Jesus Christ bore it all on the cross and defeated it by risingg again 3 days later. The Lord can deliver you , hear you , speak to you and heal you but you have to come to yourself and allow Him to do a work in you. You can talk to him , yell , ask hard questions and let His Holy Spirit answer you and lead you to a heart of confessing that you need Jesus christ to save you and that you will believe and accept his sacrifice and ressurection. Unlike others my God is alive and active and He will prove himself as true if you only give Him a chance. Let Him love you , Let him heal you even from things you may blame him for. The Lord causes no harm , satan is roaming around too but through the pain will be comfort , vindication , a testimony. Let Him love yall ❤ bless
I grieved way too long - 20 years - living alone and being antisocial - my animals, garden, home and memories were all I focused on. Now I'm facing growing old alone and it's not the same. Don't let grief deprive you of a whole life. Peace.
The trauma takes you commiting to walk you back home , it calls for one to have that support system that doesn't ask questions, doesn't judge doesn't offer unsolicited advice, it calls for one to find that point and say this is where it hurts , this is where the pain is , this is how it hurts and then asking will you walk with me to heal this pain , will you hold my path as I walk me home .
Grief shocks the system and for me, it sends me back into survival mode. But faith is fueled by the unknown and there’s some lessons only learned in a storm. May God allow us to heal from all the things people never apologized for. ♥️
Absolutely 💯 We definitely should support each other more. At the end of day, we’re more alike than different. We experience some of the same things. Love on each other more and let the pettiness go. All the best to my sisters out there. You’re loved and appreciated ❤💐
I'm 45, single, no kids, live on my.own, and LOVE IT!! I have 5 rescue dogs saved from death row and I network other dogs in need into rescues. My biggest fear is my finances. I don't have a savings, safety net, retirement, health insurance, I don't own my own home, and live paycheck to paycheck, making under $15/hour (after taxes) working as a paralegal in the Midwest. I worry so much about the future due to my financial status that I've stayed too long in terrible relationships. Not because I'm afraid of being alone, but because I can't make it our there on my own financially, and as I get older my concern only grows. 💜
I feel the same, but you know what, I saw too many people have all of that, and one day they have a heart attack, or lose a home due to an earthquake, or someone in their family gets sick and all the bad endings because nothing is certain, it has been proven that people like us manage better in life crises (we are used to living in an uncertain way 😉) Don’t worry, we will find our way. As long as we are healthy we can make money and secure our future 🫶
Not sure what part of the Midwest you live in, but go to government jobs .Com being a paralegal, you have developed an impressive administrative skill set that could transition you to a higher paying admin job working for the city, County or state. Good luck.
Hang in there! Stay focused and positive that whatever your goals are will come to pass 💐. It’s never too late to switch careers or start a side hustle
This video helped me tonight, I've been grieving my friendships in my singleness both of my best friends have gotten married within the past year and I don't spend time with like I used to naturally. While grieving what we used to have I am figuring out who I am now, I am not who I used to me 6 months ago let alone 5 years ago. It's a lot to process but I know I'll get there.Sometimes it's hard not having someone to talk to about it outside of God.
Community service is a good way to get over grief. Thinking about others and not ones self is a great way to connect with the universal spirit that keeps us from feeling alone. We are all spirit and we will be reunited. 💛🙏🏽
Something else I find extremely important is knowing how to identify grief. You don’t always feel grief when someone close has died. You could’ve lost a part of yourself. Grieving an older version, or a relationship you were forced to cut off from. A lot of the time, we overlook that these are feelings of grief and oftentimes don’t develop the healthy coping mechanisms because we simply never learned to understand our grieving, let alone identify it as grieving.
i'm currently going through a split after 11 years, 6 of those years married.. i talk about it on my channel... life is crazy.... i just turned 31 in jan this year and i'm currently going through a very transformational time in my life. god is good!!!!!!!!!
I also walked away after 11 yrs together & 9-1/2 yrs on paperwork, but I'm so done & very ready for 4 my transformation💃🏿 APTTMH 💜 ALLELUIA 2 THE KING!
I am first time ,new to your channel. I could cry because this is how I viewed my life 40 years ago. I would always go left when God would tell me to go right. Alway listen when he speaks. Always be honest ,no matter what. I promise you won't have any regrets. God Bless this channel
This is what I've been dealing with. Grief on so many levels. Grief in mourning my mom who passed 3/28/22, my older cousin who passed the day before my mom's burial, my auntie who passed the year before my mom, my godfather who passed 12/13/22, and my godmother who passed 9/2023. My whole support system is now gone. Then as you mentioned, understanding that I've been grieving the 7-year old me from the abuse, added with all the additional experiences we deal with as women. I can go on and on with what that looks like for me all the way to medical diagnosis and intimate relationships. Feeling like you can breathe one minute, then the next life has you in a choke hold. And like you...learning how to take control at this big age in my life and reinvent myself. Enjoying your journey. I definitely love the new style of vlogs you got going on, the voiceovers and beautiful gems you are sharing on your journey. And also your new mic is great. Sounds awesome. What brand is that?
