The enemy comes to kill, steal and destroy. JESUS said I've come that YOU might have life and have it more abundantly. I miss seeing Cheslie's beautiful face and smile. My heartfelt prayers go out to her Mom and family. We all need praying people in our lives, if you have no one to talk to call thé prayer line. Give it to JESUS! Suicide is not the answer.
I totally agree suicide never answer. She wanted peace and she couldn't find it. Nothing works in this world but Jesus. No matter what they say. And if she didn't know him. I wish she could have seek help.
ur comment is str8 gospel truth! satan even tried JESUS with this very temptation but HE DECLARED, "IT IS WRITTEN..." TO EVERY LIE OF THE enemy! I'm learning how to speak THE WORD over every circumstance that I face, look for HIS provided way of escape and I have found HIM to be a VERY present help in the time of trouble! may GOD bless and rest Queen Cheslie's beautiful soul!
Amen that is the problem with the world, they need Jesus. Depression and suicide are demons that come to steal, kill and destroy. I pray God has mercy on her soul.🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏💗💗
@@blazee3895 That's why I think the relationship with her other daughter Page is a little tense. Page was not gonna put up with that BS trying to please her mom but live her own life.
@@JungleYT Exactly. Page seems more rough around the edges-tattoos all over arms, eccentric hairstyles, single mom, and I saw an old post from April talking about how Page told her when she was young that she wasn’t going to college and wanted to be a hairstylist instead and how she had to learn how to support her decision. She’s the complete opposite of educated with 3 degrees, lawyer, beauty queen, pure and wholesome image, perfect daughter Cheslie. I can see why Cheslie was her mother’s favorite-she was everything her mother wanted her to be. She also needed her mother more than the other siblings and gave her mom a lot of attention.
@@LA-ty2ug Well said... And unlike Page, Cheslie didn't develop the proper life skills or good coping mechanisms. This beautiful young lady could not even cook a meal, and even made a TikTok joking about it. And although I'll kind of give a hats off salute to Mom for keeping Cheslie alive, Mom did perhaps coddle her just a bit too much? In other words she Loved her daughter to death... Plus, Cheslie might have also been what *Mom* wanted to be?
I can't believe how much she sounds like Cheslie. When she read her last text message it's almost as if Cheslie voice was coming out of her mother's mouth. Very heartbreaking.
@@republicanamerican8707Romans 10:9-11 says, "If you confess with your mouth, 'Jesus is Lord,' and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved".Even so faith, if it hath not works, is dead, being alone. 18 Yea, a man may say, Thou hast faith, and I have works: shew me thy faith without thy works, and I will shew thee my faith by my works. 19 Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devils also believe, and tremble.❤❤😊
@@pazyamor1313Romans 10:9-11 says, "If you confess with your mouth, 'Jesus is Lord,' and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved".😊
My daughter been struggling with depression and I never knew. One day she began crying why can't I die mom? I couldn't believe this was my beautiful, educated daughter. Today she is in therapy and taking meds . She tells me she's is fine but I worry so much about her.
@@lovelyone1675 Sweetheart you need to read a Bible nobody has the right to kill themselves it's written in the Holy Word, she's not in peace no matter what you may think.
To Cheslie's Mom: I'm so very sorry. I hope thirty years of beautiful memories will crowd-out the anguish, over time. Godspeed, Precious Cheslie. Rest with the angels.
I felt every word I'm dealing with this daily it is a b*tch battling depression...everyday I try to hold on a little bit longer hoping things will get better...I have an appointment with a counselor soon prayerfully I hope I can get to the bottom of everything before it's too late.
I usually don't comment on peoples post,but with yours I felt a compelling urge.I pray that with counseling you will find the root of your distress.With different coping mechanisms,that will lead to comfort and strength in your spirit.God Bless.
You will get through this. I am so proud of you for getting up each day and trying, that’s all we can do. Therapy will hopefully help, I know it helped me. Just keep up good systems that work for you 💛
Hey just wanted to let you know that you're not alone we all struggle through life it isn't easy it's very hard but you can do it . Just continue to pray if you believe in God just know he's watching over you and loves you unconditionally and that life is a gift don't take it for granted feel better !!
Oh my GOD I weeping I am so doggone emotional ❤️ oh my GOD when she said her beloved Cheslie Kryst EXPRESSED and told her words so desperately dreamt of hearing for all my but to no avail. She said her beloved Cheslie K said that she Loved so much more than than any person she had ever Known! I honestly felt like I DIED and LITERALLY came back to LIFE! I just honestly felt as though time stood still for just a moment in time . And for all of my 59 YEARS here on this planet we call EARTH HAVE I EVER recalled or recollect someone expressing a love so endearing words that were geniuly and so authentically filled with great compassion Love and adoration if only one SOMEBODY' felt for me this way I believe I could literally walk the moon 🌛
Me too I cried when her mom read her last text. It was really sad. I wish I had met her and offered her genuine support. Maybe some people in her life were not genuine with her. Maybe they had their own agendas when they befriend her and this pure women felt betrayed. It is the only explanation that seems to make sense to me. Betrayal is deadly especially coming from those you love. I hope she is in heaven with Jesus finally at peace. 🕊
@@shilohashkita2625 oh my GOD your words touched the depths of my being oh my GOD I just hope and I sincerely pray that she wasn't betrayed and befriended by those professing to love and care wholeheartedly I think I read somewhere where she experienced cyber bullying by internet trolls and cons.
@@Suri-o7w I think she was betrayed by someone. Betrayal can cut deep but you gotta be able to overcome it. You cannot let the enemy win. Suicide is the ultimate goal for the enemy and sometimes we get blindsided by his attacks. We gotta be strong and remind ourselves that God is bigger than any of these problems. God has offered us a whole world filled with beauty. Look around you all of it is God’s creation, not the enemy. There are billions of people in this universe. Why cry for couple of ungrateful ones? There are angels in this world who God is going to align us with. We just gotta be patient and grateful for the good things we have.
I wish she shared this somewhere else but let me look pass the crazy for a moment. That had to be the hardest text / letter to read for a parent. But I will say this, her daughter meant everything she said and especially the parts relating to her mother. I pray that she can internalize it and know there was nothing else she could have done. Much love mom you did what many fail at...BEING A GREAT MOTHER 💜💜💜
Cheslie had enviable qualities... she had hair enough for 3 people, beautiful face, fit body and highly intelligent, evidently those things do not lead to happiness!! There are people with far less going on,but never went as far as committing suicide...
