My Eating Disorder Story: Anorexia and Bulimia

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  • Опубликовано: 14 июн 2024
  • This is my story about my eating disorder and how I recovered. I’m opening up for the first time and sharing the pain and sadness I experienced for years through starvation and bulimia followed by food addiction. But there is hope. And I’m living proof that life is beautiful, and you CAN get through it.
    If you, or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, here is an awesome resource for support, treatment options, and many eating disorder-related resources:
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Комментарии • 555

  • @kaityparsons1212
    @kaityparsons1212 3 года назад +525

    The anorexia to bulimia dilemma is such an epidemic that isnt talked about as much as it should. You're either labeled as a bulimic or anorexic, but they are so intertwined.

    • @waiki8223
      @waiki8223 3 года назад +22

      Kaity, in DSM V both disorders are defined based on the food behaviour during the last three months. Yes, one can start just restricting but then (and hear this quite often I believe) binging +/- purging adds to the pictures. Once you hit the 3 months mark, that person is no longer anorexic in psychiatric terminology but a bulimic/binge eater. Seems like it often starts as anorexia and then transforms into other eating disorders... Also personal experience...

    • @beverleysteele1106
      @beverleysteele1106 3 года назад +15

      i never knew until it was me,i thought i was a anorexia failure

    • @ravenabramavic360
      @ravenabramavic360 3 года назад +9

      i believe it is talked about, though it isn’t represented accurately on our media. a lot of people think that an ed is exclusively anorexia & people who do have it, have to be the most severe case of it. therefore, whenever someone shows signs of restriction, especially people who are “normal” or “overweight” ,a lot of us just brush it off. i often see representations of eating disorders on the internet & it makes me upset witnessing people looking in the mirror & seeing themselves as obese or overweight, or consuming a high amount of food & crying. it’s the way they only show the surface of it, there’s so much more depth to eating disorders & only showing things on surface level will make people who are begging to struggle or just regular people not fully understand what an eating disorder is. i believe that’s the true issue here.

    • @vinesbystitch-694
      @vinesbystitch-694 Год назад +1

      @@beverleysteele1106You aren’t alone. I myself felt like a failure when I got help and was forced to eat. I understand

    • @danajacobs9097
      @danajacobs9097 Год назад

      I would say I'm both

  • @rosie1396
    @rosie1396 3 года назад +397

    You have no idea how much I needed this. When I searched ‘anorexia story’ I had hoped to see a series of photos of seriously underweight girls just to emphasise the feeling of inadequacy and push me to breaking point, to tempt me back into restricting food and losing weight. In watching this video, I suddenly feel like a weight has been lifted, its like someone else understands and I’m not alone. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️

    • @evemartin9227
      @evemartin9227 3 года назад +17

      thats why i search that up

    • @godislove7500
      @godislove7500 2 года назад

      ruclips.net/video/ZOX2eg1nfAs/видео.html

    • @softieartsydork
      @softieartsydork 2 месяца назад

      Hey, it’s been 3 years. How are u doing now? Fellow ED sufferer here.

    • @rosie1396
      @rosie1396 2 месяца назад

      @@softieartsydork Hey, thank you for checking in. I still have relapses and struggle with restricting sometimes. But I am slowly repairing my relationship with food. I have recently started working with a therapist and she has helped me so much! It’s tough, but there are more good days than bad now 😊. How are you doing?

  • @jaimetrone9454
    @jaimetrone9454 3 года назад +361

    Heidi! I never knew! I remember in HS how small you were and I would be lying if I said I didn’t wonder, but I always said to myself there was no way. You were so “healthy” with all the activities you were involved in etc. But more than anything else, I remember how kind you were to everyone. You were the nicest person in our class for sure! Thanks for sharing your story. I know it will help many people. 💜💜

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +99

      Jaime! You have me crying over here 😭 Your words truly do mean the world to me... thank you so much 💜💜

    • @Selenaloveshorses2024
      @Selenaloveshorses2024 7 месяцев назад +2

      ​@@HeidipowellNethey my name is Selena and I'm from linton Stockton high school and I'm in a class called nutrition and we watched your video about eating disorder❤

  • @ruzicavasic5667
    @ruzicavasic5667 3 года назад +178

    You were not selfish , you were sick . Dont be hard on yourself , this is disorder not a choice ♥️

  • @francesca2317
    @francesca2317 3 года назад +250

    I appreciate this post so much.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +7

      Thank you ❤️❤️

    • @carriemoorehead3973
      @carriemoorehead3973 3 года назад +1

      @@HeidipowellNet thank you for your shareing your story I’ve never had Ed, but one thang that’s on my mind , there’s is a RUclipsr Eugenia cooney she plays off that she’s fine but looking at her will make you cry 😢 if you can look her up and try to help her every one on her RUclips channel comments begging her to get help before it’s too late I’m worried that she won’t make it long if she doesn’t get help fast .

    • @carriemoorehead3973
      @carriemoorehead3973 3 года назад

      @@HeidipowellNet one more thang I’m gonna look up Eugenia cooney and try to plea with her to get help .

    • @adelina7970
      @adelina7970 3 года назад

      @@carriemoorehead3973 Eugenia really looks sick.

