It's apropos actually for the entity-being-demon of dispersion! They don't wish to be still and are often a moving 🎯 and, I imagine, wish to be everywhere and nowhere and nobody and everybody! All that jazz🎷!
That’s kind of you. Maybe I spelled it correctly for the first time in over 400 years! And you know…. “Errors” like this can end up creating entire, new systems of magic! 🤣
The actual experience of the kundalini awakening process can be legitimately terrifying. It's started to unfold for me a few times. Once successfully, but I'm sorry to say the shift in consciousness wasn't permanent. It happened to me again last night, and that's the reason I'm here, writing this comment. I thought I was ready for it, but I wasn't. As the feeling of energy started to climb towards my head, I felt my whole body start shaking uncontrollably. Once the feeling of energy reached my head, everything, my whole sphere of sensation had turned into a humming, vibrating sensation. Essentially, the world felt like an earthquake. I knew "I" was going to die. It felt like something was trying to rise up and kill me, exactly as Lyam described. (Perhaps "Jaws" WOULD BE a better substitute for Choronzon that we can all relate to! Inside joke with Lyam! Haha!) When I couldn't take it anymore, I resisted and the vibrating instantly stopped, but the fear didn't. I was scared all night. The anxiety was so bad that my clothes and bed were literally soaked with sweat. I had nightmares and visions all night, mostly during that weird feeling of existing somewhere between being asleep and being awake; things killing me and my family; the world ending. It was the worst anxiety I've ever experienced. Ironically, years ago, around 2015, it just happened for me one night, spontaneously. Although I was afraid, I had the added benefit of being naive. So, I just instinctively trusted it. This time, when the sensation of energy reached my head, I just "let it kill me." When it reached its peak, it was legitimately like a whole-body climax. It felt like the energy burst out of the top of my head, and simultaneously sounded like a shotgun went off between my ears. I was launched out of my body. I now fully suspect this is the exact same experience that is described by DMT users when they say they have "blasted off!" I left my physical body for a while, and I instinctively knew I could go anywhere in the world that I wanted to go, just by thought alone. For a little while, I flew over the ocean and I felt totally and completely free. When I felt that experience was ready for it's finish, I just automatically thought of my body, (or should I say it thought of me?) and boom! I was right back "in" it! Almost instantaneously, and without any effort on my part, I fell into a blissful, dreamless sleep. Until now, I've only ever attempted to share these experiences with a very select few people; the people I trusted the most at the time. I felt like they thought I was nuts, even though they were TRYING to believe me. I share them now, publicly, in a sincere effort to help people who are suffering and are after the real thing. And because Lyam has inspired the confidence in me to try and help. I have been practicing magic in some capacity for nine years and I still see myself as a Neophyte. I have NOT successfully completed all of the grade work up to the portal. I will, however, never give up on doing ALL the work required. And that is my unsolicited advice for anyone out there who may want it or need it. Never give up. It's much easier said than done, but try not to be afraid. And never be afraid to be THE FOOL! We truly are all in this together, even when we can't feel it. Especially when we can't feel it! Above all, remember real spirituality is FEELING, NOT A THOUGHT! Enlightenment is NOT a cognitive process! It's an EXPERIENCE! And don't be like me! Save yourself some pain and heartache! I have made every mistake imaginable during the curriculum work. Everything Lyam has said not to do, I have done it. My sincere advice? Listen to him. Complete the grade work. Follow the rules. They're in place for a reason. In other words, RESPECT our teacher! Well, I have definitely talked enough for one day, but I do genuinely hope all of you aspiring magicians are making the most of your adventures out there in our magical world, and I wish you the best of luck. You've got this. You can do it!! All of us can.
This experience is extremely parallel to what Naveen Paar describes in his books regarding the kundalini process and the golden dawn current. Blessings to you friend, thank you for sharing your experiences!
As I'm sitting here watching this I can recognize the ring of truth in what you're saying. I recognize that that at least we have some things in common & that's a good thing because I've been so alone for decades. Hearing you is actually bringing back much of the same perceptual state that I had while I was practicing back in the 90's & it's quite weird because it's both comforting & frightening at the same time. I'm actually quite surprised that you have been able to put into words these experiences because I never could adequately express them. To someone who had no experience it probably still wouldn't make a lot of sense but I understand you.
I had accidental kundalini awakening when I was tripping of psilocybin mushrooms to cure my depression. I gained knowledge during my trip. I felt like my wavelenght went to higher plane of existence, somewhere you cant comprehend as normal sober. I had read that in mushroom trip you get good trip if you accept what mushroom gives you, so I went in and waited what I was shown. I was inside a huge sylinder, that had colors in same order as your picture at 4:00. Walls of cylinder where some kind of a story drawn with single line it was similar stories you see at carvings of hindu temples. I was ball of light rising in sylinder, I tried to read art at wall, but I was rising too fast. When I got to roof of cylinder there was great white light. I felt connected with everything, I felt 11/10 bliss, I felt meaningful and loved. I understood that there is one consciousness formed out of many. I saw that death is only for the body and "soul" or "awarness" moves to higher plane. I believe in reincarnation, I'm not a buddhist, my religion or "belief" of reality is complicated, its mix of many. I have feeling that souls can decide to come and be born and that we are not really a prisoners of earth. I've been 5 years free of depression, I will fight all my will not to get depressed again. I have lost my "ego" or as I call it "narrator". My "narrator" was a "demon" that brought up painful memories, shameful memories and all the bad I remembered. It would play them on loop, making me sad. It would tell me I'm useless person. I'm not sad its gone. But in ego death it really doesnt die. "ego" does reset, you become master of your mind. Its like old saying Fire is good tool but deadly boss. My mind is silent. I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do as "enlightened" person. My patience has risen a lot. I understand why things happen, I can see cause and effect. I have gained connection to my "heart." If I come to face of a problem I quiet down and ask in my mind a question. I wait and I get answer. After my kundalini awakening I have started to study kundalini, meditations, "magic", Hemi-sync and lot more. To me "magic" is like wishing machine. You make a realistic wish, of something that could happen. Still I cant call myself enlightened, there is so much I dont know. I'm not sure why Im writing my story here, I just have feeling that I need to.
@@koalamama2 Thank you for your reply, More insight about the "demon"/"narrator", I think my enviroment caused negative feedback loop in my mind. I used to be bullied at school. As developing mind I assumed there was reason I was being bullied and came to believe the bullies. Negative feedback loop is when you think of something shameful/bad memory, your mood reacts to your mindstate that causes you mind to bring up another negative thought and loop continues. That is why you should think happy thoughts and smile. Your brain thinks you're happy and you become happy.