💯💯🎯🎯 Our life is not for us to end, because we did not will ourselves here. It is God's WILL that we exist. If I can't be perfect in everything, I will purposely live just to piss the Enemy off. There's nothing more to say.
Cheslie was such an accomplished beautiful woman. It is so shocking that someone with such immense talent could be so sad. Her mom seems like an amazing woman. Such a tragic loss but may she rest in peace.
If you never had depression or suffered from it, you can not understand the daily struggle of having to cover it up every day, it’s exhausting. I’ve been at the point where I ask myself why I’m still here. I didn’t have parents who would have understood.
Very shocked to hear that she felt like this. On paper, I would definitely be considered less accomplished than Cheslie and I have far less family so from my perspective it is odd she felt she didn't have any purpose in life and that she felt so alone. Very surprised. How does one with access to a supportive family and friends feel lonely? What does that say of us who come from dysfunctional families and have few friends? Those of us who spend all of our holidays and birthdays alone? If someone like Cheslie felt this way, is there hope for those who had far less than her? 0:09
Depression is an illness, like nature vs nurture, it can be linked to life events, can also be hereditary - a pure imbalance of chemicals in the brain. It doesn’t always make sense. People with seemingly everything can feel so broken they make that heartbreaking choice and people with seemingly nothing can find joy in every moment. Doesn’t make one stronger or more hopeful than the other.
Cheslie was more accomplished than most U.S. Presidents. So I find it hard to understand that she felt she didn't have a purpose in life. So many people was in inspired by this beautiful woman. She was lonely but so many men would have dated her. It's sad she didn't know the value of her worth.
Saddens me deeply that such a woman with such a beautiful soul inside and out was drowning in depression that led her to ending her life Her videos on RUclips are so beautiful She sincerely gave from her heart I wish I could have been there for her in her time of need 😢💔🙏🏽
She explained depression in a nutshell. It makes you feel hopeless. It makes you feel nothings ever enough. You try and you try. You aim for the things society says you should have. But you know deep down its not enough. Specially when you just doing it for others sake anyway. Its just one huge hole. The issue is tho she never spoke up, she never got the help. What she said sounds "hopeless" but its the depression convincing her so. Since she never told anyone, she let that "voice" linger and get stronger. Like a bully in the mind, it weakened her over time. Depression is truly no joke. R.i.p.
She hid it so well. Always happy and smiling so big on camera. She seemed so carefree. She would have been a great actress! If only she could have held on. Did she reach out and get help through therapy or anything?
I see so much of myself in Cheslie. On paper, I’m a nobody compared to her. I don’t have a big platform, a list of accomplishments, or a personality to cover up my internal pain. I’m just a military man in a toxic unit falling apart in front of the eyes of my battle buddies. Hearing her mother read her last words really makes me wish time travel was real. That way, I would yank Cheslie (with no intention to cause her any physical harm) away from whatever railing she would eventually jump from before she even set foot on it. I would then pour my own heart to her, letting her know that suicide isn’t the solution to her pain. It’s moments like this that make me wish I was a friend of hers that she could call or text at any time. I’m going through the same thing. Thankfully, I have people I can turn to in my darkest moments, and I’m also leaving this toxic unit soon and going to a duty station of my choice. I hope Cheslie is at peace now.
I hope you are able to escape from that environment and find happiness and the freedom you long for. I too wish I'd been there to let Cheslie just talk and air out all her feelings, her worries, and then go have some pastries and coffee. I know she loved her sweets just like I do. I feel like we would have been good friends. Please get yourself out of that environment. I hope you can find happiness! Sending you a big hug!!🙂
@@merrybluegirl8930 Thank you so much. Thankfully, I’ve heard a lot of great things about my next duty station and I’m looking forward to getting there. In addition to enjoying some sweets and pastries, I also would have taught her how to cook. I’d start with steak. Hugging you back.
@@b.r.fowler785 I wanted to check in with you and see how you are doing. If you ever need to talk, you can DM me your info. I will gladly listen! I'm hoping you're doing ok!🌻
Beautiful Lady inside & Out. Can't Imagine the Heartache her Mom goes through Each & Every day she Wakes up knowing she'll never she her Precious Daughter again. How I Wish she would have Reached out to someone instead of taking her own life.
It is so easy to assume that people who have success, fame and fortune are the happiest individuals in the world. We often fail to see, recognize and acknowledge they too are human with feelings, hurt and pain. My heart breaks that this young lady could not find peace and happiness.💔🙏🏾
Oh my GOD the death of her beloved CHESLIE has destroyed her as a mother, a friend and just a decent human being she has other children she must care and attend too but the loss of your first born maybe too profound to bear!!! it's honestly a great thing that April has a very strong support system, family :friends, colleagues, counselors etc...i just honestly believe had April been a single parent and Cheslie and only child the outcome would have been so much different. The agonizing pain& sorrow would have just been too much too bear it's in her voice the sound is just a overwhelming I cry as I listen to her speak lord have mercy help US GOD I am not even a parent but I can see the pain is enormous !!!!! I mean she's literally trying so desperately to hold it and keep it together considering she's in the public eye but I am telling you... In the inside she is breaking apart oh my GOD immense sadness and sorrow she is feeling is written all over her FACE it's in her VOICE it's in her WORDS I mean it's everywhere!!! The DEATH of losing a child is beyond every DEATH imaginable!!! OH my GOD when she said she wished for DEATH oh my goodness Lord have mercy that literally hit Me like a ton of bricks!! I almost fell completely outta my wheelchair!!! Oh my GOD it's like her daughter was speaking from the graves the sorrow the grief and the sadness would have taken Me completely outta of this EVIL and VERY DARK WORLD HAD SHE'D BEEN MY BELOVED DAUGHTER!!! Oh my GOD you can just tell she loved her mother beyond MEASURE I mean literally More than life itself !!! Oh my GOD the bond they shared was unbreakable and could only separate them in DEATH the day she DIED was the worst day EVER!!! My only wish was that April could have gotten too her SOONER maybe she could have SAVED her from despairs Oh my gracious GOD she tells her MOM I love you more than any person I have ever known in LIFE oh my GOD such powerful words oh my GOD I am weeping!!!!
