Yes, and I love artists like this. So many people push albums and songs with lyrics and music people want to hear, but can never seem to put out music they NEED to hear. And when people do, they seem to be kinda pushed into the back of the music world...unheard by many...
@@YaYa-hq9kt So true I don’t have any words, sorry if that was offensive and sorry if that didn’t make sense but thank you for this, it is just so true
The lyric "I refuse to be defined by what I almost did that night" hit my soul man. I recently was put into a dark space. I have scars on my wrist but I almost did take my own life. Your music gives me hope. Thank you. And yes I'm holding back tears as I write this. Much love and respect for you guys.
Never lose sight of the fact that you are a soldier of light. This is why darkness pushes against us the hardest, but we will survive, because we aren't just stronger than the storm, we ARE the storm.
"I refuse to believe the liar in my head", this lyric hit hard you know? When I was younger, my father always said to me, "You did nothing more than the obligation." Imagine an 8-year old kid hearing this almost every day. It was hard, really hard. Every day this voice said to me, "you're not good enough". I started cutting myself when I was 13 and stopped at 14. How f*cked is the world for this to happen right? If it wasn't for my school and my best friend, I would not be here writing this. Even though I started this thanks to my father, I don't blame him. He was raised the same way. I have 13 scars, located on my arms, but also have multiple inside my head. And I'm proud to show them because this means that I survived this storm. Citizen Soldier, from the heart, you are the best band I listen to. I really hope the best for all of you. You don't know how much these songs of yours impact, at least me. Sometimes, these voices in my head appear, and sometimes they almost break me, but then I listen to you. You guys always make my day better. Thank you so much for everything you guys do! You guys are heroes! My heroes!
Oh dear .. you are a great warrior, keep being strong and proud of yourself .. It's ok to be weak sometimes and it's ok to cry your heart out .. But you are a *phoenix* you always rise from the ashes .. Amazing how you're able not to blame him and being forgiving .. that takes a lot of courage and strength .. hats off ♥️♥️♥️
That’s so sweet and I’m so happy for you! Please don’t hurt yourself ever again! I know it’s very tempting when people hurt you but you are special and amassing have a swell day!!!
“A semicolon saved my life ... I refuse to be defined by what I almost did that night.” Every song hits harder than home I honestly bawled when the semicolon got mentioned as it literally did become a symbol of everything I’m fighting for
Same. I wear a semicolon bracelet... Trying to find a good tattoo artist to get some ink therapy in my new location. I want a dragon gripping the semicolon.
@@MorganGamer3 Blue dragon. I hallucinated a blue asian type dragon was breaking the branch when I tried to hang myself. So it has that sort of meaning to me. He was probably the spirit of the stream I was at. Dunno.
@@CitizenSoldier thank you so much for this song, you have no idea how much it helps, you most definitely never make a bad song, so sorry if that didn’t make sense but again thank you🙂, sorry if that’s the wrong emoji
I mean there bot wrong in the slightest sense of the word. I mean when Hallelujah came out I instantly fell i live with it and it's my fav to this day i recommended and talk about almost every single day. And this one is fucking amazing especially sence i had just gotten back from a Mental hospital less then a week ago for an suicide attempt and hearing this song is just perfect you guys help all of us out in different ways for everyone and of course there are going to be haters and I'm pretty sure you womt see t bu is or let alone reason to me but I'm here to say for all of us who are fans that you should never listen to the haters in the slightest YOU GUYS ROCK!! *pun intended* XD We all love you keep up the good work guys
Just woke up.. 6am feeeling like shit... this makes my day just a little better. One song at a time.. one step more to standing up.. one step to a day where I hopefully can work.
@@CitizenSoldier better than the last two days with just laying in bet mostly fo sure... will see how the day goes by, this gave me some new power to feed off from.
Lyrics for those who want it: Stronger Than My Storm (Not giving up, not giving up) (Not giving up) Self hatred, I’m fighting Feels like a prison cell But this story, I’m writing Helps me remind myself That rock bottom only got me higher Won’t be a victim, I’m a survivor I refuse to believe the liar In my head The proof, is stitched in my scars I’m strong enough, I’m strong enough I found myself through the dark Not giving up, not giving up I’ve come to understand That tragedy’s a second chance My dying breath is where I was born Now I’m stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm For so long, I tried to Pretend away my pain My secret, to keep it Left me one step away Some days I couldn’t get much lower My heart couldn’t beat much slower But I decide when my story’s over (Story’s over) The proof, is stitched in my scars I’m strong enough, I’m strong enough I found myself through the dark Not giving up, not giving up I’ve come to understand That tragedy’s a second chance My dying breath is where I was born Now I’m stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm Being broken gave me fight A semicolon saved my life I wear my battle scars with pride Being broken gave me fight And I refuse to be defined By what I almost did that night (Not giving up, not giving up) (Not giving up) The proof, is stitched in my scars I’m strong enough, I’m strong enough I found myself falling so far Not giving up, not giving up I’ve come to understand That tragedy’s a second chance My dying breath is where I was born Now I’m stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm
Never really listened to this band, but the lyrics relate to me in a lot of different ways, I’ve struggled with self harm fir years and I’m 3 months clean. I’m a Christian unashamed of my faith and God pulled me through a lot but the lyrics to this song resonates because I’m not giving up and I’m gonna continue to fight and longer I fight the stronger I am against the urges Yet it’s not my strength that I use, it’s Christ!”
The semi-colon (;) was actually my first ever tattoo I ever got. It was for something called Project Semicolon. The basic gist was: In basic punctuation and sentence structure, you’re supposed to END your sentences with periods(.), and then begin the next sentence. Ex - The dog is on the porch. Then, the dog ate his food. However, you can use a semicolon to “pause” in a sentence. It’s technically ending the sentence without ending it if that makes sense. In this case, *your LIFE is the sentence*. So instead of “ending your sentence (life)” with a period, you take a pause, ; , and really reflect and decide if what you’re about to do is really worth it. I hate my life (period). [Death] *OR* I hate my life ; but I’m going to be stronger than my storm! 💪 Best decision of my life. Keep up the amazing work guys. I don’t believe in your god, but I don’t need to know good music when I hear it! Wishing you that more success comes your way!
My first tattoo was also a semicolon tattoo along with the words my story isn't over. It's on my left wrist. That way I see it every day as I remember to keep going. To know that my story is still being written. To everyone who feels the same. Keep your heads up and keep fighting
@@Random_Fanatic It's used to symbolize mental illness in general that can cause you to feel suicidal if I remember correctly, It means just take a breath and think which I know doesn't sound good when said but yeah.
God, so many lyrics that I can relate to in this song were many of the emotions I felt after my older brother killed himself when I was 16. I'm 19 now and still proving that I am stronger than my storm. Thank you guys so much for providing such a great anthem!
"A semi-colon saved my life". I was there. At the brink of suicide. And I fought. This song speaks so powerfully to the strength we find to go on. I needed this song this week and shared it.❤
When I was 15 I put a gun in my mouth The only reason I'm here today is because that safety was on I now have the Semicolon on my ankle and along with my grandpa's hand writing I still struggle with my storm but I made a promise that I will always come out alive
Only when you pass through the darkness can you truly begin to appreciate the light. When we endure the storms in our lives, our character can be forged and we can be made into better people. Love the message in the music!
Even though none of you may read this, I want to say you guys have really helped get me out of a very dark place... Please keep on making these masterpiece. Thank you for sharing your art with us!😊
@@CitizenSoldier No please don't thank me, it's a given with your talent and power to reach us! honestly thank you guys for existing! I don't know where I'd be rn if I hadn't found you guys!
SInce the age of 14 I've been battling with my mental health. Now, at the age of 41, I look back at my battles and the scars left from them. ALL of your songs have explained each chapter of my life. The semi colon is what touched me the most. Project Semicolon is not known as much as it should be. You guys have really honored Amy's memory and mission. You are the voices so many teens need to hear when so much negativity and fear in our world. May God bless you all and those you love.
In a world full of soulless trap, reggaeton, pop, etc that get all the attention and glorification, we have this band that deserves so much more. They write about all the negativity and give us a little push to stay here whereas the popular crap left us with... well... crap. I'm so glad for finding you guys. You appeared in my life and kept me a little bit sane when my mind were at its worst. Looking forward for the next song
It satisfies different needs. People listen music for different reasons. I think it's positive that not too many people can relate to songs like this. Unless you want everyone to be a mess and find the only way out in this kind of music.
I doubt citizen solider will read this but thank you. I suffer with anxiety and depression but I’ve never been able to explain my emotions it’s very hard for me but you songs allow to kind of see how I feel and have saved me a lot so thank you for being a really good band and writing music like this.
Knowing the demons that I carry and knowing that they ALMOST won but I will always be stronger. I cannot thank you enough. I love every song you put out.
