she had little to give to her own children. She fed and clothed us, but mine too was an icy terrified childhood. This woman here, speaking her truth with such courage blessed me deep in my soul. God bless you darling Jenny ❤️
Thank you for sharing your own experiences, sad to hear about your mother's experiences and yours. We are glad Jenny's words blessed you. There is an earlier video with her - 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html). Maybe you watched it already. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I love it when she says, "We have to move on from blaming our parents." Also I love when she says "We have to move on and say what happened, happened." I am 45 now and I think I am ready to let go of the hurt. I have had a lot of hurt, loss, and neglect in my life. I don't think I ever have known who I was. I can move on from that now. I think seeing her and how this woman is in her age gives me hope for the next half of my life. Thank you for this portrait of a wonderful woman. I wish to become just like her.
Sorry to hear that you too have suffered such loss and hurt during your life so far. But we are glad that Jenny's story can help to serve as inspiration to know that things can change - we have the power to take control and shift things around. May you arrive at a place of peace dear friend. And this is one of three films that we've made with Jenny - in case you missed the other two, you can see them here: All Cats Are Black - ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html Now You are Free - ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html Warm hugs. Justine and Michael 💚
@@nicoletjeng9793 honestly you just have to find other things to put your energy into. I think as you age you just don’t care as much of what others think. That has been my experience. I am enjoying getting older for that part. The body falling apart sucks but as a woman I think it is kind of a blessing getting more invisible. Life is a trip.
Those of us who suffered from neglect or abuse as children are so hard on ourselves as parents. We try hard that our own children will not suffer as we did, yet they will have their challenges in dealing with us parents because we are human after all. Her comment at the end, that she believes her children do love her, is a reminder to all of us are are trying. It is something that we probably do not acknowledge as often as we should, that we are and were good parents even for our weaknesses and that we are loved.
Sooooo sad that children are born into loneliness.. I can relate to the feeling of betrayal, I’d felt that when my mother betrayed me when I needed the opposite. It stays with you .
So absolutely beautiful. I hurt for her painful past and I am so very proud of her present and her future. I am crying as I type this. She gives a voice to so many who are hurting and she gives those great inspiration and hope for their own lives today and for all their tomorrows. Thank you, Jenny for being so open, honest and brave. Thank you so much.
So powerful. I cannot stop crying - I am soon to be 65 and I have to try harder to stop feeling so angry that my mother was not there for me. You have helped immensely. 🙏
Thank you Amanda, for opening your heart to all that Jenny shared with us. We hope that her story can continue to inspire you towards a place of peace and self love. And this is one of three films that we've made with Jenny - in case you missed the other two, you can see them here: All Cats Are Black - ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html Now You are Free - ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html Warm hugs. Justine and Michael 💚
Very beautiful, thank you for sharing. We have more videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), ‘NOW YOU ARE FREE’(ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
I need more of her...omg...it's like a cleansing deep therapy session...crying along.... The first one was beautiful too. Now I am addicted..please bring her back for nr 3...and 4....5
@@ReflectionsofLife Even after watching it has it's hooks imbedded in the watcher. You just keep thinking deeply about her words...long after watching. What I found so beautiful and less heartachy was that she shared, her Mom came to the awareness of her icy cold emotional withholding and abusiveness. That made it a bit sweeter. Very courageous of her and insightful to share that she sacrificed her kids for the love of men and that she begged for forgiveness. Maybe it is best to give her her own show. Love love love. Thank you Green Renaissance for these beyond beautiful gems. Bless you all
They pain of neglect and abuse by a "mother" injures one.... My "mother" was BRUTAL ..I became her punching bag in EVERY sense of the word.. I REALLY needed this...
We are glad this video was good for you. There is one more video with Jenny, 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html). Warm wishes, Justine and Michael.💚
So recognize that very unfortunately! My mother was brutal, laughed in my face about me, always being critical on me, always telling me what I could not do, or what I did not do and should do. My appearance was wrong , my attitude, my achievements ( which indeed were not much because I suppose I felt frozen and a failure by the start) Strange fact, as a todler I was utterly cute, so she adored me then. I guess... at least she told me later on in life. Though I never felt it. As child not so cute anymore and the abuse started than. Always have had the feeling I could never do it right in her eyes. Till high age she kept on being critical on me and I rather did not see her.One of the strong things that came up after her passing was: I am so sorry I could not be as beautiful as you wanted me to be.Still I need to get to terms with this abuse.
Dear Jenny, When I first watched ur video. I cried on the subway while I'm on my way to work. u gave me huge inspiration. I really wanna see u in person. From South Korea.
Thank you Ashley - we are so humbled that Jenny's film resonated with you. Thank you for taking the time to write to us. We are glad that Jenny was able to give you inspiration.
Yes indeed . I too will reach her age hopefully...and still feel the same loss and hurt , she is right...the cut is too deep to ever be repaired fully .
Incredible! She has gone through so much anguish and still she rises. Imagine the agony she must have gone through, trustingly holding her parents hands , and looking forward to returning to the security of a stable home, and savouring that moment to its fullest, only to find the very next day, that her mother was packing her bags to send her back to boarding school and darkness. How shattered she must have felt, to return to an antagonistic environment. It scarred her for life and yet with time, she forgave and courageously came to terms with her destiny. Thank you for this deeply moving film. It shook me to the core, and made me more aware than ever, to never take love, warmth and understanding for granted.
❤❤ Jenny, I am 79 years old ❤❤ I thought I was the only person in this entire world that I too went through the same life as yours. I thank the Lord for letting me find your story. I was only 5 years old when my parents separated and when I saw my father for the last time going to church by himself with his head down. I was at my grandmother's home but I was not allowed to even hug him. I was born in Mexico and as you know during that time women in general did not have jobs. My mother left myself and 2 sister's with my grandmother and came to the USA to find a job. For this reason, I never really associated with my sisters or felt any love towards them. They stayed with my grandmother, I was the only one sent away for 9 years. I don't blame my grandmother for taking me to a boarding school. I understand now at my age why she did it. But, my aunt (my mother's step sister) told me when I was leaving the house, that the reason I had to go to a boarding school is because I looked like my father. Had the same name, his was Luis mine was Luisa. I never forgot what she said. I was inside that school until I graduated at 14 years old. The school was like a jail, on top of the tall brick fence were pieces of cut bottles, so that if you tried to get out, you will cut your body and bleed. I never had anyone give me a hug. All I had was the others students. Yet, I never said a word, I accepted my life inside the school. We went to class for regular curriculum, we learn how to make our own cloth, cut hair and other things that I don't remember right now. Sports, were my favorite, because we had competitions as to which was the best school. There's tons that we can talk, laugh and cry together. I had to make my soul, body and heart strong in order to survive. Take care my friend and stay healthy. I never knew I had a soul mate in life, until I met you.❤❤ Thank God for RUclips ❤❤
Thank you for sharing all your personal experiences with us. This goes very deep... We are endlessly glad you were were able to share this video with you. May Jenny's word help and encourage you, and bring some peace. We hope you got through life ok. So happy you found a soulmate in Jenny. Not sure if you know but we have more videos with her on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), ‘Now You Are Free’ (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Sending much love and kindness to you. Justine and Michael. 💚
Hello first time viewing this channel , as many others who have commented before me, I consider this to be a much needed no nonsense view on life at all ages. I am 4months off 73, I keep doing what I've always done enjoy life and the beauty is everywhere, the smallest to the largest the seen and the unseen, we know it's there. Life is for living forgiving being , we are all part of the same universe. I'm a writer last year I had my first book published it was something I had imagined and now it's out there. I will soon publish a second edition. Blessings to all. Hugs . 💚🌹👏
Well done on publishing a book and even a second edition. Glad you are enjoying life with all it's small and big things. Keep going, all the best for everything you will still do. You might know about the other videos with Jenny but here are the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), ‘NOW YOU ARE FREE’(ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warmest hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Beautiful woman. It’s interesting because when I was young I wished with all my heart that my parents would have sent me to live elsewhere. My mother often told me she wished I hadn’t been born and there was so much abuse and chaos I longed to be away from it. The damage done is deep. So, perhaps Jenny’s mother did her a favor. Maybe she knew she’d be safer away from her. I love this portrait and this channel. Thank you!
