Disassociation is so real...people generally think if you're insecure it only means you're not happy with how you look but for me it's complete opposite. In fact I feel so timid, anxious, nervous, and unhappy with myself over all and then when I look in the mirror I see such a pretty face looking back at me that I don't recognize as myself. Like the way I feel on a daily basis does not match with my looks at all.
And I don't care if it sounds conceited that I said I have a pretty face. I can't help genetics, my parents are both gorgeous but I'd rather be self confident and a happy soul than a sad soul with pretty face.
+Iris Martinez yeah it's super weird like how I feel and how I look don't match up at all. I look pretty and like I have it together and am confident but when I'm not looking in the mirror I feel so small and timid. I thought I was the only one with this issue because I have friends who only say the opposite that there fine until they look in the mirror and they don't like what they see looking back.
I think it's so wonderful to be open to sexual experiences and remove a lot of the social stigma around it especially for women, but equally as important to encourage a healthy relationship to sex and encourage reevaluation of your own relationship to it! I love hearing you talk openly about this, it feels like an intimate convo with a friend
also it sounds like you might be experiencing depersonalization, I've had that before for a really rough year where I looked in the mirror and did not identify with my reflection. it went on for a long time but it helps to be nice to the person you see, as you would be to others
Love these talks. Your honesty is a breath of fresh air in this world. Also, not that the label really matters but the word for believing that everything is God/divinity is called Pantheism! 💕
"i sexualize myself because i think guys are sexaulising me" i have never related to a statement more! i always feel small and inedeuate and basically just uncomfortable around guys and i cant exactly pinpoint why. also, i feel as though i don't know how to open my heart up to love; its like i want to love and be loved but i don't know how to get to that point. any advice? love you mitoki, you brighten my days!
I believe overtime as you build your confidence especially around guys, and love yourself more, you’ll be able to open your heart up to love. Remember love yourself first and then you can love others openly!! It takes time, but I believe in you! ❤️❤️
I wanna sit under the stars in the middle of no where and talk to you about everything and anything. I'm a Sagittarius and I can relate to your thought process so well I love it ☀️ stay positive
It's soo good to hear you say you have always been more comfortable with women too! I have been noticing it's the same for me. Even though I have always been attracted to men as well, there is something about being with a woman. For me it feels like we're on the same team in a way n I never had that with a man. I feel the same comfort around my gay guy friends cause at some level I know they'll never objectify me, sexualize my body or all that stuff like heterosexual men can. And of course I know that "not all men" are like that, blah blah but STILL, part of me is always tense around men. Love, love, love, being around girlfriends. Being with a woman is so different, it's not easy to compare it to being with a man i think.
The way you feel about trees is the way I feel about water. Especially rivers and oceans. There is a connection there that I cannot articulate but can definitely feel.
When you said "when I'm around men or are walking past men I imagine them sexualising me and my body or maybe I'm just sexualising myself" I was like OMG HOLY SHIT IS THAT WHAT I DO?! Over the last few years i have become SO insanely uncomfortable around men (even my dad and male relatives) I mean there's not a day that goes by that I'm not hearing about men who have raped/sexual assaulted/beaten/killed women and I'm just in this mind frame of "am I next?" And I feel like I'm in a constant state of wariness, fear, distrust and anger towards men. I mean I'll be in the supermarket and I'll walk past men and their eyes will instantly go to my breasts or arse and it's like STOP TREATING ME LIKE A PIECE MEAT U FKR!! I mean I know it's in their biology or whatever to feel the need to "check out women" but it's just makes me so fucking uncomfortable and even when men will try to smile at me I'm instantly wary and uncomfortable and then I'll feel guilty later for not smiling back, but it's like I'm so afraid of trusting them! Sorry I just realised I've had like massive verbal diarrhoea lol but Hitomi I just wanted to say I relate to soo much of what you say. Thank you for being brave enough to speak your mind and I love you 😘✨🦋🌹
don't delete omg i relate to it as well girl!!! i know when hitomi said that i was so shook too. that fact we all relate to this means that it should be something we must talk about, you know?
Omg I can totally relate to the "shrinking feeling"/sexualizing myself when walking past a group of guys. I never knew how to describe it and you said it perfectly! I go to school in NYC and hope to run into you one day!!
it comforts me so much to know that a scorpio (like me) could be so content and peaceful with themselves like you are, despite the negativity our star sign attracts. Also, my birthday is 2 days after yours so that's pretty cool 🍃💕
Man, I really wish I knew someone like you in my life, I'd love to talk about such things with somebody but I feel like I know like only one person like this and we are apart now so I have nobody to talk about stuff like that and it kinda sucks
I’m in love with your views. Especially the part about feeling like sex was a way to validate yourself and when you didn’t need validation you didn’t really have sex. I relate so hard to that. Also I’m in love with you just in general ❤️ you’re just a beautiful person. Inside and out. Thank you so much for this. I love you ❤️
I relate to when you said that you might be sexualizing yourself because you think men are sexualixing you. It kinda sucks to get panicked when there isn't anything to necessarily panic about yet or at all .
Hey Hitomi, I was wondering how someone can be comfortable with being sexy when sex triggers so many difficult emotions? I want to feel and look good, but everytime I wear something a little too revealing and men notice it, I fall into a horrible depression. I just feel that my physical appearance is all they see in that moment.
If you didn't want it then it wasn't sex... if you felt obligated then you were coerced into doing sexual things and it wasn't sex. People need to understand that.
