2020 was a bitch. I’m on a binge of your videos and maaaan I’ll tell you that you’re helping me the fuck out. I’m sure you’ve heard it all before, but THANK YOU FOR YOUR VULNERABILITY. You said you’re not winning, but there’s a lot of people that have passed because of this disease. I’m sure you don’t agree with me but the fact that you’re alive and fighting back is a win to me. Thank you man.
I spent so many years falling on and off the wagon. I even became a substance abuse counselor. Surrender, I never really did it. When we are alcoholic we cannot drink, you just can’t. Life is so good sober, I saw how happy you were. You are struggling against alcohol but to be honest, you are fighting with yourself. You can stop it, you can do thousands of things in your life, just not drink. It will take away 99% of your problems. Do t lose it all. Be done
Hey man stay strong, your channel helped me with my depression back in 2016. I know exactly what being a addict feels like, but hey man, remember, shit ALWAYS gets better, you just gotta stay strong
Hey. I stumbled on this video 30 minutes ago randomly after searching for content to help cope with my feelings and struggles of losing control, loneliness, and just feeling generally low in life. I don't usually comment, but I just wanted to say thank you. I think it was a bit of a wake up call for me to stop wasting away the way I am. There's hard work to be done, and I think it's time for me to take the first steps into that direction. Thank you for being genuine and I hope treatment goes well. Remember that the hardest setback brings the best comeback. I'm rooting for you.
I drank everyday, finally had a black out, DUI crash, faced with throwing away what at that point was a 10 year carrier in the Navy I quit. They sent me to alcohol training, guy giving training held me after class, next thing I know I’m in out patient treatment. Ended up staying sober finished my 20 retired now. Alcohol is bad! In any amount, most people relapse and die, I’ve lost many loved ones this way. Things I contribute to my success God, wife, job supported me, yoga, swimming, bike, everyone knew my issue I came clean, I made a decision to help others. I feel you need to relies that if you drink you will destroy your life, i fully understood this after the event, also the blackout aspect was really scary, freaky and ptsd like. I quit, period, hell I quit just before thanksgiving Christmas and New Years I was done!!! I had a loved one, he needed more, even rock bottom was not enough, he’s dead. You need to stop fuuking around, you don’t need an education are you sober now? You need detox? If not stop or die! I’m a firm believer in detox and out patient treatment, maybe you need more?
I started following your channel because of the mental health issues you talked about. Now I find myself truly concerned for you. I'm s praying man and I am praying for you. I lost my older brother to alcohol. I truly wish I could find a way to help you more.
@@bignoknow thank you for sharing. I'm sober one month. Alcohol was causing similar mental issues for myself. Scarded to live in My own body. At times I thought I was in beginning stages of dementia. Today I realize that alcohol only is one thing. Poison nothing more nothing less.
@@rickzor2700 I gave all my booze and related items like wine glasses to family. I avoided all social situations that involved alchol for the first 6 months. I just feel so much better. I can always drive. A "switch" got flipped in me. I love Crossfit!
Respect for your HONESTY. Most guyz don,t DARE to go on public to say i AM fucked up AGAIN. I guess you realize by NOW that this problem Will always linger on in the background. But you Will and HAVE BEEN better in the past. You struggled back then but ALWAYS managed to stand up get better and go on. You KNOW you can do IT NOAH. You are a very STRONG GUY , you are brave and are capeble of more than you Imagine. Hang on buddy.... Gr Hans
Never say you can’t , my brother broke another habit with drugs and yes it was a challenge and for me to see him break or kick the habit was heartbreaking for me . But he’s been sober for almost 8 years . You’re a great person for sharing your life . You’re the Man !
My son was recently addicted to several different drugs, he hated the thought of going to rehab for an entire three months. Once he hit the three months he wanted to stay even longer. He ended up doing 5.5 months and he is still clean and sober to this day. Right now he has 10 months. Stay strong and be true to yourself. I am an alcoholic, sober now for 17 years.
What's up man. You can do it! Just want to let you know you were one of the people helped me out of a slump when I was 19 (5 years ago now) and ye your videos just really helped me. Unfortunately I now find myself back in a rut (maybe even deeper this time) and I am also having serious trouble staying sober
Drinking is an escape from something, your running away from stuff you haven't been able to face/work through, usually emotional shit, and it's scary and it hurts, but properly deal with it and alcohol no longer becomes a problem. It's just a symptom of the true disfunction, problem. Good luck x
It can also be your brain seeking some sort of chemical balance; for example, I have adhd and my brain is constantly seeking dopamine through substance, adrenaline, risk, stimulation or impulse. That's why I drank, to numb that feeling of "needing something to even me out"
Escape from this boring ass reality called being sober. At least alcohol for the time you're drunk makes life semi enjoyable and tolerable. When you get to the point that you realize how boring and repetitive a normal life is, it's very hard to not use a substance. Even harder to get sober when sober is what you can't bare to be.
Noah, Thank you for sharing this very personal decision with us! We all love you and are cheering you on! I’m 10 years sober and truly understand everything you mentioned in this video! You might be missing the holidays this year, but it’s so that you can be there for all the holidays to come! Soak it all in and you’ll be back with an incredible story! Wishing you all the sobriety and happiness! Much love, Kristin
Power in prayer brother… this is a spiritual and mental battle…we are all battling everyday… every day is a new opportunity to be better than yesterday… prayer brother pray… God Bless
That spot you said you're in sounded just like mine when I got sober 2 years ago, thanks for sharing your feelings honestly. I had to go there too to realize that I honestly don't want this no more. After that I've stayed sober one day at a time. Wish you all the best Noah, I've been watching your channel for over 7 years and it's been tough to see a brother struggle, but I guess we each have to see it through until we say no more. I also had to feel completely lost and powerless before I was ready to change. One day at a time ♥️
Good for you brother. So proud of you! I’m 39 years old and I just hit 4 years sober this March. This is HARD stuff bro, I approached kicking my DOC knowing it was hard work and knowing I would have good days and bad days. I’m an athlete and originally approached my sobriety at a million miles an hour thinking I could beat it into submission. When I sort of “gave myself a break” and admitting it won’t be easy but the outcome is so worth it. You’ll do awesome brother.
Gosh, my first video and now I wait for 3 months for an update. Sounds like you’re finally ready. Now I know why you came into my recommendations.... You’ll need a lot of us angels who know what’s up and have been there before you. I subbed but in the meantime I am praying for you and sending hope and strength to you. Please remain open, my friend, never stop learning, and one random day you’ll pass a mirror and see your eyes will be so very clear and looking right back at you. Just smile and say thank you, I remember you now. God bless you. Go do your thing and know we’re out here believing in you.
I’m praying for you bro. Whether you know it or not you’re an inspiration and definitely stronger than you think. And this is coming from someone who is struggling greatly with mental health and fighting my own battles. God is within us, God is with us, and we will overcome this darkness!
Praying for you and your wife. I have so much respect for you for sharing what you're going through. I'm excited to see how you're doing during and after rehab. You are absolutely doing the right thing.
Hell yea. I fell like people who got sober r some of the strongest people out there. Non-addicts will never kno how difficult it is to get sober. It’s honestly hell
I am praying and uplifting you and your family right now Noah. More than ever you know what you need to do and whatever needs to be done to help you succeed. If you ever need anything please don’t hesitate to reach out ❤️🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻 You got this friend! I believe in you!
You are doing the right thing by going in a different and 3 month rehab. I quick drinking almost 3 months ago after 10 years of out of control drinking. You are one of the people that helped me make the decision to stop drinking. WIth the exception of RUclips and Linkdin, I have stopped all social media. It has helped me keep my focus on me and not drinking. You may need to do the same. I would at least stop social media and YouTUbe for all 3 months of treatment and you may need to give up this channel to help with your sobriety when you get out. Getting rid of social media helps keep my world calm. I'm 20 plus years older than you and I know that if I hadn't have quit drinking I would have been dead in a couple of years or less. You can do this.
You are loved. No matter what you have to do, keep progressing. Your heart is in the right place. Dont ever give up! You encourage me.. praying for you
You’ve been an inspiration to me Noah I started TRT from a Dr here in the UK and my life is so much better because you motivated me to get help. Keep your head high mate you’ve got this. As an ex-addict myself (opiates,alcohol) I feel your pain but I think you can overcome this and get back to being a savage and happy again. Much love bro best wishes 🙏
Drugs are like a friendship / love because they stimulate the same pleasure chemicals in brains that should come from relationships / natural enjoyment. But drugs are a toxic friend. at the beginning of using them, it’s magical and makes you feel at home and solves your problems. But as continuing to use it becomes less fun, and you get trapped. Also, I think why drugs are isolating for addicts is because you’re fulfilling your need for companionship through a chemical substance rather than through real relationships
Ive just watched the full video. Thank you Noah for your brutal honesty about your situation. I am hoping and praying for your recovery and look forward to your first video once you restart..in the meantime, take care and God bless and your family 🙏🙏
Love you man I’m praying for you, recovery is a gift and we must nurture it every single damn day, I’m hoping you keep it this time brother a day at a time. I go to meetings everyday at NA, and so does John, who is 46 years clean. That always tells me something, you must keep your recovery first, or you will lose it. And I know when I’m 46 years clean, I’ll still be at the meetings. I’m over a year clean!! Stay strong brother the disease of addiction is a bitch
Praying for you man!! I’ve met you and your family and y’all are good people. I know you have a supportive family. You said it best man, do it for yourself! That is the best way to kick it, don’t do it for others, this is “Me” time, do it for you. You got this.
