I am good at what I do, the problem is, I hate what I do! I like the "informal" vlog style, sometime being a bit rough around the edges is good. Very good video, inspiring, thank you.
So well done Stuart - a real test. I may have caved to be fair, for its not just the booze within hand's reach, but the chilled night-time vibes as well, are all conducive to an effing disaster.
You should be proud of yourself doll. 100%. 1000 mini-strategies will get you through this year and in 5 years you won’t need strategies anymore because your life will be so good that it will all seem like such a small tradeoff💫
That takes a lot of willpower to do something like that my friend. Hats off to you man, this will encourage others not to be held back from opportunities just because there might be alcohol there. Great work brother, take care! 💯
Alcohol took my old nextdoor neighbour and partner in crime last week. Heart Attack after he got back from Tesco Express. 44 years old. It's that real for us and it's why we go to nightclubs and beer gardens and order coca cola. Which the normies will never *really* understand.
Thank you for sharing this with us, people tend to take for granted, especially in the age of social media, the level of personal courage it takes for individuals like you Stuart along with many others to let the public into their world and personal struggles. The good news, sharing this can help us all become stronger and hopefully wiser as a result.
Wow. So many things I wanna say about this video. First is I dunno why you chose the background music that you did but it sent chills up and down my spine because that's the type of music that is blaring in my head (when it's not ambulance sirens, the American type) when im having auditory hallucinations. Second, coffee and gingerale are my go to drinks. Mix in some dresses peanut butter cups and you have the ultimate trifecta of recovering alcoholic fuel. Third is, and maybebi noticed this because I was a semi proffesional poker player at one point and read body language pretty well, the look of anxiety and fear while you were near the bar really made me feel for you brotha. I know that feeling. I had a date night with the wife the other night and after dinner, on my suggestion, we were going to go to the casino. I love gambling and the casino here is one of the few places to go that has air conditioning. Anyways, i was feeling more and more anxious as it came closer to go time and as we were pulling into a parking spot I damn near went into a full blown panic attack. I didn't want to say anything for fear of ruining my wifes night and her getting upset with me. In the past I would have normally just tried to power through it and put myself in a dangerous (sobriety wise) situation. But she noticed I was uncomfortable and was getting short with her ( pun intended as she's only 5 ft. tall) and i finally came clean and said I wasn't comfortable going to the casino and I just wanted to go home. Well she looked at me dead ass and said I am so proud of you for saying something and it's perfectly fine that we go home and that she wasn't upset at all. When you said you were proud of yourself it really hit me between the eyes. I'm proud of you too! Sorry for the long-winded comment but this video really hit so many chords with me. Thank you so much for the content!!!!
That's exactly why I chose the music. I first used it way back in the first video I made about delirium tremens, because it's exactly how my hallucinations start. Kind of low, vintage music with lyrics that I can't quite make out clearly. Loads of people tell me it's exactly what they hear in their hallucinations too, so I've been doing it ever since. You're right about my pokerface at the bar. Trying hard to fight the anxiety of it. It was a tough day. Exhausting actually. Looking back on it, I didn't stop moving once all night. I was rushing around keeping myself busy to the point that other people noticed I was pretty highly strung. They thought I was just stressed. I wasn't. I was scared if I stopped moving for a moment, it would all come crashing down. Good for you for sayingn something about the casino, that takes strength, and good on your missus for rolling with it positively. Love to see it.
@_BatCountry I know exactly what you mean. Like. I'm strong in my sobriety but i am TERRIFIED that it could all come crashing down around me because i am so prone to getting a case of the fuckits if I have idle time. Again. Proud of you man. To quote Red Green " We're all in this together. I'm pulling for you!" Edit* that's so odd that the old timey music is a common thing. Never even thought to investigate that.
