"Okay, but why did you upload it after you said you wouldn't?" simply put, i shouldn't be silencing any of my work, no matter how painful or harsh it could be. either way, sorry if this is a bit too much to handle.
an unbelievably viseral showcase of emotions through music. sometimes we can't express our feelings through words, so for you to express them through something like this is something i commend greatly, i legit cannot comprehend how you do this, man. i remember listening to this back in september, and feeling this was something i could relate to as well - obviously you're in a far worse situation than i, but you get my point. it's something to put across emotions that cannot be summed up in words, and the way you did this is fucking immaculate. out of all the songs i've heard from you over the last 6 years, this is my absolute favourite. thank you, dokuro. i wish all the best for you.
5:00 “The coward had realized he had brought forth their greatest mistake. Silently, the coward fell to the ground, knees unbearably tired from trying to escape this hideous demon. Frightened and paralyzed eyes stared into the codas that glowed where eyes should’ve been, it’s running liquid body flashing a shadeless red static that sounded as caustic as it looked, and it’s equally noisy mouth roughly gnashes it’s white, glowing teeth. Every mark the demon left on the coward’s broken body was a painful reminder of fruitless attempts of recovery gone horribly wrong. They had gone through this routine over and over again, each time growing older and more tired of each other, as the insanity of trying to change a single life for the betterment of themselves and others around them took it’s sickening toll. The meaning of time between the coward and the demon had become irrelevant. Of all the times a compromise or decision must be made, the coward decided to listen to the demon in hopes of reasoning with it.” Wow. This little Easter egg made this so much deeper for me, and I now understand just how dark this song truly is. And I love it.
I audibly gasped when i saw this! While the song has dark themes that i can relate to, i still love it and i’m glad theres an official release on youtube
As having struggled with these sort of issues I don’t think I’ve ever seen such a vivid representation of what the hell inside shows itself to me like. Nice work.
5:00 message thrown up on screen for a few frames, writing it here to save some of your. “The coward had realized how he had brought forth their greatest mistake. Silently, the coward fell to the ground knees unbearably tired from trying to escape this hideous demon. Frightened and paralyzed eyes stared into the codas that glowed where eyes should’ve been, it’s running liquid body flashing a shadeless red static that sounded as caustic as it looked, and its equally noisy mouth roughly gnashed its white, glowing teeth. Every mark the demon left on the coward’s broken body was a painful reminder of fruitless attempts of recovery gone horribly wrong. They had gone through this routine over and over again, each time growing older and more tired of each other, as the insanity of trying to change a single life for the betterment of themselves and others around them took its sickening toll. The meaning of time between the coward and the demon had become irrelevant. Of all the times where a compromise or a decision must be made, the coward decided to listen to the demon on hopes of reasoning with it.”
This is heartbreaking but also motivating. We are so happy you are still here Dokuro. I may not know your personally, but I can tell from the genuineness of your music, that you are an amazing and good-hearted person. In regards to the song, it is masterful the way you portray inner thoughts. whenever a positive thought comes, it seems immediately replaces with guilt and pain. How the negative side always has some reasoning that keeps your mind from recovering. Even the simple artwork and fonts in the video help convey the message the song is trying to create in a perfectly simple yet complex accompanying way. I could write a whole article on each induvial verse, the lyrics are just simply fantastic. I think what else that makes this song so compelling it its uniqueness in its odd voices and style. It feels so much more real and honest than what you get from most popular artists.
ever since I heard it a couple months ago, i've been _obsessed_ with this song. it hit so close to home, but in a good way, and it inspires me to draw like crazy. (like, i've never made an animation longer than 6 seconds, i tend to lose motivation really fast, but EVERY SINGLE TIME i hear this i'm overcome with the urge to storyboard it. i hope i'll be able to finish the whole song someday!) i especially love the overlap/harmonizing with "i'm the reason why you'll never disappear!/you're the reason why i want to disappear!" there's clearly a lot of pain behind this song. i'm so sorry you had to go through it in the first place. but at the same time, STILL HERE is genuinely _beautiful,_ and i'm so grateful to you for sharing it with us. love your work, dude. hope you feel better soon.
@@nerobright9959 i cant animate to save my life though, maybe in the future if one of my parts can manage to pick up on a project, but you're right its a really motivating song.
I know it doesn’t mean much but you can do this. You have more talent than you know and have a willpower buried underneath that demon that’s trying to hide it. We’re with you
My updated opinion on this song After listening to it for the 100th time, I can finally give a full review. This is a masterpiece, written by a musical genius. The first part alone is relatable to me. And oddly comforting and calming. The second part is an even better portrayal of the emotional battle within your mind during depression. And it is again oddly comforting to know that I’m not alone. The third part is just a brutal description of the feelings depression and the pain caused by it. And then the final part is just plain inspirational and gives me shivers or makes me cry. The empowering feeling I get from it is astonishing. I have never heard a better portrayal of depression in music. Dokuro has done the impossible with this piece of art and I come back whenever I’m depressed as calms and emotionally empowers me.
For some reason I'm extremely draw. To sad subjects. I'm not sad myself not depressed or suicidal. But I simply love music that can genuinely make you feel some types of emotions. I imagine it to be the same as letting a huge burden off of your chest. And life really isn't just happy go lucky. This song should NOT be ignored. I can feel how important it is. Thank you dokuro. This is quite literally one of my favorite songs. ever
I don't know what you're feeling, or have been, and while I have been sharing these similar feelings. I'm glad to know ur still around. You are an inspiration.
Dokuro. I'm here listening to this song at 6 AM on a work night, and I've never been hit by a song with emotion like this before. You say this song is too much but, I think it gave me a new outlook on depression and maybe even life as a whole. Perhaps my take on it is a little strange but, it's given me a new sort of confidence in myself. Even when that little, nasty voice inside is telling you all these awful things, whether they're true or not, even they can be a driving factor...seeing yourself for what you used to be, all the awful things you've done and can never forgive yourself for, all the "faces of those you've betrayed," and yet...you're still here, trying to become better. That...is why you're here right? So long as you strive to be better, even if your best some days is fuck all, you'll get there, one step at a time. As much as that nasty little voice "makes me want to disappear" sometimes, it's part of "the reason I'm still here." It's the lessons one has learned, it may present itself as something terrible and awful, something you may never truly live down, but without it...you'd still be making the same mistakes, doing the same awful things you may have done to others, intentional or not. This song is raw and powerful, it's the kind of song that reminds me just how much I love music. You're incredibly talented Dokuro, and while I'm certain you've got so many of your own demons to deal with, I hope you'll learn to deal with them...whether by surpassing them, learning to live with them, or whatever else you may need to do, I'm here routing for you on the sidelines. Best of luck to you, your fans have your back and support you tirelessly.
...I'm speechless. Every chord, every word, every snare hit, every key change. The palpable agony of being split and indecisive, leaking a bittersweet melody that seethes a primal sense of anger with all the razor-sharp vulnerability of insecurity. You write entire stories with songs, and each layer of sound builds something cinematic and brutally sincere that both guts me and soothes the wound. The juxtaposition of an anxious, higher voice with a distorted, relentless internal monologue cuts deeper than a knife. I should've heeded your warning at the beginning, because I'm in the process of exchanging blows with some demons myself, but everything you make speaks in raw emotion, and being on the same wavelength as someone else, even if our stories are different, offers a moment of fleeting comfort and empathy. And exposing myself to some repressed pain is something I'm willing to sacrifice to feel, even for a moment, that I'm understood. You sculpt auditory magic. Thank you, Dokuro.
I believe I would say almost the same as you. No matter how much pain you've "caused" and still are going through, after all...people, let's beat the shit out of demons, Together.
love the chill vibe ❤ edit: NOT CHILL ANYMORE CHRIST editedit: Final thoughts: love the contrast between calm at first to real heavy at the middle through to the end. this song was great all in all. great job dokuro
@@terraknight0447 it should invoke that feeling, i feel as though DOKURO really wanted to put that same feeling of having your emotions wash over you and leave you speechless in this song as his depression brings upon himself. it's both fantastic, yet horrifying. DM DOKURO really put all of his heart into this, and it shows.
@@SkyanUltra I don't think it's easy to do what this man is able to do, the expressions don't feel artificial, even stronger than normal, even if you can't relate you can understand, man has come so far so proud.
God this is so good, seeing the pressure a large viewership puts some of my favorite musicians through hurts my soul :( I'm glad you are able to push through it all and still make amazing stuff
God damn this song brought me to tears… My brother has autism and other mental health problems and has been suicidal for the good part of 3-4 years. Looking from the outside in, I can only imagine what goes on through his head, but I feel like with this song it gives me some semblance of understanding of what goes on through his head. I only hope he’s able to fight through this and come out on top of everything in the end. Mental health fucking sucks and I hope everyone out there can battle their inner demons and/or come to terms with who they are and accept that we are all flawed and that is a beautiful thing to appreciate.
This is probably one of the most accurate showings of what a inside battle looks like, through song. One of the lines is actually something mine has said to me before, word for word. Good song man, it’s a nice mix.
As someone who's dealing with a lot right now, this release has really helped. Even if you have doubts, you are a huge inspiration to me. Whatever it is you are going through, I wish you luck on getting through it. Mental health is pain.