I fell off the wagon massively this year. After our first lockdown ended and the bars and clubs reopened I went straight back into old habits after having almost five months dry.
@Indoor Cycling Bike Repair and Service - Could you elaborate on what they would say to guide you to safety? And what would your advice be for helping someone who is on their way to self destruction by drinking on all their off hours? Thanks.
I have 12 years sober, should have been 19 years. It was hard has hell. This year has been bad for me as well, thought about going back allot. Good luck with the treatment. I hit my bottom at 33 years old, my body just couldn't handle it. Get through the rehab and stay strong.
Man... im in the same situation. I battle through trying to work out regularly like i want. Mind you i work 12 hr shifts and im pretty athletic but on my off days im struggling with wanting a 5th of Jack or Hennessy.. I have a home and a car bu financially im not a my greatest. Keep doing good bud. But tbh my stubbornness told me i didn't need rehab.. buti think i need it
Turn to Jesus my friend. There is hope of forgiveness and freedom from sin and death in JESUS, Through His death and resurrection. STABILITY. “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. 29“Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. 30“For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 and Matthew 7:21-27 “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father who is in heaven will enter. 22“Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?’ 23“And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; DEPART FROM ME, YOU WHO PRACTICE LAWLESSNESS.’ The Two Foundations 24“Therefore everyone who hears these words of Mine and acts on them, may be compared to a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25“And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and yet it did not fall, for it had been founded on the rock. 26“Everyone who hears these words of Mine and does not act on them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand. 27“The rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and it fell-and great was its fall.”
I went to rehab twice for an opiate addiction and finally the second time it clicked so please don’t give up! I must say it is hard for me to relate to alcohol addiction because both times I felt “ready” for rehab the withdrawal was so severe I could never dream about talking to a camera let alone leaving my bed. The physical sensation of opiate withdraw is so intense that I think it helps push those in it to rehab or to use, but I ran out of money so I had no choice and thank God I didn’t. I just wonder if you had the absolute physical horror that is present with other addictions if it would have clicked sooner with you. Maybe take this in mind whilst in treatment? I know that won’t matter much but I’ve just been a long time fan and hope you do well on your journey. I wanted to leave rehab every day and I was only there for 3 weeks. God bless and good luck Noah!
Kieth B I did end up on suboxone on my second rehab trip and have been on it for about two years. I switched from methadone to it and I’m definitely ready to get off of it but it’s quite hard, not as hard as the other opiates/H of course, but I just have to taper incredibly slowly since it lasts in your body for such a long time. I can’t tell you it will be easy because it absolutely will not, but I can assure you that you can do it! I’m not a strong person and as much as I suffered I made it through. I’m still unhappy today but at least I don’t want to blow my head off because of the torture of withdrawal. From what I know of Kratom it is used to help people detoxing off of stronger opiates so you shouldn’t have to suffer quite as much. But please, if it gets intolerable go to a clinic or more realistically you can see a psychiatrist that can provide suboxone. Let me tell you though no doctor would understand what Kratom is and if you wanted real treatment you would have to say you’re on some kind of name brand opiate or heroin. I know that sounds “crazy” but if it gets too terrible you can do that. Best of luck!
@@Expo- not a strong person?!?!? Yea right dude if u went through the hell of opiates and lived to tell about it ur a lot stronger than U give ur self credit for!
I just ran across your videos. I feel you are an extraordinarily awesome guy! We all have demons. I hope you are able to get better with this rehab. I just think you’re awesome putting your heart and soul out for people to see and relate. Most people suppress what you’re feeling. I pray for you and believe in you. All my best. 🙏😍
I kno it sounds dumb or corny but It honestly does get better. Eventually you’ll wake up one morning and not evn think about drugs or alcohol. Try to keep ur self busy,boredom was a real challenge for me when I started gettin sober. I would b bored and instantly want to go get dope but those days r gone now man you’ll get there soon roo
I don’t want to trade one addiction for another.. what if I’m addicted to being productive or being addicted to being a good person oh wait....being addicted to be closer to Christ. Can we really live in this society without being addicted to something?
Just saw your Dad’s video explaining what’s going on and what’s to come. So sorry you’re struggling! You can do this!! Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!!
I think you should also consider not making videos about alcohol for a while. I can imagine talking about it all the time Is fueling the mental obsession part of it.
This is y I hated going to rehabs and meetings it’s just constant talk and stories about getting high. When I decided to get clean I tried my best to not think about it, most people know their exact clean date and how long they have but I never liked to count the days cuz it felt worse to me
We love and support you. We’re grateful for all the encouragement, empowerment and hope you’ve given so many here watching. I sincerely hope you come out of this rehab this time, stronger than ever before and conquer this difficult demon in your life. Take care Noah. -a grateful fan
Noah! I'm so very, very proud of you for making this video! It's so freaking easy to keep telling yourself that you are still able to get it all together while everything inside and outside of you is going to pieces. This is choosing the "safe" path because you know, deep inside, how difficult and scary it's going to be to do the real renovation work. However, you are now at the place where you see how valuable you are to yourself, to your family, and to your friends. This revelation is showing you that doing what you have been doing is NOT going to get you to where your heart and mind know you need to go. I guess I can safely say that your most genuine parts are getting ready to birth a new, much more authentic you into life. I will probably sound like a blooming idiot here, but if you have been covering up past sexual abuse, tell your counselors. Get it and it's repressed horrible feelings out of yourself. Also, ask them how the hurricane of alcoholism got started in your life. Behaviors like that usually have an event that causes you to be drawn into it. It gives you pleasure. Then, once the good feelings wear off, you believe you have done something bad for which you start beating yourself up over. Lastly, you go back to drinking to help escape the self-hatred you found yourself in. Now, you are in the swirl of the two airstreams and you don't see how how got there. These two airstreams seem to be alive and they are taking you where ever they want. Finally, sit down somewhere with a couple of plain sheets of white printer paper. Using a pen, or pencil, make a map of all the items troubling you. Each one goes onto the map where ever your gut tells you to place it. They will act as landmarks and you can draw them, and color them, any way you feel is appropriate. This might unlock something you forgot about and you can talk to your counselors about it also. My prayers are with you, Noah! Be kind and gentle with yourself, particularly when you relapse. You might not. However, for me it has been this way. When I do the most critical thoughts and emotions spring up to tell me things like "HA! I knew you couldn't do it! Why don't you just end it now because WE BOTH know you aren't going to succeed!". This is when you have to dig into the deepest part of your soul and shout back "I'll be damned if I'm going to let you win, you S.O.B.!" Hang in there, man, even if you have to dangle!
Jordan Peterson rightly says, to quit alcohol, you need to find something better than alcohol. I think any treatment that simply says that alcohol is bad, is not likely to last. Your alcoholism will rationalize that problem away in 2 seconds.
Im sorry to hear this. Hang in there, its tough times for many of us. We have to take things day at a time. Don't give up, you will find yourself again. And I am proud of you that you are going back to treatment. Dont give up. Dont give up.
I’m so sorry 💔I’m going to pray for your healing everyday 🙏❤️Just take it one minute at a time believe you are doing this you’re already healing just by deciding you want to live and change for good !! You are already on your way to a new life ❤️🙏
My prayers are with you Noah. I’ve been sober for 2 years from cocaine and alcohol. Whenever I feel myself starting to slip I sit outside a homeless shelter because I know if I relapse I’ll be there with a needle. There’s a fine line in life from having everything and losing it all. Come at me life that’s all you got...hit me harder I want the pain I wanna feel it....I sure won’t let you take my sobriety when I’m down.
I put the the 24/7 suicide hotline in my phone on speed dial. Just in case. Most days I can manage to get through fine - but every once in a while, I guess I just hear or see or smell something that triggers all the problems I’m dealing with right now, to flood my thoughts, followed by my most negative self speak, and waves of hyperventilating and slapping my self to calm down and breath slower. I know it’s hard, but write down all the things you’re good at, all the things that people like about you (anything positive). And any of the goals you are wanting to achieve. Cut each point in to its own piece of paper. Fold them all up, put em in a big bowl, and take one out to read - everything you catch yourself starting to think something negative. Good luck!
Takes some courage to admit you need help man, I'm sure it'll be just what you needed and wanted it to be. Cant wait to see the next video when you're up to it man, whenever that may be.