I'm glad I've had multiple chances at this stage, so that I can know it's not too late to try again. In my last encounter Jan 11, it's to me like a trial by fire where the most personal attempts are made to provoke my ego and bliss. But, I am a single parent and a three day match with the abyss was out of the question. Now, my ego is eager to build energy to that state again until I make it past and be done with ego if even possible so I can be a better servant for my family and prime creator. Not that I am not already trying.
Another excellent video! Some of the stuff this process has put me through has been utterly horrific, but I find the negative manifestations get a little smaller and less powerful each time they come around as long as just sit the with emotions instead of let them drive my actions. Its no wonder the primary symbol of awakening is one of the most heinous torture devices ever devised (the cross).
Thank you so much. I asked another youtuber for their opinion on the MP two days ago due to their natural insight. Then here you come with all of the connecting bits at the end here, answering my question.
9:16 I like the idea of magick being a "reconstruction" of one's psyche. BTW - Thanks for putting this channel together Lyam. I've enjoyed your KABBALAH MAGIC (2006) book for many, many years. 20:06 After 25 years of magickal practice myself, thinking of it as the "death of the Ego" is actually a misrepresentation of the word "death". Rather, "death" should be seen as a TRANSFORMATION and TRANSMUTATION of the Ego into it's "True Self" (Higher Self, Lower Genius, Causal Self, Holy Christ Self, many terms used, etc.). As you "turn" your Mind around from the outer level of the material sense world through true Yoga (Pranayama, Pratyahara, Dharana, and Dhyana) and begin focusing It inward, the Mind then begins reacquainting Itself with the Subtle Bodies (Etheric/Astral) and all their energies and forces, and finally merges into the Mental and Causal Levels of the True Self, thereby returning Home. Truly, the Middle Pillar Ritual is one way of building and strengthening the the "Rainbow Bridge" (Antakarana) between the built up "Ego" and the original incarnating "Soul" in the Causal Body, which will gradually cause the built up Ego to "marry" (Great Marriage, Great Work) the Causal Immortal Self, the real YOU (who you really are), and become one "New Thing" through that spiritual alchemical marriage. The Red King and the White Queen "marry" and produce a 3rd new thing, the Rebis, an Ego infused and joined together with it's Higher True Original Self, which is the entire meaning of the Great Work.
I love your videos Lyam, this is so helpful. For maybe near 20 tears now I have not got to grips with the term Ego, and Ego death etc. because I know there is a "me" that interacts with, and experiences things and events etc. By explaining we have a persona and an Ego was a Eureka moment for me. That makes perfect sense. I often wondered if I would still enjoy music and other things I am passionate about if I lost my Ego. Your definition majes perfect sense to me. Thank you so very much.
Since 2020, doing these rituals and never listened the better explanation what I went through, or experienced.and it was really not what I thought..in fact sometimes I thought I am doing it wrong, or perhaps it's not for me.ego death is in process, I won't say it's finished, but nw I have developed the attitude of acceptance and try to look at difficult situation as what they telling me about me. I discovered parts work and realized, how division is at play against my own self, how one part of me wants a totally different thing than the other part.trying to come at peaces with my pieces and your videos really helped me.gratitude
I deeply resonate with the idea of coming at these things form a somewhat skeptical or questioning mind set. I really love that. Everything should be questioned. Wonderful information, I look forward to your next video. thank you.
Hello I am new to this world of Kabbalah. I'm reading your book and in the Neophyte stage. I will say Jungian psychology helps before walking into this world. I've worked on interfacing the shadow which shows the hidden and terrible of my psyche. Also experiencing painful events and taking accountability is one way to kill the ego. My ego has been stubborn. I'm not 100% ego-less. I look at the ego as an anchor in this reality, however it is not to be cling too. For me the middle pillar ritual is an exhilarating experience. I'm not sure I'm doing it right, but after I visualize the light showering me I imagine myself rising from malkuth into yesod and then into tiferet and trying to communicate with my HGA. I can see my higher self but not much chit chat lol anyway I feel progress and I am grateful for this experience. Thank you for your book and making this youtube channel. Thankful for you
I have been interested in esotericism and the occult for a couple of years now and aquired quite a number of texts (and a bit of debt) but do not recall having seen your book anywhere. Glad this video appeared in my feed today. Please continue sharing your well considered advice.
Another fantastic video, thank you! It would be wonderful to see a video on the body of light, and how the 4 world color systems play a role in the development of the psyche. Thanks again for all you are doing 🙏🏻❤️
Can we have a video on vibration? As in when we vibrate the Names, I'm not sure if the 'pitch' matters. My vibrations always seem lower than recordings I've heard in the past. I have a baritone singing voice so I guess naturally my voice is lower but should I try to vibrate at a higher pitch? Does that matter at all?
In all the books i have read i never read the pitch coming up. Interesting question. My experience is the lower the better. I feel with lower tones it's not just the throat vibrating but also the chest and sometimes even the solar plexus. Probably also depends on the natural pith of the voice. I have quite a deep voice and do some throat singin as well, so i can rumble naturally without straining the vocal cords.
Hi LTC, thanks for this and your other videos, they've been immeasurably helpful. Regarding kundalini, it's actually a very recent idea that there is only one kundalini which moves upwards. The oldest tantrik records we have show 2 or even 3 kundalinis: one upwards from the root, one downwards from the crown, and one at the heart where the other two meet. The notion of the upwards+downwards meeting at the heart makes me think of the holy hexagram, with the upwards will of the aspirant being met by the downflowing grace of Divinity. Regarding the middle pillar, I've been struggling to reason out why the instructions say to face west. If you have any wisdom to impart regarding that it would be very appreciated. Cheers, and have a good one, mate!
The Tree of Life is a symbol of manifestation. As such, it tends to manifest in the east, the place of the rising Sun. The wellspring of flow. In an exoteric or dualistic practice, one tends to face into the Tree (into the east)--as though worshipping the wellspring of manifestation. In a heretical, non-dual practice, one backs into the Tree. One BEOMES it. Or rather, one acknowledges that one already IS it.
I love this .... I appreciate your calmness, evenness , gentleness while speaking . It makes it easy to understand . I wonder if you could speak some time on keeping safe boundaries in so-called Magickal communities . So also on protecting one's own energy field .... I hope that makes sense. Thank you ~
Since I first started doing the middle pillar ritual several years ago, I think about 4 years now, I started noticing a significant reduction in body pain while doing the exercise. Particularly my feet. My feet used to constantly hurt so bad from standing on stone for 12-16 hour long days but when I did the middle pillar by the end of the exercise I always felt a significant reduction in pain. Especially feet and back pain, it isn’t permanent but often reduced pain for hours afterward. And over the years my pain has definitely gotten significantly better in general. Wim Hoff breathing exercises also seems to help significantly as well. Is there an explanation for this? I’m sure I’m not the only one to have experienced this.