You are the only one who I can watch long talking vidoes of, like I always watch all your videos and your long videos, whether that's 20 minutes of an hour long. Everyone else's videos I get bored after like 15 minutes but I could watch you talk forever. You calm me down, you make me happy, you make me feel comfortable with myself and being open. I feel like you just help me so much and you understand me and make me feel like I'm not alone at all and people care about me and I just love you so much
I feel such a connection and kinship with you! I love watching your videos to start my day because they inspire me and help me connect with myself. You are stunning with a beautiful mind and soul!! Thank you for letting your voice be heard xx
Its funny because I find myself attracted to females who carry very masculine energies but when I think of engaging with them in an intimate way it really kind of scares me and I get uncomfortable
I've recently come out and I feel this way too! men intimidate me and further my self consciousness, but when I'm with my gf i feel so beautiful mentally and physically
same, kind of! I feel that way with women though. I love the softness of a girl and the hips and butt and breast of a women but I also desire the masculine body of a man, the abs and back muscles. I myself often feel myself drift from girl to more masculine sometimes.
Ana Valentin this is EXACTLY what I’ve been having trouble dealing with and trying to figure out. I know that labels don’t matter, but I’m still trying figure my sexuality out and I’ve been told that feeling this way means I’m bi but I’m not quite sure because even though I may be very attracted to a masculine female, intimacy and sexually engaging with one scares me & makes me uncomfortable, or rather, the thought of it, because I’ve never experienced it so I wouldn’t truly know.
Every word you speak resonates with me and I completely identify with it, I only found your videos a couple of days back and I have totally fallen IN love with you. You're just so familiar and I wish I was around more people like "us", at the moment I'm in a place where I'm on a total different level to those I am surrounded with and it's kind of discouraging so it was definitely fate that I came across your presence because people like you remind me that I AM NOT ALONE I'm just not in the right tribe and to keep doing me because I know I will attract those that just get it. So I just wanted to let you know that I'm grateful that you are alive. You're beautiful inside and out and it's inspiring to watch you grow, I could listen to you for hours. :)
Omg the stuff you said around 8:00 about dissociating and not knowing how your face looks and “who is she” is a great articulation of something I understand but had never put into words. Cool.
I Love what you said "Stay In Your Lane" yes some family and friends need to understand that , lots of people don't understand that. Understand and Respect our wishes it's our Life not theres. You always have something amazing to say. Thank You 😊😃😄
You are literally the most beautiful human being I know about I love your spirit and how open you talk about things that society want no one talks about
At my college, there's a Sexuality/Sex class in the WGS department (which I majored in) and took. It was amazing and so eyeopening. We talked about the sexuality spectrum, gender roles/expectations, the health and sex-ed they never teach high schoolers, types of sex and relationships (kinky, poly, etc. etc. etc.). It was great! Wish more colleges were open to this idea.
I'm totally the same way with guys sometimes. I feel uncomfortable being around guys because I feel like all they want is my body. I get the same feeling walking by a group of guys or something like that. It's just because I've been hurt in the past by them :/ I'm in high school so a lot of douchey guys have just wanted my body and I didn't realize that and it hurt me a lot. You actually inspired me a few months ago to go celibate when you said you were and why! It helped me so much in establishing myself and gaining confidence. 💗
I’m so glad you are so open to talk about these things, my high school in Australia taught a lot about sex education really openly and I wish that more school would do the same. Far too many people aren’t being properly educated about this stuff and it’s really important because it is a very normal part of our lives. I hope that young people are being taught about mutual respect and consent and anything else that relates to this because too many people don’t. Thank you again for being such an open person, you radiate positive energy and pass it on to others. Much love and support to you girl xxxx
honestly I feel like I could live my whole life without having sex, it makes me very anxious to think about it, maybe its my fear of getting pregnant I don't know. It does scare me nonetheless. Honestly bless all the guys out there who respect other's decisions
i feel the same exact way about sleeping with women vs sleeping with men. I love that you're open about these things because like you said, a lot of people struggle getting proper sex ed because sex can be such a taboo subject when it doesn't need to be.
hey Hitomi! i´ve been meaning to thank you for a while now but never did for some reason.I wanna thank you because you helped me through the part of my life where i was extremely depressed and unfulfilled, by sharing your journey. whenever i watch one of your videos i immediately feel better because of your AMAZING energy. you made me aware of so many things including the book "the power of now" which I'm reading at the moment and let me tell you, its been life changing. honestly i am starting to feel even better and this book is one of the reasons so thank you so much! i am sending you so much love and positivity for everything you´ve done for me and for so many others. Thank you!!
I read the guru gossip forum and i was so baffled about how people couldnt see your truth and twisted your story.. bc i can clearly see you are a pure spirit with good intentions... why must they invest so much energy in sending hatred?? I relate to you on so many levels and can see that being "naked" has nothing to do with using your body for attention but more to do with freeing yourself.. and spirituality is something that all of us need, it's the plain truth. I hope you take a break from social media or from negative comments and just wait a bit until you feel better.
Don't have money for my weekly therapy session today but this pretty much makes up for it, watching your videos help me so much when I'm feeling down, love you Hitomi 💛🌻
I connect to you so much. It feels like a conversation; not plainly watching a video. Like, i also stopped because of emotional and spiritual reasons. And because of this selebet(?) I didnt know there was a word of it) stage it feels like i have redeemed myself. I'm proud of myself because i got the courage to cut ties with a guy and promised myself to stop and it has been almost a year since then.
