Psychologists, what's the most interesting mental disorder you've encountered?
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I saw a video recently of someone who had visual hallucinations who had a service dog trained to greet people. If no one was there, the dog wouldn’t greet so the man could tell what was real and what wasn’t. Incredible
Just went I thought I couldn't love dogs more, you drop this!
I've never heard of that type of service dog before, but it sounds really useful and important. I'm so glad it was able to help him.
omfg that’s genius though???
I’ve heard of some schizophrenic people who use their phone camera to see if their hallucinations are real. It doesnt work for all, but does work for some :)
I have seen one of such video too. Really fascinating and a great idea id say
IT = Intrusive Thoughts
That makes more sense. I thought he was just over thinking “it”
I do think in this case it just is 'it' like 'the dog is it and not she'.
@@cayenigmaI think you’re right, mainly because the “it is also apart of…” sentence. If it was Intrusive Thoughts, wouldn’t it OP have written “are also apart of”?
That doesn’t make sense in this context because he says “IT was essentially an hour and a half review where he said nothing”.
“Intrusive thoughts was essentially an…” makes no sense lol
I think the OP was just trying to type “it” and perhaps it autocorrected to caps or something? It’s the only word that makes sense in every context it was used in during the post.
I was thinking intensive therapy
it’s important to note that these intrusive thoughts about children in OCD are really the opposite of pedophilia, as the reason they are there is that they re the worst thing the person can possibly imagine. So nothing makes OCD sufferers more likely to assault children, as they are much less likely to do so than the general population
Is there medication available that can help with these intrusive thoughts? I'd find it weird if there wasn't...
This!
It was once explained to me like this, “OCD intrusive thoughts manifest as the absolute worst thing you, personally, can imagine being / doing. They’re a manifestation of the OCDers values, but mirror imaged” and that’s been very accurate for my own intrusive thoughts. I started getting them really bad after I had children, having intrusive thoughts as I fell asleep that I’d sleepwalk and murder my kids without knowing and shit. Because they’re the most important thing in the world to me and it’s the absolute worst thing I could imagine being / doing. Anxiety likes to go big or go home, I suppose lol
@@darkcreatureinadarkroom1617yes, anxiety meds at targeted doses tend to help. And there are treatments like RTMS have been shown to bring relief. Therapy also assists in coping.
@@darkcreatureinadarkroom1617 there is definitely OCD based therapy out there and OCD medication in general. It's known as an SSRI, serotonin medication. Anyone who has these intrusive thoughts are not to be feared, they only come about because the person with them has an intense fear/anxiety that they're somehow the evil person in the situation when they're not. It's ego-dystonic.
OCD with just IT is sometimes called Pure O. I have that but my IT have to do with forgetting something and ruining someones or somethings life. Unintentionally starting a fire or causing an accident because I was distracted or leaving the door unlocked and my animals dying. I could go on and on but I don't have rituals that are physical, it's all mental. And its ruined my life.
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That is, in fact, still a disability. All wheelchair users aren't completely paralyzed from the neck down, there are multiple reasons for needing a chair. Extreme weakness, degenerative muscle or bone thing, etc. Those people are called ambulatory wheelchair users.
Yes most wheelchair users aren't paralyzed. Wtf do they expect you to do if you can only stand for 45 sec etc.
Also I'd your mobility is restricted, you have a disability. Disability doesn't mean you can't do anything. Being near sighted is a disability. It's just one we easily accommodate with glasses.
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Everybody is convinced that wheelchair users can't move at all, presumably because that's all you even see in media.
As a result, wheelchair users are filmed, harassed, or attacked, and accused of faking if they move their legs or stand up in public.
@@saagabragi6938 This is why schools need to actually teach kids about the world. Stupid bloody education system.
Only Karens think wheelchair users are stuck there. I have seen movies before. I’ve also seen wheelchair users getting into and out of their cars at the supermarket. You cannot lean onto your leg if it is completely paralyzed. It won’t hold your weight. It’s crazy how some hoes will just verbally attack people because they aren’t vegetables.
A lot of these stories highlight what I have tried to explain to many people about paranormal experiences. When it is your own brain lying to you, you can not know the difference between reality and your own memory. But they all seem to counter logic, reason, and examples with some variation of "I would just know."
I think its because acknowledging it opens up so many more questions about our experiences. If your brain can make up something that feels so real, what other experiences are up for interpretation?
To many it's not an interesting quirk of the human brain, but a horrifying shattering of their perception of reality.
@@pennyforyourthots Consciously experiencing the shift of chemical changes in your body really screws up your perception of yourself and reality. -1 out of 10, wish i could un-experience this.
I've always pondered the idea that things like magic/paranormal is just science (etc) that we haven't figured out yet. The human brain and body can do so many things that it baffles me that people, let alone physicians, will straight up say something isn't possible. As for the paranormal stuff, I like to entertain the thought sometimes that it's still possible there might be things we can't sense but somehow briefly graces our realm of perception sometimes. I mean, there are colors and sounds that we can't see or hear. Plenty of things like gasses that are scentless and invisible to us that still affect us. Energy that we can't see but can feel or affects our bodies. Is it ghosts? Gods? Just our minds? Fun to think about.
I’ve had paranormal experiences, my sisters were there and saw it happening, I even caught the whole thing on camera. It’s the kind of thing that you have to see to believe
@@gracenotme671 I worked at a hotel in Mobile, Al back in the late 90's called Ramada on the Bay. It has since been destroyed by a hurricane. There were some happenings around there that some called paranormal. Chandeliers in the Banquet Room would swing around in a circle. Alcohol cages would rattle late at night after the bar closed. Phones dialing random numbers. Elevators moving without anyone in them. And phantom shadow once. I found the answer to all of them eventually over years of working the grave yard shift.
The point is many things can look paranormal. But have a mundane explanation, it's just you don't know what it is at the time.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Yes, dr.sporessss I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Yes, dr.sporessss I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporessss
I developed capgras delusion at 15 and was hospitalized. I’m now diagnosed with schizoaffective. I would only recognize my mothers voice over the phone. If they brought me into the visitation room Despite her voice sounding the exact same , if I saw her as she spoke I would have started screaming and trying to convince the staff that that wasn’t my mom, that they needed to let me back into the hallway because that wasn’t my mom and she was going to hurt me. That she had been replaced and I didn’t understand how they couldn’t tell that that was Not my mom. I was only allowed phone contact with my family and would sob with my mom on the phone over I didn’t understand why she couldn’t visit me and why there was an imposter. I was fully convinced my mom was in danger and I kept trying to convince her to go stay with my dad out of state because her imposter wasn’t a good person. I also latter developed it with my dog, convinced it wasn’t my dog -, that the hospital staff and imposter of my mom had replaced her and given us a fake dog that looked like her and there were cameras in the fake dogs eyes so they could spy on us. It’s terrible. I still get delusions and visual hallucinations -, I’m medicated now on paliperidone. Schizoaffective and phrenia run in my family. Hidden camera delusions are my most common.
They were in my walls so I cut myself down to the mid fat on my leg to give them the ‘shock’ they wanted from watching me. So they could take the cameras down because I gave them ‘what they want’ it sounds insane now, but you *cannot* make sense of delusions because they’re not from a mind set that makes sense.
I only gave myself wet wipes baths for about two weeks because I was convinced there were cameras in the bathroom ceiling light. I have cptsd from CSA. I couldn’t stand the thought of people seeing my body and while hospitalized. Staff had to sit outside of the bathroom while I showered despite me not being an immediate risk of hurting myself in the restrooms because I was too scared to shower from my history of abuse. I needed a female staff member to make sure no one could hurt me or else I would have started screaming and crying in the group room after my shower and they would need to bring me out to the decompression room.
I'm glad that you're managing your condition so well. This was very lucid. I'm happy for you that you're doing so well given what you said things were like in the past.
That sounds horrifying to all parties involved. I can't even imagine how your mom felt aswell.
I'm glad you are doing better with medication.
sending sm love x
First time I've encountered someone with the same diagnosis as my wife, and I sincerely hope you're in a good place now - I've seen and experienced (of course from the outside) what psychosis and/or hallucinations can do. When its your brain manifesting a thing, you have no choice but to experience it as reality.
We 'had a man in our apartment at night' for many years, and my wife could vividly tell me exactly where he was and what he was doing in our home while we were trying to go to sleep, even if she wasn't in the same room. "He's sitting in the couch in the living room waiting for me with the knife." "He's looking through the cabinets now." "I can hear him call for me." We only had one incident where he actually 'entered the bedroom', but that was more than enough. For her, the most important aspect of getting better was getting the affective side under control - she told me yesterday it's half a year since she's had any hallucinations at all.
Things with her are still not perfect, but certainly better.