Your vulnerability here is such a superpower. TY for sharing. Time in the “hospitality” business is close to time in a booze factory (I have decades). Good work documenting…..and even more…. keeping the promise you made to yourself. One question I would love to you address: did you ever consider “California Sober” or some variety? I am not suggesting it - it just comes up a lot in one’s search for one’s search for new strategies.
for me, alcohol is the one that got me in trouble, but, in order to not drink, I had to ask myself what other stuff do I still want to do, and will that tend to lead me back to drink? for me at this juncture, weed is OK, but if ever it caused me to want a drink I would have to drop weed in a heartbeat. & once a year maybe psychedelics are ok, but if I did benzos ( which i used to like to drink with) they alone are addictive to me, so if i ran out, I might want to fill that void with drink, so no benzos. same with opioid, soma, ambien etc. I used to mix with drink, so they're ruled out. if I took stimulants, that might make me want to take the edge off with a drink, so no on that. so if ever weed made me want a drink, I would have to quit that too, becuz I cannot, will not & don't ever want to let alcohol even get a foot in the door. for anyone out there serious about evicting alcohol from their life, I think they need to honestly ask & weigh those questions for themselves.
Thanks Eric! Yeah I've considered it, at length. I guess we all do it to *some* extent, by which I mean there are plenty of people who will tell you that we're addicted to all sorts of thing - sugar, for example - and it's not possible to quit everything addictive in practice. That argument feels vaguely metaphysical to me, so I kind of ignore it. I vape, so I have a nicotine addiction I guess. But I know what you're asking, and the truth is, my weed bone is connected directly to my booze bone. Anything psychoactive seems to lead back to alcohol. I'm very aware that a lot of people rely on it, and godspeed to them, but I don't think it's going to work for me. I'm more of a face-responsibility-sober persuasion. An interesting topic for a future video though, I'll add it to the list.
Ha, I was going for a 1950s gameshow host vibe with that suit. And no, I'm good with coffee, it doesn't make the anxiety worse for me. And I don't struggle to sleep on it.
YT is so weird, anyone can report a n y comment & then YT scrutinizes that commenters comments, & just like how a channel can acquire "strikes" YT will not tell/show a screenshot (to a creator or commenter) of the supposed "offending" material, leaving u to guess, classic gaslighting.
That argument is almost metaphysical in its stupidity. You could argue that sugar is addictive so none of us are EVER sober. Let people have their things.
@@_BatCountry well your entire stick is being sober so stop eating sugar i say. Vaping has also been found to have extra metals in them wich are damaging your brain. Damage that is non reversible. I stress you please stop vaping in your videos where your talking about being sober. You can influence people use it wisely please.
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Stu, You should be very proud of yourself. Keep the faith brother. Well done. 👍
Thanks CJ! This was practice, I have something even scarier coming up next week. It'll be a much better video too :D
I am good at what I do, the problem is, I hate what I do! I like the "informal" vlog style, sometime being a bit rough around the edges is good. Very good video, inspiring, thank you.
Thank you David, I feel a bit out of my element with a less formal style and I HATE filming myself on the street, but if it's useful, I'll do more.
Great channel! I've watched every video so far, and a few videos several times.
Thank you so much! I truly appreciate your commitment :D
same
You should be very proud of yourself. Fighting through all of those potential triggers is impressive. Take care and thank you for sharing.
Thank you Micru!!
You standing near the edge of oblivion, an open bar, was very Very scary…. It’s a story that continues to inspire and give hope to all us addicts. 👍👍
Thank you Jack. In all honesty I think I ay have oversold how close I was: in the end, it wasn't that hard.
Great job man, good for you! Inspiring as usual.
So well done Stuart - a real test. I may have caved to be fair, for its not just the booze within hand's reach, but the chilled night-time vibes as well, are all conducive to an effing disaster.
Thank you my friend!
You should be proud of yourself doll. 100%. 1000 mini-strategies will get you through this year and in 5 years you won’t need strategies anymore because your life will be so good that it will all seem like such a small tradeoff💫
Damn right. Thanks for the support :D
Thank you again for your videos, Bat. It's so encouraging to see someone creating a successful life after alcohol.
Thanks Harry. I'm working on it.
That takes a lot of willpower to do something like that my friend. Hats off to you man, this will encourage others not to be held back from opportunities just because there might be alcohol there.