The Wim Hof breathing technique gives a rush of adrenaline, which helps tone both the stress response and immunity. As a result, the body reacts to stress and pathogens with less severity. With less inflammation. The Middle Pillar can manifest many effects.
thank u so much for your videos u actually the one whoi could finally understood what i was reading about i would like you to explain the crossing of the abyss and what is the abyss
That was incredibly fascinating.. and terrifying. Loved it! I myself started this journey as a simple fisherman thrown into the realm of intuitive guidance where I realized there were unseen forces trying to get me to ascend into higher consciousness. Now I'm an aspiring psychic and tarot reader with a lot of learning to do. Now my guides have been pushing me more towards tree of life knowledge. Honestly it feels like a crossroads where there may or may not be a "wrong" direction to go. Maybe you can do a video on pathway direction? If that makes sense. Thank you!
Lyam’s book, Kabbalah Magic and the Great Work of Self Transformation, is a good place to start if you’re leaning towards ascending the Tree of Life. It also does have you doing exercises involving Tarot, which will help if being a Tarot Reader is what is calling to you.
You can find the PDF for free online. Just buy the book when you have the money (not only to have a physical copy, but more importantly to show support). If you’re serious, it’s worth it and very fairly priced. I’ve never found a better book on self-initiation. Blessed be.
As someone going through the curriculum in Kabbalah, Magic and the Great Work of Self-Transformation book, thank you for these ritual videos, they give a good perspective of what is going on in life when progressing in the system. Any chance you'd do companion videos for the grade work in the book? Something that would expand on the mythology, perhaps?
Wonderful explanations! I love hearing your perspective and the viewpoint from an initiate. I find this helps many of us along the path. I'd love to hear your take on what is happening in initiation as a whole, more on the HGA, and crossing the abyss as others have stated. We hear about this a lot, but again your take on it would be fascinating.
This is a great explanation, thank you. In the book it says to do this standing or lying down. Is it ok to do it sitting on a chair or does that interrupt the straight line of energy of the pillar. Thank you again
Would you elaborate as to why you don't mention the colors of the spheres in your book? Isn't color part of the elements of the ritual? Thanks for sharing your practice
You are right to point out the importance of the color system in Golden Dawn magic. The color scales of the sephiroth get introduced in the Elemental Grades, chapters 5, 6,, 7, and 8.
I admit I'm fairly new to this but allowing your inner demons to devour your ego seems like a bad idea. The definition I found for ego is as follows: "the part of the mind that mediates between the conscious and the unconscious and is responsible for reality testing and a sense of personal identity"
The fear of being eaten by imaginary predators is understandable. It's a natural, inherited fear. Another way to look at this might involve watching the demons compulsively act out their urges and fear gestures in front of you, until they exhaust themselves and dissolve into empty space. And to likewise observe your "I" sitting still, observing them (not acting out) and dissolving into space along with them. Gone. This is also quite scary for most of us. One way or another, it will eventually happen. You can spend your life avoiding the dissolution, like almost everyone does, and just wait until physical death for it to happen. That's not really a problem. But then, of course, you miss out on the experience of freedom from suffering while still incarnate.
I heard a saying from a Christian greek orthodox monk that the point of Christianity is to die before you die so you don't have to die after you die. I think thus us what Jesus meant when he said pick up your cross and follow me.
@@someguy007 Since ego has no inherent existence, that question is easy enough to answer. There is no intrinsic difference between the persona and the ego. The ego is compulsive. When the compulsion for the maintenance of the persona is gone, then ego is gone. Does the persona still maintain itself? Yes, but you can let it go. That possible exists for all of us even now. In this very moment.
Hello Liam. Are you familiar with the miracle of the new avatar book? If so, would you explain the Dee-Hey-Thooth ritual outlined in that book? I have practiced it and I feel energy flowing much like the LBRP and Middle Pillar.
You mentioned having the energy go up and then shower out from the top. How might the effects differ if one were to simply draw the energy up and down. Asking for friend who misread instructions.
Not sure. What's more interesting, I think, is the embedded scenario (the conditioning) that may have led him or her to that interpretation. Might be worth it for this person to explore that scenario.
is it necessary along the enlightment path to go through a severe depression phase? Eckhart tolle also talked about his s*icidal tendencies right before the moment of his enlightment. I feel like you have to "cross" the dark nothingness veil (I think it's called Sunyata?) before seeing the real light. I'd say the rise of depression is a good thing among people, however instead of fighting it they should go even deeper into it without giving in to it.
Is suffering necessary? No. Is it inevitable? Yes. Murphy's Law. One thing to consider is that the modern world, in an attempt to ditch religion and the spiritual dimensions of the soul, ends up unwittingly worshipping two gods: Meaninglessness and Randomness. Confront these two gods head-on. They can only hurt you when you believe in them. And when you confront them--in your magical journal, let's say--notice what happens to them. Do they disappear? Not necessarily. Perhaps they can now assume their true forms.
@@lyamchristopher2393 very interesting! those two gods truly are the ruling gods right now. I wonder if the god of meaninglessness could be the same as Chronzon, and the best action would be to let it actually destroy "you" so you can find the real you? I mean to find meaninglessness even in your own being , and then voila! your true indestructible self emerges from the ashes of your supposed destruction? I don't know if I'm being clear, but I mean, one could achieve enlightment by being super nihilistic? you talked about levels of sleep in one of your articles on forbidden realms, and there was one level before enlightment where the 'I' is faced with the vast sea of darkness, and the person should realize the I and the darkness are the last deception and so the person and the darkness become one? like the search for meaning ultimately leads to darkness, but only to realize that darkness is an illusion.
Thank you for the video once again! I would like to inquire why was "IAO" chosen instead of "YHVH Eloah va Daath" for the Middle Pillar in the Kabbalah Magic book. I recall reading somewhere that IAO has more transformative potential? I'm uncertain. Thanks in advance!
Simple. IAO is the Godname that the Golden Dawn taught me (taught by Regardie). I’m passing it on. 😌 But… I’m able to infer why it has become a word of choice.
The names work best when not too long, not too short. The divine name EL is too short (for ritual), so we spell it out first. ALEPH-LAMED-EL. The Hebrew name for Tiphareth tends to be too long.
@@lyamchristopher2393 I am really thankful for the extensive reply! I for one am really grateful for the answers given as well as the content given in the videos :D
Given that we each have a relative Apophis that devours our own ego can this be abstracted so there is also a collective ego and therefore a collective Devourer/Apogphis?
