Reagan Myers - Depression Is Funny Like That

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  • @aetedalodeh4550
    @aetedalodeh4550 7 лет назад +8201

    "There are some days I'm so sad that I don't remember what it's like not to be" HOLY ME

    • @paisley323
      @paisley323 6 лет назад +4

      Me as well

    • @nardjess56
      @nardjess56 5 лет назад +2

      Aetedal Odeh I cried there ..

    • @Murofly
      @Murofly 5 лет назад +1

      Are you kidding that's not a profound or smart or articulate thing to say it's just a fact that a 5 year old could say about being sad, not special and NOT poetry, wow what has the world come to? Once Shakespeare was the poet and now everyone is.

    • @XYZ-kb3mm
      @XYZ-kb3mm 4 года назад +4

      Murofly I agree, it’s the least remarkable/most vague part of the entire poem, therefore the most relatable, therefore top comment

    • @PL4YBO1CRT
      @PL4YBO1CRT 4 года назад +2

      This makes me cry knowing that o can relate to

  • @ssuyan
    @ssuyan 7 лет назад +3268

    "sometimes all i can do is laugh if i don't there may be nothing left"

    • @j_jarvh
      @j_jarvh 6 лет назад +9

      I could really relate.

    • @psophilsalva5888
      @psophilsalva5888 6 лет назад +10

      I have memes! Nah just kidding if I don't laugh or smile, the dark void will just take my existence.

    • @psophilsalva5888
      @psophilsalva5888 6 лет назад +11

      And the question here is not "are you pretending to be happy" rather "how long do you keep pretending that you're happy?"

    • @kataangzutara9358
      @kataangzutara9358 4 года назад +6

      For the past few weeks i've felt happier than i've every felt and I dont whether its because im laughing so much or because i break down into tears each time

    • @uroojfatima9128
      @uroojfatima9128 4 года назад +1

      Can relate

  • @Aramazdkhatcherian
    @Aramazdkhatcherian 7 лет назад +7428

    *My depression doesn't ask for much, but when it does, it's asking for something I cannot give. It's just me asking for something I cannot give* that hit me hard right there.

  • @madilynnrayman2982
    @madilynnrayman2982 7 лет назад +5786

    "Being sad is a god damn joke sometimes"
    Oh so true. This is my new favorite poem, thank you.

    • @mysteriouswriter1993
      @mysteriouswriter1993 6 лет назад +4

      madilynn rayman Don't take the lords name in vain.

    • @lucindagarcia1341
      @lucindagarcia1341 5 лет назад +14

      mysterious writer 199 Not everyone believes in god tf

    • @anonymousnug_
      @anonymousnug_ 5 лет назад +7

      @@mysteriouswriter1993they didnt.. Reagan Meyers did, in the poem... thats the video.

    • @amyfisher4403
      @amyfisher4403 5 лет назад +1

      Same

    • @Murofly
      @Murofly 5 лет назад +1

      Wow, this is your favourite poem? That is DEPRESSING.

  • @Tereb1
    @Tereb1 6 лет назад +5724

    I love how she keeps making parallels between physical illness and mental illness and alluding to how you just have to mask your depression with a "real" health issue because people . just. don't. understand.

  • @graceemily8353
    @graceemily8353 7 лет назад +7399

    "I can't call in sad to work" 😩

  • @illybell8180
    @illybell8180 7 лет назад +3387

    The thing about depression is when you first get it you're sad. Miserable. And after a while it stops and there's nothing left. You're just numb. And then you'll get sad again. And it's like a toxic relationship because you know it's bad but it feels like if you don't feel sad you don't feel anything. And hurting is better than feeling nothing at all.

    • @westonwheeler2311
      @westonwheeler2311 6 лет назад +51

      Thats when a pencil sharpener isn't just a pencil sharpener anymore

    • @HotelBedSheets
      @HotelBedSheets 6 лет назад +29

      Fuck... YES. That's on point.

    • @savannahglover9235
      @savannahglover9235 6 лет назад +48

      And sometimes the physical pain is the only way to remind yourself that you’re still alive...

    • @uritmudobremuzike2617
      @uritmudobremuzike2617 6 лет назад +3

      Savannah Glover I'm scared that always will be only way.

    • @Ava-rh7oi
      @Ava-rh7oi 6 лет назад +9

      I hate that I relate

  • @zacharycrank6606
    @zacharycrank6606 7 лет назад +1195

    "Depression is like a monologue under water."

    • @zammerack7203
      @zammerack7203 7 лет назад +13

      That part is relatable and so beautiful.

  • @richellesilva5397
    @richellesilva5397 7 лет назад +3772

    I love everyone who can relate to this poem a little too much

  • @asseater0077
    @asseater0077 7 лет назад +2926

    This is probably the most accurate description of depression I've ever heard. Everything feels like the end of the world because it might as well be, and you forget what it feels like to be truly happy. The last time I was truly happy, I was drunk.