A bing thing about the “shrinking” feeling you feel around dudes... it’s because if you haven’t also channeled divine masculine energy alongside the divine feminine energy, you can’t truly experience prana. everything is you. people should not belittle each other. love everything ❤️
It’s hard to talk to my parents about sex because they will actually be mad/disappointed in me for telling them that hey, I have sex. It sucks more negative than positives
Scorpios are very wise, and that you are. Secretive doesn't necessarily mean in a typical way, it can be a physical vibe or even something only strangers would think of you. idk if that makes sense...
Haaa I’m a Scorpio and feel exactly the same about those core parts of the sign... Your channel is such a RUclips algorithm win 😂 the things you say sound like you might actually be in my head
I love your spiritual hustle and its interesting how much I relate to you from a male perspective. I had my spiritual awakening about two years ago and had tons of health problems for two years before then so I'm 22 and I havent had sex in like 4 years. After waking up i just wasnt interested in the people I know. Now I have really manifested as a person and artist and have gained confidence as a result but am struggling with the simple shit like texting girls and not feeling crazy or my body(not my mind) being desperate for action so I find myself emidiatly feeling super attracted to girls and projecting that towards them in more of an energetic sense... (idk how far down the rabbithole you are but me and some people I've been hanging with lately experience interactions energeticly) Plus trouble not staring then beating myself up over it cause I'm really not trying to be a creep. Definitley a battle going on between my conscious and subconscious mind. I really apreciate your share though helped me feel a little less alone in my own sexual blocks. Thanks for being you.
You know that feeling you were talking about when you said you felt like you could gain wisdom from the trees? It's actually proven that spending time around the forests can lower blood pressure, raise serotonin and dopamine levels, and heighten awareness! Even when you're not physically active, just spending time sitting quietly amongst the trees :) nature rocks
Referring to the issue at 10:45 ... so i was in london with my friend and we were walking down the street and we hear a group of teenagers (about 19-22) screaming things about "i love meat so much you fucking vegan" and mocking a person who was peacefully and quitely walking down the street and they were mocking him because he had a shirt on which said something around "go vegan" or sth. But not provocative. So i was like why the fuck are you attacking him, he didn't even say anything and that made me so mad that i just showed them my middlefinger without words i think they knew what i meant with my gesture. But that's the thing more often i see meat eaters bashing vegans/vegeterians.
I’m also a Scorpio and this whole talk resonated so deeply with me. Not necessarily the sex transformation, but the need to be direct and have people be direct with me! 🌝
A tip: when you feel those feelings of depersonalization, try doing a meditation or breath work to connect with your physical body again. Leaving yourself in that state of feeling depersonalized may lead you to self-harming behaviours or self-conscious thoughts because you aren't grounded fully in your Being. You could do an earth/grounded/root chakra meditation bringing awareness to various parts of the body to help feel more yourself and step into your power. You could even try looking in a mirror and seeing yourself from the Soul/Astral/Higher Self Level and then come back into your physical body (or vice versa), sometimes forcing yourself to look in the mirror can be really difficult though depending on your state but it can be very healing to see yourself as an "Alien" and then recognizing these pieces of yourself are fused together in this life and setting the intention that you are fusing perfectly and fully. Hope that makes sense. Thank you for being a mirror for myself and my own growth. You are such a strong, brave woman!
I'm totally grateful I stumbled upon your videos. For someone who struggles with the same issues I really appreciate that you making these types of content. Knowing I'm not the only one when it comes to sex to feel this way is really relieving. Thank you😊
first, you are so beautiful! inside and out! I love hearing you talk about life and the universe. you're so passionate and open and its so refreshing watching your videos I feel like I'm so connected with you. Much love and good vibes girl
Thank you so much for all of your words. I relate to everything that you said and it is incredibly powerful to hear that you feel like you "shrink" when you're around men because I feel this also. I know that we will both be able to overcome this and become stronger women, all of us (everyone here). There is so much to learn and I look towards growth and harnessing my own voice and not allowing anything to silence me or my own personal power.
I stumbled upon your channel today and I'm currently watching all your videos and I just want to say that you inspire me so much. I love the talks you share with your viewers and I feel comfortable while watching you. Thank you so much for making me feel safe and comfy - your channel is like a safe place :)
eyy you can be a scorpion but not be jealous, revengeful etc.! scorpio has three symbols: the Scorpion, the Eagle and the Phoenix. personally i don't identy with the Scorpion that much but a lot more with the Eagle or even Phoenix :))
what i've learnt is that only scorpion has three. It's basically descriptions of three different levels of Scorpion, from lower evolvement to higher evolvement :)
Meat eaters attack is 101 at point like even friends & ppl close to me after I became vegan. I do feel more comf with girls too & I use to think there's something wrong with me
I subscribed to this account a while ago without watching any videos because something just told me to and finally today I decide to watch this video and I feel tears coming to my eyes she hit so many topics I’ve been pushing away that’s internally been eating me alive.
i love when you talk about topics like this. i relate so much to everything you said in this video. you make me feel more comfortable about myself and my previous and current sex life.