Excellent content. For me, grief never ends Grief simply morphs itself into a different scene. Regardless of my accomplishments and successes, I can’t seem to run away from grief. Regardless of where I relocate, I can’t seem to run away from Grief. I have acknowledged that my faith and God has kept me sane. The key is to recognize that it’s OK for me to get professional help
i can totally relate to you on the note of relocating. i have found this to be true for me as well. since leaving LA, i've found myself grieving things that was grieving while living in LA. However, I do notice myself feeling lighter and lighter each day. ❤❤❤
Grief isn't tacked away is your running away endeavors it goes with you in the movers track, it says I'm here aknowledge me only then will you be able to get away from me , see me and let's hold that conversation only then can I exit your life .
I live alone for 26 years now in 2019 I’ve started being isolation closing myself out from the world... I’ve made my home peaceful comfortable enough so I wouldn’t have to be outside when I come from work ..I always thought I were ok .in reality, I weren’t OK..,was still healing at the time ..now God is telling me to let go let God do his will 🙏🏾Ive set boundaries in 2024 .. to protect my peace and sanity..I’ve I’m coming into a need a balance my life ..not allow the rest of my life, slipped by without joy ,Love or happiness..we all need balance to move forward not look back .wishing you the very best❤
Your vlogs are always therapeutic for me. So relatable. I turn 30 next month, and I’ve spent almost my entire 20s grieving all sorts of things. Now I know the affect it has on health, I’m now prioritizing making sure my nervous system is calm as much as I can everyday throughout the day.
10:07 if you want a man at the gym, just ask somebody you like for help lol. we don't approach women at the gym that don't talk to us first to avoid weird shit from these crazy tiktok women.
@@mischaraine1645 blame society for making it harder. You either risk being the weird creep at the gym for approaching or you don't risk it at all because you come to that gym often and being painted as the gym creep isn't something I'd want on my resume lol. I think women are scared to approach because they think they have to carry said conversation lol, just give the men an opening and he'll let you know - but these days not many men are going to risk that at the gym lol,
Grief is such a crazy thing. I have sickle cell and was diagnosed at 2 days old but I didn't have my first flare up until I was 9. Why? Because of grief. My aunt died of cancer when I was 9 and that same week I had my first ever sickle cell flare up, stress is a huge trigger for my illness and the amount of stress that comes with grief is fucking annoying(excuse my french). Because of that grief I was diagnosed with depression at 10, later diagnosed with BPD at 12, then later diagnosed with autism so I have always been in a constant state of grief. Grieving the life I didn't and will never get, grieving who I could've been if my life didnt revolve around multiple illnesses that I did not ask for. Watching all my other friends live the lives of normal 20 something yr olds while im stuck, stagnant, grieving the could've, would've, should've. I truly hope to anyone reading this we all find our way past the grief and out into a new era of happiness, no longer stuck and waiting for change.
Wow. This is exactly how I feel. I'm 26 and emotionally, psychologically and experience wise, I often feel 16, because that's about the amount of independence and life experience I have. I have basically lost my entire late teens and early twenties to illness, trauma and abuse, that I have tried to free myself from to no avail. So trust me when I tell you you are not alone. I really hope the best for us as well. Because it's tough out here just surviving for some of us.
Taking this moment to acknowledge your grief hugs 🫂 Also, sickle cell is one of the reasons those with African heritage are so needed to be bone marrow donors 🙏 Hopefully you and others with that are able to find a match and get well.
I know exactly how you feel! Life is not easy! I am 23 years old and I have always had it quite hard, from suffering with a choronic Ilness, having to lose most of my years in hospitals due to severe depression. You are not alone, I'm sending you a vitrual hug. ❤💙💐🫂
I get to live alone part time in opulent spaces when I am on duty as a flight attendant. I really value and appreciate those days because I’m able to nurture and heal the traumatized little girl and young woman in me that still is overcome with grief. I can’t even acknowledge her when I am home because I am the sole provider of 4 beautiful children. I love that I came across your page. I imagine my children having a beautiful home and life like yours once they become adults and spread their wings!
I am sorry for your loss. After 11.5 years my grief is just different now than the day he died. It jerked me into a reality of sorts. I like your apartment.
I wish society had normalized living alone as an option. I spent/wasted so many years, trying to be a part of a couple because I didn’t want to be alone. I have been alone for the last five years and retired for the last two and they have been the best years of my life. At the same time, I have looked back on my past and realized I was never the problem, but I was made to feel like I was the problem.
Wow i just lost my husband four days ago and can't even get up to clean, cook or do and feel so exhausted. It's gonna take me a long time to feel like her.
Praying for you too beautiful sister, Lord Jesus give her comfort and strength each day to carry her through the hardest of moments. The unimaginable has happened in her life, but You are still God and You have a plan for her life.
You are too cute!.. I love your content!.. love your space/home decor, your routine/ cooking and how you're taking care of yourself. It didn't seem like you shared what type of grief you are dealing with, or maybe I missed it. For me, I have been dealing with grief and loss mostly for the past 3 years starting with losing my dad at the beginning of 2021, and it all seems to have gone downhill from there... We were very close and I still miss him a lot. A few months after he passed, I suffered a huge financial loss that I'm still recovering from, I'm also now 2 months post-breakup one of the most painful, if not the most painful romantic love connection I have ever experienced in my life, which lasted about a year long on and off. Grief is not a popular topic nowadays, especially on social media so thank you for touching on that, and making it look cool to talk about. Vulnerability inspires.. While we can totally heal alone, on our own, I truly believe there is strength in numbers and that our stories can encourage and uplift one another even if it's to show that we are not alone in this, and there is light at the end of the tunnel. For me, as a Christian, and a believer in Jesus-Christ, my faith and spirituality is what I have been resting upon, and what has carried me through my darkest days. Ultimately, life is what you make of it & I love how you cope with yours. I'm still in search of a healing community myself if anyone knows of one. Any suggestions would be much appreciated.
i’m still early on in the book and i am HOOKED! idkkkkk sometimes the movies be leaving stuff out and be underwhelming 😅 lol but we’ll see bc i think it did get picked up for television, so we’ll see!!