Really sad! She was such a pure loving women. Very rare now days. I had never met her but I feel connected to her somehow. I hope she is at peace now. RIP beautiful human 🕊❤️
@@shilohashkita2625 It's safe to say I haven't fully accepted the devasting news that Cheslie K is dead I think I'm just in denial maybe someday I will come to terms but for right now it's just too hard I think I'm just in denial I'm not ready to say goodbye forever.
Suffered from depression more than 2/3 of my life...I realized that it along with sadness, loneliness etc are spirit's. I rejected/rebuked these spirits and thank Yah ..I just dont have those "feelings" anymore.
I feel exactly the same. I've stayed alive becaus eof my mon, she doesnt deserve to live through that pain. I live alone in another country, havent seen my mom yn 8 years, i have a job that makes me cry evryday i have ADHD and I cant with life. Im lonely. I get home everyday, lay to my bed, start crying and ask what the hell am i doing here? is there any purpose? i have no passion for life, no ambitions, no goals. I only want to have peace, And i cant. Im desperate, i cant bear this alone
I can so relate. I literally am jealous of people who have died already or are currently dying. I wish I could trade places with people who want to continue to live.
I love you and appreciate your courage. I am trying to hold on Cheslie, but like you, the crushing weight of persistent sadness, hopelessness, and loneliness have overwhelmed me.
Cheslie left her a sincere reassurance letter saying her mom did everything right as a mom. 😥💓 And it wasn't her fault. To make sure her mom doesn't take her own life too. 😭
Seems like she had biological depression like me, lived with it her entire existence. There is an invasive treatment for this with electro shock therapy and induced coma, downside is memory loss, but for many thats not a downside. Its basically her brain was not producing hormones like they should etc. Could also be tied to her world view/humanity/future of the world, also like it is for me, regardless it is a state that you are in your whole life
Much love to you. Depression is serious. It’s physical. It needs treatment that is appropriate and I know several fellow depression sufferers who have had great success with electroshock. Depression is a serious illness and the pain is unbearable. Much love
This is beyond heartbreaking 💔. My heart goes out to Chelsie Kryst Mom!! I battle with Clinical Depression/Anxiety. Mental health/Mental illness is real & no joke. Check on your “ Happy Friends”, your Strong friends, your OK friends. Let’s start normalizing therapy it’s okay to not be ok. I currently am contemplating Suicide an even as a Certified Mental health advocate I battle my own demons an everyday I get up with the mindset to slay the day. Depression is a B*tch tho & doesn’t discriminate. Also a Sexual Abuse/physical abuse survivor I’ve often questioned God why am I even still here. What’s my purpose ? Sometimes I feel like the world will be better off without me… 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭
I’m sorry to hear this, I hope your in therapy and have a good support system around you. You’re not alone ❤️. I fighting off depression and trying to learn how to love and be kind to myself.
Stephen, fight for your life! It’s worth living! Wake up everyday and FIGHT!! Cry if you have to! Take breaks when you need to! Don’t let the stress of day to day life get you down. Sexual abuse is not yours to own, it’s the offenders. Love yourself because you are worthy of it! 🧡
@@jalisabryant4915 Hey there I am lord knows I’m trying I’m in therapy right now an a Certified Mental health advocate… I am a Fighter but it’s easier said than done. I currently dealing with a injury rn an it’s taken a physical/mental toll
There are a few ppl who know that I'm battling depression but I have isolated myself from everyone The only person I've been really communicating with recently is my use to be foster mother...I have Alot trauma from my childhood I have been depressed for years no matter what I do I feel sad daily it just won't go away I honestly feel like I'm suffering I'm so tired of battling with my mind...So for ppl that are battling depression I completely understand 100% what it is like....
It’d be easier if parenting came with a manual book. If parents are unavailable I would say for the kid to seek out a school teacher, a neighborhood pastor, or even someone online through a specific group.
Oh my God!!! This is just so heartbreaking😪😭😥!! I think, her Mom is so brave and caring to read this message to the 🌎!! I think, that she is going to help so many people, who may be suffering like Cheslie was😇💔🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽!! Thank you so,so much for sharing Cheslie's story with 💯💞💕!! God bless you!!
Like the old song said, “is that all there is.” Some people simply never feel wowed by life. They feel they have it confirmed again and again that it’s overrated. People don’t feel overwhelming sadness 24/7 but when that sadness and hopelessness does creep in it feels so much bigger than any happiness they’ve ever felt. When sadness becomes an everyday part of life, it becomes so commonplace, almost like a strangely comfortable familiar old friend. The more isolated we allow ourselves to become the more focused on self we get and then there’s simply no way to keep loneliness and hopelessness at bey. Depression can quickly become a trap if we don’t recognize that it’s symptoms are all an illusion. Hope and light was just on the other side of that dark curtain all along and what an epic tragedy that her brain tricked her into believing the darkness was all that existed.
Depression is Beast against the winds, every world her mom read is facts of the Beast felt. How do I know? Because I suffer with Major Depressive Disorder resistance to treatment. How do I know? My Dad and Brother subcome to Suicide and both were well accomplished, the beast of Depression don't care about wealth color power, material possessions or talent.💛
I can actually relate and identify as Chelie's mother reads that message. Think about not remembering the last time you laughed. Think about every obstacle and rejection it took to get you to where you're at only to be told the process isn't perfect and you've wasted years proving yourself only then to be finally be given opportunity. I wonder if Cheslie was able to allow herself to trust in relationships - the feeling of not being able to trust. which comes with sadness, hopelessness and loneliness. Don't confuse Chelsie's ability to compete and interact in Miss USA. Once alone, seclusion and isolation kicks in. No one will ever know her depression, because it can be turned off temporarily when in a public arena. God Bless You Chelsie.
@@oopsydaisy4417 Well, she's really suffering... Has lost lots of weight . One gets a sense there is more to the story or that something still being hidden... I think the publicist is also wrapped up in it as well and helped to set up this Red Table Talk, etc.