I have no words...despite the disturbing lyrics, this is one of the most and beautiful things I ever heard. It's sad but I also feel moved. I'm glad to encounter you and I hope you're alright these days. it's also just a headbanger
I know there's a lot of comments singing praise over the fact that you're uploading again, but I want to thank you for deciding to put this song out to the world. Everything in the song works together and comes together to make a very hard hitting experience that I think a lot of people can relate to in some form or another. Thank you
Like being stabbed in the heart is what a man feels when he loses the passion for a thing he loves the most, but no passion dies, no. It stays looming in the mind trying to bring the man who lost it. Your talent is incredible, and let none change your love for music, as you are not a tool but a person who expresses himself through melodies but not words.
One of the best things about music is that it lets us vent our struggles in ways that others may find enjoyable or relatable. Stay strong, Dok. We love you.
Magnificent opposition. You sometime have those times where you’re hanging with your mind, and you can’t accurately describe how you feel because you know something is wrong, yet, you lack the words about it. This music is the representation of those missing words. Beautifully executed.
I still look back on this and wonder how you are doing now. Ive listened to this a lot over the months, it's been in the back my mind ever since I first listened to it, and has stuck with me longer than any of your other songs because it is something I can really relate to, especially over the past few months and all that has happened to me. It's had this effect on my life where is puts things into words that I cant put into words. It describe things Ive felt and thought without needing my voice. Ive gotten a bit older, more responsibility is on my shoulders, Ive been kicked out of my house twice, falsely arrested and let go as a result, hurt myself a lot, tried new medication and started seeking help. Ive changed a lot, Ive grown out my hair, changed who I talk to and who I dont, and my anxiety has gotten significantly worse. Time really does affect us all, which leads me to ask, how have you been over the past 8-9 months? I hope you have been fine my friend(?), I hope you have been taking good care of yourself.
Not sure if I'm emotionally blind or just the dopamine rush from finally seeing a Dokuro track again nullifies any negative feelings. I have a few questions if you don't mind me asking, you don't have to reply if you don't want to. 1. Did you ever plan on making real vocals for this? I feel like your voice would fit it so much better, especially at the louder sections. 2. Have you ever considered writing for any other games? I know you're working on Grapple Force Rena. 3. Have you silenced any other works, and if so, will we ever be able to hear them? 4. I really gotta ask, what is that guitar you use for everything? Is it real? Is it a VST? I really want it whatever it is, it sounds so nice. I just want to let you know that you are an icon to me, and you literally changed my life. Don't see yourself as what people think bad of you, see yourself as the good you have done for others. Thank you, DM Dokuro. You truly are a pinnacle amongst modern musicians.
@@DMDOKURO I understand what you mean here, but it would also probably be extremely difficult and painful to sing the demon’s lyrics in the second half of the song.
@@DMDOKURO And thats ok. Nobody will push you to sing if you don't want to. I love your songs, especially this one. You brightened my days, so I really hope yours will be brightened again. I love your work beyond words.
>4, probably VST, most likely. probably something like Shreddage 3 if he has Kontakt, but 95% of the timbral qualities of a guitar sound is from the amp settings. BIAS FX is good if you want a singular VST that lets you access lots of different guitar tones but Airwindows has a bunch of free amps designed for one specific type of guitar tone if you want a free guitar VST, I’d recommend METAL-GTX and Standard Guitar by Unreal Instruments. They don’t come with tone amps(which is what you use Ignite Amps stuff for) but have a LOT of articulations at your fingertips. Also you can go to drop F# with METAL-GTX so there’s that
God I’ve missed your music, I love how much of your heart you put into your songs and while I know that it’s the negative that sticks with you that you remember that many of us love your music and will support you.
I have never fucking heard a song that actually left me out of breath, you put my heart on a pike over an open flame and I love you for it. Please keep on doing what you're doing, you're amazing.
legit almost crying rn. this hit me so hard bc it is pretty much how i have been feeling for the past couple of months. i have always loved your music dokuro and im so glad you are still here. so glad i came back to your channel.
First: Such a fire beat shouldn't be this dark. Second: I hope you understand that we can be, and will be here. even if a part of you doesn't want to belive in a bunch of random strangers. Third: I guess you can say that you've coped for this long, it shouldn't be long before you can fix the mistakes, so hang in there just a little longer.
I appreciate that you have the courage to explain the depression and feelings that you went through throughout all your life, I wish you good luck. And stay safe, if not for you, then for us, the people who care about YOU, beyond your facade.
Hey Doku. This is probably going to be a very rambly comment, but I felt it prudent to leave my thoughts. I'm currently going through a bout of mental struggles myself right now. I'd rather not go into much detail if it's all the same to you, but I would like to say this song resonates with me on a very personal level. The self-loathing, the depression, the deprecation, the internalized issues kept under lock and key so as to avoid burdening those around you. Hell, even the simultaneous discomfort around others and crippling loneliness. I don't know you, and all you know of me is a few comments I've left on your past works. But I still feel like I've attained an inkling of understanding in terms of what you feel. It's honestly a little uncomfortable to see so much of my own mindset imbedded in yours, left exposed in lyrical form like the contents of an egg that's been cracked on the lip of a pan. Maybe it's the self-reflection it forces me to do, or maybe it's just an instinctual dislike of seeing others suffer, especially with issues I hold as well. However, and I can't stress this enough, that discomfort in no way discourages me from appreciating this work of art on a level both deep and extensive. Some of the greatest works have some level of discomfort behind them. Such is the nature of something which seeks to confront one's demons. It's not cringeworthy as you've expressed in the past, it's a meaningful representation of an experience that, though I can't pretend to understand in its entirety, I can say I know at least part of it. I understand from experience that "I know how you feel" is rarely comforting for those suffering from mental health issues, but this is all to say one thing; You're not alone. As with many in these comments, I'm glad you're still here. Though I can't be of much assistance in such endeavors, I not only hope you find your way out of the suffocating mental and emotional entanglement you must be lost in at the moment, but am under the belief you most certainly will.
this is beautiful, the feelings i've felt, the struggles i've had and the damning thoughts i've been fighting personified into a song, just beautiful, thank you DM DOKURO
This song made me cry, like a lot, I felt this song because I can visualize what's happening. Also, can relate to this video. Thank you for giving us this gift and please keep doing what you're doing man. WE SUPPORT YOU 100%!
I find this version of STILL HERE to be my favorite, and that is solely because of the Demon's voice. (I call it that because the song's easter egg describes it as such). I think a big part of this sort of song has got to be the part where it includes the Demon, despite not being present in the intro, when it comes in, it COMES IN, like it goes so hard. I'm not sure how the Oliver Vocaloid managed to make itself sound this hateful, but I'm all for it! Compared to something like the harsh sun vers , this one sounds almost condescending, really sells the hateful aspect of this demonic character, I think the glitchy aspect of its voice really sells it as well, making it sounds more hateful and strained compared to the rest of its versions, like its not just singing, its singing OUT OF SPITE, directing all sorts of insults to the coward. Also 5:46 makes the demon seem almost unintelligible, like its becoming more animalistic as time goes on (Note: I've written like 3 different descriptions for this moment because its that indescribable, the audio work on Dokuro's work is insane to every detail.) And I almost forgot to mention the voice of The Coward, in the intro it initially sounds much younger, but as the song goes on they sound different, like through their time with the Demon they changed and they managed to mature or something like that. I especially love how during 7:49, the Coward's voice actually manages to sound more intelligible than the Demon, like they're managing to gain some sort of leverage against this ultimate force of hatred. I don't mean to write an entire essay about this, but basically, the original version rocks all the way, I'll remember this song for years to come. Also in 4:24 where they start trilling the "I'm the reason why you'll NEEVVVVVVERRRRRR disappear" that goes way too hard.
@@kimblekurogane8612 from dokuro: "Hey. After much discussion with the developers, and valuable feedback from concerned fans, I've made the decision to move on from the Calamity Mod. The project took a serious toll on my mental health as of late, to the point where I found no enjoyment in working on it at all. It was affecting other potential projects as well, either leaving them scrapped or unfinished due to the high priority Calamity had in my life. I hope you've enjoyed all the music that I made for this project in the 2 years I've spent with it. Aside from all that, I don't think there's much more to say. Thank you for listening." also he is getting too much requests and stuff
mans got me crying at 3 am I don't think I've ever felt this powerful of emotions through music For what it's worth from one stranger on the internet to another, I'm glad you're still here.
From first hearing your "Reality Check Through The Skull" to introduce me to your channel, and then your Absolutely flawless work on the calamity mod soundtrack to even further my love for this channel, I have always and forever will be a proud supporter of your music, despite what CERTAIN fandoms did.
Im sure I’ve already left a comment here, but I’ll leave some thoughts here. I hate that the red text represents my psychology to this day, and it feels nearly impossible to get help for this state of mind that I’m in. Regardless, I’m glad this song exists, because it’s very useful to use when explaining how I feel a lot of the time to other people, in addition to just genuinely being one of the best songs I’ve ever heard.
It's good to see you back, old friend. This here, is a standard to your wellbeing. That you can overcome your demons. That you have grown stronger than ever. That YOU ARE WORTH the toil, the trouble, the pain, and to keep growing. You are a conquerer, and nothing can stand in your way, if you do not allow it. Shal-lak Kor, Delvanti! To the end, The Eternal! Here's to more growth and showcases of strength. Here's to another year of quality Dokuro content. Here's to another year of showing your demons that they have NO HOLD on your life, not now, not EVER. You are talented, loved, and thought of, Dokuro. If there is ever a need for you, or anyone, who needs an ear, or comfort from their own demons, msg me, and I'll shoot my DM's, and we can chat.