    • @janietoocute
      @janietoocute 7 лет назад +12

      asseater007 your comment. Yessssss

    • @zucker8224
      @zucker8224 7 лет назад +12

      asseater007 it's ben so long I don't think I've ever ben truly happy

    • @valenciavidrine7272
      @valenciavidrine7272 7 лет назад +22

      asseater007 exactly, always trying to recapture the pure happiness we felt as children, although some people don't even have happy childhoods

    • @saintashaj
      @saintashaj 7 лет назад +15

      asseater007 last time i was truly happy was when i got high.

    • @cristywebb8351
      @cristywebb8351 6 лет назад +1

      Hard same. I'm drunk now :/

  • @queerkyra2684
    @queerkyra2684 7 лет назад +756

    " When people ask me how I am they might as well be asking where I've gone." no truer words have ever been spoken.

    • @CentralTexasPuppies
      @CentralTexasPuppies 5 лет назад +3

      The Wal-Mart parking lot....the parking lot of the Emergency Room..because if I can't breathe and I'm drowning they'll be able to help me breathe there

    • @alildaisy2180
      @alildaisy2180 4 года назад +1

      I don’t know where depression dumped the old me, but from the little that I can feel, it’s cold and unsympathetic. And I know the real me is trying to get back, but everyone thinks this fake me is the real one.

    • @cassandrarinehart9970
      @cassandrarinehart9970 3 года назад +1

      That part....

    • @britmecole
      @britmecole 3 года назад

      This❤

  • @noelkamara8025
    @noelkamara8025 7 лет назад +486

    the scariest part is thinking that you'll never be okay.

    • @samara_s05
      @samara_s05 4 года назад

      I can’t remember what happy is all I know is what I am now

    • @therealunslimshady471
      @therealunslimshady471 4 года назад

      does it get better though ?

    • @noelkamara8025
      @noelkamara8025 4 года назад

      *sadness noises* it got better :)

    • @noelkamara8025
      @noelkamara8025 4 года назад

      Dorkaholic i am okay :)

    • @noelkamara8025
      @noelkamara8025 4 года назад +4

      Samara Schellings hang in there. you’ll find your way. i posted this 2 years ago. i forgot i even did, so i’m kinda weirded out lol i just woke up to the notification of your comment and the others asking me if i’m okay now. i’m in a completely new and fresh season in my life... reading my comment took me exactly back to the black hole i lived in 2 years ago. between then and now, i left the abusive asshole i was with, went back to school and just completed the year with a 4.0, and everyday i’m learning to love myself better than the day before. i’m taking it as a sign and testament from the most High that not only does it get better, but eventually YOU WILL be okay.

  • @sumi9224
    @sumi9224 7 лет назад +860

    I love reading the comments and just seeing what lines hit people the most, you can tell we all feel the same thing so differently but it is all still pain.

    • @veertjeeeeh
      @veertjeeeeh 4 года назад +2

      This comment made me smile through my tears

  • @janinesanchez7013
    @janinesanchez7013 7 лет назад +337

    "Being this kind of sad is funny that way. No inconvenience is a minor inconvenience"

  • @alliekerr7799
    @alliekerr7799 7 лет назад +254

    "I can't call sad into work."
    I feel this so hard.

  • @naptaker5148
    @naptaker5148 6 лет назад +145

    "Take care of this terrible body that doesn't take care of me back."
    Hit me hard, goosebumps.

  • @ejaywithanay
    @ejaywithanay 7 лет назад +211

    "If I get out, I have to be a person again." I felt that man

  • @bluebubble19
    @bluebubble19 7 лет назад +387

    You know when you find something that explains what you've been trying to put into words for so long? This is it.

    • @LongRideHome29
      @LongRideHome29 7 лет назад +9

      fully agreed. especially the line, 'when people ask me how I am they may as well ask me where i've gone"

