My Eating Disorder Story: Orthorexia Awareness
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I'll be on Channel 4's 'How To Lose Weight Well' at 8PM TOMORROW (Monday 18th January) to raise awareness about orthorexia - so this video is to share my personal experience, how I overcame it and how help can be found.
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I know this is an old video, but starting at 13 (I'm 18 now) I started struggling with orthorexia. I became like this due to me wanting to be skinny. I was never fat. I was never "chubby". But I started convincing myself otherwise. I began to eat extremely healthy. This went on for about 2 months. I was eating a well and balanced diet. I was losing weight and people were noticing which is what really pushed me. It started getting unhealthy. I was eating so clean, how could that possibly be unhealthy right? I slowly became borderline anorexic. I had lost 25 pounds from February 2015 to April 2015. I was only 13 and lost such a significant amount of weight in 2 months. I started depriving myself of food. All food to me was bad. Even my "safe" foods became bad to me. I stopped getting my period for over a year. I was an elite athlete, doing intense training 3-4 times a week as well. I started to lose energy, I couldn't compete the same anymore. After everytime I ate, I would make sure to exercise those calories off. Everytime I ate it's like I could physically feel myself expanding. It was horrible. But I was in denial that I really was suffering with an eating disorder. This extremity of control I had iver my food and weight continued on until I was 16. I slowly started to eat more. I think it was due to me being in a better headspace. I did start to gain weight, but I looked healthy. I quit playing sports that year as well. 2 years since I've struggled that bad. I still struggle, a lot. I still feel like I need to be in control of what I eat. I do know I'm still struggling. There will be days I force myself not to eat. Some days I will eat so much I feel disgusted with myself. It's turned into more of a binge/purge kind of thing. Although, I think I purge more than I binge. I still have this idea of needing to be skinny in my head. It's something I'm not sure I will be able to get past. But hopefully one day, I'll be able to overcome this
Pray you have seeked help ✨
Hey hun, thanks so much for sharing this with us, I am definitely going to make sure I watch tomorrow. xx
+Leona Shopaholic Thank you so much for your support
This helped me a lot just now. I started shaking from not eating enough and needed something to convince me to eat pasta (something I’ve cut out of my diet bc carbs but still have in the fridge).
Saving this video for when I inevitably relapse back into this ED.
I can't believe your story is so similar to mine! My orthorexia also got out of control to the point where I was hospitalized and had every test imaginable done on me. They were never able to figure out what it was causing me the horrible pain in my stomach. I would keep going back to the hospital and be sent home feeling helpless and scared. I think that I may have given myself a form of IBS from all the stress I was putting myself through around food and all the strange supplements and health food products I was consuming in excess. At the time I had no idea that orthorexia was a thing. I thought I was the only one who thought and felt the way I did everyday. I still struggle with orthorexia and have just recently fallen back into trying to "fix" myself and my anxiety by controlling my diet and starting detoxes or cleanses. I am just now seeking help from this eating disorder and found your video. It feels good to know I'm not alone and that recovery is possible. Very inspiring. Thank you!
Thank you for sharing your personal story with me - I know first hand how difficult it is and you're definitely not alone - and there IS light at the end of the tunnel even if it doesn't seem like it at times. It's going to be a journey to recovery but do let me know if there's anything I can do to make that journey easier - even if it's to lend a listening ear :) xxx
Praying you’re well now ♥️
As soon as I started first year of Uni, I decided to cut meat out of my diet (not sure if it was related to transitioning to Uni - moving out - change to usual routine - having to buy food and cook for self etc.) but I made one chicken meal and felt scared to eat it. I thought I would get ill from it and thought it would be easier just to not eat any meat so I wouldn't have to cook it. I later realised I was disgusted by more than just the thought of me food poisoning myself when I couldn't bare the thought of eating meat cooked for me by family or at a restaurant, I started becoming judgemental of other people eating really greasy meat like pork and burgers, just watching them eat it made me feel queasy and I know that orthorexia can make you critical of other people's diets. I'm starting to think I could start trying chicken again but maybe not eat red meats but I'm still scared. I don't know why it took me 20 years to suddenly fear meat. I was scared of getting ill and putting on weight. Why at 20 just moving to uni though?