    • @godislove7500
      @godislove7500 2 года назад

      ruclips.net/video/ZOX2eg1nfAs/видео.html

  • @justmeemi6350
    @justmeemi6350 3 года назад +162

    I burst into tears from minute 17 onwards... that's where I'm currently stuck and I can totally relate to hating the purge and being addicted to the emptiness...

    • @stastnykass5898
      @stastnykass5898 3 года назад +1

      Hi love I beginning to share my journey if you were interested in watching:)

    • @Asmaa-mm7mu
      @Asmaa-mm7mu 3 года назад +1

      Please please please I beg you, just ask for help, that will help you trust me I went through that time and it sucks and I just hated my life back then, but right now I’m living my life that I deserve. Remember all of us deserve to live a normal, happy, amazing, wonderful life, I love you and you are not alone♥️

    • @Njx063
      @Njx063 3 года назад +1

      @@Asmaa-mm7mu it doesn't tho.. its been 2 years and therapists dont help, parents dont give 2 fucks, i gained 20 pounds...

    • @Asmaa-mm7mu
      @Asmaa-mm7mu 3 года назад +2

      @@Njx063 and what’s the problem with gaining 20 pounds?? You didn’t just gain your weight you gained your life back, your happiness so do your health. Just look for the positive side darling, don’t let that sound inside your head chose how you live your life. You only have one life ,so if you chose to listen to that sound you will lose. And how your parents doesn’t care? All parents care about their children and hope the best for them. I want you just to think positive darling and god bless you!♥️

    • @SimplyOrganizedLLCMadison
      @SimplyOrganizedLLCMadison 3 года назад +4

      @@Asmaa-mm7mu Intuitive eating with a health coach's support has changed my life. I gained 30 lbs. but I'm free. I no longer obsess about food, restrict, have rules and focus on my size. I'm healthy as I eat and move in ways that support my health. We are more than our pant size.

  • @pattirodzewich7081
    @pattirodzewich7081 2 года назад +53

    I am now 65.
    Omg you are telling my 4 decade eating disorder story.
    Thank you for your share 🙏🏻❤️
    My ED was my oxygen. The only way I could survive in this world I was not prepared to face.
    I was a restricting anorexic for my first 7 years of my ED which started my senior year of HS.
    I made it through college.
    I became an RN. This is when the purging started.
    I wanted to be a part of our nursing potlucks.
    I panicked after eating a chicken wing.
    I remember my grandma always telling me that if I eat something that upset my stomach It was OK to throw up.
    I went to the hospital BR and my 4 decades of purging began.
    I changed to Anorexia subtype BP.
    When I binged I was eating all my feelings for that day.
    When I got home I would purge all the food which equaled my feelings and the people I was upset at that day
    because I did not know how to express my feelings.
    I would cry when I was binging. I felt like an alien landed in me and I couldn’t get away.
    I had to purged every morsel of food I ate. This was such a great release of emotions.
    Fast forward to today with many years of therapy I have been able to free myself from this alien and
    my ED.
    I love my life. I am about to retire from nursing in 4 years.
    Blessings and prayers to all who are going through their own journey with an ED 🙏🏻❤️

    • @PatriciaGodboutArt
      @PatriciaGodboutArt Год назад +1

      Omg my story sort of, I turned to drugs and alcohol for a cure, my name is also patti with a y. I am also 64, march 14.

    • @patriciarodzewich-vk8ck
      @patriciarodzewich-vk8ck Год назад

      ⁠@@PatriciaGodboutArt I am also a March baby. March 1st😊

    • @patriciarodzewich-vk8ck
      @patriciarodzewich-vk8ck Год назад +1

      @@Nk-en9nc You are so welcome 🙏 ❤

    • @Cherry-mq9nb
      @Cherry-mq9nb 11 месяцев назад +1

      Wow. As someone currently suffering from anorexia that made me cry. I’m proud of you for getting over it, and I hope to be like you

    • @colindahuisman3
      @colindahuisman3 11 месяцев назад +1

      Thank you so much for sharing this, it's so recognizable to me so for this moment I feel less alone. I'm 43 and struggling with food and my weight since I was 8 years old. Everything you describe, I went through it and still. Wishing you all the best from the Netherlands

  • @laurazeman360
    @laurazeman360 3 года назад +143

    I agree that it's not your parents "fault" but gosh at 8 years old I wouldn't even have the vocabulary or conception of some of these ideas like feeling "fat" or "thin" in a leotard wasn't even in my consciousness at that age.

    • @sarahboktor2203
      @sarahboktor2203 2 года назад +2

      i weighed myself after moving to america when i was 8. in the country i lived in before, we measured in kgs. i didn't know there was a difference. i weighed myself and i was 60 lbs. i thought i was 60kgs, which happened to be the weight of my overweight friend back then. thats when my body image and food relationship problems started

  • @erin07697
    @erin07697 2 года назад +31

    Not me deleting my history while watching this just in case! This was so on point thank you so much for the peace and safe space you’ve created through this video!

