443 days sober for me! Watching your videos motivates me to never get back onto the hamster wheel of alcohol One drink would be the start of my downfall
Hey my name is Jess and I just happened on your videos and first and foremost I want to say it takes a lot of guts to put yourself out there and no comment or opinion can take that away from you. I do something similar ok tiktok where I talk about my journey and educate others on addiction. What a lot of people fail to understand is that addiction stems from trauma and/or untreated mental illnesses. So for people who want to say ‘just stop’ that comes from ignorance either intentional or not. I come from a family of addiction, mostly alcohol addiction, I myself struggled with opioids and have been clean for 8 years. I lost my mother to alchol, my step mother, my sister and my father has a very rare disease related to his past alcoholism which I’ll tell you a bit about. I truly believe that alcohol is one of the hardest addictions to treat hands down. It’s so accessible it’s everywhere. My dad struggled for as long as I can remember, at one point even stopping for 15 years, he then thought he could socially drink, and he did but it didn’t last long and before you knew it he was back in full blown addiction. 3 years ago he stopped again and with the help of Antabuse has remained sober. About 2 years ago tho he started to exhibit symptoms that kind of mirrored being drunk. I started to notice his speech was a little slurred, he was falling and becoming unsteady in his gait, but he wasn’t drinking. Fast forward a bit and he was diagnosed with a condition called Marchiafava bignami disease which is complicated but stems from a thiamine deficiency due to prolonged alchol use and malnutrition. Thiamine is vitiman b1 and can effect everything from cognitive functioning, toileting, memory, dexterity, balance and gait issues. I don’t know you, but I do know you can beat this. Setbacks are ok, they happen. I’ve subscribed to your channel and want you to know I’m rooting for you from New Hampshire. Sorry for the long comment, and for anyone else out there struggling, you are strong and capable. You may have to take it minute by minute, but each minute is a minute forward towards your goal. You can do this.
I found your channel a few days ago and spent time catching up with your story. I’m grateful for other addicts who are willing to share online bc it’s a lonely disease. I was lucky to get into some DBT groups at my treatment centre and that too helps me feel less alien. Your stream of consciousness is very digestible and relatable. Thanks for coming back on :)
An alcoholic is a person that despite the consequences does not get the clarity to see that they need to ask for help. Sir, I was just like you for over 20 years.... I finally helped myself by going to inpatient treatment to cure my alcoholism. After you get out of treatment and continue to rehabilitate your mind and heal yourself, the opportunities that you need to rebuild your finances and regain Prosperity will return in miraculous ways. I was just like you and couldn't stop drinking. Mate, suggestion and strong advice from a recovered alcohol; suggestion you should shit can your RUclips channel and take that time to go to AA
And I just want to say one more comment, i’ve scrolled through some of your comments, and I’ve seen some of the nasty things that people write. Please know that you do help people and that people listen and I know that I don’t know you and you don’t know me, but I am rooting for you as a recovered alcoholic myself, it is possible and keep trying as many times as it takes. And leave the haters behind we’re all human. And I certainly would never be the one to cast the stone at anyone in recovery.
i hope you keep making videos of your raw thoughts. it's nice to hear i'm not alone** in my thinking. if you decide to keep sharing, we'll be here. keep doing your best buddy, Rome wasn't built in a day.
I admire you for getting back on here each time and trying again. I’m not going to tell you there is any one magic bullet that works for everyone because there quite simply isn’t. Our reasons for drinking, and for stopping, tend to be personal and sometimes only make sense to us. I am a year sober. I had to have a reason to want to stop. For me, my son is the reason. No meetings or treatment would have worked for me versus my fundamentally changing my mind about whether alcohol was serving me and the life I wanted, and I decided my son would have a much better life if I was a sober parent. It is impossible to argue against that even if sometimes drinking crosses my mind. He needs and deserves the best me. I hope you figure out what you really want from life because it sounds like you know being stuck in a drinking cycle isn’t really your true goal. You can do it.
I'm so sick and tired of this drinking. Today is my hangover day. I get absolutely nothing accomplished and try to rehydrate my body. Tomorrow i will feel normal and feel like drinking that night.. and it just never stops.
@@JJ-eb8eu Look in the mirror, and ask yourself some hard questions. What are my fears, resentments, and character defects that keep me from daily living, without drinking alcohol? I tried to "quit drinking" 500 times, but could never STAY quit! When I could no longer live with "ME", was the moment my recovery began. My entire focus shifted from alcohol, to sobriety and it totally changed my life. I was finally living in the solution, and the more I lived in the solution, the less alcohol was even a part of my consciousness. 30 years of continuous sobriety, and 30 years of living in abundance, is all the evidence I need to CONTINUE "living in the solution". It's been the greatest adventure of my life, and I sincerely wish the same for you! ✌❤ Mark
I am an alcoholic 14 months sober. I admire your willingness to get out here and be honest. I was not able to get on board with AA. I am an atheist and I am very much a science-based person so I threw myself into understanding the science of addiction. I found a book written by a psychiatrist called dopamine nation to be an absolute game changer. It completely changed the way I understood addiction and made me understand my mind so much better and really help me understand what goes into an actual craving, I also found a podcast called Sober Powered to be very instrumental in my recovery and in understanding addiction.