@lyamchristopher2393 hello, I love your videos, watching them for some weeks now. I have studied the last 7 years Kundalini tantra yoga and just getting back into western enlightenment practices. Upward or downward: Kundalini(energy) is raised from the bottom upward that is true, she dissolves the energy centers(blockages) and unites with shiva at the third eye. Now here 2 things can happen. Either they move together into the crown and dissolve into the absolute (Maha samadhi) or shiva and Shakti sink together down through all levels back into mooladhara(root). It's symbolizing the enlightened and integrated being. As far as I understand the middle pillar as you are describing it shiva(consciousness) penetrates downward into the depth of malkuth, filling plane after plane with awareness till reaching the source of energy itself. In tantric tradition there are 4 main paths, shakti, Ganesh, Vishnu and shiva. I personally have focused on shaktism but I believe Ganesha follower start as well from the bottom. The shaivait/nath traditions start with awakening the third eye. There are lots of Shakti pat/transmission of energy in the system and it looks more like the western version to me. All the best and thank you so much for helping to bridge this gap between east and west 🙏
The concepts arising in these systems are real enough, I suppose, but only as concepts. To get to the reality behind them, you must settle into making meaning out of them, while at the same time letting them go. We won't find reality in these systems and concepts. Instead, the reality simply exists in our acts of engagement with them.
The sephiroth are not the same as the chakras. Both the chakra system and the sephira system are maps. Behind these maps lies the reality. In Kabbalah, Tiphareth is the place of the Sun, and the Sun has an outer court and an inner court. Outside, Tiphareth is the expression of individuality, and inside it is the individuality itself. Outside, it is the hot-headed assertion of self (the Sun). Inside, it is the peace beyond the sacrifice of that hot-headed self.
I did this for the first time and the only chakra I felt was my heart vibrating like crazy! So does that mean all the energy is stuck at my heart center?
@@lyamchristopher2393 it didn’t feel bad! I’m use to feeling my heart chakra. Even before I knew what a chakra was, I would feel it. Way before I came into esoteric wisdom and I would pray, I would feel it’s vibration. I would like to know what does that mean! Thank you for this video and your wisdom and knowledge 🙏🏽❤️
@@Adoil0110 Interesting. In my experience the pleasant sensations go away when the system gets clearer. Pleasurable sensations are usually an easing of the congestion and the subtle suffering. The real joy exists beyond the pleasure. In the freedom from the pleasure/pain dichotomy.
@@lyamchristopher2393 Thank you for sharing your wisdom. I used to think that the more palpable and tactile the chakra is, the more "powerful" and "abundant" the energy in that place is.
@@nietwojinteres7278 That can seem to be the case, because when you release the energy flow, it seems as though the chakra was like a batter waiting to release a charge.
I haven't experienced it! Not permanently. As you might guess, the ego is like most demons; it tends to reconstitute. However, there are intimations of what it's like. In some senses, it might seem a little bit like a let down because one no longer derives satisfaction from the kinds of entertainment one used to seek. You have to get used to feeling perfectly at peace without having to go out and make it happen.
Greetings Lyam, I ordered your book "Kabbalah Magic" on the Amazon, I would appreciate if you accept it. I come from a yogic and Eastern background and was looking a way to get into the Hermetic lore of Golden Dawn magic, best regards
@@lyamchristopher2393 The amazon order of the book, it somehow remains stuck in pending state and it will not reach shipping, I have tried several times. "We will email you when we have an estimated delivery date". Probably I'm not the only one with this problem
@lyamchristopher2393 You mentioned some living “people” who have attained Enlightenment, I was just wondering, what’s your perception of Dr. Robert Gilbert? He was allegedly initiated through the Rosicrucian tradition. He speaks somewhat abstractly at times, but his energy, his attitude and perspective… He seems like the real deal, but sometimes, based on the way he talks about things, I’m not sure if he knows “the map is not the territory.” But, it can be a chore to track our language at all times, especially when teaching. His demeanor, his attitude, and his tone even somewhat remind me of you. Just curious.
I think you're onto something there. People can be amazing fonts of information, but is that what an initiate is? Or for that matter, is that what a teacher is? A dispenser of information?
@@lyamchristopher2393 I guess a great teacher doesn’t want to convey information so much as they do the true experience of whatever it is they’re teaching. That and to help their pupils develop the ability to solve their own problems and sort things out for themselves; to be a leader, not a follower.
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Oops! Misspelled Choronzon. Never going to hear the end of this! 🤣
Nah, this is the RUclips comments section, everyone is nice here.
It's apropos actually for the entity-being-demon of dispersion! They don't wish to be still and are often a moving 🎯 and, I imagine, wish to be everywhere and nowhere and nobody and everybody! All that jazz🎷!
That’s kind of you. Maybe I spelled it correctly for the first time in over 400 years! And you know…. “Errors” like this can end up creating entire, new systems of magic! 🤣
When I first saw the name years ago I thought it was corazon 😂
It's okay though because you misspelled it the same way I mispronounce it.
The actual experience of the kundalini awakening process can be legitimately terrifying. It's started to unfold for me a few times. Once successfully, but I'm sorry to say the shift in consciousness wasn't permanent. It happened to me again last night, and that's the reason I'm here, writing this comment. I thought I was ready for it, but I wasn't. As the feeling of energy started to climb towards my head, I felt my whole body start shaking uncontrollably. Once the feeling of energy reached my head, everything, my whole sphere of sensation had turned into a humming, vibrating sensation. Essentially, the world felt like an earthquake. I knew "I" was going to die. It felt like something was trying to rise up and kill me, exactly as Lyam described. (Perhaps "Jaws" WOULD BE a better substitute for Choronzon that we can all relate to! Inside joke with Lyam! Haha!) When I couldn't take it anymore, I resisted and the vibrating instantly stopped, but the fear didn't. I was scared all night. The anxiety was so bad that my clothes and bed were literally soaked with sweat. I had nightmares and visions all night, mostly during that weird feeling of existing somewhere between being asleep and being awake; things killing me and my family; the world ending. It was the worst anxiety I've ever experienced.
Ironically, years ago, around 2015, it just happened for me one night, spontaneously. Although I was afraid, I had the added benefit of being naive. So, I just instinctively trusted it. This time, when the sensation of energy reached my head, I just "let it kill me." When it reached its peak, it was legitimately like a whole-body climax. It felt like the energy burst out of the top of my head, and simultaneously sounded like a shotgun went off between my ears. I was launched out of my body.