This is an older video so this probably won't be seen, and you may already know this now buuuuuttt apparently, scorpio's go through transformations, they don't stay the standard idea of scorpios. They evolve and grow throughout their lives. I'm not sure if this just applies to star sign or rising or moon as well, idk
I didn’t realize when I started watching this how old this video was, but I wanted to say something in response. Actually, I have so much to say, I’m in the latter stages of writing an entire book-length memoir that includes some of the topics you touched on in this video. For a few months, I lived in a kind of "mini-commune" with three women that had various experiences with bisexuality. One was quite balanced, with a healthy attitude about sex with either women and men. She had had more female partners than male at the time we were all together. She and I shared a passion for women’s spiritual and sexual beauty. The second had never had a bisexual relationship until she met the first one. It seemed to me that she had little romantic or sexual interest in women until then. Bisexuality seemed to represent for her a self-image of being open-minded and she wanted other people to see her that way. The third woman, like the second, was experiencing a new growth from the conservative, sexually repressed world she lived in to the ideal world she desired. She admitted that she was not truly bisexual in her heart, but she did love the other two and had sex with them to express her love and feel liberated. She confided in me a lot about her conflicting feelings on the matter. The four of us had a sweet four-way relationship for a while. We held each other, kissed each other, made love with each other, and loved each other. We all slept together on three combined futons and had very frank and open conversations about many facets of sex and enjoyed intimate explorations long into the night that satisfied our curiosities. I was the token male that had to explain what men were thinking (I didn’t usually understand them myself). I was privileged to be allowed into their otherwise all-female world, and it put me on a spiritual, sensual, and erotic adventure that ultimately led to the memoir, which is full of stories, observations, and reflections, mostly my perspective about the world as women see it. Women I have known throughout my life have enriched these reflections, and I have even learned some things from your videos that helped refine my book. Thank you for that.
I love you listened to your podcast and now seeing you in person omg you are me in another form and I am totally inspired by you and your ability to speak up about all of this. You are amazing. 😍🌞
I love everything about you and agree with almos everything you say💖 the way you talk about sex, intimacy and spirituality is inspiring ✨ don’t ever let anyone kill that fire inside of you
How did I miss this vid. :o I’m a Sagittarius but Scorpio rising-makes so much sense because I def have never met or watched someone I identify with sooo much haha. You def have a more freeing energy than most Scorpio peeps not that sun sign is everything. So glad you shared your experiences with celibacy. I’ve been going on a year strong and your videos really made me put more intention and appreciation of this time :)
Girl girl girl! This is exactly all I needed to hear at this point in my life. I connect to everything you've shared and let me just say I am so thankful for you and your inspiring words. You've given me more courage to see sex in the same light. I have been in such a weird space trying to fill a spiritual hole by sleeping around and I am so ready to take a moment away from that and focus on myself. So thank you so much !!!! Love you zen mama
Thank you for making this video. Alot of things u said connected to me and issues I'm facing in life. It has inspired me to try new things and "making sound so others around me will be comfortable to make sounds"
Hitomi, thank you so much for this video. You were able to put all of my thoughts into words - I don't think I've ever related so much to something before. (besides when I'm in nature!) Love and light x
yooo its crazy how much you make me understand myself more even "i feel like i sexualize myself cause i think guys are sexualizing me" I always do this or am always paranoid guys are checking me out like even today i was just walking with my daughter and a guy shouts out his car "hey lil mama"
"Beautiful lovemaking magic" I am now considering embroidering this on a bralette or something lmao. Love ya Hitomi! You give the best talks. Also, what does it mean to have a rising zodiac sign??? I thought since I'm born in March that I'm just Pisces???.....
Keep on believing in yourself and bettering you. Enlightenment will come eventually. Life is a awesome journey and living it to the fullest is what brings us joy. Don't be afraid around men..ask questions...were all human. Have fun!!
Disassociation is so real...people generally think if you're insecure it only means you're not happy with how you look but for me it's complete opposite. In fact I feel so timid, anxious, nervous, and unhappy with myself over all and then when I look in the mirror I see such a pretty face looking back at me that I don't recognize as myself. Like the way I feel on a daily basis does not match with my looks at all.
And I don't care if it sounds conceited that I said I have a pretty face. I can't help genetics, my parents are both gorgeous but I'd rather be self confident and a happy soul than a sad soul with pretty face.
This is exactly how I feel !! Never been able to describe it
+Iris Martinez yeah it's super weird like how I feel and how I look don't match up at all. I look pretty and like I have it together and am confident but when I'm not looking in the mirror I feel so small and timid. I thought I was the only one with this issue because I have friends who only say the opposite that there fine until they look in the mirror and they don't like what they see looking back.
+Iris Martinez they're*
OMFG SAME 🥺😭😿
You give me shay Mitchell vibes
Dalyn Acosta yeah totally! they are both beautiful inside and out
Dalyn Acosta yes, their voice is sorta similar too
Hitomi is prettier imo
I thought I was the only one who think that they look kinda similiar xd
maybe from the outside but zero charakteristic
I think it's so wonderful to be open to sexual experiences and remove a lot of the social stigma around it especially for women, but equally as important to encourage a healthy relationship to sex and encourage reevaluation of your own relationship to it! I love hearing you talk openly about this, it feels like an intimate convo with a friend
also it sounds like you might be experiencing depersonalization, I've had that before for a really rough year where I looked in the mirror and did not identify with my reflection. it went on for a long time but it helps to be nice to the person you see, as you would be to others
Hitomi please don't ever change yourself you're the best I swear
Love these talks. Your honesty is a breath of fresh air in this world. Also, not that the label really matters but the word for believing that everything is God/divinity is called Pantheism! 💕
"i sexualize myself because i think guys are sexaulising me" i have never related to a statement more! i always feel small and inedeuate and basically just uncomfortable around guys and i cant exactly pinpoint why. also, i feel as though i don't know how to open my heart up to love; its like i want to love and be loved but i don't know how to get to that point. any advice? love you mitoki, you brighten my days!
charismatickay that couldn’t be more of a personal problem.
