I was so choked up with you when you opened your picture of your dog. June will be a year since I had to put my old kitty down & I miss her so much. I wish furbabies lived longer. 💔
Oooo that was emotional. Tears rolling down my face 😢 loosing a beloved furbaby is the hardest. Thank you for sharing that raw moment with us. The painting is beautiful ❤
Oh man, I cried right along with you. That feeling of losing a pet, especially a soul pet never goes away but that portrait is a beautiful memorial. ❤❤❤
Your pain is so evident and you are doing so well. The loss of our heart pets rip us to shreds- over and over- randomly- - - that gut punch sometimes comes when you least expect it. I was a vet tech for over 25 years (a few of those years in veterinary oncology) and have sat and cried with clients facing horrific and heart wrenching times. As with most of your viewers, I also sat here and cried with you. I had to stop the video before you got back to plants, I just wasnt ready. The picture is an amazing testament to Axle's joy, exuberance and love for you and the life that you gave him. Absolutely amazing keepsake. ❤🩹
I appreciate you letting us see you in moments like this. I’m actually working on a drawing of my own cat who past away back in October. I was surprised when I became emotional during the planning phase of the drawing and I’m sure that will be the case when it’s all finished. Art is such an amazing way to remember our fur babies by. The artist did an amazing job on your two fur babies.
Harli I am crying seeing you sad about your pets sweetheart. I lost 3 of my 16yr old cats about 1 & 1.5yrs ago. My cats were my family, friends & company as I am disabled & everyone but my husband has pretty much abandoned me due to getting sick with MS & Autoimmune. Totally get your grief, sadness, & depression. I'm glad you shared. My cat Jinxy was my Ride or Die. She laid with me for 4 days when my dad died & slept with me every night for 16 yrs. She died on the same day I lost my dad. Heartbreaking day. Your cat & dog were your babies before you had your kids. You have so much on your plate. I've lost plants when I have been sick or had surgery. It happens so please don't feel guilty. You have been taking care of 2 little humans during all this craziness. Your plant looks nice going up the window Harli 💚 I have a Cissus Amizonica that is growing like crazy in my Bath R. It has stems/vines that are 2-4ft long. I use clear 3M re-stick tabs with a small side hooks. Have the vines & tendrils growing up my mirror on the side heading up over the top & across. The plant & pot are sitting on the counter. Once the leaves get larger the clear tabs/side hooks won't even be noticeable. They aren't very noticeable now as it is. I think what you have done will really help the plant. Hugs Sweetheart. 😊💚🍀🌵🌱🪴🌿🍃
thank you for trusting to share such a real moment with all of us. It means a lot. Also at the end of the video, I was shocked it was over and left wanting more.
Pretty new viewer!! So touching watching the moment with your pet who passed. I went through the same thing with my dog. Receiving a painting of him brought back all of the emotions!!
i absolutely loved this video. i relate to you on so many levels. nobody shows the hard parts of plant keeping when you get overwhelmed and unmotivated and lose plants because of it. and then it does feel wonderful when that motivation comes back! The art of axel was absolutely beautiful. I'm getting a memorial tattoo of my dog in a couple months. thank you for sharing that emotional moment with us.
Harli-I just love you. I love the plant stuff, but I love the human stuff more. Feeling real feelings about pets and having a real life make all of us feel less alone. Your presence on social media is so appreciated. ❤❤❤
When pets pass I never truly think of them as gone. I always picture them running and living their best moments in our hearts. In our memory our pets live forever with us.
You literally remind me of myself with plant care and being overwhelmed by everything. I have two black labs and one is almost 12, I can’t believe how fast she has grown since I got her at 8wks as a foster, but I couldn’t imagine my like without her, she truly is my best friend and has seen me through so much like my father passing and family quarrels to much happier events as well. I also feel guilty for not giving her more time and attention. Recently diagnosed with depression, with meds and mainly therapy it’s getting so much better and I should be off meds soon. Thank you for being vulnerable with people you don’t even know, this is definitely another form of therapy for you. ❤❤
Thisss🥺🥺 our pets are the ones with us 24/7, during the good times and the bad. No matter how sad we are or how much attention we lack to give them sometimes, they still know we love and care about them❤️
Oh these pets of ours just break our hearts because they just don’t live long enough! So nice you found an artist who can capture the most special look of your furry friends!
I feel so bad Harley I know what you're going through I lost my Jack Russell almost four years ago we miss him so bad the pain will get better I promise
Harli, I just love your videos. They bring me a sense of calm after a busy day. I appreciate the rawness of your feelings. What beautiful way to commemorate your missed pets!
I lost 2 of my dogs last summer just 17 days apart, Chase my border collie mix was my best friend and constant companion. Bic, our lab was my husband's baby. Your earlier videos with Axel making an appearance reminded me so much of her. The fact that you feel emotional seeing his image just reinforces what an awesome human being you are and why we love you.