Been loving these introspective voice overs lately and we see you, cinematography, different angles, B-roll!!! As always, your videos are always a treat to watch.
Girl! Your body is already goals for so many of us, but I totally understand about discipline and wanting to reach specific goals. Also, your comments on grief are SO real. That quote "Grief is love with nowhere to go..." applies as much to loss as much to the absence of love we don't have or haven't found yet. *Hugs*
Don’t know why this appeared on my feed, but I watched because the number of views is my birthdate. I enjoyed your video and kudos to you for finding the sweet spots that life has to offer, in-spite of our challenges.
This is just the kind of video/channel I needed. I don't believe I ever took the time to grieve the past person I used to be. I've always just pushed forward in life without a second thought. Why? Grief can be scary. Especially when you have to sort through all the memories of the past. I need to do better for myself. Thank you for reminding me of that! :)
Came across your channel. I lost my only son a year ago and the grief is still so painful. I know it will always be there. He was my whole world. Living life is the hardest now. I am grateful for the family and friends I have. Grief is something we have to deal alone only we know how we feel. I am taking it day by day the best I can. You just made my son favorite kind of drink too. He loves matcha. Also yellow has been in my radar more after his passing. It represents a lot of him to me. The sun, he liked pineapple everything and had a yellow car. I think he wanted to see this message.
I resonate with this so much. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. It helps me feel not so alone. I recently lost my Mum and life is so different without her. It truly is challenging. But we keep pushing through and finding the beauty in everyday life.
I’m loving the voiceovers, matcha breaks, gym - consistency and discipline we in the same boat! Side bar: I had my green snake plant from EasyPlant since February and two leaves broke off. I was sad and I gotta do better as a new plant mom
I do not like living alone anymore, I've reached an expiration date. I've been a loner pretty much all of life and have exhausted time by myself. Grief is complex in so many ways because there are so many forms of it. I'm glad that this video was posted. Thank you❤ First time watching, cute home!
Great Rising, Great Vlog, whatever life experiences bring. May it propel you to be even better to yourself. So proud of the woman you are becoming. Your dreams and goals are coming into reality. How it will get done is not your business. It's God's business ❤
@AmaniRakeia You are so welcome. I am 60 years young from Cali. You are like my virtual daughter, lol. I often frequent the places you visited in your older Vlogs. Keep up the great work.
Thank you first of all for this lovely soothing vlog and another thank you for that big slap in the face that I absolutely needed at this exact moment. Currently I’m dealing with just that…grief. Grief of that happy girl I once knew who’s so far gone idk how to get back! But like you say, “regardless ima be Ight” I love you girl!! Forever a supportive subscriber!
Jesus saves all who ask. He actually died on a cross so that you will be saved, ask him to save you from any hurt & pain you suffered from grief. It’s been 15 years my sibling was murdered I suffered from depression and anxiety,ptsd & anger because what did I do to deserve this? Nothing. But only Jesus could give me back my joy after all those years I’m just now feeling like i have be given back my life of joy & actual freedom of grief and anger. You’ll be saved one day as well & your doing the work good job 🙏🏾💜💪🏽
I never share my feelings and that’s such a bad thing I’m unlearning. But I’m amazed at how many of us ladies are in such similar spaces and healing ❤️ just sending everyone some love and positive support in our journeys ❤️ thank you for this Amani ❤️❤️
The way this vlog fed my soul! GIRL! 🥲Amani, I know you're a GRWM, but when I say, the level of maturity you display at your tender age, is so FN admirable and inspiring.🤌🏽Your mere existence gives me so much hope for the future of humanity. Never stop, baby girl! You're definitely in the right place and on the right path.😘💕
Sis...I truly enjoy all of your content and how you share your life experience to empower women. You are amazing and have great qualities in everything you do. Keep being you. Much love and countless blessings ❤
I lost my mom 30 years ago as a teen… and I choose myself everyday… its hard when you have to live on your own and raise yourself but God has kept me. 🙏🏽😊
Hey Amani gurrl thank you so much for touching on grief 😢just lost my bf last month and I feel so empty inside bt definitely have to be strong and move on bt ain't easy.❤from SA
❤ New subscriber ❤ I went through a long process of healing. It’s been a long journey but I’m single, whole, in peace and blessed! I’m so grateful for the learning experiences, strength and growth ❤
I can’t wait to live alone! My husband left me for a younger woman after twenty years of marriage and my youngest daughter is now a senior in HS. We will live together until she gets through her school year. Roommates for now. Thanks for the inspiration ❤
A little bit of living alone is wonderful, therapeutic even ,a lot of it is can be scarily lonely,then if you can push through it becomes normal and company becomes both a dream and a pain but not a reality.I was always scared to reach that last stage where I can stand nothing but my own company and lose all patience for people.Effectively becoming a hermit because I came close but things outside my circumstances pulled me out.