I believe overtime as you build your confidence especially around guys, and love yourself more, you’ll be able to open your heart up to love. Remember love yourself first and then you can love others openly!! It takes time, but I believe in you! ❤️❤️
@@Fullyautomagic not really, I can relate and I know some of my friends can as well
@@Fullyautomagic no that's a male problem
Hitomi has really changed my life and I am so thankful for her existance 💕
I wanna sit under the stars in the middle of no where and talk to you about everything and anything. I'm a Sagittarius and I can relate to your thought process so well I love it ☀️ stay positive
It's soo good to hear you say you have always been more comfortable with women too! I have been noticing it's the same for me. Even though I have always been attracted to men as well, there is something about being with a woman. For me it feels like we're on the same team in a way n I never had that with a man. I feel the same comfort around my gay guy friends cause at some level I know they'll never objectify me, sexualize my body or all that stuff like heterosexual men can. And of course I know that "not all men" are like that, blah blah but STILL, part of me is always tense around men. Love, love, love, being around girlfriends. Being with a woman is so different, it's not easy to compare it to being with a man i think.
The way you feel about trees is the way I feel about water. Especially rivers and oceans. There is a connection there that I cannot articulate but can definitely feel.
Ugh girl you are GLOWINGGG ✨✨
When you said "when I'm around men or are walking past men I imagine them sexualising me and my body or maybe I'm just sexualising myself" I was like OMG HOLY SHIT IS THAT WHAT I DO?! Over the last few years i have become SO insanely uncomfortable around men (even my dad and male relatives) I mean there's not a day that goes by that I'm not hearing about men who have raped/sexual assaulted/beaten/killed women and I'm just in this mind frame of "am I next?" And I feel like I'm in a constant state of wariness, fear, distrust and anger towards men. I mean I'll be in the supermarket and I'll walk past men and their eyes will instantly go to my breasts or arse and it's like STOP TREATING ME LIKE A PIECE MEAT U FKR!! I mean I know it's in their biology or whatever to feel the need to "check out women" but it's just makes me so fucking uncomfortable and even when men will try to smile at me I'm instantly wary and uncomfortable and then I'll feel guilty later for not smiling back, but it's like I'm so afraid of trusting them! Sorry I just realised I've had like massive verbal diarrhoea lol but Hitomi I just wanted to say I relate to soo much of what you say. Thank you for being brave enough to speak your mind and I love you 😘✨🦋🌹
This is so long holy shit! I'll probs delete it soon 🤜🏽😑😂
don't delete omg i relate to it as well girl!!! i know when hitomi said that i was so shook too. that fact we all relate to this means that it should be something we must talk about, you know?
diana hernandez thanks so much for your reply! And yes I completely agree with you!!! 👏🏽😘
when she said she is working on not shrinking... too real
its not in their biology, that's an excuse to let them off their vile behaviour
Omg I can totally relate to the "shrinking feeling"/sexualizing myself when walking past a group of guys. I never knew how to describe it and you said it perfectly! I go to school in NYC and hope to run into you one day!!
it comforts me so much to know that a scorpio (like me) could be so content and peaceful with themselves like you are, despite the negativity our star sign attracts. Also, my birthday is 2 days after yours so that's pretty cool 🍃💕
Man, I really wish I knew someone like you in my life, I'd love to talk about such things with somebody but I feel like I know like only one person like this and we are apart now so I have nobody to talk about stuff like that and it kinda sucks
i'm in the same boat.. :/
There's so many people within this community that would probably love to talk with you about this stuff! Do you have a snapchat or something?
I've got everything else but snapchat :D
it's so calming to listen to u talk.
You are wise beyond your years! Love you Hitomi. xx
I’m in love with your views. Especially the part about feeling like sex was a way to validate yourself and when you didn’t need validation you didn’t really have sex. I relate so hard to that. Also I’m in love with you just in general ❤️ you’re just a beautiful person. Inside and out.
Thank you so much for this. I love you ❤️
I relate to when you said that you might be sexualizing yourself because you think men are sexualixing you. It kinda sucks to get panicked when there isn't anything to necessarily panic about yet or at all .
Hey Hitomi, I was wondering how someone can be comfortable with being sexy when sex triggers so many difficult emotions? I want to feel and look good, but everytime I wear something a little too revealing and men notice it, I fall into a horrible depression. I just feel that my physical appearance is all they see in that moment.
If you didn't want it then it wasn't sex... if you felt obligated then you were coerced into doing sexual things and it wasn't sex. People need to understand that.
pppotatoes this makes me tear up badly. I kept beating myself up because I thought of it otherwise.
it was sex. It is the act of sex. But it is not CONSENSUAL sex.
Still sex.
You are the only one who I can watch long talking vidoes of, like I always watch all your videos and your long videos, whether that's 20 minutes of an hour long. Everyone else's videos I get bored after like 15 minutes but I could watch you talk forever. You calm me down, you make me happy, you make me feel comfortable with myself and being open. I feel like you just help me so much and you understand me and make me feel like I'm not alone at all and people care about me and I just love you so much
I feel such a connection and kinship with you! I love watching your videos to start my day because they inspire me and help me connect with myself. You are stunning with a beautiful mind and soul!! Thank you for letting your voice be heard xx
Its funny because I find myself attracted to females who carry very masculine energies but when I think of engaging with them in an intimate way it really kind of scares me and I get uncomfortable
Ana Valentin i have the same feeling with men. Im attracted to both men and women but the thought of being with a man ‘intimidates’ me i guess
I've recently come out and I feel this way too! men intimidate me and further my self consciousness, but when I'm with my gf i feel so beautiful mentally and physically
same, kind of! I feel that way with women though. I love the softness of a girl and the hips and butt and breast of a women but I also desire the masculine body of a man, the abs and back muscles. I myself often feel myself drift from girl to more masculine sometimes.