In a way its relieving that Im not the only way that feels this way but I really do hope everyone whos felt this way gets their escape even if temporarily, hope youre still coping well too dokuro thank you for making this even if its not exactly a positive track in a way it kinda helps me piece my thoughts in an ironic way
I've been subscribed to you for a couple years for now, and i have listened to this song before when it was released back then. But only now I can say it in the place where it belongs: this is your BEST SONG EVER, your Magnum Opus. Thank you DM DOKURO, I'll be waiting for Shadow of Light 3. Keep up the good work!
i just. cant believe this was just one person. this represents so well what a major depressive episode is like Also the way you can capture emotion in a song is unrivaled to me. I don’t even normally feel emotion from songs but this just incredible
When mixing your work with reality. It truly shows that even when you try to escape, and pretend it was never there, it always comes to crawl on your back once more. And yet life goes on, almost like everyone is normal while you’re the one screaming like a mad man. Even though, you feel as you still have the energy to go on, even while your in the dark and afraid of what life throws at you. This track is horrifying, yet beautiful to hear, I’m just glad you’re still around Dokuro. ❤️
Welcome back we support you through these troubling times. Mental illness sucks I had suffered with depression for almost a year without telling a word grades dropped and I almost never wanted to talk to friends or family. The day felt like a chore, but after receiving the much needed help from therapy I had mostly gotten past it while I still feel down sometimes I was feeling way better than before. Mental illness is like a mountain it may difficult to climb it at first but with some help and time you will get over it.
This song was a rollercoaster and a half. I don’t think I relate to a song more than this one, the emotions embedded within these lyrics are beautifully done. Well done, DOKURO. Well done.
As someone who has personally struggled with these kinds of thoughts and whatnot in the past, this song hit me harder than anything else I've ever seen. And can I just say, Dokuro? You've helped me through some times with your songs, so thanks.
Countless months spent in a deep abyss of self hatred and guilt, you've gathered the strength to make your voice heard from where its never been heard before. The escape ladder has been cast down, so now you finally have the ability to climb out of rock bottom. It'll be hard, but the hardest step has already been cleared. I believe in every possible sense of the word, that you'll come out on top, you've got this DM! That aside, I'm astounded by your courage and tremendous growth as an artist, mad props and you've earned more of my respect than anyone else I've ever seen on this platform. Just remember this: You're not obligated to please anyone, your music is for your own enjoyment above all else!
been listening to this nonstop the past few days. So much emotion and power in this song. It's weird how it plays out like a triumphant song in the beginning almost like "I've overcome my weaknesses". But it isn't that at all. Quite the opposite. This isn't hopeful or victorious, it's hopeless and terrifying which is how we feel sometimes. It's even more hellish knowing that they've gone through this many times, "Have you forgotten that I've done this all before?" Anyways, before I get too into it, 3:50 is my favorite part. Amazing song DM Dokuro
We encourage you man all the way. We believe in you and we will always be there for you as a community. There are many people who have suffered the same thing like me. You are never alone. (cringe worthy encouragement)
It's hard to put into words what this song has made me feel. I'm sitting here thinking about all the previous times I've been sad or angry at myself. I've wrote out paragraphs of text already trying to explain it, but I cant get a grasp on what I want to say. I feel like this song has perfectly described what the feelings of self hatred feel like. It feels like there are two voices, but neither of them feel like they represent what I am genuinely feeling. They are both just fragments to what I want. The feeling of being genuine is long gone and the question of is this me talking or is it not is always there. I have massive respect for you putting this out there DM Dokuro. I feel like this has genuinely given me a better understanding to how I feel and why. I hope you can find what you need. If it helps you find any semblance of solace even for just a moment, thank you for helping me. Banger song by the way right up my alley, love it. Here's to all of us still being here together.
And this… this is why people like me try to fight for those like this who can’t defend themselves. Because no matter how hard you try, sometimes… you just can’t do it on your own. It’s impossible sometimes. You can never truly rid yourself of the self-doubt and the worries, and all of the problems from the past… but sometimes. In the right situations, with the people who know and love you, no matter what… you can soothe the demons inside you. If only for a moment. They may flare up and rage once more. But in that fleeting moment of calm mind… you may just realize what you need. All of this to say that this isn’t terrible, or weird. This was needed a VERY long time ago. Thank you for posting this Dokuro. As someone who doesn’t deal with any of this… lucky me, am I right? It gives me insight into how others are with it. It lets me realize that the pain is far worse than what they show, even if they say they’ve been helped. And it… lets me keep doing the thing I want to do. Help others.
It's good to see you're back. You might not remember me, but let's just say I was here for a while. Ferrofluid, back when that was uploaded? It opened my eyes even more to the psychology of people. More than I want to admit. Not to people like you, but just in general-- people in general. Things are hard, and despite the countless accomplishments, having succeeded and failed to save countless people from losing themselves? I'm still searching. No idea what for, though. Also, I don't really give a shit if I'm late, the fact that I'm seeing this and hearing your music again, I'm glad You're Still Here to show me you're at least alive. Wether or not you are, or will be okay? That's none of my business, or frankly, anyone else's. But hey, you still make bomb ass music. I've gone through so much while you were "away" though. Having been subjected to witness atrocities, and have my worldview shattered and rebuilt, over and over. But I'm Still Here. We're all, individually, going through our own struggles. I could be here all night typing out the things that have happened to me, but I need to sleep and all that. So, uh. See you, Dokuro. Until your next piece. Unless you find yourself wanting to reach out to me or something. For some inexplicable reason. See you then. Keep doing what you still can. I'll be waiting like always.
It's a real eye opener to see that so many people have so many struggles in their life. And for them to share those experiences in this very comment section. His music truly is powerful,and the fact that it's so unknown is maddening.
Wow.... Thank you so much DM DOKURO. I have honestly never heard a more relatable song in my life. This song describes my battle with depression, anxiety, and constant self hate for years. It's good to know other people have this struggle and have the guts to make a song about it. This may be harsh, but I love it. Emotional, cold, and beautiful at once. Bravo. Good to know you're still there :)
I can't stop listening to this. Watching the video most of the time I listen too. This is so beautiful. I don't know how to put words to my feelings for this. It's so me. My reality. People around me. People struggling with themselves.
God damn. I love it. You can really feel the built up emotions. I'm really glad and thankful you're still here and able to let your deeper, inner thoughts and demons out. Express yourself. I'm struggling with somewhat similar self-hate and haven't really found anything to express it with. You've been a big inspiration to me the past few years. Thank you Dokuro. Keep it up.
This is an amazing song and it perfectly embodies how some people, past me included struggle with depression and self loathing. Thank you so much for this.
5:00 "The coward had realized how they had brought forth their greatest mistake. Silently, the coward fell to the ground, knees unbearably tired from trying to escape this hideous demon. Frightened and paralyzed eyes stared into the codas that glowed where eyes should've been, its running liquid body flashing a shadeless red static that sounded as caustic as it looked, and its equally noisy mouth roughly gnashed its white, glowing teeth. Every mark the demon left on the coward's broken body was a painful reminder of fruitless attempts of recovery gone horribly wrong. They had gone through this routine over and over again, each time growing older and more tired of each other, as the insanity of trying to change a single life for the betterment of themselves and others around them took its sickening toll. The meaning of time between the coward and the demon had become irrelevant. Of all the times where a compromise or a decision must be made, the coward decided to listen to the demon in hopes of reasoning with it." Dokuro, I hope you're doing even just a little bit better now.
What an amazing piece of work! I am sorry for the emotions you have gone through and hope you are feeling well! I'm glad your still here. Know that in the future that not everything is your fault and don't feel guilty for even when your not to blame. Other than that, Thank you for this piece of art! Peace! :D
I don't know how valid of a comment I can make, but as someone who has autism and who often grapples with mental issues, this song resonated with me in a very cathartic and visceral way. This piece was a very blunt and real representation of the toxic landscape that one's mind can be, as well as the constant second guessing of the parasite that is self-doubt. This was undoubtedly a fantastic experience. Thank you so much for this, Dokuro.
This song is great, even if this song represents a low point, that's still something to share because seeing that people you look up to struggled and made it through issues you might suffer from is an amazing motivator. I'm glad you're still around because you're genuinely one of the most talented composers I've ever seen from both how hard your songs go, and how musically complex and impressive they are. You're amazing, thank you,
with all of this time you have given us, which you have worked and provided such works of art, you are still here. whit all the deamons unwiding their charge to toremnt you, and all of the endurance you built to surpass them, you are still here i bare witness the preserverance of an artist ive been listening to since a long time ago, this is indeed inspiring. DM dokuro as words from a stranger, i thank you for the music you have brewed for us to listen to and enjoy your skills and talent into the works of music, it is truly an experience to listen to, eatch one a bit different and with their own catch eatch one was banger, thank you man, you rlly are one of the OG's
Despite the warning definitely being targeted towards people such as myself, I listened anyways, and this provided some much needed self reflection and that im not the only one who deals with this kind of thing… thank you… for still being here
Just a general question, are you okay? Like, do you need to talk about this? I went through years of physical abuse and self-hatred and it took me a really long to overcome a huge portion of it, but it still lingers within me, I have always had this side of me that hates everything about myself yet cant live without myself. For what it's worth, we all struggle, with anything, everything, and even if knowing that youre not alone might not help, you cant at least take comfort in the fact that there will still be people here to help you, rather you know them or not, there are still some kind souls out there willing to welcome you with open arms. Wish you the best of luck!
i kinda feel like this is exactly how i can communicate about this shit. hearing it coming out of my mouth, i always loop back to irrelevant and/or stupid shit, but in the form of music... i have much more of a window of opportunity to gather every thought with the exact amount of detail i need to portray what i'm feeling.