oh my, i am so so sorry for your lost. i pray that each day you feel fully covered and loved by him, especially when those feelings of grief hit hard ❤
chileeee I literally been in a similar space and recorded something about it the other day. Actually accepting we are always evolving and not really starting over but starting new and adding to who we are. Those versions may not be who we are but doesn't mean we aren't who we are. You hit it on the nose that the only things we can actually care about is what we do NOW
you are truly so skilled at vlogging like the first volg I HAVe EVER watched that I didn't have to stop myself from clicking away. So engaging and artistic !! KEEEP IT UPPP
New sub here love the living alone content. My grief is kinda different but it kinda feels like loneliness so to speak. I relocated solo from my hometown and almost no family comes to visit. I don’t go back that often because I feel no one reaches out to me so I’m trying to enjoy my life. Just hit 50, stress and debt free it feels amazing but still think about things I can’t control… Keep up the great vlogs and shining because you are an inspiration to others 💪🏽!!!
Greetings my lovely from London give yourself time to heal.. must say new to your channel but love the aesthetics of your beautiful home and your interesting content.. sending love and light your way ♥️♥️
The pandemic definitely took the last 3 years of my 40s away from me. The last years of enjoying being able to say I’m in my 40s living my best life before turning 50 and yeah….I’m STILL pissed abt that. 👿. Im thankful to be in good shape and black don’t crack. But damn.. I miss my 40s.
GLORY!!!!'m favoured, $140K every 3weeks! And am retired i can now give back to the locals in my community and also support God's work and the church. God bless America
No specific one really, because there are lots of investment plans and strategies littered all over the internet today, for instance, investments like real estates,gold, drop shipping crypto currency and lots more
"The thing about grief is no one will save you" ... This! Everyday I make a conscious effort to choose me and push through each day.
once i learned this and accepted this, i really had to stand on business and do what i had to do to protect my heart space and push through 💗
And Nobody can feel or understand you...
Jesus Christ bore it all on the cross and defeated it by risingg again 3 days later. The Lord can deliver you , hear you , speak to you and heal you but you have to come to yourself and allow Him to do a work in you. You can talk to him , yell , ask hard questions and let His Holy Spirit answer you and lead you to a heart of confessing that you need Jesus christ to save you and that you will believe and accept his sacrifice and ressurection. Unlike others my God is alive and active and He will prove himself as true if you only give Him a chance. Let Him love you , Let him heal you even from things you may blame him for. The Lord causes no harm , satan is roaming around too but through the pain will be comfort , vindication , a testimony. Let Him love yall ❤ bless
Wow true
100%
I grieved way too long - 20 years - living alone and being antisocial - my animals, garden, home and memories were all I focused on. Now I'm facing growing old alone and it's not the same. Don't let grief deprive you of a whole life. Peace.
It's not too late Elizabeth~ Travel!!
@@sylviacarlson3561 Thank you for the encouragement!
When were you diagnosed with ASPD?
Right.
@@sylviacarlson3561Right.
“The hard truth about this life we live is that no one is coming to save you.” A very profound observation.
Jesus Christ CAN and WILL 🙏🏽🤍
Living alone is a gift it’s all in the mind
Amen. I luv me sum me and my peace.
💯 I don’t t feel like it’s appreciated enough.
Trying to embrace this perspective ❤
A WONDERFUL gift.
I say “time heals all wounds BUT IT DONT HEAL THE TRAUMA left behind.” That -That Takes WORK 🙏🏾😩🙌🏾
Preach!!!!!
The trauma takes you commiting to walk you back home , it calls for one to have that support system that doesn't ask questions, doesn't judge doesn't offer unsolicited advice, it calls for one to find that point and say this is where it hurts , this is where the pain is , this is how it hurts and then asking will you walk with me to heal this pain , will you hold my path as I walk me home .
I wish more people could understand the absolute healing, freedom and joy that comes from living alone ❤
I’m going on this healing journey soon
Enjoy every moment 😊@@BeautyFromAshes87
I wish to experience this one day🥹
"Grief is just love with nowhere to go"
Wow! Never thought of this way. Thanks!
Amen 🙏🏽 ❤
Grief shocks the system and for me, it sends me back into survival mode. But faith is fueled by the unknown and there’s some lessons only learned in a storm. May God allow us to heal from all the things people never apologized for. ♥️
Amen! 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽😊
We can save each other.
We women can support each other.
We are not alone…we are just apart.
Sending positivity to all of my fellow sisters.🩵🫂🩵🫂🩵🫂
“We are not alone…we are just apart.” ❤❤❤
Please lets find eachother. We need us.
Absolutely 💯 We definitely should support each other more. At the end of day, we’re more alike than different. We experience some of the same things.
Love on each other more and let the pettiness go.
All the best to my sisters out there. You’re loved and appreciated ❤💐
Female sistahs! No confusion needed, already been dunked in confusion no space for deception!
