you've been through a LOT, and it's not surprising at all that those traumas have led to addiction. i'm so proud of you for not just getting help, but recognizing that the addiction is rooted in your traumas and your unhealthy thinking. you're doing some really, really hard work, but it's necessary work for you to get better. good luck, and remember we're all rooting for you.
@@minsoo30 It could possibly be an OC that just uses the image as a base. I hope it is at least :'D Not really ok due to our current social situation to change the skin colour of any character due to the implications it can make.
Venus seemed really natural & raw here, like no idol “selling a character” stuff (which is fine on its face, humans enjoy it), just a regular person talking about their life. Glad to see she’s back & still going.
I've been addicted to alcohol a few times and kicking it is NOT fun. I've also restricted food too much a few times too. I'm proud of you for dealing with it and trying to take care of yourself. do you have people in real life you can be open with that are safe?
Me too honestly, the pandemic got me in the deepest depression and alcohol helped me feel less anxious and I am still recovering from this unhealthy behavior
@venusangelic I feel for you. I'm happy that you seeked help. Please, never lose self-confidence again. You know several languages, you have an incredible adaptation capacity and despite being shy you are actually very sociable and autonomous. I think you could easily make money with your skills, because you're not a dull doll but a girl with a wonderful brain. That's why I started to follow you. Please believe in yourself. And if one day you feel alone lost in middle of nowhere with no one, YOU ARE NOT ALONE, you are at the right place at this moment, you have your brain and that anxious feeling is gonna fade away. Get well, believe in yourself, have trust in humanity. Hugs and love.
Shaky hands can also be a meds side effect; I’ve had it for over 10 years and honestly, I forget about it. Don’t worry too much about it, focus on you, you’re doing great things for yourself!
i been following you since you where starting on youtube soo mahy years ago, i seen your ups and downs and i am just very happy to see you now being in a good phase and i think you are strong for keep going back up! i really can relate to all the stuff you been going thru . i wish you the best , i really really do .
it seems like you have a lot of really good knowledge about how to deal with these difficult problems!! life isn't perfect but it seems like your hard work is paying off!!
I could cry watching this. I’m so proud of you for being so vulnerable about your feelings and reality. I haven’t heard you speak so coherently in some time and I worried for you a lot. We love you Venus!! Ps. My boyfriend and I have a dog named Venus but we call her Bean or Beanus and it reminds me of you sometimes. She’s also the cutest!
Venus, I’ve been subscribed to you since I was little; I’ve seen you grow into your authentic self and become more three to yourself. You are so strong. You’ve been through so much shit, and OGs like me are so proud of you. We know you can get through this, I know you can do it. Much love and we’ll always be there for you. 💕
You appear and sound so present and self aware in this update!! I’m genuinely so happy to hear from you in this mindset, I hope you continue to do well and have support, even if you get a little caught up again! Addiction and MI are a daily struggle, so please know those of us who know will understand and are not judging you!! Just very happy to see you in a clear and present state of mind 💗
my whole family is basically alcoholic and its crazy that every single one of them said the same thing like you about alcohol: it taste absolutely disgusting to them but they still drink a whole bottle of it bc they know they dont have do deal with their thoughts and reality anymore .... sadly this is a rly short temporary "solution" which just causes even more probelms..
Hi Venus! I have followed you on the Internet for a really long time. And although my problems aren’t similar to yours, it makes me feel something when you talk about your struggles. Sometimes people don’t asume people that look all “rainbows and cupcakes” have problems in their life. Sometimes the people that look the happiest and sweetest are hiding dark parts of themselves. You have dealt with so much over the years and I would just like you to know that I have been rooting for you Venus. I care a lot for you and wish you nothing but the peace you deserve. Thank you for never forgetting your fans ❤
It is beyond refreshing to hear someone so popular be so open and honest and vulnerable about such a serious topic. I know it might be weird to say thank you but thank you for being courageous enough to share your struggles with the world.
Healing is such a difficult and lengthy process. Times might get hard but it’s amazing how far you’ve already come. You’re doing great and I believe you’re going to do even better 💕 rooting for you and sending love!
I don’t have enough words to describe how much I needed to see this video and hear your story but also reflect on my own struggles and changes I’m going through myself. I’m so proud of you for not only admitting your demons but facing them head on so that you can recover! I’m in the midst of a breakup right now and some days just feel unbearable and overwhelming but your words hold a light in my heart “sometimes you crash and when you do, it’s only up from here!”. I’m working on self growth and acceptance too, but knowing I’m not alone in the daily battle of disordered eating or depression helps immensely. I wish you nothing but the best Venus, here’s to our bright future! Take care xoxo 🤍
Congratulations on your two months, I think you should also see a therapist , alongside everything else.. and most importantly, take care of yourself, one step at the time and one day after the other … there is no rush, you have the rest of your life ahead of you ❤
Congratulations on your 2 months, Venus! 💫 I’m so happy to see you’re doing well. I notice you even seem to have a more clear thought pattern and you’re able to get words out quicker. You’re literally glowing all around and it makes me soooo happy. We love you Venus
Very proud of you, Venus! Congratulations on your nearly two months of sobriety. 🎂 It's not easy, but you're a fighter (if that Yandere basement video wasn't evidence enough). Thank you for your honesty here. I am also delightfully surprised at your direct disclosure about the shakes. I think it's very strong and wise of you to have this transparency, and make it not such a big deal. Hopefully your RUclips comments section does not have to get flooded over it any more! Haha It's very good to hear your burdens lifting. Thank you for talking about taking the first step, and how it gets easier with momentum. You are so right. It reinforced an experience for me yesterday. Last year on April 30th, I was nearly abducted two streets from home, and have struggled with agoraphobia since. Yesterday I walked by myself back to that location and took a selfie to empower myself. The whole walk there, I was trying to silently sing Billie Eilish to distract myself from my anxiety, holding the paw of my security item stuffed animal tucked inside my tote bag. On the way home, I sipped a cherry lime soda in so much more ease. The first steps are always the hardest. ❤️
Sooooo proud of you too for facing your fears!! I hope you overcome your agoraphobia. (Have also for other reasons but it’s severe and want to fight it too). Thank you for sharing your fight too!