"The danger is to look to other people to make you feel real - that can only work so long. And when you go to bed at night and your alone, it's difficult to feel real when you're living off somebody else who isn't there." This touched so, so deep. Jenny is so right.
Thank you or watching, we are glad it had so much meaning to you. There are two more videos with Jenny on our channel, 'All Cats Are Black' and 'Now You Are Free', if you would like to watch them. Kind wishes, Justine and Michael.💚
Glad her message spoke to you deeply. We have more videos with Jenny, here are the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warmest wishes, Justine and Michael. 💚
It was like she was talking directly to me and giving me the advice I needed in this precise moment of my life. Thank you for sharing her wisdom with us. ❤️
Why must your videos always reduce to me to tears, GR?! This hits home in so many ways. There is a quote by someone (can't recall whom) that says "Forgive me the hurt I caused you, my child - it wasn't through lack of love for you, but lack of love for myself" Jenny's hurt echoes the hurting that so many of us experience, I suspect. What a fabulous video, thank you so much. :)
@Scribble Artie - That quote beautifully captures the essence of Jenny's story. Thanks for sharing, thanks for always feeling the story that each character shares with us. x
Thank you for your honesty and insight. As you said, we all have baggage. I'm 71 and am still dealing with emotions resulting from my upbringing. I'm working at putting it behind me. Thank you for the encouragement!
i really and sincerely want her to write her story into a book. her words and her descriptions all everything makes me so touched and crying deep in my heart. Oh how beautiful and touching deep inside her is ....
What a wonderful soul in all her honesty and vulnerability. And I love her art and the way she dresses. Your videos are very precious to me. They are done so tastefully and with so much sensitivity. Thank you!
@@ReflectionsofLife In your Now You Are Free video there are such lovely moments of white lace curtains. Transporting. This one is so difficult to process, because I know of this pain.
Jennie spoke such true words. My mother had high-functioning autism and my father left us when I was about six. I saw him only once when I was 15 and never again after that. My mother had to struggle so hard to work and take care of us, but she was also different - communicating with her was very difficult, getting her attention was impossible. I felt a terrible amount of pity for her as a child but also revulsion and abandonment. It is hard to accept, and yet it must be accepted. Thank you Jennie for articulating some of this pain and difficulty and thank you to Green Renaissance for making such a beautiful and painful video.
A very moving message Jennifer. Thank you for sharing your experiences. And you are right - we need to find a way to accept and be at peace with those aspects of our past that we cannot change. We hope that your heart is at peace. Warm hugs. Justine and Michael 💚
She is so wise, insightful, and articulate! Her comments reflect years and years of introspection. One huge takeaway for me was when she said, “What they did, they did with their own baggage.” I will keep this gem and mull it around in my head because that perspective is so often overlooked.
Every child, who have gone through a difficult divorce, or come from dysfunctional families, in their family of origin, can feel into this. And most of us are coming from that. Where many still do not know anything on what love is, many still believe it is about material security. And most grownups are still kidnapped into stress,, and believe love is competing with how to win, over the other. This could also be called "Love, daddy", cause this, has no gender. Beautiful, to listen to, you
@Levandetag - It certainly is a story that touches us all in some way, and to some degree, regardless of gender, age, race, religion... Much love to you x
We have now watched this deeply moving video several times. It has taken those viewings and then also, time, to be able to try and find the words to respond. Your presentation was beautiful and respectful, as always - thank you. It’s difficult to know how to best express the feelings we have regarding this video, along with Jenny’s first one. Her pain is palpable. Her courage is strong, yet humble and tender. She is willing ... she is willing. And that’s really it, isn’t it? She is willing .... to remember, to feel, to try, to keep trying, to learn, to talk, to share, to be honest, to be afraid, to paint, to be courageous enough to be hopeful, to forgive, to live, to love. Such courage, such courage. And from that, such hope. Such hope - for her, for those she loves and yes, for each of us in this world we share. It has taken my wife and I years of being willing. It cannot be done without courage, as Jenny’s powerful story illustrates. My wife and I each came from families who loved us, but had NO clue how to actually love us. Our individual emptiness, subsequent unhealthy adult decisions and then ultimately, our individual willingness to face our respective pasts and futures is what brought us to each other in this life. We continue to be committed to getting better, to doing better, to being better. We are so grateful to Jenny for her moving story and to this channel - for the lovely support it gives us with every viewing. We have learned much and continue to have much to learn - married 30 years now, with us each in our 60’s. We believe our sense of individual and collective empathy comes from the darkness of our early lives ... and then, in our 30’s - our willingness to walk through that darkness, with a light of hope, acceptance and a deep desire to truly live our lives ... just as Jenny is doing. We believe Jenny feels so deeply because she felt so deeply, as a child, and then, for how her childhood pain drove many of her adult decisions. No one can be the perfect or even the best “anything” - the perfect parent, the perfect child, the best sibling, the perfect friend. We feel Jenny’s pain in her regrets of parenting her own children. Our hope is she will forgive herself and hold onto the words of Maya Angelou, “when we know better, we can do better.” One might spend energy on asking the question as to why the “knowing” so often comes later in life. That is a question on a road with no end. Instead, we hope she can embrace that once she began to know ... she began to do better, continues to want to do better, and is doing better.. That is all and everything one can do. It may appear simple, but it is epic. We are deeply moved by Jenny and hope she knows what an impact her willingness and courage has on those who are willing to listen, learn, feel and act. The phrase, “we are all walking around wounded,” seems so apropos. Are we willing to see our wounds - those that came from others and yes, those we inflicted on others? Once we are willing to do that, will we muster the courage to accept, forgive and move forward in ways that reflect our new knowledge and deepest desires? It seems Jenny is traveling that road quite humbly and beautifully. Our heartfelt thanks to her for sharing her story and to you all, for sharing her story with us all in your exquisitely lovey and sensitive ways. The best to each and all, near and far, Justin and Kathleen, USA
@Papa Bear - Dear Justin and Kathleen. I am deeply moved by your message, by your sharing of your own personal experiences, and your journey. I am seeing Jenny on Wednesday. I will share your message with her, to let her know of the impact that she has had. Much love to you both, for each step that you take. x
@@ReflectionsofLife Thank you so much. We are deeply touched snd grateful. We hope Jenny can recognize and honor the brave, honest and gentle walk she is allowing herself to take. Such courage. Such courage.
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You have a BEAUTIFUL SMILE! As I watched, and listened to you, I could feel your pain! And my eyes filled with wells. At the same time I could feel your STRENGTH! ♥️ Thank You for sharing your TRUTH 😊
For more times than I could ever count, I was told by my Mother, " I wish you were never born !" Like Jenny, I learned years ago, acceptance is the only option. The past is done. Amazing, kind, and brave...only a few of the words I use to describe someone I've never met. Thank you Jenny for being all of these and sharing with the world your experiences and your love. You have made an immeasurable impact on so many...love and light, always 💜
And the sad thing is, we just get used to the 'wish you were never born' and think it's normal. It's true, as she says, that you can't go through life blaming your parents, but I spent 50 years blaming myself and I think that was worse.