    • @libraryofsera
      @libraryofsera 7 лет назад +3

      I love the line where she talks about her depression as if it's someone else

  • @maggieseng348
    @maggieseng348 6 лет назад +850

    This week I sat in an auto zone parking lot and cried for ten minutes because I couldn’t change a head light, which sounds like a lead up to a terrible stand-up routine, right? One where the joke is always on me? Like, haha, I ate half a bag of pretzel m&ms at 11:30 in the morning IN BED or, I watched the pilot of Gossip Girl ten times in the past two weeks because I keep falling asleep half way through because being sad is a goddamn joke sometimes.
    My headlight went out and my first thought was “seems right.” I couldn’t change it myself because I’d have to take off the whole bumper or something and I thought “of course” or “I wish I was dead.” Being this kind of sad is funny that way, no inconvenience is a minor inconvenience, it’s all the end of the world or might as well be, my brain is dramatic like that.
    Depression is a silent film, a monologue shot underwater, depression is sulking because I won’t talk to it anymore, by which I mean ABOUT it. There are some days I am so sad I don’t remember what it’s like not to be, like when you have a bad cold and you forget how to breathe through your nose and you’re so sure you’ll never breathe through your nose again and I’m so sure I’ll never feel joy again.
    Except when you have a cold you can call in sick to work, and people tell you to get well soon, and there is a whole soup genre dedicated your well-being. I can’t call in “sad” to work. I can’t go to the grocery store and go to the “sad aisle” which would have like already stale popcorn and tea which your best friend swears is good for you.
    So sometimes all I can do is laugh, if I don’t, there might be nothing left. There’s a crack in my bathtub in the shape of the Platt river, and I know this because I sit on the floor of my shower so often it’s become a permanent imprint in my thigh.
    I’m here because I’ve been sad since graduation, not this one the one before that, or maybe I have a bad cold, or maybe it’s both, but the cold makes the most sense for sympathy purposes.
    If I get out, I have to be a person again. Have to put on clothes, put lotion on my legs, eat a bowl of cereal at least, take care of this terrible body that refuses to take care of me back. I’m so tired of talking about my depression as someone else, a ghost that haunts me and I am afraid of the seance, afraid of what it might want from me.
    My depression doesn’t ask for much but when it does it is something I cannot give and that’s the joke, it’s just me asking for something I cannot give. I ask to come back to my body and it’s only me saying no.
    When people ask me how I am they might as well be asking me where I’ve gone. I”m driving down a dirt road, no headlights, when it curves I will not know, just drive on into the field my own voice playing on the radio telling me “there is no place for me here.”

    • @danaealexandrax
      @danaealexandrax 6 лет назад +4

      Maggie Seng thank you

    • @markuspietari
      @markuspietari 5 лет назад +13

      Thank you, it's easier to read this than to concentrate to the video

    • @mixe
      @mixe 4 года назад +7

      Thank you, I always check if there is captions first and if not I will scroll to the comments and attempt to look for some, so thank you

    • @boxybicycle
      @boxybicycle 4 года назад +2

      Thank you, my friend needed this but couldn't watch the video, just tysm

  • @helenadasilva9371
    @helenadasilva9371 2 года назад +35

    "My own voice telling me on the radio, there is no place for me here"
    Off all the lines in her poem, this one hurt the most...

  • @ToshiJ89
    @ToshiJ89 7 лет назад +527

    When people like ask me how I am, they may as well be asking where I've gone. 👏👏😢

    • @teeter2303
      @teeter2303 7 лет назад +7

      Toshi J Best line, its a odd way of saying what she saying but yet so relative

  • @Sofarinrunning
    @Sofarinrunning 2 года назад +23

    “Take care of this terrible body that doesn’t take care of me back” that is such a good way of describing it

  • @gaskheart
    @gaskheart 6 лет назад +697

    can't stop these tears from falling, because it is way too deep

    • @naturegirl8236
      @naturegirl8236 5 лет назад +2

      I know how that is everyday I am close to crying but I stay strong and when I do I am hiding a part of me that makes me.

    • @jackstar6018
      @jackstar6018 2 года назад

      cheer up

  • @august-5085
    @august-5085 7 лет назад +546

    I almost burst into tears listening to this. Jesus, I love and hate when someone so accurately describes the torment that is depression.
    Maybe one day we won't have to deal with this. Until then, cheers.

    • @NEATERTICK
      @NEATERTICK 6 лет назад +1

      Richard Nava amen. .or the statements that we are crazy

    • @mirmaej9497
      @mirmaej9497 4 года назад

      It will.... And there’s only ONE thing/ PERSON who CAN AND WILL HEAL us and it’s the eight word you just mentioned

    • @whatiftherewerejust100peop8
      @whatiftherewerejust100peop8 3 года назад

      But I wish that was a moment, instead it is life.
      Cheers

  • @HatingThePlayer
    @HatingThePlayer 6 лет назад +49

    "Depression is a ghost that haunts me and I am afraid of the Seance. Afraid of what it might want from me."
    Holy. Shit.

  • @TotallyHannah16
    @TotallyHannah16 4 года назад +28

    "no inconvenience is a minor inconvenience. it's all the end of the world or might as well be" yup

  • @Hannahsonline
    @Hannahsonline 2 года назад +16

    Watching this while you feel like you're getting worse is calming

    • @Hannahsonline
      @Hannahsonline 2 года назад +3

      Coming back to it while feeling better is familiar

  • @lexuhpro
    @lexuhpro 7 лет назад +419

    This gave me chills in the first 30 seconds. Too real.

  • @1991LMR
    @1991LMR 6 лет назад +64

    "No inconvenience is a minor inconvenience, it's all the end of the world, or it might as well be" *snaps*

  • @JusticeAnimeGeek
    @JusticeAnimeGeek 7 лет назад +330

    I relate to this more than I'd care to say. and I'm terrified to say this because eveveryone is so glad about me getting better...

    • @OBelisana
      @OBelisana 7 лет назад +15

      We can do it.