dang, I’m sorry Venus… I feel ya… Ive been in that place b4… and i totally relate. We r here for you. I admire you so much for opening up and sharing with us what you are going through!!!! We care a lot about you. U d best baby!! 💖🙂!!! XX
You look so natural and confident here! Loving seeing you like this. Congrats on your new sobriety, Venus! It's not easy but this will make you stronger
I’m going through recovery from an ed too rn, believe me when I say ITS WORTH IT!!! You might feel uncomfortable/bad right now, but keep going and nourishing your body. Ily Venus
For some reason I started following you years ago even though we don't even really have much in common. I think it was your bubbly personality that drew me to you. Seeing you talk about your struggles has really been inspiring, and it comes as a relief to see someone across the world be so relatable. Watching this video today, I'm just overcome with emotion for you and everyone who struggles with body image issues and alcoholism. You have been very open and raw about your experience and it is touching lives. You are worthy of love and appreciation, especially from yourself. Keep talking positively to yourself, and it will eventually leave a bigger impact than you might think. I see you. Hugs from a stranger across the world xxxx
Venus you sound a lot more concise and are getting the light back in your eyes. Your feelings and struggles are valid. Youre a good person at heart and still discovering yourself as well as your surroundings ..there's no shame in that. You are capable and you are worthy. Please don't give up, you can do this!! Now if I can get a bit personal, I've said it before but you are actually a big inspiration on my life. Going through scarily similar stuff in my upbringing, I left my home country around the same time you moved to Japan. I saw you leave a toxic situation and felt the strength to do the same. To this day, I still don't think I would've been strong enough to leave my @bus*rs if it wasnt for you..the cheery/funny girl around my age I watched growing up reveal she was a lot more like me than I thought ... and if she could take that first step, so could I. Thank you, Venus. I'll always be rooting for you. - stranger on the Internet
i follow you for like 7 years and this is the most raw video i've ever seen of you, i see so many things that changed drastically, idk if it's good or not, but I'm happy that you're at least conscious of what are your problems ecc. wish you the best x ( i kinda find it ironic the fact that you have these problems and your style changed to a jirai like style, still wish you the best xx :) )
Congrats on 2 months Venus! Glad to have you back and looking and feeling healthy. You are so smart and such a trooper... I can't imagine how hard it is to stop an addiction like that. And if you ever feel in a rut or have a bad day, don't be afraid to be selfish and reach out to someone you care about, or even come back to a video like this and read all the sweet and uplifting comments ❤
I'm proud of you, Venus. Thankfully giving up alcohol is one of the best, most liberating things ever! There is nothing to miss, nothing is lost by not drinking, it's not and was never that good. LIFE is what is amazing, especially given patience and gentleness. I'm 7 years sober with no regrets and no cravings, i have more energy and feel better A MILLION times better without it, there is no real use for it. Here is the beginning of life for real, life can return fully 🙏💜 Keep us updated, if you ever need to talk I'm here for you!
Venus I am so proud of you and the progress you've continued to make over the years. It's okay to make mistakes and slip up. We love you and support you
wow Venus, that was actually the first time I've liked a video in a heartbeat after finishing it, I am typically the person in the background that isn't really taking actions much like commenting or liking stuff, just watching and enjoying. I was also never the biggest fan of yours, nor was I a hater or anything. I must say that I was so impressed of your honesty and that REAL you. My Husband got into Alcohol addiction over the past 3 years and these were the hardest years of my life. He lost his job due to drinking at work, he lost his drivers license and in the end, he almost lost his wife. But he went through rehab, he saw all the damage that he have done to me and to himself and the people around him, he is sober since almost a year now =) I can only imagine how hard it must be to give it up completely but I am very glad that you found ways to deal with it and that you seem better now. Really good for you!
I love how honest you are in videos like these. I struggle with the same things so hearing someone I've been following for years and years talk about it helps a lot. Take care of yourself love. You are doing great
Youre feelings of why you drank alcohol weren't dumb, it's something a lot of people do.. I do the same with other things.. but you're right, it does take courage to just pull yourself up and get out of that mindset. Negative emotions are hard and life unfortunately doesn't come with a guide book so we're all trying different things to get to a better spot! Stay strong everyone! (i know easier said than done)
when i discovered you at age 10 i was completely mesmerized and wanted to exactly be like you. you were the prettiest person to exist for me, please dont be so harsh on yourself. theres nothing wrong with putting on a little weight you are beautiful no matter what !! you have so many people that love and support you, we know you can succeed!!! thank you for opening up and admitting to things, it isn't easy and please hang in there
Thank you for speaking about this so honestly and to so many people. So many people suffer with alcohol/drug/ED issues and not enough people talk about it and thus a stigma remains around it and people don't admit their problem or seek the help that they need. Speaking out helps so much..Best of luck to you on your recovery journey.