  • @janettecastillo2780
    @janettecastillo2780 3 года назад +86

    This is powerful. As an educational psychologist it’s empowering to so many women to hear your story. Our young girls starve themselves in search of the perfect body. Thank you for sharing.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +6

      I hope my story is able to help as many young girls as possible 🙏🏻❤️

    • @Michelle-ye3hd
      @Michelle-ye3hd 3 года назад +2

      @@HeidipowellNet it actually triggered me because I came here to make sure I ate but instead I started restricting sorry

    • @torialani
      @torialani 3 года назад +2

      @@Michelle-ye3hd agreed!

  • @kyliekwon155
    @kyliekwon155 3 года назад +124

    i can relate to this in so many ways. even though i am only 14 i have been struggling for over a year now and i don’t know how to get help. being a dancer, i have always felt that i’m too big and i don’t have the body everyone views as pretty. this ed has been the hardest thing i’ve ever gone through and everyday i just wanna starve and be skinny, but all i can think about is binging. i wanna recover but i’m embarrassed to ask for help. thank you for motivating me to get help and for making me feel less alone❤️

    • @aitchbrown8962
      @aitchbrown8962 3 года назад +6

      Kylie, you are not alone. The worst thing is that it should be ssssooo much easier, by now, to ask for help. It takes time but you can get there. Reach out. Stay strong.

    • @bluehairkim1
      @bluehairkim1 3 года назад +8

      All dancing bodies are graceful & beautiful shine on

    • @tatianaramones7548
      @tatianaramones7548 3 года назад +3

      Please know that you can find help and peace in Jesus Christ

    • @madnatty
      @madnatty 3 года назад +2

      Please do ask for help. It’s not your fault...it’s a mental illness/disease, and 60% of cases are hereditary. I know you feel ashamed, and like you’re not ill enough to deserve help, but that is actually the disease talking. You can overcome this. Be well sweetie.

    • @kelly-mariewheeler2331
      @kelly-mariewheeler2331 3 года назад +4

      Dont be embarassed to ask for help, it it better also to get help when you are under 18. Sad but true! Ask for help and speaking as a professional dancer seek help asap as you dont want this to affect your career!!

  • @mrmrsmsmisscloud7512
    @mrmrsmsmisscloud7512 2 года назад +24

    I’m glad it didn’t effect your fertility and that you were able to go on and become a mother.

  • @cringeydramaaccount8390
    @cringeydramaaccount8390 3 года назад +46

    As a former addict, whenever I go back home I do the same thing where I associate certain places with my experiences there. It's always kind of a sad reminder because it's like there's pieces of my dark past sprinkled throughout my hometown, which in a way taints it for me. Fortunately though I live somewhere else now because of my job so I don't get those painful reminders too often anymore.

  • @Lydiashuppert1
    @Lydiashuppert1 3 года назад +42

    I remember hoarding food when i was in the orphanage. I had very little to eat and when i moved to America. I ate and ate and ate. I would sneak out in the middle of night and drink alcohol and eat as much as i could and then during the day not eat anything. I would start gaining weight. As punishment i would stop eating and kept drinking during the night. I had lost so much weight but people still bullied me for being fat. I understand how rough it can be. Even now at 22, i struggle with food. I don’t know how to explain it.

    • @godislove7500
      @godislove7500 2 года назад

      ruclips.net/video/ZOX2eg1nfAs/видео.html

  • @BellezzaBeauty03
    @BellezzaBeauty03 3 года назад +59

    Your story is the exact same as mine

  • @sarahrunkle1683
    @sarahrunkle1683 3 года назад +45

    Thank you for sharing Heidi, I suffered anorexia though out high school and into my late 20's. Body dysmorphia is still a demon I deal with daily.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +11

      I'm so sorry that you have had to struggle with this terrible disease 😔💔 Sending you lots of love! ❤️

    • @godislove7500
      @godislove7500 2 года назад

      ruclips.net/video/ZOX2eg1nfAs/видео.html

  • @jennlendvay683
    @jennlendvay683 3 года назад +9

    Thank You!!! I couldn't agree more about always being an "addict" and battling an eating disorder. I'm 42, spent 2 years as an anorexic and 11 as a bulimic. Still have moments of struggle. Thank you for sharing your story!!! It's very difficult for outsiders to understand sometimes. I appreciate you sharing!!

  • @abranna7
    @abranna7 3 года назад +17

    😭😭😭😭 tears flowed from my eyes during your entire video. While I have not struggled with what you have, I do struggle with binge eating which has caused me to gain over 100lbs. Food is pleasure and enjoyment but it’s also distraction and escape from any problem in life. When I’m sad I eat, when I’m happy I eat. It’s a never ending cycle and I don’t know how to break it. I actually applied to be on EWL 8 years ago hoping that would solve my problems, but know that literally nothing will solve these problems except for me diving into it head first. As someone who is 300 lbs and married to a personal trainer, it is hard. All this to say, I am grateful for this video. You are brave for sharing your story. Thank you for making me feel like I’m not alone.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +5

      Oh Ali, my heart breaks for you and I'm so sorry that you are struggling with this 😔 You are exactly right about your first step needing to be tackling the mental component! It's not easy but I KNOW you can overcome!! ❤️

  • @blackswan1983
    @blackswan1983 3 года назад +3

    I lost too much weight too fast this year and for the first time in 20 years, people picked up on it. My hair is falling out, I'm cold, I faint easily, and now when I eat it makes me physically ill. At 37, I'm expected to dig out of this alone. We don't age out of it.
    Thank you for sharing.