    • @JusticeAnimeGeek
      @JusticeAnimeGeek 7 лет назад +5

      Ida Thank you

    • @OBelisana
      @OBelisana 7 лет назад +5

      Jane Justice Doe 💚

    • @goldifoxxx1
      @goldifoxxx1 7 лет назад +6

      Jane Justice Doe the poem is a well articulated poetic expression about depression-I didn't cry listening to it, but this what you just said 'because everyone is so glad about me getting better' made me bawl my eyes out. I'm so sorry that you have to effect something you don't really feel, in order to protect how others feel. My thoughts are with you.

    • @JusticeAnimeGeek
      @JusticeAnimeGeek 7 лет назад +3

      goldifoxxx1 Thank you so much. It always makes me so much better when people remind me I'm not alone. Thank you so very much. To all of you, really. Thank you.

  • @SPcamert
    @SPcamert 7 лет назад +317

    I didn't want to laugh at this. I wanted to be sad. But it's just so fucking real, that it becomes funny. It becomes this defense that I can't control. I see myself in the mirror and I can't do anything but shut my eyes. And when I laugh I close my eyes. And I cry. And sometimes that's the best way.

    • @pooooopppyyyyfarttt
      @pooooopppyyyyfarttt 5 лет назад

      Mm

    • @stephaniepierre11
      @stephaniepierre11 5 лет назад +3

      I laugh at sad things bc it’s sad idk about you but to me I think it’s a psychological reaction

    • @Slimtailz
      @Slimtailz 4 года назад

      Heidi Acelien ok there was no point on commenting if you were just gonna say mm

  • @Queencrazy1997
    @Queencrazy1997 4 года назад +18

    I've watched this several times and it never gets less powerful. Depression is a fierce demon to battle, but as long as you are still here there will always be a place for you here

  • @BrEsp
    @BrEsp 4 года назад +26

    "I have to take care of this terrible body, that refuses to take care of me back" damn!

  • @BeebletheBee
    @BeebletheBee 4 года назад +7

    "Im driving down a dirt road, no headlights, when it curves, I will not know" always hits me so hard

  • @Gallifreyan96
    @Gallifreyan96 7 лет назад +78

    There are so many lines in this poem that struck a chord with me I can't even quote them all. This poem is brilliant, and sad, and something I wish I didn't relate to as much as I do.

  • @alybtrsyy
    @alybtrsyy 4 года назад +11

    "my own voice playing on the radio telling me there is no place for me here", that hit me so hard :")

  • @notmikaela
    @notmikaela 7 лет назад +58

    "It's all the end of the world or might as well be" AHHHHH!

  • @Valeria-dn5pk
    @Valeria-dn5pk 7 лет назад +151

    the tea part, so fucking true.

    • @LVLSSGNRTN
      @LVLSSGNRTN 7 лет назад +3

      Kittyoongi would you mind explaining that part to me?

    • @drupozek8651
      @drupozek8651 7 лет назад +2

      The drink you spilled all over me often people who dont have depression tell people who do to drink tea... as if it helps.

    • @LVLSSGNRTN
      @LVLSSGNRTN 7 лет назад +1

      Dru Pozek yeah, I was guessing that was the meaning, but I wasn't sure. Thanks for explaining!

  • @amyahearne7369
    @amyahearne7369 6 лет назад +25

    Oh my god. This just made me realise how important poetry is.

  • @Max-by5xq
    @Max-by5xq 5 лет назад +91

    For anyone who is hard of hearing or just wants the words, here you go:
    This week, I sat in an AutoZone parking lot and cried for 10 minutes straight, because I couldn't change a headlight. Which sounds like a lead up to a terrible stand-up routine, right? One where the joke is always on me. Like, "haha, I ate half a bag of pretzel m&m's at 11:30 in the morning, in bed. Or, I've watched the Pilot of Gossip Girl 10 times in the past 2 weeks because I keep falling asleep half-way through, because being sad is a goddamn joke sometimes. My headlight went out, my first thought was "seems right." I couldn't change it by myself because I'd have to take off the whole bumper or something. I thought "of course" or "I wish I was dead." Being this kind of sad is funny that way. No inconvenience is a minor inconvenience; it's all the end of the world or might as well be. My brain is dramatic like that. Depression is a silent film; a monolouge shot underwater. Depression is sulking because I won't talk to it anymore, by which, I mean about it. There are some days when I am so sad, I don't remember what it's like not to be. Like, when you have a bad cold and you forget how to breathe through your nose, and you're so sure that you'll never breathe through your nose again; and I'm so sure I will never feel joy again. Except, when you have a cold, you can call in sick to work, and people tell you to "get well soon" and then there's a whole soup genre dedicated to your well being. I can't call in sad to work; can't go to the grocery store and go to the "sad aisle", which should only have like already stale popcorn and tea your bestfriend swears is good for you. So, sometimes all I can do is laugh. If I don't, there might be nothing left. There's a crack in my bathtub in the shape of the Platte River and I know this because I sit on the floor of my shower so often, it's become a permanent imprint in my thigh. I'm here because I've been sad since graduation; not this one, the one before that or maybe I have a bad cold or maybe it's both, but the cold makes the most sense for sympathy purposes. If I get out, I have to be a person again. Have to put on clothes, put lotion on my legs, eat a bowl of cereal, at least, take care of this terrible body that refuses to take care of me back. I'm so tired of talking about my depression as someone else. A ghost that haunts me and I am afraid of the seance. Afraid of what it might want from me. My depression doesn't ask for much, but when it does, it's something I cannot give and that's the joke. It's just me asking for something I cannot give. I ask to come back to my body and it's only me saying "no". When people ask me how I am, they might as well be asking where I've gone. I'm driving down a dirt road, no headlights. When it curves, I will not know; just drive on into the field. My own voice playing on the radio, telling me there is no place for me here.