I lost my emotional support animal the 1st of October. I cried right along with you. The space they occupy can never be lost in our hearts. What an amazing gift of remembrance.
I cried when you cried about axel. I know how you feel, our pets have such a hold on our heart it hurts to think of them gone. I cry even thinking about my current dog dying, because he is my best friend. I really felt that when you said it. ❤❤❤❤ sending a hug
Sweet Harli, I can feel your hurt as if it were my own! You are so loved and your Axel lived his best life with you. Try to find ways to rejoice in his memory. He was wonderful and deserves some celebration 🤍 You do too for loving him with every bit of you! That much is clear 🐾 Thank you for being so vulnerable with us. I really enjoyed watching the kiddos playing in the snow. And the chickens 😍 You are such an earthy woman and I’m fricken here for it!!!
Thank you for sharing the artwork of your furbabies. I needed a good cry. My almost 12 year old dog Riley was recently diagnosed with cancer, Lymphoma. Attempting to do chemo to be able to have a good spring and summer spoiling him.
Immediately cried and got up to hug my cat, Larry. He’s my baby boy and I felt your pain. I cannot imagine and don’t want to🥺 Axel was such a good boy and he is always there, I truly believe that..truly believe our pets do not leave us.
That picture of Axel is beautiful!! You had me crying like everyone else. I have 5 dogs and all seniors. 😢 thanks for sharing that moment with us. Now as far as ferns! Girl what is the issue!!! Lol lol I’m in Wa. I have a big boston in my living room that is so happy. It goes outside in the summer. And then I have a maidenhair upstairs by a window. No extra humidity up there and it’s happy as can be. Maybe you are thinking too hard about them. Lol lol isn’t it funny how we all have one type of plant that hates us! 🤣
The two things you look up on RUclips are plant videos and book videos and to see your books is SO fun! Is it a good girls guide to murder book? I love your raw emotions and to see you cry and also laugh a bit just ist so honest and beautiful and sad the whole time. But I just want to mention: to me the sadness also really shows how much you loved and to me that is just very special.
I’m bawling over here. I’m so sorry you lost your best friend 😭 I lost my cat (I rescued the whole litter as a kid, and adopted the 2 nearly identical brothers, his brother passed from medical issues a about a decade ago, and I lost Riley in 2021) He would have been 20 in 2022, and I still bawl my eyes out on a daily basis over losing him. I moved out of my family home right before covid hit, so I didn’t get to really see any of my pets at home and I didn’t even get to spend his last couple of years with him 😭😭😭 it never gets easier having that guilt. I got a call when it was happening and my boyfriend rushed me to my family’s home so I could be there at the very end. I’m so glad you have such beautiful art to memorialize your furbabies
i lost my childhood black lab around the same time you lost your pup. he helped me through some of the loneliest times in my life and had just the sweetest heart. that is such a beautiful portrait of him and im sure he knows how much you love him and is so happy he got to live his best days with you
Just like others have said, we completely understand what you are going through, and we appreciate your vulnerability when sharing these moments with us all. I love thinking about my dogs that have moved on from our world, but no matter how long it's been, some days just hit harder than others and it still brings me to tears. They were HUGE pieces to my world that sit unfilled. 😭 This was such a nice, impromptu video, and I enjoyed it! I'm glad things are falling into place for you to find joy in your plants again. You spark joy in me watching you be so excited about your plants! It's infectious, for sure!
I'm balling! No .balling..I needed my own and yours, that I paused the video to write my feelings..I'm vulnerable to others heartache and the mom of 3 cats, 2 dogs who are no longer with us, I get it! Our cats Mittens and Cinnamon grew up with my kids, my sister Coco, cousin Dee and Bridget's..damn you say. They're so much more than animals..Many blessings ❣️
You are so lucky to have so much light in your bedroom for plants... that's the one space that's just too dark in my home so my jungle bedroom dreams aren't coming true (hubby has said no go to grow lights in our room haha) Sending you big hugs too, it's almost been 2 years since we lost our bff dog and some days it still hurts so much. I see you and understand.
Girl that was so honest an emotional. My heart just broke all over for u. Cried along with u. Ur a strong woman who teaches us so much. Glad u got that moment, even tho u did share with us. 😪🥰 much love coming ur way.
I'm so sad for you 😭. I can't imagine the pain of losing your fury best friend. So glad you felt it in your heart to be so vulnerable and share with us. Sometimes sharing makes us feel a little better. I hope peace will start healing your heart. Many hugs going your way. ❤️
my heart completely broke watching you cry. i’m in tears. i’m so sorry and i hope you forgive yourself and know you're only human and you did the best you could. you take care of little humans, your relationships, your career, your plants, your pets, so many things. it's difficult to do it all and it's something everyone struggles with trying to figure out how to best balance it all and where to pour into. know you’re loved and that he was so loved by you, i'm absolutely positive though you feel you didn't do as much as you could that you did give him what he needed and gave him a good life. he was so lucky to experience such a loving family and best friend and i'm so happy you got to meet each other and have each other in this life.