  • @h.smith.6586
    @h.smith.6586 3 года назад +22

    I went the other way. From super skinny to overweight. From 5 ft 7 in and 115 pounds to 190 pounds. Im in the middle of food addiction.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +6

      Eating disorders look different for everyone. Remember, you are not alone ❤️

    • @coachkelli9131
      @coachkelli9131 3 года назад

      I'm in the same boat... it's always on my mind.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      @@coachkelli9131 Sending you love and prayers 🙏🏻❤️

    • @stastnykass5898
      @stastnykass5898 3 года назад

      Hi love I beginning to share my journey if you were interested in watching:)

    • @Eshrimpski
      @Eshrimpski 17 дней назад

      I feel you. I went from restricting and purging all I ate, over-exercising, diet pills and diuretics…to restrict then binge yo-yo…17 years…

  • @tiffanymeyer9817
    @tiffanymeyer9817 3 года назад +28

    This is one of the most candid and vulnerable RUclips videos I've watched. You are a beacon of hope. My wish is this content get seen by many young girls, women, people. You are powerful for sharing such words. Continue to be an inspiration as you are.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +1

      I so appreciate the kind words Tiffany, thank you 🙏🏻❤️ I hope so too!!

  • @haventorch6282
    @haventorch6282 3 года назад +5

    Being 33 myself, I seriously appreciate hearing another adults experience and perspective re children after our and through our ed. Thank you!

  • @littililith
    @littililith 3 года назад +41

    This is one of the best videos of this kind that I have seen on here! I think you are so reflective and insightful with your own journey because you have been processing your illness for many years now! Having this kind of distance actually makes this video less triggering than others and I thank you for that!

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +2

      Thank you so much! I'm so glad to hear that ❤️❤️

    • @godislove7500
      @godislove7500 2 года назад

      ruclips.net/video/ZOX2eg1nfAs/видео.html

  • @CaralineMcElhaney
    @CaralineMcElhaney 3 года назад +6

    Thank you for this... I am in recovery for the 2nd time and I almost died last year because my heart was giving up on me. It’s not a glamorous “nothing is good as skinny feels” it’s not a trend to be followed. Thank you for being brave enough to share your story. ❤️❤️

  • @neyisek6928
    @neyisek6928 3 года назад +1

    Wow. The fact that you'd share your story means so much. Thank you.

  • @hohohoe9533
    @hohohoe9533 3 года назад +1

    This video is helping SO many young people like me. Thankyou so so so much for opening up about this situation. That’s all I can say, Thankyou.

  • @jennaberkel7101
    @jennaberkel7101 3 года назад

    Heidi - Thank you for being so open and honest. It’s not easy but so many people can appreciate you being detailed with how it was for you 💖

  • @etxkth
    @etxkth 10 месяцев назад +2

    the high for me wasn’t eating bare minimum; it was being able to drop drastic amounts of weight whenever i chose

  • @yeobuuun8143
    @yeobuuun8143 2 года назад

    from all the eating disorder story videos ive watched so far, this one was the more beautiful and touching. im so happy for u and i find u so strong and powerful

  • @elizabethkuhn1159
    @elizabethkuhn1159 3 года назад +1

    Wow...what a raw, honest, vulnerable video! This is so needed. Thank you!!!!

  • @KourttneyL
    @KourttneyL 3 года назад +17

    I’m so happy this is at the top of this search. I needed this.!!!!!

  • @findthestar1694
    @findthestar1694 2 месяца назад +1

    Thank you so much for sharing your story It means a lot to me!
    I had almost 5yeas of serious anorexia and after that 4yeas and a haft of bulimia every single day I did the dumb thing
    It was so hard for me to stop and I hated myself for what I was doing
    I feel so horrible and felt like I’m not a person anymore
    I strongly believe that this psychological disease never goes away
    I found God through The Bible and it is amazing how much helps me I still can’t believe that I’m cured of all the dumbest things that I did for a long time!
    Please any person who is in the darkest place and feels no hope in life
    I understand so hard and you are not alone
    I will never be able to cure by myself
    But with God anything is possible
    People never change yes but God can change people through his word

  • @FruityLiana
    @FruityLiana 3 года назад +2

    Thank you so much for sharing your story with all of us and for being so vulnerable and open. You’re helping so many people by doing this. I can relate so much to you saying your day was just about your disorder. Thank you again this was very helpful. Love you 💕

  • @ashrose3719
    @ashrose3719 3 года назад +4

    as someone who is currently struggling with hardcore bulimia i just wanted to say that this is amazing and thank you so much for sharing your story you are so strong and such a great role model for people struggling with eating disorders. literally crying rn

  • @noell9463
    @noell9463 3 года назад +2

    I thank you telling this story with each other and uploading it online; it was incredibly helpful! Anorexia has the strongest fatality rate of any psychological disorder, and the most of recovery options are unreliable. Both you and your family have my heartfelt thanks and blessings!

