living alone diaries: the root of it all is your childhood trauma
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- Опубликовано: 7 июл 2024
- at twenty-seven years old, a light bulb finally went off and I realized that the root of a lot of my current feelings of sadness, stagnation and even sometimes uncertainty in the choices I make for myself all trace back to my childhood.
i'm totally ready to free seven year old me from carrying the weight of the world and my emotions on her shoulders. so, here's to the journey of doing the work and healing my relationships with my mom, stepmom and dad. i deserve a life where I can fully breathe easy. here is where it begins.
anyways, i hope your week is going amazing! take care all ways, always. enjoy! xo ❣️
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vlog camera: Sony A7C
editing software: Final Cut Pro X
music selections: Soundcloud & Epidemic Sounds
#motivation #livingalone #healing 
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come on black family ❤ thank you so much for including us on your trip. it brought me so much joy to see you have those moments, and i wish you all the healing love!
Yea Baltimore music 🔥
I have realized that my family has made me so anxious when being around them. Growing up I was teased and bullied, so as I got older I have set boundaries with them and realized I carried that resentment as an adult.
I find this to be true for some part of my family 😮💨🥴 I gotta work thru it
You have highlighted a piece of childhood for so many with this. People really underestimate the teasing/bullying by family members and how it impacts relationships going into adulthood- You simply do not desire to be around or limit your exposure to them.
Love love this video. I 💯 agree. Thank you for sharing stay blessed
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@@Shay4Short94very true
At 42, I am very impressed at how introspective you are at 27. If only I could have been that in tuned with my emotions and how people/situations impacted my life at your age. But as the saying goes... "You live and you learn". So, at this big age of mine (lol), I am learning to do the work and allow myself some grace. Thanks for the invite into your family weekend 😍
Happy Birthday to your grandma. She looks so freaking good. 70 WHERE??? 💐🌹🙏🏽💎
This video was great. I totally understand the Mother Wound. My daughter and I have a total disconnect. I pray that God heals that wound because it’s so painful. I pray that you have a wonderful and amazing Sunday. 🙏🔐
Same. Will be praying for yall. It's so rough. 😢
@@theedeevaplus praying for you as well!! Thanks so much!🙏
You introducing/making matcha for your family was so special. I love the opportunities we get to share pieces of our evolved selves with our family, especially those we rarely get to see. Something as simple as them watching you prepare your morning matcha made me a little teary eyed 🥺
Cheers to healing our inner children 🥂
As a matcha lover, it’s such a vibe to share your personal practice or help someone find there’s. I do mine totally different than hers, but i love sharing with others.❤😊
I have an anxious attachment style as well. I struggle with codependency in relationships. I have been seen by a psychologist. I can see my improvement. Your vlogs are realistic and real. Love your channel
If you don’t mind sharing, what tips have you found to be helpful?
@@jae-annedanae4512 the most major tip was setting self-emotional boundaries for myself and fighting those needy urges. I had started creating some values and morals for myself and sticking to them which I had never done before. I can go on and on ☺️. I love talking about this lol
Wow ! It’s so beautiful to see your parents together and you so happy with your family ! Your family is so beautiful ❤. Yo parent look young ok ! Cmon black don’t crack. This was beautiful…. I wish i could have this with my family. God bless you guys
Your blog is one of the highs of my day
awww, this makes me so so happy!!! 🥹💗
Sending you NOTHING BUT POWERFUL POSITIVE VIBES... You're all I wanted to be in my 20's... Such an inspiration... PRAYING for you always...💚🙏🏾💛🫶🏾🙌🏾💪🏾🩷
Your grandmother is so precious.
I literally get so excited when you post😭🤎 you’re so inspiring have a great Sunday beautiful!🫶🏾💌
hey boookieeee!! thank you so much! i hope you enjoy!! 🥹💗
Guuuuurrrlll you and your Dad are twins! lol
Happy Bday to your GMA 🥳🥳🥳. What a blessing to celebrate all together 🫶🏼💖
You look like both of your parents- you have your dads smile. What a blessing to turn 70🎉 she’s grateful I can tell. You are so blessed. Seems as if you brought the matcha to those who weren’t familiar with matcha🎉- your vlogs never fail❤🎉
I'm like seriously fan girling everytime you post😂 you're such an inspiration to us all Amani. Thank you for showing up❤
Isn’t she so unique and REAL! I heal a little every time she posts.
That was a very nice father's day weekend. You look so much like your mom. You have your dad's smile.