One disorder that is hard to watch is where a person loses their long-term memory following brain damage. They have no memories from the time following the event that caused the brain damage. It's like everyday they have to relive their past to catch up with the present. Like they wake up looking for loved ones that have long since passed away. Every day, they grieve for a life that no longer exists. It's heartbreaking.
there's a gentleman I learned about a couples years back with a condition where he can't form new memories. every few seconds is like waking up for the first time.
I remember that case, he had a journal. It was to the letter the exact same line over and over and over, striked through because he couldn't get anywhere beyond that one thought.
@katier9725 he also didn't believe he was the one who wrote it in some cases. "Like waking up for the first time"
Edit: disregard my repetition 😅
I live with DID. It takes CONSTANT work with my selves, but it is possible to live a 'normal', fulfilling life. I have a full time job as a Regulatory Compliance Officer for a credit union, have an 18yr old fantastic child, and a 17yr relationship with my wife. We foster animals, we volunteer in our community, and are healthy and active. There have been scary times, definitely been hard times. I once found myself in a town more than 3hrs away from home at 1am. I don't know anyone there, and am usually in bed by 9pm. BUT, with hard work, you can be okay!
I suspect I have the same disorder and man those 2 sentences right before the last one is my biggest fear lol. Almost happened a few times
wow! i know a friend who was DID, so i know (not quite) what a pain it can be sometimes. from what i just read it seems like you have it under control, good for you man!
@Ramen-exe Some days it feels like it, and it's great! Other days, the struggle is definitely real. For sure though, it is something that takes CONSTANT work. Some days, we just don't have it in us and end up losing days (weeks...months...even years at one point). Knowing what is happening with my brain has been the biggest game changer. It's a lot less scary when switches happen, and I don't feel like I'm disappearing into the void for forever. I have learned to have faith in my alters, and am learning to trust them. I don't feel like I'm losing my mind, my life anymore. I just have learned how to share it. It has brought us a lot more peace. I hope your friend finds their peace 🖤🖤
@funni_cheese_man3844 My best advice to you is journal. Use one (only one - this was harder for us than I thought), and make daily entries at a minimum. That was how we started to figure out this diagnosis, and how we started our communication with our selves. This was how we started losing less time, getting to know our needs, wants, fears, etc.
Communication is the best tool for DID - notes to yourself, radical honesty with your loved ones, and a lot of checking in. When you don't have to mask, to 'cover' for why you don't remember someone/something, why your opinions have drastically shifted, why you may be suddenly uncomfortable in your favorite clothes/your home, why you may suddenly be terrified living in another time/place in your mind....you have a lot more energy to put into healing 🖤🖤
We also have DID, we had to leave college because of it. Last year we finaly told our mother that we remember the abuse she did to us and kicked her out of our lives and moved as far away as possible. Its still a struggle to keep the untraumatized littles from contacting her, on top of having 3 different hosts manage our day to day.
not a psychologist but dementia is both interesting and terrifying. my grandma has dementia and its so scary how quickly it basically tore her relationships with the family.
Yeah. My grandma used to be this loved by everyone, funny, always laughing, warm person but dementia made her shut off, she spent her days on her delusions and was ice cold to anyone who wanted to visit her. It's like a 180.
I guess I got lucky because though my grandma developed dementia and didn’t remember us she was always very happy to see us and would talk to us and laugh and smile with us. She doesn’t know who we are but for some reason I don’t feel like the relationship has disintegrated . It’s just different.
My grandma had Alzhiemers and it really didn't tore up the family it actually made us closer... Every year we still celebrate her birthday as a family reunion... Her Alzhiemers didn't really have as much of an effect in terms of relationships since she happily repeated the same stories over and over to us and we listened... When she finally stopped recognizing us we still kinda have a relationship as we introduced ourselves to her and make her laugh with jokes and stuff. When she regressed to being a kid the family treated her as such and made her laugh and everything.
My grandma before all that was a very pierce and strong woman who often does little pranks which is something basically all her children including my father inherited.
"These are REAL intrusive thoughts" I feel so seen, genuinely
Story 18 - It has been proven that some people are born with severe mental problems, like being a sociopath, and have never had any kind of trauma happen to them. Just like how the heart, the lungs, and other parts of the body can form incorrectly while the fetus is in utero, so can the brain.
I can also picture a scenario in which he was affected by what some would call "small t" trauma, which may sound like a minor insignificant thing, but it's not minor to a 6 year old and can have serious lifelong consequences if not properly addressed.
OP didn't mention anything about this kid's backstory, so for all we know he might behave in this way due to being surrounded by adults who expose him to content that's inappropriate for his age, including dark humor that's never properly framed, for example.
Or it could be a combination of both biological and environmental factors, Idk, I'm just speculating.
It is true that things like personality disorders are able to be influenced by hereditary reasons, but it is not true that they come about without trauma experienced. It's likely that the person was just very young when they developed ASPD.
If they’re born that way, they’d be a psychopath. A “sociopath” is someone with antisocial personality disorder, which comes about via trauma + hereditary tendencies in how to react to that trauma.
Nah this kid def has some trauma going on, no 6 year old would so specifically chose to threaten someone by saying they’ll “stab your privates”
That boy is undoubtedly being sexually abused, it reminds me of Beth Thomas, who actually ended up having a happy ending, and now advocates for mental health and trauma recovery. I hope this boy can heal too.
correct me if i’m wrong but i thought sociopathy was when antisocial tendencies form due to trauma and environment, psychopathy was when it develops in utero
"almost a disability but not kind of"... you dont need to be permanently in a wheelchair to have a disability. She had a disability
Exactly! Tht comment really pissed me off
Exactly
@@Clover_knows_pets i agree its the same when you have a a invisible disability like lurnig disabilities
Pretty weird to be so close to someone and have her not have set him straight on that..
Hallucination voices arent heard as "in" your head the way you "hear" an inner voice monologue, but theyre heard as if outside the way you hear the radio.
@@FirstnameLastname-th4xnactual auditory hallucinations sound like actual sounds not like thoughts. If you feel you've got thoughts that aren't yours, that isn't hallucination but instead delusion. Location is irrelevant.
@@Otome_chan311Does that make me delusional, then? I’ve shared my mind and body with someone else for over 5 years and we communicate in my head. I do believe them to be real and have a separate consciousness from me, though, since they can give me advice, tell me where lost items are, etc. and we often discuss how we’re going to stay like this for the rest of our life. I even legally changed my middle name to their name so both of us could be represented in things like voting.
@@rowan404 realistically what you described sounds like a larp. If you're actually having thoughts that you think aren't your own that's probably delusions. But the way you paint it makes it sound like a larp interpretation of did which is a controversial illness that isn't conclusively proven to be a thing outside of a couple of unreliable case studies.
@@Otome_chan311 I’m not LARPing. I only control my own dialogue. It feels like I’m talking to a separate person. Also, there used to be more, including one who was hostile and made my life miserable. Why would I do that to myself?
I would never intentionally fake a disorder. In fact, I resent people who do. Faking disorders is extremely disrespectful, spreads misinformation, and causes people who actually have the disorders to be taken less seriously.
@@rowan404 if you're *hearing* a voice that is an auditory hallucination. If it's a thought, that is a delusion. It's basically unheard of to have a delusional thought as a separate individual like that. If you're being genuine you probably suffer from delusions. But it's highly likely you aren't genuine. Regardless, if you're actually interested in seeking help go get on antipsychotics
7:15 people think I'm crazy when I point that out. I agree with the psych. The extreme reaction people have with anything involving kids often has the exact opposite effect, even leading to making already terrible situations worse for the kids themselves. not to mention the millions of men who can't even go to the park alone with their own daughters because of course they get stopped or have police called on them. (and conversely, the millions of woman abusers who get out with a slap on the wrist because women can't be p*dos, and abused boys "wanted it" apparently) or the likely millions of people struggling with thoughts and attractions that they never bring up even on therapy, for fear of being crucified, leaving them with repressed struggles and mentally unstable, _more_ likely to hurt others or resort to illegal... child... content (as the narrator often calls it). Accepting and understanding p*dos has nothing to do with accepting child abuse, nor is it "defending child touchers." is just basic human decency that helps people _not_ to become child touchers. because nobody is born an offender. and the extreme attitude people have about the topic only serves to create more of them.
I cannot in good conscience ever accept thoughtcrime as something that should be punished. If you haven’t actually done anything you should be able to seek help to prevent you from doing anything
@@PikachuLittletry to go anywhere online and say that. you will be called a P%do, or at least a "sympathizer" whatever that means. I can guarantee you that. It's baffling to me how simple logic and empathy have no place in today's society. all that matters is that everyone collectively hates what the majority hate, and there's less nuance at every passing year.
@@PikachuLittle"being called a p*do%" speedrun.
@@PikachuLittle"being called a pdfile%" speedrun.