I now fully suspect this is the exact same experience that is described by DMT users when they say they have "blasted off!" I left my physical body for a while, and I instinctively knew I could go anywhere in the world that I wanted to go, just by thought alone. For a little while, I flew over the ocean and I felt totally and completely free. When I felt that experience was ready for it's finish, I just automatically thought of my body, (or should I say it thought of me?) and boom! I was right back "in" it! Almost instantaneously, and without any effort on my part, I fell into a blissful, dreamless sleep.
Until now, I've only ever attempted to share these experiences with a very select few people; the people I trusted the most at the time. I felt like they thought I was nuts, even though they were TRYING to believe me. I share them now, publicly, in a sincere effort to help people who are suffering and are after the real thing. And because Lyam has inspired the confidence in me to try and help.
I have been practicing magic in some capacity for nine years and I still see myself as a Neophyte. I have NOT successfully completed all of the grade work up to the portal. I will, however, never give up on doing ALL the work required. And that is my unsolicited advice for anyone out there who may want it or need it. Never give up. It's much easier said than done, but try not to be afraid. And never be afraid to be THE FOOL! We truly are all in this together, even when we can't feel it. Especially when we can't feel it!
Above all, remember real spirituality is FEELING, NOT A THOUGHT! Enlightenment is NOT a cognitive process! It's an EXPERIENCE! And don't be like me! Save yourself some pain and heartache! I have made every mistake imaginable during the curriculum work. Everything Lyam has said not to do, I have done it. My sincere advice? Listen to him. Complete the grade work. Follow the rules. They're in place for a reason. In other words, RESPECT our teacher!
Well, I have definitely talked enough for one day, but I do genuinely hope all of you aspiring magicians are making the most of your adventures out there in our magical world, and I wish you the best of luck. You've got this. You can do it!! All of us can.
Thank you.
Thanks for sharing and for word of encouragement.
This experience is extremely parallel to what Naveen Paar describes in his books regarding the kundalini process and the golden dawn current. Blessings to you friend, thank you for sharing your experiences!
I like this gentleman's delivery and I recognize his perspective as being authentic.
yep, no drama or ego BS.
Oh boy. These rituals don't seem like much at first but keep going with them 🤯
Sometimes during MPR I suddenly remember some forgotten emotional stuff from childhood and then I just cry.
As I'm sitting here watching this I can recognize the ring of truth in what you're saying. I recognize that that at least we have some things in common & that's a good thing because I've been so alone for decades. Hearing you is actually bringing back much of the same perceptual state that I had while I was practicing back in the 90's & it's quite weird because it's both comforting & frightening at the same time. I'm actually quite surprised that you have been able to put into words these experiences because I never could adequately express them. To someone who had no experience it probably still wouldn't make a lot of sense but I understand you.
I’m fairly new to Magick. Your book is the first book I ever bought on the path. I’m so glad you started this RUclips channel
I had accidental kundalini awakening when I was tripping of psilocybin mushrooms to cure my depression. I gained knowledge during my trip. I felt like my wavelenght went to higher plane of existence, somewhere you cant comprehend as normal sober. I had read that in mushroom trip you get good trip if you accept what mushroom gives you, so I went in and waited what I was shown.
I was inside a huge sylinder, that had colors in same order as your picture at 4:00. Walls of cylinder where some kind of a story drawn with single line it was similar stories you see at carvings of hindu temples. I was ball of light rising in sylinder, I tried to read art at wall, but I was rising too fast. When I got to roof of cylinder there was great white light. I felt connected with everything, I felt 11/10 bliss, I felt meaningful and loved. I understood that there is one consciousness formed out of many. I saw that death is only for the body and "soul" or "awarness" moves to higher plane.
I believe in reincarnation, I'm not a buddhist, my religion or "belief" of reality is complicated, its mix of many. I have feeling that souls can decide to come and be born and that we are not really a prisoners of earth.
I've been 5 years free of depression, I will fight all my will not to get depressed again. I have lost my "ego" or as I call it "narrator". My "narrator" was a "demon" that brought up painful memories, shameful memories and all the bad I remembered. It would play them on loop, making me sad. It would tell me I'm useless person. I'm not sad its gone.
But in ego death it really doesnt die. "ego" does reset, you become master of your mind. Its like old saying Fire is good tool but deadly boss.
My mind is silent.
I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do as "enlightened" person. My patience has risen a lot. I understand why things happen, I can see cause and effect.
I have gained connection to my "heart." If I come to face of a problem I quiet down and ask in my mind a question. I wait and I get answer.
After my kundalini awakening I have started to study kundalini, meditations, "magic", Hemi-sync and lot more. To me "magic" is like wishing machine. You make a realistic wish, of something that could happen.
Still I cant call myself enlightened, there is so much I dont know. I'm not sure why Im writing my story here, I just have feeling that I need to.
I'm glad you did! It's awesome!
That part about your ego being a mean demon really hit me. I understand now how intolerant I must become to violence from my own mind toward myself.
@@koalamama2 Thank you for your reply, More insight about the "demon"/"narrator", I think my enviroment caused negative feedback loop in my mind. I used to be bullied at school. As developing mind I assumed there was reason I was being bullied and came to believe the bullies.
Negative feedback loop is when you think of something shameful/bad memory, your mood reacts to your mindstate that causes you mind to bring up another negative thought and loop continues.
That is why you should think happy thoughts and smile. Your brain thinks you're happy and you become happy.
Thanks for sharing.
@@lyamchristopher2393 DO you have any book recommendation about, what to do after "enlightement".
I'm glad I've had multiple chances at this stage, so that I can know it's not too late to try again. In my last encounter Jan 11, it's to me like a trial by fire where the most personal attempts are made to provoke my ego and bliss. But, I am a single parent and a three day match with the abyss was out of the question. Now, my ego is eager to build energy to that state again until I make it past and be done with ego if even possible so I can be a better servant for my family and prime creator. Not that I am not already trying.
Another excellent video! Some of the stuff this process has put me through has been utterly horrific, but I find the negative manifestations get a little smaller and less powerful each time they come around as long as just sit the with emotions instead of let them drive my actions. Its no wonder the primary symbol of awakening is one of the most heinous torture devices ever devised (the cross).
I'm so grateful that you were recommended to me as someone to follow on RUclips. Your teaching has helped me learn and better understand these topics.
He is absolutely amazing. I am learning so much more about things I thought I knew it all pretty well.
Thank you so much. I asked another youtuber for their opinion on the MP two days ago due to their natural insight. Then here you come with all of the connecting bits at the end here, answering my question.