  • @amandarocha6358
    @amandarocha6358 7 лет назад +66

    i love her voice

  • @odalismendoza8702
    @odalismendoza8702 4 года назад +7

    "Sometimes all I can do is laugh. If I don't there might be nothing left." My heart is beating so fast after watching this and that part hit hard and made me cry. Sometimes I use my humor to quiet the pain that I'm hiding in the inside.

  • @johannalein37
    @johannalein37 5 лет назад +7

    i am sitting on the floor of my shower right now. crying.
    So i decidet to watch poetry slams to push me up.
    and now i foud this.
    thank you

  • @alanaryan3490
    @alanaryan3490 3 года назад +8

    3 years later and this is still relevant. Thank you Reagan for this poem. I miss seeing you for slam poetry club ❤

  • @kyedavis4082
    @kyedavis4082 7 лет назад +65

    I thought this was so beautiful that I teared up because I've been there. I get there over and over again at times and it's terrifying to wake up and you're just hit with this wave of depression and no one seems to understand what it's like. The raw emotion you hear in her voice is heartbreaking and the people who disliked this video are idiots because they seemed to miss the meaning behind her words.

  • @Ambertrine
    @Ambertrine 5 лет назад +8

    The accuracy of this poem is scary as hell... Every time I think I am getting better, depression pulls me back and kicks me in the gut as a quick reminder. This poem has power, a power that brought me to tears. It is truly amazing!

    • @ashleykelly2155
      @ashleykelly2155 2 года назад

      Yes! First time someone said I was depressed, I was 5. 20 years later… still fighting this battle that seems to never end. I feel like I’m getting better, then the rug gets jerked out from under me and I am back in this dark pit wondering how I can go from functioning like a somewhat regular person to not having the energy to get out of bed overnight. I want this roller coaster to end.

  • @lilyb6137
    @lilyb6137 4 года назад +8

    I remember I came across this poem when it was uploaded, and to this day, I still cry when I watch it, because every single line just hits a different type of emotion that I can't put into words myself, but I can relate to.
    pointless year update: hearing "my depression doesn’t ask for much but when it does it is something I cannot give and that’s the joke" is hard, even though I don't have depression, it reminds me of the way I've convinced myself that I am below everyone else, that I'm stupid, unattractive no matter how much effort I put into the clothes I wear or despite attempting to find the most flattering glasses to hide my big nose, that I have no confidence, I'm a loser and I'm awkward and that's why I don't get to go out with my friends, and I'm a burden at work and uni because I make countless dumb mistakes while the people around me do completely fine

  • @tatyanayasko4173
    @tatyanayasko4173 7 лет назад +74

    AMAZING. Poems like this one speak to so many people. Like me. They give us a voice. They put feelings that were once indescribable into words. Thank you.

  • @danaijahjackson5121
    @danaijahjackson5121 4 года назад +3

    I can’t explain how much I felt that “depression is a silent film” I can’t explain it it just speaks to me.

  • @rebeccamonk8616
    @rebeccamonk8616 6 лет назад +8

    These poems are the only thing left for me. I feel lost and alone

    • @nomas4336
      @nomas4336 6 лет назад +2

      Rebecca Monk so do I....

  • @watermelonwarrior3695
    @watermelonwarrior3695 4 года назад +5

    “All i can do is laugh, because if i don’t then there’s nothing left” that hit to close to home

  • @laurasofiacardona720
    @laurasofiacardona720 6 лет назад +9

    “No inconvenience is a minor inconvenience” that is so true

  • @madewhole-ev4uy
    @madewhole-ev4uy 3 года назад +3

    I used to relate to this so much. I recently realised how long I was depressed. I remember really hating my self in 5th grade I was either 10-11. I'm 16 now.
    Wish I could go back in time and just cuddle my old self and tell her that she's loved and she's precious and that everything turns out great.

  • @paulcisowski551
    @paulcisowski551 5 лет назад +9

    "There is no place for me here" that rings to true for me.