I recently fell into a dark descent, and that period of my life is marked into my wrists I hide them, because no one needs to know, but the fact I'm still kicking means I'm still battling Citizen Solider really helps me, honestly
@@sparrow_moon1110 i hope you get through the rough times, i assure you you'll feel much better when you've got through it and scars will be proof of victory ! 💞
I've been suffering from anger issues and anxiety my entire life and a few days before this song came out I had a really bad incident where I lashed out verbally at my family and came extremely close to getting physical and after the incident, I was seriously considering suicide because I did not think I could go on any longer but thanks to a police officer talking with me and the support of my family and girlfriend I was able to stop that thinking. Then this song came out... I started crying because it perfectly described just how I feel about my issues. I'm 17 years old and I refuse to be beaten by my own aggression and those who think it's funny to tick me off. Don't stop making this kind of music because it really helps. And your song Devil Inside near-perfectly describes the rage I can feel.
I know your pain I was willing to take a knife and cut my arm when I was 16-18 years old but this music has saved me and I love them so I know family sucks but we just have to push through it
well now i am scared ai am going the same way you are each day i get less... patience and i have less tolerability( is that how you write it) is like i don't want to be with my family but i do want maybe that's the reason i haven't exploded, my love for them stops me from losing it
@@namelles2097 The bonds you share with your family can survive the toughest of issues, I've lost count of the number of times I've gotten upset and yet my family still loves me and I still love them. I believe in you, don't stop learning from these incidents as a song says "what doesn't kill you will make you stronger", you are not alone in this.
Can't believe I've only just discovered this fabulous band. Every song can hit hard but help so much. These words are felt by so many people and to hear them in songs is making what we all feel so normal. Thank you for the songs you bring ❤
"A semicolon saved my life I wear my battle scars with pride".. Hit me in the stomach.. I'm proud that I survived when I tried years ago to take my life. Still fighting everyday against myself. Your guys music giving me energy to not give up the fight. I love you guys. Thanks that u guys exist and big thanks about your music.💜 ;
"The Proof is stitched in my scars" (the work I put in to save a life. One very...very close to me I even managed to put a ring on them) "I've come to understand , that tragedy's is a second chance" (lost the one I got those scars for but they left me something that would help me pull though) "I found myself through the dark" (that last thing they gave me helped me find my way out of a dark time) "now I'm stronger than my storm" (me looking back on that time and remembering the good times and the drive I now have to just make people smile to just hopefully improve their day) For me these lines hit the hardest because of the emotional impact they have on me. You guys put a little more light on a dark side of my past and I thank you for that.
How do you continuously write the songs that I desperately need to hear? It's as if you're inside my mind; plucking memories of past hurts and feelings out of thin air. I definitely need a few of your lyrics made into a tattoo
I wish I could wear my battle scars with pride and wasn't defined by what I almost did that night. My family is kicking me out of home, because they say I'm a failure and a burden and they can't live with me anymore. Your music really helps me to not giving up fully and still believe, that I have a right to be on this earth. Thank you❤️
You are no burden or failure. Use those harsh words to fuel your determination then use that determination to prove them wrong. You are loved more than you know. Stay strong my friend.
Sometimes our harshest critics are those closest to us. Took weathering the storm of mental and physical abuse. Years of being treated as never good enough to finally see the light. And after everything my mother did to me, we both got help, we both learned what we both did wrong. Took alot but now almost 17 years later we are mending and trying to recover the lost time. It's never easy, but never give up.
Back in 1998 when I was 2 years old, I was in a carbon monoxide accident and on the way to the hospital in the ambulence I died. They had to resuscitate me. I ended up in a coma after that. The doctors told my parents that I wasn't going to survive the night, but I did. They said that I was never going to wake up from my coma though. But I did. And then they said I was going to be a vegetable the rest of my life. But I started being able to talk and move again. And then they told my parents that they were witnessing a miracle. But because of the brain damage, I had severe short term memory loss. I was in special Ed classes at school. I always forgot what my locker combination was and was always late to class, and where my assigned seat was and other kids would make fun of me. I failed so many classes because I couldn't remember what I was taught.Nobody understood that I couldn't remember things, so they either took advantage of that, made fun of me or thought I was weird and stayed away. Some of the bullying was physical. It was very lonely, and as I grew up, I got extremely pessimistic and angry about everything. I was very mistrusting and hated people. Just in general. Everything everyone said to me was somehow about me, at least I thought, and I took things way too personally. It got to the point where I was having terrible mood swings and panic attacks and I had to see a therapist for a few years, who did absolutely nothing for me. I was thinking about suicide quite a bit at that time. In 2018, I was getting these terrible headaches and blacking out. I don't remember most of what happened. But I remember waking up in a hospital. I had a brain tumor, and apparently had been diagnosed in 2014 and they never told us, but it was in my records. I went through five brain surgeries, was bed bound collectively for around two and a half weeks, I was weak so it was hard walking and doing physical therapy when it was time to try, but I was stubborn and I wanted to be out of the hospital. I did get p!ssed off alot because I had to ask permission to do things and I needed people to do things for me. And after I came home, I was still pretty bed-bound and sleeping sucked because I had to sleep sitting up. But, that tumor ended up being the best thing that happened to me though. My personality completely changed and the damage from the carbon monoxide had started disappearing. I started to remember things passed a certain amount of time that I wouldn't have before. My short-term memory loss is for the most part gone, and I almost never notice it. I can think more clearly too. I don't get mood swings anymore and I'm not negative all time. I have forgotten quite a bit of my past, but that's alright. When I do remember things, it doesn't feel like it happened to me, but someone else whose eyes I was looking through. I don't know how to explain that. But I'm happy, and I'm glad that everything happened the way it did and that I came out on the other side of it. Anyway, this song hits home for me alot, especially "stronger than my storm"
Wow! I am sorry you had to go through all of that, but I am glad you were lucky enough to be able to recover even when everyone thought you wouldn't. I wish you the best of luck! 😁
@@zeenxdownz I don't. I only know what my parents told me. When I had my accident and woke up from the coma, I was no longer mentally two years old. My mentality had reverted back to being an infant and I had to relearn everything I had previously learned all over again. I have absolutely no memory of my life from around three years old and under except one memory of being in a high chair at the dinner table eating Cheerios. I still have short term memory loss. The CO poisoning caused me to have damage in my two frontal lobes which are responsible for short-term memory, fine motor skills, time and space and emotions.
@@artursgabrusevs5153 whatever happened to you must have been pretty bad, but doesn’t give you the right to be the dying proof. It will only make things worse if you do go. So please don’t wish you were dead
@@jenixfox3639 How can it be worse for me if I die? Those times when I almost died was the best moments in my past 3-4 years. With life leaving my body problems and pain was leaving to. Those were only moments of peace in my life. And you didn't answer my question.
@@artursgabrusevs5153 I’m getting to your question but I almost died 2 times in my life. The first time was just an accident because I ran into a moving vehicle. The second time I really wanted to die but when I was near death people saved me and they were worried. So I just released that my ego can fix it
I am a sixteen year old young girl who is still living with an abusive father in the same household. The abuse started when I was 10. He never hit me nor my siblings but he would threaten my brother to do so if he didn´t shut up immediately. I started cutting when I was 12, had to face seven years of bullying in 3 different school since aged 7 and have got a disabled twin sister. I do not want anyone to feel sorry for me because I know that there are people who have it much worse than I do, but I wanted to share my story. Thank you Citizen Soldier for your songs, you saved a life today :)
Today for a warm-up, I was asked by my teacher to write about our favorite music artists and why do you like their music and stuff like that. It was an easy answer of stuff like”One of my favorite artist is Citizen Soldier and I was answering a question of why do you like their music? And I answered that “It gave me and other people hope to live and breathe another day, week, month, and year”, but I didn’t realize until leaving the zoom what exactly I had wrote. I wrote it down subconsciously. I wasn’t really paying attention to what I wrote until afterwards when I realized that I forgot to add in how long I have been listening to Citizen Soldier for x amount of years and was re-reading it. It hit me hard that I wrote that without knowing that I had wrote it. I don’t know how to interpret this information.
When I was being crushed by depression and failing at college. Hallelujah came out the literal day that I told myself to get back into it and I have to say it pushed me and this song is the same. It's a strong song that pushes me. Thank you for this gift we all appreciate it
You guys have kept me going this passed year. Just every song no matter how heartbreaking has kept me going. I constantly feel so alone. So unwanted. So broken. Thank you for existing.
I've been anticipating this since it's announcement. Thank you Citizen Soldier for keeping me and the rest of us here, you're music means way more to us then you think... thank you 💜
@@CitizenSoldier I plan to get you're most life changing quote tattooed coming up. "The past is just lessons learned. So light it up and let it burn" It hits home 💜
"Scars mean you went through something tough in the past, survived it, and came back stronger". Amazing song as always, also the new video style is awesome!
I love you guys! When I hear your songs, it makes me feel so understood. This song, for example it makes me remember that im a person and that i don't have to tolerate ANY disrespect. Thank you guys for making these songs! God bless you guys!