  • @desireeramos6174
    @desireeramos6174 3 года назад +1

    You’ve helped me so much. I am in the recovery process. I have to say, watching your journey motivated me to continue on the recovery path. Thank you. It brought me tears of joy. May god bless you 🙏🏼🙏🏼💕💕💕

  • @samanthadorsi5915
    @samanthadorsi5915 3 года назад +8

    Heidi, this literally made me cry so much!! As an 19 year old girl in college who also has/had perfectionistic tendencies, I can relate to so much of what you spoke about, especially when it came to feeling the need to be the lightest/smallest in the room. I was diagnosed with anorexia at age 12 and had to go into intensive treatment. I am now doing much better, but can still find myself struggling with dysmorphic thoughts and the urge to restrict myself. Thank you for inspiring me and for sharing such an important message. This has motivated me to continue to work on improving my relationship with my body and food and I cannot tell you how much I truly admire you opening up about your own personal journey. You have given me hope that I can fully get past this and go on to live a life free of ED!!! Always have loved you and looked up to you. Xoxo

  • @haileyflannery3444
    @haileyflannery3444 3 года назад

    Heidi, THANK YOU so so much for being so brave and sharing your story. It takes so much strength for being vulnerable. As for someone who’s also struggled with Anorexia and Bulimia for 15 years (and still currently struggling with active behaviors) your story has touched me. I’ve never related so much more than hearing your story. You bring so much light to such a painful addiction that so many people who “praise” this disorder. We need to kick the diet mentality and focus more on ourselves and stop focusing on commenting on body/beauty tips and put more focus on who we are as humans and the good we can do in this world. You have such a beautiful heart.

  • @TheJeter2002
    @TheJeter2002 Год назад +2

    I’m battling anorexia, orthorexia, compulsive exercise etc….now. I want to thank you for being so transparent as honestly this gives me hope and makes me feel a bit less alone and ive been feeling SO alone. SO THANK YOU. I am so impressed at how far you have come and how open you are with everyone. You truly helped me so much tonight, more thank you even know. I just happened to find your story tonight and it is EXACTLY what I needed to see and hear. Thank you so much…..

  • @michellegauthier5867
    @michellegauthier5867 3 года назад +51

    This hit me like a ton of bricks. I’ve always struggled with my weight.. seems like it’s always the topic of conversation. After 2 weight loss surgeries, I find myself still struggling. This year, especially, with all that has gone on and happened has really taken its toll on me. After watching this, I have to be honest with myself. I have a true food addiction...which scares me to death. With that.. I want to thank you for being so open, honest and transparent. I appreciate this video and your story so much. Thank you for taking the time to share ❤️

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +6

      I one million percent can relate when you say how scary it is to admit that you have an addiction... it's terrifying. BUT once you come to terms with reality, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Healing and recovery ARE a possibility. 🙌🏻 I really appreciate the kind words ❤️

    • @kerriewithpurpose5722
      @kerriewithpurpose5722 3 года назад +1

      Research plant based whole foods no oil or butters diet....or the starch solution

    • @torialani
      @torialani 3 года назад

      @@kerriewithpurpose5722 yes!!! ❤️❤️❤️👏🏼

    • @ellenorbjornsdottir1166
      @ellenorbjornsdottir1166 3 года назад +1

      @@kerriewithpurpose5722 Plant based and high carb diets accentuate postprandial hyper and hypoglycemia.

    • @godislove7500
      @godislove7500 2 года назад

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  • @hairyfrankfurt
    @hairyfrankfurt 3 года назад +9

    I finally felt strong enough to share my story on YT recently as well. It's so hard to get that point! Be kind to yourself after uploading this, it brings up A LOT!

  • @cara0405
    @cara0405 3 года назад

    TY, Miss Heidi! I appreciate your vulnerability. The manner in which you articulate your story, helped me comprehend and find sense of elements of my own past. You are a GEM💎

  • @victorialee1239
    @victorialee1239 3 года назад +4

    As a sufferer for half my life, cycling through anorexia, binge eating and orthorexia, I needed this. Thank you thank you for using your platform to speak about this. I recently have stopped all restricting, started weight lifting and cycling, my joyful movement. Yes I have gained weight but my body has FINALLY gotten to a point where I am not food obsessed. It has been a two year journey and I am so happy with where I’m at.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      I am SO happy for you!! ❤️ So sorry that you had to struggle for so long but so dang happy that you have been able to find recovery 💜

  • @cortneypierce3425
    @cortneypierce3425 3 года назад +2

    Thank you. This is so powerful. Exactly the message of hope that I needed to hear as I have recently discovered that my 16 year old daughter has been struggling with an eating disorder since 8th grade. Every other video that I have watched on RUclips has left me feeling more fearful and anxious about the disorder until this. Thank you for the message hope. You are so amazing. Thank you ❤️

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +2

      Ugh, my heart breaks for your daughter and for you 😔💔 I am SO glad that I was able to provide you with hope.... that is all I could ask for because recovery TRULY is possible! ❤️

  • @Vgn1701
    @Vgn1701 Год назад

    This genuinely made me cry. Thank you for helping me not feel so alone.

  • @wendykrugman8195
    @wendykrugman8195 2 года назад

    This is one of the best videos ive ever seen!!! Ive struggled for many years. Thank you soo much!!!