I agree with this, but it’s important to note that these intrusive thoughts about children in OCD are really the opposite of pedophilia, as the reason they are there is that they re the worst thing the person can possibly imagine. So nothing makes OCD sufferers more likely to assault children, as they are much less likely to do so than the general population
i have DID! it’s great to see someone talk so well about it rather than dumb it down to “evil alter” or something.
the one with the girls who self harmed was kinda upsetting, even if someone is doing self harm for attention its still genuine self harm. shit wording there op.
exactly! plus if someone is doing that for attention, that's literally still mental illness and they need understanding and help.
There are some personality disorders where people will self-harm and even try to commit suicide for attention. It's really sad. These behaviors also sometimes are a form of manipulation, although not consciously by the patient, it's just the way they have learned to get what they want and it works for them because the behavior is enabled easily. If all else has failed, attempting on one's life will no doubt get some attention. I've worked with people who have done this for things that most people might feel are small issues, such as not getting what one wants for dinner, not being allowed to see a friend on a school night, etc.
POCD is the most common form of OCD and it's one of the worst to live with. That and autopedophilia are typically survivor conditions of people affected by severe child sexual abuse. The story of the guy worrying that he blacked out and did something that he didn't do, (although not in every case) could very well be having flashbacks of repressed memories that he can't recall as his own, so it makes him believe they are intense thoughts/desires that he finds disgusting or repulsive. To add on that, flashbacks can trigger a state of arousal in the survivor, in the same way fight or flight is triggered, just in a sexual arousal neuropathway. As a child abuse survivor who lives with these conditions, it is real nasty shit, highly misunderstood by psych/trauma illiterate people, and even therapists and people who should know about it, and it's not pretty at all. It's horrible to live with and insanely challenging to manage. Without a support system many will and have just killed themselves thinking they are a monster when they did absolutely nothing wrong. The amount of self hatred, self disgust and rejection of self it creates alongside society's uncharitable judgements of the coping mechanisms sexual abuse survivors form naturally, is a really deadly combination. Society certainly doesn't help with the general air of 'let's kill anyone with any impure thoughts or feelings regardless of actions', that shames survivors with flashbacks or intrusive thoughts for surviving in a way that isn't deemed palatable; quite literally collateral damage from entirely unhelpful, backwards and hateful rhetoric.
Most people with false memory OCD are not experiencing flashbacks from repressed memories, and suggesting that can cause a lot of harm to these individuals, further tormenting them by thoughts that they may have been abused when they haven’t
@@kingdollop-head743 Would appreciate a source on this claim.
@@kingdollop-head743 I don't appreciate how uncharitable you're being with my comment. I never mentioned false memory OCD. Are you asserting that the man in the story has false memory OCD, when it was never explicitly stated that's the case? All I'm suggesting is that the obsessions the man has can be caused by multiple conditions. OCD and PTSD often coexist, and repression of traumatic memories is extremely common and comes up later in life in weird ways.. All that was stated was that his OCD was of a sexual nature with specific obsessions related to his daughter and such. This could be POCD, false memory OCD, or OCD with PTSD repressed memories, or more. What was stated is that he was attempting to rationalize why the condition is there, to phase back into his own memories to place the apparent intrusive thoughts into moments in his life, which can then manifest as an obsession with the possibility that the intrusive thoughts are actually real memories, when that's not the case. Flashbacks are not always 100% accurate to reality, they can be feelings, smells, amorphous and ambiguous, and change over time. The same with POCD caused by sex abuse, in that someone gets obsessed with the possibility they will offend or they are a pedophile, even when there is no evidence and active avoidance/disgust of such a thing, because they suffer with sexually arousing flashbacks and/or intrusive thoughts that they often don't recognize as being part of their own traumatic history, therefore believing it to be an intense desire or fixation. This amplifies the original obsession, believing they MUST have done something bad. You're also asserting that it can cause 'a lot of harm' to these individuals to suggest a possible reason for these symptoms could be that they may have been abused? You think they haven't already thought of that themselves a million times as a means to explain the suffering of their condition? You realize PTSD with repressed memories can later develop into OCD comorbidity later in life? I never said 'most people' anything. I said it was very well a possibility. I literally specified not in every case. I'm sorry but I don't know what you want, you can't diagnose this guy's subtype of OCD through a short story on a youtube video dude. I was simply laying out one possible explanation for the presentation. It is extremely complex and there's a gargantuan amount of overlap between trauma/survivor and OCD conditions. Suggesting that something could be possible, as it often is in extremely similar cases, is not going to harm anybody. So that's a reach.
I’m sorry it came out that way. The point I was trying to make was that while it is definitely possible, and does happen, it’s important not to make it seem like that’s the most common cause for POCD. I’m not saying this is what you were saying, but people can easily misinterpret it as such. The reason I reacted strongly to this is because I have OCD, both POCD, and a specific obsession about my parents being sexually abusive (there is absolutely no evidence that they are or ever have) and reading your comment really triggered that obsession for me. That’s why I interpreted it so harshly. I still think it’s important to note that implying that is the cause of POCD, or that false memories (which can be an OCD symptom regardless of subtype, not just it’s own subtype) are based in flashbacks can very easily be misunderstood to mean that is normally the case, even if that’s not what you said. People want to find simple explanations for things, but that is not always the case, so it’s important when making a comment like yours to explicitly clarify that it isn’t THE cause for POCD (yes, even though that’s not what you said)
I wonder if the fake memories... Rather than flashbacks are similar to like a memory from a dream or something... Cuz I have a vivid memory of my grandpa dying in front of me of a heart attack while cooking something and teaching me how to cook it, I thought it was what happened for over 17 years of my life. Apparently he died while I was at school.
There's also another memory of me being on my grandma's wake... My grandma that died when my mother was a teen.
So when there's something weird in my memory I just think it's probably from a dream or something... Also ever since taking Quetiapine and other medications I've never have a dream when in deep sleep.
I had intrusive thoughts or more exactly, an impulse phobia, for years, but only learned that they were related to OCD and even a psychiatric disorder last year. I always thought that everyone had them, because people use this term very lightly. It didn't bother me much (because I was used to it and found ways to live with it), and now I don't have them anymore. Mine were about mutilating and ending myself in very, very gory ways and I must say, I'm glad I don't see myself ripping my face apart multiple times a day anymore. If you have these thoughts, know you're not alone, it doesn't make you a danger or a monster and that you can find help. I'm with you!
did you ever imagine yourself dying and then imagine the funeral from people you knows perspectives? Thats always fun times and sometimes I literally can't fall asleep unless I imagine myself dying :/
@@aspenture1087No, because I don't have much empathy and can't imagine how real people can feel in so or so situation. And my main intrusive thoughts (actually an impulse phobia) were about myself, not others (I also had some about hurting others but they didn't bother me at all and were less frequent). I didn't feel like it was "imagining" because to me, it implies a conscious effort, even a faint one. These ideas would just come randomly into my head and sometimes leave very fast, or linger and be really precise, because I would feel it, picture it, almost live it, every ounce of pain and blood and terror, and not being able to stop it, even when it was on a loop for what felt like hours.
@@alicew.9351someone I can rlly relate to and perfectly describes my ocd!!! And yeah my intrusive thoughts are also mainly about myself, and maybe sometimes hurting others or being a murderer, its funny because they rlly come and go every few minutes for me, but I put no meaning to them cuz they aren’t true! Anyways how r u doing so far now?
While I’m not a psychologist and am basing this entirely off of stories I’ve seen on the internet, I find the inability to understand the concept of fiction fascinating. Basically the people who believe that every piece of media they consume is an account of actual events, or who outright do not understand what a hypothetical situation is. It’s especially interesting because it’s likely based at least in part from an overclocked negative opinion on falsehoods, basically anything that someone tells you that isn’t 100% factual is them being actively malicious and trying to trick and manipulate you. Then you get into the weird doublethink that they perform to justify everything being true despite evidence to the contrary, things from all books being records of events from parallel universes that have been beamed directly into the brains of authors to Hollywood having giant celebrity cloning machines so they can kill actors without consequence. Absolutely wild headspace
That is a fascinating and scary thing. And one can see how it happens to people. There are so many wild ideas out there. And technology is moving so fast. People's imaginations can easily run away with them.
Yes, this is really interesting. I've also heard multiple people spread the complete misconception that this is related to autism - that's not even close. I'm not sure what it *is* related to, it just made me think of this misconception.
I lived story 8, though my doctor never called it OCD.
Thankfully I didn't have thoughts that I had done it.
But i lived that. I was suicidal a few times because, well -- I'd literally rather be dead than hurt some kid.
EDIT: Regards this condition, I am completely cured. Or cured enough that if/when I get the occasional disturbing thought I just tell it to go away.
I also lived story 1, 'hearing voices but they're helpful ' thing. I'm bipolar. At the time I thought the voices were God. I still do sometimes.
A voice in my head told me to take my meds.
I also had a point where I thought that I wasn't a good person. I was praying every day that I wouldn't hurt anybody in my psychotic state, and that I was OK dying if it stopped me from hurting someone.