I am about to be sober for a year now on august 10th.. you can pull yourself together, i am 36 i had 3 years sober at one point, we fail we get back up, just keep getting back up! we are human.. mistakes happen but need to just refocus.. one day at a time is just that..
Really enjoy your videos, they are very real and down to earth and raw. I guess I am a functioning alcoholic as well. I drink a bottle of wine every night and almost every morning I wake up I commit to stop drinking., By the evening, I’m drinking wine again. I don’t wake up hung over as I limit to one bottle. I wish I woke up hung over and sick as that might be more helpful in quitting. Keep posting please! ❤
Hey buddy, seriously appreciate your honesty and want u to know this comes from a place of caring. Looking at your situation as a complete outsider I see someone with good intentions but whose thinking is warped, obsessive and self destructive. Whether alcoholism, workaholism or any other ‘ism’ - it’s unhealthy and definitely not a solution for a longterm success. Again with compassion I want to express that working yourself like a dog to pay for a house that you are not even going to live in is the game plan of a deluded martyr. You love your kids, that’s evident but literally killing yourself so they can live ‘nicely’ is frankly insane. What they really want (and I speak as a 60 year old dude with 2 kids who’s dealt with a shit ton of my own craziness) is a dad who is available, healthy and loves himself. They don’t want your nice house - they want you - present, involved and showing self love and compassion. Seriously, just imagine you drink or work yourself to death and your kids watch these videos. Try to imagine how they will interpret them. Please don’t burden them with guilt that u killed yourself to pay for them to live in an expensive home. As an outsider looking in that is batshit crazy thinking. Please get the help u need to stop these obsessive cycles (whatever they are) and learn to love yourself. Those kids need a healthy, happy dad for the long haul. Love and light to u and your entire family.
Broken record mate. Is is a vicious cycle mate. Nobody will congratulate you on working hard. Nobody cares. Health is more important than money I told you I worked in the trucking industry for 13 years stressed out of my mind drove me to drink . Changed careers due to my daughter requiring more of me with less pay. She has more of me with less money but my partner is now the bread winner. End of the day it looks to me work is causing you to drink. You know that. Quit your job. Go for a long drive reflect on life. Look at something that makes you happy. Trust me you’ll thank people like me and others in the comment section later. You are just putting a toxic bandage something that is going to kill you. Think of it as this if cars can run off alcohol wonder what it’s doing to your body
@@courtneywilson-f1xhave you thought this through properly he’s working so many hours how is he there for his kids the comment is correct, if he’s working 9 - 00:30 3 days a week and still drinking he’s probably drink driving at least once a week probably more. I respect him for keeping coming on here and making himself vulnerable and I truly believe he will get sober hence I keep watching but to say he’s a hero come on. He’s swapping one addiction for another right now.
@@courtneywilson-f1x The LAST thing he is being is...honest! Especially with himself. This isn't dandruff we're talking about, it's a FATAL CONDITION, ALCOHOLISM!
Your channel is slowly growing on me have to say! I don't have any drug or alcohol problem but have had mental health difficulties all my life (31 now). I don't feel you need to be an addict to relate to everything you're sharing. Your manifestation of dealing with the difficulties of life is through substances, while others have different ways. So we can all learn/relate. It's ok for you to keep struggling with sobriety. Just keep being honest with yourself and doing your best. It's better to try and learn and make mistakes than to just stand still (I've been guilty of this for year after year). I'm grateful for your honesty with us it's refreshing. I can never give you advice as it's your journey, but I've heard such life changing stories from AA meetings and 12 steps groups and how the unconditional support and openness in those groups is very powerful in healing from addictions. I would really give it a go. Anyway I'm routing for you!! All the best
Yes go to AA. Get a sponsor. Work the steps. All meetings are different. If you don’t like one find another. NA is also great. NA deals with addiction in general doesn’t matter if it’s alcohol or weed. I quit drinking in 2022 but then became a huge weed addict. Been almost 5 months now completely sober from everything. It’s hard but I feel a lot better. I don’t use no matter what happens. Still think about it but the positives outweigh that little bit of time the escape of substances provide. You can do it. Don’t waste your life.
The title brought me here, I feel the same. I hold myself accountable for all I've done and not done but I will not take accountability for others, I have addiction too, your not alone and thank you for being honest and sharing ❤
yeah i dont know how he does it really, i can handle the odd day of getting truly drunk then going to work at 7 AM and its fucking hell and i am a mess all day. def can't do it consistently. I get more into trouble on weekends and periods where I dont have a full time job since there is nothing stopping me from going to get more beer when i wakeup hungover
Hi there from the United States, Maine. Very glad to see you’ve posted an update. Wishing you all the best with your recovery. Anything that you put before your sobriety and recovery you will lose. I know it might be hard to hear. I’m a grateful recovering alcoholic/ addict with almost 18 years sobriety. Again, wishing you all the best.