Another thing Venus .. remember emotions are like waves .. they will come and then they will go. Just sit with them and let them pass. Tell yourself, “I am feeling like this right now, but it will pass, I won’t feel like this forever.” Be brave and let it flow on by, write out how you are feeling, paint out how your are feeling, get a drum and beat out how you are feeling .. just don’t do what you already know is destructive. Again though .. exercise! How about yoga! Doll Yoga!
All emotions are temporary 🤍 almost everything we do or feel is temporary, and this is a great reminder that the pain doesn’t last forever. I know your comment was meant for Venus but I appreciated reading it 🤍
Venus I am very proud of you for those 2 months of sobriety. As an adult child of an alcoholic dad, I've been watching those ups and downs a lot and I know it's not easy to climb out of that that hole. I really wish the best for you and that you can keep being sober. I'm impressed by how self reflected and knowledgeable you speak here in this video. I've been here for years and as a silent viewer I feel like this time you really climbed out of that hole and can breathe fresh air after a long time. For you and for everyone that might have a hard time atm, I'd like to share my motto that helped me to get through everything so far: Every year it gets better. Looking back on every year I leave behind in the process of growing up, I can see how much more I developed and feel better. Even when I feel like shit, I know it's not as bad as it used to be the year before. Stay strong Venus and everyone!
Good Morning from Oregon Venus, There are a number of us (noting what others have written) who have been with you from the beginning. What a pioneer you have been! But now you have to blaze and travel trails of recovery. But it is not actually "recovery", because you have never been there. You are not alone, but it sounds like you feel you must do this alone, but you don't. YT, thanks to you and other pioneers, is a place to meetup and share with others, but it will never bring the intimacy we need as humans. This intimacy must be in person. Don't give up - you are loved and cared about more than you understand. Please stay with us and show others the way as you find it yourself. So good to see you Venus.
I've watched your channel for six years and I am still here cheering you on! Many people don't realise that addiction is very complex but we believe in you and we understand. You are loved Venus. Let's keep going together!
Dude I’m going through almost the exact same things right now. I keep things in and I don’t talk to anyone. It feels so good to tell people but I have no one to talk to.
I feel like this community and RUclips in general really helps you feel connected to people without even knowing them, so sometimes I feel comfortable sharing my story on here even when I have trouble telling people in my real life. Feel free to share here or anywhere in the comments and I promise someone will see you and hear ur story. You are never truly alone, even though our mind can tell us that we are. I’ve also found that therapy helps me a lot, so I could only hope you try it for yourself 🤍 therapists can’t judge, they are designed to just listen.
@@goodgriefff lol the thing is, last time i went to a therapy session i got tons of anxiety and i couldn't go back. Also they were really pushy with the medication and I know that it's addictive. I got better on my own just by walking everyday, but now is back a year later after having almost no anxiety at all. I think walking and making myself tired helps the most for me.
1 year sober! I promise it does get easier. Also i take meds as well. I got sober and started meds at the same time. It tooke me a solid year to get stable and feel okay with myself and life again. But the journey was HARD because I had to figure myself out and look at myself and tackle problems that i had shoved under a rug for so long. YOU are brave!!! You are facing things that most people never have the courage to face. GO GIRL! One step at a time!
Congratulations on doing so well and having 2 months. I really appreciate when you talk about your struggles so honestly on social media , it really helps other people struggling feel more seen. Im glad to see you back, I have been watching you from the start and I really care and relate to you. Here's to the future Venus ❤️🌟
Honestly the battle with alcohol and Ed is wild like then to get those moments when you think ur gonna get better but it’s just binging and then start all over I understand the cycle is hard but it’s always worth a try to take a step one Im so proud of you!!! Stay strong~!!!💕💕💕
Its such a joy, to witness a change for the better in a person but when that person, is someone you yourself have been changed by and you love them so much, because of this, then you celebrate their freedom, in a way thats hard to put into words. I sing inside and dont know where to put the song. You are so much more alive, animated, hopeful, positive, un-doped, strong, happy, self possessed - after what was an obvious fall, you are coming back to life and we love this. I have been through exactly the same e.d. / alcoholism journey so, even more, do I feel proud of you. There is so much love from fans, Vee. I know you feel it and that it is a support. Just for today, sweetheart.
hey! i am very happy to hear that you better and im glad to see you back taking steps to stop the alcohol addiction and eating more healthy is very brave of you and i hope you will do even better as time goes on!
I hope you get better more venus , don't lose hope , i also had abusive family that made me suffer a lot of mental illness so i love seeing venus get better mentally and physically🌼🌹
💗I'm so proud of u, please keep strong. U are such an inspiring person and I never see u give up. Your story will inspire many people to never give up.💗
Oh Venus! My heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing your story. You are a brave and beautiful soul. It is so nice to see & hear you talking from your soul. Sweetheart, your insights to yourself can carry you forward to a more emotionally healthy and grounded place. Find a physical activity that you enjoy, exercise stimulates endorphins and endorphins are the ‘feel good’ hormones. I am sending you loads and loads of healing, balancing and grounding energy!!