And, at some point I was just, feeling bad and thinking "I'm a bad person" and .. I felt this voice say to me "every day you tell me you'd rather die than hurt someone, even a stranger. Every day. And you think you aren't good? Stop this. You're hurting yourself."
I am Christian, and I was in a Christian mental hospital.
I remember talking to the psychologist and telling her "I'm hearing voices"
"What do you think the voices are?"
"I think it might be God, maybe?"
"What are the voices telling you?"
"... That I'm bipolar, and I need to listen to the doctors and take my meds"
She just paused a moment and said "Well, that does sound like something He would say."
Also.. I was an atheist before psychosis. In my head I know I was psychotic.. but it felt so real and it feels really insulting to day you don't believe someone exists when you feel like you met them. And my rational brain honestly, like.. I try to point it at that experience and it just won't.
Ugh, I have Generalized Anxiety disorder do snd I also sort of had that imposter issue but I thought I was an android who had killed and replaced myself. I was unperturbed by this.
Is the whole video just listing my issues?
Is selenophonia on here?
Type 2 bipolar with ocd here! (There's more crap going on with me, but that's the relevant part) So I'm terrified sometimes that I'm going to accidentally kill my cats, and lately I'm terrified that my elderly, Parkinsonian (therefore clumsy) father has killed one of them if I hear a thunk and him apologizing to one of the cats. I then have to picture him crushing them and their neck snapping and my heart races and I have to tell myself that it didn't happen, nothing is wrong, etc. Hit me a few hrs ago when I heard him trip.
I've convinced myself that I'm an absolutely garbage person and that I deserve to die. Don't want to end myself, but convinced that I deserve to die in a horrible fashion for being a disgusting waste of resources.
Oh,, also convinced that if I go out and have "fun" like spending time with my bff and her kids for a few hrs, less than a mile away, that he's going to die and I'll be called a terrible daughter for not being with him when he passed. Like, shunned from the family and all of my friends kind of repercussions.
Holy hell does it suck!
Plus people are like, "Oh, you have ocd, so you compulsively wash your hands or count things? That's annoying, but I think I forget my stove on sometimes, so it's not THAT bad, right?" No, I imagine that the people and things I love most die in gruesome fashions and it's ALL MY FAULT. Oh, and I have to watch them die on repeat. X-ray views of snapping bones. Cold bodies in rigor. Things I could've somehow prevented!
Yeah. That OCD.
Bipolar 1 with OCD checking in here just to let you know you're not alone. ❤️ If you have any friends with bipolar talking to them about your experiences can be really grounding (at least it is for me).
I have derealization and depersonalization, sometimes when my stress is super high or if I'm about to have a panic attack time will slow down around me, but I'll personally feel like I'm going a million mph. Depersonalization is one that happens less often and I'm happy for that because it scares me. I feel like I'm leaving my body, like I'm watching stuff happen to me and I have no physical control. Derealization gives me some control, and it used to scare me but it doesn't anymore.
I have those as well, but therapist says they're part of something else, it's not fun
@@TheVortexCollective yeah my therapist explained to me that they're dissociative disorders, most likely caused from abuse I witnessed as a baby. They basically said it was bad enough for my mind to try and shield me from it but not bad enough to develop something like DID. I also have amnesia for most of my childhood up until kindergarten. It used to happen a lot more, but with therapy it's gotten more manageable.
@@KROkilljoy My therapist thinks we have DID, but I don't think there's enough trauma for that shit
It is absolute hell. Last year I went through long term dissociation lasting for about 5 months. I wasn’t myself at all and had no motivation I didn’t leave the house or respond to messages for those months. One day I just snapped out of it. Then it came back again this year. I’m still dissociated and now have derealization coupled with severe anxiety and panic attacks. It’s been months and I’m still waiting to “snap” back. I don’t understand why we are like this, it’s not fair. Went to the ER and no help, discharged after a week. May god have mercy on us 🙏
I have genuine GAD, and it's terrible. I can't go through conflict maturely, stress, any negative feelings without it being so intensely worrying that my brain starts to convince me that whoever else is involved hates me and that they're going to leave. It also comes with heightened intrusive thoughts, which are no walk in the park.
hi, same here! a person frowns at me or doesn't say hello back and I immediately assume I have done something unforgivable and now they're going to delete me from their lives 😭
Here’s a weird one.
Bovinthropy: a condition where the afflicted fully and completely believe that they are a bovine. They are normally completely lucid but can have moments of bovine urges, such as pooping where they stand, walking on their hands and knees, lowing, and even eating grass. Episodes, from what I’ve read, can last from a few hours to a few days.
5-6 years ago, I extremely briefly (like, a couple of moments over a couple of consecutive days) experienced auditory and visual hallucinations, which I believe was brought on by stress and/or fatigue. Personally, I found the auditory hallucinations more distressing; the visual ones were just vague orb-like shapes in the corner of my eye that I could just brush off, but the auditory ones sounded SO real. One of them, I went to the bathroom at my college; the door into the bathroom area was very noisy, so I would have heard if someone came in, and nobody was in there when I first went in, so I was very confused to hear one of my classmates, Lara, suddenly calling my name while I was in a stall. It was so real that I replied "Yeah?" No response. Then I realised I hadn't heard the door and, confused, finished up and exited the stall - nobody. Freaked out, I washed my hands and returned to class, and asked Lara if she had come looking for me in the bathroom. Nope.
It was so strange, it was so clear and sounded EXACTLY like her. If I believed in the paranormal, I probably would have believed it was a mimic or an SW. I had a different auditory one the night before, where a random voice whispered loudly and aggressively in my ear "HAVE FUN" as I was about to fall asleep. B*tch, have fun doing what?! Dreaming??? I would if you'd leave me alone and not freak me out!
My dad has Parkinsons and when he gets overtired, when he finally does sleep, he wakes up a bunch saying he heard me call him or shouts, "Yeah? YEAH?! Whadda you want?!" I've found it best for me to stay quiet or he gets upset and confrontational at me for waking him up. Sorry my dude, but that was YOUR brain, not mine.
I'm not saying that you have Parkinsons, but I know exhaustion and stress can definitely bring on these types of hallucinations. It's similar in fashion to the way some people hear a loud bang or boom as they're falling asleep which wakes them back up, or that feeling of falling and jolting in bed. Brain drops consciousness levels too quickly and basically crashes for a second.
Imagine how difficult it is do diagnose conversion disorders. Because from my experience, family members and doctors already doubt you enough (thinking you're not putting in enough effort, being lazy, etc) when it comes to disorders like anxiety and depression; imagine having a dissociative issue that stops you from walking, talking, seeing... but nothing comes up wrong on any tests. I imagine most doctors would want to chalk it up to Munchausen's
I have an issue like this that one psych tried to say was conversion disorder. I told her I don't have trauma but she kept pushing until she straight up told me she couldn't help me. I've started trying various meds and a couple have helped for the initial period but stop working after a while. Kinda frustrating. Blood tests are normal. Mri is normal. Eeg is normal. It's frustrating af ngl.
I've just had a Functional Stroke, it was listening to this You Tube that I have worked it out!
I have never been so frightened in all my life. Scans showed no bleed or clot but I have presented like a typical stroke, even in a wheelchair in the beginning!
It's great that the cultural differences in schizophrenic voices was brought up, because there's a theory about the condition that says these patients might be people who didn't have an inner monologue growing up, and then something changes in their brain and they suddenly develop one and can't cope with the change. Like, even if you tell them about this theory they might still be unable to accept that these voices in their head are their own thoughts, since they didn't have it from the beginning.
That is the most bullshit theory I have ever read
People with schizophrenia are actually seeing/hearing/feeling etc their hallucinations. It's not a voice in their head to them. And often times their are multiple voices communicating with each other and ignoring the sufferer.
This theory is fascinating. And I can imagine how someone could feel distressed, if they suddentely have an inner voice as active as mine...
It’s not just about internal monologue it about that they can’t control the voices it’s different from internal monologue
That theory is untrue. Auditory hallucinations are things you actually hear, not internal monologue. People who get thoughts that they feel aren't their own exist (I'm one of them) but those are delusions, not hallucinations.
IT refers to intrusive thoughts. A nasty form of OCD that I, myself, have been diagnosed with. It's not fun to deal with, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.. if anyone in the comments is struggling with intrusive thoughts and wants to learn more about it in order to cope better, I highly suggest a book called "Overcoming Unwanted Intrusive Thoughts" by Sally M. Winston and Martin N. Seif. It helped me a lot after I was initially diagnosed by helping me feel like I wasn't broken or a monster. I might suggest skipping chapter 2 as it goes through the variety of intrusive thoughts and might trigger your own intrusive thoughts. I personally was fine after reading it, but I can see how it might bother some. Best of luck to anyone dealing with OCD. Know that you are not alone. You are not crazy or evil. You deserve love, and don't let your scumbag thoughts make you believe otherwise even though that is definitely easier said than done.