I feel your pain Harli ❤️ I still miss my beloved Indiana every single day, even after two years. It gets better though, but I'm sure Axel will always hold a piece of your heart, just like Indiana does mine. Sending tons of love your way ❤️
Oh, Harli, my heart breaks for you. I know your grief so well. You were the lucky one to have that beautiful soul in your life 🩷 Allow yourself to grieve in whichever way you need to.
I lost two of my dogs in the first week of this year, it is still so hard. I bought a little burgundy ficus for my chihuahua in memorandum that I hope will be with us for a long time. I didn't get a plant for my other dog because it was just too hard already that week.The mantel you have set up is so lovely, I hope I can get to that point to display their pictures.
thank you for being so vulnerable on your channel, it breaks my heart but its also real. I commisioned an art piece recently of my dog. Hes still alive, (turning 16 this month) but I'm trying to prepare myself....thank you harli
You have such a beautiful heart babe! I lost my two babies aged 19 and 21 years mother and daughter about ten years ago and I still miss them both so much. I've not been able to get another since I had to put them both too sleep but I no longer feel guilty. I know they had the best life and were happy. Your babies too are beautiful and in time you will remember the fun and love u all shared over the sad and bad times. My thoughts are with you it really is so hard and only us people who have our pets as family will ever understand. With u in mind and spirit.xxlolxx oh I'm now almost ready for another pet but I think as my physical health has changed i would love a fluffy guinea pig. Lots of research in care I need to do first.
Losing part of the family is one of the hardest things we ever do.. I’m so very sorry for loss of your beloved pet Axel.. try to focus on the happy times 🙏🏼❤️
sending so much love to you ❤ I had an entire tattoo portrait done of my Kitty who passed, and it was extremely theraputic. I love that you made a portrait for your baby--it looks great!
Hoping this comment brings some joy to a somber comment section: After seeing your boston fern I would totally watch a goofy "crispy/sick plant ASMR" video 😄 In all seriousness, thank you for sharing so much with us. Your videos are some of the only ones that make me feel like I'm not alone with my messy house, sick plants, and general emotional state
Lord this was not the time for me to find this video. My baby died yesterday morning and I am gutted. I've never felt so alone and guilty. He was all I had. For 17 years he was the only consistency in my life. I don't see how I can stay here without him. I'm sorry for your pain, the portraits are beautiful.
As I see others have said, I am crying a long with you. The guilt part really speaks to me. I have a few pets that have passed that I hold a lot of guilt for. I have to constantly remind myself that we spoiled them, loved them and gave them a good life. You gave Axl a good life and he loved you, we got to see it some in videos. Death is hard. I don't believe it gets better, I just think we get used to the hole left in our hearts.
I feel your pain, Harli, I was weeping with you. I lost my girl a year ago in Feb. I still cry almost every day, she was my best friend. She was diagnosed with lymphoma, we did the the chemo, she was only 7. I got an extra 8 months with her. In the end, I almost wished we hadn't done the treatments. It came back as we knew it would, it was the hardest thing to watch once it did. I felt so guilty - in the end I knew I had done it for me and not her. I love her so much and miss her every day. No shame in tears, no shame in grief.
This was incredibly difficult for me to watch because my dog passed away two weeks ago very unexpectedly. One day, she was fine, and the next, she was struggling to breathe. We had X-rays done and the vet found a tumor in her lung/heart, and there was nothing that could be done. We lost a family member that day. There are moments when I start thinking about her and can’t help but cry. Our cat curled up on her and laid with her when she passed. It was one of the most special moments I’ve witnessed in my life
I do something similar to what you did with the adansonii. My plants growing up my plant stand are held on by a twist tie and I have a plant growing on my mirror and wall and in order for it to not grow into the wall as I rent I wrap half of the node of the plant in blu tack and use the other side of the blu tack to stick to the wall/mirror 😊
I lost my dog 6 months ago, I still break down at times. The loss of a pet is a pain I'd never wish on even my worst enemy. Sending healing vibes and hugs to you Harli!
How sad Harli!! I am tearing up with you. Totally know how you feel, have been through it many times. I’m sorry you lost your best friend. The picture is beautiful.
Girl you are killin me with the Axel convo. My cat was recently diagnosed with kidney disease and I know the end of his life is coming and I have no clue how I'm going to get through it. He's my best friend, I spend more time with him than I do other humans. Thank you for being so real.
Goddamnit... I cried so hard with you.. I´m sending you a big hug!!! I really enjoy the vlogs, you are such a pure hearted person and watching you makes me feel like I know you for ages. I wish you all the best!