So deeply touched by this Jenny.. it's true, one never forgets the rawness of hurt.... I feel your pain but so pleased to know you are strong enough to now view the past for what it was...you are inspiring..I love your painting ... your cat ... your walk to the shore .... a beautiful soul...thank you for speaking to us...stay well 💞
@Linda Ellis - She is very inspiring indeed. And there is so much that we can learn from each other, when we really take the time to listen with an open heart 💚
Absolutely agree Kathleen - with each new day, we have the opportunity to make a shift. And this is one of three films that we've made with Jenny - in case you missed the other two, you can see them here: All Cats Are Black - ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html Now You are Free - ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html Warm hugs. Justine and Michael 💚
It takes a strong person to be so open and vulnerable. There is an old saying, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. It certainly builds character in any case. I also read something a time back that said, the cracks are where the light comes in. Then there is Kintsugi which is the art of putting broken pottery back together with gold. The idea is to embrace our flaws & imperfections. Jenny is such a gem. That golden glow is seeping thru for us to see. I too am Kintsugi. I imagine we all are to one degree or another. Thank you Jenny for opening your heart. You have touched mine. I am deeply grateful for these magnificent stories.
@marycatfish - Thank you for sharing this deeply moving message. You've said it all so beautifully. We're so grateful to you guys, who continue to support us on this journey, one film at a time. xxx
The way I have managed to get through till now, I have from a very young age always said they can have the first 50 yrs the day I turn 50(which is in 9 days)the next 50 are mine. 😘💜
@Lordy Maah - We've all got a story to share. We've found that, when we take a step back and truly listen to each other, a world of true, honest, authentic dialogue opens up. It's beautiful 💚
this is a remarkable woman! she handled life beautifully and she became a beautiful person for the life she had to live! her mother gave her all the love she could! I had a mother just like hers!
Thank you for your kind words, we are glad her message spoke to you deeply. We have more videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), ‘NOW YOU ARE FREE’(ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚 Sending you warmest of hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Oh Jenny what a tale to have survived so much cruelty and then to arise as you have. Thank you for showing that at 65 u can find happiness which is so richly deserved. I love you joy of art.. your style of dress. I also made mistakes with looking for love in the wrong place. I turned to drink. These past 6 years have been sober so hope I’ve managed to make up for my mistakes. You are such a very very brave soul. Your art shines. Your an amazing woman I’m so very glad to hav met you. I wish you all the happiness in the world. You truly desire it. Don’t cry over the past leave it there. Be your amazing self. You are loved. Blessed be🧚🙏🏻🧚♂️
the loneliness that jenny was talking about is REAL. it's a wound, so deep. so raw. my mother didn't know how to love herself, let alone me. when jenny talked about that time when her mom was packing her bags for school, after a night filled with hope and happiness-that sadness. oh that sadness. i understood that. what a let down and in that moment, it became difficult to trust others, in fear that they would also let me down-like my mom did. i'm currently educating, healing and beginning the process of loving myself. accepting myself (and all my flaws). and being kinder to myself...it's a process. a long process. i hope t to feel what life is like, for the last twenty years of her life!!! I'm sure all the surviving and difficult work on herself, was WORTH it! eeeks! thank you jenny, for your vulnerability. it wasn't wasted. knowing that i'm not alone in the struggle and validating what i thought was " no big deal" or "others have it worse than me". you're amazing! xo
@Sierra Jackson - To know that you have started on the journey of forgiveness, self acceptance, self love - that is magical. The process is long, and it isn't always easy - but every step is worth it, every step brings you one step closer to healing. We send you much love on your journey x
I needed to hear this. My mother is what one would call a narcissist. It is hard to love her, but as she is 85 and health failing, I am trying to help her with her day-to-day activities and endless doctor appointments. Thank you, Jenny. This helped me a lot.
@Cate Dennis - We are glad that Jenny's story could help you to maybe see your relationship with your mother in a slightly different way. We all have our own baggage. Thanks for caring for her the way that you are. Big hugs 💚
Your story is almost identical to mine ... my mother couldn’t show love ( nor my dad ) , I felt lost lonely to at times. Betrayed when I needed their support the most . My mum died aged 86 18 months ago ... she missed out on a great relationship with her daughter ..and was forced to miss out on a loving mum . Sad 😔
The world is full of deceivers and the deceived, injured souls surviving their truth everywhere. I loved this film, true and raw. I've been in similar situations, the only thing I did sensibly was never losing or giving up people I loved and cherished for the worthless relationships I momentarily indulged in. None were really worth it. that twinkle in her eyes, when she talks of her children x!
We agree - her light shines so brightly. And she has touched the lives of many through the sharing of her story. And this is one of three films that we've made with Jenny - in case you missed the other two, you can see them here: All Cats Are Black - ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html Now You are Free - ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html Warm hugs to you for a happy week. Justine and Michael 💚
Jenny, thank you for telling your story, which is so much like my own.Where there is life, there is hope. My hope is that I can find my way, alone but not lonely, despite alienation from my children, not of my choosing.I now appreciate my heart family, if I am unable to connect with my own. Life is such a gift, no matter what it brings.🐈
Ahh bittersweet. I too know the betrayal of my mother. Devastating. Healing now, after almost 40 yr of that hanging around my neck. Quite right, honest and responsibility. My mother sacrificed us for her husband. Beautifully made film. Thankyou ❤
So happy Jenny's message spoke to you. Sorry to read about your experiences when you grew up. We have two more videos with Jenny on our channel - 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warmest hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I wish I couldve been given this advice back in high school. I sacrificed my studies and my happiness to invest myself in negativity and insecurity. I pushed all the people who loved me away, and latched onto those who didn't - for the pain, for that pinch that I was alive. it was a phenomenal experience, phenomenally mine, and I wont ever regret it. But I wish I hadnt hurt the ones I loved. I wish i could go back and make the wound as if it were never there, because the stitches are always coming undone, because of the pressures of time and broken trust.
@Tafhima Khatun - And what Jenny taught us during our conversations with her, is that the past is the past, we simply can't go back and change it. But we can, from today, choose our intentions, our words, our actions - we can choose to change course, to pick a new path. And that's what Jenny did. It's not easy to change direction, it takes courage, but it's worth it, it always is! Hugs to you on your journey Tafhima. x
@@ReflectionsofLife Thank you very much for this beautiful message; I am choosing the future over the past from now - one more good action now instead of dwelling on a bad action in the past. I hope this encourages others on the same journey as me, my prayers go out to all of you xx
For this woman to share her story at such an age, to define her raw experience of a mother that was lost, is so touching, so heartfelt. Many of us have had similar experiences and for some reason, her story seems so unique, heartfelt and sad. “There is a time when you have to accept what happened to you as a child, but it doesn’t stop the hurt.” Wow!!! That’s me. Thank you for this.
You are my mirror, Ms. Jenny! Love you! My mother never asked for forgiveness, she was bitter until the day she died. But I had forgiven her long ago, for my own sanity. I accept what happened but I still sit with my emotions somedays. It was definitely a reflection of her life, not mine. All I can do is try each day!
Such kind words Stacy. We have two more videos with Jenny on our channel: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html) and earlier this year 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I feel as if I've been eavesdropping on a therapy session. I wish her well. I've been reading Nietzsche again and one of the points he made was that have to say "yes" to life, embracing both good and evil. You cannot have one without the other. He draws upon the Greek myth of Dionysus, personifying the concept, the idea of "amor fatti".