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I'm 45, single, no kids, live on my.own, and LOVE IT!! I have 5 rescue dogs saved from death row and I network other dogs in need into rescues. My biggest fear is my finances. I don't have a savings, safety net, retirement, health insurance, I don't own my own home, and live paycheck to paycheck, making under $15/hour (after taxes) working as a paralegal in the Midwest. I worry so much about the future due to my financial status that I've stayed too long in terrible relationships. Not because I'm afraid of being alone, but because I can't make it our there on my own financially, and as I get older my concern only grows. 💜
I feel the same, but you know what, I saw too many people have all of that, and one day they have a heart attack, or lose a home due to an earthquake, or someone in their family gets sick and all the bad endings because nothing is certain, it has been proven that people like us manage better in life crises (we are used to living in an uncertain way 😉) Don’t worry, we will find our way. As long as we are healthy we can make money and secure our future 🫶
Not sure what part of the Midwest you live in, but go to government jobs .Com being a paralegal, you have developed an impressive administrative skill set that could transition you to a higher paying admin job working for the city, County or state. Good luck.
Hang in there! Stay focused and positive that whatever your goals are will come to pass 💐. It’s never too late to switch careers or start a side hustle
Me too hi
This video helped me tonight, I've been grieving my friendships in my singleness both of my best friends have gotten married within the past year and I don't spend time with like I used to naturally. While grieving what we used to have I am figuring out who I am now, I am not who I used to me 6 months ago let alone 5 years ago. It's a lot to process but I know I'll get there.Sometimes it's hard not having someone to talk to about it outside of God.
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Community service is a good way to get over grief. Thinking about others and not ones self is a great way to connect with the universal spirit that keeps us from feeling alone. We are all spirit and we will be reunited. 💛🙏🏽
I felt that - "grief is just love with no where to go."
I love the quote ... 🤍
I can attest that this is true❤
Something else I find extremely important is knowing how to identify grief. You don’t always feel grief when someone close has died. You could’ve lost a part of yourself. Grieving an older version, or a relationship you were forced to cut off from. A lot of the time, we overlook that these are feelings of grief and oftentimes don’t develop the healthy coping mechanisms because we simply never learned to understand our grieving, let alone identify it as grieving.
@@eshaepperson5945 This is so true. Thank you for pointing that out.
i'm currently going through a split after 11 years, 6 of those years married.. i talk about it on my channel... life is crazy.... i just turned 31 in jan this year and i'm currently going through a very transformational time in my life. god is good!!!!!!!!!
I also walked away after 11 yrs together & 9-1/2 yrs on paperwork, but I'm so done & very ready for 4 my transformation💃🏿 APTTMH 💜 ALLELUIA 2 THE KING!
I am first time ,new to your channel. I could cry because this is how I viewed my life 40 years ago. I would always go left when God would tell me to go right. Alway listen when he speaks. Always be honest ,no matter what. I promise you won't have any regrets. God Bless this channel
This is what I've been dealing with. Grief on so many levels. Grief in mourning my mom who passed 3/28/22, my older cousin who passed the day before my mom's burial, my auntie who passed the year before my mom, my godfather who passed 12/13/22, and my godmother who passed 9/2023. My whole support system is now gone. Then as you mentioned, understanding that I've been grieving the 7-year old me from the abuse, added with all the additional experiences we deal with as women. I can go on and on with what that looks like for me all the way to medical diagnosis and intimate relationships. Feeling like you can breathe one minute, then the next life has you in a choke hold. And like you...learning how to take control at this big age in my life and reinvent myself. Enjoying your journey.
I definitely love the new style of vlogs you got going on, the voiceovers and beautiful gems you are sharing on your journey. And also your new mic is great. Sounds awesome. What brand is that?
Thanks for sharing ❤
@@lliselsolis4456 Thank you.
Can't even imagine how hard that must have been!🥺 wish you lots of love and happiness💕
@@Loccharm Thank you so much. It's still hard most days. Still learning and figuring out how to grieve. Thank you for the well wishes.
Excellent content.
For me, grief never ends
Grief simply morphs itself into a different scene.
Regardless of my accomplishments and successes, I can’t seem to run away from grief. Regardless of where I relocate, I can’t seem to run away from Grief.
I have acknowledged that my faith and God has kept me sane.
The key is to recognize that it’s OK for me to get professional help
i can totally relate to you on the note of relocating. i have found this to be true for me as well. since leaving LA, i've found myself grieving things that was grieving while living in LA. However, I do notice myself feeling lighter and lighter each day. ❤❤❤
@@AmaniRakeia ❤️❤️
It's okay to get professional help. I definitely had to and will continue to do so as I need it.
Grief isn't tacked away is your running away endeavors it goes with you in the movers track, it says I'm here aknowledge me only then will you be able to get away from me , see me and let's hold that conversation only then can I exit your life .
Hi friend. Me too
I live alone for 26 years now in 2019 I’ve started being isolation closing myself out from the world... I’ve made my home peaceful comfortable enough so I wouldn’t have to be outside when I come from work ..I always thought I were ok .in reality, I weren’t OK..,was still healing at the time ..now God is telling me to let go let God do his will 🙏🏾Ive set boundaries in 2024 .. to protect my peace and sanity..I’ve I’m coming into a need a balance my life ..not allow the rest of my life, slipped by without joy ,Love or happiness..we all need balance to move forward not look back .wishing you the very best❤
It's good to be alone but you still need a friend like me
Your vlogs are always therapeutic for me. So relatable. I turn 30 next month, and I’ve spent almost my entire 20s grieving all sorts of things. Now I know the affect it has on health, I’m now prioritizing making sure my nervous system is calm as much as I can everyday throughout the day.