Harli, even we knew Axel. He was your great friend, and the photo says it all. Four months is very short in the time of grief, don't rush it. One day you won't cry uncontrollably, but not today.
I loved this one Harli, all the random life stuff in between makes it more fun to watch (for me) my blue one, my hero!!! 😂 kids are awesome. Have a great week!
Don't be so hard on yourself regarding Axel. Pets are smart and very intuned, and sometimes they know what's going on with us before we know what's going on with us. Trust me, the bottom line is he KNEW he was loved. My dog/puppy will be 2 years old April Fool's day, I had her since she was 5 weeks old. She is my very first "official" dog, and I hope I'm blessed to have her with me as long as you had Axel. I'll be watching out for the progress of that passiflora too 😆. I was thinking in my head, "now Harli taking this too far tearing off vines in such" 😆
I wouldn’t cut it(amazonica), and wait a little, sometimes the ability to climb will increase leave size. O I looove the smell of Hoya Bella blooms ❤ my favorite hoya!
Oh Harli, I love your plant care videos. I love your wide leaf Adinsonii, and it looks really good in your bedroom. I have a struggle with ferns, and hopefully that one will do better in that pot you put it in. I love those pictures of your sweet pets that you lost, I was so sad when you started to cry because I know how hard it is when we lose one. I hope that you have a blessed and beautiful rest of your weekend, sending love and hugs, bye! 🤗❤🩹💜🙏👍🙌👏
I’m not at that point yet. So glad all the comments. My old guy is almost 15 and not holding his bladder. His days are getting numbered. Oh dang. Here it is. ❤
I can only keep a prayer plant , button fern and a blue star fern happy and thriving on the counter above my sink. It gets morning light and humidity from the sink and I keep distilled water in a misting bottle and hit those chics 5 times a day when I'm in there. These pushy clearance cart chic's have got me running to keep them happy lol.
About the fern in vase, I know it comes out over the rim but maybe if you have a clear plate(or just a plate in general) you could put it over the vase and hold the moisture in. You could even then put another plant on top of it.
I am so sorry for you loss hun. Literally sobbing with you. It does not matter how long ago it happened it can still hurt. The animals in our lives are members of the family. Hoping for the best for you and your family.
it took me around 3 years to stop crying over my cat meaco and felt alot of what ur feeling so i feel ur pain hopefully u heal from this soon as nothing is ur fault it happened and sadly even tho it hurts its apart of life but i am extremally sorry for ur loss and hopefully ur memory's of ur baby dog will one day give u some comfort again . my thoughts are with u
I had to say goodbye to my sweet Tallulah just a few days ago, so this hits home so hard💔 we are so lucky to have pets, even if it's never long enough😔
I understand how you feel about your soul dog. I lost my baby girl a few months ago, and it’s a pain that never fully goes away. Thank you for sharing.
I'm so sorry for your pain. We lost my BFF (Best Furry Friend) over a year ago and it was devastating. That's how we know how much we loved them and what a huge part of our lives they were.❤️
I’m literally here sobbing with you. Our animals become our family, and I’m so sorry for your loss no matter how long ago it was. Love you lots 🤍
😢 our furry family members will always leave paw prints on our hearts.
Yea ..I still miss my childhood 🐕 50 years later...
I don't often get to see people recieving their artworks, and I cried so much 💛💛 this is so precious, thank you xxx
I was so choked up with you when you opened your picture of your dog. June will be a year since I had to put my old kitty down & I miss her so much. I wish furbabies lived longer. 💔
Oooo that was emotional. Tears rolling down my face 😢 loosing a beloved furbaby is the hardest. Thank you for sharing that raw moment with us. The painting is beautiful ❤
Oh man, I cried right along with you. That feeling of losing a pet, especially a soul pet never goes away but that portrait is a beautiful memorial. ❤❤❤
Your pain is so evident and you are doing so well. The loss of our heart pets rip us to shreds- over and over- randomly- - - that gut punch sometimes comes when you least expect it. I was a vet tech for over 25 years (a few of those years in veterinary oncology) and have sat and cried with clients facing horrific and heart wrenching times. As with most of your viewers, I also sat here and cried with you. I had to stop the video before you got back to plants, I just wasnt ready. The picture is an amazing testament to Axle's joy, exuberance and love for you and the life that you gave him. Absolutely amazing keepsake. ❤🩹
I appreciate you letting us see you in moments like this. I’m actually working on a drawing of my own cat who past away back in October. I was surprised when I became emotional during the planning phase of the drawing and I’m sure that will be the case when it’s all finished. Art is such an amazing way to remember our fur babies by. The artist did an amazing job on your two fur babies.