My life is mirrored very similarly to yours. Thank you for teaching me today. You have changed many lives for the better! Your hurts and sorrows and mistakes weren’t for naught! Thank you for your transparency and willingness to heal others with your example. The negatives have now been turned into positives!
I just want to add that it is vitally important to offer to oneself what you might more "easily" offer to another... Such as acceptance or "forgiveness"...
Jenny went through rejection, not feeling loved. She is a strong woman and wants to make sure her children love her. You're never alone, God is with you. You are a survivor! Loved your story!
I truly get your journey. Longing for the love you wished you had as a child, will lead you down paths that are so damaging to yourself and others. I pray you find peace and self love.
I am watching this 2 days after finding my husband dead. He fell out of a tree and died almost instantly from blunt force trauma. I am devastated as after many years I found the man who had completed me. I can't say why, but this film provided me hope that maybe I can get through this day. What we cannot change, we must endure.
Oh dearest Deborah. We are devastated to hear of the sudden passing of your husband. And we hope that, with time, the hurt heals. May you continue to carry precious memories of your time together with him, close to your heart. We have made a few other films dealing specifically with the topics of grief and loss - if you would like me to share these links with you, drop me an email (hello@greenrenaissance.co.za) and I'll happily reply. You are in our thoughts. Much love and gentle kindness. Justine 💚
God bless you! I am from Croatia.
thank you ❤️
I'm so incredibly sorry. Sending prayers and love 💛
God bless you. How are you doing today Darling?
‘We are all victims of victims’ someone once told me. I have forgiven myself for the years of anguish I felt trying to make sense of why my mother withdrew emotion from me right from being a baby. Now I choose to believe she was just the vessel that brought me in to the universe and it’s my destiny to find love from everything around me - especially my garden. You create such heartfelt films, thank you so much 💚
Broken mothers are just sad for their children and themselves. What a waste of a life and a cruelty for the children. But life just ain’t fair and will never be because it has people in it.
Well said it's a true
@Deb Fletcher - A deeply heartfelt message - thank you Deb x
@@deborahgrantham7387 Dear Deborah, Earth is not meant for one feeling/experience alone, it is meant to experience, period, in free will, what ever comes with this. Like you and countless others, I found out through living with my family why all that I went through happened, which is a blessing and changes/deepens the older I get.
I am a broken mother, my 38 y. old daughter can attest, in spite of a great hardship she lived through because of both her parents, my daughter is kind and wise and loving, true miracle if you were to know details. I am not, thank goodness, the person I was and I am, an evolved version who understands so so much more.
One thing that helped me, in my experience, is flexibility, accepting new ideas, seeing new possibilities in the same patterns, I believe in reincarnation, my 2 NDEs helped me understand this, so much more.
Hoping you're going to be all right and at peace with whatever comes.
Same here!! Love my garden and my mom was the same emotionless .... it has affected me so much I haven’t spoken a word to her in almost 5 years
Jenny is strong because she knows her weakness.
Jenny is compassionate
because she has suffered.
Jenny is alive because she is a fighter.
Jenny can laugh because
she has known sadness.
Jenny can love because
she has known loss.
She is a strong woman who has weathered the storm,
but still loves to dance in the rain.
Yes.. forgiveness is the right pace towards healing 🙏
@Tanuja Banerjee - Love this. Thank you x
Well said
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And it's so nice of you to say that. ❤
Love this!!!!!
This was wonderful. I'll take women like this and mini-documentary profiles like this over the Kardashians and social media 'influencers' any day. I really enjoyed this, beautifully shot, edited and paced. Thank you.
You are so welcome, we are glad we could share the video. Thank you for your kind words about our work. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Agree. I have a picture of Lady Diana in black and white that says " In a world filled with Kardashians, be Diana"
I agree !! Far more real and inspiring than a bunch of plastic people
I agree! What a delight to find a woman that can inspire.
So do I!
“I always looked for my identity in these dreadful men” that was powerful!
Thank you for watching, Lisa. We are glad you appreciated her message. Maybe you would like to hear more from Jenny. There are two more videos: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html) and earlier this year 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Many of us do. Or used to.
I could listen to you for hours. You are so enchanting. Please know your audience loves you!
From Texas, USA.
Me too, sister🙏🏻💕
Very
I woke up today. Feeling low.
I put on All Cats are Black and this video.
I close my eyes and give this lady a huge hug.
Thanking her for her brutally honest words.
Sometimes I cry when I watch this other times I feel empowered.
Today she's empowered me
I so agree☺️
That's exactly how I felt...I wanted to give her a big hug!
My mother was orphaned at 2 years old and had to live with an uncle and his wife. They treated her horribly. As a result she had little to give to her own children. She fed and clothed us, but mine too was an icy terrified childhood. This woman here, speaking her truth with such courage blessed me deep in my soul. God bless you darling Jenny ❤️
Thank you for sharing your own experiences, sad to hear about your mother's experiences and yours. We are glad Jenny's words blessed you. There is an earlier video with her - 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html). Maybe you watched it already. Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I would love to have a cup of tea with Mrs Jackson.. and thank her.
@Wojciech Keller - I'll be sure to pass along your message x
And also get some life advice from her because she has so much wisdom.
@@ReflectionsofLife I want your email Id for posting such videos as I want to thank you.
I love it when she says, "We have to move on from blaming our parents." Also I love when she says "We have to move on and say what happened, happened." I am 45 now and I think I am ready to let go of the hurt. I have had a lot of hurt, loss, and neglect in my life. I don't think I ever have known who I was. I can move on from that now. I think seeing her and how this woman is in her age gives me hope for the next half of my life. Thank you for this portrait of a wonderful woman. I wish to become just like her.
Sorry to hear that you too have suffered such loss and hurt during your life so far. But we are glad that Jenny's story can help to serve as inspiration to know that things can change - we have the power to take control and shift things around. May you arrive at a place of peace dear friend.
And this is one of three films that we've made with Jenny - in case you missed the other two, you can see them here:
All Cats Are Black - ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html
Now You are Free - ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html
Warm hugs. Justine and Michael 💚
Seeing this one year from when you posted just wanted to say I hope it worked out. Life can be hard.
Well said. I wish to become just like her as well.
How do you let go ? I've tried so hard by distracting myself but I feel like I'll never be healed.
@@nicoletjeng9793 honestly you just have to find other things to put your energy into. I think as you age you just don’t care as much of what others think. That has been my experience. I am enjoying getting older for that part. The body falling apart sucks but as a woman I think it is kind of a blessing getting more invisible. Life is a trip.
This woman is so adorable. Even with wrinkles and age, her sweetness shines so brightly. Adore her.
So do we - she is a true gem!
Justine and Michael 💚
Those of us who suffered from neglect or abuse as children are so hard on ourselves as parents. We try hard that our own children will not suffer as we did, yet they will have their challenges in dealing with us parents because we are human after all. Her comment at the end, that she believes her children do love her, is a reminder to all of us are are trying. It is something that we probably do not acknowledge as often as we should, that we are and were good parents even for our weaknesses and that we are loved.
@Farmwife - With this message you have so beautifully captured the essence of Jenny's story. 💚
Thank you for your message. It put a rose inside my heart 🌹
well said. i feel the same way.
Same ❤️
Yes, some of us even decide not to be parents at all so we don,t screw ourselves further or our future children.
She is so well spoken. What a lovely lady. WOW!
She really is a wonderful lady - than you for your message.