And it takes so much effort to say what the thoughts are because then that makes them real! If I even think about it then it will happen and it will be all my fault and that makes me a terrible person, etc.
IT is an acronym for Intrusive thought, but in the case of this story, the reader has just made a mistake. The text is supposed to read the word 'it', not the acronym 'IT'.
thank you for this
I may have found why I have terrible, awful thoughts in my head. Didn't think it was O.C.D. but if thats the case I'm gonna go get checked out.
A lot of conditions include intrusive thoughts! For example, I have adhd + severe anxiety and fixate on things that scare or disgust me, like a thought loop that is hard to escape from. There is hope, and I hope that you can get help and relief
@@GalaxyCat3444 That sounds more like what I experience, but yeah there is always hope to be rid of these things.
Yeah same here I was on the verge coz this shits awful but I’m gonna talk about it
sometimes kids come out being bad even without outside influence
The cheery voices story is surprisingly sad.
we have OSDD, a subtype of DID, and it’s still hard to live with. Only figured this out a few years ago because. Surprise!! Covert disorder is covert
I have OCD and GAD. I've had them since childhood.
Poor man with the ocd abiut kids. That would suck. You know your thoughts are horrible but cant stop them.
I have illness anxiety disorder and it sucks so hard. Everyone talks about us wasting medical time and resources, but the flip side of that is having severe abdominal pain or heart palpitations and thinking to yourself "do I really need to go to the ER, or am I inventing these symptoms in my head?" The last time I went to the ER, I thought I had appendicitis, but it was just diverticulitis. I went into a short depression because they did an MRI and I felt so guilty about "wasting resources."
We're not doing it for attention; that's a separate disorder called factitious disorder. We do it because we have a form of anxiety (some argue it's a form of OCD) where we legit convince ourselves we're sick, complete with psychosomatic symptoms. It's not fun.
diverticulitis is no joke, to be honest.
What y00t00b3r said, my mom's got FMLA for diverticulitis, it can be an extremely disabling life-long condition with dangerous and painful symptoms. You came out with a _more severe_ diagnosis than you went in expecting. Please take care of yourself.
Least year I was going through a lot but the anxiety of it all made me believe my teeth were all falling out of my face. My jaws had hurt so bad that I often times didn’t dare to eat anything but soft foods I was just so terrified of my teeth falling out. Then it was headaches, I’ve dealt with them for years and years. I was just so wound up and out of it I thought I had a brain tumor or something causing the years worth of headaches. I went to a dentist who asked me if I had anxiety and I confirmed. He said my face and head hurt because of the pressure of me grinding my teeth all day and even at night. I have a mouth guard to sleep with at night and every so often if they fall out of my mouth(I talk in my sleep) it happens again. I remember him holding my face in his hands “oh honey… you have anxiety don’t you? Your teeth are all ground down to nothing.”
I'm not surprised ypu thought diverticulitis was appendicitis. I did too and I've only got plain old depression. Diverticulitis hurts so bad ypu think your guts are going to explode.
@kayleighsnyder3516 When you started talking about aching jaw and headaches, I knew immediately where you were going. I have depression and anxiety and, for maybe 3 years now, I also have a night time grind guard.
So, I was diagnosed as delusional once. Falsely diagnosed, I should say. My life is honestly kinda chaotic and terrible, and a lot of unlikely and seemingly crazy things have happened to me. There is record of most of these, and my family as witnesses to almost all of the others. Only like two things up until that point didn't have any actual evidence of them happening, and they were relatively mundane. I'm just extremely unlucky and have had a perfect storm (no pun intended) of things going wrong. The therapist simply did not believe me when I said what I had experienced. Never once had she tried to talk to me about that, hint that she didn't believe me, or anything. She just dropped a metaphorical bomb out of nowhere with "So I'm diagnosing you as delusional." I walked out immediately. I'm not some conspiracy theorist, I don't believe in any of that, I'm religious but that's not delusional in and of itself. I'm just a mostly normal if unlucky girl with autism and ADHD that went undiagnosed for the first 20 years of her life and has had some really unlikely and awful things happen to her with no idea how to handle them because, ya know, learning disability. My next therapist after that thought it was absurd that they'd diagnose me as delusional when everything I said was explainable, had evidence or witnesses to back up, or was just very mundane and a weird thing to "make up" so to speak. She diagnosed me with major depression, general anxiety, and ADHD, and we were in the process of getting me evaluated for CPTSD before she left, and she said the depression and anxiety were understandable given what I'd been through. I got a lot better without medication, and now that I'm on meds for the ADHD I'm doing somewhat better even without therapy (I live in a mental health desert in the US, there is no therapist here that works with the issues I have, accepts my insurance, and isn't either a bigot or too far away for me to travel to).
No, I won't say everything I've been through here in a youtube comment, it's traumatic and I don't wanna relive it at the moment. I'm actually shaking just from thinking about how it was dismissed by a supposed professional who was supposed to help me, so I don't want to take the chance on internet randoms.
I am so sorry you have gone through so much and weren't believed by the person who had hoped would understand. I have had similar circumstances in that vein at several points in my life.
@@TheoRae8289 Thank you. I think part of it is that neurotypical people, especially ones with no experience dealing with autistic people, tend to see a lot of what we say as exaggerated. Like when I say that I get physical pain from touching the material "felt" or being around large crowds, or how my emotional responses are generally much more extreme than they are for others, or really, how most of my senses are heightened to an uncomfortable degree. Small and mundane things that are incredibly subjective but are well-documented symptoms of autism, but if someone doesn't know (which, you'd think a therapist should know but whatever), I suppose the idea that I feel physical pain from simply being around large groups of people might sound absurd. "Surely it can't actually physically hurt" is something someone has unironically said to me, but I've actually had a situation where I was in the hospital for an unrelated medical thing, and for whatever reason there were like 6 different people in there all trying to do whatever all at the same time, all while I was having blood taken and being hooked up to monitors, and the monitors kinda spiked in the same way they would as if I'd just experienced a sudden and sharp pain, just from being overwhelmed, and I just remember screaming and crying because I was scared and hurting and sick and being around so many people all talking at once just made it so much worse and even thinking about it now I'm starting to shake again...
I just want to be able to like, exist and not be crowded by people and forced into stressful situations that I do not have the tools to handle as well as a neurotypical person might. It's hell.
I agree and relate heavily to your comment and experiences. I'm a hypersensitive autistic trans girl with CPTSD, disabled from osteoarthritis and fibromyalgia, was tortured and abused heavily as a child, starved, neglected, etc on top of having lots of insanely bizarre spiritual/supernatural experiences and even cryptid encounters, it sounds like it's all made up but it's not. I was first diagnosed with schizoaffective because of my experiences and the fact that I wear jewelry that is spiritually important to me. I was always fully lucid and able to explain myself in a capable way on top of saying I don't expect people to believe me when my life has been so crazy. I've legitimately considered the possibility of being cursed. Had to drop out of school in 7th grade because of all of this, not really worth it for a cheap lie. Lots of people tell me that my life is like a movie or something but it's just reality for me, and the weird shit keeps on coming. So just know you are not alone at all, and I really appreciate seeing your comment and feeling such a connection with your message, it makes me feel less alone in my weirdness, so I hope this comment will do the same for you. I had a lot of bad therapists and psychiatrists, but I have also found really good ones for me in recent years. I hope you can find the proper care you want or need with people who are truly accepting and open minded enough to consider your life experiences as real. I believe you. Sending you so much love
@@badcaseofstripes While the only cryptid I've ever encountered personally was a possible Bigfoot sighting (may also have just been a bear, was creepy and scary either way), and I tend not to believe in most cryptids, I won't dismiss your experiences. You lived what you lived. While I was never physically tortured or abused, I was mentally and emotionally so by my parents and by an ex (the latter of which was during the time I was with that first therapist, and the abuse was never taken seriously so I ended up getting basically gaslit by my therapist into believing I was the reason that ex was abusing me, which really screwed me up).
I'm also a trans girl, dunno if I mentioned that already. Technically I'm under the fluidflux umbrella (genderfirn is the microlabel I feel fits me best) but I'm almost always feminine to a major extent so I simplify it to "trans girl" for, well, simplicity.
Honestly, you're valid and I hope you have a wonderful day and life!
@@StormTheSquid Thank you! Mine was a few bigfoot encounters when I lived in Kitsap County, WA
Having watched a bit over half of this video, I'm now seeing my chronic depression as less of a burden.
0:08 That should be Capgras Syndrome (or Delusion). According to PubMed: "Capgras syndrome (CS), or delusion of doubles, is a delusional misidentification syndrome. It is a syndrome characterized by a false belief that an identical duplicate has replaced someone significant to the patient. In CS, the imposter can also replace an inanimate object or an animal."