Just look up all the beauty queens whose died by suicide this year alone. Even that beautiful girl they found last week in the park that was known for her memes and only 16 but won all those beauty pageants this doesn't count the other stars like Naomi Judd all from depression. 😪 God please give everyone strength to endure to the end including myself. I'm on medication for severe Anxiety and Depression and it's HELL! God please touch our minds in Jesus name I pray Amen. 🙏😪❤
Life is meaningless. Why struggle. You will forget the one who died, and you will be forgotten after years or decades. Who still mourn for the death of great grandparents? Whether your politician, singer, actor or service crew in fast food, sooner or later, you will be forgotten. All your imprints will be diluted. There are too many humans. It will never go extinct. So if you take your own life. I salute you! What a courage!
And where exactly will you spend eternity? You’re saying all that but can’t even breathe without God’s grace and mercy. Go ahead and keep thinking there’s no meaning to life and let the demons keep playing with you. When you get to the other side you’ll be theirs forever and there’s no reset button.
I know right. Forget about life, look at me, everyone hates me my family no friends and wow I have mental health problems for so many years and medication no therapy haha and then people hurting me. I am still holding on to my soul my breath. I am so strong but yeah, anyways we will die one day. Don't give up on ur inner soul
Like I said she needed Jesus. she was young and beautiful smart intelligent fit. but that was not enough. Suicides not the answer. She told her mother in a text message That she felt sadness hopeless and loneliness. and like I said if she knew she he would have heal are mind and heart.he is the only one can do it. only if she knew
Not for nothing did you see her way of thinking when she was done w/her book ? Like the look now i can finally do this ! She felt so accomplished w/that book it set her over like i can do this and im going to ! And you may not believe in mediums and that's ok however when they do connect w/ppl that done this to themselves you get a life review when you make it there when they see what they done and it was something fixable they regret it sm , but however i feel like she wouldn't for some odd reason ! She was obsessed with going through w/this but w.e. was going through her head she prob. Needed to feel it was either her or someone else !
Here we go...let's blame the mother... My girlfriend's husband took his life the first thing his parents did blame the wife...meanwhile since he was a teenager he suffered with depression... But hey...let's blame her... I wish I had a mom like her... That saw the greatness in me...
The enemy comes to kill, steal and destroy. JESUS said I've come that YOU might have life and have it more abundantly. I miss seeing Cheslie's beautiful face and smile. My heartfelt prayers go out to her Mom and family.
We all need praying people in our lives, if you have no one to talk to call thé prayer line. Give it to JESUS! Suicide is not the answer.
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I totally agree suicide never answer. She wanted peace and she couldn't find it. Nothing works in this world but Jesus. No matter what they say. And if she didn't know him. I wish she could have seek help.
ur comment is str8 gospel truth! satan even tried JESUS with this very temptation but HE DECLARED, "IT IS WRITTEN..." TO EVERY LIE OF THE enemy! I'm learning how to speak THE WORD over every circumstance that I face, look for HIS provided way of escape and I have found HIM to be a VERY present help in the time of trouble! may GOD bless and rest Queen Cheslie's beautiful soul!
Amen that is the problem with the world, they need Jesus. Depression and suicide are demons that come to steal, kill and destroy. I pray God has mercy on her soul.🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏💗💗
Jim carry once said ‘Depression means you need ‘deep rest’ from the character you’ve been playing in the world.’ RIP Cheslie.
I believe she was built and designed by her mom. Never had her own identity.
@@blazee3895 That's why I think the relationship with her other daughter Page is a little tense. Page was not gonna put up with that BS trying to please her mom but live her own life.
@@318lovejones Yeah, even Cheslie said she lived for her Mom or something? Page seems like more of a rebel. Definitely some tension there
@@JungleYT Exactly. Page seems more rough around the edges-tattoos all over arms, eccentric hairstyles, single mom, and I saw an old post from April talking about how Page told her when she was young that she wasn’t going to college and wanted to be a hairstylist instead and how she had to learn how to support her decision. She’s the complete opposite of educated with 3 degrees, lawyer, beauty queen, pure and wholesome image, perfect daughter Cheslie. I can see why Cheslie was her mother’s favorite-she was everything her mother wanted her to be. She also needed her mother more than the other siblings and gave her mom a lot of attention.
@@LA-ty2ug Well said... And unlike Page, Cheslie didn't develop the proper life skills or good coping mechanisms. This beautiful young lady could not even cook a meal, and even made a TikTok joking about it. And although I'll kind of give a hats off salute to Mom for keeping Cheslie alive, Mom did perhaps coddle her just a bit too much? In other words she Loved her daughter to death... Plus, Cheslie might have also been what *Mom* wanted to be?
I can't believe how much she sounds like Cheslie. When she read her last text message it's almost as if Cheslie voice was coming out of her mother's mouth. Very heartbreaking.
I thought the same thing . It was eerie
Yes I always think the same thing! 😪🕊
@@republicanamerican8707Romans 10:9-11 says, "If you confess with your mouth, 'Jesus is Lord,' and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved".Even so faith, if it hath not works, is dead, being alone. 18 Yea, a man may say, Thou hast faith, and I have works: shew me thy faith without thy works, and I will shew thee my faith by my works. 19 Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devils also believe, and tremble.❤❤😊
@@pazyamor1313Romans 10:9-11 says, "If you confess with your mouth, 'Jesus is Lord,' and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved".😊
My daughter been struggling with depression and I never knew. One day she began crying why can't I die mom? I couldn't believe this was my beautiful, educated daughter. Today she is in therapy and taking meds . She tells me she's is fine but I worry so much about her.
Please be there for her always. Loneliness is really sad. Make sure she doesn’t feel like she is fighting alone ❤️
Just be the best Mom you can be! Prayers for you and her!
I pray the meds and therapy help her 🙏🏾
Praying for you God got you mama he will keep your baby focus in getting better 🙏
Maybe she studied too much.!?
So raw honest and heartbreaking. I'm glad Cheslie wrote that text. It showed inside her mind and heart. I hope she found peace.
Well she didn't,you can't have peace when you commit suicide,you just live the next life with more pain that you can't even imagine.
@@karendavidson7538 lies!!!!
@@lovelyone1675 Sweetheart you need to read a Bible nobody has the right to kill themselves it's written in the Holy Word, she's not in peace no matter what you may think.