I’m in such a depressive episode and in so ouch emotional pain. I prayed to God to give me a sign that he is listening, and give me a reason to keep going. I logged onto RUclips and this video was the first one on my feed.
"The darker the world around you and maybe even inside you, the harder it can be to look out for the light, that's never far away, waiting for you to finally take it and break free." That's what went through my head, the moment I heard this song.
Self-hatred, I'm fighting Feels like a prison cell But this story I'm writing Helps me remind myself The rock bottom only got me higher Won't be a victim, I'm a survivor I refuse to believe the liar in my head The proof is stitched in my scars I'm strong enough, I'm strong enough I found myself through the dark Not giving up, not giving up I've come to understand That tragedy's a second chance My dying breath is where I was born Now I'm stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm For so long I tried to Prеtend away my pain My secret to keep it Lеft me one step away Some days I couldn't get much lower My heart couldn't beat much slower But I decide when my story's over (Story's over, story's over) The proof is stitched in my scars I'm strong enough, I'm strong enough I found myself through the dark Not giving up, not giving up I've come to understand That tragedy's a second chance My dying breath is where I was born Now I'm stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm Being broken gave me fight A semicolon saved my life I wear my battle scars with pride Being broken gave me fight And I refuse to be defined By what I almost did that night The proof is stitched in my scars I'm strong enough, I'm strong enough I found myself fallin' so far Not giving up, not giving up I've come to understand That tragedy's a second chance My dying breath is where I was born Now I'm stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm Stronger, stronger Stronger than my storm Stronger (Stronger) Stronger Stronger than my storm
"I found myself trough the dark" hits me extremely strong. For me my life played always in the dark and light seems unreachable and untouchable. It`s as if I am made to live in the dark and reach the light. More than two years of my life this darkness was about to break me and all wanted was to leave this hell called life. But fortunately I had a friend who was like a little sister to me and everytime I thought about giving she was anchor that held in this world. Now I no longer fear dark, I accept it and live in it. But still sometimes I hit rock bottom but your songs help me out of it. You are my favorite band, because you make music that people need to hear, music that saves people. You are heroes in a world full of villains.
I got my new headphones just in time to jam out to this song. I feel like you guys are owed a million thanks for getting so many people through their darkest moments in life. I hope you guys are staying safe and much love.
Not even a full minute in and I'm already in love. The video, the lyrics, the meaning, the drums, the guitars, and your voice are all so damn amazing. You guys just get better and better. Hearing your new song put me in a much better mood.
If SEGA ever brings Infinite back- don't get me wrong, Liam was great, but I want Jake to voice him bc these songs fit better than his own official theme
I don't know if anyone will read this but I just wanna share it and continue listening to this amazing song. I was always bullied by people around me. For some reason, no one tried to be friends with me, or talk to me like I'm a normal person. I was always lonely and developed anxiety and depression throughout my life, feeling useless, worthless, nothing but someone who doesn't deserve to live and feeling like I'm disappointing even the people that doesn't know me. I don't know what Am I living for, why do I continue and why was I born in the first place? I feel like my place isn't here, that I'm not worth to even breath but when I think of dying, leaving everything behind, I'm scared. I'm scared of making my family suffer when it's all my fault I feel like this. Truth is, no one wants to die for real, we just want to feel happy, just a little time when we don't have to worry about every little thing, when we don't have to cry and feel guilty, when we would smile and be happy. We just want everything to be over, either the loss of someone or the feeling of being wortless because the people around you don't care at all, we all have scars we just can't forget. I always thought I'm alone, but I see so many people sharing stories and realize I'm not the only one and maybe I'm not someone who can say this but just... don't give up. Even if you feel like there is no tomorrow, like your world is crashing down and you have no place to hide, there are always better times and a good future that is waiting for you, you just have to be strong and face the world, cry if you want, do things that at least used to give you happiness and find someone to listen to you. It's always gonna be something for you, so... Believe in yourself, in the person you are and try to love yourself! ❤ I may not know you, but I love you, I know you're a strong person, a kind and amazing person and can do everything you dream for!
I never thought I'd find a band that says what I cannot find the words to say. Citizen soldier. The band that very literally saved my life. I was suicidal and in such a dark place constantly feeling like I was truly alone Wasn't even close to true because this band is now my foundation. There song I am not okay spoke to me cause The words im fine became almost unconsciously my answer to everything when I was really dying on the inside. I doubt they will read this but I just wanna say thank you. I love you guys because you have pulled me out of the darkness with a love im unfamiliar with. Citizen soldier as a whole are my heroes. Thank you 😊 💓
"I wear my battle scars with pride," before this song I always tried to hide my battle scars but I think I might stop doing that because it shows that I am stronger than my storm.
Took me a while to get used to the idea of exposing my scars. It's something you have to fall into - like a routine. But now whenever I look at my scars, I am proud of how far I've come in life. I wish you all the best mate ❤️
The ones who have scars are the ones who can show others how to be stronger than the storms of life. Letting them show helps us all to survive, heal, and go on.... Blessings, Dot
"I wear my battle scars with pride" hit a bit close considering that I have a few scars on my arms when I used to cut which now makes me wanna show people that I overcame a situation. Also, another line that hit close was "I refuse to be defined by what I almost did that night" when one night I had thoughts of ending it all by overdosing on some pills. Anyway, keep making bangers guys!! 🖤🤘🏼
I wanted to give up so bad. I just found this song, and it helped me realize that I am stronger than what I thought. I have had it on repeat for the past hour. And I will not let myself give up. I have so much more to live for. Thank you for this…😭❤️
Citizen soldier I love your songs. They are great. For those of us that suffer with chronic pain. And fight every day to live a normal life. Listening to your music has I'm sure helps alot of us know that we can just keep fighting. And that makes us strong. Not weak. Even though we might not feel it. Were strong for lasting threw it. And continuing on threw life with it.
This one hit me incredibly hard. I’ve battled the storm of depression and anxiety for years and have only recently been coming out of it. As a monument to my escape I got a semicolon tattooed on my left wrist, so every time I move my arm and it flashes into view... I'll never forget the strength in me. Thanks guys...I needed this one today
OH, THAT'S AWFUL, CANCERS A TERRIBLE ILLNESS. I'M SO SORRY, I HOPE SHE FOUGHT IT AND WON, AND IF IT MEANS ANYTHING I'LL PRAY FOR HER, FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.
@@unhealingwithsandy OH NO, THAT'S AWFUL, I AM SO VERY SORRY MAN, NO PARENT SHOULD HAVE TO BURY THEIR BABY. AND NO CHILD SHOULD HAVE TO SUFFER SUCH A FATE, CANCER IS PURE FREAKING EVIL MAN. IT'S KILLED SO MANY GOOD PEOPLE AND WOUNDED OTHERS EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY, WHETHER THEY LIVED THROUGH IT OR NOT, OR JUST SEEN SOMEONE GO THROUGH IT. (BELIEVE ME, I KNOW, MY DAD HAD IT AND THOUGH HE LIVED WE'RE ALL STILL TRAUMATIZED BY IT). AND THERE ISN'T A THING I CAN SAY THAT'S GONNA MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY, TBH NOTHING SEEMS RIGHT. BUT LOOK, I AIN'T GONNA JUDGE YOU, I CAN UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE WOULD LOSE FAITH AFTER SOMETHING LIKE THAT. BUT WHETHER YOU GAIN IT BACK OR NOT, I'LL STILL PRAY, MAINLY THAT YOUR FAMILY CAN SOMEHOW HEAL FROM THIS (EVEN THOUGH I HEAR YOU NEVER GET OVER IT COMPLETELY). BUT I'LL ALSO PRAY THAT SHE FINDS PEACE. I HOPE I DIDN'T OFFEND YOU, I'M SO SORRY.
@GORYGIRL thank you for your kind and thoughtful words. I hate cancer as well. Sadly I know we aren't the only ones it stole so much from. So many have been left heart broken by it. I'm glad your dad recovered. That's such a gift. I guess after basically living in a children's cancer ward for 2 years and watching so many innocent children and their families plead to God for their lives, including my daughter, only for it to fall on deaf ears, I stopped believing or hoping in the sort of God Christians believe in at least. But no you didn't offend me. And I hope she is at peace too. I hope all those sweet babies are at peace as well.