@@DMDOKURO Everyone has their own way of communicating, which makes sense. Though still keep in mind that we'll be here if you need us, I will gladly listen with open ears, heart, and mind, regardless of your way of expressing it, rather it be through talking or making music.
@@DMDOKURO Looping back to the same thing is a common trait in people with autism, you're not alone my guy. I really would like to try to help you through what you're feeling if I ever had the chance to, I'm just like you afterall.
Thank you for still being here. These demons... these thoughts. They can say the most horrible things... but don't let them win. Even if it hurt, even if you were afraid, you still made the choice every day to remain. To move forward, to move on. That has meaning, friend. It's incredibly courageous of you to share this with us. I'm someone who... still struggles with depression, anxiety, and sometimes suicidal thoughts. So there's definitely a lot I can relate to in this song. I know how this feels. All I'd like you to know is that you're enough. You've done so much, and I'm sure there's so much more you'd like to do. These thoughts never truly go away, but you can definitely make them quieter. You aren't these thoughts. They do not represent you. No one has the right to judge you. Remember this. Take care
This is a perfect representation how this mindset can be. As the harsh, terrible part of your brain that hates you grows, the reasonable, kind part you shrinks and weakens. It can seem impossible to overpower as it chips away at your sanity, and you find that the more you try, the stronger it gets. But despite that, despite how powerful it grows, as long as a part of you still remains, as long as you're still here, you can do it. You can find that light at the end of the tunnel. The voice may never go away, at least not fully, but just as it can get stronger, *so can you*
this is a crazy good song. i'm glad you decided to post this because it really is a great expression of emotion during uncertain times where the enemy that puts you down always seems so out of reach, elusive, and persistent. this really resonated with my own struggles i had with depression, it puts into words how it felt trying to lose it. i think the most important takeaway here is never blame yourself, you didn't ask to be depressed and it wasn't brought upon you because you did something wrong. thanks for creating good music
I just have to say, this is some of the most raw emotion I've ever heard in a song (only other thing that comes close is words fail from Dear Evan Hansen) I hope that you'll eventually get better!
Not sure how to put it into words, but this song personally struck a cord straight of who I am and how i've lived my life so far. The music, the lyrics it comes together as something beauitful yet also something tragic. Goodness knows what kind of events and situations yourself has been through to put such a song into this world. I can only wish that you will be able to overcome your personal demons. Thank you DM Dokuro for creating this.
No idea if you'll ever see this, but I just felt I needed to say that I really appreciate the amount of emotion put into this, I've struggled with heavy depression and self loathing for most of my life and I recognize a lot of my own mental traps and struggles in the lyrics, I can't really say things will get better because they haven't for me either yet and I know from personal experience how frustrating those words can be when people just keep repeating them, but I will keep affirming what the rest of the comments are saying. This is amazing man, you've put more emotion into this than I've heard from so many other artists and I at least want to try and get that point across, you have and continue to create very memorable pieces of art and at the VERY LEAST I think you can truly be proud of that. Thank you for sticking with it.
I've been listening to this for a few months now, and this is one of the best pieces of art I've ever listened to. I hope you're doing better, DM. And I'm glad you uploaded it to your channel for everyone to hear this masterpiece.
I'm not really the type to emotionally invest in... well anything, but music for me always has been about the execution more so than the messages. Even so, this hurt on so many levels emotionally. So all I really have for it is. I want to give you a big damn hug, Dokuro. Also I just want a hug after this. The music itself was absolutely wonderful. I felt a lot of your signatures in it between the instrumentation and the pacing, the flow between peak tension and taking it down for a relax solo. Really gave me feelings of "Your Best Nightmare" from Undertale, that twisted blend of torture, hope, pain, and determination. Plus the Easter Egg.
Bravo, I'm simply at a loss for words. You captured the feeling of an inner battle almost perfectly, looking for someone to blame, being scared of a truth you don't know, pulling yourself down, and believing that it's best to be invisible even though you can't. I'm currently experiencing those very same feelings, but I won't go into the details for personal reasons. I wish I could talk more but I'm simply at a loss for words. Keep up the awesome work man.
"Okay, but why did you upload it after you said you wouldn't?"
simply put, i shouldn't be silencing any of my work, no matter how painful or harsh it could be. either way, sorry if this is a bit too much to handle.
as long as you make stuff I will love what you make
Theres nothing wrong with it, and i enjoy your work and the effort you put into it.
No matter what you do we will always lov your content keep up the good work 👍
hope your doing good man
Despite everything... you're still here.
Thank you DM Dokuro.
Same. DM Dokuro is a amazing person
This comment sums it up. :)
And we're glad for it.
World would be down one legendary composer without em, and music - especially Dokuro's - is something strong alright.
“Despite everything, it’s still you”
- Undertale 2015
@@asrieldreemurr8059 Ah, glad to see someone got it.
an unbelievably viseral showcase of emotions through music.
sometimes we can't express our feelings through words, so for you to express them through something like this is something i commend greatly, i legit cannot comprehend how you do this, man.
i remember listening to this back in september, and feeling this was something i could relate to as well - obviously you're in a far worse situation than i, but you get my point. it's something to put across emotions that cannot be summed up in words, and the way you did this is fucking immaculate.
out of all the songs i've heard from you over the last 6 years, this is my absolute favourite.
thank you, dokuro. i wish all the best for you.
@boab fet lego star wars 🧍🏽♂️
@@frankierodriguez866 ?
5:00 “The coward had realized he had brought forth their greatest mistake. Silently, the coward fell to the ground, knees unbearably tired from trying to escape this hideous demon. Frightened and paralyzed eyes stared into the codas that glowed where eyes should’ve been, it’s running liquid body flashing a shadeless red static that sounded as caustic as it looked, and it’s equally noisy mouth roughly gnashes it’s white, glowing teeth. Every mark the demon left on the coward’s broken body was a painful reminder of fruitless attempts of recovery gone horribly wrong. They had gone through this routine over and over again, each time growing older and more tired of each other, as the insanity of trying to change a single life for the betterment of themselves and others around them took it’s sickening toll. The meaning of time between the coward and the demon had become irrelevant. Of all the times a compromise or decision must be made, the coward decided to listen to the demon in hopes of reasoning with it.”
Wow. This little Easter egg made this so much deeper for me, and I now understand just how dark this song truly is. And I love it.
took me like 4 times with 0.25x playback speed to catch it despite noticing it as soon as it came on screen
things like that are really cool
So glad someone managed to capture this amazing Easter egg. I tried multiple times to pause at the right moment but just couldn’t get it
@@kingcyrusrodan6772 you can use , and . To go frame by frame which is useful when trying to catch Easter eggs like that
@@lucatowalker2123 some people are on mobile.
@@lucatowalker2123 I do happen to be on mobile but I do really appreciate the advice
I audibly gasped when i saw this! While the song has dark themes that i can relate to, i still love it and i’m glad theres an official release on youtube
As having struggled with these sort of issues I don’t think I’ve ever seen such a vivid representation of what the hell inside shows itself to me like. Nice work.
Take in the music. Make it last, mates.
5:00 message thrown up on screen for a few frames, writing it here to save some of your.
“The coward had realized how he had brought forth their greatest mistake. Silently, the coward fell to the ground knees unbearably tired from trying to escape this hideous demon. Frightened and paralyzed eyes stared into the codas that glowed where eyes should’ve been, it’s running liquid body flashing a shadeless red static that sounded as caustic as it looked, and its equally noisy mouth roughly gnashed its white, glowing teeth. Every mark the demon left on the coward’s broken body was a painful reminder of fruitless attempts of recovery gone horribly wrong. They had gone through this routine over and over again, each time growing older and more tired of each other, as the insanity of trying to change a single life for the betterment of themselves and others around them took its sickening toll. The meaning of time between the coward and the demon had become irrelevant. Of all the times where a compromise or a decision must be made, the coward decided to listen to the demon on hopes of reasoning with it.”
ty for that bro i saw it too
This is heartbreaking but also motivating. We are so happy you are still here Dokuro. I may not know your personally, but I can tell from the genuineness of your music, that you are an amazing and good-hearted person.
In regards to the song, it is masterful the way you portray inner thoughts. whenever a positive thought comes, it seems immediately replaces with guilt and pain. How the negative side always has some reasoning that keeps your mind from recovering.
Even the simple artwork and fonts in the video help convey the message the song is trying to create in a perfectly simple yet complex accompanying way.
I could write a whole article on each induvial verse, the lyrics are just simply fantastic.