Harli I am crying seeing you sad about your pets sweetheart. I lost 3 of my 16yr old cats about 1 & 1.5yrs ago. My cats were my family, friends & company as I am disabled & everyone but my husband has pretty much abandoned me due to getting sick with MS & Autoimmune. Totally get your grief, sadness, & depression. I'm glad you shared. My cat Jinxy was my Ride or Die. She laid with me for 4 days when my dad died & slept with me every night for 16 yrs. She died on the same day I lost my dad. Heartbreaking day. Your cat & dog were your babies before you had your kids. You have so much on your plate. I've lost plants when I have been sick or had surgery. It happens so please don't feel guilty. You have been taking care of 2 little humans during all this craziness.
Your plant looks nice going up the window Harli 💚 I have a Cissus Amizonica that is growing like crazy in my Bath R. It has stems/vines that are 2-4ft long. I use clear 3M re-stick tabs with a small side hooks. Have the vines & tendrils growing up my mirror on the side heading up over the top & across. The plant & pot are sitting on the counter. Once the leaves get larger the clear tabs/side hooks won't even be noticeable. They aren't very noticeable now as it is. I think what you have done will really help the plant. Hugs Sweetheart. 😊💚🍀🌵🌱🪴🌿🍃
You've been through a lot ❤ best wishes for you 💕
@@nikkireigns thank you Nikki. 💕 Last 5 years have been he[[ to say the least.
thank you for trusting to share such a real moment with all of us. It means a lot. Also at the end of the video, I was shocked it was over and left wanting more.
Sending you lots of positive thoughts your way as you treasure the memories you shared with axel ❤
Pretty new viewer!! So touching watching the moment with your pet who passed. I went through the same thing with my dog. Receiving a painting of him brought back all of the emotions!!
i absolutely loved this video. i relate to you on so many levels. nobody shows the hard parts of plant keeping when you get overwhelmed and unmotivated and lose plants because of it. and then it does feel wonderful when that motivation comes back!
The art of axel was absolutely beautiful. I'm getting a memorial tattoo of my dog in a couple months. thank you for sharing that emotional moment with us.
Harli-I just love you. I love the plant stuff, but I love the human stuff more. Feeling real feelings about pets and having a real life make all of us feel less alone. Your presence on social media is so appreciated. ❤❤❤
When pets pass I never truly think of them as gone. I always picture them running and living their best moments in our hearts. In our memory our pets live forever with us.
I put on this one while I was potting up some plants... wasn't expecting to have a lil cry sesh with you Harli
My gosh im balling!!!! Our fur babies hold such a special plave in our heart 😭 the art work is perfect of your sweet boy.
What a beautiful portrait of Axel
I still get caught in moments of grief from losing my pup 3 years ago. They hold a special spot in our hearts ❤
You literally remind me of myself with plant care and being overwhelmed by everything. I have two black labs and one is almost 12, I can’t believe how fast she has grown since I got her at 8wks as a foster, but I couldn’t imagine my like without her, she truly is my best friend and has seen me through so much like my father passing and family quarrels to much happier events as well. I also feel guilty for not giving her more time and attention. Recently diagnosed with depression, with meds and mainly therapy it’s getting so much better and I should be off meds soon. Thank you for being vulnerable with people you don’t even know, this is definitely another form of therapy for you. ❤❤
Thisss🥺🥺 our pets are the ones with us 24/7, during the good times and the bad. No matter how sad we are or how much attention we lack to give them sometimes, they still know we love and care about them❤️
Oh these pets of ours just break our hearts because they just don’t live long enough! So nice you found an artist who can capture the most special look of your furry friends!
Don’t cry, you’re making me cry. Our animals are the world to us. It’s so hard to loose them. The painting of Axel is so beautiful
I feel so bad Harley I know what you're going through I lost my Jack Russell almost four years ago we miss him so bad the pain will get better I promise
Harli,
I just love your videos. They bring me a sense of calm after a busy day.
I appreciate the rawness of your feelings.
What beautiful way to commemorate your missed pets!
I cried so hard with you ❤ thanks for being so real and vulnerable
Awwww Harli thank you for sharing these moments with us. We love you!!!
I lost 2 of my dogs last summer just 17 days apart, Chase my border collie mix was my best friend and constant companion. Bic, our lab was my husband's baby. Your earlier videos with Axel making an appearance reminded me so much of her. The fact that you feel emotional seeing his image just reinforces what an awesome human being you are and why we love you.
I lost my emotional support animal the 1st of October. I cried right along with you. The space they occupy can never be lost in our hearts. What an amazing gift of remembrance.
I cried when you cried about axel. I know how you feel, our pets have such a hold on our heart it hurts to think of them gone. I cry even thinking about my current dog dying, because he is my best friend. I really felt that when you said it. ❤❤❤❤ sending a hug
Sending hugs to you regarding Axel. Thanks for sharing. That was pretty brave.
Sweet Harli, I can feel your hurt as if it were my own! You are so loved and your Axel lived his best life with you. Try to find ways to rejoice in his memory. He was wonderful and deserves some celebration 🤍 You do too for loving him with every bit of you! That much is clear 🐾
Thank you for being so vulnerable with us. I really enjoyed watching the kiddos playing in the snow. And the chickens 😍 You are such an earthy woman and I’m fricken here for it!!!