Looking forward to hearing from you hopefully today. Following your journey is helping me look inwards and think more about my own actions. Be kind to yourself.
Hey Jacob so glad you are back man and doing good. I started drinking in 2011 at 20 years old mainly because I was starting a Long Distance Relationship with my girlfriend who lives in Oakland and I would drink because I wasn’t seeing her as much because she wanted to focus on school it’s was so bad I started smoking black and mild cigars as well just to cope. One night she told you are a different person when you drink do you want your family to see you like this and I said no . I knew she was right so in 2016 I went cold turkey and man it was hard and difficult I went through withdrawal symptoms and cold sweats like I was a damn drug addict but I preserved I began reading and listening to the Bible more. My girlfriend literally saved my life I tell her that all time I had to change for the people I love and for myself I never wanted to be that person again and I am happily 9 years sober from drinking. It is an amazing feeling my brother when get this liquid demon out of your life for good. I know you can do my brother I believe in you glad you are back man take it one day at a time man peace Jacob
Please don't take our comments too harshly..its just tough love...we care about you. I am glad you will go to AA. I hope to hear from you daily. Please don't look at alcohol as a reward at the end of the day....look at it as the thing that gives you anxiety. Recovered and Grateful, Eileen from Missouri.
I love your honesty, it was brave of you to say that you recorded your previous video after having a few drinks on you (I kinda sensed you were different, more confident and energetic so no wonder this state of mind is appealing and we want to get back to it despite the pain it brings later). Fair play for reaching out to your local AA and going to the meeting, any connection with people struggling with a similar thing will be beneficial. I wonder how you find the meetings and I look forward to hearing your feedback on this. Your heart is in the right place, just the mind keeps drifting into self sabotage and negative self talk.. (I can relate, we all do it) And yes, opening up and talking to us (complete strangers!) about your super personal stuff is also very brave but it can put you in a vulnerable position, remember that you are helping many out here by doing so. Keep going 🙌💪
Keep evolving bro and dont worry as long as you are always aware and actually ' TRYING ' to get better honestly and genuienly that's all that matters, thanks for sharing your journey, keep growing! better times are ahead
I can relate so much to this. You described it perfectly! Thank you for being brutally honest about this journey. If you try, you move the needle regardless. I’m proud of you no matter what. ❤
It is going to be hard… but you can do this.. I lived this as a child and please do it for your kids and yourself! Pray…and cry out to Jesus especially when u feel week!
You’re going to smash it this time mate I can feel it! You seem very determined 💪 perhaps work on an online side hustle to replace one of those jobs and to fill your downtime (which you don’t seem to have a lot of at the moment)
Same here man. Ive been up all night cause I can’t sleep. It’s frustrating. Lately I’ve been dealing with my addiction to electronics and also pornography.
Me too…Terrible insomnia, constantly on the phone or iPad. House got robbed 3 weeks ago whilst I was in full alcohol withdrawal. Over 10,000 bucks in valuables gone. Angry at myself mostly.
it's all temporary, stay on your grind and goal. @derroneverest4511 @sugashakeshakeshake852 being angry doesnt mean u are doing bad or being wrong, it means you want to change for the right and better, so dont waste and low ur energy down, it's all meant to be the way it is, patience is a key and trying to be better is the way with awareness!
I retired from trucking i feel like I just got out of a 40 year prison sentence... I had ten boses so 20 hands have let go of my basket. Balls,, feel absolutely fantastic,,mate!!!!
I used to drink a dozen double whiskeys a night. Trying to quit drinking never worked for me, like you, I’d hyper-fixate on not drinking. You need to hyper-fixate on something else. Try focusing on your health. Eat a whole food diet and prepare it yourself, count calories and hit the gym. You won’t be able to drink because you can’t have the calories and you’ll be too busy working out, shopping and cooking. Worked for me. I still do allow myself a beer now and then for only 110 calories. This only happed because I became very ill. The unintended consequences were getting sober. Yay OCD!
Hopefully AA can help I never went so I have no opinion. An advice I can give you if you can't stop completely at least try to reduce the amount you drink, just take the minimum that you need to keep going. On the long run the only real "cure" is abstinence we agree...
Glad you are doing well! I’m a 7 nights a week drinker. And smoke a few cigarettes 🚬 We look forward to seeing how you go at your AA meeting………. Take care x
Don't be too hard on your self your aware you have a problem your honest about it. Be mindful take it a day at a time. Gym and exercise is the key your working too much and your release is alcohol you have to address that and change your mind set you can't burn the candle at both ends something has to give find balance. Im 8 years sober. Also Kevin O Hara alcohol mastery helped me (you tube videos). You can do it.