I’m from Ft. Collins Colorado my friend and ur not alone. I had to make my “WHY” bigger than anything else in my life, Why do I want this ? Stay strong and just know we may not know each other , just know I’m praying for you!! God bless you
Was thinking about you earlier this morning how things are going. Never look at Cost Factor for treatment cuz you do have a RUclips family that would set up a GoFundMe to sponsor you. Take care Noah. We be waiting for you when you get out. God bless 💖
I think a GoFundMe could place a burden on him to stay sober because we “invested” in his sobriety and that stress is just too much. The problem is sobriety is a lifelong mission and funding someone’s abstinence is just so damn tricky. Thank goodness for someone like Noah we would never even have to worry about him misusing funds though! He’s such a great guy and our loyalty will just be the extra icing on top once he gets out of his treatment!
I got better with a lot of help from your videos, you believed in me and I believe in you! I hope you can commit and find hope in your heart to go through this, you CAN do this!
9 days sober 4 outta detox, 3 year old son. brother and father both dead from herion. i would wake up and shake at 4am and wait till 6am till i could buy my vodka! i would be a pint of vodka in by the time my fiancé and son would wake up at 8am! My boss told me that I needed to chill with the drinking at work I couldn't stop. i was the head chef. Due to Covid the spot shut down, and i got even worse i was drinking almost 24 hours a day. I would fall asleep at 11pm wake up every two hours and have to take a shot if had any left.. I had a horrible grand mall seizure and fell and broke my clavicle and bit a huge hole in my lip! only 9 days but if i can do it so can you!
@@davidgallego2854 Great 17 days just ran a little over 4 miles going to a meeting and group tonight. gets better every day, getting kind of bored little bit of cabin fever but its better than the morning shakes and the thought of almost losing my family!
@@jaredbaker5887 good job dude keep it up. Try to find things to occupy ur time boredom was a huge factor for me when I was gettin sober. Every time I was bored I would immediately want to go get dope.
@@jomont5773 thanx man, its ben rough. found out on halloween my fiancé was cheating and we broke up. Tearing apart the family! but i got a 3 year old and im ready to do what it takes 32 days 100% sober. Thank you lord!
I believe in you man. I know my problems are not to this extent but a few months ago your videos were the reason I went back to seeing a therapist and I even started going back to school and am slowly getting my life back. I appreciate you and I know a lot of other people on this channel do also. Do yourself and your family this favor of rehab and I wish you the best man. I seriously can't wait to see you back and better than ever
Hey brother.. it was nice to see you sharing those raw emotions. Nothing but love and support for you in this process. Do whatever it takes. I’ll always be your fan. Best wishes for you and your family.
I just passed 7 years of sobriety on September 1st. I'm also a dedicated weightlifter, much like your commitment to CrossFit. I hate seeing these updates from you, as I struggle to understand how you can be so committed to your health, but seem unable to able to kick this poison to the curb. You seem like a genuinely good person, so I encourage you to work on your will power. YOU and you alone have the power to abstain. Make it happen. Best wishes to you and your wife, as I'm sure this is taking a toll on her well-being.
Willpower has nothing to do with addiction and recovery. You quit one thing and just lean in something else you think is "better" for you. Like weight lifting. I have 13 yrs clean as a drug addict and I landed in bodybuilding. It became my drug and that took over. It then took me 10 years to recover from an eating disorder and exercise bulimia. Willpower is not enough. You have to have a purpose greater than the pain of continuing to use your drug of choice. Willpower will only work for a while until it's not enough. To put willpower onto someone is a cheap shot. We have to find why we are trying to numb out and when we can heal that part of us willpower will never be an issue. Being sober will be a part of daily life and you won't have to think about staying sober. It will just be.
People aren't perfect in their delivery. Why pick it aparr when the majority of the content is sincere and helpful for others. No offense but live and let live.
@@jenniferfree4144 It is not about picking him apart, Jennifer. It is about helping him with new language and new thoughts to replace the addictive ones, that's all. David is right, though, because it does indicate where Noah is at the moment. He needs all of us to help him with love and understanding, so I agree with you, too, Jennifer.
This is the FIRST recovery video I've watched in the last month that I can FULLY relate to. I've been watching your videos for years. I'm in pretty much the exact same boat right now, just not married. I don't really know what to do, but this video gives me a lot of hope. Thanks Noah.. Best of luck my friend!
Its going to be ok! You have been here before. I came on to your channel to find a video you made before about thoughts controlling you. I found your videos so inspirational and they've helped me so much! Then I stumbled across this video. You have got this! You know you can do this. You are exactly where you need to be! It WILL change! We need to be broken in order to become the people we were always supposed to be! Good luck to you! Keep in touch with you all! I've always done 12 step programmes, il be interested to know how you get on. Best wishes x Chloe x
I came across your "How I got rid of obsessive thoughts" video because I was desperate. I'm going through I rough time with my job and life and your video just lifted me a bit. The reason I say this is because you have clearly been in a good place before and can be again. Hang in there mate.
Thanks for your honesty brother I'm a recovering alcoholic drug addict I relapsed also and got 9 months and now sober. The only way brother find real peace is through the Lord Jesus Christ just seek him thru prayer. You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free. I too struggle with depression and anxiety. Rehabs may work temporarily. Jesus said you must be born again John 3:16
nailed it this guy just keeps talking about it. like we heard this before already ..I forgot about this guy thinking he was doing something else .. but sounds like it the same old shit
I forgot about him too. I got sober when i ditched treatment and got a real job working hard all the time. I was there sitting around thinking about it all the time so i feel for him.
i've been sober 9 years and think about it everyday...whether that's the solution or the problem. the fact that you don't understand this is why you are not an addict.
@@bestymusic4845 that's literally one of the things that recovery programs try to address: the obsession of self. And it isn't just in the direction of thinking you are worthy of everyone's attention, it can go the other way as well. You can analyze why your place in the world is not defined and you are not supposed to be here. It is a slippery slope and can be suffocating. Empathy is much better than pointing the finger and directing what a person should or shouldn't do unless you are an alcoholic/addict, a sponsor, or a counselor. If you aren't, then you can't relate.
The three month stay at a dual diagnosis treatment centre was the best decision I ever made. It allowed me to open up and truly surrender to doing everything they asked me to do. Hope it works for you too.
I'm so sad to hear this noah, I remember your channel and your dad's, loved watching the doctor stuff and then hearing about both of your alcohol addiction. Noah I'm going to be blunt with you, I dont know if you believe in Jesus or not, or ever really knew him as your own God/personal friend/savior, but I want to tell you hes real. This isn't religious stuff or obeying commandments or else you burn in hell, I mean that stuff still stands, but God loves you so much no matter how badly you are addicted or struggle with it. I know seeing my own father fight his battle and tear my family apart some days, its really demonic. I myself have struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts, and honestly, 2020 has been my hardest year in my entire life. Back in the day I only really had suicidal days every 5-6 months or so, when things got bad at home and I felt hopeless and just wanted to die. But for my own testimony, I can tell you that the only reason I'm alive is because of Jesus. He tells us in Deuteronomy 31:6-8 That god will always be with us, and he will never leave us or forsake us, if anything thats what I want you to remember, through all of this suffering, battles with not just addiction, lets be real, its demonic and sinful, you can't help but give in to it and drink, but you don't have to fight this alone. As I battled this year's problems with my own depression, it became even worse and I was getting tormented by demons and satan every week or so, the thoughts kept coming, I also took comfort in Isaiah 41:10 where it says "So Do Not Fear, For I Am With You; Do Not Be Dismayed, For I Am Your God. I Will Strengthen You And Help You; I Will Uphold You With My Righteous Right Hand." Its kind of similar to the last scripture about him never leaving us or forsaking us, but in here he STRENGHTHENS us. If you still have a little spark of hope, and if you have never read the bible before, I will point you to Isaiah 41verse 8-20. Also let me tell a story that happened to me over the week I have not told anyone in my own home. I was suicidal one evening and it started turning into self-harm, not so much razors, but physical harm, I was punching myself and just hurting my body, but it seems like it wasn't me, you should never underestimate demons/satan and how they are so deceptive and destructive. But what do Christians say without really understanding this? "There is power in the name of Jesus" Yes the first time this happened I simply said "Jesus help me" and he did, all my suicidal thoughts went away, my mood improved and a bit later I was on my knees praying, there is POWER not just in his name but also the word of good, that is, the bible. Now sorry about that sidetrack, but back to my experience, this was the 2nd time I was self harming and I was thinking about suicide so badly, yet in my darkness and complete hopelessness, I had a thought to put on the word of god, now another christian told me a similar thing, even just hearing the bible play on audio is powerful, it can change the atmosphere around you, especially the demonic/darkness if you can sense it. So I did just that, I had a thought to start listening to Philippians and thats when I felt like the demonc within me was being tormented, it didn't want to hear what was being played, and again I called on the name of Jesus and he helped me. Now a few days later I am back to praying, back to my bible reading, and I have no more suicidal or depressive thoughts, I'm at peace, I have joy, I am able to laugh and be happy again, not by any rehab/medicine/doctor or any other sort of self-help/self-willpower/or any sort of solution apart from Christ. If anything, during my short 25 years of this life, in my own way, in my own loneliness and brokenness, God picked me up, he never was angry at me or hated me, he never forsook me, he was patient, as it says in 2 Peter 3:9 "9 The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." Everything I experienced, from my brokenness, my tears, my demonic attacks, my joy, my love and peace, all of it, whether it was bad at the moment, was turned for good, and only god was able to accomplish this. Now I don't say this to say humans can't help us, I received therapy in the past and it greatly helped me, but you should never make humans the final solution, they only play a part, they aren't the cure, nor can you will this addiction by willpower noah, no one can, but by the power of Christ you can overcome. I dont know if you or anyone will read this, but I want you to know that Jesus truly loves you, but no matter how many times someone tells you, or says it, I know how hard it is. So I believe each of us has their own testimonies and struggles in life, because we too can have a personal relationship with Christ, he doesn't just tell us he loves us, he proves it by ACTION. 100 Pastors could have come up to me and told me Jesus loves me, etc. But I didn't get to experience that personally until Jesus picked me up off the ground in my sorrow/tears and brokenness, washed me, fed me, healed me, made me joyful and happy again, he proved it by his ACTIONS, not just mere words a pastor or christian will tell you a thousand times. I pray you accept him as Lord, and you too can have your own testimony and personal story about how God PROVED his love for you, not by words but Actions. I will keep you in my prayers, and I love you and your family very much, jesus even more!