9:16 I like the idea of magick being a "reconstruction" of one's psyche. BTW - Thanks for putting this channel together Lyam. I've enjoyed your KABBALAH MAGIC (2006)
book for many, many years. 20:06 After 25 years of magickal practice myself, thinking of it as the "death of the Ego" is actually a misrepresentation of the word "death". Rather, "death" should be seen as a TRANSFORMATION and TRANSMUTATION of the Ego into it's "True Self" (Higher Self, Lower Genius, Causal Self, Holy Christ Self, many terms used, etc.). As you "turn" your Mind around from the outer level of the material sense world through true Yoga (Pranayama, Pratyahara, Dharana, and Dhyana) and begin focusing It inward, the Mind then begins reacquainting Itself with the Subtle Bodies (Etheric/Astral) and all their energies and forces, and finally merges into the Mental and Causal Levels of the True Self, thereby returning Home. Truly, the Middle Pillar Ritual is one way of building and strengthening the the "Rainbow Bridge" (Antakarana) between the built up "Ego" and the original incarnating "Soul" in the Causal Body, which will gradually cause the built up Ego to "marry" (Great Marriage, Great Work) the Causal Immortal Self, the real YOU (who you really are), and become one "New Thing" through that spiritual alchemical marriage. The Red King and the White Queen "marry" and produce a 3rd new thing, the Rebis, an Ego infused and joined together with it's Higher True Original Self, which is the entire meaning of the Great Work.
I love your videos Lyam, this is so helpful. For maybe near 20 tears now I have not got to grips with the term Ego, and Ego death etc. because I know there is a "me" that interacts with, and experiences things and events etc. By explaining we have a persona and an Ego was a Eureka moment for me. That makes perfect sense. I often wondered if I would still enjoy music and other things I am passionate about if I lost my Ego. Your definition majes perfect sense to me. Thank you so very much.
Thank you for all the work you do for us all!
Since 2020, doing these rituals and never listened the better explanation what I went through, or experienced.and it was really not what I thought..in fact sometimes I thought I am doing it wrong, or perhaps it's not for me.ego death is in process, I won't say it's finished, but nw I have developed the attitude of acceptance and try to look at difficult situation as what they telling me about me. I discovered parts work and realized, how division is at play against my own self, how one part of me wants a totally different thing than the other part.trying to come at peaces with my pieces and your videos really helped me.gratitude
Another thing I'd love to hear more about is the assumption of god forms and how one might use them outside of a lodge setting.
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I deeply resonate with the idea of coming at these things form a somewhat skeptical or questioning mind set. I really love that. Everything should be questioned. Wonderful information, I look forward to your next video. thank you.
Hello I am new to this world of Kabbalah. I'm reading your book and in the Neophyte stage. I will say Jungian psychology helps before walking into this world. I've worked on interfacing the shadow which shows the hidden and terrible of my psyche. Also experiencing painful events and taking accountability is one way to kill the ego. My ego has been stubborn. I'm not 100% ego-less. I look at the ego as an anchor in this reality, however it is not to be cling too. For me the middle pillar ritual is an exhilarating experience. I'm not sure I'm doing it right, but after I visualize the light showering me I imagine myself rising from malkuth into yesod and then into tiferet and trying to communicate with my HGA. I can see my higher self but not much chit chat lol anyway I feel progress and I am grateful for this experience. Thank you for your book and making this youtube channel. Thankful for you
Right ON Brother! about the Middle Pillar.
I really resonated with this video
Thank you, ur channel has been the most help for me. To have all the information in one area and said in a comprehensible manner is invaluable. Cheers
I have been interested in esotericism and the occult for a couple of years now and aquired quite a number of texts (and a bit of debt) but do not recall having seen your book anywhere. Glad this video appeared in my feed today. Please continue sharing your well considered advice.
Another fantastic video, thank you! It would be wonderful to see a video on the body of light, and how the 4 world color systems play a role in the development of the psyche. Thanks again for all you are doing 🙏🏻❤️
Can we have a video on vibration? As in when we vibrate the Names, I'm not sure if the 'pitch' matters. My vibrations always seem lower than recordings I've heard in the past. I have a baritone singing voice so I guess naturally my voice is lower but should I try to vibrate at a higher pitch? Does that matter at all?
In all the books i have read i never read the pitch coming up. Interesting question. My experience is the lower the better. I feel with lower tones it's not just the throat vibrating but also the chest and sometimes even the solar plexus. Probably also depends on the natural pith of the voice. I have quite a deep voice and do some throat singin as well, so i can rumble naturally without straining the vocal cords.
Another great one man! Probably the most nuanced explanation of the Middle Pillar out there 👌🏻
Really enjoying your channel. Very thoughtful and engaging. Looking forward to seeing more.
Hi LTC, thanks for this and your other videos, they've been immeasurably helpful.
Regarding kundalini, it's actually a very recent idea that there is only one kundalini which moves upwards. The oldest tantrik records we have show 2 or even 3 kundalinis: one upwards from the root, one downwards from the crown, and one at the heart where the other two meet. The notion of the upwards+downwards meeting at the heart makes me think of the holy hexagram, with the upwards will of the aspirant being met by the downflowing grace of Divinity.
Regarding the middle pillar, I've been struggling to reason out why the instructions say to face west. If you have any wisdom to impart regarding that it would be very appreciated.
Cheers, and have a good one, mate!
The Tree of Life is a symbol of manifestation. As such, it tends to manifest in the east, the place of the rising Sun. The wellspring of flow.
In an exoteric or dualistic practice, one tends to face into the Tree (into the east)--as though worshipping the wellspring of manifestation. In a heretical, non-dual practice, one backs into the Tree. One BEOMES it. Or rather, one acknowledges that one already IS it.
@@lyamchristopher2393 Ah, that makes sense, thank you so much!
I love this .... I appreciate your calmness, evenness , gentleness while speaking . It makes it easy to understand . I wonder if you could speak some time on keeping safe boundaries in so-called Magickal communities . So also on protecting one's own energy field .... I hope that makes sense. Thank you ~
Thank you 🔥❤️Blessings Profound!
Since I first started doing the middle pillar ritual several years ago, I think about 4 years now, I started noticing a significant reduction in body pain while doing the exercise.
Particularly my feet. My feet used to constantly hurt so bad from standing on stone for 12-16 hour long days but when I did the middle pillar by the end of the exercise I always felt a significant reduction in pain. Especially feet and back pain, it isn’t permanent but often reduced pain for hours afterward.
And over the years my pain has definitely gotten significantly better in general.
Wim Hoff breathing exercises also seems to help significantly as well. Is there an explanation for this? I’m sure I’m not the only one to have experienced this.