hi Venus, i've been following you for years and i just want to say, you have a beautiful soul and i really wish you the best. i also have been struggling with my self image and disordered eating, so i can really relate to what you're saying. but i'm not gonna give up. just like you, i'm going to fight it❤ thank you❤always looking up to you
I love you Venus!! You are an amazing person and so strong. You got this, I’m so proud of you! You deserve to live life to the fullest. I’m glad you’re back. 🥺❤️❤️❤️ (Ps you look really cute even wearing sweatshirts and no makeup!! (>w
When for when I’m weak then I am strong2 Corinthians 12 Hi Venus I’ve been praying for you for quite some time and I noticed on your Instagram you shared you now are in faith I’m so glad to see your finding your way to Jesus in faith in Christianity ✝️ not religion but getting to know who he is ,you can come to him without trying to be perfect he is-“ a best friend ..you can pray and talk to him like that ,how you talk to us .my brother is in rehab now but he finally surrendered his life to the faith and is doing much better ..too .I’ll keep praying for you and your healing journey I love you 🙏❤️
I agree with this about drinking alcohol, and that's what scares me about drinking. Dealing with the conseuqnces and what you do either unconsiously or sub-consiously, but at th end of the day, whatever you are dealing with is on you. It is a cliche thing to say that alcohol can affect the way you live and the way you function, and even the way you interact with your friends and family. What is not as easy is the eating disorders, which adds on to the stress. I understand what you mean when you say this, and yes, thinking back on the consequences you faced as a result of the issues you have are not worth reliving (if there is no other word for "reliving") because you would just be ruining your life more. You're doing great, Venus, and thank you for always being honest with your audience about your personal struggles, because anybody else here can easily relate and understand that they aren't the only ones who are under that stress. Hopefully, you're doing much better and just know that we're here to cheer you on. We're proud of you. 💫
You went through so much and it`s totally nderstandable that you still struggle. Like life sadly doesn`t pause for anyone to get better. I am proud of you
you’re doing so so so soooo well dear. it is hard and there will be bumps in the road, but you are such a strong person and we all know that you can achieve all what you want to achieve, no matter what is against you. honestly, you’re an inspiration. drinking to not have to deal with reality is not stupid. it’s a coping mechanism, and one that many people use and have been able to overcome. talking about your weaknesses is a great way to overcome them and kick that shit into the ground, so i’m glad you are able to do that much. learning to rely on the people around you is hard, but i’m glad you have loving friends around you to do that x really i am so happy for you. keep it up!!
sorry to hear about the ED and alcoholism. I've had an ED for 5 years and it's rough. I remember u talking about getting weight loss surgery once and I was wondering how you were doing with your ED now and if you were still struggling as it isn't just something you magically recover from..... i hope things get better for you. glad that you're able to talk about it, are aware of what's going on and have been sober for 2 months, that's a great achievement and I'm proud of you!
I'm happy your in your beginning steps in your recovery. Stay active keep your self busy and always open up to who ever your talking to in recovery . Also look into spirituality. Hinduism, Buddhism or orthodox Christianity. Meditation, chant mantras and pray everyday.
Been a silent supporter for many years not because of what you do but because I could sense a beautiful soul underneath everything. I think unconditional love has the power to heal you after many years of perverted conditional love from your mother. The important thing is that you are growing and doing your best. So proud of you for how far you’ve come. Every day it will get easier.💕
Thanks venus! I used to have a healthy relationship with alcohol, but slowly as I've gotten older/into my 20s I've noticed myself slipping into alcoholism. I can relate so much to everything you are saying. Lying about the amount I'm drinking, drinking way more regularly and in much larger quantities and doing it to avoid facing the real world. The aftermath was awful and always left me questioning why I drink at all. Blacking out and never remembering what you said is horrifying when you have OCD and you end up implanting very scarring false memories. I haven't drank for 3 days and thats usually the longest I go. I reached out and was honest with my boyfriend because of this video and he's helping me before it gets too late. I really want a drink, but not today. Congrats on 2 months!! Keep going.
I hope you're feeling better! It's really good to hear you speak better too! Your speech sounds a lot nicer and more audible! Also, do you have friends around you? It's so important to have a good support system!!
I wish you the best Venus, stay strong💞 YOU are BEAUTIFUL, and brave for speaking about your problems. Remember that the inside is what matters, and be kind to yourself (you deserve to be healthy)
you've been through a LOT, and it's not surprising at all that those traumas have led to addiction. i'm so proud of you for not just getting help, but recognizing that the addiction is rooted in your traumas and your unhealthy thinking. you're doing some really, really hard work, but it's necessary work for you to get better. good luck, and remember we're all rooting for you.
Amen!
Ikr
I'm pulling for you. You can do it.18 years sober here.I completely understand.
That's so impressive! Congratulations to you too
i’m so sorry to hear about the things you’re going through venus… just know we’re here for you and we will always be 🤍🤍🤍
Why is the character in ur pfp blackwashed?..
@@minsoo30 ik you did not just…
@@minsoo30 Many people do not know that this character is not black. The first time I saw the character it was under this appearance
@@minsoo30 It could possibly be an OC that just uses the image as a base. I hope it is at least :'D
Not really ok due to our current social situation to change the skin colour of any character due to the implications it can make.
@@minsoo30 there’s no such thing as black washing lmao💀
Venus seemed really natural & raw here, like no idol “selling a character” stuff (which is fine on its face, humans enjoy it), just a regular person talking about their life. Glad to see she’s back & still going.
I've been addicted to alcohol a few times and kicking it is NOT fun. I've also restricted food too much a few times too. I'm proud of you for dealing with it and trying to take care of yourself. do you have people in real life you can be open with that are safe?
Yes I do
@@VenusangelicOfficial oh wonderful💜. I'm still learning how to deal with negative emotions, I wasn't raised to know how. It's difficult
Me too honestly, the pandemic got me in the deepest depression and alcohol helped me feel less anxious and I am still recovering from this unhealthy behavior
What do you mean by kicking it ?🤔
@@abinalfa quitting alcohol, detox
@venusangelic
I feel for you. I'm happy that you seeked help.
Please, never lose self-confidence again. You know several languages, you have an incredible adaptation capacity and despite being shy you are actually very sociable and autonomous. I think you could easily make money with your skills, because you're not a dull doll but a girl with a wonderful brain. That's why I started to follow you.