I enjoyed watching your boys playing in the snow and the chickens. The white braided pot for your agave is a cute contrast
I like clear removable hooks for trailing plants on the wall.
Thank you for sharing the artwork of your furbabies. I needed a good cry. My almost 12 year old dog Riley was recently diagnosed with cancer, Lymphoma. Attempting to do chemo to be able to have a good spring and summer spoiling him.
Immediately cried and got up to hug my cat, Larry. He’s my baby boy and I felt your pain. I cannot imagine and don’t want to🥺 Axel was such a good boy and he is always there, I truly believe that..truly believe our pets do not leave us.
I have never in my life sat and sobbed with someone on RUclips the way I just did💔You are a beautiful soul and your love for your fur babies is so raw
I’m extremely sorry for your loss. My eyes were filled with tears. Hoping that photo brings you some peace. Beautifully done. Sending you a big hug!
It hurts so much to lose your best friend. I cried along with you and think of all the fur babies I’ve lost. That’s a beautiful photo of Axle. ❤
That picture of Axel is beautiful!! You had me crying like everyone else. I have 5 dogs and all seniors. 😢 thanks for sharing that moment with us.
Now as far as ferns! Girl what is the issue!!! Lol lol I’m in Wa. I have a big boston in my living room that is so happy. It goes outside in the summer. And then I have a maidenhair upstairs by a window. No extra humidity up there and it’s happy as can be. Maybe you are thinking too hard about them. Lol lol isn’t it funny how we all have one type of plant that hates us! 🤣
The two things you look up on RUclips are plant videos and book videos and to see your books is SO fun! Is it a good girls guide to murder book?
I love your raw emotions and to see you cry and also laugh a bit just ist so honest and beautiful and sad the whole time. But I just want to mention: to me the sadness also really shows how much you loved and to me that is just very special.
I’m bawling over here. I’m so sorry you lost your best friend 😭 I lost my cat (I rescued the whole litter as a kid, and adopted the 2 nearly identical brothers, his brother passed from medical issues a about a decade ago, and I lost Riley in 2021)
He would have been 20 in 2022, and I still bawl my eyes out on a daily basis over losing him. I moved out of my family home right before covid hit, so I didn’t get to really see any of my pets at home and I didn’t even get to spend his last couple of years with him 😭😭😭 it never gets easier having that guilt. I got a call when it was happening and my boyfriend rushed me to my family’s home so I could be there at the very end.
I’m so glad you have such beautiful art to memorialize your furbabies
i lost my childhood black lab around the same time you lost your pup. he helped me through some of the loneliest times in my life and had just the sweetest heart. that is such a beautiful portrait of him and im sure he knows how much you love him and is so happy he got to live his best days with you
Just like others have said, we completely understand what you are going through, and we appreciate your vulnerability when sharing these moments with us all. I love thinking about my dogs that have moved on from our world, but no matter how long it's been, some days just hit harder than others and it still brings me to tears. They were HUGE pieces to my world that sit unfilled. 😭
This was such a nice, impromptu video, and I enjoyed it! I'm glad things are falling into place for you to find joy in your plants again. You spark joy in me watching you be so excited about your plants! It's infectious, for sure!
I'm balling! No .balling..I needed my own and yours, that I paused the video to write my feelings..I'm vulnerable to others heartache and the mom of 3 cats, 2 dogs who are no longer with us, I get it! Our cats Mittens and Cinnamon grew up with my kids, my sister Coco, cousin Dee and Bridget's..damn you say. They're so much more than animals..Many blessings ❣️
I sat here crying with you the enitre time. It's okay to grief and let it out. Stay strong, little buddy was lucky to be part of your life
You are so lucky to have so much light in your bedroom for plants... that's the one space that's just too dark in my home so my jungle bedroom dreams aren't coming true (hubby has said no go to grow lights in our room haha)
Sending you big hugs too, it's almost been 2 years since we lost our bff dog and some days it still hurts so much. I see you and understand.
😭 bawling my eyes out for you. Some pets are just extra special… you must have made his life extra special too 💜
Girl that was so honest an emotional. My heart just broke all over for u. Cried along with u. Ur a strong woman who teaches us so much. Glad u got that moment, even tho u did share with us. 😪🥰 much love coming ur way.
I'm so sad for you 😭. I can't imagine the pain of losing your fury best friend. So glad you felt it in your heart to be so vulnerable and share with us. Sometimes sharing makes us feel a little better. I hope peace will start healing your heart. Many hugs going your way. ❤️
my heart completely broke watching you cry. i’m in tears. i’m so sorry and i hope you forgive yourself and know you're only human and you did the best you could. you take care of little humans, your relationships, your career, your plants, your pets, so many things. it's difficult to do it all and it's something everyone struggles with trying to figure out how to best balance it all and where to pour into. know you’re loved and that he was so loved by you, i'm absolutely positive though you feel you didn't do as much as you could that you did give him what he needed and gave him a good life. he was so lucky to experience such a loving family and best friend and i'm so happy you got to meet each other and have each other in this life.