Who else is waiting for the late video that won’t come for another month. Then it’s: I’m sick and tired of sick and tired of being sick and tired of sick and tired’
People with a decade, or two, or three, or four of continuous sobriety are NOT offering "opinions"! We are sharing our ACTUAL EXPERIENCE. Big difference! Once upon a time, I was just like you. Trying to run the "show", not being honest with myself, and working my ass off to "figure out" how to get sober with the least amount of effort. In reality, there's NOTHING to figure out. If you can't or won't address the root problem...YOU!, you're phucked! I sincerely hope that you arrive at a moment of rigorous honesty with yourself, take your hands off the steering wheel, and let someone else drive! It's going to happen sooner or later anyway, but you'll be in a box on a one way trip to Sleepy Town.
I can sense the anxiety within you. when you are this anxious a sip of vodka would taste wonderful but you neeed too keep fighting. "Fight fight fight" - Trump.
Don’t listen to some of the shite comments on here. The fact that people take the time to watch your videos then slate you is beyond me. There’s plenty of people here really rooting for you, you’ve got this
I've been waiting for you to come back mate! Look at how many comments you have gotten in such a short time. People want you to succeed. I know you are heaps busy working, but I still suggest you read quitting alcohol books, especially Allen Carr and Alcohol Explained. Quitting alcohol is purely in the mind, it isn't a physical thing. You clearly can quit for multiple days, keep up the momentum. I couldn't even quit for 2 hrs at my worst (other than when I was passed out). As soon as the bottle shop opened at 9am, I was straight there "just have one beer". I would then DRIVE to a carpark to drink them in shame, usually 4 500ml cans. I'd then stop in at the pub and drink until my mind turned off, go home and black out. I was full time employed earning good money, and did literally no work for days at a time. I'd then finally manage to pump out some work for a few hours and then head back to the pub again.
"Quitting alcohol is purely in the mind, it isn't a physical thing". Really? Please enlighten me so I can stay at home and have life in abundance, using only my mind. Heck, if I need a gallon of milk I'll just think about it, until it magically appears on my doorstep.
@@markg.4246 drinking alcohol is an action you take. You decide to not do it and you have quit. Completely different to manifesting physical objects into existence, no idea how you care up with that…
"You decide to not do it and you have quit". You clearly don't understand addiction. Quitting the substance isn't the issue...it's STAYING "quit". If you are one of the small percentage who was able to just put down the drink, I sincerely say, "Good for you". That's not how it works for most chronic drinkers. ACTION is the key to achieving sobriety, and when that action is taken on a regular basis, our "thinking" will change. All the best to you, Mark
Y know what will really compound your addictions?......killing someone with your car because you were too distracted filming a video! Please safeguard yourself and others and save your videos for when you aren't behind the wheel, it's not just your life your risking.
I’ve never enjoyed an AA meeting, I hate the idea of going, always happier when I leave a meeting because either I feel relieved to be free or else I learned something new
@adsinozable I did many years sat in meetings, talking about how bad my past had been, it made me eventually want a drink, it's not for me, great for those it works for
@@JJ-eb8eu JJ, please get to a "Step" meeting. That is where you will find true sobriety, because the people there are focused on living in the solution, instead of rehashing, complaining, whining, and blaming. The meetings I attend are full of laughter, compassion, encouragement, hope, humility, decency, kindness, wisdom, and REAL solutions. The day I show up, and can't find those things, will be the day I leave. Hasn't happened in 30 years! I guess I'm staying! 😉
443 days sober for me!
Watching your videos motivates me to never get back onto the hamster wheel of alcohol
One drink would be the start of my downfall
Congratulations to you! I’ve got two months and I’m so happy to be off of that hamster wheel too!
@@CMoore8539 congrats to you too!!
hammer wheel is a great way of putting it, that is exactly what it is
Hey my name is Jess and I just happened on your videos and first and foremost I want to say it takes a lot of guts to put yourself out there and no comment or opinion can take that away from you. I do something similar ok tiktok where I talk about my journey and educate others on addiction. What a lot of people fail to understand is that addiction stems from trauma and/or untreated mental illnesses. So for people who want to say ‘just stop’ that comes from ignorance either intentional or not.
I come from a family of addiction, mostly alcohol addiction, I myself struggled with opioids and have been clean for 8 years. I lost my mother to alchol, my step mother, my sister and my father has a very rare disease related to his past alcoholism which I’ll tell you a bit about.
I truly believe that alcohol is one of the hardest addictions to treat hands down. It’s so accessible it’s everywhere. My dad struggled for as long as I can remember, at one point even stopping for 15 years, he then thought he could socially drink, and he did but it didn’t last long and before you knew it he was back in full blown addiction. 3 years ago he stopped again and with the help of Antabuse has remained sober. About 2 years ago tho he started to exhibit symptoms that kind of mirrored being drunk. I started to notice his speech was a little slurred, he was falling and becoming unsteady in his gait, but he wasn’t drinking. Fast forward a bit and he was diagnosed with a condition called Marchiafava bignami disease which is complicated but stems from a thiamine deficiency due to prolonged alchol use and malnutrition. Thiamine is vitiman b1 and can effect everything from cognitive functioning, toileting, memory, dexterity, balance and gait issues.