@@karendavidson7538 First off Suicide is a terrible thing to go through. But it has nothing to do with fucking religion karen
@@karendavidson7538 the bible is a fairytale
“Depression feels like I’m in mourning” is too relatable and accurate 😭
To Cheslie's Mom: I'm so very sorry. I hope thirty years of beautiful memories will crowd-out the anguish, over time. Godspeed, Precious Cheslie. Rest with the angels.
And you believe it 😂 this is all made up she wrote this herself
@@meandmycuties8537 by you saying that, shows YOUR MINDSET IS SCREAMING FOR HELP AS WELL
Man who knew how deep the pain she was in.
She put into words exactly how I feel but at least she was successful. She made a positive impact in her 30 years
I don’t know you but I pray that you be encouraged today. You are loved, you are appreciated, and you have a purpose. God bless.
@@Ben-rh4lj that's nice, but how do you know? you admitted that you don't even know me.
@@jones2277They are talking right out of their ass.
I felt every word I'm dealing with this daily it is a b*tch battling depression...everyday I try to hold on a little bit longer hoping things will get better...I have an appointment with a counselor soon prayerfully I hope I can get to the bottom of everything before it's too late.
I usually don't comment on peoples post,but with yours I felt a compelling urge.I pray that with counseling you will find the root of your distress.With different coping mechanisms,that will lead to comfort and strength in your spirit.God Bless.
Micro-dosing magic mushrooms changed my life and helped me over come depression
I hope you get through this. Please don't give up and I wish you nothing but the best.🙏
You will get through this. I am so proud of you for getting up each day and trying, that’s all we can do. Therapy will hopefully help, I know it helped me. Just keep up good systems that work for you 💛
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“I wish death for years” broke me
Yeah me too.
This is exactly how I’m feeling, cheslie took the words out of my mouth
Hey just wanted to let you know that you're not alone we all struggle through life it isn't easy it's very hard but you can do it . Just continue to pray if you believe in God just know he's watching over you and loves you unconditionally and that life is a gift don't take it for granted feel better !!
Get help...a prescription from a professional can help balance the endorphins in your body.
please seek help so many people here for you ,i love you !! you matter!!!
I hope you are in a better state of mind now. If not, don't give up. There is always a glimmer of hope somewhere in life.
I hope you’re feeling better❤️
Oh my GOD I weeping I am so doggone emotional ❤️ oh my GOD when she said her beloved Cheslie Kryst EXPRESSED and told her words so desperately dreamt of hearing for all my but to no avail. She said her beloved Cheslie K said that she Loved so much more than than any person she had ever Known! I honestly felt like I DIED and LITERALLY came back to LIFE! I just honestly felt as though time stood still for just a moment in time . And for all of my 59 YEARS here on this planet we call EARTH HAVE I EVER recalled or recollect someone expressing a love so endearing words that were geniuly and so authentically filled with great compassion Love and adoration if only one SOMEBODY' felt for me this way I believe I could literally walk the moon 🌛
So sad😢 Did you know her?
Yea
Me too I cried when her mom read her last text. It was really sad. I wish I had met her and offered her genuine support. Maybe some people in her life were not genuine with her. Maybe they had their own agendas when they befriend her and this pure women felt betrayed. It is the only explanation that seems to make sense to me. Betrayal is deadly especially coming from those you love. I hope she is in heaven with Jesus finally at peace. 🕊
@@shilohashkita2625 oh my GOD your words touched the depths of my being oh my GOD I just hope and I sincerely pray that she wasn't betrayed and befriended by those professing to love and care wholeheartedly I think I read somewhere where she experienced cyber bullying by internet trolls and cons.
@@Suri-o7w I think she was betrayed by someone. Betrayal can cut deep but you gotta be able to overcome it. You cannot let the enemy win. Suicide is the ultimate goal for the enemy and sometimes we get blindsided by his attacks. We gotta be strong and remind ourselves that God is bigger than any of these problems. God has offered us a whole world filled with beauty. Look around you all of it is God’s creation, not the enemy. There are billions of people in this universe. Why cry for couple of ungrateful ones? There are angels in this world who God is going to align us with. We just gotta be patient and grateful for the good things we have.
she had everything to live for💔 so much beauty, intelligence, talent, poise, kindness… the list is infinite. she was a true, rare gem. RIP Cheslie❤️
Smh so sad .. you truly never know what someone’s going through deep down, anxiety & depression are both very real ..
That was so painful to hear. Depression is a Beast. Her mom is so heartbroken. You can hear it in her voice, see if on her face. RIP Cheslie.
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Beyond heartbreaking 💔 she was such a beautiful soul inside and out. God rest her soul 🙏🏼🌹
I wish she shared this somewhere else but let me look pass the crazy for a moment. That had to be the hardest text / letter to read for a parent. But I will say this, her daughter meant everything she said and especially the parts relating to her mother. I pray that she can internalize it and know there was nothing else she could have done. Much love mom you did what many fail at...BEING A GREAT MOTHER 💜💜💜
Amen❤️🙏🏾
Woo…I shed some man tears listening to this …..
Tell me about it, Bruh... And you know how much us men hate to cry
Cheslie had enviable qualities... she had hair enough for 3 people, beautiful face, fit body and highly intelligent, evidently those things do not lead to happiness!! There are people with far less going on,but never went as far as committing suicide...
Honestly, it’s just very sad 😔!
Spoiled and entitled will get you there.
💯💯🎯🎯 Our life is not for us to end, because we did not will ourselves here. It is God's WILL that we exist. If I can't be perfect in everything, I will purposely live just to piss the Enemy off. There's nothing more to say.
@@karenearle5507 Amen 🙏🏽
What you said is scary. How does someone answer that'.
Cheslie was such an accomplished beautiful woman. It is so shocking that someone with such immense talent could be so sad. Her mom seems like an amazing woman. Such a tragic loss but may she rest in peace.
If you never had depression or suffered from it, you can not understand the daily struggle of having to cover it up every day, it’s exhausting. I’ve been at the point where I ask myself why I’m still here. I didn’t have parents who would have understood.
Very shocked to hear that she felt like this. On paper, I would definitely be considered less accomplished than Cheslie and I have far less family so from my perspective it is odd she felt she didn't have any purpose in life and that she felt so alone. Very surprised. How does one with access to a supportive family and friends feel lonely? What does that say of us who come from dysfunctional families and have few friends? Those of us who spend all of our holidays and birthdays alone? If someone like Cheslie felt this way, is there hope for those who had far less than her? 0:09
Beautifully said! Which leads me to believe there’s much more to the story!