You can do this. It's going to be hard but you know this is the time to fix it. You are in the right place and this is the right time. Thank God you came to this realization before something happened that you can't take back. There are no take backs when you have taken someone's life, or your own, by driving impaired. Prayers for strength.
Noah you got sober for a whole year!! Just remember how good you felt during that time. Your one year sober from alcohol video inspired me to get sober. You have done it before and you can do it again. I am over 3 months sober from alcohol and I feel so much better!!
I work at a women’s drug and alcohol treatment center and I am an addict. You know that this is a progressive illness and it always gets worse when we’re in our addiction. There is hope, though. I’d absolutely recommend at least 90 days in treatment. Be selfish in your recovery and focus on YOU. You’re strong, smart, and you can do this! If I can, so can you. And it’s NEVER too late.
I think it is a great decision to go to a Rehab again. I hope it will help you to get on your real path again. Your Videos helped me to figure out my own drinking problems and I am Sober since 3th of November 2019. Right now I am also in a difficult time because i am moving from Cologne to Berlin and starting a new job there. Your honesty about your thoughts and feelings are really helpful for me. Thank you! I wish you the best!
Wow. This video really touched my heart. Thank you for being so open & honest with all of us. During the 3 months of treatment, remember that your wife, your friends and all your subscribers are pulling for you. You are not alone! May the New Year 2021 find you sober, happy and home again. 🥰🥰
What happened with Crossfit? I feel like you were so much better when you were all in with Crossfit. Your mind and body were in a great place. Feel free to reach out. Good luck with your rehab.
I watch Dr Paul's channel and love it, and when. I heard that you are going into treatment I was happy that your getting yourself well. I have wondered how you are doing. I hope things are going well, and that you are getting better. Wishing you a full and speedy recovery, and hope you get back soon.
Watch David Goggins videos. And Jocko. Man up. Start running 10 miles every other day. Stay away from toxic women. Set goals. Pray. Stop having the victim mentality. No more crying. Stay hard!!! U just have lil alcohol problem. Be thankful it’s not Herion or cocaine. U got this bro don’t give up. Don’t let the devil see u sweat
I've had same struggle for 10 years. Plus coke. 2 months ago got blown up in a fire accident. Was in burn center for 2 weeks got skin grafts, the works. Straighten my ass right up!! Lifes to short to sit around feeling sorry for yourself and in a miserable relationship. Get clean, be thankful for each day and enjoy nature and sweeping landscapes. I want to plan a Man trip hike for 2 weeks across alaska next summer who's comin
Noah, do you know Alexander Lowen and his books? I really think you might be interested. He speaks also about depersonalization among other things. He explains alcohol so so so very well in a way you may or may not be familiar with. I don't know. But according to him it's all a denial of the body and feelings. You can never ever fix yourself on an intellectual level, no matter how deeply you understand this or how many hours of books you've read. In that regard reading books is useless, however he does give practical healing techniques, which is another book he wrote - Bioenergetics. Elliot Hulse brought that up recently, perhaps you're familiar with it. Also, something very very interesting. Take a look at what bioenergetics means from a biochemistry perspective. Wikipedia it and read the first paragraph. Hormones and neurotransmitters are a part of metabolism!!! And we know how both are important. We don't metabolize just food, we metabolize feelings and emotions. Fixing your bioenergetics, from both perspective is a must. Alexander Lowen knew about the importance of metabolism at least 40 years ago...
Keep going love...you will be okay and don't be so hard on yourself ...there is always light at the end of the tunnel ...life can be better and there are people that love you xxx I love you for your honesty
Surrender already. "You said Aww look at my eyes." I needed a pitty party to . "Doesnt anybody see my eyez" Brother you know alcohol will always tear u down and will continue to kill you and everyone around you. Go get a sponsor and open up your heart. Listen to that part you been ignoring, you know that part about A relationship with GOD! Yes that one!
I was in AA for years and it worked very well. I too believed it was the only way, as that is sort of what they have you believe. I found out it is not, however
No, not even close to the only way. AA if if it works for one person, God bless. Meeting made me depressed, anxious and actually wanting to drink more There need to be more rehabs that are not 12 step based. Very few out there, it would help so many more people.
I think what you meant to say was, "12 steps is the only way that worked for ME". Saying it the way you did prevents people from seeking out other means of recovery that might work for them and keep them alive
A relapse just proves how strong you were in fighting it up to now, I respect your work on here and want you to succeed. Well done and focus on all the good things you have achieved. The world is a mess at the moment so don't beat yourself up. Also, you say you were being a good little boy...no you were being a man, drinking is being a little boy!! You're better than that, you know you are.
‘I have every opportunity in the world to get sober and stay sober’ ....let this be your time man. You got this there is so much life out there without alcohol in it 🙌🏻
Just watched your father's video and he is the best! Thanks to you and Dr Paul for pre-recording videos for us during your absence. Sending healing and positive vibes your way. Remember, Be Calm, Carry On and One Day at a Time!
It takes what it takes son...your dad and I stand by you.... always and forever.... love you so ....🙏🏽♥️🙏🏽
No better support than a parent 🙏🏽
Aw this is beautiful!!! How wonderfully supportive, this is undoubtedly really helpful for Noah :) Good parent!
Sending lots of love you, your family and your son!💕
All I can say is love you brother! Go get well and we will see you when you get back.
Yes Momma !!!!! 🙏🙏🙏
Man, it takes STEEL to be this open man, your experience and openness keeps the rest of us together thanks man
Your frankness and authenticity is inspiring Noah . I pray you'll find the peace you're yearning for
2020 was a bitch. I’m on a binge of your videos and maaaan I’ll tell you that you’re helping me the fuck out. I’m sure you’ve heard it all before, but THANK YOU FOR YOUR VULNERABILITY. You said you’re not winning, but there’s a lot of people that have passed because of this disease. I’m sure you don’t agree with me but the fact that you’re alive and fighting back is a win to me. Thank you man.
I spent so many years falling on and off the wagon. I even became a substance abuse counselor. Surrender, I never really did it. When we are alcoholic we cannot drink, you just can’t. Life is so good sober, I saw how happy you were. You are struggling against alcohol but to be honest, you are fighting with yourself. You can stop it, you can do thousands of things in your life, just not drink. It will take away 99% of your problems. Do t lose it all. Be done
Hey man stay strong, your channel helped me with my depression back in 2016. I know exactly what being a addict feels like, but hey man, remember, shit ALWAYS gets better, you just gotta stay strong
You’ve got this buddy, respect and my thoughts are with you. Stay strong dude.
Hey. I stumbled on this video 30 minutes ago randomly after searching for content to help cope with my feelings and struggles of losing control, loneliness, and just feeling generally low in life. I don't usually comment, but I just wanted to say thank you. I think it was a bit of a wake up call for me to stop wasting away the way I am. There's hard work to be done, and I think it's time for me to take the first steps into that direction. Thank you for being genuine and I hope treatment goes well. Remember that the hardest setback brings the best comeback. I'm rooting for you.
I drank everyday, finally had a black out, DUI crash, faced with throwing away what at that point was a 10 year carrier in the Navy I quit. They sent me to alcohol training, guy giving training held me after class, next thing I know I’m in out patient treatment. Ended up staying sober finished my 20 retired now. Alcohol is bad! In any amount, most people relapse and die, I’ve lost many loved ones this way. Things I contribute to my success God, wife, job supported me, yoga, swimming, bike, everyone knew my issue I came clean, I made a decision to help others. I feel you need to relies that if you drink you will destroy your life, i fully understood this after the event, also the blackout aspect was really scary, freaky and ptsd like. I quit, period, hell I quit just before thanksgiving Christmas and New Years I was done!!! I had a loved one, he needed more, even rock bottom was not enough, he’s dead. You need to stop fuuking around, you don’t need an education are you sober now? You need detox? If not stop or die! I’m a firm believer in detox and out patient treatment, maybe you need more?