Please believe in yourself. And if one day you feel alone lost in middle of nowhere with no one, YOU ARE NOT ALONE, you are at the right place at this moment, you have your brain and that anxious feeling is gonna fade away.
Get well, believe in yourself, have trust in humanity.
Hugs and love.
Shaky hands can also be a meds side effect; I’ve had it for over 10 years and honestly, I forget about it. Don’t worry too much about it, focus on you, you’re doing great things for yourself!
I have it since my postnatal depression, when I get upset or anxious, it's nine years now so I don't think it's going away.
I have it since my postnatal depression, when I get upset or anxious, it's nine years now so I don't think it's going away.
i been following you since you where starting on youtube soo mahy years ago, i seen your ups and downs and i am just very happy to see you now being in a good phase and i think you are strong for keep going back up! i really can relate to all the stuff you been going thru . i wish you the best , i really really do .
it seems like you have a lot of really good knowledge about how to deal with these difficult problems!! life isn't perfect but it seems like your hard work is paying off!!
Glad to see you back, you was a pioneer of living doll lifestyle, things changed a lot, I hope you are right and doing great in your life
I could cry watching this. I’m so proud of you for being so vulnerable about your feelings and reality. I haven’t heard you speak so coherently in some time and I worried for you a lot. We love you Venus!! Ps. My boyfriend and I have a dog named Venus but we call her Bean or Beanus and it reminds me of you sometimes. She’s also the cutest!
Congratulations on 2 months sober. I'm so proud of you Venus.
Venus, I’ve been subscribed to you since I was little; I’ve seen you grow into your authentic self and become more three to yourself. You are so strong. You’ve been through so much shit, and OGs like me are so proud of you. We know you can get through this, I know you can do it. Much love and we’ll always be there for you. 💕
It gets worse before it gets better. I hope she'll get better. Steer clear from internet and alcohol
You appear and sound so present and self aware in this update!! I’m genuinely so happy to hear from you in this mindset, I hope you continue to do well and have support, even if you get a little caught up again! Addiction and MI are a daily struggle, so please know those of us who know will understand and are not judging you!! Just very happy to see you in a clear and present state of mind 💗
my whole family is basically alcoholic and its crazy that every single one of them said the same thing like you about alcohol: it taste absolutely disgusting to them but they still drink a whole bottle of it bc they know they dont have do deal with their thoughts and reality anymore .... sadly this is a rly short temporary "solution" which just causes even more probelms..
Take all the time you need to take care of yourself - body, heart, and soul. Your health and happiness will and should always come first.
Be healthy, respect your body, your life ...hope you'll be happy.
Hi Venus! I have followed you on the Internet for a really long time. And although my problems aren’t similar to yours, it makes me feel something when you talk about your struggles. Sometimes people don’t asume people that look all “rainbows and cupcakes” have problems in their life. Sometimes the people that look the happiest and sweetest are hiding dark parts of themselves. You have dealt with so much over the years and I would just like you to know that I have been rooting for you Venus. I care a lot for you and wish you nothing but the peace you deserve. Thank you for never forgetting your fans ❤
It is beyond refreshing to hear someone so popular be so open and honest and vulnerable about such a serious topic. I know it might be weird to say thank you but thank you for being courageous enough to share your struggles with the world.
Healing is such a difficult and lengthy process. Times might get hard but it’s amazing how far you’ve already come. You’re doing great and I believe you’re going to do even better 💕 rooting for you and sending love!
I don’t have enough words to describe how much I needed to see this video and hear your story but also reflect on my own struggles and changes I’m going through myself. I’m so proud of you for not only admitting your demons but facing them head on so that you can recover! I’m in the midst of a breakup right now and some days just feel unbearable and overwhelming but your words hold a light in my heart “sometimes you crash and when you do, it’s only up from here!”. I’m working on self growth and acceptance too, but knowing I’m not alone in the daily battle of disordered eating or depression helps immensely. I wish you nothing but the best Venus, here’s to our bright future! Take care xoxo 🤍
Congratulations on your two months, I think you should also see a therapist , alongside everything else.. and most importantly, take care of yourself, one step at the time and one day after the other … there is no rush, you have the rest of your life ahead of you ❤
Congratulations on your 2 months, Venus! 💫 I’m so happy to see you’re doing well. I notice you even seem to have a more clear thought pattern and you’re able to get words out quicker. You’re literally glowing all around and it makes me soooo happy. We love you Venus
Very proud of you, Venus! Congratulations on your nearly two months of sobriety. 🎂 It's not easy, but you're a fighter (if that Yandere basement video wasn't evidence enough). Thank you for your honesty here. I am also delightfully surprised at your direct disclosure about the shakes. I think it's very strong and wise of you to have this transparency, and make it not such a big deal. Hopefully your RUclips comments section does not have to get flooded over it any more! Haha It's very good to hear your burdens lifting. Thank you for talking about taking the first step, and how it gets easier with momentum. You are so right. It reinforced an experience for me yesterday. Last year on April 30th, I was nearly abducted two streets from home, and have struggled with agoraphobia since. Yesterday I walked by myself back to that location and took a selfie to empower myself. The whole walk there, I was trying to silently sing Billie Eilish to distract myself from my anxiety, holding the paw of my security item stuffed animal tucked inside my tote bag. On the way home, I sipped a cherry lime soda in so much more ease. The first steps are always the hardest. ❤️
Sooooo proud of you too for facing your fears!! I hope you overcome your agoraphobia. (Have also for other reasons but it’s severe and want to fight it too). Thank you for sharing your fight too!
dang, I’m sorry Venus… I feel ya… Ive been in that place b4… and i totally relate. We r here for you. I admire you so much for opening up and sharing with us what you are going through!!!! We care a lot about you. U d best baby!! 💖🙂!!! XX
Im glad to see you back venus❤ we were always here waiting
You look so natural and confident here! Loving seeing you like this. Congrats on your new sobriety, Venus! It's not easy but this will make you stronger
I’m going through recovery from an ed too rn, believe me when I say ITS WORTH IT!!! You might feel uncomfortable/bad right now, but keep going and nourishing your body. Ily Venus
For some reason I started following you years ago even though we don't even really have much in common. I think it was your bubbly personality that drew me to you. Seeing you talk about your struggles has really been inspiring, and it comes as a relief to see someone across the world be so relatable.