Grief 😢 is the price we pay for love ❤
Absolutely! thank you
Yes
shes too much of a vibe, she ain't gone stay alone for long chile
10:07 if you want a man at the gym, just ask somebody you like for help lol. we don't approach women at the gym that don't talk to us first to avoid weird shit from these crazy tiktok women.
@@mischaraine1645 blame society for making it harder. You either risk being the weird creep at the gym for approaching or you don't risk it at all because you come to that gym often and being painted as the gym creep isn't something I'd want on my resume lol. I think women are scared to approach because they think they have to carry said conversation lol, just give the men an opening and he'll let you know - but these days not many men are going to risk that at the gym lol,
Grief is such a crazy thing. I have sickle cell and was diagnosed at 2 days old but I didn't have my first flare up until I was 9. Why? Because of grief. My aunt died of cancer when I was 9 and that same week I had my first ever sickle cell flare up, stress is a huge trigger for my illness and the amount of stress that comes with grief is fucking annoying(excuse my french). Because of that grief I was diagnosed with depression at 10, later diagnosed with BPD at 12, then later diagnosed with autism so I have always been in a constant state of grief. Grieving the life I didn't and will never get, grieving who I could've been if my life didnt revolve around multiple illnesses that I did not ask for. Watching all my other friends live the lives of normal 20 something yr olds while im stuck, stagnant, grieving the could've, would've, should've. I truly hope to anyone reading this we all find our way past the grief and out into a new era of happiness, no longer stuck and waiting for change.
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Wow. This is exactly how I feel. I'm 26 and emotionally, psychologically and experience wise, I often feel 16, because that's about the amount of independence and life experience I have. I have basically lost my entire late teens and early twenties to illness, trauma and abuse, that I have tried to free myself from to no avail. So trust me when I tell you you are not alone. I really hope the best for us as well. Because it's tough out here just surviving for some of us.
Taking this moment to acknowledge your grief hugs 🫂
Also, sickle cell is one of the reasons those with African heritage are so needed to be bone marrow donors 🙏 Hopefully you and others with that are able to find a match and get well.
I know exactly how you feel! Life is not easy! I am 23 years old and I have always had it quite hard, from suffering with a choronic Ilness, having to lose most of my years in hospitals due to severe depression. You are not alone, I'm sending you a vitrual hug. ❤💙💐🫂
No one is coming to save you 🥺 so truee! Bought a tear to my eye b/c you got to do this for YOU.
I get to live alone part time in opulent spaces when I am on duty as a flight attendant. I really value and appreciate those days because I’m able to nurture and heal the traumatized little girl and young woman in me that still is overcome with grief. I can’t even acknowledge her when I am home because I am the sole provider of 4 beautiful children.
I love that I came across your page. I imagine my children having a beautiful home and life like yours once they become adults and spread their wings!
"You have to save yourself," Princess Williams.
Living alone is fun
I am sorry for your loss. After 11.5 years my grief is just different now than the day he died. It jerked me into a reality of sorts.
I like your apartment.
I wish society had normalized living alone as an option. I spent/wasted so many years, trying to be a part of a couple because I didn’t want to be alone. I have been alone for the last five years and retired for the last two and they have been the best years of my life. At the same time, I have looked back on my past and realized I was never the problem, but I was made to feel like I was the problem.
Wow i just lost my husband four days ago and can't even get up to clean, cook or do and feel so exhausted. It's gonna take me a long time to feel like her.
Praying for you❤
Praying for you too beautiful sister, Lord Jesus give her comfort and strength each day to carry her through the hardest of moments. The unimaginable has happened in her life, but You are still God and You have a plan for her life.
Aww I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope that you gain peace that surpasses all understanding as time goes on. Bless you❤
I lost my husband 2 months ago. Been with him for 40 years and it hurts like hell. Cleaning, cooking, and shopping is not fun anymore.
So sorry for your loss.
You are too cute!.. I love your content!.. love your space/home decor, your routine/ cooking and how you're taking care of yourself. It didn't seem like you shared what type of grief you are dealing with, or maybe I missed it. For me, I have been dealing with grief and loss mostly for the past 3 years starting with losing my dad at the beginning of 2021, and it all seems to have gone downhill from there... We were very close and I still miss him a lot.
A few months after he passed, I suffered a huge financial loss that I'm still recovering from, I'm also now 2 months post-breakup one of the most painful, if not the most painful romantic love connection I have ever experienced in my life, which lasted about a year long on and off. Grief is not a popular topic nowadays, especially on social media so thank you for touching on that, and making it look cool to talk about. Vulnerability inspires.. While we can totally heal alone, on our own, I truly believe there is strength in numbers and that our stories can encourage and uplift one another even if it's to show that we are not alone in this, and there is light at the end of the tunnel. For me, as a Christian, and a believer in Jesus-Christ, my faith and spirituality is what I have been resting upon, and what has carried me through my darkest days. Ultimately, life is what you make of it & I love how you cope with yours. I'm still in search of a healing community myself if anyone knows of one. Any suggestions would be much appreciated.
I’m on my journey of Contentment after my Loss that caused me Grief. 2024 it’s my time
i am so sorry for your loss, but huge congratulations on your new beginning ❤❤❤❤❤🎉
Thanks for your sentiments
That Kennedy Ryan book before I let go is so good it needs to be a movie. Just like I wish coldest winter ever had became a movie.
i’m still early on in the book and i am HOOKED! idkkkkk sometimes the movies be leaving stuff out and be underwhelming 😅 lol but we’ll see bc i think it did get picked up for television, so we’ll see!!