I started following your channel because of the mental health issues you talked about. Now I find myself truly concerned for you. I'm s praying man and I am praying for you. I lost my older brother to alcohol. I truly wish I could find a way to help you more.
Chuck Hamblin prayer matters and I appreciate it.
bignoknow I’m going to start praying for you every day, Noah. ♥️🌼🌷🌸♥️♥️♥️🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🌹🌹
@@bignoknow thank you for sharing. I'm sober one month. Alcohol was causing similar mental issues for myself. Scarded to live in My own body. At times I thought I was in beginning stages of dementia. Today I realize that alcohol only is one thing. Poison nothing more nothing less.
31 Months No Alcohol. I had to hit bottom first. You got this!
Congratulations! 31 months is amazing!!
Good work. How and what did you do to do it? Have you got new hobbies etc??
@@rickzor2700 I gave all my booze and related items like wine glasses to family. I avoided all social situations that involved alchol for the first 6 months. I just feel so much better. I can always drive. A "switch" got flipped in me. I love Crossfit!
I'm around 30 months myself.
He is hitting the bottom every month
Respect for your HONESTY. Most guyz don,t DARE to go on public to say i AM fucked up AGAIN. I guess you realize by NOW that this problem Will always linger on in the background. But you Will and HAVE BEEN better in the past. You struggled back then but ALWAYS managed to stand up get better and go on. You KNOW you can do IT NOAH. You are a very STRONG GUY , you are brave and are capeble of more than you Imagine. Hang on buddy.... Gr Hans
The pain is becoming greater than the reward.... that’s where I had to get, u got it this time
Never say you can’t , my brother broke another habit with drugs and yes it was a challenge and for me to see him break or kick the habit was heartbreaking for me . But he’s been sober for almost 8 years . You’re a great person for sharing your life . You’re the Man !
My son was recently addicted to several different drugs, he hated the thought of going to rehab for an entire three months. Once he hit the three months he wanted to stay even longer. He ended up doing 5.5 months and he is still clean and sober to this day. Right now he has 10 months. Stay strong and be true to yourself. I am an alcoholic, sober now for 17 years.
Love hearing these stories of people taking their life back. Too often u hear the opposite 😕
What's up man. You can do it! Just want to let you know you were one of the people helped me out of a slump when I was 19 (5 years ago now) and ye your videos just really helped me. Unfortunately I now find myself back in a rut (maybe even deeper this time) and I am also having serious trouble staying sober
Drinking is an escape from something, your running away from stuff you haven't been able to face/work through, usually emotional shit, and it's scary and it hurts, but properly deal with it and alcohol no longer becomes a problem. It's just a symptom of the true disfunction, problem. Good luck x
Exactly!
100% true.
It can also be your brain seeking some sort of chemical balance; for example, I have adhd and my brain is constantly seeking dopamine through substance, adrenaline, risk, stimulation or impulse. That's why I drank, to numb that feeling of "needing something to even me out"
Escape from this boring ass reality called being sober. At least alcohol for the time you're drunk makes life semi enjoyable and tolerable. When you get to the point that you realize how boring and repetitive a normal life is, it's very hard to not use a substance. Even harder to get sober when sober is what you can't bare to be.
Hate that bullshit. Life is shit and substances take it away via making you feel good fo
Noah, Thank you for sharing this very personal decision with us! We all love you and are cheering you on! I’m 10 years sober and truly understand everything you mentioned in this video! You might be missing the holidays this year, but it’s so that you can be there for all the holidays to come! Soak it all in and you’ll be back with an incredible story! Wishing you all the sobriety and happiness! Much love, Kristin
Power in prayer brother… this is a spiritual and mental battle…we are all battling everyday… every day is a new opportunity to be better than yesterday… prayer brother pray… God Bless
Prayer to who?
Jesus is the only one that can save you.
God bless
That spot you said you're in sounded just like mine when I got sober 2 years ago, thanks for sharing your feelings honestly. I had to go there too to realize that I honestly don't want this no more. After that I've stayed sober one day at a time. Wish you all the best Noah, I've been watching your channel for over 7 years and it's been tough to see a brother struggle, but I guess we each have to see it through until we say no more. I also had to feel completely lost and powerless before I was ready to change. One day at a time ♥️
Good for you brother. So proud of you! I’m 39 years old and I just hit 4 years sober this March. This is HARD stuff bro, I approached kicking my DOC knowing it was hard work and knowing I would have good days and bad days. I’m an athlete and originally approached my sobriety at a million miles an hour thinking I could beat it into submission. When I sort of “gave myself a break” and admitting it won’t be easy but the outcome is so worth it. You’ll do awesome brother.
Gosh, my first video and now I wait for 3 months for an update. Sounds like you’re finally ready. Now I know why you came into my recommendations.... You’ll need a lot of us angels who know what’s up and have been there before you. I subbed but in the meantime I am praying for you and sending hope and strength to you. Please remain open, my friend, never stop learning, and one random day you’ll pass a mirror and see your eyes will be so very clear and looking right back at you. Just smile and say thank you, I remember you now. God bless you. Go do your thing and know we’re out here believing in you.
I’m praying for you bro. Whether you know it or not you’re an inspiration and definitely stronger than you think. And this is coming from someone who is struggling greatly with mental health and fighting my own battles. God is within us, God is with us, and we will overcome this darkness!
Praying for you and your wife. I have so much respect for you for sharing what you're going through. I'm excited to see how you're doing during and after rehab. You are absolutely doing the right thing.
What I'm really inspired by is your fight and determination to get back up, even if u get pushed down. YOU ARE A WARRIOR
Hell yea. I fell like people who got sober r some of the strongest people out there. Non-addicts will never kno how difficult it is to get sober. It’s honestly hell
I am praying and uplifting you and your family right now Noah. More than ever you know what you need to do and whatever needs to be done to help you succeed. If you ever need anything please don’t hesitate to reach out ❤️🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻 You got this friend! I believe in you!
You are doing the right thing by going in a different and 3 month rehab. I quick drinking almost 3 months ago after 10 years of out of control drinking. You are one of the people that helped me make the decision to stop drinking. WIth the exception of RUclips and Linkdin, I have stopped all social media. It has helped me keep my focus on me and not drinking. You may need to do the same. I would at least stop social media and YouTUbe for all 3 months of treatment and you may need to give up this channel to help with your sobriety when you get out. Getting rid of social media helps keep my world calm. I'm 20 plus years older than you and I know that if I hadn't have quit drinking I would have been dead in a couple of years or less. You can do this.
You are loved. No matter what you have to do, keep progressing. Your heart is in the right place. Dont ever give up! You encourage me.. praying for you
You’ve been an inspiration to me Noah I started TRT from a Dr here in the UK and my life is so much better because you motivated me to get help. Keep your head high mate you’ve got this. As an ex-addict myself (opiates,alcohol) I feel your pain but I think you can overcome this and get back to being a savage and happy again. Much love bro best wishes 🙏
Looking forward to hearing from you on the other side. You are SO worth the best of everything life has to offer!
Drugs are like a friendship / love because they stimulate the same pleasure chemicals in brains that should come from relationships / natural enjoyment.
But drugs are a toxic friend. at the beginning of using them, it’s magical and makes you feel at home and solves your problems. But as continuing to use it becomes less fun, and you get trapped.
Also, I think why drugs are isolating for addicts is because you’re fulfilling your need for companionship through a chemical substance rather than through real relationships
Ive just watched the full video. Thank you Noah for your brutal honesty about your situation. I am hoping and praying for your recovery and look forward to your first video once you restart..in the meantime, take care and God bless and your family 🙏🙏
Jesus can help brother, will power is not guaranteed... God bless 🙏
I agree. I hope he can see your comment and try him
Will power doesn't even exist
God bless you brother!
Love you man I’m praying for you, recovery is a gift and we must nurture it every single damn day, I’m hoping you keep it this time brother a day at a time. I go to meetings everyday at NA, and so does John, who is 46 years clean. That always tells me something, you must keep your recovery first, or you will lose it. And I know when I’m 46 years clean, I’ll still be at the meetings. I’m over a year clean!! Stay strong brother the disease of addiction is a bitch
Who is john? Do you enjoy the meetings?
Next year is YOUR year. Sending hugs and blessings from the UK 🇬🇧🤗🙏💞
Praying for you man!! I’ve met you and your family and y’all are good people. I know you have a supportive family. You said it best man, do it for yourself! That is the best way to kick it, don’t do it for others, this is “Me” time, do it for you. You got this.
I fell off the wagon massively this year. After our first lockdown ended and the bars and clubs reopened I went straight back into old habits after having almost five months dry.
@@SpinBikerRepair Brilliant! Excellent truth telling.
@Indoor Cycling Bike Repair and Service - Could you elaborate on what they would say to guide you to safety? And what would your advice be for helping someone who is on their way to self destruction by drinking on all their off hours? Thanks.