@@unhealingwithsandy I'M GLAD WE'RE ON THE SAME PAGE HERE TO AN EXTENT...AND YOU ARE WELCOME, THOSE BABIES DON'T DESERVE THE HELL THEY'RE GOING THROUGH, SO AGAN, I GET YOUR POINT. I HOPE THEY'RE ALL AT PEACE TOO IF YOU BELIEVE THAT TYPE OF STUFF. I PERSONALLY DO, AS FOR THOSE WHO LIVE, I HOPE CANCER NEVER HAUNTS THEM AGAIN. AND YES, I'M GLAD HE MADE IT TOO BUT...AS I KIND OF SAID, EARLIER, EITHER WAY, IT NEVER LEAVES THE BACK OF YOU'RE MIND, IT'S ALWAYS GONNA REMIND YOU OF IT, SOMEHOW. I MEAN I HAVE ASKED QUESTIONS OF GOD "WHY" AND ALL ESPECIALLY WHEN HE WAS SICK. AND THOUGH IT MAY SEEM ODD TO READ/HEAR, THIS MOM BROUGHT UP A POINT, ONE I PERSONALLY BELIEVE. "THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON BECAUSE EVERYONE LEARNS LESSONS IN THEIR LIFE." NOT AS PUNISHMENTS OF COURSE, BUT...TO GROW. SHE BELIEVES SOULS COME BACK TO LEARN CERTAIN THINGS, SO THEY CAN...WELL-IT'S KIND OF HARD TO EXPLAIN, BUT SHE BELIEVES THE MORE YOU CAN LEARN, THE MORE YOU RANK UP AS A SPIRIT, NOT THAT ONE IS WORSE THAN THE OTHER OF COURSE. SORRY IF THAT CONFUSED U, I JUST THOUGHT IF NOT YOU THEN SOMEONE ELSE MITE WANNA HEAR THAT...SORRY IF IT SOUNDED WEIRD OR OFFENSIVE.
I battle with depression every day and night and as I go through the battle of fighting thyroid cancer on top of my daily life struggles. I seen the title and definitely had to listen your music has brought me to realize to keep fighting no matter what I maybe going through.. with this song it makes me realize I'm stronger than my storm.. your music is very uplifting and I appreciate that it really helps me
It is 11:44 pm and I can't sleep, stuck on this fork in my life, not sure what to do or where to go and this song says keep pushing for those in need, so that is what I am going to do. I am going to stay and fight for those in need. Thank you guys
This impacted me incredibly hard. I’ve battled the storm of depression and anxiety for years and have only recently been coming out of it. As a monument to my escape I got a semicolon tattooed on my finger. This was absolutely amazing and I did not expect something so heart touching.
Thank you, this kind of thing keeps me going. I hit rock bottom recently and was seriously considering ending it all, I don't understand how or why but at the moment I've just been working on improving myself and doing so drastically. Some of the lyrics in this song just ring very very true for me.
With this song I finally realized that for me you're not just a band that I like and songs that I like, you're a real therapy. Some songs reminds me of painful events, but when you sing them I feel understand, and songs like this one push me forward and give me strenght and hope. So once again, thank you so much for this masterpiece =D
I wonder why citizen soldier became a band, they are amazing at making you feel less alone, but it's sometimes so hard to get people to understand suicidal thoughts and depression, anxiety and more so I think it's amazing how this group always makes other people suffering from inside their own head less alone :) (Sorry if I was confusing, I'm really tired and drained rn 😅)
Thank you for the reminder that I'm stronger than I think I am. I wanted to end it all 15 years ago, but I found reasons to keep moving forward. This past year has made it difficult to remember those reasons at times, but I'm still here. Step by step, day by day. Keep up the fantastic work guys. I can't wait to hear whatever you release next.
Holy Cow. This song....you guys are so inspirational. I am suffering from the darkness of my self-hate. It has been tearing me down, and I've kept it a secret for so long.....and then this song comes in and....just wow. Wow. This is why I love you guys
Citizen soldier forever. I love you Guys. Guitar playing: fucking awesome Bass: Excellent Drumming : great Lyrics : masterpiece, so deep and true Song: Good Job keep it up. Melody : not from this World. The whole Band:💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
"Being broken gave me fight A semicolon saved my life I wear my battle scars with pride Being broken gave me fight And I refuse to be defined" This is my favorite line in the song it speaks to me so much I'm so glad this band exists and focus on our mental health and how important it is for us to never give up our fight 🙏🏽🙏🏽💙💙💙
I'm a artist that makes drawings than most people wouldn't understand and will the help of this amazing song,it will push my drawing skills even more,thank you Citizen Soldier for making true music with relatable words everytime a new song appears.
This song and it's lyrics are perfect for me at this time, your music is more than music to me. It's my refuge when I have nowhere else to go. It is therapy and it's understanding. Thanks Citizen Soldier! I'm stronger than my storm
This song truly shows what you can overcome. When I was laying in the hospital bed fighting for my life after I had a near successful suicide attempt it allowed me to come back stronger. I want people to know it gets easier but asking for help is the first step.
So many artists these days make music people want to hear but you guys make music people need to hear.
Yes, and I love artists like this. So many people push albums and songs with lyrics and music people want to hear, but can never seem to put out music they NEED to hear. And when people do, they seem to be kinda pushed into the back of the music world...unheard by many...
Thanks 💜!
You have no idea how much that is true, sorry if that didn’t make sense 😀
@@YaYa-hq9kt So true I don’t have any words, sorry if that was offensive and sorry if that didn’t make sense but thank you for this, it is just so true
@@CitizenSoldier bbbbbyuk
The lyric "I refuse to be defined by what I almost did that night" hit my soul man. I recently was put into a dark space. I have scars on my wrist but I almost did take my own life. Your music gives me hope. Thank you. And yes I'm holding back tears as I write this. Much love and respect for you guys.
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this is awesome!
keep rolling, moose. i have been there too. you got this
I’m so happy you did not take your life. I don’t know you, but I know you have so mich to give before the time comes. And that time is sonfar yet
Never lose sight of the fact that you are a soldier of light. This is why darkness pushes against us the hardest, but we will survive, because we aren't just stronger than the storm, we ARE the storm.
"And I refuse to be defined by what I almost did that night."
God, that line will never *not* hit. Love this song.
"I refuse to believe the liar in my head", this lyric hit hard you know? When I was younger, my father always said to me, "You did nothing more than the obligation." Imagine an 8-year old kid hearing this almost every day. It was hard, really hard. Every day this voice said to me, "you're not good enough". I started cutting myself when I was 13 and stopped at 14. How f*cked is the world for this to happen right? If it wasn't for my school and my best friend, I would not be here writing this. Even though I started this thanks to my father, I don't blame him. He was raised the same way. I have 13 scars, located on my arms, but also have multiple inside my head. And I'm proud to show them because this means that I survived this storm.
Citizen Soldier, from the heart, you are the best band I listen to. I really hope the best for all of you. You don't know how much these songs of yours impact, at least me. Sometimes, these voices in my head appear, and sometimes they almost break me, but then I listen to you. You guys always make my day better. Thank you so much for everything you guys do! You guys are heroes! My heroes!
You're a warrior. Much love 💜!
Oh dear .. you are a great warrior, keep being strong and proud of yourself ..
It's ok to be weak sometimes and it's ok to cry your heart out ..
But you are a *phoenix* you always rise from the ashes ..
Amazing how you're able not to blame him and being forgiving .. that takes a lot of courage and strength .. hats off ♥️♥️♥️
That took guts to talk about that kind of thing- even online.
Respect.
Hey, you got this now it's your turn to make it your bitch
That’s so sweet and I’m so happy for you! Please don’t hurt yourself ever again! I know it’s very tempting when people hurt you but you are special and amassing have a swell day!!!
"I refuse to be defined by what I almost did that night" hit me WAY harder than I was ready for. every song you guys put out is a masterpiece I swear
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“A semicolon saved my life ... I refuse to be defined by what I almost did that night.”
Every song hits harder than home
I honestly bawled when the semicolon got mentioned as it literally did become a symbol of everything I’m fighting for
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Same. I wear a semicolon bracelet... Trying to find a good tattoo artist to get some ink therapy in my new location. I want a dragon gripping the semicolon.
@@indoorsandout3022 ooh that sounds awesome ! Red dragon with it's wings spread and it's body curled whilst gripping the semicolon.
@@MorganGamer3 Blue dragon. I hallucinated a blue asian type dragon was breaking the branch when I tried to hang myself. So it has that sort of meaning to me. He was probably the spirit of the stream I was at. Dunno.
@@indoorsandout3022 Ahh okay. yea that would be cool.
A scar is proof you're stronger than what tried to break you
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You said it. That's the truth right there.
That is sure the truth!🏆
I will be that guy. Technically it means you were weaker but healed. Cause you know... you DID get injured. I'll see myself out now. Have a good day.
@@CitizenSoldier thank you so much for this song, you have no idea how much it helps, you most definitely never make a bad song, so sorry if that didn’t make sense but again thank you🙂, sorry if that’s the wrong emoji
You guys never disappoint. Each song is better than the last. Never lose that essence.🥰🥰
Appreciate that 💜!
I totally agree with you
Exactly my opinion 😊
I mean there bot wrong in the slightest sense of the word. I mean when Hallelujah came out I instantly fell i live with it and it's my fav to this day i recommended and talk about almost every single day. And this one is fucking amazing especially sence i had just gotten back from a Mental hospital less then a week ago for an suicide attempt and hearing this song is just perfect you guys help all of us out in different ways for everyone and of course there are going to be haters and I'm pretty sure you womt see t bu is or let alone reason to me but I'm here to say for all of us who are fans that you should never listen to the haters in the slightest YOU GUYS ROCK!! *pun intended* XD
We all love you keep up the good work guys
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Struggling with a deep depression I've never had before. Citizen soldier has been so helpful. Please keep making music. We need you! ❤
Appreciate you Stephanie 💜!