I don’t know you, but I do know you can beat this. Setbacks are ok, they happen. I’ve subscribed to your channel and want you to know I’m rooting for you from New Hampshire. Sorry for the long comment, and for anyone else out there struggling, you are strong and capable. You may have to take it minute by minute, but each minute is a minute forward towards your goal. You can do this.
I found your channel a few days ago and spent time catching up with your story. I’m grateful for other addicts who are willing to share online bc it’s a lonely disease. I was lucky to get into some DBT groups at my treatment centre and that too helps me feel less alien. Your stream of consciousness is very digestible and relatable. Thanks for coming back on :)
An alcoholic is a person that despite the consequences does not get the clarity to see that they need to ask for help.
Sir, I was just like you for over 20 years.... I finally helped myself by going to inpatient treatment to cure my alcoholism.
After you get out of treatment and continue to rehabilitate your mind and heal yourself, the opportunities that you need to rebuild your finances and regain Prosperity will return in miraculous ways.
I was just like you and couldn't stop drinking.
Mate, suggestion and strong advice from a recovered alcohol; suggestion you should shit can your RUclips channel and take that time to go to AA
And I just want to say one more comment, i’ve scrolled through some of your comments, and I’ve seen some of the nasty things that people write. Please know that you do help people and that people listen and I know that I don’t know you and you don’t know me, but I am rooting for you as a recovered alcoholic myself, it is possible and keep trying as many times as it takes. And leave the haters behind we’re all human. And I certainly would never be the one to cast the stone at anyone in recovery.
i hope you keep making videos of your raw thoughts. it's nice to hear i'm not alone** in my thinking. if you decide to keep sharing, we'll be here. keep doing your best buddy, Rome wasn't built in a day.
I admire you for getting back on here each time and trying again. I’m not going to tell you there is any one magic bullet that works for everyone because there quite simply isn’t. Our reasons for drinking, and for stopping, tend to be personal and sometimes only make sense to us.
I am a year sober. I had to have a reason to want to stop. For me, my son is the reason. No meetings or treatment would have worked for me versus my fundamentally changing my mind about whether alcohol was serving me and the life I wanted, and I decided my son would have a much better life if I was a sober parent. It is impossible to argue against that even if sometimes drinking crosses my mind. He needs and deserves the best me.
I hope you figure out what you really want from life because it sounds like you know being stuck in a drinking cycle isn’t really your true goal. You can do it.
Congratulations to you! That’s a Wonderful Reason!!!🫡💞
I'm so sick and tired of this drinking. Today is my hangover day. I get absolutely nothing accomplished and try to rehydrate my body. Tomorrow i will feel normal and feel like drinking that night.. and it just never stops.
This is were I'm at. I gotta sort this shit
@@JJ-eb8eu There's nothing to "sort". If you can't or won't address the root problem...YOU, you're phucked!
@markg.4246 how you find the root problem? If there is one
@@JJ-eb8eu Look in the mirror, and ask yourself some hard questions. What are my fears, resentments, and character defects that keep me from daily living, without drinking alcohol?
I tried to "quit drinking" 500 times, but could never STAY quit! When I could no longer live with "ME", was the moment my recovery began. My entire focus shifted from alcohol, to sobriety and it totally changed my life. I was finally living in the solution, and the more I lived in the solution, the less alcohol was even a part of my consciousness. 30 years of continuous sobriety, and 30 years of living in abundance, is all the evidence I need to CONTINUE "living in the solution".
It's been the greatest adventure of my life, and I sincerely wish the same for you! ✌❤ Mark
Don’t give up
I am an alcoholic 14 months sober. I admire your willingness to get out here and be honest. I was not able to get on board with AA. I am an atheist and I am very much a science-based person so I threw myself into understanding the science of addiction. I found a book written by a psychiatrist called dopamine nation to be an absolute game changer. It completely changed the way I understood addiction and made me understand my mind so much better and really help me understand what goes into an actual craving, I also found a podcast called Sober Powered to be very instrumental in my recovery and in understanding addiction.
believing in psychiatry stars and dark matter is as helpful as God for the religious people I suppose :D
AA is not about God. You weren’t paying attention. It’s about believing there’s something more powerful than you. A Higher Power.
I am about to be sober for a year now on august 10th.. you can pull yourself together, i am 36 i had 3 years sober at one point, we fail we get back up, just keep getting back up! we are human.. mistakes happen but need to just refocus.. one day at a time is just that..
Really enjoy your videos, they are very real and down to earth and raw. I guess I am a functioning alcoholic as well. I drink a bottle of wine every night and almost every morning I wake up I commit to stop drinking., By the evening, I’m drinking wine again. I don’t wake up hung over as I limit to one bottle. I wish I woke up hung over and sick as that might be more helpful in quitting. Keep posting please! ❤
Hey buddy, seriously appreciate your honesty and want u to know this comes from a place of caring.