Just a hiccup man don’t beat ur self up too much just learn from ur mistakes and try to do better this time U got it dude
@@rustyshackleford1 Thanks man. I will.
And thank you all for your input. It all helps, it really does.
I have 12 years sober, should have been 19 years. It was hard has hell. This year has been bad for me as well, thought about going back allot. Good luck with the treatment. I hit my bottom at 33 years old, my body just couldn't handle it. Get through the rehab and stay strong.
Man... im in the same situation. I battle through trying to work out regularly like i want. Mind you i work 12 hr shifts and im pretty athletic but on my off days im struggling with wanting a 5th of Jack or Hennessy..
I have a home and a car bu financially im not a my greatest.
Keep doing good bud. But tbh my stubbornness told me i didn't need rehab.. buti think i need it
hope everything turns out well for you man
Turn to Jesus my friend. There is hope of forgiveness and freedom from sin and death in JESUS, Through His death and resurrection. STABILITY. “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. 29“Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. 30“For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30
and Matthew 7:21-27 “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father who is in heaven will enter. 22“Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?’ 23“And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; DEPART FROM ME, YOU WHO PRACTICE LAWLESSNESS.’
The Two Foundations
24“Therefore everyone who hears these words of Mine and acts on them, may be compared to a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25“And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and yet it did not fall, for it had been founded on the rock. 26“Everyone who hears these words of Mine and does not act on them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand. 27“The rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and it fell-and great was its fall.”
My story is the same
WOW!!! Very honest! Thank You SO much! Can't wait to see a video when you get back! With eyes full of LIFE!!
I went to rehab twice for an opiate addiction and finally the second time it clicked so please don’t give up! I must say it is hard for me to relate to alcohol addiction because both times I felt “ready” for rehab the withdrawal was so severe I could never dream about talking to a camera let alone leaving my bed. The physical sensation of opiate withdraw is so intense that I think it helps push those in it to rehab or to use, but I ran out of money so I had no choice and thank God I didn’t. I just wonder if you had the absolute physical horror that is present with other addictions if it would have clicked sooner with you. Maybe take this in mind whilst in treatment? I know that won’t matter much but I’ve just been a long time fan and hope you do well on your journey. I wanted to leave rehab every day and I was only there for 3 weeks. God bless and good luck Noah!
I'm currently addicted to kratom and it's hell getting off of. I'm surprised they didn't give you a week of Suboxone to help you come off easier.
Kieth B I did end up on suboxone on my second rehab trip and have been on it for about two years. I switched from methadone to it and I’m definitely ready to get off of it but it’s quite hard, not as hard as the other opiates/H of course, but I just have to taper incredibly slowly since it lasts in your body for such a long time. I can’t tell you it will be easy because it absolutely will not, but I can assure you that you can do it! I’m not a strong person and as much as I suffered I made it through. I’m still unhappy today but at least I don’t want to blow my head off because of the torture of withdrawal. From what I know of Kratom it is used to help people detoxing off of stronger opiates so you shouldn’t have to suffer quite as much. But please, if it gets intolerable go to a clinic or more realistically you can see a psychiatrist that can provide suboxone. Let me tell you though no doctor would understand what Kratom is and if you wanted real treatment you would have to say you’re on some kind of name brand opiate or heroin. I know that sounds “crazy” but if it gets too terrible you can do that. Best of luck!
@@Expo- not a strong person?!?!? Yea right dude if u went through the hell of opiates and lived to tell about it ur a lot stronger than U give ur self credit for!
I just ran across your videos. I feel you are an extraordinarily awesome guy! We all have demons. I hope you are able to get better with this rehab. I just think you’re awesome putting your heart and soul out for people to see and relate. Most people suppress what you’re feeling. I pray for you and believe in you. All my best. 🙏😍
I’m struggling with being comfortable with being uncomfortable. I’m at the point where being sober feels physically great but mentally exhausting
I kno it sounds dumb or corny but It honestly does get better. Eventually you’ll wake up one morning and not evn think about drugs or alcohol. Try to keep ur self busy,boredom was a real challenge for me when I started gettin sober. I would b bored and instantly want to go get dope but those days r gone now man you’ll get there soon roo
I don’t want to trade one addiction for another.. what if I’m addicted to being productive or being addicted to being a good person oh wait....being addicted to be closer to Christ. Can we really live in this society without being addicted to something?
Just saw your Dad’s video explaining what’s going on and what’s to come. So sorry you’re struggling! You can do this!! Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!!
I think you should also consider not making videos about alcohol for a while. I can imagine talking about it all the time Is fueling the mental obsession part of it.
Agree
you nailed it ..
Agreed,
I think talking can be therapeutic for many, and is also helpful doe many. Whatever works for him. I pray for his recovery.
This is y I hated going to rehabs and meetings it’s just constant talk and stories about getting high. When I decided to get clean I tried my best to not think about it, most people know their exact clean date and how long they have but I never liked to count the days cuz it felt worse to me
We love and support you. We’re grateful for all the encouragement, empowerment and hope you’ve given so many here watching. I sincerely hope you come out of this rehab this time, stronger than ever before and conquer this difficult demon in your life. Take care Noah.
-a grateful fan
Noah! I'm so very, very proud of you for making this video! It's so freaking easy to keep telling yourself that you are still able to get it all together while everything inside and outside of you is going to pieces. This is choosing the "safe" path because you know, deep inside, how difficult and scary it's going to be to do the real renovation work. However, you are now at the place where you see how valuable you are to yourself, to your family, and to your friends. This revelation is showing you that doing what you have been doing is NOT going to get you to where your heart and mind know you need to go. I guess I can safely say that your most genuine parts are getting ready to birth a new, much more authentic you into life. I will probably sound like a blooming idiot here, but if you have been covering up past sexual abuse, tell your counselors. Get it and it's repressed horrible feelings out of yourself. Also, ask them how the hurricane of alcoholism got started in your life. Behaviors like that usually have an event that causes you to be drawn into it. It gives you pleasure. Then, once the good feelings wear off, you believe you have done something bad for which you start beating yourself up over. Lastly, you go back to drinking to help escape the self-hatred you found yourself in. Now, you are in the swirl of the two airstreams and you don't see how how got there. These two airstreams seem to be alive and they are taking you where ever they want. Finally, sit down somewhere with a couple of plain sheets of white printer paper. Using a pen, or pencil, make a map of all the items troubling you. Each one goes onto the map where ever your gut tells you to place it. They will act as landmarks and you can draw them, and color them, any way you feel is appropriate. This might unlock something you forgot about and you can talk to your counselors about it also. My prayers are with you, Noah! Be kind and gentle with yourself, particularly when you relapse. You might not. However, for me it has been this way. When I do the most critical thoughts and emotions spring up to tell me things like "HA! I knew you couldn't do it! Why don't you just end it now because WE BOTH know you aren't going to succeed!". This is when you have to dig into the deepest part of your soul and shout back "I'll be damned if I'm going to let you win, you S.O.B.!" Hang in there, man, even if you have to dangle!
You have amazing insight ! You're going to be ok and you can do this. You are a stellar human.
Jordan Peterson rightly says, to quit alcohol, you need to find something better than alcohol. I think any treatment that simply says that alcohol is bad, is not likely to last. Your alcoholism will rationalize that problem away in 2 seconds.
coffee and cigarettes - every addict just replaces it with something else, in my experience.
@Michael Cosentino figured a person like him would be doing something like Ayahausca or Ibogaine.
Kratom. Seriously; he should try it.
Thank you. I love you. This gives me courage to take my mental health seriously and move forward with that recovery.
Im sorry to hear this. Hang in there, its tough times for many of us. We have to take things day at a time. Don't give up, you will find yourself again. And I am proud of you that you are going back to treatment. Dont give up. Dont give up.
All the best with your recovery. I hope you find your way and continue to help people thru your honesty and willingness to get better!
"I'm on a quest to save my life." BRAVO....EVERY TIME you have a negative/fearful/catastrophizing thought, replace it with THAT PHRASE!!!
I’m so sorry 💔I’m going to pray for your healing everyday 🙏❤️Just take it one minute at a time believe you are doing this you’re already healing just by deciding you want to live and change for good !! You are already on your way to a new life ❤️🙏
My prayers are with you Noah. I’ve been sober for 2 years from cocaine and alcohol. Whenever I feel myself starting to slip I sit outside a homeless shelter because I know if I relapse I’ll be there with a needle. There’s a fine line in life from having everything and losing it all. Come at me life that’s all you got...hit me harder I want the pain I wanna feel it....I sure won’t let you take my sobriety when I’m down.
I put the the 24/7 suicide hotline in my phone on speed dial. Just in case. Most days I can manage to get through fine - but every once in a while, I guess I just hear or see or smell something that triggers all the problems I’m dealing with right now, to flood my thoughts, followed by my most negative self speak, and waves of hyperventilating and slapping my self to calm down and breath slower. I know it’s hard, but write down all the things you’re good at, all the things that people like about you (anything positive). And any of the goals you are wanting to achieve. Cut each point in to its own piece of paper. Fold them all up, put em in a big bowl, and take one out to read - everything you catch yourself starting to think something negative. Good luck!