Thank you for sharing! I'm currently overweight and on the road to getting healthier and now I'm more aware that this things could also happen to me
Thank you for sharing your experience with us and raising awareness about this. I knew someone with this condition and thankfully her mum picked up on it and she managed to coerce her out of it and change her eating habits. She was literally at the point where any food she thought had fat in it would make her feel physically sick she just couldn't eat it. xx
Thank you so much for taking the time to watch! Sorry it's taken me so long to reply. I'm glad her mum helped her through it and I really hope she's a lot better now! :)
I've always been afraid of getting sick and now that I have symptoms that sorta come and go I'm constantly craving healthy food. Doctors can't find anything wrong with me.
I stumbled upon your Disney vlogs and just became a subscriber and I love you!! You are such a beautiful soul, both inside and out. I have struggled with anorexia in the past and eating disorders SUCK. I feel like it's something that I will struggle with for the rest of my life, and it's so comforting to have real people to relate too. Thank you for sharing this ❤️❤️
Thank you so much, Nicole! I'm sorry for taking a while to get back to you but want to assure you that your comment had made my WEEK. It's been a crazy few weeks so seeing your kind words made it all the more brighter! Don't hesitate to pop over an email if there's ever anything you want to talk about
Thank you for sharing your experience. I am glad you are well now. Take good care! Lena 💕😊💕
+Lena yau Thank you so much, Lena
Just watched you on TV and searched you straight away still watching it right now I'm glad you decided to go on the show
+afnaf Thank you so much, Afnaf! Really hope it'll help to help others! x
Wow... This was an incredible story and very awesome of you to share.. I certainly was unaware of this, thank you for enlightening me :) It hit home for sure just a little.. I know all too well about the healing power if opening up and sharing and being able to talk about mental heath issues.. A few years ago i had depression and intense anxiety. Only it took around 10 years prior to that of not knowing what it was and brushing it aside and bottling it up before i went to see a Dr. Before i saw the Dr. i would go days without sleep cause the anxiety would get so intense that i would get a burning sensation right in the pit of my sternum and that would lead to anger due to being so restless... I wouldnt go out and see friends, I would stay home on my own..and living alone didnt help.. That lead to depression... That lasted around 10 years... I finally went to see a Dr. and it was the best thing i ever did.. He sat there with me and we just talked. He was gobsmacked as to how i had gone on with this alone for so long and how i was able bottle it up.. And he helped me to understand about the disorder.. I was on medication for a while, which as much as i dont like to use, i know it was helping.. My friends and family had no idea for the longest time cause i had a lot of time to practice covering it up. I know that wasnt the best and i certainly dont recommend it if anyone is going through anything like this now, only back then i didnt know what was going on. At a real low point i even stopped eating because i was so depressed and i kept fainting from the lack of nourishment.. Thats something i have kept to myself till right now.. And it feels so good to say that outloud (well in written form) ... I only bring it up now in hopes that it may help and encourage someone to do the same :) There are people who want too and are able to help... Even if its just to talk.. The talking was the best thing for me.. And the ability to finally understand.. Even though its been quite a few years now... I still suffer from anxiety but only really minor and even less occasionally i feel depressed... im off medication as i can manage it well now.. and as i said its only minor.. Im sure it will stick with me for ever but its a part of me and i embrace that part and i dont try and bury deep within like i once did.. Im sorry for rambling on but it was really great to get that out there I hope that someone will read this and do the same :) Thank you Shu for your courage for sharing :) ~Ryan
Thanks so much for sharing your story. I didn't know anything about this before but now I do I will try my best to aware people!
That would be incredible! Thank you so much for taking the time to watch!!
This is a very brave video. Thanks for sharing and raising awareness.
Woww you're going to be on TV!!!!!!!! .. im proud of you :D !!
I will definitely try help spread the word :) .. its amazing what power the media has over how we look and eat :/
This whole time you was dealing with this and had no idea 😢 ..