  • @charliemiller7414
    @charliemiller7414 2 года назад +2

    "All I can do is laugh.... If I don't there might be nothing left" that got me ..

  • @bubblyrai
    @bubblyrai Год назад +3

    I don't have depression, but this got me into tears because it let's me see even just a peek of what my friend is going through right now.

  • @MishaDKroon
    @MishaDKroon 7 лет назад +28

    As someone who suffers from both mental illnesses and physical, this poem his very close to home, especially as there are lines that relate to my physical illness as well as my mental. The line about her body not looking after her as it should run straight to my core...❤
    I've lost touch with Button, it was nice to return to this channel to such a great performance 😊

  • @doobiedoo5058
    @doobiedoo5058 5 лет назад +4

    "sometimes all i can do is laugh, if i don't there might be nothing left"
    goddamn i can't count the amount of times i've said this. powerful. powerful. powerful. sobbing as of right now

  • @i_draw_things9151
    @i_draw_things9151 3 года назад +2

    “Sometimes I talk to the voice in my head to avoid the thoughts of how I’m alone”

  • @Jewelslh3
    @Jewelslh3 4 года назад +7

    During this whole thing i thought, *Wow..i didn't think ANYONE could explain how i felt..how i feel. But this is EXACTLY how i feel, it's almost like my mind has been put into words*

    • @Jewelslh3
      @Jewelslh3 2 года назад

      Update: still feel like this.

  • @Punchy919
    @Punchy919 5 лет назад +53

    I've translated this to spanish
    He traducido esto al español
    En esta semana estuve en el estacionamiento de un Autozone y lloré por diez minutos seguidos porque no podía cambiar un bombillo del carro
    Lo cual suena como lo que lleva a una horrible y forzada rutina diaria no?
    Una en donde el chiste está siempre en mí, como
    haha
    me comí una bolsa de pretzels de M&M's a las once y media de la mañana EN LA CAMA
    o
    vi el capítulo piloto de Gossip Girls diez veces durante estas dos últimas semanas porque no pude evitar dormirme a la mitad
    porque estar triste es un maldito chiste a veces
    mi bombillo del carro se apagó y lo primero que pensé fue "parece bien"
    no pude cambiarlo por mí misma porque tendría que desmontar todo el parachoque o algo
    pensé
    "por supuesto"
    o
    "desearía estar muerta"
    estar así de triste es gracioso de esta manera
    ninguna inconveniencia es una inconsistencia menor;
    es todo el fin del mundo, o bien podría ser
    mi mente es tan dramática, que mi depresión parece una película muda
    un monólogo grabado bajo el agua
    mi depresión empieza a molestarme porque ya no le hablaré más, por lo cual quiero llegar a que;
    hay días en donde estoy tan triste que no recuerdo el cómo se siente no estarlo
    cómo cuando tienes un mal resfriado, que olvidas como respirar por tu nariz, y estás tan seguro de que no volverás a respirar por tu nariz otra vez
    (risas)
    y te encuentras tan seguro de que no sentirás felicidad otra vez
    excepto
    cuando tienes un resfriado puedes decir en el trabajo que te encuentras enfermo, y todos te dirán que te mejores, y hay un maldita telenovela dedicada a tu bienestar
    no puedo decir que me encuentro triste en el trabajo, no puedo ir al supermercado e ir al pasillo triste, el cual tendría palomitas instantáneas con sal y tu mejor amigo te asegura de que eso es bueno para tí
    así que
    a veces
    lo único que puedo hacer es reírme
    si no lo hago, entonces no quedará nada para mí
    hay una grieta en mi bañera con la forma del Río Platte y sé de esto porque siempre me he sentado tantas veces en el piso de mi ducha que se ha vuelto una marca permanente en mi muslo
    estoy aquí porque he estado triste desde mi graduación, no esta, sino la anterior a la otra
    o quizás tengo un mal resfriado, o quizás son ambas pero el resfriado siempre es mejor para propósitos de simpatía
    si salgo, tengo que ser una persona otra vez
    tengo que ponerme ropa, poner loción en mis piernas, tomar al menos un plato de cereal
    cuidar de este terrible cuerpo que se rehúsa a cuidar de mí de regreso
    estoy tan cansada de hablar sobre mi depresión como si fuese alguien más
    como un fantasma que me atormenta y teniendo miedo de la sesión de espiritismo
    asustada de lo que podría querer de mí
    mi depresión no pide muy seguido, pero cuando lo hace siempre es algo que yo no puedo darle y y ese es el chiste
    el chiste soy yo pidiendo algo que no puedo dar
    yo pido regresar a mi cuerpo y es solo yo diciendo que no
    cuando la gente me pregunta cómo estoy, también podrán estar preguntando sobre a dónde me he ido
    estoy conduciendo en una carretera de tierra
    sin bombillas para cuando deba cruzar una curva
    y yo no voy a simplemente manejar aleatoriamente hacia el campo
    con mi propia voz hablando en la radio diciéndome que no hay un lugar para mí aquí.
    (aplausos)

  • @sarahasseff
    @sarahasseff 7 лет назад +10

    In tears, completely encapsulates what it truly feels like to have depression. Thank you for your brave words!