Ana Valentin this is EXACTLY what I’ve been having trouble dealing with and trying to figure out. I know that labels don’t matter, but I’m still trying figure my sexuality out and I’ve been told that feeling this way means I’m bi but I’m not quite sure because even though I may be very attracted to a masculine female, intimacy and sexually engaging with one scares me & makes me uncomfortable, or rather, the thought of it, because I’ve never experienced it so I wouldn’t truly know.
I’m straight and men make me uncomfortable 😂 the thought of dating and having sex with them makes me very anxious.
it's so cool to see your journey through your videos 🥰 thanks for making noise so the rest of us feel comfortable making noise
Every word you speak resonates with me and I completely identify with it, I only found your videos a couple of days back and I have totally fallen IN love with you. You're just so familiar and I wish I was around more people like "us", at the moment I'm in a place where I'm on a total different level to those I am surrounded with and it's kind of discouraging so it was definitely fate that I came across your presence because people like you remind me that I AM NOT ALONE I'm just not in the right tribe and to keep doing me because I know I will attract those that just get it. So I just wanted to let you know that I'm grateful that you are alive. You're beautiful inside and out and it's inspiring to watch you grow, I could listen to you for hours. :)
I love u soooo dang much dude! what a wonderful talk!!
Omg the stuff you said around 8:00 about dissociating and not knowing how your face looks and “who is she” is a great articulation of something I understand but had never put into words. Cool.
I Love what you said "Stay In Your Lane" yes some family and friends need to understand that , lots of people don't understand that. Understand and Respect our wishes it's our Life not theres. You always have something amazing to say. Thank You 😊😃😄
You are literally the most beautiful human being I know about I love your spirit and how open you talk about things that society want no one talks about
At my college, there's a Sexuality/Sex class in the WGS department (which I majored in) and took. It was amazing and so eyeopening. We talked about the sexuality spectrum, gender roles/expectations, the health and sex-ed they never teach high schoolers, types of sex and relationships (kinky, poly, etc. etc. etc.). It was great! Wish more colleges were open to this idea.
I can't put it in words how inspiring you are. The way you reflect on urself is so honest. I just wanna hug you
I'm totally the same way with guys sometimes. I feel uncomfortable being around guys because I feel like all they want is my body. I get the same feeling walking by a group of guys or something like that. It's just because I've been hurt in the past by them :/ I'm in high school so a lot of douchey guys have just wanted my body and I didn't realize that and it hurt me a lot. You actually inspired me a few months ago to go celibate when you said you were and why! It helped me so much in establishing myself and gaining confidence. 💗
I’m so glad you are so open to talk about these things, my high school in Australia taught a lot about sex education really openly and I wish that more school would do the same. Far too many people aren’t being properly educated about this stuff and it’s really important because it is a very normal part of our lives. I hope that young people are being taught about mutual respect and consent and anything else that relates to this because too many people don’t. Thank you again for being such an open person, you radiate positive energy and pass it on to others. Much love and support to you girl xxxx
I know exactly what you mean by looking in the mirror and not really recognizing yourself
i wish i could find friends that have the same mindset as yours, i'm putting this out into the universe! 🌞
"Feeling mellow as Fuck....!" Hahahahaha! You rock Hitomi!😄
honestly I feel like I could live my whole life without having sex, it makes me very anxious to think about it, maybe its my fear of getting pregnant I don't know. It does scare me nonetheless. Honestly bless all the guys out there who respect other's decisions
i feel the same exact way about sleeping with women vs sleeping with men. I love that you're open about these things because like you said, a lot of people struggle getting proper sex ed because sex can be such a taboo subject when it doesn't need to be.
I don't think the people that dislike your videos even watch five minutes
hey Hitomi! i´ve been meaning to thank you for a while now but never did for some reason.I wanna thank you because you helped me through the part of my life where i was extremely depressed and unfulfilled, by sharing your journey. whenever i watch one of your videos i immediately feel better because of your AMAZING energy. you made me aware of so many things including the book "the power of now" which I'm reading at the moment and let me tell you, its been life changing. honestly i am starting to feel even better and this book is one of the reasons so thank you so much! i am sending you so much love and positivity for everything you´ve done for me and for so many others. Thank you!!
I read the guru gossip forum and i was so baffled about how people couldnt see your truth and twisted your story.. bc i can clearly see you are a pure spirit with good intentions... why must they invest so much energy in sending hatred?? I relate to you on so many levels and can see that being "naked" has nothing to do with using your body for attention but more to do with freeing yourself.. and spirituality is something that all of us need, it's the plain truth. I hope you take a break from social media or from negative comments and just wait a bit until you feel better.
Don't have money for my weekly therapy session today but this pretty much makes up for it, watching your videos help me so much when I'm feeling down, love you Hitomi 💛🌻
I connect to you so much. It feels like a conversation; not plainly watching a video. Like, i also stopped because of emotional and spiritual reasons. And because of this selebet(?) I didnt know there was a word of it) stage it feels like i have redeemed myself. I'm proud of myself because i got the courage to cut ties with a guy and promised myself to stop and it has been almost a year since then.