Sooooo sad that children are born into loneliness.. I can relate to the feeling of betrayal, I’d felt that when my mother betrayed me when I needed the opposite. It stays with you .
So absolutely beautiful. I hurt for her painful past and I am so very proud of her present and her future. I am crying as I type this. She gives a voice to so many who are hurting and she gives those great inspiration and hope for their own lives today and for all their tomorrows. Thank you, Jenny for being so open, honest and brave. Thank you so much.
@Aliza Crimson - I wish I could give this 100 heart signs. Beautifully said Aliza. Thank you x
So inspiring and yet so terribly sad ... my relationship with my mother ( and father if I’m honest) was lonely.
@@lifeslessons9889 me too! Hugs 🤗⚘
Crying my eyes out of my head at this very moment too. Soooo much pain, truth and beautiful wisdom in this video.
Yes: she gives a voice to those who are hurting. What a a beautiful soul
So powerful. I cannot stop crying - I am soon to be 65 and I have to try harder to stop feeling so angry that my mother was not there for me. You have helped immensely. 🙏
Thank you Amanda, for opening your heart to all that Jenny shared with us. We hope that her story can continue to inspire you towards a place of peace and self love.
And this is one of three films that we've made with Jenny - in case you missed the other two, you can see them here:
All Cats Are Black - ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html
Now You are Free - ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html
Warm hugs. Justine and Michael 💚
She’s an angel that doesn’t even realise she has such beautiful wings 🪽
Very beautiful, thank you for sharing.
We have more videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), ‘NOW YOU ARE FREE’(ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
What an amazing and beautiful woman
I need more of her...omg...it's like a cleansing deep therapy session...crying along....
The first one was beautiful too.
Now I am addicted..please bring her back for nr 3...and 4....5
Yes please.
@Suzan w - I see an entire 'Jenny Series' in the making ;) Who knows.... 💚
@@ReflectionsofLife Even after watching it has it's hooks imbedded in the watcher. You just keep thinking deeply about her words...long after watching.
What I found so beautiful and less heartachy was that she shared, her Mom came to the awareness of her icy cold emotional withholding and abusiveness. That made it a bit sweeter.
Very courageous of her and insightful to share that she sacrificed her kids for the love of men and that she begged for forgiveness.
Maybe it is best to give her her own show.
Love love love.
Thank you Green Renaissance for these beyond beautiful gems.
Bless you all
@@ReflectionsofLife Yes please!!!
Yes please
This Chanel is a blessing💜
You are very kind - thank you.
We hope to bring you many more films.
@@ReflectionsofLife never stop please ❤
I agree. I am mesmerized. This one in particular, is similar to my life story.
evet
It is my favourite channel
With some people you fall in love in an instant, Jenny’s exactly one of those
What a great soul ❤️ Take care xx
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I agree ... a lady with hurt . We have that in common x
I felt the same way when I first heard her speak... she was already beautiful to me
I agree! I share the same sentiments! Such a beautiful soul ❤️
They pain of neglect and abuse by a "mother" injures one....
My "mother" was BRUTAL ..I became her punching bag in EVERY sense of the word..
I REALLY needed this...
We are glad this video was good for you. There is one more video with Jenny, 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html). Warm wishes, Justine and Michael.💚
Same here
Its been a year now, i hope youre getting thru life ok
So sorry... 🙏... 💖
So recognize that very unfortunately! My mother was brutal, laughed in my face about me, always being critical on me, always telling me what I could not do, or what I did not do and should do. My appearance was wrong , my attitude, my achievements ( which indeed were not much because I suppose I felt frozen and a failure by the start) Strange fact, as a todler I was utterly cute, so she adored me then. I guess... at least she told me later on in life. Though I never felt it. As child not so cute anymore and the abuse started than. Always have had the feeling I could never do it right in her eyes. Till high age she kept on being critical on me and I rather did not see her.One of the strong things that came up after her passing was: I am so sorry I could not be as beautiful as you wanted me to be.Still I need to get to terms with this abuse.
It doesn't matter how old you are to discover who you truly are, and to look for the treasures that God buried deep inside you ❤️. What a great lady!
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agree💕💕💕💕
❤️🙏🏻🌹😘
Dear Jenny, When I first watched ur video. I cried on the subway while I'm on my way to work. u gave me huge inspiration. I really wanna see u in person. From South Korea.
Thank you Ashley - we are so humbled that Jenny's film resonated with you. Thank you for taking the time to write to us. We are glad that Jenny was able to give you inspiration.
I am so deeply moved by this woman. Thank you for this interview.
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Yes indeed . I too will reach her age hopefully...and still feel the same loss and hurt , she is right...the cut is too deep to ever be repaired fully .
Incredible! She has gone through so much anguish and still she rises. Imagine the agony she must have gone through, trustingly holding her parents hands , and looking forward to returning to the security of a stable home, and savouring that moment to its fullest, only to find the very next day, that her mother was packing her bags to send her back to boarding school and darkness.
How shattered she must have felt, to return to an antagonistic environment. It scarred her for life and yet with time, she forgave and courageously came to terms with her destiny.
Thank you for this deeply moving film. It shook me to the core, and made me more aware than ever, to never take love, warmth and understanding for granted.
Thank you Sarah - we so humbled that you found this film moving.
We agree with you never take, love for granted.
Thank you.
To be a child and feel your world shattering around you. I am a grown man. I cried at that moment that you described in your reply.
❤❤ Jenny, I am 79 years old ❤❤
I thought I was the only person in this entire world that I too went through the same life as yours.
I thank the Lord for letting me find your story.
I was only 5 years old when my parents separated and when I saw my father for the last time going to church by himself with his head down.
I was at my grandmother's home but I was not allowed to even hug him.
I was born in Mexico and as you know during that time women in general did not have jobs.
My mother left myself and 2 sister's with my grandmother and came to the USA to find a job.
For this reason, I never really associated with my sisters or felt any love towards them.
They stayed with my grandmother, I was the only one sent away for 9 years.
I don't blame my grandmother for taking me to a boarding school.
I understand now at my age why she did it.
But, my aunt (my mother's step sister) told me when I was leaving the house, that the reason I had to go to a boarding school is because I looked like my father. Had the same name, his was Luis mine was Luisa.
I never forgot what she said.
I was inside that school until I graduated at 14 years old.
The school was like a jail, on top of the tall brick fence were pieces of cut bottles, so that if you tried to get out, you will cut your body and bleed.
I never had anyone give me a hug. All I had was the others students.
Yet, I never said a word, I accepted my life inside the school.
We went to class for regular curriculum, we learn how to make our own cloth, cut hair and other things that I don't remember right now.
Sports, were my favorite, because we had competitions as to which was the best school.
There's tons that we can talk, laugh and cry together.
I had to make my soul, body and heart strong in order to survive.
Take care my friend and stay healthy. I never knew I had a soul mate in life, until I met you.❤❤
Thank God for RUclips ❤❤
Thank you for sharing all your personal experiences with us. This goes very deep... We are endlessly glad you were were able to share this video with you. May Jenny's word help and encourage you, and bring some peace. We hope you got through life ok. So happy you found a soulmate in Jenny.
Not sure if you know but we have more videos with her on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), ‘Now You Are Free’ (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Sending much love and kindness to you. Justine and Michael. 💚
Hello first time viewing this channel , as many others who have commented before me, I consider this to be a much needed no nonsense view on life at all ages. I am 4months off 73, I keep doing what I've always done enjoy life and the beauty is everywhere, the smallest to the largest the seen and the unseen, we know it's there. Life is for living forgiving being , we are all part of the same universe. I'm a writer last year I had my first book published it was something I had imagined and now it's out there. I will soon publish a second edition.