Looking at your situation as a complete outsider I see someone with good intentions but whose thinking is warped, obsessive and self destructive. Whether alcoholism, workaholism or any other ‘ism’ - it’s unhealthy and definitely not a solution for a longterm success. Again with compassion I want to express that working yourself like a dog to pay for a house that you are not even going to live in is the game plan of a deluded martyr. You love your kids, that’s evident but literally killing yourself so they can live ‘nicely’ is frankly insane. What they really want (and I speak as a 60 year old dude with 2 kids who’s dealt with a shit ton of my own craziness) is a dad who is available, healthy and loves himself. They don’t want your nice house - they want you - present, involved and showing self love and compassion. Seriously, just imagine you drink or work yourself to death and your kids watch these videos. Try to imagine how they will interpret them. Please don’t burden them with guilt that u killed yourself to pay for them to live in an expensive home. As an outsider looking in that is batshit crazy thinking. Please get the help u need to stop these obsessive cycles (whatever they are) and learn to love yourself. Those kids need a healthy, happy dad for the long haul.
Love and light to u and your entire family.
Broken record mate. Is is a vicious cycle mate. Nobody will congratulate you on working hard. Nobody cares. Health is more important than money I told you I worked in the trucking industry for 13 years stressed out of my mind drove me to drink . Changed careers due to my daughter requiring more of me with less pay. She has more of me with less money but my partner is now the bread winner. End of the day it looks to me work is causing you to drink. You know that. Quit your job. Go for a long drive reflect on life. Look at something that makes you happy. Trust me you’ll thank people like me and others in the comment section later. You are just putting a toxic bandage something that is going to kill you. Think of it as this if cars can run off alcohol wonder what it’s doing to your body
He’s being raw and honest. He’s my hero actually. Keep your negative comments to yourselves
@@courtneywilson-f1xhave you thought this through properly he’s working so many hours how is he there for his kids the comment is correct, if he’s working 9 - 00:30 3 days a week and still drinking he’s probably drink driving at least once a week probably more. I respect him for keeping coming on here and making himself vulnerable and I truly believe he will get sober hence I keep watching but to say he’s a hero come on. He’s swapping one addiction for another right now.
@@courtneywilson-f1x The LAST thing he is being is...honest! Especially with himself. This isn't dandruff we're talking about, it's a FATAL CONDITION, ALCOHOLISM!
That's the best advice this guy has ever had (but will fall on deaf ears😞)
@@courtneywilson-f1x ironically you just left a negative comment
Your channel is slowly growing on me have to say! I don't have any drug or alcohol problem but have had mental health difficulties all my life (31 now). I don't feel you need to be an addict to relate to everything you're sharing. Your manifestation of dealing with the difficulties of life is through substances, while others have different ways. So we can all learn/relate.
It's ok for you to keep struggling with sobriety. Just keep being honest with yourself and doing your best. It's better to try and learn and make mistakes than to just stand still (I've been guilty of this for year after year). I'm grateful for your honesty with us it's refreshing. I can never give you advice as it's your journey, but I've heard such life changing stories from AA meetings and 12 steps groups and how the unconditional support and openness in those groups is very powerful in healing from addictions. I would really give it a go. Anyway I'm routing for you!! All the best
thank you the world is sadistic its not natural and humans ought to be free
You said a very true thing: “all I want to do every day is stay sober, go to a meeting, and do some exercise.”
@@Joa_jo but the question is will he do it?
Yes go to AA. Get a sponsor. Work the steps. All meetings are different. If you don’t like one find another. NA is also great. NA deals with addiction in general doesn’t matter if it’s alcohol or weed. I quit drinking in 2022 but then became a huge weed addict. Been almost 5 months now completely sober from everything. It’s hard but I feel a lot better. I don’t use no matter what happens. Still think about it but the positives outweigh that little bit of time the escape of substances provide. You can do it. Don’t waste your life.
You can do it. Never quit quitting. Just imagine that tired, shaky and foggy feeling and realize the short buzz isn’t worth the much longer hangover.
The title brought me here, I feel the same. I hold myself accountable for all I've done and not done but I will not take accountability for others, I have addiction too, your not alone and thank you for being honest and sharing ❤
the fact that you are driving means you are doing better than alot of people, most drunks are intoxictated from the AM, I wish you well brother.
yeah i dont know how he does it really, i can handle the odd day of getting truly drunk then going to work at 7 AM and its fucking hell and i am a mess all day. def can't do it consistently. I get more into trouble on weekends and periods where I dont have a full time job since there is nothing stopping me from going to get more beer when i wakeup hungover
Hi there from the United States, Maine. Very glad to see you’ve posted an update. Wishing you all the best with your recovery. Anything that you put before your sobriety and recovery you will lose. I know it might be hard to hear. I’m a grateful recovering alcoholic/ addict with almost 18 years sobriety. Again, wishing you all the best.
Looking forward to hearing from you hopefully today. Following your journey is helping me look inwards and think more about my own actions. Be kind to yourself.