Illana Audrey celebate ✌🏼
A bing thing about the “shrinking” feeling you feel around dudes... it’s because if you haven’t also channeled divine masculine energy alongside the divine feminine energy, you can’t truly experience prana. everything is you. people should not belittle each other. love everything ❤️
It’s hard to talk to my parents about sex because they will actually be mad/disappointed in me for telling them that hey, I have sex. It sucks more negative than positives
Hearing you talk is so hypnotic and charming
that thing about never recognizing your own face is so relatable to me, i feel that ALL THE TIME
Scorpios are very wise, and that you are. Secretive doesn't necessarily mean in a typical way, it can be a physical vibe or even
something only strangers would think of you. idk if that makes sense...
Haaa I’m a Scorpio and feel exactly the same about those core parts of the sign...
Your channel is such a RUclips algorithm win 😂 the things you say sound like you might actually be in my head
I love your spiritual hustle and its interesting how much I relate to you from a male perspective. I had my spiritual awakening about two years ago and had tons of health problems for two years before then so I'm 22 and I havent had sex in like 4 years. After waking up i just wasnt interested in the people I know. Now I have really manifested as a person and artist and have gained confidence as a result but am struggling with the simple shit like texting girls and not feeling crazy or my body(not my mind) being desperate for action so I find myself emidiatly feeling super attracted to girls and projecting that towards them in more of an energetic sense... (idk how far down the rabbithole you are but me and some people I've been hanging with lately experience interactions energeticly) Plus trouble not staring then beating myself up over it cause I'm really not trying to be a creep. Definitley a battle going on between my conscious and subconscious mind. I really apreciate your share though helped me feel a little less alone in my own sexual blocks. Thanks for being you.
I think you're a beautiful spirit! You're freedom to express your true emotions is refreshing.
You know that feeling you were talking about when you said you felt like you could gain wisdom from the trees? It's actually proven that spending time around the forests can lower blood pressure, raise serotonin and dopamine levels, and heighten awareness! Even when you're not physically active, just spending time sitting quietly amongst the trees :) nature rocks
Referring to the issue at 10:45 ... so i was in london with my friend and we were walking down the street and we hear a group of teenagers (about 19-22) screaming things about "i love meat so much you fucking vegan" and mocking a person who was peacefully and quitely walking down the street and they were mocking him because he had a shirt on which said something around "go vegan" or sth. But not provocative. So i was like why the fuck are you attacking him, he didn't even say anything and that made me so mad that i just showed them my middlefinger without words i think they knew what i meant with my gesture. But that's the thing more often i see meat eaters bashing vegans/vegeterians.
I love your videos and how you are always so open to talk about the things that most of people would be ashamed to speak up!
It's so cool the way you describe your spiritual beliefs and it's nice to know someone else believes in similar things!!
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I’m also a Scorpio and this whole talk resonated so deeply with me. Not necessarily the sex transformation, but the need to be direct and have people be direct with me! 🌝
A tip: when you feel those feelings of depersonalization, try doing a meditation or breath work to connect with your physical body again. Leaving yourself in that state of feeling depersonalized may lead you to self-harming behaviours or self-conscious thoughts because you aren't grounded fully in your Being. You could do an earth/grounded/root chakra meditation bringing awareness to various parts of the body to help feel more yourself and step into your power. You could even try looking in a mirror and seeing yourself from the Soul/Astral/Higher Self Level and then come back into your physical body (or vice versa), sometimes forcing yourself to look in the mirror can be really difficult though depending on your state but it can be very healing to see yourself as an "Alien" and then recognizing these pieces of yourself are fused together in this life and setting the intention that you are fusing perfectly and fully. Hope that makes sense. Thank you for being a mirror for myself and my own growth. You are such a strong, brave woman!
Your so knowledgeable it's inspiring
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! Do a makeup routine!
PLEASE haha
I'm totally grateful I stumbled upon your videos. For someone who struggles with the same issues I really appreciate that you making these types of content. Knowing I'm not the only one when it comes to sex to feel this way is really relieving. Thank you😊
you actually just stole like 10 thoughts from my mind & i was shocked by how exact your words & my feelings are.
HITOMI !!!! PLEASE do a vid on how you met your friends (spiritual friends) !!!
first, you are so beautiful! inside and out! I love hearing you talk about life and the universe. you're so passionate and open and its so refreshing watching your videos I feel like I'm so connected with you. Much love and good vibes girl
Thank you so much for all of your words. I relate to everything that you said and it is incredibly powerful to hear that you feel like you "shrink" when you're around men because I feel this also. I know that we will both be able to overcome this and become stronger women, all of us (everyone here). There is so much to learn and I look towards growth and harnessing my own voice and not allowing anything to silence me or my own personal power.
You just make me happy, Hitomi.
I am obsessed with you and your videos.. I love the vibe you give off and how you are like spiritual and everything
you're energy is honestly so contagious. love u xx
I stumbled upon your channel today and I'm currently watching all your videos and I just want to say that you inspire me so much. I love the talks you share with your viewers and I feel comfortable while watching you. Thank you so much for making me feel safe and comfy - your channel is like a safe place :)
Fellow Scorpio here 🙋🏻♀️ Still healing from past situations similar to and your videos are so helpful at this time. 🙏🏼💚
you make me so happy ❤️ you inspire me and i have a new clean, fresh, outlook on life every time i watch your videos. so thankful for you❤️
eyy you can be a scorpion but not be jealous, revengeful etc.! scorpio has three symbols: the Scorpion, the Eagle and the Phoenix. personally i don't identy with the Scorpion that much but a lot more with the Eagle or even Phoenix :))
Wow whats those symbols? Does every sign have other symbols too?
what i've learnt is that only scorpion has three. It's basically descriptions of three different levels of Scorpion, from lower evolvement to higher evolvement :)
Wooo never been this early! I love you hitomi thank you for spreading your love and positivity xx
Meat eaters attack is 101 at point like even friends & ppl close to me after I became vegan. I do feel more comf with girls too & I use to think there's something wrong with me
Hitomi i love these type of videos so much where your open and talk about everything, please do more like these! xx
I subscribed to this account a while ago without watching any videos because something just told me to and finally today I decide to watch this video and I feel tears coming to my eyes she hit so many topics I’ve been pushing away that’s internally been eating me alive.
i love when you talk about topics like this. i relate so much to everything you said in this video. you make me feel more comfortable about myself and my previous and current sex life.