Depression is an illness, like nature vs nurture, it can be linked to life events, can also be hereditary - a pure imbalance of chemicals in the brain. It doesn’t always make sense. People with seemingly everything can feel so broken they make that heartbreaking choice and people with seemingly nothing can find joy in every moment. Doesn’t make one stronger or more hopeful than the other.
Just like cancer or any other illness, nobody is beyond the possibility of having it
Cheslie was more accomplished than most U.S. Presidents. So I find it hard to understand that she felt she didn't have a purpose in life. So many people was in inspired by this beautiful woman. She was lonely but so many men would have dated her. It's sad she didn't know the value of her worth.
Wow, what a beautiful and honest question. 😔🥺
Saddens me deeply that such a woman with such a beautiful soul inside and out was drowning in depression that led her to ending her life
Her videos on RUclips are so beautiful
She sincerely gave from her heart
I wish I could have been there for her in her time of need 😢💔🙏🏽
I can relate to her words & her pain,beautiful group,beautiful people love blessings to you all❤️🌹✌️🙏
She explained depression in a nutshell. It makes you feel hopeless. It makes you feel nothings ever enough. You try and you try. You aim for the things society says you should have. But you know deep down its not enough. Specially when you just doing it for others sake anyway. Its just one huge hole.
The issue is tho she never spoke up, she never got the help. What she said sounds "hopeless" but its the depression convincing her so. Since she never told anyone, she let that "voice" linger and get stronger. Like a bully in the mind, it weakened her over time. Depression is truly no joke.
R.i.p.
I have never felt someone’s word more,
I literally feel that exact same way 🥺
She hid it so well. Always happy and smiling so big on camera. She seemed so carefree. She would have been a great actress! If only she could have held on. Did she reach out and get help through therapy or anything?
I'm sure she did. Suicide is usually a last resort for many people
I see so much of myself in Cheslie. On paper, I’m a nobody compared to her. I don’t have a big platform, a list of accomplishments, or a personality to cover up my internal pain. I’m just a military man in a toxic unit falling apart in front of the eyes of my battle buddies. Hearing her mother read her last words really makes me wish time travel was real. That way, I would yank Cheslie (with no intention to cause her any physical harm) away from whatever railing she would eventually jump from before she even set foot on it. I would then pour my own heart to her, letting her know that suicide isn’t the solution to her pain.
It’s moments like this that make me wish I was a friend of hers that she could call or text at any time. I’m going through the same thing. Thankfully, I have people I can turn to in my darkest moments, and I’m also leaving this toxic unit soon and going to a duty station of my choice. I hope Cheslie is at peace now.
I hope you are able to escape from that environment and find happiness and the freedom you long for. I too wish I'd been there to let Cheslie just talk and air out all her feelings, her worries, and then go have some pastries and coffee. I know she loved her sweets just like I do. I feel like we would have been good friends. Please get yourself out of that environment. I hope you can find happiness! Sending you a big hug!!🙂
@@merrybluegirl8930 Thank you so much. Thankfully, I’ve heard a lot of great things about my next duty station and I’m looking forward to getting there. In addition to enjoying some sweets and pastries, I also would have taught her how to cook. I’d start with steak.
Hugging you back.
Hey praying for you ! I know it will get better thanks for serving our country ! You are brave and truly remarkable ❤
@@b.r.fowler785 I wanted to check in with you and see how you are doing. If you ever need to talk, you can DM me your info. I will gladly listen! I'm hoping you're doing ok!🌻
Hey just came across your message. I'll be here if u ever need a friend to talk to. I'll be all ears. May God protect you 🙏
Beautiful Lady inside & Out. Can't Imagine the Heartache her Mom goes through Each & Every day she Wakes up knowing she'll never she her Precious Daughter again. How I Wish she would have Reached out to someone instead of taking her own life.
To the family, you did nothing wrong to feel guilty about. I pray God gives you grace and Peace. You can see the love in all your eyes.
I wish I had a mom like Cheslie's.
Heartbreaking! It hurts my heart so much. 💔
That really broke my heart
R.I.P Chelsie. Her description of depression is accurate. I’m battle with it everyday, and I just want the pain to STOP
This is so sad. Depression is the devil.
it is. it’s so dark. cheslie had demons telling her these things.
@@itsniyademi it’s very evil and I pray against it daily. The devil is a liar and he’s trying to take us out 🙏🏾
That’s not the word I would use, depression is a disease and it’s Real!
No depression is actually real. The devil was made up by sheep herders to keep stupid people in check.
@@bgipper4109Yeah and so is the devil and his demons! This stuff doesn't come out of thin air. This world is spiritual first, flesh second!
It is so easy to assume that people who have success, fame and fortune are the happiest individuals in the world. We often fail to see, recognize and acknowledge they too are human with feelings, hurt and pain. My heart breaks that this young lady could not find peace and happiness.💔🙏🏾
I wish Cheslie was my friend and that I could have saved her life. She was SPECTACULAR AND EXTRAORDINARY. Rest in Paradise darling Gile.
Oh my GOD the death of her beloved CHESLIE has destroyed her as a mother, a friend and just a decent human being she has other children she must care and attend too but the loss of your first born maybe too profound to bear!!! it's honestly a great thing that April has a very strong support system, family :friends, colleagues, counselors etc...i just honestly believe had April been a single parent and Cheslie and only child the outcome would have been so much different. The agonizing pain& sorrow would have just been too much too bear it's in her voice the sound is just a overwhelming I cry as I listen to her speak lord have mercy help US GOD I am not even a parent but I can see the pain is enormous !!!!! I mean she's literally trying so desperately to hold it and keep it together considering she's in the public eye but I am telling you... In the inside she is breaking apart oh my GOD immense sadness and sorrow she is feeling is written all over her FACE it's in her VOICE it's in her WORDS I mean it's everywhere!!! The DEATH of losing a child is beyond every DEATH imaginable!!! OH my GOD when she said she wished for DEATH oh my goodness Lord have mercy that literally hit Me like a ton of bricks!! I almost fell completely outta my wheelchair!!! Oh my GOD it's like her daughter was speaking from the graves the sorrow the grief and the sadness would have taken Me completely outta of this EVIL and VERY DARK WORLD HAD SHE'D BEEN MY BELOVED DAUGHTER!!! Oh my GOD you can just tell she loved her mother beyond MEASURE I mean literally More than life itself !!! Oh my GOD the bond they shared was unbreakable and could only separate them in DEATH the day she DIED was the worst day EVER!!! My only wish was that April could have gotten too her SOONER maybe she could have SAVED her from despairs Oh my gracious GOD she tells her MOM I love you more than any person I have ever known in LIFE oh my GOD such powerful words oh my GOD I am weeping!!!!