*Hugss ! * 😄
+HijabiDoll Thank you so so much for your support! I hope I did you all proud : )
I've struggled with orthorexia myself; healthy eating and exercise are good, but when you start to become afraid of foods and demonstrate avoiding behavior, those should be red flags.
thankful to have found this video. thank you. ❤️
Very inspirational video! Will definitely watch tomorrow on C4 :) xx
+Lucie Sophia Thank you so much, Lucie! : ) xx
Hi, I suffer a lot when I eat out. Sometimes I decide to stay home and not to eat out with my friends, and I only want to go to some restaurants which I deem as healthy and it is becoming obsessive for me :( I have a very bad time in my head when I eat something unhealthy or fried, I am embarrassed to talk about this with someone
Hi Jose! So sorry I've only just seen your comment. First of all, please don't feel embarrassed. What you're feeling and going through is completely valid and there's nothing to be embarrassed about! Do you have a trusted friend or loved one you feel comfortable to speak to? Or perhaps a GP or doctor to make an appointment to speak with? Sending so much strength your way.
I am pregnant now when I met some nurses they said I was overweight, well I thought how much weight do I have to lose. When I ate everything went through a health approval filter and I steered clear of a lot of things to this day, my stomach would growl and I am like sad because I'm only taking in drinks and I feel like I'm always hungry and don't want to eat because I worry about what it would do. Scared of listeria and a bunch of other conditions. I keep checking everything for to see if it was pasteurized or not and if it wasn't, I skipped out on it. Mom said I have to feed my child so she helped me by giving me kale drinks she got from the store, and I enjoyed them. They never got me past e. I worry about preeclampsia and gestational diabetes a lot. I am almost certain my blood sugar isn't high though. The way I use the bathroom when I pee it's all dark but even writing this I get woozy. Standing up, I feel like I'm going to die after walking I lost so much of my legs and it's like I thought at the time it was stopping the swelling, but I feel like my physiology is entirely bad and I'm going to die. I have a very hard time breathing and sleeping and I take in way too much caffeine.
Currently watching 'How To Lose Weight Well'. Hope you kick this eating disorders ass!
+_tomo_ I'm so much better now, thank you! Here's to helping a bunch more other people to feel better too! : )
Hey girl! Thanks so much for sharing I just posted my story with binge eating as my first RUclips video
I will try to watch it and, I was never aware of this wow..☺
+JVL8A Thank you so much! I hope it's helped to raise more awareness about it : )
watching the episode now. Never knew there was such thing but I know a few people who did cut off dairy, meat etc and they felt better at first. Not sure if they are still doing them now. But interesting to know something new now :).
+EvolEimi Thank you for tuning! Keeping healthy and being mindful of diet/exercise is great but it's also so easy for it to get out of control. Hoping this will help to raise more awareness about it! : )
I love this video so much thank you!!!!!
Thanks Zoe :)
how did you cut down the exercise from 3hrs.to a.normal amount. do you have any tips on how to overcome orthorexia and exercise dependency
Hello! Personally for me, I had to gradually stop working out at home and spend time in the living room/bedroom doing things that weren't related to exercise (i.e. watching a show/reading a book/spending time with family). I then gradually went from doing intense workouts for 3 hours a day to slowly reducing it to 2.5 hours and replacing it with things like walking/doing something that I know would give me pleasure (i.e. reading/walking to the beach or park). The most important part was being able to associate exercise with a social activity so my primary focus wasn't on burning calories... You can do this, I know it
Great video, thumbs up from us!
+TeamToone Fitness Thanks guys! : )
Thank u
:) xxx
What is your outfit in the background? It is so cute?!!!
Kimono's from Topshop and dungarees from Zara :)
You basically just explained me! Please help!!
+jake ryan I'm so sorry to hear that, I'M HERE! Pop me an email if it's easier to chat but I'd advise to speak to somebody close to you that you trust and to work out next steps from there with speaking to medical professionals etc. It'll be tiny steps but don't let it pull you back - each obstacle you overcome is a MASSIVE deal that takes an incredible amount of courage and strength. For me, even eating a banana past 3pm was a big deal. Speaking out about it now already is so don't be hard on yourself! xx
I am watching as I type this
+2 equine lovers Hello! : )
I just saw you on tv!
+SuperFinch Hello! Thank you for tuning in! :)
Reminds me of veganism...🥕