@@CitizenSoldier I appreciate you! ❤
*offers a hug* you are beautiful and unconditionally loved! You are stronger than this depression ~i believe in you!
then get counseling
Indeed.... we need more songs like this... thank you....
Just woke up.. 6am feeeling like shit... this makes my day just a little better. One song at a time.. one step more to standing up.. one step to a day where I hopefully can work.
Hope you feeling better 💜!
@@CitizenSoldier better than the last two days with just laying in bet mostly fo sure... will see how the day goes by, this gave me some new power to feed off from.
i hope your day gets better soon :)
Hope your day gets better! Stay strong!
Hope that you'll feel better as you'll get better ❤️
Lyrics for those who want it:
Stronger Than My Storm
(Not giving up, not giving up)
(Not giving up)
Self hatred, I’m fighting
Feels like a prison cell
But this story, I’m writing
Helps me remind myself
That rock bottom only got me higher
Won’t be a victim, I’m a survivor
I refuse to believe the liar
In my head
The proof, is stitched in my scars
I’m strong enough, I’m strong enough
I found myself through the dark
Not giving up, not giving up
I’ve come to understand
That tragedy’s a second chance
My dying breath is where I was born
Now I’m stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
For so long, I tried to
Pretend away my pain
My secret, to keep it
Left me one step away
Some days I couldn’t get much lower
My heart couldn’t beat much slower
But I decide when my story’s over
(Story’s over)
The proof, is stitched in my scars
I’m strong enough, I’m strong enough
I found myself through the dark
Not giving up, not giving up
I’ve come to understand
That tragedy’s a second chance
My dying breath is where I was born
Now I’m stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Being broken gave me fight
A semicolon saved my life
I wear my battle scars with pride
Being broken gave me fight
And I refuse to be defined
By what I almost did that night
(Not giving up, not giving up)
(Not giving up)
The proof, is stitched in my scars
I’m strong enough, I’m strong enough
I found myself falling so far
Not giving up, not giving up
I’ve come to understand
That tragedy’s a second chance
My dying breath is where I was born
Now I’m stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Thanks Megan 💜!
Never really listened to this band, but the lyrics relate to me in a lot of different ways, I’ve struggled with self harm fir years and I’m 3 months clean. I’m a Christian unashamed of my faith and God pulled me through a lot but the lyrics to this song resonates because I’m not giving up and I’m gonna continue to fight and longer I fight the stronger I am against the urges
Yet it’s not my strength that I use, it’s Christ!”
U forgot the last part :/ Still good though ^^
@@TheBee7878 Where?
The semi-colon (;) was actually my first ever tattoo I ever got. It was for something called Project Semicolon. The basic gist was:
In basic punctuation and sentence structure, you’re supposed to END your sentences with periods(.), and then begin the next sentence.
Ex - The dog is on the porch. Then, the dog ate his food.
However, you can use a semicolon to “pause” in a sentence. It’s technically ending the sentence without ending it if that makes sense. In this case, *your LIFE is the sentence*. So instead of “ending your sentence (life)” with a period, you take a pause, ; , and really reflect and decide if what you’re about to do is really worth it.
I hate my life (period). [Death]
*OR*
I hate my life ; but I’m going to be stronger than my storm! 💪
Best decision of my life. Keep up the amazing work guys. I don’t believe in your god, but I don’t need to know good music when I hear it! Wishing you that more success comes your way!
Im looking into having the same tatoo, my sister have it and my mom do too 😌
I don't have the tatt but my story has more semicolons then i care to admit
My first tattoo was also a semicolon tattoo along with the words my story isn't over. It's on my left wrist. That way I see it every day as I remember to keep going. To know that my story is still being written. To everyone who feels the same. Keep your heads up and keep fighting
Isn't it also the symbol for being bipolar?
@@Random_Fanatic It's used to symbolize mental illness in general that can cause you to feel suicidal if I remember correctly, It means just take a breath and think which I know doesn't sound good when said but yeah.
"I wear my battle scars with pride." You right, I do.
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God, so many lyrics that I can relate to in this song were many of the emotions I felt after my older brother killed himself when I was 16. I'm 19 now and still proving that I am stronger than my storm. Thank you guys so much for providing such a great anthem!
Thanks George 💜!
That's sad but good thing your alive
Keep proceeding your dreams never give up
"A semi-colon saved my life". I was there. At the brink of suicide. And I fought. This song speaks so powerfully to the strength we find to go on. I needed this song this week and shared it.❤
I'm glad you are still here . My nephew committed suicide at 21..
When I was 15 I put a gun in my mouth
The only reason I'm here today is because that safety was on
I now have the Semicolon on my ankle and along with my grandpa's hand writing
I still struggle with my storm but I made a promise that I will always come out alive
Only when you pass through the darkness can you truly begin to appreciate the light. When we endure the storms in our lives, our character can be forged and we can be made into better people. Love the message in the music!
Thanks 💜!
So true Nightwave, also I love your name it’s amazing, sorry if this didn’t make sense
Even though none of you may read this, I want to say you guys have really helped get me out of a very dark place... Please keep on making these masterpiece. Thank you for sharing your art with us!😊
Always. Thanks for supporting us 🖤🙏🏻
@@CitizenSoldier No please don't thank me, it's a given with your talent and power to reach us! honestly thank you guys for existing! I don't know where I'd be rn if I hadn't found you guys!
@@ambrissakaminari6926 so true and don’t worry I know I’m not citizen soldier but I read your comment and I agree, so sorry if that didn’t make sense
Not in here buddy they read all comments one of the reasons they are the best , happy u got through it💖
SInce the age of 14 I've been battling with my mental health. Now, at the age of 41, I look back at my battles and the scars left from them. ALL of your songs have explained each chapter of my life. The semi colon is what touched me the most. Project Semicolon is not known as much as it should be. You guys have really honored Amy's memory and mission. You are the voices so many teens need to hear when so much negativity and fear in our world. May God bless you all and those you love.
Do not let the pressure crush you. Learn to swim in the blackest waters of depression and pain, and you will never break when the light passes.
I love that 💜
Well said 💜!
In a world full of soulless trap, reggaeton, pop, etc that get all the attention and glorification, we have this band that deserves so much more. They write about all the negativity and give us a little push to stay here whereas the popular crap left us with... well... crap. I'm so glad for finding you guys. You appeared in my life and kept me a little bit sane when my mind were at its worst. Looking forward for the next song
Appreciate you so much 🖤🙏🏻
It satisfies different needs. People listen music for different reasons. I think it's positive that not too many people can relate to songs like this. Unless you want everyone to be a mess and find the only way out in this kind of music.
@@CitizenSoldier why are you so under rated. Your better than all these celebrities here because you care about your viewers a lot. And we can tell.
I doubt citizen solider will read this but thank you. I suffer with anxiety and depression but I’ve never been able to explain my emotions it’s very hard for me but you songs allow to kind of see how I feel and have saved me a lot so thank you for being a really good band and writing music like this.
I'm like you and I feel the same. Let's keep fighting
Not Even 1 Minute Ago! Lets Go Citizen Soldier!!
Thanks Ethan 💜!
SAME 🤪
Not gonna lie. Forgot this was coming out. I'm glad I'm here so early! And I'm highly enjoying the lyrics already.
Thanks 💜!
Knowing the demons that I carry and knowing that they ALMOST won but I will always be stronger. I cannot thank you enough. I love every song you put out.
Amen and keep fighting
Your scars arent something to be embarrassed about, they are proof you are a fighter, and a survivor. 💜
Thank you
I recently fell into a dark descent, and that period of my life is marked into my wrists
I hide them, because no one needs to know, but the fact I'm still kicking means I'm still battling
Citizen Solider really helps me, honestly
@@sparrow_moon1110 i hope you get through the rough times, i assure you you'll feel much better when you've got through it and scars will be proof of victory ! 💞
@@maxie1283 Mhm, I hope so too, i just want to make it to my senior year. My graduation.
@@sparrow_moon1110 good luck!! ✨
I've been suffering from anger issues and anxiety my entire life and a few days before this song came out I had a really bad incident where I lashed out verbally at my family and came extremely close to getting physical and after the incident, I was seriously considering suicide because I did not think I could go on any longer but thanks to a police officer talking with me and the support of my family and girlfriend I was able to stop that thinking. Then this song came out...
I started crying because it perfectly described just how I feel about my issues. I'm 17 years old and I refuse to be beaten by my own aggression and those who think it's funny to tick me off. Don't stop making this kind of music because it really helps. And your song Devil Inside near-perfectly describes the rage I can feel.