I think what else that makes this song so compelling it its uniqueness in its odd voices and style. It feels so much more real and honest than what you get from most popular artists.
ever since I heard it a couple months ago, i've been _obsessed_ with this song. it hit so close to home, but in a good way, and it inspires me to draw like crazy. (like, i've never made an animation longer than 6 seconds, i tend to lose motivation really fast, but EVERY SINGLE TIME i hear this i'm overcome with the urge to storyboard it. i hope i'll be able to finish the whole song someday!) i especially love the overlap/harmonizing with "i'm the reason why you'll never disappear!/you're the reason why i want to disappear!"
there's clearly a lot of pain behind this song. i'm so sorry you had to go through it in the first place. but at the same time, STILL HERE is genuinely _beautiful,_ and i'm so grateful to you for sharing it with us.
love your work, dude. hope you feel better soon.
damn, i wanted to storyboard it too.
@@EVOSYS_YT maybe we both should! i'd love to see other artists' take on it :)
@@nerobright9959 i cant animate to save my life though, maybe in the future if one of my parts can manage to pick up on a project, but you're right its a really motivating song.
@@EVOSYS_YT *_DO IT._*
I know it doesn’t mean much but you can do this. You have more talent than you know and have a willpower buried underneath that demon that’s trying to hide it. We’re with you
My updated opinion on this song
After listening to it for the 100th time, I can finally give a full review.
This is a masterpiece, written by a musical genius. The first part alone is relatable to me. And oddly comforting and calming. The second part is an even better portrayal of the emotional battle within your mind during depression. And it is again oddly comforting to know that I’m not alone. The third part is just a brutal description of the feelings depression and the pain caused by it. And then the final part is just plain inspirational and gives me shivers or makes me cry. The empowering feeling I get from it is astonishing. I have never heard a better portrayal of depression in music. Dokuro has done the impossible with this piece of art and I come back whenever I’m depressed as calms and emotionally empowers me.
For some reason I'm extremely draw. To sad subjects. I'm not sad myself not depressed or suicidal. But I simply love music that can genuinely make you feel some types of emotions.
I imagine it to be the same as letting a huge burden off of your chest.
And life really isn't just happy go lucky.
This song should NOT be ignored. I can feel how important it is.
Thank you dokuro. This is quite literally one of my favorite songs. ever
I don't know what you're feeling, or have been, and while I have been sharing these similar feelings. I'm glad to know ur still around. You are an inspiration.
Dokuro. I'm here listening to this song at 6 AM on a work night, and I've never been hit by a song with emotion like this before. You say this song is too much but, I think it gave me a new outlook on depression and maybe even life as a whole. Perhaps my take on it is a little strange but, it's given me a new sort of confidence in myself. Even when that little, nasty voice inside is telling you all these awful things, whether they're true or not, even they can be a driving factor...seeing yourself for what you used to be, all the awful things you've done and can never forgive yourself for, all the "faces of those you've betrayed," and yet...you're still here, trying to become better. That...is why you're here right? So long as you strive to be better, even if your best some days is fuck all, you'll get there, one step at a time. As much as that nasty little voice "makes me want to disappear" sometimes, it's part of "the reason I'm still here." It's the lessons one has learned, it may present itself as something terrible and awful, something you may never truly live down, but without it...you'd still be making the same mistakes, doing the same awful things you may have done to others, intentional or not.
This song is raw and powerful, it's the kind of song that reminds me just how much I love music. You're incredibly talented Dokuro, and while I'm certain you've got so many of your own demons to deal with, I hope you'll learn to deal with them...whether by surpassing them, learning to live with them, or whatever else you may need to do, I'm here routing for you on the sidelines. Best of luck to you, your fans have your back and support you tirelessly.
...I'm speechless. Every chord, every word, every snare hit, every key change. The palpable agony of being split and indecisive, leaking a bittersweet melody that seethes a primal sense of anger with all the razor-sharp vulnerability of insecurity. You write entire stories with songs, and each layer of sound builds something cinematic and brutally sincere that both guts me and soothes the wound. The juxtaposition of an anxious, higher voice with a distorted, relentless internal monologue cuts deeper than a knife.
I should've heeded your warning at the beginning, because I'm in the process of exchanging blows with some demons myself, but everything you make speaks in raw emotion, and being on the same wavelength as someone else, even if our stories are different, offers a moment of fleeting comfort and empathy. And exposing myself to some repressed pain is something I'm willing to sacrifice to feel, even for a moment, that I'm understood. You sculpt auditory magic.
Thank you, Dokuro.
I believe I would say almost the same as you. No matter how much pain you've "caused" and still are going through, after all...people, let's beat the shit out of demons, Together.
@@AnaGD thanks for the help, but that’s not enough to help out on what’s going on in my household
@@lowlevelgeniusthewhite111 fr fr 💀💀💀
HES BACK WHEN WE NEEDED HIM
he isnt back, he is still here, as he has been all along!
maybe he's back because he needed us, or at least, someone.
auby
love the chill vibe ❤
edit: NOT CHILL ANYMORE CHRIST
editedit: Final thoughts: love the contrast between calm at first to real heavy at the middle through to the end.
this song was great all in all. great job dokuro
Tis how it be
Upon the chill to heavy transition. My jaw dropped. It's like a giant wave of emotions came over me.. its frickin amazing
@@terraknight0447 it should invoke that feeling, i feel as though DOKURO really wanted to put that same feeling of having your emotions wash over you and leave you speechless in this song as his depression brings upon himself. it's both fantastic, yet horrifying. DM DOKURO really put all of his heart into this, and it shows.
@@SkyanUltra I don't think it's easy to do what this man is able to do, the expressions don't feel artificial, even stronger than normal, even if you can't relate you can understand, man has come so far so proud.
It sends shivers down my spine, it never fails to give me chills
God this is so good, seeing the pressure a large viewership puts some of my favorite musicians through hurts my soul :( I'm glad you are able to push through it all and still make amazing stuff
STILL HERE
yo
Yep
Oh hi
I’m here and nice new video
ohhh so you found this one day and decided to use it for the guide hmm?
God damn this song brought me to tears… My brother has autism and other mental health problems and has been suicidal for the good part of 3-4 years.
Looking from the outside in, I can only imagine what goes on through his head, but I feel like with this song it gives me some semblance of understanding of what goes on through his head. I only hope he’s able to fight through this and come out on top of everything in the end.
Mental health fucking sucks and I hope everyone out there can battle their inner demons and/or come to terms with who they are and accept that we are all flawed and that is a beautiful thing to appreciate.
This is probably one of the most accurate showings of what a inside battle looks like, through song. One of the lines is actually something mine has said to me before, word for word. Good song man, it’s a nice mix.
This whole piece reminds me of a quote that I always like to say to myself.
*"Despite everything, it's still you."*
That’s also a quote from undertale. It’s a lot deeper than most people think it is.
As someone who's dealing with a lot right now, this release has really helped. Even if you have doubts, you are a huge inspiration to me. Whatever it is you are going through, I wish you luck on getting through it. Mental health is pain.
2:49 every time I get to this part of the music, I can't help but smile. We can feel the full Dokurossy DM DOKURO put in it.
“I’m not going to cry to this song for a fourth time” - me seconds before realizing another lie i told
I have no words...despite the disturbing lyrics, this is one of the most and beautiful things I ever heard. It's sad but I also feel moved. I'm glad to encounter you and I hope you're alright these days.
it's also just a headbanger
I know there's a lot of comments singing praise over the fact that you're uploading again, but I want to thank you for deciding to put this song out to the world. Everything in the song works together and comes together to make a very hard hitting experience that I think a lot of people can relate to in some form or another. Thank you
This goes so hard in the best kinda way
nothing about this in cringe. It is pain and suffering in a very real and relatable way
Like being stabbed in the heart is what a man feels when he loses the passion for a thing he loves the most, but no passion dies, no. It stays looming in the mind trying to bring the man who lost it.
Your talent is incredible, and let none change your love for music, as you are not a tool but a person who expresses himself through melodies but not words.
This song is either really good for your mental health, or really really bad. Absolute banger, 10/10 can relate, would listen again
Been a long time. I missed your music and now i get to listen to even more.
IT'S BEEN A LONG WHILE I LOVE YOU DOKURO
One of the best things about music is that it lets us vent our struggles in ways that others may find enjoyable or relatable. Stay strong, Dok. We love you.
Magnificent opposition. You sometime have those times where you’re hanging with your mind, and you can’t accurately describe how you feel because you know something is wrong, yet, you lack the words about it. This music is the representation of those missing words. Beautifully executed.
I still look back on this and wonder how you are doing now.
Ive listened to this a lot over the months, it's been in the back my mind ever since I first listened to it, and has stuck with me longer than any of your other songs because it is something I can really relate to, especially over the past few months and all that has happened to me. It's had this effect on my life where is puts things into words that I cant put into words. It describe things Ive felt and thought without needing my voice.
Ive gotten a bit older, more responsibility is on my shoulders, Ive been kicked out of my house twice, falsely arrested and let go as a result, hurt myself a lot, tried new medication and started seeking help. Ive changed a lot, Ive grown out my hair, changed who I talk to and who I dont, and my anxiety has gotten significantly worse. Time really does affect us all, which leads me to ask, how have you been over the past 8-9 months?
I hope you have been fine my friend(?), I hope you have been taking good care of yourself.
Not sure if I'm emotionally blind or just the dopamine rush from finally seeing a Dokuro track again nullifies any negative feelings. I have a few questions if you don't mind me asking, you don't have to reply if you don't want to.