She loved her mom so much at the same time she cause her mom so much pain ... I pray that God continues to give her mom strength
@@RenRenMama apparently April has so much strength cause had Cheslie been my daughter they would have had to bury the BOTH of US
@@Suri-o7w I wouldn’t have been able to speak for months.
Really sad! She was such a pure loving women. Very rare now days. I had never met her but I feel connected to her somehow. I hope she is at peace now. RIP beautiful human 🕊❤️
@@shilohashkita2625 It's safe to say I haven't fully accepted the devasting news that Cheslie K is dead I think I'm just in denial maybe someday I will come to terms but for right now it's just too hard I think I'm just in denial I'm not ready to say goodbye forever.
We ALL suffer from sadness .. it can be worse than depression .. for real.
Rest is heavenly peace Chelsea
This was alot! The old Saints would sing "Hold on to God's Unchanging Hand"
We still love you ches ❤ my fav miss usa
And now Twitch, thank you for sharing.
Praise God. Keep Cheslie safe in your loving arms. Take care of her family and all who love Cheslie and are hurting so badly
Nah this genuinely broke my heart. That beautiful woman 🙏🏾💔
This is so sad. It is unbelievable. She was beautiful and smart. However, depression is so real.
Suffered from depression more than 2/3 of my life...I realized that it along with sadness, loneliness etc are spirit's. I rejected/rebuked these spirits and thank Yah
..I just dont have those "feelings" anymore.
I call bull shit on your whole story.
I feel exactly the same. I've stayed alive becaus eof my mon, she doesnt deserve to live through that pain. I live alone in another country, havent seen my mom yn 8 years, i have a job that makes me cry evryday i have ADHD and I cant with life. Im lonely. I get home everyday, lay to my bed, start crying and ask what the hell am i doing here? is there any purpose? i have no passion for life, no ambitions, no goals. I only want to have peace, And i cant. Im desperate, i cant bear this alone
Pray…pray…pray❤️
Hello, I hope you're still alive and well. I hope you found the will to keep living one day at a time.
It’s gonna get better just give it time
I can so relate. I literally am jealous of people who have died already or are currently dying. I wish I could trade places with people who want to continue to live.
Omgoodness God bless her❤
This is so sad sorry about ur lost
I love you and appreciate your courage. I am trying to hold on Cheslie, but like you, the crushing weight of persistent sadness, hopelessness, and loneliness have overwhelmed me.
Cheslie left her a sincere reassurance letter saying her mom did everything right as a mom. 😥💓 And it wasn't her fault. To make sure her mom doesn't take her own life too. 😭
Her mom has narcissistic traits, she would never take her own life.
omg, so terribly sad
I don't trust people who get on talk shows and reveal what their children said.
Something to ponder...
Well.....🤔🤔🤔🤔
Being an empath... Something, doesn't feel right... Maybe, I'm wrong..???
Seems like she had biological depression like me, lived with it her entire existence. There is an invasive treatment for this with electro shock therapy and induced coma, downside is memory loss, but for many thats not a downside. Its basically her brain was not producing hormones like they should etc. Could also be tied to her world view/humanity/future of the world, also like it is for me, regardless it is a state that you are in your whole life
Much love to you. Depression is serious. It’s physical. It needs treatment that is appropriate and I know several fellow depression sufferers who have had great success with electroshock.
Depression is a serious illness and the pain is unbearable. Much love
DONT LET THE devil win! He IS NOT WORTHY OF YOUR LIFE!
This is beyond heartbreaking 💔. My heart goes out to Chelsie Kryst Mom!! I battle with Clinical Depression/Anxiety. Mental health/Mental illness is real & no joke. Check on your “ Happy Friends”, your Strong friends, your OK friends. Let’s start normalizing therapy it’s okay to not be ok. I currently am contemplating Suicide an even as a Certified Mental health advocate I battle my own demons an everyday I get up with the mindset to slay the day. Depression is a B*tch tho & doesn’t discriminate. Also a Sexual Abuse/physical abuse survivor I’ve often questioned God why am I even still here. What’s my purpose ? Sometimes I feel like the world will be better off without me… 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭
I’m sorry to hear this, I hope your in therapy and have a good support system around you. You’re not alone ❤️. I fighting off depression and trying to learn how to love and be kind to myself.
Sending u all the good vibes and definitely HOPE!!!
Stephen, fight for your life! It’s worth living! Wake up everyday and FIGHT!! Cry if you have to! Take breaks when you need to! Don’t let the stress of day to day life get you down. Sexual abuse is not yours to own, it’s the offenders. Love yourself because you are worthy of it! 🧡
@@jalisabryant4915 Hey there I am lord knows I’m trying I’m in therapy right now an a Certified Mental health advocate… I am a Fighter but it’s easier said than done. I currently dealing with a injury rn an it’s taken a physical/mental toll
There are a few ppl who know that I'm battling depression but I have isolated myself from everyone The only person I've been really communicating with recently is my use to be foster mother...I have Alot trauma from my childhood I have been depressed for years no matter what I do I feel sad daily it just won't go away I honestly feel like I'm suffering I'm so tired of battling with my mind...So for ppl that are battling depression I completely understand 100% what it is like....
RIP my dear ❤
This is horrible ,the girl had a demon that followed her everywhere ,R I P
Truly heartbreaking
Persistent loneliness 💔😢
Still so sad. So incredibly sad.
Parents need to be much more like a strong parent then a cool friend to their kids and be more involved in their kids lives.
Good point...
I agree! Some parents are so emotional unavailable. Then they wonder why their kid is sad.
It’d be easier if parenting came with a manual book. If parents are unavailable I would say for the kid to seek out a school teacher, a neighborhood pastor, or even someone online through a specific group.