Great work brother, take care! 💯
I've had to do stuff like this and just want to say "sod it" and go to the bar. He made it through. Good on him.
hey Slayer, hope your doing well man, loved your last video
@@trippyseedsindeedzwhat’s up trippy! I’m well man I hope you are as well.
Being tired has always been a big trigger for me.
Love the old timey train clip
Vlog was a nice change of pace. Definately could watch more of them
@@Zeuskazoo Thank you Zeus! I'll do this every now and then. Definitely prefer a more controlled filming environment though :D
Alcohol took my old nextdoor neighbour and partner in crime last week. Heart Attack after he got back from Tesco Express. 44 years old. It's that real for us and it's why we go to nightclubs and beer gardens and order coca cola. Which the normies will never *really* understand.
I'm sorry to hear that. I'm not far off 44 now, so that's very real for me too.
Well done, I had every faith in you
Thank you :D
Love it!
haunting background music....
Yeah, that's the kind of music I would hear in delirium tremens, so it feels appropriate.
Great video!!! That was a big event to manage.
Thank you Paul! In the end, it wasn't so difficult.
Thank you for sharing this with us, people tend to take for granted, especially in the age of social media, the level of personal courage it takes for individuals like you Stuart along with many others to let the public into their world and personal struggles. The good news, sharing this can help us all become stronger and hopefully wiser as a result.
I can offer strength, but not wisdom :D
Well done! You should be proud of yourself. Best of luck always.👍
Back at ya Kim!
Wow. So many things I wanna say about this video. First is I dunno why you chose the background music that you did but it sent chills up and down my spine because that's the type of music that is blaring in my head (when it's not ambulance sirens, the American type) when im having auditory hallucinations. Second, coffee and gingerale are my go to drinks. Mix in some dresses peanut butter cups and you have the ultimate trifecta of recovering alcoholic fuel. Third is, and maybebi noticed this because I was a semi proffesional poker player at one point and read body language pretty well, the look of anxiety and fear while you were near the bar really made me feel for you brotha. I know that feeling. I had a date night with the wife the other night and after dinner, on my suggestion, we were going to go to the casino. I love gambling and the casino here is one of the few places to go that has air conditioning. Anyways, i was feeling more and more anxious as it came closer to go time and as we were pulling into a parking spot I damn near went into a full blown panic attack. I didn't want to say anything for fear of ruining my wifes night and her getting upset with me. In the past I would have normally just tried to power through it and put myself in a dangerous (sobriety wise) situation. But she noticed I was uncomfortable and was getting short with her ( pun intended as she's only 5 ft. tall) and i finally came clean and said I wasn't comfortable going to the casino and I just wanted to go home. Well she looked at me dead ass and said I am so proud of you for saying something and it's perfectly fine that we go home and that she wasn't upset at all. When you said you were proud of yourself it really hit me between the eyes. I'm proud of you too! Sorry for the long-winded comment but this video really hit so many chords with me. Thank you so much for the content!!!!
That's exactly why I chose the music. I first used it way back in the first video I made about delirium tremens, because it's exactly how my hallucinations start. Kind of low, vintage music with lyrics that I can't quite make out clearly. Loads of people tell me it's exactly what they hear in their hallucinations too, so I've been doing it ever since.
You're right about my pokerface at the bar. Trying hard to fight the anxiety of it. It was a tough day. Exhausting actually. Looking back on it, I didn't stop moving once all night. I was rushing around keeping myself busy to the point that other people noticed I was pretty highly strung. They thought I was just stressed. I wasn't. I was scared if I stopped moving for a moment, it would all come crashing down.
Good for you for sayingn something about the casino, that takes strength, and good on your missus for rolling with it positively. Love to see it.
@_BatCountry I know exactly what you mean. Like. I'm strong in my sobriety but i am TERRIFIED that it could all come crashing down around me because i am so prone to getting a case of the fuckits if I have idle time. Again. Proud of you man. To quote Red Green " We're all in this together. I'm pulling for you!"
Edit* that's so odd that the old timey music is a common thing. Never even thought to investigate that.