  • @joannieserrano3884
    @joannieserrano3884 3 года назад +7

    Thank you for your transparency, this was so brave of you and I appreciate feeling “not alone”

  • @amberprice5979
    @amberprice5979 2 года назад +4

    This is very much similar to my story. The only times in my life that I have not fought my eating disorder was when pregnant or nursing. Thank you for sharing. It's nice to hear your not alone in this as an adult. So often it is seen as a "teen thing". Sad thing is it never goes away. I am 40 and still relapse.

  • @jangucreates
    @jangucreates 3 года назад +1

    So much of your story is a variation of mine. Thank you so much for this vulnerable video, and I’m so happy of the progress you made.

  • @chantelgreig921
    @chantelgreig921 3 года назад

    So brave of you to be open and honest! Your message is being heard by all of us who have had eating disorders and the more it is talked about the more it is addressed!

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      I really appreciate that, thank you! ❤️❤️

  • @lanea5397
    @lanea5397 3 года назад +2

    This is so powerful and I am proud of you for posting! At the end when you spoke of your children and there being a good chance of 1 or 2 struggling at some point, I cried. I have ALWAYS feared having daughters for this very reason - I never wanted to walk down that path with them because I have been there. I now have 2 little girls and while my past is not nearly as tough as yours was, I struggled for many years and just the thought of one of them struggling breaks my heart! When you said, at the end of the day they are going to choose what they want to do, it makes me cry just typing it. It is true, and while I think breaking the cycle of my childhood in my own parenting will help - I really can't control what happens but that still makes me sad. Praying they learn from our mistakes and we can educate them enough so they don't have to suffer. Thank you for posting and bringing light to this subject!

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      Gosh, now you have me crying 😭 I couldn't agree with you more... the best thing that we can do is to educate them as much as possible and hope that they learn from our past. Sending lots of love to you and your daughters! ❤️❤️

  • @monicah.3553
    @monicah.3553 3 года назад +11

    It’s amazing that you where brave enough to tell us your story♥️
    I have struggled with bulimia and anorexia for 13 years, my eating disorder began when I was molested and reaped.. and a lot happened..
    You are a good role model

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +3

      Oh my goodness, I am so incredibly sorry that you have had to go through all that 😔 I truly can't imagine and my heart breaks for you 💔 I am sending you so much love and many prayers that you are able to find the healing that you deserve ❤️❤️

    • @kristinkat76
      @kristinkat76 3 года назад +2

      Monica, Jesus is the healer you need. Jesus set me free from 23 years of bulimia, depression and suicidal thoughts. Everything changed the day I gave my life to the Lord because He made me a new creation in Christ. The void I had been trying to fill was filled by His love, Hallelujah! Ask Jesus to come into your life. God bless you.

    • @daniellesmith5448
      @daniellesmith5448 3 года назад +1

      @@kristinkat76 Hey Its great that you're spreading love, but not everyone believes in God! Thank you for the kind comment but keep that in mind!!

  • @greatmarloes
    @greatmarloes 2 года назад +1

    3 minutes in, you're such a good person. Thanks for your existence

  • @dreamb231
    @dreamb231 3 года назад

    Heidi THANK YOU so much for sharing your story. You are just so ‘real’ and I commend you for being open, honest and vulnerable ❤️😊🙌👏👏👏 being a strong woman is not always easy, so good on you for working on yourself and in the process helping others xxxxxxx 😘

  • @1hungrycaterpillar
    @1hungrycaterpillar 3 года назад +1

    Heidi thank you for being so honest and transparent! I am a teacher and mom and Grandma and I want to be armed with knowledge and skills to help always! I love your heart and soul so much 😍❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      You are so welcome! I sure hope it was helpful 😊 thank you for the kind words! ❤️

  • @Joelina456
    @Joelina456 3 года назад

    This video hit home! I see myself so much in your story and it is feeling so comforting. Thanks

  • @merakidancecompany
    @merakidancecompany 3 года назад

    Your best video yet- so happy Chris was able to help you- thank you for sharing your story

  • @bobbuilding8683
    @bobbuilding8683 2 года назад +1

    AHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TALKING ON THIS!

  • @If-Cats-Could-Talk
    @If-Cats-Could-Talk Месяц назад

    Wow, she's really courageous for being so open about this. How inspiring.

  • @francesoreb1978
    @francesoreb1978 2 года назад +2

    So informative and helpful! Thank you for sharing your story Heidi1 You are helping so many! You continue to inspire me each and every day!

  • @arlenny
    @arlenny 3 года назад +9

    I didn’t know this about you. I thought I was alone. Thank you for sharing your story. Your vulnerability is inspiring. This video is filled with nuggets of wisdom. Much love 💕

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +1

      Please know that you are NOT alone!! 💕 I hope my story is able to provide continued healing for you!

  • @AlmostHeaven89
    @AlmostHeaven89 3 года назад +2

    This helped me so much tonight after my first purge in a year. It helped me get my head back on straight and see clearly again. Thank you so much.

  • @jnlvandriel
    @jnlvandriel 3 года назад

    Beautiful vulnerability. You’re a wonderful speaker with a powerful story. You’re making waves around the world, ms Heidi!

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      Thank you. So much. Your words truly do mean the world to me. ❤️❤️

  • @vanessaloguidice336
    @vanessaloguidice336 3 года назад +1

    I tore my ACL too, and I experienced exactly the same though process as you. Your whole story is almost identical to mine, and you have no idea how good it feels to not feel like I'm insane or alone. Thank you so much you have sparked motivation back into me again to get better.