  • @maxpowerthedestroyer
    @maxpowerthedestroyer 4 года назад +2

    i am crying too much while listening to this

  • @breaziabourg271
    @breaziabourg271 6 лет назад +18

    "Sometimes all i can do is laugh"I can relate . People are always sure im okay because i always seem happy, but really i dont want anyone to see how much i just am not happy. I would rather everyone think i was ok than have them wondering and thinking they're the reason i'm not.

  • @tapsandtomesasmrambience781
    @tapsandtomesasmrambience781 7 лет назад +10

    I can't even handle how good this is.

  • @sleepysadpoet
    @sleepysadpoet 7 лет назад +8

    gosh i love slam poetry. and she really just describes depression so well

  • @juicyj5106
    @juicyj5106 2 года назад +1

    Felt that in my soul. God bless her. Beautifully done.

  • @Jettlover2998
    @Jettlover2998 2 года назад +2

    “It’s all the end of the world or might as well be my is dramatic like that” all the time !

  • @jmvonheim
    @jmvonheim 2 года назад +3

    i always seem to come back to this poem, it just comforts me and makes me feel a little bit better while dealing with my depression. thank you reagan x

  • @JasWritesInDarkness
    @JasWritesInDarkness 7 лет назад +8

    TRUTH!!!! THIS POEM SAID EVERYTHING!!

  • @dvr32382
    @dvr32382 День назад

    It’s 2024 and I’m still crying over this video, as beautiful as depression can get ❤

  • @taranpreetkaur8303
    @taranpreetkaur8303 3 года назад +3

    People who are ignorant, cruel or abusive towards you may have never truly experienced those depths of despair, utter hopelessness and numbness and to be honest, I'm glad that they didn't have to go through this gut wrenching pain.

  • @hayletrujillo924
    @hayletrujillo924 2 года назад +3

    “Take care of this terrible body that refuses to take care of me back.” FELT

  • @Kiwimango95
    @Kiwimango95 7 лет назад +17

    I already know I'm going to be watching this poem over and over again. I've never related so closely to a poem, thank you Reagan for putting this feeling into words♥

  • @TreyAllDay666
    @TreyAllDay666 7 месяцев назад +2

    "I ask to come back to my body, and it's only me saying no." Hit different.

  • @taalsetaalmilao
    @taalsetaalmilao 3 года назад +1

    hearing this poem like a ritual, coming back to this like coming back to home after another depressed day, this poem is so special to me, there are too many lines where i relate and i didnt plane to comment, i always read through the comment section and feel like commenting-all these months i didnt, but today reading them again i felt an oblication to, after all i feel the same.

  • @EnanoForro
    @EnanoForro 6 лет назад +4

    "My own voice playing on the radio telling me there is no place for me here..." *leaves*
    Oh my... 10/10.

  • @isablelas
    @isablelas 7 лет назад +37

    how can they all say such things without crying

    • @sarac9343
      @sarac9343 5 лет назад +5

      i keep wondering about that bc if it was me up there i wouldve been crying a fucking river

    • @MeghaMeltdown
      @MeghaMeltdown 5 лет назад +4

      She was possibly angrier than sad up on stage because of the subject and the large mass of people that either don't know about it or don't care
      And just sick of the depression itself

    • @Queenbeauty472
      @Queenbeauty472 4 года назад

      Ikr

  • @weareallfritz4365
    @weareallfritz4365 4 года назад +1

    Okay, so I used to listen to this all the time, and I very much related to the part where she says I wish I was dead on a minor inconvenience, AND LISTENING TO IT AGAIN I REALIZED I DON'T DO THAT ANYMORE, AND I AM VERY HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!

  • @olivianelson500
    @olivianelson500 2 месяца назад

    Still keep coming back to this poem, years later… feeling seen and understood by someone who doesn’t even know i exist is another kind of love, and also sadness. This poem will never not be in my mind. Thank you, I didn’t ask for this poem but it gave me hope that I’m not alone

  • @kristen4301
    @kristen4301 7 лет назад +48

    "The cold makes the most sense for sympathy purposes"

  • @vlogdabeh
    @vlogdabeh 6 лет назад +5

    this poem hit me so hard i'm crying

  • @pumpkinoligarchy6626
    @pumpkinoligarchy6626 4 года назад +1

    “No inconvenience is a minor inconvenience”
    You have no idea how much of a relief it was to hear that, I always get so upset at inconsequential things and I know it’s irrational and I know I’m blowing it out of proportion so I just push down the feelings and go about my day, ignoring the pain swelling up in my chest and I’m *so* glad I’m not the only one

  • @kleinerwolf3078
    @kleinerwolf3078 7 лет назад +9

    I can relate to this sooo damn much.. more than I probably should while I pretend to get better but am laying awake night for night..