I know your pain I was willing to take a knife and cut my arm when I was 16-18 years old but this music has saved me and I love them so I know family sucks but we just have to push through it
well now i am scared ai am going the same way you are each day i get less... patience and i have less tolerability( is that how you write it) is like i don't want to be with my family but i do want maybe that's the reason i haven't exploded, my love for them stops me from losing it
@@namelles2097 The bonds you share with your family can survive the toughest of issues, I've lost count of the number of times I've gotten upset and yet my family still loves me and I still love them. I believe in you, don't stop learning from these incidents as a song says "what doesn't kill you will make you stronger", you are not alone in this.
@@Mdnight-Wolf thanks brotha( just trying to light up the mood :)
Can't believe I've only just discovered this fabulous band. Every song can hit hard but help so much. These words are felt by so many people and to hear them in songs is making what we all feel so normal. Thank you for the songs you bring ❤
"A semicolon saved my life
I wear my battle scars with pride".. Hit me in the stomach.. I'm proud that I survived when I tried years ago to take my life. Still fighting everyday against myself. Your guys music giving me energy to not give up the fight. I love you guys. Thanks that u guys exist and big thanks about your music.💜 ;
Apple that 💜!
Same
"The Proof is stitched in my scars" (the work I put in to save a life. One very...very close to me I even managed to put a ring on them)
"I've come to understand , that tragedy's is a second chance" (lost the one I got those scars for but they left me something that would help me pull though)
"I found myself through the dark" (that last thing they gave me helped me find my way out of a dark time)
"now I'm stronger than my storm" (me looking back on that time and remembering the good times and the drive I now have to just make people smile to just hopefully improve their day)
For me these lines hit the hardest because of the emotional impact they have on me.
You guys put a little more light on a dark side of my past and I thank you for that.
I’m having a citizen soldier marathon because it’s so relatable
How do you continuously write the songs that I desperately need to hear? It's as if you're inside my mind; plucking memories of past hurts and feelings out of thin air. I definitely need a few of your lyrics made into a tattoo
If you liked that then you'd love NF's music. But anyways keep fighting the good fight.
We're here for you guys, you guys are here for us 💜!
That's so me 😂
I know right!?
Ooo you're right they would be a good idea as a tattoo
I wish I could wear my battle scars with pride and wasn't defined by what I almost did that night. My family is kicking me out of home, because they say I'm a failure and a burden and they can't live with me anymore. Your music really helps me to not giving up fully and still believe, that I have a right to be on this earth. Thank you❤️
Please stay strong. Even in the harshest of circumstances, there’s a life worth living, and we know you’ll make it through. Much love 💜
I hope you find a place to stay that's warm and loving
You are no burden or failure. Use those harsh words to fuel your determination then use that determination to prove them wrong. You are loved more than you know. Stay strong my friend.
Sometimes our harshest critics are those closest to us. Took weathering the storm of mental and physical abuse. Years of being treated as never good enough to finally see the light. And after everything my mother did to me, we both got help, we both learned what we both did wrong. Took alot but now almost 17 years later we are mending and trying to recover the lost time. It's never easy, but never give up.
Barbora, if you looking for some friends, from your country ..im here for you.
Back in 1998 when I was 2 years old, I was in a carbon monoxide accident and on the way to the hospital in the ambulence I died. They had to resuscitate me. I ended up in a coma after that. The doctors told my parents that I wasn't going to survive the night, but I did. They said that I was never going to wake up from my coma though. But I did. And then they said I was going to be a vegetable the rest of my life. But I started being able to talk and move again. And then they told my parents that they were witnessing a miracle. But because of the brain damage, I had severe short term memory loss. I was in special Ed classes at school. I always forgot what my locker combination was and was always late to class, and where my assigned seat was and other kids would make fun of me. I failed so many classes because I couldn't remember what I was taught.Nobody understood that I couldn't remember things, so they either took advantage of that, made fun of me or thought I was weird and stayed away. Some of the bullying was physical. It was very lonely, and as I grew up, I got extremely pessimistic and angry about everything. I was very mistrusting and hated people. Just in general. Everything everyone said to me was somehow about me, at least I thought, and I took things way too personally. It got to the point where I was having terrible mood swings and panic attacks and I had to see a therapist for a few years, who did absolutely nothing for me. I was thinking about suicide quite a bit at that time. In 2018, I was getting these terrible headaches and blacking out. I don't remember most of what happened. But I remember waking up in a hospital. I had a brain tumor, and apparently had been diagnosed in 2014 and they never told us, but it was in my records. I went through five brain surgeries, was bed bound collectively for around two and a half weeks, I was weak so it was hard walking and doing physical therapy when it was time to try, but I was stubborn and I wanted to be out of the hospital. I did get p!ssed off alot because I had to ask permission to do things and I needed people to do things for me. And after I came home, I was still pretty bed-bound and sleeping sucked because I had to sleep sitting up. But, that tumor ended up being the best thing that happened to me though. My personality completely changed and the damage from the carbon monoxide had started disappearing. I started to remember things passed a certain amount of time that I wouldn't have before. My short-term memory loss is for the most part gone, and I almost never notice it. I can think more clearly too. I don't get mood swings anymore and I'm not negative all time. I have forgotten quite a bit of my past, but that's alright. When I do remember things, it doesn't feel like it happened to me, but someone else whose eyes I was looking through. I don't know how to explain that. But I'm happy, and I'm glad that everything happened the way it did and that I came out on the other side of it. Anyway, this song hits home for me alot, especially "stronger than my storm"
Dang I wish you good luck
How does this only have 4 likes
Wow! I am sorry you had to go through all of that, but I am glad you were lucky enough to be able to recover even when everyone thought you wouldn't. I wish you the best of luck! 😁
Wish you the best.
So if you had short term memory loss how do you remember everything that happened?
@@zeenxdownz I don't. I only know what my parents told me. When I had my accident and woke up from the coma, I was no longer mentally two years old. My mentality had reverted back to being an infant and I had to relearn everything I had previously learned all over again. I have absolutely no memory of my life from around three years old and under except one memory of being in a high chair at the dinner table eating Cheerios. I still have short term memory loss. The CO poisoning caused me to have damage in my two frontal lobes which are responsible for short-term memory, fine motor skills, time and space and emotions.
“My dying breath is where I was born” now that’s something I can relate too
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How did you find reason to live from almost dying? I almost died 4 times and still wish that I didn't survive.
@@artursgabrusevs5153 whatever happened to you must have been pretty bad, but doesn’t give you the right to be the dying proof. It will only make things worse if you do go. So please don’t wish you were dead
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How can it be worse for me if I die? Those times when I almost died was the best moments in my past 3-4 years. With life leaving my body problems and pain was leaving to. Those were only moments of peace in my life.
And you didn't answer my question.
@@artursgabrusevs5153 I’m getting to your question but I almost died 2 times in my life. The first time was just an accident because I ran into a moving vehicle. The second time I really wanted to die but when I was near death people saved me and they were worried. So I just released that my ego can fix it
Learn to swim in the blackest waters of depression and pain, and you will never break when the light passes love yall
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Thank you.. Much Love
@@lucidwolf2068 Ur welcome stay safe much love
I am a sixteen year old young girl who is still living with an abusive father in the same household. The abuse started when I was 10. He never hit me nor my siblings but he would threaten my brother to do so if he didn´t shut up immediately. I started cutting when I was 12, had to face seven years of bullying in 3 different school since aged 7 and have got a disabled twin sister. I do not want anyone to feel sorry for me because I know that there are people who have it much worse than I do, but I wanted to share my story. Thank you Citizen Soldier for your songs, you saved a life today :)
Me: every band have a bad song
Citizen Soldier: sorry we don't do that
Me: fair enough
Another banger just added to my playlist
Thanks George! 🙏🏻🖤
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No kidding
WHOA! I'M STRONG ENOUGH 😭💪
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Today for a warm-up, I was asked by my teacher to write about our favorite music artists and why do you like their music and stuff like that. It was an easy answer of stuff like”One of my favorite artist is Citizen Soldier and I was answering a question of why do you like their music? And I answered that “It gave me and other people hope to live and breathe another day, week, month, and year”, but I didn’t realize until leaving the zoom what exactly I had wrote. I wrote it down subconsciously. I wasn’t really paying attention to what I wrote until afterwards when I realized that I forgot to add in how long I have been listening to Citizen Soldier for x amount of years and was re-reading it. It hit me hard that I wrote that without knowing that I had wrote it. I don’t know how to interpret this information.
When I was being crushed by depression and failing at college. Hallelujah came out the literal day that I told myself to get back into it and I have to say it pushed me and this song is the same. It's a strong song that pushes me. Thank you for this gift we all appreciate it
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I clicked as soon as I got the notification!
Thanks 💜!
Me too
That makes two of us. Lol! My husband and I are digging the song!
You guys have kept me going this passed year. Just every song no matter how heartbreaking has kept me going. I constantly feel so alone. So unwanted. So broken. Thank you for existing.