I heard Before I Let Go was supposedly going to be a TV show 🤞🏾🤞🏾
@@wakeupwithryn wow really? That’s going to be great!
@@wakeupwithryn wow really? That’s going to be great!
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What are they about?
Been loving these introspective voice overs lately and we see you, cinematography, different angles, B-roll!!! As always, your videos are always a treat to watch.
5:20 yes, surround yourself with the people who bring you joy & happiness.
I don’t know how old you are but I’m 29 and I agree with every you said. I find myself wanting to go back and do things in my life over again
I'm 35 but me too
@@etherealessence159 20 21 I should have chosen a different career path
Hi fellow age mate! And yes, I'm going through the same things now may God make things easier ❤
Don’t beat yourself up too much about consistency and discipline life get in the way sometimes and that’s OK
I’m learning not to do this to myself, it’s hard because I’ve been on my own for so long.
I love your space! Home is everything! 💐
And so clean...love it!!
Grief comes in all shapes and sizes and for some it is harder than others but that's just it it's hard no matter what and takes work to get thru :)
Girl! Your body is already goals for so many of us, but I totally understand about discipline and wanting to reach specific goals. Also, your comments on grief are SO real. That quote "Grief is love with nowhere to go..." applies as much to loss as much to the absence of love we don't have or haven't found yet. *Hugs*
Don’t know why this appeared on my feed, but I watched because the number of views is my birthdate. I enjoyed your video and kudos to you for finding the sweet spots that life has to offer, in-spite of our challenges.
This is just the kind of video/channel I needed. I don't believe I ever took the time to grieve the past person I used to be. I've always just pushed forward in life without a second thought. Why? Grief can be scary. Especially when you have to sort through all the memories of the past. I need to do better for myself. Thank you for reminding me of that! :)
happy to see a fellow my hero academia fan!🤗
Came across your channel. I lost my only son a year ago and the grief is still so painful. I know it will always be there. He was my whole world. Living life is the hardest now. I am grateful for the family and friends I have. Grief is something we have to deal alone only we know how we feel. I am taking it day by day the best I can. You just made my son favorite kind of drink too. He loves matcha. Also yellow has been in my radar more after his passing. It represents a lot of him to me. The sun, he liked pineapple everything and had a yellow car. I think he wanted to see this message.
I’m so sorry sending love and answered prayers
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I resonate with this so much. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. It helps me feel not so alone. I recently lost my Mum and life is so different without her. It truly is challenging. But we keep pushing through and finding the beauty in everyday life.
Another banger on a Sunday yay yay🎉thanks Amani
ahhh! happy sunday! we liiiveee babes!!! 💗
SUCH a TALENTED creator love your vlogs boo! so QUALITY! and the grief theme 10/10 such an important topic!
Finally a channel with content I didn’t know I needed ❤ about to binge watch all your videos girly
I’m loving the voiceovers, matcha breaks, gym - consistency and discipline we in the same boat! Side bar: I had my green snake plant from EasyPlant since February and two leaves broke off. I was sad and I gotta do better as a new plant mom
Your editing is so good!!
Thank you so much!! 💖💖💖
I do not like living alone anymore, I've reached an expiration date. I've been a loner pretty much all of life and have exhausted time by myself. Grief is complex in so many ways because there are so many forms of it. I'm glad that this video was posted. Thank you❤
First time watching, cute home!
Wow grief is so heavy thank you for making this video
you're such a beautiful person. i love your smile
awww thank you so so much ❤
Great Rising, Great Vlog, whatever life experiences bring. May it propel you to be even better to yourself. So proud of the woman you are becoming. Your dreams and goals are coming into reality. How it will get done is not your business. It's God's business ❤
awww, thank you so much!! 💗
@AmaniRakeia You are so welcome. I am 60 years young from Cali. You are like my virtual daughter, lol. I often frequent the places you visited in your older Vlogs. Keep up the great work.
Thank you first of all for this lovely soothing vlog and another thank you for that big slap in the face that I absolutely needed at this exact moment. Currently I’m dealing with just that…grief. Grief of that happy girl I once knew who’s so far gone idk how to get back! But like you say, “regardless ima be Ight” I love you girl!! Forever a supportive subscriber!
Jesus saves all who ask. He actually died on a cross so that you will be saved, ask him to save you from any hurt & pain you suffered from grief. It’s been 15 years my sibling was murdered I suffered from depression and anxiety,ptsd & anger because what did I do to deserve this? Nothing. But only Jesus could give me back my joy after all those years I’m just now feeling like i have be given back my life of joy & actual freedom of grief and anger. You’ll be saved one day as well & your doing the work good job 🙏🏾💜💪🏽
Beautiful content- literally the *aestheticsssss* but also the wisdom and the good music! Thanks for a lovely and thought provoking vid!