  • @diannarodgers8786
    @diannarodgers8786 7 лет назад +12

    I love this poem too much

  • @morganmartin5272
    @morganmartin5272 6 лет назад +3

    "I've been sad since graduation, not this one the last one" hits me hard everytime

  • @katiec1881
    @katiec1881 7 лет назад +5

    I feel like I have depression but I don't let it in, and it's tiring, but I won't let this happen, but sometimes you just can't help it. But remember this. you are loved.

  • @hollyx6371
    @hollyx6371 3 года назад +1

    Chills. Literal chills.

  • @lettenlina1708
    @lettenlina1708 3 года назад +4

    Lyrics:
    This week I sat in an auto zone parking lot and cried for ten minutes because I couldn't change a head light, which sounds like a lead up to a terrible stand-up routine, right? One where the joke is always on me? Like, haha, I ate half a bag of pretzel m&ms at 11: 30 in the morning IN BED or, I watched the pilot of Gossip Girl ten times in the past two weeks because I keep falling asleep half way through because being sad is a goddamn joke sometimes.
    My headlight went out and my first thought was "seems right." I couldn't change it myself because I'd have to take off the whole bumper or something and I thought "of course" or "I wish I was dead."Being this kind of sad is funny that way, no inconvenience is a minor inconvenience, it's all the end of the world or might as well be, my brain is dramatic like that.
    Depression is a silent film, a monologue shot underwater, depression is sulking because I won't talk to it anymore, by which I mean ABOUT it. There are some days I am so sad I don't remember what it's like not to be, like when you have a bad cold and you forget how to breathe through your nose and you're so sure you'll never breathe through your nose again and I'm so sure I'll never feel joy again.
    Except when you have a cold you can call in sick to work, and people tell you to get well soon, and there is a whole soup genre dedicated your well-being.I can't call in "sad" to work. I can't go to the grocery store and go to the "sad aisle" which would have like already stale popcorn and tea which your best friend swears is good for you.
    So sometimes all I can do is laugh, if I don't, there might be nothing left. There's a crack in my bathtub in the shape of the Platt river, and I know this because I sit on the floor of my shower so often it's become a permanent imprint in my thigh.
    I'm here because I've been sad since graduation, not this one the one before that, or maybe I have a bad cold, or maybe it's both, but the cold makes the most sense for sympathy purposes.
    If I get out, I have to be a person again. Have to put on clothes, put lotion on my legs, eat a bowl of cereal at least, take care of this terrible body that refuses to take care of me back.I'm so tired of talking about my depression as someone else, a ghost that haunts me and I am afraid of the seance, afraid of what it might want from me.
    My depression doesn't ask for much but when it does it is something I cannot give and that's the joke, it's just me asking for something I cannot give.I ask to come back to my body and it's only me saying no.
    When people ask me how I am they might as well be asking me where I've gone. I"m driving down a dirt road, no headlights, when it curves I will not know, just drive on into the field my own voice playing on the radio telling me "there is no place for me here."

  • @aliryan4581
    @aliryan4581 7 лет назад +6

    This made me feel so not alone. Thank you.

  • @roughryder5
    @roughryder5 5 лет назад

    Ok, I'm a little happy that my sadness, and depression is not this debilitating, but I can feel every word you said. Everyone just has to understand that we are not cut from the same cloth...we are all different in our own ways. But one thing that is for sure is...YOU ARE WORTH IT!!

  • @aleehawkins486
    @aleehawkins486 5 лет назад +2

    This made me cry. So relatable.

  • @nora_fluffy
    @nora_fluffy 7 лет назад +5

    Watching it on button poetry live was such an amazing experience 🎈but watching it a second time still breathtaking

  • @toniblakely4622
    @toniblakely4622 7 лет назад +31

    Is it bad that I watch this every single night before bed?

  • @Joyous395
    @Joyous395 5 лет назад +1

    This is the best description of depression, if only everyone could understand it like this. Maybe then people would take it seriously

  • @MissUnsicher
    @MissUnsicher 7 лет назад +1

    Thank you for finding the words I lack.. I cried so hard at that. My friends know I have depressions and still, for them I am the most humorous person there is. Joking, laughing, all the time especially if I want to cry.
    "There is no place for me here" is a sentence on repeat in my head every time I am sad..

  • @oftones
    @oftones 7 лет назад +7

    Love. So authentic

  • @jellybean2619
    @jellybean2619 4 года назад +13

    "Depression is a silent film;a monologue shot under water"..

  • @danidicaprio69
    @danidicaprio69 5 лет назад

    i cried because it’s hard to find the right words for how i feel, and this so accurately described a lot of it. thank you.

  • @ASMinor
    @ASMinor 4 года назад +1

    I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and award-winning spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my RUclips channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