The Wim Hof breathing technique gives a rush of adrenaline, which helps tone both the stress response and immunity. As a result, the body reacts to stress and pathogens with less severity. With less inflammation. The Middle Pillar can manifest many effects.
As far as video requests go, I’d love to hear you talk about the “flow-state.” ❤️
thank u so much for your videos u actually the one whoi could finally understood what i was reading about i would like you to explain the crossing of the abyss and what is the abyss
That was incredibly fascinating.. and terrifying. Loved it!
I myself started this journey as a simple fisherman thrown into the realm of intuitive guidance where I realized there were unseen forces trying to get me to ascend into higher consciousness. Now I'm an aspiring psychic and tarot reader with a lot of learning to do.
Now my guides have been pushing me more towards tree of life knowledge.
Honestly it feels like a crossroads where there may or may not be a "wrong" direction to go.
Maybe you can do a video on pathway direction? If that makes sense.
Thank you!
Lyam’s book, Kabbalah Magic and the Great Work of Self Transformation, is a good place to start if you’re leaning towards ascending the Tree of Life. It also does have you doing exercises involving Tarot, which will help if being a Tarot Reader is what is calling to you.
@TheCorporateHermeticist I'm limited to public library books at the moment but I'll look. Thanks for the recommendation🙏
You can find the PDF for free online. Just buy the book when you have the money (not only to have a physical copy, but more importantly to show support). If you’re serious, it’s worth it and very fairly priced. I’ve never found a better book on self-initiation. Blessed be.
Thanks for the video, always a clear and interesting perspective..
Getting a master upgrade . I honor you
As someone going through the curriculum in Kabbalah, Magic and the Great Work of Self-Transformation book, thank you for these ritual videos, they give a good perspective of what is going on in life when progressing in the system. Any chance you'd do companion videos for the grade work in the book? Something that would expand on the mythology, perhaps?
Thanks for the comment. Which mythology do you mean?
Oh, a bit on building the 4 trees within the aura would be especially helpful!
Good call. The next video is about the Four Worlds.
Wonderful explanations! I love hearing your perspective and the viewpoint from an initiate. I find this helps many of us along the path.
I'd love to hear your take on what is happening in initiation as a whole, more on the HGA, and crossing the abyss as others have stated. We hear about this a lot, but again your take on it would be fascinating.
This is a great explanation, thank you. In the book it says to do this standing or lying down. Is it ok to do it sitting on a chair or does that interrupt the straight line of energy of the pillar. Thank you again
In a chair is fine. Or seated in a half lotus. You can machine your feet sticking straight down into Malkuth.
This reminds me of the Taoist Alchemical Microcosmic Orbit
Would you elaborate as to why you don't mention the colors of the spheres in your book? Isn't color part of the elements of the ritual?
Thanks for sharing your practice
You are right to point out the importance of the color system in Golden Dawn magic. The color scales of the sephiroth get introduced in the Elemental Grades, chapters 5, 6,, 7, and 8.
@@lyamchristopher2393 oh alright thanks! Have a great one
I admit I'm fairly new to this but allowing your inner demons to devour your ego seems like a bad idea. The definition I found for ego is as follows: "the part of the mind that mediates between the conscious and the unconscious and is responsible for reality testing and a sense of personal identity"
The fear of being eaten by imaginary predators is understandable. It's a natural, inherited fear.
Another way to look at this might involve watching the demons compulsively act out their urges and fear gestures in front of you, until they exhaust themselves and dissolve into empty space. And to likewise observe your "I" sitting still, observing them (not acting out) and dissolving into space along with them. Gone.
This is also quite scary for most of us. One way or another, it will eventually happen. You can spend your life avoiding the dissolution, like almost everyone does, and just wait until physical death for it to happen. That's not really a problem. But then, of course, you miss out on the experience of freedom from suffering while still incarnate.
I heard a saying from a Christian greek orthodox monk that the point of Christianity is to die before you die so you don't have to die after you die. I think thus us what Jesus meant when he said pick up your cross and follow me.
Yes, that saying appears over the gate of the Christian monastery at Mt. Athos. @@privatecitizen4001
On Authenticity, Ego and Persona. How can we better understand, differentiate and work with each of these.
? Is that a question?
@@lyamchristopher2393 haha yes. Let me edit the question and write it more clearly🤗
@@someguy007 Since ego has no inherent existence, that question is easy enough to answer. There is no intrinsic difference between the persona and the ego. The ego is compulsive. When the compulsion for the maintenance of the persona is gone, then ego is gone. Does the persona still maintain itself? Yes, but you can let it go. That possible exists for all of us even now. In this very moment.
Hello Liam. Are you familiar with the miracle of the new avatar book? If so, would you explain the Dee-Hey-Thooth ritual outlined in that book? I have practiced it and I feel energy flowing much like the LBRP and Middle Pillar.
Can't say I'm familiar with it. Sorry. Sounds interesting, though.
Samekh is the Pillar. Samekh equates 120. Another more esoteric glyph for Samekh is the Egg.
Good video mate keep up the good work from Melbourne Australia
These responses mean a lot. Thanks!
You mentioned having the energy go up and then shower out from the top. How might the effects differ if one were to simply draw the energy up and down. Asking for friend who misread instructions.
Not sure. What's more interesting, I think, is the embedded scenario (the conditioning) that may have led him or her to that interpretation. Might be worth it for this person to explore that scenario.
is it necessary along the enlightment path to go through a severe depression phase? Eckhart tolle also talked about his s*icidal tendencies right before the moment of his enlightment. I feel like you have to "cross" the dark nothingness veil (I think it's called Sunyata?) before seeing the real light. I'd say the rise of depression is a good thing among people, however instead of fighting it they should go even deeper into it without giving in to it.
Is suffering necessary? No. Is it inevitable? Yes. Murphy's Law.
One thing to consider is that the modern world, in an attempt to ditch religion and the spiritual dimensions of the soul, ends up unwittingly worshipping two gods: Meaninglessness and Randomness. Confront these two gods head-on. They can only hurt you when you believe in them. And when you confront them--in your magical journal, let's say--notice what happens to them. Do they disappear? Not necessarily. Perhaps they can now assume their true forms.
@@lyamchristopher2393 very interesting! those two gods truly are the ruling gods right now. I wonder if the god of meaninglessness could be the same as Chronzon, and the best action would be to let it actually destroy "you" so you can find the real you? I mean to find meaninglessness even in your own being , and then voila! your true indestructible self emerges from the ashes of your supposed destruction? I don't know if I'm being clear, but I mean, one could achieve enlightment by being super nihilistic?
you talked about levels of sleep in one of your articles on forbidden realms, and there was one level before enlightment where the 'I' is faced with the vast sea of darkness, and the person should realize the I and the darkness are the last deception and so the person and the darkness become one? like the search for meaning ultimately leads to darkness, but only to realize that darkness is an illusion.