Takes some courage to admit you need help man, I'm sure it'll be just what you needed and wanted it to be. Cant wait to see the next video when you're up to it man, whenever that may be.
I’m from Ft. Collins Colorado my friend and ur not alone. I had to make my “WHY” bigger than anything else in my life, Why do I want this ? Stay strong and just know we may not know each other , just know I’m praying for you!! God bless you
Was thinking about you earlier this morning how things are going. Never look at Cost Factor for treatment cuz you do have a RUclips family that would set up a GoFundMe to sponsor you. Take care Noah. We be waiting for you when you get out. God bless 💖
I think a GoFundMe could place a burden on him to stay sober because we “invested” in his sobriety and that stress is just too much. The problem is sobriety is a lifelong mission and funding someone’s abstinence is just so damn tricky. Thank goodness for someone like Noah we would never even have to worry about him misusing funds though! He’s such a great guy and our loyalty will just be the extra icing on top once he gets out of his treatment!
I got better with a lot of help from your videos, you believed in me and I believe in you! I hope you can commit and find hope in your heart to go through this, you CAN do this!
9 days sober 4 outta detox, 3 year old son. brother and father both dead from herion. i would wake up and shake at 4am and wait till 6am till i could buy my vodka! i would be a pint of vodka in by the time my fiancé and son would wake up at 8am! My boss told me that I needed to chill with the drinking at work I couldn't stop. i was the head chef. Due to Covid the spot shut down, and i got even worse i was drinking almost 24 hours a day. I would fall asleep at 11pm wake up every two hours and have to take a shot if had any left.. I had a horrible grand mall seizure and fell and broke my clavicle and bit a huge hole in my lip! only 9 days but if i can do it so can you!
How's it going now?
@@davidgallego2854 Great 17 days just ran a little over 4 miles going to a meeting and group tonight. gets better every day, getting kind of bored little bit of cabin fever but its better than the morning shakes and the thought of almost losing my family!
@@jaredbaker5887 good job dude keep it up. Try to find things to occupy ur time boredom was a huge factor for me when I was gettin sober. Every time I was bored I would immediately want to go get dope.
@@jaredbaker5887 Keep doing whatever you're doing that works,. We KNOW what doesn't. Congratulations...
@@jomont5773 thanx man, its ben rough. found out on halloween my fiancé was cheating and we broke up. Tearing apart the family! but i got a 3 year old and im ready to do what it takes 32 days 100% sober. Thank you lord!
I believe in you man. I know my problems are not to this extent but a few months ago your videos were the reason I went back to seeing a therapist and I even started going back to school and am slowly getting my life back. I appreciate you and I know a lot of other people on this channel do also. Do yourself and your family this favor of rehab and I wish you the best man. I seriously can't wait to see you back and better than ever
Brother I was in a deeper hole and Campral saved my life. Well recommended.
Hey brother.. it was nice to see you sharing those raw emotions. Nothing but love and support for you in this process. Do whatever it takes. I’ll always be your fan. Best wishes for you and your family.
I just passed 7 years of sobriety on September 1st. I'm also a dedicated weightlifter, much like your commitment to CrossFit. I hate seeing these updates from you, as I struggle to understand how you can be so committed to your health, but seem unable to able to kick this poison to the curb. You seem like a genuinely good person, so I encourage you to work on your will power. YOU and you alone have the power to abstain. Make it happen. Best wishes to you and your wife, as I'm sure this is taking a toll on her well-being.
Willpower has nothing to do with addiction and recovery. You quit one thing and just lean in something else you think is "better" for you. Like weight lifting. I have 13 yrs clean as a drug addict and I landed in bodybuilding. It became my drug and that took over. It then took me 10 years to recover from an eating disorder and exercise bulimia. Willpower is not enough. You have to have a purpose greater than the pain of continuing to use your drug of choice. Willpower will only work for a while until it's not enough. To put willpower onto someone is a cheap shot. We have to find why we are trying to numb out and when we can heal that part of us willpower will never be an issue. Being sober will be a part of daily life and you won't have to think about staying sober. It will just be.
Unhelpful and ignorant
Stay strong. I'm not addicted to alcohol but to ritalin. It's a hard battle and I hope you win yours
“My” alcoholism. Gotta check that language. you gotta break the subconscious belief that you and alcoholism are one.
People aren't perfect in their delivery. Why pick it aparr when the majority of the content is sincere and helpful for others. No offense but live and let live.
@@jenniferfree4144 It is not about picking him apart, Jennifer. It is about helping him with new language and new thoughts to replace the addictive ones, that's all. David is right, though, because it does indicate where Noah is at the moment. He needs all of us to help him with love and understanding, so I agree with you, too, Jennifer.
@@jenniferfree4144 what a snowflake response lol “but, but my feeelings!!!” REeeeeereeee
My experience with alcoholism is 'my' experience with alcoholism. I have mine. He has his.
This is the FIRST recovery video I've watched in the last month that I can FULLY relate to. I've been watching your videos for years. I'm in pretty much the exact same boat right now, just not married. I don't really know what to do, but this video gives me a lot of hope. Thanks Noah.. Best of luck my friend!
Alcohol is the people's drug. I have struggled most of my life too. I am 5 years sober now and I hope you find your way too friend....
Its going to be ok! You have been here before. I came on to your channel to find a video you made before about thoughts controlling you. I found your videos so inspirational and they've helped me so much! Then I stumbled across this video. You have got this! You know you can do this. You are exactly where you need to be! It WILL change! We need to be broken in order to become the people we were always supposed to be! Good luck to you! Keep in touch with you all! I've always done 12 step programmes, il be interested to know how you get on. Best wishes x Chloe x
When I think about drinking again, I think about dying from liver cirrhosis. That shit sounds awful. Keeps me sober. 💕
I came across your "How I got rid of obsessive thoughts" video because I was desperate. I'm going through I rough time with my job and life and your video just lifted me a bit. The reason I say this is because you have clearly been in a good place before and can be again. Hang in there mate.
Best of luck, Noah. It took me two treatments for me to get this right, there's always hope. I'm sober 17 months next week.
Thanks for your honesty brother I'm a recovering alcoholic drug addict I relapsed also and got 9 months and now sober.
The only way brother find real peace is through the Lord Jesus Christ just seek him thru prayer.
You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.
I too struggle with depression and anxiety.
Rehabs may work temporarily.
Jesus said you must be born again
John 3:16
Is it possible youre giving alcohol WAY too much attention? How can you quit something when you're constantly focused on it?
nailed it this guy just keeps talking about it. like we heard this before already ..I forgot about this guy thinking he was doing something else .. but sounds like it the same old shit
I forgot about him too. I got sober when i ditched treatment and got a real job working hard all the time. I was there sitting around thinking about it all the time so i feel for him.
i've been sober 9 years and think about it everyday...whether that's the solution or the problem. the fact that you don't understand this is why you are not an addict.
@@hendrimike08 Without sounded harsh Noah pal I think you are self obsessed.
@@bestymusic4845 that's literally one of the things that recovery programs try to address: the obsession of self. And it isn't just in the direction of thinking you are worthy of everyone's attention, it can go the other way as well. You can analyze why your place in the world is not defined and you are not supposed to be here. It is a slippery slope and can be suffocating. Empathy is much better than pointing the finger and directing what a person should or shouldn't do unless you are an alcoholic/addict, a sponsor, or a counselor. If you aren't, then you can't relate.
The three month stay at a dual diagnosis treatment centre was the best decision I ever made. It allowed me to open up and truly surrender to doing everything they asked me to do. Hope it works for you too.
I'm so sad to hear this noah, I remember your channel and your dad's, loved watching the doctor stuff and then hearing about both of your alcohol addiction. Noah I'm going to be blunt with you, I dont know if you believe in Jesus or not, or ever really knew him as your own God/personal friend/savior, but I want to tell you hes real. This isn't religious stuff or obeying commandments or else you burn in hell, I mean that stuff still stands, but God loves you so much no matter how badly you are addicted or struggle with it. I know seeing my own father fight his battle and tear my family apart some days, its really demonic. I myself have struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts, and honestly, 2020 has been my hardest year in my entire life. Back in the day I only really had suicidal days every 5-6 months or so, when things got bad at home and I felt hopeless and just wanted to die. But for my own testimony, I can tell you that the only reason I'm alive is because of Jesus. He tells us in Deuteronomy 31:6-8 That god will always be with us, and he will never leave us or forsake us, if anything thats what I want you to remember, through all of this suffering, battles with not just addiction, lets be real, its demonic and sinful, you can't help but give in to it and drink, but you don't have to fight this alone.