Watching this video today, I'm just overcome with emotion for you and everyone who struggles with body image issues and alcoholism. You have been very open and raw about your experience and it is touching lives.
You are worthy of love and appreciation, especially from yourself. Keep talking positively to yourself, and it will eventually leave a bigger impact than you might think. I see you.
Hugs from a stranger across the world xxxx
Venus you sound a lot more concise and are getting the light back in your eyes. Your feelings and struggles are valid. Youre a good person at heart and still discovering yourself as well as your surroundings ..there's no shame in that. You are capable and you are worthy. Please don't give up, you can do this!!
Now if I can get a bit personal, I've said it before but you are actually a big inspiration on my life. Going through scarily similar stuff in my upbringing, I left my home country around the same time you moved to Japan. I saw you leave a toxic situation and felt the strength to do the same. To this day, I still don't think I would've been strong enough to leave my @bus*rs if it wasnt for you..the cheery/funny girl around my age I watched growing up reveal she was a lot more like me than I thought ... and if she could take that first step, so could I.
Thank you, Venus. I'll always be rooting for you.
- stranger on the Internet
Venus 💖 we love you and I'm so proud of you for choosing recovery 💓
Welcome back! You look and sound sooooo much better! ❤️ Im proud of you!
i follow you for like 7 years and this is the most raw video i've ever seen of you, i see so many things that changed drastically, idk if it's good or not, but I'm happy that you're at least conscious of what are your problems ecc. wish you the best x
( i kinda find it ironic the fact that you have these problems and your style changed to a jirai like style, still wish you the best xx :) )
Congrats on 2 months Venus! Glad to have you back and looking and feeling healthy. You are so smart and such a trooper... I can't imagine how hard it is to stop an addiction like that. And if you ever feel in a rut or have a bad day, don't be afraid to be selfish and reach out to someone you care about, or even come back to a video like this and read all the sweet and uplifting comments ❤
Don't care about bullies, they are fools who are jealous of you, I hate you bullies
I'm proud of you, Venus. Thankfully giving up alcohol is one of the best, most liberating things ever! There is nothing to miss, nothing is lost by not drinking, it's not and was never that good. LIFE is what is amazing, especially given patience and gentleness.
I'm 7 years sober with no regrets and no cravings, i have more energy and feel better A MILLION times better without it, there is no real use for it.
Here is the beginning of life for real, life can return fully 🙏💜 Keep us updated, if you ever need to talk I'm here for you!
Venus I am so proud of you and the progress you've continued to make over the years. It's okay to make mistakes and slip up. We love you and support you
wow Venus, that was actually the first time I've liked a video in a heartbeat after finishing it, I am typically the person in the background that isn't really taking actions much like commenting or liking stuff, just watching and enjoying. I was also never the biggest fan of yours, nor was I a hater or anything. I must say that I was so impressed of your honesty and that REAL you. My Husband got into Alcohol addiction over the past 3 years and these were the hardest years of my life. He lost his job due to drinking at work, he lost his drivers license and in the end, he almost lost his wife. But he went through rehab, he saw all the damage that he have done to me and to himself and the people around him, he is sober since almost a year now =)
I can only imagine how hard it must be to give it up completely but I am very glad that you found ways to deal with it and that you seem better now. Really good for you!
It’s a process. I’m proud of you.
Venus, we're so full of joy that you're back! It's great that you take care of yourself ...we want you to be happy! :)
I just want to hug you! Really proud of you, your progress, vulnerability, and honesty!
I love how honest you are in videos like these. I struggle with the same things so hearing someone I've been following for years and years talk about it helps a lot. Take care of yourself love. You are doing great
Youre feelings of why you drank alcohol weren't dumb, it's something a lot of people do.. I do the same with other things.. but you're right, it does take courage to just pull yourself up and get out of that mindset. Negative emotions are hard and life unfortunately doesn't come with a guide book so we're all trying different things to get to a better spot! Stay strong everyone! (i know easier said than done)
when i discovered you at age 10 i was completely mesmerized and wanted to exactly be like you. you were the prettiest person to exist for me, please dont be so harsh on yourself. theres nothing wrong with putting on a little weight you are beautiful no matter what !! you have so many people that love and support you, we know you can succeed!!! thank you for opening up and admitting to things, it isn't easy and please hang in there
You're literally improving and learning something new about yourself everytime, and that's amazing 💕
Congratulations on sobriety!!! So proud of you Venus, good job 💕 you look lovely btw
Thank you for speaking about this so honestly and to so many people. So many people suffer with alcohol/drug/ED issues and not enough people talk about it and thus a stigma remains around it and people don't admit their problem or seek the help that they need. Speaking out helps so much..Best of luck to you on your recovery journey.