Thanks for taking us with you to visit and celebrate with family. The yacht day was so nice and relaxing. Glad you made it back home safe. My mom loves her some Aretha Franklin. She's her favorite singer. See you next Sunday. Take care.
Thank you for bringing us along. You are the perfect combination of Dad and Mom. I chuckled when I saw how you and the handsome tall gentleman had matching Boy Braids. Glad to know you will bring back the roller set because it’s GORGEOUS on you!! Sending you good energy that you soon will heal and no longer need to revisit the past traumas. Peace, Prosperity, and Solace are yours❤
These vlogs have been giving PRODUCTION. Your hard-work doesn't go unnoticed Amani, keep it up, I'm loving it!
I’m so glad I found you
your family's vibe is just 10/10!!! Thanks for bringing us with you
I love to witness your growth 💚
now I can meal prep and watch my girlllll 💕
oh my girrrrlll! yes!! i'm looking forward to meal prepping this week too!! go us!! 💗
I needed this today!! Thank you😘😘😘😘
Have belated birthday to your grandmother 🥳🫶🏾🙏🏾🎂and happy belated Father’s Day to your dad🎉🎊. I love you seeing you and your family ❤😊. Yes I agree with you with the insight shared.💚
I love your videos! I'm a mom and wife but in another lifetime if I lived alone this is what I would imagine it to be!
Thank you for sharing your family. ❤
Beautiful FAMILY it was nice to see you enjoying your bloodline and them you.🙏
Thnx 4 sharing another piece of you.
Blessings on your journey.🙏
Such a beautiful video! So in love with your authenticity ❤
Thank you for taking us along for the ride. I really love your vlogs!
Love the video so happy you had a great time 🙏🏼❤
I felt this on a soul level😢❤
Thank you for sharing family time!!
This brought tears to my eyes, I relate to the disconnect all too well !
Such a good vlog! Thank you for sharing your beautiful family with us. ❤❤
Happy Sunday pray this week is better than last week for you can’t wait to watch this
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hi love!! thank you so so much!! i hope you enjoy ❤
details on how you manage it alll ❤
Beautiful vlog. Thank you for sharing with us. ❤you’re so inspiring! I am going through it right now, and I saw you posted and I was so happy. Take care!❤❤❤
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I loved this blog! I loved all the drinks. They looked so good and we see your arms girlll💪🏾
Loved this!
One of thee best vlogs to date! I loved the family time segment the most! Keep going 🫶🏾
Hiii Amani
Happy Sunday
How was your week?
Yippee for today's vlog 😊👏🏾
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hi my love!! my week was pretty good!! getting back into the flow now that i'm back from hanging with the family
Wow, your granny looks amazing ! Her energy is everything!
Love your content!
Your blogs are always warming to my heart, btw love the idea of mirror next to your bed & the type of mirror you chose🫶🏾
As a supporter from Baltimore that’s been with you for a while, the Teck part WARMED MY HEART ALOT!🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😂😂😂😂😂
Love your edits so engaging and fun 👍🏽fab job 🫶
Thank you, Amani. This was beautiful❤. As you work on your healing, you are helping some of us to heal as well.
💜💜💜💜💜💜💜, Sending love, prayers for you, and your family. Loved the trip. And I feel ya with the braids, our hair needs a break every now, and then.
Such a beautiful family ❤
Hi Amani, hope you are well! Looking forward to today’s vlog! 😊
hi my love!! all is very well :) i hope you are doing amazing ❤
You have a beautiful family! I have a similar situation but with me it was a disconnect with my dad. Sending hugs, Beautiful!
Your videos are SUCH a breath of fresh air! Keep pushing girl! The only life that’s short is the one that causes us heartache. We have a wonderful future set out for us that involves none of the trauma and painful conditions we face today! Revelation 21:4 says it best! Keep pushing! 🤗
as always, this was SUCH an enjoyable watch. your last bit the mother/ daughter relationship is relatable, but remember that love exists because you exist❤️
Happy bearthday to ur grandma 🧡
Wow, Amani. This video was everything, the quality 10/10. Thank you for sharing your family's joy with us. Loved every it of it. Happy birthday to your Grandmother .
I just found and i am so happy sis. Thank you for the wholesome and healing content😘
Your mom and pops >>>
I love and appreciate your channel.
I can relate to you so much! With love from Cape Town South Africa
I enjoyed this vlog! Good one. ❤❤❤
We missed you girl 😊
I am being a pillow princess enjoying the vlog. May peace be with you.
lovedddd the vlog it was short yet so wholesome that you were with your family thx beautiful babe love from south africa! 💖💖💗💗💞💞
thank you so much my love!! i wish i could give y’all longer vlogs, but i need to find a video editor to help with that 😅❤❤ so happy you enjoyed!