  • @madisont9705
    @madisont9705 3 года назад +1

    You brought me to tears. I’m trying to recover from anorexia, so I could relate to a lot of what you shared. Thank you for being brave enough to be vulnerable and share your story.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +1

      I am praying for you Madison! ❤️ You can do this!!

  • @sherigauthier7842
    @sherigauthier7842 3 года назад

    You are so brave! This will help so many people and you should be so proud of that no matter how hard this was to share

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      You have me crying happy tears over here! 😭❤️ Thank you!

  • @natalieclement42
    @natalieclement42 Год назад

    This is a beautiful video, thank you for letting yourself get so vulnerable. What I loved most is that you mentioned you weren't EDUCATED. That really struck a chord with me. Educated about what food is, about how food works and how to emotionally handle food without having it control your self-esteem and self-love (it's no one fault of course, you can't come out of the womb fully educated!!!). As an teacher, I find this to be so important. I do have a few people around me struggling with eating disorders and with their relationship with food, and they all have different reasons why, different people to blame, or different triggers. But lack of education is the common denominator. I understand a bit more now. Thank you. Much love from the Canadian Rockies. xxx

  • @parispeacock7747
    @parispeacock7747 3 года назад

    Thankyou for opening up Heidi, so much I can relate to. I feel no shame talking about my disorder because so many suffer from it. And you are right, it's amazing but you really do have it for life, even now as a personal trainer and an obsession with fitness, the disorder is always there in your mind, but it can be controlled with proper focus. Thankyou Heidi you're an amazing inspirational woman and iv followed you for years, I pray one day i could meet u, it's my dream xx

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      You're exactly right 🙌🏻 And that's incredible that you are able to be so open about it.... good for you! Thank you for the kind words ❤️

  • @HeatherOdeh
    @HeatherOdeh 3 года назад +2

    I connect to your story so much! Especially the toilets and the purging. The feeling of the release was the high for me too. I’m so thankful I’m past this way of life. It was horrible.

  • @teresagarzone3285
    @teresagarzone3285 3 года назад +1

    Omg Heidi I am 49 struggling with anorexia since I was 12. Every day my life is I struggle. I also live here in Phoenix. Your video made me so emotional and I just wanted to say that every day I pray for relief from this horrible disease. Your voice is loud and I hear every word that you’re saying. Thanks so much for your honesty. Wishing and praying for happier days.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +1

      Teresa, I am SO incredibly sorry that you have had to suffer with this disease 😔 I am sending you so much love and many prayers that you are able to find the healing that you deserve! ❤️

  • @marythomson767
    @marythomson767 3 года назад +1

    Thanks for sharing, I have suffered from bulimia and then restricting at times for about 7 years. Thank you for this video... much love to you and your family ❤

  • @francesoreb1978
    @francesoreb1978 2 года назад

    Such an inspiration! Thank you for being you! Don't forget, you are enough, Heidi! You are brave and special!

  • @pnevarez2865
    @pnevarez2865 16 дней назад +1

    Bless your heart for sharing and helping others. Hope you are well!

  • @SnailLord_
    @SnailLord_ 3 года назад +2

    When you said purging gave you feelings of purity and cleanliness....that got to me. That is exactly how I explained my feelings of purging. I was bulimic for over 10 years and would go from bulimia to long term restriction and the fear of eating. I still have problems eating, even more after I injured a rib and haven’t been able to train. For the first time in a few years today, I felt like I wanted to purge after a pizza party with my son. I hadn’t since I found out I was pregnant with him 6 years ago. I’m glad I found this. AZ local myself 😘

  • @asllydia2407
    @asllydia2407 3 года назад +1

    you seem like such a kind and powerful
    soul, i appreciate you so much thank you for this video

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      That's very sweet of you to say, thank you ❤️ I'm so glad you enjoyed the video 😊

  • @melissafeldhaus4424
    @melissafeldhaus4424 3 года назад

    That was powerful! I'm struggling.right now trying to recovery yet again. I needed this.

  • @georgianawickenden563
    @georgianawickenden563 3 года назад

    Wow courage is a word that comes to my mind and I am grateful for u posting this . Working through an eating disorder as well . So ty for sharing

  • @laurenrodriguez3361
    @laurenrodriguez3361 3 года назад +3

    Wow Heidi, I connected so much with your story. When you spoke about the purging part and cleansing, I completely understood what you were saying. I am a recovering anorexic/bulimic/binge eater. I want to help young girls get out of this dangerous cycle. God bless ❤️

  • @ultimatefitnessnutrition8655
    @ultimatefitnessnutrition8655 3 года назад +1

    Thank you Heidi..your passion for helping others shows - I see it in your speaking about this - thank you. It is a much needed discussion that so many are afraid to have...your beautiful beyond the physical.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      I really appreciate that, thank you 😘

  • @Mari-be3db
    @Mari-be3db 3 года назад

    Thank you so much. Your story is our story, so damned precious✨❤️

  • @NewBeginnings0923
    @NewBeginnings0923 3 года назад

    Congratulations on overcoming these challenges. It takes a lot of strength to admit you have an addiction and it is the first and most important step to recovery. Thank you for sharing this H👍

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      Thank you so much! I really appreciate that 😊

  • @lucindalaree4666
    @lucindalaree4666 3 года назад

    Thank you for sharing this powerful story. I’ve been through this too long n my youth and I agree there’s hope!