I'm so sorry your going through the but I'mma pray for you Jesus loves you hope you get better
I’m so proud of you💓remember recovery is not linear and it’s okay to have bad days but you’re so strong and you got this!! :3
you seem so much healthier and happier, i'm happy for you
Another thing Venus .. remember emotions are like waves .. they will come and then they will go. Just sit with them and let them pass. Tell yourself, “I am feeling like this right now, but it will pass, I won’t feel like this forever.” Be brave and let it flow on by, write out how you are feeling, paint out how your are feeling, get a drum and beat out how you are feeling .. just don’t do what you already know is destructive.
Again though .. exercise! How about yoga! Doll Yoga!
All emotions are temporary 🤍 almost everything we do or feel is temporary, and this is a great reminder that the pain doesn’t last forever. I know your comment was meant for Venus but I appreciated reading it 🤍
Venus I am very proud of you for those 2 months of sobriety.
As an adult child of an alcoholic dad, I've been watching those ups and downs a lot and I know it's not easy to climb out of that that hole. I really wish the best for you and that you can keep being sober. I'm impressed by how self reflected and knowledgeable you speak here in this video.
I've been here for years and as a silent viewer I feel like this time you really climbed out of that hole and can breathe fresh air after a long time.
For you and for everyone that might have a hard time atm, I'd like to share my motto that helped me to get through everything so far:
Every year it gets better.
Looking back on every year I leave behind in the process of growing up, I can see how much more I developed and feel better. Even when I feel like shit, I know it's not as bad as it used to be the year before.
Stay strong Venus and everyone!
Good Morning from Oregon Venus,
There are a number of us (noting what others have written) who have been with you from the beginning. What a pioneer you have been! But now you have to blaze and travel trails of recovery. But it is not actually "recovery", because you have never been there. You are not alone, but it sounds like you feel you must do this alone, but you don't. YT, thanks to you and other pioneers, is a place to meetup and share with others, but it will never bring the intimacy we need as humans. This intimacy must be in person. Don't give up - you are loved and cared about more than you understand. Please stay with us and show others the way as you find it yourself. So good to see you Venus.
I've watched your channel for six years and I am still here cheering you on! Many people don't realise that addiction is very complex but we believe in you and we understand. You are loved Venus. Let's keep going together!
Dude I’m going through almost the exact same things right now. I keep things in and I don’t talk to anyone. It feels so good to tell people but I have no one to talk to.
I feel like this community and RUclips in general really helps you feel connected to people without even knowing them, so sometimes I feel comfortable sharing my story on here even when I have trouble telling people in my real life. Feel free to share here or anywhere in the comments and I promise someone will see you and hear ur story. You are never truly alone, even though our mind can tell us that we are. I’ve also found that therapy helps me a lot, so I could only hope you try it for yourself 🤍 therapists can’t judge, they are designed to just listen.
@@goodgriefff lol the thing is, last time i went to a therapy session i got tons of anxiety and i couldn't go back. Also they were really pushy with the medication and I know that it's addictive. I got better on my own just by walking everyday, but now is back a year later after having almost no anxiety at all. I think walking and making myself tired helps the most for me.
Thank you for sharing this raw honest video ❤️
Sending you love and support Venus❤️ I'm sorry you went through hard phases in your life. You deserve the world 🥺
Venus it’s so nice to see you happy and well! You are on the right way and it will get better and better you will see!
1 year sober! I promise it does get easier. Also i take meds as well. I got sober and started meds at the same time. It tooke me a solid year to get stable and feel okay with myself and life again. But the journey was HARD because I had to figure myself out and look at myself and tackle problems that i had shoved under a rug for so long. YOU are brave!!! You are facing things that most people never have the courage to face. GO GIRL! One step at a time!
Congratulations on doing so well and having 2 months. I really appreciate when you talk about your struggles so honestly on social media , it really helps other people struggling feel more seen. Im glad to see you back, I have been watching you from the start and I really care and relate to you. Here's to the future Venus ❤️🌟
I hated how everyone was making up all this speculation about you and still bringing up past hardships. Really glad you're on a better path now :)
I stopped drinking about two months ago too! Rooting for you girl 💖
Proud of you! Both of you! Use your story to fuel your growth 🤍 rooting for you
Honestly the battle with alcohol and Ed is wild like then to get those moments when you think ur gonna get better but it’s just binging and then start all over I understand the cycle is hard but it’s always worth a try to take a step one
Im so proud of you!!! Stay strong~!!!💕💕💕
venus we really care about u
Its such a joy, to witness a change for the better in a person but when that person, is someone you yourself have been changed by and you love them so much, because of this, then you celebrate their freedom, in a way thats hard to put into words. I sing inside and dont know where to put the song. You are so much more alive, animated, hopeful, positive, un-doped, strong, happy, self possessed - after what was an obvious fall, you are coming back to life and we love this. I have been through exactly the same e.d. / alcoholism journey so, even more, do I feel proud of you. There is so much love from fans, Vee. I know you feel it and that it is a support. Just for today, sweetheart.
hope that you'll be happy in life, healthy and have someone that care about you ✨
hey! i am very happy to hear that you better and im glad to see you back
taking steps to stop the alcohol addiction and eating more healthy is very brave of you and i hope you will do even better as time goes on!
You are beautiful Venus I support you for five years
love the hair!
I hope you get better more venus , don't lose hope , i also had abusive family that made me suffer a lot of mental illness so i love seeing venus get better mentally and physically🌼🌹
You look and sound a lot better Venus ❤️ you got this!!