This is an older video so this probably won't be seen, and you may already know this now buuuuuttt apparently, scorpio's go through transformations, they don't stay the standard idea of scorpios. They evolve and grow throughout their lives. I'm not sure if this just applies to star sign or rising or moon as well, idk
I didn’t realize when I started watching this how old this video was, but I wanted to say something in response. Actually, I have so much to say, I’m in the latter stages of writing an entire book-length memoir that includes some of the topics you touched on in this video. For a few months, I lived in a kind of "mini-commune" with three women that had various experiences with bisexuality. One was quite balanced, with a healthy attitude about sex with either women and men. She had had more female partners than male at the time we were all together. She and I shared a passion for women’s spiritual and sexual beauty. The second had never had a bisexual relationship until she met the first one. It seemed to me that she had little romantic or sexual interest in women until then. Bisexuality seemed to represent for her a self-image of being open-minded and she wanted other people to see her that way. The third woman, like the second, was experiencing a new growth from the conservative, sexually repressed world she lived in to the ideal world she desired. She admitted that she was not truly bisexual in her heart, but she did love the other two and had sex with them to express her love and feel liberated. She confided in me a lot about her conflicting feelings on the matter. The four of us had a sweet four-way relationship for a while. We held each other, kissed each other, made love with each other, and loved each other. We all slept together on three combined futons and had very frank and open conversations about many facets of sex and enjoyed intimate explorations long into the night that satisfied our curiosities. I was the token male that had to explain what men were thinking (I didn’t usually understand them myself). I was privileged to be allowed into their otherwise all-female world, and it put me on a spiritual, sensual, and erotic adventure that ultimately led to the memoir, which is full of stories, observations, and reflections, mostly my perspective about the world as women see it. Women I have known throughout my life have enriched these reflections, and I have even learned some things from your videos that helped refine my book. Thank you for that.
I love you listened to your podcast and now seeing you in person omg you are me in another form and I am totally inspired by you and your ability to speak up about all of this. You are amazing. 😍🌞
I love everything about you and agree with almos everything you say💖 the way you talk about sex, intimacy and spirituality is inspiring ✨ don’t ever let anyone kill that fire inside of you
How did I miss this vid. :o I’m a Sagittarius but Scorpio rising-makes so much sense because I def have never met or watched someone I identify with sooo much haha. You def have a more freeing energy than most Scorpio peeps not that sun sign is everything. So glad you shared your experiences with celibacy. I’ve been going on a year strong and your videos really made me put more intention and appreciation of this time :)
Girl girl girl! This is exactly all I needed to hear at this point in my life. I connect to everything you've shared and let me just say I am so thankful for you and your inspiring words. You've given me more courage to see sex in the same light. I have been in such a weird space trying to fill a spiritual hole by sleeping around and I am so ready to take a moment away from that and focus on myself. So thank you so much !!!! Love you zen mama
Thank you for making this video. Alot of things u said connected to me and issues I'm facing in life. It has inspired me to try new things and "making sound so others around me will be comfortable to make sounds"
HOw is she so amazing in literally every way wtf
I love you, please don't let the negative comments affect you! You are such a beautiful human being
Hitomi, thank you so much for this video. You were able to put all of my thoughts into words - I don't think I've ever related so much to something before. (besides when I'm in nature!) Love and light x
yooo its crazy how much you make me understand myself more even "i feel like i sexualize myself cause i think guys are sexualizing me" I always do this or am always paranoid guys are checking me out like even today i was just walking with my daughter and a guy shouts out his car "hey lil mama"
Ahh this talk was incredible! You are wonderful inside and out Hitomi! Thank you for your words!
"Beautiful lovemaking magic" I am now considering embroidering this on a bralette or something lmao. Love ya Hitomi! You give the best talks. Also, what does it mean to have a rising zodiac sign??? I thought since I'm born in March that I'm just Pisces???.....
Preferences change like the wind. Don't commit to one.
Do what you feel.......when you feel it. Enjoy.
you make yourself so relatable, love your openness!!! illlyyyyy gurlllllll
Everything you do and say is so interesting and fascinating ! I'm SHOOK 😱❤️
Can you please do a video on cleansing away negative energy/energies? Or how to get over a breakup? 😩.
ahhh I love these kinds of videos! I live in NYC I hope to meet you sometime
yeah, you definitely have to look at your entire birth chart, instead of going off one sign
i love how open you are about these things, it’s so hard for a girl to express such stuff especially me lol
U are everything 😍 I truly love who u are so soooo much. Just hearing u talk makes me so happy and at peace.
Taking a mental/physical break is good and no need to explain your reasons. Im a Scorpio also(Nov)
love your energy!! I always feel so much lighter after watching your videos! =))
Keep on believing in yourself and bettering you. Enlightenment will come eventually. Life is a awesome journey and living it to the fullest is what brings us joy. Don't be afraid around men..ask questions...were all human. Have fun!!