I've been anticipating this since it's announcement. Thank you Citizen Soldier for keeping me and the rest of us here, you're music means way more to us then you think... thank you 💜
Appreciate your support 💜!
@@CitizenSoldier I plan to get you're most life changing quote tattooed coming up.
"The past is just lessons learned. So light it up and let it burn" It hits home 💜
"Scars mean you went through something tough in the past, survived it, and came back stronger". Amazing song as always, also the new video style is awesome!
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I love you guys! When I hear your songs, it makes me feel so understood. This song, for example it makes me remember that im a person and that i don't have to tolerate ANY disrespect. Thank you guys for making these songs! God bless you guys!
You know I'll be here as soon as something new came up
Appreciate that 💜!
I’m in such a depressive episode and in so ouch emotional pain. I prayed to God to give me a sign that he is listening, and give me a reason to keep going. I logged onto RUclips and this video was the first one on my feed.
Much love to you 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
You guys are the light that ppl need to walk forward in life. Thank you for this gift
"The darker the world around you and maybe even inside you, the harder it can be to look out for the light, that's never far away, waiting for you to finally take it and break free." That's what went through my head, the moment I heard this song.
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"My dying breath is where I was born" - is me when I found my true self in the darkness
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My fav line.
Self-hatred, I'm fighting
Feels like a prison cell
But this story I'm writing
Helps me remind myself
The rock bottom only got me higher
Won't be a victim, I'm a survivor
I refuse to believe the liar in my head
The proof is stitched in my scars
I'm strong enough, I'm strong enough
I found myself through the dark
Not giving up, not giving up
I've come to understand
That tragedy's a second chance
My dying breath is where I was born
Now I'm stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
For so long I tried to
Prеtend away my pain
My secret to keep it
Lеft me one step away
Some days I couldn't get much lower
My heart couldn't beat much slower
But I decide when my story's over
(Story's over, story's over)
The proof is stitched in my scars
I'm strong enough, I'm strong enough
I found myself through the dark
Not giving up, not giving up
I've come to understand
That tragedy's a second chance
My dying breath is where I was born
Now I'm stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Being broken gave me fight
A semicolon saved my life
I wear my battle scars with pride
Being broken gave me fight
And I refuse to be defined
By what I almost did that night
The proof is stitched in my scars
I'm strong enough, I'm strong enough
I found myself fallin' so far
Not giving up, not giving up
I've come to understand
That tragedy's a second chance
My dying breath is where I was born
Now I'm stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger (Stronger)
Stronger
Stronger than my storm
"A semicolon saved my life" I'll never understand how you guys come up with your amazing lyrics, y'all seriously don't have 1 bad song
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True!!!! I love every song!
What he sings is what we want to scream but we just keep it to ourselves most of the time his lyrics are how we feel
Dang guys you know no one really expects a band to consistently put out great songs, but here you guys are doing it
Glad to hear that 💜!
"I found myself trough the dark" hits me extremely strong. For me my life played always in the dark and light seems unreachable and untouchable. It`s as if I am made to live in the dark and reach the light. More than two years of my life this darkness was about to break me and all wanted was to leave this hell called life. But fortunately I had a friend who was like a little sister to me and everytime I thought about giving she was anchor that held in this world. Now I no longer fear dark, I accept it and live in it.
But still sometimes I hit rock bottom but your songs help me out of it. You are my favorite band, because you make music that people need to hear, music that saves people. You are heroes in a world full of villains.
I got my new headphones just in time to jam out to this song. I feel like you guys are owed a million thanks for getting so many people through their darkest moments in life. I hope you guys are staying safe and much love.
That's great 💜!
Not even a full minute in and I'm already in love. The video, the lyrics, the meaning, the drums, the guitars, and your voice are all so damn amazing. You guys just get better and better. Hearing your new song put me in a much better mood.
Thanks 💜!
@@CitizenSoldier its really no problem at all. you guys are absolutely phenomenal
I cry every time I listen to this song, its a such a powerful song. Thank you Citizen Soldier for this masterpiece
I love the new video style, and the lyrics are off the charts!
Great to hear that 💜!
May I just state: Jake has an amazing voice. All that needs to be said.
Thanks for the kind words 💜!
If SEGA ever brings Infinite back- don't get me wrong, Liam was great, but I want Jake to voice him bc these songs fit better than his own official theme
Thank you for helping people like this.
I admit, I have drawn strength from your music. Thank you.
Listened to the first seconds and I already love it
Thanks 💜!
I don't know if anyone will read this but I just wanna share it and continue listening to this amazing song. I was always bullied by people around me. For some reason, no one tried to be friends with me, or talk to me like I'm a normal person. I was always lonely and developed anxiety and depression throughout my life, feeling useless, worthless, nothing but someone who doesn't deserve to live and feeling like I'm disappointing even the people that doesn't know me. I don't know what Am I living for, why do I continue and why was I born in the first place? I feel like my place isn't here, that I'm not worth to even breath but when I think of dying, leaving everything behind, I'm scared. I'm scared of making my family suffer when it's all my fault I feel like this. Truth is, no one wants to die for real, we just want to feel happy, just a little time when we don't have to worry about every little thing, when we don't have to cry and feel guilty, when we would smile and be happy. We just want everything to be over, either the loss of someone or the feeling of being wortless because the people around you don't care at all, we all have scars we just can't forget. I always thought I'm alone, but I see so many people sharing stories and realize I'm not the only one and maybe I'm not someone who can say this but just... don't give up. Even if you feel like there is no tomorrow, like your world is crashing down and you have no place to hide, there are always better times and a good future that is waiting for you, you just have to be strong and face the world, cry if you want, do things that at least used to give you happiness and find someone to listen to you. It's always gonna be something for you, so... Believe in yourself, in the person you are and try to love yourself! ❤ I may not know you, but I love you, I know you're a strong person, a kind and amazing person and can do everything you dream for!
Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you all the best!! And sending virtual hugs to you ❤
@@yunnuna2307 Thank you for writing this, it may not seem much but it means a lot for me, especially in this time ❤
Good to see you guys again. Thanks for giving me a chance to be along the journey. Everyone you need to Support Citizen Soldier.
I never thought I'd find a band that says what I cannot find the words to say. Citizen soldier. The band that very literally saved my life. I was suicidal and in such a dark place constantly feeling like I was truly alone
Wasn't even close to true because this band is now my foundation. There song I am not okay spoke to me cause
The words im fine became almost unconsciously my answer to everything when I was really dying on the inside.
I doubt they will read this but I just wanna say thank you. I love you guys because you have pulled me out of the darkness with a love im unfamiliar with.
Citizen soldier as a whole are my heroes. Thank you 😊 💓
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"I wear my battle scars with pride," before this song I always tried to hide my battle scars but I think I might stop doing that because it shows that I am stronger than my storm.
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Took me a while to get used to the idea of exposing my scars. It's something you have to fall into - like a routine. But now whenever I look at my scars, I am proud of how far I've come in life. I wish you all the best mate ❤️
The ones who have scars are the ones who can show others how to be stronger than the storms of life. Letting them show helps us all to survive, heal, and go on.... Blessings, Dot
"That tragedy's a second chance".. Suddenly i feel relief...
His music has such good messages that everyone should listen to them to realize that nothing is lost.
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"Now I'm stronger than my storm" such an amazing song, I'm fully amazed!! I love all your songs Citizen! Keep it up, love from one of your fan! ❤
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"I wear my battle scars with pride" hit a bit close considering that I have a few scars on my arms when I used to cut which now makes me wanna show people that I overcame a situation. Also, another line that hit close was "I refuse to be defined by what I almost did that night" when one night I had thoughts of ending it all by overdosing on some pills. Anyway, keep making bangers guys!! 🖤🤘🏼
10 seconds in, already know it's going to be a good one.
Thanks 💜!
There just isn't enough likes or words to even begin to describe how awesome and amazing you guys truly are. 🖤🖤🖤
Appreciate that Eva 💜!
"I refuse to be defined by what I almost did that night"... Wow. That touched me so deeply, I teared up. This is my new favorite song.
I wanted to give up so bad. I just found this song, and it helped me realize that I am stronger than what I thought. I have had it on repeat for the past hour. And I will not let myself give up. I have so much more to live for. Thank you for this…😭❤️
The lyrics are so meaningful, and I love the melody. Another beautiful song guys!
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Citizen soldier I love your songs. They are great. For those of us that suffer with chronic pain. And fight every day to live a normal life. Listening to your music has I'm sure helps alot of us know that we can just keep fighting. And that makes us strong. Not weak. Even though we might not feel it. Were strong for lasting threw it. And continuing on threw life with it.
WOW!!!!! Studying drug addiction and trying to get homework done; THIS SONG WAS RECOMMEND 😳❤️ Thank you 🤘🏼
Namaste 💫♥️🤍🖤
Glad you found it 💜!
@@CitizenSoldier I didn't find it. Its part of RUclips recommendations 😂😂😂 I'm Happy 😁 it popped up.