Bravo, well done !! Always having a none alcoolic drink in your hand is a good protection and your flask of coffea was groovy !! Thanks for sharing ❤
Thanks! That flask is so beaten up that it doesn't even stand up on its own anymore. It looks like it means business.
Taping this creates accountability. It's not a bad strategy.
I actually did work. As a strategy, I'm not sure it's for everyone. But it's helping me.
Thanks for the vid! I look forward every time you post.
Thanks mate!
Your vulnerability here is such a superpower. TY for sharing. Time in the “hospitality” business is close to time in a booze factory (I have decades). Good work documenting…..and even more…. keeping the promise you made to yourself. One question I would love to you address: did you ever consider “California Sober” or some variety? I am not suggesting it - it just comes up a lot in one’s search for one’s search for new strategies.
for me, alcohol is the one that got me in trouble, but, in order to not drink, I had to ask myself what other stuff do I still want to do,
and will that tend to lead me back to drink?
for me at this juncture, weed is OK, but if ever it caused me to want a drink I would have to drop weed in a heartbeat.
& once a year maybe psychedelics are ok, but if I did benzos ( which i used to like to drink with) they alone are addictive to me, so if i ran out, I might want to fill that void with drink, so no benzos.
same with opioid, soma, ambien etc. I used to mix with drink, so they're ruled out.
if I took stimulants, that might make me want to take the edge off with a drink, so no on that.
so if ever weed made me want a drink, I would have to quit that too, becuz I cannot,
will not
& don't ever want
to let alcohol even get a foot in the door.
for anyone out there serious about evicting alcohol from their life, I think they need to honestly ask & weigh those questions for themselves.
Thanks Eric!
Yeah I've considered it, at length. I guess we all do it to *some* extent, by which I mean there are plenty of people who will tell you that we're addicted to all sorts of thing - sugar, for example - and it's not possible to quit everything addictive in practice. That argument feels vaguely metaphysical to me, so I kind of ignore it. I vape, so I have a nicotine addiction I guess. But I know what you're asking, and the truth is, my weed bone is connected directly to my booze bone. Anything psychoactive seems to lead back to alcohol. I'm very aware that a lot of people rely on it, and godspeed to them, but I don't think it's going to work for me. I'm more of a face-responsibility-sober persuasion. An interesting topic for a future video though, I'll add it to the list.
I agree with this. I've tried, and it did lead me back to alcohol.
Proud of you 🖤
Thanks Robyn! In the end, it wasn't that hard.
That "no one would notice" felt scary.
It definitely crossed my mind
Did all that coffee cause any more anxiety than you already had? I dug your suit. I am proud of you, man. I know it was stressful.
Ha, I was going for a 1950s gameshow host vibe with that suit. And no, I'm good with coffee, it doesn't make the anxiety worse for me. And I don't struggle to sleep on it.
No idea why my comment bounced back -- you're going to do great-- I said poison maybe that's why but that's what it is
You had a comment bounce back? I've had a few people struggling with that, I wonder if it's something in my settings...
YT is so weird, anyone can report a n y comment & then YT scrutinizes that commenters comments, & just like how a channel can acquire "strikes" YT will not tell/show a screenshot (to a creator or commenter) of the supposed "offending" material, leaving u to guess, classic gaslighting.
I agree, it sucks. I'd rather monitor ALL my comments manually.
Arent you smoking. Even if its a vape with no nicotine your still not going to be sober.
That argument is almost metaphysical in its stupidity. You could argue that sugar is addictive so none of us are EVER sober. Let people have their things.
@@_BatCountry well your entire stick is being sober so stop eating sugar i say. Vaping has also been found to have extra metals in them wich are damaging your brain. Damage that is non reversible. I stress you please stop vaping in your videos where your talking about being sober. You can influence people use it wisely please.
The way I see it, vices do not necisarily make one "not sober" unless they do it in excess.
@@_BatCountry yes but i am still correct. Go do something about your sugar addiction, I did. Way happier.
Great job man, good for you! Inspiring as usual.
Thanks mate!