Blessings to all. Hugs . 💚🌹👏
Well done on publishing a book and even a second edition. Glad you are enjoying life with all it's small and big things. Keep going, all the best for everything you will still do.
You might know about the other videos with Jenny but here are the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), ‘NOW YOU ARE FREE’(ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warmest hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Thankyou
Omg, she's a lovely woman. And her paintings are so full of soul. I loved this so much, and I've watched a few..
@Solange Thompson - It's great to have you along on this journey with us x
Beautiful woman. It’s interesting because when I was young I wished with all my heart that my parents would have sent me to live elsewhere. My mother often told me she wished I hadn’t been born and there was so much abuse and chaos I longed to be away from it. The damage done is deep. So, perhaps Jenny’s mother did her a favor. Maybe she knew she’d be safer away from her. I love this portrait and this channel. Thank you!
I agree and yes my mother sounds the same as yours and yes I pretended in my own head I lived somewhere else to cope
Can I ask, how did that make you feel growing up, that your mother said that to you?
@@bathemeinchampagne sorry you felt it was intrusive - I explore feelings maybe not here though!
Me too don't think you ever properly heal
Such a powerful authentic woman! God bless her.
Any feedback over hindi captions?I did that
"The danger is to look to other people to make you feel real - that can only work so long. And when you go to bed at night and your alone, it's difficult to feel real when you're living off somebody else who isn't there."
This touched so, so deep. Jenny is so right.
Thank you or watching, we are glad it had so much meaning to you. There are two more videos with Jenny on our channel, 'All Cats Are Black' and 'Now You Are Free', if you would like to watch them. Kind wishes, Justine and Michael.💚
Wow! " Being alone is not a hardship, izs an essential for the spirit".... Amazing
Its different from being lonely ❤
Glad her message spoke to you deeply. We have more videos with Jenny, here are the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warmest wishes, Justine and Michael. 💚
It was like she was talking directly to me and giving me the advice I needed in this precise moment of my life. Thank you for sharing her wisdom with us. ❤️
@Lina Molinas Comet - So glad that you found this film when you needed it most x
Oh my, this was spot on for me as well exactly at the right time. God sure does work in mysterious ways
Why must your videos always reduce to me to tears, GR?! This hits home in so many ways. There is a quote by someone (can't recall whom) that says "Forgive me the hurt I caused you, my child - it wasn't through lack of love for you, but lack of love for myself" Jenny's hurt echoes the hurting that so many of us experience, I suspect. What a fabulous video, thank you so much. :)
@Scribble Artie - That quote beautifully captures the essence of Jenny's story. Thanks for sharing, thanks for always feeling the story that each character shares with us. x
Jenny you taught me something today
It's true that we can't blame our parents.
Thank you for your honesty and insight. As you said, we all have baggage. I'm 71 and am still dealing with emotions resulting from my upbringing. I'm working at putting it behind me. Thank you for the encouragement!
i really and sincerely want her to write her story into a book. her words and her descriptions all everything makes me so touched and crying deep in my heart. Oh how beautiful and touching deep inside her is ....
We see you found this video already. Lovely words again. Much love, Justine and Michael. 💚
I love the rawness of Jenny's words
What a wonderful soul in all her honesty and vulnerability. And I love her art and the way she dresses. Your videos are very precious to me. They are done so tastefully and with so much sensitivity. Thank you!
@Susanne Dobrusskin - Thanks for noticing all those small intimate details. And it's great to have you along on this journey with us x
Soooo fasten your seat belts cause Life is Good.. thank you for my present moment in this time n place.
Have a good day afternoon evening
@@ReflectionsofLife In your Now You Are Free video there are such lovely moments of white lace curtains. Transporting. This one is so difficult to process, because I know of this pain.
Amen to that!
I love and noticed those very things
Beautiful woman with a precious heart!
Jennie spoke such true words. My mother had high-functioning autism and my father left us when I was about six. I saw him only once when I was 15 and never again after that. My mother had to struggle so hard to work and take care of us, but she was also different - communicating with her was very difficult, getting her attention was impossible. I felt a terrible amount of pity for her as a child but also revulsion and abandonment. It is hard to accept, and yet it must be accepted. Thank you Jennie for articulating some of this pain and difficulty and thank you to Green Renaissance for making such a beautiful and painful video.
A very moving message Jennifer. Thank you for sharing your experiences. And you are right - we need to find a way to accept and be at peace with those aspects of our past that we cannot change. We hope that your heart is at peace. Warm hugs. Justine and Michael 💚
This is THE most heart felt , honest loving message I could relate to in all the videos I watched. Thank you so much.
Her soul spoke to mine.
Beautiful. Thank you.
Who knew, the two most loving words , Love and Mummy could turn out so painful ? she still tears up thinking about it, thats so so sad.
❤ n Hugs.
Many people don't realize we need something until it's gone or we realize it could be gone.
She is so wise, insightful, and articulate! Her comments reflect years and years of introspection. One huge takeaway for me was when she said, “What they did, they did with their own baggage.” I will keep this gem and mull it around in my head because that perspective is so often overlooked.
We're so glad that this story resonated with you, and that it's given you food for thought. Warmest of hugs. Justine and Michael x
What a wise & amazing woman. She’s so beautiful.
Thanks for seeing the beauty, and for opening your heart to all that Jenny shared with us.
Warm hugs. Justine and Michael 💚
Such a beautiful lady.....💖
Every child, who have gone through a difficult divorce, or come from dysfunctional families, in their family of origin, can feel into this. And most of us are coming from that. Where many still do not know anything on what love is, many still believe it is about material security. And most grownups are still kidnapped into stress,, and believe love is competing with how to win, over the other. This could also be called "Love, daddy", cause this, has no gender.
Beautiful, to listen to, you
@Levandetag - It certainly is a story that touches us all in some way, and to some degree, regardless of gender, age, race, religion... Much love to you x
God bless you, Jenny
We have now watched this deeply moving video several times. It has taken those viewings and then also, time, to be able to try and find the words to respond. Your presentation was beautiful and respectful, as always - thank you.
It’s difficult to know how to best express the feelings we have regarding this video, along with Jenny’s first one. Her pain is palpable. Her courage is strong, yet humble and tender. She is willing ... she is willing. And that’s really it, isn’t it?
She is willing .... to remember, to feel, to try, to keep trying, to learn, to talk, to share, to be honest, to be afraid, to paint, to be courageous enough to be hopeful, to forgive, to live, to love. Such courage, such courage. And from that, such hope. Such hope - for her, for those she loves and yes, for each of us in this world we share.
It has taken my wife and I years of being willing. It cannot be done without courage, as Jenny’s powerful story illustrates. My wife and I each came from families who loved us, but had NO clue how to actually love us. Our individual emptiness, subsequent unhealthy adult decisions and then ultimately, our individual willingness to face our respective pasts and futures is what brought us to each other in this life. We continue to be committed to getting better, to doing better, to being better. We are so grateful to Jenny for her moving story and to this channel - for the lovely support it gives us with every viewing.
We have learned much and continue to have much to learn - married 30 years now, with us each in our 60’s. We believe our sense of individual and collective empathy comes from the darkness of our early lives ... and then, in our 30’s - our willingness to walk through that darkness, with a light of hope, acceptance and a deep desire to truly live our lives ... just as Jenny is doing.