This one hit me incredibly hard. I’ve battled the storm of depression and anxiety for years and have only recently been coming out of it. As a monument to my escape I got a semicolon tattooed on my left wrist, so every time I move my arm and it flashes into view... I'll never forget the strength in me. Thanks guys...I needed this one today
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This isn't the kind of that makes us sad than we already are, but gives us hope while we're about to give up....... ❤
As I sit here, husband passed out of pain Pills again. I am so tired. These songs help me breathe until I have the strengh to move.
"For so long, I tried to pretend away my pain" that hits home.
My teen daughter is fighting cancer and she shared this song with me. It means a lot to her. Hearing it for the first time.
OH, THAT'S AWFUL, CANCERS A TERRIBLE ILLNESS. I'M SO SORRY, I HOPE SHE FOUGHT IT AND WON, AND IF IT MEANS ANYTHING I'LL PRAY FOR HER, FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.
@@GORYGIRL she passed. I stopped believing in God after all this. But I get the sentiment and thank you.
@@unhealingwithsandy OH NO, THAT'S AWFUL, I AM SO VERY SORRY MAN, NO PARENT SHOULD HAVE TO BURY THEIR BABY. AND NO CHILD SHOULD HAVE TO SUFFER SUCH A FATE, CANCER IS PURE FREAKING EVIL MAN.
IT'S KILLED SO MANY GOOD PEOPLE AND WOUNDED OTHERS EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY, WHETHER THEY LIVED THROUGH IT OR NOT, OR JUST SEEN SOMEONE GO THROUGH IT. (BELIEVE ME, I KNOW, MY DAD HAD IT AND THOUGH HE LIVED WE'RE ALL STILL TRAUMATIZED BY IT).
AND THERE ISN'T A THING I CAN SAY THAT'S GONNA MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY, TBH NOTHING SEEMS RIGHT.
BUT LOOK, I AIN'T GONNA JUDGE YOU, I CAN UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE WOULD LOSE FAITH AFTER SOMETHING LIKE THAT.
BUT WHETHER YOU GAIN IT BACK OR NOT, I'LL STILL PRAY, MAINLY THAT YOUR FAMILY CAN SOMEHOW HEAL FROM THIS (EVEN THOUGH I HEAR YOU NEVER GET OVER IT COMPLETELY). BUT I'LL ALSO PRAY THAT SHE FINDS PEACE. I HOPE I DIDN'T OFFEND YOU, I'M SO SORRY.
@GORYGIRL thank you for your kind and thoughtful words. I hate cancer as well. Sadly I know we aren't the only ones it stole so much from. So many have been left heart broken by it. I'm glad your dad recovered. That's such a gift. I guess after basically living in a children's cancer ward for 2 years and watching so many innocent children and their families plead to God for their lives, including my daughter, only for it to fall on deaf ears, I stopped believing or hoping in the sort of God Christians believe in at least. But no you didn't offend me. And I hope she is at peace too. I hope all those sweet babies are at peace as well.
@@unhealingwithsandy I'M GLAD WE'RE ON THE SAME PAGE HERE TO AN EXTENT...AND YOU ARE WELCOME, THOSE BABIES DON'T DESERVE THE HELL THEY'RE GOING THROUGH, SO AGAN, I GET YOUR POINT.
I HOPE THEY'RE ALL AT PEACE TOO IF YOU BELIEVE THAT TYPE OF STUFF. I PERSONALLY DO, AS FOR THOSE WHO LIVE, I HOPE CANCER NEVER HAUNTS THEM AGAIN.
AND YES, I'M GLAD HE MADE IT TOO BUT...AS I KIND OF SAID, EARLIER, EITHER WAY, IT NEVER LEAVES THE BACK OF YOU'RE MIND, IT'S ALWAYS GONNA REMIND YOU OF IT, SOMEHOW.
I MEAN I HAVE ASKED QUESTIONS OF GOD "WHY" AND ALL ESPECIALLY WHEN HE WAS SICK. AND THOUGH IT MAY SEEM ODD TO READ/HEAR, THIS MOM BROUGHT UP A POINT, ONE I PERSONALLY BELIEVE.
"THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON BECAUSE EVERYONE LEARNS LESSONS IN THEIR LIFE." NOT AS PUNISHMENTS OF COURSE, BUT...TO GROW.
SHE BELIEVES SOULS COME BACK TO LEARN CERTAIN THINGS, SO THEY CAN...WELL-IT'S KIND OF HARD TO EXPLAIN, BUT SHE BELIEVES THE MORE YOU CAN LEARN, THE MORE YOU RANK UP AS A SPIRIT, NOT THAT ONE IS WORSE THAN THE OTHER OF COURSE.
SORRY IF THAT CONFUSED U, I JUST THOUGHT IF NOT YOU THEN SOMEONE ELSE MITE WANNA HEAR THAT...SORRY IF IT SOUNDED WEIRD OR OFFENSIVE.
I battle with depression every day and night and as I go through the battle of fighting thyroid cancer on top of my daily life struggles. I seen the title and definitely had to listen your music has brought me to realize to keep fighting no matter what I maybe going through.. with this song it makes me realize I'm stronger than my storm.. your music is very uplifting and I appreciate that it really helps me
Stay strong 💜!
It is 11:44 pm and I can't sleep, stuck on this fork in my life, not sure what to do or where to go and this song says keep pushing for those in need, so that is what I am going to do. I am going to stay and fight for those in need. Thank you guys
We're up late too 💜!
Don’t be ashamed of your scars or yourself. They’re proof you’re still standing here
This song is so accurate. Every storm has to end
Thanks CJ 💜!
This impacted me incredibly hard. I’ve battled the storm of depression and anxiety for years and have only recently been coming out of it. As a monument to my escape I got a semicolon tattooed on my finger. This was absolutely amazing and I did not expect something so heart touching.
Appreciate you 💜!
Thank you, this kind of thing keeps me going. I hit rock bottom recently and was seriously considering ending it all, I don't understand how or why but at the moment I've just been working on improving myself and doing so drastically. Some of the lyrics in this song just ring very very true for me.
With this song I finally realized that for me you're not just a band that I like and songs that I like, you're a real therapy. Some songs reminds me of painful events, but when you sing them I feel understand, and songs like this one push me forward and give me strenght and hope. So once again, thank you so much for this masterpiece =D
Glad to hear that 💜!
I wonder why citizen soldier became a band, they are amazing at making you feel less alone, but it's sometimes so hard to get people to understand suicidal thoughts and depression, anxiety and more so I think it's amazing how this group always makes other people suffering from inside their own head less alone :)
(Sorry if I was confusing, I'm really tired and drained rn 😅)
Nah fam I understand what you're saying
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This is me. I fought through depression and selfhate. I have scars on my hand as proof that i survived. I am stronger than my storm💗
Yesss...🤘😈we are strong
Thank you for the reminder that I'm stronger than I think I am. I wanted to end it all 15 years ago, but I found reasons to keep moving forward. This past year has made it difficult to remember those reasons at times, but I'm still here. Step by step, day by day. Keep up the fantastic work guys. I can't wait to hear whatever you release next.
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Who also wears scars with pride?
Dont be afraid to show them this is the proof that you are stronger than your storm
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2:21❤️
This is what people should listen to..
You are so underrated,guys. I hope you can get what you deserve soon.
Holy Cow. This song....you guys are so inspirational. I am suffering from the darkness of my self-hate. It has been tearing me down, and I've kept it a secret for so long.....and then this song comes in and....just wow. Wow. This is why I love you guys
We love you back 🖤
Citizen soldier forever.
I love you Guys.
Guitar playing: fucking awesome
Bass: Excellent
Drumming : great
Lyrics : masterpiece, so deep and true
Song: Good Job keep it up.
Melody : not from this World.
The whole Band:💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
Appreciate that Andre 💜!
Agreed 💜💜💜💜💜💜
"Being broken gave me fight
A semicolon saved my life
I wear my battle scars with pride
Being broken gave me fight
And I refuse to be defined" This is my favorite line in the song it speaks to me so much I'm so glad this band exists and focus on our mental health and how important it is for us to never give up our fight 🙏🏽🙏🏽💙💙💙
I'm a artist that makes drawings than most people wouldn't understand and will the help of this amazing song,it will push my drawing skills even more,thank you Citizen Soldier for making true music with relatable words everytime a new song appears.
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This song and it's lyrics are perfect for me at this time, your music is more than music to me. It's my refuge when I have nowhere else to go. It is therapy and it's understanding. Thanks Citizen Soldier! I'm stronger than my storm
Much love to you 🖤🖤
"Being broken gave me fight" & "I refuse to believe the liar in my head" are my favorite lines❤ love this song good job guys
This song truly shows what you can overcome. When I was laying in the hospital bed fighting for my life after I had a near successful suicide attempt it allowed me to come back stronger. I want people to know it gets easier but asking for help is the first step.