My mother-in-law, as her vascular dementia worsened, developed an odd delusion that may be a form of Capgras Syndrome. Shown pictures of family events, she insisted that the woman in them wasn't her, but an imposter that the family had hired to get rid of her. After all, SHE didn't remember her granddaughter's wedding or her favorite grandson's high school graduation, so clearly the family had kept the event secret from her and hired this imposter.
@@lucindawelenc2191That totally makes sense as a way for the brain to understand why she didn't have even an inkling of a memory of those events. It makes sense in a convoluted way.
15:48 this reminds me of how ants release a chemical when they die that lets other ants know to take them away from the nest, and if you spray living ants with that chemical they will go "sniff sniff huh, I must be dead," and allow themselves to be carried off to the grave pit.
*watching this waiting for someone to mention my disorder*
Yup
The first disorder to be mentioned was the one I have! I didn’t even have to wait
Same
I’m looking into becoming a clinical and counseling psychologist because I’ve always been interested in disorders and helping others. All of these stories sound so interesting but also terrifying. I still really want to become a psychologist, but this reminds me how scary disorders and people can be.
2:35 - I’d like to make a small correction about this mental disorder. Although most sufferers are female, some transgendered women have experienced this very same phenomenon.
I can’t remember the talk show but a transgendered woman was on it, her belly had swollen and so did her breasts. She genuinely believed that she was pregnant with her husband’s baby despite what he and her doctor said.
It really is a sad disorder. For someone to be so desperate to have a child that their body mimics all the classic symptoms must be so soul crushing.
It’s my understanding that they will experience a swollen belly, missed menstruation, swollen breasts that may lactate, etc. etc.
Iirc there's also been some cases of men having phantom pregnancies while their wives were actually pregnant, and once the wives gave birth the men's phantom pregnancies also went away. Hormones are wild.
19:00
Similiar thing happens with people ""speaking in tongues"" (gibberish) in church. They somehow unconsciously fake some kind fo an episode and then think it's religious. Something like that might have happened here, with the others imitating the first one.
I used to have psychosis and I hallucinated colours that I can’t see normally because I’m colourblind. Though the psychosis stuff was terrible, that was an amazing experience
*Capgras syndrome, not K'Gra syndrome. The one where you think loved ones are imposters.
I have two thoughts on story 8
I'm pretty sure IT was autocorrect, if OP has their keyboard set to a different language that can happen. Happens to me all the time.
I also think it's important that we stress the fact that most child assaulters are not attracted to children, they just like the power. We need to change the narrative so we can treat the actual issue.
Lord, I've had that kid related OCD thing. It's a genuine hell. I'm so glad that I found a RUclips video that confirmed what I was experiencing was intrusive thoughts. I still have issue with it sometimes but I can figure it out.
Thank god mine never got to false memories. To anyone suffering with this shit, hang on, it gets better I promise. You learn how to deal with it at least.
Be well, drink water.
When I was younger I had an extremely bad case of OCD, I still have it but not nearly as bad. When I was younger (5-12) I would write down every single thought I had during the day to make sure I wouldn’t forget anything, every single one. If things weren’t in multiples of 5 I would get mini panic attacks and super bad anxiety. Better now, but still have some issues with things being in multiples of 5.
i used to be in a child psych hospital for a while. one of my roommates was a 12 y/o girl with cotards syndrome. it was kinda freaky when she would ask if im dead aswell. from what i know she was in a car crash in which both of her parents died. and that lead her to believe that she was dead too.
Met a psychologist while on a job and asked him what was the most interesting case he'd come across. He'd worked in wards, prisons, hospitals etc and usually diagnosing, profiling, taking statistics, and therapies etc so a bit of everything. He had a very long career and was retired at the time I met him. His answer was pretty shocking, "mania", he explained that a patient he'd come across was permanently stuck in a manic high and had been for years. The patient was a young man with incredibly high IQ, enjoyed making abnormal clocks by hand (fitting since he seemed to experience life at a faster pace anyway), apparently he taught himself guitar in just a week, only slept an hour a day, and was incredibly impatient which led to him lashing out. The patient apparently believed everyone around him was far lesser and stupid, the psychologist joked that he was likely right. He said at the time the patient was treated by being put on incredibly high doses of diazepam because that's all they could think of to do having not seen anyone like this patient before. Unfortunately the patient got transferred somewhere before the man telling me about it could know more about what ended up happening but it was still extremely interesting to hear.
i can already tell this channel is about to scratch my adhd brain just right when i wanna listen to interesting things but need to have my full attention of chores
I had a strange experience, that has to have been a coincidence. Either that or people with schizophrenia are truly living in a non euclidian reality. It was still incredibly strange. I had a friend with schizophrenia in the 90s. She lived in L.A. and I was living in the D.C. area. Our friendship ended when I allegedly betrayed her. I had a dream one night that I was in her apartment, but she wasn't really her, like in dreams. In the dream she was yelling at me for breaking into her apartment. It was a strange and nonsensical dream. A couple of hours after I woke up, the phone rang. It was her. Screaming at me for coming into her apartment without her permission and trying to rob her.
It was one of the first times I started to really question consensus reality and wonder if I was truly losing it.
This channel explores some fascinating subjects. Subscribed! 👍
Story 24: It still hurts to hear people say that someone harms themselves "for the attention" as if that somehow made it less genuine. How much must a person hurt, how lonely must they be if they slice their skin open or similar just so other people show them some attention? No no no, they should shut themselves away to do it, like someoe who's *really* sick.
Not a mental health professional, but have had a fair bit of personal experience with dealing with people who have serious psychiatric/ psychological issues. One of the difficulties when dealing with patients who suffer from delusions is that it is extremely difficult to convince them that their delusion isn't true. As someone who knows enough psychology to know that he doesn't know enough, the best thing to do when encountering someone (e.g. being randomly approached) who is clearly dealing with severe mental health issues is to let them say what they want to say and move on. As long as they aren't a danger to themselves or others, it isn't an emergency. If they are, then yeah call 911. However, and this is particularly true with people suffering from paranoid delusions, if you try and contradict them or what they claim then there's a good chance that they'll think that you're in on it, especially if it involves a delusion about some conspiracy, e.g. gang stalking.
1:27 I have the issue described. If you want to know the weirdest hallucination I had I saw Keanu Reeves dispensing money from his elbow. I was fully convinced it was real and wanted to kill me
I would say DID, my boyfriend has it and it's nuts, he has a lot of other issues mentally but mostly did, what doesn't help is that no one around him believes he has anything wrong with him (we're long distance), but I do my best to learn about it and try to help him out but it's one that definitely needs to be studied more
I think IT stands for Intensive Therapy. I could be wrong though 😵💫😵💫
It likely stands for "Intrusive thoughts" since the topic was OCD.
@@kikiesque oh true! I didn’t even think of that 😳
Here I was thinking he just thought that the word "It" was an acronym.
Perhaps IT was just the word "it" autocorrected into an all caps word? Happens to me with words sometimes.
I think they meant intrusive thoughts
Story 8: First of all, I'm curious about the IT thing, too. Second of all, THANK YOU ALL for including this among them!!!!!
Story 11 - I don't think that there should just be one GAD, becayse as it stands, saying someone has GAD means nothing. I've met people who've been diagnosed with it who can function fine in society without meds, they just need some breathing techniques and a little bit of time. Then there are people like me, who are on the highest doses of anti-anxiety meds we can take without ODing and still have panic attacks/mental breakdowns at least once a week. Speaking strictly, I'm not saying the people with less severe GAD DON'T have an anxiety disorder; I'm saying that we need to have different classifications of anxiety disorders. People whi can function without meds are on one side of the scale, people like me (not saying I'm the worst, I'm just pretty bad) are on the other. Lumping everyone together under GAD makes the needs of people like me be disregarded because it "isn't that bad," and it makes more normally functioning people be treated like cripples. We could say "mild, moderate, severe" but classifications like that are catered towards the general public, and can make people think they understand when they don't. My version of moderate is different from your version of moderate is different from your dog's version of moderate. A new way to classify them, that doesn't have deceptively simple naming techniques, is needed.
I relate to the OCD story. That shit was horrible, had to deal with it for 4 months before finally getting some meds that helped me calm tf down. True waking nightmare.
It would be handy to have a sound effect between stories for those who are just listening, sometimes it's hard to tell where they break, and then where it switches to your comments.
as someone with a minor in psych, i’m fascinated by any disorder that just delete empathy from someone’s brain (like anti-social personality disorder).
because without empathy how can you even have the human experience? human connection is vital, and you can’t connect authentically if you mentally can not comprehend that other people have thoughts and feelings you should be interested in.
I have a number of physical and mental health problems and diseases. It sucks and my current downward spiral is worrying that I'm not actually sick but a hypochondriac and my psychiatrist just doesn't want to tell me.