1. Did you ever plan on making real vocals for this? I feel like your voice would fit it so much better, especially at the louder sections.
2. Have you ever considered writing for any other games? I know you're working on Grapple Force Rena.
3. Have you silenced any other works, and if so, will we ever be able to hear them?
4. I really gotta ask, what is that guitar you use for everything? Is it real? Is it a VST? I really want it whatever it is, it sounds so nice.
I just want to let you know that you are an icon to me, and you literally changed my life. Don't see yourself as what people think bad of you, see yourself as the good you have done for others.
Thank you, DM Dokuro. You truly are a pinnacle amongst modern musicians.
the reason i use Vocaloid for stuff like this is because it would hurt tremendously if it came from my own voice.
@@DMDOKURO I understand what you mean here, but it would also probably be extremely difficult and painful to sing the demon’s lyrics in the second half of the song.
@@DMDOKURO And thats ok. Nobody will push you to sing if you don't want to. I love your songs, especially this one. You brightened my days, so I really hope yours will be brightened again. I love your work beyond words.
>4, probably
VST, most likely. probably something like Shreddage 3 if he has Kontakt, but 95% of the timbral qualities of a guitar sound is from the amp settings.
BIAS FX is good if you want a singular VST that lets you access lots of different guitar tones but Airwindows has a bunch of free amps designed for one specific type of guitar tone
if you want a free guitar VST, I’d recommend METAL-GTX and Standard Guitar by Unreal Instruments. They don’t come with tone amps(which is what you use Ignite Amps stuff for) but have a LOT of articulations at your fingertips.
Also you can go to drop F# with METAL-GTX so there’s that
God I’ve missed your music, I love how much of your heart you put into your songs and while I know that it’s the negative that sticks with you that you remember that many of us love your music and will support you.
I have never fucking heard a song that actually left me out of breath, you put my heart on a pike over an open flame and I love you for it. Please keep on doing what you're doing, you're amazing.
legit almost crying rn. this hit me so hard bc it is pretty much how i have been feeling for the past couple of months. i have always loved your music dokuro and im so glad you are still here. so glad i came back to your channel.
First: Such a fire beat shouldn't be this dark.
Second: I hope you understand that we can be, and will be here. even if a part of you doesn't want to belive in a bunch of random strangers.
Third: I guess you can say that you've coped for this long, it shouldn't be long before you can fix the mistakes, so hang in there just a little longer.
I appreciate that you have the courage to explain the depression and feelings that you went through throughout all your life, I wish you good luck. And stay safe, if not for you, then for us, the people who care about YOU, beyond your facade.
Hey Doku. This is probably going to be a very rambly comment, but I felt it prudent to leave my thoughts. I'm currently going through a bout of mental struggles myself right now. I'd rather not go into much detail if it's all the same to you, but I would like to say this song resonates with me on a very personal level. The self-loathing, the depression, the deprecation, the internalized issues kept under lock and key so as to avoid burdening those around you. Hell, even the simultaneous discomfort around others and crippling loneliness. I don't know you, and all you know of me is a few comments I've left on your past works. But I still feel like I've attained an inkling of understanding in terms of what you feel. It's honestly a little uncomfortable to see so much of my own mindset imbedded in yours, left exposed in lyrical form like the contents of an egg that's been cracked on the lip of a pan. Maybe it's the self-reflection it forces me to do, or maybe it's just an instinctual dislike of seeing others suffer, especially with issues I hold as well. However, and I can't stress this enough, that discomfort in no way discourages me from appreciating this work of art on a level both deep and extensive. Some of the greatest works have some level of discomfort behind them. Such is the nature of something which seeks to confront one's demons. It's not cringeworthy as you've expressed in the past, it's a meaningful representation of an experience that, though I can't pretend to understand in its entirety, I can say I know at least part of it. I understand from experience that "I know how you feel" is rarely comforting for those suffering from mental health issues, but this is all to say one thing; You're not alone.
As with many in these comments, I'm glad you're still here. Though I can't be of much assistance in such endeavors, I not only hope you find your way out of the suffocating mental and emotional entanglement you must be lost in at the moment, but am under the belief you most certainly will.
this is beautiful, the feelings i've felt, the struggles i've had and the damning thoughts i've been fighting personified into a song, just beautiful, thank you DM DOKURO
This song made me cry, like a lot, I felt this song because I can visualize what's happening. Also, can relate to this video. Thank you for giving us this gift and please keep doing what you're doing man. WE SUPPORT YOU 100%!
I find this version of STILL HERE to be my favorite, and that is solely because of the Demon's voice. (I call it that because the song's easter egg describes it as such). I think a big part of this sort of song has got to be the part where it includes the Demon, despite not being present in the intro, when it comes in, it COMES IN, like it goes so hard.
I'm not sure how the Oliver Vocaloid managed to make itself sound this hateful, but I'm all for it!
Compared to something like the harsh sun vers , this one sounds almost condescending, really sells the hateful aspect of this demonic character, I think the glitchy aspect of its voice really sells it as well, making it sounds more hateful and strained compared to the rest of its versions, like its not just singing, its singing OUT OF SPITE, directing all sorts of insults to the coward. Also 5:46 makes the demon seem almost unintelligible, like its becoming more animalistic as time goes on (Note: I've written like 3 different descriptions for this moment because its that indescribable, the audio work on Dokuro's work is insane to every detail.)
And I almost forgot to mention the voice of The Coward, in the intro it initially sounds much younger, but as the song goes on they sound different, like through their time with the Demon they changed and they managed to mature or something like that. I especially love how during 7:49, the Coward's voice actually manages to sound more intelligible than the Demon, like they're managing to gain some sort of leverage against this ultimate force of hatred.
I don't mean to write an entire essay about this, but basically, the original version rocks all the way, I'll remember this song for years to come.
Also in 4:24 where they start trilling the "I'm the reason why you'll NEEVVVVVVERRRRRR disappear" that goes way too hard.
You're my favorite composer of all time. I hope you continue making music for a long time.
We still believe in you!
Good job, and I hope that the community pressure died down :)
What community pressure?
@@kimblekurogane8612 from dokuro:
"Hey. After much discussion with the developers, and valuable feedback from concerned fans, I've made the decision to move on from the Calamity Mod. The project took a serious toll on my mental health as of late, to the point where I found no enjoyment in working on it at all. It was affecting other potential projects as well, either leaving them scrapped or unfinished due to the high priority Calamity had in my life. I hope you've enjoyed all the music that I made for this project in the 2 years I've spent with it.
Aside from all that, I don't think there's much more to say. Thank you for listening."
also he is getting too much requests and stuff
mans got me crying at 3 am
I don't think I've ever felt this powerful of emotions through music
For what it's worth from one stranger on the internet to another, I'm glad you're still here.
From first hearing your "Reality Check Through The Skull" to introduce me to your channel, and then your Absolutely flawless work on the calamity mod soundtrack to even further my love for this channel, I have always and forever will be a proud supporter of your music, despite what CERTAIN fandoms did.
*cough* calamity *cough*
fucking sucks how people can ruin such a good thing for themselves and everyone else
even when dokuro did all this for them, it was never enough.
Im sure I’ve already left a comment here, but I’ll leave some thoughts here. I hate that the red text represents my psychology to this day, and it feels nearly impossible to get help for this state of mind that I’m in. Regardless, I’m glad this song exists, because it’s very useful to use when explaining how I feel a lot of the time to other people, in addition to just genuinely being one of the best songs I’ve ever heard.
It's good to see you back, old friend. This here, is a standard to your wellbeing. That you can overcome your demons. That you have grown stronger than ever. That YOU ARE WORTH the toil, the trouble, the pain, and to keep growing. You are a conquerer, and nothing can stand in your way, if you do not allow it. Shal-lak Kor, Delvanti! To the end, The Eternal! Here's to more growth and showcases of strength. Here's to another year of quality Dokuro content. Here's to another year of showing your demons that they have NO HOLD on your life, not now, not EVER. You are talented, loved, and thought of, Dokuro. If there is ever a need for you, or anyone, who needs an ear, or comfort from their own demons, msg me, and I'll shoot my DM's, and we can chat.
I love this song its just so good all of it, and i feel like when they say "growing spineless day by day" that they're mocking the other ones lyrics
The fact that bro posted this on my birthday 💀
7:48 my favorite part, is like determination ower the depression.
No way this was only 7 months ago. I have listened to this song so much it feels as though it has been years since it was posted.
same here dude...
i'm personally don't see anything funny in word "bitch"
@@ilovecrt what
In a way its relieving that Im not the only way that feels this way but I really do hope everyone whos felt this way gets their escape even if temporarily, hope youre still coping well too dokuro thank you for making this even if its not exactly a positive track in a way it kinda helps me piece my thoughts in an ironic way
I've been subscribed to you for a couple years for now, and i have listened to this song before when it was released back then. But only now I can say it in the place where it belongs: this is your BEST SONG EVER, your Magnum Opus. Thank you DM DOKURO, I'll be waiting for Shadow of Light 3. Keep up the good work!
i just. cant believe this was just one person. this represents so well what a major depressive episode is like
Also the way you can capture emotion in a song is unrivaled to me. I don’t even normally feel emotion from songs but this just incredible
When mixing your work with reality.