Hey Jacob so glad you are back man and doing good. I started drinking in 2011 at 20 years old mainly because I was starting a Long Distance Relationship with my girlfriend who lives in Oakland and I would drink because I wasn’t seeing her as much because she wanted to focus on school it’s was so bad I started smoking black and mild cigars as well just to cope. One night she told you are a different person when you drink do you want your family to see you like this and I said no . I knew she was right so in 2016 I went cold turkey and man it was hard and difficult I went through withdrawal symptoms and cold sweats like I was a damn drug addict but I preserved I began reading and listening to the Bible more. My girlfriend literally saved my life I tell her that all time I had to change for the people I love and for myself I never wanted to be that person again and I am happily 9 years sober from drinking. It is an amazing feeling my brother when get this liquid demon out of your life for good. I know you can do my brother I believe in you glad you are back man take it one day at a time man peace Jacob
Jacob is drinking during this video. So you’re happy about that? 👎
@@janwarriner6554 I know he is but I am giving him hope that he will defeat this disease it’s not easy to do
This must be super hard… proud of u for trying everyday 🙏🏻 sending positivity and strength your way 🤍🙏🏻
Please don't take our comments too harshly..its just tough love...we care about you. I am glad you will go to AA. I hope to hear from you daily. Please don't look at alcohol as a reward at the end of the day....look at it as the thing that gives you anxiety. Recovered and Grateful, Eileen from Missouri.
Alcohol definitely causes Anxiety for me too! I’m two months sober now.💞
@@CMoore8539 oh my word...be so proud of yourself...much love and blessings to you.Eileen.
I love your honesty, it was brave of you to say that you recorded your previous video after having a few drinks on you (I kinda sensed you were different, more confident and energetic so no wonder this state of mind is appealing and we want to get back to it despite the pain it brings later). Fair play for reaching out to your local AA and going to the meeting, any connection with people struggling with a similar thing will be beneficial. I wonder how you find the meetings and I look forward to hearing your feedback on this. Your heart is in the right place, just the mind keeps drifting into self sabotage and negative self talk.. (I can relate, we all do it) And yes, opening up and talking to us (complete strangers!) about your super personal stuff is also very brave but it can put you in a vulnerable position, remember that you are helping many out here by doing so. Keep going 🙌💪
Keep evolving bro and dont worry as long as you are always aware and actually ' TRYING ' to get better honestly and genuienly that's all that matters, thanks for sharing your journey, keep growing! better times are ahead
I’m living a parallel like Air Canada. Your videos at home for me hopefully you’re doing well !!
That’s the best thing I’ve heard you say. Enjoy the meeting 🙏🏻
I love your unscripted honesty. Thank you for sharing your struggles. 13 days sober🩷
I can relate so much to this. You described it perfectly! Thank you for being brutally honest about this journey. If you try, you move the needle regardless. I’m proud of you no matter what. ❤
Good to see you back again
It is going to be hard… but you can do this.. I lived this as a child and please do it for your kids and yourself! Pray…and cry out to Jesus especially when u feel week!
You’re going to smash it this time mate I can feel it! You seem very determined 💪 perhaps work on an online side hustle to replace one of those jobs and to fill your downtime (which you don’t seem to have a lot of at the moment)
Same here man. Ive been up all night cause I can’t sleep. It’s frustrating. Lately I’ve been dealing with my addiction to electronics and also pornography.
Me too…Terrible insomnia, constantly on the phone or iPad. House got robbed 3 weeks ago whilst I was in full alcohol withdrawal. Over 10,000 bucks in valuables gone. Angry at myself mostly.
@@sugashakeshakeshake852Wow that is a lot . I’m sorry to hear that. Remember what is most important: you are still alive.
it's all temporary, stay on your grind and goal. @derroneverest4511
@sugashakeshakeshake852 being angry doesnt mean u are doing bad or being wrong, it means you want to change for the right and better, so dont waste and low ur energy down, it's all meant to be the way it is, patience is a key and trying to be better is the way with awareness!
I retired from trucking i feel like I just got out of a 40 year prison sentence... I had ten boses so 20 hands have let go of my basket. Balls,, feel absolutely fantastic,,mate!!!!
I used to drink a dozen double whiskeys a night. Trying to quit drinking never worked for me, like you, I’d hyper-fixate on not drinking. You need to hyper-fixate on something else. Try focusing on your health. Eat a whole food diet and prepare it yourself, count calories and hit the gym. You won’t be able to drink because you can’t have the calories and you’ll be too busy working out, shopping and cooking. Worked for me. I still do allow myself a beer now and then for only 110 calories. This only happed because I became very ill. The unintended consequences were getting sober. Yay OCD!
That's the difference, you can have 1 beer. Alcoholics can't do that. I know I defo can't.
Hopefully AA can help I never went so I have no opinion.
An advice I can give you if you can't stop completely at least try to reduce the amount you drink, just take the minimum that you need to keep going.
On the long run the only real "cure" is abstinence we agree...
I hope u will make a video today no matter what
Glad you are doing well!
I’m a 7 nights a week drinker.
And smoke a few cigarettes 🚬
We look forward to seeing how you go at your AA meeting……….
Take care x
He’s not “doing well”. He’s drinking doing this video.