In the past year or two I've developed something called "hypnogogic hallucinations" which are hallucinations that occur while waking. Sometimes everything is covered in a fine mesh of cobwebs that I can't brush off, once I thought I heard my gallon water jug thunk and crack. I saw the water pouring down over the edge of my nightstand and I scooped the water off and ran to my bathroom with my hand pressed against the bottom of the jug. It wasn't until I had the bottle in the sink and I could finally see that there was no water in the sink and it had never been cracked. I've seen and felt a pile of cute baby snakes under my pillow, I've seen and felt baby spiders on my pillow and became distressed thinking that I accidentally killed some. But it started out with first seeing a menacing man standing in my room, and a scary snarling wolf that came out of my tv (it was off) and that one I kept yelling at it to go away. Once my entire vision was covered by a checker grid of green and red squares. Once my whiteboard wall calendar became an alien invaders/Pac-Man style video game, but with cat theme, and my big medicine bag on my nightstand was the console. I nearly pulled half the stuff off my nightstand grabbing at it. I've seen cool shifting shapes materialize out of my wall. The spiderwebs is the most bothersome one because it lasts. Imagine you wake up, get up, use the toilet, wash your face and hands, probably a 10 min window by the end of which you feel quite awake, and the entire time things are just covered in tons of tiny webs and big dust particles. Fully awake feeling and still seeing tv static and webs. The color grid with tv static one persisted half an hour or more. Sometimes I wonder if I need to try to get an fMri so my docs can see things in action. The only difficulty is that I never know when it's going to happen or not, and am I just imagining that the hallucinations and my migraines seem to come at around the same time?
Sometimes the hallucinations are amusing, sometimes annoying, and other times terrifying. Psychiatrist says it's basically dreams and reality crossing paths and to not worry about it. Mri within a yr before was clear (chronic migraines), so no tumors, not psychosis, just kinda still dreaming and not all at once.
story three is incredibly heartbreaking. i've had depression since 8th grade (i'm 21 now) and it's hard enough getting by without hallucinating (auditory nor visual) people telling me i'm not good enough...
In regards to story 11 the whole "pull yourself up by your own bootstraps" that conservatives, actually Evil monsters, fascists and totalitarian business lords tend to constantly preach...
Is a mockery of them... You can't pull yourself up by your own bootstraps!!! They're beneath you! The act of pulling oneself up by their own bootstraps is literally impossible.
Also there's a great video by Historia civilis titled work.
Mentions historical examples of the rights people had and how overworking started to happen during industrialization, not for the benefits of society but really nothing... There's no good outcomes from working people 20 hours a day and not letting people have fast and slow cycles work hours/days
The bosses in England during the industrial revolution would have clocks installed that would tick slower, rewind back a bit after some time and if workers who had their own pocket watches called this out they would get fired on the spot. When people noticed what these bosses were doing there was outrage and regulations that followed.
Out society isn't built for humanity, it's built from the psychotic demands if psychopathic monsters that want to make everything theirs and want to maximize suffering for literally nothing. People and society doesn't profit from hoarding wealth in the hands of a few lunatics.
There's 34 trillion dollars worth of cash hidden in offshore bank accounts just sitting there doing nothing when using it could literally make an unfathomable improvement in the lives and experiences of everything on this rock.
Slavery did not actually benefit slave owners as much as they thought. They just made other peoples lives worse then theirs.
Edit: forgot to mention GAD is something I'm crippled by and I'm mentally disabled (autism, ADHD) and on benefits so I literally can't work and can't clean my own home let alone brush my teeth so it's literally killing me and I am supposed to be on a waiting for 4 YEARS!?!? I said screw that and went for the very expensive but quicker private option and had to get loans from a lot of different family members. Always worth having mental health checked rather then let it consume you.
In my neurology rotation in med school I had a patient who had a stroke on both sides of her occipital lobe. The occipital lobe's main purpose is for intepreting visual information - so when the occipital lobe has a stroke, you'll go, at least partially, blind. Because in her case the strokes where on both sides she was completely blind - but the thibg is that the patient will not know or realize that they are blind. They are 100% sure they can see even though they can't. In the case of the patient we for example would hold up fingers and she'd just tell us a random number, we would point at things that she should describe and she'd just make up something. The patient in this case isn't lying to you - they're fully convinced that they can see. This phenomenon is called "cortical blindness" or "Anton syndrome". It's fascinating but also very scary.
The newspaper stories being about the client i can relate to.
I have psychotic depression / am borderline schizophrenic and during episodes i feel like twitch streamers, tv shows, news articles, everything is sending me hidden messages.
I can tell when im delusional and especially after the episodes end, but it still feels very real and i cant convince myself that they cant be right.
glad that the backround is somewhat relaxing and not some minecraft parkour
There are so many people in this meat suit. And most of us are based on fictional characters, including me. Its a wild time.
tells me everything xd
One of my sisters, just one, suffered hallucinations and delusions at different points in her life. She had them in her teens and again in her 40s. My mom, noting when they happened, has the theory that they're triggered by hormonal changes. Puberty and menopause, she thinks. She's not a psychiatric professional, though, so I dunno.
Had a girl on my dorm room floor in college who, as it turned out, had erotomania, a relatively rare (I think) delusional disorder. She used to talk about her boyfriend back home all the time and their relationship and how sweet and wonderful it was. None of us, including me, realized there was anything wrong. Not until we found out she didn't actually know what he looked like...because they had never actually met. He was a radio host from a local station from her home city. She would ascribe certain catch phrases as messages to her, certain tones of voice as proof of their relationship, and so on. She never actually contacted him or was the crazy "Play Misty for Me" you see in media. But she was also never interested in dating or any kind of actual relationship because she fully believed she was in a serious, committed, and loving one already. Don't know what happened to her in the end. But outside of this she was super nice and pretty smart. Just...yeah.
I have “frisky” OCD. That story really relieves me actually. Helps me remember it’s a disorder and not true.
Do you actually truly believe in your mind it happened?
@@chickadee317 No, never that severe. Why?
@Noah-lo9vb I read your comment and you wrote that hearing that story helped you remember it's a disorder and not true. I wondered if that meant that sometimes you believe you acted out your intrusive thoughts. Regardless, it sounds so awful and I'm sorry you have to deal with all that.
@@chickadee317 Thank you :) No I just sometimes believe that I’m secretly a monster or really into that when in reality it’s horrifying to me. Thank you for your kind words! I’m starting treatment soon :))
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living with ocd from my experience is truly horrific and isolating, i feel for others suffering with it. fortunately im on medication that actually worked after a couple tries with different ones, also watching youtube ocd doctors genuinely helped me chill out.
the problem with ocd is the fact that the illness convinces you that youre a bad person and theres no way you have an illness, so lots of people dont seek help bc the illness genuinely convinces u its all ur fault and not a brain issue. for example i also have other illnesses and sought help for them, but never spoke about ocd until 2 years after getting help and getting therapy.
my biggest advice to people for ocd who r struggling with constantly searching up if youre a bad person or searching that you cant stop thinking about the same thing, google didnt help me relieve anything like that but therapists on youtube genuinely let me breathe a fresh breath of air after realizing i might not be so bad. also, ik this sounds dumb asf and i thought so too, but some serious meditation where it purposely forces u to empty ur mind (the yt videos that last like 20-30 mins r good w all those waterfall sounds) and u just sit and force urself to pass through the thoughts until you can stop thinking about it. i thought that one was a good method because if you force yourself to sit with it and have no emotion about it, you can genuinely move on from those thoughts eventually.
it takes time, but i hope everyone with ocd will find out that its not forever and its not always gonna be so horrible, i thought my life was over but pls seek some type of help and be honest about your thoughts with someone who wont judge you, even though its scary its possible that you can get better!
also ofc that doesnt work for EVERYBODY but it definitely helped me on the road to recovering
well for story 8 id assume "it" was the thoughts that the patient would refuse to talk about but not a psyc so i dont know for sure
I used to have really bad visual and auditory hallucinations combined with severe delusions. I had 0 insights and was absolutely furious no one would help me find my son that had been taken some years back. I was 14. I still remember him, even though I now know he only existed in my mind. Those memories suck because I miss him. I don't struggle with hallucinations or delusions the same way now because I've gotten insight, extensive therapy and I'm on antipsychotic meds. You would never be able to tell from meeting and talking to me.