My heart goes out to you, I’m so sorry for your loss, it is hard 😢
Thank you for sharing ❤
I feel your pain Harli ❤️ I still miss my beloved Indiana every single day, even after two years. It gets better though, but I'm sure Axel will always hold a piece of your heart, just like Indiana does mine. Sending tons of love your way ❤️
I'm crying along with you, girl. We know how much Axel meant to you. Hugs from Texas Harli! 💗
Oh, Harli, my heart breaks for you. I know your grief so well. You were the lucky one to have that beautiful soul in your life 🩷
Allow yourself to grieve in whichever way you need to.
I lost two of my dogs in the first week of this year, it is still so hard. I bought a little burgundy ficus for my chihuahua in memorandum that I hope will be with us for a long time. I didn't get a plant for my other dog because it was just too hard already that week.The mantel you have set up is so lovely, I hope I can get to that point to display their pictures.
thank you for being so vulnerable on your channel, it breaks my heart but its also real. I commisioned an art piece recently of my dog. Hes still alive, (turning 16 this month) but I'm trying to prepare myself....thank you harli
You have such a beautiful heart babe! I lost my two babies aged 19 and 21 years mother and daughter about ten years ago and I still miss them both so much. I've not been able to get another since I had to put them both too sleep but I no longer feel guilty. I know they had the best life and were happy. Your babies too are beautiful and in time you will remember the fun and love u all shared over the sad and bad times. My thoughts are with you it really is so hard and only us people who have our pets as family will ever understand. With u in mind and spirit.xxlolxx oh I'm now almost ready for another pet but I think as my physical health has changed i would love a fluffy guinea pig. Lots of research in care I need to do first.
Losing part of the family is one of the hardest things we ever do.. I’m so very sorry for loss of your beloved pet Axel.. try to focus on the happy times 🙏🏼❤️
sending so much love to you ❤ I had an entire tattoo portrait done of my Kitty who passed, and it was extremely theraputic. I love that you made a portrait for your baby--it looks great!
Thank you! I very literally laughed and cried and understood . I appreciated this video.❤
Your agave planter is Gorgeous!!! A very moody video) 💚🧣in a good way, I mean. Very organic.
Hoping this comment brings some joy to a somber comment section: After seeing your boston fern I would totally watch a goofy "crispy/sick plant ASMR" video 😄
In all seriousness, thank you for sharing so much with us. Your videos are some of the only ones that make me feel like I'm not alone with my messy house, sick plants, and general emotional state
Lord this was not the time for me to find this video. My baby died yesterday morning and I am gutted. I've never felt so alone and guilty. He was all I had. For 17 years he was the only consistency in my life. I don't see how I can stay here without him. I'm sorry for your pain, the portraits are beautiful.
As I see others have said, I am crying a long with you. The guilt part really speaks to me. I have a few pets that have passed that I hold a lot of guilt for. I have to constantly remind myself that we spoiled them, loved them and gave them a good life. You gave Axl a good life and he loved you, we got to see it some in videos. Death is hard. I don't believe it gets better, I just think we get used to the hole left in our hearts.
Shorts, even in snow.
Love it
I feel your pain, Harli, I was weeping with you. I lost my girl a year ago in Feb. I still cry almost every day, she was my best friend. She was diagnosed with lymphoma, we did the the chemo, she was only 7. I got an extra 8 months with her. In the end, I almost wished we hadn't done the treatments. It came back as we knew it would, it was the hardest thing to watch once it did. I felt so guilty - in the end I knew I had done it for me and not her. I love her so much and miss her every day. No shame in tears, no shame in grief.
This was incredibly difficult for me to watch because my dog passed away two weeks ago very unexpectedly. One day, she was fine, and the next, she was struggling to breathe. We had X-rays done and the vet found a tumor in her lung/heart, and there was nothing that could be done. We lost a family member that day. There are moments when I start thinking about her and can’t help but cry. Our cat curled up on her and laid with her when she passed. It was one of the most special moments I’ve witnessed in my life
I do something similar to what you did with the adansonii. My plants growing up my plant stand are held on by a twist tie and I have a plant growing on my mirror and wall and in order for it to not grow into the wall as I rent I wrap half of the node of the plant in blu tack and use the other side of the blu tack to stick to the wall/mirror 😊
I lost my dog 6 months ago, I still break down at times. The loss of a pet is a pain I'd never wish on even my worst enemy. Sending healing vibes and hugs to you Harli!