It truly shows that even when you try to escape, and pretend it was never there, it always comes to crawl on your back once more.
And yet life goes on, almost like everyone is normal while you’re the one screaming like a mad man.
Even though, you feel as you still have the energy to go on, even while your in the dark and afraid of what life throws at you.
This track is horrifying, yet beautiful to hear, I’m just glad you’re still around Dokuro. ❤️
Welcome back we support you through these troubling times. Mental illness sucks I had suffered with depression for almost a year without telling a word grades dropped and I almost never wanted to talk to friends or family. The day felt like a chore, but after receiving the much needed help from therapy I had mostly gotten past it while I still feel down sometimes I was feeling way better than before. Mental illness is like a mountain it may difficult to climb it at first but with some help and time you will get over it.
dude these chill vibes are so well made holy... thanks so much for this DM!
(edit) OK ITS NOT CHILL FOR THE ENTIRE SONG LMAOAOA
What are the odds that as soon as i start to listen to your music again you return.
This song was a rollercoaster and a half. I don’t think I relate to a song more than this one, the emotions embedded within these lyrics are beautifully done.
Well done, DOKURO. Well done.
As someone who has personally struggled with these kinds of thoughts and whatnot in the past, this song hit me harder than anything else I've ever seen. And can I just say, Dokuro? You've helped me through some times with your songs, so thanks.
Countless months spent in a deep abyss of self hatred and guilt, you've gathered the strength to make your voice heard from where its never been heard before. The escape ladder has been cast down, so now you finally have the ability to climb out of rock bottom. It'll be hard, but the hardest step has already been cleared.
I believe in every possible sense of the word, that you'll come out on top, you've got this DM!
That aside, I'm astounded by your courage and tremendous growth as an artist, mad props and you've earned more of my respect than anyone else I've ever seen on this platform.
Just remember this: You're not obligated to please anyone, your music is for your own enjoyment above all else!
been listening to this nonstop the past few days. So much emotion and power in this song. It's weird how it plays out like a triumphant song in the beginning almost like "I've overcome my weaknesses". But it isn't that at all. Quite the opposite. This isn't hopeful or victorious, it's hopeless and terrifying which is how we feel sometimes. It's even more hellish knowing that they've gone through this many times, "Have you forgotten that I've done this all before?"
Anyways, before I get too into it, 3:50 is my favorite part. Amazing song DM Dokuro
We encourage you man all the way. We believe in you and we will always be there for you as a community. There are many people who have suffered the same thing like me. You are never alone.
(cringe worthy encouragement)
It's hard to put into words what this song has made me feel. I'm sitting here thinking about all the previous times I've been sad or angry at myself. I've wrote out paragraphs of text already trying to explain it, but I cant get a grasp on what I want to say.
I feel like this song has perfectly described what the feelings of self hatred feel like. It feels like there are two voices, but neither of them feel like they represent what I am genuinely feeling. They are both just fragments to what I want. The feeling of being genuine is long gone and the question of is this me talking or is it not is always there. I have massive respect for you putting this out there DM Dokuro. I feel like this has genuinely given me a better understanding to how I feel and why. I hope you can find what you need. If it helps you find any semblance of solace even for just a moment, thank you for helping me. Banger song by the way right up my alley, love it.
Here's to all of us still being here together.
And this… this is why people like me try to fight for those like this who can’t defend themselves. Because no matter how hard you try, sometimes… you just can’t do it on your own. It’s impossible sometimes. You can never truly rid yourself of the self-doubt and the worries, and all of the problems from the past… but sometimes. In the right situations, with the people who know and love you, no matter what…
you can soothe the demons inside you. If only for a moment.
They may flare up and rage once more. But in that fleeting moment of calm mind… you may just realize what you need.
All of this to say that this isn’t terrible, or weird. This was needed a VERY long time ago.
Thank you for posting this Dokuro. As someone who doesn’t deal with any of this… lucky me, am I right? It gives me insight into how others are with it. It lets me realize that the pain is far worse than what they show, even if they say they’ve been helped.
And it… lets me keep doing the thing I want to do. Help others.
It's good to see you're back. You might not remember me, but let's just say I was here for a while.
Ferrofluid, back when that was uploaded? It opened my eyes even more to the psychology of people. More than I want to admit. Not to people like you, but just in general-- people in general. Things are hard, and despite the countless accomplishments, having succeeded and failed to save countless people from losing themselves? I'm still searching. No idea what for, though. Also, I don't really give a shit if I'm late, the fact that I'm seeing this and hearing your music again, I'm glad You're Still Here to show me you're at least alive.
Wether or not you are, or will be okay? That's none of my business, or frankly, anyone else's. But hey, you still make bomb ass music. I've gone through so much while you were "away" though. Having been subjected to witness atrocities, and have my worldview shattered and rebuilt, over and over. But I'm Still Here. We're all, individually, going through our own struggles. I could be here all night typing out the things that have happened to me, but I need to sleep and all that. So, uh. See you, Dokuro.
Until your next piece.
Unless you find yourself wanting to reach out to me or something.
For some inexplicable reason. See you then. Keep doing what you still can.
I'll be waiting like always.
It's a real eye opener to see that so many people have so many struggles in their life. And for them to share those experiences in this very comment section.
His music truly is powerful,and the fact that it's so unknown is maddening.
Wow.... Thank you so much DM DOKURO. I have honestly never heard a more relatable song in my life. This song describes my battle with depression, anxiety, and constant self hate for years. It's good to know other people have this struggle and have the guts to make a song about it. This may be harsh, but I love it. Emotional, cold, and beautiful at once. Bravo. Good to know you're still there :)
I can't stop listening to this. Watching the video most of the time I listen too. This is so beautiful. I don't know how to put words to my feelings for this. It's so me. My reality. People around me. People struggling with themselves.
Just finished listening, and I love this song. Thank you for releasing it.
God damn. I love it. You can really feel the built up emotions. I'm really glad and thankful you're still here and able to let your deeper, inner thoughts and demons out. Express yourself. I'm struggling with somewhat similar self-hate and haven't really found anything to express it with. You've been a big inspiration to me the past few years. Thank you Dokuro. Keep it up.
Honestly one of the best pieces of work you have ever done, dont go so harsh on yourself please, a lot of people appreciate what you do.
Give yourself a huge round of applause, mate. You are a true damn legend.
Being an artist truly is as much of a curse as it is a gift. Thank you for creating.
This is an amazing song and it perfectly embodies how some people, past me included struggle with depression and self loathing. Thank you so much for this.
5:00
"The coward had realized how they had brought forth their greatest mistake. Silently, the coward fell to the ground, knees unbearably tired from trying to escape this hideous demon. Frightened and paralyzed eyes stared into the codas that glowed where eyes should've been, its running liquid body flashing a shadeless red static that sounded as caustic as it looked, and its equally noisy mouth roughly gnashed its white, glowing teeth. Every mark the demon left on the coward's broken body was a painful reminder of fruitless attempts of recovery gone horribly wrong. They had gone through this routine over and over again, each time growing older and more tired of each other, as the insanity of trying to change a single life for the betterment of themselves and others around them took its sickening toll. The meaning of time between the coward and the demon had become irrelevant. Of all the times where a compromise or a decision must be made, the coward decided to listen to the demon in hopes of reasoning with it."
Dokuro, I hope you're doing even just a little bit better now.
What an amazing piece of work!
I am sorry for the emotions you have gone through and hope you are feeling well!
I'm glad your still here. Know that in the future that not everything is your fault and don't feel guilty for even when your not to blame.
Other than that, Thank you for this piece of art!
Peace! :D
I don't know how valid of a comment I can make, but as someone who has autism and who often grapples with mental issues, this song resonated with me in a very cathartic and visceral way. This piece was a very blunt and real representation of the toxic landscape that one's mind can be, as well as the constant second guessing of the parasite that is self-doubt. This was undoubtedly a fantastic experience. Thank you so much for this, Dokuro.
This one of your greatest works. It really...hits me hard
This song is great, even if this song represents a low point, that's still something to share because seeing that people you look up to struggled and made it through issues you might suffer from is an amazing motivator. I'm glad you're still around because you're genuinely one of the most talented composers I've ever seen from both how hard your songs go, and how musically complex and impressive they are.
You're amazing, thank you,
with all of this time you have given us, which you have worked and provided such works of art, you are still here.
whit all the deamons unwiding their charge to toremnt you, and all of the endurance you built to surpass them, you are still here
i bare witness the preserverance of an artist ive been listening to since a long time ago, this is indeed inspiring.