Oh my God!!! This is just so heartbreaking😪😭😥!! I think, her Mom is so brave and caring to read this message to the 🌎!! I think, that she is going to help so many people, who may be suffering like Cheslie was😇💔🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽!! Thank you so,so much for sharing Cheslie's story with 💯💞💕!! God bless you!!
I’m so sorry, Cheslie
😭😭 rip chslie. Omg this is so sad
Like the old song said, “is that all there is.” Some people simply never feel wowed by life. They feel they have it confirmed again and again that it’s overrated. People don’t feel overwhelming sadness 24/7 but when that sadness and hopelessness does creep in it feels so much bigger than any happiness they’ve ever felt. When sadness becomes an everyday part of life, it becomes so commonplace, almost like a strangely comfortable familiar old friend. The more isolated we allow ourselves to become the more focused on self we get and then there’s simply no way to keep loneliness and hopelessness at bey. Depression can quickly become a trap if we don’t recognize that it’s symptoms are all an illusion. Hope and light was just on the other side of that dark curtain all along and what an epic tragedy that her brain tricked her into believing the darkness was all that existed.
Depression is Beast against the winds, every world her mom read is facts of the Beast felt. How do I know? Because I suffer with Major Depressive Disorder resistance to treatment. How do I know? My Dad and Brother subcome to Suicide and both were well accomplished, the beast of Depression don't care about wealth color power, material possessions or talent.💛
Break the cycle. You can do it!
Sucess means nothing
I can actually relate and identify as Chelie's mother reads that message. Think about not remembering the last time you laughed. Think about every obstacle and rejection it took to get you to where you're at only to be told the process isn't perfect and you've wasted years proving yourself only then to be finally be given opportunity. I wonder if Cheslie was able to allow herself to trust in relationships - the feeling of not being able to trust. which comes with sadness, hopelessness and loneliness. Don't confuse Chelsie's ability to compete and interact in Miss USA. Once alone, seclusion and isolation kicks in. No one will ever know her depression, because it can be turned off temporarily when in a public arena. God Bless You Chelsie.
Who said she even texted her that
Didn’t nobody have to say it. Anybody with coming sense knows your mother will be the first person you reach out to, before you end your life.
The Mother said that was the last text she got from Cheslie. You would know if you seen the full episode.
Toxic table. That’s sad.
Heartbreaking.
I just dont believe this text it all praising her mom seems weird
That kind of cropped up in my mind as well... Trying so hard to believe it. I just pray that most of the truth will come out someday
Thank you! Commented wondering who "Best Supporting Actress" should go to. Always felt something's off about her--
@@oopsydaisy4417 Well, she's really suffering... Has lost lots of weight . One gets a sense there is more to the story or that something still being hidden... I think the publicist is also wrapped up in it as well and helped to set up this Red Table Talk, etc.
Father God...
She needed serious treatment and most likely deliverence.
The key sentence here is "I not longer feel like I have any purpose in life" Did she lose her purpose along the way?
It seems that way.
Cheslie was at her breaking point feeling like this is it for her she feels nothing good but her depression eating away at her.
Read her book❤
Witchcraft is heavy
Exactly
Just look up all the beauty queens whose died by suicide this year alone. Even that beautiful girl they found last week in the park that was known for her memes and only 16 but won all those beauty pageants this doesn't count the other stars like Naomi Judd all from depression. 😪 God please give everyone strength to endure to the end including myself. I'm on medication for severe Anxiety and Depression and it's HELL! God please touch our minds in Jesus name I pray Amen. 🙏😪❤
Why would her mother do this her last text was for her!!😔🙏💕
To help settle all the rumors, including why it was so cold for her to leave a suicide note, but no apologies, etc. This was the apology, etc.
Attention…
To help others who are suffering. Duh
She kept a lot of it private .. Just because you wouldn’t doesn’t mean you need to judge others
Life is meaningless. Why struggle. You will forget the one who died, and you will be forgotten after years or decades. Who still mourn for the death of great grandparents? Whether your politician, singer, actor or service crew in fast food, sooner or later, you will be forgotten. All your imprints will be diluted. There are too many humans. It will never go extinct. So if you take your own life. I salute you! What a courage!
And where exactly will you spend eternity? You’re saying all that but can’t even breathe without God’s grace and mercy. Go ahead and keep thinking there’s no meaning to life and let the demons keep playing with you. When you get to the other side you’ll be theirs forever and there’s no reset button.
I know right. Forget about life, look at me, everyone hates me my family no friends and wow I have mental health problems for so many years and medication no therapy haha and then people hurting me. I am still holding on to my soul my breath. I am so strong but yeah, anyways we will die one day. Don't give up on ur inner soul
Jada forcing tears. Willow too. Thank God this show is off the air
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so sad thinking of her and her mum today.
Jada should get an Oscar for those fake tears!
She shed no tears. She did drop her head and smile!
Heartbreaking
Jada doesn't give 2 sh*** about this person's daughter. This is all personal gain after her husband destroyed his career onstage
Really want to hear from her dad. He stated that he felt her issues stemmed from "family dysfunction."
That poor mom on there with that NUT Jade-the selfish wrench -
Like I said she needed Jesus. she was young and beautiful smart intelligent fit. but that was not enough. Suicides not the answer. She told her mother in a text message That she felt sadness hopeless and loneliness. and like I said if she knew she he would have heal are mind and heart.he is the only one can do it. only if she knew
Justice for will
Not for nothing did you see her way of thinking when she was done w/her book ? Like the look now i can finally do this ! She felt so accomplished w/that book it set her over like i can do this and im going to ! And you may not believe in mediums and that's ok however when they do connect w/ppl that done this to themselves you get a life review when you make it there when they see what they done and it was something fixable they regret it sm , but however i feel like she wouldn't for some odd reason ! She was obsessed with going through w/this but w.e. was going through her head she prob. Needed to feel it was either her or someone else !
& the devil just sits back laughing for he won
Sounds like the devil was taking ahold of her mind replaying lies
Wow!
I don’t trust her mom for some reason.
Here we go...let's blame the mother...
My girlfriend's husband took his life the first thing his parents did blame the wife...meanwhile since he was a teenager he suffered with depression...
But hey...let's blame her...
I wish I had a mom like her...
That saw the greatness in me...
I feel you!!
Who is blaming her mother?