I got very sad and cried a bit too watching you. I’m sorry your dog passed, but c’vest la vie. I’m sure you two had a wonderful life together!
How sad Harli!! I am tearing up with you. Totally know how you feel, have been through it many times. I’m sorry you lost your best friend. The picture is beautiful.
I've found that using the command hooks is amazing for trailing plants where I want them. The clear ones, especially.
Girl you are killin me with the Axel convo. My cat was recently diagnosed with kidney disease and I know the end of his life is coming and I have no clue how I'm going to get through it. He's my best friend, I spend more time with him than I do other humans. Thank you for being so real.
Goddamnit... I cried so hard with you.. I´m sending you a big hug!!!
I really enjoy the vlogs, you are such a pure hearted person and watching you makes me feel like I know you for ages. I wish you all the best!
Sending love and hugs. Grief can hit at any time. xo
Harli, even we knew Axel. He was your great friend, and the photo says it all. Four months is very short in the time of grief, don't rush it. One day you won't cry uncontrollably, but not today.
I loved this one Harli, all the random life stuff in between makes it more fun to watch (for me) my blue one, my hero!!! 😂 kids are awesome. Have a great week!
Don't be so hard on yourself regarding Axel. Pets are smart and very intuned, and sometimes they know what's going on with us before we know what's going on with us. Trust me, the bottom line is he KNEW he was loved. My dog/puppy will be 2 years old April Fool's day, I had her since she was 5 weeks old. She is my very first "official" dog, and I hope I'm blessed to have her with me as long as you had Axel.
I'll be watching out for the progress of that passiflora too 😆. I was thinking in my head, "now Harli taking this too far tearing off vines in such" 😆
I love this. I did a similar thing with my pothos (though I didn’t start with tape) and now it’s just shingling up the wall
The image of your dog is so good.😢
The kids are so big now,very cute .
I still like the small leaves,in no time that wall will look great!💚🌱🌵🪴💚
I wouldn’t cut it(amazonica), and wait a little, sometimes the ability to climb will increase leave size. O I looove the smell of Hoya Bella blooms ❤ my favorite hoya!
Oh Harli, I love your plant care videos. I love your wide leaf Adinsonii, and it looks really good in your bedroom. I have a struggle with ferns, and hopefully that one will do better in that pot you put it in. I love those pictures of your sweet pets that you lost, I was so sad when you started to cry because I know how hard it is when we lose one. I hope that you have a blessed and beautiful rest of your weekend, sending love and hugs, bye! 🤗❤🩹💜🙏👍🙌👏
The monstera adensonii looks so good in your room!
I totally feel you and I'm so sorry for your loss!
mama... you are in my HEART
Awww hugs babe, I've been there too xxx
I totally get it. It's the price we pay for the unconditional love they give. 💜
I’m not at that point yet. So glad all the comments. My old guy is almost 15 and not holding his bladder. His days are getting numbered. Oh dang. Here it is. ❤
I’m sobbing. It is perfect.
I can only keep a prayer plant , button fern and a blue star fern happy and thriving on the counter above my sink. It gets morning light and humidity from the sink and I keep distilled water in a misting bottle and hit those chics 5 times a day when I'm in there. These pushy clearance cart chic's have got me running to keep them happy lol.
About the fern in vase, I know it comes out over the rim but maybe if you have a clear plate(or just a plate in general) you could put it over the vase and hold the moisture in. You could even then put another plant on top of it.
I am so sorry for you loss hun. Literally sobbing with you. It does not matter how long ago it happened it can still hurt. The animals in our lives are members of the family. Hoping for the best for you and your family.
it took me around 3 years to stop crying over my cat meaco and felt alot of what ur feeling so i feel ur pain hopefully u heal from this soon as nothing is ur fault it happened and sadly even tho it hurts its apart of life but i am extremally sorry for ur loss and hopefully ur memory's of ur baby dog will one day give u some comfort again . my thoughts are with u
Keep strong.. and keep in positive circle vibes.. love from Malaysia♥️
Thank you for the motivation!!!!
Nice pot!!
I'm grieving with you my friend ❤ your not alone, love you.
I had to say goodbye to my sweet Tallulah just a few days ago, so this hits home so hard💔 we are so lucky to have pets, even if it's never long enough😔
amazing art work of your beloved dog
Watching this as I repot my string of pearls that my daughter dumped 😅
I understand how you feel about your soul dog. I lost my baby girl a few months ago, and it’s a pain that never fully goes away. Thank you for sharing.
I'm so sorry for your pain. We lost my BFF (Best Furry Friend) over a year ago and it was devastating. That's how we know how much we loved them and what a huge part of our lives they were.❤️
Great idea for the adensoni, my windows are old & naff that they may as well not be there! The plants would freeze or die from mould!
I'm so sorry for your loss. I wish I could just give you a big hug :(
I understand your loss, we lost both our dogs last month within weeks of eachother, sending you hugs