DM dokuro as words from a stranger, i thank you for the music you have brewed for us to listen to and enjoy your skills and talent into the works of music, it is truly an experience to listen to, eatch one a bit different and with their own catch eatch one was banger, thank you man, you rlly are one of the OG's
*まだここに*
[声無き者]
何年も
自分の過ちから逃げてきた
刺すような視線からは
どうしても逃れられなくて
僕が壊れたら
邪悪なる者が顔を現すのだ
視線の先にあるものへの
深く、異様な嫌悪に突き動かされて……
日に日に弱っていって
魂が朽ち果てるのを感じて
もし僕が独りでないのなら、どうしてこんなに怖いんだろう？
つらくてどうしようもないときは
収まるまで休んでいればいい？
隠し切って、消えてしまえばいい？
悲しみが教えてくれる
悲しみにはわかっている
僕がまだここにいると
[もうひとりの声]
うるさい
もうそんな話は聞き飽きた
いつもいつも
文句に愚痴に泣き言の繰り返し
（首を突っ込まないでくれ……）
喋るな
それ以上何も言うんじゃない
ほら、見てみろ
愛してくれる人の厳しい助言が、この地獄で腐ってゆく
（もらった厳しい助言が、この地獄で腐ってゆく……）
日に日に弱くなる意気地
朽ち果ててやまない精神
口では頑張ると言って、実際は怖くて仕方ない！
（そういう君がいて、頑張れるわけがない）
私はお前の脳内に根差す痛み
私がいなければ、お前はとっくに死んでいる
（いたところで、死んでいるよ）
私こそが、お前が消えない理由なのだ
（君こそが、僕が消えたい理由なんだ）
どこへ行く……責め苦を負うべきはお前なんだぞ
まだここに私がいる限りは！
臆病者は、自らがいかにして人生最大の過ちを招いたかを思い知った。地面にぱたりと倒れこむ。醜悪な悪魔から逃れようとして膝が疲れ、ついに限界を迎えてしまったのだ。恐怖で麻痺した目は、目があるはずの場所で光るコーダを、液体が滴り、見た目のごとく苛烈な音を立てる赤く影なき電撃をばちばちと放つ体を、そして同じくらいうるさい、白く光る歯をぎりぎりと噛んでいる口をじっと見つめていた。悪魔が臆病者の壊れた体につけた跡はどれも、回復を試みたものの悉く失敗に終わったことをありありと語る証左であった。ふたりは何度も何度もこれを繰り返し、その度に年を取り、互いへの嫌悪を募らせていったし、自分と周囲とを改善するべくたったひとつの命を変えようとしていた狂気は、途方もない規模のダメージをもたらした。臆病者と悪魔の間では、もはや「時間」の意味はどうでもよくなっていた。妥協や決断が必要なときは決まって、臆病者は悪魔の言うことに耳を傾けることにしていた。あわよくば、言い負かせないかとも思っていたのだ。
まさかこれでもう終わりだとでも？
修復に随分かけた割には、無様な成果だな
怖いのだろう、何一つ感じられなくて！
ああ、そのうつろな視線、反吐が出る……
拒否したいんならすればよい
だがそれは積み重なって、精神を蝕むぞ
敬えるようにしたほうがよいぞ
その敵意は見当違いだ
だからとっとと直してみるがいい
それでお前への軽蔑がなくなることはないがな！
考えてもみろ
他にどんな理由があれば、そんな行動が起こせる？
こんなにも多くの顔をお前は裏切った！
そう長く我々を締め出せると思うな
心の平穏がお望みならば
その魂を差し出せば
引き裂いて、罪悪感をすっかり解いてやる
叫び声は止められない
心から痕を消し去ることもできない
来たるものに腹を括れ
残した被害の全貌を見るがよい！
己の無能を認められないのなら、死んでしまえ
[声無き者]
僕だって、身を隠している罪の数々を
どうにかしようとはしてるんだ、何回も！
何度も何度もやってるんだ、忘れたの!?
（問題を曝け出せば、耐えられないぞ！）
君が出てきては消えるたび
僕は弱くなり、君は力をつける
（なんだ、その子供じみた涙は!?）
今は安全でも、君が恐怖を煽ってくる
（その恐怖を誰かのせいにしたいだけのくせに！）
僕の狂気をもっと凶悪なものにしているのは君なのに！
（今に、自分をここまで導いた真実を受け入れることとなる……）
ボロボロになった心が
（生きるに値しないゴミ野郎）
ズタズタと、クラクラと
（掠れて消えた悲鳴ほどの価値も無い）
「大丈夫」と絞り出す
（その結論は全く不愉快だ）
でも世界に向かうと
（失くした自尊心に身を隠し、燃え尽きろ）
心は死んでいて
恐ろしいんだ
まだここにいるのが
Despite the warning definitely being targeted towards people such as myself, I listened anyways, and this provided some much needed self reflection and that im not the only one who deals with this kind of thing… thank you… for still being here
Just a general question, are you okay? Like, do you need to talk about this?
I went through years of physical abuse and self-hatred and it took me a really long to overcome a huge portion of it, but it still lingers within me, I have always had this side of me that hates everything about myself yet cant live without myself.
For what it's worth, we all struggle, with anything, everything, and even if knowing that youre not alone might not help, you cant at least take comfort in the fact that there will still be people here to help you, rather you know them or not, there are still some kind souls out there willing to welcome you with open arms.
Wish you the best of luck!
i kinda feel like this is exactly how i can communicate about this shit. hearing it coming out of my mouth, i always loop back to irrelevant and/or stupid shit, but in the form of music... i have much more of a window of opportunity to gather every thought with the exact amount of detail i need to portray what i'm feeling.
@@DMDOKURO Everyone has their own way of communicating, which makes sense. Though still keep in mind that we'll be here if you need us, I will gladly listen with open ears, heart, and mind, regardless of your way of expressing it, rather it be through talking or making music.
@@Iron_Cutlass we need more people like you in the world oh my god
@@DMDOKURO music is a hell of a powerful tool of expression
@@DMDOKURO Looping back to the same thing is a common trait in people with autism, you're not alone my guy. I really would like to try to help you through what you're feeling if I ever had the chance to, I'm just like you afterall.
Thank you for still being here.
These demons... these thoughts. They can say the most horrible things... but don't let them win. Even if it hurt, even if you were afraid, you still made the choice every day to remain. To move forward, to move on. That has meaning, friend.
It's incredibly courageous of you to share this with us. I'm someone who... still struggles with depression, anxiety, and sometimes suicidal thoughts. So there's definitely a lot I can relate to in this song. I know how this feels.
All I'd like you to know is that you're enough. You've done so much, and I'm sure there's so much more you'd like to do. These thoughts never truly go away, but you can definitely make them quieter. You aren't these thoughts. They do not represent you. No one has the right to judge you.
Remember this. Take care
Oh boy, alredy 1 year and this remains my favorite song of all...
This is a perfect representation how this mindset can be. As the harsh, terrible part of your brain that hates you grows, the reasonable, kind part you shrinks and weakens. It can seem impossible to overpower as it chips away at your sanity, and you find that the more you try, the stronger it gets.
But despite that, despite how powerful it grows, as long as a part of you still remains, as long as you're still here, you can do it. You can find that light at the end of the tunnel.
The voice may never go away, at least not fully, but just as it can get stronger, *so can you*
this is a crazy good song. i'm glad you decided to post this because it really is a great expression of emotion during uncertain times where the enemy that puts you down always seems so out of reach, elusive, and persistent. this really resonated with my own struggles i had with depression, it puts into words how it felt trying to lose it. i think the most important takeaway here is never blame yourself, you didn't ask to be depressed and it wasn't brought upon you because you did something wrong. thanks for creating good music
I just have to say, this is some of the most raw emotion I've ever heard in a song (only other thing that comes close is words fail from Dear Evan Hansen)
I hope that you'll eventually get better!
Not sure how to put it into words, but this song personally struck a cord straight of who I am and how i've lived my life so far.
The music, the lyrics it comes together as something beauitful yet also something tragic.
Goodness knows what kind of events and situations yourself has been through to put such a song into this world.
I can only wish that you will be able to overcome your personal demons.
Thank you DM Dokuro for creating this.
Still here my beloved, thank you so much dokuro for making this song, it really helped me deal with my emotions
No idea if you'll ever see this, but I just felt I needed to say that I really appreciate the amount of emotion put into this, I've struggled with heavy depression and self loathing for most of my life and I recognize a lot of my own mental traps and struggles in the lyrics, I can't really say things will get better because they haven't for me either yet and I know from personal experience how frustrating those words can be when people just keep repeating them, but I will keep affirming what the rest of the comments are saying.
This is amazing man, you've put more emotion into this than I've heard from so many other artists and I at least want to try and get that point across, you have and continue to create very memorable pieces of art and at the VERY LEAST I think you can truly be proud of that.
Thank you for sticking with it.
I've been listening to this for a few months now, and this is one of the best pieces of art I've ever listened to.
I hope you're doing better, DM. And I'm glad you uploaded it to your channel for everyone to hear this masterpiece.
I feel bad for dm dokuro
often only a tortured mind can make an emotionally charged masterpiece like this
I'm not really the type to emotionally invest in... well anything, but music for me always has been about the execution more so than the messages. Even so, this hurt on so many levels emotionally. So all I really have for it is. I want to give you a big damn hug, Dokuro. Also I just want a hug after this.
The music itself was absolutely wonderful. I felt a lot of your signatures in it between the instrumentation and the pacing, the flow between peak tension and taking it down for a relax solo. Really gave me feelings of "Your Best Nightmare" from Undertale, that twisted blend of torture, hope, pain, and determination. Plus the Easter Egg.
Bravo, I'm simply at a loss for words. You captured the feeling of an inner battle almost perfectly, looking for someone to blame, being scared of a truth you don't know, pulling yourself down, and believing that it's best to be invisible even though you can't. I'm currently experiencing those very same feelings, but I won't go into the details for personal reasons. I wish I could talk more but I'm simply at a loss for words. Keep up the awesome work man.
This is the most beautiful piece of art I have ever seen. Thank you Dokuro, this is really, really amazing.