We believe Jenny feels so deeply because she felt so deeply, as a child, and then, for how her childhood pain drove many of her adult decisions. No one can be the perfect or even the best “anything” - the perfect parent, the perfect child, the best sibling, the perfect friend. We feel Jenny’s pain in her regrets of parenting her own children. Our hope is she will forgive herself and hold onto the words of Maya Angelou, “when we know better, we can do better.” One might spend energy on asking the question as to why the “knowing” so often comes later in life. That is a question on a road with no end. Instead, we hope she can embrace that once she began to know ... she began to do better, continues to want to do better, and is doing better.. That is all and everything one can do. It may appear simple, but it is epic.
We are deeply moved by Jenny and hope she knows what an impact her willingness and courage has on those who are willing to listen, learn, feel and act. The phrase, “we are all walking around wounded,” seems so apropos. Are we willing to see our wounds - those that came from others and yes, those we inflicted on others? Once we are willing to do that, will we muster the courage to accept, forgive and move forward in ways that reflect our new knowledge and deepest desires? It seems Jenny is traveling that road quite humbly and beautifully.
Our heartfelt thanks to her for sharing her story and to you all, for sharing her story with us all in your exquisitely lovey and sensitive ways.
The best to each and all, near and far, Justin and Kathleen, USA
@Papa Bear - Dear Justin and Kathleen. I am deeply moved by your message, by your sharing of your own personal experiences, and your journey. I am seeing Jenny on Wednesday. I will share your message with her, to let her know of the impact that she has had. Much love to you both, for each step that you take. x
@@ReflectionsofLife Thank you so much. We are deeply touched snd grateful. We hope Jenny can recognize and honor the brave, honest and gentle walk she is allowing herself to take. Such courage. Such courage.
It is fascinating how the pain lasts so long...
"Not feed off others" - made so much sense. Thanks so much for sharing with such honesty.
She is lovely 😊. Love Jenny's button shoes.
We love her and her shoes.
@@ReflectionsofLife I love her too !
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@Joe S - Beautiful message. Thank you x
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You have a BEAUTIFUL SMILE! As I watched, and listened to you, I could feel your pain! And my eyes filled with wells. At the same time I could feel your STRENGTH! ♥️ Thank You for sharing your TRUTH 😊
Thank you for watching Terri. We appreciate your kind words. Warm wishes, Justine and Michael. 💚
What a gorgeous woman!
We are so happy that you enjoyed this video. We released two more with her, 'All Cats Are Black' and "Now You Are Free'. 💚
When ever I feel bad, I watch your videos. They make me feel better. I really appreciate it. Keep up the good work.
@Sandra Hobbs - It's great to have you along on this journey with us x
I love you
For more times than I could ever count, I was told by my Mother, " I wish you were never born !" Like Jenny, I learned years ago, acceptance is the only option. The past is done. Amazing, kind, and brave...only a few of the words I use to describe someone I've never met. Thank you Jenny for being all of these and sharing with the world your experiences and your love. You have made an immeasurable impact on so many...love and light, always 💜
And the sad thing is, we just get used to the 'wish you were never born' and think it's normal. It's true, as she says, that you can't go through life blaming your parents, but I spent 50 years blaming myself and I think that was worse.
I am so very sorry for those who were told this. My heart goes out to you and I believe you were put here on purpose, with a Purpose. You are loved.
So deeply touched by this Jenny.. it's true, one never forgets the rawness of hurt.... I feel your pain but so pleased to know you are strong enough to now view the past for what it was...you are inspiring..I love your painting ... your cat ... your walk to the shore .... a beautiful soul...thank you for speaking to us...stay well 💞
@Linda Ellis - She is very inspiring indeed. And there is so much that we can learn from each other, when we really take the time to listen with an open heart 💚
What her mother did to her breaks my heart. This lady is wonderful and real❤️
Jenny really is such a wonderful real person. Thanks for your message.
A wonderful woman, yes there is always hope ❤️ x
Absolutely agree Kathleen - with each new day, we have the opportunity to make a shift.
And this is one of three films that we've made with Jenny - in case you missed the other two, you can see them here:
All Cats Are Black - ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html
Now You are Free - ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html
Warm hugs. Justine and Michael 💚
It takes a strong person to be so open and vulnerable. There is an old saying, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. It certainly builds character in any case. I also read something a time back that said, the cracks are where the light comes in. Then there is Kintsugi which is the art of putting broken pottery back together with gold. The idea is to embrace our flaws & imperfections. Jenny is such a gem. That golden glow is seeping thru for us to see. I too am Kintsugi. I imagine we all are to one degree or another. Thank you Jenny for opening your heart. You have touched mine. I am deeply grateful for these magnificent stories.
Beautifully said. Thank you.
@marycatfish - Thank you for sharing this deeply moving message. You've said it all so beautifully. We're so grateful to you guys, who continue to support us on this journey, one film at a time. xxx
What a wonderful lady, thnk you for sharing.
@Lachlan Welsh - Glad that you enjoyed it x
Jenny you have touched me more than you will ever know 🙏
I could see so much of my life through her story. She is a great soul, so real and open to her tragedy and emotional forgiveness.
"it is easy to keep living with some negative aspects that keep us feel alive ... it is very easy thing to do"
Letting go and forgiving is the only way forward.
The way I have managed to get through till now, I have from a very young age always said they can have the first 50 yrs the day I turn 50(which is in 9 days)the next 50 are mine. 😘💜
@Gypsierose Jane - Let us be the first to wish you a very happy birthday for 9 days from now 💚
@@ReflectionsofLife thankyou ✌️💜
Happy belated birthday and congratulations on your freedom. It's glorious...I just got mine at 47.
@@shaundaross123 thankyou 💜 life really is as beautiful as we want to be. Celebrate everyday, we will never be this old or young again 💜🥰🌟👋✌️
Just sending you a great big hug and a beautiful blessing for your 50th year! I’m in mine as well! 😁🤗🌺
Where do you find these INCREDIBLE people. OMG...so wendy, so inspiring. Thank you!
@Lordy Maah - We've all got a story to share. We've found that, when we take a step back and truly listen to each other, a world of true, honest, authentic dialogue opens up. It's beautiful 💚
this is a remarkable woman! she handled life beautifully and she became a beautiful person for the life she had to live! her mother gave her all the love she could! I had a mother just like hers!
Thank you for your kind words, we are glad her message spoke to you deeply.
We have more videos with Jenny on our channel, here are all the links: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html), ‘NOW YOU ARE FREE’(ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Sending you warmest of hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Oh Jenny what a tale to have survived so much cruelty and then to arise as you have. Thank you for showing that at 65 u can find happiness which is so richly deserved. I love you joy of art.. your style of dress. I also made mistakes with looking for love in the wrong place. I turned to drink. These past 6 years have been sober so hope I’ve managed to make up for my mistakes. You are such a very very brave soul. Your art shines. Your an amazing woman I’m so very glad to hav met you. I wish you all the happiness in the world. You truly desire it. Don’t cry over the past leave it there. Be your amazing self. You are loved. Blessed be🧚🙏🏻🧚♂️
the loneliness that jenny was talking about is REAL. it's a wound, so deep. so raw. my mother didn't know how to love herself, let alone me. when jenny talked about that time when her mom was packing her bags for school, after a night filled with hope and happiness-that sadness. oh that sadness. i understood that. what a let down and in that moment, it became difficult to trust others, in fear that they would also let me down-like my mom did. i'm currently educating, healing and beginning the process of loving myself. accepting myself (and all my flaws). and being kinder to myself...it's a process. a long process. i hope t to feel what life is like, for the last twenty years of her life!!! I'm sure all the surviving and difficult work on herself, was WORTH it! eeeks! thank you jenny, for your vulnerability. it wasn't wasted. knowing that i'm not alone in the struggle and validating what i thought was " no big deal" or "others have it worse than me". you're amazing! xo
@Sierra Jackson - To know that you have started on the journey of forgiveness, self acceptance, self love - that is magical. The process is long, and it isn't always easy - but every step is worth it, every step brings you one step closer to healing. We send you much love on your journey x
I needed to hear this. My mother is what one would call a narcissist. It is hard to love her, but as she is 85 and health failing, I am trying to help her with her day-to-day activities and endless doctor appointments. Thank you, Jenny. This helped me a lot.