Hey Amani girllll 👋🏾 It’s so good to see you vlog sis 💕 I really enjoy your content and I just love your personality. You always keep it real 💯 and it’s always so refreshing to see you as a smart, beautiful inside and out 😍 independent Black woman in her 20’s living your best life, balancing work, hobbies and your family and friends and always making time for the things that matter to you.
Healing your inner child can be hard sometimes but best believe you’re doing great and the outcome is going to be worth it. From one Scorpio sister to another 🥰♏️❤️ Your support is right here 🫶🏾 Love you ♥️
Love the pre-wash hair. It's giving Donna Summer. 😍
girl the music in your vlogs is always giving but I'm already 3 minutes into this one and it's BUMPIN!
lol I loveddddd this. When the kids like it, it’s a winner! They don’t be playing
Thank you for sharing.
Seeing all those phones during the concert is wild. I hope you had a great time!
Happy beautiful Sunday!! Love your videos and the brand Fre is so good. I love wine however I try not to drink Sunday thru Thursday so when I saw your videos a few months back and started to follow you, I wanted to see about noon alcoholic wine and you are on to something. Thank you! ❤
Great commentary, beautiful family and I gotta have the green glasses!!!
Hellooo.. I am a new subscriber and this is the third video I watched from your channel today. I was like I feel connected to this sista and couldn't pinpoint the connection.... Untilll I saw this episode. I too am from Miami and live in Atlanta alone learning about myself. My daughter left home to go to college, I lost both of my parents recently, and had a bad break up. Through counseling I am learning that the grief/mourning is important to feel on your healing journey, and these things must be unpacked and explored. I say all of this to say Thank you for sharing your story. I look forward to watching more.💜💜 #MuchNeeded
I hope y’all had a wonderful time. Cheers to your grandmother!!! Your parents are too cute, and the family.
I had to check the deets for your luggage. I’ll be checking the Away website. 🙏🏾😍❤️🩹
Amani I loved this vlog it definitely had a different feel from your others I loved that you touched on the subject of the mother wound I look forward to hearing more about your healing journey and how it shapes you today ❤thank you for sharing
❤Love the vibes 🎉Happy Birthday to grandma 👑…
The way I screamed like I was at the concert 😭🩷🎉
I enjoyed the full video.😁
Girl, can I just say: your ARMS THOUGH 😱💪🏼🤎 *edit: also loved seeing the family vibes, loved the video 🙇🏽♀
Loved this video! I am so inspired by your editing style! How did you learn to edit so well?
OMG Beautiful family 😍
Just found you on TikTok and had to subscribe immediately, ❤ love your vlogs currently binging ! Also what font do you use for your main text ?
hey my girrrrlllll!!! thank you so much for being here!! i use 'perfectly nineties' from Jen Wagner!
I’m late to the party but HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GRANDMA & MANY MOOORE!!! 🎂 ☺️💕
I enjoyed this vlog so much. Your family is LIT. Even your grandmother. ❤ Girl, your parents are so cute. I thought they were your cousins or something 😅 They must have had you when they were in middle school 😂❤
😂Matcha Mamiiiii puttin everybody on! Your parents are fineeeeee girl!
Thanks for sharing your family time with us. Y'all look like y'all had a blast. My client used to play miss Aretha all the time. Now I about to order some damn Matcha. 🤣
I love this ❤️❤️❤️🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾Happy Birthday Gma!
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I love the hair! I wanted to ask last week, how do you tie it up at night to make it last?!
You and the fam were so cute
I saw someone post something like “bryson tiller is my favorite artist, i been to four Bryson tiller concerts and i still can’t tell what he look like.”
I see how that happens now. Haha.
Girl that Don toliver Kaytranada track off the new album FIRE
What was the song for the boat trip on the “ happy fathers day”part…
Yayy❤
Hey honey bunches hi 👋🏽 one to think about pushing forward to and today and see what’s happening tomorrow critical thinking, but pushing for positive results. Another amazing video Linda 💙🏡👍🏾😍👩🏽💕😊
Please link the orange purse /bag in the beginning of the vlog, thank you ❤
Sis what’s the name of edge control you use, I tried to look so bad for name or anybody that knows it please help thanks
it's the pattern beauty edge control! i am currently looking into finding a new one bc i feel this one is starting to break me out around my forehead!
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I love your content , what lenses do you shoot in ?
Me too! Obsessed ❤
what song was that in the beginning?
What is the name of the camera that you use please?