I still see and hear stuff on a daily basis but the voices has turned into background noise and I just look away when I see something weird. My auditory hallucinations sounds like someone's outside my apartment or in another apartment (or on a video call which I'm on a lot) having a party, talking loudly, yelling, singing. It's not really clear and I often get up to check around and there's nothing. The visual hallucinations are usually human shaped shadows or "rainbow shadows" which are white shapes with a rainbow around them. I also frequently see people who's heads are blurred out like they are on google earth for example. Kinda scary but it helps knowing they can't really hurt me. I would probably be waaay worse off if not on my meds though 😂😂
I've heard of the condition from the 1st story when there was a dude on the internet stalking an influencer because he believed his fiance is actually this influencer, but FBI but her in a skin suit and stole her life by butting an imposter in her house. Charlotte Dobre reacted to this story on her yt channel
For those looking for it in story 1, it's not k'gra, it is "capras delusion", although it is medically called delusional misidentification syndrome
Story 11:
Screw that therapist! Hard work is what keeps me going to the next day. It keeps my anxiety under control. Without it my mind fills with worry and negative thoughts. But if I'm working I'm bettering myself or supporting someone else. Why do you think most men die less that a year after retirement? Living is hard work. Life is a struggle. It has been ever since life appeared on this ball of rock, and we are evolved to pull a load. Embrace the struggle.
i feel like if you think about touching kids you need help but if you actually touch kids you need help but you also need to face the consequences of your actions
I used to think i had anxiety, then recently, i started having panic attacks and feel some kinda always in the background anxiety. Its awful. Anxiety meds seem to make it worse as well as my adhd medication.
10:48 oh this kind of sounds like something that happened to my dad. Me and my brother were at school and he was driving over to get us when suddenly, in his words, he got "disoriented". And it was like he just couldn't remember what he was doing or anything. He managed to pull over and text my mom though. Me and my brother were at school for so long waiting for someone to pick us up and we had no idea what was happening until our teacher (who was pretty close with our parents) came and told us what was going on and picked us up and took us to her house for the afternoon. My dad was fine the next day and he came home then.
I don't know if it's the same thing--I remember being told it was something else--but the story reminded me of it.
22:40 YES YES YES THIS. i have autism, adhd, and social anxiety, as well as dermatillomania (skin picking) (which might be related to my adhd). none of these things are obvious when you meet me and it never really comes up in conversation so a lot of people probably just assume I'm completely neurotypical and i bet that if i told someone about all that who didn't already know previously, they wouldn't believe me at first because "you don't ACT autistic/you don't ACT like someone with ADHD/you don't ACT anxious" yes, i don't "act" anxious, so OBVIOUSLY i can't have social anxiety, even though i constantly overthink everything i do and say around other people and i constantly worry that what I'm doing will make people think I'm weird/stupid/mean/etc. (being sarcastic there about the "obviously i can't have social anxiety"). like a lot of mental disorders aren't as visible as you'd think, and for a lot of people it's not even like a huge part of who they are anyway so they kind of just live their life with it. and then there's the people who try to hide it to fit in with society's expectations.
I knew a girl who had a phantom pregnancy. She was obsessed with wanting to be a teen mom. She was a virgin with phantom pregnancy. She was absolutely convinced she was the next Virgin Mary, until her period happened a few days later. She was a character.
I experienced capgras delusion as a Teenager. I was dealing with psychosis at the time. I was screaming and crying at my family saying you look like my family but you are not.
So my mother took me to the hospital and I was told that I was dissociating. Obviously with something as obscure as that its not going to click on.
Now I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. And my life is better now ^^
Edit: it was the same with my bed too. I said it felt like my bed but it wasnt
Thats actually the most common form of OCD. I have this form of OCD, its genuinely terrifying.
And to note people with sexual OCD are the least likely to abuse people of anyone. It tends to happen a lot to vivtims of abuse, and autistic folks. It happens because your hatred of a thing or values are so strong that when your brain experiences a casual undesired intrusive thought (something most brains experience at some point but dismiss without a second thought) and your hatred of that thing is so intense your brain equates the intrusive thought with the actual crime so you latch onto it obsessing trying to figure out why its happening belirving you are the most evil and depraved person ever to exist. And because social representayions of ocd are always cleaning which is actually one of the rarer forms, ppl with this ocd dont know why its happening and believe the problem is them which often leads to suicide. The key difgerence tho is there is no desire, at all. It feels more like being assaulted by your own brain. It feels more like bring sexually assaulted on repeat than any form of desire.
Story 2 is one of the few times i think the ohrase igborance is bliss is applicable
I’m curious yet not desiring to be labeled. Just because someone looks like they have it all together doesn’t mean they have it all together. There are many ways to cope - good and bad. I personally aim for balance.
I have GAD and it’s horrible. I feel so exhausted but restless at the same time. My body is exhausted from the constant tension I put on my body and the migraines that are most likely from my crying. Yet, my mind is restless: my irrational thoughts and fears consume me. It keeps me awake at night and so I’m tired and fatigued all the time. All of this combined has taken a massive toll on me. Daily tasks are more of a struggle and I isolate myself because of theses struggles. I don’t know.. I just feel so hopeless
I take mental health seriously too. But some of these are so bizarre it's hard to believe they aren't made up. And some actually are or people faking stuff, making the work of psychologists and other health professionals way more difficult.
since we're talking about strange brain things I'd like to contribute something light (or anyway, way lighter than anything else here)
Happened about 3 months ago. I was going to bed, my bf was already sleeping so I didn't light anything. The moment I sat down on the bed he tackled me and threw me on the floor. Let me be clear, he jumped from his place in the bed where he was layin over my place, picked me up, over my night table (I didn't touch it) and onto the floor. About 2 meters.
Screaming.
He started punching the air above me while I tried to tell him it was just me. This lasted about 30 seconds. After that he woke up, got me up, half dragged me away from the bedroom and kept saying the devil really exists and he had seen it
From what I could understand after he calmed down and told me in detail I think he had a sleep paralysis hallucination (he had had it only once before, but it was auditory, not visual) and that the paralysis part didn't kick in because of some form of somnambulism (he sometimes talks in his sleep). It's a big stretch but it's the best explanation we could come up with.
Apparently he saw me on the bed (I wasn't there) and a demon entering and sitting over me (that was me actually) trying to "enter" me or something. So he tackled the demon (still me) and it somehow took me with it because after that I was on the floor (this was me at this point) with the demon hovering over me (so happy he didn't overlap it with me anymore because that's when he started punching. He punched the air. He ended up in the hospital with a dislocated shoulder. If he had punched me I would have ended up in the morgue with a perforated sternum)
so, if anyone has any kind of explanation for this I would be really grateful. 😅
intrusive thoughts are so fucking horrible, but the comfort is knowing our brain tortures us with things we find morally wrong. If you struggle with thoughts that destroy your psyche, that is NOT who you are. Your reaction to them is proof.
something i wish someone told me long ago
@@unikornsandsatan you know now
9:18 “Older gentleman, about 43 at the time.” OUCH! I took that personally.
"K'gra delusion" is actually capgras delusion, btw.
I don't have ocd but i do have intrusive thoughts. i can remember having violent intrusive thoughts as far back as the 2nd grade. i'm now, at age 23, finally learning to not be so terrified of these intrusive thoughts. i treated it like the guy in the video, if i talked about it then it felt more real, so i kept it a secret all my life until about a year ago. i had talked to my sister about it (she's a school psychologist) and she was basically like "girl you are not evil, it's fine, your fine". i still don't talk about specific intrusive thoughts (unless asked to by my therapist) because it can be a difficult thing to explain to people, and just really isn't public friendly. i couldn't image just saying an intrusive thought outloud to my mom or something, like "i just had an intrusive thought to stab my fork into the dog's eyeball" during family dinner. but i'm still not comfortable saying anything outloud for the simple fact that it's still distressing regardless of how much progress i've made. brains are so weird
I havent been diagnosed with schizophrenia as what i have isnt deemed as severe enough, ive had multiple psychotic episodes from hearing people who arent there and due to my fear of buzzing insects hearing that and becoming paranoid. When i was younger i would freak out other people as i would dissociate from pain and be mad about every normal function. I also hallucinate quite a bit but in day time it tends to not be vivid unless its backed by a belief. So i have had two instances where i have watched a black and white show and didnt know as i saw it in colour instead until someone pointed out it was black and white.
Also bugs flying round as im terrified still off flying and buzzing insects. Also had quite a few delusions, one being that my parents were replaced by aliens and going to kill me.
The reason why i was classed as not schizophrenic is because i after a struggle manage to convince my brain that the thoughts arent rational and just go numb again from then on.
Its as if what ive been through due to all the hallucinations and delusions has caused my brain to have a kill switch where i do indeed just dissociate.
Before you said what GAD stands for, I was like, “Wait, I think I might have that!” and when you revealed the acronym, I was like, “Oh. I’ve already diagnosed with that for almost a decade.”
11:44 Recently, around last year, my cousin had developed this. She was a regular weed user, never had problems. It’s illegal here, so she had to have been getting it in a shadier way. One day she was smoking a blunt, I believe it was laced. It changed her completely. She was with her friends, and suddenly she got extremely violent, wouldn’t stop screaming, etc. Her friends had to force her off of one of them and they took her to the hospital. I don’t know if she’s still in the institution, but I do know that I really miss her old self. Please for the love of god if you’re going to do any drugs of any sort, make sure you’re getting it in a safe, reliable way.
I had no idea some of these existed.
Btw, what game is in the background? It looks cool.