@Cate Dennis - We are glad that Jenny's story could help you to maybe see your relationship with your mother in a slightly different way. We all have our own baggage. Thanks for caring for her the way that you are. Big hugs 💚
Your story is almost identical to mine ... my mother couldn’t show love ( nor my dad ) , I felt lost lonely to at times. Betrayed when I needed their support the most . My mum died aged 86 18 months ago ... she missed out on a great relationship with her daughter ..and was forced to miss out on a loving mum . Sad 😔
You are a saint
@@kehaulanif5249 That was sweet. Thank you.
My mom is a narcissist and my abuser all my life, now she's 94 and I'm trying to care for her. Thanks for sharing.
Such a kind and gentle lady. Hugz from Tennessee.
Thank you for your kind word.
Sending love from South Africa
Thank you so much for this beautiful Jenny. Love from Tennessee
The world is full of deceivers and the deceived, injured souls surviving their truth everywhere. I loved this film, true and raw. I've been in similar situations, the only thing I did sensibly was never losing or giving up people I loved and cherished for the worthless relationships I momentarily indulged in. None were really worth it. that twinkle in her eyes, when she talks of her children x!
So glad you loved the film - thanks for the comment. Hope to bring you many more.
She's so beautiful inside and out. Look how many people love you now sweet girl.
We agree - her light shines so brightly. And she has touched the lives of many through the sharing of her story.
And this is one of three films that we've made with Jenny - in case you missed the other two, you can see them here:
All Cats Are Black - ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html
Now You are Free - ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html
Warm hugs to you for a happy week. Justine and Michael 💚
Such true and wise words. Even having your mother at home doesn't guarantee anything. .
True.
Jenny, thank you for telling your story, which is so much like my own.Where there is life, there is hope. My hope is that I can find my way, alone but not lonely, despite alienation from my children, not of my choosing.I now appreciate my heart family, if I am unable to connect with my own. Life is such a gift, no matter what it brings.🐈
@K A Layne - There is always hope! Always. Hugs to you x
What a beautiful Strong lady. A heart touching story. She deserves all good things.
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Thank you so much for sharing her wisdom, honesty and talent. A beautiful, noble woman.
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Ahh bittersweet. I too know the betrayal of my mother. Devastating. Healing now, after almost 40 yr of that hanging around my neck. Quite right, honest and responsibility. My mother sacrificed us for her husband. Beautifully made film. Thankyou ❤
So happy Jenny's message spoke to you. Sorry to read about your experiences when you grew up.
We have two more videos with Jenny on our channel - 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html) and ‘We Didn’t Know’ (ruclips.net/video/cdpIec1iG6E/видео.html). Warmest hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
I wish I couldve been given this advice back in high school. I sacrificed my studies and my happiness to invest myself in negativity and insecurity. I pushed all the people who loved me away, and latched onto those who didn't - for the pain, for that pinch that I was alive. it was a phenomenal experience, phenomenally mine, and I wont ever regret it. But I wish I hadnt hurt the ones I loved. I wish i could go back and make the wound as if it were never there, because the stitches are always coming undone, because of the pressures of time and broken trust.
@Tafhima Khatun - And what Jenny taught us during our conversations with her, is that the past is the past, we simply can't go back and change it. But we can, from today, choose our intentions, our words, our actions - we can choose to change course, to pick a new path. And that's what Jenny did. It's not easy to change direction, it takes courage, but it's worth it, it always is! Hugs to you on your journey Tafhima. x
Me too. ❤️🙏
@@ReflectionsofLife Thank you very much for this beautiful message; I am choosing the future over the past from now - one more good action now instead of dwelling on a bad action in the past. I hope this encourages others on the same journey as me, my prayers go out to all of you xx
For this woman to share her story at such an age, to define her raw experience of a mother that was lost, is so touching, so heartfelt. Many of us have had similar experiences and for some reason, her story seems so unique, heartfelt and sad. “There is a time when you have to accept what happened to you as a child, but it doesn’t stop the hurt.” Wow!!! That’s me. Thank you for this.
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I had to go back and listen a second time to confirm that she was sent to boarding school at ONE AND A HALF!!!!????? How incredibly sad....
Me too!! Sooo sad. Sending you 60 years of hugs Jenny ✨🤍✨🤍✨
Omg... just no words 😭😭😭
This Is GRACE
Well, I love you, Jenny. You're wonderful. I, too, am still working to tame my beastly baggage at age 73. I hope my son forgives me...he's very kind.
This channel is just close to my heart....😍
Thank you.
You are my mirror, Ms. Jenny! Love you! My mother never asked for forgiveness, she was bitter until the day she died. But I had forgiven her long ago, for my own sanity. I accept what happened but I still sit with my emotions somedays. It was definitely a reflection of her life, not mine. All I can do is try each day!
@Heather Morehouse - And as we step forward, with each new day, we are able to choose our reactions, the words that we put into our hearts. 💚
Wonderful, honest Lady! ☘️
Thank you! 😊
Need more Jennie’s in my life. Wish I could just sit with her and learn. She is a great teacher. 💜
Such kind words Stacy.
We have two more videos with Jenny on our channel: 'All Cats Are Black' (ruclips.net/video/dK2km_x9-as/видео.html) and earlier this year 'Now You Are Free' (ruclips.net/video/Np-uU-tH6oU/видео.html). Warm hugs, Justine and Michael. 💚
Crying my eyes out....Beautiful Soul....
I feel as if I've been eavesdropping on a therapy session. I wish her well.
I've been reading Nietzsche again and one of the points he made was that have to say "yes" to life, embracing both good and evil. You cannot have one without the other. He draws upon the Greek myth of Dionysus, personifying the concept, the idea of "amor fatti".
Whether your children love you or not .....I do. You’re great!
You are so kind.
Thank you.
Sending love back to you.
My life is mirrored very similarly to yours. Thank you for teaching me today. You have changed many lives for the better! Your hurts and sorrows and mistakes weren’t for naught! Thank you for your transparency and willingness to heal others with your example. The negatives have now been turned into positives!
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i love her she is so honest
@Shamayla Hassan - Speaking from the heart x
I just want to add that it is vitally important to offer to oneself what you might more "easily" offer to another... Such as acceptance or "forgiveness"...
Beautiful words of advice - thanks for sharing. 💚
Thank you for your beautiful honesty. Yes, I agree, all families have their own pain, I think; inflicted and received.
Yes they do.
Thanks for the message.
Jenny went through rejection, not feeling loved. She is a strong woman and wants to make sure her children love her. You're never alone, God is with you. You are a survivor! Loved your story!
I truly get your journey. Longing for the love you wished you had as a child, will lead you down paths that are so damaging to yourself and others. I pray you find peace and self love.
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Yes what you say is important!
She’s right. We are completely responsible for the hurt we cause and the damage we do. Nothing can change the past. We can only carry on.
We cannot change the past, absolutely true. But we can move and look forward forward and do things differently. 💚