As I battled this year's problems with my own depression, it became even worse and I was getting tormented by demons and satan every week or so, the thoughts kept coming, I also took comfort in Isaiah 41:10 where it says "So Do Not Fear, For I Am With You; Do Not Be Dismayed, For I Am Your God. I Will Strengthen You And Help You; I Will Uphold You With My Righteous Right Hand." Its kind of similar to the last scripture about him never leaving us or forsaking us, but in here he STRENGHTHENS us. If you still have a little spark of hope, and if you have never read the bible before, I will point you to Isaiah 41verse 8-20. Also let me tell a story that happened to me over the week I have not told anyone in my own home. I was suicidal one evening and it started turning into self-harm, not so much razors, but physical harm, I was punching myself and just hurting my body, but it seems like it wasn't me, you should never underestimate demons/satan and how they are so deceptive and destructive. But what do Christians say without really understanding this? "There is power in the name of Jesus" Yes the first time this happened I simply said "Jesus help me" and he did, all my suicidal thoughts went away, my mood improved and a bit later I was on my knees praying, there is POWER not just in his name but also the word of good, that is, the bible.
Now sorry about that sidetrack, but back to my experience, this was the 2nd time I was self harming and I was thinking about suicide so badly, yet in my darkness and complete hopelessness, I had a thought to put on the word of god, now another christian told me a similar thing, even just hearing the bible play on audio is powerful, it can change the atmosphere around you, especially the demonic/darkness if you can sense it. So I did just that, I had a thought to start listening to Philippians and thats when I felt like the demonc within me was being tormented, it didn't want to hear what was being played, and again I called on the name of Jesus and he helped me. Now a few days later I am back to praying, back to my bible reading, and I have no more suicidal or depressive thoughts, I'm at peace, I have joy, I am able to laugh and be happy again, not by any rehab/medicine/doctor or any other sort of self-help/self-willpower/or any sort of solution apart from Christ.
If anything, during my short 25 years of this life, in my own way, in my own loneliness and brokenness, God picked me up, he never was angry at me or hated me, he never forsook me,
he was patient, as it says in 2 Peter 3:9 "9 The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." Everything I experienced, from my brokenness, my tears, my demonic attacks, my joy, my love and peace, all of it, whether it was bad at the moment, was turned for good, and only god was able to accomplish this. Now I don't say this to say humans can't help us, I received therapy in the past and it greatly helped me, but you should never make humans the final solution, they only play a part, they aren't the cure, nor can you will this addiction by willpower noah, no one can, but by the power of Christ you can overcome. I dont know if you or anyone will read this, but I want you to know that Jesus truly loves you, but no matter how many times someone tells you, or says it, I know how hard it is. So I believe each of us has their own testimonies and struggles in life, because we too can have a personal relationship with Christ, he doesn't just tell us he loves us, he proves it by ACTION. 100 Pastors could have come up to me and told me Jesus loves me, etc. But I didn't get to experience that personally until Jesus picked me up off the ground in my sorrow/tears and brokenness, washed me, fed me, healed me, made me joyful and happy again, he proved it by his ACTIONS, not just mere words a pastor or christian will tell you a thousand times. I pray you accept him as Lord, and you too can have your own testimony and personal story about how God PROVED his love for you, not by words but Actions. I will keep you in my prayers, and I love you and your family very much, jesus even more!
You can do this. It's going to be hard but you know this is the time to fix it. You are in the right place and this is the right time. Thank God you came to this realization before something happened that you can't take back. There are no take backs when you have taken someone's life, or your own, by driving impaired. Prayers for strength.
Noah you got sober for a whole year!! Just remember how good you felt during that time. Your one year sober from alcohol video inspired me to get sober. You have done it before and you can do it again. I am over 3 months sober from alcohol and I feel so much better!!
Good decision . Keep moving and working . We will be here . Big hug and good luck !! 👍🍀
I work at a women’s drug and alcohol treatment center and I am an addict. You know that this is a progressive illness and it always gets worse when we’re in our addiction. There is hope, though. I’d absolutely recommend at least 90 days in treatment. Be selfish in your recovery and focus on YOU. You’re strong, smart, and you can do this! If I can, so can you. And it’s NEVER too late.
I think it is a great decision to go to a Rehab again. I hope it will help you to get on your real path again.
Your Videos helped me to figure out my own drinking problems and I am Sober since 3th of November 2019.
Right now I am also in a difficult time because i am moving from Cologne to Berlin and starting a new job there.
Your honesty about your thoughts and feelings are really helpful for me. Thank you! I wish you the best!
Have you ever listened to or watched any Eckhart Tolle? I feel like his words would help you, I know they did me.
Wow. This video really touched my heart. Thank you for being so open & honest with all of us. During the 3 months of treatment, remember that your wife, your friends and all your subscribers are pulling for you. You are not alone! May the New Year 2021 find you sober, happy and home again. 🥰🥰
What happened with Crossfit? I feel like you were so much better when you were all in with Crossfit. Your mind and body were in a great place. Feel free to reach out. Good luck with your rehab.
I watch Dr Paul's channel and love it, and when. I heard that you are going into treatment I was happy that your getting yourself well. I have wondered how you are doing. I hope things are going well, and that you are getting better. Wishing you a full and speedy recovery, and hope you get back soon.
Watch David Goggins videos. And Jocko. Man up. Start running 10 miles every other day. Stay away from toxic women. Set goals. Pray. Stop having the victim mentality. No more crying. Stay hard!!!
U just have lil alcohol problem. Be thankful it’s not Herion or cocaine. U got this bro don’t give up. Don’t let the devil see u sweat
Spoken like a bunch of people who have no clue about addiction.
Lil alcohol problems have killed many.
I've had same struggle for 10 years. Plus coke. 2 months ago got blown up in a fire accident. Was in burn center for 2 weeks got skin grafts, the works. Straighten my ass right up!! Lifes to short to sit around feeling sorry for yourself and in a miserable relationship. Get clean, be thankful for each day and enjoy nature and sweeping landscapes. I want to plan a Man trip hike for 2 weeks across alaska next summer who's comin
AdvantEDGE Goaltending thank you sir!! Yes sir won’t let nothing hold me back. God bless stay safe!
I hope you are ok, and that you will overcome your battle. I will be thinking about and praying for you.
Noah, do you know Alexander Lowen and his books? I really think you might be interested. He speaks also about depersonalization among other things. He explains alcohol so so so very well in a way you may or may not be familiar with. I don't know. But according to him it's all a denial of the body and feelings. You can never ever fix yourself on an intellectual level, no matter how deeply you understand this or how many hours of books you've read. In that regard reading books is useless, however he does give practical healing techniques, which is another book he wrote - Bioenergetics. Elliot Hulse brought that up recently, perhaps you're familiar with it. Also, something very very interesting. Take a look at what bioenergetics means from a biochemistry perspective. Wikipedia it and read the first paragraph. Hormones and neurotransmitters are a part of metabolism!!! And we know how both are important. We don't metabolize just food, we metabolize feelings and emotions. Fixing your bioenergetics, from both perspective is a must. Alexander Lowen knew about the importance of metabolism at least 40 years ago...
Thanks for sharing your journey, it's fascinating hearing you tell your story. Good luck at rehab, I hope it heals you.
It’s going to click my friend. Once that anxiety is too much and alcohol is no longer the prize it all comes together.
Keep going love...you will be okay and don't be so hard on yourself ...there is always light at the end of the tunnel ...life can be better and there are people that love you xxx I love you for your honesty
Surrender already. "You said Aww look at my eyes." I needed a pitty party to . "Doesnt anybody see my eyez" Brother you know alcohol will always tear u down and will continue to kill you and everyone around you. Go get a sponsor and open up your heart. Listen to that part you been ignoring, you know that part about A relationship with GOD! Yes that one!
The twelve steps, the only way. You have to put as much effort in to staying sober as you did to get high. Good luck to you🤞🙏
Sorry but it is not the only way.
I was in AA for years and it worked very well. I too believed it was the only way, as that is sort of what they have you believe. I found out it is not, however
@@ryanrobin12 whatever works for u
No, not even close to the only way. AA if if it works for one person, God bless. Meeting made me depressed, anxious and actually wanting to drink more
There need to be more rehabs that are not 12 step based. Very few out there, it would help so many more people.
I think what you meant to say was, "12 steps is the only way that worked for ME". Saying it the way you did prevents people from seeking out other means of recovery that might work for them and keep them alive
I wish you the VERY best on your recovery! Keep your head up. You can do it!
Noah, there was a time where you didn’t drink or even have a desire to drink.
Return to that time.
Return to innocence.
A relapse just proves how strong you were in fighting it up to now, I respect your work on here and want you to succeed. Well done and focus on all the good things you have achieved. The world is a mess at the moment so don't beat yourself up. Also, you say you were being a good little boy...no you were being a man, drinking is being a little boy!! You're better than that, you know you are.
Until you stop identifying as an alcoholic you’ll never change
‘I have every opportunity in the world to get sober and stay sober’ ....let this be your time man. You got this there is so much life out there without alcohol in it 🙌🏻
Just watched your father's video and he is the best! Thanks to you and Dr Paul for pre-recording videos for us during your absence. Sending healing and positive vibes your way. Remember, Be Calm, Carry On and One Day at a Time!