  • @janiselerum9984
    @janiselerum9984 3 года назад +1

    I love you for this ❤️ feeling that you are the only one is really hard. Hearing how deep it got for you helps me with the shame I feel for it. I have told people before and never received any help. I will check out your links thank you!

  • @natalieking8712
    @natalieking8712 2 года назад

    Thanx for this, you told this really well & you're stunning! Hope you stay on the road to recovery 💪

  • @dahliam447
    @dahliam447 3 года назад

    this made me cry, love you so much sister ❤️

  • @madibraddock7708
    @madibraddock7708 3 года назад

    Heidi thank you!!!! I had anorexia for 4 years. I am recovered now. You and Chris's show is one of my favorites. God bless you.

  • @alexandradiremia9747
    @alexandradiremia9747 3 года назад

    Damn, this was so helpful and inspiring. I am struggling with bulimia for too many years and learned so much from you.
    Thank you! 🙏

  • @joellejordan9030
    @joellejordan9030 3 года назад +1

    Heidi you are such an inspiration! Thank you for sharing your VERY personal story! God Bless you and your kiddos! ❤️

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +1

      That is so dang kind of you to say... thank you ❤️

  • @ArtistFormallyKnownasMC
    @ArtistFormallyKnownasMC Год назад

    I’ve made it through your story and my heart breaks for little kid Heidi. I’m so sorry you suffered like that, and you didn’t have the resources and knowledge you needed to recover at that age.
    🥺🥺

  • @bellarosa009
    @bellarosa009 3 года назад

    Thank you for sharing your personal journey. You’re so brave to do this.

  • @dr.jasonfinch9815
    @dr.jasonfinch9815 3 года назад

    Great video with many valuable insights. Worth saving the link and watching again!

  • @elaniventer6977
    @elaniventer6977 3 года назад +1

    Heidi.... thank you SO MUCH for this.
    Truly. Thank you 💜🌻

  • @EarthsChoiceApothecary
    @EarthsChoiceApothecary 3 года назад +2

    I have been a dancer all my life with many years of gymnastics as well. Then joining the army for over 11 years, that culture is very body-focused and I have struggled with dysmorphia all my life. I cant look at my body without crying and knowing that nothing is helping me physically it feels hopeless many days. But Heidi you are amazing and I cannot thank you enough for being brave AND vulnerable and letting us into your life this way.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +1

      I am so sorry that you are suffering with those terrible thoughts and feelings 😔 I hope that you are able to continue to fight those demons and find peace and self-love 🙏🏻❤️

  • @laurahyde9666
    @laurahyde9666 Год назад

    Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I am grateful for your vulnerability, honesty and advice

  • @mayganlenz7654
    @mayganlenz7654 3 года назад

    Thank you so much for sharing your journey. My story is very similar to yours and I felt like you were talking directly to me.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад +1

      That's incredible! I am so happy for you 😊❤️ Thank you for the kind words!

  • @michaelciccia2760
    @michaelciccia2760 Месяц назад

    You're so wonderful!!!! Thank you very much for sharing this was such a wonderful video and helped me to understand other aspects of my life I struggle with at times :)

  • @catriona892
    @catriona892 3 года назад

    Thanks Heidi for sharing your vulnerability and story. This made me 😭
    I don't like the feeling associated with binging/purging so sometimes I choose not to eat main meals. I know I shouldn't. Hopefully one day I will l love my body the way you have embraced yours. Thank you for being a ray of light and a beacon of hope.

  • @AnaliseFrank
    @AnaliseFrank Год назад +2

    the comorbidity is at most 4% having a relationship with food is difficult for sure these days and many have their struggles, but not to the extent that you explained in your journey. i am proud of you for being honest and open in public. Sharing your story is another step away from it ever returning. Full recovery is possible. I was a chronic hopeless case, and if i can figure it out, anyone can. Let me know if anyone needs some recovery tips

  • @ashleyfechner7961
    @ashleyfechner7961 9 месяцев назад +1

    Thank you for sharing your story. You will help so many. ❤

  • @Musicbomb29
    @Musicbomb29 3 года назад +3

    Thank you for sharing! I struggled so much around control with food when I was younger. I would go through phases of not eating, binging, and binging and purging. Before I got pregnant I was obsessively eating healthy and working out which at the time I thought was just me being healthy. It wasn’t till after I had my son I realized I was having such an unhealthy relationship with food when I began crying over after having to eat a healthy meal so I could get down to this ideal weight. My big self love moment happened when my son started saying I love you mommy. The first time he said it all these emotions washed over me and I realized that my son just loves me because I’m his mom. Since that moment I’ve stopped being obsessive around food and my appearance. I’ve been happy and food obsessed free for the last 4 years ❤️.

    • @HeidipowellNet
      @HeidipowellNet  3 года назад

      That is so incredibly beautiful!! ❤️❤️❤️ I am so happy for you!