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Do more of practical show of the rituals
The next video is about vibration--though there won't be much demonstration.
Thank you for the video once again!
I would like to inquire why was "IAO" chosen instead of "YHVH Eloah va Daath" for the Middle Pillar in the Kabbalah Magic book. I recall reading somewhere that IAO has more transformative potential? I'm uncertain. Thanks in advance!
Simple. IAO is the Godname that the Golden Dawn taught me (taught by Regardie). I’m passing it on. 😌 But… I’m able to infer why it has become a word of choice.
The names work best when not too long, not too short. The divine name EL is too short (for ritual), so we spell it out first. ALEPH-LAMED-EL. The Hebrew name for Tiphareth tends to be too long.
In addition, IAO has a cthonic element. Very helpful for the Osiris current. This is a Hermetic system of magic, not a “pure” Kabbalistic one.
@@lyamchristopher2393 I am really thankful for the extensive reply! I for one am really grateful for the answers given as well as the content given in the videos :D
Given that we each have a relative Apophis that devours our own ego can this be abstracted so there is also a collective ego and therefore a collective Devourer/Apogphis?
Yes. The demiurge.
@@lyamchristopher2393 please stop blowing my mind.
@lyamchristopher2393 hello, I love your videos, watching them for some weeks now. I have studied the last 7 years Kundalini tantra yoga and just getting back into western enlightenment practices.
Upward or downward:
Kundalini(energy) is raised from the bottom upward that is true, she dissolves the energy centers(blockages) and unites with shiva at the third eye.
Now here 2 things can happen. Either they move together into the crown and dissolve into the absolute (Maha samadhi) or shiva and Shakti sink together down through all levels back into mooladhara(root). It's symbolizing the enlightened and integrated being.
As far as I understand the middle pillar as you are describing it shiva(consciousness) penetrates downward into the depth of malkuth, filling plane after plane with awareness till reaching the source of energy itself.
In tantric tradition there are 4 main paths, shakti, Ganesh, Vishnu and shiva.
I personally have focused on shaktism but I believe Ganesha follower start as well from the bottom.
The shaivait/nath traditions start with awakening the third eye. There are lots of Shakti pat/transmission of energy in the system and it looks more like the western version to me.
All the best and thank you so much for helping to bridge this gap between east and west 🙏
The concepts arising in these systems are real enough, I suppose, but only as concepts. To get to the reality behind them, you must settle into making meaning out of them, while at the same time letting them go. We won't find reality in these systems and concepts. Instead, the reality simply exists in our acts of engagement with them.
i got the book bro holy shit that was good
Haha. Thanks!
Why wouldn't Tiphareth represent the heart as a psychic center instead of the solar plexus?
The sephiroth are not the same as the chakras. Both the chakra system and the sephira system are maps. Behind these maps lies the reality. In Kabbalah, Tiphareth is the place of the Sun, and the Sun has an outer court and an inner court. Outside, Tiphareth is the expression of individuality, and inside it is the individuality itself. Outside, it is the hot-headed assertion of self (the Sun). Inside, it is the peace beyond the sacrifice of that hot-headed self.
Greetings. I am Victoria. I am here in Plano Texas on the other earth . Where are you?
I did this for the first time and the only chakra I felt was my heart vibrating like crazy! So does that mean all the energy is stuck at my heart center?
Hard to say. Usually that means that an energy block is relaxing.
@@lyamchristopher2393 it didn’t feel bad! I’m use to feeling my heart chakra. Even before I knew what a chakra was, I would feel it. Way before I came into esoteric wisdom and I would pray, I would feel it’s vibration. I would like to know what does that mean! Thank you for this video and your wisdom and knowledge 🙏🏽❤️
@@Adoil0110 Interesting. In my experience the pleasant sensations go away when the system gets clearer. Pleasurable sensations are usually an easing of the congestion and the subtle suffering. The real joy exists beyond the pleasure. In the freedom from the pleasure/pain dichotomy.
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Thank you for sharing your wisdom. I used to think that the more palpable and tactile the chakra is, the more "powerful" and "abundant" the energy in that place is.
@@nietwojinteres7278 That can seem to be the case, because when you release the energy flow, it seems as though the chakra was like a batter waiting to release a charge.
Choronomnom hungry!
I always get a migraine after the Middle Pillar. Even if I do it a few times.
What happens after achieving the ego death while still alive?
I haven't experienced it! Not permanently. As you might guess, the ego is like most demons; it tends to reconstitute. However, there are intimations of what it's like. In some senses, it might seem a little bit like a let down because one no longer derives satisfaction from the kinds of entertainment one used to seek. You have to get used to feeling perfectly at peace without having to go out and make it happen.
Greetings Lyam, I ordered your book "Kabbalah Magic" on the Amazon, I would appreciate if you accept it. I come from a yogic and Eastern background and was looking a way to get into the Hermetic lore of Golden Dawn magic, best regards
When you say "accept it," what do you mean by "it"?
The order sorry@@lyamchristopher2393
@@lyamchristopher2393 The amazon order of the book, it somehow remains stuck in pending state and it will not reach shipping, I have tried several times. "We will email you when we have an estimated delivery date". Probably I'm not the only one with this problem
@lyamchristopher2393 You mentioned some living “people” who have attained Enlightenment, I was just wondering, what’s your perception of Dr. Robert Gilbert? He was allegedly initiated through the Rosicrucian tradition. He speaks somewhat abstractly at times, but his energy, his attitude and perspective… He seems like the real deal, but sometimes, based on the way he talks about things, I’m not sure if he knows “the map is not the territory.” But, it can be a chore to track our language at all times, especially when teaching. His demeanor, his attitude, and his tone even somewhat remind me of you. Just curious.
I think you're onto something there. People can be amazing fonts of information, but is that what an initiate is? Or for that matter, is that what a teacher is? A dispenser of information?
@@lyamchristopher2393 Of course not. It seems to me that a teacher points to experience and shares connection.
@@lyamchristopher2393 I guess a great teacher doesn’t want to convey information so much as they do the true experience of whatever it is they’re teaching. That and to help their pupils develop the ability to solve their own problems and sort things out for themselves; to be a leader, not a follower.
Ego is latin for I. If demons eat the inner "I", what remains in the body and where does the "I" go? Is this demonic possession?
The ego has no inherent existence. It is a mere assemblage of the demons you're referring to. It is, itself, a demon.
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What’s so wrong with the ego?
Kissed by a rose on the grey.