💗I'm so proud of u, please keep strong. U are such an inspiring person and I never see u give up. Your story will inspire many people to never give up.💗
the queen has returned
i havent watched the whole video yet, but, im really glad you were super transparent about what you were going through
Oh Venus! My heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing your story. You are a brave and beautiful soul. It is so nice to see & hear you talking from your soul. Sweetheart, your insights to yourself can carry you forward to a more emotionally healthy and grounded place. Find a physical activity that you enjoy, exercise stimulates endorphins and endorphins are the ‘feel good’ hormones. I am sending you loads and loads of healing, balancing and grounding energy!!
hi Venus, i've been following you for years and i just want to say, you have a beautiful soul and i really wish you the best.
i also have been struggling with my self image and disordered eating, so i can really relate to what you're saying. but i'm not gonna give up. just like you, i'm going to fight it❤
thank you❤always looking up to you
I love you Venus!! You are an amazing person and so strong. You got this, I’m so proud of you! You deserve to live life to the fullest. I’m glad you’re back. 🥺❤️❤️❤️
(Ps you look really cute even wearing sweatshirts and no makeup!! (>w
You can do it no matter how many tries it takes!
Glad to see you! I hope you'll get better, we are here for you!
When for when I’m weak then I am strong2 Corinthians 12
Hi Venus I’ve been praying for you for quite some time and I noticed on your Instagram you shared you now are in faith I’m so glad to see your finding your way to Jesus in faith in Christianity ✝️ not religion but getting to know who he is ,you can come to him without trying to be perfect he is-“ a best friend ..you can pray and talk to him like that ,how you talk to us .my brother is in rehab now but he finally surrendered his life to the faith and is doing much better ..too .I’ll keep praying for you and your healing journey I love you 🙏❤️
amen 🙏🏼
Welcome back! 🎆I missed you.🙁And take care of yourself!❤
I agree with this about drinking alcohol, and that's what scares me about drinking. Dealing with the conseuqnces and what you do either unconsiously or sub-consiously, but at th end of the day, whatever you are dealing with is on you. It is a cliche thing to say that alcohol can affect the way you live and the way you function, and even the way you interact with your friends and family. What is not as easy is the eating disorders, which adds on to the stress. I understand what you mean when you say this, and yes, thinking back on the consequences you faced as a result of the issues you have are not worth reliving (if there is no other word for "reliving") because you would just be ruining your life more. You're doing great, Venus, and thank you for always being honest with your audience about your personal struggles, because anybody else here can easily relate and understand that they aren't the only ones who are under that stress. Hopefully, you're doing much better and just know that we're here to cheer you on. We're proud of you. 💫
We love you, pretty girl! You’ll get through this! Be happy 💪🏼🥰💞
I like your hairstyle
You went through so much and it`s totally nderstandable that you still struggle. Like life sadly doesn`t pause for anyone to get better. I am proud of you
you’re doing so so so soooo well dear. it is hard and there will be bumps in the road, but you are such a strong person and we all know that you can achieve all what you want to achieve, no matter what is against you. honestly, you’re an inspiration. drinking to not have to deal with reality is not stupid. it’s a coping mechanism, and one that many people use and have been able to overcome. talking about your weaknesses is a great way to overcome them and kick that shit into the ground, so i’m glad you are able to do that much. learning to rely on the people around you is hard, but i’m glad you have loving friends around you to do that x really i am so happy for you. keep it up!!
sorry to hear about the ED and alcoholism. I've had an ED for 5 years and it's rough. I remember u talking about getting weight loss surgery once and I was wondering how you were doing with your ED now and if you were still struggling as it isn't just something you magically recover from.....
i hope things get better for you. glad that you're able to talk about it, are aware of what's going on and have been sober for 2 months, that's a great achievement and I'm proud of you!
Be thankful and grateful for your body for all that it does for you.
Thank you for sharing!
your english has gotten so much better!
We process emotions in similar ways. I hope you'll find peace and joy soon
I'm happy your in your beginning steps in your recovery. Stay active keep your self busy and always open up to who ever your talking to in recovery . Also look into spirituality. Hinduism, Buddhism or orthodox Christianity. Meditation, chant mantras and pray everyday.
Stay strong! 🤍
Proud of you!!
Been a silent supporter for many years not because of what you do but because I could sense a beautiful soul underneath everything. I think unconditional love has the power to heal you after many years of perverted conditional love from your mother. The important thing is that you are growing and doing your best. So proud of you for how far you’ve come. Every day it will get easier.💕
You got this girl! Like you said it’s only up from here! 💪
I loved it when she said that. “And when you crash the only way is up” 🤍
Thanks venus! I used to have a healthy relationship with alcohol, but slowly as I've gotten older/into my 20s I've noticed myself slipping into alcoholism.
I can relate so much to everything you are saying. Lying about the amount I'm drinking, drinking way more regularly and in much larger quantities and doing it to avoid facing the real world. The aftermath was awful and always left me questioning why I drink at all. Blacking out and never remembering what you said is horrifying when you have OCD and you end up implanting very scarring false memories. I haven't drank for 3 days and thats usually the longest I go. I reached out and was honest with my boyfriend because of this video and he's helping me before it gets too late. I really want a drink, but not today. Congrats on 2 months!! Keep going.
I like your hair! The first step is to admit it is causing a mismanagement. So best wishes hope to see the beautiful girl, Venus Angelic.
I hope you're feeling better! It's really good to hear you speak better too! Your speech sounds a lot nicer and more audible! Also, do you have friends around you? It's so important to have a good support system!!
I wish you the best Venus, stay strong💞 YOU are BEAUTIFUL, and brave for speaking about your problems. Remember that the inside is what matters, and be kind to yourself (you deserve to be healthy)