Your video editing is so perfect!!! The quality and everything! 😍
I never share my feelings and that’s such a bad thing I’m unlearning. But I’m amazed at how many of us ladies are in such similar spaces and healing ❤️ just sending everyone some love and positive support in our journeys ❤️ thank you for this Amani ❤️❤️
The way this vlog fed my soul! GIRL! 🥲Amani, I know you're a GRWM, but when I say, the level of maturity you display at your tender age, is so FN admirable and inspiring.🤌🏽Your mere existence gives me so much hope for the future of humanity. Never stop, baby girl! You're definitely in the right place and on the right path.😘💕
Sis...I truly enjoy all of your content and how you share your life experience to empower women. You are amazing and have great qualities in everything you do. Keep being you. Much love and countless blessings ❤
I have to thank you because I really needed this today. I've been going through some intense things lately and you really just spoke to my soul.
I lost my mom 30 years ago as a teen… and I choose myself everyday… its hard when you have to live on your own and raise yourself but God has kept me. 🙏🏽😊
I freaking love you! Go girl! What an inspiration!
Hey Amani gurrl thank you so much for touching on grief 😢just lost my bf last month and I feel so empty inside bt definitely have to be strong and move on bt ain't easy.❤from SA
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I really enjoyed this! Being that I feel stuck in life this definitely has blessed me so glad I randomly found this video❤
I’m so thankful I came across your channel❤
Stay blessed sis
❤ New subscriber ❤
I went through a long process of healing. It’s been a long journey but I’m single, whole, in peace and blessed! I’m so grateful for the learning experiences, strength and growth ❤
You are honestly such an inspiration to me. Thank you.
Love the vlog. Your style is unique and I’m here for it
thank u for giving me hope in this dark time
Thank you Amani. Simply, thank you for what has helped me so much.
This video is so relaxing and luxurious. I’m inspired for sure 🙌🏽
Happy Sunday Amani! I love watching these Sunday videos while eating my breakfast/brunch. Love the aesthetic and intention.
hi my love!! awww, this makes me so so happy to hear!! i truly hope you enjoy and have an amazing day today 🥹💗
Thank you so much for your words on grief!!! I definitely needed to hear them today🥰
i am so so happy to hear this! you're so welcome! ❤
thank you girl.....thank you for letting me know that it's ok
New subscriber❤. It’s important that we learn self care and to be alone. Love yr kitchen and entire apt. Classy video. Go girl
New subbie. Love everything about this!
I love it that you are a rose and lavender tea girl too! And you are so spot on about grief .
I can’t wait to live alone! My husband left me for a younger woman after twenty years of marriage and my youngest daughter is now a senior in HS. We will live together until she gets through her school year. Roommates for now. Thanks for the inspiration ❤
A little bit of living alone is wonderful, therapeutic even ,a lot of it is can be scarily lonely,then if you can push through it becomes normal and company becomes both a dream and a pain but not a reality.I was always scared to reach that last stage where I can stand nothing but my own company and lose all patience for people.Effectively becoming a hermit because I came close but things outside my circumstances pulled me out.
absolutely loved this vlog. felt like poetry❤️
i DEFINTELY participated in the happy dance! Love the yellow two piece and the Teairra Mari throwback ;-)
The voice over, over the black and white footage of you dancing and laughing made me tear up🥹 your gift is amazing,thank you for sharing it💕
I needed this been grieving my brothers loss and it hits me every now and then very hard 💔😔
oh my, i am so so sorry for your lost. i pray that each day you feel fully covered and loved by him, especially when those feelings of grief hit hard ❤
@@AmaniRakeiathank you kindly for your response your words and prayers are very impactful to me during this time ❤
U uploaded at the right time !!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ i needed something i love to watch !!!
awww, this makes me so so happy!! i hope you enjoy and have an amazing sunday!! 💗
chileeee I literally been in a similar space and recorded something about it the other day. Actually accepting we are always evolving and not really starting over but starting new and adding to who we are. Those versions may not be who we are but doesn't mean we aren't who we are. You hit it on the nose that the only things we can actually care about is what we do NOW
Thank you, I didn’t know there were channels like this. ❤
you are truly so skilled at vlogging like the first volg I HAVe EVER watched that I didn't have to stop myself from clicking away. So engaging and artistic !! KEEEP IT UPPP
This was such a beautiful vlog to watch. Appreciate the time you take to put together these gorgeous visuals for us 💕
New sub here love the living alone content. My grief is kinda different but it kinda feels like loneliness so to speak. I relocated solo from my hometown and almost no family comes to visit. I don’t go back that often because I feel no one reaches out to me so I’m trying to enjoy my life. Just hit 50, stress and debt free it feels amazing but still think about things I can’t control… Keep up the great vlogs and shining because you are an inspiration to others 💪🏽!!!
Greetings my lovely from London give yourself time to heal.. must say new to your channel but love the aesthetics of your beautiful home and your interesting content.. sending love and light your way ♥️♥️
Time and giving ourselves grace.
exactly!! 💗
You are so right... no one is coming to save you. ....😊
The pandemic definitely took the last 3 years of my 40s away from me. The last years of enjoying being able to say I’m in my 40s living my best life before turning 50 and yeah….I’m STILL pissed abt that. 👿. Im thankful to be in good shape and black don’t crack. But damn.. I miss my 40s.
You are too cute, and this was so comforting 🩷
YOU SEEM WELL AND CLEAN..THATS WHY I HAD TO CATCH MY BREATH
Nice video, amazing editing. Way to share the story.
Your content style is phenomenal. I’m inspired
aww, thank you so so much!! i really appreciate that 🥹💗
I absolutely love love love this channel . ❤❤❤❤❤
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