Hell yeah man! Stoked you’re going to a meeting!🤟
He clearly didn’t go
You don't look like an alcoholic. You look clean cut well taken care of you
What does an alcoholic look like??
Keep fighting the good fight 👊
Don't be too hard on your self your aware you have a problem your honest about it. Be mindful take it a day at a time. Gym and exercise is the key your working too much and your release is alcohol you have to address that and change your mind set you can't burn the candle at both ends something has to give find balance. Im 8 years sober. Also Kevin O Hara alcohol mastery helped me (you tube videos). You can do it.
you said see you Monday..it is now tuesday
I’m struggling as well. It’s been years. I have never wanted to give up but I don’t know what to do
Who else is waiting for the late video that won’t come for another month. Then it’s: I’m sick and tired of sick and tired of being sick and tired of sick and tired’
Read or listen to "Easy Way to Control Alcohol" by Allen Carr.
People with a decade, or two, or three, or four of continuous sobriety are NOT offering "opinions"! We are sharing our ACTUAL EXPERIENCE. Big difference!
Once upon a time, I was just like you. Trying to run the "show", not being honest with myself, and working my ass off to "figure out" how to get sober with the least amount of effort. In reality, there's NOTHING to figure out. If you can't or won't address the root problem...YOU!, you're phucked!
I sincerely hope that you arrive at a moment of rigorous honesty with yourself, take your hands off the steering wheel, and let someone else drive! It's going to happen sooner or later anyway, but you'll be in a box on a one way trip to Sleepy Town.
Where is the monday video?
Least he is honest about it
AA saved my life
I can sense the anxiety within you. when you are this anxious a sip of vodka would taste wonderful but you neeed too keep fighting. "Fight fight fight" - Trump.
Check out a men’s meeting, you may find it easier to absorb and relate.
We need more videos brother!
Don’t give up!!
Don’t listen to some of the shite comments on here. The fact that people take the time to watch your videos then slate you is beyond me. There’s plenty of people here really rooting for you, you’ve got this
I love u man
#HappySunday!
Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out.❤
You Can Do This!!! You Deserve To Have a Beautiful Life!!!👍♥️💯
please dont lose your conviction.....
Can you do a vlog on your trip to Thailand recently? 🇹🇭
I've been waiting for you to come back mate! Look at how many comments you have gotten in such a short time. People want you to succeed. I know you are heaps busy working, but I still suggest you read quitting alcohol books, especially Allen Carr and Alcohol Explained. Quitting alcohol is purely in the mind, it isn't a physical thing. You clearly can quit for multiple days, keep up the momentum. I couldn't even quit for 2 hrs at my worst (other than when I was passed out). As soon as the bottle shop opened at 9am, I was straight there "just have one beer". I would then DRIVE to a carpark to drink them in shame, usually 4 500ml cans. I'd then stop in at the pub and drink until my mind turned off, go home and black out.
I was full time employed earning good money, and did literally no work for days at a time. I'd then finally manage to pump out some work for a few hours and then head back to the pub again.
"Quitting alcohol is purely in the mind, it isn't a physical thing". Really? Please enlighten me so I can stay at home and have life in abundance, using only my mind. Heck, if I need a gallon of milk I'll just think about it, until it magically appears on my doorstep.
@@markg.4246 drinking alcohol is an action you take. You decide to not do it and you have quit. Completely different to manifesting physical objects into existence, no idea how you care up with that…
"You decide to not do it and you have quit". You clearly don't understand addiction. Quitting the substance isn't the issue...it's STAYING "quit". If you are one of the small percentage who was able to just put down the drink, I sincerely say, "Good for you".
That's not how it works for most chronic drinkers. ACTION is the key to achieving sobriety, and when that action is taken on a regular basis, our "thinking" will change.
All the best to you, Mark
Do you do all of this with the hope of getting back with ur ex one day
Y know what will really compound your addictions?......killing someone with your car because you were too distracted filming a video! Please safeguard yourself and others and save your videos for when you aren't behind the wheel, it's not just your life your risking.
Something's fishy about this
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I’ve never enjoyed an AA meeting, I hate the idea of going, always happier when I leave a meeting because either I feel relieved to be free or else I learned something new
@adsinozable I did many years sat in meetings, talking about how bad my past had been, it made me eventually want a drink, it's not for me, great for those it works for
@@JJ-eb8eu that’s great! Out of interest have you managed to stay sober?
I don’t think AA is for me either
dude same I literally went to a AA meeting and as soon as I got out I was like I nee da drink
@@JJ-eb8eu JJ, please get to a "Step" meeting. That is where you will find true sobriety, because the people there are focused on living in the solution, instead of rehashing, complaining, whining, and blaming. The meetings I attend are full of laughter, compassion, encouragement, hope, humility, decency, kindness, wisdom, and REAL solutions.
The day I show up, and can't find those things, will be the day I leave. Hasn't happened in 30 years! I guess I'm staying! 😉
So you were gona do a video yesterday and start sobriety today right with another video?…
That’s not the definition of insanity 🤦♂️
it is Thursday now...I don't see you sticking to what you said....
it's Weds. now......